#bc I know a good bit but just don’t have practice listening and speaking

[neatfrog]

love when people in my life think of me whenever they need language interpreting/translating and are like “hey do you speak [x] language?” and 90% of the time I do not know that particular language but I’m still very flattered they considered me

[pupkashi]

satoru loves yapping [to you]

satoru was always chatty, shoko could definitely attest to that statement, subjected to too many conversations she definitely did not care about.

“isn’t it hotter than usual? i swear last year it was colder around this time of year-” he began, continuing to talk as shoko tried to focus instead on healing an injured itadori in front of her.

it seemed that his chatty characteristic only amplified when you were around, his eyes would visibly brighten, practically gleaming when you appeared in his eyesight.

“sweetheart! how are you? staying cold in this heat?” you can help but smile at him, walking straight into his already outstretched arms and squeezing his waist a bit, pressing a soft peck to his cheek before pulling away.

“heat? it feels so good out today!” you sigh happily, waving yellow to shoko and itadori, “it is hotter than last year though I’ll tell you that,” satoru grins at your words, turning to shoko with a flint in his eyes before turning back to you.

“that’s what I said! global warming is getting too severe-” the two of you walking out hand in hand, the taller man still talking as you listened intently.

satoru never felt the need to be quiet around you, always finding things to talk about no matter the task or the hour.

“and so you would think that since they were doing so bad they would think of making changes right?” you nod along, humming so he knows you’re listening, “but no! they keep going with same stupid strategy and it’s so frustrating as a fan to see, i just want him to achieve his dreams,” he sighs sadly.

“can you pass the salt?” you ask, taking it from his much larger hand, thanking him before speaking up again, “why does he keep resigning if they always treat him so poorly?” you ask, satoru smiles, heart warming at the fact that you really do pay attention to him.

“he’s always wanted to win with Ferrari- let me take you back to the beginning” he begins, giving you a summary of charles leclerc’s life as you finish cooking dinner.

you could always tell when he got a bit insecure of how talkative he was, but you’d always smile at him, urging him to go on. “and then what? why’d you stop talking?” you’d say, making him smile widely before quietly starting again.

“I’m listening, angel boy,” you mumble in between dreams, listening to him talk about how orange juice isn’t the same as it was when he was growing up and how the new game he downloaded was more complicated than it seems.

it could be nearing 2 in the morning but you wouldn’t mind, satoru would be discussing how and why wombats have cube shaped poops and how koalas eat eucalyptus and pandas have half a brain cell they don’t bother to use.

“it has no real nutritional value and that’s why they have to eat so much of it,” he mumbles, eyes drooping as he cuddles closer to you.

“aren’t they made to digest meat?” you whisper, head tucked into the crook of his neck, your breath running a chill down his spine.

“think so, dunno” he mumbles back, breathing evening out before he’s fully asleep.

your eyes open slowly as you crane your neck, his pink lips slightly parted as he takes soft breaths, snowy hair pointing every which way.

you can’t help but smile at your lover.

“goodnight pretty boy” you whisper, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek, “my little yapper,” you chuckle to yourself, already looking forward to what he’d talk about tomorrow.

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a/n: hi friends ! just a quick little something i put together bc i miss satoru so bad lately </3 he’s def a yapper and i want to hear him talk all day and night

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[thatoneevanfan]

Poly!Marauders x reader part 2

plot: The Marauders have tried to apologize and explain but Y/n was a bit distracted by some other people🫣

warnings: hurt/comfort(fr this time bc i lied last time and didn’t give you guys comfort) a bit ooc barty/regulus/evan (they’re kind of nice but not too nice)

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It had been about four days since the… situation. The marauders had been trying to get a hold of you for days, especially Remus. You really did not want it to be the end of your relationship with them but you also weren’t sure if you could continue on like this. You had been a wreck for the first two days but the situation actually you gave you the possibility to hang out with your other friends again. Ever since you were sorted into hufflepuff, there were some unkind people. You truly disliked them. Much to your surprise, you weren’t the only one that thought that way.

Regulus was the first to help you out. He had been getting into many arguments with those people and when he saw you, a helpless hufflepuff, he just had to help. The other two boys quickly jumped on the “helping the helpless hufflepuff” train. It was truly an unusual friendship, at least that’s what your boyfriends said.

Many people have told you or the marauders that they thought it was weird that they let you be friends with the “evil” trio. But many people actually didn’t know that you were friends with them for far longer than you have been with the Marauders. You always knew to appreciate the trio. However you barely found the time to hang out with them anymore. Most of your time was spent with the Marauders.

You were quite happy that they were the first to see you after the situation. So there you were, sitting on Evan’s bed, explaining the whole situation.

“They did what?!” Barty practically yells. “I mean I always told you that they weren’t good enough for you.” Evan shrugs. “How could my brother do something like that??” He exclaims with an expression close to disgust.

“Okay but who was the girl?” Evan asks curiously. “Okay so I need you three, to be as calm and collected about what i’m about to say.” You say. “Come on you know we’re always calm” They all laugh. “It was…Lilly.” You hesitate to say her name but practically whisper it. “It was WHO? No but like that’s so disrespectful, James used to have a HUGE crush on her.” Regulus yells out. You nod while biting my lip to stop myself from crying.

“Okay but like why did they do it?” Barty asks. “Because of the bet-“ You explain but get interrupted. “No no we get that but… why agree to the bet in the first place?” Evan continues. “That’s what im trying to figure out. I want to know who started the bet in the first place.” You explain. You ponder for a minute in silence and then speak up again. “Maybe I should go ask them.” “Are you insane? You’re not speaking to them! I’ll go ask them.” Regulus speaks up. You try to convince them to let you go ask but they end up winning anyway.

So here You were. Standing behind a corner to listen to their conversation. “Why can’t she ask herself?” Sirius spits the words at his brother. “Because *we* decided that it’s better if I ask. She’s too vulnerable right now. Thanks to you guys of course.” “Well there was that bet-“ Remus starts. “I get that but why agree?” He asks while rolling his eyes. “Lilly bet us 50 galleons we couldn’t ignore her for two days. We wanted to prove her wrong.” James shrugs. “I really wish you guys would have good excuses but you guys really aren’t helping your case.” Regulus sighs. You sigh sadly and leave, no longer wanting to listen to the conversation.

However waiting a few more seconds probably would have been a good idea.

“…and we wanted to use the money to by her a present. She has been talking about this hoodie from her favorite brand for ages. It costs exactly 50 galleons.” Remus smiles proudly. “See now that’s a good excuse!” Regulus smiles at them. “don’t tell her tho! we want to surprise her.” they agreed.

You had asked regulus what their answer was. He didn’t know that you were listening behind a corner. “They’re going to make it up to you I promise.” He reassures you. You were frustrated, considering you were now also feeling lied to by Regulus. You thought you were going insane so you took matters into your own hands.

You stomped up to the marauders and sighed aggressively. “What the fuck is your problem? I thought we were serious but I guess not. Your attention is worth 50 galleons or what?” I yell at them angrily, already feeling angry tears tear up in my eyes.

You look at the three boys and feel yourself get even angrier at the fact that they were smiling. “What you think this is funny? I should’ve believed Evan and Barty when they told me all you guys did was joke around. They told me you weren’t serious and I didn’t believe them.” You basically scream now. “Well i’m telling you one thing, i’m no longer taking part in whatever this is!” You yell.

“Please stop screaming Y/n. You need to hear us out.” Remus starts talking. “We wanted to use the 50 galleons to do something nice for you. We didn’t think about the consequences because we didn’t tell you about the bet beforehand. We just didn’t want to spoil the surprise.” He continues. James happily pulls out a present. You were feeling calmer now but still felt the adrenaline flowing through your veins.

You open the present and see the Hoodie. You were still a bit on edge but you could barely stay mad at them. “Okay fine… This is definitely a way to turn the bet around. But if you ever pull anything like this again I will hit you all!” You threaten. “Knew you couldn’t stay mad at us. James starts. “Oh no don’t think i’ve forgotten about you all ignoring me and hanging out with lily instead. I get you ignored me because of the bet and the gift but hanging out with Lily? Still mad about that.” You exclaim with a huff.

“…youre not breaking up with us tho?” Sirius asks.

