#baby nico pre trauma ���

[guardianspirits13]

Nico and co. doodles from my pre-Sun and the Star release book binge ✨

[steddieunderdogfics]

This week’s writer spotlight feature is: ghosttotheparty! @ghosttotheparty has 72 fics in the Stranger Things fandom and 61 of them are in the Steddie tag!

@estrellami-1 or anonymous nominator recommends the following works by @ghosttotheparty:

love me softly

a mess of holy things

pretty girls (series)

hideout

fate

"This author has captivated me from day one. I’ve since gone back and read and re-read everything they have in fandoms that I am a part of, and I’m highly considering reading everything, regardless of fandom!" -- @estrellami-1

They also had this to say: "It was so hard to just pick five fics—I’d easily pick all of them if I could!! These five are just a few of their fics that I come back to, time and time again. This author’s way with words is absolutely stunning, and I want to be like them when I grow up! 😉" -- @estrellami-1

Below the cut, @ghosttotheparty answered some questions about their writing process and some of their recommended work!

Why do you write Steddie?

I honestly just adore them so much. Characters that are opposites have always been something I’ve loved; Nico di Angelo and Will Solace are the first to come to mind. I’ve loved them since middle school (I’m in my third year of uni now), and I’ve apparently drawn some connections between their dynamics and Steddie’s. I also feel like Steddie just has so much potential in regards to different dynamics. There are so many alternate universes in which they’re entirely different from the way they are in the original show but there is still a consensus within the community of what kind of people they are and how they behave, speak, or interact. Despite writing the same characters over and over and over, I’ve had so much fun being able to experiment with different personalities and dynamics.

What’s your favorite trope to READ?

I think everyone knows at this point that I lovelovelove hurt/comfort. Physical injury and wounds, nursing the other back to health, trauma recovery, nightmares or flashbacks, sub/dom drop, panic attacks or breakdowns, give me all of it. (Bonus points if this is pre-relationship and the comforter calls the other a pet name (cough baby cough) for the first time in the midst of it all. God.)

What’s your favorite trope to WRITE?

See above. In all honesty, I love intensity. Heavy emotions like grief and anguish and rage are my fucking thing, and I think most of my longer fics involve at least one heavy scene with a panic attack or emotional breakdown. Something about the release and expression of emotions followed by tender patience and sweet comfort is just so cathartic for me.

What’s your favorite Steddie fic?

I write more fics than there are fics that I read, unfortunately, but the first fic to come to mind was in my life by mourningshowers (@keycarabiner on tumblr). Sososo sweet and tender. It ripped me apart and then stitched me back together and gave me a lollipop as a treat. I also adore the series The Rush of Thunder (That Brings You Under) by callmejude (@callmejude on tumblr). The pacing and characterisation and dialogue were fucking phenomenal. Print this whole series out and bury me with it when I go.

Is there a trope you’re excited to explore in a future work but haven’t yet?

I have a few AUs that I haven’t actually explored quite yet; one involves teacher!Steve and another is about punk!Stobin (platonic, Obviously), and yet another involves artist!Eddie. But more generally speaking I would like to explore some heavier themes in the future when I have the guts.

What is your writing process like?

Good question. I have no idea. I write pretty much every night, usually with Youtube or Netflix on next to me (typically playing things I’ve already seen so I don’t have to pay full attention to follow along, but my main go-tos are documentaries/docuseries), and I tend to just get as much out as I can. I write most linearly; I tend to not skip ahead and go back, but occasionally I’ll have an idea for a scene that I need to scribble out to make sure I don’t forget it. But my plotlines and focus points tend to shift as I’m writing, so sometimes these scenes end up changing as well.

Do you have any writing quirks?

I hadn’t noticed any, but Bee (@jewishrat420) pointed some out to me: - I consistently use the word ‘press’ - I phrase actions in lists with commas and a finalising and. - I tend to have repeating themes (for example, warm and cold and the quiet journey a character makes from their loneliness to the warmth of someone else). I’ve also noticed that I really like writing visceral imagery; even in fics for other ships I’ve mentioned one character longing to claw open their partner and climb inside them. I love bloody imagery, which Steddie are perfect for.

Do you prefer posting when you’ve finished writing or on a schedule?

If I’m uploading a fic with multiple chapters, I generally try to stay ahead of my posting schedule with at least one to two chapters already written in advance of posting. For my current wip, though, I’ve decided to post only when it’s complete, and to post on a schedule just in case I get behind or lose track.

Which fic are you most proud of?

Probably a mess of holy things.

How did you get the idea for a mess of holy things?

Ah, my love. The inspiration for this fic came from dirty paws by inifiniteorangepeel (@infinite-orangepeel on tumblr). Her version of Steve had me by the fucking throat, and I genuinely could not stop thinking about him even though I think this was before she even started uploading actual parts of the fic. I knew that I wanted to write some kind of religiously traumatised Steve, naive and curious about Eddie fucking Munson, and the haze of an idea snowballed into whatever this fic became.

When writing a mess of holy things, what was something you didn’t expect?

Honestly, I wasn’t expecting how confrontational it would feel. I was raised Catholic, and I put Steve’s parents in a category of religious people that I’ve never really known well. I was never forced to go to church or Sunday school (in fact, I think I only went to Sunday school for, like, three weeks), and for the most part as a child, my relationship with God was amicable. My abuela was very religious when I was young (my mother likes to say, “She was more Catholic than the Pope”), but I never felt as though her faith impeded upon my own life. She would tell me that my artistic skill was a gift from God, and she would pray over me when I had tummy aches, and even though I wasn’t very faithful, I found comfort in it. I also have always found a peace in holy buildings; churches and church graveyards are some of my favourite places to just sit in silence. So I wasn’t expecting the emotional whiplash writing holy things gave me. Writing from Steve’s point of view at first felt like writing fantasy, making it up as I went because I couldn’t write from experience; I have healthy relationships with both my parents, and even though my father had a very difficult childhood, he’s done everything he could to be a good father to me and my brother, so Steve’s father was entirely made up. It wasn’t until I got further along in the fic that I actually realised how big an impact even a slightly religious upbringing had on me as a queer person. My parents never taught me anything hateful, never complained about anybody in regards to God, but somehow this general religious disapproval latched itself to my ribcage, and I hadn’t realised I’d been carrying it around with me my whole life. And I was forced to confront it, along with the distrust that I’d inadvertently developed toward religious people.

What inspired love me softly?

My darling!! This fic started as a random one-shot about Eddie bitching to Gareth about having a crush on a normie, but the feedback was so lovely I decided to write another part. And then another. And then another. At some point the vague idea of a plot appeared, and this universe became very dear to me. I still have ideas for follow-up one-shots, which I keep in a collection on AO3. I think this fic is also what started my love for Tommy Hagan, who I’ve since claimed as an OC. He’s mine now.

What was your favorite part to write from hideout series?

While I was writing this series, I found that I love secret relationships. The idea of Steve having something in his life that he could turn to for some sense of normalcy despite everything in his life literally being straight out of a science-fiction movie was something I loved, and writing the majority of it from an outsider point of view was a fun experiment/exercise.

How do/did you feel writing fate (series)?

Oh, GOD. I love angst. I had the idea for Eddie’s death, specifically him singing the Tennessee Waltz and the whole “Do you think God’ll let me in?” thing, and I worked from there. I actually considered leaving the fic at Eddie’s death, but as much as I love angst, I also love happy and hopeful endings. Even though my heart hurt the entire time I wrote this whole series, I loved it all. Wayne’s point of view was a fun (ish) shift in perspectives and I’ve since included sections in his point of view because I love him so much. (I do also have a one-shot specifically about him living in my head, but I have yet to put it into words.)

