#bea really wants to say something but she can't so she just gives that look of concern and frustration

[asianfork]

SHE KNOWS

[nogenderbee]

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ @stellas-starry-stove13 request: FIRSTTIME IV EVER SEENREQS OPen

Okayhow about pjsk boys with shyand pushoved blind reader who gets bullied and always says its not a big deal but the. when time they find themcrying in (char's) sekai cuz of the bullies and pressure from like her family? Like, imagine her family pressures her to beas good as like her sivlings who arent blind?? Like, even though shes blind, they treat her and expect her to act as if she isnt?????? Fem! reader plz!

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ OMG HIIIII! So happy to see you here!

Anyway, somehow, I really enjoyed writing it ^^ As for genshin boys, I used opera in Lyney's part and beach in Freminet's~ Hopefully that's still fine! Aaaand I hope you like it!!

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✧ Akito was probably going all around school, trying to find you panically, he didn't even care if you went to Miyamasuzaka, he HAD to find you, especially when he knows your disability and gentle heart

✧ it was probably when he heard your bullies laughing that you couldn't even run away properly... and something just switched in him...

✧ it's easy to say, he doesn't care if your bullies are boys or girls, he'll give them a little lesson anyway. But I'd they're girls, he'll go a bit lighter, not breaking their noses but just giving few bruises... They can do that to you, so why he can't?!

✧ after he deals with that, he asks Kohane/An to look for you around the school you go to and call him if they find you, while he goes look for you anywhere else

✧ his first thought would be to scan area around the school but when he doesn't find you there, he goes to your SEKAI and either Miku immidietly tells him where you are or he finds you himself

"Hey, hey, don't worry, it's me, yeah? Why didn't you tell me someone was giving you a hard time? I could give them a lesson or keep you company.. or ask someone I know to do that."

✧ he'll most likely hold you closely, trying his best to comfort you, letting his soft personality slip a bit

✧ and you bet either he won't take his eyes off you at school for even a second or you'll see Kohane or any of her friends every break, checking on you

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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @yulikesminori @toyaswif3y @miya-akane @hayillaaaaaaa @stellas-starry-stove13 - come get your pancakes lover!

✧ Rui always was a bit worried about you, don't get him wrong... he trusted your abilities and experience but he couldn't help but still be worried whenever he left

✧ he obviously tried always being around you or taking you with him whenever he could, but it's obvious he can't be there forever

✧ he probably assumed you could have some problems around your peers, so he tried observing closely but never could find evidence

✧ untill today when he clearly saw you running away to the nearest quiet spot you remembered

✧ he didn't wanted you to break under criticism so he of course intervened by having quick talk with your bullies, he won't throw fists but he might sneak in few problematic robots that'll get them into suspension~

✧ but coming back to you! He immidietly went to look for you, and when he saw you nowhere despite you just running in that direction, he immidietly knew to take a peek in your SEKAI

✧ he knows you well, so he trusts his intuition and current knowledge to lead him to the right place

"There you are! Sh sh sh sh... It's fine.. I promise they won't bother you again. I'll be right next to you from now on, okey?"

✧ he's very worries and you can tell that by his voice and by the way his hands are always holding yours or embracing you gently

✧ and most importantly, you can tell he's sincere when he promises you he won't let you walk alone through corridors ever again, even if you're from Miyamasuzaka, he'll get Emu or some of his robots to keep you company

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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @yulikesminori @toyaswif3y @bl4cktourmaline @r4wrclwz @superstar-ethereal @stellas-starry-stove13 @alicewinterway18 - come get your crazy inventor!

✧ gossips always reach House of the Hearth quickly, and Lyney as a magician gets to hear them not only from there but also among his audience, so you could only imagine how quickly he abandoned his street performance the moment he heard about someone joking about your disability

✧ he didn't had time to look for who it was exactly but thanks to few gossips, he got few hints onto where you could be hiding at the moment

✧ he ran so fast to the opera, poor Lynette had to deal with shocked audience all by herself... he bought her favorite sweets and apologized later tho so she forgave him

✧ he on the other hand, couldn't even express how much he panicked, but you could probably hear it by the way his voice shaked upon yelling your name when he finally noticed you and how out of breath he was

"Y/N!!! Here you are... What happened? Who was it? Please tell me everything... I just want to make sure you'll be safe and sound without me..."

✧ let's just say... you never hear the people who upset you again... and even if you do, they never dare to even come close to you for some reason

✧ he's probably gonna watch over you more cautiously and spend some more time around you after that situation but doesn't want you to see it got to him so much or to upset you so soon, he's back to normal

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@bleachtheidiot @stellas-starry-stove13 - come get your charming magician~

✧ Freminet probably heard about it from one of his siblings who rushed to tell him about your situation or overheard some gossips on his stroll in city

✧ either way, he just takes Pers with him and runs around to try and find you, that's how he ends up knowing you were bullied, and what's worst.. not for the first time...

✧ knowing one place that you could've went to for comfort, he immidietly runs there, leaving small investigation for later

✧ he doesn't yell your name tho, instead he just keeps keen eye on his surroundings and finally he finds you just sitting on a beach with your head in your knees

"Y/N? I.. heard what happened. Can you tell me about it? I really want to help... or at least be here for you.."

✧ he'll place Pers on your lap and caress your arm in hopes to comfort you a little, as he listens to every word you decide to share with him

✧ if you decide to tell him who it was, you can be sure he'll do what he can so they won't bother you again.. and as a member of House of Hearth, it's not gonna be as hard

✧ but he keeps quiet about it and instead follows you to many places for few weeks out of worry about you. But he will stop if you tell him or if he notices it's bothering you

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@bleachtheidiot @miya-akane @stellas-starry-stove13 - come get your shy diver~

[nohasslecastle]

As much as I love spreading the "Sister Beatrice top agenda", I do not think Beatrice would behave anywhere near confident on her first time with Ava.

First of all, it's my headcanon that before Beatrice became a nun she didn't actually get to live or experience a lot, so everything she could have learned in her teenage years, she actually didn't, because her parents were too strict, and she was just too afraid to stand up against them.

Her parents sent her to that boarding school probably because at some point she admitted she had romantic feelings for one of her friends, but that was it, Beatrice is oblivious to love, and relationships, and, of course, to sex.

Add that to the fact that Beatrice is a perfectionist, with a great fear of failure, a control freak that gets overwhelmed when she feels she can't handle the results of any given situation she's involved with... Beatrice doesn't quite know how she should behave around Ava, and the not knowing... that terrifies her.

It's not that she's worried Ava would make fun of her, of course, she would never. But there's just something inherently annoying about not being able to BE good at something, specially when the only way to learn 'that something' is... actually doing it. But, will she be able to be good enough for her? Will she be able to be what she thinks Ava deserves?

When Ava comes back, Beatrice doesn't immediately kiss her, she doesn't jump into a relationship with Ava and certainly she doesn't jump straight to bed with her, simply because she has absolutely no idea how to do it without making it weird. So, of course, their comeback kiss is started by Ava, their "what are we?" conversation is started by Ava, and their first time... guess what? Also started by Ava.

I picture this: after the re-encounter they didn't have much time to talk about what had happened between them, they were once again in survival mode and it's only one day after a big fight that they finally and unintentionally find themselves alone. Everything that happened is weightening on Beatrice and she's pretty much gay panicking every time Ava gets too close to her.

It's not that she doesn't want her, on the contrary she wants her so much she's overwhelmed by a feeling she had never felt before, or at least, not in a very long time and certainly not with enough maturity to understand it. When they last kissed it was a life or death situation, now they are just staring into each other's eyes, something clearly in the air, but everytime she tries to say anything, something holds her back.

Ava tries to give her space. Ava is everything that Beatrice is not. She's reckless, and a risk taker, and if she fails so what? she tries again. However, Ava is aware she closed a line last time... not only on Beatrice's vows but on a restriction she had put on herself. Ava is trying to make things right and Beatrice knows it but at the same time she's begging, begging, Ava to push her, because that's how they work right?

At some point the silence becomes too unbearable and Beatrice is frustrated. She hates that she can't be as resolved as she is in most of her activities and Ava is... kind of having fun at it, looking at the perfect sister Beatrice losing her shit it's fun, it's so unlike her it's amusing.

Ava is laughing and that only makes Beatrice's frustration grow. At some point Beatrice apologizes to Ava "I'm sorry, I really don't know what I'm doing and I hate it" and that's Ava's cue to do what she always does... push her a bit, give her courage. Ava walks slowy towards her "I don't need you to be an expert at this, Bea" she takes Beatrice's hands into hers "remember what I told you before I left? You don't need to be so perfect all the time." She lifts her hand to Bea's cheek and Bea gulps. She watches Bea lean into her touch, close her eyes, she brings her other hand to her chest and she can feel how fast her heart is beating "I only need you to be yourself." She says. And Bea opens her eyes and looks at her.

Ava leans close to her, slowly, giving her time to adjust to the intrusion and when she's a breath from her lips she whispers "can I kiss you again?", looking at her eyes again waiting for an answer. Beatrice would simply nod because, let's be honest, that woman is incapable to form a simple thought when Ava is *that* close to her.

And when they kiss... it's shy, and it's tame, and honestly, Beatrice doesn't know what to do with her hands. Ava would guide them, maybe to her hips "you can touch me" she would state. Ava would open her mouth, begging for *more*, she would let Bea's hair down, touch her shoulders, then her chest, she would find that first button and unpop it. Bea would startle at that, only for a moment, only because she isn't used to it, but looking at Ava, with her lips swollen, panting, big eyes... she would push that thought aside. She would kiss her again and this time she would allow herself to touch Ava, gently, but more determined.

Ava would start walking backwards, as if saying "take me to bed" and Bea would walk slowly before her, with her eyes closed, trying to focus only on Ava's lips because maybe that way she would be able to shut up all the insecurities. They would stumble on their way to the bed and Bea would try to say "I'm sorry" while Ava would put a finger on her lips and just laugh, and say a terrible pun to her. Being there Bea would doubt until she doesn't anymore, until she stops thinking and Ava becomes the only thing she's worried at.

[duchessofostergotlands]

Just read your last post on autism and well you sound like me. I don't even have a diagnosis because it could stop me from becoming a public servant which I want to be (governmental prejuidice is amazing, isn't it?). However, I also have ADHD as a possible side "quest" on my laundry list. Everything I learned about it in women in recent years screams my experience. However, no one thought to test me because I did academically well like you in school and didn't have issues conforming to classroom rules. Back then you had to be a boy, running around constantly and failing classes to even get a consideration for ADHD here. No one saw that school was my own personal dopamine farm and that I constantly quietly fidgeted with something.

