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i did make some stuff during the hurricane but it was stuff with words that i wouldnt really want to show publically. I can block out some of the words though because i do like the exaggeration/poses + etc for some of them.
#memory posts#i think its nice to marinate my prose in private before showing. or im just a little embarrassed of it right now. i will show someday or ma#be not. it depends.. On memory feeling#i also made a new character the other day that i like. this would be their debut.. But i will have to do that tomorrow because i am sleepy.#if i remember. i will try my best to#it is a lot easier to remember things that other people do than what i do. at least for me. though that might be a false pattern#GOODNIGHT WORLD! z
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Style swap- Invader Zim and Psychonauts
Cause I thought it would be fun and practice
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(Please do not use or repost my works anywhere without explicit permission from me first thank you <3)
#deersart#my art#this was just for fun#you probably won’t see much else of invader zim art from me#maybe#maybe gaz one day. depends on if I feel like it#definitely Psychonauts though#i spent several hours rambling about it to a friend the other day#that was a good day#psychonauts#psychonauts razputin#razputin aquato#invader zim dib#dib membrane#invader zim#I’ve never posted art for either of these fandoms before but these should be the right tags#let me know if I missed something though#i don’t know as much about IZ I’m new to it but if you have any questions for me about Psychonauts oh my god please ask me#or even just questions about this art I guess#did a lot of studies on the concept art and memory vault art so I’m satisfied with it#if I knew it wouldn’t drive me mad I would’ve loved to make a like- 3D model for dib#but I have restraint and nor do I have the time#was tempted though
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This artwork (link below) is giving me sooo many ideas for jayvik x hp crossovers, especially post s2 …. I used to be SUCH A FIEND for harry potter crossover fics (still a fiend for crossover fics in gen) and it would be so cool if like after jayvik get zapped away by the stone they come out the other side in the hp universe and then have to learn how to navigate this world where magic exists?? But in a different form from the arcane and its revered in a way?? and an entire secret society and school exists just to teach kids magic?? And in this school theres no tech, no engineering?? Plus not to mention all the political bs as well omg
And how would they get involved with the school in first place…maybe they pop right into the school? I wish i remembered more from the books bc i feel like theres totally an event i could use but I just can’t remember much outside from like the first two books 😭
If anyone wants to brainstorm with me feel free bc like i said i loooooveee crossovers and now that im finally on break (and i have adderall now) I think i might actually start some fics
Art is here btw
#aloonaram thots#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane#arcane#jayce#arcane x hp#idk just so many loose thoughts#would love to see them as teachers but what would they teach?#i also personally am not a fan of the crossovers that ignore the plot of the original show if you get what i mean#i like crossovers where the characters by some form of magic or whatever pop into the other storylines universe so they retain all their#previous memories and context#mostly bc to me their og stories are what makes the character who they are#what makes them interesting#so in getting rid of that the characters feel less appealing#to me at least thats just my opinion#and obv theres been some fics that are still FIRE despite that that ive enjoyed so yk#just depends on how theyre written
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oc time again! + her town & culture (heavily inspired by pre-roman italic populations)
she is suri sauthon. her story is linked to my swtor imperial agent, tar'x, but most of her life except for the one year away where she meets him, is spent in a town in the mountains of mirial.
despite mirial being cold and desert, and many cities developing underground, her town flourishes thanks to a force nexus, venerated in the form of an ancient, sacred, alive crystal. the ecosystem of that mountain depended on what "the horned crystal" was capable of giving them, but mirialans couldn't live off of that alone, so they developed trade and some rudimental technology, even if oftentimes it was bought thanks to the highly profitable trade of a plant used to make medicines that slowed down aging and had overall healing properties.
