#augh. decision making in this system

[buck-yyyy]

genuinely about to crash out right now

[aria0fgold]

Maybe eating ice cream when I had a cold was a bad idea actually. Mmmy throat... feels dry and scratchy now...

[puppyhigh]

OPENED POST BUTTON INSTINCTUALLY + REALIZED I CAN POST. WAR IS OVER 🔔

okay. anywayyyyyyyy! was going to say i think im going to cut down the . amount of sideblogs here to… 6 if i can help it. wait fuck nvm. 7? because counting our main it’d be 8 blogs (and when i have to count them all i just. Count the. entire amount of blogs Including main). okay that actually works better than intended okay hold on. counting em out (under the cut. this got long) HELP ME MAKE DECISIONS PLEASE 🎉💓

main blog

horny blog of debatable normalcy <= im undecided on it rn. Encouragement one way (relatively “soft kink” puppystuff) or the other (cnc goresex… puppy2) is appreciated. or i could just try to tag stuff really heavily But I Get Nervous . Goooooood having ocd + taboo kinks + knowing (some) ppl hate u for them is a nightmare. Also just tried to refute the ocd claims but then read the first parentheses of this post. okay.

*ALREADY EXISTS* save/reference/graphics/etc blog

one single condensed blog permitting any alter to post on it (+ on main) as desired . we try to run individual sideblogs a lot and they usually get abandoned + then my Neuroses make me delete it to keep things clean, but . I think especially if i structure it a tiny bit it’d be good and fun

vent blog. 👍 or general feelings i want to squirrel away from main sometimes ? yeah

*ALREADY EXISTS* my kinhelp blog i’ll revamp her someday i fucking promise she has a new theme rn i just. haven’t. remade my whitelist its so hard. to remake a whitelist. its So Hard when youre autistic and Incredibly Particular over characters . ITS SO HARD WHEN YOURE DISSOCIATIVE + FORGET UR INTERESTS

*ALREADY EXISTS* nostalgia/regression blog . just general baby play place times .

SHIT I FORGOT. UH. <= FORGOT IT AGAIN. jesus christ hold on OH YEAH THE RP/OC BLOG. ID PROBABLY COMBINE?THOSE? … like . stash all my lore/art the same place i stash my in-character stuff. Possibly the same with canon character analysis/rp. Who knows :3 (but id probably post analysis to main first + then reblog)

And thennnnnnnn this is one im rlly tentative about but definitely want to indulge more and it’s like. selfship + objectum + posic stuff. we especially want more mutuals who post stuff abt this :3 But its…. augh. We are bad at like.. making “content” for our ships.. how will anyone ship me and my 3 plushie wives if i dont everrr talk abt them . Flops sighs

^ THIS COUNT IS AN ISSUE. I THINK. maybe i just don’t make the last blog? But a heem heem. whimper.

okay. Actually i do think the number 9 is a good odd number. if not the best one because its easily counted in 3 sets of 3 And its the number of our favorite house in tlt (i am from there. very Much So)

alternatively the possibility of splitting horny blogs into two (making 10 total, another solid number) but i don’t think i want to do that. :p Maybe ill just nottttt bloodpost . Sad. 🩸 OR. Secret third thing: i just kind of. place everything that makes me feel a Particular Way onto one singular blog ;; maybe with a clear tagging system and maybe not. maybe just a collection of vague vibes that only i will know im jerking off to. sometimes i crave to be popular on horny tumblr but i think that might not be good for me . Might not.be.

also: i think i’ve accidentally been looping happy news for sadness for hours now . Rather than the entire csh discography . as intended

also alsoo: i think i got sunburnt at work. my face hurts

[yahooo-official]

augh. so chat. y'all know my system blog @mechanical-marionette-system right? i lowkey feel like abandoning it and we all just use this one. like it's getting to the point where the fancy colors and fonts over there aren't working for us anymore cause theres too many so like. should we just use this one and like sign off posts or smth

---fridge dj

[patrice-bergerons]

I am terrible at waiting especially when it comes to decisions and news from external parties, were I a tragic hero pathological levels of impatience would be the cause of my downfall, and any interaction with the medical system makes me very very nervous.