Idk where I'm going with this here but yeah I just felt seen by your post. I think I want a diagnosis eventually after I got my public servant position but I'm also scared of looking for one. Because what if it isn't depression, autism, ADHD and/or even BPD? What if I'm just a lazy slob that peaked in school and someone who is just easily distracted and not great at social interactions I haven't played through in my head a thousand times before?

Hello :) The internet can be a terrible thing but the best part of it is there will be someone, somewhere, who has experienced what you are experiencing. So yes, totally relate to what you're saying. I have similar thoughts all the time. "Maybe I'm just lazy, maybe I'm just sensitive, maybe I'm just a bitch" lol. To be honest I think genuinely lazy people probably don't ever think about the fact they're lazy or get upset about it so it's probably an indication you're not. Like I often think "am I actually a good person?" but I don't think genuinely bad people ever consider that!

I did see something helpful a little while ago. The comedian Aisling Bea did an interview where she talked about her ADHD and the shame she felt when she believed she was just lazy. She said that she loves acting and she can get given a script and learn three pages of dialogue over night - her dialogue and everyone else's - and people are astonished. But you give her a simple task like filling in a form and she just can't do it. I suspect you might find you're the same way. If someone gives you a task you enjoy or find value in then you can probably do it more quickly and to a higher standard than other people. You are capable of hard work. But if it's a task you don't enjoy or think is pointless you will feel like there's some kind of forcefield stopping you from doing it. I also think if it was just laziness, if it was a choice, then no one would ever choose to be lazy about things which are detrimental to them. The call it took me 3 months to make was to register with a doctor. It was really important, it was harmful to me to not have a doctor, and yet I couldn't do it. If I could have gone online and done the whole process there I would have. But I couldn't do it because I had to make a phone call which I struggle with. So if you 1) find that you are capable of putting in hard work in certain things and 2) find that the kinds of tasks you struggle with are important tasks and not doing them is potentially detrimental to you, it isn't just laziness. I think it comes out in a lot of women when we leave school because we don't have structure, routine, someone caring for us. The fact so many neurodivergent women were high achievers in school and burnt out later in life is not a coincidence!

But also, something I don't see talked about that much is how sometimes we are lazy but that laziness is a totally natural response to how exhausting it is to be neurodivergent. Having to be constantly aware of how you talk, how you sit, how you write all day to fit in with a world that you don't fully understand but you know if you get it wrong you could lose your job, your home, everything. The stress, the anxiety, the energy involved in that. After years and years of dealing with this, you are going to crash. So when we do have a rare good day where we feel energised, sometimes we choose to do the fun thing instead of the task we have to do. Other people can be productive because they know that they will probably have the chance to be lazy later in the day or the next day or the next week. Whereas I don't know when I'll next have that opportunity. So sometimes we are being "lazy" but it's to try and repair the years and years of exhaustion and anxiety and stress that has built up! Other people are allowed to be occasionally lazy but we punish ourselves for it so much.

[averagewriter777]

Ghost and Doc (Simon "Ghost" Riley x F!Reader)

Masterlist

Part Twenty-Six

Okay- I can't apologize for something I'm not really sorry for. So, yeah... I wrote a character sheet, based on my own headcannons and personalities if anyone is interested in knowing. Could provide some background for some characters. Anywho, enjoy :)

Upstairs in your room, you’d finally stopped crying and had fallen asleep. Your head was on Soap’s chest, his t-shirt was wet with the tears that you’d shed during the time. Apologies had been given for it, along with apologies to your… to Kennedy, Soap just rubbed your back and listened. This wasn’t something that he could shush you for, or tell you to dry your tears to…

His phone buzzed in his pocket. Soap very carefully pulled it out and unlocked it, squinting at the paragraph sent by Price to the 141’s group chat- funny that they had one. You were excluded from this old group chat because it was created before you’d arrived on the team. Ghost must’ve just gotten off the phone with him.

Captain: Alright, I won’t call a meeting for this, because Soap is with Doc. Due to these circumstances, (Y/n) (L/n) will be staying in America until she can get her bearings. She is in no position to be back on the field any time soon. At the moment, we are in contact with someone she’s close to outside of these walls. Sergeant Gary Sanderson, better known as Roach. He’s off assignment and will arrive in America as soon as possible. Once Roach arrives, you four will return here. We have information on the Hawk that needs to be taken care of ASAP. Thank Laswell when you get back.

Soap frowned at the entirety of the text Price had sent. He understood the situation, but he didn’t want to leave you on your own. You were like a sister to him at this point. And how the fuck do you know Roach? It will be a bitter greeting once the other man arrives considering his past with Ghost. Hopefully they will set that aside for your sake.

Soap: Copy that, Captain. One question though, how does she know Roach?

He set his phone down when you started to squirm and cry again. Soap looked to see that you were still sleeping and sighed. He noticed that Alejandro and Gaz replied with ‘copy’ as well, but Gaz added his curiosity as to how you knew Roach as well. Ghost remained dry in the chain, leaving Soap to assume he wasn’t entirely thrilled on the matter.

Captain: Her force worked together with his on an assignment in 2013, shortly after she joined SF. He claims they’re good friends and I’ll leave it at that. ETA is ten hours… best tell Doc when she’s available.

Soap looked down at you, seeing the tears coming back as you cried softly in your sleep. He decided at this time that you should wake up. He tapped your shoulders lightly. “(Y/n)? C’mon, lass, wake up…”

You woke up, almost choking on new sobs that were approaching. Soap held back a silent sigh and pulled you into another hug, continuing the rubs into your back. The apologies started again, and this time Soap decided to shush you- as a way to get you to calm down. “I-I’m sorry, John.”

“‘S okay. Don’t apologize,” Soap let go of you and smiled as gently as he could. “Umm… I was supposed to tell you this when you woke up. You’re going to stay here for the time being, heal up from what happened. Price found someone to take care of you while we go back to base- they discovered information that we can’t ignore.”

Found someone? You brought up your sleeve to wipe your eyes, exhaling shakily. “W-Who?”

Soap thinned his lips, but kept his smile. “Sergeant Gary Sanderson? A friend of yours.”

-

Roach couldn’t remember the last time he’d been to Fort Bragg. Nine years ago he’d been on assignment with a group of the soldiers, which included you in the group. It was difficult to get along with the others, so he stuck around you. Despite being a medical sergeant, he didn’t give a shit.

“Hey- two goldfish are in a tank, one turns to the other and says: ‘Do you know how to drive this thing?’”

“Shut the fuck up so I can fix your leg, please.”

A beautiful friendship it was- or is. The only disagreement the two of you had was when it came to Shawn, Roach didn’t like him from the beginning. He didn’t seem like the type of guy to match with someone who was deployed 24/7… but he let it happen, because you’re his best friend. He did, however, say: “I told you so” because you gave him permission.

What worried him the most at the moment and made him drop his little vacation was an old issue you had. He remembers after the divorce and custody agreement that you hugged alcohol like it was your best friend. Borderline alcoholic was what you became, and he flew all the way from Europe to snap you out of it.

“You didn’t lose your daughter! You still have visitation! You think she’d want this for you?! Do you want her to see you like this? At the bottom of a bottle, sad-drunk off your ass?” He sent you to AA meetings until you’d sobered up. Now, drinks were celebratory or around friends only.

Roach wondered if the 141 was aware of the way you positioned yourself around alcohol… probably not. He fiddled with his gloves at that, not wanting to explain what he’d be doing there to her team. Something told him they wouldn’t really approve- at least Ghost wouldn’t.

“Ugh… Ghost…” Roach scrunched his nose up at the thought of seeing that man. The burn scars along his skin made him think about the last time they’d been in the same area together. But he couldn’t dwell on that- he was here for you, not him.

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You played with a necklace on your neck nervously while waiting for the plane to completely land. It had a picture of you and Kennedy in it, but you wouldn’t open it… not when you’d just finished crying again.

Soap watched you, just as nervously, then leaned into Ghost: “You sure this is going to be a good idea? She looks on edge here…”

“They haven’t been in the same room since her divorce with Shawn. I don’t know how this is going to go down, Sergeant. But these are Price’s orders, so we’ll follow.” Ghost didn’t sound happy himself, but nothing could be done about it- exactly like he said.

The plane had landed and the back was slowly opening. You walked slowly towards it, stopping where the exit was. A deep exhale left your lips as a man revealed himself from the back of the plane. Once he saw you though, he dropped his bags and hurried down, engulfing you in the tightest hug when he made it to the bottom. Your tears started to flow freely again.

“I got you, (Y/n)... I got you…” Roach rubbed the side of your head, muttering other things to you to get you to calm down. While doing so, his eyes trailed over to Ghost and narrowed.

A/N: Am I doing better?

Part Twenty-Seven

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[brawlina]

HC REQUESTS YOU SAY???? any friendship headcannons for bea???

- @starrr-cringee

Yay, my first ask!

Here's my friendship headcannons for Bea!

GENERAL

Bea isn't the most extroverted or outgoing person, but she's never struggled with making friends. Shes got pretty positive relations with almost everyone, barring a few haters.

Making puns is an excellent way in piquing her interest. She likes having pun-offs with her friends. She doesn't always win, but she doesn't mind as long as she has fun!

Bea doesn't like being patronized, so brawlers who do that are a little lower on her like list. There doesn't seem to be a hate list yet.

BRAWLER SPECIFIC

Max was Bea's first friend in the park, having joined it together. Bea sometimes finds Max's energy exhausting, and Max doesn't get all her babble about bugs and stuff, and they both have terribly busy schedules, but they always try to say hi and catch up whenever they get the chance.

This friendship with Max is why she got tapped to act as a villain for the 'Max Force' series (In my headcannons, skin collections are like special stories and events made to drive up more hype and business for the Park and its properties.)

Bea was actually pretty intimidated by Rosa when they first met. Rosa was her superior in both the Biodome, the brawling scene, and just in everything physical. But once she discovered Rosa's silly and nerdy side, they immediately became close.

It really wasn't a surprise to anyone (except maybe the two of them) that they ended up as a couple.

She didn't think she'd get attached to Sprout so much when she and Rosa made it, but now they think of it as their son. It even calls them mother sometimes.

