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synnamon-hearts · 2 days ago

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Hii I’m back again to ask if you could please write headcannons of how UD characters would react waking up & you telling them you had a dream of them having sex & feeling needy bc of it ?? (Assuming they’re together) 🙂‍↔️

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Ooooo, okay! 👀

NSFW down below!

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Josh ~ Ohhhhh God, Josh would be the biggest tease. It would also boost his ego by like 1000%. He has that much of an effect on you that you had an actual sex dream about him? Man, what a flex! And it was so good that you want him right now? He would chuckle at this, already sitting up and preparing to recreate the scene. He's really dedicated to recreating settings since he dreams of being a film producer.

"Awww, needy because you dreamed of me fucking you silly? Look at you, already soaked through your little panties. Lay back beautiful and let me do all the work. I got you."

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Chris ~ The way this mf would blush omfg it would make his whole year! He actually made a girl have a sex dream so intense she's ready to go as soon as she wakes up? No fucking way. Making a girl dream about you is wild enough, let alone this! He would be jumping at the opportunity to fulfill your desires as soon as you tell him what the dream was about.

"Wait, wait, wait... You had a dream... About me? Wow... Wow... This is unbelievable. Lay back. Let me do this for you. I need to."

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Mike ~ Ahhh Mike, Mike, Mike, Mike... Mike... Lmao he would be SO cocky. Even more than Josh, actually. Before you can even finish telling him about your dream, he's on top of you, already kissing your neck. He thinks he doesn't have to hear anymore, since he already knows every single thing that makes you tick.

"Shh, shh, shh. Let me take care of you, baby. You like that, yeah? Yeah? Let your big strong man make you feel good. You want that, huh? Just let me do the work, baby."

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Matt ~ Matt would be the biggest sweetheart over it, chuckling fondly and planting a soft kiss to your forehead. He would listen intently, a dopey and tired smile on his face as he watches you rant away about every detail that happened in the dream. And then he would ask what specifically you would like him to do for you to make you feel as good as you felt when you were sleeping.

"Awe that's so sweet, babe. I'm even on your mind while you're dreaming, hm? Want me to do anything for you? Don't worry about it being late and me having football practice tomorrow. You come first. What do you need me to do for you?"

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Sam ~ Sam would honestly be flattered that you had a dream about her. She would hold you, rub your back, and caress your hair as you tell her about your dream. Aw, you're so sweet and worked up right now for her. How did she get so lucky. Of course, she would want to help you in any way she can.

"Aww, sweetie. You don't have to ask me twice, okay? I'm here for you. Just lay back and relax, okay? I'll make you feel better."

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Ashley ~ Y-You had a sex dream??? About her??? Wow, this is something Ashley has written about in her fanfics, but never even dreamed of it happening to her. She would be blushing wildly as you talked her through what danced in your mind as you slumbered, before bashfully asking if you want to recreate the moment in real life.

"Oh... Oh wow... I've only read about this stuff before but I didn't think it could be possible. Not for me. Would you... Would you want to do this... In real life... Like... Right now? No pressure, of course!"

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Jess ~ Jess would be shocked. Like she plays it off cocky but she didn't think this would happen. She isn't all that confident in the effect she has on you, despite what she says. So to hear this boosts her ego a little bit. She wouldn't admit it to you, but it almost made her want to cry.

"You... You what? I-I mean, hell yeah! I bet I'm on that mind every night, huh? How about you just lay back and let me rock your world. I'll give you something to put you right back to sleep, baby."

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Emily ~ I'm gonna be blunt, Emily would be pissed that you woke her up. How fucking dare you disturb her beauty sleep?! But to hear that it was because you were needy for her eases her frustration just by a small amount. Still, that's not gonna stop her from taking her anger out on you just a little bit in a way you crave for.

"What the fuc— Are you fucking serious? I need my fucking sle— Oh... Oh... Okay, fine. Just this once. Now lay still while I get the cuffs..."

