#basically i need games that aren't too hard to play like i can't do fucking. stealth missions. or real time combat.
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beatriceportinari · 5 months ago
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i know me asking for recommandation is always v funny but since I enjoyed the experience. i would like to try out some more games. i like light gameplay/vn adjacent/walking sim ( ? ) and you know what I like in a story. on switch plssss i don't like playing on the puter+i wanna move around
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mamadovie · 4 months ago
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I sent this in to your old blog but can you do a NSFW alphabet for Vilkas please 🙏🏻🥺
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𐙚 . . . VILKAS.
A N: We are so back with the NSFW Alphabet's, I've missed these. ♡
A B O U T: A list from A-Z of all the ways Vilkas is sexually.
W A R N I N G S: Sexual content ahead, so MDNI!
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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Vilkas — as a general note — is a rough man. He doesn't own much gentleness in him, not whilst fighting nor when he's pinning you down into the sheets — but in those moments afterwards, he's the sweetest and kindest. He's tired, and he wants nothing more than to relax with you. After a nice bath (if you both have enough energy...) he will lay down with you, enjoying the feeling of his hands roaming your skin and your fingers through his hair.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
On him: his dick. Simple. He likes how it makes you feel. He likes how it allows him to feel when he's deep inside of you.
On you: your back. He loves to trace his fingers across your back. He's got it memorised in the back of his mind, and his favourite view is your back as he's going to pound town. ♡
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
He's a clean man, I'd say. He may be a dirty bastard, but he's still a civilised member of Whiterun — he prefers to cum inside of you rather than make a mess of it. He also views it slightly disrespected to cum on you, he's a gentleman like that.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He loves the idea of fucking you in a place where you could potentially get caught, the excitement and recklessness is what gets him going.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
He's experienced! He acts like he isn't. He never brings up his past sexual partners. He isn't like that. But he shows his experience in his actions. He knows what he's doing.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Since he loves your back so much, he loves back shots. Or if he's lazy and tired, reverse cowgirl. He also likes to watch your ass bounce in those positions.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
Does he look goofy to you? No. He doesn't.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
On him: he maintains it. But he doesn't really care.
On you: he doesn't give a single shit. He's prepared to go foraging if you don't shave.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
He fucks hard, but he is a romantic to his core, you just need to dig deep enough.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
He doesn't masturbate often, never has. He's always busy or generally not interested enough to do it.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Vilkas is a choker. He likes impact play and loads of teasing. He's also into edging, you of course.
L = Location (favourite places to do the do)
Anywhere. That's it. As long as he's with you, he's down.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
After a bad day, he's ready to fuck it out of his system. But he gets turned on simply by you biting your lip, stretching, and showing your stomach. Simple acts that are innocent.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
He's possessive. Nobody else can touch you.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He prefers to receive it, but he's always down to go down under, too. He's very talented in that area, and when he does it, he can't hold himself back from touching himself as he works his mouth on you.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Fast and rough. He's a pounder.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
He prefers actual sex, quickies aren't for him. He hates to feel rushed. He wants to take you in complete and for you to take him in... literally.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
I'd say he does take risks, but nothing that will hurt you or ruin both of your reputations (like actually getting caught...)
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
He has a lot of stamina, and he can pace himself, but he needs to recharge afterwards.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
He never really thought about them, but if you asked about it, he'd get into it. He'd enjoy the use of them, too.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He's a massive tease. He likes to watch your reactions.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
He's not that loud. He's a grunter and buries his face into your neck to hide his moans.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Vilkas is obsessed with the sounds you make, so he will always aim to make you loud and begging for him.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
Big? Yes. Thick? Yes. Veiny? Yes. He's not a monster, but he's definitely got that D, and yes, the D is fire.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Average, I'd say. He's always ready if you are. But it's rare that he's the one to initiate it.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Hella fast. He's ready to sleep like he's never slept...
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natsumebookss · 25 days ago
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Well, I feel like I've officially reached this stage in my feelings towards Magia Exedra:
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It's not the game's fault, really. If anything, it's the opposite--it's not the game, it's the player. Lately, I see the trailers for the new game and go "that's cool," but in a sort of empty way that goes away after a half hour or so.
I have a confession to make, actually. I'm still on the fence about downloading Magia Exedra, about making that metaphorical contract again in this particular time loop. Let's talk about it.
For a bit of context, MagiReco was not my first gacha game rodeo. That honor belonged to Love Live, which I played pretty much until it died. LLSIF (as it's often abbreviated to) is a game I have extremely complicated feelings about. On the one hand, it's probably the one game I really consider myself to be any good at, the sort of game a streamer would point to and say "that's what people are gonna watch me for." On the other, it kinda fucked up my social life. I can't count all the times I turned down invites in college to tier events.
Tier culture isn't really something MagiReco had (thankfully), but it's basically this idea that if you grind an event enough and make it to the top 5000 in the server during that event, you get a fully buffed version of a special character as a reward, and if you didn't tier quite that much, you get the non-buffed version. From my experience, the unique combination of tier culture and stan culture that Love Live had was extremely toxic. Tiering in an event was a sign of love for your oshi, and if you didn't tier in her event, how big of a fan are you really? Add in the fact that tiering can take hours every day of work for over a week, and yeah, it takes its toll.
I can't remember exactly who said this, but I remember watching a video about Genshin where the person said "if you aren't paying with money in a gacha, you're paying with time." This is why I was extremely hesitant to play MagiReco at first, because LLSIF had eaten up both for me and I didn't want to fall into that loop again. So I compromised with myself to go F2P and give it a shot, and ended up loving it. There was a part of it that felt so free to me, to just be able to play a fun game without all the pressure (as long as I stayed away from Mirrors). The lore was amazing. Everything seemed perfect.
And then, somewhere down the line, I could feel it happening again. Playing MagiReco during the pandemic was one thing, when time wasn't as big of an issue, but I found myself going back to the event grind again, wanting to complete it before my mutuals. Thinking about it at work. Stressing about not having the new unit for my fave yet. This wasn't necessarily the game's fault. It was me.
Gacha games combine two of my biggest weaknesses: my love of collecting and my desire to be part of an "in-group." Like Shizuku, I wanted to belong somewhere, and felt that I had to prove how big a fan I was of something to get that feeling in fandom.
I thought I'd miss MagiReco a lot more over these past few months, but you know what really sealed the deal for me? Thinking that there's a reality out there somewhere where I didn't achieve any of the great things I managed to do this last month because I would've been too busy grinding for more Vampnagi and Darknagi slots. Because having all three Kanagis two-slotted isn't enough, right? You see all those other Kanagi stans with fully slotted Mirrors teams, right? It can't be that hard, right?
If you aren't paying with money, you're paying with time.
I can't say the post-MagiReco months have been perfect for me, but somewhere down the line, I just started feeling pressure towards the game, as if it was something I needed to be "good enough" at. And when that was gone, I realized I had a pretty good thing going without it. I explored other games, worked on my writing, started customizing another doll. Talked with my mutuals and realized they saw me as more than just a MagiReco creator.
Decided that maybe...I wanted to be more than that.
I love MagiReco for the lore, the community, the people it's brought to me. But I also recognize that it brought me back into old habits. I believe that there are people who are able to play gacha games casually without feeling this sort of pressure, but I don't think I'm one of them. Maybe it's the ADHD, maybe it's something else.
Maybe Exedra will be different. Maybe I'll have learned enough about myself to avoid my past mistakes this time. But, knowing that the game will likely come out right when I turn 30 makes me realize...do I want to pay with time again? Or would it be better if I sit back on the sidelines, read the lore, and talk about it on here without ever downloading the game.
To be honest, I still don't know the answer. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just wanted you all to know why I've been inactive lately. I still love MagiReco, and the whole PMMM franchise, but I'm not sure if I'm ready for the next step. And I think you all deserve to know that.
I'll keep this blog as a PMMM general blog regardless, and let you know what I end up doing. But no matter what, thank you for standing by me.
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nakanotamu · 26 days ago
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I decided to try out Star Citizen with the current IAE free fly event rather than just watching youtube videos and never playing it.