Bea adores Spike a lot. She's always happy when he comes around looking for Sprout and just finds him to be a nice lad.

Bea is less enthused about 8-BIT and Tick. They're both fine robots , but sometimes she can't help but worry that 8-BIT's temper and Tick's chaotic energy will rub off on Sprout. she really is a mother.

She likes Carl. Even though she knows very little about Geology, she doesn't mind sitting down and listening to him ramble about all the kinds of rocks before having a little punning contest.

Bea and Piper have a nice little trade deal going on where she supplies Piper with honey her bees make, and Piper gives her some of her baked goods. There is more to their friendship than just that, but sweets just make the world go round.

Speaking of honey, she has a deal with Nita to keep giving her honey so she and Leon don't break into the Biodome and mess their research up. This worked pretty well, though its been less effective since the Candyland area opened up.

Bea empathizes with Meg in being underestimated for their diminutive statures and in having more popular co-workers. She likes to cheer Meg up and remind Max to keep her younger teammate in mind. (Meg is a teen genius in my headcannons. But I'm not yet sure exactly how old she is yet)

Chester is one of the few people she doesn't like very much because he tried to pull a prank and nearly broke something in the dome.

Eve and Bea have a tentatively okay relationship. Eve is not over Bea capturing her in a jar (even though she apologized for it) and she will never let Bea near her babies. They can still work together for Brawls, though and Eve doesn't mind being around her in the safety of her own ship.

Bea and Angelo have a weird friendship. Originally, Bea just wanted to learn why and how Angelo turned into a mosquito, when Angelo suddenly started venting and gossiping with her. Shes not one for gossip, but it seems to make them happy and they sometimes tell her what its like to be a mosquito.

Because of her relationship with Angelo, Willow seems to be cool with her too.

[rom-e-o]

I'm in the mood for a good Bea smackdown for my birthday. So can I ask for TeTe and Connie going off on her if they're out to lunch with Bea and Bess, and Bea starts going off on Bess for... everything?

AAAA HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUILL!

Now that, THAT, would be an absolute pleasure to deliver on.

I feel like TeTe cannot STAND Bea, but it is Bess' mother, so she tries to play nice. Connie is the same. Be good, they think. MAYBE something will change?

Should Bea start running her mouth about Bess, she wouldn't get far at first. Bea makes a comment about something simple first, because I'm sure that nitpicking for her is probably second-nature at this point. Perhaps Bess wore a dress, and Bea scoffs at how much skin it shows (which is not much, but Bess definitely looks much more put together than Bea). So, she comments, "Heavens, I'm shocked the waiter isn't fawning over you more in a dress like that. Maybe we'd get faster service. Although, it's not like a lower neckline would do much, hm?"

TeTe gives her a stare that could freeze lava, and Connie regards her sternly over the rim of her espresso cup. "My, my. What an odd thing to say. That dress is one from a recent Barcelona trip. It looks positively stunning on her. Myself, my mother, and the man courting her agree thoroughly."

Bea, perhaps with a death wish, keeps going. After all, they're in public. What could either of these ladies really do?

"I'm only teasing."

"No, you're not."

"Ugh, Bess, what have you done to these ladies? They can't take a joke. You've dulled their wits, I see. I was looking forward to some more esteemed company."

TeTe's china clinks unceremoniously loud against her saucer. Her glare has changed from icy to venomous.

"My dear Bea, forgive me if I'm out of line, but the young lady sitting across from me is some of the most esteemed company I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing," she says. "Just because you are incapable of understanding that does not mean I want to be dragged down to your level."

"Wh-"

"She's nicely telling you that your attempts at insulting Bess are mean-spirited and stem from your own projections," Connie says.

"Projections?"

"Because you're jealous of your daughter, dear," TeTe says. "And quite bitter. It's textbook narcissism."

"Please! I'm not envious of anything."

"You should be," Connie says. "Bess had many friends, a beau who adores her, a job of high esteem, and a packed social calendar with galas and fundraisers. Anyone with a modicum of taste would be envious of such a lovely lady."

The implication infuriates her. "Please. The ONLY reason you're on her side is because you're just as much of a whore as she is. I mean, pregnant as a teen, ruining an innocent man's life? She should have stayed put away. She's earned her scrutiny as a homewrecking, tawdry little slu-"

TeTe's coffee is in Bea's face immediately. There is nobody seated around them now. As Bea pushes herself back and frantically reaches for a napkin, TeTe grabs her by the wrist. Her grip is iron-clad.

"Bea, let me say this only one more time. Each time I tolerate your company, you go out of your way to shame your beautiful, kind and amazing daughter. You FAIL to realize how fortunate you are to call such a wonderful woman your daughter. You were blessed with a child, and refuse to acknowledge the wonderful woman the rest of us can readily see. You brought Bess into this world ... and THAT is the only reason I'm grateful for you. Otherwise, you would be unfit to spend any passing second with. You have my attention because of Bess, and nothing more."

Bea looks to Connie, maybe thinking she'll help? Nope.

"If I EVER heard you insult Bess, call her names, or try to diminish the horrible pain she went through - largely because of YOU - prepare to sit though a laundry list of all your shortcomings and mistakes. Since you enjoy teasing so much, I'm sure you won't mind some at your expense."

Bea retreats to try and salvage her outfit, and Connie and TeTe go to Bess.

"How on EARTH did you live with that woman, darling?" TeTe asks. "You must have the patience of a saint."

[birgittesilverbae]

(Platonic) Mary + Lilith -> babygirl

Lilith looks up from her drink as Mary approaches the booth tucked in the back corner of the pub, and her face falls.

"Where's Shannon?"

"Gonna do my best to not be offended that I don't even rate a 'Hello'."

"Hello, Mary. Where's Shannon?"

"Something came up. It's just gonna be you and me."

"'Something' came up?"

"She's over at the house."

Lilith's jaw tightens, but she nods in understanding and tips her glass to Mary. "She always did like Beatrice better."

Mary pinches the bridge of her nose and takes a deep breath. "Okay. I'm gonna go grab a beer and you'd better have a handle on yourself by the time I get back." Lilith gives her a look she probably intends to be derogatory, but it just comes off as pathetic, and Mary sighs. "What're you drinking? I'll get you a refill."

"Double vodka soda."

Mary's nose crinkles in disgust, but she nods and goes to retrieve the drinks. As she waits at the bar, she takes the opportunity to observe Lilith unnoticed. In the weeks since Lilith moved out her cheeks have grown hollow, her clothes not fitting quite as closely. When the bartender passes her the drinks, she leans in to order a platter of nachos before heading back to the table. If nothing else, she can at least try to get some food into the girl.

"Is Libby okay?" Lilith asks the moment Mary returns to the table.

"What?"

"You said something came up–"

"Lilith, you know you'd have been the first call if it were about Libby. Bea's sick, so Shan's over there looking after her and Libby."

"I would have–"

"Bea didn't want to disturb Libby's routine anymore than it already is." Mary tried to keep the note of judgement out of her voice, but it sneaks in all the same. 

"Right." Her cheeks darkening, Lilith takes a healthy swig of her drink.

"Anyway, did you even tell her you're in town right now?" Lilith's grimace is enough to answer the question. "For fuck's sake."

"What was I supposed to say? 'I know I don't have Libby until this weekend, but I'm back in town so could I come see her'? You really think Beatrice wants to see me unscheduled?"

I do, actually, Mary wants to say, but she buries the urge. "No, I guess not." She picks at the label of her bottle with her thumbnail as Lilith rolls her fresh glass between her palms. "Sooo," she drawls finally, after the length of the silence has edged halfway towards uncomfortable, "how you been?"

Lilith fixes her with a glare. "You don't have to pretend as though you care, Mary. I'm perfectly fine sitting here in silence for however long it takes for you to finish that beer and check this off your honey-do list."

"I do care, for some godforsaken reason. And not just because I'm dating Shannon," she adds as Lilith opens her mouth to reply, "So you can get that outta your head immediately. I could've easily cancelled on you, alright. But I'm here, Lilith. Fucking talk to me. Because I know you, babygirl, so I know you've just been steeping in this like a rancid little tea bag."

"I can't be a little tea bag, Beatrice likes tea."

Mary has to pat herself on the back for the sheer strength it takes not to kick the little idiot in the shin. Instead, she takes a second look at Lilith, notes the looseness of her posture with a sinking feeling in her gut. "How much did you drink before I got here?"

Lilith starts counting on her fingers, then stops and shakes her head. "Not enough…?" she offers up. 

Mary reaches across the table and snatches Lilith's drink away from her. Warding Lilith off with a palm in her face, she downs the remainder of the drink and slams the glass onto the table. "Okay," she says, "here's how this is gonna go. You're gonna buy me another couple beers, we're gonna eat the nachos I ordered, you're gonna get half an hour of a sobfest on my shoulder, and then we're each gonna cab home and never talk about this again. Capisce?"

[gadriezmannsgirl]

hii honey how are you? how would you feel about writing something for antoine? like where he wants to ask reader out because he’s in love with her but she comes from a difficult relationship (it could be her ex was violent or he cheated) and so she’s not ready to date again but antoine being the kind man he is he’s ready to wait for reader for all the time she needs? thank you so much :)))

I feel absolutely incredible writing for Antoine. I'm gonna take the cheating option because I don't write about violence, disorders and those kinds of stuffs, 'cus I don't feel comfortable doing those kind of scenarios. And dk if it was just me but the request has gotten me "When You're Ready" by Shawn Mendes and "I'll be Waiting" by Cian Ducrot feels. So OF COURSE I'LL DO IT.

Also, what a game Atlético had against Sevilla 6-1 and of course Anto scored😌🇨🇵 (Also, I know I'm a bit late but Uni wants to kick my ass; I don't let it tho)

I really hope you like this, please let me know what you think!

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When You're Ready, I'll be Waiting - Antoine Griezmann

Summary: He's willing to wait for you for all the time you need for as long as you need to.

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No. This wasn't supposed to happen. Not to you. Not again. You couldn't give him what he wanted. You wouldn't allow yourself to fall again.

But you were kinda halfway through there.

And you wanted to stop it before it becomes too late and end up like the last time.

Alone and heartbroken.

