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greentealycheejelly · 9 months ago
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Bingo! For @sweetspicybingo. It's almost the end of the month, so I'll probably stop here. Links to all the prompt fills:
I'm Yours: Buttercup from 911 Lone Star.
Angel: Iskierka from Temeraire books.
Ever After: Tristan and Yvaine from Stardust (movie).
Cloud Nine: Parker from Leverage.
Kiss Me: Jack and Phryne from Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries.
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xtractors · 3 months ago
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As my account says I am just here for the headcanon and The angst. So stick with me. [It looks longer than it is, but you can skip the bracketed section for my headcannon]
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I've been thinking since I saw Deadpool and Wolverine whether Wolverine knew who Wade was as Deadpool? I came to a pretty solid conclusion, because when Paradox zaps Deadpool away, wolverine's first reaction isn't to be like, "So what's going on?", it's to automatically try and jump Paradox for disappearing Wade [which like maybe it wasn't because he knew it was Wade. Maybe it's just because he just really enjoyed flirting with him, but I think it's cuz he knows who Wade is]. Then in the void it's to attack Wade, which he doesn't seem to be surprised about his healing factor.
And this led me to, if Wade existed in worst wolverine's universe and had a healing factor. Then he probably could have been a version of origin's Deadpool?
And I have decided for THE ANGST, that absolutely origins happened, and worst Wolverine saw what happened to origin's Deadpool.
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[And here's my thing. I really wish origins had focused more on his relationship with his teammates, especially with the whole him and Wade making eyes at each other. Ignoring my feelings on the Kyla Silverfox lady, like I really wish the movie had just focused more on his teammates and relationship there. I think that he should have been "friends" with Wade and I think when he said "they finally found a way to shut you up" it should have been more emotional, and hurt and less sassy. I also really wish that Wade hadn't been just a mindless machine. Which I suppose we don't know how actually conscious he was, but could you imagine? Wade who's always expressed himself by being sassy and dealt with his trauma and being a mercenary by making jokes being unable to speak at all and unable to control himself as he attacks his friend?
Like I seriously don't think origins Deadpool was that bad of a character. I think there was just no emotional attachment to him. Cuz the whole mouth Sewn shut thing could have meant so much more if Wade was actually friends with Logan. ]
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Anyways, back to the plot.
So my thing is if there is origins Deadpool in worst wolverines timeline, do you think worst Wolverine ever just thinks about it?Do you think he ever has nightmares about his Wade being the one with the mouth sewn shut?? Unable to make his crude, but adorable jokes? Unable to call him Peanut and honey badger? Nightmares where his Wade, the one who saved him and gave him meaning and a new life, is staring into his eyes, as Logan's voice echos "They finally found a way to shut you up, huh." What if he wakes up guilty, a bitter taste on his tongue hearing how cruel those words really were to someone who means the world to him, someone who he never truly wants to shut up. Worrying his mind over not being able to save him once, not just not being able to save him, but having to kill him? Every once in awhile when he tells Wade "do you ever shut up?"[affectionate], he gets a flash of origins Deadpool in his head and goes quiet and regrets saying it?
could you imagine the angst?
Logan seeing his good "friend" who expressed his trauma through never shutting up unable to talk?Logan's "they finally found a way to shut you up" being breathless and painful and not just mean
Do you think Logan listens to Deadpool chatter and ever think about origins Deadpool and regrets not being able to save him? Regrets that one his last lines was taunting him for finally being unable to ramble?
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staybabblingbaby · 4 days ago
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Best Friend Protocol #14 (Team Meeting part)
[Caution: These are not full fics, or even full parts of fics for some, these are part of my writing progress archive!]
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Concept: You're Felix's childhood friend, and you and he have been planning a visit to see him for his birthday for what feels like years now. Unfortunately, SKZ is a very busy group, and the week-long vacation you'd planned for doesn't seem possible.Until Felix decides to ask his bandmates a favor...
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Word Count: 2672
Notes: IT'S FINALLY HERE! ALL HAIL THE LEGENDARY FIRST WRITTEN PART OF BFP! I meant to have this out over a week ago, but it's here now! I will be attempting to get a regular chapter out here shortly to fulfil my promised 4 november chapters. Wish me luck! Huge shout out to one of my beautiful beloved betas, @brbwritingfanfic for taking the time to make sense of this damn thing lmao. I appreciate you spotting all my errors, you a real one <3 For those familiar with my archive style and curious, this is A3D2 for this chapter. It was kicking my ASS. If enough folks are interested I don't mind releasing the other attempts, but BFP is a bit divorced from the usual archive proceedings, so I'll leave that up to y'all. I actually really loved how Felix's character came through here, and i'm pretty pleased with how the dialogue turned out. My poor fiance had to sit through like 5 separate rants about how i could not roll back the details enough and kept having to scrap dialogue so it sounded less like AI attempting classical literature.
Warnings: She/Her Reader. Sort of? Polyamory negotiations. More like, the possibility is tossed out there.
Leave me comments or questions or anything! Love hearing from folks
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The meeting goes something like this;
They pile into the living room of his and Seungmin’s shiny new dorm without discussion. It makes Felix both nervous and grateful. They’ve always had these meetings wherever Chris happened to be, before. It feels like an unspoken declaration of allegiance. Like they’re letting Felix take the lead, here.
The pressure is kind of getting to him already, as they all settle in. He doesn��t even know how he feels about it all himself, making a decision doesn’t seem like something he should be in charge of right now.
Still, he’s grateful. They’re being so mindful of him in this, and he kind of wants to cry about it. He feels seen, and loved. A bit too seen, maybe, but as embarrassing as it is he’s still a bit gooey inside about it.
Felix drags a beanbag over to where Hyunjin has settled on the couch, plopping down to lean against the other man’s legs. A hand automatically goes to bury itself in his hair, like an anchor against Felix’s stormy thoughts.
The grounding warmth of one of his best friends soothes Felix as Chris calls the meeting to order.  
“So!” Their leader casts an inquiring gaze around the room, “Who wants to start? Where are we at right now?”
A few glances are cast Felix’s way, but he tips his head back against Hyunjin’s knees to avoid their eyes. Everyone must get the message, because no one prompts him.
Jisung is the one who eventually bites the bullet, and Felix sends a silent ‘thank you’ to his birthday buddy.
“Well, I’d like to clarify everyone’s, like, goal in this?” Jisung puts forward tentatively, “Because I’m at the point where it’s more of a ‘I’d like to get to know her’ thing than a ‘I want to date her’ thing.” he shrugs to himself, “I haven’t talked to her much yet, I just think she’s cool.”
“I’m a little bit smitten,” Changbin admits from across the room. He gives Felix an apologetic grimace, but all Felix can do is wave him off with a worried smile. 
“We talked for quite a while the other day and, I dunno... We clicked? I guess? I feel like we did, anyway. I kind of want to see where that could go if we let it.” 
Changbin sends an almost appealing look to Felix as he speaks, and honestly? Super awkward for Felix right now.
Because, see, Felix’s first instinct is to get super defensive and shut everything down. He doesn’t really want to be talking about this, and it scratches at something delicate and boyish in him that they’re having this discussion at all.
It’s embarrassing to know that the feelings he’s kept so close to his chest for so many years are out in the open. It feels a bit like a betrayal that this meeting is about the fact that most of his friends have feelings for the girl he’s had a crush on basically his whole life, instead of planning how to get him to stop being stupid about said crush.
It’s just... Uncomfortable. On so many levels. An ugly monster wants to tear out of Felix’s throat as he locks eyes with Changbin, but a light scratch at his scalp from Hyunjin stalls the beast.
Right. Felix reminds himself that these aren’t any old friends. These aren’t just some acquaintances he could burn bridges with, or strange men he had to protect his angel from.
No, these were his brothers, the people he’d shed blood, sweat, and tears with. The men he’d lived with, grown with, the guys who’d seen more of him than any other person in the world.
Felix finds it in himself to spare Changbin a strained smile. He means it to be reassuring, but he’s so tangled up in his thoughts right now that it’s the best he can offer. The older man seems grateful for it anyway.
He turns his gaze up to Hyunjin, the catalyst of all this, and Felix’s current rock in the storm. He tries to keep in mind how much he loves these people as he moves the conversation forward.
He has to hear them out, at least.
“Thoughts, Hyun?” Felix gently inquires. 
Hyunjin briefly presses his lips together, gathering his thoughts into words. 
“I’ve been pretty open in my flirtation from the start, I think.” he finally says, “So I guess I’m more surprised that anyone else is? Surprised, I mean.”
Felix has to hand him that one. For all that his ‘no flirting’ rule had been mostly a joke, it did mean that he’d expected them to flirt with her. 
He wonders what makes things different now? He’d been okay with the flirting when he’d thought everyone was just joking around, has anything really changed now that he knows it’s real?
Felix sits with that thought while Minho throws his two cents in.
“I don’t think surprised is the right word,” their second eldest ponders aloud, “I’m personally more... worried about how this might work out.” He draws the words out slowly, like he’s tasting the flavor of them before he speaks.
It’s off-putting to hear Minho speak so cautiously- he’s usually so blunt with his words. 
“I’m more worried about how this will affect us as a group,” Minho admits, “I mean, I like her, she’s fun, but I don’t want her if it’s going to cause issues among us.”
And the older man has a point. Anything that causes discord in a group like theirs is a disaster waiting to happen. Especially something like this, where a misstep could lead to long-term resentments and jealousies.
Felix feels pressured by the group’s regard for him all over again. One word from him, and he knows it all ends. The moment he says he can’t handle this is the moment that the rest back off. The emotions won’t fade, Felix knows, but they’d do it anyways.
Because they love him.
He loves them right back.
“I really like her,” Seungmin pipes in, face blank. His eyes cast toward the floor for a moment, before rising again to meet Felix’s. “I really like her,” He repeats, “I don’t know that I would be okay with letting go without trying.”
Felix pulls his bottom lip between his teeth and nods at the younger man. His head tips toward his lap while he thinks, brow furrowing as he loses himself to his tumultuous thoughts.
It helps to hear everyone’s feelings put so bluntly, Felix thinks. Having everyone’s stances laid out clearly like a map in his mind’s eye. 
Han, who’s not invested but interested anyways.
Changbin, who’s probably in deeper than he’d really like to be.
Hyunjin, who’d been open about his intentions from the start.
Minho, who the fact that he’s even considering her means more than Felix thinks the man realizes. And yet, he’d give her up at the first seed of discord among the group.
It’s kind of heartwarming, when Felix thinks about how much love their second eldest had shown them with those words. 
Finally, there’s Seungmin. A man whose compliments are hard earned, and whose feelings are closely guarded. A man who’d just handed Felix his heart on a silver platter, trust and love etched in every word, spoken and not.
Felix’s first instinct is still to shut them down. His clouded heart tells him to scoop up his angel and hide her away like a dragon with its hoard. To claim her as his and his alone, and feel slighted if anyone tried to contest that.
But that’s not fair. Not to his members and not to her. Not even to himself.
They’d shown him respect and care every step of the way, the least he could do is give them more than a knee-jerk reaction.
“Is it really all that complicated?” Jeongin ponders aloud.
Their maknae looks almost bored from his armchair, staring at them all. His furrowed brow gives away his worry, as does the way he allows Chris to pull him into the elder’s side with an arm around his shoulders.
“I mean, it’s up to her in the end, isn’t it?” their youngest continues, “she’s the only one that can really make a final call.”
“Could we handle that?” Felix finally speaks up. It’s a little scary having everyone’s attention snap to him like that, but this is the crux of the matter, he thinks.
“If she chooses one of us, could we handle that?” he elaborates.
A contemplative silence descends over the room. Felix kind of wishes he could peek into the member’s brains at this moment. He wants to know if they’re as worried as he is, if they’re worried about the same things he is. 
Because, quite honestly, the more he thinks about it the less he really minds if they flirt with his angel.
It’s taken him this long to untangle the ugly knot of emotions in his chest, and he still can’t see all of it for what it is, but the core of it all, he thinks, is fear.
He’s afraid that, at the end of it all, he’ll be left behind. That he’ll lose two of his very best friends, his favorite people in the world, to each other.
He doesn’t think he could handle that.
It’s an unjustified fear, Felix knows. His bonds with all of these people, the seven present in the room with him and one halfway across the world, are stronger than anything. Forged in fire and elastic with time, he’s sure there’s nothing that could ever truly break them.
That doesn’t stop anxiety from creeping up his spine.
Felix lets his eyes wander around the room, landing on each of his members in turn. It’s like something in him believes that they could guide him in this, just by looking at them, the way his gaze lands heavily on each of their forms.
Hyunjin’s hand drops from his head to knead at the base of his neck, and Felix feels himself soften. A little bit of the anxiety drains from him at the comforting touch, and with it gone he can see something new under the miasma of fear and uncertainty.
