#bc like. they seem like a system in every way EXCEPT they don't share a body

[spiderqueenpc]

are there any plural One Piece fans following me? what do yall make of the Vegapunks I am so curious

[yvtro]

Two questions that I'm genuinely interested in your answer for (bc I love your metas ngl) but I totally get it if you don't answer.

What's your biggest unpopular opinion on Jason, and your least favorite popular/fandom opinion on him?

disclaimer: i’m moving blogs. still here to go through my askbox, but you will find me at @boyfridged most of the time.

i'm very flattered, thank you!! and sorry this took me so long to answer. and it did take me so long 1. because it’s really hard to tell what is actually an unpopular opinion (i did thankfully find myself in a circle of mutuals who mostly share the same intuitions when it comes to his character) and 2. because I mentally put a label on it “asks to get me assassinated.” and I guess the take that i have requires quite careful wording. 

so, my unpopular take is that from in-universe point of view, jason shouldn’t be a vigilante, and it would be best for the storytelling around him to focus on this fact. and i’m not saying that in a mean, moralistic nor diminishing way. i just think that jay’s storyline is a story of everything that can go wrong with a sidekick, and of how vigilantism can traumatise people into oblivion, and completely annihilate their ability to function normally. part of it is a result of the fact that imo jason isn’t naturally suited for vigilantism (that is not to talk about his skills nor efficiency in it, i will get back to it shortly), and part of it is a result of the circumstances in which he was introduced into it, and of course the subsequent trauma.

you could say “uhm every superhero story is like that, he’s not special,” but typically, when you think about characters such as bruce wayne or dick grayson etc., the event that comes to mind when you think about their biggest trauma is something that… pushed them into vigilantism? and vigilantism supposedly helped them in some ways? (it can be argued against, but that’s an underlying assumption) (+even without a tragic backstory, characters usually have much more agency in their decision to become vigilantes). and in case of jay, his biggest trauma isn’t anything that came before robin, and his life was awfully fucking sad, so i think that it says something. his biggest trauma is associated with what he went through already as robin and then retraumatising events that followed his resurrection. 

it’s really puzzling to me that this distinction is never deliberately written about nor truly brought up in comics…? i think the closest we came to this was, ironically, starlin’s run (when alfred straight up suggests that maybe robin just isn’t good for jason) and countdown (where jay intends to leave the superhero community altogether). 

okay, so you can say: vigilantism is kinda shitty for you. breaking news, we’ve known this already.

except there's something, in my opinion, that makes jason’s case special and more nuanced. it seems, at first glance, that with all the love and compassion jason has, he should be great material for a vigilante still. but he clearly isn’t. why is that?

the crushing proportion of other characters have moral systems, coping mechanisms, and understanding of vigilantism that make this life at least possible for them. on the other hand, jason’s personality, his lived experience, and his moral stance makes vigilantism extremely unsustainable. i mentioned it before in my post about eoc, but most (especially 1st gen, but not only, i’d argue that most former teenage superheroes also came to this point as well) vigilantes, even if associated with love and compassion as the core of their actions, have understanding of vigilantism and moral codes that jason doesn’t possess. (for a long while i was on a “jason has a moral code but it’s casually bastardised by most writers” team but since then i have thought about it a lot and my current take is that he was good at following orders as robin, and has some provisional rules as the red hood, but they’re nowhere near an actual code. as i said in the linked post, i think morality is more of an on-going emotional practice for him). and it all makes sense! let's circle back to bruce for a moment. of course, the reason for which he doesn’t kill is grounded within his own beliefs, but he is also very painfully aware of the thin line that vigilantes walk on when it comes to the law and being trusted by the public. i'd argue he is very conscious of the fact that being a vigilante comes with responsibility of cultivating a certain ethos. he had a lot of time to think about it! in many ways, he invented it. and it’s practical. it's what makes this life possible.

jason doesn’t have it. jason’s idea of vigilantism isn’t carefully designed nor sophisticated, jason’s idea of vigilantism is that he is in the field and he has power to do things, so he has to do them. he has to trust his moral intuitions. and in many ways, he’s not wrong – it's not a flawed view to hold, especially not in the ordinary life. but that also means that there are no lines that he won’t cross if he thinks he can help or fix the situation. but in the world that batman introduces us to (a world in which, to quote le guin on an unrelated matter, there’s no ends, but only means), it’s self-destructive. to compare him again to bruce, bruce is self-sacrificial, but his conceptual understanding of vigilantism and his moral code protect him in some ways. jason’s moral judgements and actions are unrestrained and radical (not to say that they’re reckless or inefficient; he’s still a great strategist and can be even overly careful if it’s required). and that is set in a world where evil never stops. we already know that the joker will always come back, for example. what does it mean for jason? he will try to match the energy, of course, and he’s not stopping either. bruce is similar in that aspect, yet he has a whole insurance set that helps him deal with extreme situations. there's an offset. and jason doesn’t have any. he won’t ever hit the breaks. i think you know where i’m going with this metaphor. 

so i guess my take is that… bruce’s outlook on vigilantism is, against the popular opinion, very rational. but jason just brings his heart into it and nothing else. and that’s just catastrophic.

this is really me just pushing the “love is his fatal flaw” agenda again tbh, but with additional emphasis on why the same trait isn’t that tragic for other characters who share it. also this is why it’s so crucial to me that he should have a civilian arc… 

and as to my least favourite fandom opinion on him, i can't think of anything very specific right now, but my general pet peeve is anything that divorces his characterisation from his 80s personality. i think you can tell that i really dislike painting him as resentful towards dick, and all takes that indicate that he's always been cynical and distrustful toward the world. i think a lot of people want his storyline to be one of someone who has, from day one, been full of rightful anger, but the thing is that it has not been his story to begin with. he had to be pushed really far for this to happen. and this is what makes him so special compared with most anti-heroes – that his story starts from a genuine place of innocent and naive hope and love despite all he suffered.

[dearlybelovedemilyko]

The last chapter is very intriguing because until now, i thought anthony was trying to save the children -and put the adults in chaos- but then he killed a child. What is he TRYING to achieve?

(Also agreeing he was creepy and gross. I had my suspicions when he did this to barbara bc hes likely already an adult so...yikes)

*note i don't know japanese so i only saw the raw's images, i may be missing context

Before last chapter, I had three different Anthony theories on rotation, based on his canon behavior and what each of those scenarios would mean for the story thematically, though I personally never assumed he shared Kate's goal of saving all the children and defeating the adults. Luckily for me, one of them turned out to be true! I was actually quite fond of my "Anthony's evil in a similar way to the adult shadows" theory, and since I spent way more time than I probably should have thinking about it, I think I have an idea of what he's trying to achieve.

