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Falling in love over, and over and over again in the messiest ways possible
Chara (@hiimtryingtounderfell 's) and Deal are just. A.
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these effing guys
#tf2#tf2 fanart#team fortress 2#tf2 medic#tf2 heavy#heavymedic#red oktoberfest#when two people swap to heavy n medic because they see you stomping with your medic#but its not quite the same (for them) RIP#sorry for no art i have a lot of adult tasks to do irl...remortgaging and shit yawns
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As usual I read your tags always and so you said Apollo did not ask for resurrection of Asclepius and Hyacinthus so i just wanted to share this. About Asclepius death I read it on theoi.com, that earlier authors don't make him resurrect as a god but that's a later development mentioned only by Roman authors like Cicero, Hyginus and Ovid. But still Apollo has a role in Ovid's version
Ovid, Fasti 6. 735 ff (trans.Boyle) (Roman poetry C1st B.C. to C1st A.D.) : Clymenus [Haides] and Clotho resent the threads of life respun and death's royal rights diminished. Jove [Zeus] feared the precedent and aimed his thunderbolt at the man who employed excessive art. Phoebus [Apollon], you whined. He is a god; smile at your father, who, for your sake, undoes his prohibitions [i.e. when he obtains immortality for Asklepios].
So here it is actually because of Apollo the decision was taken to resurrect him as god. And with Hyacinthus, I don't think I've read about Artemis playing the primary role. I know in Sparta there was a picture of Artemis, Athena and Aphrodite carrying Hyacinthus and his sister to heaven.
This is not on theoi.com but I saw on Tumblr it's from Dionysiaca by Nonnus
Second, my lord Oiagros wove a winding lay, as the father of Orpheus who has the Muse his boon companion. Only a couple of verses he sang, a ditty of Phoibos, clearspoken in few words after some Amyclaian style: Apollo brought to life again his longhaired Hyacinthos: Staphylos will be made to live for aye by Dionysos.
So since he is singing inspired by amyclean stories it probably means in that place it was believed Apollo was the one to bring back his lover to life.
Apollo as god of order was very important so i think it shows how special these people (and admetus too) were to him that he decided to go against the order for them 🥺
ANON!! Shakes you like a bottle of ramune!! BELOVED ANON!!!!! I'm littering your face with kisses, I'm anointing you with olive oil and honey - you absolutely made my night with this because, not only did I get the pure serotonin shot of having someone interact with my tags (yippee, wahoo!!) I also got to have that wonderful feeling of "oh wow, have I misunderstood something that was integral to my understanding of this myth/figure this whole time or is this a case of interpretational differences?" which is imo vital for my aims and interests as someone who enjoys mythological content and literature.
I'll preface my response with this: Hyacinthus is by far the hardest of these to get accounts for because his revival itself, as you very astutely point out, is generally accounted for in painting/ritual format which muddies the waters on who interceded for what. I wasn't actually familiar with that passage from the Argonautica - and certainly didn't remember it so thank you very much for bringing it to my attention!
That said, what I've come to understand, both about Hyacinthus and about Asclepius is that in the accounts of their deaths, Apollo's position is startlingly clear.
For Hyacinthus, it is established time and again that Apollo would have sacrificed everything for him - his status, his power, his very own immortality and divinity. Ovid writes that Apollo would have installed him as a god if only he had the time:
(Ovid. Metamorphoses. Book X. trans. Johnston)
Many other writers too speak of how Apollo abandoned his lyre and his seat at Delphi to spend his days with Hyacinthus, but they also all agree that when it came to his death - he was powerless. Ovid gives that graphic account of Apollo's desperation as he tries all his healing arts to save him to no avail:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book X. Apollo me boy, methinks him dead. trans Johnston)
Bion, in one of his fragments, writes that Apollo was "dumb" upon seeing Hyacinthus' agony:
(Bion, The Bucolic Poets. Fragment XI. trans Edmonds)
Even Nonnus in the Dionysiaca speaks constantly of Apollo's helplessness in the face of Hyacinthus' fate where he writes that the god still shivers if a westward wind blows upon an iris:
and when Zephyros breathed through the flowery garden, Apollo turned a quick eye upon his young darling, his yearning never satisfied; if he saw the plant beaten by the breezes, he remembered the quoit, and trembled for fear the wind, so jealous once about the boy, might hate him even in a leaf...
(Nonnus, Dionysiaca, Book 3. trans Rouse)
And the point here is just that - Apollo, at least as far as I've read, cannot avert someone's death. He simply can't. Once they're already dead - once Fate has cut their string - all Apollo's power is gone and he can do nothing no matter how much he wants to. And this is, as far as I know, supported with the accounts of Asclepius as well!
Since you specifically brought up Ovid's account, I'll also stick only to Ovid's account but in Metamorphoses when we get Ovid's version of Coronis' demise, he writes that Apollo intensely and immediately regrets slaughtering Coronis. He regrets it so intensely that he, like he does with Hyacinthus, does his best to resuscitate her:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo's regret)
And like Hyacinthus, when it becomes clear that what has happened cannot be undone, Apollo wails:
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo wept.)
Unlike his mother, Asclepius in her womb had not yet died and so, with the last of Apollo's strength, he does manage, at least, to save him.
(Ovid, Metamorphoses Book Two. Apollo puts the 'tearing out' in Asclepius.)
But it goes further than even that because Ocyrhoe, Chiron's daughter, a prophetess who unduly gained the ability to directly proclaim the secrets of the Fates, upon seeing the baby Asclepius, immediately prophesies his glory, his inevitable death and then his fated ascension:
(Ovid. Metamorphoses, Book Two. Ocyrhoe's prophecy. trans Johnston)
Before she too succumbs to her hubris and is transformed by the Fates into a horse so she can no longer speak secrets that aren't hers to share.
These things ultimately are important because it establishes two very important things: 1) Apollo can't do anything in the face of the ultimate Fate of mortals, which is, of course, death and 2) even when Apollo is Actively Devastated, regretful, yearning, mournful, guilty or some unholy combination of all of the above, when someone is dead, he accepts that they are gone. Even if he is devastated by it, even if he'll cry all the rest of his days about it - if they're dead? Apollo lets them go. In Fasti, when Zeus brings Asclepius back, he does not say Apollo asked him to - Zeus, or well, in this case Jove, brings Asclepius back because he wants Apollo to stop being mad at him.
(Ovid, Fasti VI. Apollo please come home your father misses you. trans. A.S Kline)
Even Boyle's translation which you used above in your findings hints that Zeus made Asclepius a god because he wanted Apollo to stop grieving. (i.e 'smile at your father', 'for your sake [he] undoes his prohibitions')
And like, Apollo was deeply upset by Asclepius' death - apart from killing the Cyclops in anger, in book 4 of the Argonautica, Apollonius writes that the Celts believe the stream of Eridanus to be the tears Apollo shed over the death of Asclepius when he left for Hyperborea after being chastised by Zeus for killing his Cyclops:
But the Celts have attached this story to them, that these are the tears of Leto's son, Apollo, that are borne along by the eddies, the countless tears that he shed aforetime when he came to the sacred race of the Hyperboreans and left shining heaven at the chiding of his father, being in wrath concerning his son whom divine Coronis bare in bright Lacereia at the mouth of Amyrus.
It all paints a very clear picture to me. Apollo did not ask for either of them to be brought back. Though bringing them back certainly pleased and delighted him, they are actions of other gods who are moved by Apollo's grief and mourning and seek to mollify him. Him not asking doesn't mean he didn't want them back which I think is a very important distinction by the by, but it simply means that Apollo knows the natural order of things and, even if it hurts, he isn't going to press his luck about it.
Which, of course, brings us to Admetus. And I'm really not going to overcomplicate this, Admetus is different because, very vitally, Admetus is not dead. Apollo can't do a thing once Fate has been carried out and Death has claimed a mortal but you know what he absolutely can do? Bargain like hell with the Fates before that point of inevitability. And that's what he does, ultimately for Admetus and Alcestis. He sought to prolong Admetus' life, not revive him from death or absolve him from death altogether and even after getting the Fates drunk, he's still only able to organise a sacrifice - a life for a life - something completely contingent on whether some other mortal would be willing to die in Admetus' place and not at all controllable by Apollo's own power.
All of these things, I think come back to that point you made - that Apollo's place as a god of order is very important and therefore these people are very special to him if it means he's willing to go against that order but, I also wish to challenge that opinion if you'd let me. Apollo's place as a god of order is very important and therefore, I would argue, that it is even more important that it is shown that he does not break the divine order, especially for the people that mean the most to him. The original context of my comments which started this conversation were on this lovely, lovely post by @hyacinthusmemorial which contemplated upon Asclepius from the perspective of an Emergency Medical personnel and included, in their tags, the very poignant lines "there's something about Apollo letting go when Asclepius couldn't that eats my heart away" and "you do what you can, you do your best, but you don't ever reach too far" and I think that's perfectly embodied with the Apollo-Asclepius dichotomy. Apollo grieves. He wails, he cries, he does his best each and every time to save that which is precious to him but he does not curse their nature, he does not resent that they are human and ultimately, he accepts that that which is mortal must inevitably die. There is nothing that so saliently proves that those who uphold rules are also their most staunch followers - if Apollo wants to delight in his place as Fate's mouthpiece, he cannot undo Fate. And, if even the god of healing and order himself cannot undo death, what right does Asclepius, mortal as he is, talented as he is, have to disrespect it?
The beauty of these stories isn't that Apollo loved them enough to bring them back. The beauty is that Apollo loved them enough to let them go.