It’s bright, like hope, and a bit more exciting. A giddy little thought bubbles up with it-
“What if she chose more than one of us?” Han beats him to the punch. His eyes flick between them all anxiously, looking very much like the rodent he’s nicknamed for, and when he’s met with six confused stares and Felix’s suppressed grin, he starts to babble.
“I- I mean, we’ve all shared partners before. Like, sexually, at least. I just- I mean- We’re not strangers to sharing, is all I’m tryna say!” Han explains himself.
His shoulders rise up to cherry-red ears under the weight of their stares. Minho places a calming hand on his thigh, even as he pokes holes in the other man’s claim.
“We’ve never shared romantic partners though,” He points out, annoyingly reasonable, “That’s a completely different thing.” 
“I’d be willing to give it a shot,” Hyunjin shrugs when all eyes turn to him.
He was, admittedly, the last of them Felix had expected to back the idea. Hyunjin was the most romantic of them all, and the least likely to indulge one of them in sharing a partner or two.
“I love you guys, and I really like her,” Hyunjin states plainly, “I don’t see an issue with it.”
“So.. what? We try for, like, a.. polycule kinda thing if she wants?” Changbin questions. He scrunches up his face in concern at the concept, pointing out, “That feels a little unbalanced, doesn't it? Is it fair to hinge the whole thing on her?”
“It's going to hinge on her whether it's fair or not,” Jeongin interjects, “You all have crushes on her, not on eachother.”
“I just don’t know how comfortable I can be with that,” Changbin explains, “There’s one of her, and currently six of us. I don’t think it’s humanly possible for her to split her time enough for all of us, and it’s really unfair of us to expect it of her.”
“It could be a good thing, though,” Han argues, “None of us have the time to dedicate to a relationship how we should. Having more than one of us to turn to could be a good thing.”
“Okay, but you’re all forgetting something very important in this hypothetical,” Jeongin stresses the word, making pointed eye contact with his hyungs, “situation. She has to agree to it too. We can’t make a decision without her.”
Felix can't help but be proud of their youngest for reminding them of y/n’s place in all this. It’s not like they’d forgotten, but it was a good reminder anyway. It did feel a bit icky to be talking about their relationship with her like it was a foregone conclusion.
“I’m just saying!” Han proclaims, throwing his hands in the air, “It’s a possibility that we should be open to if it happens!”
Finally, Chris loudly claps to get everyone's attention and forestall any oncoming argument.
“Oh-kay!” he enthuses, “Let’s refocus. Show of hands, are we okay with everyone flirting with her if they want to?”
All hands go up, none of them opposed to anyone else shooting their shot. Felix pretends like all eyes aren’t on him as he easily raises his arm.
“Alright, next” Chris pushes on, “Do we think we can handle it if she chooses one of us?”
Hesitant murmurs sound around the room at this, but Felix has come to an understanding with himself during this meeting, so he speaks confidently when he says, “I think we’ll be okay.”
His words seem to reassure the others, and a ripple of agreement and gentle ribbing starts circling the room.
“Alright,” Chris nods to himself, interrupting the wave before they could get started with any mischief. He really does know them too well.
“And finally,” he starts, an indecipherable expression crossing his face, “show of hands, who’s alright with the poly thing if it comes to it?”
This subject is more divisive, Han, Hyujin, and Felix’s hands going up, but Minho and Changbin stay quiet with worried faces. Seungmin holds his arm out in front of him with his thumb held out sideways. When questioned, he just says he’s not sure how he feels about it yet.
“We’ll circle back on that later, then.” Chris decides, “I think that’s one of those things we need to be unanimous on.”
Agreements sound out, and the atmosphere relaxes. The evening quickly devolves into an impromptu game night, the group quickly descending upon Felix’s console games like a pack of hyenas.
Felix gets up to switch the TV over to his switch, intentions of strong-arming everyone into playing Mario Party in mind. Chris grabs him by the elbow as he walks by, nodding over to the kitchen. Felix follows him over, already unbearably fond. 
“You sure you're good?” Chris asks lowly, “You've been her friend the longest, and we quite literally thought you were dating her already for a while there. They'll back off if you ask, you know.” 
Felix nods, smiling softly at their leader’s care. “I'm good I promise.” he swears, “I meant it when I said I liked it when my favorite people get along.”
He turns to look through the doorway back at the living room. Despite the strange and personal nature of their conversation, jokes and laughter flow easily now. As if there was never any tension at all. 
Felix can feel himself practically melt as he looks at them, a sentiment he knows their leader shares.
“It would hurt,” Felix admits, “If she chose someone else. But there’s no one I’d trust to hurt me more, y’know?”
Chris doesn’t answer, but he doesn’t really need to. He squeezes Felix’s elbow gently as the younger dives back into the chaos, and Felix knows he’s been understood.
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bu-blegh-ost · 1 year ago
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The time has finally come, @girlsonlytreehouse !!!
Today I shall share with you the fruits of my work. But first, allow me to take you on a journey I myself have been through while counting all of this shit down.
First things first, I decided to count the rolls in the context of the characters rather than the people playing them, simply because the luck of the actual people could not be measured accurately if I only take Riptide into consideration (and also I thought it would be more fun). The guys have several different campaigns, some that I do not have access to, so I've decided to seperate all their Riptide rolls into characters they play instead, cause then we can clearly see which character is the luckiest. But ofc if you want this to be attributed differently, the data remains unchanged, so that way you all can interpret the results however you wanted and still have all the info you need on hand.
Another issue were the advantage/disadvantage rolls. When a character rolls at advantage, they roll twice and the only roll that counts is the one that was higher, while the other is discarded and the opposite goes for disadvantage. So for example if you roll at Disadvantage and you roll a nat 20 and a 2, that nat 20 technically doesn't matter. Despite that I decided to count each adv/disadv roll anyway, because despite the fact that it does not count, it was still physically ROLLED, which means it contributes to the character's overall pool of luck. I tried to separate them at first so you guys can make your own decision whether to add them or not, but in the end I decided against it cause it was insanely hard to keep up with. There were just too many and too often, which led me to believe that it was fair enough to count everything as long as they actually rolled a dice.
Which brings me to the last complication, which is of course Gillion's Prophetic Screwup. At the beginning of the campaign Gillion was able to exchange anything that he actually rolled into a nat 20, and in return the DM can change any roll he does afterwards into a nat 1. That way there was supposed to be an equal number of wild unrolled nat 20's and nat 1's to balance Gillion out back to 0, but it didn't turn out this way. In more cases than not, Grizzly would either forget or fail to find a good place to screw Gillion over, so the ability bacame much too unbalanced. So they changed it somwhere in the middle of Edison Kingdom Arc. From then on, if Gill rolled anything from 1-10 it would automatically become a nat 1, and if he rolled from 11-20, that'd be a nat 20 instead. Either way these rolls had nothing to do with luck, as he wasn't actually rolling anything, thus I decided not to count these 'artificial' nat 20's/1's. However I did keep track of them nonetheless and I'll still give you the number of those, just separately, and from then on you guys can make your own decision on whether or not you wish to count it.
OOOFFF ALRIGHT.
Without further ado, here are the nat 20's results (up to ep106):
Gillion: 52
Chip: 58
Jay: 55
Goobleck: 8
Surprised? Yeah I was as well. First things first I never expected this to be this close. And never in my right mind could I possibly predict that it would he CHIP of all people to have the highest score here. But I've seen it with my own eyes. And tell you what. Jay had this in the bag for most of the damn series. She would consistently roll good and always when you need a good roll the most. There were times when she would have such a massive lead it was unthinkable she could loose it. But then she would just kinda...stop rolling good for a bit and allow the other two to catch up. It just wasn't as visble if you don't pay much attention, but I thought it to be cute. It's as she was waiting for them <3 But she was still mostly leading. It was only the current arc that made Chip surpass her. After his terrible luck in Feywilde, he bounced back so strongly right after, that he managed to jump in front of the luck queen herself.
And now I bet you're curious about the other side of the coin. Give it up for natural 1's!:
Gillion: 55
Chip: 53
Jay: 52
Goobleck: 1
You see, I kind of expected it to be Gill, but I need you guys to know that this wasn't the case at all times. Jay? Yes. If there is one thing that's consistent is that she had the lowest amount of natural 1s at all times almost, but the person that was suffering from nat 1 curse for a long while was Chip. In the Feywilde Arc he would be so far ahead of everyone, that I was genuinely sure that there is no way anyone catches up to him. But then he popped off in the next arc with nat 20's and Gillion? Oh my gosh, Gillion didn't disappoint. I've never seen a man fail this much let me tell you XD He ended up with the least nat 20's as well, but I thought the difference would be much higher until he didn't roll 4 fucking nat 20s in ep 100 and then this double nat 20 attack roll in the Black Sea whduihdius AND HE CAUGHT UP AS WELL, more or less.
Idunno, maybe this is just how luck works, but it truly seems that the trio shares their successes and burdens almost equally. They support each other and in return fate has their backs as well. Honestly I couldn't have hoped for better results. Also can we give shout out to Goobleck, the true MVP? He's been on the show only for a while but look at this nat1 - nat20 ratio!!! Go goop man goo!!!
So now for the additional stuff that I also counted just for fun:
*Prophethic screwup nats:
Before the rules changed Gillion replaced 8 of his rolls into natural 20s, and in return Grizzly replaced 3 of his rolls into natural 1s.
After the rules changed he only got high enough number for 4 nat 20s, and a low enough number for 7 nat 1s.
So that together makes additional 12 nat 20s and 10 nat 1s from the prophetic screwup alone. I don't think they should be added, but the numbers are there so feel free to do whatever you want with them :)
Downs and death saves:
Throughout the campaign Gillion went down 14 times and rolled 8 death saves.
Chip went down 6 times and rolled 4 death saves.
Jay went down 4 times and rolled 3 death saves.
No shocker here, Gillion dies a lot XD
Knights:
In their journey Gillion knighted 4 people: Julien Booker, Clorton, Garrieth and Duke.
Corruption score:
Thus far each character has the following amount of corruption points (Black Sea):
Gillion: 0
Chip: 2
Jay: 3
Queen: 1
Gryffon: 2 (i think, unsure abt that one, may edit later XD)
Earl: 1
That is all I have for now. I may be clinically insane :)
Good day to everyone and I hope you found this data interesting. Take care <3
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hestella · 4 months ago
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Hannibal Lector: A New Face
A/N: I'm currently not done watching Hannibal so there are A LOT of mistakes and it probably won't make any sense lol please tell me out of the kindness of your heart if you want me to fix anything or want to let me know. Also some scenes are improvised by me, I don’t own any characters except for my OC(which is, well, you), all credits to Hannibal NBC and Red Dragon series. LOVE YOU ALL
Warnings: mentions of violence, sexual violence, blood, murder, use of Y/N(cause I can't think of a cool name), Fem!reader, kind of POC reader?, psychopath reader, trauma, mental illness, BLIND READER
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Will Graham was gifted a special talent, the talent to see and read a person's mind, no matter how wicked or broken it was, he was able to know exactly what and why and how. His talents were greatly appreciated from the FBI, especially solving murder cases.
He had some of friends, but there was one particular and close friend he had, her name being Y/N.
She seemed to be also have a special natural-born talent. After an unfortunate event, she was permanently blinded and needed to have a walking sick with her, but she still was able to memorize and observe the smallest details of practically anything she felt and heard. Her talent was also what the FBI needed, but she never actually applied, or even participate on those kinds of stuff, unlike Will.
In fact, she was just a plain old professor, teaching philosophy, she gave lectures in colleges and universities for a living.
At first Hannibal thought she was boring, until he actually got to meet her.
When Jack got to know Will, it wasn't that long after he also got to know Y/N. Will constantly mentioned her, about her abilities and how she would have thought about some things. Will knew better than to actually mention FBI cases to her, but the other way, there wasn't anything stopping him. If Will was doing lectures, not with the FBI, Jack automatically sought her for help. She reluctantly accepted, not because of the work itself but for Will, thinking that he would heal when she solved some cases for him, giving him a break. She had control of her lectures, so she was at least more flexible than Will. And with all seriousness, she was good. It was different from Will’s way of investigation, but she was able to collect evidence according to the case and end up with a conclusion, which actually helped Jack a lot, since Will’s investigation relied on his assumptions, that he himself couldn't really make sense.
"Whoever that killed these girls probably has some kind of women that look like those victims. It can be a daughter, a long gone crush, a mother...someone that they have deep connection, whether it's positive or negative. That makes them most likely a male." She explained, after listening to all the information she needed.
"We already assumed that this was a male, unintentionally. Any other observations?" Jack said.
"It's most likely a daughter, though. Young, all from different campuses. He chose these campuses specifically, I'd say, probably one his daughter goes to, or is planning to go to." She continued. "However..." She stood up, walking towards the board with the pictures, wandering her walking stick from side to side.
"He...he has a thing for killing. he's not doing this for pleasure, it's...it's more like art. Precise, like....." she turned around. "...like those people who hunt wildlife." she said.
