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This- this might be the wildest take I've ever had, bur bear with me.
I'm thinking about how Narcissus wasn't really a bad person. (This post was absolutely not triggered by my sudden UDAD thoughts, of course not/s).
(In depth explanation under the cut, this got kind of long)
Like... in the original version of the myth, Echo falls in love with him after 1 meeting, and he rejects her. Which?? Seems fair enough??? Echo, girl, he didn't owe you reciprocated feelings.
And then supposedly, Echo prays to Nemesis, to curse him to feel a love that was equally unrequited as hers had been. So he falls in love with himself.
Even if you take away the part about it being a curse, is vanity really such a horrific crime? Some people just love themselves more than they love others, and that isn't bad, unless they're actively hurting people- which Narcissus seemingly wasn't. Maybe his rejection of Echo was harsh, but it's not like he was cruel, or violent.
And then, even in the modern day, his name is demonised. "Narcissist" is used as an insult, there's the myth of "narcissistic abuse", and people with NPD are deemed "dangerous" and "scary". Obviously those examples are an issue that deserve their own post, because the ableism towards anyone with a mental health problem- even "accepted" ones like depression- is horrific. But just think about it for a moment... you didn't feel romantic feelings for someone, and now, centuries later, everyone thinks you were evil.
In fact, there's almost connections to be made with the modern aromantic experience. I've seen people say that being aro means you're "self-obsessed" and "incapable of feelings".
I.. I don't really know where this post was going, but I think Narcissus deserves better. Also, people with NPD, you are cool and awesome, and I wish I could do more to help with the shit you face daily.
#my random stuff#mythology#narcissus#shout out to angel- my beloved npd mutu who has really helped change my perspective on npd#although i don't want to tag this as npd because i don't have npd#greek mythology#echo and narcissus#i think... this post goes hand in hand with my Edward Hyde post. something about sympathising with the character society deemed a villain#before they even had a chance
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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them
People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human
“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”
“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”
“Yeah!!”
“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”
“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“
“How illogical”
“That’s what I’m saying!!!”
#star trek#Vulcans#Humans#not based on a specific thing#but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’#who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field?#like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq#and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first#would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate#and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for#and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance#the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times#they were just dicks#and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it.#it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible#you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier#but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks.#that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on#and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post#but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks#and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be#replaced#hated that couple#if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us#(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀)#liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people#that no one else wanted to be friends with#I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone#this got long sorry 😭
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when obi-wan said 'I won't kill anakin' and then spent the entire rest of his life following through on that. fuck everyone else obi-wan I respect you yoda should've taken you at your fucking word
'boohoo why did he walk away and not kill anakin this time either even with all the suffering he'll go on to cause if he lets him go' he's told you why very clearly you just didn't believe him I guess!! desperately not killing anakin is obi-wan's main export. it's his universal constant, his life's work, his magnum opus. he gets creative about not killing that guy. he tries to send anakin's teenage twink son to do the job for him because he simply can't. he fucking... peaces out and dies to avoid killing anakin. that's like his whole deal. whether he's right to be like this is another entirely separate conversation but it is what he is
#also it's a prequel and I think we would have noticed if obi-wan killed vader before luke even met him lol#star wars#obi wan kenobi#if anything it's a thrill to me that he had the chance again and. didn't do it. like I said universal constant#'What if I simply. didn't'. and then he didn't. and was sad about it forever. it's the good stuff#this is entirely performative indignation btw I am not vagueblogging at anyone I'm just waxing histrionic for fun lol
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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.
#and that goes for every type of growth#backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident#it was easier making friends and walking up to people#i took more chances#and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed#this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well#but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again#there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say#if i should even say anything#we were all sitting at the same table#not one person even glanced my way#it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before#was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people#especially in my first week!#but you know what#i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch#and bikes i knew nothing about#as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually#and even so#people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either#my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet#it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones#it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built#you’re doing fine#after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief#growth in the self#self love#positivity
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anidala as…
Homecoming by Hans Adolf Bühler, 1939
(disclaimer: not meant to reference or support original artist’s views or intent)
“‘No.’ He laid a gentle finger on her lips, smiling down at her. ‘No buts. No worries. You worry too much as is.’
