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Just remembered back in middle school during some of the most traumatic years of my life when I honestly had a bit of stress-induced psychosis going on and thought the human brain could manipulate time/space/etc if we tried hard enough and I came to the realization that if I did my brain a certain way then I could make entire days/weeks/months pass in what seemed like the blink of an eye and not have to experience any of it. But looking back now it's like girl... That was just dissociation š
11yo me was literally like "watch this!" *dissociates at clinically terrifying levels*
#this is so fucking funny to me for some reason. i dont know why this is only just now occurring to me#probably bc i blocked most of that year out#aveline if youre reading this youre pretty much the only thing i remember from that time. love you š#rambling#dissociation tw
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Hiya, do u have a carrd or anything with info on your ocs? I love reading about ocs n all that crap but the tumblr search function is like actually evil. Keir seems super interesting but itās like killing me trying to find posts to recap his lore š
i donāt iām afraid!! itās just his enormous mess of a tag as the lore built up... i might make something sometime??? i hadnt thought abt it tbh. in the meantime feel free to ask me any and all questions even if itās something iāve probably already said, i love going over this stuff and will do so forever if even slightly prompted. on that note, if it helps, here is a briefly condensed version:
keir is a red personality (aggressive/direct) non-mage hawke. i did his full playthrough as a warrior, i sometimes talk about switching him to rogue, but the only really important thing is that heās a reaver and will bite you for real
heās a man of few words, extremely blunt and threatening to the point of being absurdly over-the-top with pretty much all strangers, and much softer but still bluntly earnest with the small group of people he considers his own. he considers himself first and foremost a protector and would do anything to keep those people safe. his father malcolm was a strict man who raised him to do this and he accepted that wholeheartedly. consider him a guard dog. killed his first templar in defence of the family aged 15
he adores and idolises magic and fiercely supports mage freedom, though ultimately he would absolutely sacrifice a wider ācauseā if doing so would keep his mages safe. fortunately or unfortunately, he canāt do that because the two are inextricable
heās a proud fereldan and cares very little for kirkwall (hates kirkwall. hates kirkwall. someone please get him out of here) and its nobility, which tends to show in his appearance and behaviour. long braided hair, the streak across his nose is kaddis, and takes his mabari, silla, absolutely everywhere
heās elf-blooded via his father, who was the bastard son of a fereldan elven servant girl and an orlesian chevalier who was with the occupation
his playthrough has circle mage bethany. he adores her and he would do anything for her but her acceptance of her fate and disillusionment with his overprotectiveness meant they had an increasingly strained relationship. it was because she was trapped that he couldnāt leave the city. once he was champion, meredith essentially had a knife to his sisterās throat whenever she wanted his compliance, not to mention the looming threat to anders and merrill, making those three years the worst and most terrifying in his life
he romances anders! friendmance and they escape kirkwall together in the end. not always easy but he really loves him, justice half included. thereās a lot of lore here ummm if i mention the āand they were housematesā timeline, thatās my silly mutual pining alternate version of events where anders moves into the amell estate for safekeeping before he and keir actually get together. if i mention aura hawke, thatās the potential daughter i occasionally hc for them
he had previous relationships with morrigan (in lothering as young 20-somethings) and merrill (during act 1). you cannot keep him away from those romanceable mages
heās still close friends with merrill. isabela is his best friend. he has a complicated, semi-antagonistic friendship with varric, who was really closer with anders but now after the fact doesnāt want to remember that. he deeply respects and is friends with fenris. he did rivalry with sebastian, but in an agree-to-disagree way where they considered each other friends nonetheless until All That happened. he had a more genuine rivalry with aveline though still coloured by their trauma bonding
i THINK those are the main beats of his lore but heās my most discussed and developed dragon age character so iām sure iāve missed some of the assorted junkyard of thoughts
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So I saw your tags on the types of love ask and I'm also obsessed with the first weeks and months after Fenris and Hawke break up lol!! I would love to hear more of your thoughts about what Maria and Fenris are feeling/thinking esp wrt fighting together, how the kirkwall group sees them, and just generally how they cope with not being "together" but still being around each other all the time.
Oooh anon, I tried to keep this a reasonable length and I failed haha. In my defense, I have 30k words of unfinished fic answering this very question and I pared it down as best I could.
So:
I think the immediate aftermath is, of course, the most painful--but it's also the most careful on her part. Analysis sets in for her pretty quickly about a day later, when her head is more clear: she loves him and she doesn't believe that loving him gives her a right to take his friends and home away. Hawke is very aware that she has the power to do this if she isn't careful.
What can she do about it? Give him space. Make sure he knows he's still welcome. Keep inviting him to things where many of her other friends are present. Never touch him unless she has no other choice, because she knows she'll give herself away. Look at him directly as little as possible (this one is for her own sake---watching him is like putting her thumb on a bruise to make sure it's still there). Be alone rarely, if ever, and if alone then at a great distance. No more walking home together; no more late nights reading in her library before the fire; no more long goodbyes at her door. She tries so hard to be careful with him and instead she is stiff and overly polite.
It hurts. For both of them. I've talked before about how friendship is the bedrock of their relationship to me, and for a while they lose that, too. Maria's fatal flaw is that she thinks she can perfectly read everyone around her. She assumes that the boundaries she's drawn are good for both of them and she never, ever asks Fenris what he thinks or wants---because that would mean talking about it.
Fighting is rough for a while, because one of them is now dedicated to not paying attention to the other. They both get hurt, badly, in the few weeks immediately after that night. Fenris occasionally slips and calls her Maria (he can't get it out of his head no matter how much he'd like to). Hawke occasionally slips and pats his shoulder or elbows him to make a joke before she remembers and pulls away again.
At last, they get in a really big argument over what Fenris says to Merrill during Mirror Image. Maria loses her temper (she usually keeps a very tight leash on it) and says some things she doesn't mean---the subtext being, if she is a monster then I am a monster. If you knew that before, then why did you ever pretend you wanted me? She does not say this explicitly, because I think she doesn't actually want to know the answer. She apologizes as best she can without actually acknowledging what happened, but now that is festering between them, too.
All of their friends definitely know what's going on. They had front-row seats to the budding flirtation, the tiny gestures of affection...and now they also get to see Hawke putting herself as far away from him as possible, Fenris's absolute refusal to discuss any of it, the pained way he looks at her when she isn't watching, and so on. How can they not know? I think Varric and Isabela try to discuss it with Maria, in their respective ways, and she laughs it off. I think Anders probably makes a pointed comment and she bats that away, too. (Actually, Aveline might be the only one who's still oblivious, judging by the dialogue in her Act 2 quest.)
She does eventually confide in Sebastian, because he's supposed to take confessions, isn't he? Surely this is not so bad a thing to carry, in comparison to everything else. In the end, all she really wants is her friend back and she doesn't know how to get back what they've lost. She blames herself far more than she blames Fenris (Hawke should be able to fix everything always, obviously). Before she can come to any conclusions about how to patch things up, Leandra dies and she really starts spiraling.
When she finally emerges from the big blank space immediately following the funeral, Hawke is erratic. She gets drunk and sloppy, she throws herself into fights she couldn't possibly win, and she stops being careful with Fenris.
(For the record--I think he prefers the minor arguments to Hawke being polite with him. Maria is polite with Meredith and Marethari and the Viscount and the Arishok. She is friendly or charming or crass with everyone else. Being on the receiving end of cordiality was far, far worse than anything she pulls while she's grieving.)
Again--it takes something big to knock her out of this spiral. Luckily, Kirkwall has no shortage of shitshows. Hawke faces down death, comes to terms with the fact that she's just going to have to be in unrequited love with Fenris forever, and acquires a new title, not necessarily in that order. Fenris watches her die, acknowledges privately that he would rather be with her than without her regardless of what they are to each other or what dangers they face, and is there with her when she needs him the most.
Some of those boundaries stick around--she doesn't look at him often or for too long, which he hates, and they don't spend much time alone together. But slowly, slowly, they rebuild their rapport. Hawke and Fenris respect each other deeply; I think that's what makes the rest of it possible. Love is one thing---messy and busy and too heavy by far---but respect is something they both understand, and it's a good enough foundation to build on. She does love him; if she could make it into a purely platonic love, she absolutely would. More importantly, Maria trusts him and he clearly feels the same. It takes time, but they get back much of what they lost.
I want to be clear: she never thinks of any of this as biding her time for him to realize he wants her; she knows that he never will. She also knows she has to be okay with that if they're going to be friends again, and that matters to her most of all. It would have broken her heart to lose him because she couldn't move on.
For Fenris's part--I don't know how much of his reaction is guilt and how much is being caught essentially flat-footed. I cannot imagine what it would be like to work up to wanting to be emotionally intimate with someone (physical intimacy entirely aside) and then have that comfort entirely ripped away because of something he feels solely responsible for.
So, anon, to answer your question:
They deal with it by letting what happened between them be the third party in the room, ultimately. They both know what happened; they know that talking about it by now is more likely to open up wounds than it is to heal them. What they have is immeasurably valuable to both of them. If he still dreams about holding her, if she measures every suitor at her door against Fenris, well---that's for them to handle alone. Nobody else needs to know.
#good lord this is long. i really saw no way to cut any of it#again: i have most of a whole-ass fic about this written currently#and i left out all of the really compelling bits to get here#long post#maria hawke#ask response#thanks for asking anon!! I appreciate your curiosity c:
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ASSASSINāS MODERN DAY PROFESSIONS
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ALTAĆR
College Professor
-We all know that AltaĆÆr has spent most of his life teaching, so what better job does he have than a college professor?
-He knows what heās talking about, that much is certain, but sometimes he gets a little too lost in his lesson to realize that his students are scratching their heads. So itās normal to have students staying after class, but they leave understanding every word of what he said.
-Heās not the fun teacher, but heāll be able to teach you what you need and still remember it at the end of the day.
-Heās pretty lenient, and even with the obnoxious students who cause a scene, he calmly gets them to at least do their work.
-Other teachers always use him as a reference when it comes to the perfect teacher.
EZIO AUDITORE
-I can see Ezio being a public speaker since heās not all that scared of crowds and spends a lot of time giving advice, so I think heād really enjoy being able to help a crowdļæ¼ļæ¼ of people whose lives are falling apart
-Ezio would be the single anchor in a sea of storms because he always seems to have an answer for everything. Heās a man whose words are turned into inspirational quotes that people hang on their walls.
-When he says that things will be okay, no one doubts him since they know that he lost his father and his brothers very early on and that it took years for Ezio to accept the loss the way he had. If he could soldier through it, why couldnāt they?
-He doesnāt involve himself in politics, finding them to be a waste of time and breath despite how many people ask for his input on the political status of the country heās staying in.
-He speaks to a lot of people in private, letting them speak their minds and giving his advice if they want it. Heās a therapist without a license, and you always feel hopeful about life leaving his office.
Connor
Construction or Sports
-This boy was designed for heavy work, and Iāve heard some good points in saying that not only would he be amazing at sports, but heād also really enjoy it too.
-In my personal headcanon, I think heād be a good construction worker as well. Not the high end kind that build skyscrapers or anything, but I can see him building simple houses for small communities, taking the lower jobs that canāt afford much help like the sweetheart he is. He definitely volunteers to make houses for the homeless.
-Since most of the homeless he helps donāt have much money, he makes sure to offer them baked goods because heās definitely a baker.
Edward Kenway
-As a young man, he joins the navy
-Once heās on his own, he buys his own boat and treats it like royalty.
-Heās not a pirate himself, but he does let less legal people on board for a price. At the time, it was just an easy cash pay since people paid good money when they were desperate.
-When heās older and gets a grip on some of the people heās helping (like the REALLY bad criminals) he quickly lets it go.
-Yet after seeing some of the more decent people and the places they were running from, I can see him being a sort of smuggler, but instead of smuggling drugs or weapons, he sells medicines, canned foods, and clothes to the regions where theyāre scarce or hard to pay for.
-When heās older and found a fortune over time, he starts up his own official charity, hiring various sailers to sail supplies to more places than he himself could alone.
SHAY CORMAC
-Okay, I have to say it. Shay would DEFINITELY be an FBI spy. Maybe I havenāt thought of it as heavily as I could, but he just strikes me as a man who could kill someone in plain sight and still not be seen.
-He already knows everything he can about infiltrating and getting vital information
-He knows exactly how to manipulate people to get what he wants.
-Heās like Macgyver but as an agent.
-He does things that make sleeping at night impossible, but he tells himself that every long night for him is another person somewhere else having a peaceful night, and peaceful nights means heās doing his job. Right?
-Constantly questions his morals, but he canāt bring himself to stop, not knowing that heād do if he stopped, because at least here heās doing something. Heās contributing.
-That and maybe I might or might not want to see Shay in a suit š¤·āāļø
AVELINE
-Actress. And a damn good one. Sheās one of the kind of people who get paid millions each job and gives most of her cash on people who really need it. Not only that, sheās a fan favorite everywhere.
-She takes extra jobs in smaller businesses barely staying afloat, and public morality boosts has nothing to do with it. In fact, she keeps her fame life out of everything, choosing to see it just as another job.
-I can see her sharing similarities of Zendaya or Zoe Zaldana
ARNO DORIAN
-High school teacher or actor, I canāt decide.
-Because letās be honest, this guys brain is more wrinkled than a raisin. He knows his stuff.
-Heās good at simplifying what heās saying, and that happens to be a very useful trait when it comes to teaching.
-If he was a teacher, heād be a damn good one, thatās for sure. No one will fail his class because heās so good at explaining things, and heād be the one who actually cares for his students.
-When it comes to acting... just admit that Arnoās a theater boy through and through. If you need proof, heās the only one with a crazy amount of fancy robes and colors. FOR GODS SAKE HE OWNS A THEATER! So on modern day, I could totally see him as an actor as well.
-Heād be the Ewan Mcgregor of the modern day, because everyone recognizes him from SOMEWHERE because heās really tested his acting ability on multiple various roles. Well read, charming, and level headed, heād totally rock being an actor. Heās good friends with Aveline, and when they both have time in their busy schedules, they stop by for coffee and fill each other in on their life.
JACOB
-Boxing
-I saw the photoshops of Jacob in boxer life, and I have not been the same because oh my god that is amazing.
-but absolutely heād be a boxer. Heās the shortest guy in the entire match, but he doesnāt need a stool to knock you on your ass before you can laugh about it.
-His opponents are lucky shattering bones is against the rules because he knows how to make someone wish their dad wore a condom.
-A lot of people think that his rounds must be rigged, and his sister had to physically hold him back every time Jacob threatened to give him a close up of how āriggedā his fights were.
-Jacobs a powder keg, so it doesnāt take much to make him explode, and a lot of the less respectful people he has to fight picks particularly sore spots to do just that.
-He might be pissed, but his punch isnāt the only thing that stings. He knows exactly what words to use, and when theyāve gone too far, he doesnāt hold back.
-Might have a temper, but he has a good heart despite it all. He visits schools and completely turns his personality around with kids. He signs autographs, takes pictures, and makes sure that every one of them have a fun day because he knows that thereās some kids in this school that donāt have those kinds of days. He pays the school for field days each time, making sure they all get out. They bring out the scooters, parachutes, capture the flag, and āwrestlingā matches for the kids who want to face him. He loses every time. He never has a bigger smile on his face than when he has children fans walk up to him.
EVIE
-She is totally a lawyer and you canāt change my mind.
-Logic and Facts are her strongest weapons, and so far she has yet to lose a debate.
-Every other lawyer knows that seeing Evie walk into court is an instant death sentence, because like her brother, her words are sharp as a knife and her mind is even sharper.
-If they didnāt look identical, no one would believe that she would be related with Jacob the hot headed boxer, because she was level as water and was near impossible to make angry, but god help the poor sod that presses her.
-Her clients almost always get the best case scenario with Evie by their side by how good she is.
-Also like her brother, children are her weak spot, and her hard composure melts whenever she needs to speak to a child in the witness post, making sure that the child feel comfortable unlike the others that drill the kid with questions when theyāre too skittish to answer. She takes her time and gets the kid feeling safe, and gently asks their side.
-Evie might not do it as a profession, but Evie has beaten Jacob in the boxing ring in the gym. She knows damn well how to handle herself, knowing sheād need it since sheād be fighting corrupt politicians or gang members who have too often tried attempts at her life. Every time she emerged unscathed, using the attempt at even more evidence against them and insuring a spot in jail. No one dared try attacking her again after that.
BAYEK
-Iām thinking police officer or motivational speaker for trauma.
-Either way, heās a guardian who takes care of the people heās in charge of. He knows words well, and having been down the dark path himself, he knows exactly what people experience and what they want to hear.
-Be the change you want to see in the world, and thatās exactly what heās doing.
-Heād be a well respected officer, and heās not afraid of telling off a comrade if someone is wrongfully accused. Heās not very popular in the police station, but as long as heās doing his job, heās satisfied.
-Heās saved several people over the course in his life, and his word is well honored since heās on no ones side. He sees things as what they are and doesnāt twist events he disagreed with to his point of view. Even if it hurts him personally, he doesnāt lie.
-Heās divorced, but theyāre still best friends with each other and visit when they can.
AYA (ran out of gifs. Sorry)
-She is hands down a self defense teacher for women
-She sells hidden self defense tools for less than ten dollars, always sure to keep constantly supply of them since many have confessed that theyāve saved them from dangerous situations.
-Like her former husband, sheās a protector and makes sure she provides her students with the best.
-She teaches children what to do if they ever get grabbed, and sheās had many parents in years thanking her when that information ended up saving their childās life.
ALEXIOS
-Hands down he is a stunt double
- Preferably Arnoās since he relies more on flexibility than brute strength. Then thereās the fact that they look similar enough in features
-He does the moves that would probably be safer if they were just CGI, but he hates those computers with a passion, preferring to do the real thing instead of giving out something fake. Heās broken more bones than he can count, and the companies he works with always have a medic on standby when something goes wrong.
-They tried convincing him that they only needed him for a few spots, but after realizing that he wanted this (and him assuring them that he doesnāt bother with suing), they let him do his thing. The results are fruitful since the most nitpicky movie fans are absolutely thrilled when thereās a particular move done right.
-He teaches Arno a good few things about how to do action scenes, and theyāre definitely good friends.
KASSANDRA
-Roller Derby
-She lives for throwing people and smacking them without being judged for it, so the Derbyās her safe spot.
-Everyone on the opposing team is terrified of her, always scared when they see her devilish smile, knowing that theyāre about to get their asses handed to them. Like her brother, sheās an adrenaline junky, and when sheās not doing the derby, sheās going off into car races in a water trench. Sheās surprisingly very good with cars too, knowing the inside and out of a car like the back of her hand.
