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asldkffj tw ed and body weight mention but during the real peak of my ed ofc i envied irl super skinny ppl i saw and then i read this thing abt how some skinny ppl are terminally ill and hate how they look etc and it changed my mind and any time i had envious thoughts i berated myself lolz
#ugh i wanna make a like hyperspecific ed poll#but I'll get glorification death threats#n i'll also get ed followers#neither of which i care for#but like omg sorry you can tlk abt your asd brain in public so why is me talking abt my ed brain glorification#and if it is what's so wrong with tht huh ugh whatever#but yh inwas tht ed bitch who binged watched ALL of superfat superskinny aldkfjffnf#thinking back to tht is so crazy bc like wtf the show is gross akskdjfjfnfn#also the fact tht i hate watching things yet i did tht cri#also i realized like all my fav visual media is ed shit which i can nvr tlk abt?#i think it's also the most media ive consumed in general#but like cant drop my fav movie is to the bone in a convo#but also why tf not#eds are still so stigmatized it's insane#on one hand i get it bc it's like rather very easy to devlop depending on the person#n u never know who's brain may secretly be predisposed to tht#but also like i wish i cld just tlk abt my ed experiences without being so problematic#and outside of the active current ed community#bc my ed n very ed behavior is really in my past#no myb i hvent fully recovered n no myb i dont want to#but also im not the 14/15 yr old who's gonna binge superfat superskinny n do jumping jacks till them hurt their both ankles lolz#like idk it's just like it happens it happened it's my xp ugh#it's also the one mental illness my family knows i suffered with even tho they ignore it lol n i nvr admit it#it's also the one xp in my life i can imagine being like an advocate abt?#idk it's kind of a drive u crazy lonely xp esp where i live ppl just dont kno it's so complex it's ugh#i hv written the most beautiful poetry abt it#like i finished two collections on it???#yh i glorify(ied) it as a muse n no i dont want to heal but no im nopvr gonna glorify it to others but yes i#id like to tlk abt my xps with it#cloud nonsense
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detention, retention, and draco malfoy being a little shit
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pairing: draco x reader
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summary: golden trio friend y/n y/l/n tries to extract information out of draco malfoy after being placed in detention together.
warnings: swearing, panic attack kinda stuff, just the dark war things that would come w having the task that draco does
a/n: ayo so i started this as a fic i was originally planning on writing in a week. i discontinued it bc i didnât think anyone was that interested, but iâve written for it on and off. itâs about 16k words right now standing, but iâm reposting this as a 2 part series. here are the first ~12k words....enjoy :) IMPORTANT: if youâre like âhey i started reading this in october why tf are you reposting the first two partsâ just keep reading ok lmao i promise thereâs more thereâs about through part 6 in here hehe. i just wanted new readers to be able to pick up on it without being turned off by the fact that it was part 3. this will b e 2 parts and at least 20k words
word count: 11.6k
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For legal purposes, the york pudding she lobbed at Pansy Parkinsonâs head on Monday evening was simply meant to be a joke. She didnât know that her aim was bad enough that it was going to get in Snapeâs hair instead--honestly, it wasnât even supposed to get past the Ravenclaw table, much less veer to the left to make a beeline for the professors--but no matter how much she tried to explain this to McGonagall, her sentence remained the same: detention every Friday. For two months.
Her life was ending for sure.
âI honestly donât know what you were expecting,â Hermione told her as she gently wiped off the nib of her quill later that night in the common room. âEven if you had hit your mark, thatâs still technically assault.â
âDid you even hear what she said to me? She told me that I looked like the type of kid that bit people in primary school,â complained Y/N. âI didnât even think she knew what primary school was!â
Hermione snorted. âHow long ago?â
âTwo days. Iâve been waiting until there was something throwable on the dinner table.â
âHow very analytic of you.â
âIâm going to hit you.â
âAnd you wonder why youâve got detention.â Hermione tsk-ed at her, her face stone serious but her tone light hearted. âMaybe take this as an opportunity to, I donât know, do your homework for once? So you wonât have to have a breakdown over the next Potionâs essay and beg me to write it for you?â
âIâm going to go to sleep and think terribly mean thoughts about you.â
âHave fun.â
~Â
Detention.
Something that Y/N wasnât completely unfamiliar with--sheâd done her time organizing Snapeâs cabinets, just like every other Gryffindor--but it was different when it came to McGonagall. An impressive old lady, she thought that McGonagall saw something in her. She was always the first to chuckle at Y/Nâs jokes and hesitated to reprimand her stupid behavior. And she never gave Y/N detention.
Until now, she supposed. 6th year was changing a lot of things--even their Potions professor--so McGonagall turning a new stone shouldnât have been anything shocking.
At least, not as shocking as the first thing Y/N saw as she walked into her house headâs office.
âMalfoy?â she spat.
The platinum blonde didnât even bother to look up from his desk.
âMiss Y/L/N,â Professor McGonagall chided. âI think we would all prefer if you restrained yourself from getting into any more physical altercations with Slytherins.â
She huffed, plopping down in the chair furthest away from that foul git and reaching for her satchel.
âIâll be back in two hours,â said the elderly professor. âIf I hear anything, and I mean anything, other than the sound of studying, consider your sentence doubled.â
With a swish of her robes, McGonagall was gone, leaving her with Malfoy.Â
âSo whatâd you do to get in here, huh? Did the administration finally get a hold of that video of you licking Voldemortâs toes?â
âWhat the fuck does that mean?!â he snapped, whipping around to glare at her.
ââs just a joke,â said Y/N. âLike--how everyone says your family houses him and everything--but whatever. I can tell itâs a sore spot.â
His gaze, never withering in intensity, remained trained on her face. âYou have no idea what youâre talking about.â
âApparently so. Whatâre you here for?â
He exhaled sharply. âIf I tell you, will you shut up and let me think?â
âNo promises, but maybe.â
âLate work. I forgot to turn in the Transfiguration exam last week.â
She made a tutting sound as she lazily shuffled through the crumpled parchment in her satchel. âI expected more from you. Arenât you gonna ask me how I wound up here?â
âNo. I am going to ask you to stop talking now, though.â
~
âThatâs terribly unfortunate,â Hermione said over breakfast the next morning. Ron and Harry were nervously chit chatting at the other side of the table over the Saturday Quidditch game against Hufflepuff--supposedly it was supposed to be quite a high stakes match. Not like Y/N cared much, though.
âYeah! And the worst part was that he wonât even tease anymore. Like, he just sits there all broody and woe is me. Weâre all witnessing our nationâs descent into war--heâs not special!â
âWho are you talking about?â asked Harry.
âOh, just Malfoy,â said Y/N. âWe have detention together with McGonagall. Heâs such a nasty little greaseball, donât you think? I mean, look at him right now, glowering over his cereal.â
âWait! Thatâs it!â
âWhatâs it, Harry?â Hermione asked.
âItâs genius, really,â he said. âY/N has to spend time with him alone every week, and we know that something is up with him. Malfoy is absolutely a Death Eater and has connections to You-Know-Who, but I just need to find a way to prove it.â
âI vaguely forecast where this is going, and I hate it already.â
âListen, Y/N. Itâs not for that long, and itâs for the health of the wizarding world. If you just get to know him--â
âIck!â
âIf you just get to know him, maybe get him to trust you and find out his secrets...weâd finally have enough to turn him in and throw him out of Hogwarts for good.â
âIs that really necessary, Harry?â Ginny butted in from her seat further down next to Dean. âMalfoyâs probably just exhausted like the rest of you. 6th year is difficult, and we have no solid evidence that heâs a Death Eater. Iâm sure being stuck in a room with him for 2 hours is hard enough without pretending to be nice to him.â
âBut what if Harryâs right?â said Y/N. âWhat if he is actually a Death Eater? What if heâs an active danger to the student body?â
âExactly!â The joy written across Harryâs face at the prospect of someone else finally agreeing was infectious. âSo will you?â
âErâŠâ She dragged her spoon across the top layer of her porridge. âIn theory, sure. In actuality, Iâm not sure how I could do it. Malfoy doesnât want anything to do with me, either.â
âLove potion?â offered Ron.
