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HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS 101!!
You know how it's easier to make friends when you work somewhere or go to school?? Well it's for a reason, and that reason is YOU ALWAYS SEE EACH OTHER
You work remotely/are unemployed? Go to a cafe every day. You don't even have to buy coffee if you can't/don't want to afford it. But by going there every day and working, studying etc people will start noticing you as a 'regular', and eventually you might become friends with the staff and other regulars! Just say hi and be nice!
You don't like coffee? Go to the gym the same days every week!! That's even easier! "Hey, can you help me out? I have no idea of my form is right" AND BOOM! Gym friends. Soon enough you'll be talking about nonsense and working out together.
You don't like the gym? Understandable, I don't either, not really my thing. Try yoga classes! Or swimming lessons! Creative writing lessons!
You can't afford any of those and there are no free shit in your city? Volunteer somewhere!! A homeless shelter, an animal shelter, in church (if you're into that kinda thing), getting in some queer group in your town (if you're queer, don't make it weird ok)
Get in a club! D&D groups, videogames, reading (be warned, there will most likely be smut), whatever you can think of!
Making friends is easier when you share a space and routine with them, when you have something in common. That's why it's easier in school, college or work.
You just be nice, even if you're shy, try to speak. Have an inviting body language (an 'open' posture, with your shoulders back and arms on your waist or down, not being on your phone the whole time, etc). Tell a joke or two. Small talk, eventually ask something a bit more meaningful, and be yourself!
If it doesn't work out, you can try again somewhere else, or with someone else. People's personalities sometimes just don't match, and if you feel like this person isn't really someone you wanna hang out with, you can just stop. If they say or do something weird (like a racist, trans/homophobic or xenophobic comment, or some sexist shit) don't be shy to question it- tell them why you think that's not cool. Don't allow them that behavior, and don't get dragged into it, because you don't want to be friends with someone like that.
Good luck making friends and socializing!!
Also re: the fact it’s normal to have a period of time where you have no friends: sometimes this means no “real” friends aka still have people you know from work, school, family, neighbors, acquaintances, etc etc you interact with but are not close with and couldn’t go to for anything on any deeper level. But sometimes it actually does mean no friends. No social interaction, nobody to call, no other option, don’t talk to anyone for days, don’t know who would find out if you died. The thing is there really is coming back from both of those situations ofc it takes a good deal of work and can feel like pulling teeth to put yourself out there but god it pays off. You can always start over from scratch, and it’s true most people are just as lonely as you are
#growing up#tumblr#socializing#making fiends#autism#because it can be harder for you babies#audhd#socially anxious#socially awkward#how to make friends#adulting
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Honestly I saw it as he just shapeshifted into a more female body and got pregnant like that, I wouldn't be shocked if both wukong and macaque can shift into different genders or beings 🤔
See that’s another version I’ve seen people do, and it’s cool but it wouldn’t work in this au at least by how I’ve described the process of birth/procreation
First major problem would be the shapeshifter having to keep their womb even after bombayayaing cause if they don’t I’d consider that as cancelling the subscription y’know, canceling the free trial after you finished the one movie, you don’t have access to anything after the trial
So while they could start the procreation through shapeshifting they’d have to keep that up the whole time
Which is where the next problem is: the pregnancy takes a lot and I mean A LOT of power/magic from the user, since the baby is using it all up concentrating on forming their own magical presence, the whole time the pregnant person is losing bits of their magic and often can’t concentrate on their main powers up until the end, Sunset!Mac lost most of his magic at least half way through, and his glamour and shifting ability kept flickering at the very beginning up until it was too much keeping them up.
