#bc it really shows he doesn't hold a grudge against him at all

[canadianlucifer]

Sometimes I get a fictional little guy in my head and I have to draw them to release them

[rafyki]

About Jack, Joke, and forgiveness

This is one of the main themes of the show, and we're shown this from the very first episode. The whole show is about Joke fighting to get Jack's forgiveness up until episode 5 when he finally get it. But it goes deeper than that, I think; both of their stories are somehow about this, about learning to forgive.

(and it's not even just about Jack and Joke, of course; I think it's natural that in a show with such flawed characters who keep making mistakes forgiveness will be an important theme. but let's focus on the two of them for now or this will become way too long).

Let's start from Jack, because he's the most obvious one

This is one of the first thing we learn of him, he can hold a grudge forever, he doesn't know how to forgive

(and I wonder if Grandma knows this bc maybe Jack still holds a grudge against his parents. of course they did what they did to help him, but they ended up hurting him, both bc he lost his parents and bc they ended up trapping him in a life of debt. Oh no, sounds familiar?)

Jack has to forgive people who hurt him, twice during the show: one of them is Joke, of course, the other one is the Coach. Both are people who deeply hurt him in the past and whose actions toward him negatively influenced his life today. And yet his reactions to their apologies are fundamentally different.

With Joke is all uncontrolled anger, he's so furious he even says that if he wants to be forgiven Joke should try dying.

Yet this is how he reacts to Coach

He has such opposite reactions to those apologies, and I think its because of a few reasons. First, I think he realizes that his current predicament isn't actually Joke's fault; he resents him for giving him false hope, and I think in a way he resents himself for being so naive and falling for it, but he knows that he would have ended up in that situation with Boss anyway, with or without Joke. He's angry because he liked Joke and he lied to him, not because he blames him for what his life has become, he's angry bc Joke represented something good in his life that ended up being a lie, ended up being as horrible as everything else.

With Coach is different, bc Jack's current situation really is also his fault. If he hadn't been a slave to power, if he had been braver and stood up against Carbon and his father then maybe Jack would be in the national team and he would be free of debt and of Boss. Coach is yet another adult who Jack trusted and then betrayed him, yet another adult who's at fault for Jack's life being like that. Coach is a symbol of everything that went wrong in Jack's life because of people in positions of power. Before him and apology, Jack feels empty bc he lost hope in the world, and forgiving the Coach would mean nothing, as nothing means his apology.

Joke fights to get that forgiveness, and Jack can see that; Joke dirties his hands to try and help him, he doesn't back off and he keeps trying - but he doesn't do that for himself, he doesn't do that to find his own peace (bc, and I'll tackle this later, Joke doesn't forgive himself anyway), he does it for Jack - everything he does is for Jack, never for himself. He considers himself the reason Jack is in that position, and he wants to help him because he loves him. And he goes above and beyond to do so.

Coach, on the other hand, he goes to apologize to Jack because he's feeling sorry for himself, bc looking back maybe voting for Jack might have helped him. I'm not saying he doesn't care about Jack at all, but like, he doesn't care that much, he cares mostly about himself. And in fact he backs down right away, he doesn't try to help (until Joke goes to him), he just cries for himself. And Jack has no reason to forgive him, doesn't really have any reason to keep thinking about him at all.

So what changes? I think what changes is that Joke makes him hope again - hope for a better future, hope that not everything in the world is horrible, hope that he can let himself dream again.

And that's why he forgives him; he forgive him even before he admits it; I think by ep 4 he has already given in, and that's bc he saw that Joke is trying so hard, he saw that everything he's doing he's doing it for him, to give him a way out of that life; Joke is showing him hope for the future, something that I don't think Jack had for the past five years.

And that's when he forgives Coach too, when Joke pushes him to talk to him again. When Jack forgives him, it's when he's surrounded by hope, in the place that he can build his dream in, with someone who's ready to support him any way he can by his side.

Joke taught Jack to forgive because he gave him back his ability to hope. Jack has grown so much because of it, and it's clear.

Joke, on the other hand, is the opposite. Joke never had any troubles forgiving, he never holds grudges even when it would be natural to do so. We see that over and over again - first with Tattoo and Hoy when Tattoo steals the necklace; then again with Tattoo when he betrays them yet again; with Jack after Jack pushes him away; and even with his dad, whom he has every right to hate and never forgive, Joke doesn't hold any grudge against him, he even tells him there's no need to apologies. He forgives and forgives and forgives, over and over again.

The only one he can't forgive is himself, always himself.

So while Jack has to learn to forgive others, Joke has to learn to forgive himself. His growth is one of learning self-love and self-acceptance.

He's always the problem in his eyes. He never blames other bc he's always blaming himself. And that's why he's always so ready to throw himself head first into danger. Because he isn't good enough, he isn't worth it, but everyone else? Everyone else is so much more valuable than he is, and so maybe if he can help them then he can somehow prove that he might be worth something? It doesn't matter that he could be hurt or die for it. We also see this over and over again, since the very first episode when he tries to help Rose, even though he knows he can't fight.

He tries so hard, he always tries so hard, and yet he keeps fucking up somehow, he keeps not being enough - and it's not like everyone can be wrong, right? So he must be the problem

When he looks through his brother's social media and look through all those pictures, what he sees is a happy family a family that's so much better off without him. He was the problem, and when he left they were all happier.

I think the only time we see him acknowledging that something isn't entirely his fault is with his dad:

He says this, but at the same time I think he's still blaming himself - bc he became a thief and all that bc his father never supported or loved him, but it's still also his own fault for not being good enough. He's never good enough in his own eyes.

His wish is to not be a burden to the people he loves

And when he finally thinks he's getting there, when he starts to believe that he might have found his place, everything comes crashing down on him.

His first reaction when he hears about what's happening in Suphanimit is to blame everything on himself.