-She loves it when men try to catcall her. It gives her a perfect opportunity to punch them in the face.
-She loves the races themselves because no one expects it. Sometimes she pretends to act like a beginner and absolutely slaughter them, giving them a nice wink before driving out with her cash.
-Only has a soft spot for the girl who visits her on weekends. Sheās practically her older sister, and there will be hell to pay if her favorite kid gets hurt in any way.
EIVOR
-BACA(Bikers Against Child Abuse)
-The moment I saw this, I instantly thought about them.
-they would absolutely be a part of this
-Looking all badass in leather while turning into a softie for children? Thatās Eivors entire character right there.
-Eivors not afraid to get physical with an abuser. Theyād beat the abuser to a pulp and right after take the child out for ice cream.
-No one messes with Eivor, knowing that their lenience was stretched only for children. Anyone else tried to pressure her? Your teeth would be shattered and theyād wear the bits for a necklace.
-Children are much more brave around them because theyāre tougher than their parent and on their side, so theyāre not afraid to give them to the police
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please tell us about the kirkwall campaign and warden hexcrawl too!
the warden hexcrawl is this massive game that's been running in vigil's keep for over a decade now. with a west marches campaign you don't need to get a consistent group together, you can just collect anyone who's available to play at a given time and throw together an adventuring party. at this point the map is enormous, spanning multiple planes of existence. they've cleared entire megadungeons. everyone ends up collecting a stable of characters they can choose from based on party comp and desired level of play. dm-ing your first session is something of a rite of passage. it spun off from whatever informal game they played around the campfire during the blight but since then it's evolved into what is essentially an institution.
the kirkwall campaign is. something else entirely lmfao. varric's a really well-practiced and flexible dm now but booooy did they get off to a rough start because he built an entire campaign around the party behaving essentially as he expected them to, and that plan was ruined the moment they rolled their characters.
Iām cutting this for length here bc christ itās so much. if itās too much then blame @sandayuoda
anders. ruins everything immediately because varric was expecting him to play a healer and instead he turns up with this extremely chaotic revenge-motivated edgelord of a character. he's tired of being nice and sometimes he just wants to go apeshit, you know? this is the only outlet he has for stress release these days. he shows up to session one and shows varric his character sheet and varric's like "what the fuck" and then he hands varric his 20 pages of tragic character backstory (he read the campaign document and tied his character's backstory into the setting) and varric's like "what the everloving fuck blondie." varric had littered that thing with red herring villains and clever misdirection (he thought) and anders immediately pinpointed the intended bbeg of the campaign (not!Meredith) and made his tragic backstory revolve heavily around her. who actually reads the campaign document??? well that was lucky for him, since eventually leaning on this backstory becomes one of the only ways he can keep the campaign moving forward. also, anders outs himself as a closet furry by playing catfolk, to the surprise of absolutely no one.
aveline. predictable human paladin type. claims to be LG but ultimately plays more like LN. at the start she's one of the only things keeping the party on the rails but eventually just ends up following them around and tutting disapproval (much like in real life). she's that player who writes a completely normal character with a completely normal backstory and family waiting for them back home so the dm has to continually jump through hoops to provide them with character motivation to continue adventuring.
bethany. absolutely does not want to play a spellcaster. plays instead a sort of martial ranger/hunter build and dumps everything into animal handling. essentially plays a pretty disney princess except everywhere she goes sheās followed by a small army of feral animals she's befriended and trained to fight.
carver. plays some sort of magus/gish type, because yeah ok magic is cool, but swords are cooler. crossplays as a female character and it's no big deal but it's also really, really hard for the party to keep the pronouns straight because she's a hot-headed veteran so he's essentially just playing himself.
fenris. just a fighter guy. (varric: "really, broody? an elf with a big sword?" fenris: "I was told I could be what I want. is that not allowed.") his character has no backstory and needs no backstory. he is here to roll dice and his character is a single child and an orphan with no ties to anyone or anything so stop asking. deals the highest dpr in the party as he eventually gets sucked into reading charop guides and thus becomes the only one among them who is even a little bit optimized.
isabela. every party needs a chaotic neutral rogue and she is happy to oblige. something fun and sexy and chaotic like a tiefling. (isabela: "what? I'm optimized. I put all my skill ranks into seduce and fuck" varric: "those aren't things and you haven't found a single trap since the game started") on a mission to get loot, start bar fights, and flirt with every npc she encounters. (she always asks to touch their chest hair. she may just be flirting with varric. it becomes a running gag that every barmaid in varric's world has a lustrous carpet of chest hair.) tbh isabela is one of the only players behaving exactly as chaotically as varric expected, he just hoped she'd be outvoted.
merrill. plays a chaotic good barbarian type, some massive dude. she does the best deep growly voice she can manage. she just wants to try something fun and different! her barbarian is also a real sweetheart and probably the most unoptimized character, with the highest intelligence of anyone in the party.
sebastian. also ruins everything immediately with his character. (varric: "choir boy, you can't play a fiendpact warlock, you're... you know... you!" seb: "...but this is a roleplaying game, right? I was told this was a roleplaying game.") also plays a tiefling, which is his repressed slutty side coming out. he and isabela didnāt plan this out but she finds it hilarious and they get together after the session and plot out a joint backstory in which they do crimes. after he makes one too many off-handed jokes about his dark patron being "basically [his] evil grandmother" varric starts playing her like elthina but he'll never admit it.
eventually the party's rolling up into town followed by a pack of wolves, an owlbear, an alligator, and a murder of ravens
isabela and hawke ask simultaneously where the nearest tavern is
seb's like "oh varric remember it's getting time I need to appease my dark patron again"
aveline sighs and says "I'll be making donations at the temple I guess"
varric just holds up his stack of notes for the town and tears them into pieces in front of them
"I may as well just rip these up right now and get it out of the way because we all know how this is going to end"
"how is it going to--"
"in disaster, merrill, that's how it's going to end. that's how it always ends."
anyway that was then. they've been playing the same characters for years (as varric has pulled increasingly absurd threats for them to face off against out of his ass) so now they're prestige classed epic level abominations of characters. hawke highkey prestiged into dragon disciple and later found a way to permanently polymorph into a full dragon at some point, I'm sure.
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Extended thoughts on the Dark Fortress preview pagesĀ [spoilers at link]
(Would I be an MJ if I did not do this?Ā This post is under a cut due to spoilers.)
I like the preview pages a lot, Iām excited for release - roll on March 31. Thereās a lot packed into just these limited pages, so Iām looking forwards to seeing the issue and its contents in their entirety.Ā
A flashback to the Battle of Ostagar all those years ago is the last thing I was expecting when coming to this comic and it hit me with a one-two of feelings and nostalgia. Up there just off-screen, the Hero of Ferelden and Alistair have just lit the beacon in the Tower of Ishal. In these panels, the rain, the lighting, the atmosphere - itās surreal (not in a bad way) seeing these fateful events again, back where it all kinda began really, and that page does a good job of replicating that cutscene and the heavy feel of it in a different medium. Itās a nice touch seeing surprise/unsureness and even conflict on some of the soldiersā faces as Loghain gives the order to retreat. A couple of them even seen disconcerted as they walk away (looking at one another in askance). I like this take on Ser Cauthrien, and I wonder if Aaron ever encountered Aveline, Wynne, Carver or non-mage Hawke at Ostagar before the battle...?
Loghainās wordsĀ āHe must do what his honor compels him to doā almost feel like a bit of metacommentary, i.e. on Loghainās character in addition to obviously being about Ser Aaron.
In-universe before now, there have been varying accounts of Ser Aaronās experience at Ostagar. Did he miss the fight, did he kill two ogres, etc. Now we see the truth of the matter is exactly as he told Vaea, which speaks of the trust and close relationship between the two. Iām not going to lie, theĀ āI am coming my kingā and subsequent panels make me cry on this re-read. Aaron reaching out for Cailan in his sleep with his other fist clenched, jerking awake from a nightmare in a cold sweat.. Aaron is so brave, he was the sole or one of the few soldiers in Loghainās company to make this kind of stand (and you can see that there was a moment when he did turn to leave and considered it before turning back), and these panels convey the extent of the trauma that he experienced on the field of battle that day. Iām positive that in panel 2 here, itās the exact moment when he sees Cailan die. It also hurts to think that not far from there, Duncan is seeing the same thing. Theyāve done a good job integrating the new charactersā pasts with previous canon events with things like these. Itās like, expanding on things, but without anything conflicting.
When Aaron reaches for his alcohol skin Iām pretty sure his hand is shaking. Vaea is so tender and understanding/supportive at this part and itās a really poignant and soft moment for them.. Aaronās nightmares are a regular occurrence it seems. I love her and their relationship so much.. keeping watch over him while he sleeps a bit away from the others and the fire. ;; Also Autumnās ears here, sheās lying down but still listening to whatās going on with and between her people. ;;
Brief pause here: I always appreciate getting a good sense where different events are taking place in the additional media. Also we now have in-universe confirmation that in the timeline weāve now reached 9:45, as opposed to only external word-of-god. Do you guys ever think about your Wardens and how itās been 15 years for them?
Aaron is like a father to VaeaĀ š
Fenris has two daggers now in addition to his twohanded sword. The better for ending Danariusā bloodline my dear šŖ
Have they tweaked Fenrisā hairstyle a bit, compared to Blue Wraith? Possibly also his skintone and eyebrows, compared to Blue Wraith? (I find this kind of thing hard to tell. If Iām incorrect here please feel free to correct me.) He looks good in this preview.
Poor Francesca. Tessa is really kind at this part and itās nice to see more moments like these between female characters (women supporting one another). It reminds me of the moment in a previous issue where Vaea hugs Francesca on the ground. Tessa makes a great point here that true strength isnāt necessarily being stoic and unemotional, itās standing up for what you believe in and for the greater good, even at great personal cost. Itās notĀ 'not crying' and hiding your sadness. Thatās a nice message, and again, Fran has really grown on me.
I also think it speaks well of Fenris and his character development after all these years in-universe that he was looking for a way to help Aaron, then immediately thought to go speak to Francesca when she was upset to see if he could help her in turn.
hhh brooding silent Marius staring broodily and silently into the flames and not responding to Fenrisā attempt at making conversation tho, the gentle lampshading..Ā Thatās so true to his character. These might be my favorite panels in the whole preview. Fenrisā dry wit and facial expressions, the general composition, Fenris peacing out likeĀ āok bye igā lmao. You also get the sense that Fenris is reeling a bit and feeling abandoned since Hawke and co split up. After trying to do something to help both Aaron and Fran above, he then tries to make conversation with Marius. Heās trying to lighten the mood but also to connect after being alone for some time. He has missed having a group around him, and I suspect this group with its varying troubles and issues reminds him a lot of Hawke and co. That both the humor aspect and this characterization comes through in these 3 panels is pretty brilliant.
We reach the titular dark fortress! If ever there was a fortress for a bad guy, huh? x) The narrow exposed causeway being the only approach is a smart line of defense, strategically. Also, the realization that this is where Fenris lived while he was a slave of Danariusā :| Itās a horrible-looking place and will be full of bad memories for him.
If this is how stormy the Nocen Sea gets in places - well, it reminds me of the lore that in Thedas naval exploration beyond the known map has been historically limited by different factors like pirates, Qunari dreadnoughts, stormy seas and sea creatures etc.
Characters speaking their native languages in places is always a nice touch. Now weāve heardĀ āBy the Maker!ā in Orlesian.
Aspects of the style and architecture of the Tevinter buildings in this preview, like the window shapes and the red lights and stuff, echo or remind me of what weāve seen of Minrathous in the most recent trailer and some of the recent pieces of concept art for the next game. Neat.
We have our name and identity for the mage on the cover! Tractus Danarius, bastard son of Danarius. Danarius fucked around huh. āTractusā has a Latin root, fittingly for a Tevinter name. Its different meanings are quite interesting: being dragged, extracted, plundered, an anthem sung in some masses, an elongated area or abnormal passage... I wonder if one of them will come into play somehow, the name possibly having been chosen for a reason? I also wonder how young Tractus is relative to Fenris, and if their paths have ever crossed in the past.
Tractus makes his entrance with two elven slaves or servants in tow. Like on the cover, his eyes are red. The head of his staff is a red sphere, also. Can we assume a connection to red lyrium, then, given these factors and the villainsā interest in using red lyrium to power the sarcophagus? I would guess that as normal magic was required to make it work with blue lyrium, the thing required to make it work with red lyrium is blood magic? A blood magic ritual. My guess is that the thing Tractus shows Marquette and Nenealeus is probably a chained up dragon or similar, which they plan to sacrifice and use the blood/power derived from that to fuel the magic/ritual. This is considering blood as a theme in this setting, blood as a source of power mechanically and the dragon-like beast on one of the covers which has clearly at one point been shackled and collared. (Hereās some previous speculation about Dark Fortress based on the covers.)
Although Tractusā relative youth and inexperience compared to Nenealeus comes across in these pages, I get the feeling that Nenealeus will regret talking down in this manner to Tractus later in the comic.
It seems Tractus paints his nails dark. His commitment to aesthetic I give 5/5 stars
Remember the fall of Ventus/Qarinus to the Antaam invasion in TN? The Antaam must be progressing through Tevinter if people fear that Neromenian may soon fall also.
I appreciate that everyoneās horse is different! Itās a nice touch. A lot of the time in media groups of people ride identical horses like theyāre clones or automatons as opposed to actual creatures.
Tractusā smile when heās asking if theyāre going to wait for Qintara to arrive is slightly manic, lol, heās giving off āAre we there yet?ā car journey energy here. The doorway in this panel - is that a portcullis-style door? It seems like it has spikes at the bottom which would sink into the floor, and that thereās some kind of mechanism running along the floor towards it. Presumably to contain the [dragon?]?
I forgot Nenealeus has a sword - I guess then he knows magic artforms similar to those of a Knight-Enchanter or Arcane Warrior. Also here, Marquette echoes the Executor in TN, with the sentiment that Qintara fell with Ventus. Nenealeus is then referencing Gaius, the impersonator Qintara, right? Thatās interesting; Gaiusā true master was FenāHarel, on whose behalf he accessed important information about the world. This means then [?] that some of the time when Gaius believed himself to be working on behalf of FenāHarel, he was really being manipulated by Nenealeus. Poor Gaius, at different points FenāHarel and Nenealeus were pulling his strings. Does Nenealeusā manipulation refer to Gaius trading it away to House Danarius for information?
Marquette references the red lyrium idol, and suddenly my Dragon Age 4 ears are pricking the way Autumnās do. x) He mentions that it makes weapons, referencing I assume Meredithās lyrium sword, Certainty and the ritual blade that pops out from the base of the idol during TheĀ Dread Wolf Take You. I wonder when the events of this comic take place in relation to the stories related at the spy meeting in TDWTY? Is this before or after the events of the Mortalitasiās tale? At any rate, Marquette voices something weāve been obsessing over: what else can and does the idol do specifically, beyond just making weapons and being Ominous and Powerful? Because whatever it is, itās key to Solasā ongoing plans, and Solas obviously knows.
So it seems that the villainsā plan is to use the red lyrium idolās sword part with the sarcophagus, red lyrium, a ritual and [the thing Tractus shows them in that panel - the dragon?] in order to transform Shirallas into, essentially, a Red Wraith, a Red Lyrium Fenris. And then to arm him, under Nenealeusā control, with the sword.
Does Shirallas still have his vallaslin - is it just the lighting and the angle in that panel? Also, that panel with Shirallas and Nenealeus looks so ominous and foreboding šĀ .. (and reminds me somehow of Fenris and Danarius when Fenris was still his slave and bodyguard)Ā Shirallas, we really are in it nowĀ š This is a really cool panel btw, like the composition, the lighting, the dramatic-ness.Ā
Nenealeus is motivated by a desire to route the Antaam from Tevinter (like the mage in the Mortalitasiās tale in TDWTY) and reconquer lost lands in order to restore the glory of the Imperium (which reminds me in a way of of Aurelian Titus, who also wanted to restore the Imperium to greatness). Classically Tevinter here.
āDanarius the Lesserā is a sick burn. Iād guess Tractusā life thus far, as a bastard, has had themes and struggles with inferiority and consequent lack of power but desire for it (being disrespected, but craving respect, being connected to a certain world but not really part of it, in fact rejected by it). Venatori connection confirmed. That the Venatori had to be convinced to accept someone as a Danarius - implications for the role of the Venatori remnants and their role in Tevinter and things in general going forwards? Lightning flashes overhead as Tractus and Nenealeus have this face-off in that panel, emphasizing the tension between the two. I wonder what the magic in the fortress and in the courtyard can do? Itād have been no mean feat to escape from this place as a slave, it seems, especially bearing in mind thereās only one proper way out, that causeway (passage not included). Tractusā staff-head lights up when heās making a threat (uh-oh), and then wow! Shirallas moves so quickly, in the blink of an eye suddenly appearing out of nowhere and startling the guard-mage onlookers. Heās fast and formidable.
I wonder about Tractus. Is he a āhalf bloodā because heās a bastard and his mother wasnāt an Altus, or even wasnāt a mage, or because heās a bastard and his mother was an elf? Or both?
Will we see a face-off between perrepataes (Marius and Shirallas)? Will Marius face-off against his former master, Nenealeus? Perhaps a showdown between the Blue Wraith and theĀ āRed Wraithā is on the cards?
Back to our team in the tavern! Thereās a looot of great character content packed into these pages, which is really cool. Each brief character interaction conveys a lot, and in general this sequence is just well-executed imo. How troubled and tired Aaron looks at the bar (my heart.. it hurts); Fran worrying for Aaron; Vaea knowing that she canāt pressure him too much because thatās just not how it works when it comes to folks who struggle with issues like these; Vaea asking after Franās wellbeing; Fran struggling to come to terms with what happened to her father; Fenris watching the door waiting for news (heās so vigilant isnāt he? safety, an escape-route..); Marius Broods Harder; Vaeaās [relative] pacifism being highlighted; Vaea engaging Marius looking for reassurance; and the choice of having Marius break his silence now is meaningful and impactful in that it shows what happens when one becomesĀ ānumbā to the constant murderizing of people, so to speak. Fenris then rightfully points out that becoming numb to killing and violence isnāt really a good thing and is worse, really, than beingĀ āsoftā or uncomfortable with it. I wonder if heās speaking from experience here, given the hundreds of people Hawke and co kill their way through during the Kirkwall years, for example. Then Vaeaās concern for Aaron and his state of mind, and Fenrisā uncanny insight into that, of a man heās only recently met.