What was the most difficult part of writing pretty girls (series)?

I don’t know if I would really consider it difficult, but it did require some actual thinking to write Steve as transfemme, or genderqueer in the opposite direction as me. To take my own experiences and feelings and shift them so they’re upside down was definitely interesting.

Do you have a favorite scene and/or line from any of your fics?

This is from one of my less known fics, spill my guts: “And I’m so fucking high right now, but Steve, I— I think I love you.” It just feels so representative of Steddie as a whole. (Honestly the whole scene kind of feels very Them: both of them high out of their minds and suddenly confessing their undying love in the most dramatic fucking way possible. Ugh. I love them.)

Do you have any upcoming projects or fics you’d like to share/promote?

I’m working right now on a fic that involves priest’s son!Steve and recovering addict!Eddie, and that’s all I’ll say on that <3

Outside of these questions, Is there anything YOU would like to add?

Not entirely relevant, but I make playlists and pinboards for almost all my fics (if I don’t have one of either for a fic that you’d like one for, literally just hit me up and I’ll put one together); here are the ones I made for Steve & Eddie <3 S - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3dW3wTo8nD11RuqKs9aj52?si=9f98f4a287394152 https://www.pinterest.co.uk/ghosttotheparty/king-steve/ E - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4eWRFi07VIEKIoeaGwfFI5?si=791fa1f2dd6a4f7e https://www.pinterest.co.uk/ghosttotheparty/eddie-the-banished/

Thank you to our author, @ghosttotheparty, and our nominator, @estrellami-1! See more of @ghosttotheparty's works featured on our page throughout the day!

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[jazberry8]

Truly this is my first time posting on Tumblr, but here goes. Recently, I watched Doogie Kamealoha MD on Disney and I really liked it, but was bummed we won’t be getting anymore. So I wrote a few bullet points of what I think a third season could include. Please feel free to comment your own points or what you think should happen!

Overview:

- starts one to two years after the last season left off

- Lahela is finishing off her first stint of working the portable clinic. We maybe follow that for two episodes before she heads back to the hospital to move into the next phase of her career.

- Her family is still getting used to having a new baby at home. the pressures of having a kid you need to look after more closely. The baby is showing early signs of fast development and they wonder if they will grow up to be a genius like Lahela. She deals with jealousy but ultimately embraces the baby and looks forward to helping them as they grow up to know they are not alone.

- Kai has moved for a co-op farming program in Idaho to grow some potatos or some shit in his third year of post secondary school which puts strain on his and Steph’s relationship. They end up breaking up but on good terms.

- Steph, after taking a gap year, is struggling to figure out what she wants to do with her life.

- Early to mid season Steph starts dating a girl

- BP is in highschool, there’s definitely an episode that focuses just on his side hustles as the B plot.

- It comes to attention that BP has been leaving mean comments on a famous queer creators content online. His parents try to deal with it but are unsuccessful. Ultimately he confides in Steph that he might like boys as well as girls and she comforts him. In the end he comes out to his family and they are very accepting. He apologizes to the creator online.

- Its a very transition heavy time, with a big focus on that thematically.

- Lahela goes back to the hospital, which thanks to a big anonymous sponsor, has been donated the resources to create a small wing for free of charge care which she will helm.

- It’s a big leadership opportunity that she has to get used to and at first she struggles, especially after working alone in the portable medical office for so long. But after a visit from Noelani and Charles her confidence is re-instilled.

- She helps lots of people and solves some cool cases of course. She also deals with a very serious death which will definitely probably be a turning point in the series or a major focus at some point as she learns to deal with that trauma as a doctor.

- It comes to light that the anonymous donor is actually Walter!?!?!?!!! He’s made it big as a surfer and wanted to help give back to the community of Hawaii, but also to Lahela.

- He comes to visit the hospital and see how it’s going (mid season?) but the dynamic between them has shifted. He is now her boss in a sense and owns that wing. Also with time they have just changed. They kiss but ultimately decide it doesn’t feel right for either of them and they should just be friends and co-workers

- Nico’s Aunt ends up coming into the free clinic because she burned herself while cooking. Lahela asks how Nico is doing and her aunt says he’s good and that she’ll be seeing him soon. When Lahela asks what she means, Nico replies from the doorway that his aunt ruined the surprise. After spending the last two years soul searching, travelling, working, and finishing his highschool diploma he’s now in his first year of university for his pre-med degree. He got in on a full scholarship, for which he credits his entrance essay that he “had a lot of material to draw on”. He’ll be volunteering in the hospital to get more experience

- Nico really likes being able to take care of other people for once and feels really good about that. Plus he’s really good with the patients. When a little girl with cancer comes in, at first he stumbles and can’t face her. But in the end he comes to realizes that his connection to her and to cancer can really help her. He spends time with her and helps her to feel more normal as a kid with cancer because he went through the same experience. It’s a very emotional journey for him.

- He and Lahela dance around what they had before, never really mentioning it, but the tension is there. Lots of lingering looks and touches. She falls for him again as she sees the way he interacts with patients and his passion for medicine.

- Finally, (late season) they talk about what happened. Nico says that he needed time to figure himself out, and after processing it all. Even though he was mad at cancer and hospitals and even the cancer treatment for robbing him of so much, after the anger faded he came to realize how grateful he was for the doctors and for the treatment that was able to let him continue living and that he wanted to give back.

- Lahela admires his outlook, and she jokes about being able to experiment more with girls now that he was finally free. Nico says that he didn’t, because he couldn’t get her out of his head. Lahela kisses him, and admits that she felt the same way, she just needed some time to grow up a little on her own too and find out who she was outside of a romantic relationship.

- On their days off they definitely still travel around in the portable doctor office van with the lady from the highschool reunion to provide to unhoused people.

[cadillacjohnf1]

Hello! <3 I saw your post asking for F1 fic recs.

If you don’t mind non-ship fics, some of my favorite works in the fandom are

• Count the days as they go by by in_in_in_in_in_in — George-centric fic, quite a bit of Britcedes, features a lot of the Mercedes team members

• One thousand laps of Jeddah by in_in_in_in_in_in —Also George-centric, time loop fic of Jeddah 2023

• Icarus by WinterLantern (EirianErisdar) — Wingfic AU, Daniel-centric. This is my absolute favorite when it comes to F1 rpf works; words really can’t describe the love I have for it. It’s beautifully written and features a lot of different drivers/duos on the grid, like Maxiel, Charlos, Galex, Jenson/Nico/Lewis, etc.

• don't ever let them steal your joy (and your gentle ways) by sirjaythegay — Lance-centric, takes place when Seb was driving at AM. This actually features Lance/Lewis but it’s pretty minor until the end.

• I try to get back to the things you said by Bluejay141519 — George-centric, and similar to the one before it has background George/Lewis but mostly reads as platonic because it’s pre-relationship.

For fics with ships (some of these are omegaverse, fair warning if that isn’t your thing)

• let me go gently by cockroach_hyung (uaigneach) — Logan/Oscar, AU where Logan struggles with Chronic pain.

• Small Things by Bluejay141519 — George/Lewis/Toto, omegaverse. This fic contains a number of heavy topics so double check the tags if you consider reading it. It’s also open-ended.

• I've got some real estate here in my bag by mercurial_cool — Logan/Oscar, the boys go on a road trip & get together.

