#bc being unconscious benefitted my survival

[the-bren-system]

WOAH I got posted to some shitty ableist subreddit again HOW SURPRISING.

And they have so little to go on that they're accusing me of being a fake alter just bc I'm narcoleptic, because "it's a physical thing we'd all have it" - acting as if there aren't also psychological symptoms that can cause sleep difficulties. HOW SURPRISING.

These people will do one google search and think they have a medical degree its legit so funny...............

- JuKo

[scekrex]

Hey absolutely love your stuff (obviously since I keep requesting lol) anyways could I request Adam who somehow survived after getting beaten up by Lucifer and stabbed who even knows how many times by Niffty gets found by the reader who while an overlord isn't that powerful is super rich (I also picture them being like a mix of Alastor and Vox where like Alastor still holds a lot of more old timey views but also tries to adapt with the changing views like Vox) and decides to take him back to his mansion to try and help him survive (wants to make a few bucks later using him) after a bit the two share an oh fuck moment when they realized they have caught feelings. I hope you have a wonderful day/night!

Overlord reader?? Uh fuck yeah!! I fucking love this ask so much xoxo/p

Bird of Hell's Paradise

Chains on my lips just add flames to the fire

pairing: Adam x male!reader

warnings: language & sexual tension

note: not beta read bc fuck you I don't have beta readers

The battlefield was a mess through and through and while the devil and his daughter had built up the hotel again, a new, more inviting looking building was now located on the lonely hill in the pride ring, you still felt Adam's presence. The residents of the hazbin hotel must've already forgotten about him and therefore didn't notice you at all, too caught up in their doing.

The first man was badly injured and while you normally wouldn't care for such things, especially because it was an exorcist angel, this case was special. Because not only was the brunette laying in front of your feet the first man god had ever created, no, he was also the leader of said exorcists. You could only imagine how many sinners and Hellborn people would pay a good amount of money to harm him, even if it was just the slightest injury possible. So you bowed down and scooped the passed out man in your arms. If these sinners and even Lucifer didn't care for him, you would put him to good use. For your own benefit that was, but no one had to know about that yet. So you carried the first man across the entire pride ring of hell until you reached your home. The brunette man in your arms was still unconscious and given the blood he had lost and the hits he had taken that was pretty normal.

Once inside your mansion, you headed to the hospital wing, walking through the building with slow, heavy steps that echoed through the empty hallways. The hospital wing was close to the entrance, a decision you had made after stumbling through the doors with a fatal wound that had been exposing your guts. It was quicker to reach in an emergency and while those rarely occurred, you didn't like the risk. You put the first man down onto one of the beds, your claw sliced smoothly through the fabric of his once holy robe to get it out of the way. You needed to take care of the stab wounds the nifty little demon girl had caused. The stabs were deep but nothing you couldn't fix. You gave Adam one last glance before you stepped over to the medicine cabinet and for a quick moment you asked yourself why Lilith and Eve had left Adam, he wasn't bad looking at all, quite the opposite. And Lucifer had mentioned that Adam had ‘kinda let himself go’ which meant back when the two women were married to him, he must have looked even better. You quickly shook your head, what in the devil's name were you even thinking?

With wound cleaning supplies and a healing potion you stepped back to Adam's bed, the first human ever seemed to be slowly waking up. He braced his palms against the mattress, tried to lift himself up but you were quick to push him back down, the more he moved while his wounds were still ripped open the more blood he lost. And while Adam would be able to recover either way, the more blood stayed inside of his body, the better. At least that's what you thought. “Stay,” you hummed as you cleaned the blood from his skin. It was unusual to clean off golden blood instead of the red mess you were so used to. But you didn't mind, didn't care even.

Adam flinched away from your touch, tried to lift himself up yet again. Your hand took a hold of his throat and held him down by it, “I said stay, stupid angel.” Adam's eyes seemed to clear up a little, the fog that had covered his golden eyes, had made them seem yellow, lifted and the brunette stared at you, clearly not knowing what to feel. You saw anger in his eyes, rage and hatred but at the same time there was fear. Fear and pain.

