#because i dont want it around anymore. and can think of things in an equivalent price range i want more. but selling shit is so hard

[llatimeria]

i wish earning money was as easy in real life as it is in video games. like "bank account's kinda low. guess i'll sell the kitchen table"

[whisp3roftheheart]

Sometimes I hate that my friend group is so close knit because whenever I'm having issues with one person there is never any real escape from them. At least no meaningful one because no matter what things will always circle back to them and I'll be forced to interact.

[instantpansies]

Haiii againn :3

Uhmmmm

I was wondering what your general mml hcs are :p

okay i think i'm finally prepared to answer this question!!! i'll preface this by saying i'm much more obsessed w phineas and ferb than milo murphy's law. i love mml very much but i don't have nearly as many Thoughts(tm) about it as i do pnf... even so here's what i've got

i'm not just saying this bc he's the voice actor, i think milo would listen to weird al. that and like '90s-'00s pop hits (basically canon anyway)

melissa has adhd and can't function without variety. she's always multitasking, fiddling, taking hard classes to keep herself occupied

definitely she's the type to really want one of those treadmill desks

that's part of why she gets along so well with milo, it's never the same with him. he's exciting

melissa is the most online of the main kids i think. she probably plays fps games and argues with people who disagree with her on twitter

i think melissa would be a vocaloid fan, lydia got her into it and she passed it on to amanda

btw lydia has been a miku stan since third grade

also melissa likes metal. i have no proof of this but i think she'd like it. good for studying

zack cannot stand metal though, it's grating and he can't hear the lyrics

on the topic of the main kids, i'm not super into shipping or anything but my philosophy is, they all have two hands. so casually speaking i really like the dynamic of simultaneous milo/amanda, amanda/melissa, melissa/zack (i'm not wild about them but if we don't go overboard zalissa is fine), zack/bradley, bradley/milo. they are in a circle holding hands and i like them a lot :3

however like i said that's just for funsies and i dont really really ship anyone there. i do like the dynamics of that particular arrangement though lol!

sara was a tumblr user during the equivalent of superwholock, now that that's not really a thing anymore she's gotten more into analysis and the more geeky side of dr zone fandom. she still watches the old edits though

okayyy i'm kind of obsessed w cavendish and dakota so they r always spinning around in my brain

i think brick and savannah are newer agents than dakavendish, which is why cav is kinda bitter. despite working for the agency for longer, he got stuck with the worst equipment and the most unfulfilling job possible

cav is probably a little frustrated at dakota because of this, but i'd think after so long working w him he's realized that it's not dakota's fault they can't seem to climb the ladder. they're just like that. but obviously he hasn't accepted his fate as we see in the show

dakavendish have been in the same semi-romantic semi-platonic situationship forever. neither of them has said a word. if they knew what a qpr was they'd really like that but they've never heard of it so instead they're just stuck Like That. hopeless idiots my beloved

cavendish watches ancient aliens and all those other sorts of shows about supernatural conspiracies. he half believes them. dakota watches them with him, ironically.

anyways back to the kids. lydia and buford met once at a concert for some famous orchestra, they don't really hang out but they email back and forth sometimes and exchange recipes.

lydia and amanda have been best friends for as long as anyone can remember. it sometimes seems like lydia is just amanda's sidekick, but she just prefers to step out of the way and do her part from behind the scenes. it's less stressful for both of them.

amanda hates candles. just can't stand them. they smell too strong, or never smell right, or they pose a fire hazard, or the shape doesn't fit the vibe she's going for.

related to that i think amanda has some pretty strong sensory aversions, especially to smells and certain textures

milo's backpack is essentially a pocket dimension. it's his hammerspace, so he doesn't need to think too much about what fits or not. he packs it every morning, but the stuff basically comes from already in that hammerspace. there are times when he packs the wrong things (which we see in one episode), but that's because they aren't stored in the backpack and are instead inaccessible to him

basically im saying milo is mary poppins and he can hypothetically access anything he needs at any time. issues only arise when he is caught unaware and unprepared, and that is very rare

milo and sara really like going to creeks. especially when they were little they would go to the nearest creek or pond and wade and look for creatures in the water

baljeet ran a boy bands fan blog back when the lumberzacks were active. he was shouted out once on their old social media and it's still one of his proudest accomplishments.

this isn't really an mml hc but baljeet kind of reminds me of a friend who runs a blog and a youtube channel about some really niche tech and programming stuff, and is also just a normal guy on the internet, so i think baljeet probably does smth similar

amanda and melissa have been academic rivals for a long time, but they have a mutual understanding and it's never gotten nasty. bradley thinks he's melissa's academic rival but honestly she doesn't see him as competition at all

bradley has a pretty big sweet tooth. i'm basing this off the whole carla thing if it wasn't obvious, but he definitely stops by coffee shops after school and gets the sweetest drink he can. ice cream fan as well

tbh i unfortunately do not think much about mort or chad. i dont have any hcs about them

same with the murphy parents :( i like them a lot but i dont have any thoughts abt them rn

elliot is bradley's older cousin who never really got along with him but their parents made them hang out when they were little. i'm going off vibes only here

okay so yeah that's all i can think of for now!!! i'm sure i will think of more later lmao but anyways. mml is such a good show

[original-character-championship]

Bracket D Round 1

Poll 26

Amanēas (@kohkum) vs. Westley "Wes" Weston (@daddyplasmius)

243. Amanēas (@kohkum)

She/Her but also culturally it doesn't really matter to her. But also autistically if you switch it up too often she'll kill herself

Shes preoccupied with ideas about becoming god so this win would bring her one step closer to that. Think about it. A vote for her would be a vote for feminism or orcs or something. She beat the shit out of the equivalent of a 12 year old to prove a point about the whole god thing but the 12 year old bit off two of her fingers and mangled a third with a rock. They're on good terms now though so its ok. But look at that dedication. Who wouldn't want to vote for that. She also killed maybe a billion people along the way to prove the point as well but thats Ok. She had a really cool giant sword while doing it and also she doesn't do that stuff anymore shes reformed. Shes so ok. Vote for her. Cmon. Shes not going to ask you shes too autistic to speak frequently. But I'm not (lying) so I'm asking you. I'm being so nice right now. Cmon. Make her god. Pretty please? Shes tits out all the time its pretty cool. If she wins this I'll stop making her heterosexual I'll make her a lesbian instead. So vote for her. I think I've lost the plot here. Vote for Amanēas 2023!

shes hairless due to regular shaving because otherwise she pulls all of her hair out. shes got seal eyes. and her nose doesnt have like much going on its just two nostrils that can seal close when needed. shes got a scar on her scalp thats formed a depression. and multiple beaded earrings from her in-laws. and then an eyebrow piercing from her husband. bulky weight lifter build going on. her skin is a purple-grey with pink undertones. and her eyes are a dark brown. and shes got silly angry eye brows. i dont know what else to say. i could just say shes an orc but the thing is she isnt like the popular interpretation of an orc or even the original interpretation because i found those racist and wanted to see if i could write orcs that werent. but anyways she's beautiful to ME !

244. Westley "Wes" Weston (@daddyplasmius) - the entire Phandom I guess

He/Him

Wes Weston is thee OC of all time. He belongs to the entire Danny Phantom fandom as a whole & is so well known we have tricked people outside the Phandom into thinking he is canon.

Wes Weston was created in 2014 when a tumblr user noticed him in the background of a single shot. He was given the role of "one guy who knows that Danny is Phantom" as a joke, named Wes Weston, & his character quickly rose to fame with the Phandom.

Wes evolved from simply "guy who knows Danny is Phantom" to ex-popular kid on the basketball team, who was ousted for claiming the hero of Amity Park could be that loser ghost hunter's son Fenton. He took up photography in order to get proof. He could never quite get it any, though.