note: everything that's generated by this nexus has these healing properties BUT they have to be processed, except for those who bathed in the waters of the cavity under the crystal - the "real" nexus, but not the worshipped one. the waters were sacred but they were not thought to be miraculous, unlike the crystal, who instead was thought of as the keystone of the ecosystem: without it, everything would fall apart (and that is partially true: the cavity was the "real" nexus but thanks to the crystal, also strong in the force, the properties were spread all over the mountains). those who bathed in the cavity's waters - so, all of the town, who had a sort of baptism there - could eat the plant, make whatever food with it, and not only that plant, but everything generated by the nexus, that, again, had similar properties. this allowed people to live up to normal life-spans without advanced medicines or, much, really. to those who didn't live there, though, after the processing, had incredible effects, slowing down aging - for those who took it regularly - and making people able to live up to half a century more than the average]
originally, there were four tribes of nomads that lived thanks to horned farm animals that decided to settle down into one bigger town and other smaller settlements, to live off of transhumance. this division of the tribes stayed into the political and social organization: every person belonged to one tribe specifically, and had slightly different rituals and culture. for examples, each tribe had their own priests and healers, with different techniques and traditions. the town, tho, was guided by a group of people in the high priesthood, a position you could reach only by having earned the trust of all tribes. those high priests had many roles: they guided the people into sacred processions common to all the tribes, they managed the trading with outsiders, they did the maintenance of the temple of the summit (the one that functioned as casket to the crystal) and created a special liquid to offer the crystal that helps it grow.
this particular temple was important because 1. it was very visible, from every angle of the town, and it became an important identity symbol; 2. it stored the venerated horned crystal; 3. it had the altar where sacrifices were made for the crystals. that altar had a hole connected to the cavity, that allowed the liquids to reach the underground; 4. it had various symbols: statues representing each tribe + the high priesthood, and typical mirialan tattoos carved into the wood of the trees that served as columns for the temple, symbolizing 8 values that who dared to enter HAD to have; 5. it was on the way to an important lake (called "mother lake" because the lake the town was built around to depended on the waters of that other lake) where they traveled to in important processions; 6. it was said that a the wizard who unified the tribes made it with its magic, making the plant grow to hold the temple's roof. this wizard was, actually, a force user, obv.
BACK TO HER THOUGH: she's daughter of one of the high priests, who was in charge of managing the trades with outsiders, and lives in a house on the mountains with her mother and him. her parents are from different tribes (that's one of the things that earned him trust from the 4 tribes): when a child is born from two different tribes, they don't pick one to allign to, but they're usually linked automatically to the one with more relatives in it (in her case, the father's tribe: she had many uncles and aunts on his side while her mom only had one sister).
later, though, she got quite tied to her mother's tribe due to a mysterious illness that only her mother's tribe healer was able to cure. she spent 4 years (from 10 to 14 years old) living with the healer and learned her secrets. to better study, she wrote them down. when she returned home, she studied to become a priestess with her father. at 22 (the average age: you can't become priest before your 20s), she was supposed to take a test and become a priestess, but the healer of her mother's tribe died and the tribe asked her to take her place. she couldn't technically do that, but both tribes estimated both her and her parents and she was allowed to become both. she then decided to try to become a high priestess, and became one at 25 (a quite young age). being part of the council, she tried to convince the various tribe healers to unite their knowledges and write them down, and eventually made it. healers still remained tribe based but they now had an "upper, inter-tribe level" similar to high priesthood.