I spent idk how long, too long, trying to do the tutorial. (Part of why it took so long was I kept stopping to look around my starting city.) Eventually I got far enough I learned how to fly, but it wouldn't register that I'd landed in the station you have to fly to to progress the tutorial, so I couldn't go any further. I logged out and just chose to skip the tutorial at that point. I logged back in, back in my starting city, and this time just went and picked up my (free, wimpy, bc of the current free event) starter ship.
I opened up my map and checked the navigation to New Babbage, the city where the current event - letting you fly a changing selection of the game's many ships for free each day - is actually taking place. "Oh good," I thought. "It set the route, I guess that means my ship can make the trip." The fuel calculation seemed to be bugged, I couldn't figure out how to actually read it to double check if the amounts worked out, but I figured if there's a problem I'll just self destruct and start over.
I arrive at Microtech, the planet on which New Babbage is located. "Weird," I think, "Why is New Babbage all the way on the other side of the planet. Okay I'll just set up another little hop and -" it turns out my ship did Not have enough quantum fuel to make it all the way there. I briefly consider self destructing but it's fine, I am at the right planet at least, I'll just fly down manually to whatever I'm closest to where I can refuel and then hop from there. I check my map, which is frustrating to use if you aren't searching for a specific location, because as soon as you zoom in close enough to make out any locations it wants to jump to just showing the map of your ship. After fighting it for a while I find that I'm basically directly above an emergency shelter, which seems fitting. And it has ship services, perfect.
I fly down to the emergency shelter, which is just a little solitary building in a clearing in the woods. I hop out of my ship, it's absolutely gorgeous. I'm floored by how it really feels like I just hopped out of my dinky little ship into an actual forest clearing. I go looking around the shelter. I can't figure out how to refuel, but it also doesn't even have real landing pads, so I assume the map info was wrong and I can't actually do that here. More importantly, the shelter has the space version of Monster and Slim Jims, which I need bc this has taken so long I'm actually getting hungry and thirsty in game. I decide her diet is enough evidence for me to say the game has agreed with me that my character is trans. Anyway the fuel thing is fine, there's a mining outpost nearby, I'll try there.
I fly over to the mining outpost, which actually has landing pads, one of which is even occupied. I hail them to get landing permission, which it says I have, but it doesn't direct me to a pad how I expect. I just go and land on the smallest one anyway, it's fine, maybe that's how this works idk. I go and look in one of the buildings here, it seems like it's been looted by someone else, but I do find a free multi-tool, which will be useful for doing cargo, which I plan on being my main focus. I mean, even though accounts are gonna get wiped in a few weeks with 4.0, but whatever it's fine.
I still can't figure out how to refuel. At this point I realize I just don't know how to refuel and it's probably not a matter of not being able to find a terminal to do it at. I look it up and you just do it from your personal menu like accepting missions or using your map. Duh. I go to get back in my ship but I'm clipping through it. Thankfully if I walk up to the cockpit I can clip close enough to the pilot's chair I can still hop in, and that works fine. I finally refuel, I fly back out of atmosphere, I hop to New Babbage.
My computer lags hard as fuck. Between the shaders compiling bc it's my first time there and the number of people there bc it's the current Main City bc of the event I just sit back and wait a moment until I can do anything. It's night time and the city all sprawling out beneath me with lights on legitimately looks like a real city and I'm floored. I figure out where the hangars are and fly over, requesting access. I'm still very bad at flying so I take too long entering and they close the doors right as I get there. I get into a bit of a back and forth with flight control loading slowly before I get the doors to open and I still scrape something going through. I make a mental note to take off and land in the 3rd person camera from now on.
I store my loaner ship and head out into the city's transit station. I check which way the expo hall is and deliberately go the other way, I want to explore and also see if I can sell any of the stuff I looted on my impromptu stopovers. When I'm on the transit and I come out of the underground part and see the city all lit up at night I actually gasp. It got to me, okay. The actual to scale science fiction city with working (in a sense of the word) transit got to me.
I look around the shops. I can't sell any of my shit so I just drop it on the floor bc the game doesn't have interactable garbage cans. It's 4:30am at this point so I just log out rather than go the rest of the way to the expo hall.
It was - incredible. One of the most engrossing experiences I've ever had in a game. I'm absolutely buying an actual starter ship tonight after work. It is definitely in an alpha state. Playing the game makes it extremely obvious that they have spent the past 12 years of dev time doing early work and then throwing it out over and over again bc they had so much money there was no one to say just get it done about anything. I don't think I could tell anyone they should check it out unless I know they value basically the exact same things in a game I do.
But I want to believe, you know? I think just the idea of Star Citizen has already changed space games, and I think if they do actually manage to ever get close to a released product it's going to be so special. I think it's already something so special. It's just also extremely broken and unfinished. But oh my god, you know. I don't know how else to explain it.
I've talked before about how highly I value a sense of "realness" in a game, that feeling that a game takes place in a real, living space. Even broken and incredibly unfinished I don't know if I've ever played a game that felt as real as Star Citizen.
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glngrbred · 4 months ago
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There is something wrong with gamers. They made a new quiet place game, and the main character is pregnant and has asthma. Now, Any reasonable person should be able to think about A QUIET PLACE and realize that having asthma is a GAMEPLAY FEATURE they designed FOR GAMEPLAY!!! Like, remember the Amnesia series?
(tangent) Amnesia Rebirth is an entire game where all of the horror is built around that concept from bloodborne where a woman is impregnated (against her will) and is giving birth to a demon basically. also the demon is in her body so shes like possessed and shit. COOL! Pregnancy is amazing for horror!!!!
Asthma? AMAZING for horror where you have to be quiet. it is game design MAGIC and is so cool! they managed to turn their difficulty feature into a diagetic and logical system. like, needing to find refuels for your inhaler is just automatically going to succeed in making scrambling stressful scenarios that will have you shitting the bed.
Remember Amnesia: the bunker? the famously increadable design forces you to put yourself in time scrambles where you know you'll run out of light, you know you need more rations, and you know you're almost out of fuel. Just to EMULATE that franticness and the FLUIDITY and rapid pace of gameplay is an acheivment.
Especially with the rigidity of A quiet place's near parallel world, you can't add too many fantasy elements outside of the apocolypse and the monsters (shreikers?) so turning corruption/insanity/fuel/ammo into Inhalers turns those fantastical, hard to explain systems into something so Inherently realistic and basic, that anyone who picks up the game will be able to understand the objective. V VV You have to breathe -> rasping will get you killed -> use your inhaler-> Uh oh ur out of charges -> you have to go on an adventure and find more -> that means you have to go on a crazy mad dash avoiding making sound and a single error will get you killed -> your getting closed in on OH FUCK THER IT IS -> take your inhaler -> you survived! NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN What did every youtube comentary slop farm say? OMG? a PREGNAT WOMAN WITH ASTHMA?? thats so UNREALISTIC. SHe would die IMMIDIATELY. Fucking forced diversity! I want to have microphone integration and play as a white guy WAHHHHHHHH!!! I can't critically think for 2 seconds and realise that this game is designed to be realistic, and be a similar experience for all players and alsot to avoid metagaming by just fucking MUTING your mikE. Like they solved a fundamental flaw with an Audio based horror game in such an elegant and story driven way. They aren't even trying to get diversity points. its purely for story and gameplay.
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nygmobblepot-trash · 1 year ago
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Oh so they're just going to pretend like last episode didn't happen and go straight to finding Sylvie.
Cool.
(Rant)
Mobius and Loki almost died and we aren't going to get even a scene showing the aftermath??? Wasn't Mobius hit by the temporal aura (whatever it's called)? Didn't Mobius ask what took so long? Didn't Loki explain why he said they needed to find Sylvie after time slipping? No one said anything? Or am I supposed to believe Mobius wouldn't lose his absolute shit when he found out he almost died because Loki was too busy making googly eyes at Sylvie.