Eventually, he learned that his father's boss, Vlad Masters, is the same as Danny, with an evil ghost alter ego. Of course, no one believes him except for his brother Kyle, who knows that Danny is Phantom too but thinks it's cosplay because he doesn't believe in ghosts, only aliens (& weed).

By this point, anyone who's heard his spiel has started a meme that Wes must be so hellbent on proving Fenton is Phantom because Wes himself is trying to hide His identity as Phantom! They even have the same butt.

Danny gets tired of trying to hide his identity from Wes, and because no one believes him anyway, Danny just stops pretending around him, to Wes's eternal frustration.

Wes slowly comes around, learning that there is a reason Danny is hiding his identity from the greater public (threat of vivisection from both his own parents & the government). Whether they become friends & Wes joins Team Phantom or they stay relatively neutral to each other is up to the lucky person who's adopted Wes Weston as their OC!

Wes looks similar to Danny, except he has red hair, green eyes, freckles, & is a bit taller.

[real-raincode-takes]

same anon as the sterile hommunculi post here. another post-game kanai ward thing ive been thinking about is the food. while i know they found a replacement for meat buns in the ramen, they'd likely still keep up restaurants serving other things, because people would still eat for fun.

also, i'd like to think makoto started working with the real yuma kokohead to produce more foods that have the right nutrients for homunculi, branching out from just ramen. that's one of those foods you have to sit down for, so surely some people would want something that's as quick and easy to consume as meat buns. speaking of, they have instant noodle packs. are the human-equivalent nutrients in both the broth and the noodles, or could one potentially just sprinkle the flavor packet into something else and get what they need? if it can be a powder, could they make a pill supplement for homunculi who'd rather not eat? there's a lot of different needs and wants to consider here.

also, i imagine there'd be a stigma around serving foods with processed/ground meat. things like dumplings, sausages, and, of course, meat buns. there's just not much trust in them anymore, so if people want meat at all, they'd probably want stuff they can easily identify, like bone-in chicken wings or t-bone steaks and such. there'd also probably be a pretty heavy rise in vegetarians too.

on the flip side, there has to be a small population of hommunculi who miss the meat buns, right? maybe they prefer the texture, or the aforementioned convenience. or maybe they just dont mind the cannibalism as much as others. i feel like, from this, there might even arise an underground market for human meat, especially now that kanai ward has opened up to the outside world. this would likely feed into the inevitable persecution and fear from humans that all homunculi would face, but that is a whole other can of worms to talk about some other time

.

[uummyuu]

Hello Myu!!!

Can I request a riano headcanon from a supa strikas?

Because there is very little content related to it on this platform.

Bye <3

riano headcanons

GODD U DONT KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM TO WRITE THIS LIKE LITERALLY IM VIBRATING I LOVE BARKA SO MUCH SILLY LITTLE PURPLE MEN CKSMDMKSMSMSM—

honestly i bet he's kinda the guy who the media would portray as a big flirt/playboy superstar but deep down is a hopeless romantic and genuinely cares about making deep connections with other people. but this desire for emotional connection is what also makes him an inherent people-pleaser, he has to give the people what they want or else they won't want to be around him anymore!

this was his genuine thought process when his mentor relationship with golare started going a bit abusive. his team literally had to tell him that the way golare was forcing his body wasn't good for him and help riano gain the backbone to fire him. (he missed their friendship deeply throughout that time, golare was like a father figure to him)

once golare had been reinstated as barka's coach however, it was all water under the bridge for riano. he was genuinely happy to have his friend back, and to see goldie (the fish he bought golare) doing so well. seeing goldie being well taken care of reassured riano that the friendship he had with golare wasn't one-sided.

anyways barka fc are like his brothers, they all look out for each other in a way (i.e. riano offering free rides/being the designated driver at club outings). but they care for him in return, serving as a support system so that he doesn't crumble under the constant media attention.

should i mention that i don't really see riano as an alcohol drinker? he goes to the clubs purely for the vibes and to enjoy a night out with his teammates. (hah gay)

loves fun drinks though, give that man some sort of cool mocktail and he'll be all over it taking cool aesthetic pictures for his instagram, or whatever the instagram equivalent is in supa strikas.

speaking of his instagram, he loves posting about literally anything that piques his interest, yeah he does some usual behind the scenes posts during practice or after winning a game and whatnot, but he also likes bringing his fans along to see some of his other interests like the weekly latin dance classes he's been taking up. or he'll see a cool bird and post it to his story real quick i dunno—

random thought but this man could rock a pair of stilettos no problem.

source: the one time riano actually managed to get blackout drunk he pulled a whole choreographed drag routine out of his ass, including the black 10 inch high stilettos of course. they have a video of it but they don't dare post it online, it's a team inside joke only >:((

golare has seen the video though and compliments riano on being a good dancer, and riano rues the fact that he was so drunk he forgot the literal routine, he wants to do it again ://.

anyways i'd like to think that riano is a very honorable woman respecter, when girls flirt with him he only discourages it when it goes a little too far (words are one thing, touching him is another). but his type is definitely someone more down-to-earth.

man, woman, whatever else it doesn't matter to him. once a person catches his eye he'll do his best to get closer, he likes to be friends first before progressing into anything romantic. wants to get to know them and let them know him typa thing, no need to rush.

once he does get to that stage though he becomes a hoe for hand holding, or when his partner wraps their arm around his. vice versa as well the man loves his physical affection. wants to reassure his partner that no matter how the media portrays him he will remain loyal no matter what.

deep down i'd like to think he dates with marriage/the future in mind but he won't force it if he does end up reaching a romantic stage with his partner.

[fourtyfourcatss]

୨⎯ "for @toyafreethoughts" ⎯୧

PART 1

[a/n] so in order to make things less clotted, i’m going to be posting in two parts! this has 5 of your matchups, while the other one coming in a few days will have the rest so you dont have to wait so long! (even though you said you can wait, snack on these for a bit!)

BSD ✯ MUSHITARO OGURI !

✯ oh my god the two of you are absolutely horrific to the people around you. x times x is equivalent to x^2 and that applies to your messy chaos together. mushitaro is the silliest man out there while keeping a straight face (always). the relationship is going to be that kind where its so chaotic (mostly because of him) but like, you dont feel that its chaotic. something major would be happening and with his dramatics, you’re kind of not surprised of anything anymore lol. hes a bonafide theatre kid in his soul, jax. he’s definitely going to (fake) faint into your arms or whisper something exceedingly obvious to you aloud whilst he is on another tangent. “hold me jax!” — gets very needy sometimes and he’s not afraid to show it

✯ “youre a genius, jax!” he says as you chime in with your thoughts. he thinks your words are deeply thought provoking sometimes, and might spend a few seconds thinking of a response before responding

✯ at first he’s like, half half being able to read whether or not your words are genuine or sarcastic or whatnot. but he loves reading! he won’t give up on trying to differentiate and understanding the connotations and meanings behind your words, not until he can properly understand what you are trying to express! this creates a lot of tension at first, since he thinks you were subtly poking at him, however, as your bond deepens, he starts to truly understand you as a person. and he wants to see you for you.

✯ he thinks you are very refined in your way of thinking and your actions of consideration. he gets you with the anger — he himself does not have a good temperament when things do not go to plan, but, it is not so bad of a thing. the two of you can work on it together, thats what lovers are for, taking and learning the good parts from your lover and reflecting on oneself. at times like these, he needs to ground himself, holding your hand tightly, fingers intertwined. you’re here with me, right?