“No. No, I am not. But you all better be on your best behaviors for the next year or so.”

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My longest one shot yet I think. Send me your requests! (please I am begging you)

[jemmo]

i hear the sunspot has brought me to tears once again. that ep was beautiful, and after talking about how i was excited to see how taichi handled dealing with this situation, im so happy with what we got from him this episode.

what i love about how they developed taichi this ep is that nothing was sudden. taichi takes the whole ep to process everything and basically gets back to the place where he was before, friendship with kohei, which on the face of it doesn’t look like progress at all, but if kohei’s reaction to that expression of friendship is anything to go by, my god does it mean the world. the way taichi’s thoughts have developed are so significant for him and for the story, and also so beautifully and simply taichi. every time the camera is on him, you can see him processing exactly the way he described at the end of the ep, he keeps on trying to find a reason to be mad or angry or to avoid kohei and he just can’t find it, so he simply isn’t mad, he’s good, they’re friends. nothing that kohei says or does is enough to upset him or enough to want to push kohei away. and no, i don’t think at this point he’s quite got to the point of understanding if his own feelings are more than friendship, but he understands that for kohei, his feelings are more than friendship, and he’s alright with that, that’s kind of the whole concept of the ep and it’s so beautifully conveyed bc they keep on going back to the idea of hearing and listening which, for a show with a hard of hearing character, is even more poignant. multiple times we get them asking each other “did you hear that?” and we also get multiple times of taichi speaking or calling for kohei and kohei not hearing, which is ironic bc it’s taichi in this situation that needs to do the listening and understand kohei’s feelings. the whole point of the exchange on the stairs is that, bless him, taichi is a little bit dense, or to put it more kindly, he didn’t have all the facts and understanding he needed to know what exactly happened and what was meant during their exchange under the bridge. he didn’t understand the different ways the miho situation could be misunderstood, and he also didn’t understand just what kohei was trying to tell him, bc the confession was wrapped up in all these other feelings about his hearing getting worse which taichi didn’t know about. through the ep we see him learn these things and try to put them together, but on the stairs he says just please make it clear to me, I can’t understand if you don’t say it. it funnily echoes the sentiment of what he told kohei in an earlier ep, if you can’t hear, ask someone to say it again, louder. except here, it’s if you don’t understand what someone says, ask them to say it again, clearly. so kohei does, or more, he speaks through his actions (and no, I don’t think the cut away kiss was a cop out, at least in this situation, bc it conveys the way taichi reacted to it, being he didn’t know what to do or say or handle it, it’s like it just happened in a blink of an eye, or almost didn’t happen, yet we all know it did, and such it can’t be forgotten or passed over in taichi’s thoughts as he begins to understand how he feels for kohei) so that taichi can understand clearly.

i also wanna point out how i love what they did with sound in this ep, especially the scene on the stairs and the scene in the club room leading up to it. taichi is talking about kohei, but you can also hear sound from elsewhere, like it’s some club practicing music outside. so as he starts to open up about how he feels about kohei, he pauses to shut the window and we lose that outside sound. it’s taichi wanting to close out the outside or listening ears as he opens up bc he’s saying things he’s not fully ready to talk about or express, his feelings for kohei. that’s when we get kohei coming to the door and overhearing, he’s broken in to the room taichi sealed off, but instead of reacting badly, he pursues kohei, and such as we get to the stairs we hear the outside sound again, of the music being practised, bc when faced with kohei and him avoiding him again, he overcomes that fear of expression and goes after him, he admits things out in the open. it’s such a subtle but masterful way of conveying how taichi’s inner thoughts were working in that moment while also playing with the shows theme of sound. just stunning.

and i also really loved one of taichi’s lines in particular. “I kept thinking… how i wished how i would forget to eat”. this one got me bad, bc it’s such a good way for him to express what he means without just saying it point blank. taichi is perpetually a hungry boy, we know that, and that’s how he got to know kohei, through food, both their first encounter was bc of food and their friendship developed through sharing lunch, through kohei feeding him. we also always see his stomach rumble, a reminder of this hunger he can’t control, but is obvious nevertheless. so when he says he wished he would forget to eat, he’s saying he wished he could forget something that is so simple and standard to your day but is so important, just like kohei. he’s connected food to kohei and now he can’t even have a meal without it reminding it of him, and more so, when he’s hungry and wants something to eat, he thinks first of the food kohei gives him. the desire is linked to him bc he’s the one that satiates it. and just like he can’t forget to eat, just like how his stomach rumbles from hunger despite not wanting to think about food, he can’t forget kohei. and his stomach rumbling becomes this proxy for the way that, even though he wishes he could, he simply can’t not think about him, his body, his heart, goes against what his brain wants. and bc like hunger, kohei is something he can’t ignore, so he goes out and fixes it, he eats, and he sees kohei. now if that isn’t mastery of metaphor, i don’t know what is.

and my final shoutout is for kohei’s mom bc she’s literally just the best. i really love that they’re showing that kohei has a very normal home life and his mom isn’t overprotective or cautious of him. she treats him so normally and lets him make his own decisions even when they aren’t right, like we don’t know what their relationship was like early on when his hearing first went, but kohei didn’t have the best time and isolated himself, and as his mom, it’s hard for her to help in that kind of situation, she can’t force kohei to socialise and she can’t force people to be friends with him, so it must’ve hurt, so now that kohei is talking about this friend, you can see how happy it makes her, and when she sees them become distant, she doesn’t overly interfere, she talks to taichi simply when he turns up at their house and just asks him to not give up where others have, and for kohei, the simple act of still making 2 lunchboxes even though kohei probably at some point told her he’d only need 1 now, and she doesn’t overtly ask him to talk to taichi, she just does it as this in case, like if kohei gets the courage to talk to taichi, now he’ll have a reason to talk to him, something to offer, something to break the tension and make it easier. it’s only a small thing she can do, but she does it bc that’s her way of helping. she treats kohei like an adult that can do as he decides and make mistakes, she lets him go to hospital appointments by himself bc we can see he can handle it, he’s fine, but you just know that if it got too much for him, she’d be there for him in an instant. i just love how they manage to show the care and love in that relationship without having to make anything dramatic, bc dramatics don’t mean always mean you care more, and this is proof.

anyway we’re getting a trip next week and everything always happens when boys go on a trip so i cannot wait.

[saetoru]

✩ ‧₊˚ ✩。MORE — HANMA SHUJI.

based on this shit post i made on my side that has not left my brain since i took my final so here is a painfully cheesy scene i took out of a fic i wrote a while ago that i’ll never post bc it’s embarrassingly self indulgent

“these are bad for you, did you know that?” you mutter.

“that so?” hanma hums, leaning closer as your fingers work his lighter. his forehead practically bumps against yours as you light the end of his cigarette—even despite your lecture. he watches you as you do it, glances over the bridge of your nose and the curve of your lips as you frown.

“yeah,” you huff. “if you used that head of yours, you’d know these are death sticks.”

his lips are crooked in that smile of his—one that tells you he won’t stop. it’s a silent truth you’re both aware of, but it doesn’t keep you from scolding him. he needs to know, you think—that someone cares what happens to him. someone will miss him, even if no one else else will.

“good thing i have you to tell me,” he grins.

you think you could paint it from memory, the wide curve of his lips. you could remember exactly where that dimple on his left cheek is, where every crinkle of his eyes are under his glasses, how the slant of his jaw angles as he leans his head up. you’re too busy staring at him to fight it when his hand rubs over the small or your back, curling his arm around you and pulling you flush against his chest.

“it’s not like you ever listen to me,” you grumble against his shirt. it smells like him—like smoke and cologne that must be comically expensive. and it’s bad for you, perhaps—the secondhand smoke that creeps up your lungs and kills you slowly. but it’s blissful, comforting even. “but you should listen to me more.”

“i should,” he agrees.

“you won’t,” you pout.

he chuckles at that, takes a drag from the cigarette in his hand as he holds you tighter, sways you gently as the sun sets and coats your skin, leaving it sweet and honeyed just for him.

hanma shuji is not known for gentleness. he’s a hushed whisper, as if speaking the reapers name welcomes him to your doorstep, the blood dripping from the scythe as a fresh reminder that death is only around the corner. he should be anything but gentle in your eyes—yet when his fingertips find your skin under your shirt, gliding over the dip of your back and the slants of your hips, you think he’s nothing but gentle.

gentle enough to love you. gentle enough to let you love him too. gentle enough to pretend his listens when you scold him. gentle enough to let you know he knows you’ll miss him—even if you’re the only one.

