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congrats on your recovery n all yuuji but unfortunately for you I thought the scars were cool >:/
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#these took so long i kept getting distracted cries#but they r done and this is yuuji's post canon scar map to me. argue with a wall we should have had this#looks at canon this sign won't stop me bc i cant read >:(#smh robbed!!!!!! the potential!!!!! the aesthetic!!!!! th angst the symbolism!!!!!!#gege i respect u i do not want beef after u let my boys live#but u rly couldnt have scuffed him up a LITTLE more.....there were so many to choose from didnt u have a favourite.....#all he has to show fr all that r two little scratches. rly.#((not counting the ear n fingers thank god i get That much))#anyway i made a whole post abt why i think yuuji should have kept the scars n what it would have stood for symbolically#its along th same lines as the yuuji Big Face Scar agenda hh i just care a lot abt character design n visual storytelling ok#anyway fine he can keep the eye but in this house it grew back wrong it's lighter and foggy and now his prescription is stronger#as fr the rest#megumi has dibs on the upper right eye apparently so yuuji can have the bottom half#i would have doubled down on the scars on his left but a. the right side is the symbolic one#b. he healed an entire eye so it makes sense tht he'd heal other more minor injuries as well#c. tbh it's mostly based on what looked good i think this arrangement guides the eye across his face nicely#gave him a lil nose nick bc smth smth sukuna idk it's just there to balance things out#also as i said. the jaw and neck scar are there for kissing purposes i make the rules im salty and i do what i want smile#in other news thank u past hina fr doing those hair render studies im very happy with my yuuji hair as of late
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like theyre like siblings part 2 for me
explaination or smth
#undertale#frisk#flowey#toriel#premaposting#siblings part 2 ksjadjakdnad i just realized how funny that sounds#aksjdakdjkasda#you can tell i kinda burnt out later#it is 12 am#give me slack#i like to think flowey was adverse to the friendship#since yknow#deja vu isnt fun when its associated with a bad memory#but eventually was kinda chillin#oh yeah this point only frisk knows he's asriel thats it#imagine your adopted child pulls up with someone who you dont recognize as their biological son#but no one tells you#i like to think that flowey overtime would kinda care about frisk more#but also be like#100000 ft wall bc this is all feels too familiar for good but more freshly bad reasons i dont like that#im sorry if this explaination barely makes sense#im kinda trynna rush this rn#but uh#click linked post for slightly more clear explaination idkdsnadkjajanska#utpyrt
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destiny & his deity; part two
#the museum#the gallery#im posting this so late so i have no idea if anyone will see this buuutt yeah#tried to make charlie boy look as haunted and tormented as possible#shes basically become a figment of charles imagination so to everyone else he is literally just. talking to a wall#& everyone just accepts it bc yknow. ferrari's haunted!#saint ferrari#cl16#charles leclerc#formula 1#f1 fanart
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pest control.
bonus:
*UPDATE: i made a sequel
#the pizzeria is closed forever bc a clone threw up. just kidding. but seriously whos gonna clean that up#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#fake peppino#gustavo and brick#gustavo and not brick rather but that's probably the tag that people use as catchall so whatever#hey have yuo guys LOOKED at the unused sprite for gustavo's pizza place.... my man has ONE wall to his name#ANYWAY as i have said my goal is to make fp as harmless and cute as i can but also just constantly really disturbing#you ever had your pet throw up in front of you and it just gives you the most guilty and pathetic look in the world#and you just gotta be like. ohhh noooo buddy it's ok ur good...#i think we subconsciously tolerate a lot of weird things like that from pets#things that would be much harder to pass if done by something the approximate shape of a human man. is what im saying.#fake pep isn't a pet but he Is a beast so yknow. also no bricks were harmed in the making of this post i prommy#he probably understands brick's off limits its fine. its fine. noise however....#on god peppino is going to weaponize this guy#pizzaposting#Popular post#also this is Not the next installment of fake pep adventures this is an unrelated aside. just goofin.#off-art
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this stupid ass show's timeline is so fucked up omg
according to the wikia, the year is 132 AC, which is already stupid in and of it itself but whatever, moving on.
I think it was last episode that they say that Daeron is 16, which is fine, okay, but then you remember that according to the timeskips and the wikia, Helaena is 17 and Aemond is 17-16. Jaehaerys & Jaehaera are 4 years old, so Helaena had them at 13, which is just.... yikes. But did Alicent have three children in two years? Why is Aemond's birth so uncertain when all the other major characters have birth years?