✯ he admires you often times. the littlest actions of yours build up so strongly inside his heart, the way you would share your baked goods with your friends and acquaintances, the relationship you have with your family and your culture and dancing. its wonderful, absolutely engaging to his allured mind. while i do not see his extremely active participation, i see his gaze on you. unbearably soft in contrast to his brash outbursts.

✯ he has a very thick face, and doesnt get embarrassed easily. it takes a lot, a lot more than anything you will do to make him embarrassed - especially as a lover and a friend and a person in general. why should he? you’re a kind soul inside; he always knows he can trust that.

✯ sometimes there will be moments of dramatic mood shifts — suddenly the atmosphere’s turning sweet and somber around the two of you. sweet winds from the patio combing through your hair, watching you draw.

JJK ✯ TOJI FUSHIGURO !

✯ toji is… very adamant in accepting your help. this is a very curious development and a first to occur. he’s very taken aback by your emotional maturity during harsh times and your vibrancy after breaking out the shy outer shell! it exposes him to another light of you that he becomes enamored with from the beginning, and deeper down the rabbit hole as time passes. falling out of love? not a thing around here partner. and your upright countenance, always standing for your values and your loves, and it just squeezes his heart - because he knows and he doesnt know how that feels. in the zenin clan, there’s always an oppressing hand, a choking grasp, and he couldnt fight back until later onwards - yet all the same, he would forget his ways from time to time. you are like the moon reflecting the sun’s light, the closest celestial body to earth, reining him in like waves, a constant he realizes after being with you has made him hope again. you won’t leave, he knows you will not.

✯ you always somehow brighten up his day immensely with your actions and remarks, big and small. and by immensely, i mean you pull this man out of depression with your realism, yet unending strive to look forward. seeing you pack lunches for megumi and tsumiki, your compassion for other human beings. you’re an amazing catalyst and source of motivation for him to better himself.

✯ you know how some guys want to show off to the people they like? he does this whenever he can. toji is the type of man who knows hes attractive to others, but does not particularly think he is attractive to himself. he has neutral feelings about it. but, he enjoys caging you in his presence. your energy makes him want to stay close to you, and thats what he does. he really, really likes your hugs, i dont know why i think so but i feel like he would just love hugging you as you draw or read or game. a sleepy toji on your shoulder. but he knows you feel very uncomfortable with hugs — so arm links while holding hands is enough! if you can, use him as your muse for drawing! or perhaps a model. he would feel very flattered either way. you surprise him a lot with the combination of actions and things you say, and seeing his widened eyes is a common sight! he loves your lap too.

✯ not only that, he’s definitely the type to pull you in by the belt loops for a kiss! you get surprised in the summer with your favorite soft drinks being suddenly placed on your nape, and you look back to see him, lightly smiling and handing you what little things he may get you. toji is a very frugal man, so except for anniversaries, gifts are very simple but effective! power couple fr

DR1 ✯ MONDO OWADA!

✯ absolutely NOBODY expected the two of you to get together - not even the two of you yourselves. it’s been some time since ive played DR1, so excuse me for any mayhaps!

✯ a surmountable part of mondo’s character is that he is a man of honor, someone who is blazing inside with passion that is tilted so easily off the scale, someone who can reach out to you first and get you comfortable. you balance him out devastatingly well, keeping his unique traits and outstanding qualities, and toning down his temperament. your relationship with him is so gentle, he tries so hard to be tender with you. that’s because of your own characteristics, he feels deeply and connects with your own set of values. i can tell you are a sensible person who loves the people around you, and with what you’ve said about gratitude, mondo falls for you because of that first, and then everything next. you make him feel hyped up for things, and you make him see reason when he gets too heated under the collar. you make him feel like himself. you genuinely better him with your compassion - humbling him internally and helping him overcome his weakness. the two of you are so cute when you first meet! both of you are shy in your own ways, which is outputted on different ways too.

✯ he’s amazing at all sports, and definitely shows off while hes on the field. mans probably pointing and saying “this is for jax!” to the audiences. silly man has silly wants and needs.

✯ what he loves receiving from you is your words and your thoughts. your moods of deep contemplation fascinates him greatly, and he listens to everything you have to say like the apostle of a deity. many times i see him asking you for some advice and comfort, since he trusts your judgement.

✯ you have a free biker gang completely protecting you now. absolutely safe from everything in that territory, they treat you like a prince! and he treats you like a king. he definitely likes doing the princess carry on you, and riding his bike through the city with you at his back. the latter will definitely take some time to build up to due to the trauma he has received - he doesnt want to lose another person to a traffic accident - no. but, slowly, he learns to trust himself again, and drives very safe!

✯ the two of you share airbuds to listen to whatever you want! he has an adoration to you enough that he can tolerate almost anything - play thought vocaloid songs and those k/j-pop songs! he’ll find enjoyment with you, and thus enjoyment in that too. happiness is associated with you, growth is associated with you. he thinks he can go anywhere as long as he has you near him.

GORO AKECHI ✯ P5 !

✯ bro really thought romance couldnt catch up to him, but he is dead wrong. you are here and ready to steal his cold little heart.

✯ the two of you have a little sort of one-upping rivalry at first. it was never that serious with you, but he made it serious, he took it as a challenge and then the other phantom thieves fanned it, and it escalated. cue rivals to lovers! now that im thinking about it, you have a very particular taste in men, mostly the ones who people would usually keep away from association in real life if they were here.

✯ you are a miracle worker opening him up to his vulnerabilities. he absolutely loathes you for that, and he loathes how hardworking you are or how you smile or — everything he likes about you he also hates — but he cannot escape that little part of him that absolutely loves being seen and acknowledged. your independence is something he understands well, but in your case it seems to be natural, not nurtured like him, who was forced to be independent and never having a shoulder to lean on. he hides his exterior with this shell, but he’s so gooey and soft like an amazing chocolate chip cookie on the inside.

✯ he definitely is intrigued by you. he has to remark your music taste is not bad, however he will always prefer jazz. your inclination towards instruments though? that he is most interested in. what instruments do you play? may he come over sometime to hear your playing? your dancing too - dont be surprised when you spot a tuff of light brown hair if you perform, be it for any type of events. he’s a detective! he says in order to deter saejima’s teasing, he is a curious soul, just like you. thats why, he wants to know everything, and understand everything. it’s impossible to understand everything about a human being though, and there are many traits he must dash before he can truly enter a healthy relationship with you. you have time, but it is ticking closer and closer to the days where the consequences of his actions will catch up to him. nobody can ever take back what they have already done — but he trusts in your heart, and knows you will be waiting for him. do not worry though, it will not be a long wait.

✯ he spoils you rotten (those extra checks finally comes to show it’s face) and when you start piling little pieces your things into his apartment, he starts to really roll under this thing called love. forgetting your sweater or perhaps an earring or accessory when you visit, and he gets hit with a pang of his heart whenever he smells the scent you use for your laundry or the shampoo when he gets close to you.

✯ as a thief, he’s also very good with his hands. he partakes in your hobbies with you actively, especially pottery and puppetry. someone will make some mini puppets of you and him, and he would blush when he puts the lips of the puppets together lol. he’s cute and weird in love. he’s always looking and observing and etching your movements into his eyelids, boisterous but not sharp words. like sitting in a quiet cafe together, just the two of you.

KNY ✯ ENMU!

✯ for this one i the one caught off guard. enmu? it really secured down to me what type you have when it comes to men. here’s the thing: i have no confidence writing enmu whatsoever, but i’ll try my best anyways and see how it works!

✯ enmu is a very indulgent lover. for a demon who eats humans, he sure knows how to treat his human lover well - like many other human demon romances, it starts because of his curiosity in the human race with their behaviors and emotions. i think with you, he started with the intention of having you as a lover after meeting you mistakingly while on a quiet night out.