"...what?" Jack asked.
She bit her lips, not knowing how to say it. "...like those people, I can't, I can't explain it." She looked towards Will, or just turned around where she sensed he was, for help.
Will nodded. "..yeah, I get it. I can see that, wildlife hunters."
"He probably also owns some personal space, like a cabin, out in the woods where he can dissect and dress the animals he hunts. That's probably where he killed these girls too. He would have been used to it, if he used to, or still currently is a hunter." She muttered.
"Yes, where he can butcher, cool, and storage animals, and apparently people. Even if someone accidentally saw blood or, smelled something from there, it makes sense because it's for that purpose, except it's for animals." Will continued.
She nodded and looked back at Jack, her eyes not really focusing exactly to him. "...did that help?" she asked.
"...quite." Jack looked at her only white eyes.
“im glad,” she gave him a faint smile. “But I’ve been trying to ask…is there someone else here? Apart from Will, me, and you?”
“allow me to introduce myself, Ms. Y/L/N, I’m doctor Hannibal Lector. I apologize for my unintentional ambush,” Hannibal stood upon respect, even if she couldn’t see.
“ah, so you were the one. I thought I was having delusions,” she turned her head to face him, her white eyes staring somewhat at Hannibal. She walked towards him and reached out her hand, which Hannibal accepted gently and respectfully. “No need to apologize, Dr. Lector.” She gave him a smile too.
“I should say you’re quite flexible on communicating, even though you’re visually impaired. Different from Will, you try to have eye contact with people. No offense, by all means,” Hannibal muttered his short observation.
“I’m not offended, it’s true. But there’s no need to psychoanalyze me, doctor.” She let go of his hand and reminded him, slithering away from Hannibal’s attempt to make her step out of her circle.
Hannibal wasn’t able to get a hold of her. She rarely talked, but rather tried to hint the FBI about the evidence. He tried inviting her to dinner but she was always somehow reserved. She surely seemed careful about who to let in her circle.
Hannibal tried to step into her personal space by packing up food that he made and giving them to her. He planned to do that to Will too, getting to know him and partially using it to show her what kind of a person he was. His plan was this: pack breakfast for Will, then let Will tell this event to her, and then eventually making her comfortable enough for him to make breakfast for her too. It was getting two rabbits by one stone.
Hence, that was what happened. A second of silence surrounded the two, as they chewed and swallowed the food.
“Agent Crawford told me you have a knack for the monsters,” Hannibal mentioned.
Will put down his fork and looked at him. “..I don’t think the Shrike killed the girl in the field.”
Hannibal also put down his fork and leaned a bit forward. “The devil is in the details. What didn’t your copycat do to the girl in the fields? What gave it away?”
“..everything. It’s like, he had to show me a negative to prove that-“ he sighed. “Y/N would’ve explain it better,” he muttered. “it’s like he had to show me a negative so that-so that I could see the positive.” He rubbed his face.
“….Y/N?” Hannibal muttered.
“Crawford wants her. I don’t want her to be, but I feel like she can see more than I can.” Will looked around. Hannibal noticed this.
“…May I ask you a question, Will?” Hannibal said, his breakfast long forgotten. Will just waved his hand, nodding his head. “Do you live with someone else here?”
“..yeah, we, Y/N and I thought it wouldn’t be that bad of an idea, rather than getting separate rooms…” Will explained. Hannibal nodded. So that was the thing he felt was off about the house. He was honestly surprised, but didn’t let that out.
“where is she, then? Sleeping? I would love to share this meal with her too, if she can,”
“She leaves at 4 in the morning to go to her job.” Will replied, taking another bite of the food. “and she’s strictly vegan, so I don’t think she’ll be able to eat any of these,”
“I see. Her job, which is..”
“Teaching. Modern philosophy at Johns Hopkins.”
“ah, Johns Hopkins. I should’ve known.” Hannibal almost gave him a smile.
With the additional information, it was too easy for Hannibal to roll Jack Crawford up and persuade her to be one of his patients too. He added a little bit of extra reasoning with her injury, telling Jack perhaps the right therapy may make her sense more, and less be obstacled by her blindness. It wasn’t his initial goal to help her sense like a not-visually-impaired person, but he was confident it was possible.
He decided to pay a visit to her lectures.
(Should I make this a series??)
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viridianevergarden · 9 months ago
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This again. I just want to break down my thoughts here so bear with me.
(I did the math and calculated ~ 7.9k people voted that 55%) 💀
First of all,
Elain doesn’t just enjoy gardening for the aesthetic, but rather for the fruits of her labor through hard work. Spring Court’s flowers and nature are only in bloom by magic (The High Lord’s). Not work. Not labor. But rather for convenience and aesthetics (to embody the very domain that one, being Tamlin, High Lord of the SC, resides in). That, to me, goes against Elain’s very enjoyment of the craft of her gardening.
Couple that with the fact that she has completely neglected using those gloves that Lucien gave her. She put them down after they were gifted to her, not even bothering to look at them as if she didn’t care for them. She doesn’t seek protection from the labor of her craft. She doesn’t want to make it easier. She enjoys the challenge. I think Feyre’s perspective on that made it clear.
And again, why would Elain in her right mind willingly go to be with her younger sister’s abusive ex? Why would she? I’m pretty sure she is well aware of what transpired between the two. That she is aware of Tamlin’s actions. Especially when he is partially, if not entirely, responsible for her life quite literally being turned upside down. Having her mortality stripped from her and her love and happiness (or simply content) gone along with it. If she is so visibly uncomfortable with Lucien, who was an accomplice, I’d imagine she would also hold animosity or discomfort for Tamlin tenfold.
Secondly,
Regarding mating bonds being rare: This is a story that encompasses a main group of protagonists. 3’s are SJM’s specialty. Just because 3 brothers may get with 3 sisters does not automatically mean that mating bonds aren’t rare. As a fae romance series with mating bonds clearly being a significant staple throughout, we will encounter mating bonds. Especially with our protagonists. That just seems like logic to me. Even then, it’s been stated and shown time and again that not every mating bond works or is positive. That just because two individuals have a bond doesn’t mean they’ll have good chemistry.
Also take into account that our dear Inner Circle is not the entire continent of Prythian. The Inner Circle does not equal the entire population. So therefore, a small group of mated individuals ≠ a common occurrence.
What’s wrong with the storyline matching up to have a 3:3? Is the perfectionism so wrong? I think that the phrase “too perfect” should be replaced with “complete/completion”. One last brother to one last sister is the remaining piece of the puzzle. Yes, you can argue that the cliche of 3:3 is boring or too simple but this is SJM’s world. She is a cliche author. She always has been.
Lastly,
I believe that Tamlin has had his redemption arc. If you want to call it that at least. In my opinion, he doesn’t need one. His prime arc is over. The series is way bigger than just Tamlin now. I simply see no reason as to why SJM should take more time for Tamlin , who arguably has done more than enough, rather than anything else. I feel like it’d be a backward progression.
Not every character has to be redeemed.
Not every character should be able to find peace or become good after selfish or morally questionable acts.
Not every character calls for major development.
To me, it’s just bad writing to redeem and develop every single character.
Even then, Tamlin is a well written character. He doesn’t need more depth. (I think this post alone proves that people don’t understand him already). He doesn’t need Elain to come in and “fix him”. No one can. No one but Tamlin himself. And we see that if anything, he’s wasting away rather than trying to help himself. He’s wallowing in his grief, anger, and hatred. Be it for others -like Rhys- or himself. It’s on him. Hell, even Rhys tried to help him. Yet he remains unmoving. That is Tamlin’s choice. Elain shouldn’t need to be his catalyst for change. He should.
To Conclude,
I see no logical reason again as to why people think this is a possibility. It just seems like a terrible writing choice for the story of ACOTAR. Of course, SJM can indeed surprise us. She wields the mighty pen after all. But then again, why would she turn around and completely dismiss 4 books of chemistry with a certain shadowsinger just to pitch our third sister with someone like Tamlin or Lucien? If she had planned to do so before, why would there be 4 books worth of obvious chemistry? It’d be a waste. If she has planned or plans to have Elain go with Lucien or Tamlin, why hasn’t she written any semblance of true chemistry between them? If Elain should allegedly have a balance with Tamlin or Lucien, why isn’t there any chemistry? All I’ve seen from Elain is obvious discomfort.
“I thought it was obvious…” - SJM
I could write more about Lucien and Elain’s dynamic but I think that is a whole different matter that doesn’t pertain to the current topic so I’ll leave this here. Thanks for coming to my ted talk.
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terramythos · 28 days ago
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I Score FFXIV Fishing Titles (based on how fucking cool or fun they sound).
Note: I am NOT including titles that you can earn on any Disciple of the Hand job; this is only for titles you HAVE to be a fisher in order to earn. Also, sorry if I missed any of them LMAO.
FISHER NATION... there's way more fishing titles than I thought, so grab your rod and get ready to cast! 🎣🎣🎣
‘Of the Irresistible Lure’, from “I Caught That VIII”- Catch and record discovery of 1,460 unique fish.
6/10. I mean this one is OK, any title that can drop ‘Irresistible’ in there has something going for it. It’s just not a compelling title to me when there’s so much cooler sounding shit to pick from. And if you’ve gotten this title, you for sure have access to those cooler ones.
‘Master Fisher’, from “The One That Didn’t Get Away IV” - Catch 10,000 large-sized fish.
3/10. Come the fuck on, man. At least in the English-speaking client, everyone is going to be thinking about “Master Baiter” and missed opportunities. Even without that context this one is pretty boring. And considering how fishing mechanics work, how does catching 10k large fish imply mastery of any sort? That’s probably the most boring achievement to get in fishing.
‘Meadowcaster’, from “A Fisher’s Life for Me: La Noscea” - Obtain all five “Good Things Come to Those Who Bait: La Noscea” achievements.
8/10. This one is pretty good, and it’s one of the oldest fishing titles in the game. There’s two others that are very similar. The use of ‘caster’ for fishing is funny, but also applicable for the combat part of the game. Unfortunately this and the other two are a huge grindy pain in the ass to get. ‘Meadow’ is a little dull to me though.
‘Forestcaster’, from “A Fisher’s Life for Me: Black Shroud” - Obtain all five “Good Things Come to Those Who Bait: Black Shroud” achievements.
7/10. I don’t think “Forestcaster” rolls off the tongue as well as the other two achievements. Kind of boring if I’m being fully honest, but I’m sure there are characters who can use this title to great effect.
‘Desertcaster’, from “A Fisher’s Life for Me: Thanalan” - Obtain all five “Good Things Come to Those Who Bait: Thanalan” achievements.
10/10. This shit sounds so fucking cool to me, I might even actually get this title despite the grind. ‘Desert’ goes way harder than the other two from this achievement series, IMO.
‘Master Caster’, from “Go Big or Go Home IX” - Catch 100 different varieties of big fish in areas explored during A Realm Reborn, Heavensward, or Stormblood.
8/10. Master Fisher wishes it was this cool. The clever rhyme calls to mind FISHER NATION poetry, which helps this one a lot. The only reason it ranks so low is because….
‘Grandmaster Caster’, from “Go Big or Go Home IX” - Catch 204 different varieties of big fish in areas explored during A Realm Reborn, Heavensward, or Stormblood.
10/10. Automatically overshadows the previous entry, and for good reason: this one takes some real fuckin’ effort to get. I’m so happy to have finally gotten this title. It’s extremely funny to wear it when playing a ranged magical job. Also, ‘Grandmaster’ makes me feel like a chess champion or something.
‘Lord/Lady of Far Waters’, from “Go Big Far from Home V” - Catch 45 different varieties of big fish in areas explored during Shadowbringers.
11/10. God this one is so fucking cool we are hard-locked into this title for the forseeable future once I actually earn it (currently 43/45). I think this is my favorite fishing title? It’s so unique and powerful…. Nobody does it like her.
‘Big Fish’, from “No River Wide Enough” - Obtain the achievements “Go Big or Go Home XVI” and “Go Big Far From Home V”.
4/10. Can I be real with you. Whose idea was it to make the achievement for earning BOTH of its strong predecessors so fucking boring by comparison? This is definitely a flex title, but one I will not be wearing for more than like 20 seconds for some screenshots. This one gets points for reminding me of the movie of the same name, which was Pretty Good (TM).
‘Wavewalker’, from “Go Big Till the End” - Catch 40 different varieties of big fish in areas explored during Endwalker.
6/10. Listen, I get what this is going for. It’s a play on Endwalker. The thing is, Wavewalker just doesn’t evoke anything special to me. I think of regular surfing. I think of weird new-age crystal people projecting onto the astral plane, but in the most boring pseudoscientific way possible. I think about some kind of maneuver the audience might do during a concert. Just kind of mundane to me.
‘The Final Fish’, from “Fish Fear Me” - Obtain the achievements “No River Wide Enough” and “Go Big Till the End III.”
