#becomingone

[fairyvv]

Proud of my progress.

[addictiveissues]

Don’t feel sorry for me.

I deserve the misery I feel.

For all the times I betrayed. Lied. On purpose. Destroyed character. Ran you over.

When. All. You. Did. Was. Love. Me.

I caught you ONE TIME.

With a character in a game.

I don’t even know who the character was.

But it didn’t matter.

It was the same thing happening to me. All over again.

The paranoia.

The projecting.

The lying to go get that bag.

The ending stories.

Some real.

Some not.

So don’t feel sorry for me. I don’t deserve it.

#SoHowDoYouHeal #sheSays

#TheBurning

#WithLove #HeSays

#butHow #IdontDeserveIt

#HeKnowsIt #HeGivesItAnyway #Freely #Fully #NoHoldingBack #FullSend

#shehugsMe

#Iembraceher and #cry

I can’t forgive myself for it isn’t right. But I must. So how.

And Therin lies the answer.

I cannot. So I must RECEIVE IT - #TheGivingIsInTheReceiving

So as we hug , I tell myself , I know that I cannot. It I know that He can. I know ow that You do, Lord. I know that I am forgiven IN YOU. I cannot be in mine own. But I am in YOU, Lord.

And I #BreatheItIn while I am hugging and #suddenly we are becoming #equal #becomingOne and we move as in a circle , oblong , triangular , and we are one. The Burned One , The Shiny One , The Little One , now grown , and the Grown One , all within the #LightOfChrist

#Imagry

I can’t explain it. But I know it’s real.

#InMyMindsEye #Meditation #MyMuse #NoW #NewOpportunitiesForWomen #MaricopaCounty #SherrifJoe #ASU #Learning #ReWilding #WildWomanSisterhood #GrowingAtestimony #InTheKnowing

[becoming-not-became]

BecomingOne

Sadly I’ve found that I am the last one to ever trustwith love or desire for truth be told mine blend together like watercolors lacking boundaries mine behave like water and ice in a glass both being separate things borne from the same yeteach being different but like ice and water after time they return one becoming the other becoming one

[dudenukem]

Thinking back to these little meltpals from last year and looking forward to making some new pieces in this series soon! These are really fun and stressful for me. It’s a weird combo that I guess I want to try living in for a while. Hope you guys are staying safe and staying inside. . . . . . . #surrealcollage #popsurrealism #handcutpaper #papersculpture #voidbois #becomingone #onehorriblething #romance https://www.instagram.com/p/B9zLjPVJlR4/?igshid=zcjljsbvgbce

[bcomingone]

Dark to Light

If you don’t walk with someone in their darkness, don’t expect to share their bliss with them when they reach the light.

[camila-aura-knight]

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[n2mveteran]

#strength through #bonding #teamwork #revolution #becomingone #testingmystrength #military #veterans #armwrestling (at US Army Fort Benning)

[barbara-anna-husar]

re charging my self for a bunch of wild art rides and upcoming projects #vibratehigher #listeninginside #becomingone sharing #joy #thankyou #motherearth https://www.instagram.com/p/CFGDRRHF8Vg/?igshid=1fp8mjezp6smf

[wedoca]

#Repost @mindevolution_ • • • • • • Knowing your ME is never more important than NOW! It can never be all lives without BLACK LIVES MATTER! . . . #blacklivesmatter #blackoutday2020 #believeinyourself #becomingone #black #blessed #blessings #beauty #beautiful #ME #motivational #MindEvolution https://www.instagram.com/p/CA70g8UH0Oi/?igshid=186yebg9u6rk5

[dragonskeepstore]

Reposted from @hypnosissymbiosis - Art by @t.radz 💓 I open a new chapter of my soul. I rejoice in how far I’ve come. In this new season I live in the breath; I feel my heart beating; I answer to my soul. I am not my limitation - I am my greatest freedom. This time around, I soar. ✨ • • • #higherfrequency #meditated #higherfrequencies #highervibes #higherdimensions #higherawareness #higherawakening #highervibrations #wakethewitches #witchesofinstagram🔮🌙 #witchesdoitbetter #witchessociety #goddesses #hypnosis #hypnotherapy #hypnotherapist #becomingone #artistsonig #higherlove #iamtheuniverse #moonwitch - #regrann https://www.instagram.com/p/BxsyUMsnMxB/?igshid=sxerw42qjg9g

[gruporezizte]

[joshlance-blog1]

Once a #harbinger of #destruction #havoc #death and #fear now this #yeolde #cannon from the #english #colonial #era when #england occupied #india during the early #20thcentury now at #rest and at ease with #nature and #becomingone with the #habitat around it. #finalrestingplace . Once a symbol of #iron #guts and #glory (at Nandi Hills, India)

[buffster]

Becoming Part 1 (BTVS 2.21)

This is part of my ongoing Buffy Project, where I write notes/meta for every episode in an attempt to better understand the characters and themes of the show. You can find the full list here. Gifs are not mine.