Ok. Ok. Maybe to be fair they really said nothing. In E1 Loki told Mobius very little what happened at the end of time. In E2 we see Mobius burying his feelings hard--even worse than Loki. But at least show that. Mobius in E2 seemed completely different. I get he's probably putting on an act because he really doesn't want to think about his life but come on.
Actually you know what? I think he was putting on an act for the whole episode. Call me delusional but I don't care. In the beginning, Mobius seems really happy to be looking for Sylvie. I think that was true but for other reasons. It's clear Mobius doesn't want anything to change. He doesn't want to think of a life he could've had so he needs to keep being an analyst. Before shit hit the fan that was searching for Sylvie. The whole thing is a game for him. It's why Loki was so serious and Mobius didn't really seem to care. He rather have a drink with Brad and play games. Normally Mobius wouldn't be so easily fooled but he was while Loki was the one paying attention. He's obviously going through the motions. He's happy again when he and Loki are trying to figure out the TemPad. Of course, it doesn't last long as the interrogation follows.
Let's talk about the interrogation. God I want to talk about it so bad because what the fuck. So Mobius warns Loki that Brad is an asshole (Mobius keeps swearing and I'm so here for it) and to not lose his temper. So I immediately think okay Loki is going to go off on this dude because why not? He'll do anything for Sylvie. The gang walks in and Mobius did not lie at all. Brad goes off on everyone. He's laying into Loki the most of course while Mobius keeps trying to keep Loki calm. Brad's speech also mimics several conversations Loki and Mobius had in S1. Brad basically says what Mobius said to Loki in S1. He drills that Loki is a villain and only brings suffering and pain but instead of twisting it around like Mobius did it changes into something that Loki yelled at Mobius towards the end of S1. Brad doesn't twist it into something hopeful or give Loki a choice no he tells Loki that at the end of the day he's lying to himself, that he can't play the hero. Yes that isn't exactly what Loki said to Mobius but it's eerily similar to the "lies you tell yourself" in S1. I understand if that made no sense but I'm just saying that it's super interesting to see the difference between Mobius and Brad.
Anyways so Loki starts to spiral and it seems like he's going to say fuck it. They even cut to Mobius's concerned face. I do love though that no matter what happened Mobius let Loki take the lead. Yes, he kept butting in but it seemed like he was reminding Loki that it was okay. It was like his way of proving Brad wrong. He was trying to tell Loki he trusted him and that he was with him.
I will say that Brad said the one thing I'm sure everyone in that room was thinking, "You're too obsessed with her. You need therapy." Honestly Brad you were so real for that. But he wasn't done yet. This man then had the audacity to tell Mobius to control his pet. And Mobius smiles and tells a fucking joke about Brad disappearing?? And Loki smiles at it?? I'm sorry but what is going on? Mobius I love you. I was so disappointed that they didn't let Mobius lead the interrogation because he would've rocked it. But Loki failed so Mobius said fuck it and did not disappoint. He literally got one line in and it was telling Brad he's going to disappear with a smile on his face. Mobius is ruthless.
This is where we circle back to the point I was making before... several paragraphs ago... I'm sorry. Brad goes off on Mobius and Mobius takes it for a little bit. You can tell what Brad is saying is getting to him. He's making points that even Loki is reacting too. Points that Loki should've talked to Mobius about already. It seemed like Loki was just then realizing that Mobius hadn't brought up his life at all. That Mobius had been acting like nothing was happening. Which was interesting to see. Finally, Loki seems to pay attention to Mobius for 5 seconds. Of course that's interrupted by Mobius slapping the hell out of Brad. Thus making it clear Mobius has been freaking out for a while but hiding it. They were both probably having a panic attack at the same time. The whole time Loki was running around in a panic Mobius put his fears aside and focused on Loki. It's incredibly sad. Did he feel he couldn't confide in Loki? It really hurts that this poor man had his world turn upside down and not once did Loki bother to ask him about it. Loki had to think it was odd that Mobius just stopped trying to burn down the TVA. Mobius deserves better.
I am happy that Loki stopped worrying about Sylvie for 2 seconds to chase after Mobius who clearly wasn't okay in the slightest. "He got under your skin" and "I was following you" Sir? Do you even know where you're at? Loki's dumbass doesn't know what to do either and takes Mobius to get some pie. As if that's going to fix anything. Mobius admits he lost it a little bit and Loki tries to relate and uses the battle of New York as an example of a time he lost it. ??? I'm sorry? Honey, Mobius punching someone isn't the same as you trying to conquer a city. You suck at this. Thankfully Loki cares enough to dig into why Mobius has no desire to at the very least see what his life could be like. Honestly, though Mobius's answer makes sense. Of course, he doesn't want to know. He's all about free will and deciding your own path. Why would he care what path he was on? It's a path he was supposed to be on but now he isn't. He got to escape the sacred timeline, he has always seen that as a blessing which is why he fought so hard to rescue Loki. The thing that annoys me though is Loki moves on so fast. I get he probably respects Mobius's decision. After all, if he saw a happy life that was taken from him that would suck. But why not ask what Mobius really wants to do? No one would blame Mobius if he got up and left. He now has the free will to do whatever he wants and yet he stays at the TVA. It would have been interesting for Loki to point out that Brad was kind of right. That it isn't healthy to pretend like nothing happened. I could see Mobius getting angry and pointing out that technically Loki is hiding from his reality as well. But of course, we can't spend too much time developing Mobius or his relationship with Loki, we have to get back to Sylvie.
Interrogation 2 happens and they finally get the info they wanted. The whole time I was thinking "damn this really seems like a Mobius plan," only to be proven right. Of course, Mobius immediately jumps to torturing Brad and calls it a "little bit of mischief". Again I have to ask, sir are you okay? Mobius is fucking terrifying.
I think the answer is no. When they take Brad to McDonald's Mobius is acting strange again. He's snapped back into acting like everything is okay. He ignores Sylvie and Loki talking and is being nice to Brad -- the man he punched within the last 10 minutes). Mobius is petty and as we now know hides his feelings until he explodes. He is clearly trying to distract himself with the food. Brad starts to freak out and Mobius tries to dismiss it but can't by saying that the relationship (between Loki and Sylvie) is complicated. But his petty ass can't stop there and adds that opposites attract in the same breath as him saying that Loki is in a relationship with themself. Mobius is really out there saying that opposites attract and Loki and Sylvie aren't opposites. Brad then says it's weird and I'm waiting for Mobius to agree but this man goes, "hey isn't it cool that 10 minutes ago you said I was nothing and then I punched you and got a God to torture you?" Mobius are you good? For the love of jetskis stop deflecting. You can't just torture Brad again because you're too much of a coward to talk to Loki. I will say good on Mobius for figuring out it was a trap. The slap on Brad's arm and the angry "Hey!" Will live in my mind for far too long. Like I said Mobius is scary as hell.
Lastly, I want to talk about the end (yes I'm almost done with my rant -- yay!). I hate that Sylvie continues to be pissed at Loki and the whole TVA. Loki and the others are trying their best. She didn't give them a chance. She just made a decision for everyone else and got pissy when they couldn't fix her mess. Honestly fuck right off. That's all I want to say about her. Anyways the thing that broke my heart was Loki saying, "Please, don't. It's harder to stay." I'm sorry but what the fuck does that even mean? Maybe I'm interpreting this wrong but does he mean that if she isn't around it's hard for him to stay at the TVA? If I'm right, then what the actual hell? Your friend Mobius is hanging on by a thread and you want to abandon him? You're all he has. He isn't close with hunter B15, OB, and Casey like he is with you. Mobius never once abandoned Loki. And yea I get that he does go over to Mobius and puts his hand on his shoulder but he only does it after getting rejected yet again by Sylvie. Hell Mobius probably just heard that Loki doesn't want to stick around. Are you seriously telling me that Loki is just using the TVA and Mobius to find Sylvie? At least last episode he wanted to go find her and fix the mess that she made.
Please stop chasing after someone who doesn't care about you in the slightest.