"Please, don't get me wrong" You hurried up to say "I really like you too. And a lot!" You exclaimed before sighing "I just...-" You cut yourself off shaking your head "I'm-"

"It's fine, Y/I, it really is" Antoine said with a light smile on his face while grabbing your hands "I know..." You sighed looking straight into his blue eyes "And now, knowing you feel the same way, I'll wait for you"

"Yeah... I can't let you do that" You said shaking your head in disbelief "You're too good for me and you don't need to be waiting for my ass to get on its feet for a certain amount of time, when you can be happy and free with anyone else"

"But I don't want anyone else, I want you" He said with a smile on his face "And I will wait for you. Always. Whenever you're ready, I'll be here. For now, we can be friends and I'll be okay with it"

This wasn't the first time you felt a tug on your heart while being around Antoine.

You worked as part of the medical team in Atlético de Madrid, that was how you guys met each other. How you guys ended up becoming friends? That you didn't quite know for sure.

It maybe could've started with the usual player's check up, after some visits Antoine started cracking some jokes here and there managing to make you laugh and eventually hyping you up to say some jokes back.

Soon, it turned to asking for your phone number and then the texting came, at first it was a random times at day and only once a every two days but soon it started to become more frequently until you came to the way you were today.

During a night out that the guys had invited you, they had asked you personal questions wanting to get to know you better, after all, you only had six months working for them and they felt you were like a mystery because they didn't knew anything but your full name.

During those questions, your love life appeared, asked by Bea, Koke's wife.

"Any boyfriend? Fiance? Husband?" You shook your head lightly

"All single" You replied with a soft smile on

"Why? You're truly beautiful!" Ángel Correa's wife, Sabrina Di Marzo exclaimed impressed as you only lifted your shoulders shrugging

"Maybe some men don't see me that way" You said softly remembering how your last relationship ended

"Oh, but they are just assholes, I'm pretty sure about it" Antoine had said from besides you as everyone around the table agreeded with him

"You'll see, the right man for you will appear in the least moment you're expecting him" Yannick said with a soft smile

"He will" Antoine nodded at his words

"Yes, sure" You said before taking a sip from your glass of wine.

Maybe it was the little alcohol, maybe it was just you but you swear you could see in Antoine's eyes something and that was the first time your heart felt something you hadn't felt in the past eight months.

You recognized that feeling and you wanted it away.

But the thing was, you couldn't push Antoine away.

You tried to set your mind in work, see the players as patients and nothing else, but Antoine had other plans in mind, asking you to his house for a BBQ with his family, see Disney movies with his kids and what you thought it was friendly, it wasn't.

That's how you came here, in his house doing some red velvet cake as he let his feelings out for you.

And you liked him. A lot. You could see yourself being with him, but you didn't allowed it yourself. You weren't ready for a relationship. You didn't wanted to be broken again. You didn't wanted to cry yourself at night to sleep, you didn't wanted to feel alone after having company. You didn't wanted to mess up your friendship with a wonderful man, like Antoine is. But most important of all, you didn't wanted to feel how your ex made you feel, ever again.

You were scared. And it seemed like Antoine knew it.

"Don't worry, I'll wait and I'll help you heal. So you can be yourself again and never have afraid and I'll be here listening to you for everything you need" He said with a soft smile on, you were left shocked watching him impressed.

He knew how to read you from top to bottom.

"How'd you know that?" You asked watching him shrug a bit

"You're easy for me to read?" He asked with a smile making you crack on by yourself. You opened your mouth to speak but no words came out "You don't need to explain yourself if you don't feel comfortable" He quickly said as you smiled lightly

A comfortable silence stepped in between the two of you as you smiled at each other

"Thank you" You said softly "Want some?" You offered him some dough that was stick to the bowl as he inserted his finger and ate some of it.

You truly were in a bit of trouble if he keep on being like this

Three months have passed since then and things between the two of you were normal, just like before but now Antoine doesn't hide the fact he is attracted to you.

He tells you how beautiful he thinks you look, notices if you changed your nails color, compliments your hair, brings you your morning drink, some snack or just simply shares a small smile and tells you an 'We can talk later, sounds good?' and when you get overwhelmed, he's the first one to calm you down.

You were starting to look forward those later, you wanted to see him arrive at Civitas Metropolitano, laugh and spend time with him. He made you feel incredibly good.

Like no one else has done.

And meanwhile you liked that feeling, you still had your big doubts about it. You knew Antoine wasn't that kind of man, but you couldn't help it.

Today, it was a check up day. You had already checked up half of the team, cracking jokes and listening to any dolence of theirs and giving them recomendations, solutions and filling in their records when it was Antoine's turn.

"Hello" You said smiling bright watching him smile right back at you

"Hola" He said closing the door after him and giving you a one arm hug

"What do you have on your back?" You asked laughing slightly after his attempts to hide something

"Why are you noisy?" He asked back in between laughs

"Oh, I'm sorry!" You laughed pulling your hands up "Sorry" You shook your head

"I'm just kidding" He said pulling out his arm and showing you a little bouquet of sunflowers "Hope you like them" You inmediately smiled and nodded accepting the flowers

"They are beautiful" You said nodding "And my favorites too"

"Straight on point" He said raising his fist up in victory, you laugh lightly "How's your day going?" He asked while pulling his shirt up his head.

You smiled telling him about your day, a few events, nothing too exciting as his day probably was, but you loved the fact Antoine really cared for everything you had to say and acted as if everything was the biggest thing ever.

"I'm truly glad your niece is getting better. Hopefully we can go out with Mía and Amaro some day" He said after finishing pulling his shirt up

You smiled "Antoine" You softly said grabbing his attention

"What's up, chérie?" You stayed in silence for a while, looking at him.

You were processing everything, the rights, the wrongs, the pros and cons.

You wanted to give him a chance, you were happier with him. You weren't going to let some asshole, ruin your whole love life.

"My ex... He cheated on me" You started and paused for a long while, mentally ranking all the words from your head down your mouth, hoping they make some sense

"Y/N, you don't need to-" You cut him off by shaking your head with a smile

"He cheated on me with my best friend, said that the only thing I cared about was my job and basically how he thought I was fucking around with guys from my past work and that, that was the reason he cheated on me" You shook your head "That was bullshit" You said grading his response "I was truly and deeply in love with him and he simply broke four years of relationship in three months. It hurt me a lot because I really thought: 'This will be the man I want to marry and have kids with'" You shrugged your shoulders with a light smile

"I was-am" You corrected yourself "so afraid of falling in love again because I don't wanna end up broken hearted once more" You looked straight into his eyes stopping yourself from a moment "But... When I see you" You smiled "I can see myself doing everything next to you"

Antoine smiled lightly grabbing your hand "I like you so much" You said laughing lightly "And meanwhile I know you're not like my ex or any other kind of guy... I'm still afraid because I don't wanna mess anything up between us" You said smiling a bit "But I wanna be happy, I'll allow that to myself. Because I need it, I want it and I'm worthy of it"

"So... If are still on that waiting... If you still want me to go out with you someday, I just wanted to let you know that I'll love to do so"

Antoine smiled widely, he let go of your hands to wrap his arms around you and left a kiss on your cheek

"I'll always be ready whenever you are. This is our story, needs to be done with both of our ways but together as one. I will always wait for you" You smiled hugging him back "And get ready for the best date of your life" You laughed lightly "And thank you for trusting me with your past"

"Thank you for making me realize I have to give myself some priority and many chances as I'd like"

Antoine, proudly showed you his palm as you giggled unwrapping one of your arms from him to high-five him "That's my girl"

[bratshaws]

through the hourglass 162. brb x oc

a/n: hello i still feel like...something and I'm not proud of this chapter. not really my favorite. *shrugs * (reblogs and comments are super encouraged <3)

pairing: plus size!oc x rooster

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The sun cast a warm glow on the quiet suburban neighborhood, its golden rays painting the houses in shades of amber and illuminating the few flowers that lined the streets. It was a picturesque scene, a scene that Beatrice loved to see every time she woke up.

Their neighborhood was nice, it was calm and it had the obvious ‘american dream’ feeling to it. She found it strange to not hear music during the weekends or loud voices on the street, unlike the ones she heard while growing up.

As she sips her morning…cocoa, because she couldn’t have coffee, she takes a quick look on her phone to check the time, she’d visit her dad in a few minutes, she just had to wait for Rooster to go to work. She taps her nails on the porcelain cup, chewing her lower lip because she was worried, albeit she shouldn’t be. She knew what his job was about, she had these thoughts many,many times before, she mentally prepared many times before…so why was she scared?

Why was she nervous?

She hears his footsteps going down the stairs, turning her torso in time to see his broad frame appear on the threshold, one arm stretched as he adjusted his watch on his wrist, looking up only when he noticed Beatrice staring at him, “Gorgeous,” he whispers, “So this is where you’ve been.”

“Well,I was preparing breakfast.” she laughs softly, nodding to the fresh toasts, tapping her fingers on the porcelain cup, “And um…I couldn’t sleep that well, so…”

“Again?” she nods quietly, “Oh,baby…” he wastes no time in walking up to her and kissing her forehead, “It’s okay, do you think you can nap at the hospital?”

“I think so,I’ll ask um, Bri to take Nikki out for a bit so I can sleep.” she rubs her eyes, the movement preventing her from saying how she ‘wasn’t sleepy at all’ when in fact she was really sleepy, “I’m okay though,it could be much worse.” she shrugs weakly, giving him a small smile, “I…I just…you know, life is–”

He hates when she rambles because of her anxiety, because he knows her brain is confused and her heart is about to burst. He could see the slight tremble on her fingers from sleep deprivation, “How long were you up?”

“Hm?”

“How long?”

She parts her lips, looking at the side guiltily.”I don’t know, it was still dark when I woke up.”

Rooster's concern deepens as he observes Beatrice's fatigue and the toll it's taking on her, gently taking the mug from her hands to set it aside, his wife makes a confused noise but stops when  his hand reaches out to gently cup her face, his touch warm and comforting. "You need to take care of yourself, Bea," he says softly, his voice filled with genuine worry. "I know it's hard, but you can't keep pushing yourself like this. Your well-being is important."

Beatrice leans into Rooster's touch, closing her eyes. She takes a shaky breath, her voice filled with a mix of exhaustion and determination. "I know," she admits, her eyes welling up with tears. "But I feel guilty when I rest, especially with everything that's going on. I want to be there for Dad, for Nikki, for you."

Rooster's gaze softens, his thumb gently wiping away a tear that escapes her eye. "Bea…”

“I know.I know.I shouldn’t feel guilty,” she groans, “I know it’s my self doubt and my fear of disappointment being louder than normal and taking control of me, but…I-I can’t help it. I’m worried about my dad,I’m…trying to handle how I’ll be when you leave, and-and like I am pregnant and I can’t have these thoughts.”

