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The email I wrote to Robin Hobb after finishing Assassin's Fate
I was clearing out old drafts from my overflowing gmail and found some correspondence with Robin that included my reactions after finishing the series. I won't include her replies, but here's some excerpts of what I said to her.
"I'm trying to remember which movie this quote is from: "Are there any happy endings?" "No. Because nothing ends."
"Even if you never return to the Realm of the Elderlings (which somehow I doubt) there is plenty of fodder for our imaginations. The surviving characters are fascinating people with feet placed on the trailheads of the rest of their lives, doubtless with many more nexus moments to face - whether or not that ends up being documented."
"This morning I'm enjoying late breakfast with my daughters on their first day of summer vacation, finishing my first reread of Fool's Quest and Assassin's Fate. I've read so many different reactions on the unrestricted chat Facebook page, and I think those who didn't get what they wanted will find more richness, more solace when they come back knowing what to expect. I'm glad you stayed true to your vision." "I hope you are basking a bit. Ending a series is bound to arouse every reaction under the sun from your fanbase. For me, having Fitz/Beloved/Nighteyes become the Wolf of the West was just the perfect resolution. Their circle forever joined at last. They are still alive in my head every day. I also love how much agency Bee seized for herself. Amazing, powerful girl!"
#there are no happy endings#because nothing ends#robin hobb#peter s beagle#schmendrick#the last unicorn#realm of the elderlings#rote#all the feels#fitzloved#nighteyes#wolf of the west#ass quest#ass fate#heart circle#we are one#no limits
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A Moment in Time - Dearly Missed
#love them so much#a moment in time is the title because seeing the sunlight once more is gonna only be for a short period of time...#because karlach [spoilers] non blue ended#and astarion spawn ending#the two people who havent seen the sun in decades#enjoying the sunshine that was robbed from them when they were forced into servitude#i only wish we could have extended this time for them... i wish nothing but happiness for them#baldurs gate 3#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#astarion bg3#karlach#karlach bg3#bg3 karlach#astarion ancunin
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if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing
#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate.#you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you#think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth.#then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty#house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive#this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died.#and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first#place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever#given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and#you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's#everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you#have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love#more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me.#real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you.#and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love.#lit#the hunger games#everlark#otp: real or not real?#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#text#tais toi lys#thgpost
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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Chapters: 16/16 Fandom: Dragonlance - Margaret Weis & Tracy Hickman Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Dalamar the Dark/Raistlin Majere, Raistlin/Others, Raistlin/Scrounger, Raistlin/Other Male Character Characters: Raistlin Majere, Caramon Majere, Horkin (Dragonlance), Scrounger (Dragonlance), Ivor of Langtree (Dragonlance), Dalamar the Dark, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Character(s), Fistandantilus (Dragonlance), Kitiara uth Matar, Dunbar Mastersmate, Laurana Kanan, Gunthar Ust Wistan Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Fistandantilus Fuck Off, Burns, Disfigurement, Disability, Dragonarmies, War of the Lance, Guerilla Warfare, Partisans, Mad Baron's Army, Dragons, Bad Decisions, Brothers, bad relationships, Raistlin's Test, No Beta We Die Like Par-Salian Should Have, Pre-Relationship, Undead, Way too many undead, Slavery, Freedom Fighters Summary:
“Well?” Fistandantilus’ clawed handed spasmed ravenously, groping for the bloodstone pendant around his neck. “Your choice?” “I might go into that nothingness,’ Raistlin spat, “But then so will you. Go to the Abyss, I will have nothing to do with you.”
Chapter 16: Epilogue Sometimes, we can all have our happy endings
#dragonlance#raistlin#dalamar#horkin#lunitari#fistandantilus#happy endings#kinda#there are no happy endings#because nothing ends#sequel on the way#invictus
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MDZS x Brazil (1985)
(Yes. Real movie dialogue)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#MDZS AU#lan wangji#wei wuxian#Backstory to this is 'we recently watched Brazil (1985) and this scene make us lose our minds.'#Brazil (1985) is best described as 'The Monty Python Crew does an adaptation of George Orwell's 1984 (1949).' Because it is.#And let me just say. I think it is the perfect adaptation. Somehow this film manages to be one of the best dystopia satires out there#While also being a genuine critique of capitalism and burocracy.#Plus the practical effects and set design were outstanding.#The 'romance' in this movie was definitely also a satire.#It is unbelievably wacky. I'm dead serious when I say this comic is beat for beat something that happens in the film#Guy who told this women *nothing* about the peril she's in form the government tells her he (legally) killed her.#She responds by saying “Care for a little necrophilia?” with NO ROMANTIC LEAD UP.#THE MUSIC SWELLS. HE TEARS OFF HIS JACKET AND DIVES INTO THE BED. SCENE END.#Jill Leyton has incredible range as a hot butch and hot femme. Was the line bizarre? Yes. She can pull it off though.#We paused and watched it back a few times. I wasn't intending to make a crossover this obscure but honestly...#It's...it's too good of a fit to pass up. Wei Wuxian *would* say that...