âI donât care how much of a prat he is, Iâm not roofying him.â
âI rarely agree with you, Y/N, but I think youâre right. If you want to do this, you need to get him to trust you for real.â
âYour back-handed compliment skills never disappoint, Hermione. Do you think you could help me out with a plan?â
A slow smile spread across the girlâs face as she nodded. âThatâs my strong suit.â
The plan they laid out over the remainder of the day was ambitious but at least do-able. Each week was split into different subtasks, the end goal being a somewhat tentative friendship between the two.Â
âIf you can flirt with him and get him to have a crush on you without scaring him off, youâd be in the best possible position,â Hermione told her as they walked back from the Quidditch pitch among the screaming Gryffindor fans. Theyâd won--yet again. âObviously I donât foresee that being likely, but if you pull it off somehow heâd probably be willing to tell you anything. The fact that youâre a pureblood is going to carry you through this whole ordeal. Heâll at least be accepting of your existence in the wizarding community.â
The bitter edge in Hermioneâs tone made Y/Nâs blood boil. There was no reason for Malfoy to be as prejudiced as he was--heâd spent his adolescence in Hermioneâs academic dust. She was obviously smarter than him.Â
âYou got it, âMione,â she said. Her voice barely carried over the cheers of her peers as they ascended the steps to the common room. âWeâll take this little ferret down. I canât wait.â
âDonât get too cocky, now.â
The Gryffindor after-party was crazy...per usual. The charmed self-filling goblets, the blasted playlist of Wizpop pumping through the air, and the buzzing energy of the room was giving Y/N a giant headache. She stood with Hermione and Harry by the edge of the crowd, watching Ron get hoisted up on the shoulders of the chasers.Â
âNo wonder the Slytherins think weâre Neanderthals,â Y/N mused. For once, Hermione didnât respond. âHermione? Is everything okay?â
The second she turned away to look at her best friend, gasps and whistles filled the room. She whipped back just in time to see Lavender Brown, a sweet but slightly ditzy girl in their year, pull away from a kiss with Ron.
âOh shi--Hermione!â
Harry and Y/N shared a glance before darting after the witch--who had impressively already made it to the door.Â
âHermione, wait!â Y/N called as they jogged after her, throwing open the common room entrance and finding her sat by the tapestry on the other side of the hall, knees to her chest.
ââMione, whatâs wrong?â asked Harry.
âDonât be daft, Harry,â said Y/N. âYou saw exactly what the rest of us did.â
âI donât understa--â
âHarry.â Her voice was taut. âI know youâre just trying to help, but I think that it might be best if you let us be. Go back and enjoy the party.â
He gave her a tight, grateful smile before darting back through the door. Y/N wasted no more time in walking over to Hermione and throwing her arms around her shoulders.
âIâm so sorry,â she whispered, hugging her tight. Hermione made no move to detach them, so she continued. âRon is an idiot. You deserve so much better--your first kiss was Viktor fucking Krum, after all. Youâre hot stuff and this place is just unfortunately running dry of men who are impressive enough for you. Once youâre out of here and working in the Ministry, youâre gonna have the time of your life with men actually in your league.â
Hermione managed a sniffly laugh as she wiped her eyes with her sleeve. âItâs just so fucking embarrassing, you know. Like, I have a crush on him because I think he understands me and I smelled him in my Amortentia and I thought heâd like me back, butâŠâ She hiccuped. âThen he goes off and kisses Lavender Brown, of all people. Thereâs nothing particularly wrong with her or anything, but sheâs so different...Iâm so bookish, and sheâs so girly and everything Iâm notâŠâ
Y/N took the opportunity to tuck a lock of Hermioneâs hair behind her ear as she listened.
âAnd it canât help but make me think--was I ever anything to him but a friend? If the girl he ends up choosing is the opposite of me?â
âGirly, donât think like that,â murmured Y/N. âHeâs a teenage boy. They donât think of love the way that we do--to them itâs a game of availability, not of choice. At least for Ronald. You intimidate him, and by extension, youâre not available.â
âThat shouldnât matter!â
âYouâre right. It shouldnât.â Y/N drew a long breath. âSo you should find someone who always has you as their first choice--someone who isnât intimidated by your intellect. Theyâre out there. I promise.â
Hermione managed a shaky smile. âThanks, Y/N. I mean it. Do you mind if I have some alone time? I donât think Iâm ready to go back to the party but I just want some quiet.â
âOf course. Let me know if you need me,â she said, brushing herself off and making to walk down the hall.
âYouâre not going back to the party?â
âNah. It hurts my head and I want fresh air. If Iâm not back here in a half hour, assume that Iâve been kidnapped.â
With that, she started her walk. She wasnât planning on going on a long stroll--there was a small balcony that she often went to when she needed to clear her head. It was beautiful, especially on a snowy night like this.
But the walk was creepy.
There was only one way in and out--a narrow, damp hallway that had absolutely no light fixtures. If Y/N really wanted to, she could cast a quick lumos, but she wasnât sure if she wanted to see what lived on the walls. The stairs were steep, too, but she managed to bound up all 40 of them in record time.Â
âWhoâs there?â
The sudden voice ripped a scream out of Y/Nâs throat as she reached the top, catching a glimpse of the shadowy figure at the edge of the balcony that spoke. She clasped her hand over her mouth and she crept forward to the opening, getting a better look at the person that was in her secret spot.
The clouds shifted in the sky to allow more moonlight to cast a soft glow on Malfoyâs face, hardened with irritation.
âMalfoy?â Y/N asked, rather dumbly.
âWhat stellar observational skills,â he drawled.Â
She felt her cheeks grow hot. âWhat are you doing here? This is part of the Gryffindor tower. Shouldnât you be...I donât know...playing hide and seek with the sewer rats in the dungeons?â
âVery funny.â His flat tone exposed the fact that he did not, in fact, find it very funny. âThereâs no rule barring me from coming up here.â
âBut why? This is my spot!â
âBecause I wanted to get out. Now, I was here first, so unless you want your detention extended, I suggest you leave.â
Y/N bit the fiery comebacks on the tip of her tongue as the memories of her plan with Hermione began floating back to her.Â
Week 1 -- Hold one neutral, civil conversation with Malfoy.
âIâll be quiet. You wonât even know Iâm here,â Y/N decided upon. leaning up against the balcony. The rogue snowflakes that made it past the overhanging roof melted on her cheeks.Â
âThat isnât a suggestion,â said Malfoy. âIâm demanding you leave.â
âBeautiful night, isnât it?â Y/N asked, pointedly ignoring his words. âIâve always loved the snow. Itâs so quiet.â
âAnd it would be even quieter if you left.â
âArenât you the conversationalist?â said Y/N.
âIf you donât leave, I will hex you,â Malfoy told her through gritted teeth.Â
âI just love how the moonlight reflects off of the snow,â continued Y/N. âItâs so...pure.â
âPlease leave.â
On her walk back down the dank stairwell, she allowed herself a little smile.Â
Task 1? Technically done.
