#be the change you want to see in the world ig

[neobunnydoy]

Playdate | Kim Doyoung (M)

"You were a nervous wreck. Interviewing your boyfriend on camera was not something you ever thought you'd be doing. Especially when the world had no idea you were dating him.

But then again, you also never expected having his fingers inside you in a dressing room would calm you down"

pairing idol! kim doyoung x idol! fem! reader.

genre and content established relationship, fluff, smut mdni, fingering, and I think semi-public sex (they were in a dressing room so idk you decide).

word count 1.8k

author's note guys honestly this might be the first and last time I write smut I don't think I have the talent asdbfajbjeaka I just had to try it one time ig

Interviewing your boyfriend on camera was not something you ever thought you'd be doing. Especially when the world had no idea you were dating him.

Staring into the mirror, you tried to steady your breathing as the makeup artist's brush lightly swept across your cheekbones. You were about to film the second episode of Playdate, a YouTube show that took everyone by surprise. Including you. Originally, the company just wanted to test the waters with a pilot episode, unsure if the concept would resonate. But it did. Viewers loved seeing idols in high school uniforms, doing mundane activities, laughing like regular people. And you had to admit, the first episode went smoothly because it was with Joy, your close unnie since you were both under SM. But now, the stakes were higher. The show was officially a series, and the pressure to keep the momentum going was real. You had been excited... until you found out who today’s guest was.

Doyoung. Your boyfriend, Doyoung.

The company thought it was a brilliant idea to promote his new album by having him on the show, thinking it’d be “cute” to see him interact with his junior. Little did they know that you were much more than that.

Your stomach twisted at the thought. How were you supposed to act? Should you pretend you barely knew him? What if people noticed you were too comfortable? Were you even a good enough actor to pull that off? 

The thoughts spiraled, tightening in your chest as the makeup artist put the finishing touches on your look. “You’re all set,” she announced, breaking you from your trance. You mustered a small smile, nodding as she and the hair stylist left the room.

Your heart raced as you turned to the school uniform hanging neatly on the rack. The last piece to complete your look. Slipping into it would mean there was no turning back. After this, it would only be minutes before the shoot started. You shook your head, trying to clear your thoughts. You’ve got this, you told yourself. You’ve been on camera a million times before.

You started buttoning your shirt, but your fingers fumbled halfway through, leaving the top half undone as your mind drifted again. What if you looked at him too softly? What if he did that little smile that always made you blush?

A knock at the door startled you, pulling you back into the moment. You turned away from the door, panic rising. “Sorry, I’m changing! Just a minute!”

“It’s okay. Nothing I haven’t seen before.”

Your heart did a little flip as you recognized his voice, a smile breaking out before you even saw his face. You turned to see Doyoung standing there. Somehow, seeing him eased some of the nerves clawing at your chest.

“You scared the shit out of me,” you laughed. Doyoung stepped inside, the door clicking shut behind him. His familiar, sweet gummy smile eased some of your anxiety. His eyes quickly flicked to your half-buttoned shirt, lingering for a second before snapping back to your face. Seeing your nervous expression. “Still nervous?” he asked, his eyes softening as he took in your tense posture.

You let out a shaky breath. “Yeah… I don’t know what to do.”

Doyoung’s eyes lingered on your face, concern mixing with affection. He thought you were cute when you were nervous, how your brows knitted together and your lips slightly pouted as you toy with the buttons of your shirt.

His gaze drifted down to your fingers and half-buttoned shirt, revealing a hint of your lace bra. He immediately felt heat rise to his face. What the hell are you doing? She's nervous and you're being a perv.

He cleared his throat, his fingers brushing through your hair in a soothing gesture. “You got this,” he murmured, his touch grounding you when your thoughts felt scattered. “Just think of it like we’re getting paid to go on a usual date.”

You let out a groan, burying your face in his chest. “That’s exactly the problem.”