So even if the process was started, the person shapeshifting wouldn’t be able to hold onto their shifted form for long after, once again cancelling their subscription plan because they didn’t pay their wifi and couldn’t consistently access the application
Could the partner share their magic just like they do after the birth? I mean possibly but that’s like using your neighbors wifi, you don’t know when it’ll lock you out and getting so much magic from someone else probably isn’t very good for your body in the long run🤔
So the shapeshifting route really wouldn’t work in this au😔
#lmk#sunset!au#ttm!au#time traveling monkey au#shadowpeach#lmk sun wukong#lmk macaque#have I thought about the whole procreation process#as you can see a bit#had to flesh out some bits and pieces for it and I was like well what would work?#better luck drinking the jttw water#or asking nuwa for a stone egg brothers#jttw water works in this au because it’s just the person’s own magic circulating their body instead of a foreign magic which I guess acts#like a disease and kinda breaks down the body until the mom/the baby gain balance in a way#immunity or something idk#the stronger the foreign magic the harder the process is#Sunset!Mac a real trooper
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If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)
#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head#ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it#like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like#kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all#and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo#and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like#now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week?#yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay#kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello#why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine#but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him#they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her)#i just think it'd be fun cos like#it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met#kurama and hiei#kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back#they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀#it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan#yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc#and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺''#''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing#it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next#cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe#okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept#kuwameshi#yu yu hakusho#kuwabara kazuma#yusuke urameshi#koenma
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boys who moan and whimper when they slide into you the first time <3 boys who cum too fast because they just can’t hold back when you feel this good <3
#‘s-slow down i’m gonna come’ -> fucks him harder#AAAGGGGHHHHHHH#this is also why i write my men finishing very early because it is sooo hot . to me#like awww poor baby just couldn’t stop himself :(( you just felt too good :((((#and also like …. they can always get hard again 😇😇😇#<- this post is about dazai btw#FKDKFKDKFNDJDJ#q thirsts
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I am absolutely obsessed with the flashback scenes in They Slug Horses, Don’t They? so I had to draw toddler Teeny Tina and her lil’ Louise 🥺💛
[ID]: Traditional fanart of a younger Tina and Louise Belcher from Bob’s Burgers. Tina is a toddler and has fluffy black hair, bright blue eyes, and a loving expression on her face. She’s wearing a light purple shirt and dark purple pants, along with white shoes that have black buckles. She also has large black glasses. She’s gently holding her baby sister, Louise, who’s swaddled in a yellow blanket. She has an upset expression on her face and is on the verge of tears. She had bright blue eyes like Tina and some black hair sticking out of her pink hat.
#bobs burgers#tina belcher#louise belcher#burger baby flashbacks 🥺#the cuteness level was off the charts i was screaming#can you all tell how important this episode is to me#especially because i have an older sister and that just made it hit so much harder
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want to be clear that josie does not handle trevelyan having a daughter very well at all. pretty much worse initial reaction than everyone else. she’s like. Oh. I... See. [scrambles to remember what her siblings liked at that age] do you like. dolls? and lilith is like, i’m ten years old. and josephine is like yes, of course, while awkwardly positioning herself between lilith and her own concealed doll collection. do you like... [buffering noises] ... treaties?
#they figure it out#arthur and josie can be as cool and romantic as they want#because they are also cringe dad & lame stepmother#josie strikes me as someone who likes children more in concept than in person. you know#goes awww when there is a baby in the room but does NOT want to hold it#not sure whether that’s lack of experience with them or just who she is#or just in general that she finds people harder to deal with when its personal and you have to deal with the bad as well as the good#the unpleasantness and the grossness instead of the clean polite perfection of handling acquaintances. you know
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Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship
#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it#it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper#provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the#interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after#50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked#his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it#he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from#when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has#his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever#but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how#we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe#cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna#back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed#practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence#we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one#who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted#to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say#goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa#the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding#his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.
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#a whole 4 years and look how much has changed huh...#sumn sumn does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes sumn#im getting emo about forsy coming in as a third pair dman and quickly rising up the ranks because of ekkys glass body#and then with the blockbuster trade them trying him out with ekky and welp the rest is history#going from “proving i deserve to be there” to “okay we are using forsy wayyyyy too much and hes not complaining about it but also-”#can you believe that ekky has been injured in 3 of the 4 pics (time period wise)#if youd like to know when forsy got to play with weegs ekky was out with a knee injury#the second is from an article from oct 24 2022 where ekky was out with a groin injury#the fourth is from the recent ducks where ekky is STILL out with hand injury#like ekky sweetheart you are UNLUCKY#glass body... its okay forsy covers for you but also baby please come back you really shouldve knocked on forsys stall harder
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This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.
Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said “Hello, Captain.” Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied “Well, hello yourself.” The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. “Rook, is that really you?” He nodded. “It’s me.” Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said “What did she do to you?” Rook’s heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmar’s ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out “Two years.” A wave of grief swept across Zara’s face as she said “I’m so, so sorry.” Rook shook his head vigorously. “It’s not your fault.” Zara ignored him. “It is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, it’s my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.” Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. “She sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. I… I let you down.” Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to him… somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. “Where were you?” And why didn’t you come? “She said she’d kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. You’re standing here because I stopped sailing.”