So while I am grateful to have private insurance, that process of having to submit a claim to AXA and then waiting and waiting to see if it will be approved is hell on earth augh.

[luv-again]

sonic movie 3 spoilers bc I got to flush this all outta my system. incoherent ramblings below :

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD PLEASE I AM NOT OKAY ABT THIS MOVIE HOLY SHIT

firstly, keanu's shadow was beautiful. no further criticism from me. he was everything I could have asked for in a film adaptation of shadow

I'm so glad they handled the G.U.N situation better than I assumed. I genuinely thought they weren't going to be rightly villainised, but they were. only thing I'm unhappy with is the handling of maria's death, since it seemed semi-accidental. like,, they were fully liable stfu

MARIA ???? OMG MARIA ??? she was well cast, I loved how she was a little skating gremlin, who showed shadow all these things (things I predicted somehow AGAIN ? while writing the sli au). shame we didn't get more of her, but we all know what happens, so I guess it's only reasonable. only gripe is I wished they bothered to address her illness bc there was none of that

SHADOW ???? there was a scene with maria that struck me deep. his origin story change is funky, but definitely not unwelcome. and the way he notices the researchers look at him weird and he feels like a freak who doesn't belong ? ofc that's concordant with canon, but fuck me man. that's always been something I've connected with in shadow's character, so to see it crop up actually made me emotional

I nearly CRIED watching this film guys. I can't even be mad that amy wasn't there to rouse shadow onto humanity's side, bc the way they handled shadow's inner turmoil and his epiphany of light- UGH PLEASE I CAN'T BE OKAY EVER AGAIN. it was stunning. to see him struggle with his convictions all throughout and pose those deep questions to the other characters like gerald, asking if revenge was really what maria wanted. or stone. or with sonic, when he was driven by anger and grief. I LOVE that shadow noticed their similarities and asked those questions why, not because he was goading sonic, because he genuinely wanted answers, most likely to understand what he himself was feeling. I adored their chat on the moon, dealing with a sensitive topic, man to man. that was so sweet and they both convinced EACH OTHER to do the right thing. that was beautiful. I teared up. also super shadow was just so pretty I tried not to squeal. beautiful boy. he was just so genuine the whole time and nothing, not once, charged him as 'bad'. he was hurt and misguided but he knew he was doing wrong when he stepped back. he really came to his own realisation and I couldn't be prouder

gerald man ??? it's still not clear to me how he lived past his expectancy, but whatever. I'm actually okay they went fully down the dark route with him, using manipulation tactics aplenty and just being generally insane. for that, I can understand and accept eggman's family issues done in this way in this continuity

also STONE ???? I LOVED HIM I AM SO SAD WE DIDN'T GET MORE OF HIM. he tripled down on the homoerotic sycophantic pining. it was brilliant. the stobotnik moments were a joy. every single one

there were a few jokes that made me grizzle and groan, but other than that, it was still a light and funny movie despite dealing with more sincere topics of loss, family and potentials

tails was so adorable I loved him and everything he did. knuckles too. my favourite moment was trying to talk down sonic and almost hitting him from rage but letting go to concede to sonic's poor decision to walk the wrong path

shadow's death was glossed and inconsequential but that makes sense. it was gorgeous seeing him draw maria parallels throughout everything

my favourite little giggle from him was when he was watching that telenovela or sumn and he said the woman should get rid of both men bc she doesn't deserve to be treated like a prize. MY BOY <3

AUGH CAN I TALK ABT AMY OH MY GOSH ???? finally. it only took 3 films. she looks gorgeous. love her assassin hood thing, her badassery- Perfect. I can't wait for her to take the limelight next. metal also looks banging too, I noticed the split second frame that looked like the forces trailer

speaking of amy, the audience in the theater (including me), clapped SO LOUD when the amy scene was over. sighh my people <33 I will miss them. especially the one that said shadow 05 movie shld happen after seeing the second post-credits scene. they're after my heart lmao

OHH the references. so many to mention. even if some were obnoxiously obvious, they all were awesome. the musical ones, the cinematic frames, the direct quotations, objects and whatnot. all of them were bloody fantastic

THERE'S SM ABT THIS MOVIE MY BRAIN CAN'T EVEN. I'm still trying to digest all that I saw tbh, so I've probably missed things I wanted to blab abt but oh well

it surpassed my expectations. we've been fed so good this year. amazingly done film, would 100% go and see it again if I get the chance

[anamelessfool]

Who are your favorite characters on the Sopranos so far? :)

Augh yes! (Also, instant follow bc I need me some Sopranos content but I have to be careful about spoilers....)