Doyoung’s chin rested on your head, his heart beating steadily against you. “I know you’re worried,” he began softly, his voice soothing. “But you don’t need to be nervous about this. Just be yourself. That’s what people love about you. You’re naturally funny, charming… and you make people feel at ease just by being you.”

He pulled back slightly, cupping your face so you were looking directly into his eyes. “I’ll be right there with you the whole time. If you feel overwhelmed, just look at me. It’ll just be us. I’ll help you through it.”

Your eyes softened, his words slowly sinking in, easing the knot of anxiety in your chest. “Yeah, I know I’m overthinking this, but I’m still nervous… maybe I should drink some tea or something.”

“What? My hugs aren’t working?” he teased, his fingers tracing gentle patterns along your back, sending a shiver down your spine.

You laughed, the tension in your shoulders easing just a little. “They are. I just… I don’t know. I need more.”

His eyes darkened, a playful smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “You need more?” His voice dropped, a teasing lilt dancing on each word as he leaned in, his nose brushing against yours.

You nodded, your heart fluttering as his gaze flickered down to your lips.

He closed the distance between you, his mouth capturing yours in a sweet, lingering kiss. It was soft at first, comforting and familiar. But the longer his lips moved against yours, the more urgency crept in. His hands tightened around your waist, pulling you closer until there was no space left between you.

He groaned, the sound vibrating through your body as his hands tightened on your waist. Slowly, his hand slid up your thigh, slipping under the hem of your skirt, sending a shiver through your body.

Your breath hitched, his touch igniting a fire that made you forget all about the cameras and the script waiting outside. The world fell away as he kissed you deeper, his body pressing you against the wall as his hand slid up your thigh. 

“Doyoung… people are outside,” you murmured between kisses, your hand weakly pushing against his wrist even as your lips continued to move against his.

He smiled against your mouth, his laugh low and teasing. “You said you needed to relax… then relax.”

His fingers teased along the skin of your thighs, until it started tracing the outline of your clit through the fabric of your underwear.

Your mind was foggy, overwhelmed by the sensation of his hands exploring your body. Doyoung smiled as he saw you closing your eyes, blissed out beneath him. 

His mouth traveled down your neck, leaving a trail of heated kisses as his hands drew lazy circles, making you squirm against him. “Relax, baby,” he whispered, his breath hot against your skin. “I’ve got you.”

You felt your arousal begin to soak your underwear, the fact that it’s still there leaves you whining.

“Doyoung… please”

Doyoung pushes you slowly towards the dressing room table, sitting you down. He slips his fingers into your pants, slowly guiding them to where you want him most. Drawing soft gasps from your lips.

“So wet for someone so nervous”, he hums in your ear.

You bite your lips while doyoung continue to play at your folds again, tips of his fingers brushing against your clit. You were about to whine at his slow pace when you were cut off with him pressing a finger inside you.

His name left your lips in a breathy moan as his fingers were slowly thrusting in and out, “Not so loud, baby.”

You start to bite your lips to stifle your cries, looking up at him in hopes he adds another finger. He looks down at you with hooded eyes, kissing you slowly while thrusting another finger in and curling them in a way he knows you love.

The movement made his fingers brush against your most sensitive spot and has you rocking your hips along with his movements. Hands clutching the material of his high school uniform blazer to keep yourself steady. 

If it wasn’t for his lips on yours, your moans would’ve filled the room along with the sound of your arousal around his fingers.

“Doyoung–” your whine, “–I’m gonna.” “Let go, baby. I’m right here.”

With his words you felt the wave finally hit, you collapsed against him, his arms keeping you together. He held you through it, his touch gentle, grounding you as you slowly came back to reality.

After you finally caught your breath, you exhaled shakily, pressing your forehead against his. “I… I think that helped.”

He laughed softly, brushing his lips against yours. “Good. I’d hate for you to go out there all nervous.”

“Doyoung –”, He hummed as he pressed one more kiss to your lips. “– that wasn’t just for me, was it?”

He stopped kissing you, looking into you with a confused expression.