(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd writing#oc: Rook#oc: Zara#btw when I say that what she said was more painful than any wound wolf inflicted I'm not just talking about her not saving him.#it also just hurts him to know that she was hurting too.#she left him with that woman for two years (to save his life yes. but she left him there all the same) and yet half of his thoughts are#''I'm sorry I hurt you.''#ROOK. MY BELOVED BABY BOY. PLEASE.#STOP APOLOGIZING.#also if anyone needs a cheering up after this please know that their conversation got interrupted by a giant snake showing up and zara#immediately asking Rook ''WHAT DID YOU DO???'' bc she knows her boy.#and he's like ''idk I just woke up like an hour ago'' and then he suddenly remembers that he swore like 3 times (town rules say no to that)#and he just goes ''SHIT'' and Zara fucking clamps her hand over his mouth and says ''take that back!''#and through her hand he says ''how the fuck am I supposed to take that back?'' and she just clamps his mouth harder.#oh. and the time he swore earlier was bc he stepped outside and got spit on by a bull and he was like ''is this normal??''#and someone said ''I've never seen that happen but these animals are part of [big snake almost-god]'s menagerie'' and hands Rook a paper#with all the town rules (there are many). And he goes ''what the fuck?'' and then he gets to the rule that reads ''no swearing'' and he goe#''SHIT!'' and then he realizes what he says and goes ''AAAHHHH.'' and I was cackling.#I was doing this on purpose btw. I knew that this would make the snake mad at me and I did it anyway bc I am a chaos gremlin.#however I did NOT know I would get Rook's only friend from before the party killed by doing this. RIP Jay. I loved you so much.#but yeah. my boy swears like a sailor bc he is one. and it did in fact get people killed. But it was funny to me.#ALSO when she met the party the first thing she said was ''thank you for saving my boy'' and I almost sobbed.#like yeah. he is her boy.#I'm going to explode just thinking about it.#okay if you read all these tags I love you forever and please feel free to yell at my idiot boy in the comments/tags/wherever.#maybe if enough of us join in he'll actually listen. (no he won't)#OH RIGHT. And the party is finally staring to realize how much of a capital L Liar this man is.#because they can literally see him catching himself about to say ''I'm fine'' every time they ask how he's doing
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i'm kind of amazed how most of the stardew marriage candidates just want you to be their manic pixie dream whatever by agreeing with everything they like and plying them with compliments or praise or whatever (which is fine but a bit. Much) but for shane his romance is just you being there for him while he figures his own shit out... dunno why i never wanted to romance him before he's so good
#i'm usually a sebastian kinda guy but i do think it's silly you have to say you like scifi to gain friendship points w him like cmon man#i will say though that. my bestie's baby daddy being named shane kinda does make it hard to like him 😭 unfortunate but not his fault#ik a lot of ppl are weird abt his recovery and his messy ass room bc they play stardew to make things look pretty or whatever#but i'm actually kind of glad he's a realistic depiction of addiction... the problem is his dependence on indulging in alcohol when he's#depressed not the fact that he drinks period... i think that a lot of ppl are unrealistic abt alcoholism (including me abt my dad's)#but concernedape did really good w him imo. anyways all this to say that i'm really glad shane never expects someone to be a certain way#i know most of the candidates are like. archetypes or whatever and i think that's fine they are very sweet and cute regardless but#i think maybe i didnt romance him before bc i related to him so badly that it hurt seeing myself reflected LMAO dead end life and being#suicidal about it like. i've never had a drug dependence but i'm not really in a position where i can ever make my own decisions anyways#but regardless. there is smth to someone who slowly warms up to you when they can't ignore your kindness any longer and have no reason to#act like an abused dog anymore which. does make me sad just to say but that is how he acts beforehand#idkkkkk idk i think people are always too caught up with his addiction and his messy room to actually see him without realizing that#getting better is a lot harder than it appears and that having a dirty room doesn't mean you aren't trying to be better. sigh#besides it's not like. the end of the world that he has a beer sometimes. have you tried going thru life completely sober? it sucks#ok im done LMAO but yeah i've found myself gravitating towards him this time around when i've romanced sebastian literally every playthru#til now. hmm!#ACTUALLY ONE MORE THING. i like how he's basically a twist on the classic useless husband trope in media where they love sports and drinking#but he's not a bad person and the only reason he's mean to you at first is because he hates himself and his own life and he makes an effort#the more you get close to him instead of the opposite. i like that a lot. ok now i'm done
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T4T Ben/Polly save me