My points being:

I posted about this before with examples, but Anthony's behavior is oddly similar to that of adult shadows. This indicates that despite their vastly different places in the hierarchy of the manor, they have similar moral values, or lack of them

As you said yourself, he just killed a child. Even if his plan somehow includes freeing the human children, it's clearly far from Kate's goal of saving everyone. He was quick to kill off Maggie as soon as she outlived her usefulness to him

Anthony has the habit of putting himself in a position superior to other people. Kate has allies and friends, Anthony has pupils. Even Anthony's initial behavior of telling Maryrose not to undo anyone else's brainwashing is telling: as one of the only unbrainwashed living dolls, he had a clear advantage over every human in the manor except Rosemary. He could easily undo somebody's brainwashing in secret and manipulate them like he did to Maggie, something that would be much harder to do if everyone regained their senses. Maggie clearly saw Anthony as the perfect savior, and even stated that he could be the manor's master in the future. Lewis goes as far as refer to "Christopher" the same way shadows are thaught to refer to the Lord Grandfather

Based on this, my bet is that even if part of Anthony's plan involves saving some of the children, that's far from his main goal. His main goal in my opinion seems to be gaining power, just like every adult character we've met so far, the difference being that as a human, he can't simply climb up the social ladder the conventional way and needs to hide in the walls (or the sewers, idk for sure where he lives. At this point i want it to be the sewers).

That makes for an interesting villain, doesn't it? As an unbrainwashed human in a system that treats humans like objects, you'd assume he'd be all for destroying the oppressive system, you'd assume he'd be an ally, you'd assume he'd want to save everyone. If it turns out he's completely okay with what the manor stands for as long as he personally raises to power, throwing all or most of the human kids under the bus, now that's scary and honestly quite realistic.

About the creep factor... yeah. After reading the scene with Barbara, I got a weird vibe too but I still gave him the benefit of the doubt. I thought sure, he's doing that to get Kate to trust him, but who's to say he also didn't think that was the only way to save Barbara's life? Surely those aren't mutually exclusive, right? Maybe he cares about her since she was Christopher's friend. Also from the flashbacks we get that they can't be that far apart in age, Barbara's just short and stuck in the children's building, so most of the creepy vibe I got was from the fact that he was impersonating a dead person, which again I was giving him the benefit of the doubt for... only for Maggie to go as far as to call Anthony her prince out loud before he leaned down and caressed her face looking like a sicko in chapter 164. The more i think about it the worse it gets to be honest. Gross.

[anon39993]

I want to talk about the expereince we have switching using inner world sex and intimacy.

I never see anyone talking about this sort of visualized method of switching, and it's been an integral part in our structure and getting more comfortable communicating and co-ordinating. I figure we can't be the only ones, so the need to solidify our expereinces online became apparent. This post may not be for everyone, and if it upsets you in any way, please click away.

To preface this, we are a traumagenic system, and although we don't (to our knowledge) have any history of sexual abuse, grew up desiring sex from a young age. I'm sure this had a tremendous effect on our current most effective method of getting the attention of other alters and switching with intent, so it feels important to share. Now you see why this has to be anonymous, this is not the sort of information you give to people online.

Internally, sex and sexuality is not taboo or kept hush. It's often loudly present, in a positive and warm way. Sex between alters is a casual thing, sometimes a thing to do to feel good and sometimes it's a mild punishment. Emphasis on mild, since it's still enjoyable and all imaginary. Alters do have individual preferences, so some may not be willing to do just anything, and that's alright and generally respected.

We are still traumatized and sometimes that is reflected in internal sexuality, and sometimes the trauma is projected or expressed through internal sex. It ends up being more of a cathartic release than any kind of trauma itself. In other words, even if it's scary in the moment it usually still ends up feeling good and doesn't have any known lasting negitive effects. (Except the dwelling, sometimes.)

Switching using sex is casual and happens almost every time. I say almost bc the ability to switching without sex is there, it just isn't as common and usually has something to do with energy and preferences. Or at least it seems like it. But it doesn't matter where or when, most switching is done via visualizing the two alters having sex in some way, sometimes using the current fronter motions in the body, sometimes fully imaginary. The important thing is feeling and connection.

For me if feels like melting into one another and coming out on the other side.

This has a sort of unintended side effect, where because this method is preferred and is the easiest and most effective, any alter who has preferences on who they will not have sex with won't end up switching with them ever. This has sort of helped us understand some emotional relationships among us.

That's all I have to say for now, but I'm open to reasonable discussion. I won't entertain concern trolls.

[fictionkinfessions]

@ th anons talking about the "popular source" thing. honestly aside from the one story shared about abuse (which is awful. i don't wish that on anybody and i hope you have people you can fully trust in your circle now) i fail to see how this actually affects you?? let me be clear that i fully understand what you're getting at bc it kinda bugs me too, but not because i think fakers are destroying the community or whatever, i just don't watch a lot of current shows or movies so i get annoyed seeing them over and over. it's nothing against ppl from those sources, especially since others have responded saying it *is* a part of figuring out identity. and especially since you acknowledged it's mostly young or teen kin & systems you see doing this, idk why you're so surprised and put off. sure it's part of the reason i kinda stopped joining kincords, just because i am out of the loop on what's popular (especially anime) meanwhile almost all my sources are like. 7+ years old at this point so nobody in servers big or small knows who i am either. but whatever. this is tumblr, you can block people, you can filter tags. if it bothers you so much you are simply not required to engage with it. and if you are in servers with people who seem to do that... so what? you're not required to be best friends with every single person in a kincord, especially not a big one. be polite and gracious, sure, but you don't have to chat with them outside the general channel if you're not feeling it. and if it bugs you that much, again, you can simply leave. there are other ways and other places to find or build a kin community that suits you. this really sounds like blowing up something that's not actually a problem except in singular cases of assholes, into a community-destroying boogeyman. tl;dr i see the pattern you described, i just don't agree that it's doing any harm.

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[missmorosis]

music with the hq boys

-> feat. oikawa, kenma, kuroo, bokuto

what songs they would love listening to and how they share that love with you

kuroo

alexa play all the pop songs on the radio bc this boy has them all on repeat

i feel like he would have two playlists- one with rap for his teammates to see and then the one with ariana grande for himself

ariana herself is SHAKING with this man's vocals that seem to come out whenever he feels particularly annoying 😁😁

"I GOT ONE LESS PROBLEM WITHOUT YOU" he would sing, clutching an ever-so-iconic hairbrush in one hand while staring right into your eyes with a smile on his face. you rolled your eyes as he proceeded through the chorus, continuously pointing at you with his free hand when the word "problem" came around.

"if you couldn't tell, i got one less problem without you," he joked when his make-shift karaoke session was over, placing down his "microphone", in which you raised an eyebrow at.

"is that what you were hinting at?" you said, opening up your phone to search up the lyrics. "here it says 'i want you', which seems to be more accurate, your honor."

oikawa

OIKAWA WILL LISTEN TO EVERYTHING YOU LISTEN TO 📢📢

no bc mans will stalk your spotify, every single one of your public playlists have at least one like bc he adds all of yours to his library

why does he do this you may ask?? it's so that both of the two of you will know all the words when he's blasting songs through the aux in the car during drives

it's no fun when nobody knows the lyrics; it's just MMMM when both of you can accurately scream your heart out at 3am

three in the morning? the energy in your system told you otherwise: there's no way you felt like you could run a marathon at three in the morning. maybe it was the effect of spending the night driving around with oikawa.

you turned from facing the open window to facing oikawa in the driver's seat, who was drumming his fingers to the song that was playing: doja cat. his mouth was mouthing all the words, his face expressing approval when the singer sang his favorite lyrics, and he began to smile when he heard your familiar voice start to pick up on what he was doing.