Alicent says that Gwayne was 8 and motherless when she and Otto came to court, and yet in episode 1 of the first season, Daemon mentions that Otto's wife died recently and we see Gwayne was old enough to participate in the tourney.... are there two Gwaynes or did the writers forget that they had already introduced his character? Also, him saying that he is the oldest son and should be raised at Oldtown is so stupid, because Otto is the second son and none of his children will inherite the Hightower, not unless his brother's kids all drop dead, which we know doesnt happen in the books (though they could do that in the show, who knows).
the writers make such stupid choices in regards to the timeline. Why did they make Joffrey, Aegon III and Viserys II so young when it is going to create so many problems for the narrative later on? How is Aegon going to flee on dragonback when Stormcloud is the size of a cat? Is someone going to rescue him and leave Viserys behind? One of the reasons Aegon III was so broken is because he was forced to abandon his brother and he never forgave himself. how can that happen in the show when he doesnt even have the ability to properly eat by himself?
and now they made Hugh Saera's son, when he looks like he is the same age as Daemon, and Saera was only 14 when Daemon was born in the books? hell, when he was born she hadnt even had that whole scandal business.... not to mention that they make it see like Hugh was born in Westeros, probably the Crownlands or even King's Landing itself. Are they trying to say that Saera worked at a brothel in the city while her father was king?
#sorry this is a vent post bc this show is pissing me off so much#a song of ice and fire#hotd#house of the dragon#just say u have no respect for the source material instead of calling yourself the keeper of the lore or whatever the hell#and then saying that aegon i was in valyria#or that jaehaerys went to the wall with alysanne#and that cregan's father was the one to receive them when alysanne went there 50 years before cregan was born#they make no effort to have a solid timeline#im getting so many d&d flashbacks yall#anti house of the dragon#anti hotd#yapping 4ever
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hey. hey so. you know the part of Don Quixote (pt. II, ch. LXV) that goes 'They didn't embrace because where there is love, there is no need for excessive gestures.'
#i feel fine about it (<<ive been wailing and clawing at the walls over luis for the last 48 hours)#man i came into this game going hahah yeah i wonder how he'll die in the remake#and now im like. emotionally compromised about him#serennedy#this isnt an art post but im posting it here bc its just. christ. join me in leonluis don quixote hell i guess.#im laying face down in the mud#re4make
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Bradley is eleven, will turn twelve in five months, his mom has been dead for over a year, and his dad for over nine.
His homeroom teacher gives him a permission slip for a school trip to some dumb museum Bradley’s probably already been to and says, “Your dad needs to sign it before next Monday.”
It’s Mav picking him up from school today — it’s Ice, usually, but he is supervising night-time flight maneuvers tonight — so Bradley gets in the car and they go over the normal, how was school today, any new grades, any homework to do, do you need to bring anything for class tomorrow.
They’ve stopped at a light and Bradley takes out the permission slip and says, “Mrs. Sanchez said my dad needs to sign it before Monday or I won’t go.”
Mav—Mav freezes. His hand grips the shift gear and he clenches his jaw, not looking at Bradley. The car behind them has to honk for him to snap out of it.
“I’m—I’m not your dad, Bradley,” he finally says.
“It’s just what Mrs. Sanchez said,” he points out. He doesn’t think it’s such a big deal — Mav’s been doing everything a dad would for years now, for Bradley, and Ice has been helping him the last couple of years. It’s a conclusion that many come to and it seems logical. Bradley is sure half of his teachers thought that even back when his mom was alive, Mav had certainly been to enough PTA meetings with her that it’d be an easy mistake.
“You can correct her, buddy, no one is going to be mad if you correct her, okay?”
They arrive at the house and Mav still hasn’t added anything. Bradley shrugs it off — Mav has these moments, sometimes, when he gets all quiet and unresponsive. Ice usually tells him to leave him alone or wait a couple of hours and try to cuddle with him. Bradley is kind of too big for that now, but it seems to help sometimes.
So Bradley asks if Mav needs help with dinner and after hearing no, goes back to his room.
Out of all that mess, he forgets about the permission slip.
He sits down and fills out all the empty lines so Mav just has to sign it — in capital letters, his handwriting isn’t that readable yet — and leaves just that last line with the date and signature empty.
He thinks, once again, about what Mrs. Sanchez said.
He doesn’t feel the need to correct her, still. He barely remembers his dad — he knows he loved them and he’ll never forget all the stories he heard from everyone but they’re, well, just stories. Mav is the one who taught him how to ride a bike and helped him make stupid macaroni projects for art classes, taught him how to count to a hundred, and how to tie his shoelaces and who would notice when Bradley was outgrowing his clothes or needed a new shoe size. Mav is there, every memory he has. Mav loves him like his mom and dad did.
Mav is his dad.
If Bradley’d really think about it, Ice is getting really close to being his dad, too. He’s making Bradley’s school lunches and helping him with his English homework from time to time, and he comes to Bradley’s matches and, even if Mav will never admit it, he’s the one who choses Bradley’s Christmas and birthday presents. He makes him hot chocolate when he has nightmares and stays with him for hours in the living room, reading plane manuals out loud, in the same tone his mom used to use to read his bedtime stories.