~Â
The first week went largely as planned. Malfoy was cold and certainly suspicious of her, but he wasnât completely venomous when Y/N asked where he got his quill from in Potions. It was silver, charmed to shimmer with flecks of forest green. He told her Barnabyâs in France, and that was that. She walked away from his table with all of her limbs attached. Perhaps that was all the progress she was going to make in the next few weeks, but the task at hand certainly made the prospect of her lost Friday afternoons more bearable.Â
Harry was going completely batty, rambling on about how Malfoy was behind the mysterious cursed objects that had been floating about the castle without explanation.Â
âAnd why would Malfoy bring cursed objects to Hogwarts if he has aspirations other than being expelled?â Hermione would ask over their books.
âYou donât understand, Hermione! You girls need to be careful walking around at night--especially you, Y/N. I donât want you going missing after detention because of that slimeball.â
Y/N always gave him a laugh, berating him for his slight misogynistic commentary and turning back to whatever her task was, but the truth was that she was worried for him. The mental weight of the impending war and the fact that he couldnât do anything about it was certainly getting too difficult for him to bear. It was heartbreaking to see the vivacious boy sheâd grown up with crumble under the responsibilities of something he should never have to worry about in the first place.
Friday came much sooner than expected, and Y/N reluctantly left her friends in the common room to trek to McGonagallâs office. The walk was frigid and the wind bit at her cheeks as she rounded the last outdoor hall.
Why was this castle so dark?
A thump behind her made her jump, and Harryâs words came floating back to her.Â
Remember all those cursed objects? What if thereâs someone just...stalking the school grounds, waiting for someone like me to snatch?
She shivered, throwing herself at the office door and slamming it behind her.
âMiss Y/L/N,â Professor McGonagall greeted, her eyebrows raised in amusement. âSomething giving you trouble?â
âNo, Professor,â she answered, setting her bag down on the desk next to Malfoy. He sent her a curious look as well. âItâs just cold outside.â
She chuckled. âI need to go speak to Headmaster Dumbledore. I expect that, upon my return, you both are in one piece and alive.â
âIâm not sure if Iâm the one who needs to be given that speech,â said Y/N, bored and testing the waters.
âSheâs right, Professor,â added Malfoy. âThereâs no projectiles here.â
McGonagall exhaled a long, shaky breath before brushing herself off. âPlease. Behave yourselves.â
âYou got it, boss,â she said as she watched her Professor walk out the door. âSo, Malfoy. How was your week?â
âI donât know what youâre up to, but Iâd way prefer if you didnât speak to me,â he said, refusing to make eye contact.
âIâm not up to anything! Weâre in detention together and, I dunno, since I see you sometimes at balls, I thought itâd be nice to be on good terms.â
âGood terms?â He scoffed. âYouâre a Gryffindor. Iâd rather you be a bloody Hufflepuff.â
âHow about neutral terms?â
Even though he wasnât looking at her, she could catch a glimpse of him rolling his eyes. âIf neutral terms mean you being quiet, then, yes. Please.â
âIâll be plenty quiet. After I hear about your opinion on what happened in Potions today with Brown and Weasley. When Snape yelled at them for holding hands.â
He let out a sharp sigh. âBelieve it or not, I actually have better things to do than keep up with whatever stuff your house does.â
âButâŠ?â Y/N pressed. She may notâve spent her time at Hogwarts as Malfoyâs best friend, but she had grown up with the boy, and she could tell when he was holding back.
He stared blankly at her.
âCome on. Iâm literally the only person in my house whoâll openly admit that theyâre disgusted by that dynamic. Iâm begging you.â
She wasnât sure if she was imagining it, but she thought she saw a flicker of amusement dance across his face for a moment. âYour house sounds more like a cult than a student group.â
âOh, says the one from Slytherin,â said Y/N.Â
âWe only act like that because our families are close. Whatâs your excuse? Hormones and Quidditch culture?â
âTouchĂ©.â As much as she wanted to fight back, she bit her tongue. Whatever she was doing was making progress, and quicker progress than she was expecting. Her next task was to make him laugh, and she was emboldened by the fact that she could potentially be able to kill two birds with one stone.Â
They sat in silence for a little bit, but this time, it was a comfortable silence. Malfoy wasnât staring at the clock on the wall or rolling his eyes at her every move, so she had time to plot.
On one hand, she could make a fool of herself--drop her inkwell, say something stupid in class, fall down the stairs--but she had a sneaking suspicion that her sorry attempts at slapstick humor wouldnât land well with Draco anymore. Heâd become so serious lately, so solemn. This was the most light hearted sheâd seen him, even compared with how he acted with the rest of his Slytherin lackeys.Â
On the other, she could try to sell out her friends. She could confide in him how âbigâ Hermioneâs teeth were (they werenât even big) or tell him that Ron smelled of eggs (true, but that was a low blow). Something told her that this would be much more successful, but she wasnât willing to turn to that so quickly--she was already a week ahead as it was.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
Malfoyâs bored drawl cut through her flurried thoughts. Her cheeks turned pink as she blinked, noticing that sheâd been staring at him for far too long. âNothing. Sorry. I just spaced out.â
âSure,â he mumbled, giving her another suspicious look before turning back to his work. âCan you maybe space out somewhere other than my face?â
âWhereâs your vanity, Malfoy?â she pressed as she leaned back in her chair, hair swinging over the back.Â
âShut up,â he snapped. She could tell that whatever connection theyâd had in the fleeting moments beforehand was being burnt by the second, but her embarrassment and pride drove her forward.
âMerlin, whatâs got you so wound up?â she prompted, noting how deliciously unraveled he looked at this. âWhereâs my cool, collected Slytherin?â
He slammed hands on his desk at this, whipping around to glare at her. âWhatâs your angle, Y/L/N?â
âWhat?â
âWhy are you bothering me?â
âBecause I want to.â She beamed.
Malfoy ran his fingers through his hair, mussing up the usual neat manner in which it normally laid on his head. âCompelling. What do you want from me?â
âWhat do I wantâŠ?â She tilted her head at him, narrowing her eyes. âWhat?â
âYou never talk to me,â he explained. âObviously, I prefer it like that. I canât help but wonder why suddenly you want to be making small talk. So, what is it you want from me?â
âMalfoy,â she said. âI think youâre a spoiled prick who thinks far too highly of himself and drives me insane. But I also think that youâre funnier than what my friends give you credit for. Granted, youâve always been annoying, but I donât want anything from you. I just want to, I dunno, make these next few months less insufferable.â Somehow the lie slipped through her teeth easier than any of her previous bluffs.Â
He frowned, his mouth opening once before firmly screwing shut into a scowl. âOh.â
âNo offense, Malfoy, but what else can you offer me other than your dazzling personality?â she teased. âYou know my family. I donât need to blackmail you to pay for jewelry Iâve had my eye on or anything.â
He scoffed. âAs if Iâd say yes.â
âExactly my point. Itâd be fucking weird. Merlin, Iâm not trying to butter you up to buy out Borgin & Burkes for me. Do I give off gold-digger vibes? Is that what this is about?â
âFucking hell.â Malfoy turned to her in disbelief. âDo you ever shut up?â
âAnswer my question. Or better yet, pull out your wallet. Wait, did I say that out loud?â She mimed surprise and covered her mouth. âOh no! What will my mother say now that Iâve squandered my last chance of hitching you? Thereâs no way I can go home for Christmas break now.â
He rolled his eyes so hard she found herself worried for a moment that they were going to just permanently get stuck in the back of his head. âHate to break it to you, but you didnât really have a shot to begin with.â
Ouch.