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year ago

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why has working two days in a row started to do that to me again? i got out of work almost four hours ago but i cant move

#idk maybe my immune system is still weak after recovering from that nearly-two-week-cold #the first couple weeks of the school year were going well #i dont have anything scheduled tomorrow which is good bc it seems like i didnt have a choice #bc i could not go in tomorrow even if i wanted to #tales from diana #i wanted to eat after i got home but once i started lying down i just couldnt do it #i found myself doing that thing today where as i was rushing around the school i ws like 'idk how im doin this everything hurts im so tired #i suppose there's just a perseverance despite all the signals and the knowledge that i cant RLY do that #so there's like a mental fortitude to withstand a temporary pain which necessitates an even worse delayed recovery #this isn't just me working two days in a row but working two days for the first time in two weeks #since i didnt work while i was sick #'sick' as in i had that cold (and i tested three times & all were covid negative dw)#i thought i was starting to get better from the health problems i was experiencing in the spring but pls dont tell me god its still as bad #i feel like im either gonna die or become debilitated for the rest of my life bc medical professionals refuse to take me seriously #ok you know what. im gonna stop now so i dont cry byyyye

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science-lings · 7 months ago

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I just realized that the scales of justice in TGAA look like a bow with an arrow nocked to point at where the jury was leaning and the most unique part of Ryunosukes character design is his archery arm guard. My other theory about that was mostly that it was symbolic that Karuma didn't belong to him, to point out specifically that he is not a swordsman but he carries a sword anyway since they're on the same side. It's not the weapon he was trained to use but it's the one he has anyway and that could be a parallel to his entire law career tbh.

for some reason, Ryunosuke's arm guard as an important part of his design despite not having any plot or personal relevance bothered me a little. It's the one thing that he keeps throughout costume changes that he has for both of the games and in his official art but it's not like being an archer is an important part of his identity. There's always so much thought put into AA character designs that it really stuck out to me, but honestly, maybe it's not that deep, and he just likes archery as a hobby even though he probably didn't bring a bow to england and still wears it every day anyway like there has to be something with that

#i want it to mean something so bad #Ryunosuke's design is so odd bc it is just a school uniform and the only thing that makes him recognizable is that arm guard and Karuma #like im not going crazy thinking that it's important at least that it could be #maybe it's secretly a wrist brace bc he has fragile bones or smth idk #character design is so fascinating to me and also frustrating bc WHY #anyway it is past midnight idk if this is even coherent #if you're reading these tags I'll reward you by revealing that I have a tgaa art piece that I'm posting tomorrow if that interests anyone #ryunosuke naruhodo #the great ace attorney #tgaa

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skunkes · 4 months ago

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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

#talkys #my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading #to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want #to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing #never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it #nothing seems very worth it #im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true #well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's #moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai #delete later #even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions #my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years #and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came #im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that #<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave #and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever #and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l

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loopdile · 6 months ago

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The worst ship chart ever.

Ship name: Loopdile

[insert very tiny math] Ages: 43 and 31? Age difference: 8?

Portrait of Odile with an eyebrow raised saying "I'm not telling." Name: Odile. Gender: trans woman (maybe nb but idrc rn). Sexuality: Aro lesbian.

Portrait of Loop with a finger raised saying "I'm not telling~" Name: Loop. Gender: Nonbinary (??? what is identity). Sexuality: Ace bi

General sliders. "Relationship starts quickly vs the slowest burn you can possibly imagine" is marked fairly close to slowly and trails off towards slow burn. "They'll be together forever vs They'll break up after 2 months tops" has two marks, one at 2 months and one really close to forever. "Cute couple vs dear god they're ugly" is marked a quarter slider away from cute. "Reasonably healthy and normal relationship vs They're dying and getting killed and hurt man" has a wide mark all the way from the halfway point to a quarter away from healthy. "Extremely popular ship vs literally no one ships this but me" is marked fairly close to no one.

Specific sliders. "Giddy and happy to be in love vs they just killed themselves 40 times in their head at the idea of being in love" has loop at died and odile fairly close to died. "The madoka vs the homura" has loop at homura and odile a third of the slider away. "Telling anyone who will listen about their partner vs rarely brings up that they're in a relationship" has loop a quarter away from telling anyone and odile fairly close to rarely. "eats and/or encourages a healthy diet vs eats dry instant noodles only" has loop at noodles and odile a third away from healthy. "crazy ass vs truck freak" has loop at crazy ass and odile fairly close to truck freak.

