#before i start. pls keep in mind that this is fully subjective and could just be a 'me' problem. i just want to get this off my chest
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#jessamine rambles#before i start. pls keep in mind that this is fully subjective and could just be a 'me' problem. i just want to get this off my chest#ngl i've been contemplating on whether i want to stop playing obey me. both the og game and nightbringer#idk i've been playing the game since its first month and while it's given me a lot of joy + memories + chances to befriend other ppl. i'm#pretty burned out. not to mention TIRED of my consistent disappointment with the game#the main story.....where do i start?? i actually enjoyed s1-s3 despite my qualms with the fillers and pacing but s4 disappointed me. i was#rlly looking forward to simeon's storyline and the new characters but ultimately. the devs tried to squeeze too many things into one season#not to mention that there is a notable difference in how the characters are written. i.e. beel's hunger and asmo's beauty#being watered down to running gags instead of the complexities explored in the old dg stories and chara songs#gameplay-wise. i was there when the devs raised the rewards price of the event urs and removed the demon ssrs completely#but nightbringer was the last straw for me. the amount of time it takes to grind for two games. knowing that the og app has essentially bee#abandoned by the devs?? not to mention that while the plot is interesting. i haven't touched the main story ever since the coma arc#i will give credit to the devs for improving the event stories by choosing to focus on 1-2 demons. but it has always felt like a quantity >#quality situation. esp if i were to compare it to my other fandoms#it also doesn't help that i'm currently at a point of my life where i'm questioning if i could use my time on obm for better things#seeing how the game is giving me less reasons to believe it is worth my time#idk this may also be a short-term phase since i DID get back into twst after a long hiatus and i recently got into whb#which btw has felt like a breath of fresh air despite my frustrations with the bugs and current gacha#but yeahhhh........as much as i love the obm characters and fanfics. i'm just tired#at this point i feel like the only reason why i still play the game is due to the nostalgia and so i don't waste the years of grinding#aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#this is what i get for being the type of player who only plays a few games so they can rlly dedicate their time and passion to it#that's all
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can u pls write abt dom tutor taehyun x reader ⊠itâs been on my mind all day đđ
âTaehyunâ
Description: I couldnât decide on a subject so letâs just say math
Fem Reader
Warnings: NSFW// he makes fun of you// possessiveness// unprotected sex// NOT PROOF READ
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âAre you just dumb?â Taehyun laughs, looking over your paper. âItâs not even that hard.â He hands you back the practice sheet filled with little red marks and a giant 40 on the top. âI honestly donât know how youâre passing.â
Tears well up in your eyes because you actually tried really hard this time! You even bailed on one of your friends to finish it in time for today but it still wasnât any good. You bite your lip and look at him through your eyelashes, hoping maybe heâs just joking but all he does is sigh and take his glasses off. âWhat was so bad.â You sniffle, looking over the paper again.
âEverything.â Taehyun pulls out a giant textbook and opens it up to a random page. âLetâs get started hmm?â He pats his thigh and you comply immediately settling in his lap. âYou know the drill, baby, one whole page and Iâll fuck you.â
You nod and spread your legs for his large hand. âWhere do you want me to start?â He points at a paragraph halfway down the page and youâre not sure itâs even remotely related to what youâre doing in class but you start anyway, reading off the words- failing to process a single one of them. Your breath hitches when he pulls the neckline of your tank top down until your boobs fall out of the fabric, nimble fingers playing with the hard buds.
âWhen did you stop wearing panties around me?â Taehyun laughs, tucking the hem of your skirt into the waistband, laughing again when he drags his fingers across your already wet cunt. âGod youâre pathetic.â He tuts at you, collecting your slick and shoving his fingers into your mouth, interrupting your reading. âHow far didâya get, baby?â
Your fingers are shaky as you point at a random point on the paper, hoping he wasnât paying attention to what you were saying. But he was, because of course he was, and in response he takes his fingers out of your mouth and grabs you by the chin. âDonât lie. You know how I feel about lying.â You slowly shift your finger up the page to where you actually left off.
Surprisingly he lets it go, his hands going back to groping you as you start reading again. Itâs hard to focus though! Especially when his fingers are lightly tracing over your clit. You whine and try to roll your hips even though you know you shouldnât, ready for him to lift you off of him and leave, but he must be feeling extra forgiving today because all he does is wrap a hand around your middle and instruct you to keep going.
Every light touch and barely there kiss has you desperate for more, every other word cut up with a little whine or plea for him to let you off just this one time but he doesnât let up, instead he doubles down, tilting your head back and whispering in your ear. âReread that one baby, I'm not sure you fully understand it.â Of course you didnât! How could you understand anything with his mouth sucking pretty marks up and down your neck.
âTae- I canât think- I have to cum.â You grab his arm with your manicured fingers, nails painted in the color he requested. âPlease!â
âIs this how youâre passing your classes, babe?â Taehyun, slips a finger into your desperate hole, providing a slight relief. âDo you open your legs for all the old men that teach you?â
âNo! Just for you! I donât even have a boyfriend!â You squeal, spit falling onto the pages below you.
âOf course you donât. Youâre so pretty though, I bet you could⊠wouldnât have to be stuck with me if youâd just let one of our profs fuck you.â Taehyunâs never talked about this stuff before, his serious tone surprising you.
Even more surprising is the fact that he pushes the book away from you and presses your chest against the table. Behind you you can hear the metal clang of his belt buckle as he pulls his pants down to his knees. âBut you won't, will you?â He grumbles, palming at your ass. âYou like this, donât you?â
âLove it!â You gasp as he pushes the fat tip of his dick into your cunt.
Youâre basically putty in Taehyunâs hands as he fucks you into the wood. âCourseâ you do.â He grabs your hand and pulls you into arching your back. Youâre moaning and squeezing your eyes shut as he hammers his hips into yours. âWhyâd you stop reading?â
Your brian freezes as he drags the book back in front of your face, somehow pointing at the exact word you left off at. âWhat?â You gasp, tears slipping down your face as he points at it again. You open your mouth to start because all you want is to make Taehyun proud but you can only get through the first syllable.
âCmon, baby.â Taehyun laughs, pressing a kiss between your shoulder blades. âYou want some help?â You nod at the offer, not sure what heâs going to do, hoping heâll just push the book away again. And when he starts sounding out each word one by one you almost sob in frustration.
If you could think youâd probably be impressed with the fact that Taehyun is able to fuck you so well while steadily reading out the text, but all you can register is the fact that you can basically taste your orgasm. One of your hands slips down your body and one light touch against your clit has you folding in on yourself, your head falling onto the brick of a book.
You continue to play with your clit until youâre drooling, high pitched whines tumbling out of your mouth as you cream on your tutors dick. âPull out, hyun.â You pant, slumping onto the table as Taehyun fucks himself into his orgasm. He grunts and slips out of your cunt, fucking his fist until he cums all over your back.
âStart reading again.â
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Total disassociation, fully out your mind
Googling âderealisation,â hating what you find
Figured I would talk about the shit friend
The bad one
And the even worse ones
Okay, so, bad friend, right. They called me my name yesterday⊠out of the thirty times they tried to get my attention. They only called me my fucking name one fucking time. Which fucking sucks dude. I started talking to an irl friend who has been like âtalk to them about it. Itâs hurting youâ but like, I had to do nothing.
Not to mention that this so called friend hasnât reached out for two weeks
Not through text anyways. We used to do our fun lil subtle cosplays, but now itâs just me. Which is fine, it just hurts knowing that I was the one initiating everything. And like, I know I suck at that shit too, but at least I put in more effort when people text me other than âokayâ or âsounds goodâ
Also, this friend has dated two of the three people in this really shitty group of people I was friends with
I told them that these people harmed me, but they didnât care
To put it into perspective, a few years back, I was friends with these three. One of them said a sexist thing towards men, and then said that since he is a man, he is allowed to say it. Everyone started backing him up. (He is trans, if that matters.)
Anyways, that group forced me to talk to the school counsellor with them which is⊠illegal. The counsellor had the audacity to say âoh yeah, you are crying because you still want to be friends with themâ
SIR THEY CALLED ME CHILDISH FOR KEEPING A DISTANCE FROM THEM. I NEEDED DISTANCE SO I WOULDNT FUCKING BREAK OUT AND THEY BROKE THAT SHIT
I have fucking screenshots upon screenshots of proof of the fucking shit they said
She (one of the members) called me immature, stubborn, petty and childish for keeping my distance. She said that I needed to re-examine where my loyalties lie. She told me that if I couldnât get over a âsimple disagreement with someoneâ without cutting off friendships, I âwouldnât make it very far in lifeâ
They wanted to agree to disagree over this subject⊠which I found stupid. Sexism is sexism, hate to break it to you. Doesnât matter the gender.
These people were manipulating me for a while. I never explicitly said before that I didnât want to be friends, okay, but they were like âI donât think this is a matter to end a friendship on â€ïžâ which makes me sound like a jerk, I get that, but her fucking tone. She was like âsorry I offended you, but this remark could not harm anyone. Saying boys are dumb doesnât hurt anyoneâ
IT DOES
HAVE YOU SEEN THE INSECURITIES OF OUR GENERATION
AND YOU ARE SO FUCKING PRO-BEING A GOOD PERSON
She (same girl, sorry, these pronouns rn are wack) had the audacity to tell me that she loved me and my friend. After all of that shit talk
Thats so fucked oh my god
Nah bc I joke about hating guys, but I usually joke about cis guys specifically. Bc like fuck cis white men yk. But if you're an exception- then y k that
But as a trans guy it does suck sometimes bc like, I lived as a girl. Ive dealt with issues on both sides. And yk if people don't think about it that's ok,, but if you get called out, that fucking means somwthing
Anyway let me kill them for you pretty pls
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Isnât it Just So Pretty
Pairing: Peeta Mellark x Reader
Synopsis: youâre no longer sure of how much acting youâre doing when pretending to be in love with Peeta during the games
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After hearing the announcement that two victors can go home if theyâre from the same district, Peeta was the one thing on your mind. You knew he must be alive since you hadnât seen his picture in the sky yet. And if he was alive, he must be by a source of water. You rushed to the lake, not caring how much noise you were making, and looked everywhere. Suddenly, something grabbed your ankle.
âHere to finish me off, sweetheart?â
âPeeta!â You exclaimed in surprise, not caring who heard you. You helped dig him out of the mud and moss he had buried himself under before pulling him into a tight hug.
âOh my God. Peeta. Peeta.â You breathed in relief as you stroked his muddy hair. You heard Peeta sigh happily in your ear and melted into your touch.
âIâve been looking everywhere for you.â You told him as you cupped his face to look at him.
âYou have?â Peeta asked in skeptical surprise.
âDidnât you hear the announcement? We could both go home.â
âSo you came back for me?â A smile tugged at Peetaâs lips.
âOf course I did.â You shrugged like it was obvious. To you, it was. But to Peeta, it was never obvious that someone would take care of him.
âOh.â Peeta smiled shyly and nodded his head. âWell, thank you.â
âOf course. Now letâs get you cleaned up.â
You fully pulled Peeta out of the mud and gently dragged him towards the river. Once you were hidden behind some bushes, you assessed his wounds.
âWhat happened?â You asked once you saw the gash on Peetaâs leg.
âCatoâs sword. He was mad that I tricked him.â
âTricked him? How?â
âI purposefully led him away from you after your dropped the tracker jacket nest on us. Once he figured it out, he got me.â Peeta explained. You looked at him with great sympathy that before returning your attention to his wound. It was bad, much worse than anything you had yourself. And the fact that it happened because he was trying to protect you made you feel even worse.
âIs it bad?â Peeta asked when you hadnât said anything for a while.
âNo.â You lied. âDoes it hurt?â
âNo.â He lied back. You looked into his eyes and shook your head a little.
âYouâre lying.â
âSo are you.â He replied. You felt your face heat in embarrassment and nodded again.
âWe need to keep this clean. Iâm gonna have to wash your clothes.â You changed the subject.
âOkay.â Peeta agreed. You helped him lean his head back and washed the mud out of his hair until it was blonde again. Once that was clean, you moved on to his clothes. You shyly looked into his eyes and he nodded his head, giving you permission to tug off his shirt. You washed it and left it out to dry on a rock before returning to Peeta. He looked so helpless lying there on the rock you had laid him down on. He looked so vulnerable and gentle, not posing a threat to anyone. He didnât deserve to be here. No one did, but especially not Peeta. He was a lover and a baker. He shouldnât be bleeding out on a rock. You knelt down beside Peeta and he looked up at you with his gentle, puppy dog eyes. He was completely at your mercy now and you both knew it.
âRemember, weâre madly in love, so itâs all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it.â Peeta said to break the silence. You felt your breath hitch in your throat from the unexpected sentiment and before you knew it, you were leaning in to kiss his cheek. Peetaâs face heated up under your lips and when you pulled away, he looked just as surprised as you were over what had happened.
âUm, I should probably finish washing your clothes.â You stumbled over your words a little and refused to look Peeta in the eyes. You undid his button and zipper and started to tug his pants down.
âWait.â He gulped before you could pull his pants over his wound. You stopped and looked into his eyes, feeling the same anxiety he was.
âIâll go slow, okay?â
âOkay. Please be careful.â He said in a whiny voice. You couldnât help but smile a little and nodded your head.
âI will. I promise.â
You tugged Peetaâs pants the rest of the way off and got a full view of his wound for the first time. It was much worse than it had looked through the rip in his pants. You felt helpless as you stared at it, knowing there was not much you could do at this point.
âHow bad is it?â Peeta asked you. You stared at his wound, unblinking, until you felt tears come to your eyes.
âSweetheart?â He asked in a soft voice. You finally looked up at him just a tear rolled down your face.
âHow about that kiss?â He mouthed, making you burst out laughing. You cupped his face and pulled him into a long kiss to keep him calm.
âItâs not that bad. Youâll be okay. I promise.â You told him once you pulled away.
âDonât make promises you canât keep.â
âI never do. Iâm gonna go wash these. Stay here.â
âI donât have much choice, but okay. Iâll wait here and keep the lookout.â Peeta replied, making you laugh. You were about to leave with his pants when you noticed the hem of his boxers. They were filthy, caked with mud, and definitely teaming with infection. You knew they had to be washed, but that would leave Peeta with nothing. Peeta followed your gaze and connected the dots.
âYou need my boxers, donât you?â He asked. You avoided eye contact as you slipped off your backpack and handed it to him.
âHere. You can cover yourself with this.â
âI donât care if you see me.â He chuckled.
âMaybe you can take them off and Iâll just close my eyes?â
âLook, I know itâs awkward, but I can barely move. Thereâs no way I can get these off by myself.â Peeta admitted. You knew he was right, but you were not prepared to see a naked man for the first time. Peeta quickly remembered the star crossed lovers plot and cleared his throat.
âPlus, itâs not like youâve never seen me naked before.â He followed up, looking into your eyes to signal you to play along.
âRight.â You quickly nodded. You got Peetaâs boxers off as quickly as you could with as little eye contact as possible and ran away with them once they were off. You washed them and left them out to dry, giving him your jacket to cover himself in the mean time. Once his clothes were dry enough, you carefully dressed him. You then applied leaves to his wound the way Rue had taught you.
âOkay. Weâre in good shape. But I want to get you somewhere less open. This is the biggest water source so the Careers could be back any day now.â
âHow are we gonna move? I canât walk.â Peeta reminded you.
âItâs okay. Iâll carry you.â You shrugged. Peeta laughed a little and held up his arms like a toddler. You gently pulled him off the ground and scooped him up so that you could carry him. He was pretty light since he hadnât been eating and you had gained some muscle while training for the games. You carried Peeta through the woods as quietly as possible.
âI bet all the people in 12 are laughing at us.â Peeta said after a minute, making you laugh.
âYeah? How come?â
âBecause youâre the big strong hero and Iâm the damsel in distress that needs to be carried.â
âWho cares what they think? Weâre doing what we have to do to survive.â You shrugged and continued walking. Peeta went quiet for a minute as he thought back to the kiss youâd shared a few hours ago. It was real to him, but he didnât know what it meant for you.
âRight.â He said after a beat of silence. You could tell something was on his mind but decided not to push it. Instead, you carried him to a nearby cave and gently laid him down inside. You let Peeta rest while you covered the entrance of the cave with leaves to keep yourselves hidden. You then returned to Peetaâs side and brushed the hair off his forehead.
âAre you comfortable?â
âAs comfortable as I could be in this situation.â Peeta said through a strained laugh.
âThen we should get some sleep.â You suggested.
You pulled your sleeping bag out of your backpack and helped Peeta into it. You climbed in on his good side and cuddled into him.
âThis is nice.â Peeta said quietly. âI never thought Iâd ever be this close to you.â
You smiled and draped an arm over his torso to pull him in. It didnât take him long to fall asleep, but you stayed awake all night and kept eyes on the entrance of the cave. You were exhausted by the time he woke up the next morning, but you didnât let him know that. You put a hand on his forehead and felt that it was slightly cooler than the dah before.
âIâm gonna go get you some water.â You told him and tried to get up.
âWait.â He caught your hand, making you stop.
âPlease donât leave.â He said in a soft voice. His doe eyes were staring into yours pleadingly and it took all your strength to say no.
âYou need water.â You insisted. âIâll just be right outside.â
âPlease donât go.â Peeta whined, sounding like he might start to cry. You knew heâd been lying by the river for days, bleeding out and knowing he could be killed any minute. Now that he was finally with you, it probably terrified him to be left alone again. You felt sympathetic towards Peeta and leaned in to kiss him again. You let it linger for as long as he needed.
âIâll be right back.â You whispered once you pulled away.
You left the cave, gathered some water for Peeta, and purified it before heading back to him. When you reached the cave, a parachute was waiting for you outside. You gasped and grabbed it before running inside. He had fallen asleep again in your absence so you bent down to kiss him awake.
âPeeta, Peeta, Peeta. Wake up.â You said as you peppered kissed all over his face until he woke up.
âWhat? What happened?â Peeta asked through a yawn.
âLook what Haymitch sent you.â You smiled and presented him the parachute.
âFood?â Peeta asked hopefully.
âUh huh. Soup.â You nodded and got the food ready for him.
âWow. My first parachute.â Peeta smiled to himself. The parachute wasnât really sent to Peeta. You had made that up because when you told him Haymitch had sent you a few things, he seemed sad that he hadnât received anything. You wanted to cheer him up, so you told a little white lie.
âHow are you feeling?â You asked as you helped him sit up.
âA little better. I think my fevers breaking.â
âThatâs great. I would love to get you to eat something.â
âIâm really not hungry.â Peeta admitted, making you freeze. Not having an appetite despite not eating in days was not a good sign.
âPlease? Just a bite?â
âNo. If only there was something you could do to persuade me.â Peeta sighed, making you laugh endearingly. You leaned in to kiss Peeta and he met you halfway. He kissed you for as long as you let him before pulling away.
âSuddenly, Iâm starving.â Peeta said, making you laugh. You carefully spoon fed him the soup and felt his forehead when you were done.
âDamn it.â You hissed.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âYouâre burning up again. I thought you were getting better.â You started to panic and sat back on your knees to think. Your mother or sister would know exactly what to do here, but you didnât.
âItâs okay. Maybe Iâm just warm from the sleeping bag.â Peeta tried to calm you down.
âMaybe. Let me check your leg.â You checked his leg and just as you suspected, it looked worse.
âDamn it!â You screamed and got off the floor. You went over to the wall of the cave and pressed your forehead against it as you cried in frustration.
âWe need medicine. Not soup. You wonât get better without medicine. Why isnât anyone sending medicine?â You cried and tugged at your hair.
âItâs okay, sweetheart.â Peeta said calmly.
âItâs not okay!â You shouted. âThe leaves arenât working. Why arenât they working?â
âMaybe the infection is just too deep. It mightâve been a lost cause before you even found me.â Peeta voiced his deepest concern, one that you both shared.