Rooster's heart aches as Beatrice blurts out those words, they appear heavier than normal. He pulls her into a tight embrace, propping his chin on the top of her head. "You're allowed to have these thoughts, Bea," he says gently, “You know that very well.”

Beatrice clings to Rooster, seeking comfort in his strong arms. She sniffles softly, her voice muffled against his chest. "I know, but it's hard not to let the fear consume me sometimes," she admits, her voice trembling. "I know you said I don’t burden you but sometimes I still get these flashbacks and I can’t help it.”

Rooster pulls back slightly, his hands cupping Beatrice's face, his eyes locked with hers. "Ah,I forgive you.” he chuckles and she joins him seconds after, her cheeks reddening “ We're a team, remember? That's what being a couple is all about. Or did you just think I was just marrying you because you have an amazing ass?”

Beatrice’s eyes widen and she sputters a laugh, playfully shoving his shoulder, “Shut up!” 

Rooster grins, the familiar lightness returning to his expression as he enjoys Beatrice's laughter. He wraps his arms around her once again, pulling her close. "Mmmmmmmmake me.," he purrs to her ear, playfully biting the curve of her jawline, his voice filled with affection. "You can try, we both know how that will go.”

Beatrice's laughter subsides, and she looks up at Rooster, leaning back onto his chest, “Do we?”

“We do.” Rooster's smile softens, and he brushes his thumb gently across Beatrice's cheek. "We both know it can be…interesting." he says, his voice filled with tenderness, hearing her quiet ‘mhm’ "But hey, we’ll be alright, you know that.”

Beatrice nods, finding solace in Rooster's words and the warmth of his embrace. She takes a deep breath, allowing herself to relax in his arms. "Yeah, we'll be alright," she whispers, her voice filled with a mix of relief and gratitude, giggling when he smacks her cheek with a wet kiss before backing away to get his morning coffee. "So what’s going to happen today?" she asks with her arms crossed, “You uh, will talk to someone else about the deployment or…”

Rooster pours himself some coffee, blowing the steam before he takes a short sip, only answering her when he swallows, “Pretty much,I’ll also talk to new pilots,I need uh…a debrief, basically, since I’ll lead the whole thing.” he takes another sip of the warm beverage, allowing it to hit his stomach and heat him up from the inside, “And then we need to get ready to leave.”

“...right.” she quickly waves her hands when he looks back at her with worry in his eyes, “N-No, no it’s fine. I’m just,well I’ll just miss you…but I know you’ll be okay.” she smiles, waving her hands to break the tense atmosphere, “I swear I’ll be fine. I swear…do you think you’ll be able to call us?”

“I’d break the rules to do so.”

“Rooster.” she admonishes, but then smiles, “...you don’t have to break the rules to call us.”

“True,I don’t.” he laughs, “But even if I’m tired,I’d still call you.” he leans his lower back against the counter, holding himself upright with his hands so he could keep his eyes on her, “But I’d love to hear from you when I’m away…helps me sleep.”

“Mhm.”

“What about you?” he questions, tilting his head, “What are your plans today besides visiting your dad?”

“I think…those are the plans I’ll have.” she whispers, shrugging at him,”Then I’ll come back home and enjoy the night off…I appreciate Penny letting me stay home.She’s an amazing boss.” she smiles as she drinks more of her cocoa, “Maybe I’ll…take Nikki to the park,I don’t know.”

Rooster's eyes soften as he listens to Beatrice's plans for the day. He walks over to her, setting his coffee aside and taking her hand in his. "That sounds like a good plan," he says, his voice gentle. "Spending time with your dad and taking Nikki to the park will be wonderful. And don't forget to take care of yourself too, okay?"

Beatrice nods, intertwining her fingers with Rooster's. "I will," she assures him, her voice filled with determination. "I'll make sure to rest when I need to and take care of our little ones." She looks down at her belly, a loving smile on her face. "They're counting on me, after all."

Rooster's gaze shifts to Beatrice's belly, “So am I,gorgeous.” he says sweetly, then looks at his watch with a groan, “I gotta go.” his lips meet hers in a gentle kiss "I love you," he whispers, “Walk me to the door?"

Beatrice’s cheeks hurt from smiling, “Of course.” she does check on Nicole via the video app and she’s happy to see their little girl is still asleep, “I’ll give you a call,alright?” she tells him once they walk to the garage, her arms crossing over her bust to protect her front from the chilly winds, “Oohh it’s cold today.”

“A little.”

“You do know what cold is,Virginia Boy.”

Rooster laughs, he’s honestly so happy to see her joking and laughing, it was a nice break from the tense atmosphere from these past days. He watches as the garage door slowly rolls up and he drops his shades over his eyes, “I do.” he smirks, “But I also know how to warm my wife up if she so desires.”

“Stop.” she’s blushing,trying to hide her smile with her hand, “Go to work.”

“One more kiss and then I’ll go.” he smirks,pursing his lips, “I’m waitin’.”

Beatrice playfully rolls her eyes, but she can't deny the warmth that spreads through her at Rooster's words. She steps closer to him, her eyes sparkling with mischief. "Alright, just one more," she teases, leaning in to press her lips against his, cupping his cheeks so their lips would meet.

Rooster deepens the kiss for a moment, savoring the connection before reluctantly pulling away, his lips curving into a satisfied smile. "Alright, now I really have to go," he says, sliding his lower lip into his mouth, almost savoring her taste one more time, “I love you.” He gives her a quick wink before turning to head towards the Bronco.

“I love you too.” Beatrice watches him go, a soft smile on her face. She wraps her arms around herself, shivering slightly in the cold, but her heart feels warm. She knows it won't be easy to say goodbye, but she takes comfort that she’ll still have a few hours with him before he leaves for real. 

As Rooster gets into his truck, he rolls down the window and leans over, his eyes fixed on Beatrice. "Take care of yourself, Bea," he says, “And sleep a little too,gorgeous.”

"I will," Beatrice replies,”Take care of yourself too, handsome. I’ll be waiting for you."

Rooster nods, his eyes lingering on Beatrice for a moment longer before he starts the engine. "I will," he promises,  giving her a two finger salute that turned into a wave, he drives away, leaving Beatrice standing in the chilly morning air, watching him go.

Beatrice takes a deep breath, her hand gently resting on her belly as she walks towards the sidewalk. She should’ve grabbed a jacket or one of her cardigans, because that wind made her regret walking out immediately. She turns back around in a hurry, meeting Jolene’s huge head peeking out of the door, “Inside Jojo! It’s too cold!”

The pitbull however waits for the brunette to close the garage and finally walk into the warm comfort of their home. Beatrice sighed, leaning her back against the door and slowly sliding to the floor, bringing her knees up to prop her arms on it, and then cup her face in her hands as she stares ahead.

She was okay.

Sort of.

As Beatrice sits on the floor, Jolene taps closer, flopping next to her with her head on her lap and those honey colored eyes giving her the biggest and cutest puppy dog eyes ever, “...thanks Jojo.” she smiles, her body begging to rest but she couldn’t. Hell she might call Michael to pick her up, she couldn’t drive. Her head feels so heavy. “...I’m scared,Jojo.” she whispers to the dog, scratching her behind the ears “...I…I am scared,” and the tears pool on the corners of her eyes, “I didn’t want him to go.”. 

Jolene whines, still looking up at her human only to see Beatrice wiping her eyes with her fingertips, “Augh,I hate-” she sniffles, wiping her face with her sleeping shirt, “The hormones. I’ve been crying so much these past days.” with good reason, a voice in her head replies, “God I just…I…I don’t know if it’s my dad’s hospitalization plus Rooster’s deployment, but something feels so off.” 

Jolene senses Beatrice's distress and presses herself closer, offering comfort in her own way. The pitbull's warm presence brings a small measure of solace to Beatrice as she continues to wrestle with her emotions. Tears stream down her face as she blows an angry raspberry out of frustration with…everything.

But after a while Beatrice takes a deep, shuddering breath, trying to steady herself. She knows she can't let her fears consume her completely. She reminds herself that it's normal to feel scared and overwhelmed in the face of such significant challenges, repeating it to herself over and over because she knows it’s true.Everything going on is undoubtedly taking a toll on her emotional well-being.

Resting her head against the door, Beatrice lets out a shaky sigh. "I just...I wish things were different," she whispers, her voice filled with longing. "I wish my dad didn't have to go through this, and I wish Rooster didn't have to leave." Her words hang in the air, her own voice coming back to her ears.

Jolene nudged Beatrice's hand with her snout, so it landed on top of her head and so Jolene could protect the growing bump with her massive frame. Beatrice takes comfort in the pittie’s presence, laughing tiredly, “I’m sorry Jojo…I’m a broken record sometimes.” she says, chewing the inside of her cheek as she looks back to the sink, where both of their mugs were. Hers was still steaming, “...you know,maybe I should take on a new hobby with Rooster gone,maybe it’ll help me.”

Jolene stays close to Beatrice, the little dot brows moving with interest at her owner’s suggestion. “I don’t know…anything.Really,anything...to make this whole thing stop.” she gestures to her head and then covers her eyes with her hands, “...nevermind,I need to call Mike so he can pick me up.” she gently moves Jolene’s head away, not before kissing the pittie’s snout in thanks, “So I can sleep in the hospital, for a little bit.”

Jolene reluctantly moves her head away,standing up only to stretch her whole body as Beatrice walks upstairs to make the call. She does stop by Nicole’s door when she sees Eleanor and Jack up, their tails wagging and noses pointed to the crib, where a sleepy looking Nicole sat, squinting her eyes at nothing.

Beatrice smiles softly as she watches Eleanor and Jack, eagerly gathered around Nicole's crib. She walks over to them, her exhaustion momentarily forgotten as she takes in the adorable scene. "Hey there, little sleepyhead," Beatrice coos, reaching down to gently scoop up Nicole in her arms. "Did you have a good nap?"

Nicole blinks up at Beatrice, her tiny hand reaching out to grab onto one of Beatrice's fingers only to change target and move towards her eyes, rubbing her face instead. Beatrice's heart swells with love as she gazes down at her daughter, fixing the little onesie collar around her neck. "You're growing so fast," she whispers, pressing a gentle kiss to Nicole's forehead.