Once the blood was no longer staining his perfect skin, you took the potion you had grabbed, popped the cork and held the smooth, cold glass against his bottom lip, “Open up,” you demanded, yet your voice stayed gentle. Adam hesitated and you really couldn't blame him. “It will cause your wounds to heal,” you explained to the former leader of the exorcists and he seemed to consider his opinions for a moment. Then he actually parted his lips and let you spill the disgusting liquid onto his tongue. His face scrunched up at the bitter taste and he kept the liquid in his mouth. “Swallow it, Adam.” Adam looked up at you, once again seemingly considering alternatives he had. Given the fact that he did as you told him, there hadn't been many.

Adam checked his chest as the wounds that had caused enough pain to make him pass out healed quickly. The only hint left that they ever even existed were golden scars that seemed to be permanent from now on, but the first man couldn't complain, could he? He was still alive and on top of that there was no more pain. The first man frowned at you, mistrust was lingering heavy in his eyes as golden orbs followed your every move. Yet he remained silent, not a single word was falling from his lips.

Your hand that had been holding him down by his throat let go of him and Adam was sitting up right in his bed in an instant. His hands traced over the new found scars, you watched him in silence. There was something about him, about his vibe that was different. It wasn't the fact that he was an angel, no, even though that made his vibe different too, but it was something soft, something afraid to break. You cleared your throat loudly and Adam's eyes were on you within a heartbeat, while mistrust still lingered heavy in them, curiosity was close behind and you couldn't help but catch yourself that you were curious about him too.

-

Adam always bragged about being the first man, like that was his biggest accomplishment and if you looked at it from a different viewpoint it wasn't even his accomplishment but God’s, Adam didn't create himself after all. Yet it was the only thing worth mentioning whenever he didn't want to do something, “I’m the fucking man, not your fucking housewife, I'm not gonna fucking clean that.” You sighed as you took a step towards Adam and he flinched, trying to back up but his back hit the kitchen counter sooner than expected. Your hands grabbed a hold of his waist and you effortlessly lifted him up to sit on said counter, Adam was taken aback by that.

It had been a couple of weeks since you had found and saved him and the mistrust that had been filling his eyes from the first second on had never truly left them. He would always leash out on you only to back down as soon as you reacted in some way that seemed too unpredictable for him. “When will you learn to think before you speak?” Your voice held a certain amount of softness, it always did when you were speaking to Adam. The guy wasn't a threat to you, not in his current situation. And you were trying to use that to your advantage. Because he was scared, basically a deer in the headlights, why not put that fear to use? You nudged his knees apart to stand between his legs, still taller than him you hovered over the first man with a mix between a sly grin and a soft smile. “When you start to suck my fucking dick,” you chuckled as his choice of words, very aware that he simply wanted you to fuck off and leave him be, you acted oblivious to that. One hand was placed on the counter to steady yourself, right next to his thigh, the other grabbed his chin to tilt his head upwards, forcing the brunette to look you in the eyes.

“Right now? Right here?” your voice sounded so delicious, Adam wanted to eat it up, in fact, he wanted to devour you entirely, feast on every piece you had to offer and only stop once he swallowed it all. In Christ's holy name, what was he thinking? Your lips were so close to his, so so close, all he would need to do was - he leaned into your touch, why he wasn't sure, it was as if his body was following a call sent to him by nature itself. And then his lips met yours and a low groan spilled from his throat as his hands grabbed your shoulder firmly, he was afraid you'd pull back, that you'd leave him like Lilith and Eve had and he didn't even know why. Why was he afraid of losing you, a sinner, a man he barely knew? He couldn't wrap his mind around it. And yet he kissed you like his life was depending on it.

The hand that had been braced against the counter was now on his thigh, squeezing the soft flesh playfully and drawing a delicious sound from Adam's lips. Oh you could drown in the noises the first man made, the little huffs and puffs, his groans that he tried to keep as quiet as possible, the whimpers he would later deny. Adam was the most beautiful creature that had ever set a foot into hell and you mentally punched yourself in the face for wanting to use him to make money. There was no way you'd use such a divine, holy and glorious man for that, no. Adam was yours, your little secret and you'd keep it, keep him.