She huffed and dramatically flopped over the back of her chair, hoping he couldnât see that sheâd flinched. âSo you donât think Iâm pretty??âÂ
âY/L/N,â he snapped, his voice a low warning. âCan I please just work? What is with you today?â
Y/N sent him a sour look before giving her Charms work another look. Malfoy was awfully quiet, and when she snuck any glances at him later on, he was angled to face away from her.Â
Why did she feel like such shit all of a sudden? She cataloged the past events, trying to pinpoint the exact moment that her stomach dropped. It all made sense when the words âYou didnât really have a shot to begin withâ echoed around her head once again. Sheâd failed Harry. Sheâd failed Hermione. There was no way that she was going to be able to get him to reveal his secrets now--itâs not like he was confiding in even his closest friends as Harry made apparent when he explained how vague his statements were to his fellow Slytherins on the train. Her only chance wouldâve been to somehow get him to fall for her, and that wasnât going...great. And it had been a pipedream to begin with.
When McGonagall swished back into the classroom to dismiss them, Y/N shot out of there without even looking at Malfoy again. It felt like something was lodged in her throat and she was not going to cry in front of him. No, no. She had to make it to Hermione to tell her what was going on.Â
âY/L/N?âÂ
Malfoyâs voice made her pause in her flee as she nearly rounded the corner in front of her, but she refused to look back. It was far enough away that it was possible she didnât hear him.
âWait!â
She was up the stairs and speed walking as fast as her legs could carry her to the Gryffindor tower before he even saw which way she went.
~
âI donât think you understand,â Y/N wailed by the fire as Hermione rubbed her shoulders and Harry sat awkwardly perched on the couch. âI canât do this. The only way this was going to work was if he had a crush on me, and I donât think he ever will. I fucked it up! The one time you guys need me, I fuck it up! I let you down!â
Hermioneâs left hand stopped its rubbing to rest firmly on her shoulder. âPlease donât be upset. You didnât let us down. Plus, youâre only, what...two weeks in? You donât need him to like you to make it work. Just getting him to trust you will be enough, and youâre good at that.â
âI donât think so,â continued Y/N. âHarry said that he wasnât even that open on the train when he overheard him talking to all of his friends. And those are purebloods that he likes! That heâs trusted and known for years and years! Iâm a friend of you guys, and he knows it. I think heâd figure it out quick.â
âWe should take every chance we can get,â said Harry from his spot a few feet away, his eyes lazy and unfocused on the fire crackling in front of them. âYou wonât let us down if you canât get anything, Y/N, you know that! But if you got anything from him, itâd be incredible. Itâs a win-win. I donât understand why youâre so upset.â
âIâm not upset,â she said, her tone becoming defensive. âI just...donât want to mess this up. I know how much itâd mean if I succeeded.â
âSo just try!â Hermione said. âThereâs nothing wrong with it. Iâm sorry he was kind of mean to you today, but I donât think that should bother you too much. He should be more afraid of what youâd say if you didnât care about being a good person.â
âFucking right on there,â she said, wiping away the frustrated tears. âIf I was honest with him, heâd leave crying. He should be grateful that Iâm taking this bet so I actually have to be nice to him.â
âThatâs the spirit.â Harry leaned over to smack her back like he did his Quidditch teammates after a winning match.Â
After theyâd parted their ways with Harry, Hermione and Y/N made their way slowly up the stairwell to the girlsâ dorms.Â
âY/N?â Hermione asked, breaking the silence.Â
âYeah?â
âDo you think, erâŠâ She paused. âDo you think you were really upset about failing us today? Or was it something else?â
âWhat do you mean?â Y/N furrowed her eyebrows. âI donât see what else it would be.â
âIâm sorry,â responded the bright witch. âForget I ever asked. It was a stupid thing to wonder about.â
âWeirdo,â she teased as she waved her a goodnight and made her way to her dorm.
The next morning, Y/N busied herself with revising her Charms essay over her breakfast--a cup of tea and a half-buttered piece of toast--while Hermione leaned over her shoulder, nodding or grimacing at the corrections she made.Â
âDid you work during detention? Like, at all?â
ââMione,â moaned Y/N. âItâs too early for this. I donât want a lecture. I just couldnât focus.â
Her warm brown eyes narrowed as they bore into Y/Nâs face. âWhy were you distracted?â
âOh, I, uhâŠâ She stumbled over her words as Hermione drew closer. âMerlin, Hermione. I told you last night. I just felt like I was letting you all down.â
âMhm,â was all she got in response before her best friend tilted her head back down to the parchment in front of her.Â
Y/N sat, completely puzzled. What was Hermione on about? Sheâd been straightforward with what was hurting her--she didnât want to mess up the only task the Golden Trio had ever given her--and, even if she hadnât been, Hermione was smart enough to deduce things for herself. So what was she thinking about?
Her eyes drifted over to the Slytherin table where the usual 6th year pureblood gang loitered about, drinking black coffee and sulking--but Malfoy was not to be seen. She jumped when her eyes met Parkinson, her dark eyes burning into her soul as a deep scowl was written across her face.
âMalfoy, what the fuck do you want?â Ronâs voice pulled her back to reality to see him glaring somewhere behind her.
âI wasnât here to talk to you,â a familiar voice drawled.Â
She turned to see Malfoy standing behind her, a sneer written all across his stupidly pretty face.
âMiss me already?â asked Y/N as she raised an eyebrow and cocked her head to the side.Â
âFor fuckâs sake, stop doing that,â he mumbled, reaching into his pocket and throwing a box at her. âYou forgot your quill. I took the liberty of properly storing it, because it seems like you lot like to just throw them in your bag. Makes me physically ill to watch.â
âOh.â Y/N studied the intricate box in her hands before tucking it away in her knapsack. âThanks? I guess?â
He nodded curtly, contorting his face into one last scowl to send to Ron before turning and leaving,
âSo,â Hermione began, cutting her omelet at a much brisker pace, âI think we need to have a little chat. About...all of this.âÂ
âWhy?âÂ
âNot right now,â she said, her voice low and her eyes flicking at Ron and Harry sitting across from them. âI donât think itâd benefit us for them to hear.âÂ
âOk?â She cautiously took a bite out of her toast and continued staring Hermione down. âYouâre scaring me.â
âItâs...I donât know. I thought I was crazy for thinking this, but it seems like we need to talk about it anyways. For this little mission of yours to work, we need to be totally open and honest with each other.â
âSure.â Y/N took another bite. âI honestly have no clue whatâs got you so on edge, though.â
âWhoâs on edge?â Harry asked, leaning over the table and stealing the croissant on Y/Nâs plate.Â
âHey!â she exclaimed. âDo you not see the entire plate of them over there?â
He laughed, sending her an easy grin and dunking a piece into the hot chocolate in his mug. âFinders keepers. Say, Y/N, are you busy next weekend? Ron and Lavender are going to Madame Puddingfootâs together, and I know Hermione isnât going to want to take a weekend off studying to go to Hogsmeade, so I thought that maybe we could go cause some trouble at the Cauldron.â
âIf you stop stealing my food we can talk about it,â replied Y/N, the corners of her lips tugging up into a grin.Â
âDeal.â
Hermione tugged at her arm. âI just realized I need to get something out of my room before we watch the Quidditch game. Will you come with me, Y/N?â
âSure!â said Y/N. âGee, Iâm rolling in invitations today.â
Once they exited the dining hall, though, it immediately became evident that they were not actually heading up to the dorms. Hermione dragged her into the nearest bathroom before casting a quick silencing charm.
