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cheiyunn · 2 years ago

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Raison d'être [Part 2]

Sekkun -> Sosui (in case it's confusing, because I completely forgot his name the first time whoops)

~Duck River office~

Sosui: I have led Wakakusa-san all the way to the front entrance. Shu-san on the other hand had jumped up and ran off somewhere though-

Ujigawa Gen: I don`t care, good work.

Ujigawa Gen: Goodness, talking to a child is exhausting. You, pour me a cup of warm tea

Sosui: Understood. But sir, was it really the best choice to just tell them?

Ujigawa Gen: The thing about Duck River’s successor being Wakakusa-kun? Or is it the thing about how he and Shu are half brothers?

Sosui: Both. When the announcement of a successor is revealed, the fact that Wakakusa-san is your son will be obvious. Of course, plans to deal with the media are ready , however, the timing to reveal it to both of them was surprising, is what I thought.

Ujigawa Gen: Because Shu looked like he was about to make another out of pocket move. Before he becomes a thorn to Wakakusa-kun and FuRai, it was best to cut him off earlier.

Sosui: I see

Ujigawa Gen: As the face of Duck River, Fujin Rizing needs to be a successful band after all. For that, there being some minor sacrifices is a given

Sosui: Indeed, just as you said.

Ujigawa Gen: There is no use in keeping unusable pieces, time and money is finite you see. You simply just need to cut off ones you don’t need.

Sosui: …you’ve never changed, even from back then

Ujigawa Gen: Did you say something?

Sosui: Ah no, it's nothing. Your tea.

~Furai sharehouse~

Fuuta: Hey Ko-nii, has Aoi not come back yet? You think it's better if we go to pick him up?

Yamato: On the way there we can go to a convenience store, for some reason, I’m hungry.

Kohei: Yeah, but its not good if we miss each other. Someone should stay back

Misaki: Then what’d we do? Wanna decide this with rock paper scissors?

*Door opens*

Aoi: I’m back..

Fuuta: Ah, Aoi! Welcome back!

Yamato: Welcome back. ..hm? You seem to be lacking spirit. Are you hungry as well?

Fuuta: What's wrong? I’ll grab Sakutaro here, wanna sing together? Then you’ll be back in spirits!

Aoi: No.. I’m fine, thanks though..

Kohei: Its pretty cold right? I’ll pour something warm for you so wait a bit

Misaki: Ah, I’ll help as well!

*Walks away*

Misaki: Yo.. Ko-nii.. What did the pres say to Aoi? Its pretty obvious that something happened, its written on his face

Kohei: Yeah, but I’m not sure its something we can force out of him. Even I don’t know, so maybe we should wait until Aoi talks

Misaki: But like.. Ain’t it something that affects us as well? Sooner or later we’ll find out anyways..

Kohei: Yeah, but if its bad news, seeing us all hurt by it, he’ll view it as the person who broke the news; his, fault

Misaki: You got a point..

Kohei: So, we should leave the time to talk about it to him

Misaki: Well, if you say so. But regardless of the news we’ll accept it, its hard seeing Aoi being the only one with a sad face

Kohei: Of course

*They return*

Kohei: Here you go, Aoi, cocoa. Its hot so drink with caution

Aoi: Thanks

Fuuta: Hey Aoi, what did the presi-

Kohei: Fuuta.

Fuuta: Oh. What’s up Ko-nii?

Kohei: Ah no, why don’t we leave that conversation for later?

Fuuta: …

Misaki: Yo Aoi. Something happened right?

Kohei: Oi Misaki..

Misaki: Sorry Ko-nii, I can’t handle it. If he doesn’t wanna say it so be it, but I don’t like it when Aoi is the only one suffering

Fuuta: Me too. Seeing Aoi lack energy is harsh, you think so too right Yamato?

Yamato: Yeah. You guys have gotten through everything together right? So I think that its better to talk to everyone and face the problem together.

Fuuta: Yup, and since Yamato is with us too

Kohei: Thats true.. Okay. Aoi, did something happen? Just say the things your comfortable with explaining, we’ll hear everything out.

Aoi: You guys.. Got it.. I’ll talk. The truth is-

(Aoi explains the situation)

Misaki: WHOA WHOA WAIT. This is a little too big to follow!