Whistler: Here’s the thing. There’s moments in your life that make you. That set the course of who you’re gonna be. Sometimes they’re little, subtle moments. Sometimes they’re not. I’ll show you what I mean.

There’s a lot of time spend on Angel’s backstory in this episode, which I love. It was about time. It begins in Galway, 1753, with a young Liam drunkenly exiting a bar. He tells his friend they’re going to come back with some of his father’s silver. Then he spies Darla.

Liam: My lady, you will find that, with the exception of an honest day’s work, there is no challenge I am not prepared to face. 

He is excited by her proposal to see the world and she turns him. We return to present day where Buffy has decided she is taking the fight to Angel. Apparently she was hoping he’d attack and force her into what she has to do, but she’s tired of waiting it out. She assures her friends she is ready.

After a vision from Drusilla, Angelus decides to steal a relic from the local museum. It is Acathla, a demon who came forth to swallow the world. It was killed by a knight and turned to stone, as demons sometimes do (well, ok?). It was buried where no demon would look until some people decided to build on it. Angelus wants to be the worthy one to pull out the sword and send the whole world into hell. Giles says that only non-demon life will suffer there, but when Angel is sent there he suffers. This might be explained later but I don’t remember it.

The next flashback is London, 1860. Drusilla is praying and goes to confess. Unbeknownst to her Angelus is in the other side drinking the priest’s blood. She confesses to him that she is having visions and her mother says she is cursed. This is when she drew Angelus in: she wanted to do good and not give in to the devil. He can’t resist turning light into darkness.

Drusilla: No...I want to be good...I want to be pure.

Angelus: We all do, at first. The world doesn’t work that way.

Willow is tutoring Buffy for finals. She has no patience for Buffy calling herself a moron and tells her not to waste her time if she’s not going to try. Buffy says she really is a good teacher (kind of surprised Willow didn’t end up in this profession?). Buffy’s prophetic abilities are used again when she is able to locate Ms. Calendar’s missing disc after experiencing deja vu. 

The next flashback is in Rumanian Woods, 1898. There’s a glimpse of the body of the gypsy girl being grieved over and the old woman saying the spell to restore Angel’s soul. It’s returned to him and he begins to feel what he’s done. Just like with Spike in season seven, it overwhelms him. 

Back at the school Buffy and Willow are telling Cordelia, Xander, and Giles about their findings. Giles doesn’t think he can perform the ritual because he doesn’t have the required knowledge of the black arts, but Willow nervously admits she has been studying enough that she thinks she does. 

Giles: Willow, performing this kind of ritual--channeling such potent magicks through yourself--it will open a door you may not be able to close. 

They are continuing to argue (with Willow being the most passionately pro-ritual) when Xander jumps in with one of his worst moments of the series. He’s got Issue Face (as in, I’ve got personal issues here that are making me Non-Objective guy). Sorry, but I’m going to note the entire conversation for my future reference:

Xander: This spell might restore Angel’s humanity? Well, here’s an interesting angle: who cares?

Buffy: I care.

Xander: Is that right?

Giles: Xander, let’s not lose perspective here--

Xander: I’m perspective guy. Angel is a killer.

Willow: Xander--

Buffy: It’s not that simple.

Xander: What, come back home, all is forgiven? I can’t believe you people.

Cordelia: Xander has a point--

Xander: You know, just once I wish you would support me and I realize now that you were and I’m embarrassed so I’m gonna get back to the point which is that Angel needs to die. 

Giles: Curing Angel was apparently Jenny’s last wish...

Xander: Yeah, well, Jenny’s dead.

Giles: Don’t you speak of her in that insolent--

Xander: Can’t you see what I’m saying--

Buffy: Alright, stop it!

Willow: (to Buffy) What do you want to do?

Buffy: I don’t know...what happened to Angel wasn’t his fault...

Xander: What happened to Ms. Calendar is. You can paint this however you want. Way I see it you want to forget all about Ms. Calendar’s murder so you can get your boyfriend back. 

Cordelia: Wow. Even I know that was insensitive.