Tessa looks so cute when she comes in the door! I love Vaeaās lil ā:Dā face when she sees her, and I wonder what the tavern food on the table is.
Those two panels, when Fenris talks about Hawke and Leandra, are the biggest emotional gut-punch in the preview pagesĀ š omg.. Iām not strong enough for this.. bls... bruh... This is then compounded by (hitting me when Iām down!!) the look of sheer... fear, fury, alarm, upset, shock - that appears on Fenrisā face as soon as he hearsĀ āI found Danariusā. Seriously, look at his eyes here. He (understandably) still has a trauma-response associated with the name/man.
Bless Tessa.Ā
I have to say, itās very Metal of Fenris that not only did he kill Danarius in DA2 (in those universes), but he has also been going around Tevinter since then killing all of Danariusā [adult] heirs, and that his response to learning thereās still one remaining is to grab his sword and go to march off with the aim of ending the bloodline a second time. Very metal
I love the final panels in the preview as well! Vaeaās sense/smarts and how she wasnāt afraid to tell Fenris no, Autumnās giant ears, how Autumn also moves with Vaea to step in front of Fenris to stop him (SHE! HELPED!!!), Autumnās Happy Face and furiously wagging tail and agreement with Aaron, and Proud Dad Aaron rising from his slump to praise Vaea with the most Proudest Daddest expression that you ever did see...Ā ( Ā“ā¢Ģ„Ģ„Ģ„Ļā¢Ģ„Ģ„Ģ„` )
#dragon age#bioware#dark fortress spoilers#dark fortress spoiler#spoilers#spoiler#fenris#video games#dragon age: dark fortress spoilers#dragon age: dark fortress spoiler#alistair theirin#fav warden#solas#dragon age 4#the dread wolf rises#da4#feels#long post#longpost#the Fenaissance
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3. You made me a Christmas playlist but itās just Mariah Careyās āAll I want for Christmas is youā. I canāt tell if youāre hitting on me or if itās a joke --- for (you know it) Carver/Merrill :D
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS PROMPT IT IS FANTASTIC, hereās 1400 words of modern Carver/Merrill fluff written for @dadrunkwritingĀ because I have no restraint and too much time <3 I hope you like it!
no CWs, but thereās some swearing (I promise my Hawke siblings love each other, in a brutal way!)
also my modern Merrillās a postgrad studing Art History & Cultural Studies - repairing the eluvian is her research project.
read on AO3 if you want!
Itās the evening before everything shuts down for Satinalia, and itās started to snow.
Which would be nice, if only Carver wasnāt stuck outside Merrillās door, trying not to break a magical mirror which possesses far too many poky bits as it pokes right into his side. Fingers numb with cold, heās too busy fumbling with the ridiculous amount of keys she gave him to appreciate the beauty of the Alienage in Firstfall. Bedecked with wreaths, shining baubles and flickering garlands of lights, the vhenadahl is like something from a fairy-tale, dusted with a gentle sigh of snow.
Snow, lights, whatever. Any other night, Carver might let himself be enchanted. But right now, he has one priorityāget the damn mirror into the damn apartment without breaking it even more.
And yet here he is, falling at the first hurdle: locked out, with Merrillās most precious possession leaning on him at an angle thatās making him nervous. Itās not exactly going well. But it needs to go well. He promised heād get the eluvian - carefully swaddled in some enchanted cloth to āprotect himā, whatever that means - from her studio at the Viscountās College of Art back to her Lowtown home in one piece. If he doesnāt, heās not sure what might happen. He doesnāt want to know what might happen. Her degree? Ruined. A vital piece of her peopleās history? Lost. And as for Merrill herself?
Sheād probably never speak to him again, and shit, he canāt think of much worseā
Click.
The random key heās shoved in the lock twists, and the door swings open before him.
āThank the fucking Maker,ā he mumbles, then picks up the mirror and barrels into Merrillās tiny home.
Merrillās flat is much like Merrill. As in, modest, pretty, and filled with a frankly terrifying amount of knowledge. There are small cairns of books dotted between potted plants and thrifted armchairs, alongside art prints leaned up against walls and notebooks littering her paint-flecked desk. Though she doesnāt celebrate Satinalia, there are a couple of decorations over the tiny fireplace, too. Andāis that spice he can smell?
As Carver carefully sets down the eluvian by the window in the corner like sheād instructed, he catches sight of something in his peripheral vision. Two steaming cups of wine-dark liquid set on the coffee table by the fire, and beside them, a neatly-folded note.
Curiosity gets the better of him. Carver wanders over and gingerly picks up the paper, a frown puckering his brow as he unfurls it.
C. Merrillās handwriting is pin-point neat. I just wanted to say - I do really appreciate you doing this for me. Creators, thereās no chance I could lift that thing on my own! You really are my chevalier in shining armour. Iāll send you a little something to say thanks. M x
That x does something strange to him; a small chill runs up his spine, and Carver puts the note back down in a fluster. Just as he does, the phone in his pocket vibrates. Still frowning, he pulls it out, then squints at the text thatās screaming up at him from the too-bright screen.
alright dickhead! hope youāre having a lovely day of being a burden on society! did you get the message?
Carver doesnāt need to read the senderās name to know itās from his sister.
Go back to making shit coffee for people whoāll never sleep with you, he types. And what message?
Surely Ri wouldnāt mean the note. Why would she know about the note? As far as he can tell, Merrill only asked him for help after Aveline and Fenris made some excuse about being far too busy washing their hair, or dancing round their townhouse full of half-decayed corpses, or whatever the fuck it is that they get up to instead of being friendly, helpful people.
Carver wasnāt the first choice. He never is. Which is fine. Totally fine. Heās used to it. Knowing heās never a first thought definitely doesnāt itch at the back of his mind, or keep him up at nightā
āMakerās breath,ā he scolds himself, trying to focus back on his phone.
And then, just as he presses send, another notification pops up. Unknown number; something in him tells him to tap anyway. When he does, a little jolt of static runs through him, warm and fuzzy and disgustingly sweet.
For you, the new message reads. To say thanks. I knew I wouldnāt need to ask anyone else. Youāre all I need for Satinalia. Enjoy! <3
Below it, thereās a link to a playlist. A playlist which, he notices, contains about twenty versions of the same song, All I Want For Satinalia Is You. Oneās in Elven. Oneās a country version with, inexplicably, some late-night TV host caterwauling over the chorus. Oneās by some Orlesian crooner called Michel de BublĆ©. Thereās even one thatās just someone playing the recorder extremely badly over a muffled backing track.
Itās anā¦interesting mix. As he skips through the songs, though, he canāt help but smile. Whoever this truly ridiculous playlist was meant for is a lucky person. It certainly wasnāt for him.
At least, thatās what he thinks, until he taps back onto his messages app.
Then, his heart does a weird twist in his chest, and the phone suddenly feels like a searing hot coal in his hands. Because, in bold, in the small gap above the text where the senderās name usually lies, thereās a small line that makes his pulse skip every time his eyes trail over it.
Could this be: Merrill Alerion
Carver nearly drops his phone.
This is a joke, right? It has to be a joke. Carver feels slightly seasick. Quicker than he knew his fingers could work, heās sent a crappy screenshot to Marian.
This???????
A few seconds pass.
Ri replies with a voice message. The voice message is a long, horrible, joyous screech.
Fuck, Carver thinks. āFuck!ā Carver says, and stuffs his phone back into his pocket.
His heartās going wild, now; his palms are sweatier than theyāve maybe ever been. The mulled wine suddenly seems like a very good idea: he takes one in each hand, trying to convince himself he doesnāt fucking hate star anise. Time to chugā
Halfway through his first glass, thereās two light knocks at the door.
Carver freezes, glass still at his lips. Then, he realises that in his haste to get the mirror in, heās left the door open. Panic spears through him, until he remembers that heās a six-foot-stupid ex-farmer and could definitely take on a burglar. And that burglars probably donāt knock.
Still, this is Kirkwall. Better to be safe than sorry. Carver holds his breath as he sets the glasses down as quietly as he can and starts towards the door. Heās not punched anyone in a while. Maybe the anxiety coursing round his body from that text will finally give him a decent right hook. Maybe if he catches someone trying to steal Merrillās stuff, itāll add to the whole chevalier-in-shining-armour thing. Maybeā
A gentle gust of wind flutters through the apartment, and the door swings open, just as Carverās barely steps away.
When he sees whoās behind the door, he makes a tiny squealing noise that instantly makes him want to cease existing. Rosy-cheeked and smiling, Merrill stands before him. Flecks of snow are caught in her dark hair and on the chunky knitted scarf wrapped around her neck, and her eyes are glittering beneath the Satinalia lights strung up on the street outside. Itās as if sheās haloed, glowing, a beacon against the dark winterās night.
She looks beautiful.
āMerrill,ā he breathes. āI thought you were...ā
āStudying?ā Sheās smiling, and he feels a bit dizzy. āI was. But I finished - just in time, I think! Did you get the message?ā
āUhāthe playlist?ā he offers. āYeah.ā
āBut did you get the message?ā she asks again, a grin tugging at the edges of her lips.
Carver frowns. There was a message to get? āIāwhat?ā
āCreators,ā Merrill says, half-laughing, glancing up at something above him, then back down. When her gaze locks with his, he feels his heart flutter. āHawke said making you a playlist would be very smooth. Iām not sure Iām ever very smooth. I guess Iāll not trust your sister again.ā
āSmooth?ā he echoes, like an idiot.
Then, he remembers whatās hanging above her door. A sprig of mistletoe, tied up with a neat red bow.
Merrill answers him with a laugh, and a kiss, and Carver thinks oh.
#carver x merrill#dragon age 2#modern au#ish writes#thank you so much for the prompt!#I hope I did it justice#dadwc#da drunk writing circle#and yes I did listen to different versions for 2.5 hours as I wrote for 'research'#hollyand-writes#answered
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The Thing About Darktown
Just gonna post my Secret Santa fic for @jarinodragonageĀ over here, too, now that sheās seen it. ;D
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āStop rubbing, youāll make it worse!ā
āIt itches!ā
āBetter that than festering and falling off- Hawke!ā Aveline growled in exasperation as the younger woman flinched away, half-done bandages fluttering.Ā āYou know, this wouldnāt even be an issue if youād brought Anders.ā
Leigh snorted wryly, rubbing the injury in question with a fervor that hastened the unraveling of the bandages.Ā āThereās a sentence I never thought Iād hear you say.ā
āWhy not?ā Aveline narrowed her eyes and moved after her, cornering Leigh against a boulder and getting a better grip on her arm to redo the patching up that was all but undone now.Ā āMost people would consider it wise to bring a healer if you have one at your disposal. Especially given you usually include him on your...Ā adventures.ā
Leigh grinned, hearing theĀ āmisā Aveline clearly wanted to slap in front of the last word.Ā āYouāre not enjoying girlsā night out?ā she said drolly, waving to where Isabela and Merrill were examining what remained of their foes.Ā āIām just happy the bad guys are dead and we arenāt.ā She grimaced as Aveline pulled the bandages just a little tighter.Ā āAveline! Are you trying to fix my arm or amputate it?!ā
āThe former,ā Aveline said sternly.Ā āBut if the bandages slide, you may wind up needing the latter. There.ā She tied off the bandages, tucked the trailing ends under so it wouldnāt snag, and let go of Leighās arm.Ā āThat should hold you until you can get it seen to, at least.ā
āMy hero,ā Leigh said with a cheeky wink and darted over to help Isabela rifle the corpses for anything good.
āNot leaking any more?ā Isabela asked playfully, shifting so Leigh could crouch next to her.
Leigh snorted.Ā āNot for now, at least.ā She tested her range of motion and wiggled her fingers.Ā āKinda stiff, throbs a little, but I can make it back to Kirkwall without drawing down wolves on us in addition to... whatever these gentlemen were supposed to be.ā She rolled the body at her feet on its stomach with her good hand and started checking the pouches around the back of the belt. Nothing more valuable than a small collection of pretty pebbles.
āGood to hear,ā Isabela laughed.Ā āIād rather not have anything to do with wolves if we can help it.ā
āOh, but theyāre so pretty tā watch when they hunt,ā Merrill piped up, then wrinkled her nose as she processed the context of the remark.Ā āThough theyād be huntinā us, I suppose, wouldnāt they? Best to avoid that.ā
āMy thoughts exactly, kitten,ā Isabela said with a wink. It only took a few more minutes of searching for her and Leigh to be satisfied theyād found everything of any value. There wasnāt much; this lot were clearly poor and desperate. (Of course, theyād have to be, to attack such a clearly dangerous group as the four of them.) Pretty baubles, a few coppers, and some rusty weapons were the extent ofĀ ātreasureā they carried. If the poor bastards hadnāt attacked them first, Leigh would have felt bad about killing them. Under the circumstances, however, sympathy was a little hard to come by. She rubbed at the bandages again and pretended she didnāt hear Aveline sigh.
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To Leighās vast relief, they were not hassled by wolves or anything else on their way back to Kirkwall, despite the setting sun and lengthening shadows. Her arm was starting to really ache, and she wasnāt sure how much help sheād be in a fight. Still, she waved off the othersā concern when they reached the city, insisted they go their own ways.Ā āI think I can make it to Andersā clinic by myself,ā she said glibly when Aveline offered to come with her. She turned a grin toward Isabela and Merrill.Ā āSave me a seat when you get to the Hanged Man? Iāll be over when Iām done.ā
āYou got it, sweet thing,ā Isabela laughed, then looped her arm through Merrillās as they headed for the tavern.
Aveline hesitated a moment longer; until Leigh made a shooing motion toward the Viscountās Keep.Ā āGo on, Avs, I know walking Darktown is more exciting than all the paperwork sitting on your desk, but Iāll be okay. Promise.ā
Aveline shook her head and huffed (yet) another sigh.Ā āJust... be careful, Hawke.ā
āThe very model of,ā Leigh promised with a glib wave.Ā āSee you around, guard captain.ā
Sh waited until she was well out of sight from all of them before rubbing hard at the bandages again, directly over the stinging gash across her bicep. It itched, worse than well, pretty much anything she could remember.
āGood thing itās not too far to the clinic,ā she muttered, balling her hand into a fist as the wound started to throb more pointedly, keeping time with her heartbeat.Ā āSooner I take care of this, the better.ā
Leigh knew the safest route through Darktown to Andersā clinic. She also knew the fastest route through Darktown to Andersā clinic. This injury was enough of an annoyance that today she went for speed over safety. She could handle herself, after all, and was very clearly armed. She doubted anyone would fuck with her in the first place, and sheād deal with them if they did.
Still, she kept her eyes open and on her surroundings as she walked, tried not to let her thoughts wander.
Itās a good thing those were just common bandits, still wormed its way through her brain. Skilled as they all were, she was less accustomed to fighting alongside Aveline, Isabela, and Merrill. Theyād lacked the synergy she had gotten used to. There were times it was as if she and Fenris read each othersā minds in a fight, they knew Varricās rhythm and could avoid being skewered by the bolts meant for their enemies, and Aveline had been correct--it was very useful having a healer along.
She missed a step and almost tumbled. Right. No wandering thoughts, Leigh reprimanded herself as she caught her balance. Sheād drawn some attention from a knot of hard-faced individuals with her near-fall, but fortunately her cloak hung over the evidence she was wounded. Still, no reason to linger.
Leigh curled her hand around the hilt of a dagger when one of the loungers kept staring her direction a little too long, but the sense of eyes on her faded when she rounded the next corner, so she relaxed her grip. She kept her pace brisk, and the wariness had faded somewhat by the time she passed the [waste] chute that marked halfway. While she didnāt rub the still-itching wound again, she did press her hand over it and bite her lip. The pressure felt good. Sheād have to mention that to Anders, see if it meant anything bad he should know about before healing her up.
It was after the next corner everything went to shit. She rounded it too tightly, and her injured arm rammed against the edge precisely where the two walls met. Leigh let out an instinctual yelp at the burst of pain that flared through her arm and set stars dancing behind her eyes. She gritted her teeth to clamp down on it, but the damage was done.
āNeed a hand, lovely?ā The speaker, a rangy elf with a shaved head and facial tattoos, leaned against the wall and flashed an indolent grin.
āIām fine, thanks,ā Leigh shot back with a decent tinge of snark.Ā āJust tad clumsy.ā
āSure? Darktownās no place to be wanderinā alone.ā The contrast of the deep red tattoos curving up his cheekbones made the glint in his eyes seem all the more dangerous. And as he spoke, two other figures--another elven man and a human woman--sidled up with a faux-casual air that had goosebumps prickling Leighās arms.
āThatās why Iām trying to get it over with, Red-- Can I call you Red?ā she said with a cheeriness she didnāt really feel, sizing them up as she spoke. Red had picked his spot well; even leaning against the wall he was close enough to grab her unless she was very fast. The other elf would be in the way if she went for her original path, and the woman now stood just enough to the side she could back up either of her friends handily.
āOh, a funny one,ā Red chuckled, not deigning to comment on her assigning him a nickname.Ā āYāknow, it might go faster--definitely safer--if you hand Cob thereā --a nod toward his fellow elf--āall your coin.ā
āIt might, huh?ā Her arm twinged, and Leigh shifted the odds a few points in their favor. Good thing I tend to beat the odds...Ā āIf I had any on me, Iād be sure to share it with such a beleaguered innocent as... Cob.ā She arched her brows toward the elf. His scraggly blond hair and jaundiced complexion actually did bear passing resemblance to a corncob.Ā āSadly, I think I left my coinpurse in my other cloak.ā
āBullshit,ā the woman snarled, hand drifting to the short-bladed sword.Ā āWho the fuck travels without any money?ā
āMe, the fuck,ā Leigh returned brightly, shifting just a little. If she got very lucky and timed it just right, she could probably slip away.Ā āBut if you donāt believe me, you can look for yourself.ā
Her good hand yanked the clasp of her cloak and pulled it free to toss toward Red and the woman as Leigh lunged low and outside past Cob.
He snagged her elbow and tried to hold her back, but she tore free, stumbled a few steps before catching her balance.
Just in time to trip over the booted foot that appeared in front of her ankles. Leigh cursed under her breath and lurched semi-sideways as she was forced to balance again. Her instincts proved good; a pitted blade swung uncomfortably close to her shoulder. She freed one of her daggers with her good hand and spun to parry the next blow. She was just barely fast enough to redirect it into the moldering wall. Her other fist was already swinging after it, and she connected with the female thugās cheekbone and sent her reeling into Cob. Pain flared in Leighās knuckles and up her arm, but at least sheād gained some breathing room--
The hairs at the nape of her neck prickled. She jerked sideways and there was a frustrated growl as Redās swing went wide.