"GO BABE!" he screamed as you were getting into it, even going as far as honking his horn. he turned the volume down in order to admire you with even more attention.

kenma

sucker for animal crossing music except i don't blame him

it reminds him of the island you guys share and the hours you both grind on it together HDHDH

you somehow remind him of all the villagers- if one of them says something really dumb he will screenshot it and send it to you with a text that says "its u again"

"can't sleep?" he turned to you, and you blinked back at him with wide open eyes. you shook your head no, which caused his facial expression to soften.

without another word, he handed you one of his earbuds, which was of course, playing a song from animal crossing.

even with it's relatively upbeat tempo, it helped you relax and eventually fall asleep. kenma snuck photos of you sleeping that night.

bokuto

MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO A LOT OF KPOP RECENTLY BUT BOKUTO SEEMS LIKE HE WOULD LISTEN TO LOTS OF BRIGHT SONGS- I.E. DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY BY TWICE????

he will do his absolute best to learn the choreography in order to perform for you

OR OR OR HE WOULD SETTLE TO BE HALF OF A DUO WITH YOUU

"BOKUTO KOUTAROU, IF YOU STEP ON MY FOOT ONE MORE TIME-"

"I'M SORRY I'M SORRY-"

every couple is bound to get into an argument every so often, but yelling at each other for getting the moves right to stayc's asap might not have been the most predictable subject to argue about.

"FOR THE LOVE OF- bokuto, RIGHT SIDE-" at that, you couldn't hold in your laughter anymore: screw being mad, the sight of your boyfriend trying to nail the perfect hip movements was far more favorable.

A/N: ITS BEEN A HOT MINUTE BUT YES HERE ILY

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Sindria's Prophet #13

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[AO3]

((edited because I figured out to add some more history facts that I think are important))

~POV Sinbad~

"The Kou Empire, huh?"

"That is going to make things risky."

With all of the Generals caught up with what happened in Balbadd, they needed to start planning for King Sinbad's trip to the Kou Empire, as well as catching him up with everything that had happened in Sindria while he was gone.

"LadY YamuRAI H AA AA A" A yell came from the hallway accompanied by the sounds of running.

((Sinbad is hidden on the left. There's a hint of him poking out.))

A panting magician gave apologies for disturbing their meeting and ran to the head of Sindria's magicians. "I wish I knew you were here so I didn't search the tower first~" Then he started explaining about some magical proof. Most of his words sounded like gibberish to the rest, but it was clear that he had made some kind of break though.

Yam jumped out of her seat. "How did you finally figure it out?! Who figured it out?!" She whipped her head to her King, "Sorry your majesty," and then looked back to the other magician.

"It was the work of the Prophet!” the magician answered. "We were talking about her illness and she pulled out scrolls that- you just have to read them for yourself!”

Mori had said that she had written other scrolls before she started coping down Fate. This must have been what she was working on.

Both magicians bowed out to go test out this new information. Before they could leave, Sinbad ended the meeting; there was no way he was going to wait to learn what other information Mori had blessed them with. Ja'far followed as did a few of the other Generals.

When they got into the court yard, the doctors that had been sent to take care of Mori were already pushing their supply cart back to their main building. The magician that had stayed behind spotted them and raised two scrolls up triumphantly. "She let me take the scrolls!"

---

News of the scrolls written by a Prophet spread throughout the Black Libra Tower within an hour. Yamuraiha and the doctors explained their significance to King Sinbad.

If even a fraction of the theories in the scrolls proved true it would completely changed their understanding of how illnesses work. If Mori wasn't sick she would undoubtedly be swarmed with questions and demands for proof. According to the magicians, nothing in the scrolls went against any known information. Instead, they gave explanations to why certain things that had been attempted in the past had failed. What she wrote about 'cells' was what really caught the eyes of the white magicians and doctors. As an example, according to Mori's writing there were blood types and most couldn't mix; that would explain why most past attempts at blood transfusions had failed.

The 2nd scroll showed a break down of even smaller particles, and how the structures of different particles made up everything. This was going to bring alchemic magic to a whole new era. Sure, such things would most likely be limited to high magicians, group efforts, and the Magi, but it looked possible now. A lot of common magic of the current day took extreme amounts of magoi in the past because they hadn't found the right formula yet. Mori's writing -if true- could easily be used as a guide to finding the right order of commands for many spells.

And even more than that, Mori had said that she had even more information to share; she had just ran out of scrolls and ink.

Mori's presence in Sindria, and everything that went with it were Fate and the Rukh's guidance. King Sinbad could see it -the future he wanted.

---

~POV Mori~

In Sindria's Palace there is a Great Bell. It is rung during celebrations, and to signify the King returning home like it did earlier that day, but it's main use was to ring every 2 hours to tell everyone the time since clocks weren't invented yet. So even though I was a sick person trying to rest during the day, I was woken up by the Great Bell every 2 hours... which of course is also situated right on top of the guest tower.

For obvious reasons, I was awake again.

I wish I knew how the others responded to the scrolls. I really wanted to know Yam's opinion most. Those scrolls basically gave away the secret to Yunan's signature alchemy magic.

I still had the first scroll I had worked on -the one on the science behind blimps-, and the last science scroll I had started. That one was on DNA, and reproductive systems. It was the last one I started in Balbadd. I hadn't started working on it until sunrise on my 2nd sleepless night and it showed; there were missing words everywhere, many incomplete sentences, and I couldn't stay in topic.

These mistakes were too great to fix with an ink knife. Editing was going be super annoying and time consuming since I couldn't work digitally. I'd have to physically cut up the first draft to put everything in the right order before making the next one.

Wait- Did this world have scissors???

Back home the first evolution of shears that could be labeled as scissors was in Roman barber shops in the last hundred years or so before Rome fell. China would spontaneous also create something akin to scissors not long after. Reim and the Kou Empire seemed to line up with Rome and ancient China for the most part, so I tend to use them to place the time period, but the dress Princess Dunya wears is centuries off and throws all historical accuracy questions out the window. Rome was long gone by the time boning was added to women's undergarments, and that dress had all the signs of boned corsetry.

Fuck it. I'll ask for scissors and if they don't have them I'll just invent them myself. I had been drafting professionally for the past 4 years. That may have been for microelectronics, but it uses all the same skills; I could do this. I needed to get a ruler -or at least a straight edge- and a drafting compass which they probably have based on the look of maps in the series, and pencils, or at least colored inks if they had them. I probably needed to reinvent the French curve(stencil tool used in art & drafting)...

Since I was struggling to fall back asleep I moved to the table and pulled out my test scroll. It was full of random marks and some of my early drawing attempts that I used to practice with the dip pen -it's also where I wrote down the dreams from the Rukh. I'd write the list of things I needed, rip the section out of the scroll, and pass the list to someone who could get me what I was asking for. I added some living necessities too like sleep wear and a comb.

The maids that came to give me dinner, and next dose of medicine were not pleased that I wasn't in bed -I was an important guest who was sick after all. And I wasn't pleased to have to drink more of that bitter medicine, but we can't have nice things all the time, now can we?

My voices was strained but I managed to communicate enough. I gave them my list, and laundry (the clothes I wore on the boat) before they left. They'd get me the things the next day. I was instructed to sleep until someone brings me breakfast the next day... which is what I was going to do anyway since the sun was practically gone. I might be a bit of a workaholic but I'm not going to let myself pull an accidental all-nighter when I know I'm still sick. I'm far more self aware than that.