‘I have to,’ she said, smiling through the tears in her eyes. ‘Because you never worry at all.’”
— Matthew Stover, Revenge of the Sith Novelization
[ original + rambles under the cut ]

sometimes i think about the realness of anidala’s stories. boys much too young sent off to war; their lovers taking on the emotional burden of being their relief. i think about how padmé, as a senator, would have her own struggles and worries to face alongside stressing that her teenage husband wasn’t going to return from the frontlines. i wonder if she was able to talk about it when they met up, the same way we see her constantly listening to his ongoing turmoil— especially during the latter half of the war. or, maybe, they just sat together. two people charging head-first into different types of battles because they felt they had no other options. i have to do this.
#weirdly my second ‘anakin on his knees seeking emotional comfort’#but he is in a lot of ways mentally stuck as a child and this is the best way i can visualize it#anyway ignore the background this is just a brainworm i’ve had for a while and i struggled to really put more effort into it#my life is kinda falling apart but all i can think about are these two star-crossed lovers that were doomed before they were even born#the script emphasizes love was what destroyed them both but man. they never had a chance. neither of them#pluviart#digital art#art#digital painting#star wars#sw#star wars attack of the clones#star wars revenge of the sith#star wars clone wars#sw clone wars#star wars rots#sw aotc#sw cw#sw anakin#sw padme#sw prequels#anakin skywalker#padme amidala#anakin and padme#anidala
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💔 cities divided 💔 @jayvik-week - day 5
i really adore the - very similar but very significant - art deco VS art nouveau, aesthetic differences between topside and the undercity so i wanted to explore it a little bit with this days theme. continued from - day 1 - day 2 - day3 - day 4 - day 6 - day 7 (day 7 tw: blood)
#arcane#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayvik#jayvik week#if i'd had more time before i had to get on to the next days piece i'd have gone even harder on this#in fact - there's a non-zero chance that i might revisit this one again#i really like the core concept#it just needs to go HARDER#hope everyone still enjoys it as is though! :3#pidgy drew#digital art#artists on tumblr
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A little 15 min doodle but first post of the year has to be Bingqiu!
#hoot art#ok its time to get mushy in the tags because I doubt anyone would read them too closely#I’ve had severe art block for YEARS before I got into danmei in 2024#and it wasn’t that my skill was gone it’s just that I thought nothing I did was good enough#I started reading danmei around the summer of last year and I got SO INSPIRED#I dived into the fandom side of things (I haven’t been in a live fandom in years) and was so excited about all the art people were making#and writing! and music! and animatics!#everything was so bright and colorful and beautiful#and everyone had such cool designs for these book characters that I’d grown to love#so I took a chance and doodled a little Luo Binghe and posted him on here#and I was so taken aback by how welcoming and sweet the fandom was#it made me wanna keep taking chances and posting my art— because I think that’s one of the hardest things I’ve come to accept#that even if it’s not good enough for me#someone else may enjoy it#and ain’t it crazy that ive come to enjoy drawing again too#sure the interaction has been fun but it’s been even more fun experimenting with my style and experimenting with colors and rendering#and grayscale and angles#and composition and expressions#ahh!! art is so fun!! I forgot how fun it was!!#I had forgotten how much I loved to draw!!#and the fandom— so many ideas are exchanged and I’ve met some of the loveliest people thru the sv fandom!#tgcf too but they’re a little less chill lmao#anyways#I’ve set up a little spot in the fandom and I plan to keep at it here it’s very nice and cozy and funny and warm#huge thanks to everyone for being so kind and welcoming#and an even bigger thanks to anyone who’s interacted with my art#I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that someone took the time out of their day to like/repost these silly little doodles I post#incredible. ok bye for now :)#svsss#bingqiu
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I feel like it's not addressed enough that Obi-Wan was so not ready for Anakin at the end of TPM. He wasn't quite ready to be a Knight, let alone take a Padawan, let alone Anakin.