He doesn't hesitate a second before blaming himself, it doesn't matter that he couldn't have predicted this outcome, doesn't matter that Boss is the one ruining everyone's lives, it doesn't matter that there were three other people with him when he stole the ring, three people that could and should take part of the blame on themselves - no, because even the fact that Tattoo, Hoy and Aran were involved is Joke's fault. If Joke hadn't gone to Suphanimit nothing would have happened, everyone would be happier. And that's not true, we all know that's not true! Because despite everything everyone's life is actually so much better thanks to Joke - Hoy and Tattoo are free from debt, Aran found people who actually love him, Jack is finally free to live his life. They all got there thanks to Joke, yet Joke can't see it. It's his fault, after all. His self-hatred blinds him from see the bigger picture of what he was able to accomplish.

That's why he doesn't hesitate of telling Jack that it's his fault, that he betrayed him and everything is his fault. He's actually twisting the reality of things here, bc it's simply not true, not in the way he's saying it at least, he never betrayed Jack. But he simply can't see it. Joke sees the world in nuances and shades of grey until it comes to himself - when it comes to himself it's simply black and white, he doesn't allow himself a second thought. He's wrong, he's the problem, and in his eyes this is the umpteenth proof of that.

Jack learned to forgive, but Joke still has a long way to go before really learning that he needs to forgive himself. I think the last two episodes will give us this, Joke finally growing out of this maze of self hatred, he will learn to see that he is worth it, that he can't blame himself for simply existing. He'll finally learn to forgive himself, and I can't wait for it to happen.

[k4pp4-8]

Is there anything you wished the Show Ok. Ko Lets Be Heroes focused more on? Whether it be a character, relationship, arc, villain ect?

OH BOY THERE'S SO MUCH I WANTED TO SEE

1. FIRST OF ALL I REALLY wish they had more time to focus on the big reveal because I waited since season for them to talk about the whole POINT situation and when they finally DO reveal laserblast's identity it's completely rushed. This is such an emotional plot line for MULTIPLE characters yet we only see a fraction of it! LIKE PLEEAAAAASE I WANT TO SEE MORE OF HOW THIS AFFECTED CAROL!!! What she went through is so tragic, she lost her love, her dream, her friends, AND she had to raise the child of her dead lover alone. And yet she stayed strong through all of it and became the best mom ever. (Carol I love you plz marry me)

ALSO I WILL NEVER GET OVER THE FACT THAT WE DON'T SEE GAR'S REACTION TO THE REVEAL!! He literally blamed himself for laserblast's death, who was his teammate, his best friend's lover AND K.O's father. Just imagine how he felt like knowing K.O looked up to him as a father figure while thinking it's his fault K.O doesn't have a dad???

And also every other POINT member's lives were immensly affected by laserblast's death, like Rippy roo who dedicated years of her life trying to find a way to bring him back or Greyman trying to make a hero people could look up to or Foxtail still holding a grudge against Gar for what happened. I reaaally wanna know how they would react to knowing not only their friend is alive but he is also a successful villain.

2. Another thing I REALLY wanted to see was Rad and Dendy's relationship actually being explored! I used to think her "obsession" with Rad was nothing more than a gag but I saw that there was supposed to be an episode explaining that "she looked up to Rad because he's unashamed of who he is even though he comes from he considered as unusual family background." AND IT JUST MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!!! I think that would've been an amazing way to explore both of their characters.

Also it's pretty ironic because Rad IS ashamed of who he is! Since day one he's been hiding things he loves and acting like a jerk to cover up his insecurities. I think Dendy telling him she looks up to him would've encouraged him to change the way he acts just like in the "Radical rescue" episode, when he tells K.O he doesn't want him to imitate his bad behavior.

3. Now we're getting to the REAL interesting part. BOXBOTS!!!! LISTEN I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THEM BUT I'M GONNA TRY TO MAKE IT SHORT AND UNDERSTABLE.

I REALLYYY wish we had more moments of vulnerabilty with them. Pretty much every single one of their scene is comedic and, while I do ADORE the comedy, I still wish they were taken more seriously. Like their whole situation is really tragic in many ways yet it's completely ignored. I know it's a mostly light hearted show but the boxbots are never given a genuine moment that felt like their feelings were taken seriously. It's probably just me who's wayyyy too attached to them but my favorite moments are when we get to see the more "human" side of them. Like when they act like an actual family, playing board games, having dinner together, hanging out, or bickering like siblings

I wish they explored how being robots affects them and the way everyone treats them. It's like robots are not considered like "real people" to some degree. We already know that in the okko universe being a certain species will change the way people perceive you and treat you (ie aliens and kappas) and it's shown to be a bad thing when it happens to Rad and Dendy, but when the bots are treated badly it's always seen as a joke and brushed bc you know , they're robots so who cares. There's like an implication that all robots are inherently bad because they're robots, K.O even said Mr.logic was "one of the good ones" implying he's just an exception (also it's crazy that he actually said that sentence and no one batted an eye)

And finally the ONE thing I really REEAALLYYY wanted to see more of is *drum rolls* LORD COWBOY DARRELL (who could've seen that coming)

LISTEN THERE WAS SOOOOOOOOO MUCH POTENTIAL THERE IT ACTUALLY MAKES ME CRAZY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT I WISH I WAS EXAGGERATING!!! Like for the first time we actually see boxman suffer the consequences of his actions, his kids FINALLY stand up to him after being treated like crap 24/7 and then he's forgiven in episode two??? And we don't even see how this affects the other bots!! Like Raymond and Shannon also loved boxman but they seemingly didn't hesitate to side with Darrell over him. I wish they explored how they chose their brother over their father who they were absolutely devoted to since birth.