7/10. The sequel to ‘Big Fish’ sucks a little bit less, but it’s still not super special to me. I might wear this one a little longer when I get it. At least we have a play on Final Fantasy with this one. I would feel less boring wearing this one than some of the other entries on this list. To be honest I think "Fish Fear Me" would have been a cooler title instead of making that the achievement name.
‘Rod of the Firmament’, from “Skyward Rod III” - Earn 500,000 points toward your skyward score as a fisher.
8/10. You can make so many dick jokes with this one. A solid (heh) title, no notes, we appreciate this.
‘The Nest’s Own Fisher’, from “The Height of Angling” - As a fisher, submit 300 artisanal seafood items for the second phase of the Ishgardian restoration.
3/10. Man what is this even going for? The only real connection that comes to mind is a fishing bird or something. How do I use this? It gets a couple points for novelty since it’s unlike other fishing titles, but that’s it. Especially considering the next one does it better.
‘Featherfall’s Finest Fisher’, from “Fishers of a Feather” - As a fisher, submit 300 artisanal seafood items for the third phase of the Ishgardian restoration.
7/10. We’re getting somewhere with this one; we got the alliteration going, ‘Featherfall’ sounds cool as fuck. Probably not a title I’d use but it’s way more appealing than the previous.
‘The Risensung Fisher’, from “An Ode to Angling” - As a fisher, submit 300 artisanal seafood items for the fourth phase of the Ishgardian restoration.
5/10. Aaaand back down again. I know it’s a play on Dragonsong but “Risensung” just sounds awkward to me. It just does not work for me, too awkward and weird. But at least it’s better than the first of these.
‘World-class Troller’, from “On a Boat V” - Earn a cumulative total of 3,000,000 points while ocean fishing.
9/10. This title is perfect for silly little geese who do a little bit of trolling now and then. What kind of trolling? Well, that is simply for you to decide…. I knock off a point because this doesn’t scream ‘fishing title’ to me. But it IS a fun title nevertheless.
‘Ocean Fisher’, from “No More Fish in the Sea III” - Score at least 16,000 points during a single ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
4/10. Yaaaawn. It’s giving ‘Master Fisher’ energy. At least this one makes me think of the ocean and not Master Baiting. But man what a generic title. Who gives a shit. Why would this be your pick ever?
‘Master of the Sea’, from “No More Fish in the Sea IV” - Score at least 20,000 points during a single ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
9/10. WAY better than its predecessor. It’s not quite ‘Lord of Far Waters’ but it scratches a similar itch to me. There’s so many cool ways to use this one in terms of character, glam, etc. A strong pick for sure.
‘Doom of the Deep’, from “Near, Far, Wherever Fish Are III” - Score at least 16,000 points during a single ocean fishing voyage on the Ruby route.
10/10. Cool as FUCK. Very little can stand up to this one. The alliteration, etc… it’s so foreboding and badass. My only complaint is it’s a little too easy to get for such a cool title, IMO… but that doesn’t hurt it in the rankings.
‘Octopus Traveler’, from “What Did Octopodes Do to You?” - Earn the “Octopus Travelers” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
8/10. Octopath Traveler gamers probably love this one. I guess it’s a little funny since that’s also a Square Enix property. I’m mostly giving it an 8 out of a sense of obligation considering. Also, octopodes are cool as fuck.
‘Shark Hunter’, from “What Did Sharks Do to You?” - Earn the “Certifiable Shark Hunters” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
1/10. Shark hunting sucks IRL and I hate that this reminds me of that :( A sad title. Maybe you can make it work for a really elaborate Jaws cosplay but that’s stretching it.
‘Jellyfish Fanatic’, from “What Did Jellyfish Do to You?” - Earn the “Jelled Together” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
6/10. This probably goes hard for jellyfish fans. IDK, I think jellyfish are fine, pretty cool organisms, but I wouldn’t personally consider myself a fanatic, so I don’t really get it.
‘Sea Dragoon’, from “What Did Seadragons Do to You?” - Earn the “Maritime Dragonslayers” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
7/10. Big title if you’re a Dragoon main— it’s a fun pun and everything. But also I feel there are cooler Dragoon titles to pick from, even a cooler fishing one, so it’s a little mediocre. It’s fine, whatever.
‘Balloon Catcher’, from “What Did Balloons Do to You?” - Earn the “Balloon Catchers” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
2/10. Balloon Catcher. Balloon Catcher? This is dire. This is bad. Keep this one away from me. Anti-cool if I’m being fully honest. Balloon Catcher… at least it’s not Shark Hunter, I suppose.
‘Deadliest Catcher’, from “What Did Crabs Do to You?” - Earn the “Crab Boat Crew” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
8/10. Like, the title itself is fine, pretty good even, but it does not scream “fisher” to me in a way that matters. I know it’s a play on The Deadliest Catch, but it simply doesn’t wow me. It does score pretty high for general badassery.
‘Manta Maniac’, from “What Did Mantas Do to You?” - Earn the “Sticking it to the Manta” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Indigo route.
7/10. This is super similar to Jellyfish Fanatic, but this gets an extra point for the alliteration. I also personally like manta rays more than jellyfish. Sorry, jellyfish fans.
‘Sea Comber’, from “What Did Shellfish Do to You?” - Earn the “Maximum Mussel” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Ruby route.
2/10. Bro this suuuuucks. We’re fuckin’ combing? Inherently it’s not as bad as fucking ‘Balloon Catcher’, but it scores the same because HOW COULD YOU NOT DO A PLAY ON SHELLFISH/SELFISH FOR THIS. Fuck you. This sucks ass.
‘Squidzure Dragoon’, from “What Did Squid Do to You?” - Earn the “Squid Squadron” bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Ruby route.
9/10. Definitely the cooler Dragoon fishing title (it’s weird it happened twice). Absolutely brilliant pun, and it’s an iconic enough play on ‘Azure Dragoon’ that people will recognize it from the main story. No notes, great title.
‘Shrimp Mariner’, from “What Did Shrimp Do to You?” - Earn the “Shrimp Smorgasbord�� bonus during an ocean fishing voyage on the Ruby route.
3/10. And back to the depths. What are we even going for here? This is stupid. There’s nothing cool about this. At least it’s a little more fishing related, I guess? I hate it less than the other 2s? Not a vote of confidence, I’ll say.
‘Otherworld Angler’, from “Live Long and Prospero” - Complete the quest “Morsel of the Deep.”
8/10. The poor man’s ‘Lord of Far Waters’. It’s a cool title and inherently provides the context behind it, which is impressive. It’s from Shadowbringers, after all. If you don’t have other cool fishing titles at your disposal, this is a pretty easy one to get. But as someone with cooler titles, this isn’t one I’ll be using.
‘Erudite Angler’, from “Sufficient Data” - Complete the quest “Pastures New.”
5/10. This is basically the Endwalker version of the previous title, and it doesn’t excite me. It’s just not as cool. I will say that this quest is basically the ‘this will negatively affect the trout population’ meme put into quest form. It’s hilarious and I recommend doing it. The title is just a mediocre reward for it.
‘Of Countless Catches’, from “Forever Fancy” - Complete the quest “An Odd Fish Odyssey.”
7/10. Love the alliteration on this one, which is the Dawntrail version of the previous two. I like that we angled away from Angler and into some new naming territory. To be honest, I think this should have been the title for the ‘Master Fisher’ achievement, but it is what it is.
‘The Ambitious Angler’, from “I Like Big Fish and I Cannot Lie” - Complete the quest “The Beast of Brewer’s Beacon.”
6/10. I didn’t even know this title existed??? I only found it scrolling through achievements. It’s just from a random ARR fishing side quest? Wild. Anyway this is fine. Maybe I’ll go get it. But there’s SO many cooler titles. This might be good for someone just starting their fishing journey.
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hopeful-puffin · 4 months ago
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Some 168/169 thoughts
Long post is long.
These chapter have consumed my mind for literally weeks now. And, now that they aren't fast-pass exclusives (and I'm no longer on vacation), I wanna talk a bit about them. First and foremost, as with all of my posts, I'm rambling. For another, I've had 3+ weeks of processing, so I'm trying to remember my initial feelings.
With that out of the way, off I go.
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Just getting this out of the way first. I absolutely adore how Siren automatically lowers himself to be eye-level with Kappa. It's such a little detail but I love it all the same every time I reread 168.
Siren is understandably in a lot of shock here. But he quickly realizes this is Kappa as a child. It's not an act of prostration as much as it is being on the same level as Kappa physically. Rather than make Kappa literally look up to him, he's choosing to look at this from Kappa’s point-of-view. I'm sure I'm just looking too deeply into this, but I found it both very sweet and conscientious of him. Whether Siren acted intentionally or reflexively is something only he knows though.
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I'll be honest; I was mostly okay until this exact moment. At this point I've had to accept that my spirit fictional character may very well be a himbo, shark mermaid. Like, I've felt this, I've just never put it into these words exactly. And, let me tell you, it f*cking hurt reading this part. I'm weird, and reading out-loud helps me solidify and remember lines in a story.
I didn't pick up this series to see the ugly sides of myself being reflected back at me. I thought this was just some silly, cute romp with some LGBTQ+ feesh. Now I'm addicted. Thanks, Obama Ms. Martin.
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It took me reading this until I could do so without crying to realize what I think Kappa is trying to get at here. Siren’s biggest fear is failing those he treasures; from his people to his boyfriend. What gave Kappa the courage to share this tragic part of his own personal history with Siren is more than just feeling safe with him or wanting Siren to understand why he hates knives so much.
Kappa has been where Siren fears to go. He's failed and only points the finger of blame at himself. But he survived it. He "failed" and he's still "here." Kappa is trying to show Siren that it's safe for Siren to express his failings with Kappa. That Kappa wants to protect Siren just as Siren wants to protect Kappa. That, even if he perceives himself as failing, Siren is still "here."
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Going off of that, Kappa is trying to get Siren to a accept his perceived failings and be open about them. Because it's the only way either of them are going to heal with their past mistakes. Kappa is wonderfully patience and sincere here that it just breaks my heart. He repeatedly reaches out for Siren, being a literal light in Siren's darkness. Darkness that has loomed over his head since the God's Mouth (which he even mentions).
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I have to say, I've always been a fan of how Ms. Martin frames these sequences. It's like getting a little window into the souls of these characters and how they are processing their situation. Siren’s going from fighting back against the hand Kappa is extending to him, arguing that he of all people doesn't "deserve" this, to gradually (and painfully) talking himself into making himself vulnerable with Kappa in a way he likely never has with someone else. It's especially obvious in the presentation of Siren’s teeth. He goes from baring them in a clenched grimace to hiding them behind a wobbly, frightened frown. It's hard. You can tell Siren wants to do nearly anything but this. But it's Kappa. And Kappa would never hurt him. Something he argued against Susca way back in episode 35.
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He's having to prove just how much he still believes this to be true.
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Throwing back to episode 150, we get some hindsight in Kappa’s perspective. Why am I bringing this up now? Because it was all I could think about in this section of 169.
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Because I can't help but wonder if that thought is going through Kappa’s head again at this exact moment. Kappa "hates" that Siren feels guilty. No longer "doesn't like," which is how Kappa refers to his scales; hates. So being confronted with Siren admitting to the guilt Kappa suggested has to killing Kappa here. So I'm not surprised at all that this is what finally gets Kappa to start crying alongside Siren.
This isn't even getting into all of the people Siren is apologizing to. Siren feels guilty for not being, "able to end it," because he's still alive. He wants to give up. He wants to feel useful, to "deserve" their love. But he doesn't and he doesn't want to keep fighting this fight. He's tired. He hates himself because Siren feels like all these people he cares about wouldn't have suffered had he just died.
These thoughts, spoken out loud, I think rekindle Kappa’s fear of losing Siren. A fear that I wouldn't be surprised has been at the forefront of Kappa’s mind off and on since Siren’s botched attempt at asking Kappa to fulfill the prophecy should they not have a solution once his time is up.
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That last image in particular has been living rent-free in my head for 3 weeks now. And I'm so happy to finally have a screenshot of it. I've been fighting making it one of my phone wallpapers since the chapter was released from fast-pass.
Someone else has already mentioned it, but Siren’s shock likely partially stems from him reeling from his experience within the God's Mouth. Of the fake Kappa holding his face and claiming that he loves him. But I'm gonna go a little deeper in the comparison.
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Fake Kappa is also asking Siren to stay with him. But where they are creepy and possessive, the real Kappa is soft and pleading.
The fake blames the others for Siren’s pain. The very same people Siren expresses guilt for not helping. The real Kappa says he doesn't care about any of that. That he loves Siren despite Siren seeing himself as weak or a failure.
The fake heavily implies that Siren should just give up. That his pain will end if he does so. The real Kappa begs Siren to keep trying. Because losing Siren is unthinkable.
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I think this is why Siren hesitates before accepting what Kappa is telling him. Because last time the fake placed a hand on his fresh injury, implicating the pain it will undoubtedly further inflict upon him should he stay with it.