Bradley calling Mav his dad is as logical as people assuming he is his dad. And maybe it can be the same with Ice, in the near future, or maybe even now, if he agrees.
Bradley wants to call Mav dad.
So he grabs the permission slip and goes to the kitchen to tell him that.
“I don’t know, Ice, I just don’t know.”
He doesn’t notice Bradley there, standing with the piece of paper in his hand in the doorway. The phone’s cord is stretched across the kitchen, almost completely straight, as he talks with the handle between his ear and shoulder, slicing an onion at the same time.
“I’ve always wanted to have kids, as unrealistic as it seemed, but not like this,” he continues. “It wasn’t supposed to be like this, I’m not his dad, he’s not my son, it’s just wrong to think that, I’m not—He can’t think that.”
Bradley blinks. Once, twice, a third time. Takes a quiet step back behind the doorframe, flattens his back on the cold wall. Holds his breath.
“I mean, you’ve always said you don’t want kids,” Mav says, the knife clanking on the cutting board as he changes the hand holding the phone. “We made do with the situation, obviously, but we’re not his parents—”
Bradley doesn’t want to hear more.
*
Bradley was right — he’s already been to the Castle Air Museum. More than once, with his mom, with Mav and Ice, and with Uncle Slider and Aunt Sarah.
His dad didn’t sign the permission slip but Mav did.
It’s sunny so they’re left to wander around the outside display. The tour was boring — their tour guide couldn’t even answer the questions about engines and wingspans and takeoff capacity and it was so disappointing to know more than the adult that was supposed to teach them, again.
The rest of his class went with the tour guide, to see the open cockpit of the Mentor but Bradley just turned around to the F-4 that was on the edge of the display, old and partially reconstructed with cheap metal and plastic. He sits down on the grass in front of it and lets the sun shine at the modern paint that should not belong on the fuselage of a Phantom.
Mrs. Sanchez comes over, standing above him, looking at the Phantom with an appreciation that is clearly less understanding and more awe at the sight. She hums before asking Bradley, “You don’t want to see the cockpit with everyone? Maybe they’ll let you sit in the pilot seat, today. Our group is small.”
The open cockpit belongs to T-34, a piston-driven one they stopped using in the fifties. “I flew one of those, but it was a T-34C, powered by a turboprop.”
Mrs. Sanchez looks at him, tilting her head a bit, not really understanding what Bradley said, like most people don’t when he talks about planes. ”I suppose it’s not that impressive of a place when your dad is a naval aviator, is it?”
Mav told him to correct her so he does, “He’s not my dad.”
He brings his knees closer, wishing she’d go away. Instead, she sits down next to him, her white pants smudged green by the grass in seconds.
“Is something wrong at home, Bradley? Is your—Is everything okay with Pete?”
“Yeah,” he says because he doesn't want to be whiney. He’s already been enough trouble. “His dad flew one of those.”
Mrs. Sanchez looks at the plague in front of them to remind herself of the plane’s name. “A Phantom?”
“Yeah, during Vietnam War.”
“He must be really proud of Pete then.”
Bradley supposes he’d be. “He didn’t come back.”
Mav lost his dad, too, and then his mom. He met Bradley’s mom in the foster system and she became like a sister to him. Bradley probably wouldn’t even know Mav if Duke Mitchell was alive.
Bradley was in the foster system for three weeks when his mom died, before Mav and his case worker had filed all the appropriate paperwork. He was placed in a foster family in the neighboring town — the wife, Sandie, didn’t work and would take him to school every morning, and the husband, Robert, was a corporate lawyer, bent from six to five. They would take Bradley to church every Sunday with the rest of the kids even though Sundays were the only days Mav had enough time to drive out of Fresno and visit him while the paperwork was still in progress,
They were nice, he supposes, and some of the kids called them mom and dad, so they couldn’t be too bad.
“Is there a way I could go back to the foster system?”
Mrs. Sanchez looks away from the plane, clears her throat, and asks gently, “Why would you go back there?”
“I dunno, just—Is there a way to put me back there?”
“I don’t think so, no, Bradley, not unless—” she breaks off, taking a deep breath, and says softly, “I’m sure Pete wouldn’t like that.”
Maybe he wouldn’t like that but it’d make everything easier for everyone.
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It’s a few weeks later. Mrs. Sanchez hasn’t mentioned anything to Bradley even if she keeps on looking out for him during recess so he doesn’t think she’ll drill the topic.
Mav and Ice have both gone to the PTA meeting which Bradley finds odd. They’ve always been very careful about their relationship — his mom had given him a talk about how he couldn’t call Ice Mav’s boyfriend when he was six, well, Bradley had called him his husband because he didn’t really know the difference back then, and he had been instructed to keep it a secret.