years later, the sacred horned crystal is stolen from the temple by some Hutt mercenaries looking for a profit. given the trust she has earned from all the tribes and the fact that her father is the high priest that deals with outsiders (and she's been hearing stories and advice about it since she was little), she is the one tasked with getting it back. without the growing crystal, the keystone to their ecosystem, the village would have lasted only a few years. in hrr quest, she meets imperial intelligence agent tar'x laran and, as they "solve the mystery" and fight to have it back, they get closer. they'll get married and have a daughter, Vegoia (who's the only one who actually will get to the plot of my story. this was all background)
#i overdeveloped this part of the background. IT'S QUITE LITERALLY USELESS. like. Vegoia will have so few memories of it (she'll become jedi)#i will make a post about her too when I'll finish designing her and outlining her story BUT that may be difficult cuz the frame for the mai#story is quite difficult to match with how developed the other stories are getting and i have to figure it Much Stuff yet#so I'm using these post to like. fix a certain part lf the lore because even my own notes are getting older and messy. better to start over#ANYWAY for those curious & who are still reading (if u exist. WTF THANK U!!); my main story is actually a research file in the jedi archive#BASICALLY i was trying to write my own story for years but then i watched a video (tcw doesn't hold up by sheev talks i think) and i finall#understood how to frame all of these stories together in a way that i feel can add to the star wars lore (because. the others were just#like. okay but who cares unless me? and i did want to have a cool frame that maybe some nerd would be interested in looking into)#so: when ahsoka anakin and obi return from mortis; they tell the council about it (yoda knows about it in s6). sheev talks complained that#it was incredibly full of stuff that was done so poorly it could ruin a big part of the original sw story itself and it was never brought u#again. and honestly i agree. SO my story is about a jedi that is tasked with research on the celestials & by having him figure out stuff i#can minimize/limit/reframe some of the controversial things in there (i love mortis arc so bad but i also agree with his critic. I'll Fix™)#so. many stories will be about people who have previously seen the celestials or have been to mortis one way or another (pre-tcw obv) & hav#had experience & knowledge that the researcher is looking for. so i get to have an anthology with many stories#and have a cool frame I'm intrested in developing + i can experiment with different storytelling styles depending on how he finds out stuff#+ there was another sw story with a similar frame i think? so if i decide to write the story as if it was the file itself and not the searc#i can have even a REFERENCE of what a file like that is supposed to be. LIKE. IT ALL FITS!!!#sw#star wars#swtor#the old republic#star wars oc#imperial agent#star wars fanart#mirialan oc#mirialan#star wars story#star wars the old republic#oc: suri sauthon
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stg, being an enjoyer of jane twdg is like being forced into an expert-level course on the way misogyny manifests in video game spaces.
god forbid a woman be complex or difficult or provably mischaracterized (see tags) at the end of her arc to service the culmination of a man’s storyline.
#“kenny was harrowed by loss in his family” so was jane. that is part of them literally being foils.#“kenny teaches clem more!” literally untrue a lot of clem’s combat style is rooted in what jane taught her (targeting the knees & basically#everything clem knows about knife combat- jane is also mirrored with lee in this sense as like was previously stated knife combat later goe#on to become a major element of how clem fights only outweighed by her use of firearms)#she teaches clem the gut trick & we see the innovative thinking that comes with being more independent & proactive influence the way clem#handles sticky situations & deals with feeling disempowered. like this is going to sound odd but the fact that her behaviour mirrors jane#at her best (even though her relationship with aj is more maternal the way she approaches him much more as an equal & capable of holding#agency over his own life is much more reminiscent of the way she was treated by jane & luke positively + the rest of the adults negatively#than how kenny or even lee treated clem [though lee did start to view her this way after the train] + her people reading skill.) & at her#worst (isolating herself + becoming cold + the fact she is [based on player choice] willing to leave aj behind for both their survival +#struggling with her need for community vs her sense of distrust in their lasting stability + her tendency to be unfeelingly pragmatic to a#fault except when it comes to aj + the fact that clem- at her worst is self-serving & somewhat uncaring in comparison to kenny’s possessive#hot-headedness etc) indicates that on some level- regardless of a player’s second season ending- clem considered jane to be a better#behavioural role model- this isn’t to say kenny was unimpactful but rather that his impact was different- where behaviourally we see elemen#of lee luke jane & even carver in clem’s later behaviour kenny’s impact is more so that of a cautionary tale- somebody clem cared for who#she witnessed lose himself entirely to his worst character flaws due to an inability to cope with the world she now lives in- something he#even admits to her in multiple endings iirc. kenny becomes the fate clem must strive against at all costs.