“old habits die hard, baby.”

it’s your turn to huff out a small laugh at that. you want to tell him you know. that old habits do die hard—it’s why you let him walk through your door at ungodly hours, why you clean the caked blood on his fists, why you leave room for him on the other half of the mattress.

old habits die hard. it’s why you love him, even if maybe you shouldn’t.

“if you loved me, you’d quit,” you murmur.

“yeah? you think i don’t fuckin’ love you?” his voice is smooth against your ear, it drowns out the honking cars and the bustling of the city below you. it’s warm and familiar and a tad bit dangerous, but it’s enough to make you relax against his body, arms wrapping around his torso.

it’s silent for a moment. he holds you as you think, and when you make out the beating of his heart under your cheek, you have your answer.

“you know what i think?”

“what, baby?”

“i think you should love me more,” you insist, poking his shoulder accusingly.

“so greedy,” he giggles—and then he pulls you closer, holds you tighter, takes in every part of you like he can’t get enough. it’s him who’s greedy, you think, with the way he wants you enough to make you want him too.

“if you die from lung disease, i’ll have to find a new boyfriend,” you point out.

“you won’t miss me?”

“nope,” you lie. “i’ll be rid of my biggest headache.”

“too bad. guess i won’t die then,” he grins, eyeing down at the top of your head.

somehow, you trust him—he’s never given you a reason not to. you’re sure the fingers on your hips and the warm chest under your cheek and the smell of smoke lingering in the air won’t leave you any time soon. and you hope it won’t, that the sins on his hands aren’t enough to outweigh the prayers on your tongue.

but just to be sure, you look up, propping your chin up on his chest as you whisper, “promise?”

he nods, throwing on that easy grin on his face again. your thumb finds the dimple of his cheek as you cup his face. “of course.”

i am unwell over him and it’s all because of mich 😒

[cowpokeomens]

Good morning squad I’m thinking bout

Matt who so clearly has a big ole crush on you and everyone knows except you and him it seems! It’s ironic because you’re so sweet and down-to-earth and Matt is. Himself. Anyways! The whole gang has a whole day to run amuck and explore The City right? And so everyone is making their little plans when like Nicky asks what you’re gonna be doing and if you wanna tag along with anyone. You’re like “what’s everyone doing?” And he says “some of us are gonna go walk around downtown, there’s some wildlife center that someone mentioned, and Noah said he’s just going to rot in bed for the morning and decide later.” And you’re like ooooh!! Wildlife center means goats I’m going there!! And Nicky is evil and says “cool Matt will go with you teehee bye” and Matt is pouting because he wanted the day to bro down with the owls and now some girl he doesn’t even like liar is coming with him smh so you’re hesitant but you go for the goats okay and Matt drives the rental and his mood is sour but you’re keeping your spirits high!! He doesn’t speak the entire time and when you try to engage in conversation he just grunts at you :-/ but you arrive safely and the folks working there are so nice and let you hold the chinchillas and the capybaras and Matt is actually cracking a smile watching you, takes lots of pictures bc he adores you the capybaras :-/ they let y’all meet Rocky the raccoon who’s recovering from a leg injury and Matt gets so excited that he goes from hesitant smile to literally beaming like a little kid, feeds Rocky little bits of fruit :-(( you take lots of cute pictures of him so you have evidence that he can feel human joy, y’all tromp around the center for hours petting deer and holding owls and giggling until the sun is starting to go down and you’re abt to pass out from hunger and Matt is like “cmon there’s a good place not too far from here” grabs your wee hand to help you navigate the “rough terrain” (there are some pebbles) but then ope! Doesn’t let go! No reason in particular! And it makes your tummy flip flop but it’s probably just because you’re starving so you write it off :-/ Matt opens your door when y’all get to the car :-/ someone cuts him off in traffic and his arm instinctively comes up in front of you :-/ he drops it onto your thigh and just :-/ leaves it there :-/ lets you queue up music and he bitches the entire time about it until you roll your eyes and put on like. PeelingFlesh or Cannibal Corpse or whatever passes the vibe check and then he’s rolling his eyes and saying “you can listen to your Taylor Swift it’s fine I don’t actually care-“ so you start bumping Picture to Burn and belting it out and he’s just :-( so fond :-( keeps smiling to himself bc he can’t name the emotion he’s feeling but I’ve thinks it’s content :-( y’all get food and you steal half his onion rings even though you swore you wanted fries and his foot keeps bumping into yours under the table and you don’t know why it’s giving you goosebumps!! It’s just cold in here that’s all!! When everyone gets back to the hotel you two are sitting on the couch practically in each other’s laps comparing photos of the day and giggling and teeheeing :-( he gets an arm behind your shoulders bc it was “falling asleep” so you’re all nuzzled up in his chest now and he smells like soap and grass and maybe you’re a little drunk on it but who knows :-( everyone knows

Anyways bye

[crguang]

haven’t read kafka’s voice lines in a minute, but I just reread them, and like I need to know more. like her being a devil hunter. why were there devils on her planet in the first place, was it bc of the stellar on or just like smth else. why’d she become one. and it was always interesting to me that it seems like she kind of didn’t like her home planet, obviously she could be lying. ig she wasn’t that close to her family and she probably didn’t have friends bc she’s a loser and isn’t good at connecting w people. And I’m curious abt where and when she started saying "When making friends with someone, keep the right distance, in order to maintain a long-lasting relationship." and firefly thinks she doesn’t believe that? if Kafka didn’t care abt anyone on her home planet ig that would make sense? idk hsjjghsh I’m not coherent enough but I need more Kafka. I do wonder abt how people who can’t feel fear yk survive and all, but idk. Her sea voice like is also interesting like why was that such a personal place?

Also my fighter between the two kafcats os probably the happy one bc she’s just so cute…I want to a symphony a few days ago and I couldn’t stop thinking abt Kafka, like violin=kafka for me. She def would liked it, trust me. On a side note, do u think she’d be concert master? it’s like the best (violin I think) player and everyone tunes to them bc, and they usually get all the violin solos.

and I’m gonna have to clear out some stuff bc I don’t have enough storage for ptn…don’t ask. I know I’ll like it bc women, ugh I should just get more storage.

less than 24 hours til the banners come out im actually terrified, but umm we’ll see. And I have a quiz ig but you def got me covered fr (didn’t know you take comp too)

-🌠

now that ive read AND listened to her voice lines i find it curious that she seems to have a bit of nostalgia in her tone when talking about the destruction of her planet. like you can tell whenever she has a smile on her face as she says certain lines and she’s always so playful (spent a whole hour just listening to her yesterday im ill) but this line was one of the serious-ish ones. she could be acting all mysterious on purpose but i guess we won’t know until more info comes out…. i really wonder if she had friends or something before because she says she rarely ever saw the same person twice due to her work.

THE SEA VOICE LINE. HELLO. WAS NO ONE GOING TO TELL ME HOW EXCITED SHE GETS?! THE CUTE EMPHASIS ON “fiercest”?!?!?! YOU ALLLLL FAILED ME. she speaks so genuinely as if reminiscing that place then she composes herself after a pause… wow. my baby. she’s so cute 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i also go violin = kafka and omgg going to a symphony sounds so nice i hope u had a great time. straight up unbiased thoughts i think she would get the solos because she seems really rigorous in her practice of the violin despite having a very unstable job. she doesn’t strike me as the type to go for easy to play pieces either, especially when you consider what kind of music she’d like. so she’d work for that solo!!

hope your pulls went well i thought i was gonna be devastated if she came at hard pity but turns out im too happy that shes home at all🥹

[augustvandyne]

request: do you think you could write jackie taylor x f reader? they've been together for a few years and have know each other for longer r is not apart of the team but was on the plane when they crashed (maybe she's something similar to misty? //job wise only tho yk😭) she's also not close to the team (aside from jackie) and feels awkward and shy or whatever around them so she just sticks with Jackie pretty much at all times (and plus she's terrified of their situation)very clingy r but jackie doesn't mind one bit. looooots of cuddles and forehead/temple kisses bc yes pls

had to do the request this way because apparently my anonymous wasn’t on. but it is now ❤️

Becoming co-manager for the Wiskayok girls soccer team didn’t feel like such a good idea right now. You definitely didn’t regret it, because she did it for your girlfriend, Jackie Taylor, whom you loved very much. But it didn’t feel like it was your best idea ever.

