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pergaminaa · 8 days ago

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Modern au:

The thirteen would totally get a ouija board and play with it. Well not all of them because some of them know not to mess with these things.

The instigators are both Asterin and Vesta. They’ve been out shopping and found an old shady store and decided to bring it for their girls night.

Sorrel: She refuses to partake because this is all kinds of wrong and she doesn’t want to get involved in that.

Faline and Fallon: they’re all over the board and they’re ready with a list of spirits to contact.

Lin: She’s indifferent for the most part but she’s kinda on board because why not? She fears no spirit or demon plus she’s usually hanging out with the twins so they’re similar in how occasionally unhinged they are.

Edda: She’s unsure but reason wins and she joins Sorrel in not participating because while she doesn’t really believe in these things she also doesn’t want to mess with it.

Briar: Similar to Edda, she doesn’t believe in demons and all BUT she joins the others because this can be fun.

Kaya: She’s so on board! Demons? Contacting spirits? She’ll be all over that even though she’s lowkey scared of these things but she doesn’t let that stop her.

Thea: She knows this is insane and honestly she doesn’t want to join but since Kaya is there and she can’t pry her away from the board she decides to stay just so she can keep an eye on her.

Imogen: She got peer pressured to join it was not her intention but she got roped into it.

Ghislaine: Told them all ‘hell no’ because she knows exactly what’s going to happen and she doesn’t want to be around that shitshow.

And finally Manon: She’s indifferent af so she stays because she’s not going to skip because of a couple of spirits. It’s not real anyway so what’s the big deal.

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nenoname · 1 month ago

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I'm a broken record about this but after so many years of being left with the Axolotl poem about Bill, it'd be so lame if Bill never did reincarnate, and it'd be just as disappointing if it ended up being something minor like a cicada (although it'd be hilarious if he reincarnated, immediately died and then reincarnated into something else).

And to me, the wording of the original Axolotl poem really does make it seem like the reincarnation itself is the 'redemption' and the deal is that Bill is basically passing responsibility to someone else, after he's done with therapy and like.... doesn't pass down all of his many issues.

(Plus I dunno if it's my understanding of reincarnation that's wrong but it feels that when Bill is like 'yeah let me use the reset button!!!', he's forgetting that its way different from using a continue and he's just gonna end up with the equivalent of a shoddy new game plus made for a wrong character/setting at best)

Meanwhile, we're left with Bill poem about Stan that's the same in execution (a cryptic message between space and time and by that I mean hidden on the internet lol), with the same purpose (an opening/lingering mystery for Alex to use when he wants to return to the series) with the same elements (fire, lies, redemption, home) and numerous comparisons to Bill's own philosophy on lies that's repeated again in the same website.

(Also been thinking about how amnesiac!Stan could sorta be thought of as a reincarnation of himself in terms of mind only. The same soul being hit with that reset gun button, a chance of a new self unburdened by the past, but via the power of love and family they went nope!!! we want you back!!!)

Either way, with the poem and the book's ending there's the obvious Bill+Stan connection that we're supposed to acknowledge!!!

#i've seen some folks oddly in denial about their parallels for some reason???#stanley pines #stan pines #bill cipher #same coin theory #book of bill #thisisnotawebsitedotcom #gf meta #two sides of the same dollar bill #but also im still thinking about how we got it confirmed that after stan got his memory back #that ford still was paranoid about bill being inside stan's mind #what was stan thinking when ford did test after test on his mind (did stan even let him go into his mindscape? is it still a mess?)#giving up his privacy and letting ford dig around so his brother would quit looking so scared at times #them finally finding some peace as they start prepping for their trip #only for that fucking book to appear and send ford spiraling again #basically hiding in his lab because hes so scared of his family being hurt #hiding because hes so ashamed of being tricked of being abused #what the hell is a guy supposed to think after all that?#still thinking about alex describing bill as a gambler at a tbob panel while he knew full well #that we were about to get further emphasis of stan being a gambler too....#also nomming on the idea of determinism and loops and the idea of split souls

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spacedlexi · 9 months ago

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the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭

#twdg #i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment #i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying #anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that #them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school'#anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast #theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with #because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left #i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out #but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is #they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable #they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious #zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭#sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community #the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way #s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is #the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me #it speaks

