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#hetalia#hws#aph#prussia hetalia#hetalia prussia#hws prussia#aph prussia#prussia aph#axis powers hetalia#hetalia axis powers#world stars hetalia#hetalia world stars#hetalia world series#hetalia world twinkle#been stressing over this lately#what the fuck omg#😭😭
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dychlfkhfhlfh He’s a Donnie again!!! No wings and feathers!!
breaking the spell and getting him home was step one. there's most definitely still story to tell.
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(the next 20+ pages are already up on patreon!)
#ive been a bit slow with Making Things lately coz Stuff Is Happening and im a bit stressed ; w ;#BUT#we're working on it!!!!#swannie still has a ways to go before we can truly say the Ordeal Is Over#but hes home. and thats definitely something. <3#swanatello#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt#tmnt 2018#tmnt 2k18#rottmnt au#rottmnt comic#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt raph#donniesona#save rottmnt#save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#save rise of the tmnt#fidgetwing#he is so high and so out of it right now <3 and so fucking stressed#which PARTIALLY explains why he is more weepy and emotional than he usually would be...
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sliding in under the edge of october 27th to post this excerpt from chapter 74:
Cliopher drummed his heels against the hull, enjoying the still-so-familiar sound. He had spent uncountable hours sitting there, watching the sea, watching the sky, singing the Lays, drawing the dances over and over again in his mind's eye.
#the hands of the emperor#hands of the emperor#cliopher mdang#hote#nine worlds#inktober24#inktober#phew i've been pretty good so far this year about working a day ahead so that i can post at a reasonable hour and not be super stressed#this weekend was busier than i expected so tomorrow's art will also be late#but after that i will be on track again!! too clsoe to the end to give up now#inktober for me is a) a great way to be forced to produce a LOT of art and not wiff-waffle over whether it's good#b) the worst endurance race known to man#can't wait to have time to use other mediums again lol#ANYWAY just four more arts to go i can make it i can do this i can survive.....
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What story do you plan on doing next?
I'm not sure yet! I want to take it a little slow right now and write some shorter fics while thinking about what big fic I want to write. I'm a little tired of writing in the Arctic setting so I might try something different.
#naff nuh huh#school as been a bit stressful lately#and a lot of things have been hitting me hard (like getting sick over and over bleh—i'm so over it!!)#so in the interest of protecting myself from burn out#i'm not going to jump into a big fic right away#but don't worry#y'all will know when i'm ready to get into another fic hehe
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good morning and happy tuesday friendz (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ! these little dudes and i are here to cheer you on to have the bestest day everrr ! ! 🩷💫
#don’t mind the squished plushies behind obi#they love to hop all over them#the cuties#they met yesterday and played for awhile :3 !#then at like 2am they were demanding to play with each other so i let them run around for an hour LOL#so i am a little sleepy but v happy that they’re getting along#still no update on the name so i call him baby for now#it’s been a lil stressful but !! things are lookin good :’)#mwehehe very exciting :’)#i feel like i haven’t been very active lately and i miss being silly here :< !#i’ll try to bloop some writing in the queue if it all comes together#i’m really missing zoro lately sooooo .#hehe#i hope everyone is doing well & july is off to a good start !#sending everyone lots of love !!!#���˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#🗣️ the daily yap .
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the fact that i immediately landed an awesome job right out from graduation but then got covid in august and now my brain doesn't work right and i might lose my job because of it . there's a funny joke in here somewhere maybe
#txt#haha. like. how lucky was i to get this job. and unlucky to get sick and have my brain fucked over#also a loss of time perception. time does not move for me it feels like 7am still and its 10am#i feel like i got lobotomized. brainfog and much less of a filter of what i say/do and fatigue etc#shortness of breath when im stressed too. fucking annoying#i keep fucking up on the simplest tasks at work. literally filled out a simple form wrong that i've been doing right since day 1#and my supervisor is patient and i tried explaining brainfog but idt she takes it seriously and she gets more annoyed the more i screw up#and like. i need this job!!!!!!!!!!! it pays disgustingly well!!!!!! but if i cant do simple tasks right anymore then what am i even doing#ive had this stuff since late august but its so much worse suddenly and i dont know why :((#to be deleted /#<- if i can even remember i made this post at all LOL someone shoot me
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You know that feeling when you're distinctly unwell but not quite sick? 🥲 Sore limbs, tired body, mild nausea, aching head, preoccupied mind, loud thoughts...