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Got a new tattoo today! I have a lot of *thoughts* about it. Partially the above. Partially my beloved The Last Unicorn quote, "There are no happy endings because nothing ends." But it's MORE than just that moment in TLU. It's the whole damn scene.
Here's the best clip I can find:
PRINCE LIR: Unicorn, mermaid, sorceress, no name you would give her would surprise or frighten me. I love whom I love.
SCHMENDRICK: Well, that's a very nice sentiment. But when I change her back into her true self-
PRINCE LIR: I love whom I love.
LADY AMALTHEA: (comes from the front of the party.) I heard what you said. I will go no further.
SCHMENDRICK: There's no choice. We have to go on.
LADY AMALTHEA: (to Lír) Don't let him change me. The Red Bull has no care for human beings. We may walk out past him and get away.
SCHMENDRICK: If we do that, all the unicorns in the world will remain prisoner forever except one, and she will grow old and die.
LADY AMALTHEA: (to Lír) Everything dies. I want to die when you die. I'm no unicorn, no magical creature! I'm human, and I love you. Don't let him! Lír, I will not love you when I am a unicorn.
PRINCE LIR: Amalthea, don't.
SCHMENDRICK: Then let the quest end here. I don't think I could change her back even if you wished it. Marry the prince and live happily ever after.
LADY AMALTHEA: Yes. That is my wish.
PRINCE LIR: No. Lady, I am a hero, and heroes know that things must happen when it is time for them to happen. A quest may not simply be abandoned. Unicorns may go unrescued for a long time, but not forever. The happy ending cannot come in the middle of the story. (They walk ahead.)
MOLLY GRUE (to Schmendrick): But what if there isn't a happy ending at all?
SCHMENDRICK: There are no happy endings, because nothing ends.
MOLLY GRUE: Schmendrick, let her stay the way she is. Let her be.
SCHMENDRICK: That's not in the story. Lír knows that, and so does she.
MOLLY GRUE: You don't care! You don't care what happens to her, or to the others, just so you become a real magician at last. You don't care!
SCHMENDRICK: I wish I didn't! I wish to God I didn't care about anything but my magic! But I do! I do.
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another p5r art dump hiiiiieii 😢😢😢
#fem shuake#akiras a bit of a freak but like hey a pretty girl is threatening her w a knife whats a girl to do...#im back !!!!!! i finished the entirety of p5r for the first time !!!!!! im so#third semester....... third semester...... third semeste#i battled through the whole thing with just royal trio because. well because yiou see. stares at u with my big teary eyes#i feel like those miserable seal pictures#No!!!! no i still havent recovered this may stick with me for the rest of my life. look at what uve done atlus#i am a mere husk of who i once was...... true ending killed my joy and whimsy... nothing to smile about in life anymore#tje theb the dates after maruki palace where u say goodbye to everyone and the thieves start planning for their future 😭😭😭😭 uhag g aghh#shuake#akeshu#kurusu akira#akira kurusu#amamiya ren#ren amamiya#sumire yoshizawa#yoshizawa sumire#yusuke kitagawa#kitagawa yusuke#p5r#persona 5 royal#persona 5#my art
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rookanis players: why isnt Lucanis' romance more passionate, more physical!! Why is he so subdued and quiet!! You barely even kiss!! Lucanis, fresh out of a year in a demonic torture pit, having just had one of his two remaining family members taken from him just as he's freed, almost losing Treviso to the elvhen gods which are a) apparently real and b) that he's apparently now responsible for killling and who, oh yeah, also is always literally on the brink of exhaustion because he can't sleep or his spite demon goes around causing mischief and sniffing people: rook, mi vida, please give me a break
#i love my tired man he's done nothing wrong 😭#datv#datv spoilers#da:v#da:v spoilers#rookanis#rookanis spoilers#rook x lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#spite dragon age#if you stand around and watch Lucanis while he's sitting on his little cot he ends up bobble heading like an overtired toddler#please guys he'd kiss Rook so passionately if he wasn't seeing like four of their faces overlapping at any given moment#the spirit is willing#guys this is a joke about lucanis being too tired to get it up#can ya'll be a little more chill and not get cranky in the replies about whether or not you think his writing was lackluster#because im too old for fandom wank and i WILL be starting to block people who are annoying me
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the choice between Edward & Jacob is not a question of which relationship is healthier or which partner is best suitable for Bella. neither is correct. neither is best. neither produces a happy ending for Bella. at the end of the day this is still a vampire novel. any choice Bella could make would yield, at best, a bittersweet happily ever after.