#similar can be said of the ending where you go with jane regarding how it analogies clem’s fears & low self worth as a result of being#unable to maintain what she had with aj (in a manner that mirrors jane’s story in that she’s choosing to leave behind a living relative due#to no longer being able to be what they need- again depending on player choice*)#*my exact memory of the third season is hazier tbh. iirc it is dependent on player choice whether she is complacent with the decision to#make her leave the new frontier.#like the way the ending was handled was sloppy & jane was mischaracterized as a result of being shoved into a conflict that we know for#certain was not intended to go to her. calm down & just enjoy your man without being weird & misogynistic dear god.)#(also if you like clem & jane you will like holly robinson & selina kyle dc)#twdg jane#jane twdg#twdg
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I don't know what I love more, the fact that as rook you can make a statement in NO uncertain terms that you are NOT responsible one way or the other for the theological implications of the shit you're discovering in the 'regrets of the dread wolf' memories. not my jurisdiction. quite simply none of my business. not my chantry circus not my chantry monkeys. irrelevant to the matter at hand here we'll kill that god if we get to him he can get in line. or if the best thing about it is seeing the lone little 'lucanis approves' that pops up right after choosing it. corvid with a knife about to commit deicide keeping it real and sensibly, pragmatically, wilfully agnostic with me here in this magical lighthouse today
#we do not see it. we cannot read all of a sudden.#rye having war flashbacks to watcher conferences and firmly going 'we are *not* getting derailed by the metaphysics here folks'#rare stern moderator/dad hat moment from ingellvar lol. he's Seen Some Shit in his time (debates that raged over the multiple#and not always concurrent life times of the participants involved. ain't no academic rivalry like watcher academic rivalry#because watcher academic rivalry doesn't stop even when everyone involved is dead. and the rest of us have to live with it)#I. do not think the way I'm getting this quest is how it's meant to be experienced so I'm a bit at a loss as to how to pace it out#I've been an annoying little completionist so I have ALL the statues and could just marathon it out#but that does not feel like the best way for the story and upcoming reveals to work. hm. how to do this#I'm supposed to go fail to save weisshaupt right around now I can't be having study group with all of you rn as much of a delight as it is#rye is nominally an andrastian as mainstream nevarrans generally are but as I gather is the case with many of the watchers#what he *actually* believes in is the grand necropolis itself haha#(and the philosophy of history memory death and relationship (as well as responsibility) between the past and the present#and indeed the future that it represents. we have a duty. to what has been to what is and to what will come after us. good shit)#the nevarran/mortalitasi element just makes their lack of care or respect for chantry orthodoxy *mwha* that extra bit special#the nevarran lack of concern bordering on quiet condescending disdain for official chantry doctrine and policy my beloved#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#poor harding really is living through the most relentless 'if this is the maker testing my faith he sure be testing me' gauntlet of all tim#good news: god might be real! bad news: god might not even be a real thing but more like a magical accident or vibration or something#honestly tho. if we could get full lovecraftian incomprehensible to human conception the maker -- He is a particle and a wave style --#that's the only way I'd be cool with him or them actually answering the question of his existence. that'd be kind of sick#'yes. but no. but maybe. depends on how you define god. and exist. and he. and does.' *ingellvar sets of the METAPHYSICS!! klaxon#that's a time out folks good game but easy on the jargon and navel-gazing definition of terms next round#rye and lucanis have some slightly differing views about at what exact stage of a problem murder becomes a valid solution#('well you just kill them and then I'm the one who has to deal with the next much longer part')#but they're surprisingly kind of vibing on a lot of other stuff lol. good for them <3#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