The real Kappa, by contrast, has his hand on Siren uninjured cheek while pleading with Siren to stay with him. Kappa wants Siren to heal by staying with him. It's such a wonderful mirroring that I keep finding myself pondering over and over again.
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To the point that, once Siren gets over his shock that, despite his aforementioned apologies and feelings of being unworthy, here is someone who truly loves him despite all of that. Which Siren recognizes means this is the real Kappa.
The one who makes Siren:
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Which is drastically different from:
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I could on and on about this. Maybe I'll make a Part 2 since apparently Tumblr has a 30 image limit per post. I don't know. It will depend on if I feel like this adequately got my feelings off of my chest. Esoecially because I didn't get anywhere near to discussing the whole bonding with the others heart bit.
By the Surface, these two will be the death of me. OTL
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helloescapist · 1 year ago
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The Hashiras in a Relationship | Muichiro Tokito
Word Count: 6062
Setting: Muichiro Tokito x gn!reader [reader is the same age]
Content Warning(s): none, Muichiro= strictly. Puppy. Love. [if you want or expect more from the little one, move along. This is not the blog for you.]
Summary: sweet, fluffy, first love headcanons for Muichiro Tokito
A/N: yeah, tumblr erased some of my notes, but oh the well... friendly reminder that I will NOT accept any suggestive or spicy requests for minors, and minor characters. Any request for underage characters will automatically be shifted to puppy love/innocent young love themes. Or just rejected and blocked. Have a nice day <3
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To be loved by the Mist Hashiras is to know tranquility and peace. The cool of the morning, the gentle greeting of song birds. Warmed and soothed across the break of sunlight. Greeting the day, the promise the touch cool breeze against your cheeks. Traces of rain across morning dew, and the scent of passed weather. Serenity wrapped in the stillness of the day, the promise of opportunities to come. Dawn drawn across pillows of clouds, reposed of the rays filtered into select colors. Hushed tones tickled across the morning dew drops. Gentle tears gently wiped away from the blades of grass, cooed in the comfort of shady trees, and hidden beneath the mist. Playful as children that dare to play within its embrace, games of hide and seek. Mild whispers to guide you through the fog, gentle and secure. Sweet notes of lily chaperoning you through the daze. Faithful and loyal, gentle as the song of laughter dances through the haze. Innocent love that dares to embrace unknowns, and savor what’s to come. The embrace of cedar wood as he embraces you from behind, clasped fingers over your fingers to whisper, “guess who.” Foundation of expectations, of dreams, hearts intertwined, and joyful of what is to come, just as his love.
To be loved by Muichiro is to accept that you will need to welcome the delicate push of air. To allow yourself to be carried by the breeze, to enjoy where the sinecure may carry you. To savor the journey rather than rush to the destination.
It’s to bask in the glow of his gentle smile, and know that the there is peace in his change of moods. Understand that it is not intentional that the Mist Hashira regards you from a distance at times.
Tokito is naturally reserved and shy, but after the loss of his brother, he is guarded. Vigilant to protect his fragile heart against loss, and heartbreak. Beneath his cold exterior, is the same sweet boy he has always been, and as time goes on, he’s becoming more familiar with who he is. He just needs time, and acceptance. The Mist Hashira needs to feel safe and secure, and after everything he has been through, this will require patience, but rest assured, beneath his mask of indifference is a gentle heart.
You will need to give him the space to be himself, and not allow yourself to become overwhelmed with his varying emotions. Those who have endured hardships need a safe space to land, and consistency.
As a partner, this is a necessity for your relationship. Whether it’s the boy who is allowed to stray after a butterfly, or the warrior who will shield you from all harm. He is two sides of the same coin, a lover and a fighter.  
This is why it’s so crucial for him to have someone patient and understanding in his corner. If you come off too abrasive at times, you’ll see him recoil, and because of this, I think it’s important that his partner is rather docile and sweet.
Someone to sooth his anxieties, and the pressures he bares for someone so young. Someone soothing, but also playful. Willing to distract him from his duties if only for a moment to chase each other around the garden, toss a temari ball around, and to roll through the grass. He needs to be reminded that you’re still young.
Tokito will appreciate someone who keeps his wellbeing in mind whether it’s a cute little bento for a budding cook, or someone who just spirits him away to look at flowers, but rest assured, in moments when he needs assistance making sure he’s being heard and not swept under the carpet I just feel like at times, louder personalities such as Uzui make it difficult for him to be heard.
The Mist Hashira is… quirky. I mean, you knew this, you had to have, but it’s because of his own unique aspects that he is fairly accepting of others. He’s not one to abide by social norms, and is just as quick to toss societal expectations to the side.
He did not bat an eye to know his ancestors were skilled swordsmiths, nor ever felt shame that his father was a woodsman, and he was quick to pick up the sword as it was where his heart led him. In many aspects, you will find that Muichiro is not guided by the mundane, nor tradition, rather he will make decisions for himself, and his relationship as the time comes.
Take for example if you are not one for nurturing others aside from himself, he is more than content to take up the roll of caretaker, and allow you to be in charge. Just as, a partner who is prone to being submissive in personality, he has little qualms with taking charge. Gender roles mean absolutely nothing to him, and is accepting and curious about his partner.
Due to the internal struggle Muichiro has between wandering off to a flower field, and remaining rigid in his duties, he needs assistance with practical matters.
Don’t be led astray, he is very steadfast in his morals and resolves, he will not be swayed, and it is exactly because of this that he will need a partner who is good at the day-to-day practicalities of life. Someone who is willing to tend to his neglected wounds from swords practice.
He would be the type to forget to sterilize a wound and end up with infection, but always ensure your scratches are cared for. Distracted by drifting clouds, someone who will remind Muichiro to eat lunch, and allow time for his body to rest is exactly what he needs.
Because the boy definitely struggles with sticking to a task for an extended time. the fact you can is amazing to him.
While Muichiro is known throughout the ranks for being aloof, as the person entrusted with his innermost thoughts, you’ll become well acquainted with the depth of emotions that lay beneath his still surface.
To be clear, he’s not moody, nor is he high maintenance, but he does feel things deeply. The Mist Hashira is a feeler, so much so he was willing to erase all memories of his past life to protect his fragile heart.
The sword wielder processes the world on a deeper level than those around him; he is affected by the shift of his environment. Whether it’s the change in tone of an acquaintance, the traces of an intruder, or even the shift of seasonings in his dinner, he is quick to notice the changes around him, and reacts in response.
In part, this can lend itself to him feeling a bit drained at times, or even agitated if he feels uneasy with the changes. It’s to be expected of trauma survivors. He is a very empathetic individual, and because of this, he may become burdened with emotions that are not his, seen in the way he nearly adapted his brother’s behaviors to protect himself.  
Despite the general consensus of those under the Hashiras, Muichiro is actually a very kind boy, who is idealistic, and always willing to do the right thing. Whether it’s the popular choice, or will come at a great cost to himself. He can and will take wounds to defend others.
His resolve is surprisingly a gentle strength that most will not accept. partly because he’s so small compared to the others!
The Mist Hashira is a supportive friend and partner, but just as he is giving, he is also independent. In general, he doesn’t need constant attention from his partner although may be to maintain a healthy diet.
He enjoys being able to take things at his own pace, and because of this, while he is one for commitment, you will find Tokito is defiant to being tied down and restrained in his activities.
As Muichiro grows attached to others, he becomes more and more steadfast in placing faith in others. I mean, it’s not immediate, but it is earned, he’ll be wiling to place hope in those he trusts.
So much so that Tokito will likely remain resolved in the opinion he has formed of them that any stray from this imagery will without a doubt, have a very good reason. He just knows it.
While it may be nothing more than a gut feeling built on a foundation of trust, Muichiro will defend the abnormalities fiercely without hesitation. He is loyal, and respectful of those who have earned it. No, he is fiercely loyal, and very, very little will remove you from the pedestal he has placed you on.
Really, you will find that he is rather accepting of the mass majority of life choices you take, and the routes you travel. As long as you remain who he knows you to be, and never intentionally inflict harm to others, you’ll always have his support.
To be clear, Tokito’s support is not as flamboyant or evident as Mitsuri that girl will have shirts printed off and yell your name on a microphone, but its’ there. Just pay attention. While the Mist Pillar is prone to forgetting a lot of things, he is the sort to never miss an event, whisper praises to anyone who will listen, and spend hours assisting you on your goal. He is just as content to listen to you gush over your interests while he listens with a small smile tucked on his lips as he sips on tea.  
Muichiro’s favoritism is… evident. I mean, it’s really not subtle. To those he cares not for, he can be fairly aloof only asking questions as his attention is peeked.
You’ll also notice a lack of patience or resolve, and quick to fling little small childish insults about such as nincompoop, nitwit, numbskull, idiot, etc. Openly too, he’s not trying to hide his opinion, rather he’s unabashedly open about his input.
ds Nor does he really care if he hurts these particular people’s feelings. literally like every twelve year old boy who ever existed.  It’s actually ironic because he will naturally gravitate towards the underdog as well, should this individual show favorable traits such as similar principles.
Although, Muichiro can also show a respect for others who have a varying of opinion from his, as long as they have shown themselves to be a worthy person, he is more than content to coexist despite differences. The best example would be the relationship between the Sound Hashira and himself.
Muichiro naturally struggles to navigate boundaries. Nothing malicious or intended to inflict harm, it’s rather a combination of his youth and natural affectionate nature that he struggles to navigate the intricacy of relationships.
Boundaries by nature is often difficult to define especially when you’re younger. So in moments of tense frustrations, he will struggle with whether he should comfort you, or give you space. If you’re actually mad at him, or the situation you’ve landed in.
Like any relationship, this will fade over time as he familiarizes himself with you and love in general, but yes, such as the drama of young love, a small disagreement will leave him with the impression that your relationship has been absolved.
It should also be noted that Tokito is not quite sure how to communicate his boundaries as of yet, and you may often find him just walking away from you without word.
Small talk has never been his strong suit. Even with his own twin brother, it was always difficult to engage.  In part, this is because Muichiro does not wish to discuss passing conversation, or fill the air with noise. Talks about the weather, about upcoming dumpling flavors, or gossip does not interest him.
Rather, he wants meaningful conversations. Creative discussions about what you would do to better the world, or what you want out of life. Things that express the inner most workings of your thought process, why it is that you chose to join the Demon Slayer Corps.
Rest assured, any response is welcome. he won’t snip at you for reasons similar to Mitsuri’s rather, he’s genuinely interested.
For obvious reasons, the Mist Hashira is always growing and evolving.
On the one hand, there is the young boy who trembles to the shift of the leaves, and remains respectful to his elders, delicate and gentle. On the other, is a swordsman well-honed to his skills, confident and successful, a protector.
In a way, it’s the fact that Muichiro is having to separate the adopted aspects of his brother from himself from who he was in the past, and accept who he has become. His age does play a factor in this. I mean, let’s be honest, twelve is a shit fest of an age without demons running about. There is so much more growth to come.
The type of person Muichiro will be attracted to is someone who he can feel safe and accepted by. Someone who has not only earned his trust, but remains steadfast to who they are. Regardless of social norms, of expectations, and ideals. Someone who can cherish the tender aspects of his personalities, and bask in his gentle nature, but also accepts the darkness that lurks in his heart.
Will not shudder away from blind rage that captivates him in defense, nor withdraws when he is prickly. He does adore someone with their own ambitions, and desires in life. He wants someone genuine, and true.
Someone who is as innocent and loyal to their heart as he is himself, but more so patient, and docile with the world. Accepting, and content to remain where others have strayed, and convicted to ideals.
Sort of like a bolder in the depths of a stream. Content to live its existence with the creatures who seek shelter beneath it’s position, cultivating life, but not resistant to the current that it meets day in and day out.
I can imagine two scenarios in which Muichiro happened upon you. His former self shows signs of being open to life, and puppy love. Like the sort to develop small crushes, and open to meeting new people, but after the horrors he endured, Tokito became guarded. Placed a wall between himself and others, even those who saved his life.
Because of this, I believe that these two aspects of his being are almost in conflict with one another, and so I believe that he’d grow attached to someone he has had consistent interactions with in the past two years.
Muichiro would likely fall for one of the caretakers at the Butterfly Estate. A nurse who he has had active engagement with. Someone who fretted over his wounds and chased after him when he attempted to return to practicing his swordsmanship. Fretted over his eating habits, and reprimanded him for pushing himself far too early despite his obvious stitches. Someoen who lit up at his first smile, and became swayed as the memories drifted back to him. Always present when the kakushi escort him to their care, snippy in their remarks, and dedicated to their craft.