There are SO MANY I love. I'm really fascinated by the relationships more than anything. So I'll focus on my current fave. Really love the three soldiers so much: Silvio, Paulie and Christopher.

PS I just finished season 2 last night so no spoilers please 💕

They are all pretty horrible people doing some horrible criminal acts. And they process this in really intriguing ways. In a way, Paulie and Silvio are Christopher's future. They've figured out how to mentally handle being evil.

Christopher is dedicated and he just longs for recognition. He'd do anything for approval, and got so excited when those film guys gave him obvious nods. But he had the hard realization that they're just cosplayers. They don't know what it's like. They haven't bled and they haven't suffered and they haven't made anyone else suffer. It was so tragic to see him abandoning his dream of being a storyteller so he could live the real story. Stories are stories. Reality is you're responsible for evil acts. And they will haunt you. Forever.

Silvio has decided he's just going to be a cartoon character. That's what's going to keep him from realizing he's a criminal. Any moment of doubt and grief, just make a cartoon face and do an impression and everybody laughs. Yeah, he got a system so he's ok /hj

Paulie is like...oh my god I adore Paulie. He's like...weirdly wholesome. He's a happy samurai. Chilling and living his life peacefully one moment, and then the sword comes out the next. Like a big happy guard dog. He only spends energy on hard truths when it matters, right before a decision. All other hours of his life he's using a reflective board to work on his tan. I just love him talking to Christopher whenever they're alone. Esp his idea about his sentence in purgatory. "Eyyy what's 6,000 years compared to eternity?" Like...oh my god how do you live (affectionate)

Thank you now I wanna hear yours hahah

[plural-affirmations]

augh i feel like i’m a system but i don’t wanna label myself as a system cause i feel like i’m faking, plus i’ve labeled myself as a system before but then un-labeled myself as one cause i felt like i’d subconsciously convinced myself i was one, but know i’ve found a term i think fits myself better than just “DID” (OSDD/median) but i still feel so weird labeling myself as one.

sorry for the rant i just needed to-

Aw, it's perfectly ok, anon.

I think if you find the plural label fits you, go for it! The plural community will welcome you with open arms, y'know? I don't see a reason not to identify as a system, but I also understand your apprehension and anxiety surrounding it. Decisions like this are pretty big, and I know how scary it can be.

Personally? I think it would be denying the inevitable and (potentially) cause stress if you went down the "nope, I'm just a singlet" route. It's hard pretending to be something you're not, and I have personal experience with that.

But you could totally live as a singlet for all I know though!! I'm just Some Guy over the internet, and I do not claim to be anything more than that. My opinions are worth exactly 2 cents. I'm not you; you're always going to be more informed, and have a better grasp of the full picture than I will.

TL;DR: Take everything I say with a grain of salt, but I think you should probably look more into plurality, and living as a singlet when you're not one sucks.

Hope any of this helps/makes sense, I just woke up like 10 minutes ago and I'm not 100% functional right now, haha.

Have a great rest of your day!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[zapsoda]

aUGH you talked about bax's and babygirl's i mean. roy's bad eyesight. does anyone else have an likewise handicap or disability? also what's their weakspot for each one of them ... both physically and mentally if you want to write even moar words hehe

ofc!!

as previously mentioned bax has shit eyesight. hes also a bit mentally ill (lack of survival instincts), and while that can be beneficial when in dangerous situations where he needs to act effectively and expediently it can also be VERY DISADVANTAGEOUS. for obvious reasosn. what would the crew do without him? when hes constantly getting injured and incapacitated?

roy has her weird eyesight, and she has kind of the opposite of bax's problem. shes pretty anxious and has trouble acting and making quick decisions. she doesnt really like getting into *serious* trouble (she likes silly stuff and pranks and goofs though), anyways this makes it harder for her to step in when someone needs help.