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Pretty fucked up that timmy forgets the only positive influences in his life after his 18 birthday when you think about it
#like he losses the only family that loves him and friends and allies that respect him#outside of aj and chester he doesn't have a lot of good influences in his life#trixie could probably be his friend after she gets over the whole popularity thing but still#losing that muc of your memories is going to affect yoyr personality#if they were replaced he's probably going to think he was alone for most of his life with occasionally seeing some friends#and some good moments (him making frinds with chip and maybe might remember mark depends)#umm does Shirley count? doubt he would remember him unless he goes to his shop often#i doubt his relationship with his parents would improve hed probably move out not to long after he turns 18#i think the memory wipe would affect certain aspects of his personality too#like his interest in the arts would probably lesson due to the feeling of something being missing or just#straight up depression#i feel like he wouldn't persue a creative field due to multiple of reasons and settle for something more practical but will always have tha#what if oh timmy forgetting and losing himself is something so tragic#especially if he still miserable or in a bad place#imagine the angst#timmy turner
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Uhh let’s just say I’m planning on something… might actually make it if I’m not too busy or just flat out tired
Angst or silly depends on my mood (probably silly)
This is more like a practice thingy because I literally have no idea how to shade at all I’m just smudging all the colors together so it looks decent
Non comic panel ver under cut
#wander over yonder#woy#woy wander#wander woy#wander#digital art#mini comic#maybe#Drawing tree from memory#the comic is about him climbing a tree to get food#mostly because there aren’t any food around#also he’s like rlly young#kid or adult it depends on you idrc#canon never stated if he was a kid when traumatic stuff happened#the time is set a long time after so it isn’t really relevant but if I’m feeling evil I MIGHT add something in it#though I doubt that I would even finish it#def a wholesome one tho
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Fanfic idea: Nocturna, after disappearing during the crisis, wakes up to find herself in the current universe, where she spots the Red Hood, and can't help but compare him to the blood night sky she last saw, and oddly, the young Robin whom she had tried to adopt
#can you tell i like the precrisis#bdjsbdks#thisnis nothing really. im not sure where to go from here#do they know eachother? does jason feel he recognizes her? and there flashes of memories from an earth long forgotten?#nocturna is Also against killing. how will meeting this different version of her son go#how will they react to eachother#nocturna noting how painfully different AND similar he is to who she remembers#WAIT#THE DEATH#SHE WAKES UP AND ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS SHE DISCOVERS IS JASON TODD IS DEAD AND DIED AT 14-15 OR WHATEVER#nocturna#jason todd#jason todd robin#red hood#i Know that nocturna comes back to the comics at some point i looked uo before making this post. but im p sure thats like#not the same#she wouldn't have the memories#when the crisis was happening the sky had become red and she had Feelings about that. mostly negative ones#and idk i wanted her to connect red hood w something about the night#she sees him w/o the hood and his hair makes her think of the moon in the night sky. for added detail you could say#that the white had taken on a cresent shape#depends how much white hair you think of jason w tbh#dc comics#i dont like tagging bwah#fic prompt
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confession i only like 6 riize songs i skip so many of their songs sorry
#TALK SAXY SO GOATED FOREVER MY FAV#i got jumped once for saying i don’t like memories…#i love that era i just don’t like the song sorry!!#and i dont like siren extended version like they should’ve kept it a minute long 🤫#honestly is good i still skip it cuz theres one part of it i dont like so the whole song gets skipped#gag is a 50/50 for me depends on how i feel#and i hate 9 days sorry#i like lucky… dont like be my next
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Just watched Nimona
The fact this movie never got a theater release because of Blue Sky's closure and Disney deciding to nix it once acquired will forever break my heart holy shit.
Like up front it is BEAUTIFULLY animated, the writing is tight as hell, the story is genuinely moving and amazing. By that alone it deserved to be in theaters.
