#autistic bakugou katsuki

[justanotherdumbteenboy]

A little rant over the why I consider that Bakugou Katsuki is autistic

Disclaimer: This is just one of my many mha theories. I would rather if people didn't attack me for this. If you don't like it, just ignore it!. Also, I believe he probably has PTSD as well, but that’s for a different post. This post HAS manga spoilers!

I added pictures this time!

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Special interest

I believe Katsuki has two special interests. Becoming a hero, and All Might. He is a person that constantly feels the need to mask, which leads to him hiding and minimising his special interest in All Might despite being an All Might fan basically his entire life. A clear proof of this, is keeping hidden his All Might limited edition card despite always carrying it in his pocket. The reason why he doesn’t mask his special interest in becoming a hero as much, is because it’s an interest that he has been praised for through all his life after his quirk manifested. (Which I find quite interesting, taking into account how this gives us more insight about how their society works, quirk and quirkless discrimination, and the way society praises and treats heroes as gods).

Low empathy and emotional dysregulation 

He has trouble identifying and expressing his own emotions, despite feeling them very intensely, which I believe leads him to mask by displaying anger. Because of this, he struggles with vulnerability as well, wanting to maintain his reputation and image of strength and victory, and hiding all of his potential “weakness”, including, his autistic traits. 

He also struggles with emotional regulation, causing him to have sudden “outbursts” since he suppresses his emotions, until they explode. (no pun intended). 

This is something shown in his fight against Midoriya, and how the only way he knew to express his emotions, was through fighting, and being angry at himself, and at the world. 

He struggles to recognize the feelings of other people, he is unable to relate personally to others' feelings, and doesn’t know how to show empathy, especially verbally. (This doesn’t mean that he doesn’t care for the people around him. He is actually a very kind and caring person. He helps Kirishima study, he defends his classmates, he trains with Izuku. The first thing he asked after waking up from a severe injury was how Todoroki and Midoriya were. In the manga, we see him taking into account Shouto’s past, and actually listen to him when they were dealing with the kids. He clearly cares for the Todoroki’s too). 

He needs routine

He has a very specific routine, and always goes to bed at the same hour. This could also be because he needs to spend some alone time after a long day of socialising and dealing with sensory input in order to calm down and relax, and actually be able to sleep. 

He needs to have time to recharge

Apart from what I just explained about his routine, this is also something we see after he has a panic attack during the Battle trial Arc. He leaves early, making Deku and All Might worry that he was going to drop out, when in reality, he just needed time for himself. 

Has a different way to view the world

During the sports festival arc, when he was analysing one of the fights, we got to see a little bit of the way he methodically analyses and understands things, and it’s shown that one of the things he does to take things apart, is thinking about it like a videogame! (Which I find really cute by the way, especially because he doesn't strike me as a videogame person). 

Sensory issues

His sensory issues focus on physical touch, as we see him avoid physical contact with others multiple times, for example, when he struggled with the hug that Endeavor gave him and Natsuo and practically ran away. He also struggles with tight clothes, and it’s probably one of the reasons why he uses oversized clothing, and hates the school uniform tie. 

I believe that in the sports festival he felt overstimulated by the restraints, and that, in addition to his PTSD, and trauma related to the sludge villain, lead him to having a meltdown. 

(Also, what the fuck with U.A, why would they put RESTRAINS on a child, and then HUMILLIATE him in public, and in television??)

He also has a surprisingly high pain tolerance, which means that he has difficulty processing pain stimuli.

Stimming

He very often grits his teeth, which can be interpreted as a stim, and his way of dealing with the stress and struggle of daily life.

I believe he uses his insults, and curses, not only to avoid having to interact with others, but also, as a vocal stim. Especially curse words. And his iconic ‘Tch’.

Another example of a stim, can be his habit of creating mini explosions with his quirk when he's under stress. 

He also has a very atypical posture, which is just a small thing that I would like to mention.

Struggles with social cues and understanding how to behave and adjust depending on the context

This is something that in my opinion, can be seen mostly when interacts with class 1-B, and on the first episode, especially on his discussion with Iida. He overcompensates his lack of understanding of his own body language through his (sort of) aggressive and ‘exaggerated’  movements.

As I already mentioned earlier, I believe he uses the curse words as a vocal stim, however, I also consider that the way he casually throws around the world ‘die’, is him not understanding social cues, and the fact that this is usually considered something bad. He probably understood this later and just didn’t care though. 

