#autistic burnout is no joke kids

[explodingstarlight]

fruit ninja

[babybambi-x]

when people joke about autism but they don't have to spend every evening debating if they were too much or too little that day

when people joke about autism but they ve never been so burnt out their education got set back an entire year

when people joke about autism but they cạn go to clubs and bars and concerts without having a panic attack and leaving before you make real memories

when people joke about autism but they don't get being 19 at age 9 and being 9 at age 19

when people joke about autism but they've never cried so hard they can't breathe because they know life is stuck this way forever

when people joke about autism but they don't get how one person mis-interpreting your intentions makes you spin out about how everyone sees you

when people joke about autism but suddenly its not funny when my parents restrained me as a kid during meltdowns so i wouldn't hurt myself and them

when people joke about autism but they've never felt all your new friends slip away as you finally start to be yourself around them

when people joke about autism but they didn't grow up getting called a 'neek' and a 'teachers pet' just because i never got the memo that trying to study would jeporadize any chance at being taken seriously by my peers

when people joke about autism but they've never had to deal with raging friends after you cancel plans because they don't understand that being around you while you're so burnt out would change how they see you forever

when people joke about autism but they don't get how much of an alien i feel amongst people my age. i'm either alone and myself or working tirelessly to convince people i'm one of them

when people joke about autism but they don't get how empty you feel when a hyperfixation leaves you and you realise you really are just whatever thing you're obsessed with

when people joke about autism but they aren't so hyper-aware of every feeling in their body that sometimes they think too much about breathing and find themselves blue in the lips

when people joke about autism but they don't understand how it feels to spiral out of control thinking everyone hates you because your rejection-sensitivity took one face they made or one word they said and ran

when people joke about autism but they don't get the crisis i had as a kid after coming out of a meltdown, hating myself and not understanding what happened because i swear i'm a good kid

when people joke about autism but they've never been glued to their bed because they can't do what they need to in the order their brain will allow them

when people joke about autism but they can sleep easy because they aren't hearing their hearbeat or the rustle against the sheets as you breathe

when people joke about autism but they never feel like their life is already wasted with a mind like this, knowing theres so much you just can't do, feeling like you're missing your one shot at a human existence

when people joke about autism but they don't get how i can't wear anything with a high neck because it feels like my throat will close up and i might die

when people joke about autism but they don't get that i could spend all night writing these and still not scratch the surface

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never starved themselves for hours on end because the thought of putting food in their mouth makes them feel sick

When someone jokes about being autistic but they've never had to stop doing things they love because they mentally can't cope with how overwhelming it is

when someone jokes about being autistic but they ve never experienced what it's like for everyone to perceive you as some genius or a 3 year old

when someone jokes about being autistic but they're not 7 times more likely to die by suicide.

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be in burnout and loose basic skills like forming a full sentence

whien someone jokes about being autistic but they don't have to accept the fact that they'll be a social outcast for the rest of their lives

when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be so happy yet so suicidal because no matter how good life is it's always going to be overwhelming for them and the only escape is death

[euphraisette]

Valjean is autistic but he thinks he’s broken

Fauchelevent is autistic and he hasn’t the slightest clue

Fantine’s only exposure to autism was when her friends would call her slurs

Cosette doesn’t know what autism is but she knows she has something to hide

Marius doesn’t think he’s autistic because he’s never been vaccinated

Javert doesn’t know what autism is and would arrest you for trying to explain that he has it

Èponine just thinks she’s ugly and evil and people secretly hate her by default

Grantaire jokes that he’s autistic and has no idea he’s right

Prouvaire researches his own autism obsessively and will infodump about it to anyone who will listen

Combeferre was diagnosed when he was two

Bahorel is basically just riding out gifted kid burnout with his parents’ money

Joly is afraid to get diagnosed because what if it’s actually ADHD or bipolar or NPD or schizophrenia or a tumor or something like how many tests does he have to pay for

Bossuet got misdiagnosed as neurotypical when he got evaluated because he answered some of the questions wrong

holy shit this is actually actually perfect wtf

the girls are so sad and true esp cosette and eponine

and also marius... im fucking cackling

[analyzing-people-like-hell]

saw your recent post in the sanders sides tag - here goes:

Some of these are more fun-to-watch than relates-to-me, but I figure listing ‘em all will give you more to work with.

Listed in alphabetical order, except as needed to group sources together.

Alastor, Hazbin Hotel (show)

- He’s charming, confident, very good in his chosen field, and also happens to be AroAce. He appreciates jokes, but can also be intimidating.

Cayde-6, Destiny (game)

- Quick wit, quick shot. Always fun to hear his dialogue during missions and strikes. The kinda guy you’d go to for a good story (or if you’re lookin’ for extra paperwork to do).

Crow, Destiny (game)

- Good guy, interesting situation (read: tragic backstory). Not exactly doomed-by-the-narrative, but…

The Doctor (10th), Doctor Who (show)

- Honestly, not sure why. He’s just fun to watch. (Also, he has a very distinct/memorable way of phrasing things)

Data, Star Trek: The Next Generation (show)

- Yes, I’m Autistic; How’d you guess? (/j) Honestly though, having a discussion with him about humanity/social behaviors/other things would be SO interesting!

Odo, Star Trek: Deep Space 9 (show)

- If Odo and I were in the same room, I don’t think there’d be much talking. But, in a two-introverts-who-got-dragged-to-the-same-party-and-are-avoiding-the-humans-together kind of way. Companionable silence.

Spock, Star Trek: The Original Series (show)

- He’s just cool. (also a HUGE childhood influence towards logical thinking)

Malcolm Reynolds, Firefly (show)

- Protective of his crew, “Has a conscience, and hates it,” no-nonsense, practical thinker, quick wit, stubborn.

Simon Tam, Firefly (show)

- Very good at what he does (doctor), smart, stands by what he believes in (“when you’re on my table, you’re safe”), and who he cares about (his sister).

River Tam, Firefly (show)

- …River is a mood. Specifically, a “leave me alone, I can’t talk now, my brain is full of bees” mood.

Seth, Lost Terminal (podcast)

- He’s an AI who used to live in a satellite, and made his way down to a post-collapse Earth so he could talk to people. He often mentions the intricacies and confusing nuances of human communication, his distrust of plants and salt, and the fact that humans are quite fond of bread and beer.

Susan Ivanova, Babylon 5 (show)

- “No boom today. Boom tomorrow. There’s always a boom tomorrow.”