• 5 times Lando didn't realise he works for two mob bosses +1 time he finally gets it by lewisshamilton — Lando-centric, Lando/George. This series is cute & funny.

• Keep Holding On To Me by colors_of_feeling, sunnyrabbit — Logan/Benny, personally one of my favorite Logan fics.

• you let me in, and baby that`s when by betzykielberg — Charles/Carlos, omegaverse. Fake relationship AU where they have to go into witness protection & fake being married while falling in love. This one also has some TWs with Charles having trauma from a past relationship. This is my favorite Charlos fic.

• In for a penny, in for a pound by chiliconcarlos — Charles/Carlos, another fake relationship AU. Charles is going to his brother’s wedding, his ex girlfriend is there with her new fiance so he hires an escort (Carlos) to go with him, etc etc. This is my 2nd favorite Charlos fic!

• will o’ the wisps by autumnapricot — Charles/Max, omegaverse. Another TW for heavy topics (you can check the fic tags).

Sorry, this list got kind of out of hand. Some of these are individual works & some are series. I tried to include enough fics that you could hopefully find one or two you like even if we have different tastes or anything.

Thanks so much for all the recs this is such a varied list! I'm not so much into omegaverse but I'll definitely check out the others.. Logan and Oscar is suddenly intriguing me

[hypnotisedfireflies]

Your recent Tommy/Maria outtake has me wondering how comfortable Tess is around the topic of pregnancy/ motherhood as a slightly more abstract/removed concept?

If it’s not directly asking her about Nico, can she acknowledge that she has experience of motherhood (Sort of like ‘Oh, Luke’s teething? I bet you’re exhausted.’ or ‘I bet you’re sick of finding clothes, they grow quick at that age.’) or would she rather ignore/pretend she’s ignorant to the subject?

Is there anything about being around young children that she finds really difficult? I can imagine something like hearing them cry might be quite triggering, given how outbreak went for her.

Hi Anon! :)

It depends where Tess is in her timeline, really. She's better with it in Boston than Jackson. The Boston years were all driven by the immediate planning for survival and in Jackson, a lot of that load is taken from her shoulders and she has the time to dwell on the past. While Joel has an (unhinged) uptick in his mental state, Tess begins to struggle because she doesn't have the same distractions and has to face those things. It's at its worst in Blood Orange and Shots Fired! and starting to stabilise by You Only Live Twice.

There is a hint of how she feels about this in the next outtake from the Cloud Nine story which I'll post soon but essentially, Tess is kind of distant with it like she is with most things from her past. She doesn't want to hold Luke or babysit, but she would ask the polite questions about teething or clothing and things like that. Tess is nothing if not poised in company. And if it came around to asking about Nico, she could effortlessly turn the conversation on to something else with most people not even noticing.

Tess didn't really want to be a mother in the pre-apoc. She didn't have that natural, maternal instinct. She loved her baby but it took her a long time to bond with him. So trauma removed, she also doesn't, well, have a great deal of interest in babies? She's used to asking polite surface questions about other people's kids without feeling much in the way of emotional connection to the topic, if that makes sense? Doesn't mean she doesn't care or is just going through the motions. It just means something else to her.

(Let's put it this way - say you're Tess's friend and you're going out for coffee after having your baby or something. She's more likely to ask a lot of questions about you, focus the attention on you rather than your baby, whereas most other people fawn over the kid. Tess doesn't ignore the little person, but she doesn't forget you're there who you were before the baby.)

When they were in Boston, she had a good relationship with Claudia and her daughter, Lottie/Charlie. She was able to relate to that child better than Joel could - again, because of that mental distraction.

I don't think there are any hard or fast rules to what triggers Tess. It entirely depends on exactly what is going on, where her head is at and who she is with. By Jackson, she is so good at using things from her past to control situations around her (ie, when she drops an interesting tidbit about her past to change the course of a conversation) rather than the other way around. But when it does get to her, it comes as a surprise - to Tess, at least. Joel, by Jackson, is able to recognise all the patterns surrounding Tess. He knows how she'll respond to potentially triggering situations better than she does.

My answers always get out of hand and then I wonder if I really answered the q. I hope I have anon, and I hope 2024 is off to a great start for you. :) Thanks for asking!

[bwoahtastic]

Quag's AU list

4433 marriage

ABO pornstars

ABO wolves

Escort AU

Businessman Dan

Arranged AU

Idkiwp AU

Runaway AU

Runaway AU: baby boom

Departmentstore AU

Metal AU

PR lady lance

The roses of monaco

Hunting season

Mafia Omega

Pagan gods

Spanking au

Kissing game au

Breeding au

Pack preg au

Domsub au

Selection au

Physio au

Army AU

Pre race AU

Rearranged au

Beta world

Omega dan

Feral AU

Abo adoption

Lestappen and Carlos

ABO holiday

Omega trauma AU

Runaway kiddos

Oh deer

Hooters au

Omega Lessons

Hidden Omega

Pack Pup Max

Oh deer orphanage

Mixed pack au

Sugar baby nico

Matched AU

Alternate AU

Champion leader AU

Silent Max

4433 Quarantine

Mixed Pack AU

Omega trauma AU

Maiden gangbang

Iwlykihab verse

Stepmom Nico

Max and cats

Rule63 verse

Kings au

Single momma au

Female Alphas au

Pack alpha nico

Merpup max

Merman au

Familiars au

Maxrico

Below deck a/b/o au

Abo divorce

Peeping pack

Muzzle au

Pack finding centre

4433 domsub

Wild packs

A/b/o adoption wolves

Oh deer kings

Kickboxer max

Verse drabble requests: OPEN

[moa-broke-me]

So this was originally gonna be in a reblog of someone else's post, but then I decided to just make my own because it was getting very long and unwieldy.

Look, Solangelo is cute and all, I genuinely do love them. But I also think there's something to be said about how they got together offscreen (or off-page I guess) so we didn't really get to see what that relationship was like in its early days.

Like, obviously it doesn't have to be a slowburn, not everything has to be a slowburn. Not every relationship has to have drama. To have big, exciting emotions, sometimes it can just be... Chill. And relaxed. And conflict-free. And ok fine I'm LYING I WANT THE MELODRAMA I WANT THE CONFLICT I WANT IT SO BAD but like I get it, he's been through enough, I should be happy that he's able to count on at least one thing. But that's also why I'm so excited for TSATS, because I. Want. Drama. I want the two of them nearly dying in each other's arms! Is that really so wrong?

I think the main criticism basically stems from the fact that, because we don't get to see how their relationship builds from acquaintances to friends to lovers, we don't really get the catharsis that we, or at least I, felt like Rick had been leading up to. At least, not in The Hidden Oracle, which is the only TOA book that I've read so far, and also it was kinda long ago, so I might be totally wrong about all this, just a disclaimer. But from my perspective, it looks very... Safe. And ok, I'll say it, sanitized.

Like. Yes. Nico deserves a calm, stable relationship. But he also deserves to have a moment, pre-solangelo, where he fucking breaks down into tears. Why? Maybe he had a nightmare. Maybe it's just dawned on him how much he's lost and how much he's endured and holy shit, it's a lot, and he's just somehow expected to keep this poker face on all the time, and he just fucking can't anymore. Or maybe it's because Will told him he's gonna need to stay a few extra days, and he feels insulted and humiliated and weak, because he doesn't even have it that bad, he's fine, why are you doing this to him? Why are you treating him like a baby? Why are you wasting your time with him when there are people in this same building that he can feel slowly dying? And to be comforted and held by Will, and told that whatever it is that's making him so upset, he's here. And, after a brief calm before the storm, Nico impulsively pulls Will down to his height by the collar of his shirt and kisses him. And then he starts to panic, like why did he just do that? What's wrong with him? Oh gods oh fuck Will's totally gonna hate him now. And Will's just sitting there like... Do it again. Please? And Nico's like... Huh? You... Want him to kiss you again? Well ok, if you insist.