*deep breath*
But BOY HOWDY am I SALTY AS FUCK that a animated movie that is accessible to kids, especially queer kids, got knocked out of the process to reach theaters when
IT JUST CASUALLY HAS A INTERRACIAL GAY COUPLE WITH A (metaphorically) ADOPTED (literally) TRANS CHILD AS THE 3 MAIN CHARACTERS IN THE MOVIE THE FUCKING HELL WE COULD'VE HAD ALL THIS PERFECTLY DONE QUEER MEDIA ON THE BIG SCREEN AS A COHERENT AMAZING STORY FUC-
#Nimona#Nimona film#God I feel Nimona so hard I actually had to fast forward some scenes because I am not in a GREAT headspace right now so it was kinda#triggering at the moment because hahaha yeah people see me as a monster. Whooooooooo.#like god I hope so many kids watch this#young teens trying to figure stuff out#And like I have fond memories of the OG Nimona- I was There for the webcomic#but the ending of the original comic ngl kinda scarred me a bit#and I'm so glad it shifted#LIKE SPOILERS FOR WHAT DOESN'T HAPPEN IN THE MOVIE BUT WHAT I REMEMBER FROM THE END OF THE COMIC#but in the comic spoilers Nimona does live but still wanders and it's left open whether she and Ballister ever meet again#I could be misremembering but yeah#like as a NB person it made me feel like I may never find a home- a place to belong#so I think the fact that Nimona and Ballister met at the end#where it shows the city is open to embracing Nimona#it kinda puts a salve on that wound#LIKE DON'T GET ME WRONG I recognize the power of the OG ending#Stevenson was exploring his own feelings and figuring themselves out and they were younger so it made sense#but sometimes even beautiful worthy media can leave a negative mark#depending on the person#because we all have different experiences and what is healing to one can be poison to the other#so YMMV on which ending you like better
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A beast this edgy belongs in gen 4
#745#lycanroc#lycanroc midnight form#pokemon from memory#Idk is feels like a gen 4 guy to me#In spirit#interesting idea tho giving the dog different forms depending on the time of evolving#I guess this is a werewolf kind of thing?#Anyway I have like…the concept of it in mind#It’s shaped at least
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↪ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐓 : An aesthetics dash game.
𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐁𝐎 𝐁𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐒. a warm hearth. lovingly sewn buttons. the search for adventure. comfortable routine. unexpected bravery. tea - stained pages. cozy armchairs. dusty relics. hidden strengths. garden parties. moonlit windows. quick thinking. humble heroism. resourceful in chaos. clever wordplay.
𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐍 𝐎𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐃. never found cowering. strong familial ties. a fierce opponent. loyalty over love. tempered steel. haunted by the past. defending one’s stronghold. sense of duty. forged in fire. honor above all. the weight of legacy. shaped by adversity, tempered by loss. fiercely protective.
𝐆𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐋𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐘. the balancing of fate. ancient magic. purifying power. bringer of light**. wise guidance. secret keeper. forgotten paths. unseen destinations. cryptic answers. hidden chambers. a mysterious figure. the voice of reason.
𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐔𝐈𝐋. haunted by echoes of the past. elegant majesty. moonlit counsel. secrets kept in silence. the cautious leader. love of rare beauty. wisdom in isolation. heart of the forest. a silent observer. calculative & condescending**.
𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐔𝐆. golden hoards. thirst for destruction. golden armor. fearsome majesty. glinting claws. the dark allure of treasure. insatiable greed. scorched earth. the unyielding sentinel. watching & waiting. what does not kill you should run. finding a wicked enjoyment in others’ suffering. only one weakness.
𝐀𝐙𝐎𝐆. unfettered brutality. eternal darkness. the rot of vengeance. a warrior’s rage. brute strength. iron - clad resolve. a litany of scars. an unrelenting force. maimed in battle. religion in bloodshed. servant of the darkness. ancient hatreds. branded with malice.
Tagged by: I stole it from @suledein 'cause I'm a pirate, and where you go, I go, kinda. Tagging: @driofaire (Rook), @mercysought (guess who), @immobiliter (Varric, or the... other one, you know the man), @spitecrow and @rookedcrow while I hope that it grabs all the mentions... But also, anyone else who wants to do this, steal it, and tag me. I love seeing these.
#[ as for the little **s: ]#[ 1) bringer of light only if you take the concept of 'freedom' as light; which is how he sees it at its principle. ]#[ but all in all; it's not exactly perfect as a selection. hence the italics and then the strike. ]#[ 2) calculative... yes. it's not subjective and is relative fact. condescending however is very dependent on context and approach. ]#[ i literally /just/ spoke on this to skells and it's tied to solas' nature as a spirit of wisdom that got twisted against its nature... ]#[ over. and over. /and over/ until it turned into pride-- and even if he hangs amidst the two-- his nature of wisdom is not gone. ]#[ not at all. but a lot of pride inhabits the man. and when you approach an embodiment (of any level) with arrogance or... ]#[ your own pride. then he /will/ be condescending because he will mirror you. /and/ outdo you because you cannot expect any less... ]#[ from 'pride'. ]#[ solas: etc. ] i have people; seeker. the greatest triumphs and tragedies this world has known can all be traced to people.#[ solas. ] how small the pain of one man seems when weighed against the endless depths of memory. of feeling. of existence.