âMyrtle! Are you in here?â Only when she was sure silence was the only response to her question, she seemed satisfied to turn to Y/N and begin talking. âWhen were you going to tell me that you have a thing for Malfoy?â
âIâm sorry, what?â Y/N felt the heat that had risen to her cheeks from the last quill-encounter re-emerge.
âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about,â said Hermione. âAre you seriously going to expect me to believe that you nearly sobbed over some random pureblood git telling you you never had a chance with him because it might slow down your progress with helping us? Actually? Iâve seen you look more ecstatic about hearing that your dear granny passed away.â
âTo be fair, she had really good life insurance,â Y/N cut in. âAnd she was an old hag. Never had a nice thing to say to me.â
âLife insurance or no life insurance...you canât seriously expect me to believe that you were just upset about not being able to help us as much. That was ridiculous. I donât buy it. And the way you blushed like crazy when he came over to talk to you--the way you try and pretend like you can flirt...please. Y/N, itâs clear as day. I know you, and I know you have a crush on him.â
âHermione!â hissed Y/N. âYou have no clue what youâre talking about!â
âYes, I think I do,â she pushed. âAnd you need to be honest with me if you want to be of any help right now.â
Her bossiness lit a fire of rage in Y/Nâs chest, but she sucked in a deep breath, shutting her eyes before releasing it. âBelieve me when I say I havenât ever acknowledged any feelings I may or may not have towards him.â
âOk.â Her face softened. âI know it might take time, but I honestly do think Iâm right. Please just...be careful. This is a really odd situation to get caught up in if you actually have feelings for the other person. Youâre trying to manipulate him, for Merlinâs sake.â
âAnd if I have these feelings for him, Iâve done a pretty damn good job of suppressing them for however long theyâve been here.âÂ
Hermione sighed. âThatâs true. Iâm just saying that spending this much time with him is probably only going to make things worse. Will you please tell me if anything changes between the two of you?â
âAnything changes?â Y/Nâs voice was dripping in disbelief. âYouâre joking. Even if I was obsessed with him I donât think thereâs ever a chance of hell in anything âchangingâ between us. He said it himself.â
âYou know what I mean, Y/N,â responded Hermione. âJust promise me, ok?â
âOk,â said Y/N. âI promise.â
That seemed to satiate Hermione as she nodded approvingly at her friend. âI think it goes without saying that Ron and Harry shouldnât hear about this.â
âThereâs nothing to hear about, but yes.â She shuffled her feet before meeting Hermioneâs eyes again. âEr, Iâm sorry for this being a weird question, but would you mind coming along with me and Harry to Hogsmeade? I donât really see him like...that...and I donât want to read into it too much and reject him if he is doing it just platonically, but just in case. Yâknow.â
âSure,â said Hermione, even though her face took on that curious expression yet again. âAnyways, you actually did forget something--youâre not wearing a single piece of Gryffindor colors for our game today. You should probably run back to your dorm before Harry and Ron notice.â
After they said their goodbyes, Y/N found herself turning over the things Hermione had said to her in her head. Did she like Malfoy? No, no fucking way. But a part of her really did think he was funny. And of course it was natural to feel rejected when anyone insinuates that theyâd never consider you as a romantic interest without jest.Â
Once sheâd made it up to her room and grabbed a few scarves, Y/N made to put her red cloak into her satchel. Her fingers ghosted over the box that Malfoy had given her and scoffed once she saw the Malfoy crest engraved into the rich wood.Â
Narcissistic snot.
Her curiosity got the better of her as she reached over to open up the elaborately decorated box. What met her was not just one quill but two--one of which was most certainly not her own.Â
She took them both out, tossing the old one in a pile with her other trusty familiar white feather quills and picked up the other one. It looked familiar--identical to the quill that sheâd complimented Malfoy on in Potions about a week ago. Butterflies began to flutter like crazy in her stomach as she turned it over in her hand, watching the gray and green glitter together and the magic sparkles cast a gentle light over her bed. She generally avoided dipping into her familyâs pockets to get school supplies any more than she had to--itâs not like it made her friends feel good about themselves when they were reminded how rich her family was--but this might be what she could consider to be an exception. She hadnât even liked his quill all that much when she first saw it in Potions--but it was one of those things that was so noticeable that it made sense to compliment him.Â
She gave it one last look before tucking it back away into the elaborately decorated box. Perhaps she had spoken too soon when sheâd told Hermione all hope was lost.Â
~Â
When Monday morning Potions class with the Slytherins rolled around, Y/N wasted no time. Malfoy was alone--even his Slytherin lackeys seemed to know not to bother him. Just what she needed.
âMalfoy,â she greeted, setting her bag down on his table and looking him dead on. He raised to meet her eyes, his eyebrow raised.
âCan I help you?â
âI just wanted you to know that I also really like your immense fortune,â she said. âAnd your manor.â
âWell, a lot of people do,â he mumbled as he looked away to dig through something in his bag. If she didnât know any better, she wouldâve thought he was blushing.
âIâm just letting you know,â she continued. âIn case you were wanting to give them away. It worked for the quill, so I thought, well, why not?â
He exhaled, a deep and annoyed sound escaping his lips as he rolled his eyes up to the ceiling. âI knew I shouldnât have done that.â
âYou really didnât have to.â
âI was getting sick of it,â he told her. âI never can stick with one quill for too long, and I thought itâd be a shame to toss it. I thought itâd be better to be charitable--itâs not like your family could get an appointment at Barnabyâs if they tried.â
âHey!â Y/N said indignantly. âYou donât know that!â
âIâve heard your parents try to speak French,â he said. âIf youâre anything like them, you'll be barred from ever entering the country.â
âMalfoy!âÂ
His lips turned up into a smile, a soft laugh escaping his lips. Y/N suppressed the urge to grin in return. Task 3? Done. âWhat?â
âI canât even argue with you,â she said. âItâs tragic.â
She stared at the empty stool next to him, wondering if she should just take the leap and sit with him. Malfoy seemed unbothered by her presence as he opened up his Potions book and set it next to his cauldron. âDo you want a partner?â The words left her lips before she could stop them.
He cast her a curious look before glancing at the empty stool. âIt depends. Are you going to be annoying?â
She gasped in faux-offense. âWhat makes you think I could ever be annoying?â
âOn that note, I think you better get back to Potter.â He motioned with his head towards the side of the room where most of her Gryffindor friends were chatting. Harry was staring at her, his fists clenched by his side.
Y/N smirked and sent him a wink.Â
âOn that note,â she said, careful to imitate Malfoyâs drawl and sending him a smug grin, âMaybe I better sit here.â
âHm.â He awarded her one more uninterested look before rolling up his sleeves and setting out the ingredients for the potion they were brewing--Amortentia.Â
She tried not to make it too obvious that she was staring at his left arm, but there was nothing on it like Harry had told her. It was just pure, unblemished pale skin that shimmered under the light. Before he could catch her looking, she quickly sat down and started pulling out her own things. After a short pause, she decided to take out the silver quill. Sheâd left his box back in her room--she wouldnât be caught dead with something that had the Malfoy crest on it--but sheâd wrapped it in a pouch with her own familyâs emblem on the front, shimmering in gold and red.
âWhy donât you just buy your own charmed quills?â asked Malfoy after they had chopped all of the gillweed.Â
âYou already know. Weâre an abomination to the French. We arenât allowed entry.â
âThatâs not what I mean.â His tone was meant to read as exasperated, but his words still seemed good-natured.
