#beauty beyond my comprehension

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

i will fall in love with you over and over again. i don't care how, where, or when; you're mine! don't tell me you're not the same person--- you're always my husband, and i've been waiting, waiting, waiting!

[omegalerc]

“suspiciously majestic” male ferrari formula one driver accused of estrogen doping

[angelsdean]

personally i find the concept of a love transcending the confines of sexuality / romance / rigid definitions of language and categorical boxes uhhh positive, actually 😐

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

@strawberry-muffin-crisis

'CUERNAVACA CATHEDRAL, MEXICO'. MARY GEORGINA BARTON.

[soullessjack]

idk maybe it’s corny but I think it’s kind of morbidly poetic that the Venture bros symbol/logo is a giant skull…something about a universal symbol of death representing the family that literally defines itself by how it cheats death with scientific manmade horrors beyond comprehension… it’s just so perfect to me sorry

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

Now the night is coming to an end;

The sun will rise and we will try again.

Did the grass sing? Did the earth rejoice to feel You again?

I couldn't help it, yes, I let it get in The helpless optimism of spring Worn out and tired, and my heart near retired And the world bent double from weeping And yet, the birds begin to sing

For all who wait, For all who hunger, For all who've prayed, For all who wonder, Behold your King! Behold Messiah!

Oh death! Where is your sting? Oh hell! Where is your victory? Oh Church! Come stand in the light The glory of God has defeated the night!

Truce, by Twenty One Pilots // Was It A Morning Like This? by Sandi Patty // Daffodil, by Florence + The Machine // Light of the World, by Lauren Daigle // Christ is Risen, by Matt Maher // Revelation 21:5, RSVCE //

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

@frizzle-mcshizzle

the reason i am so drawn to catholicism and the biting bleeding suffering side of talking about divine love is because i grew up in mainstream protestantism (specifically evangelical, although i spent time in pentecostal churches as well) that had a huge focus on fellowship, dressing up for church, pageantry, and doing nice things for the congregation. like this type of protestantism, the soft soul side of tumblr- the peeling an orange, not to me not if its you, richard siken side- comes ultimately from a place of privilege. peeling an orange and giving it to you is a nice gesture, but ultimately hollow. love is not about small gestures, it is ultimately about meeting someone at their suffering. the people that i love the most in my own love, and the ones who i know love me, are the people who understand my suffering, and whose suffering i understand. they have taught me so much about love. it is ugly and it is not about small, beautiful gestures. it is about recognizing how ugly it is to be human and loving that ugliness anyway- not because we gain anything from loving another person, but simply because they need to be loved. as sweet as the sentiment of doting affection and pinterest-aesthetic board love is, as important as it is to feed people and give them a golden kitchen to be fed in, we have so thoroughly aestheticized love that it no longer has substance, and it is the same thing that has happened in mainstream christianity. by stripping the nuance of understanding suffering, by ignoring the constant woundedness of humanity in favour of creating something that appears smooth and beautiful from a distance, we have developed whole societies and hierarchies where the most vulnerable people are consistently left behind because they simply do not fit because they are not beautiful enough. it is easy to peel an orange and feed it to your lover. it is harder to look at a stranger in all of their inevitable ugliness and eat with them anyway. 

[down-the-rabbid-hole]

"Biblically accurate Jeanie" came to me in a vision

....and oh god what have I created-

Bonus live Sullivan reaction:

[quietwingsinthesky]

sometimes i think about my spn oc and how i rewrote everything about amara to interact with the story i was trying to tell about her. there were some really neat ideas in that i need to recycle for something one day. like, in the show proper, they just let amara take over a human baby and that’s fine, but amara’s not Meant To Be Here. this entire universe is one constructed in her absence. saying she can possess a human body should be like saying if you took a person and sent them to a universe where 1+1=3, they could just figure out how to function within that.

which in story took the form of Amara being something that could not be Understood, only Rationalized. a force locked outside the narrative who could only get inside and destroy things if given a role within it. by the Winchesters as A Monster To Face. by Chuck as Wayward, Unreachable Sister. and by miss oc as. simultaneously a projected creature to be saved, an amalgamation of injustices done to herself (and others) that would never be righted but could be made up for by being a part of this. and as something impossibly powerful that could be both protection and purpose.

and the Darkness wasn’t any of those things, really, but to have agency in her own story required new shackles, but ones she was always straining against. she wouldn’t fit inside the confines of a human mind, let alone a body, at least not well enough to leave it Intact. like lucifer burning through nick, but Worse. because the burns were an expected outcome of skin not strong enough to hold him. humans were built for angels, some were built better and some worse, but they’re meant to work. putting amara in human skin should disconnect the skin and mind and soul from the reality her brother built itself, i think. slowly. bit by bit.

and at the same time, i’d gone and written the kind of wild scenario you really can only write for your thirteen year old mary sue, given that spn oc the part of herald/high priestess/failed vessel. which she pursued with wild abandon like that would fix anything wrong with her <3

in the end, running alongside the borrowed family theming of the original show was my own theme of “how much self-annihilation will you accept to make your point. are you accepting it, really. or are you seeking it.” not just physically, in letting something unmake the base components of what you are as it tries to fit inside you or in it constricting and suffocating itself beyond self-recognition to get inside in the first place, but, obviously, it’s supernatural, how much selfhood do you cede to your family. is it worth it.

it was interesting, if nothing else. let thirteen year old me cook. she had ideas.

[autism-disco]

if you could go anywhere/see anything in the whole universe where would you go?

hmmmmm that’s a whole lotta places. uh assuming i could do this like cost free and without yknow dying of space travel and such. i’d explore a bit to see what time is and how it changes. i’d find a field far away and lie down and sing a song. i mean if there’s no limit on the amount of places i can go i’d probably check out a lot of earth too, but i’m curious as to what’s out there in the potentially infinitesimal existence of everything. the chances are however, everything would be kinda overwhelming, yknow there’s a whole lot of everything (as will wood said, everything is a lot) so i think i would also come back home and lie down

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

@the-magic-school-bus

had some wine and saw a frog crossing the road and anyway I think God wants us to be happy and that's so awesome

[b-blushes]

i have figured out the secret to simmering things on my induction hob: patience (<- skill i do not have a particular abundance of when it comes to things i'm doing by and for myself :P)

[turnipotentiary]

i loooove languages i love learning new alphabets i love the feeling of accomplishment and deep satisfaction of making concrete progress i love puzzles and challenges i love arabic

[devil-worship]

tagged by @jkrockin: lock screen, last song, last picture taken, and last picture saved.

lockscreen by: @calaqueria

Last picture saved is of my boyfriend which I’m not posting <3 thanks for the tag Jenn!!!

I tag: @muttmaw @hexhux @archiveofourpwn @late-night-melancholy and anyone else who wants to!!!

[ominouspositivity-or-else]

@strawberry-muffin-crisis

I went to a candlelight concert in a church last night where they played the best of Joe Hisaishi (the composer for Studio Ghibli) and it was A++

(Edit: for anyone wondering, this concert was presented by Fever and they hold candlelight concerts in tons of cities and countries!)