Xander: Am I wrong?

I think his issue here is multi-faceted. One is that he doesn’t see any distinction between Angel and Angelus. It’s almost as if he views Angel as a muzzled dog that’s too dangerous to let live. Which, to be honest, is a fair point. Angelus will always be a possibility that’s pretty dangerous for the world. I also don’t think some critics are wrong that there’s a part of this that’s about jealousy over Buffy. My third view is that he has seen Angel as That Guy from the beginning--the guy that’s a total jerk but the pretty girl and everyone else can’t see it. The kind of guy that probably bullied Xander a lot. I think he’s been looking forward to Angel’s death for awhile now and he doesn’t want to let that go. My least favorite part of this scene is that he accuses Buffy of not caring about what Angelus did to Ms. Calendar. We know that’s not true and how much the guilt weighs on her. Xander’s character is a bit uncompromising and very black and white.

Buffy and Willow later talk on the phone, where Willow condemns Xander with some strong language. Buffy isn’t sure what she wants but then finds her Claddagh ring at the bottom of her drawer. 

Kendra returns to help them fight. She brings a sword blessed by the knight who first slew the demon. There’s another crazy moment where a vampire bursts into flames in the middle of a classroom delivering a message to Buffy. These kinds of events lead to all the students helping in Graduation. Buffy decides to meet Angel while Kendra guards everyone else. 

We go to Manhattan, 1996. Whistler approaches Angel (sent by the Powers that Be?), who looks horrible and is feeding on rats. He tells him to stop feeling sorry for himself and shows him Buffy, who has just become the slayer. I love flashback Buffy even more than flashback Angel. She is very much season one Cordelia, sucking on a lollipop and talking about boys with her friends (she’s clearly the ringleader). Her clothes are very different; she’s dressed in bright neon colors. Her first Watcher, Merrick, approaches her. Buffy barely manages to kill her first vampire as Angel watches.

Back in present day Buffy goes to fight Angelus. While she’s there the Scoobies are attacked. Willow is knocked down by a shelf, Xander is injured fighting, Giles is taken, Cordelia flees, and Kendra is killed by Drusilla. I’ve read before that her obedient nature is what made her susceptible to Dru’s hypnosis, which I think is pretty interesting. Buffy returns to find chaos and Kendra’s dead body. She is approached by a policewoman.

Whistler: Bottom line is even if you see em coming, you’re not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really, but it does. So, what, are we helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come, can’t help that. It’s what you do afterwards that counts. That’s when you find out who you are.

As Angel performs the ritual to bring forth Acathla, he says, “As I ascend, as I become”. He also says he wants to become someone to Whistler (there’s our title). 

Character Notes:

Cordelia Chase: Cordelia actually compliments Willow and her dedication to teaching and tutoring. 

Principal Snyder: He is upset about Cordelia and Xander and Willow and Oz’s PDA. He also tells Buffy she should just give him a reason to kick her out.

Rupert Giles: Giles is the best authority on obscure relics in Sunnydale and a professor refers him to the museum curator. 

Hank and Joyce Summers: The original script had a scene where Joyce tells Buffy that her and Hank are agnostic. In the actual show there is a flashback where they argue because Hank wants to be tougher on Buffy.

Whistler: Whistler is the one who gives Angel the information to find blood at the butcher’s. He says his real name is hard to pronounce unless you’re a dolphin. 

Buffy Summers: She mentions she has stolen lipstick when Merrick approaches her. Possibly something she did for her parent’s attention like Dawn in later seasons?

Kendra Young: She gives Buffy her lucky stake, Mr. Pointy. 

[alyssaleiannyt-blog]

🌵Synchronicity is an ever present reassurance that you're on the right path✌ #becomingone #synchronicity #grateful

[sandyhollycom]

It took me awhile to find and understand God’s peace. But when I did, it changed everything. Have a read about my Jesus journey🙌🏻❤️✝️ #jesusfreak #becomingone #intheutahdesert (at Lynchburg, Virginia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoWhEkRhk_C/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4svubojejpmx

[maverickminnie]

When your Birthday refuses to end.... and your bud is trying to make you a girlie girl!😂😍❤️ #Thankyou @nupurnagalia #notagirliegirl #becomingone #birthdaygift #onupuriaahanupuria #cheplove👻 #panda🐼 #cutelittlethings #september #amazing #life #mavericklife #humanpanti❤️ (at Borivali, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoHcZ02h9O_o2_hF1OUURTrZuWx4r4obWexJF40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=mjjx7uryfnpt