Michael Garibaldi, Babylon 5 (show)

- If any of the main cast could’ve broken the fourth wall, it would have been him. I don’t know what that says about his character, but it feels right.

Virgil Sanders, Sanders Sides (YouTube series)

- He’s the personification of (Thomas’) Anxiety, but he can be quite brave when he needs to be. When he’s under pressure/more anxious/needs to be listened to, he’ll act more abrasive, but he has a softer side (heh side) he shows when safe. He’s also the secondary brain cell holder of the main cast.

Logan Sanders, Sanders Sides (YouTube series)

- The brain cell (/pos). Also seems to be going through… gifted-kid-burnout-angst-stuff, for lack of a better term. Also nicknamed the Mom of the group, though someone pointed out that he didn’t choose that title for himself, which I thought was interesting.

Janus Sanders, Sanders Sides (YouTube series)

- I think you already saw him in another ask, so I’ll be brief: “You’re not stuck with an ‘evil snake boy.’ *pose* You’re just stuck with a snake boy.”

…After typing this all out, I’ve noticed that most of these fall into one of three categories:

~Autism~ TM (/pos)

Competent, might be an asshole

Protecc/Attacc

I don’t know what that means, but it’s kinda funny.

Have fun!

ANALYSIS #4: 06/11/24

It's about time I start getting around to all these new test subjects. I apologize for the wait, but I'm more than ready to see what you have in store for me here, #4.

I'm not familiar with the majority of these characters, so this could very much be a hit or miss analysis.... Your descriptions definitely aided me a lot, so thank you for that. I guess we'll just have to wait and see if this ends up being accurate at all...

Why don't we see if I got your backstory right first? It's where everything originates, after all.

"LORE":

You seem to be an observer in this game of life. I feel like you've spent a large part of your existence on the outskirts of everything, and the times you have joined the outside world were never completely of your own volition.... You don't feel like you particularly fit in as a "human", yet at the same time everything you feel is all too human. I can imagine it gets pretty overwhelming, and you've probably gotten a lot of heat for it in your younger years. Maybe you didn't have many friends growing up, and the ones you did have probably didn't live up to your expectations of what "friendship" was supposed to be. Maybe you've had friends that took advantage of you and it didn't even click until the damage was already done, or you stuck it out because.. that's what friendship's supposed to be about, right? Maybe you were just left out in general, always the second option unless they needed something out of you. Who knows. There could be a lot variations of what happened in your childhood regarding relationships, but I'm guessing they didn't always make much sense to you. It's probably why you stay on the outskirts so much. If the world won't let you experience humanity for yourself, you can at least watch humanity from afar.

I have a feeling your home life wasn't all that great? It wasn't particularly terrible-- you're grateful for what you were given-- but you wish there were things that were done differently. I think this also plays into the whole "disconnect from people" bit. Maybe they cared for you, but it was clear they didn't understand you, and it can be a little hard to be grateful when somebody's care is always... a little off? If that's the case, I bet it probably feels worse knowing that you can't really blame them for not understanding. Things are probably better now as you've grown, but there are things that still sting just a bit. Also for some reason I think you were homeschooled.... No reason why, it just came to mind, and I've learned trusting my gut makes my analyses more accurate. I'd like to see if that ends up being true.

Another thing that my gut keeps telling me is that the tism is strong in this one. You've already confirmed that, but I specifically feel like (i'm assuming you're diagnosed based on how you phrased "yes, i'm autistic") you were either diagnosed at a pretty early age or you were late diagnosed (probably because of icky-ew gendered stereotypes in medical fields) and it explained a whole hell of a lot of your childhood, to the point where you're surprised you weren't diagnosed way earlier in life. Heavily leaning to the latter, by the way, but the first still has a 5 to 15% chance of standing. Either way, it depicts why you'd feel such a heavy disconnect from the people around you. It's as if everyone was given a script to life, meanwhile you're forced to improv it the whole way through. Do you see life as a game? How much time have you dedicated to perfecting your skills, believing that perfecting them would be the key to winning these petty social games? Are you sure you're not still lost? Just some food for thought.

Anyways, with that all in mind, let's see what really goes on inside that head of yours...

THE TRUTH:

You still resent the world in a way, don't you? I can't shake the thought that there's still a resentment buried inside you that's been bubbling for a while. Maybe it's lessened a bit, but you can still feel it resurface every now and then. It's as if sometimes a reminder will come your way and it's another crack added to that bottle you've been storing all your emotions in. Like another poke at the confines will unleash everything you've been working on trying to maintain. I don't think it's spilled over yet, but I think we both know it's certainly not far from tipping over. You surprise even yourself with how much you've managed so far.

Part of you has lost your vulnerability. I'm not sure when or how, but I think it goes back to that disconnect from people. I don't think you've met anybody who's completely understood you yet, which has probably led to constant misunderstanding from everyone else. That kind of persistent detachment is bound to make anyone lose parts of themselves. If that's what happened, I'm sorry they took that part away from you. You deserved to be yourself without being shot down over and over, you still deserve that. It really is a shame that the world is too blind to see the beautiful depth in your soul. Complexity is never a flaw. Complexity is rarely even "complex". The world just needs to learn how to appreciate you at your core, and I truly hope they're able to see that in you soon. 

In fact, why don't I detail some of the complex beauty that I can pinpoint? If the world can't see it, then it only makes sense if I spell it out for them.

YOUR BEST TRAITS:

You're very attentive. You also seem to have some pretty good wit. That not only makes you a really great analyst, but I think it'd make you a pretty great comforter too. You're able to analyze and recognize patterns in people, and you seem to still hold a great appreciation for people despite how isolated people have made you feel. Despite always feeling like an outcast, there's still a part of you that cares. Those are qualities that truly great comforters have. However, with how confusing relationships with other people can be sometimes, I can also see why that would hinder your ability for it and turn you away. Nevertheless, the foundation is still strong. You're still strong. Use that to your advantage. Take back the life that you deserved. Show them that you are not the painting they've made of you.

I just feel like you're really funny for some reason, and probably pretty chill while still being able to stand your own ground and opinions. That's a highly respectable mix of traits to have, at least in my eyes. You also for some reason remind me of that main guy from Magnus Archives. I've never listened to Magnus Archives though. All of the information I know about that podcast has come from random clips I've stumbled upon and rants from my friends who are into it. But from the information I have on him, I view him as a weird little autistic guy who's always a little tired, a little witty, maybe a little too obsessed with analyzing sometimes, also probably on the aroace spectrum. However, he's also a hard worker who-- when he cares about people-- he really cares about them, and if he likes you then you could probably drag him just about anywhere (even if he grumbles the whole way through). Now I have zero clue if any of that is true to his character, but I feel like it could maybe fit yours, and I at least think people like that are a pretty special find. 