#okay. I know why t4t Steven/Sara is addicting. because like Sara’s character arc can be blatantly interpreted as transgender#& Steven is. I’m. thinking about him#but with Ben/Polly it’s sooooo god I can’t even put it into words properly. half of it is projecting lol and half of it is just using—#—what we’ve been given#finding each other by chance and changing es c other and growing with one another#needing each other because of the irreparable impact they’ve had on one another to the point of like. indistinguishable selves#but also needing to break free of one another???#IDK their ease of bonding feels so.. like .. I see you/you see me & we do need each other as rocks in this river#but we can still hurt each other???#aughhh being like baby trans & finding a community that is there for you but when you are so so impressionable it’s just like. yes. like.#does this make sense#I’m#hhhhhhhh#I should focus on Steven/Sara cuz they easier to interpret like this#but putting Ben/Polly in some queer frame is always interesting because of how they merge worlds & how that isolated them from ‘their’ world#I just feel like. it hits harder. with gender. Bc I’m projecting & this is the transgender website so y’all will have my back but#grounding themselves and creating these identities that reflect off one another and like can you even have individuality without the—#—existence of the mass. or something. BLAH.#Ben/Polly#Ben Jackson#Polly wright#Steven/Sara#I guess#doomed/haunted#<- haha#Steven Taylor#Sara kingdom
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Okay I love hazbin hotel, I really do. I love the characters, I love the song. But I’m willing to admit that it have flaws and one of it being the pacing.
And ngl I think I found out why and it’s because numerous reason
Production. When Hazbin got confirmed for season 1 for all we could know the team only know that they get 8 episodes and that’s it. They don’t know about season 2 yet so either they got confirmed for season 2 when season 1 already out into work to the point there no fixing the script, or season 1 is don’t in production stage going to post when season 2 is confirmed. Giving benefit of the doubt there’s a certain panic to explain everything to the fandom so it’s just plot point after plot point being stuffed in one season without time to breathe.
Episode. This involved with the previous reason because if you happen to live under a rock, for some reason there seem to be a trend in shorten episodes seasons. It went from 26-25 to 12-15 and now less than 10. There’s not enough time to develop a character to the fullest. It seem rush because with the pressure from fandom and the uncertainty of confirmed seasons.
Lastly, it written like a musical but have TV show concepts. I feel like this is most confusing and might just be me so lemme explain. Hazbin hotel from ep 1 to 6 feel like a one whole musical where they kinda have to rush it a little? Cause musicals usually have 2 Maybe 3 hours and 40-50% of it are songs so you have to rush throughout the dialogue a little bit and let songs expressed the characters the most. I feel like this is what the show been doing, it rush through the dialogue and development to throw all the emotions we supposed to feel in songs and don’t get me wrong if it have one theme, one major problem like a musical it would work. However, Hazbin have all these problems, heaven forces, Lilith and Alastor sudden disappearance, the Vees, Angel’s arc, Charlie’s arc etc etc it all isn’t a minor problems like “oh these kids wanna be respected and accepted as they are” in School of rock or “this demigod lost his mojo” like in Moana. These problems are all main problem worthy and most of the time tv series have time to deal with this. Maybe one season address one of those problems, maybe one season have 2 main problems for first and later half. And so when you have musical writing with mostly songs where you need to have concise story but instead have tv series concept with multiple arcs what you get is a story that feel rush
This have been my tedtalk
#like as much as you love this show you have to admit#Charlie and Vaggie relationship could be more developed because they feel like they already who they want to be when they’re together#they’re not Tbf but it feel like it without episode focus on said characters#Emily and Charlie friendship should’ve been explored so the betrayal of Sarah can hit harder now that we know Emily more#we could’ve slowed down and explored the hotel premises more#we could go all around with character centric episodes that lay down the ground work for further development#for example the fact that Vaggie hate herself or Husk and Angel dynamic outside of Loser baby#do I still enjoy this show unapologetically?#yes absolutely I’m just willing to acknowledge the flaws in it too#also side note#do not compare Hazbin Hotel with Helluva Boss#imo I feel like it unfair to compare a self own self produced production with a production that is managed by a big corporation#hazbin hotel#devilg04#hazbin hotel criticism
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successfully gave cat her antibiotic 👍
#only have to do this seven more times.#i have to do this like every six months#if you have a cat that easily takes medications i hate you so much#and they always make her lose her appetite after a couple of days which makes it SO much harder to get her to take it#they give it to us in a liquid form now which is better than the tablets but it has a really strong smell#and if she smells it she won't take it#which is fine for the first day or two because her nose is stuffed so she can't smell but once they start working she can smell a lot bette#i have to put a couple of drops on a spoon and squeeze one of those cat frubes on top. and then do that like five times in a row.#stresses me out so much#because i love her so much like that's literally my baby forever.#and i hate when she's suffering but i can't explain to her that this will make her feel better#thanks for reading my essay on fiving my cat antibiotics. I'm not mentally well.