Like, imagine you're 25 years old, already dealing with plenty of issues from your shitshow of a teen-to-young-adult experience when your Master - your father, your friend, your teacher, your guardian of 12 years, who you didn't always have the best relationship with but goddamn it you tried so hard and overcame so much to get to where you are - is literally murdered in front of you by a fucking demon, the ancient bogeymen of all your childhood stories who are suddenly very real and killing the people you love. Everyone looks at you now with so much awe and fear because, in a haze of grief and panic, you managed to become the first to kill a demon in a millennium - which is somehow that's enough of a qualification to immediately graduate your apprenticeship with full honours even though you never actually got the chance to finish it. Five minutes of pure terror turned your life upside down, and now you have to shoulder the burdens of a knighthood that you know you're not ready for, and find some way to live with the crushing expectations that come with your newfound, accidental and very unwanted semi-legendary status. And, if that wasn't enough already, within 24 hours of all this going down, you're also legally responsibly for raising a hyperactive 9 year old ex-slave Child of Prophesy with crippling CPTSD and more power than god. You somehow, somehow have to raise this boy to be both a good Knight - which you haven't had a chance to figure out how to be yourself yet - and a functional person - which was never and easy thing for you to be but is getting harder by the day. You desperately want to do right by your new Padawan and honour your Master's dying wish but you're not ready for any of this, you didn't ask for it, and you're trying so hard to not repeat Qui-Gon's mistakes whilst also being painfully aware that you can never live up to what he could have been. Then there's homework and missions and nightmares and you worry that Anakin isn't making friends and you haven't slept more than 3 hours a night in weeks and the President of the Galaxy is pressuring you for some Private Alone Time with your child -
How the fuck is anyone supposed to handle that?
#I'm looking for fic recs of this concept if anyone has any#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#sw prequels#I feel like this is the source of a lot of their issues#obiwan couldn't be what anakin needed but he tried so hard#and in trying so hard for ANAKIN he never got the chance to become what HE needed himself to be#so Anakin thinks of Obi-Wan as his father#because he was 9 and traumatised and he needed a parent who he could depend on#and Obi-Wan thinks of Anakin as his brother#because he was 25 and grieving and already overburdened even before someone gave him a child dependent on him#someone help these men i never thought id say this but. i dont think even gay sex can fix this one#people get caught up in the snark the shenanigans and the ObiKin and kinda gloss over how extremely unhealthy this is#even BEFORE the murder and the sith and the genocide. which is kinda impressive ngl.#bc anakin has always depended on obiwan to an unhealthy degree bc trauma and abandonment issues and isolation#and obiwan never had the chance to figure out who he could be without anakin depending on him.#jesus christ these two need ten years of therapy and most importantly they need SPACE FROM EACHOTHER
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Another thing about the Outer Wilds protagonist that I can't get out of my head: We never get to find out what our instrument was. All Travelers leave with one, so they can signal home, but we never see our own because we never find a place to make camp, or have enough time to sit down and let everyone know that we made it. It breaks my heart.
#outer wilds#outer wilds hatchling#original posts#sometimes i like to imagine where the hatchling would've ended up camped#given the focus on language they'd probably stay on Brittle Hollow for a while#but in my playthrough I remember my first thought when I got on the quantum moon being#''this is where I would've put my camp if I'd had the chance''#before finding solanum#and even more after#it's the one habitable celestial body that doesn't have anyone from Timber Hearth on it yet#I think my character would've liked how it changed sometimes to remind them of home#and of where each of their friends are#it wouldn't make a ton of sense given the directive to study language but#maybe they'd just go all over and gather scrolls and bring them to the moon to study#but. man.#we don't even know what our instrument was meant to be......#we never got to find our own voice :(
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become so unhinged even the demon in your head says you need to reign it in a bit.