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misc-obeyme · 7 months ago
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I'll keep spoilering you just cuz... Cuz I wanna talk about those chapters so much. Yes, I thought about the board game too later on, but never played it myself. Could be fun with them, honestly, Lucy will win anyway. Look, I am not happy about the whole "multiple human worlds" either, it makes it soooo much broader, also Diavolo has basically god powers from what I get from the lore? Creating dimensions, stopping time and so on, so it makes sense he can travel between dimensions? So why does he needs Barb's powers? Also, why isn't teleportation is used more often? I think there's a chat somewhere where Mammon had to keep the lights on with magic, and said it's too draining. So I get that they can't use magic that often (mc is excluded cuz, it's mc) but still, the amount of times that the brothers were late for RAD. Just teleport there. But this is a whole different conversation. I am just a stickler for lore and logic within it, if I get going. Yes, yes, I will lighten up... In the rest of hard chapters 50 and on, there's like 4 of them where Levi and Mammon are doing stupid shit. Like a lot of it. It makes me think that if you let the two of them be alone for longer than few minutes, they will destroy the world. Also, Levi is super rich. Sugar daddy to Mammon. It just makes it so much more profound now. How didn't I think of this before. Can't wait to see what the hard lessons in season 4 has to offer. -🐆
Well, I've only played it once and I remember being somewhat bored, but I still can't see Catan and not think of it for some reason lol. No doubt Lucifer would win, too.
OKAY now we're getting into teleportation because that is a question I also have!! In fact, I'm so preoccupied with the fact that MC can teleport as a sorcerer that I've included it in both The Threads That Bind and Unchained. In Threads, MC uses it to teleport themselves from inside the castle to outside the castle. And in Unchained, they give an excuse for why they aren't using it, which is that it's exhausting and depletes their magic and isn't worth using for short distances. But they also use it to teleport between worlds, which is something that seemingly only MC and Solomon and Barbatos can do.
I don't know about Diavolo, honestly... I can't remember what the specifics of his powers are. But he's supposed to be the strongest demon in the entire Devildom, so you would think that would mean he could do things like teleport, too. I'm not sure how that might differ from Barb's abilities. I always thought of Barbatos doing it more like portal-style, so it might be less exhausting. If you can open a portal to anywhere, that's likely less taxing than trying to move your entire body from one place to another? I don't know, there are no rules to this stuff and it makes me crazy.
So I just kinda headcanoned teleportation rules as needed for my stories. It's important in a few plot points, so I had to address it, you know? Otherwise I'd have had to come up with some kinda alternate way for things to go down.
Ahaha please don't lighten up, I am absolutely the same way lol. I could rant about this for several more paragraphs. But in the end, I always just end up filling in these questions myself as needed because there's so much that they don't fully explain. And I'm like, I need my own stories to make sense. So that means making up rules where none exist in canon.
Anyway, I love the Mammon and Levi relationship. They're so funny, I feel like they're constantly just fucking around. And Levi getting so mad at Mammon for owing him money is really hilarious when you consider how often Levi still lends Mammon money. Like is all that just for show? Mammon is spoiled lol.
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littleslavediary · 2 months ago
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psychological abuse
It started while he was on break at work, playing a game of hearthstone with me. I did something wrong in the game and he was pissed. It seemed he was in the mood to be angry and not let anything go.
After that started an hours long argument where he was mostly mad that I don't send him nearly as much text as he sent me. Eventually, the argument was dropped, but he was still angry. We had a different conversation about skittles.
I mentioned they are my favorite candy and he said, "All skittles have the same taste regardless of the color."
I disagreed and said it wasn't true, he got increasingly angry about this, first arguing they have slightly different smells but taste the same, and eventually sent me a scientific article that claims there are only five basic tastes. He uses this to argue that "taste" is different than "flavor". So they can taste the same while having different flavor.
Now he started to get upset at me for arguing with him and he started warning me and reminding me I'm a slave. I finally lie and say he has convinced me that skittles technically taste the same, and apologize for arguing about it. But now it's too late and he is enraged.
A few hours and many angry texts later, I expected him to physically attack me as soon as he got home from work but he acted sort of normal at first. We sat down together on the couch and he gave me an Israeli candy that has pieces in different colors.
After a while he asked me if the different colore taste the same. My fight or flight instincts started to kick in as the tension rose.
"No, because they are more and less sour, they aren't all sweet."
"Good," He replies, "So do skittles taste the same?"
"Yes, they all taste sweet, so they taste the same."
In my head my mind is screaming that the word "taste" is a verb. It just means to test the flavor of something. But he would seriously hurt me if I said something like that, and it's physically impossible for me to say it because I have been trained.
At some point the conversation started to devolve. His number one complaint is that I don't say enough. I think he actually just wants me to say something that will justify him hitting me.
Eventually, I become so frustrated. We have been talking about this for over an hour now. Now it's all about how I barely replied to his texts earlier, now I'm not saying anything and I need to communicate way more in general. He is so filled with rage that he is yelling at me and threatening me with body language.
But I can't say what I'm actually thinking because that's argumentative. Saying he is right isn't good enough. Saying sorry isn't good enough. I wasn't thinking. I wasn't trying. He purposefully mistakes my frustration for anger and cruelly teases me for getting mad.
"Fucking answer me slave," he yelled punching the side of my thigh as hard as he can several times, which left a massive bruise.
Finally, this all manipulated me into going off on a tangent about how him getting this enraged over a disagreement about a video game and candy isn't fair, and that I feel like nothing I say helps. I focus on saying the level of anger isn't reasonable and if he tried to explain this argument to any of our friends and family they would find it completely ridiculous.
This is what he has been waiting for and I felt a rough tug on my hair as my head was pulled harshly down into his lap and I was left looking up at him slightly daised.
Calling me names, he viciously slapped my face on either side several times but he was holding back a little more than usual because we are leaving to spend the night with his family soon so I can't have fresh bruises.
It still hurts and leaves my skin bright red, I start feeling tears drip down from the corner of my eyes, at least my mascara is water proof. Part of the crying is an involuntary reaction to the sting and the rest is an emotional reaction to feeling so hopeless to avoid his wrath.
He starts asking me questions slapping my face hard after each one, glaring daggers into my eyes.
"Are you my slave?"
"Yes!"
"Do I get to be as angry as I want?"
"Yes."
"Why would I give a fuck what anyone else thinks about this dynamic?" He asked continuing to slap my face with each question. "Are you okay with being mistreated by me?"
"Yes."
"Would you like me if I was a normie and didn't hurt you?"
I shook my head no.
"So yeah. Maybe I am a little psychopathic. A little sadistic. And if I say 'black is blue', I expect my slave to say 'yes Master, that's right.' Do you understand?"
He hits me again and I wonder if he is even concerned with what I will look like in front of his entire family in 20 minutes.
"Yes! I understand."
"It's hard, isn't it?" He asked his tone softening, as he stroked my bright red face gently.
"Yes, I'm sorry," I said, crying harder.
"Do you want to be the object of my affection?"
"Yes."
"Do you want to be my one true love and my everything?"
"Yes."
"Are you sorry?" He asked. "Show me you are sorry." He pushed me off of him and stood up in front of me unzipping his pants. I immediately took him into my mouth.
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dundunny · 9 months ago
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Final Fantasy XVI
Final Fantasy XVI completed, and wow, I think it's my favorite Final Fantasy since IX, and I'm surprised more people aren't talking about it (focusing on VIIR2?). It's not a perfect game and has some glaring flaws, but I haven't had this much fun playing a Final Fantasy in a long time.
I'll start with the issues, and I think number one is the items, which affects the game twofold. First is there's a completely fucked up weapon upgrade system. Literally after I get a shiny new sword, barely an hour later I've gotten another one. It's like Square didn't track when a player should get trying out something new. The second is the rewards for exploration or epic battles don't matter. There are maybe a dozen different upgrade materials in the whole game, most of which you get pretty early on. So I'm literally running around the final area and finding fucking sharp fangs, which I started collecting way back in the beginning when Clive was like fifteen. Yeah, (some) bounties have good drops, but I literally defeated Bahamut and got forty bloody hides, of which I already owned hundreds. None of the accessories felt like game changers either, so opening up treasure chests felt like meh. You need a sort of nice reward for effort. If I'm gonna walk across the map for some distant treasure, it better not be five of what I already have hundreds of. It's annoying because they put so much effort into everything else, so literally hiring one dude whose sole job is this I feel shouldn't've been hard.