As soon as the plane had crashed, Jackie reached for you, and soon after searched for Shauna. But you came first.

She made sure you sat with her rather than Shauna, because she knew how you were about the team. You’d never even tried to really socialize with them because of your personality type. You were more introverted than anything, but you still tried.

You were friends with Misty, due to you both managing the team, as well as Shauna because she was Jackie’s best friend, but that was about as far as you’ve gone.

The crash was about three weeks ago now, and you have been contributing, although no one had made any other attempts to talk to you then they had before, at practices.

You’ve mostly been glued to Jackie’s side, even when she had to pee.

It’s not that you’re afraid of the other girls, or that you don’t want to socialize with them, it’s that you’re terrified of the situation you were involuntarily thrown into. There’s a voice in the back of your head wondering what if you’re here for a reason.

But you haven’t brought the thought up to anybody because, you were gonna get rescued soon, right?

During meals Jackie has to forcibly remove you from the cabin to come sit with the rest of the team. She insists you’re just as much a part of the team as she or Shauna are.

Like right now, you’re sat on the cabin step, willing away the dark thoughts about the wilderness. You tilt your head up the slightest bit to see Jackie’s big eyes staring toward you.

You give her a nervous smile, in which she replies by coming over and grabbing your hand gently to pull you over.

Jackie wants nothing more than to have both of her favorite things to fully collide; you and soccer.. but she won’t rush you until you’re ready.

She sits you so close beside her on the log, you’re almost sitting on her lap, which results in your cheeks setting aflame. You swallow nervously and get out a, “H- hi,” like you always do.

“Hey, y/n,” Tai gives a small smile, as she always does, when she hands you your share of the food.

You let out a sigh of relief as everyone else greets you just as kindly.

“See, nothings wrong,” Jackie kisses your temple. “It’s just the girls. Plus Javi, Coach, and Travis.”

You chuckle quietly, to which Jackie’s eyes brighten.

“Why don’t you talk a little about yourself?” Shauna looks at you with comforting eyes. Of course, she knows all about you, but none of the other girls do, not even Misty or Coach knows a lot about you.

You swallow nervously, but speak confidently.

“Well, I..” You look down but Jackie grabs your hand and that gives you more confidence. “I like soccer. I wish I could play but I don’t think my lungs could take it.”

“It’s true,” Jackie backs you up when everyone continues watching you. “She’s winded just from making out.”

The girls chuckle as they eat and listen.

“I also really enjoy reading and— I’m kind of fluent in French,” You shrug nonchalantly.

“No shit,” Nat rubs her thumb across her lip absentmindedly.

“So that’s why Jackie is always passing the French tests with flying colors,” Lottie nods. “I always wondered, because the first day you could even say ‘Hi, my name is..’”

Everyone bursts out laughing, yourself included. No one notices how Lottie speaks presently, instead of in a past-tense manner. Or if they do, they don’t say anything, because for once since the shit hit the fan, they were smiling and having fun.

Eventually, the team went around in a circle sharing secrets, like how Lottie has thousands of dollars in TJ bucks.

By now, the sun had gone down and the warm atmosphere during the day had faded into a cooler one. You were snuggled against Jackie, who was scratching your head and leaned down to kiss your head every few minutes.

The groups eyes landed on yours after a while, and your mind came up blank. You couldn’t think of anything off the top of your head that you hadn’t already revealed.

“Um,” your face heated with embarrassment because everyone who has shared before you had already known what they were going to say, except you. “I don’t know— I don’t really have any secrets. I don’t even have time to go to the store.” You laugh a bit.

“Just tell us something else about yourself,” Van shrugs. “I don’t have any secrets either, if it makes you feel better.”

“Well, I have a lot of family, but none of them amount to how much Jackie means to me,” You give a glance the your girlfriend, who moves in closer. She puts her arm around you and gives you another kiss on your head. “I have three sisters and a brother.”

You shrug, not really knowing what else to add.

“I can play the piano. Really well, actually,” You put out there, raising brows from everyone.

“Well there’s a secret,” Jackie chuckles. “I didn’t know you could play piano.”

“Yeah, maybe I can play for all of you sometime.”

“That would be nice,” Shaunas eyes sparkle with hope, that just maybe you will all get out of here.

[mikasa-imadebiscults]

Hello, hello! I hope you’re doing well and are having a nice end to your weekend. If your matchups are still open, may I request a matchup for JJK and AOT?

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: straight

Zodiac/MBTI/Enneagram/Hogwarts house (bc why tf not?): Leo, INFJ, 1w9, Ravenclaw

Appearance: long wavy auburn hair and my eyes are more of a honey brown. I always wear round glasses. I'm pale with freckles on my cheeks and nose. 5’9, more of an hourglass shape and have a bit of muscle. If I wear makeup, I like keeping it subtle. I often just apply eye makeup and stick to shades of purple, gold, and orange.

Aesthetic: I mostly wear black and white, but I have some lilac in my wardrobe. In summer I typically wear long, flowy dresses with a jean jacket and combat boots, and when it’s colder I prefer slacks, sweaters, and combat boots.

Personality: Making an effort to understand myself and others is important to me, so that leads to long periods of pondering my actions, as well as others’. I love having me time, though I enjoy being with those close to me from time to time. I love discussing topics that revolve around enigmas. It’s not as important to have others agree with me as it is to explore the unknown with them. Since I’m reserved, I take a long time to open up to others. I’m gentle but can be (unintentionally) intimidating. I’m adventurous and have completed a dream of mine – living/working in a country that doesn’t speak my native language. I actively search for things to be thankful for. I'm easily flustered, clumsy, athletic, and conscientious. My humor is witty and sarcastic. Every now and then, I like listening to the branches being rustled by the wind and being able to gaze up at the moon and stars shining brightly, which remind me that there's a lot of beauty in the world, and I'm glad to experience it. I am happiest when seeking out information/reason. I’m really kinda superstitious…

Likes and Dislikes: I like practicing the languages I know, demonology, biology, genealogy, reading, museums, Victorian history, singing, alternative rock, and exploring my surroundings. A large portion of what I read/watch relates to the occult. Although I used to play the piano and was extremely talented, I still admire it and may want to get back into it in the future. I dislike storms, large bodies of water, and people who always turn disagreements into arguments. 

Hobbies: Writing horror stories, DnD, reading, singing, listening to music, watching horror movies, and yoga. As an avid horror fan, animated movies are for sure a guilty pleasure of mine. Coco is 10/10 for a good cry.

Pets: I don’t have any pets, but I’m a massive cat person. I love all animals, although I just feel like cats and I get each other.

Type: In terms of physical appearance, I find many features attractive and don’t have a type. However, personality wise I can handle a lot in a partner/friend but not one who belittles others. I’m someone who can laugh at myself, so I appreciate when my partner/friends can do the same. This may be super basic, but I’m the kind of person who’s very supportive of their friends/partner and just wants that in return. Too many people I’ve met have tried to take advantage of that. Speaking of which, my ideal partner would need to have a backbone and healthy boundaries. I’m not usually romantically interested in people pleasers ^^’ (NSFW related) I much prefer being dominated and feeling out of control. I get stressed a lot, so giving someone control over me in the bedroom is *chefs kiss. I’m kinda kinky and also very vocal ^^’. I try to be as open as possible with my partner, especially when it comes to intimacy and welcome discussions about what we like/don’t like.

Love languages: words of affirmation and acts of service. I love cuddling and hugging but sometimes need my space. Same with spending time together, I love it but I need time to recharge, too. I don’t really like gifts just because I feel like I owe them. That being said, I will still appreciate and adore anything they give me. It’s sweet to know that they were thinking of me.

(HEY I AM ALIVE I SWEAR! I really hope you enjoy this and have a great day!)