Also, you're just a wee little guy. A little snake boi even.

And with that, I think I'll leave my thoughts here and take my bow.

With utmost gratitude (and hopefully utmost accuracy),

Dr. WZ

[irusanw4]

Uhhh pinned time ig? I see it a lot so why not

Yo! Call me IrusanW4, mutuals can call me Iru but please don't if we're not mutuals. I use strictly they/them, and I'm asexual and aromantic. I'm autistic and I love things A Lot when I love them, so... fair warning? Read more has details on me n stuff. Don't wanna clog dashboards or anything :3

I don't have a specific DNI but like. Don't hurt people. Don't have a joke for that just don't hurt people. But! DO interact if you are strange, peculiar, freakish, cringe, or otherwise throw social norms to the wind!

I'm always open to civil good-faith discussions about what I've done wrong!

Things I care about too much for my own good: Death Note, My Hero Academia, Chonny Jash, Dungeon Meshi, Pokemon, Digimon, Slay the Princess, the Stanley Parable, Warriors, Wings of Fire, Risk of Rain, Slay the Spire, Portal, psychology, animals, linguistics, space, my place in the universe, death as something to be studied, and much much more.

While I won't do much acknowledging sex (as in the act) myself due to personal discomfort surrounding the topic, I do support the right of people to have sex and have fun so long as all members consent to it!

Also, I do art and writing! I'm IrusanW4 on ao3 too, so feel free to be nosy! I don't share much art outside of Discord, sadly, but yknow! I'm always open to questions about my writing and art, be it original or fan content!

Social justice:

Abortion needs to be accessible to everyone with a uterus. The death sentence shouldn't exist in any way shape or form. A criminal justice system focused on punishment rather than reform should not exist. Capitalism is by existence a system of oppression and must be replaced. The American education system is thoroughly fucked. The genocide of anyone is inexcusable, no matter their origin, and those who fund the slaughter and/or exploitation of Palestinian, Congolese, or any other people are further beyond immoral than I have words for. All cops are bastards.

Miscellaneous:

Vehement supporter of found family. Indie game lover. Indie music lover. Example of gifted kid to burnout who's somehow still gifted just deeply exhausted pipeline. Cat owner. Lover of music. Noodle enjoyer. Asker of questions. Furry. Therian. Mediocre Pokemon player. Registered member of the Satanic Temple. Believer in improvement as a person as a necessary part of life. Friend hoarder. More always to come.

I'm a bad tagger but here's notable tags:

#blorbo street, where I put all my favorite characters together to interact.

#ouroboros universe, a collection of my writing that's all technically within one continuity. I might add more tags specifying which instance, but so far, it's all lumped together.

#scrunchy friend <3, most of my @therewillbenoromance interactions bc he's scrunchy to me.

#blue friend <3, most of my @nevermeanttoknow or @mapleejay (same person diff blogs) interactions bc. he's blue. yeah that's it

#the whole world au, a cccc x warrior cats crossover au

#summer solstice au, a cccc au where heart dies in apathy

Other blogs: @different-picture-daily and @gimmick-sniffer

[adrianicsea]

saw ask. so let's say hypothetically (not really) all the apprentices are autistic (they are) headcanon them

LET’S GOOOOOOO!!!! i do hc all the apprentices as autistic in their own ways (except adam, who in my mind/writing has standalone adhd) and i definitely write them that way in my fic, lawrence especially.

lawrence:

it runs in the family, but his parents were both very ignorant/in denial about it so lawrence thinks that there’s nothing unusual about any of his mannerisms. he has a sneaking awareness that He’s Not Like Everyone Else but i think he usually chalks that up to the decades he’s spent being closeted.

he loves and finds comfort in the ritual and routine of putting on formalwear, and i think he feels more comfortable in suits/formalwear than he does in casual clothes.

he has a hot and cold relationship with eye contact— he knows it’s important and that people expect it of him, but in prolonged conversations, or when he’s feeling threatened or vulnerable, lawrence can’t maintain eye contact the entire conversation and has to look away.

his, ah… halting speech cadence comes from his autism.

the medical world has been his special interest practically since birth. as smart and privileged and as “cultured” as his family is, lawrence actually doesn’t know a ton about other subjects (particularly related to literature/the arts) because he’s been spending all his time reading about medical stuff since he was a kid.

somewhat related to above, i think he suffers a lot from burnout because he doesn’t have any other hobbies or big interests aside from medicine and also because he’s constantly pushing himself to be an overachiever and ignoring his needs and shortcomings 😔

left to his own devices, lawrence’s eating schedule/sense of mealtimes is ABYSMAL. it got worse once he was actively practicing as a doctor, since his schedules could be so long and unpredictable. he really needs another person around to remind him when it’s time to take a break from whatever he’s doing and have something to eat.

his pattern recognition and observational skills are UNMATCHED, but he tends to only apply them to situations where he judges that there’s a problem to be solved. he probably couldn’t tell you the color of a house that he drives by every day, for example.

amanda:

she has naturally high empathy and a very strong internal sense of justice, right, and wrong. part of the reason she suffers and agonizes so much over her work as an apprentice is because the lessons that john’s drilled into her head are in direct conflict with amanda’s own values. (this is also complicated by the decades of mistreatment and abuse she’s faced at the hands of the justice system, which has further skewed her natural moral compass.)

she has a VERY hard time processing and moving through her emotions— any sort of high emotional state can put her into shutdown and/or meltdown territory very quickly.

amanda is very sensory-seeking and uses sensory stimulation to help with her emotional regulation. if there are no safe avenues for her to do this, she will turn to harmful sources of sensory stimulation.

hoffman:

hoffman has EASILY the highest sensory intolerance to loud noises of all the apprentices. part of the reason he constantly has such a bitch face and bad attitude is bc he’s been rawdogging the noise and bustle of working as a cop for 20+ years and trying to hide how much he hates the sirens and gunshots and such.

he doesn’t really like to talk, and he also struggled a lot with reading when he was younger (partially due to inherent factors and partially bc he didn’t grow up in an optimal learning environment).

he can understand some jokes/sarcasm/metaphors, but oftentimes it goes over his head and needs to be explained to him. he speaks very bluntly and directly bc MAKING those sort of speech abstractions is a little beyond him.

king of flat affect. his facial expressions and tone of voice are NOT indicative of his internal emotional state‼️

i think that, like lawrence, hoffman is aware that something about him sets him apart from his peers and makes them a little uncomfortable, but in his case he sees that as kind of a good thing since it keeps people from getting too close to him and possibly getting suspicious. what DOES kind of hurt hoffman’s feelings (though he’d never admit it to anyone) is that his fellow apprentices don’t really seem to like him much, either.

in terms of special interests, i think he’s always been fascinated by like construction equipment and big vehicles and stuff like that. if he were given a good pair of earplugs or noise-canceling headphones, he could literally sit and watch a construction site for hours on end.