âNo. Thereâs no way you survived this far to get wiped out by an infection. You survived Catoâs blade. Iâm not gonna let you die over the infection that came after it.â
Peeta stayed quiet as you paced back and forth and tried to come up with a plan.
âWe just need more sponsors. We need them to send us medicine so that you can get better. What can we do to get their attention?â You asked him.
âI think weâve done everything already.â Peeta said regretfully.
âThen Iâll⊠Iâll- um. UhâŠ.â You trailed off when no ideas came to mind.
âI donât know. I donât know what to do. I canât fix this. I canât fix you.â You started to freak out and dropped down to your knees. You buried your face in your hands and felt your entire body give up. You banged your fists on the ground in frustration before letting out a guttural sob.
âItâs okay.â Peeta assured you. âYouâve done as much as you could.â
âBut itâs not enough.â
âItâs enough. Itâs more than enough.â Peeta replied. He felt helpless as he watched you cry and tried to come up with a way to distract you from the inevitable doom he was facing.
âYou know, I remember the first time I saw you.â He said, catching your attention.
âYou do?â You sniffled and looked up at him.
âUh huh. It was the first day of kindergarten. My dad pointed you out and said, âsee that girl? I was gonna marry her mother.â He still seemed jaded by it after all those years. I watched you walk into school and ran in after you.â
âYour dad and my mom? Is that true?â You smiled a little and crawled over to him.
âApparently they dated before she met your father. My dad used to grumble about the coal miner with the golden voice whenever he and my mom would fight.â
âDid that happen a lot?â You asked sympathetically as Peeta reached up to wipe your tears.
âMy brothers and I used to try to separate them. Heâd hit her. Then heâd hit us. Then weâd be silent for a few days. And then, it was like it never happened.â
âUntil it happened again?â You assumed.
âYeah.â He sighed. âUntil it happened again.â
âIâm sorry, Peeta. I didnât know you had it so bad.â You frowned and laid down on his chest.
âItâs not your fault. Youâve got your own troubles. Donât worry about mine.â He said as he rubbed his hand up and down your back. You stayed with your head over his heartbeat for a while as you calmed down.
âIâm surprised you turned out the way you are.â You said after a minute.
âWhat do you mean?â
âYouâre so kind. But your home life wasnât kind you. I wonder where you get it from.â
âI donât know. Maybe thatâs just me.â
âYeah. Maybe thatâs just you.â You smiled and looked up at him. Peeta didnât look at you, though. He had a far off look in his eyes as if he was thinking of something he couldnât put to words.
âMaybe we shouldnât talk about this anymore. Itâll be awkward when you go home.â You said to change the subject.
âIâm not going home.â He laughed softly. There was no self pity in his voice. He wasnât trying to make you guilty. He genuinely believed that and had already accepted it.
âPeeta.â You said warningly.
âItâs okay. I know it. You know it. Even my parents knew it the day I left. Iâve said goodbye to them. Theyâre in the past now.â Peeta shrugged. He looked down at you and brushed some hair that had come loose from your braid off your forehead.
âAll I see is you now.â He said softly. You stared at him in silence, never being good with words. You had so much you wanted to say to him, but the way he was looking at you made your mind go blank.
âAfter that first day that my dad pointed you out, I always looked at you. I remember the first day of school when the teacher asked if anyone knew the valley song. And your hand shot straight up. I followed you home that day. And every day after that.â Peeta recalled as he stared into your eyes.
âI didnât know that.â You smiled softly.
âI used to watch you hunt from the bakery window.â He continued. âYou were usually with Gale. But sometimes youâd go alone and Iâd wonder what would happen if went outside and asked to go with you.â
âWhy? So you could hunt?â You laughed in surprise.
âSo I could be with you.â He said simply.
âPeeta.â You smiled guiltily. Peeta looked at you for long time before reaching up to touch your braid. He held it in his hands as if it was solid gold.
âI shouldâve told you how I felt before the games. I feel so stupid for waiting until we were on opposing sides of a death match to tell you how much I care about you.â
âWeâre not on opposing sides.â You shook your head.
âThereâs only one winner.â
âI know. That doesnât put us on opposing sides.â You told him. You stared into his eyes for a moment and reached out to touch his face.
âNothing could.â You whispered. No matter how much it hurt him, Peeta sat up so that he could cup your face and kiss you. You kissed him back and wished you could close the curtains and shut the world out from this kiss. Even though the romance meant you would get more sponsors, that didnât matter to you anymore. You knew the way you were feeling for him wasnât an act anymore. You felt genuine love and you needed him to know that.
âI canât lose you.â You pulled away to tell him.
âYou wonât. Being here with you like this is enough to make me live through anything.â Peeta said as he rolled your broad between his fingers.
âI wish they werenât watching. I wish it was just us.â You whispered and felt your eyes begin to water. Peeta looked you up and down and a doubtful look crossed his face.
âDo you?â He asked. He wasnât fully skeptical, just hesitant in believing you. You nodded your head and Peeta seemed to believe you.
âThen it is just us.â He said simply. You couldnât help but smile before leaning down to kiss home once more.
âI wish I knew how you felt before the games.â You whispered against his lips.
âIt wouldnât have mattered.â
âYes it wouldâve. We couldâve been like this. But safe.â
âYou wouldnât have liked me back. I had nothing to offer you. Nothing you needed, any way. Youâre only thinking you wouldâve liked me back because I donât have any competition here.â Peeta said, again with no self pity on his voice. These were just things he knew to be true. And maybe they once were. But as you stared into his eyes now, you knew it wasnât the truth anymore. You knew you loved him.
âYou donât have any competition anywhere.â You said softly.
âYouâre just saying that.â He said with a disbelieving roll of his eyes.
âIâm not.â You insisted. You turned around to look at the camera you knew was behind you before leaning down to whisper in Peetaâs ear.
âI love you.â
When you pulled away, Peeta was watching your face very carefully. He was trying to see if you were just deceiving the cameras or actually professing your love for him. He looked so hopeful that he might cry if it turned out to be the former.
âReal or not real?â He asked, making you smile.
âReal.â You assured him. Peeta let his guard down and finally broke into the smile heâd been holding in. He tilted his head up so that youâd kiss him but pulled away a little just before your lips could touch.
âPromise?â He whispered.
âPromise.â You replied before pressing your lips to his.
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wifey, I got smth to ask you đ„ș
can I ask for just getting my back blown out by infinite darkness Leon somewhere in the White House after the zombie attack?
Just him in that blue suit??
(also pls add some praise kink in there, I beg)
Gabby my beloved! Ask you shall receive! đ
Minors step off from here please and thank you.
The White HouseâŠ
Of all the zombie attacks Leon has had to bear witness to, forced to carry the mental and physical scars from, survived. The White House was the last place he'd ever expect to be hit. He can't say he's surprised though. Even now as he discusses with Jason on the subject of who started this with what virus, his adrenaline is shot. Not even fully taking in the conversation when his mind is on something else.
Or rather someone else.
Luckily, his search was brief when you just so happen to hastily round the corner and search before locking eyes with him. Your dire look of concern immediately falls away to relief at the sight of him, he can't but smile at that but the feeling is mutual.
He's quick to leave Jason and close what felt like a mile long distance between you two. As soon as your arms are around each other, you feel his larger stature softly squeeze your hips and gently scoot you along. A silent request to take you away for some much deserved privacy.
And you couldn't be more happy to oblige.
You let Leon pull you away from prying eyes into a nearby office and lock the door. Let him steal your breath with a ravishing kiss while he scoops you up with large, warm hands planted firmly on your ass. Let him manhandle you as he bends you over the desk and hikes the lower part of your dress up. Putting your soaked through lace panties on full display to show just how badly you need him.
It's truly a sight he'll never grow tired of.
Unable to resist, his hand ghosts down the skin of your backside to press his thumb against your weeping little pearl, still hidden behind the thin, soiled fabric. It elicits a soft breathy whine from you that Leon can't help but chuckle at, "Sorry sunshine, just love when you get messy like this."
Any other day the agent would love to tease you and draw this out a little more but, he just doesn't have the time and most certainly not the patience. With his pants quickly undone and pulled down just enough for his cock to be freed from it's restraints, his fingers suddenly tug your underwear to the side and sinks himself into your welcoming heat in one thrust.
The moan that escapes you would've most definitely drawn attention if it weren't for his hand clasping over your mouth to silence you, followed by sweet searing kisses pressed to your neck as he sets a rough, needy pace.
"That's itâŠ" The dirty blonde softly coos into your ear, delighted with how your pussy squeezes the entirety of his length everytime he sinks back in with a rhythmic slap. "That's my good girl."
His words pour from his lips onto your body like the sweetest liquor, one you'll never deny and hope to stay intoxicated by everyday. Leon softly smiles into your hair. Because he knows it. Knows exactly what praise like that does to you. Your cute little muffled whimper and the desperate rock of your hips to meet his thrusts is all the answer he needs.
"Yeah, you're my good girl." He rumbles out in that low pretty groan. "Fuck, you were made to take me this good weren't you?" His composure soon shatters for a moment, leading him to bury his face in the crook of your neck with a hiss in an attempt to mask his own noise. Leon's voice then falls to a whisper, a secret uttered into your love stained skin that only you could keep.
"God you're perfect."
It's too much, in the best way possible. Tears of pure bliss fall from your eyes as you grace that edge of heaven, while your fingers card through his hair and hold on for dear life. His hand coming around to press the rough, warm pads of his fingers against your intimacy however, is what ultimately tips you over.
A soft cry tumbles into his hand as your orgasm leaves you quivering within his hold. Leon's thrusts instantly slow down to help you ride out your high, squishing your smaller frame between his body and the desk more while you gush on his fingers and around his cock before going still.
Your breath comes out in a quiet pant as you come back down from your cloud nine, that is until you release a sudden squeak when Leon slowly starts up his rhythm again. In his defense, eyeing the way your cunt throbbed and dripped around his dick was too fucking hot to ignore.
You're quick to pick your head up and look back at him. Only to meet his lips smashing against yours in another feverish kiss, swallowing your pretty sounds like a shot of his favorite whiskey.
The agent then pulls away, but just slightly, to softly speak. "Come on Princess, you can give me one more. Can't you?"
Seeing how handsomely disheveled he looks in that navy blue suit- hair messily sticking to his skin, cheeks flushed a wonderful shade of red, plush lips parted to let out his quiet huffs, and those pretty ocean eyes blown with all the love he has for you. Oh yeah, you most certainly accept another round.
You're Leon Scott Kennedy's good girl after all.
#WOO!#finally some actual writing from me đ#thank you for letting me use the brain cell my queen đ#i seriously need to give ID Leon more attention#that suit is just#đ©đđ»#leon kennedy#leon s kennedy#resident evil#resident evil infinite darkness#leon kennedy x reader#leon kennedy x you#leon s kennedy x reader#leon s kennedy x you#leon kennedy smut
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If you wouldn't mind could you do the one where rielle ask azul to show him his mer form and azul finally caves after sometime pls
Can do!!
Azul needed to do something about this.
The constant visits of a certain red head in a white uniform. The many gifts. The aching words of affection and pleases.
He needs it all gone!
What's worst is the subject that recently hit his ears from that prince's voice- "Let's swim together Azul~!"
Swimming with the youngest prince? Don't make him laugh! Azul still remembers all those teasing words back in the day of his youth, the snickering remarks of his past self from those faces he was forced to see everyday without fail, the stinging pains he got from said words... He obviously just wants to try and trick me, that's for certain!
Then, how did he get to this single part of the story? Walking on the edge of a sand path with Rielle himself who's humming a tune happily as the ocean waves flood his ear drums in sound.
Well, it was most thanks to the damn twins he call friends. It was all Floyd's yapping and whining how he likes swimming with the freedom of it all and Jade bringing up tales of their guppy years. Add that with all that pressure from Rielle then you can see why he is here now.
Still, Azul can't help but have a aching in his chest.
Slowly, his lovely stormy eyes looked to the ocean that is so deeply consumed by the night sky as stars dance across the waves like glitter in those drinks they make in the lounge. As his eyes watch the waves pull in and out he started to hear the mocking words and laughter of those classmates in his mind, his eyes slowly beginning to burn with the sense of tears boiling up like a faucet turning on in a bathtub.
"Azul?"
Azul snapped out the painful memory and soon looked at Rielle who stands still near the beach's edge, ocean blue eyes shining in worry. "Are you okay? We don't have to swim..." He said, he sounds a bit disappointed but more concerned for his old classmate.
Azul hates pity.
"I can handle this. I'm not a weak link." He said with a scoff before getting the vile of the potion to transform them back to the merforms. Rielle gave a meek smile and took off his shoes and placed them neatly on the sandy side with Azul's glasses and their uniform coats.
The prince was first to drink the potion's half and jump into the water happily, leaving Azul to watch him go with shaky knees as he discarded his shoes.
Slowly, with a slight quivering hand, he brought the cold vile to his lips and drink the rest down his throat. He had to hold back the gags of the taste and after-flavor.
Slowly but surely he began to walk his way the waters and let it consume him fully, wrapping it's cold arms around his body in a tight hug he feels like he's suffocating.
Rielle swam a bit as soon as his beautiful blue green tail appeared instead of his legs, his hair lose and free to be a crazed red mess as his freckles shown at long last. He loved the ocean, he missed it dearly. The ocean was like a mother he missed for a long time. Sure he was right next to it due to school but to have the freedom to have the ocean play with the slight knots and curls of his hair was taken due to the walls of the school.
Walls...
Rielle thought back of his time back in his palace. The cold walls keeping him locked up away from the possibility of being welcomed to the world of his fellow classmates. The world full of laughter and true friendship, The world full of adventure and fun, The world of happiness and love.
The walls of the school of Royal Sword Academy was no different. Those walls blocked a lot of things out to "protect" but held a deeper issue of hiding the possible ugliness the students may have that could damage their views within the media, just like his so called "friends" back in those years in the reef.
Shaking his red hair, Rielle snapped out his mind of those kind of thoughts and turned to Azul with a bright smile. He stopped.
Azul stood there in his form, every bit of a flaw exposed to the open of the nightly swimming activity. His skin a light purple color compared to his pale ivory he has on the surface. His hair now more white and whisking about like a mist above sea form. His chest below a now semi soft leathery black texture stretching out to eight long thick tentacles with cute purple suckers showing on the bottom of some that squirm about. He can see the very faint signs of stretch marks on his hips and lower stomach going near his belly button as well as the scars of bite marks and small lines on his wrists and tentacles.
Azul shuffled a bit, the waiting of silence killing him deeply. This was a mistake He thought, his eyes glued to his body. Within a blink he saw his small fat body from the past instead of the one he has now. Within that blink he began to hear the nicknames that read as fine letters instead of the scars of cuts and bites on his arms.
"Beautiful perfection. . ."
With that the noise canceled within his eyes and his head snapped to stare at Rielle, seeing the glow of blush on his cheeks as he stares at him with soft eyes of awe.
Azul felt his heart began to beat fast as his voice plays those words over and over and over in his mind like a record player as his body felt light and sway with the waves.
Great Seven, I need to do something about this. . .
#twisted wonderland#azul x rielle#azul ashengrotto#prince rielle#twst rielle#sorry this took a while
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Love Language|| Jujutsu Kaisen
âI wanna be fluent in your love language. Learning your love language.âÂ
A/N: If you didnât guess from the tagline this is inspired by the song love language by Kehlani. Iâll probably do more of these with different shows and what not because why not. If I missed anyone lmk and I can make a part 2. Also please tag spoilers appropriately esp for manga readers, that being said spoilers for the prequel? manga on Yuutaâs part.
Characters: Itadori, Fushiguro, Kugisaki, Maki, Inumaki, Okkotsu, Gojo, Nanami, Sukuna
Warnings: said it b4 but spoiler warnings in general but esp on Yuuji, Yuuta, and Makiâs parts
Plot synopsis: The 5 love languages; physical affection, quality time, words of affirmation, gift giving and acts of service, and how each jujutsu kaisen character shows their love and affection for you. Ft. a gender neutral reader!
Word count: 2352
Itadori Yuuji
Love Language: Quality time and physical affection
Ok listen-
So for physical affection, Yuujiâs just that kind of person
He is all about giving to you
Heâs holding hands with you if youâre ever walking anywhere, and if youâre not a hand holder pls pls pls let him hold your pinky he likes the reassurance
No but seriously he loves to hold you like yall could be walking in completely opposite directions and heâll try to find some way to hold onto you until the very last second
And even then heâs all â:( babe imyâ
âYuuji we just talked 2 minutes agoâ
Another way he shows his love is through quality time
I think for him this is the biggest thing overall, esp as a jujutsu sorcerer bcus you never know yk but also because youâre important to him
Like remember how he literally went to occult club so that he could get out of school in time to go visit his grandpa...ye :(
He also loves finding dumb touristy things to do with you while in Tokyo or anywhere yall go together on a missionÂ
If you get together before he died and came back then that time he had to spend away from you literally killed him
Like my mans was goin THROUGH it
He almost considered spoiling Gojoâs secret
When he sees you again, heâs not gonna let go for like a solid day
Fushiguro Megumi
Love Language: acts of service and words of affirmation
This boy loves you so much
He loves to tell you all the things he loves about you when youâre alone
But heâs a little awkward with his words sometimes, hence where acts of service come in
Heâll immediately offer to hold your things, run to help you train or study, and if youâre cold? Heâs fully prepared to never see his jacket again
Also he canât cook but heâs fully prepared to suffer hearing Sukuna and suffering through Yuujiâs antics if it means he can learn how to make your favorite food
He also will surprise you by making you a playlist of all the songs that youâve had stuck in your head and sends it to you randomly out of the blue one day like âthought you might like thisâ
However the best of both worlds is when he leaves you little notes throughout the day or sends you texts asking if you need anything or just encouraging you to keep goingÂ
Negl heâs lowkey the president of the Y/N support club bcus-
You need anything? Itâs yours
Cravings? Sad? Angry? What do you need bby, Iâve got it for you
Also heâs totally the type to be like you need help fuckin this person up?Â
Also before yall started dating, Fushiguro was a mess
He was constantly asking to spar with you and go on missions, basically anything he could do to be near you Â
End of the day, Fushiguro loves you and makes sure you know it whether itâs through his actions or his words
Kugisaki Nobara
Love Language: physical affection
So, sheâs not the best with words, she tries but like someone help her bcus she is LOST
Like when she had a crush on you she was like âcâmere dumbass i wanna give you a hugâ
In fact, she still is like âcâmereâ but now you are dating :)
She loves you though and at first she doesnât really know how to show itÂ
But one day you both come home from training and you just look at each other like âyeah today sucksâ and yall both just held each other for the rest of the dayÂ
After that, she decided that she wants to do that with you but like always
Sheâs holding your hand, kissing your cheek when you go shopping, etc. etc.
She really loves to cling to you because she always has this fear that maybe one day youâll get killed or just disappear so she figures might as well hold onto you for as long as weâve got
After missions, sheâs running up to you and if you arenât prepared for the tackle, youâre probably gonna fall
On dates too, like if you guys have to meet up for a date, sheâs tackling you
On the subject of dates...
She doesnât mind PDA, and while she might hold your hand or arm so that you donât get separated
She also doesnât mind wiping food off your face and eating it, only to then kiss the spot on your face the food was previously at
She will split her shopping load between the two of you, however she will be slightly pouty if sheâs carrying more than you (she then cheers up when she realizes she can do more shopping to âbalanceâ the two of you)
In private sheâs very cuddly and kissy which honestly isnât that bad until it gets hot
At which point sheâll just say turn on the ac or convince you to walk around in a tank top (or something like it) so that she can continue holding you
Tbh she prefers the big spoon, but if sheâs ever upset you let her be the little spoon >:(
All in all a very loving girlfriend who tries her best to show how much she loves you by glomping you at any given moment.Â
Zenin Maki
Love language: acts of service and quality time
So youâre telling me that Maki wouldnât immediately go out of her way to make sure her and her s/o can spend as much time together as possible?????