✯ he particularly enjoys the traits you have that he does not — the idiosyncrasies between the two of you often endearing him. he is a horrible person inside and out with his tendencies and his characteristics, to not sugarcoat, but all the same, enmu can definitely appreciate what is in front of him. you. he definitely enjoys getting a rise out of you to hear the way your voice sounds, and watching some of your reluctance but still indulging attitude has him smiling! won’t you kiss him goodnight too?

✯ absolutely adores your hobbies. music, dancing, filmmaking, creative arts. whenever you do such things, he snaps out of whatever reverie he had, your grounding presence keeping him inside reality. do you sing too? he reckons you have an amazing voice that’s begging to be heard — either you yourself does not know, or think otherwise. he’s a very clingy lover, so once he takes your hands, he won’t let go until you have to >_< lots and lots of pecks everywhere. he loves dotting your face with little kisses and watching you shut your eyes. he could kill you after this project, but, he’s thinking for this, he can make an exception

✯ ah but he’s definitely taken a more keener interest on the mandela catalog and the scp foundation. sweep him away with your knowledge! no matter how far the horror deepens, he’s always had an amazing tolerance for the grotesque and the arbitrary.

[wodscallop]

Incoming rant/infodump about my time playing Dragon's Dogma 2:

(no this doesn't include any spoilers or have anything to do with the online store/microtransactions)

So like, I'm about 60 hours in and I haven't really progressed the main quest to a notable degree (I followed it to Vernworth but held off on meeting with the captain. For reference, this is the equivalent of Luke Skywalker hanging out at Mos Eisley for 8 months before meeting up with Han and Chewie).

That sounds really bad, but honestly the core gameplay loop of Leave Town, Explore, Fight + Loot, Return to Town is really intrinsically satisfying to me, and I've had a fantastic time just exploring and side questing and levelling up my character and vocations.

I've found a secret underground library, fought giant monsters, impressed a thieves guild, uncovered a religious conspiracy, saved the equivalent of an elven princess, and even bought a house*!

In fact, running out of sidequests (or at least, sidequests that I can actually complete with my current level of progress in the main quest) is the reason I'm returning to the main quest at all 🤣 I'm having a great time in the world of Definitely Not Gransys and I dont think I'm gonna be putting this down anytime soon.

And like... It's really interesting comparing my experience with DD2 to my experience with DD:DA. Dark Arisen is definitely a 2013 Game™️ and is an overall rougher package than DD2 (which, duh). I picked it up ~2014 but didn't really start playing it until it came out on Steam in 2016. By that point, the community had mapped out pretty much everything about the game and I fell into the trap of feeling like I had to make An Perfect Character (Fighter up to level 10 then assassin until level cap. I know, my taste is trash). I enjoyed it on an experiential level (it felt like a jankier breath of the wild before breath of the wild was out (or possibly even announced, but I'm less sure about that)), but didn't really progress the main quest after making the vocation switch and never got as much into the game as I wanted (or, more accurately, as much as I wanted to want)

This approach really fucked up my DD1 experience. I wasn't exploring the world organically and letting myself inhabit it, just trying to keep my level low while I made a mad dash to Gran Soren. I wasn't playing, I was minmaxing. Once I switched over to assassin I didn't really have a drive or a goal anymore and wound up just fucking around. I didn't even get to dive deeply into the combat/vocations because I felt like I HAD to stick with assassin or I'd be underpowered (which is laughable in hindsight 😅 In the words of Infinite Cringe: every vocation is overpowered)

Add onto that the fact that I read ahead about all the lore and twists and the game was... Not ruined, but definitely greatly diminished. Some of the really fun things about Dragons Dogma (1 or 2) are how reactive it feels and how it can surprise you, and playing like a minmaxer for my first real playthrough didn't let that happen. I still had a great time with the game, but I didn't get OBSESSED like I am with DD2.

I guess that's the best piece of advice I can give for anyone trying to get into either Dragon's Dogma game. Go in as blind as possible and just let yourself inhabit the game. Let yourself fuck up, let yourself explore, save frequently, and for the LOVE OF FUCK DON'T HIT RELOAD FROM LAST INN SAVE!!!

*is it hypocritical to think private property isn't theft if the world isn't real? Asking for a friend 🤣

[krs724490]

1.5.2024

so much grace to the girl who wants alani so that she can feel optimistic. so she can feel brighter, happier.

so much grace to the girl who is coming off of sickness. when she needed to be in survival mode and there was no space to reach for the stars.

grace to the girl who loves a boy. and craves approval from him.

grace to the girl who wants to be seen, all parts of her.

grace to the girl who doesn't know how to show herself to the world. is unsure of how to speak in her authentic voice. who has yet to stand confidently in her uniqueness.

grace to the girl who does not know how she is doing. when rayna texts her asking, she can't tell if she's amazing or on the brink of collapse because it feels like both. and she's unsure why the emotion is so extreme.

grace to the girl who sits in an old story that is high ride. love to her for finding a more meaningful path. love to her for still trying her best to show up.

grace to the girl who hasn't moved fully and healthily, consistently in weeks.

grace to the girl who is trying so damn hard. too damn hard. to sort it all out and move forward, only to realize all the trying is equivalent to running on a hamster wheel that goes nowhere.

grace to the girl who wants it so badly, but hasn't tasted it consistently yet.

grace to the girl who isn't content with her body right now. I understand that sometimes it feels like a big ask to love a body that you mistreated. but I invite you to recognize that there is not a single thing that has happened that hasn't brought you closer to god.

grace to the girl who feels like she's on a psychotic break. who feels like her actions are erratic and emotional, possibly misunderstood to the average observer. finally I understand being bipolar or having a mood disorder. it all bubbles up and its hard to say where from.

grace to the girl who sits in the middle of so many transitions but has nothing concrete to take action on yet.

grace to the girl who wants to drink the elixir of life so badly. to bathe in its depths with reckless abandon, so much so that she makes rash decisions, speaks too soon, acts too soon. gets so excited that she makes herself sick. dont you see that its all energy? all positive, intense, beautiful energy coursing through you? it is not to be controlled, it is not to be tamed. let it move you. let it move through you. let it make you honest, open, bold. you can't afford not to be anymore.

I know you're scared, scared that you'll scare him off. with a bigger personality, with more confidence. I think I see a new shadow side emerging of saying heavy things casually, without thinking about how much they may impact others. I dont know where it came from, my tendency to share the depths of myself. I think its because I know that vulnerability builds bridges but I also know there is a difference between being vulnerable in order to get people to like you vs being vulnerable from a place of true sharing. I'm sad to admit I think most if not all of my times of vulnerability have come from the place of trying to create sympathy or connection. Maybe I sent the essay too soon, and didn't give enough of a trigger warning.

I suppose I'm an external processor, I need to bounce everything off of others all the time. Im exhausting my damn self. and poor graham gets to catch all of my neurotic tendencies. This weekend my prayer is to be slow to speak and eager to listen.

suddenly I'm so tired. I wish we had a big blanket at this studio. so I could put myself down.

I had hoped to finish my 2024 intention setting, but I worry I'm still not in a clear headed place to give it what it deserves. I can't wrap my head around all thats happened but I do think it would be helpful to say it in a voice note to rayna.

[angrilymanaging]

I was scrolling F.B earlier, and came across a video of “The Game” and the caption was something along the lines of protecting your energy. Naturally I didn’t watch it because I’m a person that protects my energy, but it got me thinking like, didn’t you just make a woman, drink coffee from a discarded Starbucks cup you dug out of the garbage last year? Not even for money, some kind of high end hand bag, and you, on here talkin love and light, Jacion please shut up.