I was actually disappointed to see Darrell forgive him SO easily and all the character development he could've had was thrown out the window in two seconds!!!! We actually get a glimpse of Darrell's potential but it's all forgotten as soon as Boxman becomes the boss again

I loved seeing Darrell actually fight back for once because he is one of the characters who gets mistreated the MOST by the whole cast. Half of his scenes are just him getting beat up and insulted, he's always treated like an idiot or a joke character so it was incredibly satisfying to see him actually stand up for himself and take charge. Like yeah he is goofy as hell and very immature and I love that about him! But when he became Lord Cowboy Darrell we actually got to see a whole new side of him. He was cunning and smart and resourceful and it KILLS me that we never got see that side of him again. I wish people aknowledged how competent and mature he can be instead of treating him like an actual child. I actually hate how infantilized he is sometimes

Anyway I could go on and on and on forever about the boxbots but that's just a few things i wish the show focused more on, there's probably more but I can't remember them rn

[voiceofsword]

i'd like to know... whats ur take on rinne meeting niki's parents for the first time?

ok i forgot about this ask but because people are sort of SCARING ME speculating that bc crazyb are going overseas there's a small chance that they might come across his parents. i dont actually know how much i believe this will happen since at the end of the day the focus is on rinne and this sort of thing deserves to have More exposition, imo, so having it be an interaction that only occupies a chapter at most is doing a disservice to niki

i actually have a fic drafted out for this (which is nowhere near done, loool), which i'll summarize: it's not necessarily a pretty encounter.

i think rinne would blame niki's parents in part for his "curse" — he doesn't think highly of them, even if niki himself doesn't hold a grudge against them. i think rinne feels like he needs to hate them on niki's behalf, bc even if niki doesn't realize it, at least part of his self deprecating habits come from having been left by them at a young age, and the whole scandal that had arose from his father's tv career.

so while he's obviously not violent towards them, if he were to, say, head to niki's apartment and encounter both of them sitting there waiting for his son, he'd be very passive aggressive. they fucked over his best friend and left him alone, no visits, who knows if they even call him anymore, for years? he wouldnt want to exchange pleasantries with someone like that. and as far as niki's parents are concerned rinne's some stranger who just waltzed into their home so i'm not sure they'd be all too fond of him either? this is all operating under the assumption that niki has little contact with them at this point in his life, so they know little about rinne besides him having dragged their son into the idol world, which he was consequently dragged out of by his father, and now he's an idol again. in their eyes, he's probably kind of a bad influence.

if niki shows up during this meeting, say he was late from work or something, he'd just be kind of speechless the whole time. it's not really a tearful reunion. if they stay for dinner, the preparation leading up to it would be awkward, not much talking. if there is it's niki trying to fill the silence, but neither his parents nor rinne want to actively take part in conversation, opting for throwaway comments at each other, and about niki, since they all think they know what's best for him (and niki isn't the brightest, but none of them go over his head). eventually niki gets fed up and slams his hands on the dining room table, effectively shutting them all up, and going to make dinner by himself while the other 3 sit in silence.

i dont know. maybe they'd be able to talk it out eventually? however i think after this initial encounter they'd probably just want to talk to niki, by himself, some other time. rinne wouldnt be pleased and doesnt think niki owes them shit but i think theyre at a point in their relationship (esp after talking it out themselves — even though rinne can be a bit of a jerk, niki would understand that he was angry on his behalf, not just because) where if niki said he wanted to go speak to them alone, he'd be apprehensive but encouraging. if niki wanted him to come with, he'd drop everything to come with if only so niki doesn't feel alone when talking to them. but ultimately, even if niki reconciles with his parents, rinne wouldn't ever be on the best of terms with them. at least i think that's how it'd be.

look forward to my fic in 2030

[eryanlainfa]

OK hear me out Hugo and Aiden LOOOOVE musicals but Varian doesn't really get them. Also do you think Aiden can sing bc I feel like Hugo would not be that great of a singer and it would be funny in a vat7k show bc Hugo would be like "I can't sing" and three minutes ago he sang his I want song with the voice of an angel

(ignoring temporarily that singing is in human nature and no one is 'bad at it' because it's singing if you're doing it your doing it right) don't mind me just rambling in your inbox lmao anyway AIRIGO

I LOVE HAVING YOU RAMBLING IN MY ASKBOX even more when its about airigo :3c you will always be welcomed

"I can't sing" *proceeds to sing flawlessly* xD love that for Hugo. I also think Hugo would not be that great of a singer but he'd have a good sense of rythm so it's not half bad. Also I think his singing voice would sound different from his talking voice- Idk why-

I don't think Aiden is a huge singer, but they hum a lot during work. (Witches have plenty of lullabies and short songs they recite as good luck charms, since their words carry magic.) So Aiden's singing voice wouldn't be strong and it would probably break if they tried to sing dificult notes loudly. It's fine, she always prefered dancing over singing-

I have so many thoughts and questions popping up now. Since Varian isn't a huge musical fan do you think he prefers classical music? Maybe anything without lyrics so listening to it won't mess his focus on whatever he is working on.? Is Hugo a big musical fan or just anything theater? I like to think Hugo really likes theater and songs because he learnt how to read rather late so it was his only way to have stories accessible to him for a while.

ALSO. Hear me out. A musical version of the Tales of Flynnigan Ryder. (In universe). That would be hilarious, maybe that's why Varian isn't fan of musicals, because, in his opinion, the adaptation isn't fateful enough to the books and he holds a grudge against musicals since-

On a sidenote. Varian and Hugo fighting over which is best, the musical or the book. And its not at all an objective debate lol

[blade-that-was-broken]

For this, you were born au. Aside from barb and most of the rock trolls. After meeting and spending some time with JD and Branch. Did the other trolls like Dickory , Delta, and the rock band and minutte have their opinion changed on pop trolls a little on What they thought pop trolls were like?

Cause I can imagine there's a bit of distrust and, of course, prejudice against the pop trolls bc of what their ancestors did a long time ago. Wow barb seems like an even bigger brat than what she will be in her 20's.

It would be pretty funny if the rock band JD and little branch helped turn out to be Bad Hair Day from trollstopia cartoon that branch became a huge fan of.

It's mostly Barb, in all honesty, that holds the grudge. She learned about it and decided, oh yeah, that's gonna be a thing for me. And since she is the princess/eventual Queen of the Hard Rock trolls, they mostly follow her lead in that area.