You scoffed, crossing your arms. “Please. You were turned on the moment you walked in here.”

Doyoung’s ears turned pink, and his gaze dropping to the floor. “I mean… you looked good… and the uniform didn’t help,” he mumbled, his voice softening as his cheeks grew even redder.

You tried not to laugh. How was he this shy now, after giving you an orgasm in a dressing room of a TV station?

A smile spread across your face, warmth bubbling up in your chest. “You’re cute, you know that?”

His eyes shot up, his mouth opening and closing as his face turned an even deeper shade of red. “I-I… You were nervous–” he fired back, his voice a little too loud he gave his justification, “–I was trying to help”

You bit back a laugh, stepping down the table as you fixed the remaining buttons on your shirt.  “I know, thank you.” You leaned up, brushing a soft kiss against his cheek.

“I can accidentally bring this uniform home you know”

Doyoung stared at you, his mouth slightly open, eyes wide with disbelief. “I can’t believe this… You were a nervous wreck just a while ago, and now you’re the one teasing me?”

You shrugged, as you head out the door getting ready to standby for the shoot. “Yeah, well… my boyfriend just fingered me in a dressing room, so I’m not that nervous anymore.”

Doyoung watched you leave, his heart racing as he let out a long, defeated sigh. “I’m never going to survive this.”

[bluecalibrifont]

If Mel Medarda is really dead I will in fact fall into a state of catatonic denial where I live vicariously through fanfiction

[7fuckingidiots]

not enough people being silly about 7seeds on this website. It's all screencaps in this damn tag

[sepiamestus]

Soooo funny to me that raydon is one of the first ships i came across in the tpn fandom after joining tumblr and assumed it was semi popular but after a short browsing of the tag i realized nope! Just that one guy i followed!

Devastating. I have never recovered

[ashipiko]

ONLY ONE THAT KNOWS YOUR KISS! IT HITS! MY SOUL! ♪

NO-TEXT VER UNDER CUT

[virginiamerrye]

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[persephonethewanderer]

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unsure how to word this but i feel like finding actual proof/talk about burroughs experiencing csa as a child has solidified in me the belief that once you experience something like that you learn a language that is inaccessible to others but very recognizable to people who share the same experience as you. over and over i feel myself gravitating towards artists that i then find out share the experience of sexual abuse as a child with me. and almost never i know this prior to getting into them. it’s like a secret code your subconscious picks up, almost? idk if i’m making sense. but it’s very meaningful to me.

[x-noirangel-x]

Chloe during the golden hour is one of my favourite sights ever to see~ o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

Shh… I haven’t posted these on my Instagram yet 😅

[some-bakugo-icon]

There’s just something so silly that happens during age of extinction when Optimus is being held in the cage on the ship yk and the autobots are trying to find and get him out like they’re just yelling and hollering and doing Odd Shit and I’m just imagining Prime going :| the entire time he’s able to hear him (which is basically as soon as they step on they’re so loud goddamn) but also in an endearing way like yeah those are his guys

[steeltwigz]

Saw a post abt the Sonic movies that was like "plz filter negativity posts better" which is GOOD AND TRUE you should be doing that. Ok. But then they kept going to imply that the criticisms of the Sonic movies are all entirely Personal and Ignorable and not like. Usually abt the horrific copaganda, misogynistic writing, and Paramount's disgusting zionism.... Guys a lot of ppls problem w the Knuckles show wasn't JUST a bastardization of Knuckles' character or thinking Wade was annoying or whatever, but like was focused on the grotesque Zionist message from that one episode 😭😭😭 you can enjoy something and still recognize that it has intrinsic and huge glaring flaws and talk abt them. I think actually you Should be speaking up abt the misogyny, zionism and propaganda the SCU supports and discusses, ESPECIALLY if you like the movies! Its important to be able to recognize these things in media and admit that even media you personally enjoy can be deeply problematic, instead of hiding it away and pretending those HUGE FLAWS aren't issues actually....