And besides, the Great Bell didn't ring at night.

---

Maids brought my breakfast (& meds) the next morning and let me know that my clothes would be cleaned and dry by the end of the day. I guess they didn't use magic for everything.

They also gave me all of the drafting and inking supplies I asked for except for scissors. In one of the omakes Sinbad was shown cutting his hair with a knife as a part of his normal grooming. I had hoped he was just old fashioned.

For the greater good and the future of my own hair care, I drafted up detailed designs for a few different types of basic scissors. They wouldn't look fancy, but hopefully I had put enough of a detailed explanation on everything for the smith to figure out what I was asking. Steel wasn't developed until the middle ages and some of the counties of this world matched that so I hoped

that God and anime were on my side. I really wanted scissors that would be a good quality.

And if that didn't work I'd just have to get used to using knives and bladed rollers like a regular person.

The Great Bell rung for 10 am. There were at least another 2 hours before someone would show up, to give lunch, that I could ask to take my draft for the scissors to a black Smith.

I should be resting as a sick person. I should be more exhausted and in pain as a sick person. What was making me recover this quickly?

I still didn't feel like laying back down, so I decided to start drafting up the materials and equipment for proving everything I had written in the scrolls I gave the previous day.

Globally, micro-organisms, viruses, and bacteria were not really accept or proved until the late 1800's. Since Magi seems to take place some time around our 100AD-1300, and Yunan hinting at chemical compounds was seen as shocking by Yam, I knew that my bio scrolls were probably causing an uproar in the Black Libra Tower. I refused to use actual people or wait for an outbreak to prove it like how it happened in history -like how John Snow proved it when finding the cause of cholera outbreaks in 1848 and 1854 England. No, I needed to show how to prove these things in a lab, and to do that I was going to need to explain how to keep samples and invent a way to see microorganisms.

First was for a glass petri dish and other containers for samples. I'd need at least 3 -preferably more. I know glass works have been around since BC, and that this world had glass windows in some scenes, but I worried about the quality of the glass contaminating the experiments. I was going to have to boil them beforehand to sterilize them anyway.

Gosh I wish I had access to nonporous, air tight containers, and a temperature controlled environment. The heat and humidity of Sindria could easily mess everything up.

Wait... I suddenly remembered a scene from the Magnostadt arc when they showed how a sample was being stored. They already had good enough glass. I knew there were magic bio experiments but I had no idea how they worked.

With the realization that I was getting ahead myself, I switched to writing about how to use the scientific method to test for germs. It was basically the bread in a bag test to teach young children about germs but with petri dishes. I also wrote about how to analyze samples with a microscope to see micro organisms so I was going to have to figure that out next.

Lunch came as the perfect break.

Just thinking about reinventing this thing made me nervous. I knew magnifying glasses existed in ancient Rome, but they would be nothing like what I was used to. I had to explain how light moves and made multiple diagrams showing how concave and convex lenses affect light as well as the material of the lens. I ended up also showing how to make a telescope even though I knew Yam already had one.

Magicians were the only ones shown with glasses. Maybe now the rest of the world could have them too.

4 o'clock came and so did 3 doctors and a magician. It was less than yesterday, but still more than necessary to treat or analyze one person. I only recognized one of the doctors from the previous day. All of the new faces looked nervous. None of them looked young by any measure, so I really doubted this was their first time treating someone.

They weren't happy to see me at the table and made me return to my bed -their loss.

The doctor from the previous day was the one doing most of the talking. "Your recovery is amazing. You will most likely be better in another 3 days at this rate if not sooner. It's practically a miracle."

I smiled. "It's pretty shocking for me too." As long as I spoke quietly and kept my comments short, I found I could talk again for a bit.

The doctor was silent for a moment before changing the subject. "I know you need rest, but would you be willing to answer a few questions about those scrolls from yesterday?

The 3 other men looked expectant. This was why they were here.

"I don't mind as long as you don't make me talk too much."

Then came the question I was expecting since I had first made the scrolls. "I know you are a Prophet and the information came from your visions but is there any way you can prove what you wrote?"

I pointed to the table with the scroll I had started earlier. "I can't prove it with the current equipment I have, so I've been drafting up the needed equipment and processes for proving it."

They all turned to look at where I was pointing.

I added, "It's not done, but you're welcome to read what I have so far."

I was thanked as they went to the table they had called me away from when they entered.

'He called it 'visions?' Really?' I had to ask Sinbad later what he was telling his people about me so I could keep the story straight.

The magician confirmed for the others what I wrote about light bending. There was magic to do that, but not everyone is a magician. I had just invented a way for non-magicians to bend light.

Just wait until I show them a prism that can split light into colors. Or teach them how light is perceived in the eye. Or even better, show them the double slit experiment that proves that light is a particle not just a wave... Did they know light was a wave yet?

"Lady Prophet."

I was pulled out of my thoughts.

"You said this isn't finished and there is plenty of space in this scroll for more, but would you let us take this back to the tower so we can get started?"

I wanted to say 'no.' I was still coming up with things to add to it, but I also knew that holding things back because I wanted to save paper was a fool's game. Besides, I could always add more to it later.

I nodded and they thanked me before making me promise not to leave my bed. They were grateful for this new scroll but not at the expense of my health -they were doctors after all.

And then they left.

It was probably about 5pm if my internal clock was on schedule, so I had about an hour before the next ring of the Bell.

Even if I wasn't a man of my word, I would have lost the motivation to work with my current project taken from me while I was still in the middle of making it.

So, I did the thing I grew up doing when I was bedridden from illness: I looked out the window. From the bed I could only see the tops of the buildings on the other side of the courtyard. The Tower that was just poking in from the left had to be the Black Libra Tower.

The waves in Sindria were calmer yet stronger than those in Balbadd. It was probably due to Sinbad's influence. He brought stability and security to his people. I could understand why so many chose to follow him or ally with him. But I knew where all this would lead. As he obtains more power and influence he will stop being able to see himself from the pedestal that he and everyone else put him on; his greed will make him blind to the wants and needs of others, and like a middle aged parent that isn't ready for their child to leave the nest he will take out his frustration on the world that was moving on without him. When Sinbad dies at the end of the manga, Drakon realizes that they all put too much on Sinbad's shoulders.

To change Fate, I was going to have to make sure I never put him on that pedestal nor rely on him for much. And I was going to have to convince the 8 Generals to do the same -or at least to start pulling more of the weight.

The 6 o'clock Bell came faster than I expected, as well as my dinner not long after. They brought my clean laundry, a sleeping gown, and some other common clothes and things for my convenience.

I would have preferred something much shorter for the night gown since I hate having a lot of extra fabric around my legs when I already have blankets. I was not going to risk being walked in on by doctors or whoever when sleeping naked, so I would make do for now.

There was no way King Sinbad wasn't going to reward me for those scrolls. If it was some kind of treasure I'd sell it and buy a new wardrobe for myself that actually suited me, and if the reward was a request then I would ask that he pay for everything directly.

The light coming in my windows changed, and I watched my 2nd sunset in Sindria.

When Sinbad found this island 10 years ago, he completely terraformed it. He didn't get rid of all of the vegetation that was here, but he did break down one of the sides to allow for easier access by boat. The side he carved out faced northish towards all of the other known countries, so no boat would have a reason to circle the island. It was a decision that would benefit the merchants and make it easier to defend.