#malevolent#arthur lester#john doe#malevolent fanart#malevolent pod#someone tagged my previous art as arthur#in his 'whimper phase'#and I didn't even have a chance to question it before i arrived at his 'unhinged phase'#ie: post dreamlands#he's allowed to be a little unhinged#after what he's seen#and experienced#had to give in to the moustache#i held out but then they made it canon#clark gable is a good look tho
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Anora and Conclave going into the Oscars:
#just you and me!#anora#conclave#conclave 2024#emilia perez#the brutalist#a complete unknown#wicked#wicked part 1#the substance#nickel boys#dune part 2#i'm still here#oscars#oscars 2025#academy awards#academy awards 2025#never did i imagine that the bp frontrunners would be anora and conclave but i'm here for it#i do feel like ep being number 3 isn't particularly accurate though#bc this takes into account the award shows they won before the whole karla tweets thing happened#i don't think they have much of a chance at bp anymore after that if they even had a chance to begin with#esp since they didn't do too well at any of the guild awards in that aspect
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In the middle of all this 457 chaos there's me that lowkey ships junho and the salesman/ the recruiter/ddakji guy or whatever you're calling him
I mean have you look at them, imagine the banter we could've got
Like there's junho, a detective who's been trying to find his brother only to be led up to a brutal kids game competition in some sketchy island and also finds out the person who controls the said game is his very own brother that he's been searching for a long time that is also a previous winner in the game
And then there's the salesman (some people call him ddakji or dak ho) who's been trained to kill, to see people that played the games is lower than him like a trash since he was a teenager probably, who doesn't even know the purpose of life anymore, a literal mess, a maniac. That's also probably the one that recruit junho's brother into playing the games(a theory not sure if that would makes sense)


Just imagine that, I could write a few headcanons if anyone interested
And yes yes I know they didn't even interacted once for SHIT(and the only time they ever see one another was when one of them already died and the one died never also see him or does he?)
#rarepair so rare i hold on to the 17 fic in ao3 where they're the main pair like a fucking lifeline#ships that already sinks before its even had a chance to be an actual ship#i even imagine fake scenarios about them#i didn't imagine as a toxic yaoi like 457 i imagine they would be either the most tooth roting fluff ever or gut wrenching heavy angst#some people actually ships them in 2021#by “some” i mean like less than 10 probably#they called them#ddakho#so thats what im gonna call them#to keep the legacy going yk#hwang jun ho#the salesman#or#dak ho#as some people call him#and im gonna call him that too in the future probably#call me sick in the head im actually sick#like literally i randomly thinks about this while im laying in bed sick#and it hasn't leave my head since#so i had to write this#tell me if you're interested to hear more about what i think about them#bc now its my daily thoughts#squid game#squid game 2#457#gihun x inho#hwang in ho#this is the longest post ive ever written like literally not in any of the fandom I've ever been#junho x salesman
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The girls are plottinggggg
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen chao#wang lingjiao#Realizing she was supposed to have an upper lip mole was a cold slap in the face. So sorry ma'am. I won't forget again.#They are evil dumbass 4 evil dumbass and I think we are all missing out on the sheer potential of the comedy between these two.#They have way too much power and are using it for the wrong reasons - which makes them truly great villains.#And when things don't go their way they become piles of whining sludge.#Wang Lingjiao is forever fascinating to me even though we only get crumbs about her.#She's a servant girl who's greatest asset is her beauty and her attractiveness.#Meaning she's had a life being in the gaze of people with significant positions of power over her.#I can't help but read her childishness and petty tantrums as someone who has finally been given the chance to not feel powerless.#If she was a more virtuous type we might 'like' her more but honestly...I don't think she would have survived to this point.#WLJ has only known power hierarchies her whole life. Probably accused of seduction before she even understood what that meant.#I love contrasting her with mianmian because they have similar(ish) backgrounds but different approaches to moving forwards#But WLJ's story is about flying too close to the sun and mianmian's is about going too close to the water.#Like the sea mist dragging her down into complacency - all the sect powerplays are mandatory to 'go along with' if she wants to climb-#-the social ladder. Yet she is the cautionary tale (and a foil to JGY as well) she leaves before sacrificing her own morals.#Mianmian flies away with her wings only slightly plucked while those who sacrificed everything to reach for the top crash and burn.