  A sudden weird and dark thought shows up in her brain, making Beatrice still as if she was    being hunted by something, and that something was inside her brain. She clenches her eyes, shaking her head “No, not this. Not now– come on Nikki, let’s call uncle Mike and…go visit your nonno.” she had to ease her mind, especially after that.

And she hated how her heart felt cold when that happened.

[purpleshadow-star]

So, in preparation of the movie coming out next month, I reread Red, White & Royal Blue. I just finished it, and then I rewatched the trailer for the movie, and tbh, I have some concerns.

The thing I love so much about the book is the emotion. Alex and Henry are complex people with deep emotions. Confident on the outside, but struggling and nervous and anxious on the inside. Sure, the trailer looks fun, but I'm really hoping the more vulnerable sides of Alex and especially Henry are going to be shown in the movie.

The trailer also makes it seem like Henry doesn't like Alex either, at the beginning? Like, at the beginning of the book, the fact that Henry never really started out their interactions with antagonism like Alex did stuck out to me so much. Henry himself even says it! We know that Henry liked Alex the whole time, and it's shown through the fact that he always tried to be civil while Alex was the one who started their conversations with snark and sarcasm. That's why Alex enjoyed the moments when Henry would let a bit of fight come out. That's why it was such a noticeable thing to Alex when Henry snarked back at him during his first visit to England post-wedding.

In the trailer, it makes it seem like in the beginning, Henry doesn't like Alex just as much as Alex doesn't like Henry, if not more so. Movie Henry seems so openly antagonistic towards Alex, especially in the cake scene, and tbh it just feels wrong to me. The failure to portray Henry's feelings for Alex and his reluctance to participate in Alex's antagonism like the book does (especially considering we were seeing Henry through Alex's pov) makes me worry about whether or not Henry's more complex emotions will be shown in the movie at all, and Alex's too for that matter.

Also, I noticed that in the scene where Alex and Henry talk in the kitchen at the palace during Alex's fisrt visit to England post-wedding, it seems like they took out what was important about that scene and replaced it with surface level antagonism and snark to really sell the whole 'rivals to lovers' thing or something. It's like they're trying to convince us that Henry sees Alex just as much of a rival as Alex sees Henry, when that's just not the case. In the book, that's the scene where Alex really starts to see Henry for the first time, even if just for a moment. Not the put together Prince of England, but the sleep rumpled, pajama-clad insomniac who just wants some ice cream.

In the move trailer, it shows Henry wearing a dress shirt and tie, and his tone is snarky when talking to Alex, when in the book, Henry is genuine and unsure of himself. This is another time when we see that Henry has never really tried to be antagonistic towards Alex out of nowhere. In the trailer, it seems like Henry is going to be acting in the opposite way.

I'm not saying the movie has to be a word for word exact portrayal of the book because I don't believe that. A good adaptation will inevitably have to change things, but it only works if the changes make the story better, or at least if they make sense. Right now, I can't see the benefit of changing Henry's character so much. The Henry that I saw in the trailer, at least at the beginning of it, honestly doesn't feel like Henry at all to me.

The last third or so of the trailer, especially the clip of (who I'm assuming is) Bea asking Henry if he loves Alex, gives me hope that they'll get into the more emotional sides of these characters, but tbh I'm still kind of worried.

(Also, side-note, I hate the fact that June's character was cut entirely. She was there for Alex when he needed her, and her character gave us more insight into the complexities of the first family. She showed us that kids of divorce can see things differently when it comes to their parents, and as a child of divorce myself who has had differences of opinion with my sibling, I loved seeing that in the book with June and Alex. And, of course, there was her whole dynamic with Nora. I hate that she won't be in the movie at all. I hope they don't also cut the fact that Nora is queer.)

I don't know, I was skeptical of the movie at first after just seeing the teasers (though, tbh, I'm always skeptical of book to movie adaptations at first. Maybe it's the Percy Jackson fan in me), but after the trailer came out, I had more hope. Now, after rereading the book and having all the details fresh in my mind, I'm worried again. I know that trailers are made of clips that often times make more sense in context, so I hope the movie itself gives us more than the trailer implies. It makes sense that they'd want to mostly show the happier, more fun sides of things in the trailer so people will want to watch the movie.

I get that they might just be trying to go for a fun, not super deep, silly, comedic movie kind of vibe, but tbh, as fun and silly as rwrb is, it's also so much more than that. Some of my favorite parts of the book are the more serious parts. The parts where we see Alex and Henry's anxiety and insecurities. I really hope the movie shows at least some of these moments.

I'm definitely still going to watch the movie once it comes out, but I'm kind of concerned about how the story, and especially the characterization of the characters, is going to be portrayed. Hopefully, I'll end up being concerned about nothing. The last third of the trailer suggests that this will be the case, and I really hope it is!

I think the movie can still be enjoyable even if it doesn't show us the deeper and more nuanced sides of these characters, but can you blame me for hoping to see the reason why I fell in love with the book in the first place, the deep emotions of these characters, portrayed on screen?

(Tbh, I kinda lost track of my thoughts here. I think I'm concerned about Henry's drastic change in character more than anything else. It's easy to believe that there are more emotional scenes in the movie that we haven't seen hints of yet because obviously they can't show everything in the trailer. Henry's characterization, on the other hand... we've been shown two different clips of him that explicitly imply that he will be much different than the Henry we see in the book, at least in the beginning. Again, context is everything, so maybe it'll make more sense in the movie, but I can't imagine what context could be given to make those clips of Henry character accurate. And tbh, imo, there's no excuse for replacing soft, pajama-clad Henry in the kitchen scene with a dressed, snarky version of him)

(Also, the election isn't mentioned at all in the trailer? Tbh I think the book could have integrated the political parts a bit better than it did, but I still enjoyed it, especially at the end with election night. I guess if they set the movie in current day, an election won't make much sense, but the election and the stress and responsibilities that come with it add so much to Alex's character, and I honestly hope it's still included in the movie)

[semi-imaginary-place]

umineko ep 2-3

for a story proclaiming to be about love, the romances all kinda suck. Kinzo's onesided(?) deranged obsession is probably the most interesting. Ep2's been devoting a lot if attention to shannon and george and kanon and jessica and it's reminding me why i usually hate romance stories. 0 chemistry.

Hey beato is here looking like a 90s schoolgirl. Why did kinzo refuse beatrice from his study he's been raving about wanting to see her after all this time. And his contract with her is what has kept her locked to the island for the last 30 years? Their relationship is so weird. Wondering is battler is going to end up the next kinzo.

That goat is goated. Ripped with painted on clothes

Aw beatrice and battler really are getting along she wants him to call her beato. Also the fetish list is growing, I've been on the internet too long, she really wants battler to lick her shoes.

Hmm is there magic why gouta, shanon, and genji can't say much like why they didn't think it was kanon or like the whole shrugging off fatal injury and burned by spider webs.

Battler logic lol. I wonder if the terms of beatrice's powers means she always has to leave an "out". The phrasing of some of the red lines makes me wonder, there were no other people in the room, but what about beatrice's furniture she doesn't consider them people.

Wow ok that was straight up a scene from erotica. wtf kinky. Human pet dehumanization objectification humiliation degradation vore. The group vore. exhibitionism feet master slave. She might as well start pegging him. Guess this is the "good" ending rosa actually protected maria shanon and george and kanon and jessica got to die together genji stayed with kizo until the end kinza got to see beatrice and battlers a slave. And beatrice even got rosa to acknowledge her existence. And look how much happier beatrice is that battler's resisting she looked bored with him as furniture like she was trying to provoke his rebellion. It this how the it/its kink started this game is like from 2005? Oh of course bea has the 7 stakes to do the pegging for her.

Ep 3. Eva girlboss backstory. Wow sexism i want to puke. Minus the magic 100% of ushiromiya problems are from kinzo's grade F parenting. Eva in some ways did give up, pushing her dreams onto George. Everyone would have been better off if eva had cut off krauss and kinzo, gave up on ushiromiya all together and made her own way in life. Generational trauma i wonder if george's freak-ness is from eva's complexes. Can't tell if middle school eva is beatrice/witches/magic or actually her inner voice.

Hmm i distinctly remember in ep1 that jessica didn't realize she had a crush on kanon until he died. But in ep2 and here in 3 she's realized it before the conference even started. Are these repeated realities affecting subsequent ones? Just like how shannon was so embarrassed she ran away in ep2 but confidently put the ring on in ep2. Love has been a recurring element like it's the strongest magic or something?? So maybe it's transcending these boardgames/loops and accumulating each time? And it's not noticle with the adults because they're much older with more established relationships we only see the changes in the new developing relationships. Then who does battler love?

Thinking about it george's blue green beige color scheme is the furthest from beatrice who black red gold. Battler and kinzo have similar color schemes white and red minus kinzo's beatrice colored cape. I think battler will take on kinzo or beatrice's role by the end. Or that's a red herring and maybe he will actually escape rokujima. I wonder if battler wins he could actually take all beatrice's power and turn her into a human so that he shifts reality so that the 19th person is made real.

Huh. Oh there's going to be time shenanigans arent there. Like 1000 year old witch but 1000 years where. 1000 years as a witch could mean years outside of being a witch and as witches are outside of reality that 1000 years could have been outside real time. This is such a ti game and im a te i want evidence. So we have a baby gold/brown haired beatrice learning magic from silver haired beatrice. Current beatrice tells battler of her mentor in the next scene. Then in the same mansion a young woman Beatrice asks an old kinzo who she is and current beatrice confirms that us her past. I cant remember did kinzo say he got the gold from beatrice or from the gold beatrice specifically. Because im starting to suspect kinzo contracted with silver beatrice, gold beatrice is their daughter and then she took on silver beatrice's role and name and spent 1000 years in an instance outside of reality which would make the beatrice battler romantic/sexual tension real incestly. "human made by a human" bird in a cage Beatrice said this before. It's also possible ahe was a witch before meeting kinzo but he somehow managed to trap her and turn her into a human so she's stripped of the witch part temporarily. Ok throw all that out still not sure about silver beatrice but if im interpreting current beatrice right she was the witch contracted and then trapped by kinzo. Un-aging, to escape him and the mansion (ku... Something) she left behind her flesh body which is why only some of the servants can see her but it seems she is still trapped on the island. Kinzo continues to be the worst "how many affection tokens do i have to pay before she likes me", forced "consent", "why doesnt she like me i only imprisoned her for 30 years." So current beatrice's body actually did die how did kinzo "make" another identical one. Magic baby, got it. literal groomer. I dont really feel bad about his anguish anymore. Young woman/teen? Beato in 1967 (also being evil aged kinzo if he's looked the same for 19 years). But if that were true that homunculus would be like 40 in the current time. Or is kinzo constantly killing and remaking beatrice i wouldn't put it past him. That fence is totally climbable just very dangerous there's foothold everywhere of course if you fall you'll break your neck. Hmm so 30+ , 19, and 0 years ago beatrice's body was grown. So for the beatrice rosa met to have grown up by 19 years ago, gold witch beatrice must have killed her body very soon after imprisonment. The body the family meets in ep2 must be a new one but was that another magic baby kinzo alchemied or one beatrice manifested for the conference.