He’s never mentioned it to anyone, since then, especially not to Mrs. Sanchez. He used to think it was stupid because they were both his parents and they should both be allowed to come to his plays and career days and charity fairs, but now he supposes it was convenient since Ice didn’t want a kid and probably didn’t want to be included in all those parental stuff anyway.
They pick him up from Uncle Slider and Aunt Sarah’s place but they don’t say anything. Usually, they at least mention that Bradley has good grades.
Maybe he’s doing something wrong, again. He got into one fight a couple of weeks ago but Mav said it was alright as long as it didn’t happen again.
“Can you come up to the living room once you unpack?”
Bradley takes his time. He unpacks his English homework, the only one he couldn’t do but also one Uncle Slider couldn’t really help him with — Aunt Sarah probably could but she’s been sleeping the whole time because apparently being six months pregnant is making her super sleepy. Contemplates asking Ice for help with it but decides it’s probably better he doesn’t.
He needs to start doing these things alone. He can’t bother them forever.
In six years, he’s going to be in college, and he holds onto that thought.
“So, your grades are perfect and we’re really proud of how well you’re doing in school, but—But Mrs. Sanchez mentioned a couple of things about your behavior,” Mav says.
Bradley doesn’t sit down with them on the couch even though they left space for him in the middle. He also doesn’t reply anything.
They both look at Bradley for a long moment and he fidgets under their gazes.
“Mrs. Sanchez said you asked her whether we—whether we can give you back for adoption,” Mav begins. “We’re just worried about where that question came from, Bradley, we aren’t going to—”
He said we like Ice actually wants anything to do with Bradley’s guardianship.
“We love you, Bradley, we promised your mom we’d take care of you and—”
He isn’t their son. He’s a promise they’re keeping and nothing else.
“Can I go back to my room?”
“Buddy—” Mav begins again.
Bradley doesn’t want to hear whatever he has to say. He already knows everything he needs to know.
“I know you love me, I know you won’t give me back. It was just a stupid question, is all,” he says because that was the truth — they promised his mom they would love him and here they were, trying very hard to do that.
They don’t need to pretend it’s anything else.
“Okay,” Ice says, carefully. “I’ll make you some hot chocolate and we can talk some more—”
“I just want to go to sleep.”
There’s a moment of silence and they give each other a meaningful look before turning back to Bradley.
Ice notes, “It’s not even seven.”
“We painted the whole nursery with Uncle Slider, I’m just tired. Can I go?”
“You’re not in trouble,” Mav says.
“I know,” Bradley tells him even if he isn’t so sure about it. “Can I go? I still have some homework to do.”
part two/Slider POV now here
#bradley rooster bradshaw#mavdad#icemav#tgm#my fics#this was supposed to be a series but no time and too many wips#so im just posting it as it is#tho be prepared for icemav pov of this and slider pov and future post-mission hangster pov#so maybe part 2 coming?#it'll be angsty too but well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#the ace rooster fic is being written btw bc#the mini fics are in my head and banging on the walls begging to come out#op#charlie writes
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#i would kill for the kiryu wall scroll but im mad as hell they aren't selling one with both him and ichi#yakuza#infinite wealth#like a dragon infinite wealth#rgg8#ichiban kasuga#kazuma kiryu#ada speaks#horrid creatures#im not gonna bother captioning this but. it's from today's livestream#kinda surprised kinda not surprised at all nobody's posting about it but w/e#there was a shitload of other merch too but i just want the 🤙 renders#was very very funny watching people screaming in chat bc yokoyama said the words Kiwami Three#(saying it's not coming next but maybe at some point)
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So like, I watch a lot of documentaries, and one of the ones I've been chewing on recently is this one by bobbybrocoli about the lenna image , tldr there's a crop of a Playboy bunny that was used to train and test a lot of early image processing algorithms. and there's been significant push to retire the image bc a. it's old and not really useful for much of anything anymore, your program working with Lena in 2023 doesn't prove it works, it proves it turns on. and b. It's a crop of a scan of an erotic photo from a Playboy magazine. the documentary goes a into a lot more detail about it's reception and use and interviews a few folk about it's presence in the field and the culture around it.
and i was watching the documentary again while working on that last edit and finally something clicked for me.
I've never been happy with saying the issue with the sexualization of women in comics was an issue because of the sexualization on its own. Sexuality and the expression of it is normal and benign. the lenna image isn't anything special. It's a nice 512px picture of a pretty lady in a fun hat, you probably wouldn't guess it's origins from looking at it.
The problem is that it's not Just one image, and it's not Just a tendency to endulge in a little extra sex appeal in the occasional comic. to use an analogy put forward by one of the programmers interviewed; They're both individual bricks in much larger walls.
The Lenna image wouldn't be an issue if there wasn't massive issues with sex based discrimination in programming.