Tell me why your ship is interesting... go!

What draws them together? Odile is the only motherfucker that can handle them; Loop is weird and intriguing.

What stands in the way? Poor communication skills; Loop is clingy but Odile often needs space; Loop lashes out and self-isolates.

What are their good traits? They're both hilarious and dedicated to the bit; they're both devoted to their loved ones.

What makes them hopeless at romance? Odile is aro-spec and uninterested in romance; Loop both hates/fears and craves romance; Luckily they can just be something stranger!

Describe them with one trope: found family, deadpan x emotional, secret third thing, I'll protect you from yourself.

#suicide mention #these are today's headcanons... tomorrow? who knows.....#so. the weird sliders.#siffrin had a low grade crush on odile which. obviously didn't instantly come to fruition but it's not exactly a slow burn situation eithe?#and then during sasasap and isat loop's emotions about everything ever were. not doing great #they come out of canon a total mess #and odile's like ...i could fix them. NO WAIT IM NOT DOING THAT.#so again the thought is there and. a little more slowburn y this time. but only for a specific part of the dynamic #and then there's kinda a slow build of loop's new dynamics w everyone in the group?#and the thing with odile escalates into being a Thing #but again it's hard to call it slow burn bc there's no like. line to tip over into dating.#but it's not *instant* either #it's a snowball gaining speed downhill #ok next weird slider #oh yeah #they 'break up' fairly often as one of loop's 'this is 100% a joke and not my real feelings at all' bits #even though they're not dating and they don't actually want to break off whatever shit they do have going on #it's a way to express a need for change #BUT the whole family is in it for the long haul #and loop and odile's dynamic may shift over time but again. there's no 'breaking up' line #so they won't necessarily be [together?] forever but they will be together forever #and then it's. not an *unhealthy* relationship but it's not normal either lol #with a whole range of behaviors between 'genuinely helpful to each other' and 'lmao what the fuck guys'#ok those r the weird ones! the rest are obvious right. like ofc odile is closer to truck freak 🙄 but not entirely #loopdile originals

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scattered-winter · 27 days ago

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made the mistake of reading through the political discussions on my big family groupchat that I usually keep muted. you must never do such a thing.

#like i knew that a lot of them are conservatives or republicans or whatever but man. even the ones who lean left are still well. mormon.#ive been really back and forth on whether or not i should come out to them but tbh. i have started to lean more toward Not.#when i came out as a nonbinary lesbian they all collectively smiled and nodded and then swept it under the rug never to be seen again #and i let them do it bc i was too afraid to try and stand up for myself. and i was conditioned not to also.#but me being trans is a lot harder to ignore. both bc im fucking tired of being treated like a rug and bc i hope to get a legal name change #and surgery and all that good shit.#but i really dont know how to go about doing all that without having to come out Somehow.#i guess i could always just. cut contact or something. but idk im reluctant to do that bc i still rely on my dad for money/insurance/etc #i dunno.#i wouldnt want to cut off my siblings but i dont know if i want to come out to them either.#idk.#im just fucking scared man. like i knew that for the most part my familys politics suck donkey nuts #but it was just really insane reading thru the chat bc even the ones who i had always thought were Safer are. well. not.#theres only 2 people in my family i fully trust and would actually love to come out to and one of them is my gay uncle (<3)#and the other is my aunt who is the ONLY. other person in my ENTIRE extended family. who has left the church.#i barely see her too bc for obvious reasons she dont hang around much. lmao #but idk. im rambling and melancholic its 1130 pm #my problem here is that there are members of my family i do want to come out to #but thatll very quickly lead to Everyone knowing. and i know im not ready for that.#hrhrggh.#maybe ill come out to my brother next time we talk. as a sort of test run.#im already a lot braver than i used to be and hopefully maybe someday ill be brave enough to come out #and then immediately fuck off into the sunset with my friends <3 #sigh.#if im still wanting to come out to my brother by tomorrow when im of sound mind then i think i will.#we'll see how i feel after i sleep. lmao.#winter speaks #personal #we're entering Introspective Hours here at scattered winter dot com

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guinevereslancelot · 2 months ago

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starting to kind of date someone right before christmas is so stressful fr. do i get him a gift or what we've been on two dates but i'm seeing him tonight n it's christmas eve.....but what if he didn't get me anything then it will be weird.....