I was just having a conversation with my S.O. About what would be done winning millions of dollars in a lottery, I believe it sparked because I hands down am starting to believe that celebrities really are trash. Like in my personal opinion, and crazy as people want me to sound, I have reason to believe these people have takin personal shots at me, and I don’t really appreciate it. I have never even met you. For one most of them are people I admired like I have their music on my phone type sh’t and I sing their songs word for word. I don’t know though and I listen to music like when I cook and clean but I’m starting to not really be that big on it, I don’t listen to the radio EVER, and most of these artists are really winning awards because there is no one else to give them too. I don’t follow them anymore, like once I get a whiff of their personality, I still like the music that I have from you on my phone, but… I don’t think I would be starstruck if we were ever in the same room, I would definitely be the only person still at the fruit platter, I wouldn’t want to really meet you, or take pictures nothing, because I find you to be trash as a person. That is really sad too because, I have seen videos where people admire these celebs, and upon meeting them are treated poorly by them. Which I can see happening, because it’s happened to me. Anyway, I was saying that if we were to come into money like that right, we would be able to eat in the same restaurants as these people, probably party in the same venues as them. I would respectfully decline. I would rather build up my dream life, with everything I needed in my house so that I wouldn’t have to be bothered. I don’t drink a whole lot, I don’t smoke weed anymore, and I have never done a no no drug in my life. I could only imagine, being around elements like them would be definitely inviting the devil into my life, and no thanks in a big way. I have had my fair share of experience with popular people, and I think that is where the problem lies with me, I have no desire to eat at tables with them to rub elbows, with phonies.

There was a thing a trend a while back like would you take 10 grand from Jay-Z or eat dinner with him. I always said I would gladly take the dinner, simply because I know that it is going to be the best steak, seafood and mashed potatoes I ever ate, and the bread would be the rich peoples equivalent to a cheddar bay biscuit from Red Lobster. The Pink Moscato would be chilled to perfection, and the Vodka and Caviar would be fire. I dont really eat dessert but if they served me some chocolate pudding I’m sure it would be Jell-o, not the snack pack. I really wouldn’t have much to say, but I would speak if spoken too, aaaand I’m eating all of my food, cleaning the plates. I would never be embarrassed. I would take the dinner because really 10 Grand is not a lot of money. I could spend that in a couple days especially if I did the right thing. You would only get really one chance, especially being a person like me, with no real ties to the industry, to eat dinner with Jay. He gave birth to two Billionaires, he is the only one who could get me to go anywhere, no questions asked, and if he had any advice for me leaving the dinner, I would take it period, cause he is the only person at this point who could say anything to me lol.

My experience with popular people has not been a great one. I hear all the time that oh, he/she is cool. I love them they are so great they are the best. Those types of words come as red flags for me now. Turns out when I meet people they turn out to be a P.O.S. And the person giving them all this praise is really a know nothing brown noser. I am who I am and I am a different type of person. I gossip, and before this point in my life, I’ve only really talked about people, to the people close to me, the people close to me would be talking about someone else, and I would add my 2 cents, and then the people talking would be in conversation, with the same people they had just been talking about with me, not only, not saying what they had talked to me about, but talking about me, and telling them everything I had said. I currently am not really entertaining the idea of having friends, because of this reason. So now, when everyone else is bragging on someone else, or talking sh’t about someone, not only do I not want to be bothered, but I also have nothing to say. I don’t usually like cool kids, and they don’t like me, and that’s fine. People, especially people I know personally, like to name drop around the town, who they know, how they know them, and how great they are. But I’ve grown to understand that if they know them, like I know you, they are not all that wonderful, and if they find favor in the type of person you are, I will never be able to really get along with them. I saw a quote that said “ if someone knows they have done you wrong, they will avoid you” why does that have to be? Why can’t it be that I know what type of person you are, with hints you tried to give, or a cheap shot you tried to take, that you think I did’t hear, or one you said out loud, I know was about me, but instead of continuing on, I decided to stop f’cking with you. Just like you have an opinion about me, that is unbecoming of me, I have opinions of you that are unbecoming, and because you are a “good guy” to everyone else, you can’t stand the thought of anyone not liking you. I don’t care , about being liked anymore, I really could care less about the Idea of people liking me. You probably met the damaged, and broken side of me, while I was a people pleaser, and the healed, and regenerated version of me, wants you to kiss my ass.

It’s funny too, I’m chuckling about it now, cause you meet someone, or start hanging out with a person, and they have some kind of status and they call themselves bringing you around some “cool” people, and they are just as demonic as the m’fker you around. One thing I learned about popular people, or like locally famous, or globally famous people too, they can’t stand for you to not know who they are, they feel entitled to recognition, and they are used to people kissing their ass and when you don’t for whatever reason, something is wrong with you, and your’e a hater. In those situations, I am the problem though, because I don’t care who you are, I don’t kiss nobody ass, and I am nobody’s fan. That’s how it is when you are friends with people like that. I want no parts. I never want to be “down” again. It’s not even love and light with these folks. It’s hatred and LED strips from the dollar tree. They aren’t even really “friends” with the friends they have. They don’t even like them. I never even understood how that could be a case.

[fieldlands]

@l-cereta​ 

the gacha game is in fact totally skippable! if you’re interested in nosing around the story of it anyway though, you don’t even necessarily have to Play it: there are transcriptions https://apps.atlasacademy.io/db/NA/wars here! you’ll have to click around some to access them, but everything from the game is dumped to this site. (just make sure you’re in the NA tab instead of the JP tab, represented by the country flag on the bar at the top) This also means you’ll probably be scrolling past a lot of mechanical info that doesnt concern you in the process lol and if that bothers you you can probably find story compilations on youtube instead! (i have never tried this because i just play the game myself, so i dont have recommendations on who to check out) i really like atlas academy though its good stuff.

the number 1 high fidelity Way To Get Into fate is in fact to read fate/stay night! there’s no Official way to do this in english atm BUT type-moon has been on a consistent kick of translating their older (pre-fate) visual novels for overseas audiences so if you sit down and wait a few years fsn will probably be on your steam capable device / nintendo switch / playstation for like 60 real world american dollars. that said that’s a silly thing to recommend doing and im aware of this so HERE IS my friend lance’s post of links to read fsn in fan translated english right now! i used these links to read the VN myself so they do work!

the main difference between the original VN and the “realta nua” version is that realta nua is a remake that replaced explicit sex scenes with non-explicit (but sometimes still sexual!) equivalents. other than that essentially no changes were made to the game’s story so choose whichever based on your level of comfort! the fsn sex scenes are kind of infamous for being anywhere from Silly to Outright Bad To Read so realta nua is absolutely a valid choice to make here. if you do choose realta nua, the game’s routes will be separated out into different .exes: the intended reading order for the routes is fate route -> unlimited blade works -> heavens feel

i dont have the reading advice Memorized on most other fate entries but i do know a bit about one other: fate/extra! a remake called fate/extra record is in development and everyone’s excited about that because the story of the original fate/extra is very good but the gameplay is generally unpleasant to most. there’s also a fan translation of a different extraverse game, fate/extra ccc, which is nearing playable completion! i’ve been keeping myself unspoiled on ccc happenings in anticipation of this so i don’t actually 100% know how it relates back to extra in particular lol. and the bow on top of these two games is the anime fate/extra last encore! which is NOT a direct adaptation of extra, it’s a story that’s set in its world using its characters but tells a very different story. it’s not looked upon well by the fandom because i think a lot of people were expecting a straight up adaptation so they didn’t have to tell people to play extra anymore lol, but i personally love it to death and i think all that’s required for a satisfying watch is cursory knowledge of extra’s normal setting and circumstances/characters. if you spend a good few hours with the facts of fate extra (like via the wiki, perhaps) you will probably be ready for last encore. i did this by trying to play the original game myself (it was released officially in english for the psp, so no need to hunt down a translation, just a rom) + the passing familiarity with a lot of the game’s Servant characters i had from fgo. i did not get very far in the game though lol which is why i say cursory!