He avoids maintaining eye contact for too long with others, and stares at the floor very often.

He is also a very ‘blunt’ and direct person, and won’t hesitate to call people out, even if it’s seen as rude. For example, he was not afraid to call the Todoroki’s out in their diner, and also didn’t hesitate to question All Might when they were observing as Izuku train. 

He is a very observant and detail oriented person

People underestimate how analytic and observant Bakugou is because of his impulsive facade, however, in my opinion he is one of the most observant people in class 1-A. This is something that shines mostly when it comes to battle, for example in the final exam, and in the ‘Futari no hero’ movie, where he was able to quickly pick up how the quirk of one of the villains worked, and on the joint training arc with class 1-B as well. 

Strong sense of justice and rigid thinking

His way of thinking is very ‘black and white’. An example of this is his difficulty changing his mind about Izuku being useless. (We also know that this is deeply rooted in his insecurities, but I believe this also has an impact on it). 

His ‘win to save’ mindset, and determination to defeat every villain no matter what, in my opinion is an example of his strong sense of justice.

Speaking differences/struggles 

He very evidently has difficulty with volume control of his voice, causing him to scream most of the time mostly by accident. 

Other little details that I want to mention

He has a difficulty remembering names and faces, causing him to rely at the beginning on his nicknames. Which if you think about it, usually has something to do with the physical appearance of the person. Kirishima’s hair, Uraraka’s facial structure, Todoroki’s hair (and quirk), Momo’s hairstyle, Iida’s glasses, Sero’s ‘plain appearance’ (I don’t know how else to describe it, don’t hate me, I love Sero), etc.

His skull t-shirts that basically grew up with him. He probably likes them because of the familiarity they bring, being an item that he had worn through his life. 

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In conclusion: He is autistic and very heavily misunderstood. I love Bakugou, I think he is an amazing, and very complex character, and I love it when people analyse him, so if anyone has anything to add, or a different perspective, please do comment on it. 

Thank you for reading my one AM rant. Sleep? I don't know her!

[justanotherdumbteenboy]

Yet another thing that supports my autistic Bakugou theory.

Thank you @I Can Network Ltd

“'Autistic people and the need to sit in unusual positions:' a valuable explanation from The Autistic Life (@theautisticlife/Instagram). It is so important to learn from Autistic voices.”

[bruciemilf]

Wish there was more content about Iida and Ochako acting like Izuku’s pseudo-parents because the comedic potential is crazy.

“You know what? As a young woman in a traditionalist society, I refuse to be parentified! Deku can do whatever he likes.”

“Agreed! As a young man heavily burdened by the expectation of being a good role model, I don’t need additional responsibility. We’re just his friends and we mustn’t overpass that.”

Kirishima frowns, “Guys, I just asked if you wanted to order pizza.”

“Just make sure they do NOT cook it with or around olive oil. Deku is allergic. He also needs exactly 5 mushrooms on every slice or he won’t eat it.”

“And for god’s sake, PLEASE remind them to include the All Might figurine. They forgot it last time and we never heard the end of it.”

Yeah, they totally don’t want to be his parents.

Mina would say something, but she and Kirishima more or less adopted Bakugou with Mitsuki’s permission, much to the blonde’s angry dismay.

Izuku is permanently unaware about this. He just thinks ‘oh, very normal and very ordinary friendship dynamic. Maybe I’m just autistic’ and leaves it at that.

He doesn’t start thinking about it until ‘Kacchan 💥♥️’ pops up across his screen, and he answers faster than thought,

“Hi, Kacchan! How are you? Have you eaten yet? Should I bring you some treats? I’ve been trying this new recipe for popcorn macaroons,—“

“Tell me later, nerd. Put Cyclops on the phone, I gotta ask him if it’s cool I take you out to dinner this Friday.”

“…Kacchan, you could just… Ask my dad? I’m pretty sure he hasn’t blocked my number again.”

“Babe, you’re so fucking funny. Put Four Eyes on.”

Izuku then proceeded to stay in place and listen to Iida negotiate a curfew for 20 minutes. Then confirm it with Kirishima and Mina as well as Auntie and uncle.

And when he gets HURT?

He does have to slightly lean down so Uraraka can pinch his ear. “You are in SO much trouble, young man! Just wait till Iida hears about this!”