āAmber, Cob, get it together and help me gut this bitch!ā he barked as he lunged forward in another swipe at Leighās midriff. Apparently heād meant it literally.
The two of them grumbled as they recovered, glaring at her and circling to pen her in.
Leigh fought back a grimace and ran through her options. What few she had.
She feinted left, then went straight, ramming a shoulder into Cobās chest and her dagger cutting a shallow scarlet line across Amberās arm. They pivoted after her quickly, but at least she wasnāt pinned against a wall any more.
Red lunged forward, and even as she parried his dagger, he punched the bandaged portion of her arm. Hard.
Leigh spat a curse and slammed her elbow into his jaw. Her dagger slashed across his cheek as she followed through, and she kicked the inside of his knee for good measure.
Three on one meant no respite, however, and even as she spun away from Red, Amber closed in. Leigh ducked under the blow aimed at her head, but wasnāt quite fast enough to avoid the other womanās buckler. The edge of the small shield caught her in the jaw with a crack.
Leigh ran her tongue over the new cut, tasted copper, and lunged. For Red, not Amber.
None of them were expecting that, and Redās reflexes were just a little too slow as a result. He didnāt get his blades up in time to parry and Leighās dagger sank in the hollow of his collarbone.Ā
He gave an airless gasp, then a wet cough, and dropped.
Crimson flew in an arc from Leighās dagger as it came free and she spun to face the other two. Amber and Cob charged her from opposite directions and she backpedaled, angling to the right and pivoting she she could gouge the back of Cobās thigh as he passed her.
She didnāt cut deep enough to hit anything vital, but he still toppled with a curse. He lashed out and the pommel of his dagger slammed into the side of her knee.
Combined with Leighās momentum, it took her down and sent her rolling into the wall. She banged her head hard enough to see stars, and when they cleared, Amber was standing over her, grip tight on her sword and a sneer curling her lips
She raised the blade even as Leigh scrambled mentally for an out.Ā āYou couldāve avoided this if youād just done as you were tol-ā
The gloating words cut off, her shoulders jerking forward as the front six inches of a greatsword emerged from her chest.
āSheās never been good at that,ā Fenris said dryly as he pulled his sword free, gaze shifting from the slain thug to Leigh, concern and amusement mingled in his eyes.Ā ādespite ample evidence it is not always a bad thing.ā
āWhat can I say, Iām a rebel,ā Leigh returned glibly, pushing herself up to a sitting position and leaning her head back against the wall.Ā āNot that Iām unhappy to see you, Fenris, but where the fuck did you come from?ā
He chuckled and let his sword hang loosely in one hand as he offered her the other.Ā āThe Hanged Man. I was meeting Donnic for drinks, but Isabela mentioned youād been injured-ā
āAnd you wanted to check on me?ā Leigh teased, grinning playfully as she took his hand.Ā āIām touched.ā
Fenris snorted and hauled her up, so fast it almost felt like flying.Ā āI figured you would head for the clinic,ā he corrected. He maintained a steadying grip on her forearm when she wobbled.Ā āI wanted to ensure your safe arrival, knowing what Darktown is like.ā He punctuated the words with a glare at Cob.Ā
āMy hero,ā Leigh said, with a little more sincerity than when sheād tossed the same words at Aveline.Ā āNormally Iād protest Iām a big girl and can handle myself, but today I think Iāll go withĀ āthanks for the rescueā.ā
Fenris nodded, then tipped his head toward Cob, who now sat glaring up at them with a hand pressed to the back of his thigh.Ā āAnd what of him?ā
Leigh shrugged, not liking the soreness already settling in her muscles. I really need to see Anders.Ā āEh, just leave him be.ā
āWhat?!ā Cob barked.Ā āYou kill my friends, cripple me, and youāre just going to leave?!ā
āHey, you lot attacked me, asshole,ā Leigh fired back, grasping Fenrisā arm to hold him back when his markings flickered and he tensed.Ā āAfter I tried to avoid a fight. Youāre lucky Iām not askinā him to finish you off. My cloakās somewhere around here; you can have that to patch yourself up. But I need to be on my way. After all, itās not safe to linger in Darktown.ā
She went to make a dramatic exit, and her knee almost gave out. Fenris caught her, pulled her back upright, and only paused to sheath his sword before draping her arm around his shoulders for support.
āThanks,ā Leigh whispered, limping heavily as they walked away.
āYou are most welcome,ā Fenris replied, in that soft, low murmur that sent warmth curling all the way to her toes.Ā āLetās get you to Anders.ā
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The rest of the walk was uneventful, which Leigh credited to the protective air radiating from Fenris. Anders was, thankfully, not busy when they arrived and immediately turned his attention to fussing over her. He and Fenris exchanged the occasional sniping remark, as the latter insisted onĀ āhoveringā nearby, no doubt concerned about the fresh blood seeping through Leighās bandages.
The battering from her alley scuffle was easily healed--and she did mention Cob to Anders, just in case heād feel inclined to help the man. But Anders frowned when he unwrapped the bandages around her arm.Ā āHawke, this is from today?ā
āJust a couple hours ago,ā Leigh nodded.Ā āWe were already on our way back to the city, and I headed here soon as we made it. Why-ā She turned to look and grimaced at the angry red edges to the wound.Ā āOh.ā
āItās good you came straight here,ā Anders said, then glanced at Fenris.Ā āWell, nearly. There mustāve been something on the blade, deliberately or not.ā He murmured a quiet spell, fingers tracing through the air before he laid his hand over the wound.
The spell rolled through her with a cleansing prickle that gave her goosebumps for a minute before fading. But the near-insufferable itching was gone. Andersā hand flexed again, and healing magic chased the cleansing spell to knit flesh back together.
Leighās slumped with relief.Ā āThanks, handsome,ā she winked as she gave that shoulder an experimental roll.Ā āMuch better.ā All better, there wasnāt even a scar.
āAlways happy to help,ā Anders said with a tired smile.Ā āYour knee might still be sore,ā he cautioned as she started to stand.Ā āYou might want to take it easy for a day or two.ā
āI will accompany you,ā Fenris offered, soon as sheād made it to her feet.Ā āTo be safe, of course.ā
āOf course,ā Leigh chuckled. Her knee seemed alright, but sheād never pass up his company. She thanked Anders again, then she and Fenris headed out.
āHawke, itās this way,ā Fenris commented when she walked past the turn that would lead back to Hightown.
āIām going to the Hanged Man, not home,ā Leigh said with a smile and a shrug.Ā āPromised Iād joinĀ āBela and Merrill. And I can take it easy there just as well as at home.ā Better; at the Hanged Man sheād be around people. Friends.
His shoulders tensed, and she could almost see his overprotective instincts winding up, before he relaxed and nodded.Ā āI shall accompany you there, then, instead.ā
Leigh snickered.Ā āThat worried about me tumbling in a ditch somewhere, are you?āĀ
āThere are plenty to choose from in this city,ā Fenris deadpanned.Ā āOr perhaps I wish to offer back up in case anyone is fool enough to attack you.ā
āOh, thank you. Whatever the reason, Iāll happily take your company.ā
She hadnāt really meant to say it, no matter how glib her tone,and he clearly didnāt know how to reply, so they walked in almost-awkward silence for a minute.
āSo, how many poor sods did you inadvertently terrorize on your way down through Darktown?ā Leigh finally asked, playfully nudging his shoulder, before the silence became too much.Ā Ā
āI... do not know,ā Fenris admitted. He glanced at her.Ā āI was too preoccupied to notice.ā
Oh. She bit her lip and cleared her throat.Ā āBet you get turned into a phantom in childrenās stories now,ā she teased, struggling to make the words light-hearted.Ā āYou know, the ghost whoāll snatch them away if they get out of bed in the middle of the night.ā
āJust what Iāve always wanted,ā he said dryly, and Leigh couldnāt help but snort a laugh.
āIt would fit, though,ā she said, flashing a mischievous grin.Ā āYou glow, you... pass through things--or people, at least.. Practically writes itself. I should tell Varric.ā
Fenris groaned, but there was something half-hearted about it, and she caught the smile he tried to hide.Ā āIām certain he has better things to do.ā
āBetter, maybe. But not more fun.ā
Their easy pace during the conversation had carried them to within a stoneās throw of the tavern, and Leigh paused, turning to rest a hand on Fenrisā arm.Ā āAll joking aside, I am truly grateful you came swooping to my rescue.ā
Fenris caught her gaze and held it as he took a breath, then slowly exhaled.Ā āAnytime, Leigh.ā
He leaned ever so slightly into her touch, then stepped away and headed inside the Hanged Man. Leighās hand curled into a loose fist, and she closed her eyes to take a deep breath before trailing after him.
Isabela and Merrill greeted her cheerfully, and Leigh was all too happy to let their company and the general tavern cacophony distract her from... anything else.
(She caught a glimpse of silver-white hair across the bustling space and hastily focused back on Isabelaās challenge to a hand of Wicked Grace.)
Anyone else.Ā
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10 Facts: Lauren, Ian, Aidan, Ash, Avery, Nate, and Elarin, please!
Hereās your 70 (!) facts:
10 Facts about Lauren
1. She gets along best with her oldest and youngest brothers. She doesn't not get along with her sisters (sometimes), but their relationship can best be described as tolerance, and her closest brother Justin enjoys provoking her.
2. At one point she wanted to learn the flute, as it promised to be easier to carry around than the guitar, or the piano. Her parents couldn't afford to buy one.
3. She tried running away from home once at age eight, and considered making another attempt at age ten. Ian talked her out of it.
4. Her entire family, including aunts, uncles, cousins, and her older siblings' spouses and children, came to her college graduation. Almost all of them made it to the party her parents threw afterward. She nearly cried.
5. Lauren is always uncomfortable around her nieces and nephews -- she has four or five of them -- but if anyone made them cry, she'd punch that person in the face.
6. Knows more about comic book characters than her comic-loving brother Justin, thanks to hearing Ian talk about them in grade school, all the time. All. The. Time.Ā
7. Got a few part-time jobs in retail in high school. She hated it, but it meant she had enough money to buy clothes that weren't hand-me-downs or from a thrift store, so she grit her teeth and kept at it.
8. She still got fired twice for losing her temper with a customer.
9. She got started smoking because her dad is an occasional smoker. He got diagnosed with lung cancer a few years ago. It's in remission, but despite multiple attempts, he hasn't managed to quit yet.
10. Her mother's had three miscarriages, Lauren was old enough to know about two of them. It's a strange concept, having a sibling that didn't even live to be born.
10 Facts about Ian
1. He has a decided type: tall, confident blonde women of principle. He's fallen in love more than once, though he tends to get over it fairly quickly.
2. Thanks to his dad's need to travel for work, he has funky little souvenirs from 48 states. Lauren has none, though she actually traveled out of state in childhood more than once, and Ian only did once he was an adult.
3. Ian theorizes his terrible sense of navigation comes from his mother, after a fashion. She's perfectly fine with directions, she just has an abysmal grasp of time. She's forever arriving half an hour to two hours late or early to appointments, and she will either take half or twice as long doing something as she says she will.
4. He has fond memories of almost two weeks with just his dad at home, when his mom was helping her parents out after her dad had surgery. They ate out almost every night, thanks to his dad being a nightmare in the kitchen, and he never went to bed on time.
5. Her terrible sense of time aside, bedtime is sacred to his mother, and she's fanatical about her son eating his vegetables. She doesn't know about those two weeks.
6. He once tried to start a dog-walking business when he was twelve. It was a terrible idea. No dogs were lost, but it was a near thing.
7. He's the only child of his maternal grandparents' only child, so they -- particularly his grandma -- tend to dote on him. They also know nothing about any children other than their daughter, so itās not as great a thing as it might sound.
8. He has several aunts, uncles, and cousins on his dad's side, but Ian's only met one of his uncles once. He doesn't know why, exactly, but he's picked up that his dad had a rough childhood.
9. He talked Lauren out of her second attempt at running away completely by accident: he thought it sounded really cool, but all his suggestions just made it clear to Lauren how unfun it would actually be.
10. Regularly listens to the top 40 in the car, more to keep abreast of what's popular than because he likes it, though it has introduced him to some songs/artists he enjoys. He always has to turn off the radio if Lauren's riding with him.
10 Facts about Aidan
1. A big factor in his identity crisis was that, growing up, he didn't fully recognize he wasn't human. It's obvious now, of course.
2. Tried to enlist in 1941, after Pearl Harbor. He ... doesn't know if he actually served.
3. For as long as he can remember, he's always had this sense of where his sister is. It makes him wonder if his mother is dead, or something like it, since he's never been able to sense her.
4. Aidan generally gets along with Nate pretty well. This is surprising -- or, maybe not? -- given that Aidan has a really hard time understanding the concept of death.
5. Aidan has a lot of trouble with certain concepts in general, like that other people need more than 4-5 hours sleep, he should really let people know before he disappears for a few weeks, and that rules about not touching personal property don't just apply to the things he wouldn't touch anyway.
6. Given the things he's willing to do, or has done, some people might think he has no sense of dignity. He does, he just doesn't care that much.
7. The second-least accepting of having Q in the house, mostly out of a sense of loyalty to Nate, the least accepting. It had nothing to do with Q personally.
8. Until he met Ash, he'd never met anyone who had any idea what species he was. It seems incredibly obvious in hindsight.
9. Considers himself a lapsed Episcopalian.
10. When he finally went back to his hometown, nearly fifty years after he'd left, there was almost nothing left of it. It left him with a greater sense of loss than anything had before. Which wasn't a lot -- very little makes Aidan sad for very long -- but it was notable.
10 Facts about Ash
1. Ash's mother did not know her father, grew up with three sisters, and her own mother had two sisters and no brothers. She fully intended on having a daughter. Having a son was a surprise, but one she adapted to quite well.
2. Until he helped his great-aunt with managing her finances, Ash didn't really know how money worked. As it is, he knows how to make the numbers come out right, but that's pretty much it.
3. His grandmother laid down the law in his house, and even her adult daughters were careful to follow every mandate. She was fair, but stern.
4. Appearance-wise, he takes after his father more than his mother's side of the family, though judging by his aunt Iris that's where his height comes from.
5. He's not as close to his aunt Lily as he is to his mother or aunt Daisy, but whenever he was having a bad day he'd sit in her parlor and listen to her play the piano.
6. He knows he has a few cousins on his father's side, but he's never met them. His dad never figured out how to explain to his family that he had a son with the woman that did "work" on his truck once a year, so they don't even know he exists.
7. Since he knows how to manage Lanzo, most people assume he knows him well. He doesn't. He really doesn't. Lanzo just listens to Ash more than others for some reason.
8. Ash gives the best hugs. Everyone agrees on this point.
9. It sometimes baffles him that someone as intelligent as Connie can forget to eat or sleep.
10. His aunt Iris taught him to read poetry and monologues/soliloquies from Shakespeare aloud. He doesn't do it often, but if he needs to distract himself or someone else, or in certain other rare circumstances, it's quite effective.
10 Facts about Avery
1. Despite all the negatives associated with Anders being a former Grey Warden, Avery is honestly relieved that it makes it unlikely they will ever have children.
2. Avery thinks of Merrill as a younger sister, Aveline as an older one, can't imagine a better drinking buddy than Isabela, and has a great deal of admiration for Fenris after everything he's been through. That said, every single one of them gets on her nerves sometimes, and there have been moments where she wished she had never met them.
3. There's a moment in the game where Fenris implies that Avery might feel negatively about mages, after one murdered her mother. I actually spun around in the game to see if i could yell talk to him after that -- no such luck. Fenris was sent home immediately afterward, and didn't hear from Avery for two weeks. He came very close to never hearing from her again.
4. She relives memories in her dreams, sometimes pleasant ones, sometimes not. It makes mornings difficult, either way.
5. She's not much of a reader, but even if she was she'd never touch Varric's novels about her. She knows they're dramatized, but the idea still makes her uneasy.
6. Isabela never came back after stealing the Qunari relic. Avery never would have handed her over to the arishok -- she respects them as intelligent beings, but no further -- but given everything that happened after that theft, she's not sure she could have forgiven Isabela for it.
7. Her Chantry attendance is not very good, and gets worse over time. She believes in the Maker and Andraste and all that, but not with any passion.
8. She knows nothing about healing, her bedside manner is lacking (unless all you want is witty comments), and she's nowhere near methodical enough to handle medicines and supplies, but she helps out Anders' clinic in whatever way she can.
9. Cats are obnoxious, aloof, oversized rats that make her nose run and her eyes water, but if things in Kirkwall had been slightly more settled at any point, she would have let Anders have as many as he wanted. That's how much she loves him.
10. Growing up, her younger brother Carver got on her nerves, constantly. Apart from the guilt she feels over his death, her biggest regret is that they were never able to forge a better relationship as adults.
10 Facts about Nate
1. His dad died when he was seven. He has no particular memories of the man.
2. Has contemplated probably more than a dozen careers, mostly as a kid -- action movie star, paleontologist, professional skateboarder, astronaut, etc. Didn't settle on audio engineering until his sophomore year of college.
3. Loves both of his younger siblings, but he always got along better with his sister (MarĆa) than his brother (VĆctor). She's very much the sweet, friendly type, whereas his brother is much more competitive and rebellious.
4. Low-key resents both his father and stepfather for never really being there for him, his stepfather moreso, since he at least had a choice about the distance he kept.
5. His stepfather is a mage, which is why Nate's a ghost now. It takes extensive contact with the occult for a human to remain as a ghost after death.
6. He loves his mama, but she was always anxious, particularly about raising her children in a big city, and a bit smothering. That's part of the reason he moved away for college.
7. He's never been religious, and during college all his friends were calling themselves atheists so he did too. While he's angry with any god that would let him die so young, if an all-powerful deity spontaneously generated that bus specifically to run him down, that would be preferable to learning there's nothing after death, and that his afterlife means as little as his actual life.
8. Knows a bunch of random trivia from watching Jeopardy with his siblings -- there were always reruns when it was too early to go to bed but too late to be outside.
9. He's always made friends easily, made more evident by his ability to build relationships with everyone in the house even in the midst of post-death depression.
10. He and his friends were extras in a movie once, as it was filming at their school. If it's ever on TV, he makes sure to watch the scene where they're skateboarding in the background.
10 Facts about Elarin
1. Like her parents, grandparents, great-grandparents, and likely even earlier ancestors, she was born in space, on the freighter her parents worked on: her father was a mechanic, her mother worked in security.