if she chooses Edward, she gets the terrifying Breaking Dawn ending: a girl who rejected her call to grow up has hung her love & her eternity on an emotionally stunted partner who hates himself marginally less than he loves her. she's a teen mom with a kid she never wanted who perpetuates the generational trauma passed down from her parents. by keeping this child, the Cullens have set the stage for an uprising/cold war against the Volturi who are likely to take revenge in order to maintain power. Bella is living in a tenuous "dream come true" wrapped in a nightmare & doesn't realize it.
choosing Jacob is the true coming-of-age ending that rips the stitches out of a wound that never fully healed. even if we ignore the fact that she ends up with a man who sexually assaulted her (we must bear in mind Jacob's character is influenced by smeyer's racism, but it did happen), they can't have a secure romantic relationship. based on the high imprinting rate of the pack, Jacob will likely find his imprint in his lifetime & will lose himself to the imprintee. he will no longer be her Jacob. he will inevitably abandon her (whether he wants to or not), & she must reconcile with the reality that she will always be inadequate to Jacob's imprint. & say he never manages to escape the vampires? he will presumably not age for a long time, meaning the relationship Bella always feared with Edward (her being an old grandmother while he stays forever young) remains a possibility. this is the story of a girl who slaps a Band Aid on an open wound & calls herself healed while flinching every time she sees the shadow of the knife that cut her.
if she chooses neither (team therapy), her healing requires her to lose or be at least partially disconnected from everyone she cares about. Bella must spend the rest of her life shut out from one world while never fully existing in her human world ever again. she must always keep secrets. she can never go back home. even in the unlikely event that she manages to escape the Volturi, the threat of being hunted by vampires will never leave her. in addition, she must face her worst fears (aging, losing Edward) while always keeping in mind the immortal life that could have been hers, if only.
even the "healthiest" option produces scars that will never quite heal.
Twilight is a horror. Twilight is a vampire novel. Twilight is gothic. Twilight is fiction. neither Edward nor Jacob is a "bad" choice because neither will give Bella her happily ever after. the choice between Edward & Jacob is simply a matter of which horror story you prefer to read.
#twilight#twilight renaissance#bella swan#the twilight saga#edward cullen#twilight saga#twilight meta#not to be a downer but the edward/jacob feud is silly#i understand this feud will continue in perpetuity because controversy & drama will always garner attention in online spaces etc#but the idea that either of these men will provide the happy story some people in this fandom want is an illusion#because no matter what happens The Twilight Saga still operates in the context of the vampire/gothic genre which by design can't produce#a 100% happy ending.#'oh but it's a YA romance so-' yeah so the black walls get wallpapered. they're still black underneath & nothing changes that#'this story is a romance' and 'this story is a horror story' are two ideas that can coexist.#i wish we were able to debate the choice between Edward & Jacob while still bearing in mind neither choice is wrong#i think this fandom would be a lot less toxic & mean to each other for no fuckin reason but oh well
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Favorite Marta and Fina Moments - Part 100 Sueños de Libertad
#and the scene ended here and nothing bad happened to Isidro!!!#if only 😔#god what a heart wrenching scene#but similar to real life events that've happened today I'm choosing to focus on the positive#also I can't believe we're already at 100 favorite mafin moments!#I've been thinking about going back and redoing some of my early gifs because I think some of them could be better#should I?#mafin#marta x fina#marta y fina#suenos de libertad#sueños de libertad#marta belmonte#marta de la reina#alba brunet#fina valero#wlwsource#wlw gif#wlw post#wlw edit#my edit#wlw couple#wlw#favorite mafin
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Timmy's graduation from Pixies' Academy was a very filled very chaotic day. Peri did his very best to behave! He didn't want to make a fuss on Timmy's big day!!!