Like sheâs super observant (which can cause her to be a bit harsh, see Yuuta) but she can always tell whatâs bothering you
So if youâre upset that you havenât been spending enough time together due to her being out on missions or otherwise busy sheâs immediately running to finish her stuff and spend time with you.
((Sheâs very sorry, but on the bright side she brought your favorites!))
Maki is also an acts of service type
This mostly ties in with her kind of direct action way of thinking
She thinks sheâs slick but you can always see her sneaking around to do small things like grabbing your laundry for you and folding it
Sheâs very much like if you love someone, you gotta prove it
Overall, dates with her are very intimate and personal to the two of you
Like sheâll take you to a frog pond you landed in during a fight once
Or youâll take her to a street fair that serves this exclusive food that Maki mentioned wanting to tryÂ
However, Maki shows her love through quality time and acts of service and while she does receive love from these to a degree, she is very much a words of affirmation gal
Sheâs not insecure in her day to day life but she has her moments, everyone does
Sometimes, sheâll feel like shit and a failure and all she wants is for you to say that sheâs doing amazing and that sheâs a great girlfriend.
Inumaki Toge
Love language: Physical affection
Because of his curse, he canât exactly express how he feels about you through words
He does text you frequently throughout the day (Iâll have to do a hc abt that someday)
But heâd prefer not to be on his phone to communicate if youâre right in front of him
So he does the next best thing and just smothers you in physical affection
He loves kissing you the most
Like he could spend hours just kissing you if you let him (please let him)
But in public, he gets if youâre not a big fan of pda heâs willing to tone it down as long as he gets kisses later in private
Heâd still prefer it if you held his hand or linked pinkies maintaining touch in some way
Also, unrelated, but it means so much to him if you try to understand his sushi language
He knows realistically the foundation of any relationship is communication so already heâs at a disadvantage because of his curseÂ
But if he sees you like take notes after he says something or start to need him to text you to translate, his heart is swelling
Like âomg this person loves me enough to learn a whole new language <333âČ
Another tangent but before you were together he was struggling so muchhhh
Like how does one express their feelings for someone without words?
If youâre Inumaki, you buy some flowers and text said person to meet you at a cafe
It took an embarrassingly long time for you to realize it was a date, but once you did, you ever so gently linked pinkies with Toge
Okkotsu Yuuta
Love language: words. of. affirmation.Â
Heâs literally so sensitive please tell him you love him regularly
In return heâll be sure to tell you how much he loves you too
He knows that he canât really be there for you as much as heâd like but he likes to let you know that heâs thinking of you
Doesnât matter the time, if you call, heâs answering
If he doesnât heâll cry heâll immediately call you back and is apologizing for missing your call
You assure him itâs no big deal but the man has his volume turned all the way up and changed your ringtone to one specific for you by the time youâve even said hey
Aside from that, he really is sensitive
Heâs been through a lot especially with Rika as well as growing up alone and bulliedÂ
So for him, itâs everything to hear that you like having him around and donât think heâs too much or anything like that
Of course, he gets better with time, trusting you and having the confidence in himself to not need constant assurance
That being said, if you ever just whisper in his ear, âI love you, Yuuta.â
Thatâs not your boyfriend, thatâs a puddle of love on the floor
(Maki, Panda, and Inumaki had a field day when they saw him, Fushiguro now questions if Yuuta really is a respectable 2nd year.)
Gojo Satoru
Love language: gift giving and quality time
So Gojo doesnât exactly get to spend a ton of time
Between missions, him beefing with higher ups, and you and him playing parent the baby sorcerers yall donât exactly get time to go out much
In which case Gojo tends to default to two options:
Heâll either go the extra mile to try and spend time with youÂ
Whether that be an at home date where he tries and fails to surprise you with a home cooked meal
Or a date out at a restaurant or cafe (which you tend to visit after his home cooking efforts)
OR heâll bring you various souvenirs from his missions
He loves to spoil you, and if he could heâd probably bring you back a whole storeâs worth of stuff
But alas, airport security regulations
Anyways, he loves to spoil you especially if he can spoil you with sweets because it benefits him in two waysÂ
He treasures all the time you spend together, and he does try to overcompensate for his absence with gifts
Despite your assurances, itâs kind of a guilty pleasure at this point (just let him, trying to argue just goads him on further)
He doesnât only buy you small things, he enjoys buying you outfits
And he especially likes seeing you in themÂ
Kento Nanami
Love Language: acts of service
Yâall remember the episode where he killed that curse that was bothering that baker lady?? Yea that
Heâs literally such an acts of service boyfriend itâs not even funny
Before you got together, he would memorize your coffee order and bring you a cup pretty much everyday like clockwork
Now that youâre togehter, he wakes up before you so h=that when you wake up thereâs the smell of coffee throughout the house
When you come out of youâre shared bedroom and heâs just scrooling through his phone like âmorninââ
Of course you already made the bed and ironed his clothes because relationships are give and take
And then when you leave for your jobs in the morning, he kisses you and holds the door open for you
Heâll draw a bath for you if he gets home before you, if you let him join or not is up to you
Also, if you ever get sick, heâs actually the best
Like he isnât the best cook but he can heat up soup and tea
Heâll run to the store while youâre asleep and when you wake up, thereâs like a whole tray of food in front of you and heâs like âitâs important to eat and drink so your body can healâ
And when you inevitably fall asleep after eating and taking medicine at his insistence, he tucks you in and clears away the dishes, exiting with little more than a kiss to your head
Ryoumen Sukuna
Love Language: gift giving and acts of service
So like Sukuna never says he loves you...ever
But he does notice if someone or somethingâs making you uncomfortable, and if so, said entityâs head will be presented to you later that day
You also just so happen to be the only person he can tolerate being around him for longer than 20 seconds
He also loves to give you jewelry, he likes seeing you adorned in something from him
He also isnât gonna just handle all your problems for you, he will push you to become stronger by training with youÂ
Heâll also expect this energy to be reciprocated, as long as youâre pushing yourself to be better, heâs content with that
(He wants to see you grow because heâs scared that if he ever gets caught lackin one day youâll end up dead)
Heâll never tell you or admit it, but Sukuna truly does care for you and hold you in a regard that he doesnât have for others
So be grateful jkjk
#love language#love language series#love language hcs#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen gojo#jujutsu kaisen hcs#jujutsu kaisen fushiguro#jujutsu kaisen sukuna#yuta okkotsu x reader#inumaki x reader#gojou satoru x reader#itadori yuji x reader#fushiguro megumi x reader#sukuna x reader#nanami x reader#kugisaki x reader#maki x reader#im so sorry yuutas part is so short#hes getting a fic soon i hope that makes up for it ;-;#idontblushsrry
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can u make a nikolai x reader based on the song mr perfectly fine by taylor swift?
Mr Perfectly fine
A/n: Ahh, thank to you friend, I've been jamming to this song every day lmao Hope I've done it justice x Also, I've left out some parts of the lyrics to make it better fit the story.
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Word count: more than 7K (ikik it took a life of his own, what can I say)
Warnings: bit of fluff, angst (like a lot), character's death, spoiler if you haven't read Siege and Storm
Tagging: @jupiterandbutterflies (Thank you so much for your comment! I saw it and it made my dayâš)
(I don't remember where I took this from so if you know pls lmk)
Most people knew of Nikolai Lanstov. He was a prince, the second born and the most charming. Most people knew him thanks to the countless rumours that went around at court: supposedly he was not of royal blood. "Sobachka" was what they called him.
No matter how though, everyone knew of the last Lanstov prince. But very little knew him.
Meeting him wasn't difficult. Since he had been of age, Nikolai had always been out of the Grand Palace and among people. Heâd also volunteered to enlist in the first army, refusing any kind of special treatment and fought beside his brothers in arms in the infantry. That was part of the reason why everyone outside the court loved him so much.
Being Grisha meant that fighting in the Second Army was mandatory. Not that you minded. There was nothing you wanted more for your people than to finally be free. Also, that Shadow Fold needed to go and as the Darkling has always said, all efforts are necessary.
Thatâs how you met Nikolai the first time. Generally, the First and the Second Army were stationed in different parts of the campsite. Numerous quarrels between oprichniki and Grisha had rendered the separation necessary. However, you never liked crowds much and living in the Little Palace meant that you were always surrounded by people. So, every chance you had to draw away and be by yourself for a while, you took it. Also, being a Healer meant that youâd spent more time in your assigned tent taking care of soldiers than among them.
Word had gone around that everyone in need could come to you. Usually, you had been instructed by the Darkling that your powers were reserved for Grisha. However, what good was it to have the ability to cure people and only take care of a selected few that very rarely got seriously injured? Meanwhile, soldiers of the First Army often suffered from severe injuries, fatal gunshots or knife wounds. You could help them and possibly save their lives so why shouldnât you?
That was why Nikolai found you one night. Sure at that point it was just another nameless soldier to you. He had never been in your tent before so you had never seen his face before. The boy whose arm he had draped on his shoulders though, was a usual visitor of yours.
âOh, Petyr, what happened this time?â gesturing to his blond friend to lay him down on the table, you started gathering everything you needed. Not that you needed much but you had found out that Petyr was absolutely incapable of bearing having his bones or injuries in general repaired without having some kind of pain reliever before.
After a few tries, you came up with a herbal composition that dulled the pain but didnât make him unconscious. Using kvas would mean that Petyr would be knocked out for a couple of hours. That would put him in trouble with his superiors.
âHeâs a fool, thatâs what happened.â The explanation came from his friend after he put him down gently. Despite his words, you could hear in his tone worry and guilt?
âIf saving your life makes me a fool then go ahead and call me one,â Petyr huffed in pain.
âWho knew you were so brave, uh?â After quickly shredding the herbs you needed, you poured hot water on it and brought the cup to Petyrâs lips while helping him keep his head up.
âHeâs the bravest of us all,â
âIf I knew it took a bullet wound to make you hand out compliments so easily, I would have done it sooner.â Scoffed Petyr after sending you a thankful look.
âSee? What did I tell you? A fool,â his friend said dramatically and you smiled amused at their playful banter.
âLetâs see what weâre dealing with, shall we?â You said out loud to warn both Petyr and his friend. Letting them know what was about to happen was best, your experience taught you. Both for the person on the table that could brace themselves for what was about to happen and for the person with him that was filled with worry and cautiousness. Oprichniki didnât trust Grisha that much.
After assessing the damage, you let out a relieved sigh as the bullet had gotten through and it had not hit any major artery. It had already got infected though, so you knew it would be a painful one to treat.
âSo, did you receive any letters lately, Pety?â You ask, suggestively wiggling your eyebrows while your hands cover the wound. You had your eyes closed to better focus but you were sure that he had rolled his eyes.
âOnly from my mum.â
âDonât tell me you didnât write her back,â you said, opening your eye just in time to send him a glare.
âUgh, not this again, y/n, please. Have mercy on me, Iâm bleeding all over the table.â Petyr moaned making his friend snicker.
âYouâre not bleeding all over the table and if you didnât notice, Iâm already taking care of you, am I not? That doesnât excuse you for being an idiot, though.â
âAre you two in cahoots or something? Itâs not fair. Wounded man over here.â
âOh shut up.â Both you and his blond friend said at the same time. Petyr moaned once again and you sent a little amused smile to the blondie.
âShould I leave you with a cool battle scar? Maybe acting like a war hero will give you the balls to write to her.â You harmlessly threatened him but your hands were already reconnecting the tissue of his skin without letting it scar.
âIâve told you, y/n. She deserves better than what I can give her. I am, who knows if I even make it home? Iâd be only stringing her along.â Now Petyr was dead serious. It was true, you had talked about this often since he was a regular you got to know him better and he had soon told you about his sweet Katia.
While his friend chanted âfoolâ like a mantra in the background, you took his bloodied hand in yours, his wound fully healed.
âPetyr, how do you think sheâs gonna react when she learns that there hasnât been any delay to her letters but youâre just ignoring her? Besides, you should let her make this decision too. Who knows, sheâll surprise you.â Squeezing his hand you turned to let your words settle and to put away your utensils. You knew you had given him so much food for thought so you didnât address the subject anymore. His friend helped him off the table and thatâs when you noticed that he was injured too. He had a pretty nasty cut on his lower lip and there was already a bruise forming on his temple.
âPetyr, you can sit on my chair while I take care of your friend. You should be fine but for at least a while donât stress your body.â
Mentally making a list of the things you need to tend to this kind of wound and where you kept them, you started collecting before heading back to them.
Petyr had sat down but his friend was still standing.
âYou donât have to lie down if you donât want to, but unless you donât want me to go take a ladder or something, it would be best if you sat on the table.â You gave him your best reassuring smile as you mixed the healing paste. Sometimes, men didnât like to put themselves in a vulnerable position with someone they didnât know and had learned to fear. He wasnât that badly hurt and it would only take a couple of seconds to fix but not every oprichniki was comfortable with being healed by Grisha power. So the paste would do your job for you. It would take longer, sure and it would also sting a lot more but at least heâd be healed at last.
After looking at you for a little while, the blond man did as you instructed, giving you a dazzling smile in return when you settled between his legs to fix his cut.
âThe name is Nikolai or handsome if you prefer.â It was not the first time a wounded soldier tried to flirt with you. IT didnât bother you, you found them amusing more than anything and you knew it was the allure of someone taking care of them speaking more than any real interest.
âLetâs hope you wonât be around here much for me to learn your name.â
âIâll have to find another way to make myself unforgettable then.â He winked at you before hopping off the table.
You didnât address his words, only gave them the paste you had prepared. It would prevent any wound from being infected and would be able to cure small cuts and bruises if applied for a couple of days. With that, you sent them both on their way. Petyr waving you goodbye while Nikolai sent you another wink.
And so this was how it all started.
Mr. "Perfect face"
Mr. "Here to stay"
Mr. "Looked me in the eye and told me you would never go away"
Everything was right
Despite your fellow Grisha, military life could be a bit alienating. Which sounded like a paradox, sure, but everyone had their own way of processing trauma and emotions and of course there were plenty of those during the war. If the best way to come to terms with everything that happened was to distance yourself from others and try to find the solution in solitude, it could get to the point where youâd feel alone in a room full of people.
To get a little respite, youâd usually go on a long walk or resort to stargaze. Sometimes, depending on where you were posted, it wasnât safe to leave the campsite. So, thatâs how Nikolai found you one night. Even he had to take a breather once in a while. Being a different version of yourself based on who youâre interlocutor was must be exhausting. Of course, you didnât know this. You knew nothing about Nikolai at that point if not that he was Petyrâs friend and a socialite, according to other soldiers.
He seemed to be at the centre of gossip no matter what group of people you found yourself with and there also seemed to be a consensus about him. Everyone liked him. Even if it was rare for some Grisha to appreciate oprichniki, you knew they somewhat respected him because if they didnât praise him out loud, they didnât speak ill of him either.
âNot a fan of crowds, are you?â he announced his presence before sitting down beside you.
âI love them, I really do. Itâs just that sometimes it gets too much.â
âYeah, I know how you feel.â
âYou do? Everyone seems to think youâre a socialite.â
âItâs what I want them to think but alas, I enjoy being more complex and multifaceted than that.â He lightly bumped your shoulder with his, eyes aflame with mischief.
âI bet.â you simply smirked. Despite how everyone seemed to think they knew him, you got the peculiar vibe from him, like there was a lot more to him than what he let everyone see.
âNo one seems to know much about you.â
âMaybe youâve talked to the wrong people.â
âWell, then I guess itâs better if I got straight to the source, donât you think?â
âThat will surely be a better start. Not sure youâll find what youâre looking for though.â
âWeâll see.â
That night had been the first of many. It had become a sort of an unspoken arrangement between the two of you. While it didnât last long, you sensed that you got to know him better than everyone. There was something about late nights meetings under the stars that prompted deep and meaningful conversations. It wasnât hard to form a solid bond with him after a few nights.
The conversations werenât always personal in the conventional sense. Youâd often stray and talk about the most bizarre things. Like why something had the name it had or how cool itâd be if it was possible to pass through surfaces, which led to imagine all the uncomfortable situations one could find themselves in if they were to simply go into a room through its wall.
Nikolai was witty, overly confident and ambitious and he knew a lot of things. You always wondered how he had learned them since he was so young and been in the army for a couple of years already. But Nikolai was never too forward on certain topics, his family and childhood being some of those. You understood, those were sore subjects for you too. So you never insisted. It was much more interesting to listen to him rumble about impossible future projects of his, like a flying ship.
"When people say impossible, they usually mean improbable." Heâd say whenever youâd point it out to him. Somehow, despite the absolute absurdity of them, the sheer confidence that he seemed to constantly exude, made you consider the possibility of his success.
You got the distinct feeling that there was nothing this man couldnât do.
But that was when I got to know Mr. "Change of heart"
Mr. "Leaves me all alone," I fall apart
It takes everything in me just to get up each day
But it's wonderful to see that you're okay
But, alas, as all things do, these encounters of yours also got to an end. You knew it would happen, you were both soldiers so your lives were both heavily characterised by uncertainty after all. However, you were not prepared for it to end so abruptly though. And without an apparent reason. Because Nikolaiâs unit hadnât been posted elsewhere and he hadnât been fatally wounded. You would have heard of it were that the case. But it wasnât.
You thought that he had come to cherish your nightly encounters too. Some of those had been full of his promises. How heâd love for you to be around when heâd eventually find the time to work on his ideas. How you had been a nice surprise, a most interesting person among so many dull idiots you were surrounded by every day. How heâd come to value your opinions and presence in his life and that he was going to find a way to make sure that that would never change. Promises that turned to be empty.
You had never allowed yourself to fully believe him. It wasnât the first time that a boy had made the same kind of promises but Nikolai looked sincere. Honest enough to be believable. But, of course, you had been wrong.
You didnât realise just how much you had come to rely on him until he was gone. You tried to keep your mind off him and luckily the perfect distraction came your way. The Darkling had scheduled an attack on the enemyâs army and had posted you to be on the field to take care of everyone promptly. You had never been more grateful to the man, even after he had given her a home and a purpose.
Ever since your first encounter with Nikolai, you had thought it had been a blessing. However, you had soon changed your mind and now considered a curse more than anything. Why? Because as soon as you got to the field you couldnât help but scour the troops for a familiar mop of blond hair. Many looked like him and being this far you couldnât be sure that he wasnât one of them but you certainly despised the leap your heart made every time though. That was a distraction you couldnât afford. Besides, it wasnât smart to let your heart get involved in times of war.
The battle began, Inferni and Squallers were working together to impair the enemyâs visual so they couldnât shoot or use their cannons while the First Army marched after them to swap in as soon as the air cleared to catch the enemy by surprise. While your role wasnât active per se, you were a Corporalki after all, and even if you had been specifically trained as Healer, you had also got one of your friends to teach you the basics of an Heartrenderâs work. You werenât a powerful one but you could hold your ground in a fight. Especially since they werenât expecting you. And you were still far from any real threat.
The battle dragged on and soon there were wounded soldiers that needed your attention. You hated this kind of work, it was messy and dirty and had to be quick because spending too much time on one soldier could mean dooming another to death. You were accustomed to it by now and soon found a rhythm focusing on ensuring everyoneâs survival and not bothering with the aesthetic side of healing. That could be taken care of later if they wanted to.
As soon as your eyes fell onto a crouched figure you sprinted towards them. It was dirty and you didnât recognize them but you got the feeling it was a life or death situation. Oh, how you wanted to be wrong.
The person crouching turned out to be Nikolai and he wasnât alone. He was kneeling beside someone, Petyr.
âWhere are you hurt?â you hurriedly asked as you tried to assess the damage. His uniform was dirty and full of blood but you couldnât figure out where it was coming from. Trying to answer you, Petyr opened his mouth only to let out the most gruesome gurgling sound as his respiratory tract was flooded by blood.