And here I hoped this week's sunny weather would help me feel better. 😞 If you guys have some fun or light observations and ideas that you want to share with me, please do feel free to send them my way, as I'm sure it would greatly help lift my spirits. 🙏🍀
#I'm not sure what happened#I was doing fine and then... suddenly wasn't.#I've been kinda stuck in limbo over the past two days#Wanting to sleep and yet hardly feeling tired at all#Some irl stuff has really been worrying/stressing me as well lately - which is making it exponentially worse#I need to sit for a minute and gather my thoughts; but they're so cluttered it's dizzying 😣#Sorry for the brief lapse in activity 🤒#Hope this will go away soon ✌️#In the meantime tho I'd be more than happy to discuss lightearded concepts!#If any of you want to of course <:)
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Honestly, getting real tired carrying and supporting other folks around here when most of them aren't returning the favor...
#i'm two seconds away from nuking everything in my queue and drafts out of spite#but i don't feel good about that bc there's innocent collateral#this is tumblr‚ the place you're supposed to fucking share the stuff that your friend's and other people are making#and i get it‚ it's not possible to like and reblog everything here‚ i understand that and i'm not expecting that#it just sucks constantly feeling like no one gives a shit about the stuff you're proud of and put effort into‚ y'know?#there's an entire subsection of this fandom that basically ignores any vper that isn't running modded on pc#which is like half the fucking fandom and i definitely pissed some of those people off just for choosing who i associate with#i've been writing in this fandom for three years now and i still don't feel like i have any fucking writing friends#or a good place to get technical support#the writing associates i do have either don't read anything i write or when they do won't comment for some inexplicable reason#(if you're an author on ao3 you know‚ first hand‚ damn well how much comments mean to authors‚ so what's the deal?)#(if you actually don't like it‚ it's fine‚ don't even touch the kudos button‚ no one has to know you were there)#i'm traumatized from my previous discord experiences and am very reluctant to let people into my circle without vetting them first#even tumblr communities is a struggle for me because it still feels a like a popularity/social influence contest#and i know i'm fucking slow#sue me for having a life outside of the internet and wanting to be mindful and thoughtfully engaged with other people's artwork#i talk to people in the tags#i've been leaving comments on every fic i read now#i'm not expecting people to bend over backwards for me#but fostering community and friendships requires mutual exchange#and it's shitty feeling like you're generosity is constantly being fucking wasted#i'm trying to keep it fun around here but a lot aren't helping with that and this isn't a job for one person#sorry not sorry for the rant but i've been feeling very salty about this as of late#i know the holidays can be stressful and the fandom in general has been slowly shrinking which has probably exacerbated these issues#a lot of folks have moved on#but these issues have always been here and they aren't magically going to go away unless people work on them#i'm not expecting anything i make to break the bank at this point but when your friends won't even put your crappy art on the fridge anymor#like why are we here?#i also don't understand the people who are following me but never interact with anything i make???#rambling into the void
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Could you believe it took me this long to have a design for my My Little Pony self insert that doesn’t make me want to rip my hair out? Anyways I looove making S/I designs that assault the eyes MM MM MMM
#꒰🪞꒱ ❝ In Every Universe ❞#S/I: Whimsy [My Little Pony]#yes it’s 9pm but thog truly don’t care#this is the most self indulgent self insert I’ve ever made I’m on cloud freakin’ 9 baybeeee#I’ll definitely reblog this in the morning since I’m super proud of it#but for now I’m gonna lie down. not only did this wreck my iPad’s battery but ALSO my back from how much I hunched over drawing this#I’ve been really stressed lately so it was fun to cut loose :3
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Day 5 of DrEveel's 500 follower event
Canon queer character: Soldier 76
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#stimblr#my stimboards#stimboard#paint stim#soap stim#ocean stim#water stim#paint mixing#gay#gay flag#canon queer characters#overwatch#soldier 76#jack morrison#I am embarrassingly obsessed with this video game#blue stim#teal stim#white stim#eveel500#this is late bcs I've been stressed over finals whoops