He asks All Might if it’s normal for friends to give him timeouts and he just responds with, “Of course it is. Aizawa always does it.”

[parisiterileymoon]

Why would all of my fictional crushes absolutely hate me if they met me. Like I would be so psyched and they would just be like “get this weird autistic child away from me please”

[amaranthdahlia]

give it up for mhas big three of thirdwheels

[bokunokamijirou]

MHA Guys x Autistic!Reader Headcanons

ft. Bakugou, Midoriya, Kaminari, Kirishima, Sero, Monoma, and Shinsou!

Katsuki Bakugou

always has all your sensory tools on him!

will shut anyone up who tries to talk to you during a meltdown or when you’re overstimulated

gives you space when u need it but always keeps an eye on you anyways

when you’re ready for affection he is ON IT!!! Cuddles, kisses, doesn’t matter. But he waits for the signals first.

keeps an AAC app for your nonspeaking moments, it’s on his phone.

he actually has a whole section of apps just for you, sensory stuff, soothing music, you name it

he will protect you from yourself if you start to try and hurt yourself. he will hold you so tightly while you cry.

Izuku Midoriya

now he’s one to notice the MINUTE you get overstimulated! And he will make up any excuse to get you out of wherever you guys are!!

he talks to you when you want to be distracted! And he’ll infodump about anything

on that note, he LOVES when you infodump. He thinks it’s the cutest thing you do, especially when you start to lose track of time as you go on.

he will comfort you when you need it! He has a hard time sitting in silence, so he brings fidgets for himself too!

knows where all your sensory tools are in your room, brings his own noise cancelling headphones (he bought you yours! He has the same ones)

Denki Kaminari

oh he’s HORRIBLE at silence! But he will literally zip his mouth shut if he sees you need quiet

he owns a lot of fidgets already and all kinds of flexible seating options (his favorite is one of those exercise balls)

he will play with your hair and draw circles over your skin to meet your physical sensory needs! He’ll also do yoga with you without asking (:

has all your doctors’ names and numbers memorized just in case you have a really bad meltdown

will go dummy mode as a distraction so you can slip away if you get overwhelmed :’)

never gets mad if you snap on accident, will hold you while you cry about how you feel bad you snapped :((

Eijirou Kirishima

LOVES comforting you no matter what happened, but especially if you’ve had a meltdown that you got embarrassed about so you didn’t tell him :/

he loves to touch you, to hug you, and gives you the pressure you need to regulate

he reads books about autism to try and understand your needs better

always wants to make sure you’re okay at parties or gatherings, checks in frequently

defends you ALWAYS especially if someone is talking about how you’ve shut down. He makes it personal.

forehead kisses and back rubs when you’ve had a hard day. He will often tuck you in with your weighted blanket that he bought you for your birthday.

Hanta Sero

oh if you need a place to relax he’s got you! He knows how to set an atmosphere fr

he makes sure to only ever use scents that don’t overwhelm you when he cleans his room or lights incense

tells you you’re perfect the way you are and reassures you CONSTANTLY without you asking.

plays games with you because you love them and you said nobody ever wanted to play them with you growing up (he’d never let you feel alone)

genuinely asks how you are, but especially after a hard day. He goes out of his way constantly to check in

makes sure that you’re regulated before bed and as soon as you wake up too! Always meets those sensory needs, but doesn’t realize he’s doing it. It just comes naturally to him.

Neito Monoma

he has no problem being a distraction from any and everything you need, he kinda thrives that way actually!

he would entirely kidnap the moon for you. you told him once that the moon helped you feel grounded and less alone, and he almost went on that impossible mission (he didn't because he wouldn't get to see your face if things went south)

always has your favorite movies ready along with favorite snacks!

will never ever make you feel bad for having a harder day than usual. in fact, he will fight you if you even try to apologize

has no problem telling off anyone who tries to give you a hard time when you're already feeling anxious or overstimulated

Hitoshi Shinsou

you are his most important person and he will not let you ever think otherwise

if you even think of apologizing for being too much, he will immediately put his hand over your mouth and hug you

he rubs your shoulders and gives you pressure when you need it, without even asking. he just knows you that well

he IS the human fidget! If you don't have any sensory tools, he's quick to guide your hand to his fingers, his hair, even his face if you really need to ground.

his voice stays low and he guides you through meltdowns, always holding you when you need that, and giving you space when you don't. but he always stays with you.

