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allofuswantgwinam · 4 days ago

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i’m sorry but i’m so fuckin thirsty for evil hyun su

#sweet home #liiiike i want the good one back for the plot #and also bc i love him #but 💀#bad thoughts in the brain rn #sinful bad things #‘what do you wanna do?’ shoot me rn #i woulda fucked him #i am not strong #idk 🤣🤣🤣🤣😭😭#i woulda been strong and then not strong so fast #and then back to business after the nasty 🤣🤣🤣🤣#im not even on that episode anymore and im still thinking about it lmao

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thekittyokat · 8 months ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago

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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

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bows4tyun · 3 months ago

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get me pregnant get me pregnant get me pregnant get me pregnant please i beg you choi soobin

#not okay right now #he needs to get me pregnant #i have such bad baby fever rn #I need a baby from choi soobin #soobin please #soobin brain rot #soobin hard thoughts #(🍈) 𝑙𝑒𝑥𝑖 𝑟𝑎𝑚𝑏𝑙𝑒𝑠 !! ── .✦#(🪨) 𝑙𝑒𝑥𝑖'𝑠 𝚑𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑡𝚑𝑜𝑢𝑔𝚑𝑡𝑠 !! ୭ ˚.⁺⊹ .ᐟ

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padfootastic · 22 days ago

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god lesbian prongsfoot just. goes so hard

#prongsfoot #i don’t have thoughts rn bc brain is mush #the pleasant kind #but this has been marinating in my head for a long time #since my last lesbian pf post actually lmao #i wanna write fic for it so bad #but #we’re not there yet #the marination is still very incomplete #but one day

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mangymvtt · 8 months ago

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wanna be in puppyspace so bad right now 😵‍💫

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genericpuff · 2 months ago

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Fighting off cold and flu has always been difficult for me and it's only getting harder as I get older. I find the transitioning from being "sick in bed" back to "functioning person" can often be the hardest part, especially when it comes to congestion which can take days if not weeks to clear up, so even if I'm able to walk around, do basic tasks, etc. I'm uncomfortable the whole way through. At least when it comes to my back pain, that's something that I'm used to and can predict and accommodate; getting sick is none of those things.

What's making it even more difficult this time around, compared to every other time, is the fact that I went from being healthy and medicated to sick and unmedicated. So that transition back into "functioning" is being slowed further by my returning inability to focus, to push myself through the uncomfortable feeling of doing literally anything, to be at peace with boredom.

Every single time I want to do anything that isn't laying in bed, it's met with both "I don't know if I'm physically capable of doing that because I'm sick" and "I don't know if I'm mentally capable of doing that because I'm off my meds."

And it's incredibly exhausting.

#self post #update #off topic #idk sorry for whining on main #my brain just. feels awful rn #part of me thought “huh i don't think being unmedicated is actually causing me issues”#but now that i'm on my third day (???) without meds i'm not feeling so sure LMAO #and for anyone wondering why i'm not taking them #it's because i have to play triage with my meds and treatment #i don't want to be stacking decongestants - some of which are designed to make me drowsy - on top of concerta which is a stimulant #this would kill the liver LMAO and also my brain would become an even bigger mess than it already is #so considering i'm on bedrest i've just decided to forgo taking my concerta meds until i don't need to be hopped up on sinus pills #then once the worst of the sick has passed and i can get by without needing pain and congestion relief i can go back on concerta #thankfully i was only on 18mg anyways so the crash isn't as bad as it would have been if i was taking stronger doses #but it still sucks and it means i'm at war both with the flu and my ADHD u.u

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ontosgold · 9 months ago

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I adore sun/moon ryomina dynamic... but specifically how ryoji is the moon to makoto's sun. in the way that the moon is a reflection of the sun's light. without the sun there is so moon, but also the moon brings meaning to the sun's existence...

#augh sorry brainrotting over them and i need to put my thoughts out there somewhere #they mean soooo much to me they're like my favourite version of the sun/moon ship dynamic ever #I've been listening to colour your night A Lot while working on uni work lately and yeah. yeah...#the moon's favourite little guy... who happens to be the sun he needs to catch a glimpse of what living is like on earth #also i love so much how it doesn't reflect they're personalities like you'd typically expect it to #like the outwardly gloomy and quiet sun... and the sociable and upbeat moon.... aauuhhgh yeah they're so special to me #also I've just been internally clawing at the walls lately bcs i wanna draw ryominas SO BAD but #I've been swamped in uni work lately #so this is how im getting the thoughts out of my brain rn. otherwise i feel like I'd go insane #ryomina #ontos.text

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crow-with-a-pencil · 2 years ago