âI...well.â She frowned. Sheâd never confessed this to anyone, but she supposed that Malfoy wasnât going to find a way to use it against her. âI donât like to flaunt my family wealth. I think it makes people, at least in Gryffindor, like me less. I learned that pretty early on.â
He hummed something in response before sliding all the gillweed into the cauldron, turning the clear liquid into a bubbling forest green.Â
âWhy are you being so nice to me all of a sudden?â she asked.Â
He took his time finishing the note he was jotting down before he answered. âIâm not being nice. Itâs just called being civil. You said it yourself, we see each other at balls sometimes.â
âWe probably wonât anymore, though,â she mused.Â
Malfoyâs eyebrows shot up, but his voice remained low and steady. âNo. I suppose that we probably wonât. Is your family part of the Order?â
âHm. Are you a Death Eater?â she asked brazenly. He had no business asking her something like that, and he knew it. Especially not with his family connections.
âWhat do you think?â he drawled, waving his bared left arm in front of her face.
âBullshit. That doesnât mean anything after we learned Glamour spells last year.â
âGuess youâll just have to trust me, then,â he responded, focusing intently on the bubbling liquid in front of him instead of her face.Â
âI guess so,â she replied. The weight of her Glamour comment began to sink in--she was right, after all. How had she not thought of it before?Â
But he was right when he told her she just had to trust him. Could she? Y/N rested her chin in the palm of her propped hand as she watched him work. A piece of disobedient moonbeam blonde hair dangled over his forehead as he diced up the unicorn tail, his eyebrows furrowed in focus.
âIs this why you want to be my partner?â he finally asked after a few moments of silence. âSo you can just stare at me while I do all the work?â
âThereâs the vain Draco I know,â she said, grinning as she leaned over to punch his shoulder.Â
He rolled his eyes again, scooting out of arm's reach before flipping back to Amortentia in his book. âYouâre insufferable. And itâs Malfoy to you.â
âFine, fine, Malfoy,â said Y/N. âWhat do you want me to do, then?â
He shoved his cutting board towards her, the half-diced unicorn tail staring up at her. âFinish dicing this and then stir it in. 9 times clockwise. I did almost all of the work, but it should be finished after that.â
Y/N sent him another glare before doing as he said. The glittering quill kept catching her attention from the corner of her eye, and she couldnât help but notice that Malfoy was writing with just a plain white quill for the time being. HE really did just give it to me.Â
After the final ingredients were diced, she began to stir, each rotation around the cauldron turning the potion to a different color. It began as the bubbling green, then a deep sea blue, then a royal purple, a crimson blood red, a glimmering gold--before settling into a pale silver.
âWow. Itâs beautiful,â she breathed. âItâs like...liquid starlight.â
âAll thanks to me,â said Malfoy. âYou didnât even have to crush the Mandrake root.â
âYouâre such a gentleman, Malfoy.â Her voice dripped in fake sincerity. âSo, what do you smell?â
Y/N was expecting him to scowl at her and tell her that it wasnât any of her business, but he actually leaned over the cauldron and shut his eyes.Â
âIâve never been good at explaining what things smell like.âÂ
âFair.â
Once he leaned back, she took his place, shutting her eyes and breathing in a tendril of the beautiful potion. âWhoa.â
âWhatâs it for you?â
âI donât...know,â she admitted. âItâs not something I can describe note by note. It kind of reminds me of something, though.â
âSomething with Potter, I presume?â he said, casually twirling his generic white quill around his fingers.
âNo,â she answered, surprised at how honest she was being. âItâsâŠIâm trying to think. Er, itâs very lavish. It reminds me of when I was younger and my parents would drag me to galas and balls and whatnot.âÂ
He stared at her in silence.
âWhat about you? Does it remind you of anything?â
âYeah.â Malfoy reached forward to put a lid on the cauldron, effectively shutting out the steam from reaching either of them.
âOoh, have you figured it out yet?â she teased, crossing her legs and turning to face him head on. âLet me guess. Is it someone likeâŠâ
She paused, a wicked smile stretching across her face. âOh my god, is it Hermione? Or Luna? Or...help me out here!â
âNo.â His voice was sour.Â
âAh, itâs Parkinson then, isnât it? Tell her Iâm sorry for throwing food at her if you ever have the chance. Make sure to add the part where Iâm more sorry that I missed.âÂ
âY/L/N!â
âItâs okay. Iâd be a little let down, too.â
âCan you please justâŠâ He rubbed the bridge of his nose. âPlease just stop. I havenât figured it out. Okay? Happy now?â
âIâll leave you alone,â said Y/N. âUnder one condition. You give me a hint. Iâve given you everything I know! This isnât fair.â
âThis doesnât have to be fair,â he hissed.
Y/N kept the easy smile plastered on her face while she waited, her eyebrows raised in anticipation.
âYouâre not going to let up until I tell you, are you?â
âYouâd be right on that,â she said, sugary sweet.
âFine. Itâs something kind of floral.âÂ
âHow descriptive,â she snorted as she slumped back in her stool, thinking hard. Where had she smelled it before? Y/N shut her eyes, leaning her head back and trying to immerse herself into the memory that had surfaced. It smelled like grandeur, like an open ballroom full of guests wearing expensive perfumes. She could feel spinning, spinning like she was with a dance partner. Who was it? She couldnât quite remember--the last ball sheâd been to had been years ago--but after she leaned forward and smelled the Amortentia once more time, she came to a conclusion.
âI had to have danced with him at a gala before,â she announced to Malfoy, who was looking quite unimpressed. âSo I know itâs no one from Gryffindor.â
âInteresting,â was all he said before turning to his parchment and jotting something down.
Late that night, while Y/N was settling into bed, a strange idea struck her. Sure that the thought that was nagging her was completely fruitless, she had no trouble with reaching into her desk and pulling out the Malfoy box. She just had to check if she wanted to sleep well.
Here goes.
She closed her eyes, imagining the expensive scent of her Amortentia. Then she opened it, stuck her nose into the fabric, and breathed in.
Well, fuck.Â
~
The internal debate going through Y/N the next day at the breakfast table was intense. On one hand, she really, really wanted to just tell Hermione that Malfoy had been in her Amortentia and she was completely fucked, but on the otherâŠ
She glanced at the witch next to her as she methodically sliced her toast into perfect, equivalent squares before dunking them in jam. Y/N liking Malfoy was not going to fit into her toast cubes. If she said anything, she would lose her excuse to talk to her about him. And her excuse to try and get close with him.Â
Perhaps I can figure it out tomorrow.Â
When tomorrow came, she still hadnât made progress. Y/N was beginning to think that her so called ârevelationâ after they brewed Amortentia was truly just complete and utter bullshit. So what that his quill box smelled like it--all rich people kind of smelled the same at some points, and so did their houses. There was a reason why she couldnât immediately pin the scent to anything--it wasnât like she even knew what Malfoy smelled like.
But the truth remained that she was still attracted to someone who happened to be a rich Slytherin--so naturally, her mind began to wander. Thereâs no way it was Zabini--his mother owned a fragrance line, and she wouldâve instantly recognized the cologne that she knew Mrs. Zabini made him wear--and there was absolutely no way that it was Crabbe or Goyle, so the only other Slytherin it left was...Nott? But that didnât make sense either--sheâd never spoken to him before in her life, even less than Malfoy. So perhaps it would be better if she didnât think on it.
The next day of potion brewing came on a stormy Wednesday. Malfoy and Y/N worked silently together to brew a Draught of Dreamless Sleep. She was surprised to see how practiced his movements were--he didnât even have to reference the book to recite the exact measurements and directions.