2. She had a lot of siblings, older and younger, but she was the only one to be taken by the Jedi.
3. While she never liked being lied to, it wasn't until she learned how much the Jedi had lied to her about who she was that she developed such a hatred for it.
4. People closer than acquaintances can call her Arin. Her childhood nickname was Ella, but only Bastila, Meaghan, and Carth can call her that.
5. She's always viewed orders by authority as "suggestions". It's caused a few problems.
6. Elarin has a very charismatic presence, drawing a lot of attention and winning people over very quickly. She uses it occasionally, but she's never understood why she has it.
7. She's made the attempt more than once, but she's never managed to fully understand why her previous self fell to the dark side. She isn't sure if that's a good or bad thing.
8. While she's brilliant at war strategy, tactics is one of the few things she's neither excellent or terrible at, and during the wars she had to rely on her advisors to help her with them.
9. She can't remember anything about Malak from before, so all she really knows of him is his Darth Malak self. She still feels guilty about her part in that.
10. Because canon is dumb (and not even canon anymore), Elarin did leave after the events of KotOR 1 to investigate things from her past, but she returned not long after the events of KotOR 2. As far as official records are concerned, however, the former Darth Revan never returned from beyond the Outer Rim, fate unknown.
Thanks for asking!
#ask#answer#OCs#lauren winston#ian grayson#aidan michaels#ash jackson#nate vasquez#avery hawke (dragon age 2)#elarin (knights of the old republic)#valiantarcher
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whatever we were before
finally posting my masquerade fill! The anon asked for a Dragon Age/SPN crossover, in which Dean is Hawke. I screeched lightly under my breath when I saw it, and delivered. (I hope!)
title: whatever we were before pairing: Sam/Dean rating: E
summary: After the expedition into the Deep Roads, Dean's a rich man. He bought back the ancestral family manor, and he's safe. He's not okay, though, because for all they gained on the expedition--he lost so much more.
(read on AO3)
Kirkwallās never quiet at night. Deanās gotten used to it, although itās a far cry from the farm back home in Ferelden. There, the most he was likely to hear at night was a fox trying to get into the chickens, or Dad coming home soused from the inn, sleeping in the mudroom because he couldnāt work out the lock Dean had built to keep the Templars out. Here, surrounded by people, it feelsāhe used to think it was crowded, but now it just feels like life, being lived. People always working, the city humming along with each part always moving. He still remembers lying awake at his uncleās house in Lowtown, that horrible week after theyād first arrived, staring at the ceiling in the narrow room and unable to shut it outāthe city, a throbbing entity. Heās glad he can sleep, now. Makes things easier to bear.
His legs have stopped aching, too, after this many months walking up and down the Great Stairs. Isabela says theyāve done great work for his physique; Deanās just glad his arse and thighs will agree to support him after the long climb from the docks to Hightown. This morning Aveline had guilted him into doing an errand for her, something the city guard shouldāve taken care of, but really it didnāt take that much guiltingāshe and he both knew that heād be able to do it faster, better, and cleaner, and anyway it was good to get out, into the fresh air. He's moneyed now, and maybe a lordling of a sort, if the Free Marches would only admit that their merchant-princes were no different from the nobility of the south, but still. Heād grown up using his muscles and his mind, and it felt right to be out on the cliffs, salt-spray in his face and his armor settled comfortably on his shoulders, his sword ready at his hip. So. Theyād gone out, and heādākilled. Quite a few. Slavers, they were, and he didnāt feel bad about killing them but the battle had been messy, and heād had to wash the blood off in the sea, the salt gritting into the crevices of his mail and stiffening the leather. Heās glad he didnāt bring Fenris; there wouldāve been so much more blood.
His legs donāt ache, but it feels like every other part does, when he gets to the top of the stairs. The guards at Hightownās gates nod to him, deferent like they werenāt three years ago, and he doesnāt respond. Pricks, the lot of them, granting respect only for fine clothes and finer real estate. He wishes heād gotten back hours ago, when he might've blended in to the general throng, but heās made it a habit to walk his friends home, to make sure they're safe. He saw Merrill back to her little house, and Isabela and Varric back to their inn, and stayed there for a pint or two, celebrating a successful job.
A jobāha. Still how he thinks of it, after all that time of scrambling in Lowtown, trying to put food on the familyās table. He walks the now-familiar streets, slate stones laid down on the neat boulevards the merchants control, and he missesāsort ofāyes, he misses the rolled-cobbles and grit of the old neighborhoods, and the wild-grown weeds among the stones by the Hanged Man. Used to the city, but missing the city. He can hear a sarcastic voice in his ear, saying, Dean, that doesn't make any sense, but he ignores it. Heās tired. No energy for misery, not now.
Winchester Manor still has lamps lit in the entry when he comes to the square. Despite everything, his shoulders relax a little, seeing it. He unlocks the door and itās warm inside, smells of bread baking, and in the time it takes for him to set his sword and shield on their rack in the armory off the entry, Bodahn appears, and pops his head around the corner to say, "Ah, Master Winchester. Good hunting, I trust?"
Dean smiles, and itās only partly an effort. "Good enough, Bodahn. Send a runner to the palace, to let Aveline know Iāll see her tomorrow afternoon, all right?"
"Very good, sir," Bodahn says, agreeable as always, but then looks at him critically. "Iāll have dinner sent up to your chambers, yes? Sandal will have gotten a bath ready."
Even after years, heās still not used to servants, butā "Yes," he says, and the relief that washes through him is probably ridiculous, but. "Yes, thank you."
The parlorās warm enough, but dark, the only light coming from the banked fire. Other than Bodahn and Sandal, the house is always empty. He stands and looks at the great tapestry, the family crest tracing the family down to their fatherās name. The embroidery stops there. He licks his lips, looking at the faded silk, and turns away, and trudges up the broad stairs, aware that his boots are tracking the dust and dirt of the lower city on the thick carpets. Sandal will clean it up.
The master room is so big. Bigger than his uncleās whole house, he thinks. Heās paced it; heās pretty sure. The fire in here is roaring, and the lamps are lit by the bedside and on the desk, and his armor stand is waiting for him to strip, piece by piece. The chest plate, and the pauldrons, and his gauntlets, and the mail, and the boots, and the leather weskit, and when heās left in his shirt he shivers, all over, though the roomās more than warm enough. In the corner, by the pushed-aside screen, the bath sits steaming by some magic Sandalās very proud of and that Dean doesnāt at all understand, but heās grateful when he sinks down into it. Itās big enough that he can fit his shoulders against one edge and keep his feet below the water on the other, a luxury heād never imagined as a child and which, still, by every measure, is the greatest advantage of his life as he lives it now. Some kind of fragrant oil scenting the steamāelfroot maybe, or the arbor blessing Bodahn was bragging about acquiring a few weeks ago. Makes the water slip like silk against his skin while the soothing heat works its way past muscle to the bone. Makes it easy not to think, to relax. Finally.
"You look so spoiled," he hears, and he surges upābecauseā
"Sam," he breathes. He's so sure heās dreaming, that a desire demon has worked its way into his mind and is showing him some helplessly sought-after vision, that he digs his nails deep enough into his own thigh that heāll bruiseābut Samās still standing there, in the doorway. Sam.
"Itās me," Sam says, andāyes. Of course it is. Sam, with dirt on his cheek, and a healed-over scrape under that, and his hair grown long and falling into his eyes. Sam, wearing the uniform of the Wardens just like the last time Dean saw him, studded leather over his chest and the blue-and-white tabard still belted around his narrow waist. Sam, leaning his staff into the cornerāa new one, blackened oak and a stone Dean doesnāt recognizeāand Sam, walking across the room with his boots thudding into the carpetāand Sam, crouching by the bath, and touching Deanās cheek, and Dean surging halfway out of the bath and sloshing water everywhere and kissing him, kissing him, becauseāSam, here. Here, when Dean had thoughtā
"Itās me," Sam says again, "Dean, Iām here," and Dean says, "I can see youāre fuckinā here, Sammy, IāSamā" and Sam laughs and says, "I know, sorry, Iā" and kisses him again, hand cupping the back of Dean's skull and Deanās hands tight in Samās hair and hurting his nails against the leather of Samās brigandine becauseāthree years, itās been three goddamn years and no letters, no word, and Dean hadnāt knownāhadnāt had anything beyond hopeāthat Sam was alive and well at the fortress at Weisshaupt and that he hadnāt met his end by the claws of some darkspawn or a warg orāby all gods, by all faith, Sam.
Itās a whileāDean on his knees in the bath, and Sam kneeling in the puddle heād made, and their hands locked into each other, and Dean breathing Sam and his smell of the road and rancid sweat and campfires and old blood, and Samās forehead against Deanās and his hair tickling, and the taste of his mouthāhis mouthāitās a while, before Deanās brain unfogs enough to realize that heās just holding Sam, and theyāre only breathing with their mouths barely touching, and Samās stomach is growling. Loud, in fact, and Samās nose wrinkles. "Sorry," he says, and Dean says, "You idiot," soft as soft, and struggles up to standing with the water streaming down from his body, and Sam looks up at him for a moment with his eyes dark and almost unfamiliar.
Dean hesitates, water up to his calves, naked. Aware of new scars, ones Sam hasnāt seenāhis body, not the one Sam left. Sam stands, then, and Dean blinks. "Youāre tall," he says, stupid-sounding even to his own ears, and Sam smiles at him all smug. He was tall already, at twentyānot at all fair, not at all, that heās gained even more inches, and Dean steps out of the bath and shoves at Samās broad chest and fetches his dressing gown off the screen where Sandal always leaves it and tries to muster some kind of dignity as he wraps it around himself.
His dinnerās waiting on the sideboard outside his room, as alwaysāBodahn overly respectful of his privacy, as alwaysābut itās good, now, not to have to see anyone else, not to have another person interrupt. He turns with the tray and Samās unfastening his brigandine, slinging it untidily on the ground and wrestling his tabard over his chest so heās left in his weskit and linen shirt and trousers, his boots still carrying gods know how many miles of mud, and he sniffs and says, "Is that stew?" all hopeful, and oh, oh, itās Deanās little brother, home.
He still eats like a teenager. Dean pours wine for both of them, watches Sam tear into the bread and meat like heās starving. "Donāt they feed you at Weisshaupt?" Dean says, rhetorical, and Sam rolls his eyes and takes his goblet and gulps the wine down, gasping. "Oh, thatāsāfantastic," he says, and takes a slower draught, eyes closed, and Dean watches him with his heart surging so high heās surprised Sam canāt see the throb of it, in his throat and wrists and gut. Samās got days of not shaving thickening his stubble almost to a beard, and he tucks his hair behind his ears but it keeps falling forward, unruly. Without the Warden uniform heās big, broad. Muscles thick in his shoulders, his arms, like they werenāt when he was a boy and heād complain about having to help Dean on the farm, about training with a short sword, whining that he had magic and Iāll just throw a fireball at the darkspawn, Dean, and back then Dean could still cuff him over the head and drag him into Deanās armpit and say yeah, but Iām in charge, and you're not allowed to throw a fireball at me, soā
Feels like a lifetime ago. Sam scrapes the last piece of bread around his bowl, sopping up the rich gravy, and then slumps back in his chair, sighing. "Long time since Iāve had food like this," he says, and Dean wants to askāhas so many questions. When was it, he wants to know, and where have you been, and are you okayāare you okay, the only question that matters, and he canāt face asking it right now with Sam sated and warm and here, here, and Samās eyes slit open and he looks at Dean, then, steady.
"What," Dean says, when itās been too long without talking.
Sam smiles, brief. "What," he echoes, and seems right thenāolder than Dean, decades olderābut he just leans forward and hooks his hand into the hollow of Deanās bare knee, squeezes. Deanās skin shivers in shock, all over, and Sam smiles deeper then, dimples carving into his cheeks. "I wantā" Sam says, and shakes his head, and laughs under his breath. "Too much."
Dean takes a deep breath. "You reek," he says, and Sam huffs and looks down, as though Dean were saying it like a complaint.
"Yeah," Sam says, and pushes back from the table and strips bare. Bare, right there, in their ancestral home, until he stands naked with his feet on the carpet, linens and leathers piled stinking next to him, and he raises his eyebrows at Dean like a challenge and then walks back across to the bath and steps in, sinks down. Still hot, through that enchantment, and Dean watches dry-mouthed as the steam rises, as Sam slips his hands along his skin. He has scars, too. Heād never had much interest in healing magic. Welted-white lines on his arms, and an ugly twisting thing on his chest. The bite-mark, from the darkspawn, which sent him to the Wardens in the first place.
He rinses off the scented soap, splashes his face with the fragrant water, scrubs his scalp. The hair on his chest and in his armpits and at his groin has blackened with wet, and he runs a hand over his head, pushing the wet hair back from his face and looking at Dean while he does it, and Dean says, finally, "Sammy, youāre killing me," in a voice he doesnāt recognize. Sam smiles at him and gets up out of the bath in a surge of dripping water and meets Dean in the middle of the room and kisses him again, leaning down this time with his hands cupped around Deanās ears, all the long wet of him soaking into Deanās dressing gown but itāsāitās okay, itās better than okay.
The bedās so big. So much bigger than any they ever had, when they were kids. Sam leans over him still dripping, his hair hanging down around Deanās face and his shoulders blocking out the firelight. He pushes a hand into Deanās gown, pets down his chestāhis stomachāand Dean doesnāt know why itās a shock when Sam grabs up his dick but it is, it is, and Dean grips Samās shoulders and shudders, bites his lip. "Yeah," Sam says, soft, sweet like he used to be, sometimes. When they were kids in the wheat fields, and hiding in the summer from chores Dean shouldāve been making them do, and Sam asked soft for a kiss and Dean didnāt, couldnāt, say no. Sam noses against his cheek, smelling like herbs, and he says, "I missed you," gripping Dean hard and knowing. Different, to how it was, and in the grip Dean feels whoever Samās been with in the time between, and shoves his hips up, groaning. Sam kisses below his ear and says, "Dean, Iāmissed you, so much," and Dean makes a strangled noise heāll be embarrassed by later and pushes Sam over, because new height and muscle or not, Deanās the big brother here, and he ends up with Sam under him, tanned and young and beautiful, and staring at him likeālike Dean doesnāt know, but he leans down and kisses him because he has to, he has to, because if he doesnāt heāll say crazy things, things he doesnāt know if heās ready to hear, much less for Sam to hearā
Sam groans, grips at his arms, pushes his hips up. Ohāoh, Sammyās dick, and that hasnāt changed, big and urgent and pressing against Deanās thigh. Sam unties his dressing gown, somewhere in the shadows between them, and grips at Deanās ass, tugging him in tight. Ahāand that, that is like being a teenager again, Sam grasping and desperate. He pushes his dick against Samās tight belly, makes a noise. "Sam," he says, stupid, and Sam grips his hips and tilts and his dick slides up between the cheeks of Deanās ass, solid, bulling.
"Oh," Sam breathes, against his mouth, and drops his head back to the pillow, wet hair spread out around his face. He blinks at Dean, while he pumps his hipsāsawing back and forth, damp and threatening, while Dean breathes open-mouthed and stares down at him. His dick throbs, trapped against Samās belly. "Have youā" Sam says, and bites his lower lip, and shakes his head. "How long? Can weā"
How long. Dean remembers that morning in exact, perfect detail. Varric had said to meet in the square at noon and so that left hours, hours, and heād woken at dawn and washed himself, red-faced and hoping his uncle would have the usual hangover that kept him abed well past the two oāclock hour. Then heād come to Sam in the tiny mud-spattered room they shared and woken him with a finger to his lips and theyādāall morning, while the city churned just outside the thin walls, and the appointed hour crawled closer. Heād fucked Sam, and Sam hadnāt come and had pushed him over onto his belly after he was done and fucked him right back, just as Dean had known he would, and heād kissed all over Deanās shoulders and covered his back and said, take me, and Dean had known Sam meant into the Deep Roads, and Dean had said no, Sammy, shaking, wantingāitās too dangerous, come on, and Sam had pushed into him and trapped Deanās wrists against the blanket covering their awful straw-tick pallet and said against his ear, Iām coming, like it was already decided, and Dean had shuddered and come again, and heād shown up at the square with Anders at his left shoulder and Sam at his right, smug, and Varric had shrugged and said, donāt slow us down, short stuff, to Sam, and the night before Sam got bitten by a darkspawn Sam had looked at him from his bedroll inches away in the camp and smiled, happyāunaccountably happy, like Sam almost never was.
Sam swallows, in the face of Deanās silence. "Really," he says, but not like heās asking. He grips at Deanās ass, pulling the cheeks apart, dragging him in so his dick smears wet all over Samās stomach, and then lifts up on one elbow and kisses Deanāsoft, soft, lips pulling slow and easy, like a winter morning with only snow outside and no responsibility to anyone but this.
No one could ever be what Sam was, to Dean. Heās screwed around with Isabela, a few times, deep in their cups at the Hanged Man and nothing waiting for either of them, but it meant nothingāshe slapped his ass when he was done and said well done, soldier, and he laughed, and left her there and didnāt think about it outside of that room. Once, with Fenris, when they were so piss-drunk on wine he didnāt even remember what had happened, other than an impression of lyrium-brightness, and a mouth on his throat. Not something theyāve spoken of since. He doesnāt know what Samās done, at Weisshaupt or on the roads between here and there, and he doesnāt care because what matters is that Samās in his bed. Whether Sam will be here in the morning, whether heās deserted or if thereās some other quest waiting, some new hardship thatāll sweep them both awayāhe can't think about that, right now. Not when he has this in front of him.
"Do it," he mumbles, his mouth pressed against Samās shoulder, and feels Sam shudder, all against him. He wants itāwants the hurt, like that first time when Sam was sixteen and theyād hidden in the woods behind the Chantry, fumblingāheās a warrior, he knows from pain, and having Sam is the kind thatās worth it.