And another thing, Will deserves to have some character flaws! And I don't just mean being insecure about his powers and working too much, I mean some actual flaws, things that can make it hard to cooperate with other people. Like, maybe he's unintentionally blunt and rude. Maybe he's got a secret vindictive streak (and I mean REALLY secret since it probably takes a lot to make that guy mad) that mirrors Nico's and forces him to actually confront, and ultimately forgive, the ugliest parts of himself. Hell, maybe he's the jealous type! Or at least is overprotective to such an intensity that it comes off as jealousy and even a lack of trust without him realizing it. And maybe those overprotective tendencies stem from what happened to Lee and Michael.

Speaking of which, holy crap, LEE AND MICHAEL. This is like. One of the few things we know about Will pre-BOO. That he's lost two of his older brothers, and he didn't even get to go to their funerals because he had to stay behind and heal people because he was a WAR MEDIC at 12. So he didn't really get to process any of those emotions, he just had to kinda push them down and do his job. And the damage that can do to someone's psyche is... Let's just say it's not great.

Hey, maybe his workaholic tendencies also stem from that trauma, maybe he's subconsciously using the selfless medic mindset as a coping mechanism to distract himself from his own emotional pain. Maybe Nico, who has suffered great loss himself, helps him finally process and grieve in a healthy way, which would also mitigate the criticism of it being one-sided, or of Will trying to fix Nico.

All of that would be great!

Except... We don't really get to see it. Not in canon, anyway. Rick, to the best of my limited knowledge, doesn't explore their dynamic beyond 'hehe sunshine and darkness isn't that cute?'.

Again, I could be totally wrong on this! I'd absolutely LOVE IT if I was wrong, and that would actually be even more motivation for me to get off my lazy ass and buy the rest of TOA. As it stands, though... All of this is merely a daydream.

[kaimelia]

I'm honestly very excited about these dialogue prompt lists! Can you please do Amelink & “Can we just pretend like we’re normal for once?” 💛

"Can we just pretend like we're normal for once?"

a/n: this. is so aggressive I dont know where this came from sorry link is definitely finale link in this

(pre-written fics #3)

"What the hell happened?" Link came running into the trauma room, pulling his mask off to reveal the concern spread across his face.

"We were at the park, and he just took a nasty fall; he'll be fine," Amelia muttered from Scout's bedside, running her hand down his hair soothingly as the boy slept. "You don't need to be here."

"He's my son Amelia; of course, I need to be here." He pulled a stool over and grabbed Scout's hand. "Did you get X-Rays? A head CT?"

"Nico said the X-Rays were fine." She sighed heavily and glanced up to see Link staring at her. "What?"

"Why didn't you call me sooner?"

"You were in surgery, and he fell at the park. He's not dying; he literally just scraped his elbow."

"Why weren't you watching him?" Amelia's mouth dropped open, and she scoffed.

"I was watching him; what are you trying to say?"

"You've just been more focused on yourself than anything else recently, and I want to make sure that you're okay to be alone with him," Link shook his head as he spoke and brushed back his hair. "If you need time to figure things out, okay, but I don't want you risking our son's safety."

"Link, he fell at the park! Kids fall all of the time; I'm not a negligent mother because my son fell on some woodchips." She closed her mouth quickly as Scout opened his eyes sleepily and turned to her.

"Mama," he whispered, and Amelia smiled at him.

"Go back to sleep, baby," she continued tracing patterns down his face and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling Scout into her embrace. "Mama's here." She looked at Link. "Look, can we just pretend like we're normal for once? That you don't hate me or think I'm a terrible person because I don't want to fight in front of him." Link crossed his arms over his chest and sighed.

"We lost any sort of normalcy a long time ago," he muttered, watching as Scout's eyes shut again. "I'll take him home with me today."

"What? It's my time with him; you can't just switch like that-"

"And how many times have you showed up at my place to say that you need Scout for the night?" Amelia pursed her lips and pulled Scout tighter towards her.

"Please leave," she whispered, shrinking down in the hospital bed. "I want to be alone with my son right now." Link paused for a moment with his eyebrows raised before standing up, kicking the stool back against the wall as he stormed out of the room. She looked down at her son asleep in her arms. "It's gonna be okay, Scout. Mommy's got you, and you're safe with me."

[geekkatsblog]

Grey's Anatomy season 17×7 review

...... I, please can someone sedate me.

I never expected this in a million years. I thought after last season the main character death was spared.

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Deluca (Rip)

The shocker of the night. They were just playing with my emotions the whole night. The whole time he was stalking the red headed woman I was on the edge of my seat. I was so scared how he was moving so rash with everything my mind was all over the place. First I thought they were going to get caught. Then when the police and the rest of the Station 19 brigade showed up in time to catch her I was relieved. I almost thought the worst was over until I realized he was stabbed, then I was nervous but at the same time it wasn't a major concern for me, I just thought he was going to join Meredith on the beach and tell her to wake up and all would be right with the world again and after he was taken into surgery, for a few precious moments, all WAS right with the world then it all went bad he started crashing but the hope was still there because Jo's patient was also crashing and when she died I figured they couldn't kill two people just like that right? RIGHT? well I was wrong. The moment when his mother appeared on the beach and he said he had to go then it was when it really hit me that he was actually going to die well that and the sand castle being destroyed part.

The only thing that saved it was that at least he died knowing that he stopped that red headed brute and saved a lot of kids in the process so he didn't actually die for nothing. But even so his death still hit me hard I sat in shock for a good few minutes after the episode. They made him an attending, get help with his mania episodes and begin the path of being an excellent doctor just to kill him off.

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Carina

They finally cashed in that regulars card for more Carina screen time but not the way I hoped. She and Deluca were very close so I know that his death will hit her hard but at least Maya has been there for her every step of the way and I know that she will be there to help Carina through it.

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Jo

Became very invested in her parent and her baby, she got so passionate about it and worked hard to advocate for her patient to see her baby, even though she had to get rough with her superior it's a shame it was all in vain and the mother died before she could even see her baby. (Grey's was just playing with my emotions all night.) I have a feeling Jo will be adopting the baby soon enough. The father signed away the rights and her mother is dead. Plus they've been going down the Jo and babies route for a long time now, with the being a safe haven and then the switching specialities talk it all was for something and she was very invested with the mother and baby from the beginning.

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Teddy/Owen/Tom

The love triangle continues to this day. Tom told Teddy he's ready to move on and I really hope he is this time because she has been jumping ships too much. Someone had to sail away. Maybe Tom can find someone else to move on to, or something else to occupy his time with, something less painful. My hope isn't up too high because he's sung the same song before and was right back where he started.

Owen said he only called Teddy because he owed it to Deluca but I'm not buying it. He was very insistent on Teddy being there and the slight smile he gave her at the end of the surgery said otherwise as well, but he's angry which he very well should be so I guess we'll see what happens from here.

Teddy is still having a hard time both of the men she loved have rejected her which will hopefully give her some time to stop and think about what she actually wants. Shes having a rough time with everyone in the hospital and now that Tom has let her go.i just hope she can find comfort in someone or something else because I'm sure she's under a lot of steer right now.