It also meant that my windows faced west, so I could watch the Sun set every day. I couldn't help but see that as a blessing and a curse. Sure not getting the sunrise meant I'd need to put more effort into

waking up in the morning but that wasn't the part I was worried about.

See- The thing is... I have synesthesia (having 2 or more senses overlapping). I see sounds, letters, and numbers as colors and textures. I have it mild enough that I can normally block it out so it's not too distracting (thank God because music is a main stim), but sometimes I'll hear something and get overwhelmed by how it looks.

Each letter and number is a color. So every voice can make every color, but language, pitch, tone, and accent all affect the colors and textures I see from a person's voice like a filter. There have definitely been some people that I struggled to give my full attention to when I first met them because I was entranced by how their voice looked. The more I hear a person's voice the more I'm able to move its visuals to the background so I can focus -desensitizing myself to it.

Luckily, Sinbad's voice is normally not so distracting that I stop paying attention. Since it's like a merger of every voice actor I've heard play him (All the characters I had met so far were like this.) I'm already desensitized. The similarities across all of the VAs meant that his voice looked like a sunset -full of deep purples and magentas, and bright reds, peach, and gold, and with a smooth and flowing texture like painting in acrylic with a wet brush -like a painting of the last moments of a sunset.

His voice was as pretty as he was.

I hadn't actually gotten to see or hear him for a whole day. But I'd get to look at his voice's equivalent every day while living under his protection.

It was frustrating to admit -I barely knew him as a real person- yet I couldn't deny that I missed him. I feel asleep watching the sun set.

((I wasn't going to write about my synesthesia, but this is my fanfic and I thought it might be fun to reference the colors peoples voices make when the characters talk. I'm not going to paint every VA and head cannon, but I will describe them as I go. Ja'far's Japanese and English VAs have voices that look very different so finding the middle ground is proving tricky.

Also, anyone who noticed that the purple I see in Sinbad's voice is the same as the purple I've been using for the illustrations and comics is super smart and cool.))

[twig-soup]

i need to rant just keep scrolling

dropped out of grad school, can’t hold down a job, can’t make or keep a friend to save my life, i’m completely broke, no health insurance, my family is not reliable for support, and i have symptoms so intense it’s actually kind of embarrassing to talk about. so when someone tells me they understand what mental illness is like bc they have trauma or anxiety or whatever, but i see them living their best life, hanging out with friends all the time, graduating, accepting prestigious fellowships, their amazing support system, traveling the world, it’s just like? do you? do you get it?

it's not a competition. it's not a competition. it's not a competition it's not a competition but i'm so unbelievably, violently jealous that i am bristling like a damn cartoon character

i know it's wrong okay i know i know i know. i'm not being very compassionate or empathetic right now. someone could appear the happiest they've ever been and the next day they're not here anymore. that happens and i know it. and it's not a competition and social media is always fake anyways but i can't shake how fucking inadequate and bitter i feel when i see people getting attention and sympathy for their mental health struggles, acting like a fucking influencer giving people mental health tips and sharing their experiences while traveling europe with friends meanwhile i'm in the corner just fucking rotting. i am rotting and i get nothing from anyone. nothing. i get nothing and i'm being selfish and dumb right now but i don't care because if you haven't heard i am rotting!!! i am literally dying! i'm dying! i'm dying and nobody cares? doctors don't care unless you have money (i don't; i am currently unmedicated and have been diagnosed with bpd, bipolar ii, ptsd, and gad who knows what else honestly i haven't done much therapy, i need medication i need it and i need therapy i am going insane i am going insane i can't live like this anymore). my parents don't care as long as i'm living my life according to their expectations (which i'm not so they won't help; tell me why it makes sense to only give money to your daughter when she has a good job and not when she's having a hard time, also they don't think mental illness is real). and we won't be able to make rent this month and the bills are piling up and my partner suffers to the extent that i do and we're trying our best but what can you do when a week before rent is due you get covid? when you get a flat tire with no money to fix it? when a cop randomly decided he didn't like you and gives you a ticket he didn't have to that you absolutely can't pay? bad luck feels like a fucking stab wound when you're already hanging on by a thread. and yet i'm supposed to sit here and nod happily and accepting as someone claims they know what it's like? when they literally never have to worry about anything???? when it doesn't seem to get in the way of their lives at all?????????>

i'm just so miserable. i have always been miserable and nobody has ever helped me. every time i used to try telling my parents how depressed or suicidal i was i would get yelled at for hours until i changed my mind ("you're right dad. i was wrong, i don't really feel that way. i'm sorry"). my childhood was fucked honestly. been thinking about it a lot recently, can't get it out of my head, it's kind of fucking me up. i look in the mirror and see my father's features and it makes me sick. anyway. now i'm an adult with no skills beyond what it takes to succeed in school, except i'm so burnt out from years of suppressing and neglecting my illnesses that i can't do anything anymore. i used to be a stone; i never showed emotion because i was punished for doing so. now it's like the dam has been broken and the smallest thing sends me into an episode that takes me out for the rest of the day. and i'm not weak, i'm not! i'm not. i'm not. i push myself until i break. to the point where if i'm not shaking and crying and physically unable to stand then i consider myself a lazy weakling and a coward. sometimes i wish all my bones were broken so everyone would know that i really can't do it. i know it's not true it's just my programming but like. i just break so easily now. i break so easily and i struggle so deeply and my partner and i are actually doing better right now, we're working more but it's not enough and that gets you down. and i don't know how it ever can be enough when we're so firmly at rock bottom. i wish we had more money. it would help so much if we could pay our bills. whatever i don't actually hate people who have mental illness and good lives i just hate my own life that's all

[kosmicdream]

hi i just discovered your webcomic !! i very much love it a lot and i was wondering if yo could maybe clear up the worm's anatomy ? cuz like, one minute they have boobs except its referred to as a he and then it has a dick but its still a queen ? don't get me wrong its insanely cool but if you would be so kind as to enlighten me on the subject it would be very much appreciated !! keep up the good work !!

I’ve been getting a lot of new readers and I think its been a while since i’ve gotten questions about this, so I suppose I don’t mind recirculating some information again. Hopefully i can cover a little bit more of the deeper nuances about worms and their relationship to gender/sex/pronouns that i haven’t talked about before. Its best to keep in mind that pronouns and also body parts (genitals/breasts, ect) arent always indicative of gender or sex. I think this is safe to say this is true for.. even outside of my story.

**SOME SPOILERS BELOW IF YOU HAVENT READ THE ENTIRE COMIC... SORRY I RAMBLED***

Anyway-- In the case of hydragora worms (which ill focus on as they are the ones with the king/queens classifications), their pronouns are not even exactly related to their genders or sex at all! but rather the type of ‘class’ of worm they are. Technically, all worms are able to lay eggs and also fertilize them. there are no “girl” or “boy” worm. Sometimes their rituals with how this process happens are different depending on what kind of worm they are, but they are all able to shape-shift their bodies to look how they want-- well, based on what they eat-- so body parts like boobs and genitals are really just accessories. For some worms, they’re important parts of their body that help make them comfortable, for others they couldnt give a fuck about what is swinging around. it really depends on the individual. Worms can mate without even having any visible genitals just as long as they squirm around in the necessary fun fluids with some sort of .. open.. orifice to absorb it with.... worm sex can be real damn freaky i wont get into it rn.