#this is such a long ass post oh my god#ginger answers asks#This totally got away from me but I AM PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS AAAA#Anon beloved anon I hope you don't take this as me shutting you down or anything because that really isn't what I'm trying to do#I'm definitely going to dig more into the exactness of 'who petitioned for Hyacinthus to be revived actually?"#I always stuck to the belief that it was Artemis because of the depictions of his revival + his procession is usually devoid of Apollo#I know some renaissance paintings have him and Apollo reuniting but that's usually In The Heavens y'know#I genuinely couldn't think of any accounts that have Apollo Asking for anyone to be revived#Apollo does intercede sometimes but that's usually for immortals like Prometheus#Or even when he's left to preside over Zagreus' revival and repair in orphic tradition#Concerning Asclepius there's like a ton to talk about tbh#There's the fact that in some writings (in quite a lot actually) the reason Asclepius was killed wasn't necessarily that he brought someone#back - it was that he accepted money for it#Pindar wrote about it and Plato talks about how if Asclepius really did accept gold for a miracle then he was never a son of Apollo#It's a whole thing really#I think it's very important that it's Asclepius in his mortal folly that tests the boundaries of life and death tbh#The romanticisation of going to any length to bring back a loved one is nice and all#But sometimes the kindest and most lovely thing you can do for someone is to accept it#Just accept that they're gone - accept that there was nothing that could be done and even if the grief is heavy - keep living#Maybe we won't all get our lost loves back#But there are definitely always more people worth loving if you just live long enough to find them#apollo#asclepius#zeus#admetus#greek mythology#ovid#oh my god so much ovid#hyacinthus#coronis
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watching the northern lights 💫 got this fantastic commission by @notenotenotenote3 for my fanfic death doesn't dream
#warrior nun#avatrice#sister beatrice#ava silva#i love it so much!!#thank you again for the amount of work you put into this#i love *the way* you've drawn the northern lights moving across the sky#and how it's covered with stars#fading into a distant purple#the colors are just soooo#and the little fairy lights compliment the piece so well#it's a great interpretation of the scene as a whole#there's warmth despite the grief#there's wonder despite her past#despite the heavy journey she had to make to get here#she finally finds herself not so alone#because she has beatrice and beatrice has ava#and they both have the sky#(aka diego aka the persistence of love)#and with that i will quit my rambling#🫠🫠🫠#thank you.
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extra:
(it was a spring morning)
(he was a frail boy with no friends)
(he ran into you from across the wall)
(you said hello to him, and asked him to play along)
(at that very moment, he received his lifelong—)
extra 2: oscar boogaloo
yeahhhh....iykyk
#ozpin#professor ozpin#it never gets less embarassing tagging this#rwby#ugh#wait hm#ozma#salem#not tagging ozlem because its kinda giving ottokallen and ergh#oscar pine#sighs anyways#both of them have the same role functionally#they parallel eachother via#hold on im getting ahead of myself#he really does remins me of otto#theyre like prometheus#but with the gift of flight instead of fire#(haha flight as a heavy-handed metaphor for civilization)#they both give said gift through something of the previous civilization#im playing fast and loose w otto but he gave the gift of flight through ingenuity#thus wooden planes#ozpin gave the gift of flight (quite literally) through his magic#thus#gestures vaguely#i have so much more to say but alas ...#horrible corvid anatomy cw#while ozma is kinda su coded tbh...immortal brown dudes dealing with their megalomaniac white-haired situationship core#if you know what im referencing im so so sorry#EVERY NIGHT BRINGS A DREAM BUT THE DAYYYY RELENTLESSLY KEEPS ME AWAKEEEE#honestly idk where the quote is from kevin said it so it must be true
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Been writing quite a lot of WH fic in my spare time recently and I realised I've kinda accidentally created a consistent interpretation of how the neighbourhood would see Frank X Eddie (liking each other or being together but on the down-low):
To be clear these aren't my theories on what's going on in the ARG, it's like... just in the world of the WH show itself, without getting deep into the horror and mystery elements, and therefore excluding facts like that in canon there's probably going to be homophobia themes to the story iirc. This is how I imagine it'd unfold if it just happened normally without whatever scariness is going on in Home as a factor.
Also I like playing around with lots of different ideas and dynamics and interpretations; this is just a bit of fun.
Transcripts (and a bunch of extra explanations/info) under the concealment charm! ⬇️
Sally:
Has no idea, because she's not paying attention to them.
Would be like "Cool. Now about MY NEXT PLAY!" if it was pointed out to her.
Unless she could make it into something dramatic.
(Extra: like if she thought of a way to basically make a performance out of it, I can imagine she'd do that. Eddie and Frank would both think she was being very strange.)
Poppy:
K N O W S
Possibly before even Eddie does, and trying to drop him hints.
Thinks they'd be wonderful together.
(Extra: She wouldn't think it was her place to say anything outright, especially because that could risk outing either of them, but she'd be like "Frank can be very protective of you, you know..." HINT HINT.)
Howdy:
Has a vague suspicion.
Doesn't think it's really his business.
DOES think they're cute together.
(Extra: it wouldn't really interest or concern him much so he wouldn't feel a need to offer input or say anything, but he would sometimes see them talking and be like 'lmao these bitches gay! good for them, good for them,' in his head.)
Wally:
Knows Eddie & Frank 'love each other' but is unclear on how this differs from how he loves all his neighbours.
Would be very happy for them if someone explained it to him.
(Extra: he wouldn't pick up on anything particularly special about them/their relationship, he just assumes that all his neighbours love each other because, in his opinion, what's not to love. He'd also likely be one of the first people either of them would feel comfortable telling.)
(Extra 2: also no-one would ever explain it to him properly. Eddie would get into embarrassed blethering and Frank wouldn't know what to say beyond that it's "just different," Barnaby would keep giving joke answers, Poppy and Howdy would just be like 🤷not my place, and Sally and Julie would keep telling him things that only made him more confused.)
Barnaby:
Would eventually pick up on it, and take great joy in teasing either of them.
Ultimately supportive, though.
(Extra: He'd greatly enjoy irritating Frank and making Eddie flustered in ways that meant nobody else but them knew what he was hinting at lol)
Julie:
#1 Frank X Eddie shipper.
She finds out because Frank talks to her about their feelings, and she's rooting for them from then on.
(Extra: she'd try to be Frank's wingman and just end up confusing and scaring Eddie and making Frank facepalm.)
#innisthoughts#welcome home arg#welcome home#frank frankly#eddie dear#frank x eddie#ACK now I'm thinking about Eddie confiding in Wally while they do crafts together that's too cute.#I've actually finished a few fics but felt self-conscious posting#I think it's because they're quite romance heavy in general#and if I write too much ship stuff I start to feel sad like I'm a “fake aroace” or some shit lmaooo#like I'm letting myself and the aroaspec community down by not focusing on how wonderful platonic relationships are on their own#and knowing that it's dumb as hell and that I adore friendships just as much does nothing to alleviate my concerns#innisart
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Following this little something that sent me on a brainrot for days
PROLOGUE
There are very few things that can impress him at this point.
Or so he thought.
Because when he sees a human girl cross the Wall by herself, armed with a sharp tongue and an iron-made will only, well, he has to be impressed. Shocked even.
Because no human has ever crossed the Wall by themselves and survived. They're not supposed to. They're too weak, too mortal for the ruthlessness that is the land of Fae. They're prey in the home of predators. Even the strongest of their people rarely last more than a few days.
But this female—this girl—doesn't look like any other human he has seen before. And he’s seen enough of them to get a general idea. She isn’t covered in weapons or clad in armor; instead, she wears accessories made of iron. (The sight of those always makes him chuckle—how the humans cling to them, as if it'll really give them a chance against Fae. Bless them). Her hair has been braided up beautifully, though a few strands have escaped, giving her a messy, wild look. She wears a plain, gray dress with a dark coat, stained with mud and ripped in places, yet she still carries herself with a certain pride—her eyes, piercing and unwavering, burn with a fierce determination he doesn't expect to see in mortals.
There’s something about her that makes him pause, a contradiction he can’t quite put his finger on. She’s obviously battered by her journey—filfth splattered across her dress, her face streaked with dirt mixed with sweat, and exhaustion clear in the lines of her features. Yet, even with the signs of weariness etched into her, she holds her head high, shoulders squared against the chilling breeze that sweeps through the land.
Of course, the path to the Wall has its own dangers and obstacles, with some Lesser Faes sneaking out once in a while to haunt the lands being the tamest of them. Certainly, a dainty thing like her should have died before even getting a glimpse of the Wall. It's astounding that she got out with just some bruises and dirt on her clothes. he wonders if he might be hallucinating—if this human is just a product of his exhausted mind playing tricks on him. But then he hears her curse, loud and furious, and he knows she’s real.
His lips quirk up at the scene. There's something endearingly amusing about such a delicate creature with such a filthy mouth. She reminds him of a wet, angry kitten. Adorable.
When he takes a closer look, carefully hidden in the shadows, he hums in appreciation. For a mere human covered in grime, she's a real beauty. Her eyes are an unusual blend of blue and gray, shifting depending on how the light catches them. Her sun-kissed skin is marred by burns, and her frame is a bit too thin for his liking, yet she exudes an air of cold, regal elegance—like a fallen queen. His interest deepens when a sense of familiarity stirs within him, as though he’s seen her before. It can’t be true. He would remember.
But before he can think further, the fiery human catches him off guard once more.
"I know you're there. Show yourself, coward!"
He's grateful that she can't see him almost tripping backwards in shock. What the fuck?! She can sense him. How? She's human, and as far as he can tell, she doesn't have an ounce of magic in her.
Maybe she's bluffing? She's terrified and knows there are all sorts of creatures roaming these lands, so she's trying to paint herself as brave. That must be it. It's an irrational, ridiculous enough of a reaction for a human.
She scoffs, stomping her feet.
"For heaven's sake, just come out now. Let's get this over with."
It's not a bluff. She really knows he's watching her. Or that someone is. She must know she's at disadvantage here, and still insists on provoking a potential predator.
Interesting.