When you two partened a sting of saliva connected your lips and both of your eyes were hazy, he looked blissed out and it was then that you decided you wanted to see him like that more often - as often as possible. You were to lean in yet again, wanting more, needing more. But your phone rang. “Pick it up, bet it's something fucking important, they don't fucking call overlords for shits and giggles, do they?” You knew Adam was right and you hated it. You pushed your body away from the first man's and you saw how he wanted to reach out, wanted to keep you close but didn't say a thing about it. You grabbed your phone off the dining table and answered the call, “The fuck do you want, Vox?” It was the first time Adam had heard you speaking so vulgarly, you usually seemed to be collected, considering your words wisely, but that? In the name of God, that was truly something else. And it was ridiculously hot. “No I fucking can't, ask someone else,” and with that you hung up, tossed your phone carelessly back onto the table and found your place between his legs yet again. “Where were we?” you hummed through hooded eyes. And it was only then that the two of you seemed to realize what exactly you had just done, what you were about to do again.

Both of your eyes widened and the next thing you felt were Adam's hands on your body, not just your shoulder this time but also your waist, your chest, your thighs, your back. It seemed as if he was claiming you with his hands and the worst part of it? You truly didn't mind, you even enjoyed his touch on you, leaned into it and closed your eyes to fully focus on his hands roaming over your body.

Fuck, you had fallen deep for this man, way deeper than you ever thought you'd fall. But Adam had followed you, had fallen with you.

“You were about to suck me off,” Adam mumbled, his voice already sounded fucked out and you hadn't even started yet.

[msookyspooky]

A Deep Analysis on Who the Killer/killers Could Be

This is my own personal opinion, so nobody go feral on me plz 😭 quotes in bold. I just wanna give some possible insight.

Neil Prescott - 10/10. Neil is my #1 guess, especially after that one meme. It makes PERFECT sense. He wouldn't know the full story since he was locked in a closet in Set Up. He would be the most likely to believe Gale's book since he never knew us personally. He might feel inclined to believe Gale about us being involved since she was right about Cotton too 🤷‍♀️ since he doesn't know the full story, he's going to look at the wrong places for answers. The only way he'd know more of the story is if Sid survived with him.

He ofc would want revenge on Billy and Stu for quite literally taking away the last thing he had. “Leave me…I have no one left now.” He shut his eyes and held her as you tried protesting but Randy dragged you out.

A man who has nothing left to live for except possible revenge? Sounds like a Billy 2.0 in the making 😅 He'd be furious at Gale for the book portraying his daughter poorly and for the movies making money on his daughters death/fake death. If Sid were to survive with him, she could tell him the lies Billy and Stu feed her about us being involved back in Set Up. If she's actually dead, he could go off of everything else - the rumors, gales book, the movies. The rage would just keep piling up until he finally got tired of the grief and went after us.

Another point - the police made it clear in Set Up that Neils body WASN'T FOUND. “I’m going to give it to you straight, kid. We have two teen girls dead at this party, three wounded, one was a deputy on my police force. Three bodies not found-”

Two of those bodies were Billy and Stu, the two dead teen girls are Tatum and Sid, and they NEVER mentioned Neil being found 👀 unless it was a typo, I'm positive it's him.

Sidney Prescott - 6/10. If Sid survived, she'd go into hiding to prevent Billy and Stu from coming for her. The police failed to protect Sid, so her hiding is more likely. Her motive would be revenge for Billy and Stu killing her mom, almost killing her dad and her, killing Tatum. She'd want revenge on us for taking the bullet for Billy and letting them escape Windsor. In our defense, the Windsor situation was a lose- lose one. B and S would have escaped the cops, and they would come back to take us with them 🤷‍♀️ we have a right to live. We could have signed Ray and Dewey's death certificates too by telling the cops. Anyways, Sid may have believed we were involved cause of the movies and gales book too. She would remember Billy and Stu taunting her on us being involved.