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Maggie

Did t have much of a plot. But Winston is in Seattle and they made the most of it by spending most of the time in her hotel room until Jackson came to get her so they could let her know about Meredith. Yikes a tough choice there. But on the bright side at least now she has someone to be there for her through the whole Meredith situation. Usually Maggie is the support but now she can actually have someone to support her. I wish her the best of luck. May the Grey's relationship curse skip her and her new beau.

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Link and Amelia

Not much here today, Link was the usual supportive partner and good father although he's also panicking at the potential loss of Meredith and the 3 kids that would come with it which is understandable. Meanwhile Amelia was trying to figure out the best way to tell the kids about Meredith. She has come such a long way from the woman who brought Derek a guy with a tumor who she met on the plane.

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Nico and Levi

Are slowly but surely getting closer, I saw a little bit of pre jerk Nico, but he still has a long way to go. I'm hoping for a happy ending though.

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Jackson

Was not even carrying on the works of Mark Sloan this episode but did create so tension between him and Maggie's new boyfriend.

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Webber

Is just trying to hold the hospital together at this point.

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Bailey

Finally came down from her working after trauma obsession and got some much needed rest. Its adorable how she just slept by Meredith's bed the whole time and the way she immediately panicked and got up to check Meredith when Webber told her something happened was sweet. They've had their ups and downs but they're also always there for each other.

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Meredith

Is still on the beach. This time she spent it with Deluca I really hope she can leave that beach soon. The longer she's there the more nervous I become. Hopefully Derek can tell her go to hell home next week when he returns to the beach.

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The episode was a roller coaster ride, I really wasn't expecting Deluca to still die. I figured he was the one that they had planned to kill last year but it still hurt.

Questions of the night.

1. What's going to happen now with the trafficking ring? I know they got them but now they're also responsible for murder and I want an eye for an eye.

2. Will Meredith finally get her ass of that beach? It's been long enough.

3. Is Jo going to adopt her patient's baby?

4. How is Carina going to take the death of her baby brother who she practically raised?

[kbstories]

Contingent

con·tin·gent (adj.) Dependent on; conditional.

There's only one thing Trafalgar Law is truly afraid of.

(Or: Bepo will be damned if he loses Law just when he got him back.)

Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Sickfic, Nakamaship, Amber Lead Syndrome, Medical Inaccuracies, Childhood Trauma, Law whumps well and I have no excuse

Set between Zou and Wano. Read Chapter 2 here.

***

To say the Polar Tang is a tight fit is an accurate, if unfortunate, assessment.

Years ago, the shipwright they commissioned to make their submarine-turned-ship a reality had cautioned them about the limited capacity. Back in the North Blue, the logistics of cramming more than two dozen people into close quarters with high-pressure machinery seemed a far-away problem at best.

That was long before Jean Bart entered the picture, patient as their helmsman had been to accommodate the narrow spaces of his new home. The nightshift Uni and Clione had pulled to present him with a set of his very own Heart Pirates-branded overalls the next day probably had something to do with it, too.

And maybe it’s because they haven’t had guests in a while (or at least, none that were conscious enough to count), or that Law’s paranoia has rubbed off on Bepo more than he likes to admit… When their mismatched group of allies take the first step on deck, Bepo is watching them like a hawk.

The fact of the matter is: Bepo loves the Tang. They all do. She’s the one that carried them from the North’s frigid waters all the way into the New World. She’s the best. All they – pirates and samurai alike – give her are curious glances, though, neither overly positive nor notably negative as they follow Trafalgar Law into the bowels of his submarine.

Well, with exception of that Strawhat cyborg, Franky. The moment they’re inside he’s gone, fawning over metal walls and neatly-welded seams like they’re the delicate linework of an artist; all Ikkaku can do to prevent any damage to her baby is to run after him. Her harsh reminders to be careful grow fainter and fainter as the rest moves on.

Ikkaku was against this whole alliance thing and yet, Bepo assumes it’s only a matter of time until their chief engineer is charmed, too. It’s one of those inevitable things that tend to happen around the Strawhats.

In any case, Law doesn’t seem bothered and so Bepo isn’t, either. It’s not like the captain lets them dwell on it for long, anyways – he shuffles their guests into the galley like a goose herds its chicks and gives Penguin a handful of minutes to organize some snacks for everyone before the crew is called to the control room. In one big gulp, Bepo swallows the rest of his sandwich and off he goes.

He gets there just as Law emerges from the captain’s cabin in a fresh change of clothes and still-moist hair. “Ready?”, Law asks him, looking worn out still but sounding excited by his own standards, and Bepo nods with a fanged grin.

“Ready, Captain.”

The tanks are flooded and the engine purrs below their feet. From there, the Heart Pirates flit in and out and around Trafalgar Law like blood cells under a microscope and Bepo?

Bepo stands by Law’s side, one eye on the Log Pose and the other on the currents, and feels his pulse even out. There’s nothing like home.

The Tang quiets to a comforting hum once the course is set and optimal velocity is achieved, a background noise as familiar to Bepo as the cadence of Law’s voice. The residual heat from the engine room is making everyone but Bepo sweat in their suits, and he’d feel smug about it if his paws and nose weren’t wet with perspiration too–

It’s then that he remembers their allies, more specifically the only people without proper gear to be in a submerged submarine, and Bepo curses his own neglect under his breath for all of a second. By that point Bart is already letting go of the helm to pat Bepo's head, an automatic gesture of comfort.

“I told them to wait”, he says and shrugs a bit sheepishly because, as it turns out, the Strawhats actually listened. Bepo finds them lounging around one of the tables, just where they left them; the three from Wano Country are huddled in the corner a bit further away, heads stuck together to catch up. The Strawhats are in the middle of a round of some card game, it seems, even if their expressions are serious enough to make Bepo wonder if there’s more to it. He hovers in their periphery, hesitant to interrupt.

Suddenly, Nico Robin looks up and smiles. Usopp groans, throwing his hand away.

“I give up! You’re impossible, Robin. Impossible.”

“Bear”, Zoro greets him, gaze sliding lazily from his cards to Bepo. “You any good at Continental?”

“Uh”, Bepo replies intelligently. Conti-what? A glimpse at the cards Robin plays doesn’t reveal any epiphanies to him, either. “Sorry. I don’t know what that is.”

“It’s a card game from the East Blue”, Robin explains while she holds out a patient hand for Zoro’s cards as well. It’s one summoned by her powers, not that Zoro seems to mind as he rolls his eye and relinquishes the (presumably bad) hand he had. “Nami is a real devil at it.”

Usopp leans far back in his chair. “Playing this without her to knock out Robin early on is hopeless”, he adds with a dramatic sigh.

Bepo’s ears twitch in interest. Nami, their navigator? “Ah. Perhaps you can show me–” The sentence crashes into the realization that he's letting himself be distracted, again. “Later! Show me later. You guys need suits, and a tour around the– Wait, where’s Franky?”

Robin chuckles rather fondly. “Don’t mind him”, she tells Bepo, “Franky is easily excitable by the prospect of a new ship to tinker with”, and before Bepo can feel put out by her just deciding that, she glances over Bepo’s shoulder. A pause, pensive.

“I can reel him in, though. Your ship, your rules, Mr. Traffy.”

A huff confirms Law’s presence behind him a moment before he puts a hand on Bepo’s elbow, undemanding. Out of habit, Bepo nudges their shoulders together to acknowledge his captain properly and Law’s fingers tighten, once.

