#bc my throat fucking HURTS
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i have Covid šššššššš
#im in my bed dying#im off work 5 days#yay for that ig#my cat is laying with me bc he is the best#bless my lifetime bestie/cousin for getting me THC mints for my bday#he a real one#bc my throat fucking HURTS#which is how i knew the mfing second I woke up this morning that I had Covid#bc thatās exactly how I felt the first time I had it#bitch got me 2 times now#f u i hate u#i feel like S H I T#UGH
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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AND ANOTHER THING. i know that on a meta level this is literally just How Video Game Bosses Work. but also with how well the game mechanics work into the story in many other cases i don't think it's unreasonable to look at it from an in universe perspective
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i think it really says something that loop only uses their stronger attacks in their second phase. i think it really says something that you have to bring them down to 0hp four (4) times, attacking them repeatedly + proving that you are willing to genuinely hurt/kill them, before they'll use their most powerful attacks on siffrin
#talk tag#isatposting#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#man i am wordy today huh#anyways. i think abt loop a normal amount can you tell. i think about twohats a normal amount can you tell#also wait hold on i just checked the stats page again for this post and. it seems like loop Cannot crit in phase one?#unless im reading it wrong. but like. gestures emphatically if that is true#id need to go fight them again to check but i dont think attack buffs would do anything (bc their attacks are percentage based)#which would mean if both of those things are true the max damage they can do in phase one IS genuinely just 17% of ur hp#+ even if attack buff DOES do smth thatd still only be uhhhhhhh#like 25%? but even then they can only buff once per loop in phase one + they only do that 17% attack once every 3 turns#so theyd only be able to get one of those. so im just gonna say 17% max for simplicity sake#guarding halves the damage down to 8.5% and for the other attack halves it to 5%. you heal 6% every turn with the memory#you could literally just stand there and guard forever and absolutely nothing else. and stay at almost full hp the whole time#if im doing the math right then youd lose a total of 0.5% hp for every three turns. by just standing there and doing nothing but guarding#loop! does not! want!!! to hurt siffrin!!!!!!!! thank you for coming to my ted talk. takes a bow#wait thats not taking into account attack speed actually hold on#okay so its gonna vary based on level obvs + also my sif has the scissors equipped which lowers attack speed and i cant. unequip them </3#BUT. opened up my act 6 save to check. his attack speed is 186 (at level 76) and loops is 170. so sif outpaces loop#which MEANS [clears throat] sif can probably outheal all the damage loop does given enough time#okay. thank you for coming to my ted talk for REAL this time. maybe ill make these tags their own post i fucking went off so much help m#was joking abt being really wordy today and then went and wrote a FULL ESSAY in the tags like okay
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You saying you associate Vitus with mice/rats makes me imagine tiny Vitus sitting in Fulgrimās hand or on Fulgrimās shoulder (my siblings used to have rats and mice and with the nicer ones you could do that)
they're literally so inseparable its tooth rottingly cute
#eating sopaaa :3 (my throat hurts)#does anyone else crave soup/hot tea ONLY when ur sick#like otherwise i fucking hate it#anyways i love mice!#im unfortunately very ticklish so i tense up whenever im around rodents bc i worry imma flinch and accidentally hurt them#i imagine horus or someone saying something along the lines of ābrother your shoulder-ā#only to be interrupted by Fulgrim#āthats my baby u say nothing about himā#wuvz answers#fulgrim#vitus
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guys please tell me those batman #148 leaks of jason dying again are fake. tell me they're fake right fucking now i can't fucking do this shit right now i'm off my meds
#this better be bait or i swear to fucking god#i saw those 10 mins ago and i feel like i'm gonna die my heart is racing my hands are shaking my head hurts and i feel like committing crim#i'm too mentally ill for this#i wish this was a joke but i feel very dizzy as i type this and i can feel my heart beating on my throat#i will commit murder.#i hope from the bottom of my heart this is some fear toxin shenanigan bc even if i'm tired of writers making his death his only trait#i cannot handle if it's him actually dying again.#part of me knows dc would have to be very fucking stupid to kill jason again but it's fucking dc and they hate him so everything is possibl#there's things that could mean it's fake like he seems younger and he's in robin uniform for some fucking reason but god does it hurt#i'm trying not to freak out but there's that thing that your brain can't tell the difference between fiction and reality so i'm going insan#chat pray for me#i'm a fucking atheist but please pray for me#i think i'm going into cardiac arrest#jason todd#batman 148
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Thinkingā¦
Thinking abt Honkai Star men being dragged to a concert.