Hope you enjoyed!!! I think I'm gonna do another headcanon part with other characters too! thoughts?

[hollybinnisonx]

"my works aren't suitable for minors" the fic is literally about an aged up 12-15 yo boy.

[midnight---express]

God Help my possible autism, I've just used my Gay-Dar and Autism detection, with the knowledge of the characters to identify their gay and or autistic traits, the funny part is I don't even know if I'm right .

[punchbuggie]

my favorite bakugou headcanons :)

mama's boy

like sure they argue and call each other names but he is JUST like his mom

and not mama's boy in the "boy mom" way

just like he's really close with his mom

(when theyre not arguing lol)

def get together for mom/son lunches when he gets older

MOVING ON!

gay.

he is so very gay and i will die on this hill

i will also 100% accept aro ace bakugou

that man is autistic

volume control issues: check

personally i headcanon him as having sensory issues

i dont remember is this is canon or fanon but,,, misinterpreting conversations: check

social issues: check

i view his tiny explosions as stims

onto other things,,,,, def dating kirishima

like dude- they shared a bed in the movie,,,,,

and kiri brought him clothes that he knew would be his (baku's) size and style

like sure friends can do that too but they are boyfriends your honor

i personally view his relationship with deku as sibling like,,,

sorry bkdk shippers,,, please dont hate me, i respect your opinion i just dont see it that way <3 /gen

def has a lot of ear piercings (NOW CANON!!! YIPPEE!!!!!)

that man is alt and i will not listen to criticism

close with the girls of 1A and is invited to girl's night (aoyama is also invited bc i view him as an enby king)

i like to think that he and uraraka slowly become friends after the sports festival and maybe go running and/or go workout together

he is the mom friend.

anywayyyy thats all i can think of at 11pm lol

[korkietism]

Comfort in each other at way too late hours of the night. They’re both insomniacs and studying turned into relaxing.

[theangelsheardyou]

No thoughts just autistic bakugou with a male reader who treats him right😫🙏

Male reader who can tell the difference between annoyance, actual anger, or overstimulation just thru bakugous different genres of yelling

Male reader who doesn't move on to physical touch until he's sure bakugou is comfortable with it

Male reader who texts him "do u want to leave?" When bakugou gets overwhelmed at a party

Male reader who calls him "my beautiful princess with a disorder" when he's apologizing

Male reader who lets bakugou feel comfortable enough to stim around him the way he can't around other people

Male reader who doesn't get offended by bakugous insults bc he knows it's just a vocal stim

Male reader who can also tell when it's a stim or when he's genuinely upset or uncomfortable and knows how to deal with it

Male reader who is generally very calm but will absolutely get violent if someone tries to make bakugou uneasy (i.e. being too much in his personal space, cutting him off when he's infodumping, calling out his stims)

Male reader who is one of the only people who bakugou can infodump to freely and without care, and who genuinely listens and asks questions so he can elaborate more on the parts he likes talking about

Male reader who gets along enough with bakugous friends without necessarily being in the friend group but is close enough to trust that they won't do anything to make bakugou uncomfortable

Male reader who has a group chat with all of bakugous classmates that bakugou himself doesn't even know about so he can check on him without making bakugou feel like he's being coddled

Male reader who bakugou trusts with his life and finds it easy to be vulnerable around

Male reader who notices even the littlest things about bakugou from the things he likes to the things he doesn't, the jokes he finds funny, his demeanor around certain people etc etc

Male reader who also lets bakugou take care of him so he doesn't feel like he's the only one being cared for in this relationship, and lets him know there's a balance to their dynamic that he doesn't often get with others

Male reader who has memorized all his lore and knows what kind of things make him uncomfortable, especially around his family, like when his mom makes snarky comments about him or when his dad acts a little too soft for his liking

Ok that's all I got for now, as u can see I'm REALLY OBSESSED with autistic bakugou right now as I myself am neurodivergent, and I like to think that bakugou would have a partner who understands him the way I wish other people would with me😅 these are all based on my own experiences and what I look for in a partner haha

[slaytism]

Kaminari (out of nowhere): I think Midoriya and Todoroki are Autistic

Bakugo: How’d you figure that out?

Kaminari: Have you been in a room with them for more then 5 seconds?

Kirishima:

Bakugo:

Kaminari:

Kirishima: That tracks

[drawyourheart]

my favorite drawing in a while

[not-so-avid-fanfic-writer]

Chapter 8

Everyone tried their hardest to carry on with their conversations after being told that their attention could make you feel even worse.