Although the most likely scenario, I feel that Tokito would fall a child of the Ubuyashiki clan. A love that had been fostered over his entire time with the corps, captivated in the way you assisted the Lady Amane upon your trek up the mountain. The open tears you shed at the lost of a boy with his face that you had never known. The way you had enacted a temporary burial in honor until the Master could prepare services. Maybe one of the children conceived by the Master and Amane’s love, or even just another child under the household’s care, blood or otherwise adopted. The touch of your kimono as you stayed up all night assisting the Lady Amane with his care. Your quiet acceptance as you watched him slave away despite his obvious in silence. Instructed to remain still despite how your heart screamed at the state of him. Left with little more than to simply hold the bandages in preparation for his inevitable collapse. The way you laundered his clothing without complaint, and joined his bedside with bedtime stories, and current events of the household to share. Even if you were often times, not sure if the boy even heard a word from your lips, still willing to keep him company despite this. The time when his memories would return, how your cheeks lit up upon having your name actually called by him for the first time, not a nickname he had gifted you to sort out which one of you was which. But your name.
proof he had remembered your time together.
To be clear, the relationship between the Mist Hashira and Master Ubuyashiki is more that of a father and adopted son, and because of this, I feel that Muichiro would struggle to approach a romance with the child of the household. Even if his heart desperately yearns for such. It would only be after the gentle, and consistent reassurance stretched over time from the Ubuyashiki parents that they welcome your bond before he considered pursuing anything.
Because of this, I’m confident that it will take him time to approach a relationship of any sorts outside of acquaintanceship. That being said, Muichiro values his time clearly, and is not one to waste time on a match that wouldn’t pan out.
Even despite his youth, he’s not going to waste energy on a social interaction unless he feels that it could work. You wouldn’t expect someone so young to be able to determine so quickly if you’re a match, but well, you’d be surprised. Muichiro is intelligent, and quick on the uptake.
He’s quick to determine if you’re a good match for him or not. Whether you have the potential to be a lasting and I do mean a lasting relationship. If you do not pass his standards, and he has rather high standards like Lady Amane high, then he will not give you a second consideration. Muichiro will pass you by without a thought. It’s nothing personal, he just gives his time to those who he deems worthy.
The good news is that, you’ll be able to figure out that you mean something to him, even if you’re not quite sure if that something is romantic or platonic. Are you a love interest, or just a playmate like Tanjiro? Well, that will take time to determine for you.  Tokito is already confident that he has feelings for you, it’s just that applying it will be… a challenge.
For you, you may just see a boy who longs for friendship, and company. A lonely boy who has little his age to engage with, and so you being of similar age, he just attached himself to you. his flirting is terrible. Again, he’s twelve. He’s slipping up all over the place.
But to other members of the core, or even the dango shop owner you visited, the outside world can tell very easily that he’s a little boy chasing after the object of his affections.
Struggling to navigate the world of young love, stuck between fumbling his words, accidentally insulting you, doing something stupid to try and impress you, it’s all reminiscent of puppy love. adorable.
Really, it’s a race to see who will confess first.
Either because his insistence to remain around you, a pitiful way to signify his attraction having blossomed feelings for the young boy, or if it’s simply because he cannot stand this anymore. Tokito is by nature reserved, and even a little shy in romantic aspects aren’t we all at first?, that he relies on his body language to communicate his interest.
A genuine smile not like the one for Gyoko, seekign conversation, small token of affections such as his willingness to pay for your snack. Actually, it may take some time for him to have actually realized he likes you.
When he does, Muichiro will be internally knocked off tilt. Stumble over words randomly, his thoughts having drifted for only a moment. It’s in one of these shy fumbles, and panicked mess that he accidentally confessed his affections for you. and will try to pretend It didn’t happen if you give him the chance. Don’t.
He’s inexperienced, dating is a whole new world to him, and we all have, he’s going to struggle. If you’ve been given the ability to see his vulnerable side, then you already have his trust. He likes to keep himself private, and offering only small pieces of himself as necessary, but with you he’s open.
Willing to share as it comes. Excited, and eager. He’s so young, but he wants love. The idea of having found his match so young, the opportunity to grow old together.
Muichiro is a  closet romantic who delves into small day dreams and what ifs. He’s not grounded, and has likely imagined a variety of scenarios. Small cutesy ones.
What it will be like to hold your hand. How can he make the opportunity to hold your hand arise. What if you get married one day? He has a goofy smile on his face imagining the different routes your love and life can go together. Always together.
I feel like dates with Muichiro would be fairly unique and customized to his partner. He’s creative, and well, a daydreamer. So his brain has worked out a variety of activities for the two of you.
The Mist Hashira wants to learn about you, and will take all of your interest into mind before dragging you out for the day. no really, in his small excitement, he tugged you away without considering if you have duties for the day. Really, as long as the date is comfortable, I feel like Muichiro would be willing to explore a lot of different hobbies with his partner.
Small dates over cloud watching. Etching different animals and kami spirits through the puffs of white, gentle as the breeze that drifts through your hair. Spread out in a meadow, fingers tracing they sky. Sharing a mochi from a vender upon having completed errands for the Ubuyashiki household, such as groceries. The small chance for an interlude drawing him to the sweet’s vender.
Really, he’ll opt for any opportunity to spend time with you as a date, quick to offer to carry the groceries when your mother has sent you to town. Helpful to collect firewood, or tend to the vegetable garden, Muichiro is the sort to want to accompany you on any errands in the hope of just spending time together.
To pluck a flower while searching for firewood and show it to you. To follow butterflies along your journey to town, accidentally discovering a new route. To weave flower crowns with you in a meadow, and happily bestow upon you his fumbled crown, and treasure your meticulously weaved one. he showed up to training wearing it.  to procure a goldfish from a festival vender, and share it with you with glee before releasing it to your family’s garden.
Sneaking you away to see warhorses if you’ve a fondness for animals. To Muichiro, everything is an opportunity for a small date. Respite away from the rest of the world. Really, if anything, his dates will be symbolic of how deeply he wants his inner world to connect with yours.
One would think that as a young boy, Muichiro’s heart wanders fairly easily. Especially with the distances he travels, but that’s really not the case. For the most part, I really do see him being the type to pursue this singular relationship for his entire life.
From childhood to adulthood, and so, I cannot say that he is the type to casually date, but that being said, forever is a long time. Because of this, in moments where your relationship seems to have been concluded (such as an argument), he may consider another, but never crossing more than a thought or a singular date.
His heart aches that you’ve left him. Even if your relationship is resolved for quite some time, even a few years, Muichiro is likely to have only engaged on a few dates, and most likely pushed on him. Uzui misses his youth I know it.
He’s not like Zenitsu; Tokito is not in a rush to pursue a relationship, but he does want it to happen. Some day. Physical attributes are not a big contributor to his attraction either, it’s all about your heart with the Mist Hashira.
No, he wants to be joined to his childhood sweetheart.
He's devoted
When you have proven your bond, and that you are a trust worthy place to land, Muichiro will be a highly devoted partner, if you haven’t figured that out.
He’s a natural listener, and can and will go far out of his way to make sure that you’re aware he cares. Always willing to listen, about anything and everything. Tell him about your day, share how excited you are for the upcoming festival, gush over the deer you happened upon during your journey. Muichiro will listen happily with the smallest smile on his face he loves this.
Despite the way he treats the rest of the core, or those around him, I believe he would be very open to you at this point. And readily available, eager to spend time together as young lovers often are. He’s confident, and so naïve.
He’ll be fairly quick to discard all of the walls he had enacted around himself, for you only. As I’ve said, Muichiro is fiercely loyal, and steadfast to his companions.
Because of this, I imagine that his partner will find themselves on a pedestal like Ubuyashiki and Tanjiro, and should you ever fall, or misstep, I feel like he would be deeply hurt by this. Even go so far as to view it as a betrayal.
Being so young, he may be willing to forgive far quicker than he should, or he may honestly distant himself for quite sometime from hurt before inevitably drawing himself back to you. Despite how stubborn he can be with his peers, he does not want conflict in his relationship, and will always place the relationship’s health at the importance of his thoughts.
As such, it’s more a matter of time before he forgives you. I won’t.
The Mist Hashira is observant, and empathetic. He is quick to pick up on the shift of your personality, and initially, it will be terribly discomforting for him to approach it. Muichiro will struggle with whether he should pretend he ever noticed it but he did!, and if should he say something. he kind of wants to run away.
He has a natural tendency to place the relationship at the forefront, and just like he did with his brother, he’s likely to struggle to speak up. Finding importance in just maintaining the status quo even at the risk of his own health.
If given the time and space to mature, I feel that he would actually grow confident in approaching these personality nuances, and would be a very caring partner. His deep connection with you would ensure that he knows how to respond in a way that benefits the relationship. Whether you are the type to need snuggles, or space, he’ll know how to respond in time.
As it’s been touched on, Muichiro despite being so young takes his romantic endeavors very seriously. Wholeheartedly so, and as such, he has an extremely generous ability to forgive.
So much so that I worry about his health as a whole and the other Hashiras will end you if you push it.
Communication is likely to have its down falls. Again, you’re both so young, and growing together. Children in love often make mistakes, and have to learn from them. While I don’t feel you would ever have to worry about Tokito judging you because he won’t, he is likely to struggle to communicate his needs and desires.
Fumble at being able to voice that he wanted the last dumpling, and quick to relinquish it over to you without so much as a word. He will hold onto the disappointment rather than express it to you, a mountain out of a mole hill. Something that could just be as easily resolved with a word, these are the sort of communication obstacles you are likely to face.
It’s to be expected. Do your best not to criticize him, and offer the same acceptance he gifts you. As he grows more confident, you will discover that Muichiro is actually a rather chatty person as he is listener in the quite of his own home, and close relationships.
Really apart of the reason why he seems so detached in public is likely that he is busy processing the informational input that the environment is offering him, that he is unable to articulate the inner workings of his thoughts.
Because of this, it may take a few years for Muichiro to be able to properly express his emotions in a healthy way. Rather than an occasional outburst after so long of stuffing them dormant. It’s a combination of things, his trauma, detaching himself from the past and his sibling, but also the fact that he really does filter through his surroundings.
He’s empathetic, and because of this, it may take him longer to really be in touched with his feelings properly. Is the type to grin and bare it.
In your youth, I imagine fights will be more common. It’s a learning curb, and while I do not feel that the fights will ever become vocal outbursts, I imagine that his dodging confrontation will be just as damaging.
I really can imagine him just walking away in the middle of a conversation.
He hates criticism, and he really, really hates conflict. He really has no idea on how to handle or navigate verbal confrontations he really wishes this was a sparing match instead. He needs time alone to process and articulate before engaging in the argument. It’s not that it would take forever, or even a few hours, but it’s so important not to take it personally.
He’s learning. You’re learning.
I do see confrontation spurred to open snippy remarks like he offers other members having been brought on by jealousy.
It’s not that he’s a naturally jealousy person, or the type to be possessive, but at the beginning of the relationship, I can see Muichiro being self-conscious, and even a little bit prickly. It will take time for him to learn the interworking’s of relationships and friendships, but I don’t feel like it would take as long as it would for others Inosuke for example. Rather, a small bit of reassurance, and his trusting nature will navigate him through the rough patch.
But, don’t misunderstand. He is protective. Muichiro will not hesitate to defend your honor, and your station. Whether it’s as his partner, or as a member of the Demon Slayer Corps.
He will not take likely to anyone daring to make comments, or discrediting remarks. He will pick a fight without a thought of repercussion.
Just as communication can be a struggle, understanding Muichiro’s unique way of expressing love can be as turbulent. He naturally gravitates towards quality time to express his affections. He’s so eager to spend time with you, as soon as his duties are completed, he is quick to dash off to your side.
Even if it means that the famed Mist Hashira is hanging undies on the line, he will do so and chase you around the garden.  
Afternoons chasing clouds, or flying kites, painting together side by side as you conduct your lessons to learn how to properly act as a noble befitting of the Ubuyashiki household. Sleeping away in the corner as you study, yes I believe that quality time will come easily to him.
That being said, Muichiro would also find physical intimacy fairly natural as time went on. Quick to take your hand in crowds and guide you through the market. Happy to offer assistance as you tumble of rocks, and waddle through the stream.
Touch would be as natural as just gravitating towards you. Leaning on you when he’s tired, snuggling to sleep under the afternoon sun.
The Mist Pillar would not struggle to give compliments necessarily. He’ll feel a little shy to know that you respond so eagerly to his praise, and likely blush each time he makes a point of complementing you.
Truthfully though, he is quick to offer his praise. Not necessarily because he intends to flatter you in any way, but rather because he is just so quick to acknowledge you. Your accomplishments, and your efforts. Ironic, as I just do not see Tokito paying any mind to his own achievements. He will also slip compliments into conversation regularly.
Open with his appraisal of you, whether it’s the change in your appearance, or how far you’ve come in your cooking or lessons, Tokito has noticed, and is quick to point it out for others as well. he’s just so proud.
I will say that acts of service is a fifty-fifty chance of going well, or terribly. Like Mitsuri, he really does have the best intentions. Such as the way he rushed to join your chores, but the reality is that he can become fairly distracted, an disinterested in completing the task.