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alexturner2005 · 9 days ago

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yesterday my parents brought home a new dog without telling me first, knowing that i’m not ready for another dog yet after the death of my last one 🙃

#i know i won’t live here forever but unfortunately im here now and its just drudging up grief seeing a different dog in the house #a week or two ago they went to look at dogs without telling me and i told them i was upset about that #because they knew i didn’t want a dog yet #and they were like ‘sorry we thought you meant you didn’t want one at all so there was no point in telling you (??)’#‘we’ll have to talk about it’#there was no talking 🙃#i would’ve considered it even tho i didn’t feel ready if i was at least talked to first! and got to meet him at the shelter #instead of in my home!#literally two nights before they went to the shelter the first time i had a nightmare they brought a dog home without telling me #and then the night before they actually did i had that nightmare again #and thought ‘that’s a ridiculous dream obviously they wouldn’t do that without talking to me’#lol.#they said i ‘move too slow’#sorry i’ll grieve faster next time i guess!#i wouldn’t have done that to them if roles were reversed…#he’s technically here on a three night test period first but let’s be real they’re not gonna send him back to the shelter #and i’d be the villain if i suggested it #i don’t have the heart to send a dog back to the shelter but i feel like i was manipulated into this

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th3-c0ll3ct3r · 3 months ago

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My Tumblr followers. If and when you see this. Just don't look at twitter man

This year is cooked

Sorry for the vent but omg this year man THIS YEAR UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (read tags for context)

#2024 is done #worst year of my life #shitpost #kagevt #Hes coming back after his dramatic af graduation because he's a shit person because 3 months suddenly makes you a better person. Rent due?#People are beefing over whether fat nuggets or waddles is the better pig and saying hazbin copied gravity falls #Bc if we're talking cartoon pigs then 2007 spider pig Simpsons did it way before gravity fall so bad argument their #gravity falls #The dream smp members are being haunted by the ghost of their admins infection rate #Which is to say every dsmp member is gonna take a huge L this year and it's Eret's and Niki's turn currently #eret #niki niachu #AND ALL THE GOOD ANIMES IS ENDING SO I LITERALLY DON'T HAVE A DISTRACTION #AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON MR BEAST OML #vent post #vent #Eret and Ava Tyson were dating??? And Eret doesn't believe that she'd be “capable” of some of the bad thing she did WHEN ITS ALL PUBLIC INFO #mr beast #He sending out more lawsuits then batman has dollar bills #People are pressuring other people to join Mcc rising even though the team comp is literally too toxic got them #mcyt #Like if they don't want to play then don't make them play simple as. But NOOOOOOOOOO we gotta send disgusting shit and for what??#Have some dignity #I swear if another thing happens this year I'm throwing the YouTube and Twitter files into a nuclear bomb aimed at my brain bc I can't #And all that's on my mind is that if Technoblade could have seen the shit people are doing he'd be disappointed #I feel bad knowing he passed away without knowing the truth but I hope he's happy with what he did have #And my mental health is tanking #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #chat i'm cooked

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girlthativealwaysbeen · 1 month ago

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pata hai last kuch din i was very busy with my project kyunki final dena tha and binding karni thi etc to wo karwayi then i went to the bookfair bekaar tha then parso submit karne jaa rahi to subah accident hogaya (bhai ki bike skid hogayi and we fell down) and now i have a big ass blue bruise on my upper thigh and my parents don't even know lmao and kal ek science conference thi to i had to sit in an auditorium for 6 hours listening to accomplished people speak. that's what you missed now your turn

omg i knew everything in this except for the accident cause i stalk your blog vigorously everyday are you okay!!!!!!!!!! did you get tetanus shots!!!!!!!!!! also on your upper thigh oh no that's where future jiju is supposed to write MINE na as per our beloved song guilty as sin?