I match you with..

Gojo Satoru

- He likes that you get easily flustered, often times he teases you.

- Always gives you the biggest hugs.

- One day he took your glasses and put them on then asked if he looked good in them (hopefully he didn’t break them)

- He’s great at acts of service. He loves taking you out places, he reassures you that you don’t owe him anything.

- When you two are watching horror movies together, he will try and startle you. If he succeeds, he will be laughing his ass off.

- Likes to jam out to music with you.

- He listens to you talk about demonology, he always says something like “Yeah I can defeat them in a fight.”

- If he’s scrolling through social media and finds a video about cats, he thinks of you and sends them to you. (Most of them will be funny videos, like cats attacking their owners)

- The first time he heard you sing he was like “I didn’t know you could sing” in a teasing way.

Armin Arlert

- He is glad that you love to seek out information because he can relate.

- He’s really good at words of affirmation. Ever feeling insecure about your relationship or other things? He’ll be right there ready to make those feelings disappear.

- Prefers horror stories over horror movies but he doesn’t mind watching them with you. He enjoys when you talk about the horror stories that you make.

- You two love to star gaze together, pointing out all the unique looking stars above you, listening to the sounds of nature and feeling the cool air.

- He likes to take you to museums, and even go somewhere new that you both never been to before.

- He would love to adopt a cat with you, but before that he wants to make sure that he’s prepared to take care of a cat (cause cats be wild sometimes-)

Masterlist

[tutuandscoot]

What are some of your favorite quips/jokes that vm have made, in interviews or otherwise. I don’t know it verbatim but I love that pyc one - interviewer: is this the greatest ending to a love story? T: well my character dies at the end so I hope not! or when vm did commentary at the 2022 olys - interviewer: you guys are just bouncing off of each other! S: we’ve met 🤭

Haha yes I love that first one! I love when T is sassy and has no time for peoples… not ‘shit’ in all cases- like this wasn’t BS but when she has good, harmless clap backs.

I actually didn’t know about that second one from them commentating! That’s adorable 😭

-I love when they play the newlywed game in that skate canada package and T kinda spit takes/snorts out a laugh when he says ‘that’s what I usually do when people have a phobia is tend not to believe them’

Also in the newlywed game:

-when he has to write T’s bday and pretends not to know it and then says ‘of course I’m right’

- ‘I can write this with one hand’. ‘With one hand as opposed to two?’

-Basically the entire newlywed game removed from the ‘sleep habits’ bit which people can’t seem to get over which I could give plenty of normal explanations for other than it was just a fkn joke.

- when they are doing a little sit down interview with fans and one of the questions is ‘did you ever have to skate a program you did not like’ and they say ‘Maleguenia’ (spelling 🥴) and at the end of the answer Scott kinda emotionless/straight faces ‘but we won. 😑We won junior worlds😑’. x

-This entire video

- ‘that’s our biggest goal. And maybe to open Tessa’s left eye’ x

-It’s wordless (at least from the pov of the camera) but during a practice at nationals in 2017 (practicing Prince) they finish with their hands up and they quickly kinda bounce their hands down and look at each other like they’re flirting and T kinda shoos him/pretends to hit him and she turns away and he takes her hands from behind her back and throws them apart.. there may have been a joke said or if not just looking at each other they know what the joke is and that was the physical reaction to it.

-Scott making fun of Tessa for telling some snotty kid off when they were kids training in Detroit x (T’s face is priceless at Scott imitating her).

-Even though is a bit deeper Scott basically saying to Tessa’s face that she’s a blessing to him, then followed it up with ‘don’t tell her that’- the way it makes T super (subtly) emotional then with that quip she cracks up (into the sweetest little giggle). x

-When they do their evening news sit down interview leading up to the olys and they are talking about how their biggest fear is letting each other down- same thing as above he gets her kinda in the moment- her listening to him say that and feeling the exact same way, then it breaks her when he says jokingly ‘I don’t see that happening, do you’, and she responds “never, no you couldn’t”. 😭😭😭 x

-T retelling what Scott said to her before their SD in Sochi- the ‘no matter what…’ line and he follows up with jokingly saying T gets super sentimental before they skate and that makes her laugh- if I were to put on my faux-psychologist hat for a moment I’d say that was him covering for his emotions with humour. x

Basically anytime they take the shit out of each other bc they both have such wonderful senses of humour and don’t take themselves too seriously and bc they basically speak their own language they react to things that are so specific and only the two of them understand. The level of trust and knowing of each other (not to get too deep on a post about quips) but that allows them to be so….. free with each other (in all senses) but in this sense knowing what not to step on in terms of insecurities and sensitive points they would never publicly share or foil each other’s personality for the sake of a joke. And just in general their rapport- how they bounce off each other is mesmerising 💖

-Oh and of course Scott saying ‘we’re second’ at the end of the FD competition in 2010 and then essentially tackling her in a hug.

There’s so many more but I’d be writing a book here if I listed them all.

[50cal-fullauto-astarion]

Stallard BS bc it’s my Friday night and I’m thinking about Her 💃🕺🏻

She’s 6’00”/183cm tall and a power lifter. Straight black hair that’s she’s been growing out and trimming herself since she was a kid, hits her hips. Born a blonde, went box black after the divorce and burning the house down. One of the only times in her adult life she cries is when it catches on fire and she has to buzz cut what’s left. I don’t think she ever grows it out again.

Her government name is Saeda Make-Sure Stallard II. She’s a junior, and the middle triplet, last one left. Her oldest full twin was Nesta Make-Even, and her youngest sister was Beaurie Make-Off.

Oh god I’m listening to Zach Bryan’s new album fuck me it’s so good.

She was called Little Saeda at home, and her mother was Big Saeda. And Big Saeda has always been too fuckin’ much for the world. She practiced blood magic—whether it worked or not there is horror to making yourself bleed for grasps at power—and her only daughters were covered in scars from learning the practice. Little Saeda no longer practices, she says, but when times are bad, new, neat little nicks and notches show up on her body and she stops meeting eyes with her head held too tall.

Wears gold medallions for Saint Jude and Saint Christopher alongside three gold crosses on two gold chains around her neck. If asked, it’s not for the Trinity, it’s for a thief and two martyrs.

Was raised snake dancing Pentecostal and has wasted many, many years bitter that God never deigned to speak to or through her. She was a tainted, unworthy little girl, just like her mother, even if her twins felt the spirit. She was a thing that God did not have time for, but a thing that the snakes loved, curling sweet around her wrists.

The last promise her daddy ever made her before his death was to not cut up her twins and feed the bits to pigs if she just stopped hiding.

She can do voice impressions. In another life she was a voice actress, but, still, she finds uses for it.

Her big tragedies got out of the way early, making room for a hundred years of life filled with mounting little humiliations. A wind blows through her, her thoughts have long stopped screaming and fallen silent.

The first dance with her ex-husband was set to “I Walk the Line” by Johnny Cash, which should’ve been an omen if she was listening. Everyone worth their fuckin’ salt knows that Johnny Cash wrote “I Walk the Line” for his first wife, while he was out running around on her—fucking, drinking, drugging, and pining for June Carter while Vivian Liberto raised their four girls and read all the fuckin’ tabloids. It was “Flesh and Blood” that he wrote for June Carter, but hardly anyone cares, because it doesn’t fuck as hard.

And apparently, neither did Stallard, because her marriage ended in adultery and over-indulgence by her husband, too. “I Walk the Line” is a cursed fucking song in her hymnal.

Lost her virginity at 22 to the love of her life. Lost him a few years later. But he came back, as risen-dead things tend to do.

Major horse girl.

Nigh’-nigh’!

[tmwcs]

What would it be like refusing to GIVE heethan or heelel any affection? Like, maybe one of them is in a mood for hickies on his neck, but you won’t give it to him, how would he react?