most fate anime adaptations are not too bad honestly, but even the best tend to be imperfect and leave out some of the punchier parts of the story. the only one i’ve heard described as unsalvageably bad is the one for fate/apocrypha though, so if you want to get into apocrypha i THINK the recommended solution for that one is the manga adaptation. there are a LOT of options for most fate works once you start looking so i think generally the best way to make sure you’re getting the best is to ask people whose tastes you trust instead of just going to your local search engine wild west lol.

ok apologies for asking this but what actually is fate?? i thought it was a gacha game like arknights but i just saw that one manga post... is it a manga?? why is oberon, husband of titania, there,

OH BOY

SO, essentially, fate is one company (known as type-moon)'s long-running series that has since its inception expanded into several different mediums! it started out with fate/stay night, a visual novel which was released aaaall the way back in 2004. the base universe established in the visual novel has since been expanded on through several other games, several manga series, anime adaptations, light novels, etc, And yes the gacha game!

The gacha game is called fate/grand order! fgo for short. Oberon husband of titania is a major character (and fan favorite lol) from one of the game's recent* story chapters, lostbelt 6 avalon le fae!

*it's recent on the english-translated north american server of the game. NA fgo is about 2 years behind the original japanese server in terms of content releases, so for japanese players lostbelt 6 has been out for about 2 years already!

[femgirlfriend-moved]

dont rb rant incoming

anyone just sick of casual misogyny in general like just seeing it around in media or irl like im just so tired and sick....can we just dont do it anymore or talk about it or whatever can we get past that already i feel like if i hear more shit like that im actually about to lose my mind...i feel like im in constant competition with men to prove myself and im so tired i dont want to do it anymore but sometimes i feel like im constantly reminded of it and there’s this constant pressure on me and sometimes it just feels so heavy and it makes me so tired. everytime i see men praised in media or online or irl constantly with 0 equivalent for women it makes me feel kind of like a failure for not being more like a man if that makes sense? that’s a terrible thought to have but i cant help it. you’d think things are better now but sometimes even scrolling on tumblr and seeing everyone talk about male characters and male celebrities so much in a way they never do for women makes me feel like this. even worse in a way because this app appears to be used by a lot of gay women, and seeing them talk about women only in a performative way and then always blogging about some men make me feel even more unwanted in my own community. does that make sense lol? i dont want to offend anybody im just kinda rambling i guess. it just makes me feel so conflicted because i dont want to be a man at all but sometimes i feel like as a girl and a lesbian on top of that people see me as a joke and a burden in a way. and i feel like i fight with that every single day and sometimes it;s so much. i feel like i even defend women on a level that other women dont even want. so many times irl ive found myself in awkward situations talking about how women are equal to men only for the women to be weirded out and not understand why would they want to be ‘like a man’. im sometimes so conflicted by all this but if i think too much i realize i dont even know what exactly is actually bothering me? probably just everything because when ur a lesbian everything is just opposed to you. sorry for opening up about this but maybe some of u relate idk im on desktop cos the app doesnt work and this format is making me write a lot

[goosedawn]

Equivalent Exchange Headcanons/Notes

tw: mentions of death and broken bones/injury, skip everything after ***** if you don't want to deal with that :]

some of these things are not quite spoilers but more. glimpses into the future of this au because i wanna talk about that but i gotta progress it to that point so this is a tidy compromise

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- the second time tommy sees eret after the events of the final control room, eret looses their balance because they dont have a tail anymore and faceplants. despite tommy not being anywhere close by, his laughter is carried by the wind, much to erets embarrassment.

- later, when eret has fixed their relations with wilbur and tommy, he finds kinship in wilbur over having drastically changed size, both in having to adjust, as well as being able to understand what the other is experiencing currently.

- eret and wilbur are not the first exchange/swap to have happened on the server, and will not be the last.

- in this au, deals for exchanges can also be mutual! often thats how you get sizeshifters- there are a few notable exceptions though! sizeshifters dont necessarily have to make deals like that, but they still abide by the rule that their matter must have an equivalent exchange.

- also eret gets to meet ghostbur :]!!

- later on, tommy likes to hang around eret and spends time just. being around him. before the betrayal they would have been close, eret was the only other borrower in lmanberg and theres some things they just get.

- after dream is imprisoned, tommy just. chills in erets hair while they build and tommy just. talks. its like a free podcast!

- MUCH MUCH LATER, when eret and foolish meet up, eret is struck by the feeling of being small again (not quite as small as he was previously, but its a familiar feeling nonetheless) and he ends up spending more time with foolish because of it.

*****

- i like to think in this au a difference between "canon" and "non-canon" deaths is that with canon deaths you retain some injury or effect from how you died, while with non-canon deaths your body just reverts to the last state you were in when you set your spawn.

- because of this, in the second comic [x] tommys ribs are broken, as he died due to fall damage ("Tommyinnit hit the ground too hard whilst trying to escape Dream") so in every panel hes in, you can see him holding onto his ribs :>

[redemptionbaby]

Reader gets drunk and tries to summon a demon for whatever reason. When they wake up, they find they were not only were they successful, but that demon!Arthur is stuck there until he fulfills their desire so he can claim their soul. But they dont remember what that desire was.

Demon! Arthur Morgan

When you wake up, you meet the eyes of a demon. And he’s like, kinda irritated. Not like furious, no fire and brimstone, not mad with ire. Like he was just about to clock out for the day, and you’re holding him up with a stupid question.

“Awake, are we? Mind tellin’ me why you summoned my ass all the way here, only to pass out and make me wait for you to come to?”

When you explain that you have no idea what this is about, that you don’t know why you would’ve summoned a demon, his face shifts into one much more dreading as he drags a clawed hand down his face

“You... you really don’t remember? Well, I can’t go until I grant your wish— and take your soul. Them’s the rules, nothin’ I can do about it.”

When he pulls himself together a little more, accepting the situation for what it is, he comes to a decision. He’ll just... help you out. Follow you around, crack guesses as to what you might have wished for, and fulfill them

You bear his sigil on your body, symbolizing the deal. It’ll fade once he’s fulfilled your wish, and he’ll be free to return to the underworld with your soul.

You’re getting the better end of the deal here. Lots of wishes getting fulfilled for the price of a single soul, and all because you didn’t remember your own wish.

Arthur is insufferable and inescapable. He’s always following you around, his tail swishing, and only you can see him. Always making guesses at what it is you could want— or could have wanted when you performed the ritual

In this pursuit, he learns everything about you. He has no choice. He learns about all the things you like, everything you’ve always dreamed of doing, all the people you just barely tolerate in the day to day, the places you miss.

You don’t admit it at first, but it’s nice to have someone around. You don’t really have friends or family, it’s just been you for so long.

So long in fact, that for a while Arthur is convinced that what you were wishing for was love. He did everything in his power to set you up with people, nudge connections, used his demonic influences to whisper in the ears of other mortals so they would take notice of all of the things that were so wonderful about you

And for once, he didn’t have to lie. He knew all sorts of wonderful things about you, things he admired and didn’t realize.

Over time, he notices himself souring to these people. No one he sees seems right for you, not what you deserve. Or so he tells himself.

Meanwhile, each night he watches over you while you sleep, telling himself that your wish might have been to feel safe— you did live alone, after all.