#did u have fun at the conference it must've been cool huh women in stem and all that #bookfair being bad is so sucky i was so excited for you to go i thought you'd send pictures too of books we like #also u already know everything i posted everything and every thought #i ate chinese but it didn't feel that good because my sister isn't here and we didn't eat it together watching #koffee or splitsvilla and i realised that it's not just the chinese food it's the whole hanging out that i love sm :((#kal well i told you pata hai the brownie place we met it's kinda new and cool types so uske bathroom mein #there was a button and it said press at your own risk and when we did it became a dj like the lights went out and #there when flashing spinning disco lights and party songs were playing mere mein wo aaya hum toh naye andaz hai apna purana #it was sooo cool im adding it to the list of places you'll visit when u come here!!!!!!!#also the food was soooo shockingly reasonably priced everything was under 200 rs!!!!! which is big for a dessert place here #and like great quantity great taste too my stupid people from office used to say it's awesome but i didn't believe them and never tried it #because they're all losers lol but i grudgingly admit that they were right #also ummmm hmm okay pata hai i realised ki oh okay im happy with who i am #like bachpan mein i used to feel very sad and loser like because dad was too strict to let me go out raat ko and everyone in school would #go to this club we went to kal and i always felt i was missing out and i wanted to be all cool and fun too #but it was kinda so boring and normal and i was like wow okay i didn't miss out i was spending days and nights reading books being in #fandoms and i was actually very happy!!!!! so like yay idk small thing bt yk i realised that oh it was okay and everything will be okay too #i kinda want to talk to that guy now like i weirdly feel like im longing for what could've been? which is ridiculous because #we were 11 and i barely talked to him back then because shy and friends would tease and i didn't realise it was a crush #i don't want to DATE him because like tbh i already know we're very different people but like wouldn't it be fun to idk make out once #then i got the urge to download dating app but i resisted the urge and won i don't think im made for casual things #me and my bestie were laughing about this yesterday too she was like i just don't understand how people can have sex one day and then #not give a fuck about each other the next day like idk if we have sex im having your kids and i was like ikrrrr like bhai sex is toh very #big im going to be attached if we hug i literally did!!!!! so we decided no more casual/situationships for us #phew okay more rambling on whatsapp love u bye this became too long #saumyuuuuuu

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todayisafridaynight · 4 months ago

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THIS IS GONNA SOUND SO MEAN BUT WHY DO U LIKE RYO AOKI/MASATO

masato hot

#snap chats #just like me... heh ... my ac has been broken all month im melting for the love of god send an iceberg im begging you #him turning into aoki is incredibly funny to me like jesus christ. what a lack of self love does to a mfer #but anyway 1.) please do not yell i scare easy 2.) meaner has been said its ok 3.) very reasonable to ask why anyone would like aoki #and 4.) to be Cereal he's inch resting to me. also his speech to ichi at the end hit a lil close and i was reminded of high school #5.) i really like his eng dub voice sorry im american. BUT HIS JP VOICE IS EXCELLENT TOO IM JUST SAYIN #rgg doesnt give an Exact on his disability so looking into lung diseases/conditions has also been interesting #esp post-lung surgery cases and care too so i thank rgg for the opportunity to do some reading #i also do In General just like cases of someone wanting to be loved and changing drastically to get it only to still be unhappy #granted. he sucks so LMAO can only have so much sympathy but it's still interesting to watch #the arakawas is also a part of why i like him because they all work as a big machine. if that makes sense #like the arakawas in general are such an interesting bundle i love all of them a lot because of what they mean to each other #in the case of aoki none of them mean anything to him at most resenting arakawa and despising ichi #meanwhile sawashiro's just. There LOL im so sorry king thats the truth of it all ... i love you tho ...#oh but back to aoki. i also really like politican characters- or at least characters who can have a 'public' persona #its fun thinking about what they have to do mentally to present themselves in public versus when they can 'be themselves'#like aoki's 'intro' scene where he's pleasant to his secretary and then a second later is conniving with ogasawara... peak i fear #OR THEEEE CAR PARK ONE i love that scene so much ...#very fun.. aoki being a politician just makes it infinitely funnier like guys we gotta bully the governor #plus i live and breathe by a glass analysis/comparison a twitter mutual of mine did ... i love glass imagery .......#uhhhh is that all ... idk prob im literally sweating my skin off i cant think right. my clothes are sticking to my skin i hate summer #i dont hate summer im so sorry i didnt mean it .... summer is beautiful .. i just wish this heat wasnt murdering me

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tiktaaliker · 20 days ago

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ITS BEEN A FUCKING WEEK. PASS THE DETRITUS