Back to the pronouns though. What does it mean??? Well, Kings do not actually mean male and Queens do not mean female..Even though we humans generally associate these pronouns/words with male and female! To make it as simple as i can, I try to explain or ask others to think of it like..Kings (he/him) - Typical characteristics: Lazy, Important, Need to be worshipped and protected. Very sexually appealing. Also have mysterious powers. Often have little weird crowns.Queens (she/her) - Characteristics: generally very large, can regenerate, specifically hunt down kings to kill them. Super strong. Generally have cool looking tails for some reason. Very colorful because that is useful for intimidation and showing off how strong they are.Regular worms: want to worship kings + protect them, also desire to become knights. technically speaking-- i would say that the lack of pronouns is the most ‘suitable’ pronoun to describe them. some even casually adopt he/she/they pronouns but usually in the space of interacting with other species. anyway, they’re loyal and subservient. knight worms: the special king-appointed upgrade of regular worms, they often adopt he/him pronouns through this process but it is reflective of their close bond with their king. (the very simple format is thinking the three basic worm genders as LAZY, MURDER and WORSHIP.)

*ok more specific character spoilrs below YOUUUVE BEEN WARNNNED IM WARNING YOOOU ok done warning**

Some worms break from this system and try to reinvent or reinterpret pronouns for their own while still interacting with worm culture/society. A couple examples of worms that do this are Agent Paper and Nail. (although really, its hard to think what worm character in ffak does not do this lol) Paper is a woman wishes to be viewed/treated as a woman by ANY species she interacts with. But! this doesnt mean she identifies as being a queen worm however- even tho she uses she/her pronouns. She just is a female worm. That identity is important to her even if, for a worm, it is far more ‘binary’ way of thinking than worms typically exhibit. Other worms will probably view her as a wanna-be-human or close minded. But just because the majority of worms are very fluid in many aspects of their gender/bodies/identity/sexuality doesn’t mean paper has to conform to this fluidity as well. The idea of a ‘Binary Gender’ for worms is typically very confusing (or an example of someone who is misinformed) to those who understand that worms generally do not adhere to a binary system. Especially for a worm who is NOT trying to disguise themselves as a human and integrate with human society (Aka, like Dylan who mostly interacts with humans and generally tries to remove herself from worm culture/society completely. Dylan does not even WANT to be considered a worm while paper still LOVES being a worm and associating herself with worms. shes just a woman worm. dylan is a woman. just not a worm woman. she will begrudgingly accept she is still technically a worm, but the identity of woman is less important to her and is more just the default of being viewed as a cis lady by humans and dylan is like ‘yeah whatevs’.)Nail is a queen worm, which typically have she/her pronouns, but he goes by he/him pronouns and also is fairly assertive of that. However, this doesnt mean he is a man or wishes to be viewed a ‘Man’ or ‘Male' (specifically) or even as a “King.” its more like... his own interpretation of what he/him means, which is about authority, dominance and most importantly: power. If he would pick a ‘binary gender sort of thing’ (while rolling his eyes bc he thinks its stupid while also thinking its important enough to get annoyed at when people dont respect his pronouns) he would pick being a man and would vehemently reject being viewed as a woman, but in a more deeper level that is not actually how he sees his he/him pronouns as a man thing. (even between being NB/male/female he would still pick man because that just seems ‘direct to the point.’ and satisfying) He also generally rejects the label of Queen worm too, but will begrudgingly or unenthusiastically accept that he is one. He is also considered an ‘odd’ queen because he is very small in stature and generally has muted colors of browns/tans instead of flashy ones. He has been teased at this too that he wasnt QUEEN enough by being so small and puny lmao.

To backtrack a little, As worms integrate with human society, or even hekatons (which that species also mimics a lot of human society), they will often adopt the ideology and system of how pronouns are used. Or at least, will be forced to process how other species will view them based on the shared language of using the same words, despite it meaning many different things... to not only groups of people but also on the individual level. I think thats an important thing to consider that there are many different dynamics, interpretations and journeys interacting all at once and influencing each other and are constantly evolving and branching out. Even the lines between what is a king/queen/other worms really ARE is blurry because its all on a spectrum of.. various physical characteristics and behaviors.

And to go into EVOLUTION and BLURRY LINES... As we can see with a worm like, Jacket for example... while he is specifically NOT a king, he is also more like a unique blend of features from queens/regular worms and also knights. because he WANTS to be a knight he already uses he/him pronouns despite not actually having a king already and hasnt even gone through the specific knighting process. Jacket sees He/him as words that mean total loyalty to the king. Whoever the king is. And if someone were to try to put him in a specific box of queen/king/knight/regular worm they would be unable to place him b/c he is something else unique entirely. and while jacket uses he/him pronouns i think at the core of it he literally does not give a fuck about language at all, or genders, or labels. those are all nonsense things. he relies only on instinct and desire.

Phew. ok I could ramble on and describe every one of my worm characters, but I’ll leave it at there for now. Crimson is even more confusing bc she is a fucking hybrid human/mandragora worm, using a goddamn hydragora body, and has like 2 other clone heart selves and all this other fucking bullshit. i have been writing this for like an hour. lmao

I hope some of this is communicates at least, its a little difficult to orchestrate and articulate all the levels operating here at once in a simple-to-digest manner. the fun thing about ffak at least is that if you dont want to think about this stuff you dont really have to--although id think it enriches the experience a bit.

[queenie435]

Numbers. A couple of old different sources here to share.

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THE MEANING OF NUMBERS IN THE CYCLE OF LIFE

Numbers as mathematical figures are a human invention. Time is also a human invention, and it might be that out there in the universe time as we know it doesn’t exist. The names or figures we put on natural phenomena speak about human translation of a natural essence. In this short article I will speak about numbers.

The sequence of numbers has logic; it is hard to imagine if we were to start counting at the number three. In ancient cultures and esoteric studies there were special rituals dedicated to numbers and magical powers attributed to them.

Numerology derives from the understanding that numbers represent natural forces that can be activated if the true meaning harmonizes with the number frequency.

One is the beginning, so everything starts from One. But in order to reproduce we have to have the Two. One splits in two, which symbolizes duality and contradiction on one side and completion and togetherness on the other.

Three is the first number you can close with lines, after the split of Two. Three is the product of the Two unifying, so it speaks about produce, and is related to creativity, reproduction, holy triangles and spiritual elevation. The three last stages in the 10 'Sphirot', the Jewish ladder of spiritual transformation, are divine, on a higher energetic level above human daily existence.

Four is the first cycle, the first solid formation, when One splits, Two reproduces, Three is the fruit, Four resembles the seasons that come and go but guarantees continuation and cycle of being.

Five, in most cultures and esoteric studies, is the symbol of the human being because of the five extensions - head, two hands, two legs - so the number five is used as a human symbol in the larger symbolic context of human existence. One, Three and Five, Seven and Nine are related. This is the reason why in Hebrew, the language in which the Bible was written, all odd numbers are three letter words. And all even numbers are four letters except for six which is pronounced 'Shesh' in Hebrew and is a two letter word.