As for others... it doesn't really matter as much. I think because it happened so long ago and since then they had ZERO interactions with pop trolls, it kind of faded out a bit. Some people probably thought that pop trolls were extinct at one point.

In canon, no one is particularly angry at Poppy and Branch for being Pop Trolls. Delta lets them do their song and dance in canon before getting upset (which I think there is more reasons than Pop music sucks) and the Funk Trolls seem really chill with them, as well as accepting of Cooper who is Pop (raised, obviously). So Delta doesn't have a particular hate for it but she's not a huge fan either. On the other hand, she hasn't heard a lot of pop music from actual pop trolls. And considering her first introduction is John Dory, of all people, well, that could go well or not. JD is good at writing his own songs sooooo that's a thing.

Dickory is just so protective of his own music, that he "hates" other music. Whether or not this is just a show, is unknown.

In general, since Pop trolls haven't been around forever and JD is not exactly the loudest, most obnoxious colorful troll of the bunch (especially in this au), it's less of a thing to be mean to him because he's a pop troll.

Also the rock band IS Bad Hair from Trollstopia. It kind of became a thing in Smoke and Starlight and I thought it was funny so it kind of got pushed over here too. (Also the timelines would technically match up soooooo lol yeah)

[tottymatsuno]

Zaimoku as a failed duo is so funny to me bc it really does bleed into the group dynamic a lot, since both Todomatsu and Karamatsu are often the odd ones out.

They didn't even rly get along in s1 despite literally trying to, and quickly stop associating with each other despite literally having been assigned each other's name buddy since birth, and also having been besties as kids. We dont even find out why exactly they fall out in the movie, theyre already basically estranged despite Karamatsu clearly being sensitive, and Todomatsu having actively helped him with his acting career (the saw parody episode ncnsns) like they were two sweethearts, but totty basically alternated between choro (ideal bc he could kangaroo and be tolerated), ichi (who he shared friends with), and oso (badbadbad!) But Karamatsu was not an option!

Even in s2 theres not a specific reason why they fell out and continued to be estranged, they actually have a lot of parallels in the things that happen to them, and their relationship with totoko. Theres the au in osoma that shows that they could be at least friendly towards each other despite their differences in sensibility (not shipping tho)

In s3 it makes sense that Todomatsu basically hates him now, bc of the cashier but ig im just kind of surprised by how long and hard he's held a grudge. And the fact he's completely taken over Ichimatsu's initial role as tormentor? Ichimatsu rarely goes out of his way to have an outburst at Karamatsu at this point meanwhile totty literally every opportunity he gets, including making opportunities just apathetically puts Karamatsu in harms way.

He just really kind of hates him? And that's a little uncharacteristic for Todomatsu who tends to get over stuff by the end of the episode, or only brings it back up if someone else does (like the christmas ep where ichi was like what happened to those girls from your job)

I think it probably says a lot actually about how much their fight over the cashier bothered totty? He's still clearly not over it, especially bc this behavior is consistently and exclusively towards kara. Like kicking him and making him fall when going to the bathroom, but letting Osomatsu potentially cut in line, or pushing Karamatsu during the hipipo movie.

I'm not even sure if Karamatsu himself holds any animosity towards totty or realizes why he's suddenly being singled out like that. I can't say what happened and why they were both rejected, but its very clear that somewhere between

This Totty

And this Totty

His confidence and expectations on getting into a relationship have drastically changed. I kinda wonder if he feels especially betrayed by Karamatsu, who's been distant from him bc of their communication issues, and bc this was the first time in the show not only did his brothers support *him* when he wanted to ask someone out, but bc Karamatsu is supposed to be his best friend from birth.

Even in the scene above, its Todomatsu who's actually listing things he liked, even if theyre superficial, meanwhile all Karamatsu is saying is "me too" and Todomatsu as the central character for the episode it makes sense that he'd feel the stronger of the two, but ig to me i see it and the fact hes still angry about it, as like deeper than that.

Because he doesn't really hold a grudge against anyone else. The only other situation i can think of is him making fun of choromatsus brown hair in s2 during his quiz. Like how does Karamatsu, who he's not even super close with in s1 still tie as his favorite brother, with his clearly favorite brother Osomatsu? I think it hurt him a lot more than he said it did, bc he didn't hit Karamatsu first and was initially content to just sit there together after their double rejection.

Anyways i dont think Todomatsu's more deserving of love than Karamatsu, and I don't think he's a better person either. I post about them a lot bc I feel a lot of direct (its onesided tho) competition with karamatsu fans, since for a long time i pretended to be one bc i wasnt confident enough in my own skills to write for Todomatsu, but also bc a lot of totty hate used to come from karamatsu fans, who especially judge Todomatsu based on his behavior towards karamatsu rather than the person he is.

I think karamatsu probably does deserve to have all the freaks who wanna freak him, but ig the thing i wanna say is I don't blame Todomatsu for hating him now, and to me, I love Todomatsu the most. And he deserves all of my love. Even if theres a few of us who would choose him over anyone else, or even if its rly just me, I want Totty to know somebody loves him just as he is without any additional qualifications, for him to change, or for him to be different.

But thats sappy and silly so im gonna end this post very classy and with decorum

[viro-lil-goat]

I already wrote this in reblogs but i want to saparate so here we go, shoutout to this post

AU Hyde friends with Emma Carew

In this au, or more like an addition i can add to one of my aus – in one of Hydes outings, while jumping on the roofs he noticed Emma crying on balcony to her room. Even though he would usually leave (and Jekyll dosent want to get in trouble hence Hyde is still a searched criminal) he decided to come closer, Emma noticed him and was confused on why tf theres a man on the roof above her balcony (i would shit my pants) But Hyde reassured her he isnt a threat, and was just coming by (on the roofs 🤨). And asked her whats wrong.

Surprisingly she wasnt afraid, she already had a breakdown so she couldn't really think straight.

She told him she is supposed to have an arranged marriage with Simon Stride, in her families will. But she doesn't love him nor she ever had romantic or sexual attraction to anyone ever (shes aroace but that term didnt exist back then ). Plus, hes a jerk towards her.