#i planned to try to find something small enough that i could easily carry around concealed then take it out if he got something for me #but the thing i got ened up being a bit too big for that lol #im gonna bring a big bag of gifts for all my friends maybe and then it won't be weird idk #by some miracle my mom showed me a bag of emergency gifts for the girlies and i was like cool im taking all of them tonight 😂#which was not what she intended lol #but im gonna do it #if i had time i would have gotten him something different but its good enough #he mentioned a book he hadn't read last night so would have been cool the got him that but its too late its a music hat now #if he even got me anything idk #but he specifically told me he was last minute christmas shopping so idk #i am over analyzing this for sure tho #anyway most unrealistic part of christmas romance movies is they're not anxious wondering whether to gift or not to gift #also im lowkey scared abt new years 😳#not that i wouldn't like to kiss him probably but i already have a hard time looking at him without blushing 😂#so that would make it 10000x worse lmao #also idk if i want to kiss him JUST bc its new years instead of waiting for the right moment to just happen? idk i dont wanna rush things #its not for sure we'll be together at midnight on new years idk what his plans are #but we'll see #anyway things are going well but moving faster than expected 😅#also not 100% sure i'm seeing him tonight and def not tomorrow so that might take the gift pressure off but idk #waiting to hear back abt tonight #😐😐😐#also idk why we waited until we were both on break from work to do stuff bc honestly every time we've met it's been after work hours anyway #however it allows us to stay up later than on work nights which is nice #he didn't leave my house until after 11 last night lol #anyway trying hard not to get swept up in all this while its new but fr im like oh this is what it's supposed to feel like 🥺#never been in love before every relationship i've had was awk and forced was starting to think maybe im just not capable of love #but literally cuddling on the couch watching it's a wonderful life last night i was like hm i'm definitely capable of love actually #not saying im actually there yet but it would be soooo easy to fall for this guy which is p scary actually #esp bc im not sure it would work for other reasons

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deus-ex-mona · 5 months ago

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i miss her…

#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all #but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up #a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less #and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads #anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time #he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often #my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know #i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona #i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye #oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man

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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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daltonsnightmare · 10 days ago

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MacGyver (2016) s3e15 K9 + Smugglers + New Recruit | Cold Open

#macgyver #macgyver 2016 #video #angus macgyver #desiree nguyen #desi #mac #cold opens #3x15 #queue #EDIT: meant to queue this for tomorrow but I guess today it is. have a bonus cold open for today #ok I was so prepared to dislike her by default just bc I was so disappointed at jack being essentially replaced but #god this scene is so fun to me. I really. REALLY loved her right off the bat #cocky badass beautiful woman breaks into his home and berates him for 2 minutes straight? what's not to love #also they remembered the lake como scar. which is cool #esp because they didnt in the casino heist ep but whos counting #certainly not me #EDIT: stop reading the tags here if you want to avoid me ranting about the writers choices lmfao #if only they didn't go down the needless romance route. things could have been so fun *clenching my fists and crying* we couldve had it all #the romance wasnt EVEN WELL WRITTEN. dysfunctional ass relationship if ive ever seen one. which I have #sorry sorry. and no hate to those that ship macdesi obviously but. how they characterized her in the following seasons made me seethe #THEY DID HER SO DIRTY AND ILL NEVER FORGIVE THE WRITERS FOR IT. actually I don't think there's a single character in seasons 4-5 they didn'#just absolutely butcher at least once. it is so abysmal #OK SORRY HAD TO GET THAT OFF MY CHEST sorry folks. we're back to fun happy goodtimes now #3x15 K9 + Smugglers + New Recruit

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alxclaremont · 7 months ago

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had an absolute shit day at work, got off of work, remembered lando and oscar’s beef, almost started crying, went on twitter, saw that they ate mcdonalds and played monopoly on the plane back to monaco, almost started crying again, no longer feel like shit thank you and goodnight