Six is the opportunity of accomplishing the first cycle in planetary level. It is the human that can make a change by purification, pure energy from the One splits in Two, reunites in Three, moves in cycles in Four, enters the human faculties at Five, transforms and completes a life cycle in Six. That is a circle with an extension upward.

Seven is the higher cyclic manifestation of the power of One. This is the reason why Seven is considered a sacred number in cultures around the globe and is related to cycles of self-development, purification and sacred rituals. The seventh day of the week in most religions is a day of rest and self-reflection. This is the reason why all odd numbers add up to seven.

Eight is the symbol of infinity, of the Universe that surrounds us and is a constant reminder that we are but a tiny dot in a vast Solar system that is unnoticed within the Milky Way galaxy that is but a grain of dust within the Virgo cluster. Elevating the human spirit aims to be eternal. To reach the Eight energy level is to constantly dwell, ruminate and contemplate about the human connection to the universe and by thus be humble and ready to change.

If all this work is done then comes the Nine and offers the second cycle of purification. The human accomplished its development in planetary level and now grasps the enormity of life and the spirit proposition to elevate into the celestial realm. This is the Nine - the circle is above pointing downward. The first journey represented connectivity between different energy levels in order for the human spirit to purify and flourish. We can start the journey anew from above the mind down to the physical, from the Nine to One and then from One to Nine all over again in an eternal process of appearance, evolvement, change and purification.

Religions in their pure forms relate to those subjects. The true meaning of religion is to permeate those eternal rules in each and every human limited life span.

I will try to connect all what is said so far to the usage of numerology in the Cycle of Life (COL) painting series. The symbol I use as a signature is one symbol that is combined of two human figures, which hold the Ankh in their hands. The ANKH is an Ancient Egyptian symbol that resembles the passage between life and death. For the Egyptian priests life was but a passage for the spirit journey to gain more wisdom and to come back again and again till redeemed.

So it is one symbol with two figures holding a symbolic tool, Three, of spiritual elevation that speaks about cycles which are four and stands on four (feet). The human level is five and all human organs in both the human figures are depicted by five dots. The ANKH is depicted by ten white dots divided in to seven planetary evolutionary stages and three divine ones. All the symbols that appears in all COL paintings are depicted by 35 dots which in numerology is eight indicating the universal realm.

Have magic in your life

source Ted Barr

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Numbers

The Secrets of Numerology Meanings Made Easy

By Sandra Weaver

Numerology meanings seem to have found their beginnings with Pythagoras, a Greek philosopher and mathematician, born in 570 BC. But, the idea of numbers and their spiritual significance was practiced heavily by our ancient ancestors in Mesoamerica simultaneously. The ancient Maya felt the universe, ages or cycles...everything could be broken down into numbers. Numbers were sacred and alive.

The magic of numerology takes your name or date of birth and reduces them down to single digits. Each digit from 1 to 9 has its own tendencies. The resultant number is said to reveal your key personality.

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But the power of numerology meanings takes it a step further by considering the values of each number in your birthday. Most often your personality contains dominant and sub-dominant essences of several numbers. This showing where you are balanced and imbalanced.

Yet another step of refinement comes when you take your name and birth date numbers both. Your name has power and is not an accident. It reveals hidden clues you may not have been aware of. There could be a reason you don't like your name. This article will show you how to gain a better understand of yourself or another through numerology meanings.

Let's get started...

Key to Understanding Numerology Meanings

Odd numbers are masculine. Even numbers are feminine. When I say masculine and feminine, I’m not talking about a specific gender. I mean the "traits" of masculine and feminine energy within us all.

Masculine: active, creative, thrusting, and cold

Feminine: passive, receptive, yielding and warm

Masculine and feminine tendencies are visible in both sexes. In fact, many numerology numbers for women are very masculine (included mine), and visa versa. We all know men who are gentle and nurturing. And, we also know women who are aggressive and cold.

The very strong tendencies of the numbers in numerology towards the masculine even now, indicates how the world is out of balance. The shift to balance began over 100 years ago with the women's movement. A lot of the turmoil we're experiencing in the world right now is a universal attempt to bring the earth into sync with the new Aquarian Age. Numerology meanings will shift as our consciousness shifts. The nurturing power of the feminine will become revered again as it was before, during the time of the Goddess.

Numerology numbers range from 1 to 9. The numbers 11 and 22 result in numerology calculations also, and should be reduced to 2 (1 + 1) and 4 (2 + 2). Numerologists work with 1 to 9, 11 & 22. We're going to concentrate on 1 to 9 in this article.

What do the numbers in numerology meanings really indicate?

One (1): The numerology meaning of this number is unity, beginnings, God, masculine, creative, symbol of physical and mental activity. It’s a number that expresses leadership, spotlight type individuality. There’s a tendency to being organized, and ambitious. Ones go to the top in everything that peaks their interest, reflecting a natural leader. They are forerunners and original thinkers. Leadership or a position of power is where they’re happiest. Often, they are loners, and can be aggressive. The ambition to succeed can overshadow good judgment. The biggest lesson for ones is to dim that spotlight...sit back sometimes to recognize and appreciate the light in others.

Two (2): Dualist beliefs, Gnostic. This is a feminine numerology meanings number with traits like yielding, receptive, accepting, forgiving, passive, uncomplicated and stable. But, twos make things or groups function more efficiently. Devotion to truth and simplicity is of major importance. Twos are the opposite personality to "1s". They are followers, good subordinates and team members. Often too subservient, which others perceive as weak or shy because of their natural gentleness. Because of their natural tendencies towards peace and diplomacy, they can appreciate both sides of an argument, and are good mediators. Their path in life is to nurture, and make the ideas of others shine...make their systems work. Twos need for peaceful assertion makes their lives work extremely smooth, while others may have more bumps in the road.

Three (3): Masculine. The Holy Trinity, (father, son, and holy ghost). Threes are active, harmonious, pleasure–loving, and they bring joy to others as indicated by their numerology meaning. Many politicians are threes with excellent conversational skills, but they can often be superficial. They give hope to others who see the dark side of things. These shining lights work hard to stop negativity from entering into their lives. The good in something usurps the bad every time. They are born mediators between 1 and 2 to draw them together. Extreme versatility and highly sociable attitudes make them well liked. In partnerships, they are sexually interested and interesting both. Threes meet and live life head on.

Four (4): Feminine. The number of matter in numerology meanings. Represents 4 seasons, 4 elements, 4 directions, 4 sides to a cube. Fours mirror magical geometry and buildings. They are stable, rigid, sure-footed, determined to reach their goals in a straight line. When things come without effort, fours are uneasy, wondering if something is good if it comes without hard work. Often they are so focused on their goal they miss the small pleasures of life. These stable, security loving people are often unmoving and dull. They are hard working, good employees especially in planning, organization and administration. Fours biggest challenge is to find the “middle of the road”, so they have balance in their lives.

Five (5): Masculine. Number of the senses, four limbs and one head make five main projections from the torso. Stars. Also sexual, male (3), female (2). Fives are likely to be restless, lively, adventuresome, quick-thinking, and quick-tempered. They love change and challenge, but take too many risks. It's common for them to act first and think later, which causes stumbling along the path.Fives numerology meaning shows them to be progressive, free thinking, exciting, fun loving and sexual. Simple everyday life is unattractive to these types. Fives handle unexpected changes and challenges well. Five's goal is to be forever youthful and have a good sense of humor. These traits make them happy and pleasurable company. Freedom is important to them, so stability conscious types would do better to look somewhere else.