“Better get it out of Franky's system now, I suppose. We’re still close enough to the surface that an explosion or two won’t kill us all.”

Law’s voice is utterly deadpan and it’s most certainly a joke – Robin is snickering good-naturedly, too – but Bepo still gives his captain a look. These are the Strawhats they’re talking about.

Law just shakes his head, a movement so subtle it might as well not exist at all. Bepo lets out a breath. No sudden deaths by drowning today, how nice.

“As Bepo said: You need suits and a tour. Wano people, you too. Zoro, you need a guide.”

“Oi.”

“Hey, why the suits?”

That last one comes from Usopp, and Bepo opens his mouth to offer a perfectly rational answer–

“So the Tang doesn’t boil you alive”, Law says and gives them a sweet smile. It drops off his lips immediately. “Any other questions? I’ll send Uni over for your measurements. He’s the guy with the bandana. Shachi will show you around. Bepo, a word?”

Bepo nods along and… Huh?

As first mate, tour duty should fall onto him – after all, it’s a good way for him to gauge who exactly they invited into their home – but something in Law’s tone makes Bepo’s instincts perk up and pay attention and oh, Law hasn’t let go of his elbow yet.

Bepo doesn’t have time to ask his captain what’s wrong before blue engulfs them both and the world shifts around them.

*

Shambles is a mixture of falling and being held; for Bepo, the unique feeling of Law’s powers is a long-kept comfort, simultaneously a vanguard and the last line of defense in every battle they have fought together.

When it fades, Bepo finds himself in the captain’s cabin – the sight of floor-to-ceiling bookshelves lining the walls is a familiar one, the whirlwind of documents all across the desk not so much – and there’s no time to ponder on that before Law holds his hands inches from Bepo’s nose and tells him to look.

“Wha–?”

“Just– Humor me. What do you see?”

Bepo snaps his jaws shut because Law is serious, the air of snarky rudeness gone without a trace, and Bepo looks and sees... Well, nothing. There’s tan skin and fingernails kept obsessively neat; there are the precise lines of the tattoos that have been there for years.

Law’s hands are trembling.

“I don’t see anything, Captain”, Bepo says honestly. Gently, too, because anything that involves Law insisting like that is wrapped in caution tape and staked with warning signs, do not enter, all the way up to the ocean’s surface.

Law curses, then, shaking out his arms in an effort to stop the tremors and it’s wrong, for a surgeon’s hands to be that unsteady. He starts tugging at his clothes and Bepo watches, concern swelling bigger and bigger in his chest – Law’s hat falls to the ground unnoticed when he pulls his shirt over his head in one rough motion.

“Look”, he repeats, golden eyes gone cold and hard. His chest heaves with how heavy he’s panting, muscles taught under the strain; Law’s arm is the only thing left covered, bandaged all the way to his shoulder.

“Anything?”

Bepo does, expression carefully blank as he forces himself to look past the ink and all the things that make Law Law and directly at what’s hidden in plain sight: faded by time, he spots the outline of pale-white scars that have always been there, pre-dating even the fateful day they met.

Then, Bepo shakes his head. “Nothing. There’s nothing, Captain. It’s the same as always.”

“Honest?”

It’s a rushed breath, barely a question at all. It takes Bepo back a decade, the raw fear in it unchanged and belonging to a boy just scratching manhood, struggling to trust the one friend he has in the world. “Honest”, Bepo promises like he always has, and for all of his twenty-two years the ache in his heart feels ancient.

“Talk to me, Law. Please. You’re scaring me.”

Finally, Law inhales sharply and nods, fingers dragging through his hair the way he does after a close call, another life barely saved.

“Something’s not right. I didn’t notice with everything else going on but I’m tired and everything hurts? It’s like I’m about to pass out, fucking… faint like I used Room too much and things get fuzzy around the edges but I haven’t. All I’ve been doing is sleep and eat, I don’t– It makes no sense. And it’s not going away, Bepo.”

Bepo wants to hug him, the need to hold him close and tell him to breathe writhing inside him like a separate being. Law isn’t done yet and somehow it’s even worse to witness him trying to wrest himself into a semblance of control, to drag himself away from all-too-familiar devastation.

“Fatigue. That’s how it starts”, Law tells him, like he’s talking about a patient wholly unrelated to himself. He holds up his hand and counts down with his fingers, one at a time, utterly methodical. “Then pain in the limbs, difficulties concentrating for longer periods of time, discoloration of the skin and hair, high fever and–”

There are no more fingers left, all of them tucked against Law’s palm and exposing all five letters.

“–ultimately: death.”

Bepo can’t take it anymore. “Captain–”, he starts and again he’s interrupted.

“I must’ve missed something.”

Something flashes in Law’s eyes, something unstable and mad-looking and this is bad, Bepo thinks numbly. Very, very bad.

“I thought I cured it but I was a kid, Bepo. Nobody knows the long-term effects of surviving Amber Lead Syndrome, nobody lived long enough to tell. Just because there're no new spots doesn’t mean it’s gone. And what if there’s deposits on a molecular level? I couldn’t cut cells back then without Kikoku but I can now–”

“Law, stop! Shut up!”

Bepo hasn't shouted at Law and truly meant it in a long, long time. Law’s eyes go wide and the frantic rambling stops, and Bepo is done hesitating: He reaches through that gap and touches Law’s forehead, heat searing into the sensitive skin of his paw pads immediately. Shit.

“You’re burning up”, Bepo tells him and shakes his head, barrels through the acute panic in Law’s gaze before it can take proper hold. “Stop, okay? Listen to me.” His paws drop to Law’s shoulders, firm, careful where his fingers touch gauze. “Remember our promise on Swallow? You were delirious with pain and bleeding all over the place and you told me–”

Law whispers, “Promise to stop me”, almost as pale as he was when he said it the first time.

“Exactly. I promised to never let you operate without a clear head ever again ‘cause you’re only human, Captain, and you make mistakes like this. So this is me, stopping you. You’re unwell and you’re scared and you’re not gonna cut into your own cells looking for Amber Lead like this. Okay?”

“Okay”, Law says, the low rasp of his voice growing more solid, close to trusting. Bepo lets himself feel the rapid beat of his own heart for a moment and that, too, is calmer now if only marginally so.

“Okay. So: You’re tired, your body aches, you can’t focus. You have a fever and there’s like, a thousand reasons why that could be aside from– That. And there’s no new spots. What else causes those symptoms? Walk me through it.”

“The flu? Other viruses. Anemia. Iron deficiency in general. Uh–”

A few seconds pass where Law just thinks, brow furrowed and shining with sweat, and Bepo reaches blindly for the hoodie he knows he will find crumpled on Law’s desk chair. “Put this on”, he mutters and presses it against Law’s naked chest. Law does, even lets Bepo help when his injured arm catches on fabric and a pained hiss escapes his lips.

Then the scars are covered again, out of Bepo’s and – more importantly – Law’s sight for the most part. Law stops shivering as much and it's not much but it's still good, still progress. Bepo steers Law to the bed and makes him sit down; arms crossed on the back of the chair, Bepo sits directly across from him. Eyes soft, he nudges Law’s boot with his own.

“Captain. What else?”

“Bacterial infections, severe ones. Miningitis? Hmm... Lymphoma. Technically, most types of canc–”

“Whoa, that’s– Let’s stop there. See? Plenty of options. All of them suck, especially that… that last one.” Bepo pauses, can’t help but to ask: “It’s not that, right? You don’t have cancer.”