#no bc my day at work was lowkey terribleeeee 😍😍😍😍#had TWO people call and yell at me and the first one was literally so bad that my bosses and everyone else that works there was APPALLED #when they read the transcript of the call and said it was one of the worst calls they’ve ever seen #i’ve worked here for literally five days and three of those werent even me actually working and answering calls #so anyway that was cute but they all said i handled the situation well so there’s THAT #which. realized how much i actually cannot handle praise because i still feel a bit weird about that #anyway #got off work and then had literally twenty minutes to myself where i actually could be alone with my thoughts #and OBVIOUSLY ended up thinking of landoscar like any normal person would #and then got incredibly sad and felt a pit of despair in my chest #and then went on twitter and saw the article saying that they’re fine #so like. i no longer feel like actually blowing my brains out #at least until i think about landos radios and then i want to die again but what can you do #anyway. i have to be up at 8:30am so i will very much be going to sleep soon because i am Tired #and i really hope i don’t uave to deal with that entire situation again at work tomorrow because there’s a chance i will lol #lacey talks

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shewhoeatssand · 9 days ago

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stressing out about Mental shit that isn’t even happening Monday

#i’m trying to sleep what is going on #I wake up at 7 it’s 12:38 I can’t be doing this I’m sensitive to low sleep #I wish I could be someone with having around but I’m not and I won’t ever be #I’m just always a guest everyone is hosting against their will #I shouldn’t even be here but I can’t leave because I know this whole thing is illogical and I’m loved but I shouldn’t be #I know I’ll be over this by tomorrow and I don’t know why it’s happening #this is why Kaneki would not want me #one of many reasons #I’m so sorry he has to be associated with me sometimes I’m glad he doesn’t know #Kaneki deserves so so much better and I can’t give him anything without it being tainted with Me #I just want to love him but he’d hate it he’d be so disgusted and me being upset would only make it worse #and it’s the only thing I’m good for #I want to give him everything but he wouldn’t even want it am I falling into the same hole as last year again #I just started but I get paralysed with a weird feeling in my chest and have more motivation to work for him than before #but then the paralysis happens when I’m trying to be productive !!#I want to do well this year so bad bc it actually counts now but I already feel strange #I just want to be normal and have Kaneki but I can’t have both so I have neither

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gnaga37 · 15 days ago

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how am i supposed to be a friend when i know i'm boring

#i don't want to be friends only bc of what i can do but i don't know any other way #man #that's sad as shit #i just don't think ''being friends bc of who you are'' is a thing that can happen to me #like to be completely honest. who the fuck would want to talk to me when i'm just boring #''oh i made this :3'' ok yea whatever man that's what you always do #they say crying helps sometimes. sure hope it's true i'm balling my eyes #wish i could just disconnect from everything. maybe it's bc i want to hurt myself but i don't want to talk to anyone #i don't want to talk to my (i guess) friends with all of this hanging over me #how can i talk to them when it feels like i'm yet again the one people don't Choose to talk to. i'm never the one getting chosen #i'm just the guy that happens to be there when noone else is around. no going out of their way to talk to me bc why would they #my head hurt my heart aches i feel like trash and i'm tired #stuck in the ducking circle of hate. can't even go to sleep bc i'm not tired yet #i'm getting too old for this #can't even trust people that want to talk to me after i post this bc what if they did only bc they saw this. wouldn't be genuine once again #@the human feeling of searching for connection: middle finger emoji #back to the viddy game grind to take my mind off this i guess #i'll be fine by tomorrow dw. i've been dealing with this since i was 6 years old. decades of experience 💪

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Sometimes I get the urge to be like "Well, they can't live forever" when it comes to shitty situations with shitty people. But then I remember that A: shitty person dying might not be the result that someone wants, and B: it actually can take quite a while for people to die, in many cases

Idk I'm just so used to death being right around the corner that I'm like "Well maybe he'll die soon and that'll fix it" but he probably won't die that soon and it also might not fix it. Or be wanted.

Idk it's such a specific mentality that I have now. People can die with such short notice that you Never Know! The solution to all your problems may be short at hand. You never know.