One day, he finds himself sabotaging a potential love interest. He decides that love must not be what you wished for.

These days go on, and Arthur finds they’ve become the best days of his unholy existence. He loves every crevice of your being. Every secret piece of you, like he’s undone an origami crane and traced his fingers over every fold. There is so much to you that he’s never known in himself or anyone else. Your perpetual lonesomeness to him is evidence of an unjust god, a jealous one. For if your true nature and complexity were known to others, you would surely be worshipped beyond his measure.

You let his wretched hands on your skin. His tail curls around your waist. His hair leaves cinders and ash on your clothes. And one day, during on of these precious moments with you, his sigil is exposed. And he can see it fading. You look ready, and he feels anything but.

“I figured out what my wish was, Arthur.”

He holds back tainted tears.

“And what’s that, sweetheart?”

“I didn’t want to feel lonely anymore.”

He implores you not to say that, that there must be something else you want from him. Wealth, power, fame. This can’t be it. You put his clawed hand over your breast, and thank him for everything.

He blinks, and he’s burnt up, gone back to hell. The hand that was over your heart has in it the softest, prettiest, wispy little essence he’s ever seen. He doesn’t doubt that any other demon would have killed thousands for a soul like this. To eat it would grant him enormous power. He could trade it for anything his blackened heart desired.

He slips it with care into a glass flask to keep at his hip. He does the demonic equivalent of throwing himself into his work, hunting other souls, building something of an estate. He no longer spends much time debauched in unholy excess. His only wish is... to no longer be lonely. And the only way for that to happen is to wait.

To be a demon that knows loneliness is a wretched thing. He is pitied by many, but it doesn’t phase him.

One day, at a ripe old age, beloved by many, you die. And a handsome man has appeared to take you to eternity.

The flask shatters, your soul once again one with your consciousness, and as a shade Arthur thinks you look just as beautiful as you did all those years ago. He’s not lonely anymore.

[perditious]

cw; idk processing and experiencing are both messy but nothing specific talkin about r*pe, vaguely

the first appointment was fine. we scheduled two more. one for an eye dilation and one for contact lens fitting.

i’m moderately nervous about the contact lens fitting. getting my eyes dilated should be fine. the doctor who put his hand on me didn’t do a dilation. my mother got towering and terrifying about contacts. getting my eyes dilated should be fine.

but i don’t want to go anyway, brain doing the internal equivalent of dragging feet. almost forgetting to ask to leave work early. almost forgetting the appointment. little avoidances that don’t stop me spiraling closer to the doctor’s office. i’ve lived with this brain my whole life. i know how we dislike a straight line towards things that’ve bit in the past. i know how we sidle.

get out of work early even though i could probably be on time if i didn’t, just in case. for someone real good at being late i sure do try to get places early. park at home, dodge upstairs. alarm the cat by leaving again. on a weeknight! without feeding her! the nerve of me.

neighbor with a crimson scarf covering her dreads is taking out her garbage. our eyes are glancing off each other but when i smile big she beams back. thank you, radiance. tuck that away like a photograph. doing it on purpose for next time i need a reminder: sometimes it’s like that. light finding like.

i don’t walk this way much but i should. there’s a pretty little path and there’s pressure starting to build in my ears, in the goblet of my skull and neck. i usually take off into the woods instead but this way brings me around to the bay. got a few minutes to spare. seems timely to give them to the tide. breath with it for a few beats. feel it moving distantly in my head as i turn. i know what this is.

avoid a couple with an excited looking dog. i’m not scared of dogs anymore but i can feel myself tunneling inward and i’m trying to counteract it—pulling my scapula in toward each other and back like they’re wings. tendons in my back and lower neck shift and pop. i roll my neck and it feels like it’s got sand gritting up where it meets my skull.

it’s only the second visit. it should be fine yeah but i guess that was my thoughts not my guts talking. my guts don’t trust it. just because it went alright once doesn’t mean anything for sure. could be they set traps to get triggered this time. could be they’re pulling me into a false sense of security.

could be i tricked them accidentally and this time they’ll figure out what they’ve got on their hands. could be that im sitting in the waiting room talking to myself like im a feral cat again. barely remember checking in. i think it was the guy with the brown-red glasses lenses again but maybe im just filling him in.

paradoxical, the need to reassure myself i can leave at any moment when i dont. actually want to leave at any moment. the tech can’t remember what order the drops go in my eye and pulls a coworker in to help. they’re both darling. i apologize in advance for how im going to flinch from the air puff. oh everyone does. and then i don’t. one two done. then the eye drops, arranged tidily in the right order.

it was all fine. the familiar contrast between anxiety and reality. heart in my throat for no apparent reason. it was all actually fine. until the part of the exam where the doctor was giving instructions and shining a small bright light into my eye from the side.

don’t look at the light. look to the upper left. center. upper right. right side. lower right—and something internal snapped, forced breath out and body back and the noise that came out of me was the kind of breathless high pitched startle someone gives when something knocks the wind out of them. when you want to be loud about something but won’t have the air until you inhale, urgency overriding order.

i’m still not sure what it was that set me off, what tipped me into a tailspin of unsafe overwhelm. the unavoidable loom of a taller body in a dark room? that she’d mentioned being a mother in passing so my brain was orimed for her to personify threat? the flicker at the edges of my vision mimicking the way reality laps indifferently at me when i go away while things happen. when it’s easier to do as i’m told until it’s over. which is what i was doing. technically. except not at all.

just the concept of dilation getting to me, maybe. an unenthused obligate openness. something vulnerable that’s usually not. dilated iris. cervical dilation. an unenthused openness. i’ve been opened up down there by someone else too. the first eye drop imposes temporary numbness on the area, and it’s all much easier when it doesn’t feel like anything.

walked home in literal fog, the irony of which did not escape me. fed the cat. took a shower. slept for eleven hours. went to work. so it goes.

this doctor’s appointment is going to be fine.

[botwstoriesandsuch]

hey Kip! I’m sending asks into different writer’s askboxes, inquiring about cool themes/development facts/stuff the author wants to share about their personal favorite work of their own. What’s yours? :)

Ok so this ask is old and when I first got it I was like “dang I don’t really have a lot to talk about, what should I talk about I could those revalink headcanons the Kip Cut that turned into a working fic uhh hmm maybe I’ll just make something new to talk about real quick” and then I did and now there is a 12+ chapter Revalink fic in my drafts and I’m gonna talk about that now, whoopsie doopsie [click "j" to skip]

aHEM, OK so allow me to break out the primary school white board because yeah, I have a lot of thoughts and the oxford comma has not yet made it’s home into my brain. oh and spoilers for paraphrase. for both all of Chapter one and future events in later chapters, but it’s really nothing you couldn’t surmise from the AO3 tags

so I really wanted to tell the story of Revali and Link learning and struggling to love again after the less-than-fortunate events of Botw, but I wanted a...how you say...fresher, approach on the subject? Like I know we always say that fanfic writers writing the same tropes and stories time and time again is good because we eat that shit up--but at the same time I had asian parenting as was told never to half ass anything ever, no matter what. So now I'm gay and extra and have depression maybe and oh would you look at that @motherhyrule has dropped a beautiful revalink prompt right into my lap

Great so now that we have, that, I shall take you on the step by step process on how to make a :sparkles: story. So step one is to spend at least five to eleven business days for your white board to dismantle your genre and themes and work them around your character arcs. Luckily I have prepared one ahead of time

s*breaks out those laser pointers that uni professors use* So let's start with defining genre. As define because I HATE you, fuck you. I want you to suffer and writhe on the ground, motherfucker. How dare you think that I would give you nothing but pure predictable fluff, fuck you and yours

is the set of expectations that your audience has when consuming a piece of media

And the great thing about fanfiction is that unlike movies or book where the genres are more vague like, "oh it's a noir mystery genre. so there's a crime, maybe a murder, and a detective and a criminal." or "oh it's a teen romance. so there's some white people and a morally questionable six-pack 18 year old love interest that will be painted as desirable for some reason" BUT with fanfiction HALF of the work out the window, because as soon as you see those #revalink #aro sidon #zelpha #revali is an idiot and #found family tags you already know what's up.