Law’s expression softens, the overall misery pushed aside for a moment as his lips twitch tiredly and he shakes his head. “No cancer.”

Bepo nods in relief, and his mind is already three steps ahead because they need a plan and Law is not the only Heart Pirate that has a knack for those. “What’s the prescription against fever? Painkillers and…?”

“Antipyretics.”

There’s not much finesse to Bepo searching the cabinet where Law keeps his private stash of medicine. The weight of Law’s eyes on him registers yet his captain says nothing, wordlessly watching Bepo as he reads labels and tries to place everything back where he finds it until– There!

“Got it. Take… uh, how many?”

“Two. And one from the red box. That one, yeah.”

Bepo gives him the pills and waits with crossed arms until Law obediently swallows all of them at once, wincing at– Wait. Water.

Scrambling to the adjacent bathroom, Bepo fills a glass and refills it right after his captain finishes the first, placing it on his nightstand. “My apologies.”

“It’s fine. You’re fussing.”

“You bet I am”, Bepo huffs, uncaring how petulant it makes him sound. “And I’m not done. Now, rest – and I mean rest, Captain, as in not moving from that bed or so help me – and I’ll get Shachi and Penguin to keep you company. You’ll be fine in no time.”

Pointedly, Law folds the covers over his legs, a wordless there, I’m in bed. “Happy?”

“Yes.”

“And you?”

Blinking, Bepo tilts his head at Law. Law just raises an eyebrow and waits, looking vaguely worried and–

Bepo reminds himself that for all he’s a genius his captain is also an idiot.

“You just came back and you’re sick, what do you think I’m gonna do? Figure this out, of course! There’s no way I’m letting you anywhere near one of the Emperors like this, much less freaking Kaido. Also”, he takes a long breath, “I’m taking Kikoku with me and there’s nothing you can do–”

“Fine.”

“–to stop me! …Wait, seriously?”

“Yeah, take it. You’re worried enough as is.” Law shrugs a little, like it’s no big deal he’s allowing Bepo to handle the sword he keeps close even in his sleep. “It’s cursed, though. Be careful.”

Bepo swallows, a little nervous despite himself. “I know. I will. And… we’ll get through this, okay? Just stay put. Don’t do anything stupid.”

Law leans back against the headrest and sighs, “Can't. The meds’ll knock me out in a few.” And perhaps he doesn’t look particularly happy about any of it but he still took the pills Bepo handed him, still decided in that moment to trust Bepo to come up with a solution while he’s down and out.

Determination sets into a tight-lipped smile on Bepo’s face. Law’s trust is all Bepo has ever needed, be it to wrestle ocean currents into submission or to help his best friend find the freedom he’s looking for, one cut string at a time.

“I'll tell 'em to hurry, then. Leave the rest to me, Captain.”

>>Chapter 2.

[the-butter-churner]

I am so sorry for the last one. Your writing broke my heart, it was so good. As a apology, Riordanverse as Les Mis?

I’m actually wroking on a set of Les Amis at Camp Half-Blood right now so this’ll be the inverse, I guess! 

Riordanverse as Les Mis:

Enjolras: Jason Grace or Will Solace- This dude was the hardest. I honestly can’t find someone as passionate as Enj here. But Jason has the biggest morals out of almost any half-blood and 

Grantaire: Nico di Angelo- c’mon, that’s kind of a given

Combeferre: Carter Kane- ‘Ferre isn’t as awkward as Carter, but they care about a lot of the same things and are both fiercely loyal. Also, my boy Carter does not get nearly as much love as he deserves

Courfeyrac: Leo Valdez- OKAY OKAY OKAY I take no criticism for this.  They are both FABULOUS and I can definitely picture Courf going up to the nymphs and just fucking over Narcissus because he is the Super McShizzle-Man Bad-Boy Supreme

Feuilly: Rachel Elizabeth Dare or Jake Mason- I dare you to contradict me.

Bahorel: Charles Beckendorf- Again, I dare you to contradict me.

Jehan: Silena Beauregard or Alex Fierro- Silena died a hero. She touched hearts and helped others see the beauty inside themselves and she still picked up a spear and charged a drakon. Jehan energy. RIght there. Also Alex Fierro bc NB representation :))

Joly: Grover Underwood- Joly is a pretty anxious person all around, but he really cares about people and their health! He just wants to keep the people he loves safe and healthy, and he’s really passionate and sweet-- just like Grover.

Bossuet: Amos Kane- Kind, means well, sometimes fucks shit up, but overall just a really sweet person.

Gavroche: Magnus Chase- I feel like people are going to fight me on this but Gavroche, like Magnus, has lived on the street for a large portion of his life and still came out to be spirited, sarcastic, and an overall amazing person. He’s brave and sometimes a little reckless, which ends up killing him, but he and Magnus share a lot of the same values.

Eponine: (Queen) Reyna- Maybe I’m projecting because ‘Ponine is one of my all-time favorite Les Mis characters and Reyna is one of my all-time favorite PJO characters... and they’ve both been rejected by dudes who DID NOT deserve them. They are strong, yet emotionally traumatized and are willing to sacrifice anything for the people they care about.

Marius: Frank Zhang, pre-HoH- Hear me out, Frank was the awkward noodle of the Seven before the House of Hades-- just like Marius. Case closed. 

Cosette: Hazel Levesque- If Marius is Frank, Cosette is Hazel and now that I think about it, it works so well! They complete each other perfectly with their brick personalities just like Frank and Hazel do. Both Cosette and Hazel have childhood trauma that changed them into a sweet, loving, compassionate person and allowed them to bring about the best in others.

Montparnasse: Apollo- If you wanna fight me on this, fine. But I will stand by this until I the day I die, baby. Tell me to my face that everything Lester does in ToA Montparnasse would not react similarly if he was in that situation. Go on, I’m waiting.

Valjean: Chiron or Jason Grace- I think most people could get Chiron, but I see Valjean as Jason because of his morals and righteousness. He does good, simply because it’s the right thing to do. He feels guilt and shame and kindness on a daily basis, which, despite all his flaws, we can say for Jason.

Javert: Octavian or Bryce Lawrence- Okay I didn’t want to have to do this... because I love Javert... but... if you’re going to be that obsessed with this one criminal who stole bread like, twenty years ago... you are just like Octavian obsessed with destroying the Greeks. Sorry. Also Bryce was obsessed with punishment and a warped kind of justice, just like Javert.

Fantine: Sally Jackson, hands down. I take no criticism.