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@naffeclipse

Them ❤️

#HOLD ON IMMA RAMBLE IN TAGS #my ârt #fnaf daycare attendant #cryptid sightings #naffeclipse #OKOKok so maybe I got busy with school for a few weeks there and couldn't keep up #BUT last week I finally sat down and read like 6 chapters in a row #and my stars I am bouncing off the walls #naff naff listen these demon guys live in my brain #this is exactly how I got excited during sleuth jesters naff you have sorcery #good lord you know how to write tension and foreshadowing #I have theories I have thoughts but I truly just want to see all the guns placed on stage and they are about to go off I can feel it #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh their emotional conflict is killing me and ripping my heart out #they want to say something so bad but also protect the bean bc they're clearly scared and they're gonna freak out but #can they calm the heart down before it runs away?#naff I am not joking this is literally my favorite thing rn #anyway it's almost 2am have a lovely night!!!!#friend fanart #tw blood

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skunkes · 3 months ago

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not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.

anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.

like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.

I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.

this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it

#skunk mail #Anonymous #ill be in a car with my dad fighting tears thinking about how ill miss it one day and there's no way for my brain to capture the moment and #make a simulation of it. and even then that wouldnt help. ykwim #sometimes i sit in my parents room while my parents and brother are there and i cant stop thinking about when ill see them for the last tim #and how i wish i could full really truly wring every last drop of ''appreciation'' from the moment.#i think about that time isnt linear thing. how everything that has happened or will happen exists on its own #and i think about the cheye experiencing the After tragedy. and i cant handle it. not now or then. i envy the past cheye #even the one of 5 seconds ago. because that was 5 seconds ive lost. 5 seconds closer to events that will #separate my life into Before and After. over and over again #(like you said anon. i think abt that all the time too)#i think this is also why im struggling with the thought of moving out #we all have so little time. dont even get me started on the fear and grief i feel for my own life #not only fearing dying but fearing the lead up where ive lost and cried over much. just me. alone.#ill never see them again. it will never be today again. we'll never be in my parents room like today again. i cant take it.#even if i spend every last second with everybody i still wont be able to take it. i cant believe it #human beings that were all somebody's baby once. tomorrow it will be like they were never here at all. all their memories #go with them. it hurts so bad. i cant take it #i cant even breathe rn ruminating abt it *peace sign emoji*

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lannisterdaddyissues · 6 months ago

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god why am i so fucking stupid. having adhd is truly a curse and i hate bearing it

#not to vent on main but. fml actually!#in my health assessment lab we had this case study assignment to do and i freaking. misunderstood all of it so bad #idk why but for some reason i thought we were supposed to make up a patient ourselves for it #…we were not #no :) we were not :) there’s a freaking. TEMPLATE for the exact patient we were supposed to do it on in the module #that i opened once and then forgot about because adhd just works like that #and now im literally . kmsing because we fucking . we fucking presented these orally in class #and i was only half paying attention bc i was (incorrectly) documenting my (made-up) patient information on the record #and i thought it was weird that like 2 or 3 people seemed to have VERY similar patients but did not question it further #…which is to say. i may be stupid.#and now i feel like dying because im gonna have to email my professor and TELL HER how stupid i am #and hope that she takes enough pity on me and my cursed brain to let me do it over properly #because my lab grade is now barely a 77 and i need a 75 to pass. and our final assessment is tomorrow.#i genuinely cannot live like this anymore im serious #i need a fucking brain transplant #anyway tl;dr guys please pray for me please please please im actually disintegrating rn #to delete later

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demonlineswhore · 4 months ago

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I really need Christopher to do so many disrespectful things to me rn🥴

#bang chan #bang chan smut #like the brain rot is so bad rn #I was rewatching his railway performance #why did I do this to myself #he’s so fine I cannot #bang chan hard thoughts #bang chan hard hours #christopher bang #stray kids #stray kids hard hours #stray kids hard thoughts #he’s so chase Atlantic coded

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dailykugisaki · 7 months ago

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Day 223 | id in alt

Maki thinking some very unsorcererly things over a piece of damn cheesecake.

(Read from right to left💥)

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #zenin maki #inumaki toge #its always the cheesecake tbh #cheese cake isn't bad i think it depends on the type for me tbh sometimes it takes too....cakey....???#fuck i dont even know #ive had some very good cheesecake in my life and man im trying to rob a relative of her recipe #anyway. Maki had a strict diet because of the clan but because Kugisaki showed up and found out her love of junkfood....#it all came crashing down VERY quickly #Kugisaki indulges Maki and vice versa. its kinda funny how they're both violent enablers of eachother #Not pointing fingers but if you're gonna be vauge in the comments then get out or post up in the asks #tell me what ails you #for the other people #these two are fucking deranged idk what their issue is but im sure ill figure it out sometime #im getting there nobamaki enjoyers im getting there TRUST TRUST #time to get hysterically distracted while i write the description of the images #suddenly everything turns into cocomelon #i fucked up the placement but yknow my ass #Kugisaki and Maki are just too silly they're trying to exist but they're so fucked up #my silliest silly #Maki has only the faintest idea of fucked up connections and nobody talks about how shes absolutely abysmal at it #my brain is envisioning Kugisaki with a brick and that's it rn #Beyonce songs are playing #am i hallucinating #the fucked up spoon....lordt #thought about those wack bitches with those wide ass necks and cried #i hope you all imagine everytime i type shit in the tags that its of those stressed ass evangelion screams