(Can be read platonic or romantic)
Sampo is so totally down for it. He just gives the energy of someone who wouldnāt say no to a free concert ticket (AND HONESTLY?? ME TOO BESTIE)
100% gives his all because why the fuck not? And itās so much fun. Likeā BABES. When I tell you that this man probably hypes you up hella hard when you start belting it outā I MEAN IT.
Heās taking pictures, heās taking videos. (Heās 100% taking advantage of your excitement to get a few free drinks)
Okayā but Sampo would totally be happy for you. And heās also really happy. Like youāre yelling your lungs out. Singing screamingā it does not matter. Both of your throats are GONE by tomorrow.
Speaking ofā Sampo probably almost made you two late. By accident. He just kept forgetting things or tried buying stuff.
Itās fine, after the concert he was a gentleman with guiding you back to the room. You both knock the fuck out though. Your heads hit those pillows and you were GONERS.
Itās NOT Gepardās first concert. I refuse to believe that man has never attended any of Servalās concerts. Heās got the best tickets, the best placing, he knows when to get ready and when to goā Dawg is your best man to be with for concerts.
Heās not good at singing, but fuck that. Youāre both singing and losing your voices. Both of you are standing and fucking rocking out to the music.
And if Serval is trying to get people onstage?? SHUT UP, YOU TWO ARE TRYING TO GET THE OTHER ONSTAGE. Itās such a funny mess because you guys are too high on energy and pointing at one another.
Doesnāt matterā neither of you are chosen. But thatās okay bc you two are laughing so hard and leaning against each other. Like jfc you guys lost a lung AND your voices.
Gepard had to awkwardly tell Bronya that he couldnāt make it to work today. Why? Ohā¦ you know. No voice, haha.
She knows and is happy heās getting time to have fun.
Dan Heng?? How tf did you get him to go?
Itās not that hard actually. March and Stelle tag teamed his ass into going.
But thatās fiiine. Heās perfect for navigation and knows where stuff is. Heās got your back with the good hotels and restaurants.
At first, this man is QUIET. Heās nodding his head to the beat, but thatās it. It isnāt until later when the energy is really out there, that you catch him standing.
He probably doesnāt yell or scream like you, March, and Stelle. Dawg probably smiles like a dumbass though and is shaking his head. You guys wonāt have voices for shit tomorrow. Thatās okay, he can help soothe your sore throats in the morning.
He wonāt admit it (he does but not verbally), but he enjoyed the concert. Like he loved seeing you guys let loose and go wild. Makes him feel like shit is gonna be okay.
After the concert is so funny tho. March is riding that energy high, Stelle wants to devour food (and probably inedible stuff), and youāre slowly crashing. So heās got you leaning against him while trying to convince the other two to get back to the hotel room.
Heās semi-successful.
NOW JING YUANā I am so biased towards this man. You guys donāt even know.
But heās slightly unsure what to do, but whatever. Heāll follow your lead.
Fuck the beforeā DURING?? His hand is hovering over the small of your back. Any open drink you have is covered so it doesnāt spill on your outfit. Heās watching out for you with the softest and happiest smile. Because heād trade the world for you to be this carefree.
Youāre yelling, screaming, singingā you definitely have a sore throat. But thatās okay. Heāll take care of you. He promises.
Bro probably is laughing and smiling so hard. Likeā you take his hand and start scream-singing the lyrics and heās for it. Do that sway stay-in place dance with him. Please. Heās overjoyed every time you face him with that smile.
Okay, but afterwards, heās probably still dealing with lingering energy. You two are clearly dropping in energy levels, and heās urging you to the hotel room. Saying stuff āwe can see it tomorrow, just rest for now,ā while helping you deal with a very sore throat.
ā¦ this man has my heart wtf. I am so biased with him.
For Blade? Good luck. I actually donāt know how youād get his ass to go. But if you do, youāre the safest motherfucker there.