[cheerfulnihilismqualitysuffering]

In a continuing saga of the era in which my meme page was born, I ended up unmored from my doctoral program by early 2017. I was so burnt out and so broken at that point that I was often mostly nonverbal. I found out I had autism shortly after my oldest son was diagnosed when he was 3 years old.

I remember the developmental psychologist asking me if I'd ever been assessed when she gave me his results. I remember trying consciously to make myself make eye contact with her because I'd read about that being a characteristic of autism. I'd taught myself it look at people's eyebrows when I was younger. It gave the illusion of eye contact without the sensory- overwhelming intimacy of being eyeball to eyeball.

I was diagnosed with "treatment resistant depression" years ago but it turns out it was likely just various levels of untreated burnout that first emerged in high school and that I never fully recovered from.

For 20 years I would fall apart, then spend months putting myself back together in a semblance of the previous iteration. Just like when a ceramic or glass piece shatters and you glue it back together, I never quite found all of the pieces. So each subsequent version was more fragile and smaller. I tried to make myself so small. I guess it was out of a need for safety. Like many autistic girls, I was vulnerable to sexual violence and encountered it an inordinate amount of times, bizarrely always at approximately 5-7 year intervals: 5 years old, 12 years old, 19 years old, 26 years old, 31 years old. I'm 43 now. I'm happy to report that the cycle stopped after grad school broke me. Maybe because I stopped trying to rebuild the old versions of me that were dictated by perceived social expectations?

I'd pinned the idea of who I was on getting that PhD eventually. I had the fantasy that finally people would listen to me and take me seriously if I earned that very expensive receipt. With that possibility eliminated, isolated from family after a decade in an abusive relationship, my only social outlet lay in parasocial relationships. None of my old friends from the graduate school would even speak to me. I was untouchable.

I would sometimes literally lay face down on the floor, feeling completely and utterly defeated by reality. The weight of existing was too overwhelming. I survived on welfare and food stamps. I numbly attended an orientation for looking for work. The social worker joked that I was more qualified than he was. I sat there with no expression on my face. No chuckle to make him comfortable. He shifted in his seat uneasily as tears silently trickled down my face. I apologized, stuttering through the humiliation of vulnerable tears in front of an uncomfortable stranger. He asked if I was the sole caregiver of my kids and filled out a form that exempted me from the mandatory job search training. He was either being kind or just wanted me out of his office. My wounded heart can't trust in the kindness of strangers, though.

I spent over a year just surviving. I didn't try to remake myself. I just let myself be a mess. When I was in high school my mom was getting her ARNP degree, she had to read Viktor Frankl's book, "Man's Search for Meaning". I picked the book up and read it because at the time, I read every book I could get my hands on. That book was life-changing. It permanently altered my perspective, but not like a tidal wave. More like it planted a seed. And that seed grew. And then when the moment was right, it bloomed. It just so happens that that moment that was right was when I had lost everything that I *thought* meant everything to me. That's why I chose the name cheerful nihilism. Because there's something revolutionary about choosing to perceive the absence of meaning as a joyous thing.

I was raised catholic, and I was actually quite a believer in deism for much of my life. I really struggled to try to fit what I learned about and witnessed in the world into some kind of reasonable framework that would make sense. Something that would make it okay that any kind of compassionate/all-loving God could allow really horrific and senseless and violent and painful things to happen to innocent people who did not deserve that degree of suffering in any way. And when I released the need to try to fit everything into a narrative that would make it make sense, I felt like I was free. Or at least it's close to free as I could possibly be, given the circumstances.

[rainey-staerie-daize]

This is a personal blog that I treat like a diary, except y'all can read it. I think plenty of the shit that happens around here is funny, and I like sharing. The other shit... I just need to get off my chest sometimes.

Oh, and I reblog plenty of stuff. I like memes and I'm in multiple fandoms.

The Staers of my stories:

Mom: 42F. Her existence has been getting on my nerves the last couple of years, and I'm sure I've been doing the same to her. I've tried in the past to connect with her, but I've basically given up now. Fucks are only given when some are also received.

Me: 23F. Autistic and severely struggling with suspected OCD. Probably went through gifted kid burnout. I cope with life by typing about it and taking a lot of pics. Sometimes things actually end up on Instagram. Currently trying to get my life together.

Skye: 18F, my only full sibling. The most entertaining person in my life. Queen of Crackhead Energy. Probably literally my best friend because I suck at keeping in touch with people unless I see them every day. So far, slaying life in ways I never did.

Bry: 15M, half brother with a different dad. Usually gaming on his laptop. Sometimes chill, sometimes has out-of-pocket jokes. Been kinda cringe lately.

Xan: 10M, half brother with yet another dad. The biggest brat of the household. If he were born a girl, it wouldn't be a stretch at all for him to have been named Karen. Has gotten violent before, but most often just screams. Some days, people simply existing around him sets him off. Especially Kare for some reason.

Kare: 8F, full sibling of Xan. Is nice to pretty much everyone, including Xan on a good day. Loves unicorns, farts, butts, boobs, and Mom.

"the littles": How the rest of us refer to Xan and Kare collectively. It's not "the twins" because they're two years apart, but they give Twin Energy sometimes.

Jerry/Terry: What I call my intrusive thoughts for shits and giggles. Often violent, self-harmy imagery that I don't ask for. Name came from Leela saying "shut up, Terry" in the first episode of Futurama, and I misremembered what name she said. I didn't remember that it was from Futurama at all, actually. Just the exasperated tone used.

Off-screen characters:

Dad, 71M. Was an eccentric dude. I headcanon that he was also autistic, and just never knew how to deal with it. So he was an alcoholic. According to Mom, also tried pretty much every drug except ones requiring needles. Was a fellow artist, making all sorts of stuff. Cheapskate, but still cared about Skye and I. Was cremated in 2021, and now resides on the bookcase in two different urns.