♥️ 😏

With heelel, there would be no such thing as refusing. heelel (hate to say this…but I mean this in the most…non-judgmental way possible) he loves you so much that he can’t control himself, he’ll just…whether you want to or not, he’ll take you and make you do it. If he tells you to suck on his fingers, he’ll practically have them in your mouth before you can object. If he tells you to suck on his neck, he’s already gently shoving your face in the nook of it. If you don’t do it and just stand there with a closed lip, I could foresee him pulling your head back by the grab of your hair and will lean in to stare into your eyes, nose tip to nose tip, and will grit his teeth and clench his jaw and speak veeeeeery firmly, “I SAID SUCK….” All the while he’ll stare at you with a sadistic look of amusement but also slight irritation and he’ll tilt his head waiting for a proper response back or for uou to initiate the task. And believe me, with the look he’ll give you, you’ll want to do what he says…unless you want to get it so hard that you won’t be able to move for the next few days. (reference Prologue chapter) “good girl….you know how to listen, don’t you?”

now with heethan, it’s similar although he’s less scary about it compared to heelel. If you refuse to bite his neck (bc heethan loves it when you bite down on his neck, it’s in one of the HHP chapters) let’s say you refuse, he’d pull his head back and look at you and be like “what?…..” and if you still maintain your stance, he’ll start to pin you down and probably be like “well….one of us is going to get bit…and since you don’t want to do the honors….guess that meeeeeeans…” and he’ll be all over you and probably will give it to you just a tad bit more harder than usual that night….but you WILL get it lol.

[imjustabeanie]

Hello, hello! I hope you’re doing well and are having a nice end to your week. If your matchups are open, may I request a matchup for JJK, Black Butler, and Hazbin Hotel?

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: straight

Zodiac/MBTI/Enneagram/Hogwarts house (bc why not?): Leo, INFJ, 1w9, Ravenclaw

Appearance: long wavy auburn hair and my eyes are more of a honey brown. I always wear round glasses. I'm pale with freckles on my cheeks and nose. 5’9, more of an hourglass shape and have a bit of muscle. If I wear makeup, I like keeping it subtle. I often just apply eye makeup and stick to shades of purple, gold, and orange.

Aesthetic: I mostly wear black and white, but I have some lilac in my wardrobe. In summer I typically wear long, flowy dresses with a jean jacket and combat boots, and when it’s colder I prefer slacks, sweaters, and combat boots.

Personality: Making an effort to understand myself and others is important to me, so that leads to long periods of pondering my actions, as well as others’. I love having me time, though I enjoy being with those close to me from time to time. I love discussing topics that revolve around enigmas. It’s not as important to have others agree with me as it is to explore the unknown with them. Since I’m reserved, I take a long time to open up to others. I’m gentle but can be (unintentionally) intimidating. I’m adventurous and have completed a dream of mine – living/working in a country that doesn’t speak my native language. I actively search for things to be thankful for. I'm easily flustered, clumsy, athletic, and conscientious. My humor is witty and sarcastic. Every now and then, I like listening to the branches being rustled by the wind and being able to gaze up at the moon and stars shining brightly, which remind me that there's a lot of beauty in the world, and I'm glad to experience it. I am happiest when seeking out information/reason. I’m really kinda superstitious…

Likes and Dislikes: I like practicing the languages I know, demonology, biology, genealogy, reading, museums, Victorian history, singing, alternative rock, and exploring my surroundings. A large portion of what I read/watch relates to the occult. Although I used to play the piano and was extremely talented, I still admire it and may want to get back into it in the future. I dislike storms, large bodies of water, and people who always turn disagreements into arguments. 

Hobbies: Writing horror stories, DnD, reading, singing, listening to music, watching horror movies, and yoga. As an avid horror fan, animated movies are for sure a guilty pleasure of mine. Coco is 10/10 for a good cry.

Pets: I don’t have any pets, but I’m a massive cat person. I love all animals, although I just feel like cats and I get each other.

Love languages: words of affirmation and acts of service. I love cuddling and hugging but sometimes need my space. Same with spending time together, I love it but I need time to recharge, too. I don’t really like gifts just because I feel like I owe them. That being said, I will still appreciate and adore anything they give me. It’s sweet to know that they were thinking of me.

Hi! I apologise but I only do matchups exchange ^^

[dearweirdme]

Just a few random thoughts! I've been wondering about the abrupt drop of Love Me Again and Rainy Days with like a day's warning and the fact that they are basically competing w/each other for army attention. I think that the lack of promo for them is bc these two songs ARE the promo for layover. I think they're supposed to introduce the sound and the style to listeners and get them interested in the full album.

Personally Love Me Again is my third fav release from the solo era, after a song called No.2 on RM's Indigo album and The Astronaut by Jin. But LMA is probably a mid-ranked Taehyung solo song for me, since I like Sweet Night (my fav!), Christmas Tree, and everything on Soundcloud better. But my tastes change a lot so it could ascend or descend the ranks in the future!

Also do you think the Yeontan in Rainy Days is actually Yeontan? I have heard conspiracy theories that it's not actually him....which doesn't seem unreasonable to me bc I think he filmed in Madrid

But I really love that Layover has Yeontan's face plastered all over it and I think all of BTS should promote w/ their pets in the future. In fact, this should be a promotion strategy of all artists everywhere and I think it would really give good results

Hi anon!

Hahaha, I wouldn’t call that a conspiracy theory.. just a practical explanation maybe. I haven’t had time to analyze anything yet (moving my furniture as we speak, just having a break) so I don’t have thoughts on it being Yeontan or not. I do think having the real Yeontan in the mv would have meant a big deal to Tae though, and dogs are able to travel.. but Tannie has some respiratory issues.. so I don’t know how that works out. Is this mv actually shot in Spain though, I’ve only seen the inside of a place.. so technically it could have been on sett in SK?

I do think the releases of Love me Again and Rainy Days are to build momentum for when the album drops. It could be seen as promo a bit yeah. If I’m not mistaken there’s going to be 5 mv’s, it’s impossible for them to want to chart all of those in the short time span we’ve got. Jk is going to release in November if I’m correct, so Tae’s promo and release has to be done by then. I think they have one song in mind to be the top competitor for a nr 1, and they’re using these other songs to build up excitement. Otherwise Tae would be competing with himself.

Edit: lol, I just watched the mv again, and obviously the surroundings are shown in the mv. Forgive me for being inaccurate, moving house makes me 😵‍💫. And, you are right anon, it wasn’t Tannie!

[lesbianlenas]

I know you’re a taylor updates account but can you please react to the new billie eilish album🙏🏻 she’s my favorite

i am going to do this as i will do almost anything for my tumblr followers of course but let me preface this by saying i have not listened to like any billie eilish ever i have only heard bad guy once like several yrs ago and then her song from the barbie movie once when my brother made me watch the oscar’s so idk what to expect really other than that i know there is a song abt eating pussy lol. i will put my thoughts under the cut tho

skinny: this song has p much the same issue as i had w the tswift songs w the slow music & breathy singing i’m just really not into that at all. i like the lyrics tho and she does sound pretty but it’s just really not for me. 3/10

lunch: i def like this song better but there is smth missing for me musically or vocally idk there is smth more that i want from this. i’m biased tho bc it’s abt eating pussy ngl 6/10

chihiro: my first thought putting this on is like girl open ur mouth speak up 😭 again she sounds very pretty vocally on the high notes in this song but it is just so boring to me it’s just giving nothing…if i wasn’t actively listening this would sound like instrumental music to me like u could just zone out her singing into just being humming or smth. i know they must have done the mixing on this song this way on purpose but it’s almost leaning into shoegaze here vocally wise 😭 second half picks up a little bit in the music but not in the vocals sorry this just REALLY doesn’t do it for me lol 2/10

birds of a feather: ok i like this one the most so far i really like the vocals on this one i feel like she is finally singing instead of whispering 😭 overall just enjoyed this one lyrically musically vocally just overall enjoyable even if i wish she didn’t still do the whisper thing for a lot of it lol 8/10

wildflower: this is really not doing anything for me it’s too slow. i think the music is really nice tho and her voice in the chorus is nice too. i enjoy that u can really hear the instruments in a way that a lot of other pop music tends to obscure the instruments and focus way more on the vocals ykwim. i actually like the second half of the song more when the music kicked up and there was more harmonizing. overall fine to me. 4/10

the greatest: this is practically a lullaby omg 😭 i cannot believe how slow this is and whispery. ok the chorus picked up so i appreciate that. the problem here is that the verses are so utterly boring to me but the chorus and the bridge are really good esp the bridge. i was going to rate this so low but the bridge really blew me away tbh 😩 frustrating bc i would give that bridge 10/10 like soooo good. but the verses really bring it down for me. 7/10