Your drinks? Safe. Your items? Safe. You? Safest person to exist. Heās responsible for your ass nowā¦ much to his dismay.
I donāt have a good grasp of his character yet, but I think heād be a bit irked. Irkedā¦ but slightly smug knowing you chose him over Kafka and Silver Wolf. Because, hey, thatās shit he can say heās done that the other two havenāt.
Oh, but heās so over it at the end. āGet your merch and letās goā type bs. Literally picks you up and makes his way to the hotel roomā bc we all know he wouldnāt settle for some cheap ass hotel. Dude made sure it was nice enough where there was two beds and easy to secure.
You probably had at least one argument the entire day. Maybe more bc itās Blade.
Itās fun though bc youāre smiling and donāt put up that bad of a fuss. Especially when he tosses you onto the bed and almost threatens you to sleep.
You knock out about thirty minutes after.
Blade just lets you sleep and debates if he wants to let you deal with that sore throat or not. (Spoiler; he doesnāt)
#went to see Katy Perry and jfc#my throat hurts dawg#talking isnāt an option for tomorrow#but it was worth it#crow writes#honkai star rail x reader#sampo x reader#sampo koski x reader#gepard x reader#gepard landau x reader#dan heng x reader#jing yuan x reader#blade x reader#hsr blade x reader#also Stelle mc bias bc I use her and sheās so fucking laid back and reckless
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HAPPY COMEBACK DAY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!
#i.n is my bias wrecker now bc what the fuck was that track!!!!!#edit: jk it's still changbin#my throat hurts from screaming about ultra and screaming along to hold my hand#HmH is really a stand-out track im ngl#it's so genuinely a rockstar moment
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Oral allergy syndrome is fucking crazy like I'm allergic to 90% of raw fruits and vegetables (and some nuts) and I didn't even know it existed til maybe a year ago. Everyone I've spoken to ALSO had no clue it existed. And apparently everyone who has hay-fever has it to some degree???
#fires posts#ramblings#I have all my veggies cooked anyway but I just?? Never ate fruit??#āYour body's not used to itā is all I ever got told growing up#and I just??? Accepted that fruit was going to make my throat and stomach hurt whenever I ate it?? Bc I didn't eat enough???#anyway I am trying to clean up my diet bc I can't keep living on biscuits and chocolate for lunch breaks#So any cooked fruit recipe (ideally without extra carbs) is very much appreciated lads#The only fruit ik i dont like is watermelon and oranges are pretty mid (which is so fucking annoying bc they dont trigger my OAS)
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ok this recovery process is truly more miserable than i thought it would be
#major tmi but it's gonna be days before i'm able to take a shit and i ate a lot of food the day before yesterday#so that cramping in the area where the surgery took place is VERY painful#i can't really eat because 1. throat hurts from having a breathing tube shoved down it#2. can't smoke weed to help my appetite bc the coughing hurts too bad (and all I have is wax & dabs make you cough a lot more)#and 3. the whole aforementioned being unable to shit thing makes me too nervous to put any more food in my stomach#i'm so fucking hungry my stomach hurts so bad#all i've eaten since yesterday is a few chips and half of a taco#pain meds aren't working at all so i quit taking em so my stomach wouldn't be even more fucked#especially since i was taking them on an empty stomach#i can hardly walk i need a cane BAD#peeing hurts bc they had to mess around w my bladder during surgery too#i'm just miserable as fuck#.bdo
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Fell back asleep for a while (still have a horrible headache btw) and I had the most disturbing dream that I'm going to tell you guys about in the tags
#so i was on a road trip with a bunch of people i dont even know and there were like 10 of us packed into a van#and they were so fucking loud and my head was hurting even in my dream so i was like CAN EVERYONE PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP#and we get to this hotel or like house place thats like a hotel#amd we go inside and i go check the fridge and there was a thick lemonade snoothie looking drink in this clear pitcher in the fridge#and i pulled it out and look inside and there was a live fucking lizard in there all covered in the smoothie stuff trying to escape#and i was like damn i should let that outside in a minute#but i went to looks for meds first bc like i said my head was hurting even in my dream#and when i come back the pitcher is empty (no lizard no smoothie stuff)#and i was like ...... did someone drink this??#and this guy was like nah that was cake batter i put in the oven#and i was like YOU FUCKING PUT IT WHERE????#so i get this sheet pan out of the oven and there is a half baked cake and in the middle was the lizard all charred and dead looking#and i was like fuck dude you killed it#but then#BUT THEN#the fucking lizard gets up and jumped out of the cake batter and starts speed running around the place like up on the walls and ceiling#and it seemed pissed as hell#like rightfully so bc someone tried to bake it into a cake but still#so i was running around trying to stay away from it bc i got the impression that it would bite whoever it got close to#and then i woke up and for a second it felt like something was crawling on me#and i had a small/brief panic as i checked the bed for any lizards (there was nothing there)#and now im awake and my head hurts even worse and my throat hurts and my body hurts and its very possible that im sick
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Me: wow im glad we got through my roommate getting covid without getting infected too, we're so good at stopping the spread im gunna get such a good grade in being healthy
Me, two weeks later: oh no
#i haven't tested yet bc we're out of tests#but my chest fucking hurts and so does my throat#ugghhhhh
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I'm alive. A little bit. Maybe. I think.