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my limbus bugs mainly based on characters that may or may not show up later... and one mystery feature for your guessing fun:]
#heads up for uhhhhh really long tags#had half a mind to do a style study/imitation but gave up like. one layer in#i guess i should tag these a bit differently on the chance that they show up later in canon. ill put 'lcb' before their names#as opposed to '[character] lcb' that i use for canon characters#with this ill go back and tag for montag as well#digital stuff#colored sketch#limbus ocs#lcb avdotya#look upon my rodion clone. my beautiful son#they hired the worst photographer (me. colors are scary) in the city for their wedding no wonder that thing's cursed#that wedding dress photo was supposed to be an id photo mockup too but i just kinda gave up. started over with the next one#eyeballed the height measurements sorry if they look off...#lcb dmitri#her. well. you will hear more about her. this is a threat (joke)#lcb knauer#cheetos-flavored sinclair..#trivia: my friend's impression of knauer was “i mean this in the nicest way possible but he looks like a femcel”#personally i think hes cute#lcb beck#clair's college ex. what else is there.#these are mostly so that i can mess around and come up with some designs for funsies.. i havent given much thought to their stories#and in any case most of them are side characters so that'd be a bit difficult#that said. even for the one who's the protag in her source i havent really written anything either... oops#she's good contrast with sinclair the way she's both taller than meursault and also the worst brawler youve ever met#if anyone guesses her source i'll edit this post with a tag:D#well that was fun! i'll probably do another handful of sketches and then never draw these guys again#disclaimer: i got the german off google translate so if there're any glaring mistakes please let me know#i dont know russian either but i got the subtitles from their names so it should be ok.. avdotya's is just rodion's also.#let me know if i got anything wrong still. thank you
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@jumalanpelko
A page redraw dedicated to my favorite line from the comic, cause "Tell them I am your favorite" lives rent free in my head.
I never even touched the polyline lasso before this, the first hour of drawing felt like some kind of ego death but after that it just became really relaxing and I'm really glad I tried it out
#I mostly do digital paintings nowadays so this was really refreshing and I will 100% use the lasso again when doodling#my usual art has the colors of an oilspill so I really had to hold myself at the metaphorical gunpoint to stick to the color palette#and even then it didn't fully work#but I'm happy with who it came out#I'm glad I got the chance to draw something for Jumalanpelko cause it's a huge inspiration for me and I've been thinking about it even#before the contest was announced#jumalanpelkoredraw#art#cinnamon's doodles
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Horror's nightmare
Horror doesn't think much on his past anymore, but his nightmares often resurface the guilt he's buried about the idea that he could have prevented it all somehow, even if it came at the cost of his own life.
Thankfully, Nightmare is here to make him a hot drink to calm his nerves and promise him a visit to his brother when the sun is up, because Papyrus will always be very glad to see his brother alive and visiting (and as sleepy as ever).

#UTDR#UTMV#Horror Sans#Nightmare Sans#My Art#Truce au#Bad dreams comic#Just when you thought you were safe from my 50 ongoing art projects I remember to finish another one >:3c#I had a lot of fun with this one! Despite how kind of grim it is#It gave me a chance to play with different brushes and work with colours and such which is cool :D#Anyway yeah Horror likes to think he's at peace with his past#Especially considering who he lives with - he's probably the least haunted of the 4#But there is always a nagging thought in the back of his mind that he is in some way responsible#If not for breaking the core and more or less killing the scientist trying to fix it#(Even though it was at least partly justified since they tried to kill him first)#Then for letting the human go by with lvl in the first place knowing that they would end up killing Asgore in the end#Even if he couldn't have possibly known how bad things would get as a result#Also!! In case you're wondering Monster Kid and the dog are in the start because it's a dream#In his mind he always remembers horrortale before it started falling apart and losing people#And now... (turns my terrible little eyes upon Cross)
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