Alex, 42?F, older sister I've never met from Dad's first marriage. Heard she didn't like learning about me being born though. Currently lives in Texas. For all I know, she might be one of those Republican Karens. Has two sons I've also never met.

Ash, 21F. Kare and Xan's older sister from their dad's first marriage. Xan acts pretty similarly to her in the brattiness department, though he might be smarter academically. Haven't seen her since Xan was a baby. I wonder how she turned out.

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[percysnotlistening]

i don’t think people take me seriously when i say that ALL of my comfort characters and kins are neurodivergent, mentally ill + everything being a trauma response and queer.

steve harrington? autistic, adhd, ocd, gender-fluid she/he bisexual and issues talking about his feelings because nobody ever asks him about them so she never knows how to describe the feeling.

will byers? autistic, ocd, obviously gay, sensory issues, non-binary he/they and we already know where the mental illness comes to play.

mike wheeler? autistic, adhd, gay, gender-fluid she/he/they with mostly feminine days now that she’s figured out why she feels like a girl sometimes, can only ever talk about his feelings with will, lucas or hopper

richie tozier? autistic, adhd, gay, he/it, light and sound sensitivity issues, goes nonverbal sometimes, and still has a hard time making jokes about being gay because of how he grew up.

eddie kaspbrak? autistic, adhd, he/they, always has sunglasses and earmuffs for richie, also a notepad if richie goes nonverbal, he’s also learned sign language.

stanley uris? autistic, ocd, adhd, he/him/they, always has frequent nightmares, loves having his hair played with because it brings him comfort

bill denbrough? autistic, adhd, shares pronouns with stan, always sleeps in the same bed as stan in case he ever has any nightmares to calm him down, the type to linger after a hug because he’s scared to let go

benny weir? autistic!!! noise sensory issues, adhd, trans, gay + polyamorous and dating ethan and rory ( who are also autistic ), he/she/they who, even though he seems over confident, has a hard time accepting that her bfs actually love him and aren’t just with them because they feel bad or if he accidentally put a spell on them.

rory keaner? AUTISTIC!! light sensory issues, adhd, raging bisexual + polyamorous and obv dating benny and ethan, she/he who suffers from gifted kid burnout syndrome, has a hard time telling tone and he also really likes cartoons.

ethan morgan? autistic!!!! adhd, sensory issues, ocd, gay + polyamorous and dating benny and rory, shares pronouns with benny, always touching his bfs in one way or another if they’re in the room because he’s afraid of what’s gonna happen if he lets go of them, always has sunglasses or earbuds/earmuffs for benny and rory because he’s the mom of the three

i could name more but we’d be here all day—

[princess-pathetic-112898]

Yes hi things are craptacular so I’m coping by devoting some spare time to the simultaneous comforting nostalgia and rebellious spirit of Codename: Kids Next Door. Here are some headcanons of mine:

-Chad 100% has burnout. This boy was put through the Gifted Child™️ wringer by his parents and among his old friends went from being idolized like a deity to “We Don’t Talk About 274 No No No”. He just wants to have a healthy dynamic with a person where he himself is merely a person.

-Wally is a diehard Sonic fan. He has OC’s, draws cute fan art & has a secret collection of plushies. His favorite is obviously Knuckles.

-Abby, Nigel & Hoagie are all autistic. Abby makes use of some small stim toys when she feels jumpy and has a playlist of relaxing music (it’s mostly classical, jazz & pop music that’s on the mellow side). She also has an escape space set up in her room at the treehouse- lots of pillows from Claire’s & Justice and blankets propped up into a canopy. Candy is her biggest special interest.

-Nigel has very little filter and can have a hard time with social queues, and tends to rely on his serious leader persona to feel in control of his surroundings. He definitely deals with anxiety, and one of his favorite coping skills is building models (you can see model sets & equipment in his room at his house sometimes). He does some physical stimming now and then, the Kids Next Door is his biggest special interest, and his Rainbow Monkey is a go-to comfort object.

-Hoagie also has little filter, most often manifesting in his puns & jokes. He likes having a routine and breaking them can cause stress. His interest in detective work came from a mix of special interests and being a keen observer. Obviously science and airplanes are his biggest special interests.

-Wally has ADHD tell me he doesn’t

-Kuki definitely loves the Sanrio characters and kid friendly Ghibli movies. Her favorite character is My Melody and her favorite movie is Ponyo. Her family loves Ghibli movies because they pertain to her interests of cute & friendly fantasy stories while also helping her feel more connected to her culture.

-Maurice does a lot of on-campus activism at school. He cares deeply about social justice issues and wants to encourage others to get involved. He’s tried to start a current issues club but faces pushback from school administration, so he got an independent club going through a lot of group texting and social media.

-Wally is also a huge Clone Wars fan because Dee Bradley Baker.

-Post INTERVIEWS, Sonia especially misses Nigel because she looked up to him. When Abby becomes Supreme Leader, she takes Sonia under her wing as a protégé of sorts because she sees a lot of potential in her. Since Abby also deeply misses Nigel, her and Sonia talk through a lot of emotions together. They bond over a shared passion for candy (since Sonia is snacks and sweets officer of her sector) and go on some expeditions together. When Abby turns 13 (and obviously is selected to be a teen operative battling evil adults around the world with her girlfriend Henrietta) Sonia becomes the new Supreme Leader of the KND.

Let me know if you want to hear more!

[cure-icy-writes]

ace attorney neurodivergent headcanons

because the bsd ones seemed to go over well, and folks find them validating, here goes! under the cut, because this got long:

-Phoenix 100% has ADHD and i will die on this hill 

-he excels at unconventional methods of thinking, and has some issues with impulse control. 

-he’s not great at concentrating for long periods of time, hence his struggles learning about law the traditional way. he was struggling as an art student in college until mia took him under her wing and said “sweetie. you think law is about rules? if the prosecutor isn’t gnashing his teeth you’re doing it wrong. Come, my child, let me show you how to bluff.”

-This right here? One of his lifelong stims. he used to crease paper weirdly when he was bored, making rolls and cones with the surface, and he always turned in his assignments looking like they’d been through an origami factory and come out wrong. He damaged a lot of books that way because he’d play with the pages while reading, and as an adult had to force himself to adjust that habit to be less destructive.

-He has some issues with coordination, which got better in time but never fully went away, and that combined with emotional dysregulation makes him a very expressive speaker. He talks with his hands and has accidentally hit people with them more times than he can count. mia has been smacked by a stray objection once or twice, but they never talk about it 

-He never got his drivers license because he’d get overwhelmed (sensory overload plus yelling instructor plus navigation plus mortal danger) and didn’t exactly cope with it well. He never caused any accidents, just pulled over to the side of the road with a blank expression and walking into a coffee shop to dissociate in a stall for half an hour. the car was still running, and the instructor was not exactly pleased.