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rough draft
#this can get posted cause i actually really like it#ive been loving messy art lately its really nice to make stuff for the sake of getting ideas out and not have to stress over it not looking#-absolutely perfect and then being disappointed in myself after each piece#so :] take the boys tumblr#homestuck#dirk strider#dave strider#my art#dirkdave#stridercest#msi#obligatory anxiety driven reminder that if im misinterpreting the song no im not shut up (lighthearted)#uhhh queues this for like 11am tomofrow#today ig its like 1am#OKAY POSTS IT#fuck i love rambling#Spotify#also i came back for more notes cause when arent i rambling but uh ignore that theres only two of them thus rendering the vodka they are-#-spinning completely useless#the official version will have a couple other people thrown in#but like in less detail kinda fuzzy like#probably like june and terezi or something idfk#or john ig but i think june fits the tone better#OKAY ACTUALLY BYE NOW SHUT UP ME#wow i just posted cringe basically
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Had one of those days where I turned my brain off after thinking about my main story and then while preoccupied with other stuff it just came up with a whole important scene to explain how everything began??? Hello??
#Limbo Speaks#tag later#I adore when this happens but I've been so exhausted lately I just haven't been able to work on my own projects and stories and such#but I felt a small spark of life!#I may actually be getting excited about doing creative stuff again!!!#once we hit January I wanna draw so mamy people's OCs#mutals' OCs for sure but also plenty of others!#trying not to stress out over it though I wanna have fun if I do it#so I am deciding to wait until holidays are over so this intense stress can finally leave me =^=;;;#but I've got some fun ideas for my own OCs too thats so exciting!!
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEE😭😭😭#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinder☺️)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quick— i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinder😊#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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moodboard for this past week ❤️
#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane#i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile#this week was just horrible#there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe#even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment#during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll#the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab#AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ?????#then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly#i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window#im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard-#to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner#which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment#where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough#and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful#and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired.#im in so much pain and so stressed out#debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame
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Haha, my TV's colors are reallyyyyy confusing lately, haha, I hate this.
#they used to be so clear#blue purple and pink#such pretty colors#i saw the tv glow#i need to watch that movie#i wanna cry#cause lately i've been feeling kinda numb and stressing over my sexuality#idk why i'm stressed though#maybe because i WANT a romantic relationship but i might be unable to feel romantic attraction#i just want someone to spend my life together in that way#but i might not get it#it's unfair#bi curious#i'm questioning my sexuality#idk what i am but i'm certainly not straight
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Hm. Oh no
#my periodical depressive slumps! wuh oh!#idk feeling very down lately. the. gestures. everything. does not help#im like. so stressed rn the past few days have not been great#i miss having close friends i think#crane screams#ive been feeling bad physically too and idk if its bc ive been off my meds for almost a month or judt bc my eating habits have been awful#genuinely idk what constitutes as a healthy meal anymore. realizing açai bowls are probably not super healthy despite having fruit#head in hands. whatever. i can blame my slump on my lack of medication(its not even a mental health med)#see this is why bluesky scares me. how am i supposed to ramble on in a place no one will see over there#thank you tmblr tags ily tmblr tags#ok whatever#good night
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