The only people you let near you were Mina and Kirishima, who brought you a snack and a soft blanket to help you recover.

Mina was the first to speak.

"So," she paused as she thought of what to say next, "how are you feeling?"

Being unable to speak, you just gave her a look that said 'that should be obvious.' She just laughed and told Kirishima to explain the situation to the Bakusquad.

"Hey, at least you can take some of your emotions out during training this afternoon?" Mina spoke again, "Hopefully that will make you feel better."

Hopefully

--Timeskip--

You had decided against battling your peers during training, instead opting for the training equipment to the side.

You were planning on beating the shit out of a punching bag before being told to rejoin the class. Hopefully that wouldn't be too soon.

*Tap tap tap*

Ugh footsteps.

*Tap tap tap*

Allmight's footsteps.

"Young (L/n), Young Midoriya has injured himself -again-, so I'm trusting you to-"

"No" you glared at him.

He stared at you, baffled. "Young (L/n)-"

"I said no. I hate repeating myself."

You both stood in silence for a few minutes before he spoke back up.

"Ok, but please remember, young (L/n), it's you who's holding yourself back."

You nodded and turned back to the punching bag as Allmight walked off.

Not even 10 minutes later, you hear someone else approaching you, a set of very explosive stomps progressively getting louder until they come to a stop.

"Bakugo," you turn to face him, "What do you want?"

And there he stood, very pissed and looking ready to brawl.

"If you're looking to call me a freak, you need to be more original. Uraraka's already come at me twice today." He still said nothing. "It's 9 in the morning. I've only been up for half an hour."

That's what seemed to break him out of his silence.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THE RAMBLING?!? I THOUGHT YOU WERE FUCKING MAD AT ME!?!"

(Y/n): ¯ \_(ツ)_/¯

"DAMN YOU AND YOUR FACE" He sighed afterwards, and apparently your shock wasn't obvious with how soft and sheepishly he said his next words.

"Listen, that dumbass Deku decided to destroy his body again, and I don't have anyone to practice with. Soooo... I was wondering-"

Shit   .   .   .   .

Maybe you should have let him finish.

Stood there, hand on his face, a red mark from your own fist blooming underneath.

"Fight me, bitch."

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Sorry this was so late, I've been feeling low lately and have needed to focus more on my final project for college, hopefully I'll be getting chapters out more often.

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Main masterlist | BNHA masterlist | Series masterlist | Chapter 9

tags: @deathkinni

[miku-miku-beam]

MHA Theory, please listen

so, you know how that in the Sports festival, Bakugou was chained up in restraints? He was clearly struggling to get out. We know for a fact that his mother is mentally and sometimes physically abusive, from analysis I've done, I can go into that later, but ANYWAY. Bakugou would never let anyone put those restraints on him willingly. So, there are two things that could have happened. 1: Eraserhead, aka Shouta Aizawa, aka Dadzawa, erased Bakugou's quirk and had the others put the restraints on him, (Which would never happen, Dadzawa loves his kids), OR 2: Midnight used her quirk on him. Here's the thing. Bakugou's quirk causes him to sweat nitroglycerin. Nitroglycerin causes a lower heart rate. So, he has to use Adrenaline shots to be able to sleep, since he has to keep his heart rate up. with Midnight using her quirk on Bakugou, his heart rate would have immediately dropped, causing either a coma, or death. Meaning, Midnight almost killed Bakugou while using her quirk on him. That's why we can see Aizawa being wary, and angry, around her.

[piteouslord]

crimson tears

just posted my first fanfic on ao3, feeling pretty good. i love projecting onto bakugo, he's literally so me. i have exhausted the autistic bakugo tag down to the last story!! warning for description of child abuse, internalized ableism (and in general), swearing

wattpad or ao3

The weight in the air was oppressive and suffocating. The scent of burning wood from the roaring fireplace and the subtle cologne smell radiating off Katsuki's clothes came together, a bitter reminder of where he was. As he glanced up from his spot on the floor, he saw his mother collapsed across the kitchen counter. She had a hand stretched out, silently pleading for his comfort. Katsuki could smell the stench of alcohol, a stench that made him second guess his determination to gain his mother's approval. He shook his head, getting up and walking towards the kitchen.