âHe got shot in the gut.â Nikolai offered.
âIs the bullet still inside?â Opening his uniform jacket you tore a piece from his shirt to use it to put pressure on the wound.
âItâs too late,â Nikolai uttered.
âNo.â You strongly refused as you removed the cloth and focused on the wound. His heart was straightening and he had already lost a lot of blood. If the bullet was still inside that it was going to be a problem, if it wasnât then you still had a fighting chance.
âI removed it earlier.â So that was why he had lost so much blood. Nodding your head to show that you had heard him, you set out to stop the internal bleeding. Slowing his heartbeat so that it was pumping less blood and thus eased your endeavour. You were still in the middle of the field and while you were keeping up with the warfare but in the back of your mind, you registered the sounds of screaming and of gunshots getting closer. A bullet hit you in the shoulder propelling you forward over Petyrâs body. Grishaâs kefta were bulletproof so you werenât worried for your incolumity but for the harsh movement you had made.
Leaning back, you heard Nikolai calling for you but your eyes were trained on Petyr. You tried to listen for his heartbeat but could only hear two instead of three. Nikolai, who had never left your side, immediately understood what had happened by the fall of your shoulders and the tensing of your hands.
He kept calling for you but the only thing you could focus on was that you had let your friend down. Now there will be one more family crying for a loss, another girl mourning a lost loved one. And it was all your fault. It was because of you that Petyr wouldnât live to see another day, to write another letter or to fight another battle. It was on you.
The details of what happened next were a bit blurred. Someway you must have found your way back to the campsite. Whether you did on your own after tending to everyone else, you didnât know. Your memories picked up after you woke up in your tent. Someone was calling your name, saying that the Darkling wanted to see you.
Mechanically you raised and made your way to the Darklingâs tent but your mind was elsewhere. Your thoughts were plagued by Petyrâs face, by that godforsaken sound he made when he tried to speak. The realisation that he was gone hit you like a wall of brick that would have made you stumble if you weren'tâ sat in front of the Darklingâs desk. Whether he was speaking and stopped after seeing the forlorn look in your eyes or he hadnât been speaking at all, you didnât realize. You did hear him say that you were going to be posted somewhere. Under different circumstances you have said something, anything to not let him send you away. Your mind immediately went to Nikolai. Youâd be leaving him behind along with the campsite.
However, you now realised that you had already lost him. Losing Petyr had been the last thing that had completely severed your bond. There was no turning back now and part of you was grateful.
Hello Mr. "Perfectly fine"
How's your heart after breaking mine?
I've been Miss "Misery" since your goodbye
And you're Mr. "Perfectly fine"
You couldnât know, of course, but Nikolai had left not long after you did. Albeit for a different reason. He had finally earned the Major rank and as such, he took a step back from military life deciding that his skill would be better suited for a life on the sea. Assuring Ravka the supply she needed but in ways that werenât exactly suitable for a prince but worked just fine for a privateer. And thus Sturmhond came to life.
As for you, you kept doing your job at your new post but were relieved when a letter came from the Darkling instructing that you were needed at the Little Palace. Part of you had relegated Nikolai to that part of your mind where the unmentionable was, however, a traitor thought whispered that maybe there was a chance that you could see him at the royal grounds. Sure, the possibilities were close to zero but it was still possible, right?
No.
You already were ashamed of the fact that youâre still suffering because of him. And yes, you missed him but you werenât going to indulge the pathetic hope of seeing him again.
He doesnât want to see you. If he did, he would have already found you. Or write you a letter if he couldnât, but he didnât.
You were right. You knew you were, nonetheless, the thought only brought you a bittersweet feeling.
You found the Little Palace just how youâd left it and yet it seemed changed in a way. The insane amount of work you found there waiting for you helped you drown the feeling that it was you that had changed.
Months passed this way, sometimes the Darkling would post you with him or outside the Little Palace. All in all, youâve kept busy. When news of the little prince leaving the Palace reached you, you let it wash over you. It wasnât like it mattered much, whether he was a few feet away or in another nation, Nikolai wasnât part of your life either way.
When the whole expansion of the Fold happened, you were stationed at the Little Palace. Chaos and terror ensued as soon as the news reached the capital making most of the Grisha flee. Most of them went looking for the Darkling while others simply ran away and hid. You were amongst the first group.
Soon, your life was radically changed. The shift in the Darkling was palpable and it didnât have anything to do with the scars on his face. You had tried your best to heal them and Genya to tailor them away but somehow, they could not be removed. It was an unsettling thing to realize that they didnât take away his beauty. One could even say that they enhanced his attractiveness.
He was certainly more powerful. None of you knew what had happened in the Fold that day, just that the Sun Summoner had fled and that there were no survivors apart from him. However, as your journey in pursuit of Alina dragged on, you were soon witnesses of his newfound power.
The nichevoâya, he called them.
He had always been immensely powerful. One of a kind. But this- this was different. And as dread settled among your group as you watched them in action, realisation sat heavily on your shoulders.
He soon found a trail and traced Alina in Novyi Zem and set out to reach the island by hiring Sturmhondâs crew. He was a famous pirate after all and despite his unreliability, the Darkling was sure that as long as he got his money, he wouldn't be a problem.
In the round trip, you didnât see much of the captain anyway. Some members of his crew were amiable enough, particularly the Yul-Baatar twins. You had even asked Tamar to spar with you from time to time. Your lessons with Botnik were a distant memory and you knew that mastering combat training skills could increase your chance at survival.
When Alina and Mal were held captive though, thatâs when Sturmhond made an appearance. He looked younger than youâd thought and there was something oddly familiar in the way he held himself. Still, you didn't talk with him much. Your job was to take care of Alina and so you spent most of your time in her room.
It wasnât until the Darkling asked Mal to track Rusalye and consequently spent more time with Alina that you had a chance to talk with him. It was during one of your night shifts when he approached you, the Darkling had wanted some of his to always be patrolling the ship.
âWhat could possibly make a little thing like you be amidst this wretched company?â
âItâs all a matter of perspective, I guess.â
âThe thrill of adventure?â
âThereâs plenty of it everywhere you go if youâre Grisha, even if you just go on a stroll.â
âIs that why you follow him?â
âI owe everything to him.â
âIâm sure you realize your role in this.â
âOf course I do. Iâm not some naive girl who has a crush on her general.â
âAh, so who, pray tell, do you have a crush on then, beautiful lady?â
âYouâre certainly noisy for a pirate.â
âPrivateer,â he corrected you, âthereâs not much to do around here is it?â
âNot if you have everyone taking care of it, no.â
âAmuse me.â
âIt isnât wise to let the heart get involved in times of war.â That was all you were willing to share. Yes, he was handsome. Yes, the twinkle in his eyes was oddly familiar but he was a stranger. A dangerous one.
âThose sound like words spoken from experience.â
âMaybe.â
âWell, Iâd say itâs no fun to only think about war. Life is so much more.â
âBelieve me, if I could, itâd be the last thing on my mind. But, alas, l donât have the privilege to do so.â
You had already lost too much time speaking with him. If someone were to see you or tell the Darkling youâd be in trouble. And you had made it your goal to never put yourself on the path of the Darklingâs anger. So you excused yourself and went back to your rounds.
If only you had stayed and talked to him more maybe you would have understood what was about to happen. Maybe you would have had an enkindling of Sturmhondâs plans. Instead, you were taken by surprise, just like everyone in your group, when Rusalye was spot and a shot was fired. You had found yourself in the uncomfortable position of having to fight against people you had grown to like.
âI donât want to hurt you, y/n,â Tamar warned you as you stood face to face on the sinking ship dock. Her trusted axes in her hands while your hands were raised ready to attack.
âI donât want to hurt you either.â
âThen you donât have to. Come with us.â Her proposition made you gasp.
âThat would be treason,â you whispered hoping that the Darkling wasnât around to hear you. A shiver ran through you as you thought of the punishment heâd give you for even thinking about leaving his side.
âThen you leave me no choice.â She said lowering her arms. Was that guilt you heard in her voice?
Before you could voice your question though, she shouted for her brother and not even a second later, you felt your body grow still. Your eyebrows faltered as you felt your heartbeat slow down.
They were Grisha.
They must have seen you realise because you heard Tamar apologize before everything went black.
Mr. "Never told me why"
He goes about his day
Forgets he ever even heard my name
Well, I thought you might be different than the rest, I guess you're all the same
You didnât stay out for long though. As soon as Sturmhondâs crew had left the Darklingâs ship and had safely made it onto the Volkvolny, the privateer had asked for you to be awakened.
There wasnât enough light for you to realize you were on another ship, what alerted you of your new situation were your hands. They had bound them behind your back. Immediately you started to struggle, hoping to wiggle out of the restraints. To no avail though. Huffing out in frustration, you settled for looking around you and see if there was something you could use. Thatâs when you noticed him.
âRelease me- this instant, or else-â
âOr what? Youâre a Healer. Not exactly a violent job, is it?â Sturmhond interrupted you, a smirk on his face since he had the upper hand.
âI donât need my powers to kick you in the ass, do I?â He laughed but didnât look remotely threatened. Rather amused, actually.
âPlease, you have to let me go. Heâll kill me if-â Panic started to build as you realized that there was no way you could successfully escape.
âHe wonât touch you.â A solemn glow took over his eyes. âHe wonât ever hurt you again, you have my word.â He promised, looking subtly at your left shoulder. You winced as you realized that he must have seen your scars. The ones left by the Darklingâs nicheâvoya.
âHow can I know if youâre trustworthy? You donât exactly have a good score, you know?â
âYouâre going to find out soon enough. Donât worry.â
Of course, he didnât bother offering further explanations. Heâd left it at that. You werenât a captive per se but he left your hands bound, only freeing them when you needed to eat or relieve yourself.
Fruitless were your efforts in making you tell more. He often ate with you and would check in at least twice a day but that was it.
It wasnât until after you had landed after that forsaken vehicle of his had gotten you through the Fold that you understood. His coming out as Nikolai Lanstov, prince and second in line for the Ravkan throne, had shaken you all to your core. However, you doubted that it had sent a pang to the othersâ hearts as it did with yours.
Nikolai Lantsov. The man you had been dreaming about, the one that had left you behind without any sort of explanations, the one you missed so dearly, had been by your side all this time.
You werenât sure how you felt. It made sense now why his eyes looked familiar and his posture. You then connected that the vehicle you had used in the Fold had been one of the many projects he used to geek about with you. It tasted a lot like betrayal. Not because he had lied to you about his name but because he had tried to get close to you again and had managed to somehow break that growing bond again.
'Cause I hear he's got his arm 'round a brand-new girl
I've been pickin' up my heart, he's been pickin' up her
So dignified in your well-pressed suit
So strategized, all the eyes on you
Oh, he's so smug, Mr. "Always wins"
So far above me in every sense
So far above feeling anything
Even if his secret had been outed thus causing some shift in the dynamics between Nikolai and the two new members of his crew - you suspected Mal was closer to punching him every second that passed- not much had changed for you.
On the outside, you pretty much looked like a prisoner. Albeit a very clean one. You rode with them, hands still bound, scowl ever-present on your face.
Nikolai had not come to see you ever since that night after the Fold. And now it had been almost a week since you had started your journey back to the capital. Whether this was all part of his plan to make you look the part of the captive even more or he was just gutless, you didn't know. It was working either way though.
You liked to think that his reason was simply that he didn't care. He had far too much on his plate right now as it was. Going back to court after years of absence while also making claims to the throne and trying to sway the Sun Summoner your way. It was no easy feat. But hadn't he always liked to say that impossible often meant improbable? A lot of things had changed since that night but even so, you'd still pose your bet on him that he'd be able to achieve anything he set his mind to.
It wasn't exactly that thinking this way brought you actual comfort. Of course, not. But it was better than foolishly hoping for him to still care about you the way you did for him. After all, he had sent plenty of signals that pointed in the other direction.
But then why did he kidnap you? Why take you with him? You weren't that close to the Darkling to be of any use to Nikolai in that way. And, as a matter of fact, no one had come to interrogate you regarding his plans or whereabouts. Then why?
You still couldn't figure it out.
Some days your anger shifted more to frustration and you were ounces away from asking for him yourself. Almost as if he had heard you though, he gave you the final push.
It was the usual day, Nikolai and Alina were riding in the carriage, stopping in every village we passed to meet with the locals. However, this time, before climbing back into the carriage, they kissed.
You were too far to figure out who started it and the details. The gist of it was enough though.
You most certainly were a fool. Still thinking about a guy who didn't give two shits about you, who had kidnapped you putting you in a dangerous situation and you were still wondering whether he felt something for you or not? Pathetic.
You had to do something about your situation and quickly too. Officially, you were a traitor. You had fled and joined the Darkling, that wouldn't make you look good in front of the king. He was a lousy bastard anyway and will probably sentence you to death to set an example. You hadn't survived so much shit to end up at the end of a rope.
So, even though you had initially thought against it since you were so close to home, you decided to escape. You were already headed towards certain death so what was the worst that could happen?
Your hands were left unbound when you were in your tent. One less problem to solve. Closing your eyes, you focused on listening for any nearby heartbeats. You heard two, those of the guards posted outside your tent. Maybe you could find an excuse to call them inside, put them to sleep and then slip away.
That was not exactly what your powers were for but you were desperate. You had to at least try.
And so you did. You called them in and immediately set out to slow their heartbeats. You had almost succeeded in putting them under when someone else slipped in. The last person you wanted to see.
"Am I that bad of a host?"
You didn't meet his ruse though, you knew it would make you lose focus.
"I'm afraid I have to ask you to release my soldiers." As soon as he said it though, they fell unconscious at last. Your chest was heaving by now, using so much power in such a different way was costing you. But you couldn't back down now. It was one on one and you were Grisha and a woman scorned. He stood no chance.
"Move out of my way, your highness."
"I'm afraid I can't do that."
"You can or I can make you. Your choice." The venom in your voice was unmistakable and it took him by surprise. He gave you a curious look tilting his head to the side like he was seeing you for the first time over again.
"I didn't realize ruthlessness was one of your personality traits."
"You know nothing about me," you seethed. The tip of your fingers flexed, the tension in the room could be cut with a knife and you were already weary.
"It may have been a while y/n, but I like to think I know a good deal about you."
"And I would like to completely erase this last year but you don't hear me yap about how shitty it has been, do you?"
"You never did like opening up much."
"I'm well past the point of sentimentalism, Nikolai. It is coming far too late anyway. And whatever my feelings for you may be, I won't let you put my life on the line." Your posture straightened, stance ready for battle.
His eyes flashed, jaw clenched. His hands closed in fists and he almost looked hurt. But why would he?
"Is that what you think all of this is?" Nikolai always acted aloof. He was always composed and dignified. You had thought it was for his insane amount of self-confidence but now you understood it was for how he was raised. But you recognised the pout on his lips. It was the expression heâd always have whenever he tried to get something from getting to him. To prevent himself from showing emotions.
"You're holding me captive while you go around Ravka parading your latest conquest, flashing your return everywhere. I don't know why you're doing this but I don't care. I've stopped waiting around for you and I certainly won't let your father put me to death."
"You think I'd let him?"
"So you want to do this?" you threw your hands up in exasperation, "Fine. You really want to know what I think?"
"Be my guest."
"I think that the Nikolai I knew would have left out of the blue without so much as a letter. I think that the Nikolai I knew was ready to go to any length to achieve what he believed in. However, I thought that the Nikolai I knew cared about me and what we had but look at me now. So maybe, I know nothing at all."
"You certainly do seem to know a lot of things. But youâre not wrong."
"If this is the way you care about me," I gesture to my tent, "then I'm not sure I want this Nikolai to care for me."
âThis,â he said, emulating your gesture, âis to keep you safe. This is my way to ensure that if the Darkling got news of your whereabouts, heâd be sure not to think you willingly left his side and betrayed him.â
âThatâs because I didnât!â You raised your voice in outrage. The nerve of this man.
âSpare me your indignation. I know you hate being at his beck and call, to do his dirty work and be constantly surrounded by warfare.â
âDo not presume to speak for me.â You snapped. You knew it was best to keep a cool head but his cockiness was getting on your nerves.
âDidnât you? Hate it, I mean.â
âWeâre at war, Nikolai. Being away or close to the Darkling wonât change that. At least with him, I was safe.â
âYou canât be that delusional to think that he was protecting you.â He scoffed at your words as if they were the most absurd thing he had ever heard.
âAnd you canât be that delusional to think that bringing me back wonât result in your father killing me.â You fired back shifting on your feet. He winced as if you had physically hurt him.
âYou have so little faith in me?â His voice was just above a whisper and you knew that your words had struck a chord.
âHow can I have any, Nikolai?â your voice softened a bit. âOne day youâre telling me how much you value my opinion, you promise me a future where Iâd be the first to see your project come to life and then you left. You just left, Nikolai.â And when I was starting to make my peace with it thatâs when you come back? Also, letâs not forget about my abduction and your flirting with Alina.â
âSo yes, I donât trust you.â You concluded, crossing your arms on your chest with finality. He just stared at you for the longest time. If someone would come in now, theyâd think you were in the middle of a staring contest. Then he sighed and started talking.
âI had to go away. I had already pushed my parentsâ limits when I said I wanted to be part of the infantry. So, one day I got a letter written by my father personally and I knew that my time was up. I had been Nikolai for too long, now I had to start being a Lantsov prince.â His eyes were on the ground now, shame making her way in his words.
âSo thatâs what I did,â he went as he started pacing,âI went to Kerch to study, just like my father wanted. I did what he asked, he couldnât reproach me anything now. I could never stay too still though, a life of adventure was calling me and I could not ignore it. It was only then that I realized that I could do so much more than sitting in a class, to realistically help Ravka.â
âI couldnât take you with me. You had such a larger role to play in the army and besides, there wasnât much I could offer you. So yes, I left. I left thinking that I would find my way back to you eventually.â He had stopped by now, regret was swirling in his shining orbs as he looked at you.
âYou could have told me.â You contestated, taken back by all the information he gave you. âI would have waited for you.â A whispered promise for something that would never be now.
âI was afraid, y/n. Thatâs not my best moment, I know and no number of apologies could ever make it right. But I was afraid of your answer. I knew Iâd be asking for a lot and letâs be honest-â the desperation in his tone was evident now, he had unconsciously started to lean towards you but you knew what he was about to say.
âYou werenât sure if the future you were offering me would just end up with me being your mistress, am I right?â Your tone hardened but despite the insulting implication of what you said, you werenât made at him.
âIâm a prince, y/n. We do not marry for love and this country cannot afford to disregard the advantages that a political union could bring.â
His honesty was as refreshing as it was unsettling. He was right. As soon as you had learned he was a prince, you realized just what kind of future you could have with him. But then he left and that problem did not exist anymore. Neither of you spoke, both of you were seizing the other. You had laid it all out, defences were down putting you both in a vulnerable position.
And someday maybe you'll miss me
âYou should have talked to me, Nikolai. We could have figured it out together. If it came to being your mistress to stay with you, then that was my decision to make.â You said softly after a while. It pained for you to say this, you would have never thought that getting closure would hurt this much.
Tears streamed on both of your faces, in front of you had been laid what your future could have looked like. It was everything you had wanted, you could still do your job and have the man of your dreams. You were surprised to find that you wouldnât mind sharing him with his supposed wife. You had been at court for enough time to know how most marriages went. If he assured you it was only a diplomatic affair but that his heart was yours, that would have been enough. Who knows, maybe sheâll get a lover too.
But now⊠now you didnât know if you could ignore everything that happened. You did not trust him nor could you ignore how hurt you were by his lack of communication and thus of trust in you.