The sexualization wouldn't be an issue if the women on the page were given the same agency and value in the stories as the men, if the women behind the scenes were paid the same as the men and hired to work the same roles, if comic fan spaces weren't often outright hostile to women and girls just trying to enjoy the same fun as the boys.
the sexualization is just one brick in the wall and it also happens to be the easiest to point at and talk about. It's visual. You can draw literal red lines around it. all the other bricks are much larger culture issues that can't be pinned on single artists. They don't have faces and names you cane be mad at on the internet. Then the more you look the easier it is to see these two bricks, the Lenna image and the sexualization in comics, are part of the same massive wall.
#tbh im making this post bc yall are going to see me use the bricks in a wall metaphor a lot now#i didn't have a like. way to put that Vibe to word before#like i knew the other issues were there. just not how to express this idea of how them being interconnected is context and reason#for the sorta discussions this blog is focussed on#not a fix
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Alright, the kewk classic 'face hole' design it is~ 📊✅
"Ain't he a doll?" 💋💦💕
And now while I fuck with this anatomy sketch 5ever, we gotta decide on a background! I'm thinking Sal would prefer to do his love-sick swooning in the privacy of his bedroom, but where, exactly? 🤔
'The bed'-
Perks: seems more routine, sowft snuggly nest to daydream and swoon in, [darling] collage on the wall, '... okay, what have you been doing with that pillow...?'
Drawbacks: Limited space, have to take stability/sinking into account with props, perspective is Hard and I will make that headboard look good or die trying
'The floor'-
Perks: seems more impulsive, more yan/NEET clutter potential (more room to spread out), a glimpse under his bed (and at all the [darling] stuff he's got shoved under there)
Drawbacks: That carpet is UGLY, I will probably (definitely) bite off more than I can chew trying to fill all that space with props, it hurts my Everything just thinking about lying on the floor like that for too long
'Secret third thing'-
....???? idk you tell me lol
#sally face#sal fisher#love sick sally#tw yandere#tw unsanitary#sorry steve#lime#(just implied a little ((for flavor))#im laughing at the potential of the 'secret third thing'#planking on his dresser? Chillin like a vamp on the ceiling?? Sliding up the wall like a slug???#Periodic reminder: Your only artistic limitation is your own imagination...~🌈♾#i gotta come up with a tag for this redraw so all the posts can be dug up later#i was gonna just make a chain of reblogs with the original post but decided it would get waaaaay too long by the time im done#im so flattered that yall chose the face hole design fr qwq 💖💖💖#I'd have been happy either way but it was a close race for a while and im just pleasantly surprised 🥺💗#side note: ive recently been going down an OG l/oony tunes rabbit hole (bu-dum-tss) so if my doodles start lookin more cartoony thats why#k.e.w.k. x sally#(I'll probably be doing little selfship doodles on this at almost every stage of this redraw bc it sparks joy and i deserve it uwu 💙)
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brother still rewatching atla......... its the second season and ty lee just made tea for azula and passed it to her........... so casual........... so domestic........... and azula just took it completely thoughtlessly........... the implicit trust........... the complete faith........... my tyzula heart😭
#backlogged rambles#<should i make that a tag??#im not gonna do it girl i was just thinking abt it......... (im gonna do it)#atla#tyzula#ive been rly mentally ill abt them as of late idk what to say#tyzula fic in the works rn (will never be posted bc i cant finish a fic to save my life<3)#help the walls of my enclosure are closing in and the toxic lesbians are going rabid in my brain
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when u want to like a character so so bad but theyre a cop so its impossible
#sorry even if theyre hot my first thought will always be 'cop' and it kills all desire#slams head thru wall#vi arcane i want to love u so bad......but i look at u and see COP and its over for me 😐#and her cop gf 😐😔#before anybody gets mad at me im just sad 😔 shes great otherwise like she fits my fave types but this wall is insurmountable#she grew up in the SLUMS and they make her an ENFORCER??? die#she was wrongfully imprisoned for like a decade and they make her an enforcer 😐😐😐😐#after finishing arcane i went to read her lore 😐#felt so Liberal 😐😔 weh weh both sides bad type beat#girl its not too late please dont be a cop and cait pls leave the force PLEASE i cant defend you like this#anybody else trapped in this torture prison abt her or is it just me please tell me im not alone in this#every time i see her on my dash it pains me so much like physically mentally....#its ok at least i have my other vi who fights ex military with her gf to avoid becoming soldiers in a pointless war :) blink blink#it speaks#only posting this bc i need to know who else is suffering over this.............. it cant just be me
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Hello fellow selfshippers, a question for the community:
Would anyone be interested if I took the time to write a resource to help people write better gender neutral, male, and trans+nonbinary readers in general? I know i'm not the only non-fem and non-cis person in the community whose felt frustration over the lack of representation for us in reader insert fanfiction, and the disappointment when finding some, but it's clearly written without any research into how to portray those different perspectives from yourself. I've honestly reached such a stage of frustration because, even having f/os from massive fandoms, I've still been scrolling through mountains of f!reader fics with either zero or just a handful of m!readers that it's made me retreat heavily from the community as a whole because I just don't feel included or cared about. Does anyone think that this would actually help the community as a whole? Are there any authors who do want to make this kind of content, but are too scared because they don't know how to write from this perspective? I want to gauge interest before I attempt investing the time in it or if it'll just be something that ends up lost to the ether. I'd appreciate rbs to get some more eyes on this <3
#I feel like it goes without saying but i don't think theres a problem with only writing f!readers and im not trying to shame anyone into#writing something they dont want to. i just want to try and make the community a little more equal in regards to this stuff bc it sucks so#bad to be a part of a community but not actually get to participate in it without literally getting misgendered lol#this post is inspired by me going into the thranduil/reader tag on ao3 to see 400~ fics and only 60~ were tagged as m/m. and then i went#through them all and literally only two were actually m/m fics with the rest either being mistagged or just a broad tag on a compilation fi#literally i wanted to hit my head against the wall i was so angry :sob:#anyway tags or whatever#self shipping#self inserts#x reader#imagines#f/o community#fictional other#lgbt selfship#trans selfship#jamie talks#i need to change my personal tags lel
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biggest most petty pet peeve is ghostface being depicted as like Just Some Guy. like jus some rando sexyman w no actual face behind the mask just vibes. “imagine being ghostface’s subby kitten uwu” mf WHO?? WHICH ONE??? its a PERSONA not an exclusively male entity of its own!!! u could be talking abt like (13) diff people and (4) of those are chicks!!!
#im excluding greg and anyone from the scream tv show bc irdgaf abt allat#except eh piper was kinda cool lowkey. anyways tho. theres also MORE if u count them tho 😭#im also not counting sam getting in costume to kill wayne bc then id have to count sidney in 96 and as much as they both served down…nah 😭#and yall know what#i do not care for the dee🐝dee ‘ghostface’ at all#in fact he is at the scene of the crime w at least half of these kinds of posts so! 💀#but hell id even prefer if it was directly abt HIM as gf and not just the generic caricature#like if ur gonna horn out over his mori anim w the camera. might as well commit n jus specify u mean Danforth Jolsen or wtv the hell#his name is#it just irks me down so badddd yall i cant#like okay in theory whatever floats ur boat but#this is not me having a ‘moral’ objection to it. i just find it really mf annoying so im gonna complain 😭#like ghostface is a persona a costume all THAT. there is not like#a singular dude first name ghost last name face committing all these murders#if ur not gonna be lore accurate abt getting freaky deaky w gf pls keep it off my feed 😭#what the 2 year long hyperfixation does to a mf (saying stuff like the prev tag)#idc tho im right#argue w the wall or generic gf zaddy dom w washboard abs number 47#dont argue w me!#ceci speaks
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hi more drug question
I have been told many many times that using ecstasy will basically fry your seratonin receptors so that you will never be able to feel happy again unless you are using the drug. I am assuming now that this is false but I am curious now as to how false. Is it something that CAN happen if you take too much at once or too often, or is this just random Drug Scary misinformation
Also also since wellbutrin is not an SSRI does LSD work when you are on it or does it also cancel it out
lol that's kind of an extreme version of what I usually hear! you're right that basically the answer here is no. this comes from a couple different things. first is MDMA induced serotonin toxicity, and 2nd is something called "serotonin syndrome" which is a real thing that can happen, but it's really really hard to get like this. prepare for a very long answer lmfaooo
MDMA induced serotonin toxicity occurs when you take too high doses too frequently. MDMA IS slightly neurotoxic, but so are many prescription drugs so don't let that word freak you out too much! basically MDMA works by dumping large amounts of serotonin into your brain, hence why it's the happy/love drug lol. if you take too much too often, your brain will straight up run out of serotonin. obviously that's bad! it's not as simple as "never feeling happy again" but you will essentially have depression for a bit because of lack of serotonin (on its own, low serotonin levels following modest MDMA use is not damaging and resolves within a few days) but the real problem is that if you are on MDMA with depleted serotonin, your brain will continue releasing dopamine which will attach to the serotonin receptors and damage them. this is what can cause long term depression symptoms, the damaged serotonin receptors. ultimately your brain will heal this on its own unless for some reason I guess you keep taking it a lot (which would have no effect. when you take too much MDMA your brain just runs out of serotonin to dump so like. it just won't work lol)?? it can also be treated with the supplement NAC, which I would recommend taking any time you use MDMA because of this!