"Damn you, Mom. You're so damn pathetic." Katsuki's face contorted in disgust. His eyes focused on the beer bottle a few inches away from her hand, and then back on her. His muscles tightened, as if under stress, and in one swift motion he picked the bottle up. Katsuki breathed harshly, and with full confidence he swung. His eyes slammed shut, eventually taking a peek out of one eye. Katsuki's hand was shaking, his knuckles becoming white from his intense grip on the bottle. It rested above her head, and left her unscathed.  "Fuck you, Mom! You deserve it, so why do I hesitate? Why? You would never hesitate if it was me. Fucking tell me why, bitch!" Katsuki slammed the bottle into the trash, wincing briefly at the noise of the shatter. He tightened his fists and resisted the urge to scream in pure rage, taking a sharp breath and advancing to his room.

"I'm so sick of this.. when will it fucking end?!" Katsuki muttered to himself, climbing up the stairs. There was no answer to this question, and he knew that. He wished that he had better, but in the back of his mind, he felt like he deserved it all. Or did he? No he didn't.. or does he? He shook his head again, opening the door to his room and staring directly into the mirror.

Katsuki closed his eyes. For some reason, he had made it a habit of watching himself cry in the mirror. He would pick at his skin, pop his pimples and scratch his arms.  Katsuki didn't know why, but it made him feel better. Maybe it was a way of judging himself without speaking any words, or thinking any thoughts. With an aggressive cry, he slammed his hands onto the mirror, staring directly into his eyes as the tears streamed down.

There was no way to sugarcoat Katsuki Bakugo. He was an aggressive asshole, who thought he was better than everyone, who loves to pick fights and who loves to show off. Katsuki heard all of the comments, he wasn't oblivious. He didn't have blind faith in himself. He would try his hardest to argue it out in his head, but he could never win. If everyone thinks that about him, than that's what he must be. 

Young Katsuki glanced up at his mother, confused as to why she was gripping his hand and pulling him forward. His eyes then settled on the unfamiliar house in front of him, a red brick house with bars over the windows. The house did not seem inviting, it almost seemed like it was giving him a signal to turn around and run, to beg to be taken home. Katsuki took another glance at his mother. He knew better than to question her, or to attempt to be taken home, as it would only result in punishment. He gave her a look of curiosity, hoping for an explanation.

Mitsuki looked down at him with a calm smile, "Oh Katsuki, aren't you excited? It's my cousin's birthday party. She loved to hold you when you were just a baby, don't you remember?"

Katsuki's face scrunched up in confusion, and an annoyed response followed, "No Mom, why would I remember that? Do you reme-" His mother cast him a gaze, and with that, he was quiet.

 As they entered the house, Katsuki quickly recognized most people to be his immediate family, but there was a decent amount of unfamiliar folk as well. It was not difficult to assume these were also family members or family friends. It also didn't look like a very kid friendly function.

Mitsuki immediately dropped his hand, rushing over to talk to a group of ladies Katsuki wasn't personally aware of. He turned around to look at his father, who gave him a look of pity and a pat on the back, but didn't stick around and followed Mitsuki.

Katsuki looked around, the permanent noise of chatter staining his ears. No matter where he went, people were laughing, placing their drinks on the table, or knocking into furniture. He sat in the corner, confused as to his purpose, and shut his eyes to wish away his boredom. His hands unconsciously ended up on top of his ears, silencing the noise and allowing him some time to think. His mind drifted to All Might, the number one hero, who is always able to save the day with a smile on his face. At this moment, there was nothing more that he wanted than to be able to become a hero just like All Might, to be able to withstand situations no matter how tough.

"Katsuki, are you fucking serious? Get the hell over here. You're embarrassing me." Mitsuki quietly but powerfully demanded. She ripped his left hand right off his head, and pulled him towards the group she was previously talking to.

Katsuki looked up at her in alert, "Mom, what? I didn't- What did I do?" No matter what he did, he could never make her happy. Katsuki looked towards the floor, panic building up in his throat that prevented him from uttering another word.

Mitsuki gave him a firm pat on the back. "This is my cowardly son, Katsuki." She directed her eyesight towards the boy, "Are you going to treat your family with respect or are we not good enough to deserve that?"

Katsuki blinked hard, pain and confusion swirling in his mind as he looked up towards the unfamiliar people in front of him. He felt worse seeing their amused facial expressions, ready to break out in laughter as if he was a pitiful sight.