He finally steps out of the shadows, appearing right in front of her. He grins when she jumps back, surprised and scared. He squints his eyes when her fear is quickly replaced with anger and...annoyance.
This human must be an abnormal among her kind, surely.
"What's the matter, dear?" he smiles, purposedly showing his sharp teeth. "I thought you wanted me to come out"
He delights in the nervous gulp and the tension that settles on her body. She attempts to take a step back, her feet hesitating, only to stay rooted in place, unmoving.
She still tries to hold unto the fake indifference, how cute. Not like it'll help her, of course. She'll about to learn just how useless the iron she wears is. But before he speaks again, her rich voice shuts him off again.
"You took a long time, sir. Haven't you been taught that it's incredibly rude to make a lady wait?"
Her chin lifts, defiance shining in her eyes despite the rapid beat of her pulse that he can practically hear thrumming in the air between them.
And he...well, he's momentarily stunned, caught between amusement and genuine disbelief. Any normal human would've been trembling by now, begging for mercy, or at the very least, backing away. But she stands her ground, her fear coating the air and her fingers twitching slightly over her where her thigh is.
He throws a quick look there and notices something poking underneath her skirt. A strapped knife. Her hand has been discreetly moving towards there, and now lays on top of it. So she knows he's dangerous. She knows what her situation is. The fact that, despite that, she still considers stabbing him an option can be interpreted as incredibly brave or incredibly stupid.
Probably both, coming from an human.
"Oh, my humblest apologies, dear," he makes a point of dramatically bowing to her, "I didn't want you to fret, you see. It is very rare to meet girls like yourself around here."
"Like myself?"
"Humans. For some reason, they tend to dissapear quickly once they're here. Specially the young and pretty ones."
He smells her fear, and the rush of blood pumping faster with it. He has to hold back a purr. Of course, she's smart enough pick on the threat, yet she doesn't react to it. She doesn't give away anything, besides the imperceptible twitch of her fingers. She's determined to fool him with that fake passivity.
Too bad he can practically savour her terror on his tongue. Luckily for her, she's too interesting to kill her soon.
"That doesn't explain why you waited so long to reveal yourself, sir."
Her voice has a slight tremble in it, but she raises her chin to speak to him and her blue-grey eyes look straight into his. The breath gets stuck in his throat for a moment. His gaze trails the shape of her lips, her long neck, her curly eyelashes, her slim waist.
His tongue swipes across his lips, a gesture that she doesn’t miss, judging by the way her shoulders tense.
"Ah, forgive me," he says, struggling more than he should to focus again, " I enjoy watching from the shadows first. I'm a bit shy." He pauses, studying her reaction, catching the flicker of uncertainty that crosses her face before she smooths it over with irritation.
She huffs and crosses her arms, like she's getting bored of him. As if he couldn't sense how much she wishes to run and hide.
"Do you get a kick out of lurking in the shadows, scaring humans for fun?" she snaps, each word laced with irritation. "Or is it just me you’re bothering tonight, sir?"
He lets out a low chuckle, the sound reverberating in the still air, a deliberate attempt to unsettle her further. But she doesn’t flinch, not even a little. Instead, her jaw tightens, and she glares up at him with a fierceness that makes his curiosity spike.
"And what if I do?" he counters, his voice dropping to a silken purr. He leans closer, invading her space. “What’s a little thing like you going to do about it?”
Her nostrils flare, her breath coming quicker now, but she doesn’t shrink back. "I don’t know," she replies, her voice sharp, almost cutting. “Maybe I’ll stab you in the balls and run.”
He arches a brow, genuinely taken aback by her audacity. This girl—this little human girl—is threatening him, a High Fae who could snap her like a twig without breaking a sweat. She's an insignificant creature standing in front of a monster that can destroy and devour her before she can blink. But she stares at him like she might actually mean it, like she’s weighing the distance between them, considering whether she could really drive that dull blade into his body before he overpowers her.
Ah, she's truly a joy. Far too interesting to let her die. Cauldron knows it's been so long since he's had some good entertainment.
"Oh, we don't need to get so violent, dear," a slow, wicked smile spreads across his face, and he lifts his arm, "I have better plans for us."
He flicks his wrist and shadows lurge at her before she can react, caging her with her arms pressed against her body, rendering her unable to move. She gasps and struggles uselessly, grunting in frustration and shock.
He chuckles at the display, throwing his hands in his pockets as he walks slowly towards her, like a predator lurking his prey. Only this time she can fully see him.
He stops just inches from her, his smirk widening as he studies her closer. The sight of her struggling against the shadows, the way her breaths come in quick, angry gasps, sends a shiver of satisfaction through him. She’s caught in his web now, her wrists and arms bound tight by shadows she cannot hope to break, and yet the fire in those silver eyes remains undimmed.
With a shift of his finger, a little shadow goes up to her chin and forces it up so she's looking at him. She grits her teeth, pure fury lighting up her glare. He can’t resist running his eyes over every curve of her face, savoring the wild anger in her expression. There’s no fear in her now—only rage. And it looks beautiful.
"Who the hell are you? Let me go!" she snaps, voice ringing with a boldness that doesn’t match her current state.
He smirks. It’s rare to find a mortal with this much fire, especially one who doesn’t immediately crumble under the weight of the unknown.
"Just a curious observer," he replies smoothly, his voice low and laced with danger. "And you, little thing, are far more interesting than I expected."
Her eyes widen, her struggles ceasing momentarily.
"What in the world do you mean?!"
He leans in until his breath brushes against her nose, relishing in how she holds her breath in anticipation.
"I'm going to keep you with me."
#well fuck#not at all what i had planned#but not complaining#rhysta has me by the throat and this was the result#they possessed me#i'm quite satisfied ngl#finally got it out of my chest#i really wanted to convey the heavy enemies to lovers that's to come as well as the constang mix between fear and anger that it's nesta#she's terrified but she's also pissed off as hell#the enemies to lovers stands because the ENEMIES part is going to be real#slowburn i guess#rhysta#rhysand x nesta#rhysand#nesta archeron#morally grey rhysand was a joy and i'm gonna bring him back with this#acotar#acotar au#acotar fanfic#under the mountain
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DARRRRLIIIIINGGGGG GUESS WHOS BACK FROM JAILLLLL
#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 ocs#tf2 oc#tf2 engineer#????#hes an engineer subclass#tf2 oc art#team fortress two#tf2 mercs#tf2 10th class#tf2 welder#i would put the tf2 oc x canon tag because hes meant to be dating heavy#but thats not shown here#so i wont#i like his butt#my hamsters butt#... quite funny
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Bottom yakumo fics i rotate thru bc the tag is playing games with me
EIDEN:
(Sequel) "Another Spicy Study Session on Self-Pleasure" by MistressVanya https://archiveofourown.org/works/49270402
"plants should stay in your soup and out of your sex life" by acynthe (locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/37453975
"surprises" by Anonymous (locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/48090496
"Pulp Fiction" Chapter 2 by shamelesscooper https://archiveofourown.org/works/60033721/chapters/154533019
KUYA (some dubcon+yaku whump):
ASTER:
QUINCY:
"What Happens in the Woods" by melecs https://archiveofourown.org/works/44134458
"Embers are calling" by Yuuda-cchi (VioletStripes) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49222882
"As I Am, Entirely" by zerenovation https://archiveofourown.org/works/54831790
EDMOND:
"Of Love Confessions and a Horny Snake" by goldgalaxytea https://archiveofourown.org/works/52916077
NOT EXPLICITLY BOTTOM, BUT IT'S NOT... *NOT* BOTTOM (SUBBY +5000pts)
"Magic 101: Lessons in Gem-based Erogenous Zones" by auriadne https://archiveofourown.org/works/37413112
"Day 6: Dom & Sub" by Nya (Yuutfa) (locked) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49106176
"Trick-or-Treat" - Chapter 3 by SnowRelic https://archiveofourown.org/works/50601046/chapters/128881948#workskin
"in good taste" by winterdesu https://archiveofourown.org/works/59208052
#eehehehehe sometimes i just get into moods where bottom yakumo is where it's at#like. specifically bottom yakumo. and/or EXCEPTIONALLY subby yakumo.#no twisting the game to overpowering his partner at the end. that's the bott-to-top yakumo pipeline that fits a DIFFERENT specific mood! :}#eventually i'll exit the bottom mood and dive into topyaku fic and we continue the cycle anew#because... ultimately..... switch yaku is my everything (my agenda and preferences are visible from outer space)#anyway yeah this stuff is all on the hornier side. there are bottom yaku fics that i like that are more plot and char-heavy#but this is the list for when i wanna see him whimpering and begging and crying etc etc you know the post i'm talking about#i started compiling this list because i tried filtering for bottom yakumo and got like. 8 fics#i whispered... i've been living off 8 fics ? Only? i mean that's a lot given how small the fandom is but i feel like i'm missing some#anyway there ended up being more than 8 (that i would reread) so i was quite content with my findings#maybe i'll update it if i see more. hmm. i hope i'll see more#bottom yakumo reading list#i am reading words and acting in ways#nu carnival yakumo#fhishe listes
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"Heroes Don't Fail" - Sonic Movie 3 Angst Prediction Fanfic (OUTDATED PLEASE IGNORE LOL)
After Tom fell ill due to protecting him from a bullet, Sonic was left to wonder if his own friends had any faith in him to begin with during their most dangerous adventure yet. He was left to wonder if him and Shadow had more of a similarity than he thought.
Trigger Warnings: Usage of handheld weaponry, child endangerment, light blood, light swearing, implied PTSD
(THIS FIC CONTAINS POSSIBLE SPOILERS FOR SONIC THE HEDGEHOG 3 AND THE FINAL TRAILER. IT IS ONLY A FIC BASED ON MY PREDICTIONS OF A MOMENT IN THE TRAILERS WHERE THE WACHOWSKI BROS ARE OUTSIDE OF A HOSPITAL BUILDING. BUT JUST IN CASE, PROCEED WITH CAUTION. EVERYTHING IS UNDER THE CUT.)