to sum up MDMA toxicity: it can happen but only if you're misusing it! it's generally recommended that you dont do much more than 1 dose every 3 months or so to make sure your brain has time to reset. research interactions with anything else you're using (prescription or not), take some NAC in the weeks following a dose, drink a lot of water, keep your body temperature regular because that can worsen it, and take some antioxidants like alpha lipoic acid and grape seed oil during/immediately after taking MDMA - it's when you come down that your brain is delicate and could use the protection. also this may sound counterintuitive but weed also has antioxidant properties, so smoking it as you come down helps a lot. also if you DO have MDMA toxicity taking more MDMA will not help u feel happy unfortunately it will just make it worse lol, your brain only has so much serotonin to give
now serotonin syndrome can happen with the misuse of any drug that works on serotonin including MAOIs, SSRIs, and SNRIs, usually by taking a VERY large dose (but some people are just extremely sensitive). it usually takes care of itself eventually, but the amount of time it takes and stuff is kinda hard to pin down bc it's REALLY misunderstood and tends to be overly self diagnosed. again this is like super super hard to do. you would have to take a MASSIVE dose or mix it with other serotonin affecting drugs (ESPECIALLY MAOIs. DO NOT MIX MDMA WITH MAOI ANTI DEPRESSANTS). like 5 times the normal dose at least probably (partner is currently trying to find some literature on it so he'll add that in the replies if he finds anything interesting). it will cause things like heightened anxiety and body temperature and can cause kidney problems or seizures if it's like really bad and untreated. but you'd feel REALLY bad before it got to that point, so in general like, if you take any type of drug and feel extremely bad after go to the doctor lol. mostly this will also just heal itself; your brain is pretty resilient! again usually if this does happen it's very minor. cases bad enough to require hospitalization are exceedingly rare
to give you an example of what these can look like, I have a friend who was given about 3-4 times a regular dose by a fucking piece of shit asshole she knows and, this part is crucial, it was mixed with a very large amount of alcohol AND acid (which can slightly increase the neurotoxicity. normally not a huge issue but becomes one in circumstances like this), AND coke; like she was blackout drunk and while not on a lot of acid or coke, this is just too many things to have in your body and brain at one time. the mixture of such a large amount different drugs caused her what I'm guessing was a mild case of both of these things at once. she experienced slightly worsened depression for about 6 months after, and actually had a mild stutter for almost a year. I made sure she took some NAC and other things that aid brain healing, and she didn't try molly again for a long time to be super sure she didn't overload her brain before it was ready. this is a pretty extreme case, and even with that she has fully recovered thankfully. do NOT EVER do drugs with someone you don't trust with your life. DO NOT EVER do drugs in doses you have not confirmed for yourself to be safe and DO NOT EVER mix drugs without finding out if it's safe!!! just as a small aside though: usually taking molly and acid at the same time is perfectly safe. in fact it's called a candy flip and I HIGHLY recommend it because it's fucking awesome. again, just make sure you are taking safe doses in a safe environment
OKAY now finally your specific question about Wellbutrin: I actually take Wellbutrin so I can answer this one from personal experience! Wellbutrin should not alter the effects of LSD in any way HOWEVER! both of these drugs lower your seizure threshold! I'm on the max dose of Wellbutrin (which is the max dose BECAUSE of seizure risk) so when I plan to drop acid I usually either skip my dose entirely that day or only take half depending on how much acid I'm planning to take. because of the way Wellbutrin works, this shouldn't cause you any problems as far as that goes. for me, not taking my Wellbutrin for a day mainly has the effect of making me more fatigued, and acid counteracts that really well by making me feel very awake/aware. if you don't want to skip or halve your dose though you can also take things that will RAISE your seizure threshold. so like I sometimes will smoke hemp because CBD actually will help with that. the risk here isn't huge either way especially if you have no history of seizures, but again if it's something you're concerned about you should be just fine skipping or lowering your dose for the day. acid usually lasts about 12 hours too so i personally don't even care about skipping the Wellbutrin that much because it basically does the same thing for me. I did take my full Wellbutrin dose the last couple times I've done acid though because I was taking a very small amount of acid (about half a tab)
in summation lol sort of TLDR I generally would recommend MDMA for recreational use because the risks of damage are low and it's safe if you are safe about it. and it's honestly just a really fun one! the only negative effect I've ever felt is some emotional and physical fatigue the following day, and this is largely because of how emotional and energetic you are on it. I just make sure to have the next day off to lay around and listen to music :)
taking it with a partner or loved one will give you an especially beautiful experience, as MDMA has been proven to facilitate extremely open emotional conversations. in fact, when MDMA was first synthesized it's primary use was in psychotherapy! research was shut down during the war on drugs, but in recent studies it's demonstrated amazing abilities to treat and even straight up CURE disorders like PTSD. for a personal anecdote, my partner actually completely fucking cured his alcoholism on a combo of MDMA and whippets (nitrous oxide) lmfao. like dude straight up went from getting black out drunk multiple nights a week to drinking nothing for the past year and a half without any other treatment program. LSD has been proven to have similar incredible results with treating and curing things like depression, anxiety, PTSD and addiction and is also a very fun and very safe one.