Yamato: To sum it up, your real father is Duck River’s president. Did you guys not know?

Kohei: We only knew about the parents in Nagasaki being Aoi’s adopted family of course

Fuuta: Is that so..?

Misaki: Aoi told us this when we were small right

Aoi: To me, my real parents are my mom and dad in Nagasaki

Kohei: But this time, that president is not only announcing your blood relation, he wants to name you his successor above all that.. This is a pretty unbelievable situation

Misaki: Aoi becoming head of that big-ass company, thats big

Yamato: Thats right, but whats important here is us. Aoi, when you found out he was your real father, were you shocked? Or are you more troubled with the successor crisis?

Aoi: No..I didn’t really care about myself at that time. To me, what will happen with FuRai and you guys was what weighed on my mind the most.

Kohei: Aoi…

Aoi: FuRai being signed with Duck River and debuting was all because I was his successor, is what he said. I think the president wants to use FuRai and do whatever he wants.. At this rate, we’ll forever be that company’s lap dog!

Aoi: But if I said that I didn’t want to become the successor, I’m sure our support will be cut off..

Misaki: But like! The most important thing here is your feelings. If you don’t want it then we don’t want it either. And if the opportunity disappears then so be it!

Aoi: But! You all saw how that company works! The reason FuRai is in this situation, is my fault… and plus, mom and dad.. Might become saddened by this.. I don’t want that!

Fuuta: Aoi.. don’t cry, I’ll start crying too…

Aoi: You guys… I’m sorry!

Kohei: No. You didn’t do anything wrong.

Fuuta: But, why does Aoi have to suffer through this? It would’ve been fine if we continued making music together as always, that we’d always be happy… — —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —

Shu: Before I realized it, I fell asleep huh. I don’t… even know what time it is now. I don’t have the energy to wake up, I don’t even have the energy to take a breath in and out, its painful.

Shu: Why.. do I have to wake up.. It would be so much better if I just… slept like this forever…

Shu: … then I wouldn’t.. have to think about anything anymore

– flashback-

Ujigawa Gen: Duck River’s successor has been decided to be Wakakusa Aoi-kun. I have no intention of supporting from now on. By now, you are no longer someone with any form of relation to Duck River. Whether you want to continue with you band, or go back to Kyoto, do as you wish. You are no longer of any use to me. I don’t want to see your face ever again.

- end of flashback -

Shu: …why… did papa not look at me…? why… did papa throw me away…?

Shu: Why… was it that since I was small, papa and mama were never by my side..? At school events, important days, even the day I caught a fever.. Why was I always alone..

Shu: …thats why I…made a song for papa… If its a song I put my heart into…surely it would reach him… if what I thought… but that, was all a lie…

Shu: I’m sure… the people who listen to my music are the same… 3 years in the future, 5 years in the future, even after this… there won’t be people who will always be there to look… at my music, at me.

Shu: If they get bored, it’ll all just be thrown away… aha… just like a toy they don’t need anymore.

Shu: The most ridiculous thing here is…me

Shu: In the end, I was just a worthless kid that they could’ve found anywhere…if that's the case then why… am I here…

Shu: why… am I alive…?

–flashback-

Young Shu: Mr.Felix! How do you read that french word..?

Felix: Ah.. this is “Raison d'être”

Young Shu: Raison de..? What does it mean?

Felix: Hmm.. Raison d'être.. In Japanese I suppose it could mean; A reason for living, possibly?

Young Shu: What does a reason for living.. mean?

Felix: Thats a quite philosophical term hence putting it simply is a bit difficult. Hmm.. lets see.. Its something that means that above realizing your reason for life, one must come to terms with the despair present within..

Young Shu: Thats too hard..!

Felix: Ahaha~ You’re right, even for grown ups, its a hard to define word after all..

-end of flashback-

Shu: One after another, useless memories keep popping up… my head… is filled with words..! If I don’t spit them out… my head feels like it might explode..!