Hyde shows his opposition to it, he thinks all those traditions and aristocrat things are absolutely stupid (sorry for my lack of smart language 😂) . He tells her he knows one person who was also married against their will, and that ruined their relationship with their lover (as hyde says this jekylls jaw drops to the floor XD). So he understands how harmful it can be. He jokes to lift Emmas mood.

Emma already calmed down thanks him, and also tells abot how in general its annoying. Her fathers friends were making jokes about her marrying jekyll right after their dance. Her father dosent take her seriously as he thinks shes still kid (like in musical, same with her mothers death) and he dosent think that marriage is harmful as family of simon conviced him otherwise. She dosent blames him but still holds a grudge for not helping her but instead adding fuel to the fire.

Hyde dosent knows what to say so he suggests her to jump on roofs with him to unwind, jekyll as a shadow is completely apposed. She is unsure but decides to accept the offer. Jekyll tries his hardest but hyde has an idea to make it a little safer.

Since shes in a party dress she takes some time to change into more for jumping clothes. Hyde asks her to hold his hand so she dosent fall while jumping

Artistic interpritation bc im not good with words XD

(the end of second slide feels weird but i didnt know how elso to phrase it 🫡)

And here another time they meet ⬇️

Okay im almost done this took wayy too long

Hence things has worsen with her abusive fiancée, and marriage was soon to happen, she decided to run away and asked Hyde for help in that

Later on i imagine her cutting her hair as a sign of new life (so she'll have something like a pixie cut)

She would write her father a letter that she has left due to her own will

Andd Hyde helps her escape to become of Lucy girls ^^ they still meet even after that.

Thinking abt that, most likely in this scenario her father would still search for her. Just wondering if suspecting Hyde should be a part of it (maybe someone has seen them or something like that)

Okay phew finally first one done ☠️ thats exactly why i usually only keep it in my mind its so hard expressing what im thinking i had to fill the gaps as i wrote. Buttt i want to share (and not forget) so here

[infcinity]

post continued from here bc the new editor sucks :))) @mcrcki

"you'll figure it out, really?" he asked, raising a brow at his mom. "I don't know how you're going to do that, you'll need a kriffing miracle, mom," truth be told, ben didn't think that she ever could sort anything out - especially not this. not after attacking allana - he was sure that jacen would hold a grudge against her forever. and ben didn't exactly blame him, he wasn't too thrilled at her attacking allana either. "maybe you could have, oh I don't know, spoken to the whole family before making a decision like that!" he snapped. ben knew all too well how corrosive and appealing the darkside could be - he'd spent so many years there, being twisted by hatred and fear - the same way that his mother was being pulled now. "you've lost your mind, honestly." he shook his head. "oh great, it will just be you and luke up against everything because you've pissed everyone else off and no one else will be there for you - is that what you want? to break every familial bond you have except for the one with luke? because that would be the stupidest thing you could do," he paused. "family is important and I know you're both trying to protect everyone, but you're both the galaxy's biggest idiots right now," he didn't care if she didn't like his words - that was a her problem, not a him problem - she'd just have to deal with him sharing his mind from now on. "because I told her not to mention anything to you," he rolled his eyes. "and on the subject of ariana - I really don't appreciate you threatening my pregnant fiance," he paused. "I can go wherever I want, you know that right? I'm not a little boy - I'm an adult," he paused. "I went to see him because he's my brother and he was hurt," when ben initially went to the hospital - he'd had no idea that it had been leia that had put jacen there, but he'd had a feeling that she was somehow involved - his mother was spiralling and now everyone could see it. "are you sure about that?" he asked. "he told me, yes," ben nodded. "but it doesn't matter either way, you should have just seen sense and walked away!" ben pinched the bridge of his nose. "I managed to do that without even hurting ari - and you managed to choke allana and stab jacen, that really just shows how weak you were to fall into that trap, to let whatever it was over power you and take hold." he knew first hand how easy it was to slip into the darkness, how easy it was to fall - it had happened to him, to his grandfather and now to his mom and uncle. they'd both fallen to the darkside and ben wasn't sure that she wouldn't have hurt them if it wasn't for whatever was making everyone crazy. a small scoff left his lips. "I'm not too sure about that anymore," ben paused. "I want to believe that - but, who's to say that you won't do it again? what if something like that happens again and you actually kill someone this time?" he asked.

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

So... OLIVER.

He's a big flirt, very cheeky but has a love of dark/morbid humour (that I feel is probably quite common with doctors). He's generally laid-back and tries not to hold onto anger/keep grudges (about the only exception to that is Declan Nash), but if he has a strong opinion about something then you WILL know about it, because he can be stubborn to a fault. A lot of those opinions will be against discrimination - because although he grew up without much thrown his way for being gay, he's very aware that he was lucky and that's not the norm.

Speaking of him being gay... He's not stereotypically camp and doesn't intentionally make a show of his sexuality. If he wasn't so flirty (about 90% of the time with men) then it probably wouldn't be obvious? Though, he certainly isn't ashamed. In fact, he feels very little shame in general! (Which is why he has a tendency to moon)

He's a huge believer that family isn't just biological and that home isn't restricted to just one place. He loves very deeply, whether it's familial, platonic or romantic; and he'll always be willing to help a loved one.