Thenardiers (ew): all the monsters every half-blood has ever killed :)

Note: These are my own opinions. I’d be happy to hear your thoughts on this. I hope you like them! Les Mis at Camp Half-Blood coming soon

[marshmellowtea]

hey!! im gonna send you a lot of charas, you can answer them as you want, I just wanna make sure you have enough to answer all you want!! seishi, nikei, ayumu, marin maki, komaeda, makoto, mikan and sayake, please!

aaaaaaaa anon ur so sweet ilysm ;o; 

i’ll probably have to divide these into a couple posts so i can break it into chunks for myself but i’ll start off with seishi, nikei, and ayumu here :’0 

also putting this under a cut so i hopefully don’t break anyone’s dashes 

seishi 

favorite thing about them 

he’s just,, baby?? he’s just baby hdfjaslkdfsdf i don’t even know how to describe it. i was attached to him the moment i saw him and the more i watched of him the more in love i fell he’s such a precious dork,, 

least favorite thing about them 

idk if this actually counts because this is more of a criticism of his writing than anything but it’s so annoying how people just default him to “standard evil villain” after the katagiri zen reveal like no,, there’s so much more that can be done with him,, how dare you,, 

favorite line 

tbh as much as i’m disappointed (read: angry) with the direction voices was going to go, “did you just call us horny?” is still an ICONIC line fhaslksdfjlksdf i love it so much 

brOTP 

him and marin! also him and mikoto,, and him and nico,, tbh him and any girl is good he just vibes “let’s go wlw let’s go!!”, y’know? i also like him and nikei being like. adopted brothers or adopted cousins tbh it’s really cute 

OTP 

seishi/akira/ayumu/saiji. yes that it as an ot4. yes it counts come at me bro. any seishi/rebirth boy ship is good tho 

nOTP 

i,, really don’t like seishi/girls fjadsklfjsadf feels bad man 

random headcanon 

he has TRAUMA dammit!! i hc that he has a backstory similar to maki’s in that he was forced into being an assassin at a young age so it wasn’t really his choice to get involved in all this. i’ve kinda ran that idea into the ground at this point though so here’s a lighter headcanon: when he was 14, he reeeaaaally wanted to be a cat. like, to the point where he’s embarrassed to look back on those days because oh my god he really straight up tried to act like a cat 24/7 huh? kinda ties into another headcanon of mine that he’s less mature than he lets on and tends to go through periods of feeling kinda childlike but ssshh shsh shsh shush

unpopular opinion 

he’s a good boy with a morally dubious job and that doesn’t make him automatically evil. y’all are just unimaginative, uncreative and mean >:( 

song i associate with them 

coughs at my seishi and zen playlists uhh there’s a lot tbh but the songs most strongly connected with him in my mind are “this is how you spell haha we destroyed the hopes and dreams of a generation of faux romantics” by los campesinos! and “i’ve got all this ringing in my ears and none on my fingers” by fall out boy (and yes those are two songs with very long titles i know hdfaklsjdflsd ;w;) 

favorite picture of them 

aaaa rebirth doesn’t have a lot of good cgs to pull from across either of its canons and idk if fanart counts so,, but gosh i really love his surprised sprite. he’s like :o. he’s so baby i love him so much 

nikei 

favorite thing about them 

he’s so interesting. it’s clear a lot of work went into his character, and it’s always a fascinating struggle to try and write him. i think it might be a bit easier after chapter four is fully translated but still there’s a lot of complexity to him and it’s interesting trying to break down his outer shell and get inside his head, y’know? also, he’s adorable. i wanna squish his cheeks. 

least favorite thing about them 

oh my GOD does my boy stress me out. i hate seeing him being mean to my other favorite characters and i’m always just like baby why are you like this please don’t ohmygod?? i’m gonna have to watch chapter four with my hands covering my eyes hasdfjslkdf i hate betrayal plots :’) 

favorite line 

this is kinda hard actually hasdkflsjdfk but “and she threw them away just like that? girl, are you a genius or an idiot, make up your mind!” from the third trial is reALLY GOOD FHKJDFLKDSF on a more heartbreaking note though him apologizing before he dies is just,, god. god.

brOTP 

him and the other voids!! they’re a family fight me. and him and seishi, ofc. i also like him and setsuka a lot though,, after chapter six i’m doubling down on my “she’s his mom!!” stance okay. i also like him and yoruko because i think they could have a fun dynamic (and maybe a soft dynamic with older yoruko,, maybe,,)(what i’m saying is that he gains another mom okay. let me project my mommy issues in peace) 

OTP 

i,, actually largely headcanon him as aro so there’s not a lot of ships with him i’m super passionate about?? i still kinda like him and setsuka in aus and such but other than that i mostly dropped all my ships for him after chapter six cuz it’s no big loss to me. though,, i’m not gonna lie, i still have a HUGE soft spot for sorakei. after seeing his free time events they just,, grew on me and i’d think they’d be really cute together c’mon guys can we make it happen- :’0 

nOTP 

nikei/mikado nikei/mikado nikei/mikado LIKE CAN WE PUT IT TO REST ALREADY I ACTUALLY HATE IT 

random headcanon 

his hair is actually naturally super curly and he straightens it every morning so other people don’t realize this. the other voids think it looks really cute pre-straightener but he thinks it makes it hard for others to take him seriously which is why he goes to such lengths to try to hide it basically he does NOT appreciate the cooing he gets from emma, thank you very much. hgalsdjfadlfkl

unpopular opinion 

i’m not actually sure if this counts cuz i don’t see this on tumblr at least but i don’t think we should take what he says to emma and hajime in the void theater at face value. i think despite what he says he actually does care about them in his own way, he just doesn’t really show it well because he doesn’t like to be vulnerable around others. he’s an asshole sometimes (actually a lot of the time hadsflkjsdflk), but that doesn’t mean he’s unfeeling or unable to care about people. 

song i associate with them 

once again side eyes my nikei playlist ahdfslksdfjslkfd a part of me doesn’t want to spoil one of the songs on it because i do eventually wanna release it to the public but i really just,, i really gotta go with “are you satisfied?” by marina. it’s just too perfect and i think of him every time i hear it now 

favorite picture of them 

honestly? his first tts avatar. no talk him. him angy his last tts avatar upsets me though LEAVE HIM BE LINUJ

ayumu 

favorite thing about them 

AAAAAAAAAA BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND he’s so sweet such a good boy!! i like that he’s empathetic towards others cuz of his luck and he cares about how it affects them. i like that he’s soft and definitely a good cuddle partner. i love that he’s a trans icon even if that’s not really the intent i don’t care he just vibes trans so well (gal or guy or nonbinary but i tend to stick with the trans guy headcanon cuz haha i transmasc-)  

least favorite thing about them 

i kinda wish he had more of a canon sarcastic side? i mean i’m gonna continue to write him that way lol but c’mon there had to have been times where his luck is just so wildly terrible that his inner hinata jumps out and he makes a quip about it hfkajsdfksdf 

favorite line 

aaaaaa his little hope speech during in voices’ chapter one trial makes me soft,, i love him so much,, i also like him shutting aruma down when she’s being too horny hdlkajdsflksdf it’s really good 

brOTP 

ngl i tend to ship him with most of the class so,, like,, i also brotp him with the whole class,, dalfksdlfkasdf 

OTP 

see above but my favorite of those pairings are ayumu/seishi, ayumu/akira and ayumu/mikoto 

nOTP 

when i’m headcanoning him as a trans guy: nico, misuzu, and kasumi cuz i hc them as lesbians. when i’m headcanoning her as a trans girl: seishi. kind of a nonissue when i go with a nonbinary headcanon though 

random headcanon 

he plays minecraft with akira a lot, but they always have to play in create mode where you can’t really die otherwise it’s just a montage of ayumu dying over and over again, pfft. even with unlimited life though he still usually ends up stuck somewhere and akira has to come dig him out and since akira’s a rude boy he’s always laughing his ass off as he’s doing it smh >:0

unpopular opinion 

it’s,, silly to be mad about his “secretly a boy” twist on the same level as you’re mad about the v3 protag twist,, it’s a fangan and not even that well known of one at that like it doesn’t really have the power to “break down barriers” like that or whatever tf you’re expecting hdsflkajsfdlksdf 

song i associate with them 

he’s another character i have a playlist for ahdflaksdjflaksd but “this is home” by cavetown and i cry every time :’) 

favorite picture of them 

once again there’s not a lot of canon art to pull from but i do adore the promo art of him with his “male” and “female” versions :’0