(just a little something before I return to my break thingy lol be back soon <3)
"What the hell is wrong with you, you jerk?!"
What a terrible, terrible time to get caught by G.U.N. officials, and even Commander Walters out of all people. The man responsible for that little girl's death.
Sonic and his friends were SO close to breaking in, and shut down the Eclipse Canon before it accelerated back into space, with the Robotniks, and Shadow the Hedgehog, boarding it.
Controlling it.
And now, because of Walters and his men trapping him and his family in the Robotnik base, surrounding them with their weapons, the moon has a gaping hole for the whole planet to see.
The Eclipse Canon did that.
And G.U.N. just let it happen, all because they refuse to let him and his team get to the weapon of mass destruction in time. They didn't want some randos become the heroes.
Noooo, it had to be the "Guardian Unites of Nations," the big, strong, tough guys who don't give two craps about the people around them. Only their reputation.
Which will surely go down now that Sonic's angry tone finally shown it's furious face.
Sonic never meant to swear in front of the young fox, whose ears were covered by Knuckles' mittens, even though the question was already out by the time Knuckles realized what was spoken.
But just by seeing the commander, who demands answers to why they have random people they don't even remember recruiting, and in an empty base when they should be after that hedgehog and those crazed doctors, he was fueled with rage.
Just not too long ago, Sonic made a truce with Robotnik, big mistake, and along the way found a diary of sorts. A diary that contained everything he needed to know about this Project Shadow, and this Eclipse Canon...
Before he could explain to his brothers what's going on with Shadow, he took them out. ...Again. Definitely Sonic's strongest opponent yet.
With Doctor Robotnik betraying Sonic and his friends, with Shadow himself and Robotnik's grandfather joining him, apparently, they needed extra help from their parents, and even Rachel, whose husband was an agent himself.
They posed as agents, to try and gather all the information about the Eclipse Canon, and take it down, and hopefully find Shadow and the doctors.
But... Walters just had to evade their plans. He just had to ruin everything.
Like how he ruined Shadow's life.
"...Excuse me?" Walters muttered out, taken aback by Sonic's outburst.
"Don't pretend like I don't know! I know what you did all those years ago," Sonic barked, not afraid to step forward in front of armed troops, just to get up close and personal with the commander.
"I have no idea what you're blabbering on about, Sonic," Walters shook his head in disbelief, confused yet seemingly upset at the pissed off hedgehog.
"Forgotten about Maria already, huh?"
The mere mention of her name made the old man's eye brows rose lightly, but no body in the room could tell. But Sonic knew that he wasn't expecting the name to be mentioned again.
He demands an explanation. He demands answers.
"Wh- what about Maria?" Walters asked, nearly fumbling over his question.
"You ever wonder why Shadow turned out the way he is? Looks like you didn't tell us the full story!" Sonic says, his fists clenched into gloved balls, with fingernails nearly poking through the fabric, "You knew all along! You kept all of this from us!"
Tails and Knuckles looked at each other, then back at Sonic who was walking closer to Walters. They don't know who Maria is or why she's involved with Shadow, but it probably might have something to do with that diary Sonic tried to talk about earlier.
"What does any of this have to do with you being in Robotnik's base?"
"Why are YOU in his base? Trying to get rid of more Robotnik related evidences?"
"Sonic," Tom, seeing that Sonic is just a few more steps away from being up to his face, reached his hand out to try and get him away from the old commander, worry showing in his eyes, "step back. He probably has a weap-"
Tom's sentence was cut off when a armed man motioned him back where he was with his gun. The warning only earned the man a death glare from the Donut Lord.
No one tells the Donut Lord to back away from his kid.
"Sonic... I... believe I owe you an explanation." Walters sigh in defeat. His sentence made his nearby men turn to face him. Despite their faces masked, they all seemed perplexed as most of Sonic's friends and family.
"An overdue one," Sonic added in retort, his brow furrowing, appearing threatening to some of the soldiers.
"I was... involved, in the incident from 50 years ago," Walters began, "I never meant to injure Maria, but I never wanted anyone to know about it... I had to cover it up."
Sonic's top muzzle scrunched. Had to cover it up?
"So you just put the blame on an innocent hedgehog?" Sonic asked loud enough to accidentally scare more of the armed men around him.
"Who said he was innocent?" Walters asked, his tone sounding annoyed, "everyone knew that Shadow had incredible power strong enough to possibly wipe out a nation! Innocent or not, he was too dangerous to be around anyone!"
"He was only 'dangerous' because you took away his closest FRIEND!" Sonic's voice cracked on the last word as he screamed it at the commander, scaring him. "You seriously think covering it up is gonna make everyone feel better?!"
Tails and Knuckles grew concerned and thought about intervening, Tom, Maddie and Rachel all exchanged shocked looks at each other, and Randell closed his eyes and looked away, feeling hurt to know about this information his own ex-commander kept from him.
"So G.U.N. has always been a thing, huh?" Sonic asked, hands on his hips, "There's just not a lot of extra-terrestrials around here to keep an eye on, so you have to retire until I came in??"
"...Precisely." Walters, once more, sigh in defeat, facing away from the enraged hedgehog.
So from Sonic's understanding, G.U.N.'s job was to destroy all friendly, alien life who dares to step foot onto beautiful planet Earth? People of this world actually rely on these guys??
"Wow. Some heroes you all are."
"We didn't want Shadow to cause more havoc!"
"YOU caused havoc," Sonic stomps his foot, "YOU guys were responsible for making Shadow feel pain and loss!" He repeated the two words at him. The ones the commander gave to him back at the Chao Garden.
All this time he thought Walters barely had any info on Project Shadow, but he was wrong. Shadow was the victim all along.
"Who says you guys can be heroes after what you've done?! He's not the villain, YOU ARE!!" His eyes glow a sharp, angry blue as he points his finger, not realizing that his hand he used was spitting out electricity at the commander, making him back up.
Because of his powers being exposed, the soldiers threatened their weapons at the blue hedgehog, who was startled by them at first, but remained angry, who glued his focus on Commander Walters.
"Sonic!" Nearly everyone exclaimed, with Tom shouting his name louder than everyone else in the room. He threw his weapon and tried to run towards him, not wanting him to get shot, but one to two men stopped him by pushing him to the ground violently.
"Thomas!" Maddie cried. She would've been by his side by now if it weren't for more soldiers guarding Tom from both her and Rachel. Randell, Tails and Knuckles all saw this too and gasped.
"Tom?" The moment Tom was planted to the ground, he turned around to see his own father figure face down on the glowing red ground.
All of that anger immediately washed away when the possibility of Tom getting hurt entered his mind, and made him vulnerable long enough for Walters to snatch him by the wrist.
"You talk too much, hedgehog," Walters says calmly yet coldly, getting ready to grab his cuffs and take the hedgehog away, along with the others, already having the idea to give orders to his men.
"Sonic!!" Tom shouted, watching this old man putting his dirty hands on his son.
"Dad!!" Sonic cried out, reaching his free hand to his father, who couldn't get up as long as a weapon was aimed right to his head.
Suddenly, a loud BANG goes off, as a bullet nearly went flying to Walters' face, but hit against the wall to his right. He snapped his head to the dent in the wall, then back at the culprit who almost shot him.
Rachel. Eyes huge, out of breath and holding one of the men's guns in her hand.
Everyone's eyes grew huge and their mouths drop agape seeing this woman do something unbelievable, especially her sister Maddie, who is almost terrified of her, if not, proud of her.
"Holy crap," Knuckles unintentionally muttered out for everyone to hear, sounding rather impressed.
"Get. Your hands. Off my nephew!" She warned the commander. Her hands trembled intensely, not wanting to pull the trigger again, but will do whatever it takes to keep her family alive and safe.
There was no response for a couple of seconds, but Sonic, shaking off the speechlessness, turned his head back at the bewildered commander, who was having flashbacks of the last time this woman fought with him.
"You heard the lady," He says, his traditional smirk still having a hint of anger written on it.
He spun into a ball and lunged at him to the stomach, making him hit against the wall.
"RUN!" Sonic ordered his family as he ran off to the nearest exit, and so everyone, fighting off the soldiers, do just that. Maddie stayed behind for a minute to help Tom up, and hugged him, before Walters gets back up.
Sonic didn't really remember all the pathways to this stinky base well enough to know where the heck he was going, or even know where the way out was.
Some nerve that old man has, though. Trying to cover up an accident just to make himself look good? Sheesh.
As long as G.U.N. is out of his way, he can finally deal with the Robotniks and Shadow.
He came to a halt however when he noticed that no body was following him.
"Guys?" Sonic turned around to see no body behind him, and was growing worried.
He runs off to the opposite direction, risking to put himself in Walters' sight again just to rescue him. He just prays that Tom is okay.
But as he makes a quick left turn, Walters was in his sight. With a weapon in hand.
"Hoo boy," Sonic whimpered.
"Trust me. I don't want to do this," Walters says, despite the look of his eyes saying otherwise.
Sonic is the fastest creature in the universe, why does he feel nervous to be held at gunpoint? He should be able to outrun it. He never deemed Walters to be threatening, he's just a jerk.
That's all there is to him.
Why should he be scared? He's not scared. He's not scared of Walters.
He's not scared of his little toy.
"Out of my way, my family's in there!" Sonic barked, ready to put up another fight with this old bully.
"You've learn too much about G.U.N.'s history. No body should know about what happened on the ARK. You have no right to have this information with you." He says, still aiming at the hedgehog.
"I believe I do," Sonic protests, looking at the commander square in the eyes as if the gun was never there to begin with. "If you would've told me what had happened up there all those years ago, I wouldn't have NEVER join your little cult!"
"You didn't really have a choice."