But when you get a bunch of green stuff and no soda with your food, that's when you've had enough.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop peri#peri#itty bitties fop au#this comic takes place night of timmy's graduation btw. if it wasnt clear haha#THERES 11 PARTS BUT 4 WILL BE RELEASED TODAY. JUST. FWI#im doing them in smaller batches haha#also i tried very hard to make it 12 parts because 11 feels. very weird. its not a nice number to end on. hrm. hrm hrm.#but there's nothing to stretch out nothing to add nothing to remove#so 11 it is!!!#fellas... mayhaps reconsider bringing your baby siblings or relatives to graduation ceremonies.#babies and children get very fussy and graduation ceremonies are NOT optimal places for them. unnnfortunately
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i feel like poolverine easily could’ve been one of those “they’re flirty but it’s mostly unserious” situations, and for most of the movie yeah they were extremely gay, but wade’s been like that with other guys and it was never treated as a serious type of relationship before. they’re willing to die for each other, but even then the romantic aspect of their relationship could be glossed over because it’s a superhero movie, that’s just what they do, and they’re working together to save a whole timeline—it’s not just about them. but then the movie doesn’t end with them saving the day and moving on. i think this’s really the part that sells poolverine as a genuine relationship to me… logan’s leaving, and wade calls for him. he can’t stand to let him go. then he introduces him to his family, and logan stays. he doesn’t really need to stay, but they’ve both decided they’re better off with one another than without
#don’t get me wrong#wade and vanessa are going to end up back together again if there’s ever another deadpool movie#and then he’ll lose her again for whatever reason#because that’s just how it goes#ignore the fact that logan tells wade to talk to vanessa and i’d be convinced that the ending was supposed to imply them being canon tbh#not gonna delude myself into believing poolverine will ever be genuinely and seriously canon#but shippingwise#i think this’s why i’ve latched onto poolverine despite some of the similarities between cable & logan#with cable it was never gonna be serious#despite it being fun to ship them and enjoy their dynamic#but#with logan… storywise… it makes so much sense for them to be endgame#they both were at terrible points in their lives and really needed each other#not just to fix each other’s problems. but they needed someone who was so on their own level that they could fix each other#not in a healthy way. but#yknow#anyway#idk i’m kinda rambling about nothing here#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#wade wilson#logan#um#logan howlett#<- ….i guess#poolverine#deadclaws
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And who will you be in your death?
#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel vaggie#vaggie#chaggie#charlie morningstar#razzle and dazzle#did I completely ignore my lecture? Yes#did I finish this drawing? also yes :)#imagine dying and going to heaven only to learn you'll fall eventually#haha and then imagine heaven wiping your memory so that you can live a “good afterlife”#and then heaven is like wait you fight well-- join our army#so you join the army not knowing any better#and you end up falling because showing mercy bad#vaggie is just constantly traumatized and confused#this drawing literally means nothing i was just doodling#if you squint you might be able to understand my thought process#if you figure it out lemme know because i for one don't know what it is
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Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.
We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.
Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.
He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?
I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?
#like curly is very much does his job goes home takes care of self repeat i dont think hes like an asocial person but he doesn't take the tim#time to indulge in himself the way he thinks hes a bigger picture guy so as long as nothing is disrupted hes relatively okay even if its#slowly chipping away at him and making him feel hollow like he thought space was endless that he could never reach a point of feeling finis#he never had to predict what to do after the end and suddently he realizes there was no end to it because there cant be an end to nothing#hes accomplished so much objectively but hes done nothing with his life outside of his work like he mentions no hobbies other friends or an#thing of the sort he doesn't even feel like he can vent it cause what? hes complaining about how hard it is to get promoted to have securit#in a job you hate and a position that keeps weighing you down like I feel like if he explained himself at the party and didn't let Jimmy t#talk for him hed actually have made points the others would get cause even if they envied his position he still is justified in being unhap#not everything that you think would bring you happiness does or fulfills even a small part of that desire#idk hes a lot more fucked in the head but like towards himself than people realize like how he lets Jimmy treat him is indicitive of that i#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing
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Burning Rotten Bridges
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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