Sam shakes his head, thoughāshakes his head, and smears his mouth against Deanās throat, lips dragging, saysā"I wantā" and flips them, surge of muscle, and descends to get his lips on Deanās dick, going down so fast that he chokes, and Deanās legs seize and draw up but Samās shoulders are wide enough to keep them apart and heās left arching, shocked, body seizing. Ohāthis, thisānights in their room at home, learning each other while Dad was gone, Sam daring to make spark-lights above their heads, the magic just enough to see the way Samās cheekbone stood out above the hollowed dark of his cheekāand now, the firelight setting Samās hair to auburn where itās half-dried and standing out messy around his head, and the steady practiced working of his tongue, and the gliding silk of his cheek when he lets Deanās cockhead push against it. Deanās balls clutch up, too fast. Sam knows, somehowāpulls back, gasping, spit connecting him to Deanās dick in a sloppy string that he licks up only after a second hanging thereāand he looks at Dean up the stretch of his torso, pink burnt into his cheeks and patchy on his chest, want in his eyes. Want, and nothing else, and Dean thumbs over the wet dark of his lips and holds his jaw, and Sam leans in still watching him and suckles at the head, sparky jolting pressure crushing up in Deanās gut and balls and in his fingertips, his toes curling, and Sam closes his eyes and goes down, his hand on Deanās stomach like a ton weight, his hair brushing Deanās belly, his mouth warm, and Deanā
Itās only after, that Dean works up the courage. When Samās spilled over his stomach and Deanās cleaned them both up, haphazard, with the skirt of his dressing gown. With wine still in the bottle, while they pass it back and forth between them, and the fire gilding amber light over Samās shoulders. He meets Deanās eyes and they both laugh, for what reason Dean doesnāt know but it feels good, right. Samās mouth is curled still at the corners, and Dean rolls close and drags his thumb along Samās ribs, where they used to stand out against the hungry pit of his belly, and says, before he can chicken out, "Gonna stay, Sammy?"
He doesnāt know if heās ready to hear the answer, but he needs to hear it. Sooner, rather than later, so heāll know if he can rest now, or if he needs to plan for a sleepless night of taking in every single ounce of Sam that he canāevery story, every kiss. Every ounce of blood itāll take to last more years, without him. If he even can.
Sam sighs, and settles his hand on Deanās hip. "I ran," he says, very quietly. Dean looks at him and Samās watching his face. "We went on patrol, into the Anderfels, and I slipped my commander and stole a horse and rode. East, as far as I could go before the horse went lame, and then I kept going." Sam shrugs, with one shoulder. "Thereās a lot of east, between the Anderfels and the Free Marches. But I didnāt stop."
Dean breathes, shaky, imagining. The world opening up, when it's been so long of his compacted, empty nothing. Okay. Hiding Sam from the Wardensāand his neighborsāand what theyāll do. How they'll liveāwill they have to run? He doesn't know, and realizes after so long of grinding to get to this place, he doesn't care. The house doesn't matter, the city doesn't matter. Nothing has mattered, without Sam.
Samās still watching him, eyes dark, and Dean reaches out and tucks his hair back from his forehead, pushing it behind his ear. "Youāll have to tell me about Orlais sometime," he says, and Sam smiles at him.
"Bunch of cheese-eaters," he says, leaning in close like itās a secret, and Dean laughs, soft and tired and feeling, for the first time in three years, like heās whole.
#wincest#dragon age#my writing#it turns out i'm extremely soft for hawke!dean#now i just want to write about the adventures of him and warden mage!sam#hecc
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āso.ā
varricās voice is as loud and booming as ever, as if heās announcing something to a crowd of invisible spectators. if she watches him closely enough she can see him piecing together the sentences behind his eyes - heās always spinning a story, always playing along with a narrative, always using the words to match. itās how he hooks people in.Ā
that damned tethras man and his charming tethras tongue. absolutely irresistible.
ātell me if youāve heard this one before,ā he begins, a playful glint in his small eyes.Ā āthereās this woman. and sheās the loudest, wildest person anyone will ever meet - the savior of the damned, a legend in the making. and she knows too many people for her own good, and too many people know her - a golden-haired mage, a brooding elf, a wide-eyed dalish, and a dashing pirate. and, at one point or another, they all fall for her...ā his hands fall to his side from where they were suspended in the air, inviting her to bask in the web he was spinning, and his face softens in earnst. āand yet she picks the humble, lowly dwarven storyteller who follows her around and notes her every movement, her every word.ā
āthatās hardly a story. the only thing fictional thing about that is you insinuating that youāre in any way humble,ā hawke quips, arms crossed over her chest, shoulders squared. she canāt help but play along with his little game. she couldnāt stop herself if she tried.Ā
āi am humble,ā varric corrects.Ā āiāve been forced to be humble, down in the dirt after my brother betrays me... and my knight in shining armor shows up, lifts my spirits. but iām still hesitant to tell her how i feel because i donāt want to get hurt again...ā
āoh, is that why?ā
āācourse it is.ā his nod is astute.Ā āmutual, unspoken pining between two best friends makes for the best stories. those are the ones that sell the most. people love a good tragedy.ā
āwell, what just happened could definitely be described as a tragedy,ā she grumbles, the gleam in her eyes suddenly cast over by a darkened expression. not even their game can distract her from the purpose of their excursion out to the coast; not even varricās winning smile can make her forget the heavy pack on her shoulders, weighed down with all the supplies she needs to survive away from the city. ājust look at the damn state i left kirkwall in.ā
varric makes a move to respond - his opens his mouth, takes a step closer to her, reaches to grab her hand. and then he stops. mind going blank, shoulders sagged in defeat, he doesnāt know what to say. for the first time ever - for the first time with hawke - he doesnāt know what to say.
heās varric. heās always supposed to be nearby with a joke and an ambivalent shrug of his shoulders. but nothing feels like itād fill the silence.
so he laughs - an uneasy, choked out thing, caught in his throat, cracking in the middle like a tree branch underfoot, and says with as much muster as he can manage, āwell, that... wasnāt, uh, entirely your fault, you know, hawke.ā
āit was.ā her words are harsh and clipped and bitter. āit was, because iām the one paying the price for it. leaving everything behind...ā
she meets his gaze and her heart breaks.Ā āleaving you behind.āĀ
āhawke...ā
āi know weāve never said it, but -ā
āand we donāt have to,ā varric interrupts, closing the distance between them and grabbing her hands in his as he directs his eyes upwards.Ā āyouāre gonna come back, hawke. ten months or ten years, youāre going to come back. and when you do, iāll be here, waiting...ā
āpining?ā she suggests, sniffling and bringing her forearm up to her nose to wipe it. the tears came quickly - they donāt have enough time left for them to come slowly.
āyeah, sure, pining,ā he replies, laughing as he brings a calloused thumb up to smudge a tear against her cheek, not bothering to pay attention to the ones on his own.Ā āif thatās what you want, then yeah. pining. pining after the most beautiful, most wild woman that thedas has ever seen.ā
āyou promise?ā
āi promise, hawke.ā his voice lacks volume, lacks conviction - thereās no lies to spin, no plot twist to devise. heās here, with hawke, open and honest and aching for her, and thereās nothing false or fictional about it.Ā āiāll never stop waiting for you. no matter what.ā
she crumples to her knees, gathering his small frame up in her arms.Ā āi love you,ā she whispers into his ear. one of his legs is caught between hers, and her hands never stay one place too long, roaming across the plane of his back - their embrace is desperate and messy and twitchy, completely with hoarse laughter and quiet sobs and thick tears staining dusty fabric. no one likes desperate and messy, varric thinks, but he needs it. in this moment, itās the only thing he needs. the only thing he wants. ugly. because nothing real is ever very pretty.
āi -ā he chokes out a sob, catches her hair between his teeth as he opens and closes his mouth in his best attempt to reply without crying.Ā āi l-love you, too, hawke. shit.ā
when she draws away, she presses a kiss to his lips. it is bright and pure and intoxicating, and for one moment he forgets everything in the world besides her lips on his - he forgets anders, and aveline, and grand enchanter elthina and knight commander meredith and all of the shit that went wrong in kirkwall. all he thinks about - all he can think about - is the wet, soft sound hawkeās mouth makes as her lips retreat from his and then, before either one of them can say anything else, come in for another dose.Ā
his mind is reeling, and his thoughts are spinning. he canāt and heāll never be able to find the words to describe how hawke feels against his body, beneath his hands. how much heāll miss her.
when finally their kiss ends, they linger in the moment for as long as they can, eyes half-closed in a refusal to admit that a world exists outside of the two of them. then she grabs one of his hands in hers and presses a red strip of cloth into his open, empty palm and curves his fingers around it.
ātake this,ā she insists.Ā āwear it everyday. in your hair, on your finger, around your neck, whatever. a token from me for my knight in shining armor.āĀ
varric squeezes his eyes shut. itās too soon. itās ending too soon. āhawke...ā
āi love you,ā she repeats. it sounds natural, easy, like sheās said it thousands of times before even though she hasnāt. if only she did. if only she had the chance to. āi love you,ā she says again, her voice a whimper.
when he opens his eyes, sheās gone.
he takes a moment to recuperate. blinks the tears from his orange eyelashes, sucks the rest of his snot up his nostrils and swallows it. everything is ugly, and awful, and vile, and he bites down on the inside of his cheek to keep from crying again, tying the red ribbon around his right wrist as tight as he can with one hand. when heās looped it around enough for it to hold, he takes the end of it between his teeth to secure it. but suddenly itās close enough to his nose that a familiar scent floods his senses, and he realizes - itās the piece of fabric that hawke uses to keep her hair out of her face.
itās what she used to use.Ā
varric sighs. he bends over to grab his own pack, swings it up on his shoulders, and starts towards the speck in the distance that is what remains of kirkwall.
itās when he gets back to the hanged man and sits down in front of his blank pages that he realizes this isnāt a story for anyone else to read. no one will want to read it. people donāt like happy endings, and this story is going to have one. so he puts his ink and quill away and for the first time, picks up the unused papers on his desk and rips them to shreds.
---Ā Ā
light streams through the gap in the hallway outside the war room. hawkeās back is pressed against the wall, her sword tall and present and threatening even though itās wedged in between her and the stone, and varric realizes she looks like a hero, like she could be on the cover of a book. but her head is tilted towards varric, a playful, loving smile on her lips, and that would draw in no one else like it draws in varric.
āso... they donāt know about... us?ā she asks. her gaze flickers towards the door as she shifts uneasily, looking all too well like sheās trying to keep a dirty, shameful secret, and varric almost laughs.
but he assuages her fears instead, fears that are well-earned.Ā ānah,ā he responds with a wave of his right hand.Ā āfigured thatād be a story best kept between us. i donāt think anyone else would really enjoy it.ā
āwell... i think that youāre right.āĀ
she grins at him. though her hair is different, her skin is more tanned, her muscles are bulkier beneath her armor and her shoulders are more broad, she has the same grin sheās always had, the same one that makes him weak in the knees. he stutters for a moment, taken off-guard by her, and she takes the opportunity to snag his hand and start off down the hallway, away from the yelling between the advisers inside the war room.
āi donāt think i remember much of the last chapter,ā she tells him over her shoulder, arching her eyebrow suggestively.Ā āyou might have to remind me.ā
by the time they reach the great hall, sheās pulling him along only by the end of the red ribbon adorning his wrist. thereās still a long walk back to his quarters - their quarters, since the moment she arrived in skyhold this morning - and he can barely wait to touch her again and to kiss her again, to re-familiarize himself with her lips. but heāll wait. this is something heāll want to keep private.
āgood thing i have a great memory,ā he replies, saying and doing no more until she kicks open the door to his room and closes it securely behind them.
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varric has barely passed through the veil when the vomit is already spewing from his mouth. everything is fucking backwards and upside down - his vision is blurry, his head is heavy, and his limbs ache from exertion worse than theyāve ever ached before. heās just finished retching as the inquisitor stumbles through the tear in the fade. stroud comes out hot on their heels, his brow line with sweat, sword glinting in the pale desert moonlight.
varric blinks rapidly to clear his vision - once, twice, then three times, then four. and he stops, eventually, finally, chest still heaving as he takes a step closer to the inquisitor.
āwhereās hawke?ā he asks.Ā
the inquisitor gives him no more of an answer than a shake of their head, and varric falls to his knees, crossbow clanging to the ground and sounding all too well like the cover of a book slamming shut.
#:)#i spent three hours on his and i SWEAR TO GOD.... if this gets 1 note... im gonna lose it#anyway i dont even have a hawke that romanced varric but uh... take this#i was inspired xoxoxo#hawke x varric#hawke/varric#my writing#dragon age 2#femhawke#female hawke x varric#long post#VERY LONG POST... but i know no one will read it if it's under a read more so :)#gotta use the tactics u know folks#anyway
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Inquisitor as a Companion - Banter Edition: Tash
From @dextronomsā template. For Ataashi Adaar.
Coleās reflection on their thoughts:Ā āKeys that open more than locks, lands beyond the sky and past the sea. Thoughts that arenāt mine, fiery and frigid, flying free through the Fade.ā
Comment(s) on Mages:Ā āWell, people should be free, shouldnāt they? Making people be afraid of mages only makes the problem worse.ā
Comment(s) on Templars:Ā āI thought the Templars were supposed to help protect mages. Iām sure there are still some out there who are trying to.ā
When looking for something:Ā āHmmm. Do you feel that? I feel something.ā
When finding a campsite:Ā āThis ground looks pretty soft. Do you think itād be a nice spot for a camp?ā
When the Inquisitor Falls:Ā āNo, not you too! Hold on!ā
When they are low on Health:Ā āUm... a little help here, please?ā
When they see a Dragon:Ā āOh, dear. Thatās a big one. Can we find another way? Please?ā
When during their small side quest:Ā āOh, oh! Another flower! Can we pick this one?ā
Default saying: (cheerily): āHello!ā
Low approval: āIām a little busy right now. What is it?ā
Travel Banter with Canon Companions of your choice:
Cole: I donāt understand you. You hurt, but the remembering makes you hurt less. Isnāt it better to forget?
Tash: Not always. The more I remember what Iāve lost, the more I can treasure the good times that I got to have!
Cole: āTiring tears, but tears that cleanse the soul.ā I still donāt understand.
Tash: Neither do I, much.
Cole: *hums *āSera Was Neverā* āCole, I think youāre wonderful.ā Y-you do?
Tash: Mmm-hmm. You help so many people, me included.
Cole:Ā āWarm and soft beside me, keeping me safe with strong arms like my brother used to.ā It helps you?
Tash: Yup. I wanted to thank you, but I donāt know what to get you.
Cole: This is enough.This... helps.
Tash: Ser Blackwall? I heard you once participated in the Grand Tourney.
Blackwall (warily): Yes? What of it?
Tash: I lovedĀ the Grand Tourney! My brother used to take me every year to see the melee! Was it fun? Did you make a lot of friends?
Blackwall: *chuckles* Well, I wouldnāt say friends, but there was this one barmaid that I- never mind.
Tash (dreamily): You must have looked so brave... I wish I could have been there.
Iron Bull (if present): Hah, look at him blush!
(After Revelations)
Tash: Ser Blackw- uh, Raini- ahem,Ā Blackwall?
Blackwall (darkly): You shouldnāt be talking to someone like me. Iāve already ruined your innocence enough.
Tash: All right. Can I say just one thing, though?
Blackwall: *grunts*
Tash: I still admire you for the good things youāve done. It doesnāt make up for or excuse what you did, but youāve brought some good into the world. Isnāt that something you can be proud of?
Blackwall: *silence*
Tash: Okay. Just a thought. (brightly) By the way, can you still teach me how to whittle? I wanna make myself a chess set with special pieces!
Blackwall: All right. As you wish. Iāll see you in the stables when we get back to Skyhold.
Tash: Yay!
Tash: Thank you, Solas.
Solas: Hmmm? Whatever for, daālen?
Tash: Last night. I was having a nightmare, and you saved me. And then you introduced me to Ghil-Dirthalen in the library. Donāt you remember? Or was it just a regular dream?
Cole (if present):Ā āOf course it happened in your head, but why should that mean it is not real?ā Whoās thought is that?
Solas: *chuckles* It was a but a dream, child. You do not have to thank me.
Cole (if present):Ā āIt does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live...ā
Tash: Solas?
Solas: Yes?
Tash (in Elvhen, haltingly):Ā Is this proper? I have been understanding in the Fade. I wanted to shock you with my knowledge.
Solas (in Elvhen, quickly):Ā Very good, child. Your pronunciation is exceptionally awful, and your vocabulary could be improved, but I congratulate you on the effort.
Tash: Wait - you went too fast! What - what did you say?
Solas: *laughs* I said that it is wonderful, and that your studies are obviously going well.
Tash: Really? Yay!
(Before his companion quest is complete)
Iron Bull: Youāre gonna want to slow down, Imekari. Iāve seen you run before. No one wants to see you trip and fall.
Tash: Please donāt call me that. Qunlat doesnāt bring up very many happy memories for me.
Iron Bull: Oh really? Whyās that?
Tash (softly): I donāt remember my mother well, but when my magic appeared early I remember she took me and tried to give me to Ben-Hassrath agents. When my father tried to intervene, she tried to kill me, and the last thing she said to me wasĀ āKatara, imesaar-bas!ā Iām not entirely sure what it means, but I donāt think I want to find out.
Iron Bull: ...Crap.
Tash: The Iron Bull?
Iron Bull: Yeah?
Tash: What do you think Iād have been under the Qun - you know, if I didnāt have magic?
Iron Bull: Why?
Tash: Just for fun.Ā
Iron Bull: Youāve got a weird idea of fun, kid. All right... youād be a Tamassran, hands down. You take care of people, even without meaning to. And youāre observant. Youād be a good teacher, and be able to categorize your charges into jobs.
Tash: But arenāt Tamassrans all women?
Iron Bull: Youād be made aqun-athlok. If you were better suited to a Tamassranās duty than anything else, that is.
Tash: I think youāre wrong. I couldnāt force people to do something, just because I think theyād be good at it.
Iron Bull: You wouldnāt have much of a choice.
Tash: How is that any better than being a slave?
Iron Bull: And thatās why you should be glad youāre not under the Qun.
Tash: Believe me, I am.
Vivienne: Ataashi, darling.
Tash: Oui, madame?
Vivienne: You have an exceptional level of control over your magic for a non-Circle mage of your age. Might I inquire as to whom your tutor was?
Tash: Um, I didnāt have any, Madame Vivienne. I learned by myself.
Vivienne: On your own? How did you avoid becoming an abomination?
Tash: Well, my brother and fathers helped a lot. They always calmed me down whenever I was upset. Thereās very little demons can do to tempt you when you feel so loved. Of course, I did nearly burn the house down a few times, but we played those off as baking accidents.
Vivienne: Indeed? Well, darling, if you ever desire proper instruction, my door is open to you.
Tash: Thank you very much, Madame.
(After Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts)
Vivienne: I am pleased that you decided to become a Knight-Enchanter, Ataashi dear. You are well-suited to the title.
Tash: Thank you very much! Itās always fun to learn.
Inqusitor (if they are a Knight-Enchanter): I could do with less shouting from Commander Helaine, though./It does pay off, doesnāt it?
Vivienne: Why, in the end, did you decide to go through with it?