#howling #had a lvl 1 trauma at abt 720 #which sucks but we were managing fine #call er back at 750 as protocol to ask if theyve transfused and if theyll need more and to make sure they have a t&s ordered #secretary confirms that both units were transfused + they wont be needing more (lol) + a type and screen WAS drawn just not ordered yet #ok cool. all i have to do is wait for the specimen so i can crossmatch the units #im chilling in bloodbank doing bloodbank things #meanwhile. er calls the front desk (blood bank has a separate phone line. they specifically called the lab line instead)#lab assistant takes the call (like normal). theyre not sure what er said exactly but theyre planning to transfer the patient somewhere #and mentioned 'something like mpp???'#midnight tech was upfront and overheard. immediately asked if they meant MTP #lab assistant wasnt sure but said she had asked if er wanted to talk to blood bank (aka me) and they said no #both the assistant and the tech assumed that they DIDNT actually mean mtp because that would be fucking bonkers #if they casually mention it to a lab assistant and NOT FUCKING BLOOD BANK #and i didnt hear about this phone call until like maybe an hour or two later btw #anyways. yeah no they called an MTP #thats always fucking awful but they DID bring down the t&s partway thru #patient had no history and the only other specimens on file were drawn at the same time #so i order a confirmatory type to make things easier later on. it needs to be drawn by either the nursing team or by a lab assistant #screen is negative so at least we only need to do an immediate spin crossmatch on everything #we get all the units emergency issued + the platelets are ordered and issued normally after the t&s is done since it doesnt need a xmatch #er cancels the mtp. theyve transfused 6 out of the 8 units we sent them. two remaining units being sent to or #or is told directly that the mtp was canceled and that theyd need to call a new one if things escalate again #ok. things are calming down. its fine. i got all the xmatches done and theyre all compatible which is great #we get in a delivery from arc of platelets bringing us back up to 6 on the shelf (we need 5 on hand tomorrow morning for an open heart)#(at this point i find out about the phone call i mentioned earlier)#i get a call from or. my heart sinks immediately #or nurse says they need 2 rbcs and 2 platelets and theyre sending someone down RIGHT NOW to pick it up #we still hadnt gotten that confirmatory btw #im too stunned to say anything else so i just go ok. and hang up

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too-many-paper-cranes · 1 month ago

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oh hey the video is public now so i can post on tumblr about this without sounding insane! anyway everyone should go watch me and a few other speedrunners hunt fire for sport (randomizer edition)

#blossom.txt #hollow knight #blossom plays hollow knight #i have ~4 years of rando racing experience so i know how to analyze a rando seed to death #and be Very Normal about it #this was my first time doing hk pvp so i was not doing much of the hunting part lmao #i was more doing like tracking and strategizing and telling people where he probably was so they could kill :3 #it was a really interesting one you should give it a watch!!!#(also if anyone has stuff they want to send asks abt i will absolutely jump on that chance to infodump :3)#(please let me infodump i'm very autism yippee yipee)#oh also having watched it back pye edited it to have proportionately more of my voice than is in the actual vod lmao #because i was mostly standing around talking abt what was in the seed bc i memorized the entire fucking 10 page doc i wrote #a normal thing to do on a thursday night #idk how i feel abt that because i hate my voice lmao but like hopefully kids in the comments aren't too mean T-T #i feel like with the amount of complexity a rando seed has focusing on the person who was telling everyone where the stuff is makes sense #so it's not necessarily a bad thing i just hate my voice ew ew ew #slightly disappointed that most of the discussion abt abyss got cut out #so there's just a few times we mention king's brand seemingly for no reason #but it was a Whole Thing where we were like 'why did he get shade cloak'???#because you wouldn't waste time going the long way all the way around peak for no reason right #there were several grubs in abyss and brand was on the way so i was trying to figure out when he would go to abyss #and he just...never did. why fire #threw off my whole plan by playing it like a svh game and not a spoiler rando race. smh #i wasted a bit of time just hanging around basin and he literally never set foot in there lmao #and then also guarding paum relic in fungal because it had hidden stag and if he went to get it i wanted to know about it #instead he just three cycled right fungal and did mantis lords....#cryign #also the amount of times shelby got jumpscared and attacked me thinking i was fire...oops #some of them didn't even make the cut it was so bad ahfdlkjhglkjdf

