#babbling into the abyss

[bitchofdarkness]

I'm currently watching Was it Love? and jfc, Oh Dae-o is SO ANNOYING. I love the female lead Ae-jung to bits, but the dude is a no-no. Wtf did they think giving that piece of shit so many chances and opportunities? He insulted her so much and made her life so hard, he was so annoying to the point where I'd call him a stalker. Why must it be the entitled prick? I would've loved for her to end up with literally any of the other guys. (Although my personal favorite was the teacher 😂 I'm sorry, but he was so sweet all the time and she really deserved someone like that. Also, he was hot)

And I can't believe I say this, but the loan shark was literally the most normal of all four love interests.

[not-so-local-lesbian]

I accidentally just wrote a mini essay in the fucking reblog 😭 I’ll just take out the first paragraph and rearrange the rest in order if I never need a personal essay I guess…

Holy shit this is what I basically said in a cover letter I had to write for a school project! (I want to do this for a living)

We’re taught from a young age to recreate how we think to fit the same system of everyone else. When we are shown a shred of acceptance for fundamentally thinking differently, it astounds us because we aren’t being forced to think in a harmful and sometimes genuinely painful way.

It may not seem actually painful to use a different system, but it is. It mentally hurts, and it can end up physically hurting because I am literally fighting against myself.

Autistic coping is accepting that you have a different system and allowing yourself to explore what that may be. It means treating yourself with kindness, patience, and with the understanding you deserve.

It is not fucking easy. It is however, worth it. You are worth the effort you are giving to yourself. You are worth the effort others will give.

(If you ever need some tips, I can try to help!)

(Story time!! Technically this is first, then it goes to the paragraphs after the “holy shit this is”)

I also said this to my friend who was struggling to do an assignment, and he cried. Told him I’d help with the assignment, He showed me the VAGUE instructions, and I said: “well, I guess you could do ___________, but there isn’t that much structure in their wording, which is why that way is really vague and confusing. Is this why a no?”

He said yes. I gave him the way I did it, and I explained it. He said: “ I can’t do spreadsheets and it doesn’t work for me, but it kind of makes sense, and I’ll just try it out and it’ll be fine!! I’ll use it. You’re already trying to help me, and I don’t want to just say no to everything and make it hard.”

After hearing that, I told him: “We won’t use the spreadsheet. If it doesn’t work for you, that is completely okay. I suggested the spreadsheet because that is how I formatted it in my brain in a specific, all be it tedious, way to work with those vague instructions. I worked with my way of thinking/autism instead of working against it in order to make the assignment less excruciating and painful. I want to help you. Giving you a different way that doesn’t help you, even though it helped me, isn’t helping you. I want to help you find a way to work with yourself instead of against yourself. You aren’t being difficult, lazy, or uncooperative. You asked for help, which is a sign you are trying. You aren’t being lazy. Hell, you just wanted to go with a plan that didn’t work for you to make it easier on me, despite me being the one trying to make it better for you. You aren’t being difficult. Also, uncooperative is far from the truth! You told me what you found confusing, a bit of why, that the spreadsheets don’t work, and a bit of why they don’t work. That’s a lot of cooperation if you ask me. Continuously working against your way of thinking/autism isn’t going to help you. Sure, you can do it the other way, but it’s harmful and excruciatingly painful. I want to help you work with your way of thinking, yourself, and your autism. If we try a thousand ways, and they all don’t work, that’s okay. We can try another way. I quite literally want to help people with disabilities, autistic folks especially, allow themselves to find and think in their own way for a living. I’m so glad you’re letting me help you”

He said he never heard anything like that in his life. He literally cried.

I said it in the last post but I’m going to say it again because it’s important so LISTEN UP!!!!!

COPING WITH AUTISM ISN’T ABOUT FIGHTING YOUR AUTISTIC TRAITS!!!!!!! IT’S ABOUT LEARNING TO WORK WITH YOUR AUTISTIC TRAITS IN A WAY THAT ISN’T HARMFUL TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

[konfizry]

She is so

[enden-k]

i know its a filler update but this is honestly such a sad sight aukdjasbk

[hewkii]

do you think laios would eat one of these if given the chance

[y-rhywbeth2]

In themes, BG3 feels to me a bit like the original Baldur's Gate games and Neverwinter Nights 2 both got sequels and then they fell in a blender and accidentally came out as one game. More NWN2 than BG tbh:

Bhaalspawn shenanigans + references + location = Baldur's Gate

Githyanki presence + Illithid Empire threat, linking back to Gith's rebellion (and thus her sword, which was key to their defeat) + Plane of Shadow nonsense + undead villages consumed by the Shadowfell + the long overdue opportunity to punch Myrkul in the face + fuck you Karsus stop ruining things + human wizards with too close a relationship to the weave causing apocalyptic events + THANKS SHAR + my ongoing hobby of making life difficult for devils + *squinting at Withers* didn't I see you on the fugue plane? = Neverwinter Nights 2

I crave the silver sword of gith in this game. Lae'zel would lose her fucking mind.

[australet789]

I changed my mind and actually going to use a hashtag for Palestine support posts. It's going to be #free palestine.

Why the change? I talked to my mom last night, about how while i still despise the lack of cordiality most of USA-ians have in general in every website, making us who not live there to basically be forced to learn about their politics and such... I dont want to be like them. If i want to be better, i need to be the change it's needed, instead of falling into the apathy the world is currently living.

Yes, im still angry. Im sad, disappointed, want to scream and tear the world apart, to make people understand...

But i want to be kind. If something, give the kindness others are not being able to receive. I dont expect myself to become a beacon, but it's says more of a candle trying to stay alight in the middle of the ocean.

[doodle17]

I'm sorry, but in that one post you made you mentioned in the tags something about Raz getting hit in the head with... a crowbar?... did I read that right?

You did.

(Volume warning)

[bonefall]

BB!Hollyleaf’s story feels like a kingdom hearts plot. I don’t mean that in a bad way

Ok but what's the, "Mickey! It's Riku... they put bugs in him..." moment? Do you understand what I'm asking? What's the funniest, most genuine, heartwrenching but also corny moment that lives in your head like some kind of bug. Which was put inside of you.

[sangpiress]

I DONT WANT TO POST ART ANYMORE ITS TOO EMBARASSING? im too scared i dont want people to actually look at me anymore the expectation of grandeur and disappointment is killing my will to draw and post and i dont want to talk about it on twitter so only yall get to see me weep here

[secretagent9]

SCAVENGERS REIGN GOOD

[twistedappletree]

👖

[cowardlychimera]

and the fact that Abbi looks like all the other Something variants, even following the name pattern... she was down there in the abyss for so long :((

[enden-k]

actually, i think today ill do gaming day and just draw later in the evening if i still feel like it. its raining and so cozy and i just remembered i still didnt do abyss yet and i prob should finish baizhu and yoimiyas 2nd sq before the next update AHHAJKSCB

[hewkii]

I FUCKING LOVE NISHAGORA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[noscomunia]

hiiii its korm. i essentially quit twitter bc every time i logged on it rocked my mental stability to shite so im coming here for posts again <3 also im into guilty gear now <3