Often times, more excited to spend time at your side, and abandons the task all together just to trail after you. like a puppy.
While Muichiro is not one to naturally gravitate towards giving gifts, his upbringing was a rather humble one, and while I can imagine him quick to offer flowers and stones he found in his travels, the actual act of picking up a gift along the way may not come easily. It’s not that he doesn’t have pocket change they pay him well, nor that he’s stingy in his spending. It’s more that it just doesn’t actually occur to him.
The Mist Hashira’s thoughts are just narrow minded, and focused on turning his report, and finding your smiling face. He’s just so excited to see you again, but that being said, if you have shown a preference for something, such as eyes wandering over an accessory on your last grocery trip, he will make a point to stop by the shop and pick it up for you.
Giddy to present it to you. literally rushes to give it to you.
The reality is to be in love with Tokito is to know a childhood sweetheart. The extension of friendship that has endured the test of time, and remain steadfast with the passage of age. To grow together, to learn together. To laugh, and play, to embrace the changes of the world with hopes for the days to come. It’s to know fumbles, and highlights. To know your first fight, to treasure your first kiss. It is to know the serenity of time, and comfort of a love born of friendship. As gentle and serene as the sunlight that filters through the mist. Your heart will always be at easy, always safe amongst the wandering of time. Delicate in its to know reliability, and growth. To welcome change, and to treasure the often over looked gifts of life. The touch of the morning dew on your bare feet, the daisy tucked behind your ear, the warmth of his hand pressed into yours. To never worry that as the hardships you face may change you, never will his love.
For now.
Forever.
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everettswritings · 10 months ago
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Oh my god, Everett making a contribution to the tickle community?! It must be Christmas! Anyways, I guess I should explain myself a bit. You see, whenever I see a character who’s energetic and a chaotic little gremlin my brain automatically goes “I need to completely wreck you”. Sorry, that’s just the way I am! Oh yeah, SFW INTERACTION ONLY! THIS IS NOT A KINK! I AM A MINOR! SFW! Enjoy
Ler:
Evil, very evil.
Definitely one of those lers that does more teasing than tickling, saying every phrase in the book just to drive their Lee insane
”Does that tickle?” “Wow, you’re so ticklish there!” “Coochie coochie coo!”, are just some examples. SOME. Bro’s a chatterbox
NEVER and I mean NEVER say anything like “oh not there” or whatever, he will instinctively focus ONLY on that spot
Enjoys loudly announcing your presence, especially in front of others.
”OOH! Look who it is! It’s my favorite lee!”
You know how I said he uses his puppeteering skills to make cookies do stuff? They use that to orchestrate tickle fights between others, this has especially been used on the other Beasts. They’ve probably gotten beaten up for it, too
Insanely quick, faster than Sonic the Hedgehog! It’s impossible to catch their hands
Lee:
Stupid ticklish. You’re giving me a jester boy who spends most of his couple lines of dialogue laughing, and expecting me not to headcanon him as super ticklish? Hah, no!
Light pokes are enough to get him laughing, especially his ribs(they’re his worst spot).
Squirmy and wriggly beyond belief! If they aren’t restrained, they are going to kick like a mule and punch like a gorilla.
I cannot stress enough how much this bastard SQUIRMS! He isn’t even opposed to rolling around on the ground or trying to crawl away
His laughter is at its loudest when he’s being tickled, it’s loud enough to pierce ears. Oh, he squeals, too! Have fun with that :)
Tries to shush any and all teasing, they can dish it out but they can’t take it.
Revenge tickling is also a must. They can’t handle it, they hate it, so they have to take some form of revenge
And that’s about it! I know y’all probably weren’t expecting this, or even wanting this; but I wanted it and I’m the wonder of this blog, so there. I felt the need to post something because I promised to post this weekend, and honestly this has been in the back of my mind for some time. I know y’all are probably getting sick of headcanons with no real fics, but I’m definitely going to make up for that as soon as I can! Have a good one 🫶
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strawberryraviegutz · 7 months ago
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I really REALLY hate those kinds of stupid “hot take” posts. I think they’re just garbage to purposely farm more discourse to cause infighting, but I’ve been holding this in for so long and I need to get it out of my system so here it goes.
Alastor fans are allowed to dislike Valentino. Valentino was made to be a dislikable Villain while Alastor BY VIV’S OWN WORDS is a chaotic neutral antihero based off of Dexter with a moral code. Of course people are gonna like Alastor more than Valentino. The antihero/vigilante is a very popular beloved trope. I mean just look at Magneto and Venom.
You guys claim to want more nuanced characters but when we try and tell you that Alastor is more nuanced BASED OFF OF EVIDENCE FROM THE CREATOR and little possible context clues in the show we get accused of “babying/woobifying him”(as if Val fans haven’t done that to Val). This isn’t a hit piece against all Val fans/simps btw. I may hate that moth, but you guys should be allowed like him without receiving hate and or death threats.
It’s not “hypocrisy” to dislike Valentino or the Vees and like Alastor for the reasons I said above and the four of them aren’t comparable. Yeah they share some traits but overall the only thing Alastor and the Vees have in common are the mistreatment of the souls they own. Like I said, Val fans shouldn’t be attacked for liking him but the thing is…if you’re gonna preach those words then do the same for Alastor fans/simps because we get attacked too.
(Again it’s not all Val stans but it sure it a lot of them. I’ve all so seen Val haters do it too.) Yall claim not to harass people over fictional characters yet will go under Alastor posts and or discussion threads and be like “Uhm actually him and Valentino are the same🤓☝️”.
“He’s worse than Val” “Why can’t we just have a good villain” “Just accept that Alastor is a villain stop babying him” when we’re just minding our own business. Not to mention people going under fanart of Angel! Alastor and being like “erm actually he’d never go to heaven🤪”.
Along with yall bullying the hell out of Alastor selfshippers/simps and using tumblr sexyman as an insult(which reaks of internalized misogyny btw because majority of Alastor simps are women + women are always the first to be made fun of when it comes to characters that Classify as tumblr sexymen being found attractive by them or any character you personally wouldn’t find attractive.)
And yall going around and keep calling Alastor ugly under posts about people gushing about him and i don’t mean lighthearted jokes either because i make fun of the back of his head sometimes too. And full blown harassment. When an Alastor fan provided evidence of Alastor being a more nuanced character which were clips from Viv’s streams, people in the comments and qrts were being extremely rude and dismissive. It got so bad that op deleted the og tweet.
Don’t go around and claim to be against cringe culture but then make fun of people for finding Alastor attractive. And for goodness sake STOP FUCKING CALLING HIM A SLAVE OWNER. And yes he owns souls but that doesn’t matter.
Alastor is canonically half black and its overall disgusting to slap the label “slave owner” onto him knowing damn well that he grew up in the Jim Crow era of America in the Deep South of Louisiana. His existence as a mixed black person back then was basically considered an abomination. With how terrible it was for black people back then, Alastor probably bore witness to a lot of messed up shit growing up and if that’s the case then it’s no wonder he’s so messed up in the head.
This type of behavior has been going on since the days where we only had the pilot and it’s only gotten worse since the show came out. As soon as I saw that scene with husk and Alastor in hell’s greatest dad I automatically knew what was coming. I’m not saying that Alastor Is a good person nor am I saying that what he did to husk was ok. But to go after/make fun of Alastor fans,purposely denying evidence of his character while in the same breath preach against bullying people over liking certain characters makes YOU the hypocrites. So much for anti-harassment. I’m tired. Bye.
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imaginationlane · 2 years ago
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Six Nights In Paris [Marquis Vincent de Gramont x Reader | Prologue]
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Warnings:
Adult Language & Themes, Violence, Death, & [Eventual] Smut.
Rating:
Explicit (18+) [Minors, if I catch you in my notes -- I will block your account from my page.]
Author's Notes:
I cannot fucking believe this character brought me back here. I've been revived from the dead for a sociopathic character with no empathy. Of course, my ass would come running for this walking, talking, red-flag factory. What the hell is wrong with me and why tf am I like this?!
On a side note, this Prologue is a little shorter than what I've written for stories in the past. But we dive into the meat and potatoes of the story in chapter one and it'll be a fairly long chapter that most of you may have been used to from me. So enjoy this reprieve, lol. It won't last long.
Summary:
Winston was out of his element, and it showed. It was rare to see such a proud man fall so far from grace, but he knew I would be one of the very few people left to answer his calls and he was right. According to him, the job was simple: Get to Paris, make an appearance at the Grand Masquerade Ball to celebrate the newly anointed Marquis, and infiltrate his ranks to gather intel on him. After all, the Marquis was rumored to be a ruthless wildcard. The High Table appointing such a man could spell disaster for anyone who happens to get in his way.
But I should have known that nothing ever goes according to plan. In an underworld filled with assassins and spies, it is a certainty that people distrust and use everyone they encounter as a means to their own ends -- and the Marquis and I are no exceptions. Now, as my reputation hangs in the balance, ending up as his newest obsession is, quite frankly, the most dangerous game of cat and mouse that I've ever played with my life, my mind, and my heart.
He had to have known that he was driving me to the point of pure madness. My black polished nails tapped impatiently against the scrapped and marred oak table in front of me as I listened to my burner ring for what seemed like the hundredth time that day. Winston was calling again, and God only knew why.
Twelve years of insanity. That's all he brought me since he blew into my life like the gale-force winds of a hurricane all those years ago. And I was still no closer to getting any of the answers I was so desperately seeking from him. This man knew more than he was saying about my past, answers that I couldn't find no matter how hard I tried. For years, he dangled what I wanted from him like a carrot on a string; holding it over my head as if it were something to taunt me with in order to get me to do his fucking bidding.
He had a lot of nerve calling me right now, I'd give him that much.
Part of me wanted to continue to ignore his calls. I owed him nothing and the last I heard, he was excommunicato -- so that would be an automatic death sentence for me if I were caught breathing within a five-block radius of him. The word on the street was that Wintson was out, the New York Conntennital Hotel was deconsecrated and decommissioned, and as for his favored concierge that was glued to his side like a shadow? Well, apparently, Charon took a bullet in the chest for him. It was official: Winston was radioactive and people would drop like flies around him. The message was crystal clear to me: if we all valued any semblance of our shitty existences, we'd stay the fuck away from him.
I could picture him now, sighing dramatically into his phone as he waited for me to pick it up. Had I really become so predictable that he just instinctively knew I was going to answer his call eventually? Of course, I had. Because he knew just how passionate I was for the answers I was seeking from him. For a moment, I continued to wonder about the options that lay ahead of me as I nursed a glass of whiskey in my hand and stared at a Cuban cigar sitting in the ashtray beside me. Twelve years in this business and Winston knows I'll come running whenever he calls. Figures.
Perhaps I really am that predictable. But believing that doesn't soothe the fierce emotions warring with each other deep within the recesses of my mind and soul. I hated being in this position and what's worse was that I hated how I kept doing this to myself.
Screw it, if I'm going to die, I might as well enjoy this fucking cigar while I still have the chance.
Without another thought, I flipped open my phone and placed it to my ear.
"This better be fucking good, because me just answering this phone call will probably put me on the High Table's shit list."
Winston chuckled softly as if mocking my impatience with this situation. "And here I thought you liked it whenever I called you."
My eyes closed momentarily, straining to hold in a tired sigh.
"Before you were excommunicated, sure. But you know as well as I do that me answering any calls from you now puts me at risk," I quipped back. "Now, what do you want Winston?"
He sighed over the other end, knowing my patience was running thin.
"I have a job for you --"
"Go to Hell, I'm not interested."
"If you weren't interested, little Dove, you wouldn't have even picked up your phone in the first place," his smooth baritone was amused at my initial refusal. "Besides, you will be once I tell you that your life is in danger if the new Marquis finds out who you are. Right now, there's a journal on its way to Paris and making its way into the Marquis's hands. A journal, by the way, that belongs to me."
I released a frustrated sigh of my own as I ran my hand over my face.
"I'm failing to see how that's my problem. A lot of people have worked with you in the past. Surely the High Table can understand that," I stated confidently.
Screw the cigar, I'm gonna need a cigarette just listening to him being cryptic as fuck like this.
"Maybe if John had not killed The Elder, then sure. You'd be right. But the new Marquis is pulling out all the stops now and he's on a warpath."
Wait, what did he just say?
"I'm sorry, John did what? I thought John was dead." I question incredulously.
Winston was silent for a moment, absorbing the fact that I sincerely had no idea what the hell he was even talking about. It shouldn't have been surprising for him though. When I'm not handling assignments, I'm dropping off the radar and ignoring the rest of the world until it's time for me to step back into it again. "You didn't know? Apparently, John Wick survived his brush with death at my hands. And it appears that I have a lot to catch you up on. Meet me at the old safe house location in Albany. You know which one I'm talking about, right?"