-the man ran across a burning bridge. he is absolutely consequence blind and makes problems for Future Phoenix to deal with.

-Maya! her autism went unnoticed for two reasons: one, she’s a girl, and two, she lives in the mountains and gets her body hijacked by dead people. any other eccentricities fall by the wayside after that

-echolalia! she tends to repeat a lot of things that phoenix says, just because she likes the sound of it

-special interest in the steel samurai: self explanatory

-has trouble with sarcasm and tone: often phoenix can’t tell if she’s joking or not when she says something, and in the incident with the fire hose, she can’t read tone either

-while she comes off as childish, she’s deeply introspective and offers wisdom at unexpected moments

-she grew up with that fun kind of trauma that makes you feel like a burden to everyone around you because you’re different in a way that you can’t explain and maybe it’s just an excuse, which she mostly hides because she hates burdening other people with her personal issues. but these insecurities come out full force in turnabout goodbyes.

-due to a combination of sensory issues and routines, she samefoods a LOT. it’s not particularly healthy, but she makes an effort to take vitamins and supplement her favorite foods sometimes. Also, she has every ramen place in town memorized plus whether their food is something she considers “safe”

-edgeworth is autistic but very repressed due to von karma’s influence

-seriously he masks heavily but has no real sense of self and has a crisis over that

-has a very strong sense of justice, which we see in fourth grade, and doesn’t care about his social standing so much as his values.

-forgets that not everyone will understand his distressing and probably intended-to-be-poetic goodbye note; ghosts phoenix for a year

-same special interest as maya, but hides it and gets defensive because he’s sick of autistic people being treated like children with no autonomy. that’s why he’s always tried to act mature for his age, even making comments about mia’s youth in a flashback when he was younger than her

-experiences the classic Gifted Kid Burnout after losing one time in his life and being forced to reconsider the very foundations of his worldview. not strictly an autism thing but often comorbid

-struggles to make eye contact in most of his sprites

-struggles to communicate his own emotions; he absolutely tries but the words never quite express how he really feels. unnecessary feelings indeed

[lunasalix]

Every time I see someone arguing that self-diagnosis is invalid for inclusion into autistic or adhd spaces, I get really upset. Let me explain my journey to professional diagnosis as an example:

Elementary school was marred by feeling like an outcast and not understanding why. Adults would tell jokes that I would not understand or recognize as jokes, then my lack of understanding would become the joke. Teachers loved me because I was quiet, obedient, and academically talented. I was tested for giftedness in 3rd grade. In 4th grade, I was given the position of library helper so that any time I finished my work early or didn't want to be around the other kids for recess, I could go to relax in the calming solitude of the library.

In middle school, my outcast status hit an all-time high. I had no friends at all for 2 years. I spent most of those years in a state of dissociation.

In high school, I changed strategies. I began studying people. Learning how they interacted with one another. Reading about psychology. I was mostly silent. I had a few friends. Sensory issues affected my hygiene greatly. I began suspecting autism, but was yelled at by my dad for suggesting it, so I buried the thought.

In college, I sought treatment for depression and anxiety. I tried pills and went through several therapists. None of it worked. I would continue trying for 10 years.

3 years ago, I started learning more about autism. I resonated so much with the experiences of autistic bloggers. I realized that I was likely correct when I suspected autism back in high school. I devoured every piece of information I could find and adopted the identity, but found myself unable to access many resources because I lacked professional diagnosis.

I began faltering at work, lost the ability to cook or maintain a clean and tidy home, self-isolated, and became nearly vegetative. 6 months ago, on advice from a therapist, I requested evaluation through my workplace's free psychiatric program. It took 3 months to get an intake appointment. This gem offered such wisdom as: "most people who seek assessment aren't impaired enough for the autism diagnosis and would have fit into the asperger's diagnosis, but the horrible Psychiatric Association removed it from the dsm," "people with autism are unable to work," and "Autism Speaks is a great place to find resources."

My 1-hour assessment yielded an official diagnosis of "Unspecified Neurodevelopmental Disorder (formerly Asperger's) with Anxiety and Depression" and the report said that while I met all of the criteria for both autism and adhd, I maintain a full-time job and my working memory was just over the threshold for what the psychiatrist considers adhd.

Frustrated and still desperately in need of help, I began researching other avenues of assessment in my area. I found a neuropsychologist whose website offered promising, evidence-based information and contacted her. They do not accept insurance. The entire process would require a 1.5hr intake interview, 4hr cognitive assessment, 4hr interview, and 1hr results meeting with targeted treatment options offered. It would cost approximately $5,000 out-of-pocket.

Desperate for help, I accepted the cost (and wracked up credit card debt) to become a patient. The process is nearly through. My results appointment is tomorrow afternoon.

I am one of the lucky ones. I have a job that pays well enough to justify this cost. I have family who are willing to help. I was able to find a competent assessor within an hour's drive from my home. Most people in the US are not so lucky. Had I been able to receive help years ago, I might not be in such a state of burnout. My life might not be imploding around me.

Accept self-diagnosed autists. Community can work wonders in preventing burnout and finding self-accommodations. So what if a few get in who are not actually autistic? If it helps the hundreds of thousands unable to afford assessment, it is worth it.

"No self diagnosis!"

Ok! I'm from a middle class family so for me personally affording one isn't a massive issue but for people in poverty it can be! However my parents don't believe I'm autistic because I don't show the stereotypical 8 year old white boy autism. My general practitioner is ableist and doesn't know shit about mental illnesses she diagnosed me with add instead of adhd even though add hasn't been a thing for like 10 years. Both my parents and general practitioner only believe in stereotypical 8yo white boy autism. I don't have access to a psychiatrist or therapist. So who is going to find me a general prac or psychiatrist who isn't ableist and is actually knowledgeable and up to date, transport me to them (I'm a minor, can't drive and with how shit us healthcare is might even have to fly to get a decent doctor) and pay for it? (my parents sure as he'll won't even though they have the money)

My adhd, autism and various other physical and mental conditions prevent me from working 95% of jobs so "just get a job and pay for it yourself" isn't a feasible option. And I literally cannot wait for neurotypicals to deem me worthy to use the language and knowledge of autism via an official dx.