sorry to reiterate for the billionth time lol but it's important: these drugs are safe and fun if you make sure they're safe and fun! do your research and never use in an unfamiliar environment with people you wouldn't trust in an emergency! also I know this sounds like a lot, but remember I'm giving you like the absolute safest possible practices and emphasizing sort of over cautiousness because I think it's always better to be too safe. I've taken molly without nac and I've taken kinda big doses a little closer together than I should have without any problems. there's a bit of flexibility to these guidelines, but it's always better to think of them as being rigid so you don't end up too far in the other direction. like I've said it's really really hard to do actual damage that would last more than like a day or 2 max. most of the time you'll just be sleepy the next day from all the dancing so it's nice to do it on a day 1 of a weekend. also it only lasts like a couple of hours lol so it's not your whole day or anything!
#sorry this took me like a fucking hour i kept having to check myself w my partner + google to make sure i wasnt talking out of my ass lmfao#im sure ill be rereading and editing it for the next hour as well#damn just spent like another half hour#hope this is thorough enough for ya ajdbsjhdkshdkshs#on a tangentially related note: ive been weaning myself off of my SNRI (venlafaxine/effexor) bc it didnt help at all#and made my nails extremely brittle ????? like so bad they were constantly breaking to the quick and making me bleed#so pretty soon ill be able to do acid and molly again. sweet blessed molly how ive missed you#cant believe i forgot to mention this but as another personal mdma anecdote: my partner and i started dating while candy flipping#hed been staying at my house for like 4 months at that point but we hadnt really talked about like. relationship definitions#and I was EXTREMELY nervous bc id never even like kissed someone fr before him#but the acid and ESPECIALLY the molly made talking about our feelings with each other really easy and safe feeling#we do it every once in a while as like a poor mans couples therapy lmfao. its much easier to be open and honest and vulnerable#while crucially taking down the defensive wall that can cause you to lash out and stuff#highly recommend 👍#wtiting a book called the couple that rolls together stays together. its about doing molly but also skateboarding#drug ed#i cant stop adding to this post im sorry
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Stan McKellen (22)
(character intro 2 of 4 for the (Un)Official Guide Series!)
he/him, 5’4
Alias(es): [deadname], Stanford
Powers?: Has the ability to absorb and redirect energy to move and manipulate physical objects, much like the colloquially known ‘telekinesis’.
>> Power Level: 4
(More info under the cut)
>> Social Designation: Blue– Test Subject | Black– Currently incarcerated for power-related crimes. Learn more here.
>> Stan's bloodline is the only known case in which powers are passed down genetically, instead of seemingly randomly as with the rest of the human species. This makes him very intriguing to interested parties.
Background: Doesn’t seem to have any official public records. It's as if he didnt exist. Thankfully, we know better! Stan lived a more or less normal childhood with his two parents and sister, Chloe McKellen, up until his early teens, when he and his parents were captured to be experimented on by Supramed Research Corp., seemingly for their unique powers. The sister was somehow saved from capture and covertly placed with her grandparents, while the parents haven’t been heard from since their initial capture. In captivity, Stan gained a myriad of mental and physical disabilities, including PTSD and extreme knee and hip joint weakness. He managed to escape and reunited with his sister and grandparents, but an incident with the police ended with six SWAT casualties and Stan escaping and taking his sister to live on the run. He now has no other known living relatives. He and his sister have since been living a semi-normal life in hiding with Stan's fiancé, Marcus Silva, up until his most recent recapture. It seems that this time he is of a much higher priority, and he might not be so lucky as to escape.
Extra Note(s):
Transgender female-to-male. All files have been updated to reflect this.
Uses a magical heirloom cane to both enhance his powers and aid mobility.
Try not to engage. It’s not his fault, but he attracts trouble wherever he goes.
His story!: The (Un)Official Guide to Hero-Keeping, a self-help guide for super-villains and bounty hunters
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#did i forget to keep posting these for like a two months?#nuh uh#never forgotten anything in my entire life#im excited for this one bc LORE#also im pisting this literally on a plane so im RUSHING#hopefully i didnt make any glaring mistakes#STAN STAN HES OUR MAN#i love this drawing of him#he looks so angry#i wanna throw him into a brick wall i wanna do unspeakable things to him#and i do!#and i will!#continually :)#(un)official guide#whumpee#heroes and villains#character intro#oc intro#hope y'all like the Stan face reveal#and hipefully it makez you wanna put him through the horrors just as much as me :)
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