#autistic ramblings

[abandoned-by-caine]

Abandonware and Nostalgia

I was recently watching a YouTube video where this guy was exploring a Garry’s Mod map when he mentioned an old CD-ROM game he played as a kid (the specific story is from 14:00-15:16). It’s called Crayola 3D Castle Creator. Something that really caught my attention was when he mentioned a jester character and old 3D graphics. I did a quick Google search and managed to find it quite easily.

Now, tell me… does the jester on the cover look somewhat familiar to y'all or is it just me?

Granted, the actual character in the game doesn’t look anything like they do on the cover…

Eugh. Like, seriously, what is that thing? …but anyway, there’s still an uncanny resemblance in the cover art that I can’t unsee. I wonder if there's any subtle inspiration for Pomni’s design stemming from this game? Probably not but it’s a neat little similarity either way :)

Also, even though you can’t really play the game anymore unless you have a computer that runs Windows 98, I was able to find a version of the game that you can download (though it may not be entirely playable as I haven't tested it myself) on MyAbandonware! It’s essentially a super cool website that has a massive collection of abandoned/dead games you can still download, although some need an emulator or specific PC specs, as with any game.

It kinda dragged me down a rabbit hole of learning what actually counts as abandonware. This particular website is just one of many internet archives for software archaeologists to preserve games that might otherwise be lost to time, some of which are the only pieces of media to use their specific game engines. It’s really neat stuff, and super useful for historical preservation purposes!

Anyway, I’ll post more about all that stuff later, but just know that all this research has certainly given me some... ideas for the fic… ;)c

[fossilized-honey]

Watching it chapter 2 with my friends who are normal and it taking so much strength to not quote along I need to scream into the tumblr void

[neo-colorrose-is-here]

Part of having my relatively obscure in the wider fandom space special interest means going to conventions and praying they have at least one thing at least somewhat related to it. I got so lucky the other day when my friend impromptu invited me to a local convention she got me into for free. The artist alley/dealers den had four!!!! Whole!!!!! pieces!!!! of ranma merch. (Which is so so soooo much more than my usual finds, which are usually 0)

I got two prints, a pin and the most important find, a pristine copy of a 1991 issue of the ranma comic book (specifically part 2 #11, which is the two chapters which I assume will comprise the finale of season 1 of the remake). It was not expensive, and looking on other sites it goes for way less than I bought it for. But that does not matter. It’s mine now. And I’m never giving it up. It’s making me wanna collect more of them like… who am I?

Also the guy selling it for some reason thought it important to ask me what was weird about the cover. His answer was that ranma’s female hair was colored black on the cover. But I think I went autismo beam on him becauee I infodumped about how before the anime came out ranma’s hair was black regardless of gender but the anime made the red hair iconic because it was used to differentiate them. Then in later colorings Rumiko leaned into it. But rumikos coloring has never really been consistent or congruent with the anime. I mean Shampoo’s hair was colored pink on many occasions. Of course the anime, having a low budget and being on physical cel sheets, had to adhere to a consistent color scheme and the red and black look for him was adopted and continues to be iconic. In the original manga his clothes were initially blue or green!

[connoisseur-of-love]

ranting about the 2021 smurfs cartoon

I miss brainy and clumsy’s friendship as it was in the 80s cartoon (and maybe some comics? I don’t vividly remember much from them since we didn’t have any brainy-centric issues) like it was just so cute and interesting and it’s such a same that they took it out of it :(

also, while I’m currently midway between season 2, I would love to see the new girl smurfs village, especially since they canonically moved to a different spot

Some voices aren’t it. No offence to the actors, but I really miss some of the Smurfs having accents in the 80s cartoon that isn’t in the new one (especially painter-real disappointment)

And finally, one postive

I am absolutely in love with brainys and blossom relationship. They are SO CUTE! Love em

[rottenfox]

This is false.

Never has the song even hinted that he's fucking. The whole song is about how he is a traveler and all the people he knows and the things he sees.

That line is literally saying that always introduces himself. Cause why the fuck would you tell any random pretty person you like who you're fucking???

Is there rly any softer scene than when o'malley sees duchess and falls in love with her at first sight in the aristocats, complimenting her at every turn and climbing into a cherry blossom tree to make the flower petals snow gracefully down on her? How dreamy 🥀💕

[introvert-slushie]

Currently thinking about how much Ford tries to hide his hands a lot when he can…behind his back with this stance. Due to how often he’s been bullied for it.