Tash: Well, itās all about how people see us, isnāt it? Mages, I mean. I thought, if people could see a mage helping people, swinging a shining golden sword, maybe it would help them be less afraid of us.
Vivienne: How very astute. ...I have a gift for you, Ataashi, to commemorate the completion of your studies. I had this ring commissioned for you.
Tash: Wow... itās so pretty... but, why would you do that for me?
Vivienne:(If Vivienne was brought to the Winter Palace): Because you are my protege, my dear. How would I look if I hadnāt accessorized you even slightly? Donāt you think you deserve a mark of status befitting the apprentice of the First Enchanter?
(Otherwise): It is a mark of friendship, my dear, and of allegiance. The Circle will need allies after these frightful times, and I believe that you can help the rebel mages see that they must think beyond themselves.
Tash (If Vivienne or Cassandra leads in points for the Divine Election): I think that I just might. Thank you for this, Madame Vivienne.
(If Leliana leads): I donāt know about that, but if you think so, Madame, then I thank you for the gift. Iāll treasure it always.
Vivienne: You are quite welcome, my dear.Ā
Varric: Hey, Dimples. ...Dimples? You alright?
Tash (crying): Iām not talking to you right now.
Varric: Whatād I do?
Tash: I was reading Swords and Shields, and you killed off the chevalierās squire! I thought he and the barmaid were going to run away together and have a happy ending! How could you do that to them? Why couldnāt you let them just be happy?
Varric (exasperated): Itās a story, kid! If nothing bad happened, it wouldnāt be interesting!
Cassandra (if present): That doesnāt answer the question, dwarf.
Tash: Itās just such a waste! I mean, what about the squireās missing brother? I was sure it was going to be the duke! Then he and the barmaid could be together and rich!
Varric: I -ah - I had kind of forgotten about that subplot... Damn, thatās actually pretty good. What else did you think?
Tash: Donāt even get me started about Hard In Hightown! You know what? I donāt know if I can talk to you about this right now...
Varric: Then talk to me about it when I have my notes. Iād like to hear what other complaints you have...
(After Here Lies the AbyssĀ is complete)
Varric: Hey, Dimples?
Tash: Yes, Varric?
Varric: I wanted to let you know, youāll have a home after all this is over. You can come back to Kirkwall with me.
Tash: R-really?
Varric: Yeah. Weāll put you up in Hawkeās house: nobodyās using it right now anyway/ Iām sure s/he wonāt mind.Ā
Tash: That sounds nice. But what would I do all day?
Varric: You could answer all the mail I get from the Merchantsā Guild - or, I donāt know, you could work for Aveline - I know how much you like paperwork, and how much she hates it.
Tash: You would do that for me?
Varric:Ā ācourse, Dimples. Youāre family now.
Tash (sniffling): Thank you, Varric. If we werenāt out in the open, Iād hug you right now.
Varric: I know. Why do you think I waited until now to tell you?
Friendship?:Ā āHello, friend! Can I do anything for you?ā
Leaving the Inquisition: āI guess I was wrong about you. I hope you defeat Corypheus; I just canāt be a part of that if youāre there. Goodbye - forever.ā
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Writober 12 - Comedy
Summary: Sometimes to get out of your head, you need toĀ get out of the house. Avery Hawke needs to get out of her head. Luckily, Moses Hawke has two tickets to the best show in Kirkwall. Thereās nothing like a good play, especially when your friend wrote it using you as plot details.
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Light was a bitch.
āUgh, what the fuck?!ā
āWe're going to be late if you don't get up.ā
Moses' deep voice did terrible, awful things to Avery's head as she sat up in bed, eyes mere slits against the onslaught of morning light. A certain someone had throw the curtain open, exposing the bright sunshine that often came after rain in Kirkwall. Maybe it was being extra bright to spite her ā like her mother had gotten in touch with the weather gods.
That was just like Leandra. What a bitch.
Avery's head was pounding like a war drum as she tried to put the pieces together. āThe only thing I care about being late for is breakfast, so unless you have some leave me alone.ā
āNot my fault you drunk yourself into a stupor last night.ā Her pants were thrown on the bed, landing on Chewy's massive back. āNow, hurry up and get dressed. It starts in a half hour and you look awful.ā
She shot him a blank look as she groped for her pants. Again, he hadn't answered her as to what they were going to be late for and why pants were so crucial. They weren't her normal pants either under closer inspection ā no blood stains, no patches. Ā
āWhere are we going that I have to put legit pants on?ā
Moses was already heading for the door, but he looked over his shoulder. āThe play based on Hard in Hightown is debuting today. Varric got us tickets.ā
Off went her pants so fast they were a blur.
It took Avery a few seconds to get changed Ā with a speed that even her friends at the Rose could have been proud for. There were then another few to run a brush through her tangled hair and set it right. The water she splashed on her face caused her to shudder, but it sharpened her senses dulled by sleep and a little too much alcohol. All she had left to do was put on her shoes, and she'd be ready to go.
āShit, what are we waiting for? Let me up already!ā
Moses allowed her to hop onto his shoulders after they had passed the door frame. Chewy, on the other hand, stayed in bed. No dogs at the theater. Besides, she seemed more than happy to sleep away the rest of her day. Might as well let her enjoy it ā who knew when they would have fun?
āI believe we were waiting for you.ā He wrinkled his nose and stopped by his room. āYou still kinda stink like ale. Did you sleep in it?ā
Avery blushed, but accepted his minor fixes before they left the house. āI'm gonna be honest, I have literally no memory of it.ā
It had to be a lot, judging by how her head was pounding and how many empty bottles had been gathered in the trash when they left the house. Maybe she should've been embarrassed by that, but the persisting hangover was helping dull that feeling.
Hooray for hangovers. Wait...
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āNow, are you going to talk?ā
āOr what, you'll beat me up? Bring it on, tin can.ā
Was this supposed to be a comedy, because Avery was fucking dying.
It was a good thing she and Moses had wound up with seats in the very back ā their sound couldn't carry well there. Up in front, there were plenty of more serious people enraptured by the events unfolding on the stage before them.
To them, it was art. To the Hawkes, it was a Tuesday half a year ago.
āI can't believe he kept the fucking tin can line, I spat that out with a concussion!ā Avery snickered into her hand as she leaned hard against Moses' side. āFuck, at least I've got better tits in this one. Thank you, Varric.ā
Moses wasn't showing it, but she could read him enough to know he was just as amused. āWe make good henchmen.ā
āDamn fucking straight we do!ā Avery had to stifle another laugh as the man playing Guardsman Donnen prepared to attack. āMaker's balls, he's telegraphing it to when we actually did this fight! Even the real Cullen would see this one coming!ā
True, stage fighting and actual brawling were two different concerns, but fuck if she cared; remember, hungover. The fighters on stage looked more like disorganized children from where she and her adopted brother sat, running commentary under their breath. For some reason, Varric hadn't found anyone to take the seats directly around them.
It was like he knew what magnanimous assholes they could be.
āThe real Cullen can't dodge to save his life.ā Moses let out a hiss of air that was definitely not a laugh as a fountain of 'blood' erupted on stage. āThough apparently his acting counterpart is quite the blood mage.ā
Avery double over, shaking with mirth. āFuck, I love that crazy dwarf bastard. Remind me to buy him a round next time we see him in the Hanged Man!ā
Judging from how much blood was gushing from the man's proper armor, she might have to make that a double for imparting a new classic on the literary world. It was worth it for the shocked gasped down below, almost as painful sounding as it was to keep from out and out barking in laughter.
Oh, she loved the theater so much.
āShh, shh, here comes Aveline to clean things up.ā Moses waved his hand as Donnen advanced. āNot that she ever actually does that. Half the time she almost hits me with that damn shield of hers.ā
Avery nodded, cheeks still puffed from the effort of holding in her mirth. āI keep telling her, shields are bullshit.ā
She definitely let out a snicker when the guard used the side of his shield to slice at his opponent. āDamn it, Varric, I want royalties. That's my move!ā
āIt wouldn't even work with a guard's shield anyway. Didn't you lift yours off a dead Templar?ā
āHey, hey... Ā I looted it off a corpse of some Templar I killed.ā
It was an important distinction to make; lift implied stealing it off a person, and Templars weren't really people alive or dead.
They continued their quiet commentary throughout the rest of the play, until the last bit of fake blood had dripped into the equally false streets of Lowtown. In front, crowds rose to violent applause as the actors bowed. Meanwhile, Avery and Moses slipped out the back. Again, it was like Varric had planned for it.
Avery was still laughing as she took her usual spot on her brother's shoulder. āFuck, that was hilarious.ā
āEspecially the part where the guards do anything.ā Moses walked at an easy pace ā after all, wasn't like they were expecting to be jumped. Most people were smarter than that. āI almost hope he actually writes one about us.ā
āShit, they're going to go broke trying to find an actor to play you. Better just put the poor sod on stilts and be done with it.ā
The laughter made her head hurt, but Avery didn't mind that much as they walked home under a clear sky. All things considered, she was in a great mood. It almost didn't diminish as they walked past the chantry, closed up for the night.
Moses didn't stop. āIt's creepy at night.ā
āDamn straight it is.ā She shrugged. āI'll go in the morning, grab Leandra. Fuck if I know what to do with her. Should I shut her in the room or let her blow to the winds or what?ā
The large man below her also shrugged. āUse the ashes to strengthen a sword to slay your enemies?ā
āI like how you think, but I think I'd need bones for that and that's not exactly happening unless you know a really good necromancer.ā
Knowing him, he probably did. It didn't matter though. Avery's head finally felt clear for the first time since they had happened upon Leandra down in that dark hole in the ground. The tension released in her shoulders as she patted Moses on the head.
āThanks. I needed that.ā
Her brother kept walking, home in sight. āEveryone needs a good blade to slay their enemies with. Pretty sure you said that before.ā
āYeah... I think I did. It's good advice I picked off a blacksmith I used to know.ā Avery hopped to the ground once they were at the front door. It was easier to push it open than it had been in months; maybe someone had oiled the hinges.
She was glad to be home, especially since Orana was in for a treat when they found her. There was nothing like Hard in Hightown acted out by its principal actors, especially when they were both dramatic little shits who enjoyed a bit of light mockery.
Again, she definitely needed to buy Varric a round in the morning. It was only right to celebrate his newest comedy.
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da 20 questions
i was tagged by @goblin-deity thanks dear <3 and iāll tag @lyrium-lovesong @raymurata @pegaeae @veridium-bye and @crystal-grace <3 no obligations of course <3
01) Favourite game of the series?
ooooghghghghghgh Origins is my Favorite, the Story........
02) How did you discover Dragon Age?
i recieved a copy of inquisition as a gift, became immediately immursed but i didnāt dig more into the series for a good half a year or so? at which point i discovered the other two games and went Oh Fuck
03) How many times youāve played the games?Ā
oh, uHHHHHHH, Far Too Many. iāve sunk over 1k hours into dai alone, origins and da2 probably have about 1k combined?
04) Favourite race to play as?
iām always a slut for elvesĀ
05) Favourite class?
me, a staff wielding bisexual: iām Mage, all the way. though i donāt mind rogue if i mix things up [which is like, i think i have three or four rogue play throughs out of all of them?] i NEVER play warrior bc iām a bottom iām not about that life
06) Do you play through the games differently or do you make the same decisions each time?
i play in character! so iāve got some Wildly different world states depending on which playthrough/oc iām on
07) Go-to adventuring group?
for my Canon world states iāve got origins gang: sten, zevran, morrigan. da2 gang: fenris/aveline, anders/merrill, varric. dai gang: dorian, bull, solas/seraĀ i sense a theme......Ā
08) Which of your characters did you put the most thought into?
oh god, ellanis and noure are my most fleshed out origins kids, wren and galahad are less fleshed out, sorta, but i Love them, idrilla and daāean are pretty fleshed out as well -though linayel and mithra are also fairly fleshed out i just never write about themĀ
09) Favourite romance?
ZEVRAN -god i love him so much hhhhhHHHHHHHH heās got Everything, everytime i play ellanis and he goesĀ āthe grey wardens die hereā iām Fucking Lost Already man. hhhhhoooohhghghghghghgh iād go on but iām running on cough syrup and midol so it would be even less coherent than ususal
10) Have you read any of the comics/books?
lmao i own all the books but i havenāt been able to finish them because My God are they poorly written. LIKE good Characters, good characters, shit prose.
11) If you read them, which was your favourite book?
the one iām furthest along in rn is stolen throne so iāll go with that one
12) Favourite DLCs?
jaws of hakonĀ -holy shit as an archaeologist grad student i cannot tell you how much i Fucking Loved the lore dump in site form that was jaws of hakon JUST OH MY GOD it was AMAZING the first time you talk to professor whatāshisface with the hot accent and he starts talking about chronologies via buckles i was fucking lost in nerd heaven
13) Things that annoy you.
homophobia and transphobia and racism. the games are Rife with bad correlations between real people and grey morality and poor handling of sensitive contents, though i donāt know if it was all done forĀ āwokeā points or if some came from legitimate good intentions, most of my problems lie in those areas. fandom also hits a lot of my annoyances but thatās what block is for
14) Orlais or Ferelden?
antiva bitch
15) Templars or mages?
mages
16) If you have multiple characters, are they in different/parallel universes or in the same one?
same one! ellanis is my canon hof but noure is a part of his backstory and they meet during the blight [ellanis frees noure from a sentence of tranquility and conscripts them, uh, temporarily] noure leaves the group after like a week?ish and goes to nevarra. wren and galahad are twins, wren being the older one and the main rabble-rouser hawke. daāean is the only quizzy but idrilla, linayel, mithra and a handful of other lavellan ocs all exist within the clan -idrilla and linayel and a few others come to skyhold after clan lavellan handles the unrest in wycome with daāeanās help [my canon there is a bit wonky as of yet as iām still working out the kinks]Ā Ā
17) What did you name your pets? (mabari, summoned animals, mounts, etc)
this is the part i suck at, i think ellanis named the mabari something after the flower that saved him? but i donāt remember tbh, and thatās the only one i cna think of rn too lkjlkjlkjklj
18) Have you installed any mods?
oh yes. ohhh yes i have an extense amount of mods on all three games, mostly cosmetic ones but a few gameplay ones
19) Did your Warden want to become a Grey Warden?
ellanis didnāt no, he thought wardenās were a bit of reality mixed with myth. when duncan shows up heās more skeptical and curious than anything else, and his joining is less than enthusiastic but he makes the most of it for a good five years, before he fucks off to do his own research in antiva in seclusion -he just leaves, with an encripted note for nate making him warden-commander of ferelden while heās gone and tells him not to tell anyone where heās gone. only nate and velanna know where he is in the wardens
20) Hawkeās personality?
wren is a purple hawke! she knows what she wants and she is not afraid to go after it, although she does care deeply and shows her affections loudly. sheās a fucking chaotic stupid mess and i love her.
galahad is blue throughout. a natural big brother, super loving and patient and caring. heās always looking to help, though when things go wrong he tends to blame himself only, heās more together than wrenĀ though.Ā
21) Did you make matching armor for your companions in Inquisition?
....yes.......Ā my inquisition is a fashion disaster, everyone has a palatte but i do complimentary colors for my parties and lis Of Course
22) If your character(s) could go back in time to change one thing, what would they change?
yes, ellanis would go back and kill the shems before they could crash the wedding -to prevent shianni from ever having to live through what she did. he would still have probably been conscripted by duncan soooo not too big a change for him but, for shianni it would be huge.Ā
ellanis has another but itās tied up with noureās: noure would go back and ambush the templars before being captured and then run for their life. without ever having lived in the circle i donāt, know exactly how noure would come out -probably happier, less jagged, less terrified and paranoid. but probably not by much if they had to live their life constantly looking over their shoulder. they may have ended up in nevarra this way too, but they wouldnāt have ever made it to kirkwall and they never would have met anders or karl, they may have never fallen out of love with ellanis via distance/assumed death, it would be far different than what happened.
wren and galahad both would go back and save bethany. doesnāt matter how, or what the cost to themselves would have been thatās their little sister and they would do anything to save her if they could.
daāeanās is much the same. his biggest regret, the thing which haunts him the most is ashalleāsĀ [not dao ashalle lmao] death. he was supposed to protect her and after what happens in that field and that month, daāean blames himself for how his sister died. though he isnāt the one to blame, and later [far, far later] he is able to come to terms with what happened. though he never Truly shakes the guilt.
linayel would probably try to save his motherās sight. he would tell her to stay with him by the fire, or would try and find a cure faster for her. the illness wasnāt his fault and he knowsĀ it wasnāt but given the chance he would save her sight if he could.Ā Ā
23) Do you have any headcanons about your character(s) that go against canon?
lmao canon? never heard of her, a shitton of what i write is either me taking canon and making it Good/Useable or me shitting on it and saying this is My Castle Now
24) Who did you leave in the Fade?
this choiice always pissed me off, or it did after i knew who they were. when i first played i had no idea who hawke was or who the grey warden contact was [stroud for my first couple of play throughs] at all. so i would flip flop between them without care really.Ā
now, in my canon alistair stays behind while hawke physically drags daāean out because he was going to stay and fight or find a different way out. i still think its shit and a naratively piss-poor meta punch though
25) Favourite mount?
iām a dirty gatherer so i donāt actually use any mount. the only time i Have used a mount was the royal 16 for screenshot purposes, which i lost when my harddrive crashed a couple months ago D:
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DA 20+ Questions
Tagged by @antivan-suranaā thanks! Tagging @situationnormalā @the-dread-doggoā @acepavusā @aroundofgwentā @lakambaeniā @kxnwaysā @fuckbiowareā (no pressure ofc) and anyone who wants to?
The rest is under a read more because itās long
01) Favourite game of the series?
Origins, only because you got less and less op as a mage as the games went on. I love all the games tbh.
02) How did you discover Dragon Age?
My friend got my sister into it. They kept talking and talking about it so finally I was likeĀ āok lets see what the big deal isā and here I am now
03) How many times youāve played the games?
Iāve done Origins twice fully, DA2 four times fully (omg I didnāt realize this until now lol) and DA:I just once fully. I have one unfinished playthrough of Origins with a Cousland, and Iām in the middle of maybe two of DA:I. I think Iāve gone back and replayed certain parts of both Origins and DA:I plenty of times.
04) Favourite race to play as?
Elf I guess? Though Iāve only fully played as a human and elf. Iām in the middle of a dwarf playthrough and Iām thinking of doing a qunari one in the future. It might change idk.
I just really liked playing as an elf in Origins so thatās why I got into elves. But the funny thing is, I wasnāt even thinking of playing as an elf when I played for the first time. I wanted to play as a human. I just did it on a whim.