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that-foul-legacy-lover · 10 months ago

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the MOST terrifying thing is getting a surprise message from someone you genuinely despise

#hush n shush wifi #not brainrot #NOBODY HERE DON'T WORRY #remember that absolute asshole of a person who said nasty things to me out of the blue months ago?#yeah it was them #i completely forgot they followed me somewhere else because i never use that account for anything #and when we did talk on there it was via a different account that they deleted #luckily it was a mistake and they meant to send it to someone else so heavy bullet dodged there #anyways they are now blocked there too like they are everywhere else #because after that happened i decided i was done with people being mean to me #i was ready to turn VIOLENT #i'm surprised they didn't block me there first since they initiated the split #but oh well more satisfaction for me #sorry seeing a message from them brought back all sorts of bad feelings #so i might be a little short and impatient today #need a moth to snuggle with right now

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girlcrushau · 8 months ago

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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

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damianosismyking · 1 year ago

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truth is SOME BITCHES OUT THERE are boring as fuck.

I miss the old days when we were all fucked in the head and down for whatever novelty take/approach we had to these characters in this DARK FANTASY trilogy we adore.

not..... you know. who is the nicest character doing the nicest things in the nicest way.

#god forbid we have fun anymore like jesus!!!!#i'm so sorry i answered a fucking ask #iykyk #i miss talking for hours and hours and HOURS about all the fucked up insane unhinged stuff Damen and Laurent did to each other #instead of trying to cleanse them from their faults and severe personality flaws #if you want it baby i can make a post JUST LIKE MY PREVIOUS ONE #about Laurent abusing Damen for YEARS and Damen choosing to stay with him out of guilt #finding excuse upon excuse to overlook the damage Laurent's doing to him because in Damen's head it is his fault Laurent even acts like tha #because it was his killing Auguste that offset years of suffering for Laurent #so laurent hurts him PHYSICALLY and on purpose again and again but Damen stays and never lets anyone intervene #because most of all he loves laurent #while most of all Laurent resents Damen while refusing to let him go #just because of how afraid he is of being alone -- and how much deep down he enjoys inflicting pain onto Damen as pay back for Auguste #like?????#it goes both ways love -- they are TOXIC people #both of them #but then #i suppose you didn't send the ask did you? what a shame #i guess abusive damen is what we got for lunch today 🤭

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arionawrites · 8 months ago

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1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day!#the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk)#was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!!#i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins)#but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19)#so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

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anxiously-sidequesting · 1 year ago

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GODS I KEEP THINKING ABT LIKE. YOU MENTIONED HOLLY ASKING WHEN THEY GET TO GO HOME AND SHE JUST CANT AND

it's so painful to think abt because yes, the spiral is going to be saved because of the prophecy, and all these lives are saved - but ambrose really went "needs of the many" and basically deprived a whole child of their personhood and maybe even their identity outside of "savior of the spiral" with the depersonalization of the wizard and how it starts with literally entering the wizard world. you pick a new name for your wizard and you very much can Tell that most names like that dont exist where the YW came from so their initial identity gets erased and then the NEW identity they try to build gets erased too to the point where i have to be impressed but also severely worried that the the YW is STILL internalizing how they feel and being essentially constantly sent on more quests and

this is complete rambling that probably hardly makes sense but god its just how screwed up w101's plot is deep down

YOU'RE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE ERASURE AND DEPERSONALIZATION, YOUR BRAIN IS ON

Like that's something so interesting to think about like how and why did the YW choose their new name? Did Ambrose choose it for them; did he merely encourage them to take on a more "appropriate" identity to match their new culture?? Did the Wizard ever want to change their name in the first place? How does their name change affect their journey and their personality going forwards?

And you're so right because like in a sense, you're literally CREATING a new character to fit into this new world. Irl you're choosing their appearance, their name and their gender, everything. Build-A-Bear starting from scratch. And even though the character creation bit has no underlying meaning to it, I think it unintentionally has such a heavy metaphor that you are no longer a human from Earth, but a Wizard in the Spiral. You're not "Holly LastName" with regular Earth clothes, you're now "Holly Steelcry" with a bitchin' purple and yellow outfit that is now SUITED for the Spiral. Yippee!!!