"I feel like I did."
Loud thuds could be heard in the other room. Sonic suspects that his family is either kicking butt, in danger, or both. Probably both since Knuckles is going all out. He could hear his cries every couple of seconds.
They better be okay.
"You lied to me, Walters," Sonic says, his voice quiet yet threatening. "Do you have any idea what Shadow has been through because of your actions? You even made Gerald gone mad because of what you did to Maria!"
"You seriously shouldn't have never learned this information." Walters tries to dodge the question, but he knew it was fruitless.
"You refuse to listen, do you? You refuse to accept that you ain't no hero. Well... you're not." Sonic hissed. "You're a monster! A heartless jerk who only cared about his troops and no body else!"
"We are only doing what we think is right!"
"Nothing you ever did in your life was right."
"We are protectors who face anomalies such as you and Shadow! We don't know how strong your powers are and we worry it could affect the world in ways that damage it!" Walters continued, "I don't believe this world asked for heroes such as yourself."
"Damage it?!" Sonic shrieked with fury, "I saved this world a handful of times from that doctor, and you don't even care?! I saved the world! TWICE! Soon THRICE!"
"Didn't you see the state San Francisco was in?" Walters asked, growing more irritated with this creature. "We had no choice but to unite G.U.N. back because of your actions! And don't even get me started on Green Hills from last year."
"From MY actions-? Pfffft, okay, okay," Sonic "chuckled," "You seriously think that was my fault? Robotnik was the guy who endangered many lives out there, and, as usual, you put the blame on the alien hedgehog."
"Every other life endangering event occurred because of anomalies like you that kept running all around the planet instead of going back to the dirty caves where you belong!"
Dirty. Cave?
Oh, hell no, he did NOT just go there.
"Listen hear," Sonic began, gritting his teeth, "I lost my owl guardian when I was a child and had to live on Earth all by myself for ten years, seven in a cave. Throughout those years I was isolated! I had no body! Then, a twist of fate lead me to my father and mother, who took care of me for years, alongside my brothers, Tails and Knuckles, who went through a troubling childhood as much as I had!"
Sonic never noticed that he called Tails and Knuckles his own brothers, but he was too fumed at the commander to care.
"Even though I have people to care for me," he continued, "Robotnik has the guts to cause chaos in my life, and threatened the world at the same time, but I pulled together with my family and saved the world! More than once!"
Walters was listening, but never shown any signs that he cared. This only made Sonic more angry.
"Sure, there were some property damage, and some people were hurt, but sometimes even heroes make mistakes!" Sonic says, his fists clenched, "But I'm not gonna let that get to me!"
Walters' nose lets out an unimpressed exhale.
"I did my best to keep the world safe- my home safe, and all you do is treat me and my family like dirt!" Sonic raised his voice at him as he took another harsh step forward at him.
"I did more saving than you and your men ever will! You think you have the right to determine whose the hero and who isn't?! No!! You don't! You ruined Shadow's life, I won't let you ruin mine!"
Walters believes he sounded too brave.
"All I wanted to do is to live my life with my family, and I'm tired of people like you making a decision on rather people like me deserve it or not! I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG!!"
Sonic panted after finally letting his emotions out. His eyes were shut, he was no longer paying attention to the commander, only his breathing.
He never felt so glad to let it all out like that. But the relief didn't last too long...
"And it's going to stay that way."
Click...
The hedgehog snapped his emerald eyes open after hearing a small creaking sound, to see Walters aiming the gun directing to his face.
"No hero should ever make a single mistake," It was Walters' turn to speak, "after all, heroes don't destroy things. They don't endanger civilians. You're responsible for most of the destruction in San Francisco, and because of Robotnik's obsession with you, your own townspeople have gotten injured, despite the so-called victory."
Sonic backed up two steps.
"Are you certain heroes do these things? Most specifically, you?"
He backed up two more steps.
"Shut up," he muttered.
"I'm not letting a bunch of alien troublemakers take my place as protector. You didn't even have the courage to rescue your owl. With a reputation like that, why should you not let it get to you?"
He does have a point. He tried to go back to save her from the Echidna, but... he was too late.
"You're no hero. You're just some kid, a dangerous one. A hazard. A weapon!" Walters barked the word right at him, making him jump.
"You seriously believe the world is yours? Sorry, but after what happened on the ARK, I'm not taking any chances. This world doesn't need another disaster. It doesn't need another failure."
His finger prepared to pull.
His own words took over Sonic's brain.
How could he let them take over so easily?
Sonic isn't a failure! He's-
BANG!!
Sonic shuts his eyes tight, not fully prepared for the bullet, but nothing had happened. He opened his eyes again to see a person standing right in front of him, shielding him from Walters' gun.
As he got a good look at him, he gasped. His ears pinned to his head. His worst nightmare came true.
Tom Wachowski, groaning quietly as some blood leaked through his shirt, while he was still guarding him from the commander.
He took the bullet for Sonic.
Tom is hurt. And it was because Sonic didn't run away.
Despite the pain shocking his body, Tom weakly opened his right eye and barely smiled at his little Blue Devil. "Make me proud, son," he whispered before collapsing to the ground.
Everything around him went dead silent. All he could do was stare at the seemingly lifeless body of the person who saved his life.
How could he make him proud when he was one who killed him?
How could he make anyone proud now?
Maybe Walters was right.
With a loud cry, before Walters could react, Knuckles delivered his most brutal punch to the commander, slamming him to the wall, knocking him unconscious.
The sound of a harsh slam to the metal wall knocked Sonic back to his senses.
"Hedgehog! They took Maddie and Ra- ...Thomas?" Knuckles just now noticed the body of Tom laying in front of a panicked Sonic. The echidna's purple eyes rose with concern, praying that what he's looking at isn't what he's looking at right now.
Sonic's eyes began to swell with tears as he looked back at his brother. "Where's Mom...?"
His question broke his heart. Despite remaining quiet, Sonic knew the answer, and was more devastated.
"Is everything okay in here?" The young fox called out, slightly afraid to come around the corner.
"Everything's..." Knuckles stopped himself. No. Everything is not fine. G.U.N. captured Maddie, her sister, and Tom appeared to be severely injured.
Not to mention that the mad doctors and that monster are still on the loose.
Everything is not fine.
"We're getting out of here." Knuckles says, picking up Tom bridal style, and ran off in a rush.
Tails came in just to time for a hurt Donut Lord to not come into his view. A defeated, glossy eyed Sonic didn't make it any better though.
"Sonic? Where's Tom?"
All the hedgehog could do is blink.
It was enough to give Tails the upsetting conformation.
-
Gloomy, dark clouds loom over the city of London. Roads were beginning to form puddles from the light rains that have been pouring down for a good hour or so.
An hour seemed like a trillions years to find out if one person is gonna survive a bullet or not.
Sonic, Tails and Knuckles were outside, barely dried off from the rain speaking with one of the G.U.N. agents, that was informing them about their father's well being.
"The good news is, however," she was speaking with the boys for a good while now, each of them showing concern in their own ways. Knuckles tries not to show it, and was listening closely, Tails was holding one of his tails, and Sonic, still recovering from the earlier incident, twiddled his fingers, wanting to hear the good news already.
"he wasn't hit near the heart, but the bullet was pretty close to the lungs. He will need to undergo surgery, so he has to remain in the hospital until then. Other than that, no other injuries have occurred as far as I'm concerned."
The trio didn't say a word, but they understood. They're just glad, at least mentally, that Tom is gonna be okay, but it'll be a while until he's able to wake up.
"Thanks for telling us," Tails says quietly, not really looking at the agent in the eye.
"As for your mission, I... really wish I could help," she says. She was concerned for the boys' well being, and thought about helping them, but after hearing word about the commander getting injured, she needed to be in a hurry.
"No you don't," Sonic mumbled, doubting her sincerity.
She sighed through her nose. She should've expect the boys treating this way to her. But it's understandable why they're acting like this.
"Could you at least tell us if Maddie and Rachel are okay?" Tails looked up at her with hope in his eyes. He doesn't want anyone to get hurt like Tom.
"They are confined until further notice. There's nothing I can do."
Sonic refuses to look at her.
"I hope you boys make things right and take care of those freaks up there," she says, "because if you fail on your mission, no one will forget this. Keep that in mind."
It was the last thing she said before making her leave. The trio watched as she goes, as they were left with the sentence floating in their heads.
Knuckles seemed calm, he has certainly been through worse, but he hasn't gotten a look at Sonic or Tails yet. They both seem distraught. This is their biggest adventure yet, and possibly their deadliest.
She's right. They cannot fail. No matter what.
Sonic closes his eyes and turned away from his friends, thinking. Tails and Knuckles looked over with concern.
"Sonic, y-you're not thinking about giving up, are you?" Tails asked nervously. A lot has happened, but there still all the time in the world to turn everything back to normal. Hopefully.
"Never," Sonic responded. He turned back around to face them. He never looked so serious. "It's not over until I say it's over."
Hearing that definitely lift Tails' spirits. "Oh! That's great! I'm so relieved!"
"What about the Eclipse Canon? How do we stop it now?" Knuckles asks, turning to face Tails. "It's already activated with the use of the Emeralds, which we cannot reach to unless we're in the ARK."
"Aw, shoot, you're right," Tails' smile faded away in an instant after hearing the mention of the Chaos Emeralds. "Ugh, if only I knew G.U.N. were to show up then we would've-"
"Do not blame yourself, fox. You did all you could," Knuckles reassures.
"I guess you're right, but what about Shadow? We can't get to him here, he's probably up in space by now! Maybe if I can somehow find a way to steal a space shut-"
"'We?'"
Sonic's voice caught Tails and Knuckles' attention.
"Nah," he says, "I'M going after him."
"What??" They both cried in confusion.
...Is he serious? Why is Sonic thinking about facing that guy on his own? Why without their help?? There's no way he's serious. When was the last time he was ever serious?