Now what's so great about genre and expectation? Well the fun thing about it is that

I will use it to fucking break you.

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<3 For example! <3

In Chapter 1: Holes, you already expect there to be revalink, you already expect them to be soulmates with the soulmarks and there's angst and yadayada ya. Revali and Link have to match because thatttss what this is all about, this is about them! This is about cute, little soulmarks and romantic words!

But whoooopsie doopsie [disney channel laugh track plays] they DON'T match anymore! Link's got a different mark! The number one rule of this entire genre has been broken whoooooooooooooooops. *ba dum tiss*

You might notice with a lot of my writing that I do this a lot, this whole..."oop but there's one little thing that's different." TebaSaki sick fic? Ok cool, but what if Teba burns an irreplaceable relic of the Rito champion to fight a wizzrobe first to characterize why his dumbass clicks with Saki. Mipha deciding to persue Link? Ok what if she chases after a dragon to externalize this conflict as she pierces it's flesh for a scale. Link fighting a Lynel? Ok but what if it's actually a sidlink angst fic in disguise and it's also world building on how Link deals with the bloodmoon that erases all of his efforts which is sort of similar to how his existence was erased from Hyrule 100 years ago mwaahahaha! Ok now that I say this outloud I think I just have a pattern of using fight scenes to externalize character growth. I like fight scenes...anyways.

I think another great thing about the realm of fanfiction is that with the tagging system, I can basically use a chekhov's gun sort of deal, without doing any writing. You know I'm gonna use that gun marked "soulmates" but you don't know when I'm gonna shoot it, and you SURE as hell don't know how.

And huzzah! One of the main points of conflict both drives the tension between Revali and Link, solidifies the unique genre and setting of this world, while also creating a new mystery that will carry over for the next few chapters.

Is Revali right in that Link's rebirth makes him destined for someone new now? What will Link do with the information that his soulmark has changed? Why did it change? Did Revali's change as well? How does anything fucking work right now?

And sure, you might be able to tell where things will end with them, but you sure as fuck will not know how because I HATE you. Fuck you. I want you to suffer and writhe on the ground, motherfucker. How dare you think that I would give you nothing but pure predictable fluff. I am not your goddamn fairy godmother, I will do as I fucking please. You will suffer as you fucking deserve, fuck you and your little tiny--

/j

Oh! But you might have noticed on my little planning whiteboard thing that there was a little T-Chart! For Revali and Link! That's because the next important thing besides plot (and in a lot of cases, including this one, it's argued to be even MORE important than plot) is

~CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT~

[to the tune of that history of the world video on youtube]

So yes, it's a little T-Chart outlining their character views in relation to the themes. And the great thing about themes is that they're not something you can necessarily predict in the same way you can with the genre and plot.

But now see, I'm very lazy so I'm just gonna plagiarize @hyrule-kingdom-updates thingy [that you should read btw] because they said my point quite clear enough

Now I don't really need to care about those points about bond and relationships and being understood, because I'm dealing with already established canon characters. I'm not some NERD who dabbles with entire casts of ocs who even cares about ocs not me that's for sure ahaahahaahahahahahaahahahahahAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH *cries in my orphaned WTTU fic* AHAHAHA*sobs*DONT FUCKING LOOK AT ME THAT WAY I SWEAR--

/j I love ocs

But the points I do wanna focus on is the idea that characters provide new perspectives on the theme, and that characters growth can be tracked based on their wants, lies, and needs.

So see, themes can be predicted the same as genre/plot because while you can have the same fanfic plots and tropes, theme will always vary!

Sometimes it's a journey of selfworth with Revali! Sometimes it's an exploration of trauma with Link. Sometimes it's about how you deal with the vulnerabilities of love with Mipha. Sometimes there's straight up NOOOO theme, and people just be fucking, and kissing, and baking, and having a good time. And that is totally fine too!

But I'm not a fucking coward.

I'm gonna weave in themes with my plot, because I fucking can.

I'm not a weakling like you.

Do you hear me, 2019 Kip? Do you hear me Demmers? Do you hear me Quill? I'm coming for your ass. You think you're so great, but I'm coming for you. Rest assured that your graves will be as deep as your sculptured pride--

Heeeere is that T-Chart again, plus more!

yyyyyYou might notice that Revali and Link are quite parallel, to paraphrase. Ayoooo, see what I did there? *dabs* I'm a genius. Anywho

They both start off the same way: 100 years ago they were in love and happy. Basically the equivalent of childish naivety. For the first time in their lives, life is whimsical and charming, and they make each other happy. In fact, it's almost a flaw with how they perceive this happiness. But don't worry! It doesn't last long!

You know what happens.

I think the chart is pretty self explanatory. Revali builds walls fast enough to give a republican a wet dream. Meanwhile Link makes every aromantic in the chat groan with his doubled down sentiments in the idea that his chances of being truly happy again are gone.

Now, I can't exactly describe the full on process of the inbetweens, and where Revali and Link are gonna go from here, because...you have to read it for yourself! Heehee...but something I did think was fun was how these character views on the themes are revealed. Because you'll notice that, I never give exposition. Ever.

Ok well, let me rephrase that. I never give exposition scenes. I will never give you a big LOTR fancy wizard scene explaining the ins and outs of a character's question or the world's magic or whatever. I'm a very impatient Kip, and I value efficiency. Nonono, it's all about multi tasking, baby!

Chapter 1: Holes is divided into three parts.

Post 100 Years - Medoh (Establishes Ghost Rev/Bonk Head Link's view)

100 Years Ago - Flight Range (Establishes old Revalink views)

Post 100 years - Mark (Develops Ghost Rev/Bonk Head Link's view in contrast to who they once were)

I think the way that you structure flashbacks is incredible vital, as it's a very quick way to characterize people without having them say stuff like "I used to be like you, until I took an arrow to the knee" or whatever.

And with the main structure of the chapters and the fic as a whole is focus on their characters, that means I can hide whatever other stuff I want in those scenes, becuase you're too busy absorbing the fun character stuff to realizing I'm giving you boring exposition. Like for example:

Post 100 Years - Medoh and Mark

Foreshadowing for the end of the fic

Set up connection to Medoh with Revali

Link has defeated Windblight

Link has been visiting Revali every night for the past few days

Link has already met Kass and presumably Teba

Link doesn't have the Mastersword

Revali's Gale is still an ability that needs master and practice on Link's end

And that's just some of the stuff.

And see, the only reason I can efficiently give all of this information regarding character, and even exposition, is because of the theme. The themes make everything relevant, and everything circles and encompasses one another, so there's absolutely no wasted space. I mean don't even get me started on how it's gonna be to characterize the other characters around this

I don't wanna talk about the other characters too much either because that's spoilers, but you can probably take a gandar based on my notes.

And oh my god this is just on the theme of the faults that come with "soulmates" and "true love" and all that, and how even magical destined relationships still require work and effort, and that no one thing or person solves all your problems. And that's not even TOUCHING the shit on trauma and scars. I didn't think it was even possible for me to talk about botw without touching on that, ha. Ah well, I've been talking for too long.

Revalink has a lot o' writing potential so das pretty cool yeah, I am excite