Six (6): Feminine. The combination of the upward male triangle and downward female triangle for the 6 pointed star. Sixes numerology meaning shows they possess the nurturing side of womanhood: safe, stable, warm, domestic, and motherly. Sixes are natural homemakers, giving love, warmth and security to their families even if they are a man. They are supportive, harmonious, companionable, responsible, good problem solvers who know life requires adjustments along the way. Sometimes smugness and a self-satisfying attitude can reveal an interfering know-it-all. Sixes major lesson in life is to adapt and adjust to lives changes in themselves and others.

Seven (7): Masculine. This is the holiest and most magical of all the numerology numbers, possessing strength and psychic ability. Creation and rest in 7 days, 7 pillars of wisdom, 7 chakras, 7 stars in the Big Dipper. Sevens are reflective and have a tendency towards mysticism or the occult. This is the number of an introspective individualists who is often a loner. They're highly intellectual, and not materialistic, but somehow money finds them. Not considered social butterflies, sevens are often perceived as cold and distant. It's immaterial, because they are unaffected by the opinions of others. Sevens are disciplined and work well without supervision, which they prefer to team efforts. Often they will escape into daydreaming, needing little rest, relaxation and sleep. Their challenge in life is to seek and understand the Truth. Sevens need to be gentle with themselves though, and learn that being alone is not the same as loneliness.

Eight (8): Feminine. This is the number of material matters and practicality. But, eights must learn how money can be used for the greater good. Through numerology meanings this is their challenge. They are a symbol of infinity, which leads to the next life...the eight-fold path away from materialism in Buddhism. Eights like to accumulate wealth. This number is worldly and hardworking, but often lacks patience and pliability. Eights are tough, being persistent till they accomplish a task. They make excellent business people, because they like order and making money. Often they lose what they make though. But, they can be ruthless in pursuit of their goals. On the other hand, they are very family oriented, protecting their loved ones. Learning that love, passion and marital commitment are just as much a part of success as material gain is another of their numerology meaning challenges.

Nine (9): Masculine. A product of 3 x 3 makes nine a powerful number. Nine represents achievement and completion. There are 9 months in pregnancy, 9 initiations during our advancing from a lower stage to a higher stage. In numerology meaning, nines are achievers, possessing bright ideas, high ideals, and innate abilities. They take the big picture into consideration with their broad visions, global thinking, and universal problem solving capabilities. Their goal is to culminate, complete and finish all endeavors. Nines are always looking for ways to improve on any situation or project. Traveling to distance places and possibly even having a foreign spouse is all part of a nines makeup. These high energy people are creative often artistic, but they can be self-centered when it comes to their achievements. Recognition is important, but they will never flaunt their achievements. Nines biggest challenge according to numerology meaning...is to let go! When something has reached completion...it has outlived its usefulness. Or, as in the case of a relationship, it may simply be time to end it, which means you have to let it go.

Eleven (11): Masculine/Feminine. This is the numerology meanings number of revelation and spiritual insight. Elevens are intuitive, practical, unconventional but sensible. Eleven reduces to 1 + 1. This number has many 2-type attributes, as well as 1s because of the 1 and 1. These personality qualities make them more balanced between the masculine and feminine. We should start to see more "11s" in people's numerology meaning numbers as the feminine finds itself within us all.

Twenty-two (22): Feminine. This numerology meanings number has particular importance in the Kabbalah. The Tree of Life is joined by 22 paths. There are 22 letters in Hebrew alphabet, and 22 cards in the Major Arcana of Tarot their lives and environment is important to a twenty-two. This number reduces to 2 + 2. They have the more positive aspects of the number four. Notice how the numerology meaning of this number stays very feminine. This will be another number to watch for as we leave the Age of Pisces behind completely.

Numerology meaning and your birth date

Now that you understand what the different numbers represent...we’re ready to figure out what this all means to you.

First of all, the numerological meaning of your birth date is based on the entire group of numbers. This important number is often referred to as your destiny number, because it’s constant...never changing. To calculate this numerology meanings number just add all the numbers together. (eg. July 17, 1959, would be 7 + 1 + 7 +1 + 9 + 5 +9 = 39. So this birth date, Susan's, would look like this 3 + 9 = 12, 1 + 2 = 3)

Since 39 and 12 are not single digit number, you add the first and second digits together to make a single digit number. Keep adding the sums of the numbers till you get one of the one digit numerology numbers. In Pythagorean numerology meanings, the 9s in your birth date would be dropped. I feel this came about, because every person would have a nine in their birthday if they were born in the twentieth century. In this example we’ll include them. So Susan's final number is "three".

Next, go back to "3" to see its numerology meaning and personality traits. You now have what is considered in this case, Susan's tendencies.

Now let’s look at just her birthday number. In the above example it’s 17 , which would be 1 + 7 = 8. Eight would also play a significant part in Susan's personality. Specifically, how she thinks and behaves in numerology meanings would be revealed by this number. This number also indicates her lucky days, lucky months, and compatible people. (No included in this article)

It’s interesting what comes out when this person, Susan Jenkins starts to develop a pattern of numbers and numerology meanings, which refines and pinpoints her destiny and personality traits. So Susan has a full birthday number of 3 and a personality number vibration of 8. Each number would affect or complement the other, so both have to be taken into consideration. A person is rarely just one number.

To learn more about numerology meanings, follow this link to see how the Arrows of Phythagoras refines readings even farther.

Compare your numerology chart to other personality charts like astrology

An interesting scenario also unfolds when you take your numerology meanings information and compare it to your astrology chart. I was amazed to see my tendencies and traits were reinforced by different ancient personality indicators.

Even more curious?...consider looking into Mayan Astrology. for yet another indicator. There's much more to the ancient cultures and their superior numerology and cosmic knowledge then meets the eye.

Traditional Astrology and to an extent Mayan Astrology are based on precession of the equinoxes. With the beginning of the next Great Cycle and the Age of Aquarius since 2012, our souls journey takes on much greater significance. The Maya predict the earth as a whole has the greatest opportunity for spiritually growth during this time in recorded history.

What they didn't say was doomsday would befall the earth and humanity. They predicted the upheavals economically, socially and environmentally, which we’re experiencing right now. It's happening to clear the old values to make room for the new values of love, brotherhood, unity and integrity for the new Great Age.

Conclusion:

Different numerology meanings combined pinpoint your attributes and your short-comings. Maybe you’re really heavy in one area and very light in another. Take note of these situations and use your strengths to achieve your goals, and use the information on your light areas to work on creating some balance in your life. After all happiness, peace and love are all that matters when the day is done.

When you consider the values of the new Great Cycle which officially began December 21, 2012, this balance between the masculine and feminine energies within us becomes more important now then ever before.

References:

Numerology, David Barrett

Your Numbers of Destiny, Urna and Marlow Gray

Pythagoras and Early Pythagoreanism, Pythagoras:

His Life, Teaching and Influence, Cicer, Tusculan Disputations

The Greek Qabalah: Alphabetic Mysticism and Numerology in the Ancient World,Kieren Barry, Wikipedia, Samuel Weiser

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