"Sonic, are you- are you hearing yourself? That is suicide!" Knuckles cried, "You don't even know the full power he's capable of!"
"Hes right, Sonic," Tails added for Knuckles' sake. They got the taste of Shadow's power firsthand. He knew that fighting Shadow alone would be a nightmare. "This is a bad idea."
"When does that ever stop me?" Sonic says, furrowed brows and fists clenched again to show the dead seriousness in his face.
Oh, dear lord, he is serious.
"I faced Eggman twice," The blue hedgehog continued, "once in a flying pod, and in a giant death mech, with the Emeralds! I can take on a super hedgehog."
"He obliterated us!" Tails says, "He's way too powerful! What if he hurts you and we can't save you in time?"
"I'll be fine," Sonic answered, his eyes lowered and away from Tails, "besides, I don't want you guys to get hurt."
Walters' words were still fresh in his brain. He couldn't help but think that maybe he did cause some destruction while saving the world, but he won't let it happen again this time. He won't let his brothers- his friends, get hurt.
He didn't notice that Knuckles looked slightly offended from being pushed aside from a fight. "But Sonic," he says, "we are strong enough to protect ourselves and you."
"I know, but I especially don't want you, Knuckles, to go overboard on Shadow. I think he's been through enough."
Knuckles blinked. "What do you mean?"
"He lost a friend on the ARK, remember?" Sonic says. "He's probably mad at the world because of that..." His expression seemed hurt from the thought of losing someone that close. He's been there...
But after thinking for a moment, his eyes began to twinkle with hope, and a small smile rose on his muzzle. "...but maybe if I can try and reason with him and change his mind, then our problems will be solved!" He exclaimed, beaming at his friends.
Tails and Knuckles earned him very lost looks.
"'Reason' with him? Oh, sweet mother of Tikal..." Knuckles messaged the bridge of his muzzle, not believing what was spoken just now.
"Sonic, there is no point in trying such thing," he says, "He is blinded by rage. How could he listen to you?"
"There... there is a way. I know there is!" Sonic spoke, sounding unsure if he knows a way at all. He just hopes that Shadow would listen to him somehow...
"Sonic," his tone rose for a moment to get Sonic to listen, "he tried to destroy us, and now he's trying to destroy the planet! Do you honestly believe this monster will, just, stop from your useless plea?"
Sonic stared at him like he killed a man.
"He's not a monster," he says, "he was just blamed for something he didn't do."
"That was in the past," Knuckles argued, "this is the present! We are dealing with Shadow's action NOW! His actions now is what makes him a-"
"I'll find a way to stop him, Knuckles," Sonic explained, "Besides, he'll probably listen to me because of how similar we are! We both lost someone really important a long time ago... ...Wait, is Shadow, like, an old dude now or-?"
"He was frozen, Sonic." Tails corrected, his eyes stabbing him with disapproval.
"...So, does that make him, like, Captain America, or somethin- BUT ANYWAYS, anyways," Sonic stops himself from going off topic.
"H-he used to have a human friend and those G.U.N. jerks took her away, and I used to have Longclaw before I came to Earth..." He looked down at his shoes and scratched the back of his head, not wanting to bring himself back to a difficult time of his life, nor wanting to think about what he had read in that diary.
"But Shadow is nothing like you," Knuckles mentioned, "Just because you both have 'similar' pasts, that does not mean it will stop Shadow from being destructive."
Sonic couldn't help but feel scolded in some way. Maybe it was because he read the diary and never got the chance to show Tails and Knuckles before Shadow came in.
They never knew what Shadow been through. It's understandable that they were cautious over this plan, but... it seemed like Knuckles doesn't believe everything Sonic is saying.
...is he?
"Well, I mean... I guess me and Shadow do have a lot in common," Sonic says, "We're both hedgehogs. We both run pretty fast. We both have really cool kicks. And... we were doubted."
Tails blinked. "Wh-what? Sonic, we didn't doubt you."
"You guys don't even believe what I said, didn't you?" he stressed, "I read those diary pages. I know what happened! I'm not lying just to make friends with an emo hedgehog!"
"No, no! I believe you!" Tails cried, waving his hands at Sonic. He had no clue that Sonic was feeling this way the whole time.
"Yeah, right!" Sonic says, hand on hip. "You guys don't even believe that I can handle Shadow on my own! You guys... really don't think I can do this?" his ears flopped to his head, looking at his friends, begging them to be on his side.
"Not on your own." Knuckles stated.
"At least wish me luck or something! Gosh, why are you... why are you guys loosing faith in me?" Sonic asked, sounding defeated.
Tails' two tails dropped to the ground. He wasn't loosing faith in him! He was just worried for his well being. Tom is already in the hospital and Maddie and the rest of her family are being held somewhere. He doesn't want to loose anyone else.
He believed him, one hundred percent. He never meant to make Sonic believe otherwise. He felt awful making his own hero feel this way.
Knuckles, however, thought Sonic is just saying all this just to battle on his own. Does this hedgehog know that they are in a middle of a crisis?!
"We didn't say that we're loosing faith..." Tails spoke sadly.
"You didn't, but I know you are," Sonic looked away, his eyes set on the hospital building. The one Tom is staying at for God knows how long.
The one Sonic himself put him in.
It makes sense that his own friends think that he couldn't do this right, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. Aren't they suppose to support him?
Like a good team he thought they were?
"I'm not gonna lie," Sonic began, his voice breaking but barely hid it, "I'm kind of disappointed of you both."
Knuckles' face grew disgusted and Tails tugged at his own hand.
...disappointed?
"I am doing all I can to make everything go back to normal," he continued, "and nothing is working so far because stupid Ro-butt-nik ruined everything, and stupid G.U.N. caused more problems and...! Ugh, and you guys aren't making it any better!"
Knuckles scowled down at the blue hedgehog. He had no right to be disappointed at the Echidna Warrior.
"None of this wouldn't have happened if we didn't put our trust into that mustached mad man!" he roared at his face, "So, technically speaking, YOU ruined everything!"
Sonic froze.
He, ruined everything...?
They recruited Tom and Maddie and family to help them on their mission, went to London to find the ARK before the Robotniks do, G.U.N. stormed them first, and the Robotniks got away with not only the ARK, but the Chaos Emeralds included, which helped powering on the Eclipse Canon, which cut the moon in half just now...
...and it was all Sonic's fault?
"Didn't you see the state San Francisco was in? We had no choice but to unite G.U.N. back because of your actions!"
Sonic blinked twice. Walters' words haunted him once more.
"You know what Robotnik has done to us in the past, and you seriously think he was our last chance at victory?!" Knuckles cried.
"You didn't even have the courage to rescue your owl. With a reputation like that, why should you not let it get to you?"
The longer he stared at Knuckles, the more his emerald eyes loose their spark.
"You think it's so easy to have all of our sworn enemies magically become friends?! is that your plan? Because it sure is a ridiculously stupid one." Knuckles stated.
"Knuckles, quit it!" Tails protested.
"No hero should ever make a single mistake. After all, heroes don't destroy things. They don't endanger civilians."
He breathed heavily. Walters just won't shut up.
"No hero should ever make a single mistake."
He won't shut up!
"No hero should ever make a single mistake."
"No hero should ever make a single mistake."
"You think I'm stupid?!" Sonic yelled. The fox backed up, startled by Sonic's scream.
"You think I didn't see any of this coming, no matter how much I hoped it wouldn't happen?! You think I believed that Robotnik was our only hope?!"
"Yes." Knuckles answered with a straight face, unaffected by his anger.
Sonic's left eye twitched. This damn Echidna. He didn't believe him from the start. He didn't think this plan was the best he could come up with!
When they were chained up after getting knocked out it was punishment enough. He didn't need Knuckles the Echidna to remind him how much he failed.
He could've at least pretend to have faith in him instead of being brutally honest. Then again, Knuckles is a terrible liar.
Knuckles lying would be more worse than just being honest anyway. Who in the right mind would lie about how amazing and clever and heroic Sonic is?
Tails and Knuckles, apparently.
Sonic hated Walters' guts, but he hated how much he was right more. Out of all the mistakes he could ever make in his life, as a sorry excuse for a hero, is to put his faith on two "friends" who have never supported him from the beginning of the mission.
Or even the beginning of their adventures in general.
He tried, so hard, to make everything according to plan, but it all came crashing down, because he had to make a truce with Eggman. He even put Tom in the hospital because he didn't get the chance to run away from a stupid bullet.
And what did his friends do after all that? They criticize him.
He is fully aware of how imperfect he is, but Knuckles made him open his eyes. But especially Walters. No one had faith in him. He was never a hero, and he was too blind to realize that. Until now.
But he will fix everything. On his own. He will reclaim his title, without the help of his friends.
In a blink of a second, Sonic's eyes glow a sharp blue. If this is how his friends treat him after everything, then so be it.
Sonic scoffed a snarky chuckle.
"Well then," he says, raising his voice at first, "if we're playing the blame game, then THIS, is all Tails' fault!" He points at the young fox.
His ears folded downward. "What...?"
What did he do??
"That's right. Blame me for being a failure and see what happens!" Sonic barked him, stomping his foot.
Knuckles' violet eyes rose. Why the hell is he yelling at this poor child??
"Maybe YOU wouldn't have failed if you try to figure out what to do when G.U.N. showed up! I thought you were smarter than that, Miles!" he cursed his real name.
Tails gasped and back away, hugging on of his fluffy tails. His eyes fluttering as tears began to form.
Knuckles is having none of it.
"How dare you scold the young fox like that!" Knuckles walked up close and personal with Sonic, shielding Tails from him. He snarled at the hedgehog, but it didn't scare him off.
"Sonic, what is wrong with you," Tails croaked, his voice breaking. "I did my best!"
"I'm doing my best too, but no body seems to care!"