Things he loves... Music. He's a huge pop fan and loves singing and dancing along - but he has no talent for either, nor for playing. He loves stories. Mostly reading, but he will also make up his own silly little tales. Doesn't usually write anything down - just makes them up on the spot. He also loves reading to learn. You know the apps that teach topics in small chunks? He uses one of those, then if something really interests him, he'll get a book to read up on it further. Camping, and all the associated activities (hiking, fishing, roasting marshmallows, etc). He's not a fan of sports in terms of watching/supporting specific teams, but he does enjoy actively taking part in them. Animals! He almost went the veterinary route in medicine because he thought it would be the best mix of helping and being surrounded by cuteness 😻 His fave animals are cats and monkeys. And...dolphins and fennec foxes, since residency 😂

Ummm... I should probably stop, right? 👀

One last thing! Change gives him anxiety. He knows it's inevitable and it has brought great things to his life at times, but it always throws his emotions into a spin and he hates it.

i could absolutely see jensen and oliver as casual friends!! maybe theyd get a drink together every once in a while, and i can see them working together well!!

i think his tendency to flirt would be very interesting with jensen depending on when they meet (if he would flirt with jensen, which i obviously dont know, or if he was just flirting with someone else). in the case that he would flirt with jensen (feel free to confirm or deny), lets just say jensen isnt the best at being on the receiving end of flirting (or the other side of it tbh) and if oliver came on too strong, especially at work, it would definitely have an impact on jensens perception of him. jensen doesnt ever really take flirting as flattering, ig is the best way to put it, so it never comes off great in his book

i also think they would have some interesting conversations about sexuality and such!! itd be refreshing for him to talk to oliver bc he hasnt had the best experiences in the past

as for hobbies, i could def see jensen trying to get oliver into some other music!! maybe some pop adjacent stuff. also omfg they would kill it in trivia wouldnt they? jensen has so much absolutely useless knowledge for no reason and since oliver likes learning different topics i could see them, rather than getting drinks, doing trivia nights or something!!

[onigiri-dorkk]

Regarding AOE, I wonder if Eren will make Annie accidentally kill Mikasa since there's lots of insect imagery surrounding Mikasa and Annie squishing a grasshopper could be foreshadowing. A lot people complain Levi wasn't angry enough at Annie for killing Squad Levi so her redemption is unearned, but I wonder if Annie killing Mikasa will make her reflect on her past callousness and add some angst to AruAni.

That's an interesting thought! Yes, the imagery around Mikasa as a butterfly is all too consistent, on top of the even more specific imagery of a dead blue butterfly with its wings cut. I never really stopped to think about the Annie/grasshopper moment and now I'm curious what that could symbolize or mean, or if it means anything at all.

Though admittedly, I feel like it would feel like a robbery if Annie was the one to kill Mikasa, especially if it was something like an accidental hit or whatever. What would make it most impactful is if Eren is the one to do it, and the theories around that are insane, too.

Basically another large theory is that Mikasa is the one who is somehow able to start and create new 'timelines' whenever she loses Eren (like we see in her OVA), and in every timeline, she falls in love w him at a scarf moment, subconsciously knows he will have to die again, but always chooses to be by his side despite how it always ends -- for Mikasa, remembering and living a life beside Eren is most important to her even if she has to experience him dying over and over. For Eren, though? It leaves him in this constant loop of dying and dying and dying, because of her choice to restart -- in a way, Mikasa's love for Eren, and her need to keep remembering and holding onto him, then becomes almost like a prison. And this potentially is the actual reason why Eren is so fixated on freedom -- that what he truly wants freedom from, even if he doesn't know it, is Mikasa and whatever power she has that keeps him in this miserable loop.

Like isn't that tragic!? But also brilliant, if true?! Which is another reason why, if things go this way, it could only be Eren who kills her. It will be tragic because she is one his closest people, and she loves him, but in order to break the loop and cycle, he has to kill her (dead butterfly).

On the thought of Levi and Annie, that's always been weird for me to think of too lol, while I feel like Levi should have had more of an actual interaction with her once she joined the alliance -- literally, some sort of interaction to get some sort of closure -- I also don't think Levi is the type to hold grudges against his comrades for battles in the past. Zeke, though? (At least, while Zeke seemed to be on their side lol) That was personal probably bc it was what led to Erwin's demise and 99.9% (pretty much) of the Scouts' deaths, and almost death of all of Paradis tbh if Levi didn't stop him

But Annie killing a comrade again during that final battle while they're focusing on killing Eren would just feel like an accident, which would be a disservice to her and whoever is killed. Maybe all would feel better with maybe Annie acknowledging or saying sorry somehow in front of him. Though I also don't see Annie saying sorry LOL (Actually... it's been a long while since I've even glanced at these final chapters, did that actually happen...? lol feels like a fever dream if so)

Thanks for all the interesting asks anon!!!! Honestly pls ask more LOL

*Forgot to address the AruAni angst too LOL tbh I don't ship them, but I too am surprised there's not more angst dynamic between them

**Actually I have more thoughts about Annie. It's hard to say anything about her mainly because a theme of AOT is constantly showing the ways in which every character and every people is a Devil. They've all done terrible things so while we have more attachment to the people Annie killed in the past, the same could be said about the people Paradis (yes, including Armin! Gah) killed. In a lot of ways, all of them have unearned redemption tbh, depending on how you look at things. Blegh, so messy lol but I guess Isayama got his point through! In my heart I'll always be mad at Annie but POV-wise, she did way less damage than the Scouts did at Liberio ;-; Weird to think of, right?!

[lilac-5ky]

LOVE LOVE LOVE THE ASSISTANT x GETO FIC OMG 😩😩😩 are you considering a part 2 for it? like they go on the date, maybe a little more office sex? love your writing so much, i’ve come back to the assistant fic so many times and it’s been one day

awww i'm so glad you enjoyed it! tysm!!

writing a part 2 isn't really something i plan on doing, but since you asked, i could offer my opinion on how the whole thing escalates, cause i always think a bit further into the past and the future when it comes to fanfics.

they have a christmas date, probably go to a light show and browse the christmas markets together. it all goes well, and suguru drives her home, they kiss and she asks him if he'd like to come upstairs, but they likely end it at that since he still feels guilty about the whole "coercion" thing.

when they return to the office on monday, satoru 100% knows and he interrogates him. suguru doesn't share the details and even holds a bit of a grudge since he feels played bcs of how satoru manipulated him, but y'know. satoru just teases him and jokes around until he is forgiven, and the next time he flirts with reader in front of suguru, suguru actually gets in the way and they admit that they are dating. satoru makes a comment about how dating is against the company's policy for fun, but that's about it, he says they make a cute couple and lets them live their romance lmao.