But by then, you'll be Mr. "Too late"
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Jealous Boy (MGG Request)
Request: Jealous sex with Matthew and itâs just filled with pure filth (i.e degradation, spitting etc) pls
A/N: Thank you for sending in this request, anon! We do love some jealous sex! I would have posted this earlier but I took a looong break today which I shouldnât have but here we are back to posting in the a.m. hours. If the writing seems off you know why but I corrected as much as I could find now and as per usual will probably go back and edit later when I find mistakes while reading through LOL Hope you enjoy and happy reading đ„ł
Couple: Dom!MGG/Fem!reader
Category: Smut (NSFW 18+)
Content warning: Clubbing, grinding dancing with stranger, rough sex, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, oral (male receiving), hair pulling, slapping, spitting, choking, spanking, creampie, swearing
Word count: 3k
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For weeks on end you insisted Matthew and you should go to this new club in downtown LA. You knew clubbing wasnât really his scene anymore but you wanted to spend your Saturday night dancing the worries of the week away. He couldnât say no to you forever, so he eventually said yes.
You stared in the mirror one last time trying to fix your hair the way you liked it. You were taking the longest time to get ready because you hadnât been to a club in a long time and wanted to make sure you were the hottest thing insight. Matthew was waiting for you downstairs. You had told him you only needed five more minutes but you had been upstairs for twenty.
âY/N, are you almost done?â He called from downstairs.
âYeah, babe. Iâm coming right now,â you shouted.
âIâll believe it when I see it,â he shouted back.
You chuckled and decided you had kept him waiting for long enough. You grabbed your purse off the bed and bolted out the bedroom door to meet him downstairs. You ran downstairs to see him standing by the front door with his shoes on and keys in his hand.
He bit his bottom lip as he watched you come down the stairs. You didnât know if he was fixated on how your low cut top was making your boobs pop out or if it was how nicely your jeans hugged your legs. You went up to him and broke him out of his stare by giving him a kiss.
âHow do I look?â You asked.
âFucking amazing,â he said.
You giggled. âI guess weâll both be the hottest thing at the club.â
He chuckled. âYou beat me by a mile with the way you look.â
You felt him grab your ass and squeeze it. You giggled before he gave you another kiss. You pushed him away before he got too carried away.
âSave that energy for tonight, tiger,â you joked.
âI mean we donât have to go to the club,â he said.
You pouted. âYou already said we could and I really want to.â
âIâm joking, weâre still going to go. I hope everyone keeps their hands to themselves there though,â he said.
âNo need to worry, babes. Iâm sure everyone will keep their hands to themselves,â you assured him.
He smiled and kissed you one last time before the both of you headed outside to the car. You two quickly started your journey into the downtown scene. You didnât even realize how late it was getting until you saw the time in the car. It was nearing 11 p.m. You didnât plan to stay out late especially since it wasnât Matthewâs scene and you didnât want him to go further out of his comfort zone than he already was.
He parked in a parking garage near the club. You eagerly hopped out and ran to the driverâs side. As soon as he stepped out of the car you grabbed his hand so you two could get a move on it. He laughed at your eagerness as you basically dragged him out of the parking garage.
âIâm telling you youâre going to fall in love with the club scene again,â you said.
âI think Iâm too old for the club scene,â he said.
âUgh weâre both too old for the club scene but it doesnât mean we canât have a good time,â you said.
He chuckled. âBut you have way more energy than I do. Plus you have a good knee.â
You giggled. âIâve seen you dance and you still have it in you.â
You two reached the club in no time with your pep in your step. You swore it was further from where he had parked the car. You felt bad for dragging Matthew by his arm the whole way because you knew how he took his time while walking. You were just glad you were holding his hand or else heâd probably still be in the parking garage.
To your surprise there wasnât much of a line to wait in. You two took your place in line and waited for the few people in front of you to go in. You saw five guys walk out and got excited. The more people who left the faster you two could get in. They walked by you two as they left the club.
You heard them whispering to each other but you couldnât make out what they were saying. Out of the corner of your eye you could see Matthew looking at them as they walked by. He kept looking at them as they walked out of sight. He finally looked away from their direction and rolled his eyes. You raised a questionable eyebrow at his expression.
âIs there something wrong?â You asked.
âThey were looking at you and whispering to each other,â he said.
âSo what?â You asked.
âThey were looking at your ass,â he said.
âUgh just ignore them,â you said.
âItâs hard ignoring five guys looking and talking about your ass, Y/N,â he said.
âJust forget about them,â you insisted.
He sighed as he dropped the subject for your sake. You were glad he did because you two had reached the front of the line. You took out your I.D. to show the bouncer and so did Matthew. The bouncer let you two in. You immediately walked towards the dance floor. The music was blasting and you could feel the beat running through your body.
You looked back at Matthew who was following you close behind. He looked as if he was still thinking about the incident outside. You sighed and walked up to him. You grabbed his hands.
âCan you look as if you have energy, please?â You asked.
âHow about I get you a drink and you can show me your moves on the dance floor?â He suggested.
âFine, Iâll be here waiting,â you said.
He gave you a kiss before walking over to the bar. You watched him walk away and stayed in your spot as you told him you would. You soon heard your favourite song blasting on the DJ speakers. You looked back at the bar and saw Matthew still waiting to tell the bartender his order.
You decided you had enough time to dance to the song. You rushed to the dance floor and started to slowly dance to it. You were trying to build your confidence up to fully show your moves. You swaying your hips and being alone on the dance floor attracted eyes to you. One of those eyes was brave enough to approach you. A guy danced up to you with a beaming smile on his face.
âYouâve got some serious moves,â he complimented.
âThank you. Youâre not bad yourself,â you said.
âDo you always move your hips like that?â He asked.
âOnly to this song. Itâs my favourite song,â you said.
âNo way. My hips move like that to this song as well,â he said.
âOh really?â You said.
âYeah. Turn around and Iâll show you. I promise not to do any funny business,â he said.
You narrowed your eyes at him to see if he was trustworthy. You didnât think it would cause any harm if you danced with someone else for just a second. You turned around and continued to dance as you felt him push up against you.
âWow, you really do love this song,â he said.
âI told you,â you said.
You felt him place his hands on your hips. You felt him gently pull you in closer to him and rested his head on the side of yours. You looked back at him with a suspicious look.
âI thought no funny business?â You asked.
âSorry, youâre right. I got carried away in how well you dance,â he said.
âYou think youâre slick huh?â You asked.
He chuckled. âMaybe a little.â
You felt your arm get jerked away from the guy you were dancing with. You didnât even have to turn around to know it was Matthew. You looked anyway and saw how upset he looked at the guy. The guy you were dancing with put his hands up in a self-defence position before backing away completely.
Matthew then turned his attention back to you. You knew he was in a jealous rage just by the way his eyes were wild. You looked at his free hand and didnât see a drink in it. He must have watched your every move from the bar and didnât bother ordering the drink. He was fuming.
âWeâre leaving now,â he said.
âBecause I was dancing with someone?â You asked.
âYes,â he said.
âIt wasnât what it looked like,â you said.
âSo you werenât dancing with him? I just imagined the whole thing?â He asked.
âWell, yeah but-â
âWeâre going.â
He dragged you by the arm all the way out of the club. You pouted and sighed as you two walked out. You wanted to resist but you didnât want him to be any more upset than he already was. You knew how he got when he was jealous and you didnât want to provoke him any more than you had. You started to think of what would happen when you two got home.
The car ride back was quiet but he didnât seem as upset anymore. His eyebrows were still furrowed as he drove. You didnât think he was going to argue about what happened any further. Besides he wasnât the arguing type regardless.
As soon as you two walked through the front door, you kicked off your heels and made your way upstairs. He was still quiet and didnât pay you much mind. You expected him to cool down soon and you two could get past the night.
You went to the bathroom and took off your makeup. As you wiped your face with your makeup wipe you could hear Matthew walking up the stairs. You sighed and decided it was time you apologized to him for dancing with that guy. His silence was killing you and he knew it was.
You walked out of the bathroom as soon as he walked into the bedroom. Before you uttered a word he gestured with his fingers for you to come to him. You obeyed and walked up to him.
âMatthew, I just wanted-â
âOn your knees.â
âWhat?â
âYou want to make it up to me? Get on your knees.â
You immediately dropped to your knees. He forcibly stuck his fingers in your mouth to open it up wide. You opened it up as wide as possible as you watched him undo his pants. He pulled down his pants along with his underwear. His dick sprung up in front of you.
âIf you want to act like a whore youâre going to be a whore for me,â he said before shoving his dick in your mouth.
You choked as his dick reached the back of your throat. He grabbed your hair and pulled your hair back and forth so your head could bob on his dick. Your hands found your way to your top and you pulled it down to reveal your breasts.
He saw what you did and pulled your hair to take you off his dick. He slapped you across your face before grabbing your face to pull you up to stand. He used his other hand to roughly squeeze your breast. You let out a yelp as he continued to roughly massage it.
âIs this what you wanted to do at the club? Show everyone how much of a slut you are?â He asked.
âNo,â you responded.
He slapped you on your cheek again before grabbing your neck. He pulled you closer to him so you were right in front of his face. You saw the rage still in his eyes but there was also the look of needing you as well. Whenever he got like this you knew you were in for some amazing rough sex.
âThatâs all you have to say for yourself? No? I donât fucking believe you,â he said.
âI only belong to you,â you said.
âIs that right? Then why were you such a whore tonight?â He asked.
âI was being a bad whore. I think I should be punished for it,â you said.
âYou do?â He asked.
âOf course,â you said.
He took his hand off of your neck to pull off your shirt. He slapped your right breast and you yelped. He did it again and you yelped even louder. He squeezed your soar breast and listened as your voice cracked a small scream.
âI donât think this is punishment enough for what you did,â he said.
âSo fuck the shit out of me then,â you said.
âYouâd like that wouldnât you?â He questioned.
âI would,â you said.
He slapped your breast again. âOf fucking course a whore like you would like that.â
âYes I would,â you yelped.
âYouâre a fucking disgusting whore. Turn around,â he demanded.
You swiftly turned around and waited for his next move. He took off your jeans along with your underwear and pulled them all the way down to the floor. You stepped out of them and kicked it aside. He spanked your ass hard and you let out a shriek.
âTell me you fucking love this,â he said.
âI fucking love it,â you said.
He spanked your ass again. âLouder.â
âI fucking love it,â you shrieked.
He grabbed both your arms to place them behind your back. He shoved you forward so you could walk towards the bed. As you reached the edge of the bed, he pulled you close to him so you could feel his dick on your ass.
âShow me how your whore ass grinded on that guy again,â he demanded.
You started to move your hips side to side to appease his request. It was hard to move your hips effectively with his hard dick in the way but you tried your best. You then felt him roughly circle his fingers on your clit. You started moaning loudly and could hardly keep your hips moving properly.
âI know the guy you were grinding on didnât feel as good as I do,â he said.
âH-heâŠGod, no he didnât,â he said.
He pushed you down on the bed face down. He removed his hand from your clit and you could feel him positioning himself behind you. His dick lingered right outside of your opening and you were anticipating its entrance.
âNow you want just one dick?â He asked.
âIâve always wanted your dick and only your dick,â you said.
âTonight you wanted to be a fucking disgusting whore for no reason. I think I need to remind you who you belong to,â he said.
He placed his hand on your face to hold you down in place. You gasped loudly as you felt him ram himself inside of you. You couldnât even make a word escape your mouth properly to tell him how good he was fucking you.
He hovered over your body, his face lowered down to yours. He watched you carefully as you continued to moan out profanities. He spit in your mouth as he saw your mouth gaped open. It landed on the side of your mouth and you let it seep into your mouth before you licked it up completely.
âThatâs right. Be a fucking good whore for me and take that shit,â he said.
You stuck out your tongue and he accepted your request loud and clear. He spit onto your tongue again and you took it into your mouth as you continued to moan. He grabbed your ass and squeezed it as he started to ram into you even harder.
âOh fuck,â you shrieked.
âShut up and take my dick, fucking whore,â he said.
âYes,â you shrieked.
He hooked his index finger onto the corner of your mouth. Him being over you having his way with you made you extremely wet. You could feel his dick slip and slide out of you with ease and you could tell on his face he enjoyed it. He bit his bottom lip and you knew it was a sign he was trying to restrain himself from cumming.
He moved his hand from your face and grabbed your arms to pull you up. He continued to fuck you as you stood in front of him. He used his free hand to grab your neck as his other hand continued to restrain you. He placed his mouth by your ear and you could hear his laboured breaths.
âIâm going to cum in you and your whore pussyâs going to take it,â he said.
âI need your cum inside of me,â you begged.
âYouâre such a fucking desperate cum whore,â he said.
âI am. I fucking am,â you said.
He let out a long groan and you could feel his cum fill you up. You let out a deep moan as you let him finish before he pulled out. He let go of your neck and spanked you on your soar ass again before letting go of your neck.
âTurn around,â he demanded.
You turned around. He grabbed you by your face and pulled you close to him. He wasnât as rough this time but you knew he was still in his zone just by the way he grabbed you by your jaw.
âI thought you would know by now Iâm the jealous type,â he said.
âI do but Iâm the type to like jealous sex,â you said.
âI guess that makes us a perfect pair,â he said.
He leaned in and kissed you. He eased up from the kiss and the darkness from his eyes disappeared in an instant. You smirked at him.
âI guess it does. Does that mean youâre not done with me for the night?â You asked.
âI think the night awaits a lot of different punishments for you,â he said.
You grinned. âCanât wait.â
ââ
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Hi, love your metas and your fic. I think you mentioned somwhere that at the end of BD Aro was trying to prevent the fight. What were his motives? According to Edward, the Volturi are cowards, but I didn't get this feeling. Caius was begging for a battle, the guard vocally proclaimed willingness to die for the cause... hell, Jane had to be restrained from running to Bella and punching her in the throat. And I find it unlikely that their leader is less brave than them. Explain Aro's brain pls
Thank you so much! Thatâs really nice of you to say. And sorry for the late answer.
And explain Aroâs brain, whew. That is a very big question with a very long answer and this post will be a manifesto by the time Iâm done. But you wanted Aroâs brain explained so manifesto it is.
So, before we go anywhere I have to make the distinction between Aro of the books and Aro of the movies. Those two are different people.
Starting with appearance, because casting does a lot for me and if a big deviation is made it better be like Ruth Wilson as Marisa Coulter, which is to say it better fit the character. Also, disclaimer, I think most of Twilight was miscast, and especially the Volturi. Iâm forever dying at Caius looking like Lucius Malfoy. However, this is an Aro post, so weâre highlighting Aro.
Aro of the books is a twenty-something Greek with skin that has petrified and eyes covered in a milky sort of film, which totals to him looking perfect, as all vampires do, yet frail. When he walks it looks like heâs gliding. This is an otherworldly, ancient, inhuman being. Heâs energetic and excitable, yes, but if anything that should add to how very other he is. Casting Michael Sheen is a clear signal that the movies were going in a completely different direction with Aro. Sheen is a great actor who played what he was given perfectly, but what he was given was a very different character.
In New Moon the book, Aro first rejects Edward request because this is Carlisleâs gifted son, and more, this is not what the Volturi do. They are not hitmen. Itâs just a big no all around.
Bella enters, and the Aro she meets is a very polite and gracious man whoâs delighted to see the human still alive, and pleased Carlisleâs son wonât be suicidal anymore. However, Edward fully intended to step into the sunlight in the middle of Volterra, specifically to provoke the Volturi, and he has broken the law with Bella. Further, Edward makes it clear that he fully intends to walk out of Volterra with his human still human, and that sheâll die of old age if he gets his way. Edwardâs contempt of the law could not be more clear. However, Alice shows Aro that Bellaâs fate is sealed, she turns or she dies. The law will be upheld. Aro is glad to hear it, and lets the Cullens all go home.
All in all, itâs a very tense occasion where Edward has put Aro in a difficult position, because heâs trying to force him to kill his best friendâs son, and Aro goes âYES THANK GODâ when Alice finally gives him an out.
New Moon of the movies was not this. Starting with the flashback (because Iâm being thorough), Aro executes a lowly criminal himself.  I object to that, I think thatâs a menial task and Aro doing it himself made the Volturi look less regal, not more. Cut to the present day, Aro rejects Edwardâs request because he doesnât want to waste his gift. We get the whole meeting with Bella, and Aro⊠well I donât know why he does any of the things he does. This guy never mentions his friendship to Carlisle, tries to kill our plucky heroes three times in the space of one minute (one, gives Felix the order to kill Bella, stopped by Edward. Two, moves to decapitate Edward, stopped by Bella. Three, heâs about to eat Bella, stopped by Alice), and when he lets them go it feels terribly convenient.
This was a guy written to be the villain of the series, and it showed.
Cut to Breaking Dawn part Iâs ending scene, and while I love the song choice for the scene, and fully agree that Aro considers misspelling Carlisleâs name to be a capital offense, the scene itself⊠we are presented with a villainous, power-hungry megalomaniac whoâs just waiting to strike against the Cullens.
We then get Breaking Dawn part II, and I havenât seen that movie in years but I remember the fight scene well enough. Aro kills Carlisle with the biggest grin on his face, and gives the go-ahead to his Volturi to kill the surviving Cullens and their witnesses.
Contrast that with canon, where Aroâs first words to Carlisle are «Nothing would make me happier than preserving your life today». Now, heâs making it very clear that this meeting will most likely end with Carlisleâs death, but heâs not happy about it. Heâs certainly not going to kill him with a smile on his face and laughter in his heart.
The movies needed a hammy villain, and thatâs what Michael Sheen played. It is not who Aro is, at all. And heâs not the only character this happened to, but again, this is an Aro post so Iâm not going to start raging like Don Corleone about what they did to my boys.
So, with the movies firmly expelled from the post, letâs look at the Twilight series from Aroâs point of view.
Or, rather, weâll have to start earlier because Aroâs decisions throughout the series are pretty clearly motivated by Carlisle. And that means considering, âwhy is Carlisle so important, anyway?â
Consider these things: one, Aro is gifted with the power of knowing every single thought a person has ever had. He knows your soul. Two, Aro is the leader of the supernatural world, he has been for over a thousand years.
How many friends does a person with that power and in that position have?
Three, who does Aro even come into contact with?
Starting with number three, for Aro itâs going to be 1) criminals, 2) Volturi guard hopefuls, 3) Weirdos like Laurent who are wasting Aroâs time.
(âBut what about the guard!â Well, while we observe close interpersonal relationships between Aro and Jane, and Aro and Renata, and one can assume Corin to be close to the wives, the distinction between Volturi coven and Volturi guard remains. The guards are servants, in some cases beloved servants, but servants nonetheless. It would be inappropriate and weird for Aro to start slumming it with Demetri and Felix)
So, Aro doesnât get out much, which brings us to point two. The people he does meet, and who are willing to entertain a friendship with the Volturi leader, are going to be people who want something. And that might work for some rulers, Louis XIV built Versailles specifically to make his subjects do this for him, but he had something to gain politically from that. Aro does not, his power is supreme without a need to tolerate brown nosers. More, with his own and Marcusâ gifts, heâll know right away that heâs being used for power. He would get nothing out of it.
Finally point one, Aroâs gift. Say that we have a vampire whoâs not a weirdo and who thinks Aroâs a cool dude. Well, the question now is, who would ever want a person in their life who knows all there is to know about them? I wouldn't want anybody to know every thought I've ever had, I certainly would never seek out a person to know me that deeply when I could just go find normal people to be friends with instead. Not to mention how incredibly unequal such a friendship would be.
In short, I donât think Aro has any friends.
Enter Carlisle a very amiable person who cherishes Aro for his personality, and doesnât mind having his mind read. Aro just found a unicorn. Carlisle on his end likes Aro so much that he lives with him for decades. Even if you want to read their relationship as platonic, thatâs still a very strong friendship.
Point being that Carlisle is unbelievably precious to Aro, and so very unique. Aro has lived for over three millennia, and never met anyone like this before. There wonât be another Carlisle.