However, the reason it's a 6/10 for me is bc the police said they found her body 🤷‍♀️ you can't fake Sid's dead body. The only way she could have survived is if Neil took her to the hospital if she resurrected. Even then, how would they have escaped the hospital undetected? Billy and Stu did it, but idk if Neil and Sid could have. The police never specified how they found her body either. Neil would have had to carry it outside if he survived. There's no way he would have left her body to burn, its HIS DAUGHTER. Maybe he carried her body outside, she came back like Mickey 2.0, and he took her to the hospital and somehow slipped out 🤣 that's the most plausible theory, but it goes completely against the polices statement.

Another thing is that we HELPED SID. Yes, we chose Billy over her, but we helped her take them down. We clearly wanted them caught even if Sid admitted after Billy went unconscious that she still didn't trust us. IF she survived.... Maybe Sid gave us the benefit of the doubt since after she said 'I still don't trust you' she hugged us 😭

Dewey - 0/10. THERES NO WAY 🤣🤣 THIS MANS GOT A BUM LEG. I'd like to see him come after us with that trash aim and a HOBBLE 🤣 I love Dewey, but even with a partner, I feel like the partner would kill him cause he's a liability. The only motive would be Tatum, but this is DEWEY. He's always been genuine and he's too genuine to become a monster. It just wouldn't be realistic. If he found out we were lying, he'd be devastated, but if we explained why I feel like he would understand. We lied to the cops bc we really didn't have much of a choice. It was still selfish, but you can't blame us for mainly wanting to survive and keep everyone else safe. Stu forced himself into our life and we were too scared to call the cops bc we knew if he got away, he'd come after us.

If anything, the most Dewey would do is tell the cops that we lied. He wouldn't try to kill us. Why? Bc he's a normal guy and we remind him of Tatum 💔 he said it in ch 17 of Set Up. He loves us like a sister.

Randy Meeks - 3/10. NOT MY BABY 😭 I could never imagine him killing someone. He blamed us for Sid and it's understandable. We protected a killer who clearly wasn't gonna magically change and Sid died for it. She didn't deserve to die obv and to know we protected BILLY of all people REALLY hurt him. However, this is Ray, the nerd scared of Billy. Even if he found out the truth, I feel like he'd be livid, but not enough to hurt us. He had romantic feelings for us and he GENUINLY cared about us in Set up and sequels. He was horrified at what Stu and Billy did and he even called them sick freaks and whatnot and I feel like he'd refuse to be on their level.

Ray's always been that cool nerd and I just feel like he could never be a killer cause he's normal like Dewey. His motive would be for Sid, but Ray forgave us for the Sid situation in sequels. He's not angry anymore and he even FELL for us despite what we did 🥺 u could argue the Derek situation could make him a killer, but Ray doesn't strike me as petty like that. Sid can try to manipulate him, but I don't think it would work. Ray jumps to conclusions, but even in sequels he gave us the benefit of the doubt during the hickey situation. He realized at Windsor we couldn't be involved bc he knows us and he knows we're a terrible liar as well. Ray even admitted on the love shack that even when he used to blame us for Sid, he NEVER thought we were a traitor.

…You think I’m a traitor, don’t you? That I was helping them…I mean, I think I read the new Stab movie is portraying me as the whore that fucked them both behind my friends back.“ You released a bitter laugh. "God, I’m going to need to go into hiding if that’s the case."

He hesitated before shaking his head. "No. No, I don’t. I never did and never will.”

I'm done 🤣🤣 hope u enjoy my essay.

Yall ever make me mad enough I'll make both Ghostfaces Dewey and Randy and leave it ☠️☠️☠️

But srsly you brought up great points! Anything can happen and anyone within reason can be Ghostface. People fake their death's and cops don't do their jobs in these things so anyone (Except Tatum...I love her but that sexy bitch is dead. Like...She dead.)