Then there are regular battles. Let me say this first: boss battles were amazing and I was completely satisfied with them. But XVI suffered from the same issue as Hogwarts Legacy: too little variation in enemies and you're way overleveled early on. There's no incentive to fight regular enemies on the map because you're not getting much EXP since you're already way over, their drops are pointless like every other item, so they're more or less just an annoyance you avoid. I didn't put any effort in trying basic encounters, and I beat the game one level below max. So what's the point. Given how much effort Square put into the battle system, it's a shame they didn't let me flex my muscles with it more often.
This is a personal preference but I think others would agree: I'm a big environments fiend, and you don't get to explore any of the major cities. Hell, you never see the Iron Kingdom's capital even in a cutscene. The cities are just dungeons, so you're basically there as a continuous fight so you don’t have time to appreciate the surroundings, and when you do everything is in the process of being destroyed or already is. You don’t even get to visit what should be a moderately sized town, Port Isolde, and even Northreach felt like a minor checkpoint before the capital moved. All that's left are small towns or even just hovels. I wonder if they were trying to save resources on environments; Oriflamme looks amazing from the outside, I can't imagine having the render all of that.
That being said, dungeons are following the trend of a linear path with perhaps a quick diversion for treasure. There's no puzzles, no thought (although a good portion of the time the dungeons are mid-battle of a large attack so there isn't time). XVI isn't alone in this; I've noticed most RPGs in recent years don't do the puzzle route as much anymore.
Another minor complaint is at times they would shove the point down the player's throat until it became fantastical. Yes, slavery is bad and people abuse slaves. However, I cannot imagine even in the cotton-picking South some person would purposefully have other people's slaves be killed by a giant wolf. That is someone else's property. Slaves to that extent are safe from others besides the master. Some dude is not going to go out and start murdering slaves randomly because even the law protects the master's possessions. It just doesn't make any sense.
Now onto the good things: pretty much everything else. The plot is solid and feels like Final Fantasy returning to form. Big crystals that need to be destroyed, kingdoms falling, a higher power controlling things behind the scenes... One thing I appreciate, and I think many recent games have lost this, is XVI had many sidequests that had us check in on friends we've met along the way and continue with their subplots. You never really forget these people and it shows how a network of connections and bonds is maintained. Even Eastpool, which was massacred fairly early on, rises up again much later on.
Another factor that I think is important is I just like Clive a lot. He's also my favorite Final Fantasy protagonist since IX. Don't get me wrong; I did like Lightning but if I ever had to work toward a common goal with her in real life, I probably would punch her in the face. I have no idea how she was ever in the military because she has zero sense of teamwork, and she acts like an asshole to even people who are actively trying to help her. Clive in contrast is very mature, has strong leadership abilities, not overly angry or obnoxious or lonerlike, and is just trying to do good in the world. He does make mistakes, but they're reasonable ones that happen because he didn't have all the information or there were circumstances he couldn't've foreseen, unlike other protagonists who do things you know are wrong and stupid but they do it anyway for the sake of plot. He makes the effort to play with the kids even though he isn't great at it, and they admire him for that. Even when he's angry in the beginning of the game, he's still respectful toward Cid and says, "Thanks for saving me, I have nothing against you or your group, I just have my own path I need to take." He recognizes his own weaknesses, and in such situations seeks assistence or delegates to others. He feels like an actual, filled-out human being, and kudos to whoever wrote him.
The other members of the cast are great too. Jill is very badass but a bit quiet and subdued, but given her time in the Iron Kingdom that's understandable. I thought Joshua would just be a plot point, but he really grew into his own. Cid was fun to be with, and I was sad when he was gone. Gav as always was cool. The enemies were great too. Benedikta died early on, but they threw in a great backstory with the little time they had. Kupka was an idiot and not deep, but you could feel his love and pain. Dion's path was surprising and I never knew what his next step was.
The battle system is definitely the best in the series. It was cool to experiment with each of the summons, and really it can be tailored easily to your style. No one I've asked equipped the same three summons. It feels like they were trying to reach a God of War level of combat, but simultaneously they fumbled on the actual fights. Again, bosses were amazing, but regular fights were just meh. I guess that's why they threw in so many boss fights so frequently.
In terms of music XV was definitely better, but I wouldn't stick my nose up to this. As with many aspects of the game, there were a lot of throwbacks. Prelude and the Final Fantasy Theme came up repeatedly, but also On the Shoulders of Giants had the traditional Final Fantasy regular battle opening. And also randomly for one of the times you fight Ultima, it's the FFI world map theme. I've definitely heard better, but I could listen to this OST on its own. The lyrics however are stupid. From what I'm understanding, they tasked the English translator to provide them, and considering this is the dude that wrote out "such foul attaint may not be sublimed through gainstanding," you can tell where this is going. I'll give a few examples:
A sickle forged of adamant To server the man from his hooded past No more a slave to sorrow's gloom In onychine eyes burn chthonic doom An evil hidng from the sun Blinding, he screameth eschaton immanent Now in its wake yawned lightless abyss Yon gaping maw his circumfix
I feel like this written by a high schooler who believes using as much SAT vocabulary they just learned makes them sound more intelligent. I don't know why anyone would compose this.
Visually it's all right. XV had a prettier environment, but this wasn't bad, especially when you're walking around Rosaria. I touched on how you never explore epic architecture, but the nature is beautiful. Unfortunately in the second half of the game when everything goes to shit, the world gets this haze over it and nothing is appealing to look at (which isn't unusual; other Final Fantasies, especially VI had catastrophic situations in the second half of the game). I guess that's kinda the point; the Blight is wiping out everything and actually Clive's efforts could ultimately be for naught and it's too late.
Which is how I'm going to end: It's a very depressing game. There's a lot of death, a lot of tragedy, a lot of loss. Clive lives a totally fucked up life, and he's not alone. The fact I still enjoyed this never-ending sadness demonstrates how well it was done. Totally recommend, play it as soon as you can.
Also... can we address that whole Barnabas and his mom thing? They had literally one scene with that and never mentioned it again. What the fuck was with that?
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thessalian · 4 months ago
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Thess vs the Bank Holiday Blues
Currently doing the mental health evaluation and ... well, sometimes you just do everything you possibly can and you're still fucking struggling. Which fucking blows, thank you very much.
I've gone through the checklist. I've eaten. I've hydrated. I slept recently. Technically my "meds for neuropathic pain" are an antidepressant so I can't even say I need meds. As for therapy ... well, been there, done that, developed the coping mechanisms. But mental health-wise? I am struggling to cope at this point.
To be fair, this is largely external factors. This is the realisation that I was very much right about literally nothing changing in this country when we got a Labour government, because now they're saying, "Well, the Tories lied about the massive financial hole they left so we have to scrap all our infrastructure promises, cut the winter fuel allowance, and let the energy companies jack up their prices right at the start of autumn" and it's getting to a point where I wonder if they're just trying to kill the old people so they don't have to pay their state pension.
This is seeing some of the short-sighted bullshit going on in the US in the run-up to their own election. Because I know a whole lot about populist garbage and people making protest votes without thinking about what they're doing, okay? Our general elections here aren't the best example of it, but I have a better one - Brexit. We ended up leaving the EU for a few very simple reasons: a) populist wankers like Johnson and Farage lied through their teeth to win the racist vote; b) some people didn't really want to leave the EU but didn't like how the EU was going about things so voted leave in protest; or c) figured that Leave couldn't actually win and so didn't bother voting. Now, does any of that sound familiar?!? All you have to do is add d) third options that will never win but take the vote away from the sensible choice and you've basically got the US right now. And this country destroyed itself at least partly based on that one stupid badly-planned referendum. The US can't survive another Trump term, I can't actually do anything about the stupids that might allow Trump to take the election, and I have too many people I love in that country to be anything less than terrified. I know that my feelings are valid, I know I can't spend too much emotional energy on something I can't change, but still.