[moonilit]

sometimes reading Kory’s talk about love and how her culture normalizes poly relationships and love is separate from marriage as in yeah sometimes you marry for politics but doesn’t mean you ‘love’ that other person or they you and thats OK is so weird because, you don’t even need to go to space for that?? Its already somewhere on earth??

[brutal-nemesis]

You already know you've got me invested. So a bunch of questions about your HRT magic system, whenever you've got the time:

- what does the ritual actually look like/involve?

- does the process look the same for both feminizing and masculinizing, or are they different?

- are there any effects that can't really be achieved using this form of HRT?

- how long does it take to build up effects? will you see some changes immediately, or is it slower?

More to come later, I'm sure 😁🧡

suit up bitches it's time for all the trans magic lore

What does the ritual actually look like/involve?

Essentially, person performing the procedure uses magic to force the patient's gonads (testes or ovaries) to produce more of the desired hormone, whether it's estrogen or testosterone. Unlike in our world, where people on E need to take T blockers to ensure that they see results (since T has stronger effects), this change in what the body itself is producing means that T levels would naturally decrease since the testes are producing more E. The actual procedure usually just involves the one performing it placing their hands on the patient's back near their spine and carrying out the spell. This typically takes five or so minutes, depending on how much the patient's natural levels need to be adjusted. The spell only lasts so long, so after a couple weeks it will need to be cast again. The spells themselves are called estrogen/testosterone production stimulation, EPS and TPS for short.

However, as magic advances, beyond the point it's at in Castys's early story and the entirety of Erebus & Terror, a new method is developed that alters the hypothalamus and pituitary glands instead, since they tell the rest of the body of what hormones to produce. This spell, called hypothalamus pituitary direction alteration (HPDA) only needs to be done once as the effects are permanent in the sense that they don't wear off, even after decades. However, it's much more complicated to carry out, so it takes longer to cast and is usually more expensive. The procedure itself usually involves the caster putting their hands on the patient's head and doing the spell for about 20 minutes.

It generally becomes standard practice for a patient to undergo at least a year of E/TPS in order to find the right balance of hormones for them before getting HPDA. The effects of HPDA can be altered later, but it's complicated enough that it's best to get it right the first time, hence using E/TPS as a trial run of sorts to figure out the best fit for each individual person.

Does the process look the same for both feminizing and masculinizing, or are they different?

Yes and no. The actual process is very similar, since it's just changing what hormones are produced, but adjusting the AMAB body to produce E and the AFAB body to produce T are different enough that most doctors specialize in one or the other. There's a lot more nuance to it than just turning up the hormone dial, so specialists in one or the other are skilled at helping bring about the wanted changes and preventing certain negative side effects.

Are there any effects that can't really be achieved using this form of HRT?

Since it's pretty similar to HRT here, it has the same limitations and effects, for the most part. Magic can certainly be used to help with things like top and bottom surgery (which sometimes don't need to be an actual surgery and are just a magical procedure), but neither form of HRT discussed above will completely change primary sex organs or massively alter skeletal structure.

How long does it take to build up effects? will you see some changes immediately, or is it slower?

It's a slow change, happening over the course of years, just like it is for people on HRT in our world. The body takes time to adjust and change on its own, and forcing it to do so quickly can have drastic consequences. At the start of E/TPS, all changes are closely monitored so that the levels of hormone production can be adjusted in order to suit the individual patient best and prevent side effects like emotional instability and blood clots.

[chocottang]

fnafhs tier list!! inspired by @multishipper-baby

making tier lists is so hard because my opinion is always changing 😭

[taniushka12]

unrelated but i think alan should have kissed the homies (barry) goodnight 🤔😔

[person8789]

This tiny little sketch that I drew literally over a year ago should suffice for my idikei quota for the day…

[james-stark-the-writer]

oh. praying for her lmao, girlie, best to get off of socials while you can, for your own sanity.

and the rest of you lot, don't fucking watch the show. especially not with how zionist the game narrative was.