Oh yeah Beatrice is regaining her power in successive rounds there's more and more magic each round. Kumasawa is a sealed silver beatrice.genji shanon and kanon are homunculi. At this rate is gouta will be a sealed demon.

Ronove just snarking at beatrice at every turn. With commentators this time it's less intimate but beatrice us less intimidating. After all the fuss battler made about not wanting to suspect any of the 18 last 2 episodes.

Yeah baby mind eva is talking about magic i suspect a witch is involved.

Uh so eva wished so hard to made herself a witch? This is going a little too well for eva. She found the gold became the ushiromiya head, and got Beatrice's name and titles. Interestingly it is baby meta eva that becomes beatrice not adult eva. Hmm with eva's solution this could be an end to the game as beatrice will not revive and the twilights will stop but somehow i feel like battler isnt going to accept that and deny eva this fate. Or eva Beatrice will continue the matches against battler.

Oh so the murders are continuing. Hmm i guess it is beatrice who is reviving but eva already has a body. Battler be like do not interact with me and she takes it personally. Beato's immaturity is showing virgilia is right she is like a spoiled kid. Beato sees eva doing the exact same and wow self reflection? She's so put out battler is mad and disappointed in her. She's a sadist she just needs to find a masochist who wants to be tortured on the weekends. Wow beato social consequences to your actions.

Kyrie: "i don't blame rudolph [for cheating and getting 2 women pregnant at the same time]" well i do. Kyrie and rudolph are a sexist match in heaven. Like damn kyrie hating on asuma when rudolph's the real problem. Kyrie and asuma should gave gotten together and ditched rudolph.

Hold up why DOES beato needs battler's acknowledgement but eva beatrice not need anyone's.

Well this is an early character development we arent even half way through. I miss the murderous beato she was having so much fun tormenting people. What determines who is a witch. Beato now adheres to vigilia's definition of witch. Why does meta battler exist anyways like meta wise it's commentary on stories and perspective but whats the in universe reason. Rosa isnt there even though she never believed in episode 2.

Wow im remembering how annoying the romances are in this novel. Also romantic love is the most powerful? Hate that.

forgot to mention earlier. Yuuuup schrondingers cat. All these neta battles are to determine which version of reality is true.

Nearing end of ep3 and gotta say i thought this was a murder mystery battler beato chess battle but this main plot has turned out to be witch battles idk if i like it i liked the murder mystery better.

Why is vigilia there didnt she die. Uhhhhhh thoughts. Compared to the other episodes battler gave up too easily. The writer did that so that beato could have her moment. I lost the plot didnt evatrice need everyone to believe in witches. Game battler still doesnt believe just like in ep1. Alternate reality beatrice whos a girl stuck n the secret mansion

I once again do not understand what is going on

Hmm so was eva ever really beatrice. Ah there's the beatrice who was having fun but i dont think all that fondness was a lie, the villain persona isn't fake but it is deliberate she's decided to continue playing villain. I wonder if killing virgilia was also a lie. Lamdadelta turned Beatrice from a human into a witch i wonder if that has to do with ep3 did she actually lose witch status to trick battler.

[justafrogandherumbrella]

Welcome to Nowhere: Everything is Fine Except for What's Not

You blink. Why does it feel like your heart just dropped down from your chest and through your stomach? Did something happen? You’re sitting at Mr.Rotary’s dinner table, and Mayor Miller is cheerfully scooping out portions of spaghetti onto everyone’s plates. Bianca and Jenny look relatively content- and you’re not sure why, but that seems strange to you.  Gia too, looks mostly at ease- if not a little apprehensive. They’re always somewhat on edge though, so this isn’t out of the ordinary. For some reason though, you feel as though their comfort is wrong. They shouldn’t be so relaxed, not when- 

When…

You don’t know. Strangely enough, you feel a quiet, humming content as well. You don’t know how or why- but you know that the feeling isn’t really yours. 

It’s everyone else’s expressions that solidify this belief. Unlike you, Jenny, Bianca, Gia, and Mayor Miller- everyone else looks horrified- afraid even. Well, everyone else but Mr.Rotary- he looks furious. 

“Rue!” Aderyn shouts, pushing back her seat at the dinner table and running towards you. “Are you alright?!”

“Y-yes,” you stutter, a little surprised by her reaction. “I’m fine. Why wouldn’t I be?”

“What-” She steps back, looking you up and down, horrified. “What do you mean ‘why wouldn’t I be?’ I have every reason to be worried about-”

“Sit. Down.”  Mr.Rotary glares coldly at Aderyn, not bothering to hide his anger. 

“Don’t order me around!” She snaps, whirling around to face the telephone-man. She stalks toward him, grabbing his shirt collar and pulling him out of his chair. “What did you do?” She snarls, attempting to drag him away from his chair. 

“Aderyn…” Despite usually being all for a bit of violence, Gia’s voice carries a warning to it. “Put him down.”

You glance around the room. Bianca and Jenny just look confused- but Emerson, who sits next to them looks so, so afraid. You can see it, even from the opposite end of the table. Every muscle in his body is tensed, and his antennae are looking down at the floor, blinking back tears. They look frozen. Hell, even Bea looks nervous… and she’s a monster-fighting dog. 

“What’s wrong with you?” Aderyn asks in disbelief. “We just-”

“Enough,” Mr.Rotary growls, causing his husband to shoot a nervous glance in his direction. “Listen to your friend.”

There must be something about his voice that makes Aderyn listen, because after giving you a pained expression, she lets go of his collar.

“Aderyn?” You ask cautiously. “What are we doing here? Shouldn’t we be at work?”

Before Aderyn can speak, Mayor Miller interrupts. “We invited you over… I think? I can't really recall making plans… but my husband remembers it, so it must have happened.” He giggles, giving a mock-knock to the side of his teacup-head. “Silly ol’ me, always forgetting things.”

No… that’s wrong. You don’t say it aloud, but you know it’s true. While you don’t know why you’re here, there is something you remember. 

You can remember that glowing red eye you saw in the mirror- even with the torturous buzzing in your mind trying to cover it up. 

It wants you to remember.

“Wha-” Aderyn gasps, looking around the table to see if anyone else understands what’s going on. Only Emerson gives her a weak nod.  She whirls around, facing Mr.Rotary again. “If you think I’m just going to-”

“I’ve had enough of your insolent blabbering!” He shouts, suddenly standing back up, slamming his fists onto the table and towering over Aderyn. “You’re lucky I’m giving you a second chance- I suggest you take it.” He sits back down, glaring at her. 

“Aderyn?” Emerson says softly, glancing at Mr.Rotary in fear. “What happened to Jerrell?”

Aderyn looks around, snapping her head so fast you’re worried she’ll give herself whiplash. 

“Jerrell?” Jenny asks, sounding so incredibly confused. “What’s Mr.Rotary’s mysterious phone… pal got to do with any of this?”

“You tied him up yourself didn’t you?” Emerson asks, giving her a weird look. 

Jenny shakes her head. “Gee, you two sure are acting strange…”

Shaking their head in disbelief, Emerson turns, limping over towards Bianca. Why is he limping? “You were carrying me, just a moment ago,” They say, sounding pained. “Don’t you remember?”

Bianca only looks down at him in astonishment before shaking her head. “No, I don’t”

Aderyn, still looking for the mysterious Jerrell, brings her attention back to Mr.Rotary. “Where did he go?” She snaps. “What did you do with him?”

“I haven’t the faintest idea what you’re talking about.”

“Emerson.” Aderyn’s gaze hardens as she backs away toward the door. “We should go.”

“Now?” They ask, looking worried. 

“Yes. We shouldn’t stay here.”

With that, Aderyn reaches out, grabs one of Emerson’s flippers, and shoots you all one last look before dragging him through the door behind her.

“Well then,” Mr.Rotary sighs, standing up. “I suppose you all ought to get back to work.”

“Already?” Mayor Miller asks, a bit of tea leaking through the crack in his teacup. “But no one’s even had a bite of their dinners yet.”

“Silence,” Mr.Rotary snaps. “They’re… loyal employees who want to be as productive as possible.” He glances toward the door where Aderyn and Emerson just left. “Isn’t that right?”

“That’s right sir,” you say, getting up from your seat. Gia shoots you an inquisitive look. “I should take my leave now. I’ve got loads of office work to do. Goodbye.”

You can’t get out of the room quick enough. Aderyn and Emerson clearly know something you- or anyone else can’t seem to remember, and you're going to find out exactly what that is. First things first, you’re going to find this “Jerrell” person- judging from what you already know and what Emerson said about him- you’re sure he’ll have some kind of answer for you.

So, rather than marching off to your pathetic office job, you sneak back around the building, climb onto the roof, and through Bianca’s open bedroom window.

[riverstardis]

series 32 episode 28:

that's a slightly ominous opening sjsdjjs

rash and bea running into work. rash hiding his runner past?

now rash has conquered resus he's begging alicia for more exciting cases so she gives him the incoming patient from prison sjdjdhjsf

aw alicia's still trying to apologise to ethan "i don't want it to be like this. look, i messed up, i don't know what else to say apart from i'm sorry. what i wrote i never intended you as the target." :( ethan's like "you humiliated me. and now you're upset because there's bad blood?" exactly!