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why am i having to hold a gun to googles head to show me articles on the long term effects of hormonal birth control on the endocrine system in adult patients who began usage as a teenager
#barks#i just wanna know if having a hormonal iud as a teenager fucked with my shit or not#causeeeeee i switched to copper a few years ago and everything was gucci in the coochie until a bad summer hit#lo and behold i call the gyno and she puts me on nuvaring because my symptoms were a sign of hormonal imbalance#meaning i got my ass fucked up from the first iud. right?#fuck if i know i wish they didnt make it my responsibility and then not actually give a shit as to what really happens#the absolute hell you can go through both on and off of birth control is out fucking rageous#'cool my cramps arent as bad but im a raging bitch i want to rob a bank and i want to kill everyone and then myself'#can you please for more than five fucking seconds think about the actual effects these things have on us that arent 'harder to get pregnant#also never listen to anyone that tells you you cant get your tubes tied and still be able to have children down the line#they always wanna bitch and moan about it but its literally reversible just like a vasectomy. not as easy but still possible!#do we get mad at and blame the kitchen counter when a baby smacks their head against it? no. the baby is at fault#tell me why something i have no control over is the reason i have to bear the cross#instead of the dipshit baby that cause the issue in the first place being at fault?????????????????????#im going to burn this world down i swear to god i hate it more every day#the beauty is evident but the horrors persist#hi if you read all of this
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I was pretty proud of myself for getting through this day so well (first time one of our cats had to have surgery), BUT it's 4am and it's really hitting me now 🙃
#feel like I would be sobbing if my anxiety meds didn't make that.. not harder exactly just. less likely#and I also remembered that I did take lorazepam before going to bed last night specifically because I knew I'd be a mess otherwise...#but yeaaah I just wanna cry now#it's been so hard. the cat is fine. but he's got 20 fewer teeth now and it feels bad#he's in pain and he's grumpy because he doesn't understand why we did that to him and also his brother wouldn't stop hissing at him all day#because he smells wrong and that's been stupidly hard on me#like. those are my babies. they can't be mad at each other??? it scares me. it's not the way it is. it's wrong and I don't like it#also... if I'm being honest I was also quite unsettled by how different he smells so I can understand that. I don't like it but I get it#that's still your brother though you big dumb guy 😭 be nice to him he has barely any teeth left 😭😭😭#I don't liiiike this#I hope they'll get along better again tomorrow bc seriously I can't take this. it's breaking my heart#well I wasn't a mess today but now I definitely am#AND I've got a fucking doctors appointment tomorrow 😭 so I can't even stay on the couch mindlessly watching YouTube all day#life is too hard and I am a big baby and I can't handle it#personal
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I need to clean my room now. It is dire.
#im so embarrassed it looks like shit over here#i cleaned the kitchen bc my ex was picking up stuff but i KNOW she saw my room#what a fucking shitshow#that box of her things is gone now all ive got left is a handful of rose petals and a second hand coffee maker#and a flannel#all that for a quick 2 monthish relationship#i deeply regret rushing into things but I have poor judgement so.#heres to ruining everything good thats ever happened to me via my own choices 🍻 free will baby#I'm so mad right now even though i shouldn't be#the text thing really got to me idk if things can be ok#like yeah turns out when you hear all your fears verbalized insultingly by another person instead of just in your brain it hits harder??#Just felt like a line was being crossed#anyway#when you spill your guts to another person i guess you gotta expect to have shit flung back at you in the worst possible moment#I suck at keeping my mouth shut that's what happens when you stop journaling#you want to actually confide in others#And don't think I don't know that thats what im doing now#online!!#im unbelievably tired of it all#i wasn't built for this kind of life#ive got no friends. my job doesn’t pay me enough to live. ive got no will to feed myself. etc etc etc#worst of all i have to live with myself#because God knows i can't do anything about it#vile-wizard.txt
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