#speculation nation #honestly i think the Year Of Death knocked a bit of a screw loose in me.#zero trust in anyone's longetivity. Any person around me could die with no warning at all. death comes in many forms.#including me! i could also die like that!#so people will ask things like 'do you think youll live until youre 70' and im like. i dont know!#i'll try to! but i could die next week. or today. or tomorrow. or in 50 years. it's all a giant game of gacha.#or perhaps russian roulette. but with a biiiiiiig barrel.#every day god cocks it back and pulls the trigger and Click! not my day to die today!#someday he'll pull that trigger and my metaphorical brains will blow. and yknow what i'll be dead so it wont even matter.#quite fortuitous that i already wasnt scared of death before getting such severe mortality awareness.#im gonna try to live as long as i can bc there are lots of things i still want to do. but when it's my time?#i'll be dead anyways. wont be able to care then.#theres a very specific kind of feeling that comes from dealing with sudden losses so consistently.#of receiving a call from someone who doesnt normally call you out of the blue and going 'oh boy someone else is dead now huh'#of answering it. having that hunch confirmed. and you just gotta go 'Okay. thanks for telling me.'#anyways i think theres something wrong with me but at least im still functioning fine. so it could be worse!#negative/#kinda lol. did get a bit into vent territory here.

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mars-ipan · 3 months ago

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kinda funny when ur brain’s gut instinct is repression so you just kinda watch while your stress and emotions get bottled and corked and the whole time ur just like “that is going to bite me in the ass so bad later but i can’t seem to open the damn bottles without getting glass everywhere so! guess we’ll wait”

#marzi speaks #marzivents #<- not super but this is more negative than i like to be #sorry folks i’ve been mental illness posting a lot #maybe i should get checked for seasonal affective disorder. or maybe this is a trauma response? i DID nearly die this year #i dunno. the trauma stuff in particular is tricky bc if i try to unpack it before i’m ready i could basically just retraumatize myself #but if i wait too long then it’ll do some damage that way too. so i gotta time it right #what i really gotta do is actually contact one of these psychologists i got referred #i think i wanna go for a psychologist instead of a therapist bc i’d like the opportunity for medication/diagnosis if possible #i keep like. almost crying but every time it happens i’m like ‘YESSS CATHARSIS’ and then it goes away. fuckass brain #sighhh. i’m tired. i’m tired of resting too #but tomorrow is a holiday celebrated by eating good food with your family #so i’m gonna try to just enjoy myself and enjoy the day #and it’ll be nice #i’ll probably help cook which i always like doing #i got to chop chocolate tonight. it was really fun i like working with knives #didn’t even get any intrusive thoughts. just focused on making chocolate chunks #it’s satisfying to feel like you’ve made something. chopping things makes me feel like i’ve made something #i want to make more things. i’m really tired all the time lately (different from blood loss tired (i’m relieved i can tell the difference))#and being tired makes it harder to make things #but i’m at my happiest when i’m creating in some way. if you believe in purposes i’d say that was mine #i need to make things i need to put myself out into the world. that way i can look and say i existed. i did something tangible #sigh okay i’m gonna . stop here before this turns into mars shares all of her thoughtfeelings on public website tumblr.com #i know i literally liveblogged my colonoscopy prep to you all (thx again ppl who supported me then btw that was an awful night)#buuuuut i still wanna leave some parts of me a little mysterious. (<- is an open book)

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evanwevand · 3 months ago

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I'm so fucking close to dropout school

#this year started like shit #i failed most tests and I'm probably gonna fail most subjects this term #and the grades i get NOW apparatus are important for an access exam for in two years #and access grade on biology is like 11 #i want to kms #i have a physics exam tomorrow and a maths one the Wednesday and I can't understand shit #also i couldn't go any single day last week bc i got sick #it's not even like I don't want to study anymore #i just need a year long rest or something #i don't have time or motivation for anything #like I want to draw but I suddenly remember I have school stuff to do but I get distracted very easily and I neither draw or study #maybe this isn't for me #but i also don't want to be an entire year without doing anything #god i wish i could be like my classmates and be good at studying #but I NEVER studied before #i always retained information well without studying #and here i am now possibly with ADHD #I'm gonna tell all of this to my psychologist tomorrow but idk what to do #i don't think my parents will allow me to dropout #i technically can since I'm no longer on obligatory education #i can't do anything #not art #not scp #vent

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