And also, how Mabel is one of the ones who Ford feels happy about showing his hands to because she thought they were cool looking upon first shaking his hand, instead of him being judged for his six fingers.

[ID: Gravity Falls screenshots. The first three are of Ford with his hands crossed behind his back. The last two are of him shaking hands with Mabel, and letting her paint a turkey on his hand. He's smiling in both. End ID.]

[wasabi-gumdrop]

local ladies man’s signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabru’s fumble era at 6

[bumblebeesystem]

I wish more people would eat like this. Like please don't sit across from me and stare into my eyeballs while I eat. It's uncomfortable. Sit next to me and look straight ahead like driving and it's so much less awkward.

car conversations so good bc of removal of eye contact expectation. let us all learn from this

[the-messy-artist]

Has this been done yet

[modeus-the-misanthrope]

*Crushes your skull while breasting boobily*

[friendlycursedspaceotter]

Pro tip for my disabled and chronically ill friends in college: if you have to put a work order in and it is related any bit at all to your disability, write, very clearly in the "describe what needs to get done" section, "This issue is a health hazard," followed by a description of how the issue relates to your disability/chronic illness.

They are required to put it as a high-priority issue and fix it ASAP. Required BY LAW. Yes, I said it. They are legally required to fix these things, both under OSHA regulations and the ADA.

Play the disability card. I'm begging you. DISABLED IS NOT A BAD WORD. But don't abuse it. This is a fine line here.

Example: I'm heat and noise sensitive. My HVAC unit started breaking down and rattling loudly. That would be an example of a health hazard. A broken light could be a health hazard to someone with vision issues. I can only speak for myself here. But y'all have the right to speak up and advocate to yourself.

Neurodivergent people, this applies to you too. You're one of us (one of us! one of us! one of us!). Don't let the exclusionists gatekeep this information from you.

[lightning-system]

As a medium/lower support needs autistic who works with young higher support needs autistic:

We all matter. We all have the same diagnosis. We all deserve to be treated with dignity and respect.

But we are not the same.

I can mask and might be seen as 'odd' or 'weird' in public. The students I work with are seen as 'dangerous' and 'practically little kids'.

I can go to university and work with accommodations. The students I work with likely will never live independently and a few might find jobs that support them but still pay them less than an abled worker.

I have full control of my finances. The students I work with aren't allowed to make independent financial decisions, even if capable.

If I say 'no,' I'm making a choice. The students I work with can't say 'no' without being labeled as defiant and difficult.

I can feed myself, bathe myself, and take care of myself with extreme challenges. The students I work with are unable to take care of themselves without high levels of support/one on one support.

I had an IEP in high school but was mainstreamed in classes. The students I work with take separate classes and some rarely get to interact with their abled peers.

Our experiences are fundamentally different. Higher support needs autistics will experience a specific type of ableism I never will, and can never fully understand.

Lower support needs autistics need to stop saying we understand what higher support needs autistics are going through and then present autism as only being disabling because of society/lack of acceptance because that is dangerous. We need to stop saying every autistic person is capable of everything if given the right support because that leaves out huge parts of our community who will never be able to do certain things, regardless of support.

We are worthy of existence regardless of our abilities.

Autism is a spectrum. It is not the same for every autistic person. Autism acceptance and advocacy has to come with accepting, acknowledging, and listening to our higher support needs peers.

[festivating]

glinda running away screaming and crying and then standing against the wall and closing her eyes and waiting for death... elphaba saw firsthand how much of a TERRIBLE fugitive glinda would've been and was still like mmm yes please come with me we'll be the greatest team there's ever been. she loves glinda so dearly.

[sxnshxnxxnddxxsxxs]

people love to say oh bruce wayne he colour codes his children.

YOU ARE NOT THINKING BIG ENOUGH.

this man has fuck you money and loves to spend it.

he buys furniture to match the personal styles of his kids. the dining room in wayne manor does not have a single matching chair.

the drawing room has everything from a chaise lounge to a bean bag.

and they are colour coded because bruce does in fact colour code his children

[antlerkitty]

Last thing I want to do is make people think LSN/level 1 autistics aren't disabled. Just to clarify that. LSN autism and level 1 autism is a disability! You deserve love and support no matter your level or support needs!

[kittydragondraws]

Having autism and ocd be like:

"I'm ableist by glancing at a person in a wheelchair for five seconds but I'm also ableist by going out of my way to avoid looking at them"