"H-Hi." Katsuki suppressed a sob, putting on the best 'I'm perfectly fine' face he could. His eyes darted back and forth between the two women sitting in front of them, facing an internal battle of which one felt more comfortable to rest his sight on. He glanced back at his mother, unsure what she wanted next.

"There we go, boy." Mitsuki placed her hand on top of Katsuki's head, giving his hair a ruffle. As she spoke to the women, her voice was quieter, but Katsuki was still able to hear her.

"Sorry about him, he's a brat sometimes. When I was younger, I was expected to greet all of my family with respect. This kid can't even make eye contact."

Katsuki felt a pang of hurt in his chest, the realization that she was deliberately letting him overhear. How could he be such a failure? Katsuki forced a strained smile to the women, the struggle of keeping his composure becoming apparent.

-

"Katsuki, I am so proud of you for getting the best score in your class on your math test. That's one way to get out there and show them you're a firecracker, that you're a Bakugo!" Mitsuki slammed her hand on the table in celebration.

Masaru looked at her suspiciously, letting out a sigh. "Mitsuki, have you been drinking? We've talked about this.."

Katsuki let out a massive grin, soaking in the approval. "Of course I got the best score, when haven't I? This is barely an achievement worth celebrating it happens so often." He turned his attention over his spicy wings, a world of pleasure washing over him with every bite.

There was very few things better in this world than spicy foods. Whenever Katsuki felt down, he liked to enjoy something spicy, but unfortunately his mother decided that was a good enough reason to use it against him. While Katsuki recognized that as complete, utter bullshit, it was an effective strategy to get him to behave. The only things that were comparable to spicy food was All Might, and his mother's approval-

"Katsuki, quit that right now!" Mitsuki called out, yanking his arm towards her and partially flipping his plate over. The hot sauce was splattered across the table, and the wings on the floor.

"W-What did I do? Quit that! Stop!" Katsuki attempted to pull his hand back, but suffered a mean strike to the back of his head from his mother's other hand. Tears began to seep down his face, pooling out aimlessly in attempt to soothe his confusion and hurt.

Masaru reached out and grabbed her hand, pulling the two of them apart. "That's enough, Mitsuki. The boy doesn't even know what's going on-"

"Masaru, if we don't punish this behavior now, who knows how he'll act in front of other people. We don't want people thinking we are freaks like him, do we? Now, Katsuki, come here so we can fix you." Mitsuki spat out, the impact of the alcohol becoming apparent. She walked into the other room with a bit of a struggle, falling into the wall a few times. Mitsuki emerged once more with a ruler in hand and an angry expression.

Katsuki began to scream in response to the ruler, almost tripping over the chair in an attempt to get away. Mitsuki lunged for him, grabbing him by his sweater and forcing him into his seat.

Mitsuki gave him a stern look, and made direct eye contact with him, "Katsuki, put your hands on the table, before this becomes more difficult than it needs to be."

Katsuki ferociously shook his head. "N-no, I don't know what's going on! Stop! Stop!" He squirmed and kicked, trying to get away from her with every ounce of effort he could manage. He caught a glimpse of his father, who sat on the other side of the table, seemingly coming to an agreement with his mother's previous words.

"You brat. I told you to stop rocking back and forth like a fucking moron. No wonder you can't have shit you like, you don't deserve it. There's no way a kid of mine is going to go out into the world, acting like a damn freak on display for everyone." Mitsuki slapped the ruler across the table, erupting a loud noise that reverberated in Katsuki's ears. "Put your hands on the table, before your hands aren't the only thing that will be bruised and bloody."

Katsuki's eyes flashed open, a cold sweat spreading throughout his entire body. He had suppressed those memories for so long, he almost wasn't sure if they were real. Katsuki took his hands off the mirror, and walked over to his bed, peeling the blankets off to reveal an All Might plushie. He held it in his hands and climbed into bed, breathing a sigh of relief. 

"Shit, I have school in two days. I don't want to go back." Katsuki squeezed the plushie tighter. "I don't want to be here either. So fucking stupid." He pulled the blanket fully over him, and turned on his side. He held the plushie close to his chest, sighing as he rested his head partially on it. Katsuki closed his eyes, enjoying the peace and quiet he had for now.

let me know how you feel about it <3 this chapter took me literally 3 days of procrastination so i hope the rest of it goes a bit smoother lol