Shu: Keh.. My notes… where did I put them…

*Sound of writing*

Shu: Aha~ My hands are shaking… so much… that I can’t write properly… its suffocating… but, I need to write it out… everytime I write, I feel like I can breathe… just a little more…

Shu: I wonder… what happened to the notes I had burnt… what was written on them… was it words written in pain like the ones now…

Shu: …or were they filled with lovely memories… I wanted to keep…

Shu: …I hope my words… will reach someone, someday…

~Epsi sharehouse~

*Knock on door*

Reiji: Shu, I brought food. Even if you eat only small portions, its better to have something- may I enter?

*Knock on door*

Reiji: Pardon me, I’m opening the door.

Reiji: He’s not here? …shit, since when?! …there's no note or anything too

*Dials phone*

*Shu’s phone rings from inside the room*

Reiji: He left his phone..? And wallet…?

Tadaomi: How’s Shu-kun’s condition? …oh? He’s not here… where did he go?

Reiji: Tadaomi, sorry but I’m going out for a bit!

Tadaomi: Reiji-kun-!

~Outside~

Reiji: I went to all the places I suspected he’d be but nothing.. Shit. Where is he? Since he left both his phone and wallet, there’s no way he’d be back in Kyoto. When I called the secretary, he said that he hasn’t come around either. If thats the case…where? There shouldn’t be a place that Shu can rely on, since he doesn’t have a single reliable friend after all..

Reiji: Am I… in a good mood? If I look at everything I’ve been through, I feel slightly better. ..but, the one I swore revenge on isn’t Shu; its his father. Him and my father… in the past he had made a wreck of my father’s Skyfox Records after all. If Shu falls here, that’ll be a big problem..!

Reiji: And, he’s only a child. The only ones that protect him, protect his music, is only me. Then, there’s only one place to go.

~Duck River office~

*Knock on door*

Ujigawa Gen: Who is it?!

*Door opens*

Reiji: Karasuma Reiji.

Ujigawa Gen: Ah you. What is my secretary doing.. I don’t have any appointments with you.

Reiji: I have hasteful issue at hand. Shu has disappeared.

Ujigawa Gen: Disappeared? Hah. Isn’t that just his normal act, sooner or later he’ll come back anyways

Reiji: But he hasn’t brought both his phone nor wallet and simply left home..! If we use the people from the company we should be able to find him immediately, could you please assist in the search?

Ujigawa Gen: You’ve always been painfully swung around by Shu all the time right? How about you use this chance and grow a pair of wings or something?

Reiji: Wha-

Ujigawa Gen: Its simply his common lash out for attention, there’s no use in worrying. My god, what a bothersome kid..

Reiji: Isn’t it because you’re like this, that Shu grew up to become that sort of kid

Ujigawa Gen: Oh, you say funny things.

Reiji: With no doubt he is selfish and self-centered. As time passes, he grows further from being an adult and instead pivots into caring less and less. And you say you really don’t know the reason why..?

Reiji: Shu wanted to be loved by you! He wanted to be loved, praised, acknowledged by the father he loved so much! All his actions were done so you would simply look at him!

Reiji: And yet despite all that, you haven’t done a single thing as a father, at the very least find him, and say something to him..!

Reiji: Apologize to him!

Ujigawa Gen: Fuhaha!

Reiji: Apologize to Shu!

Ujigawa Gen: You seem to be very heated. IS that truly the attitude when asking something from others?

Reiji: ugh..!

*Reiji bows on the floor*

Reiji: Then as this..!

Ujigawa Gen: Aha! To grovel on the floor is another old-fashioned tactic. I have seen many grovel in front of me, but to have someone this young is a first..!

Reiji: I beg…of you…

Sosui: Oh my, Shu-san. Since when have you been here? To eavesdrop here is a bit..

Shu: Ah!

Sosui: To have such a servant that thinks so much for the master, are you sure you shouldn’t go in there to help him? To say, I’m here, to him.

Shu: *Runs away*

Sosui: Fufu~ This reckless behavior given by youth warms my heart, however, it seems that they need a bit of an adult’s helping hand after all…

~Street~

Fuuta: hah… it feels like today’s practice wore us out

Yamato: It can’t be helped.. Right now there isn’t anything else we can do..

Misaki: Talks between Duck River have become wishy-washy after all, well what we’ll do hasn’t been decided either so..