âDo you have bad dreams or something?â she asked, mostly as a joke. He didnât seem to pick up on the light-heartedness and stiffened up.
âNo?â
âGee, youâre talkative today,â Y/N said, trying to ignore how her hand brushed his by accident when she added the scoop of anjelica.Â
âExcuse me for not entertaining you,â he drawled. âI wasnât expecting to have such a needy potions partner today.â
âI am not needy!â she gasped, smacking his arm. âIâve sat in silence for a full hour!â
He rolled his eyes (he was always rolling his eyes) and gave the potion one more final stir before setting the lid on the cauldron. âThink you can do that again? It needs to simmer for that long.â
âJust because youâre so sweet to me,â crooned Y/N before pulling out a heavy book from her satchel. Her Charms exam was tomorrow, and, naturally, she had decided to save all of her revising work until the night before. The textbook stared back at her as she jotted a few notes onto a previously blank sheet of parchment. The quill in her hands was light and glided across the paper like the tears of Merlin, something that she had forgotten quills could do. All of her familiar basic quills were okay, but they were prone to skidding and breaking. This nib hadnât worn down in the slightest, still at a smooth and defined peak.
Y/N couldnât believe that, out of all people, the person to give her such a thoughtful gift was Draco Malfoy. She tried to sneak a glance at him then, moving her curtain of hair away from her face. It took all she had in her to not be startled at the fact that he was already looking back, a slightly concerned expression etched into his face.
âIs something wrong?âÂ
He snapped out of it the moment the words left her lips, his face hardening. âNo.â
âForget I ever asked,â she responded, turning away from him for good and focusing on her textbook. No, there was no way he could be what she smelled in her Amortentia. She liked to think that her subconscious wasnât secretly a masochist.
~
Friday evening swung around again, much to Y/Nâs dismay. Sheâd had a talk with Hermione later on in the week, confirming that no, she did not smell Malfoy in her Amortentia, and that yes, she was still abiding by the plan that Hermione had so carefully laid out for her. It did bother her a bit that she could be lying to her on both fronts--but at the end of the day, she was going to get the answers that Harry wanted, no matter what.Â
She just had to get through the scary ass castle first. Sheâd forgotten how spooky Hogwarts was after her previous sprint to the door, and this time she was positively trembling by the time she turned another dark corner on her way to McGonagallâs office. Yet another cursed item had been found in the girlâs lavatory on the 3rd floor, right by some of the classes that she had taken earlier in the week. The fact that whoever was out there was capable of dark magic and actively wanted to hurt people terrified her, all that Gryffindor bravery be damned.Â
So when she heard footsteps suddenly right beside her, it was no wonder that she jumped feet in the air.
âFuck!â she sputtered, turning to see a very familiar blonde in Slytherin robes. He was frozen in place, curiously looking her up and down.
âAm I interrupting something?â
âMalfoy,â Y/N said, resisting the urge to melt into a puddle of relief at the sight. This wasnât right--wasnât he a suspected Death Eater? âYou scared me.â
He scoffed, digging his hands into his pockets. âYouâre supposed to be the brave ones, right?â
âHuh?â
Malfoy motioned to her Gryffindor jumper.Â
âOh.â Heat rushed to her cheeks as she realized what he meant. âI dunno. I just get jumpy around the castle at night.â
âNo shit.â Theyâd begun to walk now, side by side. Y/N couldnât remember ever walking with him before--sheâd always been late. âDo you think I forgot the way you screamed when you saw me at the tower?â
âShut up,â she grumbled, reaching over and giving him a healthy shove.Â
They walked in silence together. Malfoy moved noticeably slower than he normally did so he wouldnât leave Y/Nâs shorter legs in tow. McGonagall seemed pleasantly surprised to see Malfoy hold the door open for her.
âIâm glad to see you two getting along,â she said, giving Y/N a hesitant nod before grabbing the stack of papers on her desk. âIâll be back momentarily.â
After she exited the room with a swish of her deep maroon robes, Malfoy turned to her. âAre you scared of the dark or something?â
She turned, ready to send a biting retort his way, before she noticed how gray his pallor looked...and how big the circles under his eyes were. âYou look like shit, Malfoy. Is everything okay?â
He rolled his eyes. âDonât change the subject.â
âOh. UmâŠâ Y/N pause before deciding that the little tidbit of information she was about to reveal wasnât that important anyways. âIâm just on edge at night at Hogwarts is all. Especially with all that weird shit going on with all the cursed objects. So I kind of hate walking to and from detention.â
Malfoy let out something that sounded like a strained laugh.
âYou didnât answer my question. Is everything okay?â
âNone of your business,â he snipped. âI just had a bad night.â
âDo you have trouble sleeping?â she asked, unable to keep herself from prying.
âSomething like that.â
âHave you tried lavender?â
âIâm sorry?â He frowned.
âLavender. Like the essential oil. Itâs nothing magical,â she explained. âI just like to spray it in my bed sometimes before I sleep. Or Iâll use a few drops in a diffuser. I have trouble sleeping too, all the time, actually.â She shut her mouth before she had any chance to ramble further.
âIt sounds a bit too floral for my taste.â
âHere.â Y/N dug around in her satchel, searching for the tiny spray bottle she kept with her at all times. âBorrow this and spritz your pillow with it before you sleep, and then tell me itâs too floral. I promise it helps.â
He glared at her. She extended her hand with the white bottle that was covered in purple decor, raising her eyebrows expectantly. âI wonât tell anyone that you have it if thatâs what youâre worried about or whatever.â
âFine,â he snapped, snatching it from her hand and dragging his fingers over her palm for just a second. âDonât expect me to actually try it, though.â
âJust give it a sniff.âÂ
He huffed, but to her surprise, he actually uncapped the top and held the spray hole up to his nose, inhaling in once.
The effect was immediate. Malfoyâs face completely drained of color, becoming even grayer than heâd been when she first saw him under the light. The briefest expression of surprise fleeted over his face before he wiped it off, replacing it with something unreadable and tossing it back at her. âIâm not using this.â
âWhy not?â
âNot quite my taste,â he spat.
Y/N was shocked by the sudden outburst, watching as he continued to glower at his desk. âI donât understand. It really does help you sleep. I know it seems stupid, but I...really think you should try it. Just once, if anything.â
âWhy does it matter so much to you?â
âBecause I--â Y/N stopped herself before she let her mouth run without check. âI know what itâs like is all. I feel like shit if I donât sleep. Plus, I have to spend time with you every Friday. I imagine that youâll be slightly more tolerable if you sleep more.â
âHm.â He sent her a particularly venomous glare. âThanks for your concern. Consider me uninterested, though.â
âYou break my heart,â she teased, pulling back her hand and placing the bottle on the corner of her desk. An idea struck her.
âAnd just what are you smiling about?â Draco said. His lips were turned into a sour frown.Â
âNothing, nothing,â she responded, her voice adopting a sing-song quality. All she had to do now was wait.Â
He exhaled, a deep and exasperated sound. Then he turned back to whatever was in front of him.
McGonagall entered the room a few minutes later, nodding cordially at the comfortable silence the two students were in. What she didnât know was that Y/N was waiting, just waiting for Malfoy to dig through his satchel and stop paying attention to his quill.
She got her opportunity a few minutes later, when McGonagall called him up to look over his latest Transfiguration homework.