l’amour de ma vie: already enjoy the vibe of this one and how it is different from the others. i really like the music on this one and the vocals at certain parts esp the chorus it’s more interesting than some of the others. the second part of the song is like. i enjoy that it’s different but i’m not really into electronic music. but i like that this song was really different from the others 6/10

the diner: really like the music on this one too. vocally ok idk. this really just didn’t leave a huge impression on me. if i listened to it a few times it might grow on me but yeah. 5/10

bittersuite: i am just like girl open your mouth PLSSSSS. ok wait it seems to be changing up a little 😭 no it got worse on the wanting her to open her mouth front actually 😭 i know the mixing is like this for artistic reasons as i said but i just simply don’t like it. this just does nothing for me again. 3/10

blue: i really like this one lyrically but again i just find it boring sound wise even tho i think it makes sense in this song. if this was the only song that sounded this way in the album i think i would appreciate it more bc i really think the sound fits the song a lot. i also liked how this song called back to like all of the previous songs in the album i think that’s a great way to tie it all together. still was not a huge fan tho 4/10

overall: ok so objectively if i was going to rate this album like barring my own personal tastes i’d prob give it a 9/10 it’s beautifully done musically and the lyrics are great and when she really uses her vocals it’s so good. for my own opinion i’d honestly give it a 4/10 just bc this is the type of music that is really not my taste at all 😭 slow indie music does not do it for me and this album really is just slow indie. there is a lot of artistry to it that other indie music lacks i think tho and i can appreciate that too and i do feel like she puts emotion into it which i like. but it’s pretty like when i go to a museum and look at a piece of art for 2 mins and then i walk away not where i go back and look at it 300 times like saw it once and was like wow that’s pretty and that’s all u know. but my dislike of this album is def just a personal taste thing i can tell that it is objectively very good. i also appreciate that she was able to make similar sounding songs that were also all still unique in that you would be able to tell which is which yk. but that’s p much all i have to say on it 😩 hope it’s not disappointing for u that it’s not really my thing i’m sorry 😔

[heniareth]

Let me start off by saying that I just got a vivid image of little Novhen and Astala playing on some kind of stretch of sand and getting into a sand fight. Novhen discovers the very useful distractive properties of sand (or sees it used in practice for the first time if Adaia already taught him that particular trick) and Astala discovers that sand does a very funny crunching sound between your teeth and the taste takes forever to wash out. You learn something new every day!

Apart from that: it is a relief to hear that Novhen might not have gotten bitten at all. Really, the guy is already blighted. I doubt the werewolves would find the taste appealing (can werewolves get tainted if they bite a warden? 👀👀👀👀👀👀 I’m assuming if they can, then transforming back into humans isn’t going to get rid of that either. Oh am I suddenly having ideas about that scrapped human commoner origin; detailed from 13:31 onwards. That’s not the point of this post, so I’ll get back on track, BUT! Novhen could maybe use the Blight in his blood as a reason for the werewolves not to bite him).

And even if Novhen doesn’t get bitten, Astala would still be cross. He was to scout ahead, not walk alone into a room full of enemies, Maker damn it! Is this one of his more reckless behaviors due to declining mental health? Would Astala be able to spot when he’s on a downward spiral and getting more reckless as a result? They did grow up together, after all, but Novhen’s also very good at hiding stuff.

It’s funny that Novhen thinks Adaia wouldn’t be disappointed by him putting himself in danger. And by funny I mean... kinda sad? At the same time, Adaia probably wouldn’t be disappointed. I don’t think disappointed would be the right word, bc Novhen’s an adult who can decide what to do with his life, he’s arguably doing a good thing by helping in the ways he knows how to, and he’s using skills Adaia taught him and was expecting him to use. But, correct me if you have a different idea of how Adaia would react, I think she would be at the very least sad that there is a need for Novhen to put himself in danger? And she’d probably like him to not die?

I’m very much going 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 at the things Adaia might tell them both during Broken Circle. For Astala it’s probably going to be a mix of “I can see you are very hurt” and “girl, I didn’t leave. I was imprisoned and then I was killed. I can give you names so you can get angry at them.”

... Would Adaia’s killers still be around?

Regarding conducting the argument in Alfish: let’s go all in! XD XD XD Accents, Denerim-specific slang, family insiders, the whole oodle and kaboodle. I imagine Alistair also wouldn’t like to listen in on what is clearly an argument, judging by the tone. Ilanlas might, just for the sake of what in Mythal’s name are they speaking in? but he’s not one to follow them if they should walk away a bit from the camp to talk in private. I think Ilanlas is actually relatively good with languages, especially phonetics. He’s grown up with both trade and Dalish, and Dalish would probably have some sounds that do not appear in Fereldan or Trade (at least, DA2 does Welsh accents, and DAI British fantasy. Astala has more of a US accent like the rest of the elves in DAO. But I think the difference in phonetics between Dalish, and Fereldan or Trade should be a bit bigger than the difference between USAmerican English and British English, for example). I think Ilanlas would’ve learned Trade pretty early on (think 5 years old or so), and while he has a Dalish accent and speaks a bit stilted, he’s good at imitating sounds. And he likes knowing when people are talking shit about him and being able to respond in kind. He’d try to pick up on the most important bits of Fereldan during the Blight and would keep on casually learning from there. If he teaches Novhen and/or Astala some Dalish, he’d ask them to teach him some Fereldan in return. Or Alfish, if he’s expecting to have a lot of contact with city elves, but I think he’d see it as second priority at first. But he always does keep his Dalish accent. Part of it is probably on principle. He is still Dalish, damnit!

It’s funny that you’d bring Swiss German into it, bc I understand that quite well XD XD XD Some friends lent us audiobooks which we listened to as kids. Yiddish I’ve had no exposure to, but I like the way it sounds. I agree with what you say about the use of Alfish in Ferelden: the communities are too small (and also have to mix with humans too much) to keep Alfish a secret. What you described about people giving elves a weird look because they might be talking shit about them in Alfish, that I can vividly imagine. So the language wouldn’t be forbidden, nor be kept secret, but a secret third thing (discouraged via judgmentalism).

I think the Dalish would be very protective of their language. In none of the games they speak consistently Dalish, but that’s for ease of understanding of the player I guess (and also bc the conlang never got developed, which: a shame). But I can imagine the whole clan switching to Trade for the most part when there are outsiders among them. Outsiders being people like the Warden and their party (or only the party, if the Warden is Dalish). Pol has been adopted into the clan and would not be an outsider. I think protectniveness over their language would be part so that they have a way to communicate that the shems don’t understand, but also because the shems tried to eradicate that. They’re not just going to hand it over again.

As far as Ilanlas teaching Astala Dalish goes, his thought process is that she’s a city elf, one who has never been able to learn the way of their people, and thus he kinda has to teach her something. He does consider the Dalish way of life the “proper” way of life for elves. The way Astala blunders through life without knowing anything about their people is embarrassing to him. He keeps quiet about it, because it’s hardly Astala’s fault, but I do hope he gets a taste of city elf culture once they get to the Alienage and changes his mind a bit. I also can’t imagine Novhen being thrilled about being considered culturally assimilated to humans. Ilanlas of course has no idea Alfish exists. Maybe it would give him a first hint that these two aren’t poor ignorant souls to be filled with the wisdom of his knowledge

Regarding Shartan and Anraste, it’s the first thing that comes to Astala’s mind. One of the girls she’s friends with back at the Alienage discovered Shartan’s existence and the group immediately started to spin stories about what could’ve been. But she’ll be all ears to the theory that Andraste was an elf. Confused ears, but intrigued nonetheless. It’s more than clear to her by now that the Chantry’s canonical doctrine can be very far removed from reality, and how cool would it be if Andraste actually was an elf?

How would Novhen react if one day the Inquisitor (whichever of them), who Novhen knows and has arguably worked with, appeared on his doorstep, one arm missing, and asking him for help to stop the Dread Wolf? I imagine it’d be quite a shock. Arguably some denial, and really, who better than Novhen to deny it? He does know more obscure Dread Wolf lore than anybody (excluding, perhaps, the Inquisitor). If Novhen wanted it, Astala could step in at this point and tell the Inquisitor that they’re both retired, thank you very much. And then drink with him so somebody can keep an eye on the number of glasses.