This in turn makes him willing to stretch as far as he can to preserve that friendship and, as the plot thickens, keep Carlisle alive.
Fast forwards to 2006, and Aro is sitting in Volterra minding his own business when Carlisleâs son walks into town demanding his own execution. He has not committed any crimes. Not only is assisted suicide not something the Volturi even do, but this would ruin Aroâs friendship with Carlisle. Even if Carlisle was miraculously understanding of Aro killing his son (which I canât imagine he would be), this would never leave the air between them. Carlisle could never be around him again after something like that.
So, Aro turns down Edwardâs request. âStupid Volturi man ruining my dramatic suicide, Iâll show him whoâs boss!â Edward replies, and runs shirtless into the sunlight. Iâm sure Aro was just dying, you had âThe Sound of Silenceâ playing as he stared into nothingness because how is this happening to him. A whiplash of an hour later, Bella is alive again, Aro is happy, we can be done with this now, right? Right?!
No, Edward says, we cannot be done with this. Heâs still refusing to turn Bella.
And so we get that whole New Moon exchange where Aro very tellingly shoves the part where Edward WALKED INTO THE SUNLIGHT IN VOLTERRA under the carpet and out of the conversation (for comparison: Irina is executed for false testimony and Bree for breaking a law she didnât know existed), and he even allows Bella to leave human when he could easily have bitten her himself to keep the Cullens honest. This guy went out of his way to be lenient and show the Cullens good faith.
And then a few months later Irina walks into Volterra, bearing memories of what is unmistakably a Cullen immortal child.
Aro may care for Carlisle, but this is the guy who killed his baby sister so heâd still have Marcusâ gift. He will bend far, very far, for those he cares about, but he will not break. Itâs duty above love, Volturi above Aroâs personal preferences. An immortal child is not an offense that can be tolerated, and so itâll be Didyme 2: Aro Kills Someone He Loves Boogaloo.
By now I think it should be quite clear why I think Aro was trying to prevent the fight. Battle would have meant Carlisleâs certain death.
(And thatâs even assuming the Volturi won the fight. With Bella there, there was a chance the Volturi wouldnât prevail. But even before Bella started showing off, Aro was very much hoping this wouldnât be another Didyme situation.)
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students on duty; Bang Chan
warnings: Dom!ClassPresident!Chan; Brat!Fem!reader; classroom sex; spanking; blowjob; face fucking; oral; unprotected sex(stay safe pls); slight hair pulling; spitting; dirty talk; overstimulation; choking; i think thatâs it
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You placed your hand on your boyfriend's thigh, his muscles tensing up immediately at how bold you were. It was no secret you two were dating, the whole school knew, but Chan wasnât as comfortable with being touchy in public as you were, and you took full advantage of his weakness. He tried his best to continue talking to Minho, the teacher was paying more attention to his phone rather than the class, it didnât really bother you though, most days it worked in your favour. âIâd die for Baskin Robbins Maple Nutâ âYeah Iâm sure youâd like some nutâ Minhoâs suggestive comment earned him a playful punch to the arm. When the bell rang the teacher got up and wished everyone a nice weekend before quickly exiting the room, passing the responsibility of the class to Chan, who nudged your hand off of his lap to stand up. Your eyes followed him as he made his way to the front desk of the room.
âYouâre really gonna make him mad Y/nâ Minho turned to you âWhat do you think Iâm trying to do?â you shot back. Minho was the only one of your friend group in your class, and he was well aware of your shenanigans. âWatch thisâ you said, just as Chan was finishing up his short speech, you stood up and instead sat down on Minhoâs lap. The boy didnât seem to mind your âfriendlyâ gesture, the class president was clearly bothered though, shooting glares at you every once in a while.
âAlright everyone, I know youâre dying to go home, so Iâm gonna wrap this up quickly, remember to bring your favourite candy on Monday for the celebration and have a nice weekend- Oh and the students on duty today are Y/n and Iâ he threw a harsh look in your direction. Minho held your waist to lift you up as he got up âWould love to stay and have some fun sweetheart but I think someoneâs not very happy with youâ he tilted his head towards Chan before waving at you with a wink and walking out of the classroom. You started to clean up while the other students left the classroom, waving bye to your friends and pretending you didnât feel the class president staring a hole into the back of your head. As soon as the last person that was in the room left and closed the door Chan walked over to you, pinning your body between his and the desk. You could already feel his hard dick through his pants.
âChannieâ you whined breathily, he was staring daggers into you âDonât try to act like my bitch nowâ you bit your lip, contemplating what to do next just to irk him further. You grazed the outline of his dick in his pants, he grabbed your wrist instantly, turning you around and bending you over the desk causing your skirt to ride up, exposing your thong to him âYou just canât seem to behave can you?â He landed a hard smack onto your ass âYouâre going to count these, got it?â another hard slap âYes sir -One..â slap âtwoâ slap âthreeâ. The sting was intoxicating, he got to 30 before he decided it had been enough for now, you could feel your ass was gonna be bruised the next few days.Â
He turned you around again, pushing you down to your knees. You eagerly took to undoing his belt and zipper, producing a chuckle from you boyfriend. His cock sprang free from the confines of his underwear, your mouth watered at the view, and you took no time to wrap your lips and hands around his shaft, licking the tip before taking him in your mouth fully, making him shiver and sigh in pleasure. âSo hungry for my cock arenât youâ you looked up at him from your position, with each bob of your head you took him deeper into your mouth. He was breathing heavily, relishing in the feeling of your tongue swirling around him. He groaned, grabbing your hair and shoving his cock to the back of your throat, your nose touching his stomach. Tears brimmed your eyes, he was fucking your mouth roughly, only giving you a second to breathe when he pulled out only to snap his hips again. âYou like this donât you whore? Anyone could walk in right now and catch you choking on my cockâ you whined at his question. He took his cock out of your mouth, watching as saliva mixed with his precum dripped down your chin.
âChannie pleaseâ you mewled, your voice raspy from the abuse it had been subjected to. He took pity on you, if only for the time being, he grabbed you by your waist, hoisting you up on the desk and opening your legs. He stood between them placing his hands on the desk on either side of you, âYouâve been such a brat today you know that?â he growled, you observed his face, only centimeters away from yours, but failed to find any trace of real anger, he was having just as much fun as you were, âI donât know what youâre talking aboutâ you cooed, he laughed a fake laugh, taking your hair in his hand âYou better keep quiet now, or Iâm going to have to punish you when we get home if anyone hears you, got it?â, you clasped your hand over your lips, nodding enthusiastically âGood, better keep that promise princessâ. His free hand dipped under your skirt, fondling your pussy through your damp underwear, âAw youâre so wet, you probably want to get caught donât you you little slutâ, he moved your underwear to the side and was playing with your clit, you hummed a response, only paying attention to his hands and the wonderful feeling they produced on your body.
He slowly lowered his head, keeping eye contact with you as his tongue dipped out, licking a strip up along your slit, gathering your wetness. You squeezed your eyes shut and pressed your palm harder against your mouth in an attempt to keep quiet. Chan didnât seem to be in any sort of rush, taking his time with lapping up your juices, giving you kitty licks along every bit he could reach. Finally his lips wrapped around your clit, flicking his tongue over your sensitive bud, making your legs quiver. You were so eager to cum, and the thrill of knowing someone could walk in, your high hit you before you knew it. Chan held your legs open whilst sucking on your clit, tongue still moving to help you ride out your orgasm. You ground your hips into his mouth, feeling yourself squeeze around nothing. He didnât stop though, he didnât even give you a chance to calm your breathing, instead he stuck two fingers inside of you curling them immediately. You started to shake from the overstimulation, the sounds from your throat were getting harder to contain every time he would thrust his fingers into your cunt, hitting your g-spot perfectly with every stroke. The vibrations of his moans against your pussy is what sent you over the edge the second time. You were trembling from his touches by now, you grabbed at his hair desperately, the boy looked up at you from his position âYou think thatâs enough slut?â you shook your head âWhat do you want?â. He knew, and you knew that he knew âPlease Chanâ he smirked âPlease what? Act like a good bitch and begâ
âPlease Channie fuck meâ you panted, he was not impressed though âYou can do better than that and you know itâ damn he was persistent âPlease fuck me, please fuck me right here, where anyone could walk in and see me getting fucked by your big cock, please Channieâ he looked a little happier with this response, grabbing the base of his cock and lining himself up with your slit. His hands gripped your hips as he stretched you out, you bit your lip in order to not let out any of the sinful sounds that would alert everyone in the school to what was happening in classroom 5. He took hold of your neck, cutting off your much needed air supply. âYou really think you were being so funny back there donât you? Embarrassing me in front of the whole classâ You found yourself panting heavily under him, a knot formed in your tummy for the third time. âOpen your fucking mouthâ you did as told, immediately swallowing when he spat in your mouth. âYou want them to walk in right now donât you? What a dirty little whore.â he grunted, his own orgasm had been held off for too long, so to say he was fucking the ever living life out of you would simply be an understatement. The sounds of skin slapping mixed with an occasional choked out whine bounced off the classroom walls. Chan was breathing heavily, with every stroke he felt himself getting closer to filling you up with his seed. His hips started to stutter, knowing he wonât be able to last much longer he used the hand that wasnât preoccupied with your throat to rub your clit feverishly. You dug your nails into his back as your third orgasm took over you, your body shaking as his muscles tensed finally letting go, spilling his cum into you. He only took a few seconds to calm down, pulling out and watching his cum leak out of you as you laid on the desk exhausted. He quickly went and grabbed some tissues from the teachers desk, handing them to you to clean up. âMaybe I should act like a brat more often?â you chortled, making him laugh as well.
At the moment that he buckled his belt and you were straightening out your skirt the bell rang, not even 10 seconds later the door swung open a pair of familiar eyes peering in from behind the door frame, âAre you guys done? I didnât think youâd actually do it in schoolâ Minho shot both of you a faux disgusted look âPlease tell me you werenât just standing in front of the door that entire timeâ you begged âFuck no thatâs gross, I just didnât wanna walk home alone, I waited in the front of the corridor, keeping watchâ the boy winked, ânow are you guys done? Letâs go get that Maple Nutâ
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BSD x university au hcâs | pt. 2
part 2 of the university au hcâs !! i am obviously a slut for chuuya and fyodor so donât mind me. i hope you guys like this !!
check out pt. 1 here
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Akutagawa Ryuunosuke:
i love akutagawa ryuunosuke my angst child but iâm just like âhmmmmmmmâ when it comes to what his course would probably be
after extensive research aka reading his character page on wiki i feel like maybe heâd be a history major because,,,, he likes antiques?
well his clothes do seem very dark academia-esque and i can see him liking something as cool as history
akutagawaâs probably into something like war history but heâs not weird about it he just finds it really cool how different strategies work or analyzing what exactly makes the winners win
he absolutely HATES the fact that he keeps having to read the Iliad for class
heâs also that classmate who INTENSIVELY DEFENDS achilles for being a bit of a little bitch (but he fully agrees that patroclus and achilles were gay af ok this was random moving on)
akutagawa has practically no social life. he doesnât go to parties, he doesnât talk to his roommate, he doesnât even like to eat in the dining hall
BUT he absolutely loves being in debate team because WINNING
heâs such a nightmare to work with though but he just delivers so well when itâs time for him to speak. like, if heâs on a negative and itâs time to hash out rebuttals, just prepare to get MURDERED
other debaters:Â âesteemed scholars and adjudicators...â
akutagawa:Â âyou, sir, have no idea how wrong you are.â
that is until dazai decided to randomly show up at a debate tournament all âla di da daâ like and completely crushed akutagawa along with his ego
from then on he started stalking dazai and just SOMEHOW managed to end up in his circle of friends
even though heâs antisocial in real life, akutagawa 100% runs a dark academia aesthetic blog on tumblr iâm right and i donât accept criticism
itâs actually really good he has a ton of followers and even does requests for moodboards if someone asks nicely
atsushi was the one who actually found out about it but heâs nice so he didnât tell akutagawa about it
kunikida probably follows that blog
Chuuya Nakahara:
if this part sounds like iâm just thirsting for chuuya then youâre absolutely right i love wine man
donât get mad at me but i can ABSOLUTELY SEE HIM MAJORING IN FASHION DESIGN I MEAN LOOK AT HIM
heâs just always had such a good eye for fashion and heâs veryyy meticulous when it comes to snipping and putting together clothes
chuuya also carries a sketchbook full of designs and his drawings look amazing and he isnât afraid to just show them off
that said he doesnât dress like a tired uni student at all, like he just always looks so on-point and unbothered by his five million deadlines
dazai: chuuya, i said this was a CASUAL LUNCH
chuuya, dressed in what looks like silk pajamas: THIS IS CASUAL
tbh if he just wore a white t-shirt and jeans i would die maybe heâs actually saving us from this ordeal
he has so much talent though as a designer heâs probably had several internships with design companies all throughout his years at uni
i feel like chuuyaâs also really active in extracurriculars and has been in leadership positions in some of them (he probably runs the student org for fashion design)
chuuya in a student band though oh my gosh i canât breathe i canât breathe him as a VOCALIST?? and wearing torn jeans and eyeliner and that same hat in concerts icanât brEATHE
okay in all honesty he would thrive being in a band chuuya loves the attention and the creativity of being able to design their whole look and write songs
tbh i donât know if heâd have a roommate chuuyaâs probably the type whoâd rather have one of those single rooms or just rent a flat for him to stay in even after graduation
because his social life is super vibrant, he does have a lot of friends and he does make an effort to get to know all of them individuallyÂ
but heâs more open around those who heâs been friends with for a really long time and as much as heâd like to say dazai isnât one of them, he is
also chuuya is definitely the type to party hard during the weekends and has more than once crashed in someoneâs house after drinking too much (dazai drew on his face on more than one occasion)
Oda Sakunosuke:
i love this man SO MUCH you guys have no idea i would literally die for him
100% this guy majors in creative writing because this is supported by FACTS and not just me wanting to be coursemates with him in this fictional world
super serious and diligent with his work especially since heâs passionate about writing. he loves to read in his spare time and is such a fan of classic novels about social realism or philosophy
oda spends 99% of his time in second-hand bookshops that the owner probably knows him by name at this point
heâs super old school when it comes to writing though, like he still keeps and writes in a notebook before typing it up on a laptop and no matter how many times dazai tells him its impractical, oda just keeps doing it
lmao whenever workshops come around heâs super nice with his critique. i bet a lot of his fellow classmates like sending their writing drafts to him
he draws smiley faces and always adds ânice workâ on peopleâs drafts omg i love odasaku
heâs such an old soul, he probably doesnât do a whole lot of partying but he likes more quiet, private social events like drinking with close friends or just hanging out and talking at other peopleâs houses
he and dazai probably met when dazai decided to take an intro to creative writing class and wrote a long poem about double suicide on his first day that kind of put off everyone in the class from wanting to sit with him
odasaku was the only one who wasnât exactly bothered but he did give dazai some comments to help him with his poetry and dazai instantly wanted to be his friend
in terms of extracurricular life, i can definitely see odasaku joining a writing organization and even the campus newspaper. he does find joy in interviewing students for newspaper articles
heâs also pretty into photography and uses a really old, second-hand camera that he bought at an antique store and fixed himself. at one point he won a prize in a contest
odasaku would be the best roommate. heâs super sensitive to when you have a bad day and will invite you to sit on his bed and hug his pillow and talk about your problems
scratch that, everyone talks to odasaku about their problems and now your room is like a therapistâs office
Edgar Allan Poe:
i swear this was the only gif i could find other than actual edgar allan poe
ANOTHER CREATIVE WRITING BUDDY AHHH I WOULD LOVE TO BE BESTIES WITH HIM AHHH
well actually i feel like since heâs super ambitious and already has a fixed idea on the stuff he likes to write, heâd probably double major in something like forensic science because heâd use it to write his mystery novels
omg thatâs where he meets ranpo and now pretty much every main character poe writes is slightly based on on ranpo
itâs a problem. his professor brings it up more than once during his classes but itâs poeâs Thing now
he also has such an unending passion for gothic literature and he wears those white, long-sleeved blouses and waistcoats on a REGULAR BASIS
chuuya probably saw him once and was like âhmm, i could pull that offâ
poeâs daily route is just going to the library and to class and then go home and thatâs about it
he ended up working as a student assistant at the library because heâs just super familiar with the book collections and itâs a job thatâs peaceful and quietÂ
more than once though, heâd just be really in-deep with his writing to the point that he doesnât even notice that the library has closed or that he hasnât eaten the entire day
thatâs alright though because ranpo always passes by the library at night to check on his friend and (reluctantly) give him some snacks
also since poeâs pretty much a recluse, he doesnât go to any social event UNLESS itâs a halloween-themed one
he loves going all out with his costumes because heâs a Drama Queen like that but the problem is he keeps dressing up as gothic novel characters and nobody gets it
dazai, trying to guess his costume: umm,, Two-Face from Batman?
poe: ITâS DR. JEKYLL AND MR. HYDE
there was this one time when poe took it upon himself to host the halloween party and it was EPIC
he basically designed it as a murder mystery night wherein everyone who came pretended to be guests at a house and then a murder happened
the only problem was that ranpo was conspiring with poe and it was pretty much unfair
except for the fact that ranpo was frustrated at how bad everyone was at deducing that he ended up solving the mystery for them
Fyodor Dostoevsky:
one of my favorite scenes of him in s3 was of fyodor playing the cello because god damn that is beautiful and therefore i am hc-ing him as a music major and you canât tell me otherwise
fyodor is an absolute music genius and he was definitely scouted by the universityâs music program and then he was granted a scholarship (because in this ideal university, the arts are valued)
he purposely decided to go to a university rather than a music conservatory because heâs also interested in learning a bunch of other things
aside from his music classes, he ventures into comparative literature and philosophy, even a bit of computer science at some point
people always assume that since heâs a music major he probably wouldnât do well in other subjects but SURPRISE BITCH
anyway, fyodorâs a genius because god clearly has favorites
aside from attending class, heâs even part of an official orchestra and has even landed a few solosÂ
that said, heâs quite busy and very preoccupied in his own work to actually have a social life either
youâll often find him rehearsing by himself in an empty classroom for hours and hours on end (someone pls bring him food heâs also the type to forget to eat or even drink water)
if you are able to catch him perform at an orchestra or just practice by himself, itâs quite a mesmerizing sight. his eyes are often closed so he could focus on the sound alone and his fingers move so elegantly along the neck of the cello
(sorry i just love people who play any form of stringed instrument)
fyodor also takes such good care of his cello. also he would probably kill you on the spot if you touched his bow
he has a fairly small group of friends and they like playing chess together (even though fyodor is better than all of them) and just talk about um,, idk philosophy and stuff (whatever it is smart people do idk iâm not one of them)
i have a feeling he actually follows akutagawaâs dark academia blog and loves his content, even to the point of requesting âcello player moodboardsâ
also because heâs a cello player he needs to take care of his fingers so he wears gloves a lot (idk why i find this hot)
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OBEY ME! LESSON 48 DETAILED SUMMARY + THEORIES
This has two locked chapters that I couldnât unlock. (I should really go back to lesson 20 and start unlocking all the locked chapters)
Diavolo pulls MC and Levi aside and tells them heâs asked Lucifer out on countless Karaoke dates only for Lucifer to come up with countless different excuses even though he goes out for karaoke with the brothers. Levi says itâs rare but yeah. Â Diavolo is really happy, saying his dream has finally come true now that heâs at a karaoke bar with Lucifer, Lucifer seems really upset (probably shouldnât put someoneâs family in danger while youâre trying to ask them out on a date just saying). Levi drags MC aside and says âhey, scary thought but uhhhhhhh do you think Diavolo set this all up? Cause if so thatâs actually completely insane right?â and MC goes, âyeah lol you just caught up to it now?â while Diavolo goes âI canât wait for you to sing for me Lucifer <3â pls sir reign it in. Lucifer says heâs not a good singer so to keep their expectations low. Levi mumbles about how thatâs bs and how Luciferâs just good at everything to the point that Levi almost hates him for it. Diavolo is pumped until crowe accidentally hits the erase button and Lucifer disappears before he can even start. Diavolo wails in despair. Levi catches on to the fact that all of this is actually technology at work and not magic.