My autism doesn't magically start when I get diagnosed with it. It always has and always will affect me 365, 24/7. Diagnoses are not accessible for many many autistic and neurodivirgent people.

If you have issues with self diangosises why don't you work to make official diagnosises accessible for EVERYONE and then we can talk. Until that day self dx remains an essential tool for neurodivirgent people.

[freak60000]

hii u said there are actual autistic characters in dr and can u tell whos that?? im autistic myself and it makes me so haoppy :]]]]]

HI! yea ofc!! these characters are very very autistic coded to me and it’s just. true to me. idk how else to interpret it. FIRST papyrus. everything ab him, like wearing the same clothes, fascination with puzzles, talking loud, not getting jokes, etc etc (I KNOW he’s not Really in deltarune but it counts. hes barely here) berdly. i mean. bad with social cues, gifted kid burnout, trying super super hard to fit in, u get the gist. alphys, also huge, she has special interests and infodumps with any slight provocation (she’s done it Several times and is Very passionate about it, love her to bits) i could go on but that would probably get into headcanon territory SORRY …theyve never straight up Confirmed these characters to have autism or anything but the coding is so there and so strong that it’s just…. true to me, an autistic person

[nofrndofmine]

OK SO

None of the main four in Butterfly Soup are neurotypical and there’s like? A lot of evidence to support it?

(I have ADHD and I am mostly just pointing out things about them I see in myself, I’m aware Brianna has said she didn’t write them this way but there is so much evidence you simply cannot convince me otherwise you cannot)

Starting with Diya, I believe she’s autistic and has ADHD

Brianna has said she doesn’t like to wear anything that isn’t comfortable and she wears gloves more often than not which makes me think she has sensory issues

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(This is from the art book, if you’re wondering)

In most of her sprites she’s looking to the side which makes me think she has problems with making eye contact

The way Brianna describes her relationship with her parents sounds like RSD to me (the whole “people actually talk to their parents for fun” and “every time I talk to them it just turns into a lecture” things)

Brianna’s also said she falls asleep studying a lot. As someone with ADHD, I tend to stay up extremely late trying to do homework as my executive dysfunction doesn’t allow me to do it at like. Regular times so this makes me believe she also has executive dysfunction and often has to stay up late doing homework/studying

Diya has a hard time conveying certain emotions and will go non-verbal or play dead instead of doing so. There is no neurotypical explanation for that there simply isn’t man idk

Also!!! Special interest in animals!!! You cannot convince me otherwise

And sidenote, while I do hc her as being autistic and having ADHD, it is important to note that she has social anxiety which is mostly caused by her being HoH and that that’s a big reason she is the way she is. I feel it’s really important not to ignore that fact about her when discussing this

Secondly, I think Noelle is autistic

She often gets upset with people touching her which I know is like, canonically her being her but I think she has sensory issues personally. I’m also going to point out she’s a picky eater. I know that that doesn’t have to mean you have sensory issues but if she eats like, exclusively plain food and rejects anything too sugary or salty it just seems like sensory issues to me, like combined with everything else

The way Brianna has described her relationship with math and science feels like a special interest to me, she acts like she talks about it a lot because she thinks she sounds smart but actually she just. Really likes talking about math and science

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Her social skills in general are just not very good and the fact that her only friend was Diya for literally a decade before becoming friends with Min and Akarsha doesn’t help either. The way she responds to Akarsha’s jokes makes me believe she doesn’t understand sarcasm very well (and god me too). I also overreact to jokes as I just don’t understand it most of the time which to me seems like what she does

Min has ADHD and the fact that it’s not canon is so confusing like what ❤️

I feel like Min is so used to failure and getting berated for being a bad student/kid that she closes herself off and just puts on this persona of being a delinquent, but she doesn’t really want to be that, not really. The way she acts with Diya, Jun, and Akarsha leads me to believe otherwise. Brianna has said she’s “a bro at heart” if you’re nice to her and people... aren’t. She isn’t used to people being immediately nice to her so she acts mean to make people steer clear of her, she puts on this persona so that people already know what to expect of her before they even talk to her (Brianna has said she dresses the way she does on purpose, to intimidate people). She doesn’t want to get hurt by people not liking the way she really is so she makes it really obvious as to not get rejected. This is all just a long-winded way of me saying she has RSD. Plus the fact that Min “feels like Jun is betraying her” when he sides with their parents instead of her? The way she got extremely defensive when Noelle was berating her for failing her math test? The scene where she tries to denounce her and Noelle’s rivalry and Noelle immediately turns her down and Min gets all defensive and takes it back? Yeah

As someone with ADHD, I get like. Angry, like really angry. I know Min gets angry because of the way she was raised but I think she does because of her ADHD as well, she really just... can’t help it. You know that scene where her, Hayden, and Jun are at McDonalds after Min threw her and Jun’s GameBoy out the car and then Hayden asks her “why are you so angry all the time?... Just like, calm down. Try not getting angry” And she gets defensive and says “I AM trying” And after he keeps insisting she was in the wrong she kinda like, shuts down because he just Doesn’t Get It? Yeah

I also feel her defiance to doing school work stems from executive dysfunction, she just doesn’t Know that and just really Can’t do homework, she Can’t study. No one in her life really Gets it (but I like to think that changes when she finds Diya again and becomes friends with Akarsha)

Also! I am most likely over analyzing this (which I am with all of this but shhh) but I have reason to believe she had a hyperfixation on cars as a kid. Her whole thing with Hot Wheels and her comment about “driving you around in my Corvette” to Diya at their dog park date as kids, it just feels like a hyperfixation to me

And then Brianna has also said Min Tried learning guitar but “didn’t have the patience for it” which is extremely relatable. Not being able to learn how to play instruments because it’s just So Much work and memorization is a big problem for me because of my ADHD and just. Yes. She has ADHD ok

She’s very hyperactive in general, there’s a scene where she’s bouncing her leg up and down and Noelle tells her to stop. That’s ADHD man it just. Is man

And finally, Akarsha has ADHD as well and the fact that it isn’t canon confuses me!!!