âMr. Malfoy, Iâm happy to see that youâre taking more initiative in getting your assignments done...I have to say that you had me a bit concernedâŠâ
While her professor kept Malfoy occupied, Y/N darted over and grabbed his quill.Â
Ha.
Malfoy frowned down at his desk when he returned, giving Y/N a suspicious look.
âWhat is it, Malfoy?â she said, hoping her voice conveyed nothing that might hint that she took something of his.
âNothing.â
âHm.â
The rest of detention passed without any more discussion. Y/N was eager to run up to her dorm and set up her plan to be carried out the next morning, but she calmed her bouncing leg and forced herself to keep a straight face when McGonagall dismissed them.
âGot somewhere to be, Y/L/N?â Malfoyâs voice called after her as she sped down the hall towards the Gryffindor tower.Â
âWhatâs it to you?â she fired back.
He didnât respond. Instead, he picked up his pace until he was walking next to her.
âArenât the Slytherin dorms the other direction?â she asked.
âI donât know. Are they?âÂ
She allowed herself to be amused by the way words flowed out of his mouth when he was slightly out of breath. âWhy are you walking with me?â
âYou said it yourself.â He kept his eyes cast on the cobblestones below them. âYou donât like walking alone at night.â
âUh...oh.â Against her will, her feet froze and she was glued to the ground. âYouâre joking, right?â
If the lighting wasnât so dim, Y/N would have good reason to believe he was blushing with how intently he was studying his fingernails. âBy all means, I can be.â
âNo! No, I didnât mean it like that,â she said, the words tumbling out of her mouth. âEr...Iâd like you to. If you want to, that is.â
He shrugged, an elfish expression spreading across his face as he took in how nervous she was. âWell, come to think of it, you didnât ask me to. I suppose I better get back to the Slytherin dorms anyways. I wouldnât want to be anywhere near the Gryffindor Tower right now.â
âWhy?â she squeaked.
âOh, you know, I donât think itâs a coincidence that most of the cursed things showed up on your side of the castle, yeah?â
She gulped.
âI gotta get going. Donât want to stand around here too long. This place gives me the creeps.â With that, he turned and began walking away.
âMalfoy?â She hated how timid her voice sounded. âConsider this me asking you to walk with me.â
He slowly faced her, a sly grin plastered all over his face. âOh? Did I hear that correctly? Do you want me to?â
âIâm only going to say this once,â she said, putting her hands on her hips and trying her best to look intimidating. âWalk with me. Please.â
âI guess Iâll take it.â Malfoy glided down the hallway to her in just a couple steps, sending her yet another smug look.
âYou made up that whole ordeal about Gryffindor Tower being targeted, didnât you?â asked Y/N as they rounded the corner to reach the staircase leading up to the common room.
âYou bought it, didnât you?âÂ
âWho says I didnât just want you to walk with me?â pushed Y/N. This was as close to flirting as it would ever get for her--but it looked like, somehow, things were falling into place. The heat in her cheeks mustâve been from the excitement of making progress.Â
Malfoyâs toe caught on the first stair and, if it werenât for Y/Nâs steady grip on his arm, wouldâve made him go sprawling across the stone steps.Â
âMerlin, Malfoy,â she said, immediately dropping her grip from his shoulder. âWhatâs gotten into you?â
He responded with an unceremonial snort and a withering glare. The rest of the walk was done in silence, and Y/N noted how careful his footwork became around the Gryffindor steps.
âThis is me,â she finally said once they reached the tapestry for the Gryffindor dorms. He seemed surprised, and only then did it strike her that heâd probably never seen the entrance himself before. âThanks for being such a gentleman.â
âI live to serve,â he drawled.
And just like that, he was gone.
~
Her plan was simple. She had located an extra monogrammed pouch in her cabinet, a rich mahogany color with her family crest in a vivid gold, and placed both his quill and the lavender bottle. She would corner him after breakfast or follow him out of the Great Hall and show him then.
However, it was becoming increasingly obvious that Malfoy was not coming to Saturday morning breakfast. Many people didnât, but Y/N had never known him to miss it. His normal spot was vacant, and it certainly wasnât a house-made decision as all of his Slytherin friends were present and accounted for. Y/N couldnât say for sure, but she could see Parkinson turning her head to the entrance every time the doors thudded open before glancing back to Malfoyâs empty seat when it turned out to be someone else.
Where was that loser?
âExcuse me,â she said to the trio as she stood up and brushed off her skirt. âI think Iâm going to go get some fresh air. I have a bitch of a headache.â
Hermione and Harry expressed their sympathies while Ron gave her a characteristic mumble through his mouthful of bread, and she was off with the pouch secured in her cloak pocket.
It was a clear November morning, clearly Mother Natureâs attempt to slowly move the world from the crisp autumn to a cold winter. The sky was clear and the sunâs rays warmed her skin at a slanted angle, casting weak shadows across the courtyard.
If I were Malfoy, where would I go to sulk?
The obvious answer was either the Slytherin common room or his own dorm, but that was without a doubt out of question for her. She wasnât even sure if she possessed the knowledge to guess which corridor the entrance was in, much less work out the password herself. Beyond that, just getting into the common room and waiting would be...She shivered. It would be a terrible idea while she was clearly wearing a cloak in Gryffindor red and gold trim.Â
As she continued her aimless wander around the castle, she heard the slightest sound from the girlâs bathroom on the second floor. It wasnât ever really in use--no one came in there to actually use the loo unless they wanted Myrtle to materialize and tell them her supernatural troubles while they were in the middle of their personal business--but it was often the source of strange happenings.Â
Like the cursed objects she thought to herself, her nails digging into her palms. But did she care about that right now? Surely cursed objects seemed somewhat...suspicious. Dark magic was difficult to hide, and to a pureblood eye that grew up around magical objects, cursed things shouldnât be impossible to spot.Â
And, plus, it was Malfoy she was looking for. None of the students had died from the curses so far, and if she was able to break through and learn something, or at the very least gain his trust, the reward to the Order would be more than worth it.
She stepped in, expecting to see an entirely empty bathroom with perhaps a ghost rattling around at the sink. Instead, a different sight awaited her.
Draco Malfoy was clutching the edge of the cracked sink basin in front of him, rocking himself back and forth and shaking. From her vantage point, she could see that he was dressed in his normal garb--a black ensemble--but his hair was unruly and messy, sticking up in the back like heâd hurriedly tugged something over his head.
A strangled gasp grounded her and halted her curious observations. Malfoy began to make these awful sobbing sounds, like he could barely manage to breathe.Â
Y/N was frozen in place as she surveyed her options. If she stayed and tried to talk to him, he might react in anger or hurt her. But if she just left him, like this, all alone...She swallowed once before stepping forward.
âMalfoy? Are you okay?â Obviously heâs not, you bint said a voice deep in her brain. She pushed it aside as he swung around, his wand raised and his eyes blazing. âWhoa! Iâm not going to...Put your wand down!â
He stared at her, his eyes wide with horror as he continued to shake, so much so that his wand slipped out of his hand and clattered to the floor. Without thinking, Y/N reached into her pocket and flung her wand away, holding her hands up.
âIâm not going to try anything. I promise.â
As she drew closer, she could see the remnants of tears on his wet cheeks and the way that his silver eyes were rimmed with a bloodshot red.Â
âYou shouldnât be here,â he hissed, his voice weak and cracking.Â
âNeither should you. This is the girlâs bathroom.â
final a/n: ok so lmk if you guys wants me to continue. i really did not edit the last half fjkdsal;f also kinda made this an au where malfoy tried to assassinate dumbledore. with more than one cursed object but dw itâll all make sense ill clear that up đ
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