"ENOUGH!" Knuckles ordered Sonic loud enough for the whole area to hear. It was enough to make him back away a bit.
"We are supposed to be a team," he reminded calmly yet angrily, "why are you acting this way, hedgehog?"
"Because you don't think Shadow is capable of change." Sonic answered, forcing himself to not cry in front of Knuckles, "you don't believe in him. You don't believe in ME. And you know what? Even if I needed help, I wouldn't rely on people who don't believe in me!"
"I do believe in you!" Tails cried, a tear streaming down his muzzle. He never felt so heartbroken in his life. He did rely on Sonic. He looked out for him. He couldn't believe what was happening.
Why is his own hero acting so harsh to him? ...he probably deserved it.
Knuckles made sure Tails was still behind him in case the hedgehog does anything rash.
Sonic didn't hear a thing Tails said, and he refused to.
"I'm tired of losing other people," Sonic continued, now yelling, "I nearly lost Tom, I am NOT gonna lose the entire world, and I won't let you stop me!"
Tails held onto Knuckles' huge hand. The gesture only made Knuckles grow more angry. Sonic is scaring the small fox. He should not have done that.
"I am not gonna argue with you guys in a middle of a crisis that could only worsen if I'm not doing something about it!" He pointed at the duo. Then he walked up to Knuckles, his eyes glaring right at him like daggers.
"Besides, KNUCKLES, you are way too simpleminded to even listen to a word I say because all YOU care about is kicking someone's butt," Sonic hissed, not afraid of what the Echidna is about to do next.
"Simpleminded?"
He closed his eyes, and breathed through his nose.
He should be.
Knuckles carefully pushed Tails to his side, and then backed up a few steps. "Take it back," he ordered quietly, brow bridges furrowing as he glared back at the hedgehog.
"Make me," he opened up his arms. He could clearly see that this warrior is about to duke it out. If that's the case, he's ready to throw hands whenever.
Knuckles growled. Loudly.
"Take. It. BACK!" He roared as he smacked both of his own fists, causing fire to burst out ablaze out of his gloves, complete with his power surge spiraling all over his body.
Sonic formed his fists tight, his own power surge sparkling as well. His eyes zapped the same blue as before as his quills began to glow.
"Make me!"
It's go time.
Sonic and Knuckles charge at each other, delivering powerful punches to one another, some they dodged, most they certainly came in contact.
Knuckles tried to kick Sonic in the stomach, but as he tried to do so, Sonic zipped behind him and dragged him by his quills and threw him to the nearest police car.
The echidna made a dent on the door and the sirens began to blare off, but no body cared, except for Tails, who was stressed out enough already. He covered his ears, the sound of the police siren bothering his eardrums.
Sonic punched Knuckles in the face twice, but it had no effect. He's just too strong. Knuckles snorted, finding the attack rather unimpressive.
It was his turn to punch back.
POW!!
Sonic goes flying off a few feet away from Knuckles, as he stretches briefly before going back to his fighting stance.
The blue hedgehog gets up, rubs his bruised nose and growled at the Echidna Warrior.
"Stop fighting!" Tails plead.
As if this day couldn't get any worse, two of his favorite people in the galaxy are beating themselves up because of an unsuccessful mission that was probably his own fault.
His family is falling apart. He didn't ask for this.
"See? I told ya, didn't I?!" Sonic barked, his fist shaking, ready to punch that dumb red cherry straight to the concrete. "Fighting is all you focus on! You wanna remain victorious! Undefeatable!"
Sonic came running full speed and landed his fist straight to Knuckles' face. He tumbled on the ground before quickly getting back up, sprinting behind him.
"And all you care about is your reputation!" He spit back, before delivering back his own punch.
"Bull-crap!!"
"You are such a child!"
Sonic spun into a ball before lunging himself right into Knuckles' gut, barely weakening him. Still in his ball form, and rolled laps around him, trying to confuse him, before kicking him hard in the chin.
"I know what I'm doing! You both stay out of this! I don't need your help!" Sonic roared, his power surge growing stronger and unstable. He may be unable to keep his powers at bay, but he couldn't care less.
He just wants Knuckles to back off.
"You haven't a single clue what you are doing, you blue buffoon," The Echidna stated, raising his flaming fists of disaster, ready to set that hedgehog's pathetic face of fire.
"You call yourself a hero after the way you treat your teammates?! You are no such thing until you get your act together!"
"Shut up! Shut up!" A whirring sound grows louder and louder, unable to hold his power together anymore. He was too angry. He was too blinded by rage.
He is sick and tired of being criticized as an imperfect hero. He tried his best. He tried so hard. Why won't it be easy? Why can't everything just go his way?
Why does his family hate him so much?
"Just shut up, you Knucklehead!!!" Sonic screamed at the top of his lungs before shooting himself right into Knuckles at scary speed, preparing to pound the living daylights out of him.
"STOP!"
WHAM!!
Thud...
Sonic's heart nearly stopped.
The light in his once enraged emerald eyes faded away in a second the instant he's seen what he had done.
His powers died down. Now his fur is a dull blue.
It didn't stop his hands from trembling, however.
His ears bent back. He step back a few steps, not letting his eyes off the small, fox, that was once in his way, now many feet away from the duo, not moving a muscle.
His tails were limp for an uncomfortable amount of time. No sound was made from the fox. He remained still on the ground.
For seconds. Too many seconds.
Sonic's mouth quivered. He refuse to believe it.
He punched him. He punched his own little buddy. He hurt him.
"What have I done?"
"Tails!" Knuckles cried out his dear brother's name as he ran towards him, leaving a shocked Sonic by himself.
The Echidna rolled onto the ground as he grabbed Tails by his arms and cradled him close, checking for any injures, and making sure he's alive.
"Tails, are you alright? Speak to me!" He begged the young motionless fox, putting his hand up to his face, checking for blood and cuts.
Sonic watched from afar. The strongest fighter in the galaxy, holding onto a small child for dear life, begging for him to wake up. He caused this.
"Is he...?" he never finished his question. Somehow he knew the answer, but he just prayed it's not really true.
"He's... unconscious." Knuckles said to himself at loud.
Sonic placed both of his hands over his mouth slowly. He was in disbelief.
He knocked his little brother out.
Knuckles and Tails may be a few feet away from him, but to him it felt like millions and millions of miles away. He never felt so divided from his own friends.
How could he do this? To his own little brother?
...his little brother.
Dear God, he hurt his little brother.
How could he?
This small fox, who he bonded with for months, under the same roof, and spend good and bad times with alongside Knuckles, is knocked out because of him.
This tiny, precious baby, who admired him, protected him, fought by his side with, and even looked up to him, is not responding to anything Knuckles is doing.
He hurt him. He yelled at him.
What the hell was he thinking??
What kind of a hero is he hurting his own little brother like that?
His heart completely shattered into pieces the second Knuckles turned his head at him.
This strong Echidna, who has fought the toughest battles and the meanest bad guys before his arrival on Earth, has never looked so lost and distraught.
There were tears swelling in those violet eyes of his.
Knuckles just witnessed a small child got the soul knocked out of him by a speeding hedgehog, and didn't even save him in time.
It terrified him.
It made Knuckles cry. Knuckles never cries.
Sonic made Knuckles cry.
Throw anything at the Echidna, and he'll brush it off, but an injured fox would break him down in seconds.
Sonic may have hurt Knuckles physically, but he was destroyed on the inside just the sight of this small unconscious fox with a huge, purple bruise on his cheek.
Knuckles and Tails had such a bond so close, it would only make sense for Knuckles to break down like this.
The whole scene was just so horrifying for Sonic to watch.
He caused this scene. He hurt his own brothers.
His own brothers who he took in after they dealt with such a troubling childhood. Having either loosing a family, or never having one to begin with.
He gave them everything they ever truly wanted. He gave them a family. A happy life on Earth.
And now, he gave them something they'll both never, ever forget.
Betrayal.
"No hero should ever make a single mistake."
He let Walters' words get the better of him. His own words were his own weapons against his brothers.
Walters managed to break Sonic to the point where he endangered his own brothers.
Because of his fear of failure, it lead him to hurting his own brothers.
Whom he was supposed to protect.
His own fears took over him, making him appear as the bad guy to Knuckles. All over again.
Because of his failure as a hero, Knuckles may never look at Sonic the same way again...
Perhaps it could be true, as Knuckles shuts his eyes tight, and turned away from the speechless hedgehog, trying to calm himself down.
Him and Shadow really do have a lot in common after all.
Knuckles took a few deep breaths. "Keep calm... Don't let it out... Seal it in..."
Seal what in? What was he talking about?
Knuckles exhaled deeply, feeling more relaxed, but still in slight distraught when he opened his eyes back up, seeing the unconscious fox back in his view.
He couldn't bare to look at the poor thing any longer. he shuts his eyes tight again. He will find a way to nurse him back to health.
The hospital is right there. Hopefully the doctors know how to take care of an alien fox.
"Kn-Knuckles...?" Sonic mumbled his elder brother's name, reached his hand out slowly to him, praying he's not too mad at him now that he calmed himself down.
"Leave."
...Or maybe not.
Sonic pulled his hand back, stabbed in the heart by that one word. He doesn't really want to leave his friends behind. Not after what he had done.
He never meant for any of this to happen. He never meant to go so hard on them. He just doesn't want them to get hurt.
He just doesn't them to go too far on Shadow.
Another fight with Shadow is long overdue, but he knows what he has been through. He knew deep down he wouldn't listen, but talking things out won't work forever.
He just didn't want his brothers to make things harder for him than it already has, but he never meant to hurt them either.
Shadow is just a rival, but Tails and Knuckles are his brothers. Hurting them is a different story entirely.
They mean so much to him as much as Tom and Maddie. His parents.
He has injured his family. He had failed them.
...but hopefully not the world.