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the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see · 9 months ago

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finally caved and started reading all for the game. two chapters into the foxhole court and what kind of gay fucking shit is this! also did not know there were sports in here

#idk whats going on i thought it was like the raven cycle with magic and shit its called the foxhole court??? no fae???? what the fuck!!!#and i cant understand whats happening with the sports. i didnt get it. i hope i dont need to i just know kevin is top dog of the bad dogs #neil is mid mid except hes got a death wish so they want him carnally???#ill be reading it super slowly bc im busy but i can feel it slowly turning up the heat on my brain cells as i read. they are burning.#ive got naught but ten #and neil's not neil but he is and he has a bag of secrets he's hiding in someone else's closet like okayyyy go off author fuck whats the #authors name.... nora sakavic FUCK I SHOULDVE KNOWN NEVER TO TRUST A WOMAN NAMED NORA #i dont know...i dont know.... but also the only gay neil i know is the one from dead poets society and its hard to separate the two rn #is the rest of the book going to be like this what did i get myself into. am i mentally prepared #bc i wasnt for trc and it FUCKED! ME! UP! im STILL insane #ugh. ugh. anyway. way gayer than expected. also at one point someone asks ''how safe is safe'' and MY DISAPPOINTMENT #when the answer wasnt safe as life? immeasurable. in fact i had to close the book. went to study accounting.#ACCOUNTING. HELLO?? CAN ANYONE HEAR ME IN HERE???#the tree speaks #all for the game #aftg #what are yalls tags?#neil josten #the raven cycle #trc

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la-galaxie-langblr · 2 months ago

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what is going on w my brain

#huge tag rant coming but dw about it #basically. if anyone here has known me on the internet for long enough yous will have gathered that i badly struggle w motivation and #fulfilling goals that i set for myself even if it's for smth i enjoy eg languages #it happens so often but especially over summer where my brain just goes Nope #“i have all this free time to do the thing I've been planning for weeks and i've been so excited about planning but now we have the time i #will be numb and sad and scroll“#i also have huge problems focusing unless every factor is perfectly balanced and even then it's still 50/50 #i do have a bad attention span from being chronically online but even if you put me in a blank room w my task i'd be distracted by thoughts #external deadlines are some of the only things that can kick me into gear and i've been fine at uni so far #but i'm scared i'll have another a levels situation where my mental health was so awful i missed every essay deadline for french for 2 years #sometimes by up to a month #the only reason i got away w it is because i had a breakdown in front of my teacher and he was like “yeah take care of yourself the essays #are not that deep just get them in first thing after half term ig“#like that was v kind of him but if i ever have a situation that bad again i will genuinely fail uni cus you can't get away w that #where was i going w this (<- is aware of the irony)#right yeah this week i've experienced the epic highs and lows #highs of really enjoying my downtime and putting active effort into my hobbies instead of my downtime being “scrolling but i don't hate it”#but lows of realising how much time i 'wasted' in my teen years feeling sad and scrolling when i could have been developing skills and #having fun #and yeah i'm having a high rn and genuinely enjoying life but it's making me realise that my default state of being is just 😐#like even when i'm at uni where my mental health is so much better than at home when it's just me home alone or in my room i'm just 😐#not really having fun just existing v passively mindlessly scrolling waiting for the day to be over so i can see my friends in the morning #like not every day has to be amazing but surely there's more to life than just 😐 in 99% of your downtime #like i've struggled for years on how to answer “what do you do in your free time” cus i had to search for answers #i read and go on walks. which is true. but they were always things i did as phone breaks during weekends and not something i actively did #because i liked them #and because of past mental health issues reading and sports based hobbies have become tainted for me #i'm working on it but yeah #huge tldr. i'm finally starting to accept that i probably have a combo of undiagnosed mental illness and neurodivergence #because if it's taken me this long to realise how much it truly impacts my enjoyment of life then surely that's smth

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greencloakedfae · 3 months ago

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it doesnt have to be good it just has to exist and be fun to write it doesnt have to be good it just has to exist and be fun to write it doesnt have to be good it just has to exist and be fun to write it doesnt have to

#apparently working a full day and then taking a nap once i got home was a bad idea #writing for no reason other to be nice to my sad special interest deprived brain and to also feed the like 3 other people in this fandom lol #might challenge myself to write some tiny ass fluff ficlets cause the one im writing rn is just sad #genderqueer nell i love u and i will torture you with projection #formal cry for anyone with renegade nell thoughts to just openly yell them at me i will take anything rn #lmao

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