Fuuta: Ah c’mon… even walking feels like a drag and I’m kinda hungry how… Ko-nii, why don’t we grab a bite somewhere and then go back?

Misaki: Sounds good… lets eat somethin’ good and get our energy back

Yamato: As longa s there’s white rice I’m good with any shop

Kohei: I got it (2x), we should do that once in a while too. Aoi, what do you want?

Aoi: …I’m good… I’ll take a walk and get back home okay? Don’t eat something too expensive, okay? Then I’ll be off…

Misaki: Oi, Aoi..! Well he left…

*Aoi walks off*

Kohei: We should give him some alone time

Yamato: Thats sounds good

Kohei: If it gets too late, we should go pick him up together

Fuuta: Yeah..

~Park~

Aoi: Woah..! It suddenly started raining..! Maybe, I should be better getting back home.. Huh? That person sitting on the bench…?

Aoi: Uhm… Ujigawa-kun…?

Shu: You… what do you want?

Aoi: Erm.. its started raining, if you stay here you’ll catch a cold

Shu: You’re a sore, go somewhere else

Aoi: Even if you say that, I can’t just leave you here alone… and I, have been wanting to talk to you…

Shu: You’re noisy, shut up.

Aoi: No… I won’t shut up. Ever since that day, you face was burned into my mind. I, I know. Thats a face from a person that had fully given up.. But I didn’t know what to do…!

Aoi: It’s not like I was close to you, and you may not even want to see my face…! Even now, I don’t know for sure what to say, but..! Seeing you sitting all alone in the cold was something I couldn’t just let be-

Shu: SHUT UP SHUT UP, SHUT UP! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE!

Aoi: Wait! Ujigawa-kun..!

Shu: LET GO OF ME!

Aoi: Where are you going this late at night empty handed?! Do the other epsi members know? Since its started raining, I’m sure they’re worried too…!

Shu: WHAT’S WITH YOU?!! You appear all of a sudden and suddenly start acting all brotherly?!

Shu: ITS YOUR FAULT..!

Shu: ITS ALL YOUR FAULT THAT I-!

Shu: WHY IS IT YOU AND NOT ME..! When I had it all… from the beginning… if only you…weren’t here..! Just disappear now! DISAPPEAR FROM MY SIGHT-!

Aoi: No. If I disappear now, then you’ll be all alone again..!

Shu: YOU DON’T HAVE TO GIVE A DAMN ABOUT SOMEONE LIKE ME…!

Aoi: OF COURSE I CAN’T!

Shu: WHY!

Aoi: I DON'T FREAKING KNOW?! BUT MAYBE ITS BECAUSE YOU’RE HERE, CRYING..?!

Shu: GUH-!

Aoi: There was a time that I thought you were scary but, you’re really an amazing kid. To have that much talent, and to be able to make music enough to move adults..! Surely your music… can reach even the furthest of people..!

Aoi: But from now on, regardless of whatever path you take, when you’re feeling alone and lonely, I’ll be here by your side until you’ll be able to say you’re okay.

Shu: …why… are you crying…?

Aoi: …because Ujigawa-kun… Shu-kun, you’re crying as well

Shu: …eh..?

Aoi: I’m sorry…I’m not able to comfort you when you cry..

Shu: …I’m…not crying in front of you…

Shu: … ah, what… is this…

Aoi: …I have…times that I cry when I really don’t want to…

Aoi: …but at times like that… isn’t it better to cry it all out until no more tears fall..?

— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —

Reiji: Shu!

Shu: …Reiji…

Reiji: You were in a place like this..? Your clothes are soaking wet as well. Goodness. It’ll be quite a problem if you don’t specify your destination beforehand. Come, we’re going home, are you okay?

Shu: …I’m okay… I got it, I’m going.

Reiji: Wakakusa-san, thank you. We will repay this someday.

Aoi: Ah, okay..

*They walk away*

Fuuta: Ah! I found Aoi! You guys, this way!

Misaki: Ah, seriously! Aoi..! You good?

Aoi: You guys…

Kohei: We were so worried. You didn’t come back so we went out to search for you. You’re chilled… here, have my jacket

Yamato: Its good that you’re safe. Fuuta and Misaki were making a big scene about what would happen if you got kidnapped or something. So we all ran out in a panic.