Like I don't even think the Pirate goes through this shit; weren't they born in the Spiral? Like didn't they have parents that were originally FROM the Spiral in the first place???? It's just the Wizard that's been yoinked from their original homeland and into a new one 💀

And that's one of the things that Holly learns throughout their life in the Spiral - is that her Earth self, her original personality and heritage... is not enough. What they were before was not what the Spiral needed. The world doesn't want Holly, it wants Holly STEELCRY. Their family, friends, pets, past hobbies and their ultimate sacrifice in leaving them behind is not what matters to Ambrose, to the Council of Light, to the entire universe. What everyone needed was a HERO and Holly was NOT a hero, which is why they made her INTO one. Unfortunately, it was that erasure and depersonalization you mentioned that Ambrose, and later Holly themself, thought was necessary in order to save everyone. Now you have a Wizard who may or may not be an entirely different person than what you started out with and for NO GOOD REASON. It's that "sacrifice yourself for others" trope that I love and hate so much 😭😭😭😭😭

#i love your takes honestly im holding them in my heart #AND NONE OF US ARE THINKING ABOUT THIS WHEN WE MAKE OUR CHARACTERS RIGHT? WE'RE ENJOYING PLAYING THE GAMR #but then when you're autism like me (/hj) you just GOTTA think about the implications. you just gotta #why couldnt ambrose let us keep our original name? why couldnt he at least let us visit our home from time to time #was the world transfer PERMANENT? are we there for life now???? is ambrose like phsyically UNABLE to send us back???#because if he knew taking us to the spiral was permanent and still brought us here. thats terrible #but what if it was entirely possible to send us back in intervals but he never thought to like. tell us this #because he wants to keep us in the spiral at all times to keep everyone safe from harm #so either ambrose is 1. lying by omission to keep us where he wants us to be #2. knew beforehand we would not be able to return to earth upon bringing us to the spiral and still did it #or 3. just didnt think about this shit before during or after he did it but since we're here anyways might as well make the best of it #for me personally ambrose falls into the 3rd option but he would be so much more interesting if he was 1 or 2 #this turned into ambrose for some reason im sorry. i just love/hate him alot but its not about him right now #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #asks #pierrotfakinami

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rivilu · 2 years ago

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While we all know about Hawke's character-assasination in inquisition, I personally remain.. preplexed? a morbid kind of impressed? with how that game also managed to butcher my Warden with only about 5 lines of dialogue referring to him and a letter.

#dragon age #dai critical #mostly everything leliana says #because look. they were friends in origins. But it was doomed from the get-go #and that's kind of the beauty of it in origins isn't it? The setting of war makes a lot of room for relationships that would in any other-#place in time- any other scenario be impossible- to happen!#for Orion this applies to Sten and Morrigan too.#The whole thing of- one day you will walk out of Denerim and into a life that will entirely contrast my every value;#Stealing Dalish artifacts. Becoming Arishok. Working as left hand of the Divine.#Next time we see eachother chances are we will no longer be on the same side #we both know this but tonight we still gather around the campfire. we still sing. we still laugh; exchange gifts and talk about the world.#it's bittersweet yes but it's the type of tragedy that feels like everyone involved already knows and is at peace about it #So when inquisition comes around and Leliana tells me Orion is still a close friend of hers? It feels like it cheapens the whole thing #Yes the devs can't possibly account for every possible way either installment can be played just for those small moments #But that is WHY they should either be bringing the old protagonists back as playable or simply not include them at all #The warden I made would not even leave room to question that he and leli are now on hostile terms #and he CERTAINLY would not send a polite little letter to a force whose purpose is to restore the chantry to power #And then you have the throne room chatter. which i straight up hate im not going to be poetic about it #the fucking da keep remains horrendous #oh we desperately need to have shithead npcs shittalk the hof . what? your hof did NOTHING that would warrant that? haha too bad #you simply can't pick what you actually DID in those quests #You found Bevin didnt take the sword and just gave them 5 gold out of the goodness of your heart? No you didnt #You just persuaded the random mercenaries in the gnawed noble tavern to leave? No you killed them #it infuriates me

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill /#immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more)#disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator.#* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

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