BUT YEAH after all that, i think they just have more dates, and suguru starts doing more stuff for her, like driving her back/forth from the office, having dates both outside and inside the office when they're swamped with work. he wants to take things slow, but let's be honest, they probably have sex again within a week :p and yes, they definitely do it in the office again, for old times sake.

A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE ASKED ME FOR A SEQUEL, and I kinda feel bad about not writing one, so at least, I wanted to share my thoughts once about how I intended this to go after. Hopefully my answer doesn't disappoint you too much!

[globodamorte]

fuuuuuck I'm actually legit upset at how the author treated sukyun god fucking damn (rape mention)

like you get this guy who's been pressured his whole life to be perfect and that affected him in such a way that he gets anxious if he doesn't have his clock beeping at Every moment for him to go do something. he needs praise or hell think he's absolutely worthless. everyone thinks he's simply perfect specially his boyfriend who at one point explicitly says that, which ends up pressuring him even more and when they break up bc he was "too perfect" he fucking breaks down and can't fucjing take care of himself and his place is a trash dump but outside his house he still needs to keep the perfect facade and his ex boyfriend meets him again and sees how messed up and not put together he actually is and instead of being disappointed bc that's sukyuns greatest fear hes just finds it endearing and like they eventually get back together and he slowly starts to not control his life so much he stops using his watch and meets his boyfriend for longer and tries new food and gets to be spontaneous and just actually do whatever and do things he wanted to but couldn't and we'd get to see this man heal and maybe start getting along with his step brother bc both of them have been treated badly by their father in different ways and each hold a lot of grudges against the other bc of that but they're not kids anymore and they both grow from this and realize they have more in common than they think. and then maybe his work gets hectic and we have Jun come into scene and he's nervous bc hey who's this guy he's really close to my bf and like it's ok to be a little jealous and stuff but I feel like what the author couldve done was not focusing on his jealousy and possessiveness but instead on his insecurities of not being good enough for woo in and maybe yeah we get some intrusive thoughts which only reinforce to us the fact that he needs help and who knows after woo in tells him about how him and Jun are just family for him and his own tragic backstory he'll open up about his own and hey maybe he'll get some help and woo in will be by his side

and instead of a fucking rape scene we could get him snapping or relapsing and lashing out at wooin without hurting him. like fr I'm so mad that they showed his intrusive thoughts and he was clearly uncomfortable and scared and hated that he thought those things and then he just goes and acts on them. like come ON. there are so many different ways to have handled that scene without the rape. and I'm not saying they should talk in ooc ways like no, I mean he can lash out and scream and be mad all he wants!!! the thing is: his possessiveness and jealousy aren't healthy and the story should've shown us that in a less violent way (bc again, he's not a bad guy to be doing atrocious things like this the only other sexual assaulter was kwoni and the assault scene was very explicitly negative) . if he doesn't want to hurt woo in then he shouldn't have!!! lock him out of the house kick him out don't let him in throw him out!!! don't fucking rape the man you supposedly love!!! what I seriously don't understand is if that rape scene was NOT romanticized, then what the fuck is going on??? is woo in gonna end up with the man who raped him??? so there's no way it WASN'T romanticized. the whole "he couldn't control himself" bs we see all the time in shitty stories. the important point here is that he's not supposed to be a bad person. but how am I supposed to believe that now???? fr his whole character is ruined after this there's no turning back this was literally one of the worst writing decisions I have ever seen (I say this bc this webtoon is fr one of my favorites and I wasn't expecting something like this when yoonseol and jungsoos arcs exist within the same media!!!!!! aaaaaaasgrghegehdg)

he actually reminds me a little of seo-an from the golden palace although their circumstances are a little different (and seo-an isn't a rapist) like idk sukyun could take a leave off work and try to heal from all this fr that man needs professional help. I really thought the main point of his arc would be "he needs professional help" but instead hes just so flat. he's so fucking flat it's ridiculous.

[redxriiot]

Ei’s mom might be massively overbearing at times and sure doesn’t have the best way of expressing herself half the time, but worst of all, for a FACT if she ever found out her son was a villain, she wouldn’t hesitate to fucken join him.

[demadogs]

It's weird how Byler fandom (of all people!) mostly ignores "It's not my fault you don't like girls!" Sure, some homophobes deny it and claim Will is "a slow bloomer" but for most fans, that line is seen as the show confirming Will is gay - and Mike KNOWS it. Personally I think Mike is gay too and too repressed to admit it - I think he is being a jerk here, because of his own issues. But so many fans ignore that and act like Mike thinks Will is straight, or doesn't even know gay people exist

I don't get it, because Mike has seen Will bullied for this since season one. And the scene - and Mike's behavior - is way more interesting to analyze when you know Will's sexuality is this unspoken thing between them. Because Will refusing to pretend shows up Mike. And it makes Will an option. Always there. There is no girlfriend to make him off limits. Looking at Will, Mike has to admit his own fear - and choice to date El - is the biggest obstacle to what he wants. No wonder he can't deal

To be clear, I'm not trying to shame other Byler shippers for their interpretation. But it just makes no sense to me. Mike knows he crossed a line when he says that. Like, that is the expression of someone who is afraid he basically outed his friend. And he looks like he's only starting to figure out his own feelings in the finale. If Will got a girlfriend and started faking it too, then maybe Mike would think he was wrong. But right now, it's set up that he at least SUSPECTS Will is gay.