I think not letting too many non-Wardens go down into the Deep Roads is a very good idea. After all, exposure to the Taint is how you get... well, tainted, and Andraste’s Grace can only do so much and is bound to run out at some point. At the same time, Astala would like to leave a few Grey Wardens behind in case they don’t make it. Somebody has to rally the armies and defend Ferelden, after all.

Shale, Khêd, Sulri, Novhen and Astala sounds like a... solid party. The lack of a mage really really messes things up badly though. No healing from near death here, and make sure to pack enough elfroot potions and poultices for the whole trip (and then the trip is two months. Do they run out of healing stuff? O-O). They could maybe ask one of their mages to come down with, because let’s face it, mages are important, but it’s a huge gamble either way: lose a friend (maybe even lover if Morrigan came with) to the Deep Roads or potentially run into a situation where they need a healer, have none, and can’t get one. Terrible either way.

Ilanlas will be very torn on going or not. He wants to find Tamlen, and if Tamlen is a darkspawn, he may very well be down there. He also wants to kill darkspawn who are not Tamlen. At the same time, tainted caves bring up lots of very bad, half-remembered memories for him of the bloody cave with the bloody mirror where he got tainted. He might not be aware of this, however, until they’re far enough down in the Deep Roads. He’d be more or less okay; definitely functional and alert (and silver-eyed, giving Novhen some repreive); but it’d wear him down. He could, however, replace Sulri as a dual-wielder. In fact, he’d want to get up close and personal with the darkspawn. And Sulri is/was Aeducan, whatever that’s worth. If their mission fails and they die, she could maybe still rally support from the dwarves to stop the Blight.

If Ilanlas goes, they bring Shale and she allows it, the silver-eyed warden who’s not wracking their brain to sense darkspawn could take a nap on her shoulders. Man, being sleep-deprived, hypervigilant and constantly plagued by sensory imput for two freaking months sounds like the worst bit of hell I’ve ever come across. Is there anything apart from alcohol that could help him switch off? Astala would see him running himself ragged, and she’d be itching for something to do that might help

And she’ll definitely take over talks with Caridin. I don’t think either of them would want to risk the Anvil existing and clamoring for fresh flesh to be burned in molten lyrium (although an army of golems does sound amazing...)

And yes. Archdemons in the Deep Roads is very very bad and Astala doesn’t know how the beast didn’t sense them and swallow them whole. She doesn’t want to see that thing ever ever again in her life (hello battle of Denerim). The most that might apply to this AU here is that there’s people close to you that you can share the fear with? Idk. It’s rock bottom for them at this point, but the blighted Deep Roads have brought pickaxes and are not done yet.

In my canon, I actually have an assassination attempt on Astala and the rest of the party by Bhelen right after getting back from the Deep Roads, who’s getting impatient and paranoid. After that, Astala straight up ditches the party in Orzammar and camps on the mountainside. Anything but stay a day longer in that place. But honestly, these guys deserve some rest, and a bath and 24 hours of sleep sound to good to pass up on. And in my canon, Bhelen had reason to be nervous, because Astala was playing both sides (as in, Bhelen and Harrowmont) before she left for the Deep Roads. Which isn’t applicable here. She does side with Bhelen though, even after the assassination attempt. She decided so before the Deep Roads, and now she just wants to get it over and done with.

Also that bath you’ve drawn looks gorgeous O.O Leave it to the dwarves to have actual working plumbing, hot water on command and the bestest wall decor there is (I have a long-standing obsession with the dwarven designs from the Hobbit trilogy and this. just. yes. that’s dwarves that right there)

Also, not thinking about it is probably the best approach to the whole “hey, your father’s probably going to outlive you because of the work you do :D”. Astala would also like to not think about it, but it’s kinda hard in the Deep Roads. And later when faced with the battle of Denerim that lifespan possibly gets cut down to a handful of days????? Give them a break!!

Also yes please on the fantasy cellphones XD XD XD XD Once Dorian brings that sending crystal of his to the market, they should get a pair

And YES!!!! Pavle doing the “how much could a banana cost” was EXACTLY what I was thinking of XD XD XD XD XD XD

And where is Alistair when you need him indeed *side-eyes everything that’s going down during Awakening*. Off to Weisshaupt I’m guessing. But I think Khêd could get along well with Novhen. He’s all for crime and tries to do his own, although he only has very basic pickpocketing skills. He blunders and he grumbles, but he’s loyal to his family (read: Rica); he and Novhen would have a history of doing crime for the sake of family in common. He takes no pleasure in killing, but he does take immense satisfaction from beating somebody into the dust. Especially the nobles at the Proving. He’s got guts. He does have a problem with cowering in front of authority. He’s learned the hard way that he either shuts up and picks his fights or he won’t make it very long. I hope he’ll be able to get rid of that bit by bit.

EDIT: So I was just thinking about this bc Khêd is very much a work in progress, but. He's probably somebody who'd like to have high standards, but has had to lower them again and again and again to get somewhere in life that was not a grave. Novhen strikes me as someone for whom his values and living according to them is very important. Khéd would like that, maybe be a bit jealous that Novhen's been able to live according to his values for... the most part? It might also lead to conflict under the right (or wrong) circumstances however, because there are certain things Novhen's not gonna compromise on, right? Khêd, on the other hand, expects life to be an ever increasing mound of having to double down. Especially at the beginning, he might get frustrated with too much idealism bc he sees no way that'll work out well for them

Radka is definitely getting her naturalism lessons then. Pavle as well if he wants (and he might want to. Ilanlas is very insistent that he might want to. Not being able to recognize a cow is something else). Khêd could get dragged along. Ilanlas is the very concerned barely an adult going “how do you all not know this” and then dragging them off like he’s a scout group leader. They will be able to distinguish between blueberries and nightshade or so help him!

Tbh, I think with the way Beraht operates, any Brosca is in a good position to give off the vibes of that tired smoking meme. Or be incredibly angry. Probably both. You did say Radka turns into a jester, though. Which one is the defense mechanism, the Carta cutthroat or the jester? Or is it both 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀?

Also, regarding the Wardens being Bad in terms of mental health for Novhen: YEAH. It really is an order that’s not good but probably also attracts people with self-destructive tendencies. Which uh.... Astala has a thing with duty, Novhen has A Thing with duty, Pavle is a blood mage (say about blood magic what you want, but the self-destructive potentials are there) and he isn’t even a warden, but still travels with them, Khêd entered the highly forbidden Proving as a last resort attempt to keep Beraht happy and to get back at everybody else... Sulri at least considers herself Too Important to Die(TM). Oh, and Ilanlas has sworn to find his friend or die trying, which is also a bit worrying. Talk about bad mental health.

Which is why I’m so glad that Novhen gets to walk away from that and be with Morrigan. In this AU, I think Astala would encourage that. She walked away from the wardens. Novhen should get to do the same and get married if he wants that! It’s also funny that out of the two of them, Astala is the first one to walk away. She is also the one who walked away from the Cult of Fen’Harel, so it tracks.

Twins AU (Round 2)

Since our original post exchange got a tad bit long, @bumblerhizal I’m starting a new one here ^^ First, a few things on the doodles: I’m still cackling XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD Especially about Amell (Pavle) going all “woe is me! 😩😩😩” over the dirt on his favorite robe while these two Alienage kids with probably multiple patches and mends on their clothes just look at each other like “can you believe this guy” XD XD XD XD XD XD XD It’s sooooooooo good and I am now imagining Pavle coming face to face with Sigrun’s particular brand of cheerful dead inside XD XD XD The official Grey Warden merch is amazing and our guys are great models. I really want that on a shirt now (and I could, now that I think of it. Ooooooh it’s tempting). I love Valendrian’s grey hair counter. The expression is on point XD XD XD The Plum of Peace should be a Feastday gift. And it’s very good to see reference for Radka, Pavle and Mr Andras (Who looks so kind!!!!!) Mousevhen is absolutely adorable. I want to give him all the pickled beets in the world

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