The way Brianna describes the way she feels about her parents SCREAMS RSD to me. How heavily it weighs on her that her parents have these extremely high expectations of her and expect her to be something she isn’t? She sees it as an attack and shuts down when faced with any questions about her future (ie the auditorium scene)

I feel like her situation is similar to Min’s in which she puts on a class-clown, jokey persona so people can’t be mad at who she Really is. And she doesn’t joke around when it comes to serious things like when Noelle was sick to the point of nearly fainting and Diya coming out, she is just making jokes so people don’t take her as seriously as her parents. It’s RSD it just. Is

There’s also the thing with her overthinking (again auditorium scene). If this isn’t a burnout gifted kid I don’t know what is

Then there’s the thing where she cheats on tests which makes me think she has executive dysfunction and can’t study but she still wants to pass

And she 1000000% gets hyperfixations!! Mostly on anime and video games and stuff, Ace Attorney would likely be a big one

She’s also very hyperactive, if this isn’t two kids with ADHD idk what is

And that’s it!! There is most likely things I’m missing but this is the majority of everything I wanted to point out. Again I’m mostly just pointing out things I see in myself. These are simply the most neurodivergent kids I have EVER seen and the fact that it’s not canon is really crazy to me???

[hailcelestia]

Yandere List Headcannons

No one remembers him? I don’t care. Also, if you didn’t do the math he’s in his early 30s.

He was in late teens while making Greed Island with Ging and the others, quite on the verge of his gifted kid burnout. Though, in truth he hates his simple life and loves new hearts like Gon’s. What a sweet kid he waited for. He loved watching the players complete and fail the game, though most after playing, did not play again.

He’s very obviously queer in someway though no one would ever know for business reasons. He fears judgement. With the Hunter Accosiation being so huge and having such violent players in Greed Island, he’d have to keep that low on the radar.

He’s a teasing type, but very straightforward.

He’s more likely to become a Yandere after the creation of Greed Island rather than before. He’s become somewhat lonely after that.

He’s definitely autistic, so it could take a while for him to realize that he’s in love rather than having an actual person as a hyperfixation, hyperfixating on a person instead of a subject can be dangerous. List definitely won’t like the idea of sharing you either way.

Unexpectedly he’s short-tempered, not to mention he won’t really understand sarcasm very much, try to watch what you say, he could take it literally.

List is a professional man, your relations with him aren’t too public. As a Yandere, this could make things difficult. Others may assume that you’re single, much to List’s jealousy. He won’t be able to step in every single time, sometimes he’ll just have to watch in pain.

List would call you names privately, like darling or dear or my sweet.

He’s a bit of a brat believe it or not, if you disobey him he’ll snort in disgust and restrain you, with the assumption that he’s not too strong you could get away from his grasp, but if he’s survived inside Greed Island for such a long time he has some sort of upper hand.

List isn’t as sadistic as he comes off, he won’t enjoy hurting you.

He’s a bit of an internalized neat freak, he’ll say it’s just a preference but inside he hated Dwun’s room, it was so smelly and hard to navigate, he’d appreciate you cleaning yours.

Depending on when you met him determines how dangerous he is. If he met you before or after, Greed Island he’d be lovestruck and obsessed. If he met you while he was in Greed Island, he’d be possessive and paranoid.

List has a very specific aesthetic and it’s kinda hard to guess what it is, he’d definetly tease you about guessing it.

He’s the type to try to hold hands or leg you under a table, but the second you get caught he pretends he doesn’t know you.

If you ever escaped or went missing, he’d panic, not because it’s impossible find you on his own, but because of what his business partners would think. List would have to drop his facade of just being your acquaintance, and admit he’s your lover, and recruit his comrades to find you with him. Once you’re found, you’ll have little to no chance of escape again. 

List isn’t the type to yell, but his eye will twitch and he’ll stutter when angry.

List isn’t too strict, though if you misbehave, you will be tied to his desk. Any other punishments would be seen as unbearable as if you pushed him to his limits, he’d be too angry to show you mercy.

A lot of his emotions are internalized though, he was clearly heartbroken and disappointed in Ging when he saw his and Gon’s communication barrier.

Most of his days are spent daydreaming though, preferably with you. You’d be laying on the floor across from each other, he’s reading and holding your hand the whole time.

His special interest is definitely architectural history. Yes, he will complain about the pillars in cartoons.

Please don’t joke about how Greed Island was almost named Greew Island, it’s embarrassing to everyone working on the game, and it’ll get Dwun on a long rant.

He won’t restrict you from your friends but don’t get terribly close with his, he doesn’t mind you talking to them, but he doesn’t want one of you catching feelings and having an in-fight of any sort.

[galwaygremlin]

Special Edition of SoC Autistic Headcanons: Kuwei Yul-Bo

because @ellayulbo is a total sweetheart and because I wanted to.

so we already know Kuwei is not the best at communication due to a big ol language barrier between himself and the Ketterdam crew

but his struggles to express himself in a way the others can understand are very common to autistic experiences

he’s also easily (and frequently) underestimated

he’s deeply passionate about his father’s work (which becomes his work) and he couldn’t give a rat’s fart about anything else

socially awkward enough to think the only way to get his crush to kiss him is by pretending to be his crush’s crush (buddy there are simpler ways to get an adhd gremlin like Jesper Fahey to notice you)

academics 100 street smarts -2000

doesn’t like to talk much according to Jesper

a lot of parallels to Wylan who I strongly hc as autistic

Bo Yul-Bayur designed parem as a way to keep Kuwei safe. that’s as powerful as it is flawed to me- a parent who wanted to protect his kid at all costs because that kid was different and would be attacked for being different. as ick as it is to make parallels from hiding Grisha powers to relatives of autistic people forcing us to hide who we are, the intent is similar- protection. 

on to the actual hcs, we are departing from canon land and entering the unknown wastes of my mind, please fasten your seatbelts and keep all limbs tentacles and other accessories inside the car at all times

Kuwei sticks to certain people. you know the comfort person/anchor you have when you go out (yeah I know this is not a universal experience, bear with me)? he does that

despite the repression that must have happened while living in the Shu Han, I bet he’s fascinated with fire and loves whipping out his Inferni skillz at every opportunity (both for Science Purposes and because fire pretty)

Anxious Boi

emotions knock him out for days. does the whole volcano routine- let everything build and pile up until one thing sends you into a meltdown

OH autistic burnout. get it. because he’s an Inferni. it’s a mETAPHOR- no but jokes aside I do think he’d be prone to this based on the way he handles stress and the number of projects/amount of stress he takes on

terrible sense of humor (relatable content right here y’all)

when not in The Zone, could distract this boy with anything. when in The Zone, could not shake his focus if you hit him with a large rock

I probably put this for Wylan too, but Kuwei is the type to forget to eat/sleep/hygiene like me

as for sensory input, I don’t think he’d have a lot of texture issues, but sound is a big one. likes visual stimuli but can get overwhelmed if there’s too much to look at.

executive dysfunction is his nemesis