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Thinking about that time when a popular artist was a prick to me personally (claimed that I "baited" them for a conflict when all I did was pointing out something in lore contradicting their claim, without any rudeness or condescension, and basically told me to go hang out with other autists instead of bothering them) but the reason I blocked them was not that, it was the fact that they've admitted on not even caring about the source material and just using scraps from it to do their own thing. Priorities hfngkfngj
#fandomry rambles#I can excuse asserting ego at my expense and acting as though my knowledge of lore is an offence but-#-I draw the line at taking advantage of an IP to get attention easier instead of 'just making an OC'#there is a line between creative liberties and not caring about source material!!! they are not the same thing!#and FANdoms are places for FANs of something! not for some pricks to advertise themselves!#again I just pointed out something that seemed like honestly forgetting or not knowing#and I instantly commented on how alternative they suggested wasn't bad and how it could still work!#but because they have super frail ego they perceived it as a personal attack apparently#and since Anna unblocked me right after to stalk me it just feels like they mocked me within their group later#again I wonder why popular artists with high skill but very little care for canon are SO insecure?#everyone admires them everyone wants to be their friend everyone draws fanart of their designs and ships#and yet slight event out of the line makes them turn into that one Wojack with a crying face behind smug mask#like how do you shovel notes and have more attention than what you can give back and STILL are this-#-insecure? really popularity can't heal you#if you fellow nobody artists feel as though your art being noticed would heal you: no it would not#honestly as for care for canon they already gave signal by boasting about prettyfying micolash because-#-they preferred 'aesthetic'#it is just something I've neglected because I was looking at redesigning characters differently#but seeing awful bimbo marikas for two years taught me better ngl#really I am dying to see them try to pull this one out with a female character#no really. try to pull the 'she looks ugly but I want me aesthetic so I polished her'.#hate double standards regarding drawing the character depending on their gender#but yeah in case you could not tell touching Bloodborne with ten yards stick just triggered a bad memory#I just.... I still love that game story and characters. I can feel it looking at these posts.#I really am the 'just make an OC' person#they should become friends with Eugene (champion of not caring for the source material) if not already
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really really need to meet jared again the little back rub fixed my daddy issues for a hot minute but they’re getting worse again
#the memory of the feeling was so vivid for a hot moment#but i need to comfort again T_T#also need it to be a solo photo op#because i couldn’t hug him with my sister there lmao#sorry liv love you but i need a jarpad hug like my life depends on it#. >> mari monologues !#. >> jarpad !
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I have so many questions about Astarion's birth family that it isn't even funny.
I wonder what sort of relationship/dynamic they all had before his death, I wonder how they reacted, if they knew he was "alive" as a spawn the entire time and just ignored it because that creature wasn't their son/brother/nephew anymore, how they would react if told he had spent 200 years suffering. Most of all, I wonder if they would accept (or be proud of) the man he became at the end of the game.
#astarion#i mean the grave being pretty overgrown is kind of telling that no one is taking care of it anymore#but was he estranged? did his family move away? was there a period where they took care of it and thought about him?#did they feel guilt thinking there could have been something they could have done to save him or keep the gurs from attacking?#do they still think of him as a baby Elf because he was killed so young despite the fact he has literally been undead for 200 years?#did they die as well?#this concept has so much potential for angst and fluff depending on the type or relationship they had#and if they accept him as the vampire spawn he is if they are still around and alive#which I mean it is highly likely he has family still around#because Elves live a ridiculously long time#239/240 is still young enough to have siblings parents and maybe even grandparents out there#could you imagine him meeting a neice or nephew and them telling him stories that their parent told to them about uncle Astarion?#like someone cared enough to keep his memory alive and teaching family he never got to meet about him
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