Misaki: I didn’t say that.!

Fuuta: Hm? Aoi, did you cry again?

Aoi: …I didn’t cry!

Misaki: You sure? If you’ve putin’ on a show we won’t believe it

Aoi: Nope, I’m really fine. Thanks for picking me up together

Kohei: Of course we would, c’mon lets go back. We got your portion to-go

Fuuta: It definitely feels more safe when we’re all together

Yamato: Even if we’re missing one, it feels really off

Misaki: Yeah! We’re the best like this, no takeaways!

Fuuta: Hey (2x) Maybe tomorrow we should really go to Duck River..? Its best for this stuff to get dealt with earlier

Misaki: Ooh… we sneakin’ in? I’m all in

Yamato: Sounds fun

Kohei: Come on you guys…

Fuuta: Even just now you were complaining nonstop about the company too!

Aoi: Ahaha… is that so?

Yamato: Yeah, if anything happened to you, he would've blown fists away into the company(?)*. He’s always been such a calm person though…

Misaki: Oho? I know right?

Fuuta: Then lets immediately start making a plan when we get back. We, won’t lose to anyone!

~Epsi sharehouse~

Kohei: Apologies for being late..!

Fuuta: Pardon the intrusion, coming in~!

Yamato: Comin’ in…

Misaki: Uweee~!

Aoi: Thank you for the hard work~

Kanata: You’re late- Did you get lost on the way or something? This is why country bumpkins are a hassle~

Misaki: aH? Not like y’all are from Tokyo either?

Fuuta: Yamato is from Tokyo though! Within us, he’s the most City Boy!

Kohei: and with that Yamato, he is also the reason we came late… even though its his hometown..

Haruka: Any area thats outside of Tokyo is already considered the outer countryside though..

Tadaomi: Its nice to see everyone in FuRai in good spirits though. Since I heard your plans for debuting fell through, we were worried that you’d be all down in the dumps or something…

Kanata: Not even debuting, you guys snuck into Duck River and got fired right~? Aha~ Wow, lame~!

Yamato: No, rather than being fired, there was a difference in opinion so our contract got annulled. So we said “That's our line” to them.

Haruka: Ahaha…that's funny

Aoi: Well, that just means we’re back at the startline! We’ll just have to start from one again, together.

Shu: Okay~ with the proud babysitter at tow~

Reiji: Shu, since everyone is here, we should start soon

Shu: Yeah~ Okay everyone listen up~ From now, I’m going to be making a very~ big announcement

Yamato: Is it… another scheme you’re planning?

Shu: No worries~ Today is just good news after all~

Shu: First, the label that I made; SkyFox Records is going to start full scale soon.

Kohei: The label you made..? But you’re only still in middle school right? How in the world is a child going to represent a company?

Shu: Aha~ Just like what you said, a child can’t represent a company~ being said is something I’ve already anticipated. So the representative of the company is someone we all are familiar with instead

Tadaomi: Someone we all know..?

Shu: Sorry for the wait, you can enter now~

Sosui: Hey everyone, its been a while… or not

Fuuta: Huh? You’re Duck River’s secretary… why are you here?

Sosui: Aha~ thats |previous| secretary to you

Aoi: Previous..? So that means?

Sosui: I have already cut ties with that company. Well then, let me do a re-introduction; my name is Sosui Sanetomo. From now on, I will be acting as SkyFox Records’ representative.

Kanata: Eh~ Even if you say previous, its still someone from that company in an important position like this~

Misaki: Well it ain’t a problem with us, as long as we ain’t dragged into messy problems like before yeah?

Shu: Oh don’t worry~ this old man, is on our side after all

Sosui: Eh~? To you all I’m already an old man..? Oh well, putting that aside, SkyFox intends to place the people here; Fujin Rizing and Epsilon Phi, under an artist contract.

Aoi: EH?!

Fuuta: Aoi? What does that mean?

Haruka: An artist contract is the same one you guys were under with Duck River. It means that both you and us are debuting under SkyFox. Am I right?

Shu: Thats right~

Kanata: Hm~ I’m still a little iffy about being on the same level as them but since we’re able to debut I guess its fine?