There is still time to stop the Eclipse Canon from powering up, and stop the Robotniks for good, and taking care of Shadow. It's just Sonic doing all the work now.
His family needed rest to heal anyways. He has put them through enough trouble. No more mistakes. No more hurting.
He's doing this alone. For them.
"I'll leave," Sonic croaked quietly, but loud enough for Knuckles to hear, "but I'll fix everything. I promise. Once I'm done with Shadow, I'll go and you won't need me anymore, and that's fine."
He sniffled, turning away from his brothers. He doesn't want to see them in that state anymore.
"I'll be okay on my own. I've done it before... I promise I won't bother you guys again..." Sonic says. Despite his small smile, he was screaming and sobbing on the inside.
"You have every right to be upset at me, but it won't change how I love you. And because I love you is why I'm going alone. I hope you understand. ...Goodbye, big bro."
With a burst of speed, Sonic ran off in seconds, leaving a blue blur behind him. Now it's just Knuckles, and a small motionless pup in his arms.
Deep down, Knuckles didn't want Sonic to leave, but he was just so angry at him...
He doesn't deserve to be alone. No body does.
Shadow doesn't deserve it either.
But he was still angry at him, especially. But he'll deal with him later. Sonic can't handle Shadow on his own, even though the blue hedgehog is full of surprises.
He'll deal with everything later. His baby brother's well being is his number one priority.
He pulled Tails in closer where his head meet his chest, and pressed his muzzle against his bangs, giving him the most comfortable hug he could ever receive.
"I won't leave you until you are all better, my dear brother," he whispered to him, still holding onto him as if he was just a small baby.
He sat there on the wet concrete, ignoring the cold shivers, and remained there until the fox is okay.
He is not loosing another member of his tribe. Not again.
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Randell watched from afar. He wasn't there to witness everything, but he's gotten enough context to understand what had happened.
He stood there, his arms crossed, watching Knuckles holding onto Tails for dear life.
He still can't believe these are the dangerous aliens Walters was freaking out over for so long. They're just children. Children longing for a home.
And because of Walters' actions, these poor kids have been separated.
He turned away, crossed with his ex-commander. He could've just let them get to the ARK first. He could've just left them alone. But he didn't. He just had to be the villain.
"When I see him, he will not ignore me again," he said, before walking off.
He gave a promise to himself that if Walters won't leave this family alone, he's gonna have to take drastic measures.
He doesn't care about the consequences. The only thing he cares about is his family. And the planet they belong in.
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#tw gun#tw child endangerment#tw swearing#tw ptsd#tw blood#sonic wachowski#miles tails wachowski#knuckles wachowski#movie shadow#movie maria#tom wachowski#maddie wachowski#rachel wachowski#randell wachowski#commander walters#movie robotnik#gerald robotnik#sonic fanfiction#sonic movie fanfiction#sonic movie 2020#sonic movie 3#sonic movie 3 spoilers#I hope you like HEAVY angst with zero comfort 😈#If this gets zero reblogs I'm just gonna quit writing altogether because I AM SO GODDAMN PROUD OF THIS ONE#I'll admit it's probably a tad bit outdated because I have better predictions for the movie but THAT DIDN'T STOP ME#I do NOT wanna scrap this I am WAY too proud of my work here for once#And so I am FINALLY FOR REAL gonna take a break from Tumblr for the holidays. I'll be back either before or after New Year's#Hope you enjoy my best work yet please PLEASE make sure to reblog to spread this around it would mean the entire world to me 💕#I'll be back soon and Happy Holidays you silly goofballs. 🎶 Please stay safe.
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Pictures and things
#photo diary#image 1 - pretty sky!.. so many sky photos as always#2 & 3 - baby son keeping me company during one of my Sickness days where I kind of just sit on the floor in a blanket#for hours slowly sipping pedialyte and having applesauce and such lol#He likes to bite the squeezy apple sauce pouches.. and try to steal the heating pad#4. Sky again. lighter more scattered fluffy clouds.#5 - greeting card that I drew at someone's request so they could send it to their elderly family member lol.. It's like.. cats baking#in a kitchen I guess? My eternal curse.. being the number one lover of cats in the world yet still somehow barely having a grasp#on their anatomy so they always look ridiculous when I draw them. I have both drawn and looked at cats for my entire life basically#yet somehow those two things do not come together to make me a good cat artist.. alas..#6 - underpart of an outfit I did (and havent yet posted of course because of my evil backlog of onemillion drafted posts)#I took the main dress off the top but thought the underneath part looked cool on it's own as well#7 - more sky.#8 - Mushroom fettucini alfredo. steak. and grilled asparagus. A fun little meal for me though I can't remember the occasion. I think maybe#as a reward for getting my covid booster or something. Though I still feel it's not as much of a reward when I am personally cooking#everything myself at home gjhbjh.. so its like... I'm having to do quite a lot of labor which makes it feel less relaxing I suppose. but eh#a treat in some form. Still cheaper by overall cost than ordering from a restaurant - and also can be customized and prepared#exactly how I like - which is the point. I guess more I just wish I weren't the only cooking person in the house. Everyone could#take turns making special meals for each other rather than like.. ''hmm I feel like having a treat. suppose I shall spend an hour#making it all myself and then feel tired whilst eating it'' lol.. ANYWAY#9 - and then.. you guessed it..MORE sky pictures!!! This time pinky bluey and so on.. huzzah..#A very sky heavy entry into the photo diaries I suppose#The sky in the 1st/7th image is jsut very ethereal seeming to me. something about the way the lighting is behind the clouds. It's#transportive. An interesting sky will make me feel like many other places in time or things I've seen in dreams or something. You get#a sense of being in a different world or like you're looking out over something you once imagined whilst reading a storybook. maybe lol
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Hi! No idea if you are alive (I hope you are) but I don't think you reblogged this yet
https://www.tumblr.com/layton-heritage-posts/768227681609416704/layton-heritage-post?source=share
Hi anon! I am in fact alive you'll be glad to hear. That post is great but it doesn't meet the age criteria yet so I'm going to put it in my drafts until it does and reblog it then. Thank you for the submission ❤️
#mod post#aahp asks#anon#im actually quite a heavy tumblr user tbh even when i havent posted here in a while im usually posting on main or other sides#so it's funny when someone is lile ''hey r u dead'' because ive been here the whole time w a scooby doo mask on#its very kind though thanks for checking anon
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anyone else with adhd has countless nicks and gashes all over their body bc theyre clumsy af
#atm i have one giant bruise on my foot from dropping a heavy ass chair on it#a mysterious bruise next to my knee#2-3 cuts on my fingers bc why not also some from me breaking a glass bottle earlier#and a forever scar next to my mouth from when i impaled my face with scissors when i was 8 because i slipped#also a burn on my foot that hasnt quite faded away because i spilled boiling hot butter on it#and that one time i fell out of the school bus in front of my crush the scar sort of faded but the emotional one. has not.#adhd
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"You like the magnus archives?? What kind of merch do you have????"
This is all I got
#I stole a record machine from work and put a bunch of statements on blank cassettes#honestly where I work is pretty much as close as you can get to the achieves anyway#so its pretty accurate#we've got a strange russian man who owns the building#and changes his name every month#a bug infestation we cant shake#HEAVY on the spiders#and also the time I found about 200 dead mealworms in the lobby#for some reason#also the entire job is centered around watching people#watching people react to fear situations#lots of cameras#rooms dedicated to watching people in those cameras#wherever you are theres a camera#and theres an employee dedicated to watching that camera#lets see#its also mainly windowless#time passes there weirdly#you gotta take my word on that one#you like genuinely start to tweek out#every manager there before has quit because of a giant mental breakdown#most employees too#but the breakdown isnt because the work is hard#its because being in that building feels genuinely suffocating#one of my old managers locked herself in a room for a month#then came out bald and quit never to be heard from again#oh and theres a room with dolls hanging from the ceiling#tma podcast#tma#the magnus archives
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can someone explain to me why binding in any form when you have a large chest is hell no matter what you do
#this is rhetorical#i know why#binders are fucking BOGUS#aside from the sensory issues they give me personally THEY JUST DON’T FUCKING WORK#AT LEAST FOR ME#and then i discovered binding tape#1000% better than binders on multiple fronts#but it still sucks#because god forbid someone have a tape size large enough#and then theres the fucking blisters#which i do not give a fuck HOW you swing it THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME BLISTERING IF YOUR CHEST IS HEAVY#AND IF YOU HAVE A LARGE CHEST AND TAPE AND DONT BLISTER PLEASE SWEET FUCK TELL ME HOW YOU DO IT#because i can have it on and pretend that my skin isn’t actively being shredded#and that i won’t be standing in the shower in a few days peeling it and said shredded skin off of me#probably pissing my suitemates the hell off because i didn’t anticipate it being that bad because i never think its that bad#until i take it off and then suddenly its like why the fuck am i bleeding#and i gotta tell myself it’s because there’s no winning for you dumbass!!!!#you’re going to be in pain all the time no matter what you do!!!!!#let me out#can i fucking quit now please how much more#because with everything in america going the way it is idfk if i can take this shit much longer#yapping#vent
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#anyone here know stuff about hanging things from the wall? specifically how much weight a screw can take#i hung up a little cupboard thing earlier today. wanted to put books in it#but now i worry that they are too heavy#(its one of those ikea eket cube things like 35cm on all sides so it doesn't fit *that* many books#BUT they are almost all hardcovers and large formats so still quite heavy)#because i just used whatever screws (50mm and universal anchor thingies) without asking anyone first#what if i picked the wrong ones. or rather how can i assume i picked the right ones.#they do seem a bit flimsy#i worry the whole thing will come crashing down and i'll have to explain a huge hole in the wall to my landlord#if someone could put my mind at ease that'd be great i dont want to call my father he will just act like im stupid#which yk fair enough but also. urgh.
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