#coming out of the worst of the porphyria but caught a fucking cold from my mom and sibling š« #like woke up really happy for 2 seconds bc my arm feels like there's still some nerve weirdness going on but unlike last night no paralysis#then i started coughing and realized my throat hurts
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I better fucking not be getting sick š I stg
#marquilla#my throat feels scratchy like when i swallow it makes my nose hurt bc theyre fucking connected#and ive had a runny nose all day (more than usual... usually it runs a lot at work but it's so dusty there and even with my mask on it#runs laps so idk)#it might be allergies im gonna take my backup allergy med and see but š come on...
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Tell me why there was a medical emergency on a day where a medical emergency should not have been involved lmao wtf
#not snz#on par when i had an animal related mishap at the station#had to deal with a medical emergency at my ranch hand job to even it out#like i literally went there to chill and vibe with the animals and unwind and breathe in non smoky air#and to keep myself active a bit bc they're gonna call me in again and if I'm still for too long I'm not gonna be able to move lmao#but we heard screaming and went to investigate and sure as shit there's peepaw on the ground#thank fuck asshole was there too bc he āØ drove me there āØ then decided to hang out again and help#so i didn't have to do hands only cpr for nearly twenty minutes straight lmao we switched off#but still that was a fucking work out like holy shit#was just trying to have a good fucking time but NO#like stop it i don't wanna be a black cloud anymore i wanna go back to doing nothing ever#hate it here smh#worth it tho bc i got to cuddle with the animals š#and I'm home now and get to go back to suffering and dying lmao#my lungs still hurt and so does my throat but we're just ignoring all that at this point#the inhaler helps a bit but it still feels bad man#but I'm cuddling and watching shows with him again š„°#on god bro I'm gonna make this man so much food and take him wherever tf he wants to go#he's out here doing the absolute most lmao mans is in the medical field For A Reason#and he's making more tea rn ahdkaks we've been slowly working our way through the various teas i have and ranking them lmao#gonna make him some fancy ass dinner tomorrow idk i feel weird that he's doing this much for me ahdkakks#like bro already saved my ass from continuing to be on the fire line he has done Enough and i feel bad ahdkalsl
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#tired of everything#restless and sick and simply in an absolute bad mood :)#and it's becoming worse with each day hallelujah everything hurts#also please someone tear out my sore throat thank you#telling myself iTs jUSt a cOLd like yeah :))) bitch you need to rest more and chill bc your health looks so fucking bad#but life says No. well whatever
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i fear the jokes are over i gotta start working on my thesis for real. i donāt want to but uhm. i gotta
#google how do i do things i donāt want to do#this means i wonāt be on here as much#if you see me on here yell at me#had a loooong talk with my dad and heās real nice about it but yeah i gotta start#i feel so fucking lost though#we compiled a little schedule together so that i can have some deadlines#and uhhhhhhhhhhhh#idk if that was smart bc now iām feeling ANXIETY#also my throat hurts because i want to cry#i might have a good cry before going to bed#rambles#if someone tells you to get a masters tell them no. thatās the devil talking
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