Tadaomi: Yup, its really good news..!

Kohei: This is something we didn’t ever ask for…so why?

Sosui: I’m sure that during LRFes, you all already faced up against other bands, but that was only on an amateur level. From now on, It’ll be a head-on fight as pros.

Fuuta: Head-on…as pros

Sosui: Yup, from now on, only bigger challenges will open. In this world of rivalry between bands, the bands SkyFox bets on winning are Epsilon Phi and Fujin Rizing.

Yamato: I see, and we don’t want to go back to being a company’s lap dog

Fuuta: And I only want to be with everyone. From now and forever, with the FuRai that I love and making the Skaa music that I love

Sosui: Of course, both you and Epsilon Phi are to continue making the music you each want. SkyFox is a label for that reason after all

Misaki: Ko-nii.. How we feelin’

Kohei: I have a few question but for now, I got it. You guys, we’ll talk about it later

Aoi: Yeah, lets discuss it together

Kohei: Thank you very much. Let us have a more thorough discussion afterward

Sosui: Oh course, anytime

Shu: Well, of course you could fail as well. We’ll think about that if it happens. Lets see how far we can go

Sosui: I have no intention to fail though~ Well for everyone here from now on, what you want to do in the future, why you chose the path of music, is something I want you all to ponder over seriously. I have high expectations

Shu: Okay thanks~ So for everyone here, you’ll start being more busy~ There won’t be any breaks until the world knows SkyFox is the best~

Misaki: Seriously?! Is this seriously gonna become a “black company”?!

Fuuta: Eh?! A dark company means-!

Aoi: I’ll explain it all later!

Shu: Ah Reiji, I have something to ask of you later

Reiji: Understood

— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —

Shu: (In the past, the SkyFox Record that Reiji’s father made, and my father destroyed. Its the same name, but not the same. The one here, the one who made this label, is me.)

Shu: (The SkyFox I made, today has let out it’s first cry. The past and Duck River, I could care less about. The one thing in my eyes are the future from where I stand.)

— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —— —

~Epsi sharehouse~

Shu: Raison d'être… you say

*Door knock*

Reiji: Shu. The item you ordered has arrived

Shu: Ah, wait a moment. Okay (2x)

*Door opens*

Reiji: The haircutting scissors you ordered.

Shu: Thanks~ I wanted to freshen up a bit~

Reiji: You’re going to cut your hair yourself? I think you can book an appointment at a hairdresser somewhere

Shu: Nope~ I want it now. Plus, the person who’s cutting it isn’t me, its you.

Reiji: Me?

Shu: Yeah. I’ll sit here all quiet. I’ll warn you in advance though, if you give me a weird haircut, I’ll turn you into a monk (haircut)

Reiji: I understand

*Hair cutting noises*

Shu: There. You can cut it shorter

Reiji: Okay

–

Shu: (Why does Reiji, listen to my words… why is he still by my side? Reiji had always been by my side solely to swear revenge on my papa…)

Reiji: This time, look down… hm? Shu? Are you lost in thought?

Shu: Hm? No, its nothing

Reiji: If you keep spacing out you might get injured

Shu: I know.

Shu: (Shouldn’t it be fine for the me that is hated to get injured..? That time, Reiji-)

Flashback Reiji: (Shu wanted to be loved by you! He wanted to be loved, praised, acknowledged by the father he loved so much! All his actions were done so you would simply look at him! And yet despite all that, you haven’t done a single thing as a father, at the very least find him, and say something to him..! Apologize to him! Apologize to Shu!)

Shu: (To even grovel to him… but, then I’d…)

–

Reiji: Shu, today you’re quite out of it. ..I’ve finished. I am no hairstylist so this is to the extent of my ability. Later on, do schedule an appointment to get it cleaned up.

Shu: Hmph, its fine like this~ Now its your turn to sit down here~

Reiji: Me too?!

Shu: Well because~ You’re a person to be used by me right~? If thats the case, you need to be cooler. You’ve always had this hairstyle after all. Okay~ Take a seat~

Reiji: At the very least spare me from the monk hairstyle

Shu: Ahaha~ Well then~ What to do~

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*- I couldn’t quite catch what Yamato said, any help will be appreciated.

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