05) Favourite class?
Mage, hands down. Realistically, theyāre the most versatile class. They can do range and melee since anyone can learn how to fight with weapons. But the last two games wonāt let you so :)
Also, this stems from the fact that Iāve been a harry potter fan since I could remember.
06) Do you play through the games differently or do you make the same decisions each time?
In my full, proper playthroughs that Iāve finished, itās slightly different but still the same basic ideas. Sided with mages, agreed with Anders, etc.
But I am planning to try an evil playthrough in the future so
07) Go-to adventuring group?
DA:O (I have two)
Leliana, Wynne, Shale - the OG crew; they were my main crew in my first playthrough and it was a pretty even party
Zevran, Leliana, Alistair - the elf crew; esp. with Rhian theyāre all elves because I saw a theory that Leliana is half elf and Iām down
DA2
Itās a mixed bag. If Iām not playing as a mage, I usually take Anders a lot because we need a healer and Merrill canāt heal. I tend not to take Sebastian as much after I max his friendship. After Sebastian, I take Aveline the least. Other than that I just mix it up. Unless Iām romancing someone, then I take them every time.
Iād love to take Anders, Fenris, and Merrill out more often but I hate how mean they all are to each other (looking @ u bioware š)
DA:I
My first playthrough, I mixed it up a lot in the beginning but then I ended up bringing Solas, Cole, and Blackwall a lot near the end for some reason?
I love taking Vivienne, Dorian, and Solas out, especially if Iām playing a mage, because itās such a pretty fireworks show
In general though, if Iām romancing someone I take them with me almost always.
08) Which of your characters did you put the most thought into?
I think itās a tie between Rhian and Lu.
09) Favourite romance?
To no oneās surprise, itās Zevran :3
Solas is second because I just really like that angst.
10) Have you read any of the comics/books?
Iāve read The Silent Grove, Those Who Speak, and Until We Speak (because someone gifted me the Omnibus) and The Calling.
I also have Hard in Hightown, which I should probably read lol, and the art book of inquisition.
11) If you read them, which was your favourite book?
The Calling solely because of my mom Fiona and my dad Duncan.Ā
12) Favourite DLCs?
Awakening because I love everyone and its also really funny that Rhian, who is 19 at that point, had to basically babysit people older than her and also run a whole arling.
I love both Legacy and Mark of the Assassin. Mark of the Assassin was really funny (though I hated the stealth part). I love Legacy specifically because when I was fighting Corypheus, both Varric and Anders K.O.ād and it was just me and Carver. It was a special family moment bringing down a whole entire magister together. I also hc that that was canon and it brought Kaia and Carver closer together.
13) Things that annoy you.
Iām gonna talk about the game bc if this is about the fandom, then thatās a whole other thing.
Andersā writing for one. It doesnāt make sense that heād approve of giving Fenris back to Danarius. And also that he wouldnāt tell f!Hawke that heās bi? Then thereās the fact that Anders, Fenris, and Merrill all donāt get along when they have a lot in common.
Anything that was written by Lukas Krisdkjsdhkdk. Aveline, Sera, etc. he did a really bad job.
Also didnāt like that mages got less OP in the last two games.
Thereās also the tone-deafness? Dorian, a brown man, saying slavery is ok. And also thereās the dialogue between Solas and Vivienne where Solas supposedlyĀ āownsā Vivienne. I think he says something likeĀ āmay you learnā? Solas, a white person, saying this to Vivienne, a black woman, when thereās obvious colorism in Thedas? I think not.
Thereās probably other but I canāt think of them right now.
14) Orlais or Ferelden?
Orlais is too snooty and Ferelden doesnāt season their food. I pick Seheron and Laysh because thatās where the Asians are at.
15) Templars or mages?
Mages
16) If you have multiple characters, are they in different/parallel universes or in the same one?
Originally, my canonverse was Rhian, Kaia, and Luwalhati. Alden and Bolin were part of an AU. Then Alden finagled his way in there, then I decided to have Bolin in there too. So now i have twin Hawkes and Bolin is part of the Inquisition (if heās a companion or not, I havenāt thought about)
I have plenty of other OCs that Iām planning on, but theyāre currently sorted into a different universe.
17) What did you name your pets? (mabari, summoned animals, mounts, etc)
Pikamon for the Origins mabari. Itās a mix between the names of my two dogs, Pikachu and Cinnamon
Cinnachu for the DA2 mabari, also a mix of Pikachu and Cinnamon.
Luās mount is the royal sixteen (hart), which is given to you by Clan Lavellan if you manage to keep them alive iirc, and its name is Luntian, the tagalog word for green which is her favorite color. (In a teen!Lu AU, her mount is the bog unicorn bc sheās an edgelord)
18) Have you installed any mods?
It would be more surprising if I didnāt. How else would I manage to have my characters look like theāre poc?? And also get rid of whitewashing and have some continuity. I usually just do cosmetic mods if itās my first playthrough. Then I do likeĀ ācheatsā after I finish the game fully.
Fun fact, I once spent like 2+ hrs modding Origins to have the Zev romance the way I want. I also stayed up until like 5am trying to make Solas look like his concept art lol (it didnāt really work)
19) Did your Warden want to become a Grey Warden?
Rhian didnāt not want to become a warden. She read about them and thought they were an honorable order, but she didnāt expect to ever have a chance to become one. Her goal was to just go up in the Circle hierarchy, maybe even become First Enchanter. Then when the time came, she didnāt really have much of a choice.
20) Hawkeās personality?
Kaia is blue and Alden is purple
21) Did you make matching armor for your companions in Inquisition?
At first, I didnāt get what the big deal was with crafting. It didnāt seem fun at all lol. Then I tried it and was hooked. I donāt have them matching, but I do tend to try to match my Inquisitor with their LI in some way.
My usual procedure for armor in Inquisition is like this. I make everyone wear heavy armor and pick the materials that have the highest attributes, not caring how ridiculous the colors are. Then I go to tint them using a guide for each companionās color scheme. This is the same for helmet but I usually have them turned off or have no one wearing one.
The only exception is Varric, Cole, and Blackwall. I have Varric wear the rogue armor that looks like his DA2 outfit, and Cole and Blackwall wear the Grey Warden heavy armor. I tint the grey warden armor using a guide for its color scheme.
I have Bull, Vivienne, and Cole wear their unique helmets.
22) If your character(s) could go back in time to change one thing, what would they change?
Rhian - Sheād probably want to re-do how she told Zevran that she wasnāt exactly dead.
Kaia - Taken Quentinās threat more seriously and killed him before he got to Leandra
Alden - He has no regrets
Luwalhati - wouldnāt have taken Sam and Wis with her so they wouldnāt have had to have died in the conclave explosion
Bolin - None, all of his decisions led him to Dorian and heās happy with that.
23) Do you have any headcanons about your character(s) that go against canon?
Theyāre all at least part Seheron?
I also hc that neither Carver nor Bethany die because Kaia was able to cast a barrier on both of them before the ogre got them. Then they both became Grey Wardens because Carver contracted the taint in the expedition and wouldnāt join the Wardens unless Bethany came with him too.
Another hc I have is that Sebastian didnāt leave when Anders was spared and stayed to help out. But he went his separate way after because he still didnāt approve of sparing him.
Oh shoot, I almost forgot. The most against canon thing Iāve done probably? Rhian didnāt do the Ritual but she did slay the archdemon without dying. Rhianās an arcane warrior, so when she slayed it, she was partway in the fade. Being partway into the fade was enough for her essence, I guess, to survive it. But sheās not mortal anymore and kind of a spirit now? So she periodically has to chill in the fade because being in the real world takes a toll on her.
25) Who did you leave in the Fade?
In the game, it was Stroud. I killed Loghain and no way is Alistair gonna be trapped in there. Fiona will be sad. So I made Alistair king in the game only, so Stroud was the one that was left.
This is another off canon thing I did. In my actual canon, Alistair is the warden contact. The Hawke that comes to the Inquisition is both Kaia and Alden. Alden brings Fenris with him because he doesnāt go anywhere without his Boo-Boo. Bethany and Carver also come because Weisshaupt was being weird and it seemed like they would be safer in the Inquisition. Lu + her party, Alistair, Kaia, Alden, Fenris, Bethany, and Carver all come to Adamant. Because thereās so many people, everyone was able to escape the Fade. No one is left behind.
26) Favourite mount? The nugs! All of them :)Ā
Though I donāt really use the mounts lol
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Leaving Home (Lavellan, Varric)
The rain blustered at the opening of the cave, forcing their small cookfire to sputter and flare. Ā Namira sighed, casting another thin barrier over the caveās entrance. Ā It was enough to block most of the rain while still allowing a wisp of smoke to escape, but it made the caveās air humid and still.
It didnāt help that they still were scarcely out of the rain. Ā The cave was such a shallow area carved from the mountainside, and with the four of them packed into its small space, the moisture from the endless and inescapable damp built up fiercely. Ā She sat against the stone wall, somehow both chilled and sweaty.
Namira stirred their dinner, humming tunelessly to herself. Ā Strange how the weather of the Storm Coast could behave so differently from the northern Free Marches she and her clan had traversed the past few years. Ā The Waking Sea had never seemed such a great divide on the map, but she keenly felt the distance now. Ā
The Storm Coast was beautiful, yes, but it was a wilderness that would be best traversed with friends and family, and these men she journeyed with were nearly strangers still. Ā She gazed out at the rain amidst lush green spires and salt-carved stone, as lonely as she had ever been, and the beauty of the trees and surging sea left her hollow.
Strange the way circumstance could change a thing. Ā Sheād have jumped at the chance to explore new locales just a few years ago; of course, she had never expected she would be the only Lavellan for leagues. Ā She had never thought she would miss the arid heat and the ever-present scent of sage and juniper. Ā But now, as a lone Dalish in the wet and cedar-scented air, sheād take a sunburn in a heartbeat. Ā
At least the food smelled comforting. Ā She and Varric had brought down a ram while Blackwall and the Iron Bull scouted ahead for camp. Ā Namira was not an especially skilled hunter or butcher, but part of her First training required familiarity with all roles in the clan. Ā Her butchery would have earned a tucked frown of mild disapproval from the venerable huntress Marellin. Ā Still, it was more than adequate for their purposes.
The ramās meat was gamey and pungent, but it mellowed with the addition of wild onion and garlic. Ā Marjoram and spindleweed rounded the flavors further. Ā Rough-chopped black lotus roots, starchy and thick, added body. Ā
She stirred experimentally at the stew. Ā Despite the herbs, so different from those found near Sundermount, the stew still somehow smelled of home. Ā It would be ready soon, a welcome addition to the dried hardtack safe in their packs.
Gentle snores drew her attention. Ā Blackwall and Bull had drawn second watch, and were trying to get some sleep at the very back of the little cave. Ā Surprisingly, they were succeeding despite the less than ideal conditions. Ā She found herself impressed by their versatility, and turned to Varric.
No hint of drowsiness played around Varricās eyes. Ā He slept as little as she did, most nights. Ā Perhaps it was a dwarven thing. Ā He sat a few feet away, his fountain pen scratching at the vellum he was never without. Ā Luckily heād been prepared and brought it wrapped in wax for this expedition. Ā She peeked at his writing, noting neat, flowing script in shining black ink.
āWhat are you writing, Varric?ā she asked, stretching and setting the tin ladle back down on a dry stone. Ā āIf youāre keeping a diary, Iām afraid todayās adventures were rather lacking. Ā āStumped around in the mud. Ā Passed the same pine tree three times. Ā Fought another damn bear.āā
Varric raised his head, hazel eyes crinkling in a smile. Ā āShit, you nailed it, Doodles. Ā The Inquisition experience! Ā Maybe after you seal the Breach they should keep you on as a master scribe.ā
āDo you really think I can seal it, after all?ā Namira asked, faltering. Ā Her left hand clenched reflexively around the ever-present buzzing in her palm, a constant reminder of the strange magic that had marked her. Ā āAssuming the mages will help usā¦ā
āTrust me, no one wants a giant hole in the sky. Ā If we can get an audience with them, theyāll join up, no questions asked,ā said Varric. Ā He capped his pen carefully, slipping it back into a pocket of his heavy leather jacket. Ā āAnd if they donāt? Ā Sister Nightingaleās not the only one with contacts. Ā Iāve got some favors I can call if we need.ā Ā His brows rose suggestively. Ā āThe Seeker might not be so thrilled with some of them, but trust me, weāve got options.ā
āIs that who you write to?ā asked Namira. She folded her arms, resting them on her knees. Ā āIām sorry. Ā Iām prying, arenāt I?ā
āWell, I can tell youāve never trained under a bard,ā Varric chuckled. Ā āYouāre not one for subtlety, are you?ā
āThat obvious?ā
āOh yeah.ā
āSorry. Ā Itās just --ā Ā Namira bit her lip, gazing out at the gathering dark. Ā She could still easily make out the towering shapes of the pines beyond the caveās entrance, but she knew by now that the others saw only blackness. Ā āCassandra, Bull, Blackwall, Seraā¦ youāre the only other one here whoās left home behind. Ā So I wondered if you write to them. Ā Hawke and the others.ā
Varric was quiet for a moment. Ā āKirkwall hasnāt been the same since Blondie -- since the Chantry incident. Ā Not as many people there as there used to be. Ā I write to some of them, sure. Ā But some of them arenāt so easy to find.ā Ā
āYou mean Hawke.ā
āMore than just Hawke,ā Varric protested. Ā āMost of them left Kirkwall when she did. Ā Merrill and Aveline are the only ones who stayed.ā
āHawke is special though, isnāt she?ā said Namira. Ā āI notice itās Tale of the Champion, not Tale of the Champion and Friends.ā
Varric looked at her appraisingly. Ā He opened his mouth as if to say something, then shook his head, his cheeks slightly pink. Ā Maybe it was the smoke from their fire. Ā Namira eased up on the barrier at the caveās mouth, opening it up a little to allow more smoke to dissipate.
Varric shrugged, his cheeks returning to their normal color. Ā āYou couldnāt call it that. Ā Terrible title. Ā My publisher would laugh me right out of my contract.ā Ā Ā He waved one gloved hand. Ā āBut youāre right. Ā Hawkeās special.ā Ā A short huff of breath: she nearly mistook it for a sigh. Ā āNever knew anyone like her.ā
āDo you know where she is? Ā Truly, I wouldnāt tell Cassandra. Ā It sounds like Hawkeās had enough to be going on with,ā said Namira earnestly.
āFor once, I donāt have to lie. Ā I donāt know where she is. Ā I know a few places sheās been, but right now? Ā Nah. Ā She moves around.ā
āAre they still hunting her? Ā Itās so clear in your book that what happened in Kirkwall wasnāt her fault,ā said Namira. Ā āAssuming the tale is accurate, of course.ā Ā She tried to keep her tone light, but couldnāt help the nagging, guilty feeling that she was prodding a sore spot. Ā
āI wrote a lot of the real shit in my book. Ā But I left out plenty. Ā Things that were just too much to write down.ā Ā He looked uncomfortable.
āI know what you mean. Ā Writing can be dangerous, canāt it? Ā I donāt write much for others myself,ā said Namira hastily, trying to steer the conversation back to safer ground. Ā Sheād gone too far, hadnāt she? Ā āOr, I do, but itās record-keeping; marriages, illnesses, births, deaths, the daily history of the clan. Ā Things that are important to remember for the future.ā Ā
She picked up the ladle, stirred again. Ā The stew bubbled. Ā āI donāt put down feelings.ā Ā That wasnāt strictly true; her personal journal with its drawings and musings lay in her pack, wax-wrapped and magic-sealed. Ā She hurried to amend the statement, unwilling to speak even the smallest half-truths. Ā āAt least, not where anyone else can read it.ā Ā
Varricās mouth turned up at one edge like the start of a smile. Ā It didnāt quite finish the motion. Ā āMaybe thatās best. Ā Less incriminating, anyway.ā
Namira set the ladle down and rummaged in her pack for the waxcloth bundle containing the hardtack. Ā The stew was nearly ready. Ā āMaybe.ā Ā
She paused, looking down at the bundle of shem food. Ā Everything about it was foreign: a beeswax wrapper instead of candelilla, the shape of the hardtack, the smell of it. Ā āSometimes writing helps, I think. Ā Other times it makes things worse, reminding myself of what I lack. Ā I miss my home. Ā My people. Ā Why did I ever leave them?ā
Varric folded up his stack of vellum papers. Ā āWell, if itās any consolation, sometimes home leaves you first.ā Ā This time, the motion his mouth made was nothing like a smile.
Namira let out a long breath. Ā āI didnāt mean to darken the mood,ā she said softly. Ā āAre you all right?ā
āHerald, demons are falling out of the sky, mages and templars are killing each other all over the place, and weāre here in the ass end of nowhere chasing who knows what. Ā I have to say the moodās pretty dark already. Ā No need for you to add worrying about the dwarf to your list of shit to deal with,ā said Varric.
āIf you insist,ā said Namira. Ā āBut youāre certain? Ā Because I would worry about you, if it would help.ā
āIām flattered, but fine. Honest.ā Ā He gestured to the stew. Ā āThat done? Ā It smells a hundred times better than Hawkeās cooking, and a thousand times better than mine.ā
āYes, itās ready. Ā But oh, Varric,ā said Namira sadly. Ā āThis isnāt even particularly good food by Dalish standards. Ā Itās just make-do food. Ā What did you eat in Kirkwall?ā
āSometimes itās best not to know,ā he said with a wink. Ā He clambered to his feet and to the back of the cave, not even needing to bow his head beneath the low ceiling. Ā He started nudging the others awake. Ā She watched him joke with them, jovial as ever.
She knew sheād hit him somewhere delicate with her clumsy attempts at conversation. Ā Sheād been so eager to talk about what was bothering her she hadnāt stopped to consider if heĀ wanted to talk about it. Ā She ladled soup into thin tin bowls, staring pensively at the way it steamed, wishing she had been wiser. Ā She supposed that was the difference between the Keeper, and the First.
Outside the rain blustered, and the winds squalled, and the waves crashed. Ā Inside the little cave, their little group shared bowls of rich woodland stew, making their plans for tomorrow and looking to the future.
Varric caught her eye during a lull. Ā She looked steadily at him. Ā Really? Youāre all right? she asked silently.
He grinned, dragging his bread through the stew before popping it into his mouth. Ā āFor make-do food, this is delicious, Doodles. Ā Good stuff.ā
She smiled back, warm in a way that had nothing to do with the nearby cookfire or the hearty food. Ā She took a bite of her stew. Ā It was good, better than she had thought it would be.
āThanks, Varric.ā
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