"almost there" "lock up your nurses" "well, ours are called charlie, jacob, and david." SJKSDJJD

bea's uncle was english, as is her mum. i guess that makes sense actually because she lives in england

ah ethan tells bea he's cleared it for her to spend the week on orthopaedics where the head of department ms alex broadhurst teaches at the international trauma course that he put her up for... that means we're about to meet eddie

yup there he is🤬🤬🤬

bea's a graduate of swansea and won some "contribution to operations support award"

ms broadhurst's pretty fit ngl. also i feel like i've heard her name somewhere else?? i mean obviously i've seen these eps with her in a few times so it could just be that but i feel like it was another time outside of this storyline? has she appeared or been mentioned on the show any other times?

aw the prisoner kneeing rash in the face

gem's bonding with the prisoner over their prison time

oop eddie making bea take over from him because he's having problems with his contact lens apparently but then when the drill bit chips off and she wants to tell ms broadhurst he encourages her not to😬

"one cannot bring up boys to be eagles and then expect them to be sparrows"

bea telling rash about eddie "i swear the term 'punch me face' was designed with him specifically in mind" lmaooo so true

lmao rash telling bea everyone's annoyed about having pick up her slack while she's up in orthopaedics and then he's like "it's not you they're annoyed with, it's our elusive clinical lead. seriously i never see the guy unless he's in my face shouting about something."😭😭😭 i suspect the reason why rash isn't seeing him is probably that he's avoiding alicia and rash is her mentee😭 bea's like "well, he's got a lot on. it's not his fault you wimped out on a patient because he scared you." and rash is like "he nearly broke my nose!" sjsjdjsf i miss them

oop ethan finding alicia and having a go at her for getting dylan and rash to swap patients without telling him and she says she couldn't find him and he gets his phone out and points at it like "okay, this works, for the record, so next time use it, yeah?" helppp😭😭

and now charlie's got to give his opinion🙄 lmao ethan just says he could do without the fatherly pep talk right now😭 that's exactly what i was saying a while ago about how charlie's pep talks never work on ethan! something which charlie is obviously at least somewhat aware of because he doesn't keep trying he just switches tactic and gives him a telling off instead. god charlie's so annoying.

so ethan's presumably been hiding somewhere other than his office if alicia couldn't find him so they SHOULD be showing his side of things because he's obviously struggling! but instead they're leaving everything they could have used to keep him in character (as in, show why he's behaving as he is) off screen and just making him act like an arsehole

urgh eddie taking credit for the surgery >:(

woo go rash!!

rash jumping on the bonnet of the car to save gem sjsdjjsf

alicia telling charlie she needs ethan to sign off on a load of stuff but that she can't find him anyway and he says he thinks he's in a meeting and she's like "honestly, he makes this impossible" does she really not understand why he's still angry at her??? charlie asks her why on earth she wrote all that stuff on the blog "you must've known that he would take a lot of that personally" RIGHT?! alicia says "i don't know. i felt helpless and angry and it was an outlet. it was on impulse and then it just took on a life of its own. look, i know i've hurt people, are you gonna tell anyone?" he says that people have a right to know but he doesn't know how that would help anyone and "it hasn't been easy here lately, but the one who'll be feeling that the most is ethan."

the fact that no one else ever found out it was alicia makes me wonder if everyone just kept on thinking it was rash. because if noel was telling people that ethan thought it was rash, and then they found out that whoever it was had been found out and the blog stopped, they would just assume that he was right wouldn't they? except that rash wasn't aware that ethan ever thought it was him so it would be funny if someone just mentioned it offhandedly sometime in the future and rash would be confused why everyone thought it was him and then they would all be confused because they'd spend so long just assuming that it was sjdsjjsf

bea is WAY out of her comfort zone in this fancy restaurant with ms broadhurst and eddie😭

aww bea comes clean about the drill bit chipping but covers for eddie by saying that she asked to do it instead of him. and when ms broadhurst asks why they didn't tell her eddie tries to say they didn't want to create a complication where they didn't think it was necessary but bea says they were thinking about the international trauma course and trying to impress her. she's deffo just saved her arse, and won alex's favour, by properly telling the truth

aw yeah she's speaking to bea after eddie's gone and says she knows that it was eddie who asked her to take over and to hide the mistake but the fact she played along made her just as culpable, but she says that "playing the game" as in passing blame to score points isn't the only way and that she sees something in her. go on bea!!!

hey as much as i don't particularly care about rash and gem that much, at least they didn't just write them in out of nowhere and then try and gaslight us into thinking there had been something there all along!

[shadowofthelamp]

🫶A bio for Bea?

Ended up long so under the cut!

Name: Beatrice "Bea" Marie Pines

Age: 30, 12, 6. All technically true, but mostly acts and looks 12 so let's go with that.

History: Created through impregnating Ford through magic whipped up by Bill a mere few weeks before the portal test incident that severed their 'working relationship'. Ford was left pregnant for nearly 25 years on the other side of the portal as Bill had manipulated the gestation time as a threat, on top of the baby being half Euclidian so it was unpredictable- but wasn't able to change it when the connection between them was lost through dimensions. She was born through an emergency c-section during an attempted heist to get parts for the Destabilizer. Raised on the run, her aging seemed to be doubled, so by one year old she looked and acted like she was two, by two she looked and acted four, ect. Whether it was due to being half an energy being, a side effect of the extended pregnancy, or even something to do with jumping dimensions, no one can really say, but it seemed to stabilize when she was around other children in Gravity Falls when they were pulled back 'home'.

Personality: Highly intelligent and endlessly creative but with a habit of laser-focusing on whatever she's thinking of. Growing up as the 'sidekick' to Ford led her to extremely gung-ho when it came to adventuring, as well as somewhat socially awkward as she's never really interacted with anybody her own age on a regular basis- or had any friends other than her father. She often bites off more than she can chew, sometimes forgetting which memories are hers and which were Ford's as her abilities allowed her an open door to his head. (Although he does quickly learn how to build walls she can't get around, it's an unconscious instinct for her to 'share' even before birth, and she's more than once realized that the experience she thought she had wasn't actually hers, and she has to wing it.) Still, she'll always be in the thick of solving it and her somewhat reckless bravery can come in handy.

She keeps the fact that her other parent was Bill a secret, leaving her goggles on even when she sleeps until Dipper and Mabel find out soon after the events of Last Mabelcon when the goggles are torn off when she's trying to protect them. She feels deep-down guilt and fear at the idea she might be like Bill and might hurt people, and tries her best to be 'good' and 'the hero' in hopes that it'll stave off any 'Bill-ness' in her actions, although she only has secondhand accounts and memories of him, most of which Ford tries to keep locked away. (Even deeper down, she wonders if Bill ever actually wanted her as a daughter or just as a tool to manipulate Ford. She first meets him during Weirdmageddon, and then decides that even if he did, it doesn't really matter, because he hurt her family.)

Powers: Ability to shift into a small triangle form, can float in said form but can only hold up herself or very small objects that she's carrying. Her 'mind' powers are mostly centered around Ford at first as the pregnancy gave her a direct connection, but with time she's able to enter other people's dreams and give them 'suggestions' that they tend to follow once they wake up. Can turn food or even garbage into fuel for herself as her insides are essentially a giant furnace, which isn't really a power but is kinda cool. Can use a gun/knife/practiced in hand-to-hand combat.

Future: After Weirdmageddon is reversed, she ends up staying in the Shack with Soos and his grandma for a while after Stan and Ford go out sailing together, as she wants (and needs) to learn who she is outside of him and to get the chance to be a 'normal' kid. When The Book of Bill shows up as what appears to be a scrapbook of the three of them (Bill, her, and Ford) as a happy family and promises of making it happen, she's incredibly suspicious but she decides to go and visit him in Theraprism anyway, for closure if nothing else. He's a pathetic mess that's pretending not to be, but there's a nagging at her like pressing at a loose tooth and she returns every once in a while as he seems to be attempting to improve, and remembers things about her she's mentioned from visit to visit in the process.

She remains suspicious at first but slowly builds a relationship with him, discovering that time works strangely there and decades are passing for Bill in between each visit of hers. Eventually, he's allowed to be given a human form and taken into the care of the family, with warning buttons given to everyone to alert the Theraprism if he needs to be brought back into custody. The rest of the family is still understandably very wary, but by that point she's come around to him.

When she grows up, she becomes a traveling anthropologist and cryptozoologist, comparing human cultures and often finding local cryptids in each location.

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Hmmm how about vacancy, and dealer's choice for the character c:

from this ask game!

Vacancy - Bea forgets where she is. tw for implied past noncon (very implied, basically nonexistent). You know me. I'm really good at pretending to sleep, not so great at actually doing it, something to do with the hyper-vigilance from the post-traumatic stress everyone insists I have. Whatever. The point is that I'm mostly awake when Bea starts crying in her sleep.

I'm not really sure what to do about it. She asked me to make sure the boys don't notice, and that physical reassurance helps? I guess I'll just have to put my arms around her and hope that makes it better. Her skin is warmer than most vampires, probably because she's Rigellian. I'm probably extra cold to her. She hasn't seemed to mind, though.

It doesn't work, she seems even more distressed than she had before, whispering things like "my lord, please!" and "no, I can't!" which isn't a good sign. I'm going to wake her. I cup a hand around her cheek (is that too intimate? fuck, I don't know how people do stuff like this) and call her name a few times. Her eyes open, but she's looking through me, nothing in them but terror. I usually like seeing someone under me giving me that look, but not when it's her. Never her.

"Please, my lord, I... I can't, I- no..."

"Bea! It's me! Avrae! Come on, please, do I look like whoever you're talking to?" My voice sounds a bit more desperate than I wish it did, but for some reason, it really hurts to be compared to whoever hurt her in the past. I know she's not doing it on purpose, but still.

"...Avrae?" Her eyes focus at last, the cobalt glow fading as her contract loosens its grip on her. She looks around in confusion. "Where... is this... where am I?"

"In bed. Umbral Arena, remember? You asked me to keep an eye on you, make sure you didn't wake the boys." My hands are still on her shoulders, I don't have the heart to pull away.

"Umbral...? Ah, yes. I... apologize. Did I disturb you? The nightmares can be rather... unpleasant." There she is, the Bea I know. I'd sigh in relief but then she'd know I'd been worried.

"My lord...?"

She grimaces, blushing a soft blue. "Did I say that aloud? I am so sorry, you shouldn't have had to hear any of that."

"Stop apologizing. I just want to know if you're all right."

Her blush deepens, but I'm not sure why. "Yes, that's... normal for me. Growing up in House Nocta was... difficult. I don't particularly wish to discuss it."

I'll never push about someone's past. I sure as fuck don't like questions about mine. "Sure, yeah. You want to try and go back to sleep or do you want a glass of wine? We could talk about, I dunno, logistics or something."

She smiles, looking down at her lap. "I think I would like a glass of wine, thank you very much."

Why does that make my chest feel weird?