My situation is still not great. It's never going to be, and I know that, just because of circumstance. I guess it's just harder to keep from being depressed about my disability when so much else is weighing me down. I try to keep counting my blessings, because I have a lot of those. Still, no matter how hard you try, some days everything that's wrong seems so big that you're kind of stuck squished. That and probably the Bank Holiday Blues. I mean, I don't work Mondays anyway, but there's a different vibe to the world on Bank Holiday Mondays.
Right. I just need to take my mind off the blues. One of the blessings I can count is that my last therapist was basically the best. She didn't focus on the diagnosis as handed down from the psychs (which was almost definitely a standard "ADHD is often misdiagnosed as BPD in women" thing) and instead looked at my symptoms and my previous coping methods, and helped me hone them into something healthier. Some people would call what I do "avoidance" and "escapism"; I call it "therapeutic hyperfocus". I've done every healthy thing I can to improve my mood, so if the mood's still there, and hyperfocusing on, like, a video game or something keeps me grounded until it blows over, I do that.
Of course, then I have to pick which video game, but I do have a playthrough of BG3 that I am determined to complete, and nothing says "hyperfocus" like "game you've played a few times before but will still hold a couple of surprises because Dice Be Like That". And I deserve some fun after having had to spend most of Saturday in bed because migraine and exhaustion.
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uglyduckling339 · 2 months ago
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KY'S LIFE IS STRANGE DOUBLE EXPOSURE NONSENSE LIVEBLOG: The Tutorial
(spoilers under cut) (do not take this seriously lmfao this is me basically talking to myself) (this will make ZERO sense without playing the game or watching it btw)
um.. where do i start
firstly that fucking qr code is rhe genuine bane of my existance. i spent 7 minutes tryna get it to work for basically nothing.
also !! the settings menu was hella fucking confusing and i got lost tryna change the captions (skill issue on my part ngl)
anyways so intro to the game: music was ass and i was confused why the door was being shook so gently until Max Fucking Caulfield wandered in😭 10/10 shock value worked tho cuz i didnt think that she was breaking into a broken room until her face appeared on screen
Safi is very cutesy in both a physical manner and a personality manner but her jokes are so hit or miss lmao
Max caulfield stealing that toy and joking abt stealing stuff??? talk abt character growth
i fucking HATE THE NEW CAMERA ARGGGGGGGG i keep fucking up my pics
Hot take i think safi and max are equally sexy in this new game GOD DAMNN
nvm maybe not equal. i'd let safi hit so fast tbh ("boss"??)
ALSO !! HER REWIND GETTING REMOVED POST-STORM IS CANON !!!! *
i've been saying this since the trailers but max's voice sounds so fucking weird in this (and yeah ik its not THAT diff from the og voice, but something abt it is irking me and idk what) (no hate to hannah telle)
nobody:
this game: fun fact !! safi's mom is the principal of the school! her mom! safi's mother! mom! mother! safi's ! principal !
god shut the fuck up i get it bro
FLASHBACK SCENEE
Ik its not just me who thinks this but istg they musta refilmed these scenes cuz chloe and max both sound hella odd (maybe i am trippin tho)
CHLOE! HAUNTING! THE! NARRATIVE!
smooth cut between chloe and safi's voice 10/10
i know the fandom is gonna be in fucking shambles over those choices so i'm holding my opinions off until i form a bigger analysis on it
I don't hate Amanda but i do hate rhat the game is pushing her on us so hard **
Also reminder to check yalls texts!! theres no journal but half of the shit i've seen complanted abt is referenced in the texts/posts
Chloe and Max having issues long before rhe breakup is so nice to see tbh. i'm glad it wasn't just a one comment plot choice.
also the issues primarily stemming from Max's trauma and her need to run is so good i can't wait to yap abt it
god off topic i am fucking DREADING the fandom. im so worried abt us tbh
okay back to the game, I think Amanda is really nice but I'm not gonna romance her day one cuz idk how to feel abt her yet
okay theory time! i think if chloe was actually IN the game, she'd be with a band in the Turtle bar. seen in the pink twitter, chloe "performs". i think she'd totes pull up at perform at the bar (once again im not saying if i think its very likely or nah but its a cool idea at least)
ALSO VICTORIA CHASE IS ALIVE :DDD AND BESTIES WITH CHLOE???
i'm only using pink twitter to watch Chloe and Vic ngl idgaf abt nun u other hoes
did u all a HUGE favor and tested rhe other option w rhe bottle cap.
on that note do the candy not the bag
shit like ts makes me miss rewind :(
animal symbolism my beloved
i think thats all? OH WAIT okay so i actually love safi. she's so weird and cringe but in a subsitute teacher way. it's a vibe and i would romance her w Max if i was given a choice (im gonna get hate mail again for rhat comment arent i 💀😭)
so far i really don't hate rhe game. it's glitchy in ways rhat for 80$ it shouldn't be but so far i've only had one actual issue so i'm not too pressed abt it. (for me, Safi keeps jumping between visible and invisible during cut scenes.)
I think the in game music is fire, but the actual "songs" aren't allthat good. tbh tho thats a personal opinion lmfao
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yellowocaballero · 2 years ago
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of the fandoms you have written for, which ones would you genuinely recommend? (like, should I play half life?)
That's a difficult one! It's hard for me to give very broad recommendations, "everybody should watch this, because everybody will like it". I can normally really only just list my favorites and the reasons why, and let people see if they're interested or not.
It's also double difficult because I mostly write fanfic for works I find like...5/10 - 7/10. If I like something too much I don't write fic for it - it's like painting on the Mona Lisa, lmfao. There needs to be a sweet spot of 'good enough for my brain to chew on it, has enough untapped soil and potential that there's blanks to fill in'. If I really, really love something, I'm just like...wow, I really love that! I'm very satisfied with that experience and there's nothing I would want to add or change! Anyway! So all of my favorite works that I would recommend without reservation aren't things I would write for.
That being said, my Animorphs, Buffy, and Artemis Fowl works were written from a place of deep love for the source materials. I can't recommend any of those without reservations, but they were written because the source material was very special to me. Other things I've written because I hate the source material. Detroit: Become Human is very bad.
If you're thinking, 'I might want to get into The Magnus Archives!', I do want to suggest that you read some transcripts of I Am In Eskew first. IAIE is my favorite podcast, and it basically did what TMA tried to do a thousand times better. It's incredible. 'Paining on the Mona Lisa' situation.
Similarly, if you're interested in comics, I'd have to recommend specific authors or runs over characters.
So - Half-Life is a classic, and makes the list of 'best of' games. It's acknowledged as one of the best FPS shooters of all time. So if you're the kind of person who likes 90s FPSes that are very light on plot, then it's a great example!
Sorry that's not super helpful haha. I don't actually think I can recommend without reservations anything I've written for. Either it's like The Magnus Archives (which was pretty good, but I really never feel the urge to re-listen or anything) or it's like Animorphs (incredibly high art that in some instances was either just really fucking dumb or really did not age well).
Play/watch a Let's Play of The World Ends With You. It builds character.
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retphienix · 2 years ago
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(a lot of) Oberon stuff
I decided instead of using my stockpile of forma for farming more kuva and tenet weapons for mastery rank fodder, I'd dump them into oberon because...I mean, why not
tbh, I just kinda like them. They were one of my first faves years and years ago and I haven't really touched them in years because, surprise surprise, they are/have been/continue to be kinda "mid" as power creep and buffs have spread to other frames.
AT LEAST for a layman player. Some tuber with maxed arcanes and 30k plat can probably post some build claiming Oberon is the best because he can't die, as if the arcanes aren't doing the heavy lifting lmao.
Despite that, they have always been my favorite support frame on an aesthetic and conceptual level, and I've always been annoyed that the druid healer frame is pretty much the worst healer in the game with Trinity spamming free full heals with free DR, Wisp being BUSTED (love her), and now Citrine just casually giving everyone free DR- HoTs as a passive- and orbs (also LOVE her).