Diavolo, back to being giggly, volunteers to go next cause he canât let MC or Levi do so. Levi protests saying Lucifer volunteered to keep Diavolo away from it in the first place and that even though they shouldnât let MC go Levi as Diavoloâs subject should go next. Levi says that if he lets anything happen to Diavolo while he can prevent it Lucifer & Barbatos would kill him. Diavolo laughs and says if he lets anything happen to Luciferâs little brother while he can prevent it Lucifer would kill him. Levi asks if heâs being serious and Diavolo says he is and that he was waiting for a chance to sing. Levi gets pissed off and says this is why he canât stand Diavolo and Diavoloâs surprised and holy shit give us a therapy session I want them to be friends? Theyâre both so lonely and in desperate need of friends and Diavoloâs dorky enough that if Levi opens up theyâll actually make a set of odd but good friends and plssss Levi says the way Diavolo always puts others before himself, how heâs just and fair and how he never does anything bad irritates Levi cause it makes him hate himself even more and just makes him miserable (AND HOLY SHIT!?). Diavolo is surprised and asks if thatâs how levi really feels and levi blushes and snaps yes. Diavolo smile and shakes his head and says âSo you hate yourself even when your humility is one of your best traits?â Diavolo says Levi spends too much time comparing himself to others and that he shouldnât cause itâs a waste when heâs an amazing person in his own right (and holy shit diavolo!?). Levi blushes and stutters and starts denying it. And Diavolo says that his problem is that he always starts sentences with a âIâm nothing but aâŠâ and that Levi is the one making himself miserable (and damn Diavolo no need to call me the fuck out like that lol Iâm in pain). Diavolo brings up the time Satan and Lucifer switched bodies and went into Leviâs game, saying it was Leviâs idea that helped them put aside their initial beef and work toward a common goal and that no one but Levi could have done that, when Levi starts denying that he brings up the costumes Levi made for the festival and how they helped make the festival a success â Levi says he flooded the house the day before and ruined the costumes but MC agrees with Diavolo either a.) telling levi to have confidence in himself or b.) that heâs fine the way he is. Levi disagrees and says heâs a disgrace and MC either says they 1.) love him the way he is 2.) that he isnât a disgrace. For 2.) he disagrees and while blushing says he wishes he could disappear rn. 1.) Levi blushes and growls and says itâs hard to disagree when MC says things like that but he also thanks them and says he loves them too and that he appreciates them saying that to him and thatâs why he wants to learn to take pride in himself so that they could love him more (this is probably one of the first âI love yousâ that can be taken as either romantic or platonic and it makes me really happy. Levi tries to sing next despite Diavoloâs protests but Crowe says their time ran out and picks out the next song and singer at random: Diavolo.
Diavolo gets a score of 100 and vanishes. Crowe congratulates MC & Levi cause they can now leave. MC says this isnât a joke and Levi agrees saying whatâs the point of leaving if the others arenât safe. Levi makes a deal with Crowe saying if he sings and gets a score of 100 Crowe must bring everyone back, he then gets pissed off and yells at Crowe saying that  heâs no friend and that he wants his brothers and his friend â Diavolo back (Donât mind me just crying in the corner here). MC asks if they can both sing together and Leviâs happy saying an anime medley between the both of them would guarantee 100.  The others all wake up back home at night, not really knowing what happened and pls tell me MC and Levi didnât lug 7 unconscious grown men â more than half of whom would be 6 feet and over - all the way home together awdjjkfifjijcdn their backs would have broken also wtf would people have thought when you take multiple trips to drag 7 unconscious gorgeous men - who probably look like theyâve just finished being tortured - off with you somewhere!? Levi and MC are probably on some watch list now wtfffff. Asmo asks if the karaoke and all exciting punishments were a dream while Lucifer calls it nightmarish. MC tells them all what happened, Levi has gone straight to his room to finish his event. Barbatos calls Diavolo after leaving 200 missed calls on Luciferâs phone. MC goes up to check on Levi.
Levi doesnât notice MC come in and they tell him not to worry cause they said the secret phrase Levi laughs it off and says MCâs a special case whoâs been chosen and can enter without the phrase. they ask him how his gameâs going. Levi says heâs worn out from earlier and not in the mood for the event rn. MC can either stroke his head or offer to go make some tea. He blushes and says heâs not a child but gives them permission. He says heâs been thinking about what Diavolo said to him. He says he always unconsciously compares himself to others and wonders why he does that, MC says they like him the way he is and he blushes and thanks them saying that when they say that he can believe it cause it doesnât sound like theyâre saying it out of pity. Levi says he knows one reason he compares himself to others and that itâs cause he thinks without a game or an anime MC would leave him behind to hang out with the others and he asks them to tell him theyâll stay with him even if itâs just for the time being. MC says it wonât be just for now. Levi says that just hearing that gives him hope that heâll learn to like himself (I need MC in my life is2g). Diavolo texts MC saying he wants to talk before he leaves, and MC tells him to wait a bit longer cause if you donât blow off the ruler of an entire dimension to hang out with your sad friend then what kinda friend are you!? Levi jokes about asking Crowe to trap them in the room until MC scores the highest in a game they arenât good at but tells them to go. MC can either hug or kiss him. He blushes and tells them to go before he changes his mind and thanks them for everything.
Satanâs watching new cat videos under #FrolickingWithADuck & #FriendsWithAHamster. Asmo asks for something sexier. Asmo and Beel are both sad about missing their appointments and Lucifer tells MC Diavoloâs out by the pool, he then looks sad for a second and calls MC back but then says it doesnât matter and tells them to hurry and come inside cause itâs cold out. Diavoloâs outside happily looking at the stars and MC asks if he enjoys stargazing. He says he could look at them forever and that Barbatos called him and kept apologizing over and over again and that he had to work hard to stifle his laughter and act mad. He asks how Levi is doing and when MC tells him he says Leviâs the hero who saved them all and he should be in a good mood. MC asks him what he wanted to talk about, he tells MC that he always wants to be honest with them and that he was behind the whole karaoke thing.
He tells them he didnât do it outta malice and they say they know. He says initially it was an accident but then he realised where exactly he ended up and how crowe had said they had special challenge room and he couldnât help himself. He asks MC if theyâre angry. Theyâre angry, in both options MCâs pissed off. He says the way theyâre looking at him now is unbearable and that after the brothers left he was lonely and kept getting reminded of what it was like before they Fell and how we just wanted to relax and enjoy something with them. He says he knows itâs childish and silly but after seeing how much fun the brothers were having in the RPG he felt jealous. MC can ask him who exactly he was jealous of or tease him how even an heir to an entire dimension can get jealous. He says he was jealous of the brothers getting to hand out with MC and this is what I mean when I say the side characters having romantic feelings for MC in the main storyline doesnât fully make sense. Cause yeah sure he wouldâve been jealous of the brothers being able to just hang out and play with MC but heâd also be jealous of MC being able to fit in so seamlessly with the brothers something that theyâve shown Diavolo wanting since S1. He asks if MC can forgive him and they agree. He says he was more nervous admitting this to MC than he wouldâve been admitting it to Lucifer and that he always has fun with MC and feels happy yet nervous around them and that he truly adores them. I just want MC to have close platonic friends pls I desperately need MC and Diavolo to have a strong close friendship where Diavolo pines about how great Lucifer is and MC rolls their eyes constantly cause they live with the guy and heâs a major grade A douche but theyâre still willing to listen and play wingman and if Solmare doesnât give it to me Iâm just gonna have to do it myself and write that shit
Thereâs a bright light and MC is stopped from jumping into the pool and drowning themself to get out of this situation by a snotty Barbatos turning up. MC can either scold Barbatos for what happened or ask if heâs alright. He says heâs fine but then lists all the symptoms of the flu so really heâs lying. Barbatos keeps apologising to Diavolo and MC and Lucifer whoâs apparently being eavesdropping the whole time :)))))))))) Diavoloâs shocked and goes to ask Lucifer how long heâs being there but is interrupted by Barbatos sneezing. Lucifer takes the distraction and starts fretting over Barbatos and trying to send him back home and Diavolo takes the lead and follows him. No clue what MCâs doing but Iâm guessing theyâre eyeing the pool and revisiting that drowning option. Diavolo & Barbatos say their goodbyes and leave. Lucifer tries to make small talk about Barbatos being sick but MC immediately cuts him off to call him out about eavesdropping. He deflects and starts talking about the weather. MC can either let him get away with it and walk back inside or take his hand and use the power of puppy dog eyes to make him say he wasnât eavesdropping and just waiting for a time to cut inâŠsureâŠokay. When they come back the entire living room is flooded and this what Lucifer says word for word âWhatâŠdid the Earthâs crust temporarily deform beneath just this one house, sending it plummeting to the ocean floor and back again?â and I dunno why but that had me in tears. Mammon & Asmo blame each other, Beel says Levi summoned Lotan. Levi tries to defend himself but Lucifer, while smiling, says heâs a compassionate and kind person so they each get to choose their own punishment and Mammon goes to ask why Luciferâs more pissed than usual and whatâs got his panties in a bunch but is cut off by a scream. While Lucifer tortures his brothers MC thinks back to what Diavolo told them.
In the morning Asmo and Mammon gush over electronic kitchen appliances and Levi tells them not to get used to them. Belphie and Satan argue about having the tv on during breakfast until Satan notices Diavolo and Barbatos on tv instantly causing Lucifer to start choking on his food (and pls dear god doesnât this man go through enough!?) The news is talking about Corvo the worldâs leading hotel chain and its mysterious owner, which just finished its 8th hotel in the county â Corvo Lagoon View. MC goes um wtf is happening rn? And lucifer says god would I like to know. Diavolo bursts in, happy that their segment is being aired already and Barbatos says itâs to be accepted given how the whole of high society is talking about it. When Lucifer asks whatâs going on Diavolo says that he used Barbatosâ mistake to blackmail him into allowing Diavolo come and stay in the human realm. Corvo is revealed to be run by the three-legged crow. Diavolo also says he forgot to tell something to MC yesterday and MC has a panicked flashback to yesterdayâs conversation while Lucifer sits silently and avoids eye contact. MC: NOW!? HERE!? IN FRONT OF EVERYONE!? Diavolo: YEAH! :D Diavolo takes MCâs hand and gives them a star and MC almost passes out in relief, Lucifer though we donât see him has definitely passed out.
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can there be a second part of pld and the cheating girl? if not totally understand! i love your writing
TW: cheating
Lol I may or may not have gotten carried away this one
The Drabble in question can be found hereÂ
You let yourself slump against the steering wheel once you pulled into the parking lot. You just got off the phone with your boyfriend after fighting about something stupid. Youâve been dating for a year now, and lately you just couldnât stop fighting. Every little thing he did upset you, and vice versa.
You made yourself take five minutes to collect yourself before you get out of the car to go to work. When you walk into your physio office you set your bag down and start to get into your routine of spraying and wiping down the table before the boys start rolling in. Youâre working on three of the boys today before their game.Â
The first two come through with no issues and their normal routines. But you sighed when it came time for the third. Pierre-Luc Dubois - tall, muscular, and the reason for your current relationship problems. A few weeks ago one of your friends had come over for a girls night. A few glasses of wine later, your tipsy brain had let it slip that you found him very attractive. Unbeknownst to you, Sam was listening from your shared bedroom. From that moment, until the you stumbled up to the room, he had convinced himself that you were cheating on him - apparently not liking that your job consisted of having your hands on half naked men all day. He confronted you the next day. It took you awhile to convince him that it wasnât true, but he eventually believed you. However, it still came up once in a while.Â
This morning he made a side comment about keeping your hands to yourself and you may or may not have lost it on him. You spent the whole drive thinking about how you were going to break up with Sam once you got home after the game. You ran through different scenarios in your head while you worked on Boone Jenner; would he take it well? Would he scream? Then you thought about who would gain custody of your puppy.Â
âHey, (Y/N),â Pl says when he walks in.
âHi Pl,â you respond, âTake your shirt off and sit on the bed,â you say as you turn and see he has already done so.Â
He grins at you and you roll your eyes, âHockey players, youâre all nudists.âÂ
âYou donât enjoy the view?â He says as he stretches on the exam bed. You have to tear your eyes away from the pale expanse of skin after youâve been looking for probably a little too long.Â
You roll your eyes again to play it off before you start working on his shoulders. You are a professional, youâre used to the feel of taunt muscles under your hands but Pierre is just so damn good looking you let your mind wander. You think about what it would be like to run your hands under his body in a different circumstance, one where you could lean down, kiss the exposed skin of his throat, run your nails down his abs.Â
âYou alright, (Y/N),â he asks, âYour grip is a little tighter than usual.âÂ
âSorry,â you apologize hastily, pulling your arms back quickly, âJust a lot of stuff on my mind.â
âItâs alright,â he says, âAnything you need to talk about.âÂ
When you give him a look he flashes a smile at you, âCâmon, weâre friends, arenât we.âÂ
âI think Iâm contractually obligated to say no.â
âI wonât tell anyone,â he grins, and his stupid smile wears you down.
âItâs nothing, just men really suck sometimes,â you say before you realize your talking to a man, âsorry.â
âNah, I get it. I just got of the phone with my sister and she just gave me the âall men are trashâ speech.âÂ
You laugh and change the subject before finishing Plâs session.Â
~~~
Since you have to be there for the game you go for lunch with some of your colleagues instead of going home. You knew that Sam got the afternoon off today, and you were planning on spending time with him this morning, but now you have no desire to see his face.
By the time the game rolls around you do your pregame checks and ensure everyone is ready to go. Once puck drops you can relax, your job is done until the end.Â
The jackets win 5-3 and you join the boys for a quick celly in the lockers before you need to get back to your office and prep for the boys post-game checkups. Cam is first, wanting to check his shoulder quickly before going to his family. When the next person arrives youâre surprised.
âPl, Were you scheduled with me?â
âNo,â he says. Heâs panting a bit, like he ran here, âBooneâs on his way, but I just wanted to let you know that Iâm here for you.âÂ
You just cock your head at him in confusion.
He walks closer to you, getting closer. You know you should back away, create space between the two of you, but you donât want to. You let him get closer until hes inches away from you, let him hold your hands in his.Â
âI mean,â he leans close enough for you to feel his breath on your face, âIâm here if you ever want to...talk.âÂ
You think heâs going to lean in all the way and kiss you. Do the one thing youâve thought about since you first saw him, but he pulls away when heâs centimetres away from your lips.  He starts walking to the door, and youâre calling out to him before you can stop yourself.
âPierre,â you call, âIâm parked in the employee parking garage, by the lamppost.  Meet me by my car, Iâll be 20 minutes, 30 tops.âÂ
He gives you a small smile and a nod before he leaves. You lean against the desk to take some deep breathes to control yourself. Sam was basically your ex at this point. Spending the night with Pierre wasnât cheating if you were going to break up with him right after, right? All these thoughts keep running through your head until you hear Boone knock at the door.Â
~~~Â
When you get out to the parking lot Pl is inside of his car, now pulled next to yours. He drove a spacious SUV - which might have been odd considering he was single with no kids, but perfect for your plans. When he sees you he steps out of the car.Â
As soon as you get near him you fist his jacket and pull him down to kiss you. Heâs taken aback at first, but kisses you back with the same passion, pushing you back against his car. You reach behind you, fumbling until you can feel the door handle, and falling inside. His car is, thankfully, warm and the backseat provides enough space for your plans.
Once Pl is settled underneath you, you lean down to kiss him again, gripping the short hairs on the back of his neck.Â
âFuck,â he grunts when you grind down on his lap, âYouâre so fucking hot. Iâve wanted to do this since Iâve met you.âÂ
He leans up, kissing your neck. He trails down and unbuttons your dress shirt on his way down. You grind down on his thigh again you stop him.
âTake off your pants,â you command, âIâve been horny for hours, I just want your dick.âÂ
He laughs but undoes his belt, but faulters when he starts on his zipper, âFuck, do you have a condom?âÂ
You pull one from your jacket pocket, âI swiped one from the supply closet.â
âThose are in there?â He asks as he takes the packet from you.
âI dont buy the supplies, I just use them.âÂ
He gets the condom on and holds your hips while you lower yourself on. You let a deep breath as he bottoms out.
âFuuuck,â you moan, âYour dick is so big, youâre going to have to give me a minute.âÂ
âTake all the time you need,â he murmurs as he kisses your neck. He notices the way you moan when he kisses behind your ear so he does it again, scraping his teeth against it. His fingers rub along your hips as you star to rock back and forth.Â
You clench around him and he has to dig his nais into his palm to get a grip on reality again. He thrusts up to meet your hips, taking control back and setting the pace. He sets a quick pace, both of you too wound to take your time. Your hand comes down to brace yourself on the seat next to him. Your hair falls in your face, he reaches up to move it so he can lean up to kiss you.Â
He reaches between you to circle your clit. You moan, the sound muffled by his kiss.Â
âPierre,â you moan as you feel that familiar pressure building up, âDonât stop, please.â
âWouldnât dream of it baby,â he says.
A few thrusts later youâre cumming with a scream, biting down on Plâs shoulder to muffle the noise. You fall limp against him, letting fuck you until he follows. You stay in the backseat, breathing heavy, lying against Pierre as you try to collect yourselves.Â
âYou know,â Pierre says as after a few moments, âI thought you were just going to invite me for drinks.â
You laugh as you pull away from him, giving him a quick peck, âSo was this as good as drinks?â
âWay, way better,â he says leaning up to kiss you again.Â
You make out for a few more minutes before you decide leaving is absolutely mandatory. You put his number in your phone before you finally get on the road to your apartment.Â
On the drive there you start to feel guilty. Sam never treated you wrong before, was always a god boyfriend - minus the last month. But you decided it was poetic; he thought you were cheating on him with pl but you only did because he was an ass.Â
When you get home heâs sleeping on the couch with your puppy in his arms, the TV playing quietly in the background. Thereâs some take out containers on the coffe table in front of him.
You grab the remote from under him, walking him up.
âHey,â he says quietly when he recognizes you, âyouâre home late.â
âYeah, Booneâs hip took more time than anticipated,â you lie smoothly, âAnd I swear I kept my hands to myself.â
He presses his mouth into a thin line, âFuck, Iâm sorry about that.â
You roll your eyes as you move to pet your puppy but he catches your hand and looks at you with remorse, âI mean it. I donât know whatâs gotten into me these past few weeks. Iâm so so sorry. When you didnât show up for lunch today I realized Iâve been such a stupid jerk.â
âYeah, you have been,â you say, fully intending to tell him off but something stops you when you look a him.Â
âNo I mean it, Iâm sorry,â he says as he grabs your hand, âI really hope you can forgive me. I was stupid and jealous and I was acting way out of line.âÂ
You have to take a deep breath.
âLetâs put it past us, okay? letâs just move on. I know youâd never cheat on me, and Iâd never cheat on you.â
âOkay.â
His face lights up, âReally?â
You nod your head, âIâm willing to give this another shot if you are.â
You bite your lip nervously as he pulls you in for a hug. He pulls you on top of his lap to give you a kiss and your muscles start to feel heavy with guilt. He starts to deepen the kiss but you have to pull away.Â
âSam, baby, Iâd love to but Iâm really tired. Iâve had an extremely long day.â
He nods his head standing up and pulling you with him, âOf course, letâs go to bed.âÂ
You plug your phone into the charger when you notice you have one message notification.Â
Pierre: Tonight was fun, but let me take you on a date so we can do it againÂ
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Professor Kuroo Part TwoÂ
slides this across the table in a humble offering that itâs been 3 weeks since my poll pls forgive meÂ
part one
Love yâall, J
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You hate yourself for what youâve done. But with the convention around the corner, your higher-ups are rightfully confused as to why you want out of Dr. Kurooâs project so late in the game. You try to chalk it up to wanting to âbroaden your horizonsâ, but even that doesnât convince them fully. Instead, they tell you to continue working with Dr. Kuroo while also giving you some small task on Dr. Yuâs project that youâll probably complete in two days.