It's hard to make your point clear in asks and I know people will misinterpret me and think I'm being an ass. But I genuinely do think the fandom is just ignoring this element of their relationship right now, and we're missing out on so many conversations that could be had about it. Because it's a way more complex and interesting headspace for Mike to be in than NOT knowing Will is probably gay. You know? There is so much more to explore there

no youre right. no one really talks about the fact that mike knows will is gay and it is an interesting thing to think about. i think mike was subconsciously projecting his internalized homophobia onto will bc he knows/suspects hes gay which is a DICK MOVE MIKE!!!

based on this i wonder how will would come out to mike if we get that scene. he might not at all. he might wait until one of then admits their feelings. im not sure, but if he does come out to him i have a feeling he’d say it or imply it pretty nonchalantly because he knows mike already knows. and that would intimidate mike a lot because he doesnt know how to be chill and accepting about sexuality like will and maybe his reaction would be mistaken for homophobia against will and thats what triggers all the angst this season. something more than just making will third wheel has to trigger the angst bc el leaves so early in the season. theres no reason for will to hold a grudge just over that the whole time.

maybe it happens at the roller rink? will could be telling him how theyve had trouble making friends at school and maybe if his alan turning project didnt go over well he’d bring that up and that would lead to him casually coming out. or heavily implying it by explaining that alan turning was gay and thats one of the reasons he did it on him. and then el’s bully encounter would distract them before mike could give a real response.

but i would also like it to continue to be this unspoken thing between them like you said. but something makes it more heavily implied that mikes knows and will knows that mike knows. it would provide a good reason to show mike thinking more about sexuality which leads to his realization of his own feelings.

[anischa22]

Meet the Prince! Luke Randolph 🐻

After Jin, here's the next route :

The 8th Prince of Rhodolite Kingdom, yes he's the youngest and just joined the royal family

Arm of Coat : Bear

First impression of him : a lazy one? ... Hmm let's see, can i like him? Thought he's kinda cute (his bear charm i mean lol)

His voice actor is Shion Yoshitaka

He has given you the aura of a lazy man, but his smile is the sweetest smile you can get, together with Leon UwU Even though his the youngest, his body is bigger than the other princes. Really makes him look more like a bear. Even Yves is just like a doll when compared to Luke 😂 But with an appearance like that one might think Luke is one of the court guards lol

Luke had just become a prince, 2 or 3 months before the MC's arrival. Because he lived in the city, Luke became good friends with the MC because only with him, MC could communicate normally. Or Luke considers MC as his younger sister, even though MC is actually older than him.

Actually Luke isn't officially a prince yet, so before the official ceremony he has to learn court etiquette and adapt to his new life, but Luke doesn't want to do it at all. He's just lazing around, escaped from Sariel and then fell asleep in the garden. He also refuses all social activities even though the faction Luke belongs to is the faction that is required to socialize more. Not completely lazy though, sometimes he does what Chevalier ask like buy books in town, it's just as long as you give him honey. Yes, honey is only his motivation. Then when Mc asks "if you don't want to do all this (not interested in the throne), why are you still here?", Luke's expression darkens.

Maybe he looks like he doesn't care about anything, but he's actually a kind and caring person. Especially toward MC. On the other hand, he's quite mysterious. No one knows, Luke holds a huge grudge against the royal family, so big that taking revenge was the only reason Luke survived until now. This reason really just got discovered on his route. Honestly, I already anticipating what drama might happen on his route, but it still surprises me. Bc on the other route, Luke is really acting normal! I get scared thinking about the possibility that the kindness Luke showed in front of the other princes was just an act Ó╭╮Ò

Sooooo the interesting part of this route, as usual, is how MC can change Luke? For some people, forgiving someone you hate because that person has snatched someone you love is not an easy matter. Moreover, you live only for revenge. I really like the drama in Luke's route bc i can understand his feeling, it feels more realistic. At least, his problem is not a light problem. I'd say Luke's story is more darker, but Idk with Clavis, Sariel or Rio later

For reading Luke's route, you should probably read Jin's route first because their stories are very related. I was just thinking, that Jin and Luke, which has a resemblance from childhood and some things, have a big difference in seeing what has happened to them. If Jin can forgive, then Luke can't. Jin focused to the future, but Luke trapped in past, will do anything to get his revenge. But that's makes Jin is the most suitable person to be close with Luke. He can guide and help him in many ways. Btw Luke's story is the first story which gives clues about new characters and more detailed about 'traitor in court' which is often mentioned in previous routes.

Luke is not recommended to anyone who doesn't like lazy guy. Well sometimes i like this type, but I'm thinking twice about Luke. He's nice guy and his laziness has a reason, but his reluctance in carrying out the duties of a prince is quite annoying to me😅. There's a moment that's make me .... Umm like "wwwhhhyyyy?? Don't do that!". But yeah back to the first, i understand that Luke doesn't want to be a prince, i'm just disappointed a little bit ಠ,_｣ಠ

Honey, is something Luke loves more than anything. Where there is honey, there is Luke! Just imagine, you put honey as a trap, then soon a 'bear' named Luke appears 😂 and Jin often uses that to lure his younger bro. Plus he can cook any honey themed food. Honestly, Luke is very talented and smart, proof that he is indeed the son of the king. He just went a little bit wrong using that ability😅

One proof of his ability is the bear charm that he often carries, bc he made it himself!

Can I get one too, sir? (つ✧ω✧)つ

Bonus! In his route we often meet Jin ... And Clavis! Surely, Clavis has been an important character lately lol. With personality like that he really can't be ignored 😂

Bonus! We already know Luke close with Jin. Is there anyone else close to him? Yes, it's Rio. They're partner in crime commoner buddies, thought I see LukexJin more often than LukexRio. They happen to both like sweet food, both are young, come from the city, quite mysterious especially their fighting skills (has 2 sides which may be surprising) and both really pay attention to MC.

The other princes? Well, he get along well with other prince in Leonist faction. In his own faction, they are not close and very rarely gather in office or be at the same event. Just imagining them getting together is already giving you a weird feeling. 2 prince will bullying teasing you, will the youngest trying to protect and the oldest just silence, lucky if the Cheva doesn't speak sharply to you! (Eh but his silence is already intimidating😅). This faction is very ... Unique ... Ah, I'm just remembered! Have you ever wondered why Luke joined this faction and why Chevalier kept this lazy man in the faction?😉

That's quite long! Next, will be the chaos lover-prince, Clavis!