ANYWAY, I sat down and theorycrafted some stuff, I was THIS close to putting my stockpile of umbra forma into him and just making him a pseudo tank that kept up phoenix renewal (maybe another day, and a second oberon prime lmao because I'm not overwriting all my hard work).
The plan was to basically push his armor and health to the extremes and just kinda, exist. Okay, saying it out loud sounds boring, so I'm glad I didn't do it, but I did really want to push his power strength high as hell while tagging on Primed Flow and some basic eff/duration to keep renewal going alongside all the beefed defenses.
I deleted that build idea so here's a mock up that's clearly inaccurate since it's lacking the flow etc but that tasty Effective Health was the goal (I'd have definitely used some staples like rolling guard etc instead of like gladiator resolve):
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At the last minute I decided to do some browsing for other ideas and I came across some niche steel path gimmicks abusing quadratic scaling from ragdolling enemies interacting with his Reckoning augment.
tl;dr, stack enemies, use reckoning augment, silly funny extremely good things happen.
Now at first I figured the build just wasn't for me, but the more I thought on it, and the more I tweaked it for my own enjoyment and not just copying the max/min setup, the more it sounded interesting to try.
So I did it.
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He's not done just yet, obviously. No subsume because the intended subsume is Gyre's to grant better energy economy and abuse the whole "ragdoll + reckoning = broken" thing, so I'm not even utilizing the interaction yet.
Also few shards, needs more shards.
Also it's still a work in progress- I'd like to toss on at least 1 go-to survival mod on him, but I haven't decided what I want to axe to do that. I'm thinking rolling guard for more leeway since he's shield gating (my first real build to abuse the mechanic) but figuring the values out on this build was tight enough without thinking "Oh, one more mod!" so we'll see. He can currently survive just fine in steel path content owed mostly to the CC of the mass radiation, tbh, and that might not even be an issue if the gyre interaction works out to just making everything too dead to hurt him in the first place. We'll see.
But the gist of him, as he currently exists, is pretty simple.
He nukes with his 4 and uses his 2 to ignore status / the need for primed sure footed on steel path builds.
The augment for his 4 is fucking fantastic thanks entirely to it scaling off range.
Too bad this patch note isn't right and it's still bugged and can revert to the 3m starting range whenever it wants in online content :/
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Regardless, I mostly wanted to ramble on the short design journey on making this new build because the mid-point-result has been EXTREMELY fun to play lately.
Sure, he's not getting much use out of his renewal, and he's not enjoying the silly fun of smite infusion, and he's lacking some core parts to his build (that subsume is like 2 days out), BUT! As is, as a max range shield gating nuker, he's having a lot of fun. You know, when warframe doesn't decide to remove the range mod effect for no reason.
I honestly hadn't ever thought of making him into a nuker before, so mostly the novelty is making it fun.
I have only ever tried making oberon a mass CC gardener who keeps renewal up for that armor bonus, or a mass healer with eff/duration to allow it, or a smite infuser to assist groups with being weapon platforms.
Nuker never appealed to me because his 4 never appealed to me, his 2 and 3 were my faves and his 1 (with augment) was a simple radiation buffer.
Using his 4 so much and to such great effect is honestly just fun lol
Good stuff.
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doodlemancy · 9 months ago
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i drew this roughly a year into an ordeal that started in february of 2014 that has shaped my life for the worse ever since. it looks like complete ass, because A. i wasn't as good an artist in 2015 and B. i was in a lot of fucking pain when i was drawing it.
today, i finally saw an orthopedic specialist who did NOT brush me off. i have a new diagnosis of "tendonitis of the shoulder and wrists". which is very common stuff. very easy to spot if you know what questions to ask and know what to look for; i had suspected it for years. after two years without a diagnosis, i had given up and tried to adapt on my own, and i did a pretty good job all things considered! but things got worse again in December of 2023, worse than they've been in a while, and i crashed and burned.
tendonitis is very treatable. i'm going to PT soon. there's plenty of reason to believe that even if i can't make a full recovery at this point, there's a lot of room for me to get better. but i've had 10 years of my life stolen from me. i haven't been able to work a full-time job partly because of this. i haven't been able to improve all of the skills i want to because i'm so limited in what i can do in a day. i don't have the stamina to do things i want to do, like sometimes open commissions or release a new full illustration at least once a month. i've missed out on a lot of video games; i don't get to play or finish many of them because it's too painful and i can't justify the flare-ups it tends to cause. it's been a real fucking bummer of a decade for me.
goddamn tendonitis. my entire life was upended by an extremely common type of RSI because i was not taken seriously by doctors. because, you know. a young woman? it's probably her wandering uterus, or depression or something. i have been abused and gaslit and neglected so much that i can't get a decent blood pressure reading inside a doctor's office anymore because i am so, so afraid of being abused. i was at one point told that my pain was just depression, tried an SSRI, and found out the hard way that i have a sensitivity to them that results in extreme anxiety and panic attacks. one of my useless visits in 2015 ended in, i am not kidding (but i also won't go into detail) a nurse practitioner assaulting me. i dropped out of college, got traumatized, got assaulted, got two new phobias... because i had goddamn tendonitis and nobody believed it. imagine if you went to the doctor with a bad ear infection and they went "sounds like depression", left the room, came back with a folding chair and just started whacking you with it. honestly, if it had all happened that quickly instead of a slow-drip of mistreatment it'd have saved me a lot of time.
diagnosis could have happened years ago. years ago. years ago. but my doctors didn't think anything real could be wrong with a 22 year old woman, and the trauma of how badly i was mistreated in 2014 kept me discouraged and scared. so here i am, nearly 33, still in pain, still suffering. spent last night basically having a prolonged panic attack.
there's no recourse for me. there will be no justice for any of this. i don't have the evidence or the stamina for a legal battle. i've at least reported the nurse practitioner who assaulted me, but i have no proof, so it'll probably never go anywhere unless she hurts other people (and i would prefer that didn't happen!).
but i made it. i'm still here. i adapted, i got a bit more productive through my own efforts, enough to start a SHOP! and i finally worked up the courage to try to get diagnosed and treated again.
if i could go back in time, this would be my advice to myself: -never give your full trust to a general practitioner or a nurse practitioner. they're note dispensers, mostly. they can handle simple stuff like needing some sudafed or w/e but mostly they exist to get you a note for work and a referral to someone who actually knows things. if they aren't helping you, learn what kind of specialist you need and tell them you want a referral. -ESPECIALLY never trust a general practitioner who wants to prescribe you antidepressants. they don't know what they're doing with that shit! those are life-saving drugs, but if they go wrong, there can be serious consequences and you need proper support from someone who knows more about mental health than how to give you a depression assessment survey. -show up with a page of bullet-point notes of what's going on, what you've tried, what works, what doesn't work, etc. and just hand that sucker over. make them read it. they can read faster than you can talk, and they'll get your organized thoughts rather than your nervous rambling.
-practice your self-advocacy. have conversations with an imaginary doctor in the shower. decide what you're going to say if it sounds like they're going to dismiss you.
-bring a notepad. visibly take notes during appointments. (you know the notebook scene in Hot Fuzz? that shit works on doctors.)
-if you have someone you trust who's willing to come to your appointment and be in the room, a lot of doctors suddenly become WAY MORE HELPFUL when they're no longer the only person in the room with the patient.
and to all doctors who are sexist, fatphobic, racist, ableist, otherwise bigoted, or just plain full of themselves and fucking dismissive of their patients: if there were such a thing as hell, you'd belong there. if my shoulder gets any better i might dig it myself.