I hesitated for a minute, but my hesitation was futile. He knew I had agreed to meet him just by picking up the phone.
"Only on one condition."
"Name it, little Dove."
"I know you know who I was before this. For twelve goddamn years, you've kept me in the dark about who I am, what my past was like, how I ended up here -- and you've refused to tell me anything. I want every shred of information you have. No more hiding, no more games. Because if you dick me around again Winston, so help me God... I'll save the High Table the trouble and kill you myself." I stated matter of factly. I was done. The games stopped here or he could find someone else to do his fucking dirty work for him.
Winston remained silent on the other end of the phone, clearly contemplating his next move.
"It's non-negotiable Winston. Do you want help? You wanna stay alive longer than the next day or two? I need my answers, that's my price. You give me what I want and I'll not only meet you, I'll do whatever you need to keep you alive and help you undo the excommunicato. Do we have a deal?"
Sighing heavily to himself, he knew it was over. If he wanted my help, he was going to have to give me exactly what I wanted or he could take his risks with John Wick eventually coming after him.
"You want the information? It'll be yours. Get to the safe house by this afternoon. We've got a lot of ground to cover and time is of the essence," and with that, the other line went dead.
I snapped my phone shut and tossed it carelessly on the table in front of me. For twelve long years, this man used me as a means to an end. The training, the jobs, the marks that have nearly killed me until I killed them first; there was so much blood and death surrounding me that I gave up a long time ago on ever being able to wash my hands clean of it. My only question now, was how the hell did I get here and how come I couldn't remember any part of my life prior to Winston finding me? He had the answers and he sat on them, refusing to tell me anything. Now, I finally had a reason to force his hand in telling me everything.
Snatching up my glass tumbler, I downed the rest of the whiskey and stood up from the table. Plucking up my cigar, I was slightly depressed I wouldn't have a chance to smoke it today. No matter though. When this job was finished and I had every answer in my hands, I'll smoke it then. Besides, if I wanted to make it to Albany by the afternoon, I needed to pack up and leave immediately. Traffic was going to be a bitch anyway, thanks to the fact it was a weekend, so I needed to pick up the pace and hurry.
I wasted little time searching out my backpack and stuffing it with a change of clothes, necessary toiletries, an extra pair of boots, and a selected stash of guns, knives, and other lightweight weapons. Once that was complete, I walked to the front door to grab my helmet, riding gloves, and leather jacket. As soon as I was dressed and ready to ride, I strapped my pack across my back. Depending on what Winston would require for this so-called "job" of his in Paris, I may already have what I need at my French safe house location so it was important that I pack as lightly as I could. After locking up my penthouse, I was opening my garage and climbed on the back of my Black & Silver custom BMW S1000RR motorcycle. I didn't have to worry about too many folks being nosey in this neighborhood, as many of these people had their own secrets to hide anyway.
And as I began to gently coast along the quiet and sleepy neighborhood street on my bike, riding along serenely into the early morning orange rays of the sun, I took one last look around before I turned off that familiar little street and drove forth into a destiny that would change everything for me. __
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The next chapter will be posted within a week!
See you lovelies on the flip side!
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tiredfairywings · 16 days ago
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[Applications CLOSED.] Wҽʅƈσɱҽ ƚσ Tɯιʂƚҽԃ Rҽʋҽɾιҽ~
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My name is Mafuki and I run an art group for twisted wonderland! I am looking for twst yume artists who are also looking for friends!
The goal of our group will be to collaborate to create artpieces together (ex. art style challenge), and collab with each other (ex, 2 artists one base)! Something I'd love is for us to create a video with our ocs and their love interests together! All of this is non-profit so no one, including me will be gaining any monetary gain (unless you wanna post YOUR own pieces online aka not the other members unless you get permission). This is all for fun and you own the pieces you draw! We don't gatekeep pieces lol
We would love to make a group-home for people who just love twst and are passionate about it! The goal is for us to become a really close group of friends who just…love twst. If you have any questions, feel free to comment/pm me!
I've been put in a bind due to a missing member so if someone can start a prompt right away I would be very appreciative!
p.s. currently most members like to rp if youre into that
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Just because you reply and fill in an introduction does not mean you'll automatically get an invite link to the discord group.
Due to the intent of the group, I would like to stay as far away from Drama as possible but also allow for there to be a safe space for anyone to vent and feel accepted. The goal is to operate similarly to Nightcord@25 [a project sekai reference].
As the person who decided to create the group, I hold all responsibility for anything that goes wrong and as such, I'll be speaking to each potential member first through chatting. There is nothing you need to do except be yourself. This is simply a vibe check. I'm looking to foster a safe environment for all those involved and will not tolerate extreme personas.
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➼ Must be between 16-25 (if you're slightly older, it's still okay! Around 20's is preferred but vibes are the most important aspect) ➼ Your race, gender, sexuality of both you and oc WILL NOT eliminate you. The goal is for this to be a safe space and as such, the only thing that matters is personality. Timezone also does not matter! ➼If you have a mental illness that is okay!! As long as you won't let it effect/use it as an excuse to hurt other members it is alright. Everyone I've recruited (including myself) has experience with various mental illnesses. ➼Even though this is an art group, art ability does NOT matter!! The goal is for us to have fun, and all that matters is that you're passionate about twst. And that you actually draw lol No need to know how to edit videos! As long as I have the assets I can edit the videos for the group! Bases are also okay with credit. ➼Since we're all making yume art, I'd like to try to keep to different characters per person ➼ Remain Relatively: Drama free, generally will have a good vibe aka not being judgmental, and is alright with criticism. Communicates well with other members and does not belittle.
Current taken characters: Azul, Malleus, Epel, Ruggie, Idia, Rollo, Rook, Lilia Potentially Taken characters**: Riddle, Jade, Leona, Kalim, Trey, Deuce
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lains-reality · 1 year ago
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love, i'm 17 years old now. but i want to be 14 yk? but i want to my family and friends are on the same idea you know? i don't know how to do this
you want to change your age? and you're unsure about the changes to the past... ok!
here's my other post around this topic
the first thing to understand is that you are not your body or your mind. you are pure awareness. you're beingness (sense of being) comes first before any other concept.
sentences start with I AM, right? this is your beingness. your being comes before everything. it's the start and the end. anything else added after that is not you, that's why you can change it! see how the 'I AM' is present tense? all is now. the desire is now. you are reality. you breathe life into concepts.
what you need to understand is that there is only the present moment. the past can only be accessed in memory. everytime you remember the past, you bring it to now and through your awareness of it, it brings it back to life again. going back to memories is a habit. the past is just a sensation in awareness
when you're changing the 'past' your just becoming aware of a reality where you are 14 now. you'll be born on your ideal year, and whatever else that goes along with being 14.
you just need to identify as being 14. you might find it hard, but this is if you still take all those old memories and thoughts to be real. when you decide that you are 14, you might go back to memories or feel like it's 'not working'
you are not the body or the mind, which allows you to disidentify with any of the characters story through indifference. it's not you or yours, why should you care?
detachment is that nothing owns you and indifference is the feeling that comes from it. this actually allows more space for love & happiness to grow because you're not putting so much pressure on the character. you don't feel bound or like you must do xyz. this all becomes a play, you're watching your characters story play out!
so if you're feeling like your struggling with everything going against your new body age then you need to understand who you are and release any feelings or beliefs that keep coming up
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1. you are not the body-mind -> automatically all the memories, feelings, desires, struggles etc related to the character dissappear. keep asserting the truth!
always remember that any thoughts or feelings cannot undo the truth. welcome in any discomfort and sit with it. do not try to get rid of it, by allowing space for it, it leaves by itself.
2. be equal minded towards both characters. choosing a new character is much easier when you are not depending everything on it. be aware of any extra pressure you're putting on yourself or the desire. remember the desire is not gonna fulfil anything, the story that you want from it e.g. fun, ease, is your true nature already.
the character you see now and the new one are both unreal, you only take this one to be more real because you're identified with it. you've forgotten that you aren't it. you're so invested in it, but now you should start questioning its validity.
3. now abt your family and friends. it'll be fine. they'll change accordingly
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some reading
the past and the character
the past doesn't exist
allowing yourself to challenge concepts
indifference
tomorrow is just a thought. yesterday is a memory
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ideas-4-stories · 1 year ago
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Cipher-Zoo here (now that I can answer from my sideblog they really ought to let me ask asks from my side blog as well... But alas...)
Okay, I should be asleep since my alarm goes off in less than five hours, but I can't get the image of Mihawk and Crocodile looking for Buggy after a battle, both sure he is probably hiding somewhere, only to find him comforting one of his dying followers, automatically warping the picture they have of him out of my mind. So I had to share it!
Is it a little out of character because Buggy would have run and hid? Yeah maybe. But I honestly don't care 😂 maybe he came out of his hiding place, after the battle was over!
Also, competent!Buggy holds a soft spot in my heart!
Have a nice day 💙
Hi Cipher-Zoo 👋
Mihawk and Crocodile thinking Buggy is hiding is accurate in what they see him. I have an idea about why Buggy didn't just start fighting with his crew when the Marines came... What if it takes time to get out of that onesie he got on? As well as finding his body, because I saw a headcanon where Buggy leaves his body somewhere backstage, while it's just his head, hands, and feet... Like Little Buggy and honestly I love that... It's so fucking wacky, it's definitely something Buggy would do. SO that why Buggy looked so scared when the Marines came, he was getting his body back. So he could beat the shit out of those dumbasses, like he should do.
My heart thinking about Buggy comforting a dying follower of his! 💔😭💔 The poor person, my mind started thinking maybe it's a young adult that's life should have just started (WHY does my mind go to this) or then what I thought next was maybe it was an older person who lived most of their life. But no matter what, Buggy is just giving respect to them. Sitting next to them, maybe giving them their last laugh. (WHY do I keep thinking of these saddest moments that would definitely make me cry later? I don't know...)
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ffviidirtyconfessions · 1 month ago
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genuine question!! why do you care about sefikura so much when they are not real people? i get not liking a ship for whatever reason but your strong feelings on the ship seem unwarranted when you're literally running a dirty confessions blog. liking sefikura =/= condoning abuse nor invalidating real peoples trauma. cloud is not real. neither is sephiroth. thats why you can sexualise them silly style on a tumblr blog! i do not mean this maliciously, i am genuinely wondering
To start, above all of the other concerns, I don't like nor allow anything related to sefikura on this blog because it conflicts with the pedophilia rule. In game canon, Cloud and Sephiroth first met when Cloud was a young teenager, and Sephiroth was very much an adult.
That alone is enough to make it not the kind of content I want to promote to an audience. Though I do run a dirty confessions blog, I aim to make it as safe as a space as possible for everyone. Dirty, sexy, or NSFW spaces do not automatically have to be an anything goes, "you shouldn't have a problem with anything if you go here" place. In that light, I tag kinks that may be upsetting just as I don't allow underage, abusive, and other dynamics of relationships that can not only be triggering, but a bad, dangerous example for teens and other young people.
I am fully aware that fiction is not a direct equivalent to reality. However, I think it is very much true that it has a real effect on reality, especially in how individuals see themselves in it and relate to it. I've had a conversation on this same topic before with a veteran of the FF7 fandom who witnessed a Vincent/Yuffie roleplay couple online turn out to be a real pedophilic situation. Obviously, this is far from the case for every instance, but it happens. Just as I cannot allow confessions about underage characters to protect potential teenagers looking at this blog, I also cannot allow the romanticization of a relationship that could hurt or remind traumatized people of their own pain.
I do not believe that every person who ships sefikura "condones abuse" or "invalidates trauma". Likely, most don't even think about that aspect and simply like seeing the characters do whatever they want to together. I understand that. But speaking from the perspective of a traumatized person who has related deeply to Cloud Strife's story, I do believe that there is something to the dynamic that just isn't being understood if it's being ignored to play dolls. This is not to say that Cloud and Sephiroth being together is a 1:1 mirror that will remind anyone who's ever been in a bad relationship of their pain. Rather, it's what Sephiroth represents to Cloud, and how the games portray his feelings towards him. In some readings, you might even argue that Sephiroth is a metaphor for trauma: something unbeatable, always in the back of your mind, waiting to seduce you back to the patterns of self destructive behavior that the traumatic event might have created in you. I think that Cloud's struggle with this and his efforts to move past it are a large core of FF7's story, and to me it rings hollow to ignore that because neither character is, as you said, "real".
I don't expect to change anyone's mind, and my stance on this has already been clear on the front page of the blog for over a year now. I am sure that tens of dozens of sefikura fans who otherwise liked the blog have blocked me over this. And that's fine! Nobody has to agree with me, and there clearly will always be another space to go to for those that want to see that stuff. But it matters to me both on a personal level and as the mod of a public blog to talk about this stuff in a different light. Because if fiction can help people in a real way, it can also hurt them in a real way. I think that a level-headed perspective on all these issues can be reached. It's not all or nothing.
Thanks for asking.
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