So, Monday morning after that meeting crushing your hopes of just brushing what happened in the library Friday night under the rug, you trudge back to your desk trying your best to ignore the whispers following you as you go. Word spreads like wildfire around here. Youâre not surprised, your request came out of the blue, particularly since up until now it seemed like youâve been working fine with Dr. Kuroo.
WhichâŠyou have. Up until last week.
It isnât that you donât like him anymore, or that you donât return his feelingsâobviously not considering your reaction to his move on you. Itâs more that you think it wonât be fair to either of you to go on pretending like nothing happened, because god knows you donât even know if you can. Which is why it would be best if you stayed away from him, no reason to torture yourself like that. Or him.
Though, it looks like youâre just going to have to grin and bear it. No matter that you spent the entire weekend trying to stop thinking about what happenedâand miserably failing. Any spare moment you had, without your permission, your brain would drift to the sensation of his hands clasped to your waist; his lips on yours, and from there you couldnât stop imagining what would have happened had you let him continue.
Thatâs usually about the time you shoved your face into the nearest pillow to scream into or slapped your cheeks to bring you back to reality.
You think you can do it, act normal around him, give no inclination that anything is different. As much as youâre going to hate it, mainly because itâs going to hurt him, nobodyâand you mean nobody can have any suspicions.
That is until he strides in the office door, looking more jaw-dropping than usual. You always had a hard time controlling yourself whenever he rolled up the sleeves of his button-up, but today heâs topping it off with the rare sight of his glasses and tousled hair looking notably unruly this morning. Judging from the glasses, hair, his bag practically bursting, and the numerous rolled up papers beneath his arm, itâs been a rough morning.
The dark circles under his eyes suggest itâs been a tough weekend as well.
You bite your lip, hoping itâs because of the conference and not you.
His eyes land on you almost immediately, expression giving away nothing. You are surprised that he makes his way over to you, drops his things on your desk in a huff, breathlessly explaining, âI have a meeting in like two minutes, I canât make it back to my office in time, Iâm sorry to ask you this butâ,â
You go on autopilot mode, reassuring him, âIâll handle it, just go!â
He gives you a grateful smile before jogging off to the conference room.
Truthfully, heâs glad heâs had a whirlwind of a morning, otherwise he doesnât know how he would have approached you so normally. And heâs surprised at how receptive you were to him, he thought youâd be avoiding him, especially since you requested to switch off his project.
He frowns. He is not in the mood to think about that right now. It was bad enough being unable to focus this weekend, because if he lets himself, heâll get consumed with thoughts of you. Heâs thankfully able to think about something else during the meeting, distracted by data reports from other faculty and details about the conference. Upon the conclusion of the meeting, heâs surprised thereâs no discussion about your request to transfer. As of now, all he knows is that the request has been made, thereâs been no word on its verdict.
Before he can head out, he is by no means shocked when the head of the department asks him to follow him to his office. He does his best to remain as indifferent as possible as he follows him, making a point to ignore you as he passes your desk on the way to the back.
The door closes behind him, and Kuroo sets his expression straight, no need to give Dr. Takahashi any reason for suspicion.
âAre aware that your graduate student requested to be switched off your project, Dr. Kuroo?â
One of the reasons Kuroo respects his colleague so much is that he never dances around the subject, but right now he wishes heâd sound a little less accusatory with that statement.
No reason to lie here either, so Kuroo nods passively, replying with a noncommittal, âI did. Dr. Yu emailed me about it this weekend.â
He raises a brow. âAny idea why? There hasnât seemed to be a problem all year, and with the conference coming up, itâs a bit unexpected.â
Kuroo takes a moment to consider what you might have said when probably asked a very similar question when you made the request. Heâs certain you didnât come clean about the situation, otherwise heâd be dealing with a much different person right now. âIâm sure they were looking for more to do,â Kuroo rolls his eyes good-naturedly, and judging by Takahashiâs expression he hit the nail on the head. âI canât seem to give them enough, every time I turn around, theyâre already finished and onto the task.â
Not entirely true, you do finish tasks quickly and diligently, but youâre pretty good about keeping yourself busy. He rarely has to explicitly tell you what to do next. He did when you first started, as expected, but by now youâve gotten the flow of things and can work seamlessly with him like youâre reading his mind. Other professors are jealous and wish you were their graduate student, so heâs heard.
âAh, well. Unfortunately, I denied the request. Weâre winding down to the conference anyways, thereâs not much to do anywhere. Iâll revisit it once things pick up again and see where theyâre at.â He waves Kuroo out, and he almost sighs a breath of relief once the door closes until he realizes what comes next.
Facing you.
God, heâs gone over this situation over and over in his head all weekend, but now that itâs here his stomach is twisting into knots at the thought of confronting you. He wants to bring it up, thinking it would be best to talk it out, see where the other person is at, but not here. Not somewhere with the risk of someone overhearing.
He at least gives you the curtesy of approaching your desk from the front instead of behind like he usually does, as he found it amusing watching you jerk in surprise in your chairâno, even thatâs too dangerous. You watch him carefully, wondering just what exactly heâs going to open with.
âAre you doing anything right now? Do you want to go over this weekâs plan in my office?â He asks, unaware that the nerves coiling in your chest unravel slightly at his mundane request. Itâs familiar, the two of you usually hash out the week on Monday to ensure an efficient plan, and youâre glad he started with that and not something ominous like, we need to talk.
Though there is an underlying suggestion in the seemingly simple question.
Go over the plan, in his office. A key detail that anyone else wouldnât blink twice at.
You, on the other hand, fear an ambush. But part of you wouldnât mind talking it out so there isnât this air charged with anxiety that you can already feel simmering between the two of you.
âNo, I was waiting for you to finish your meeting so we could go over the week.â
He smiles softly at you, and the expression that sends your heart thundering against your chest. The trek back to his office lets your nerves ramp up, making you paranoid about all of the possible things that arenât the plan for the week heâs going to bring up once the door shuts. The closer you get, the more your mindset shifts from maybe being willing to discuss things to wanting to completely and utterly forget it, and go about your lives blissfully ignorant.
Youâre glad he doesnât take a seat behind his desk, which would have made you feel even more skittish that heâs planning on having a serious talk with you. Instead, he sinks into one of the two armchairs in the corner; a place the two of you have spent many hours in discussion over a cup of coffee in. You didnât think it possible, but somehow thatâs worse that him sitting behind his desk. This is far moreâŠintimate.
He just looks at you, reading you so easily you hate it, saying, âIâm not going to bring it up. Not here.â
âWhy not?â The words tumble from your mouth without much thought. You loathe how pathetic it makes you sound. His eyes softening only make it worse.
Choosing his next words carefully, he eyes the door behind you and lowers his voice, âDo you want to?â
He notices the flicker of your jaw. Youâre contemplating something, so he just waits, despite his emotions rearing to bubble to the surface.
âIâuhâŠno. Iâd rather not.â
You arenât expecting the finality of those words to make your heart feel heavy in your chest. Like youâre closing a door that youâve been wondering if it would ever open since meeting him andâŠit doesnât sit right. None of this does. But you must continue on the way it is, there isnât another choice, as much as you hate it.
Youâre shocked to hear what he says next.
âDo you ever?â
Up until now, you were finding it difficult to look at him. But with those words, your attention snaps to his, getting pinned by his golden gaze. Without much thought you say softly, âI donât know.â You wish he would wipe that stupid fucking expression off his face. It simultaneously makes you want to grab his head between your hands to kiss and slap him across the face. You have to resist the urge to do either, unfortunately.
âThatâs fine,â he says, so nonchalantly you grit your teeth. He was the one to confess his feelings to you. Itâs making you feel so childish how much youâre struggling with your emotions when he seems perfectly fine. Little do you know; heâs hiding his channeling his true feelings into gripping the armrests as hard as he can. At least you didnât shut him out completely. âSo,â he scratches his chin. âYour request to switch projects was declined.â
You visibly straighten. âNow thatâs something I donât want to discuss.â
He smirks, unable to resist his prevocational tendencies. âWhat are you afraid of?â
He watches as your fists ball, unsure if his tactic is going to work out in his favor or not. âYou said we wouldnât talk about it here!â You hiss, lowering your voice to barely a whisper.
Leaning forward in his seat and resting his elbows on his knees he proposes, âYouâre right. How about tonight, The Brew at eight?â
âI am not going on a date with you! Thatâs the complete opposite of what we should do!â You whisper as angrily as you can muster.
âJust a humble meeting between colleagues,â he says simply. âNothing else.â
Your eyes narrow, and he hopes with all his might youâll agree to his request.
His heart soars as you say, âFine. Just talking.â
âJust talking,â he nods, sincerely meaning it. Youâre both adults here, and heâd like to settle this before it blows up in your faces.
Heâs glad that you relax and slump into the chair beside him. âCan we talk about the week now please?â You hate how much you love the grin that lights up his face.
And as nervous as you are for tonight, you also feel a strange sense of calm about it. Relieved to get some things straight after a rather tumultuous weekend.
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and now forgive me that thereâs going to be a part 3 đÂ
part three part four
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Zutara Week 2020 - Day 2Â âCounterpartâ
Thought I would take this a different route (and barely made it to post before the day is over in my time! pls forgive any errors lol). My first modern/college AU for Zutara.
You can also read this on AO3 :)
Rating: G
Zuko shifted his stool forward, and adjusted the easel his canvas was on. Â Blank white stared back at him. Â Today, they would be having new live models coming in to start their final project for the quarter - and the best ones would be displayed at the university student art show. Â They were working on portraits, different styles of painting one, and would have to submit a piece in their own style. Â Whatever Zuko lacked in expressing emotion verbally, he always did his best to show it in his art.
One of the things that did challenge him about portraits specifically was working with other people and being responsible to get their feeling across. Â Not one to back down from a challenge, Zuko had definitely worked hard and took extra practice to get a bit more comfortable.
He was feeling pretty confident to start this painting. Â And then the new models walked in.
One lanky young man with wild hair strolled languidly to the side of the classroom as the curious whispers of the class continued on. Â Zuko noted his eyebrows were in a shape he had never seen before, and it would probably be interesting to get them just right. Â Next, a girl with chin-length brown hair and a pretty smile walked in talking to the last model.
If that first girl was pretty to Zuko, this last girl was stunning. Â She had beautiful chestnut hair in gentle waves, golden skin, and surprisingly blue eyes to die for. Â Zuko cleared his throat and scooted again to hide his face, an unexpected shyness hitting him.
Katara noticed him with the cough and shuffle behind the canvas. Â She caught a golden eye surrounded by light pink peering at her before ducking back to start prep on what materials to use. Â Gold? Â She had never seen such a hue before. Â Curiosity flit through her mind as she slipped her bag off and prepped to sit for this session.
Suki had told her about a way to get some extra credit for their shared class, and she had sat for a few photographers in the past so she didnât mind helping out. Â She hardly knew the guy with them, Jet, but he was nice enough. Â He was definitely a smooth talker and had tried to kiss her once when they went out with Suki and other mutual friends, but he was only a fun distraction.
Bad boys were definitely a type sheâs had, but Katara couldnât help but wonder about the shy guy shielding himself from her.
Some time had passed and the professor went up to Zuko, regarding his art with an amused expression Katara could see. Â âZuko, you realize there are three people modeling, correct?â
Zukoâs face heated up and he took a moment to still himself and make his voice as steady as possible. Â âYeah, Iâm just starting off with her since sheâs closest to me.â Â Zuko wanted the ground to swallow him whole, as quickly and inconspicuously as possible. Â He looked up to the models once more and found the blue-eyed girl watching him, a small smile on her lips.
Zuko. Â Katara had never heard that name before and despite that, she thought it would feel nice on her tongue. Â She felt a bit self-conscious for a moment after realizing he was focused on her, and so she straightened up and shifted her shawl down a touch to show a little more bare shoulder. Â She was flattered at his attention and Katara had always been a kind person. Â She figured she could do a small kindness to be an interesting model, and help Zuko get a good grade. Â The skill was all up to him but in a way, she felt like his partner in this project.
The class was coming to and end and she replaced the tank top strap back where it should be, and skirt over the workout shorts she had on for the class. Â Zuko was completely hidden while gathering his own things and Katara was going to say hi to him until Suki grabbed her by the elbow.
âSokka, Aang, and Toph are at White Lotus for happy hour! Â They have shots waiting for us.â
âI think I-.â
âUh-uh, I donât wanna hear it, Katara. Â We deserve it!â Â Suki shot her a toothy grin which Katara always had a hard time being stern with. Â She shot one last glance at Zuko who had his back to them, before letting herself get dragged out with a laugh.
Behind her retreating form, Zuko was packing his things when he heard her name. Â A secret smile formed on his lips and he chuckled. Â âKatara, huh?â Â Beautiful.
The project continued on, as each class was only an hour long. Â Zuko wasnât so taken aback anymore and was able to keep his wits about him each time he saw Katara. Â She always sat closest to him and it got to the point where she would give a smile to greet him, and he would return a small nod in return. Â Katara was appreciative of the fact Zuko finally let himself show his whole face from behind the canvas. Â It would have been a shame if she never had a chance to really see it â a light pink scar running on one side of his face and despite that he was still one of the most beautiful men she had ever seen.
On this day Kataraâs ears piqued as the professor neared Zukoâs form.  Zuko had taken to standing up, and was close to the canvas, brush moving slowly.  The professor hummed and Zuko only turned to acknowledge him for a moment.  âZuko this pieceâŠthereâs more feeling behind it than Iâve seen so far this quarter.â
Blue met gold for a split second and Zuko straightened up. Â âWell, I guess you could say I was inspired.â
Ever the curious girl, those words triggered an even bigger desire to see this Zukoâs work. Â Thatâs it, Iâm talking to him today. Â No matter what Suki has planned! Â
And so Katara didnât even wait to be fully dressed in her street clothes before going up to Zuko, zipping up her light jacket. Â He startled when she greeted him. Â âHey! Â Uh, howâs it going?â
Howâs it going? Â Really, Katara? Â You have more game than that. Â She resisted the urge to roll her eyes. Â But then again, I really donât even know him as much as I know the back of his easel.
âOh uh, hey,â Zuko scooted the easel to face the wall and neared her one a few short movements. Â He shot her a lopsided smile. Â Katara noted the brightness of his eyes. Â âItâs going pretty good. Â What about you?â Â His movements didnât go unnoticed and she aimed a pointed look at his easel before returning her eyes to him.
âGood,â she replied with a smile, tucking her hair behind her ears before offering her hand in a handshake. Â âIâm Katara, the girl - or I guess - one of the girls youâve been painting.â
Zuko took her hand and Katara noticed how warm his was. Â It was also much more smooth than she thought it would be. Â A little calloused and dry paint to the touch, but smooth. Â âHah yeah, nice to meet you. Â Iâm Zuko.â Â He ran his other hand through his hair absentmindedly and got a spot of blue in his locks. Â Katara giggled and pointed it out.
âYou got a littleâŠâ  His eyes widened, then he looked down at his hand and rolled his eyes.
âThanks,â he mumbled, grabbing a cloth to wipe himself, small blush on his face. Â âYou would think I would be used to it by now after painting for so long.â
âWell donât worry, I think blue actually kinda suits you,â Katara quipped.  The ghost of another smile passed over his lips before she continued on.  âFrom what your professor said it sounds like your paintingâs going well!  Iâve been so curious to see itâŠâ
Katara took a step towards the easel, and Zuko stepped in front of her with his hands up, sheepish grin on his face.  âSorry, itâs practically done but I kinda have this thing about my subjects seeing a work in progressâŠâ
âOh, like bad luck or something?â she asked, lifting an eyebrow and crossing her arms, smirking up at him. Â Boy, he was definitely taller than her. Â And she couldnât place the scent, but he smelled good even with a paint apron on. Â Zuko thought a moment and shook his head, deliberately picking each word to answer.
âI want to keep my subjectâs emotions as genuine and authentic as possible. Â Iâm still learning all this too, but in the past when Iâve had to practice, sometimes a person starts to think they should sit a certain way or have their face be a certain way. Â But the thing Iâm really starting to like about portraits is capturing who they really are in those moments, the small moments they let their guard down and let me into their world. Â Itâs my job to interpret that onto canvas.â Â Zuko paused as Katara remained silent and laughed. Â âThatâs the first time Iâve said that out loud before. Â Seems a little more weird than it sounded it my head.â
Katara shook her head. Â âNo, I donât think itâs weird at all. Â When you put it like that, it does make sense. Â Every artist has their way of doing things, right? Â So this is your thing. Â I can respect that.â Â She gave him a smile, softer this time, before turning away. Â âI guess I just wish I could see it somehow when itâs done.â
Zuko hesitated as she began to talk to Suki, who had been talking to his classmate Ty Lee. Â He just finally spoken to Katara and is that how he was going to leave it? Â She was almost out of the classroom when he called out to her.
âKatara!â
The sound of a new voice calling her name made her turn quicker, to see Zuko making his way over to her and Suki. Â Her friend shot her a look and actually took the cue to give her a little bit of space â though still listening intently.
âThursday is the last day weâll be doing this project, and after that weâll be submitting to a panel. Â If my work does get picked, how about we go to the art show together so I can tell you all about it.â Â Katara noted it was as if Zuko had decided on something in the few moments between their conversation and now. Â Even the last words he said werenât really a question, more so a request. Â She felt a flutter in her chest as she nodded.
âYeah, that sounds like a plan.â Â And Zukoâs smile widened.
A little over a week later, she arrived at the show to meet Zuko, who had been there early to set up. Â Suki had bombarded her with questions about that black haired hottie after she made sure they exchanged numbers. Â During the last session, Katara did her best to keep in mind what Zuko had said. Â She just let herself be and stopped worrying. Â She even exchanged a few smiles with the boy behind the canvas, a few jokes after class.
Not long after she sent the âIâm hereâ text, she heard him call her name. Â I could get really get used to that. Â âHey, Iâm glad you made it!â
âOf course, I wasnât going to miss this!â Â She really meant it and he gave her a lopsided grin, guiding her along with a hand barely brushing her back. Â âIâve been way too curious.â
âIâm sure you have been,â he replied, nervous once more. Â He had never revealed his art to someone like this before and he wasnât sure how it was going to go. Â He brought her to a wall set up with the light focusing on the singular canvas displayed in this section. Â âHere it is.â
Kataraâs lips parted as her mouth dropped.  Suki and Jet were painted on the right and left sides of the canvas, respectively, and there she was in the middle and larger than the other two.  They were all full body in the frame but herâs was definitely the center.  Brilliant blues of all different shades surrounded all of them and it was almost as if they were windswept, or perhaps underwater would be the best way to describe it with how her hair floated around her.  She looked ethereal, she was glowing, she was happy, she wasâŠKatara didnât even know she could look like this.
Zuko stood next to her, waiting with bated breath.  Katara looked up at him almost speechless.  âHow did youâŠget all of that from me just sitting there?â
Zuko shrugged and looked up at his painting.  âI guessâŠthatâs just how I saw you.  Thatâs how you looked in my eyes.â
âZuko, itâsâŠitâs beautiful.  Itâs really lovely, and I donât know much about art but everyone is so well done,â she managed to get out, finally coming down from her surprise.  Zuko looked down at her at his side and smirked.
âI couldnât have done it without you to inspire me.â Â Katara and blushed and mumbled something of gratitude and Zuko couldnât help but think about how adorable she looked. Â âSo, what questions do you have?â
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