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I drew this a few months ago when I was hopeless and waiting to see a new doctor, sat on it when I thought it was actually gonna be ok this time… and now the cycle has repeated YET AGAIN :)
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autisticlee · 3 months ago
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"just be your self! it solves all your problems/makes everything better!"
except you're a person where being yourself gets you severely bullied, abused, and/or neglected. it makes everyone hate and abandon you and leaves you with no connections or support or anything. sometimes you're disabled and need to rely on others to live and they simply refuse because they don't like the real you. sometimes it leads people to purposely harm you because they don't like who you are. sometimes you can't simply avoid those people because they're your family you need to live with and cant simply move out, classmates you cant change, or coworkers at a job you can't afford to quit. it can even cause people to physically harm you because they are hateful. sometimes you can't escape them before they inflict their harm. sometimes people purposely sabotage your life because they decide they don't like you and sometimes you can't do anything about it. sometimes you can't get anywhere in life like in a career because you aren't liked enough and can't play social games to please others.
yeah maybe you have the benefit of not pretending, not wearing a mask, not trying to live to peoples expectations, but sometimes that majorly backfires, and some people don't seem to understand that.
"BEING YOURSELF" ISN'T ALWAYS THE ONE AND ONLY PERFECT SOLUTION. SOMETIMES ITS NOT SAFE. SOMETIMES YOU CANT AFFORD TO "NOT GIVE A FUCK" AND SOMETIMES IT SIMPLY DOESNT BENEFIT YOU AND YOUR LIFE FOR MANY REASONS.
wheres the support for us people out here being ourselves but still struggling with life sucking?! where support for us people who are being ourselves and still have no support from other people or friends? why do you all only respond to us that we ~still aren't being ourselves correctly/still care too much what people think"??????
if we aren't being ourselves correctly, aren't you basically telling us to care what you think and be what you want? what if I don't want to listen to your nonsense? and we care too much what people think still?? would you not care if someone threatened your life or even tried to take it because they don't like you?! if you were stuck with disabilities and no support because the only people around you abuse you for being yourself?
maybe think about this next time you think this is perfect advice everyone should follow and want to argue with them if they say it doesn't help.
and just because someone might point out that "being yourself" hasn't helped them/is actibely harming them, doesn't mean they are currently *trying to be someone else/make people like them/care what others think/gave up being themsleves* so telling them they aren't doing it right is not going to help!!!!
me for example, I only like what I like, do what I want. I always ignore and turn people down because I don't like their things or they try to insult me and my things. im known to be blunt/straightforward and "make conversations all about my special interests (hobbies for you nonautistics)" and don't care if others hate it. I have no control over how I am or act because of autism and adhd and dissociating so I can't even "pretend" or mask anyway. what you see is what you get with me. and I don't care if people don't like me individually. i'm not actively *trying* to make people like me. maybe that's why it seems like no one ever does
what I do care about is people purposely harming me because they dont like who I am (because it hurts? how do you not care about that while it's happening lmao). I care about the fact that I scare everyone away with being myself and "the right people" haven't magically showed up yet, I care I have no support, no companionship in life, im forced to be alone and cant share things i enjoy or "myself" with others. I do everything alone. i'm disabled so that's VERY HARD and unsatisfying and even dangerous!!!! but I have no choice.
again I don't care of individually people don't like me or the things I like/do or whatever. their judgements don't hurt me. their physical harm and abusive mind games hurt me. and the fact that being myself pushes away everyone until i'm the only one left is what bothers me. because is it my fault or theirs? don't know! Who cares. but it's very hard due to my circumstances to be completely alone and only have people against me because they dont like the "self" I am and don't connect with me and things I enjoy and there's just no connections or ways to bond! and I dint have the privilege of meeting enough new people due to living in a small restricted area/life conditions and being disabled and not having the energy to talk to 100 people a month to try weeding out all the bad ones until I find the single good one! (I did that the last couple months and i'm now so burnt out that i'm having really bad physical disability symptoms and mental regression-like symptoms. so what do you want from me?! how is "being myself" solving my porblems if they're still here or getting worse?! I don't get it!!!!!
to be fair, when I was doing the little masking I was able to do growing up to try avoid being bullied,,,,,it didn't help. so I gave up and accepted the no friends/abuse/bullying/neglect, believing people "one day it will get better" but im tired of waiting for " one day. " nothing has changed by "becoming my true self" there's no difference. I still have no friends. my needs are still neglected. I still get bullied by strangers and abused by "friends" so it's not a solution. i get the idea. the stress and pressure of putting on a play and being a character can be too hard. thinking about everyone's opnions every time you dp anything can be too much to handle. but not doing that anymore doesn't automatically make everything better. it hasn't made it better for me. I can't make people like me. but I also can't make them stop treating me like shit or help me. liking myself and helping myself only gets me so far before I hit a wall I can't get over alone. but when I look beside me, I see some bullies pulling me down and no people that like me in sight. don't try to *make* people like you sure. but not having anyone that likes you makes life very difficult. admit it! being yourself does not make people automatically like you!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 maybe i'm just a horrible person that thinks too highly of myself to realize I don't know!
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faint-kitten · 4 months ago
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I'll tell you when I knew we were cooked and I hated the rich.
There was a show called "Comedians in Cars getting coffee" and it was at the height of covid when i couldn't afford shit. It's Jerry Seinfeld in an expensive car, and his comedian buddies showing up, while they go get a cup of coffee and like, Jim Carrey, Ellen Degeneres and all these rich comedians crying about how hard their lives are and gasing each other up, while driving around and living in Oppulance I'd never afford, and I was like... I know they aren't billionaires, they're not the worst. Okay, like they're all problematic in some way, but they're millionaires not billionaire CEO types, right? But I remember that was it. That was the tipping point. That's when Faint was like: Fucking hell people are struggling to eat and netflix is like: here have the comedians doing some fucking Hunger Games ass shit right in front of you while you starve, and here's a billion ads for hello fresh, and better help, and vacations you'll never afford, and cars you'll never afford, and house insurance you'll never fucking need, because you'll never own a home. Then, every streaming service started to charge more and more money, and then they were like "Oh you can pay the price you can't afford (3 dollars more) and watch ads, OR pay this price you DEFINITELY can't afford, and not get ads ever again." And that was sort of it? That's when I like stopped. I don't eat out because everythings like 20-30 bucks just for a meal. I don't go to the movies bc I can't afford them. I don't have any streaming services bc I can't afford them so I just DON'T HAVE TV. I sit around looking for a job, running out of money, playing fortnite or apex, and waiting for the days I can drink. Like...we're meant to be more than this? Like what the fuck are we doing? How the fuck did I suddenly need 22 dollars to live a life I could afford on 15 an hour 8 years ago? And in the middle of all of that, I was losing weight these last 2 years and suddenly discovered a lump right under my nipple where breast cancer is supposed to form.
And I suddenly realized, this was fucking it. I either died, or went into debt for the rest of my life. The fuck kind of choice is that, and then people still come out and act like the new Assassin's creed fucking matters. I need glasses. I need car insurance. I need new Vehicle registration. I need new car tires. I need a new job. I'm burning through my retirement, and meanwhile there are people who will never ever worry about this basic shit because they "worked hard for it." Let me tell you a secret. I used to work in injection Molding at my old job. I was hired in over the woman they interviewed, bc it was a boys club. All boy managers, and all boy employees in positions of authority. They didn't like her. So they picked my stupid ass. We got trained up, but what we did? We could literally have taught half of the glitches and fixes to the operators. It wasn't THAT technical. But we gate kept it, and justified our bigger paychecks and sitting around, saying we'd "earned it" and "you wouldn't understand. it's too technical." It was bullshit. I realized later we were bullshitting them, trying to make it seem hard, bc we realized our jobs were bullshit and easily replaced. Anyone could do what we did. There was no reason for them to make 9 dollars less than us, but we justified all these special perks and sitting around when nothing was going on as "We earned this. We deserve it." It was horseshit then. It's fucking horseshit when rich cunts say it. When life gets good, when you finally crawl out of that shitty pit, captialism literally wants you to be terrified of going back, to the point you HELP keep your fellow workers down, instead of standing together. There's no fucking reason for this many people to be fucking poor. No one should have to risk jail stealing things just to get something to eat. McDonalds shouldn't fucking be a treat for people making 20 dollars an hour. It was kind of the moment I was like: This is bullshit? Why can't we just fucking live? Like I don't care what job I work, as long as I can afford my life and I find it challenging. This was kind of all over the place, but it's a crock is my point. It's all a crock.
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