We still have Gale, Jennifer, Roman, Angela, Mark, etc

[mbti-notes]

I’m not a native speaker, so my writing may be sloppy, for which I appologize in advance. I’m INFP and I think I have co-dependency issues. My gran tries to impose her will on me: what to eat, what to wear, what to say to other people. One day we fought about some insignificant stuff, how I shouldn’t eat this meal (it wasn’t unhealthy, really) and instead eat something another, bc I’m recovering after treatment from a physical illness. I contradicted her. [1/5]

[con’t: She started saying how she constantly makes sacrifices for me. I really don’t understand this tbh, so I said why would she do something like that when I’m not asking her for it. “You’re a horrible person,” was her reply. She guilt tripped me; said that when I was 4 I had been threatening to leave her and ruined a photo of her. Then she asked me how I felt about living with my mother as a result. Well, I was very abused there and gran was the one to get me out, and I’ll be forever thankful to her for that. But her mentioning it like that made me sick to my stomach, and at the same time I did feel guilty and apologized to her. I said I want to make my own choices esp if it concerns my body, but gran said that I’m not making the right choice, so she has to control me. I wanted to tell her that, right or wrong, doesn’t matter, it is MY choice, but I realized that she just can’t understand, I don’t know how to explain it to her. I constantly hope that it’ll get better, I want to make it all better, bc I understand that she’s just concerned abt me. Oftetimes I dream of some other fictitious life, and feel disabled and very tired and old. Even if I could leave I’m afraid to take a leap for fear of not being able to survive if something like that (meaning experience w/ my mother) will happen again to me. I feel rooted here, like gran is my base or something and if I leave her I’ll be betraying her and myself. I’ll appreciate any helpful insight from you. Peace & Love]

It seems that when you make choices, you always decide based on the short-term emotional relief without understanding the facts of the long-term costs to your well-being. This indicates an extreme imbalance between Fi and Te, which eventually leads to Si loop stagnation. You have a choice to make between Ne and Si in every moment. Ne means visualizing the bigger picture of your life and doing what it takes to develop yourself; it requires you to be open to new experiences and to grasp good opportunities for making progress over time. You are unconsciously afraid of Ne development, so you always choose the emotional safety of the known (Si), thus locking yourself into small comfort zones and then wondering why you feel stuck. Remember that Ne and Te can never be silenced no matter how you try to ignore them. 

If you genuinely want to live your life authentically (Fi), in the way that deep down you know you should live your life, you must choose Ne. As long as you keep choosing immediate emotional safety and the “comfort” of your gran’s control, the pattern of conflict and frustration will repeat indefinitely (Si loop), the pattern of self-harm continues on and the desire to lash out gradually grows (Te grip). Every decision that you make brings benefits and COSTS. The power of choice is always yours, and growing up means learning how to choose more wisely by properly taking into account the long-term costs. You can’t have it both ways: being codependent means you can’t be fully independent, are you willing to bear the pain of that cost for the rest of your life? 

[non-sequitura]

Welcome to another episode of blogging Psych info

The Survival Game 

Aggression 

-"What is the simplest way to solve the problem of scarce resources? Take what you want and kick the stuffing out of anyone who tries to stop you." = best life advice 

 -Aggression = behavior meant to harm. Most animals do to achieve goals. -Negative emotions -> aggression 

-uhhhh ooof psych textbook saying that almost all aggressive crimes done by men. Socialization + testosterone? 

-Testosterone -> make people less likely to recognize threatening facial expressions 

-Social vs. physical aggression Cooperation 

-Behavior leading to mutual benefit 

-This textbook is on crack omg "Cooperation is one of our species’ greatest achievements—right up there with language, fire, and dental floss" 

-Can be risky (just look @ game theory, prisoner's dilemma, or someone who takes advantage of others) 

-Mitigated via in-groups (can lead to prejudice) 

-Flaws of groups: indecisive, value confident delivery/status over expertise, less likely to share important information that only one member knows, tend to polarization of opinions (surprise surprise, discussion RARELY actually leads to more open-mindedness), groupthink (consensus&harmony > decision-making) 

-Deindividualization (doing bad things bc of lack of individual responsibility) and bystander effect 

-Groups can lead to less anxiety, depression, loneliness, and disease (wow - more mental health = physical health evidence) 

 Altruism 

-Common debate 

- is altruism natural or a choice? 

-More cooperation -> chance of survival bc of reciprocal altruism 

-Humans do random acts of kindness (unique among animals afawk) -Some have even risked life for strangers Lmao this next chapter is called The Mating Game Selectivity 

-"With the exception of a few well-known celebrities, most people don’t mate randomly." WTF TEXTBOOK 

-On avg women more picky abt partners 

-"Would you go out with me?" = 50% M&F "Would you sleep with me?" = 75%M 0%F

-I'm just gonna quote this whole thing "if a man makes a 'mating error' and selects a woman who does not produce healthy offspring or who won’t do her part to raise them, he’s lost nothing but a few minutes (OMG TEXTBOOK OUT HERE ROASTING MEN) and a teaspoon of bodily fluid. But women produce a small number of eggs in their lifetimes, conception eliminates their ability to conceive for at least 9 months, and pregnancy produces physical changes that increase their nutritional requirements and put them at risk of illness and death. So if a woman makes a mating error, she has lost an egg, borne the costs of pregnancy, risked her life in childbirth, and missed at least 9 months of other reproductive opportunities." 

-Social costs of promiscuity 

-Generally, women can afford to be choosier 

-Men just as selective when stakes are high (e.g. choosing a long-term partner) Attraction 

-Situational (ppl make efforts to like people more if they have to spend time around them) 

-Proximity (exposure effect) (explains why mirror-flipped images look weird to us) 

-Primary initial attractor = appearance (height/weight, or just weight for women). Those deemed attractive -> higher salaries -universal beauty standards: symmetry, triangle(M)/hourglass (F) shape, younger (F)/older(M). Does vary a lot by culture, though. 

-Longer relationship lasts, less appearance matters 

-universal personality standards: wit, ambition, loyalty, trustworthiness, kindness 

-societal similarity attracts societal similarity (bc validation, being liked, ease of relationship) 

 Relationships 

-Long-term relationship culture bc of length of raising kids 

-Passionate vs. companionate love (historically neither important)

-Relationships last so long as perception of benefits vs. costs remain favorable (dep. on alt. available partners & investment) 

-"would you like to sit w/ me" instead of "may I sit with you" (sounds weird, but apparently more likely to yield a 'yes') 

Controlling Others (3 main susceptibilities to social influence) Hedonistic Motive -Seeking pleasure, avoiding pain 

-Too harsh can backfire (also, rewards need to be consistent, or behavior might decrease later) 

 Approval Motive 

-Being liked (and not dying) 

-Social norms include norm of reciprocity (benefit someone who benefits you), conformity (doing what others do), obedience (doing what important people say) 

Accuracy Motive 

-Attitudes+beliefs being correct 

-Informational Influence (imitation of others' behavior), persuasion (systematic = appeals to reason, heuristic = appeals to habit/emotion), consistency (whether new info matches with old knowledge) 

-Consistency alleviates cognitive dissonance 

-"We are motivated to be consistent, but inevitably there are times when we just can’t—for example, when we tell a friend that her new hairstyle is 'daring' when it actually resembles a wet skunk after an unfortunate encounter with a snow blower." This textbook cannot stop roasting people omg.

-Larger rewards = less cognitive dissonance 

-Why the "most students don't drink heavily" campaign is more popular these days 

Understanding Others Stereotyping 

-Inferences from categories -

OK THIS IS GENUINELY FUNNY "Once we have identified a novel stimulus as a member of a category (“That’s a textbook”), we can then use our knowledge of the category to make educated guesses about the properties of the novel stimulus (“It’s probably expensive”) and act accordingly (“I think I’ll download it illegally”). What we do with textbooks we also do with people. No, not the illegal downloading part. The educated guessing part." RIP my plans to illegally download people

-Often inaccurate (L) bc of selection bias, overused (average /= all), & self-perpetuating (listing own race at top of test made some minorities perform worse on the test) 

-Perceptual confirmation (tendency to see according to expectations) 

-Largely unconscious & automatic, but can be slightly trained away. Most effective techniques involve visualization of things that defy the expectations, rather than "try to be less prejudiced." Attribution 

-Judging entire characters based on individual actions (lack of context) -Situational (due to situation), dispositional (due to personality) 

-Correspondence bias = much more likely to attribute dispositional vs. situational attributions 

-Actor-observer effect (situational for self, dispositional for others). Reversed by seeing videos from others' perspectives.

-10/19/20