clam *is* a runaway government android and so basically anything that isnt healing or surveillance is antithetical to what he was programmed for which is bad for everyone. he wants so badly to deviate and cultivate more of an identity but its gotta be just one step at a time, while roy and the others help him reprogram his body and brain bit by bit. which sucks. he wants physical agency Now.

tallys lack of horns and low-ppointing fin rays would land him very low in his home planets sort of caste system. not like. homestuck per se, its less ingrained and more socially enforced. on a dangerous planet where community contribution holds a lot of social weight, being physically weaker, lacking parental skills or instincts, and being kind of selfish on top of all of that made him very. not liked. this is part of the reason kip feels so responsible for him and overly protective.

anyways hes kinda internalized it. every single crumb of attention and validation sends his ego to the moon (metaphorically). he is torn between accepting a low place in life and society "everyone hates me, why should i change that" and desperately trying to prove his worth to anyone who will listen. yaaay mentla illness mwah (i kiss him on the forehead)

kip is the opposite of tally. he has horns. his fin rays point straight up. hes big and strong. he can hunt and protect. hes kind of tender and paternal. hes generally well respected. and he left all that. with his "nephew."

hes used to the expectation of taking care of everyone, protecting them, making sure nothing goes wrong. so he overcorrects. he comes off a bit controlling, though he normally channels this through his cooking. its like a healthy outlet, where he has control over everything as long as everyone stays OUT of his FUCKING kitchen.

hes also very slow to learn and a bit stubborn (though he tries very very hard to work on this)

hes honestly very stable and good at keeping himself together unless He were to be the one hurt and or in trouble ahahaha. he would not handle that. he would go crazy. the thought of being the one to need others makes him ill.

he is so fucking awkward around clam and its for two reasons. 1. dont wanna break him, unfamiliar object, not sure how the best way to proceed 2. stop trying to help me stop leave me alone you sick vermin

deep down he loves clam though cause he feels like theyre the same. "this weird animate object is just like me fr" he admires clams instinct to help others a lot eheheheh.

[suzannahnatters]

MOON LOVERS: SCARLET HEART RYEO has deaded me and I've never been so happy about it

EUN!!!!

I'm not okay.

of course So was always going to make this choice, and I suppose it's hard to just opt out of a system when you and everyone you care about it trapped inside it, but there tragedy is definitely HERE

oh heck no, did he just lie to her? after promising he wouldn't?? and when the real thing he used as an excuse was a genuine point of conflict that could have served the writers just as well???

everything was going so WELL

Jung has no damns left to give either :3

big fan of the way nobody's wearing pastel robes anymore, they're all in black and guyliner

cept Baek Ah, please stay alive my child

dying over the internal thematic resonance here. So wants to be king so he won't be someone's killer anymore. but if you take the throne you have to be willing to throw everyone else away. And that's what he's already done to our girl, as happened to Lady Oh before her

taking the throne is the leading cause of insanity in this kingdom, looks like

ok they actually resigned me to the Break Her Heart To Save Her bit by downplaying it a whole lot and justifying it pretty well. it's still not my favourite & it IS cruddy of him to lie but also the king IS very actively using her to control him.

most of the time this trope happens I'm like "in what universe does this even make sense" but in this case, well it's a stupid decision but one I can actually imagine making

So explains why he wants the throne: at first he just wanted to protect the people he loved but now he wants to FIGHT THE SYSTEM, YEAH

*cough* or make things better for the normies

she's 100% Ophelia but he's better than Hamlet so I support him tbh

it's on, even Baek Ah is in armour now

not so evil queen gets the thesis statement: you must throw away love in order to gain the world

aaaaaaaaaaaAAaaaaAAAAAaaahhh

did...did our girl poison king Guyliner (no but it was convenient yes?)

what was in the letter

our girl getting to be the first to acclaim the new king yessss

well HECK the throne-induced insanity is setting in quick this time

I repent, I repent, he should have listened to our girl T_T

astrologer is Concerned and so am I

I'm so happy for Rebel Princess getting to stab someone at last

augh Wook very correctly points out to our girl that she's stuck by So as he makes the same decision Wook did

and then she retorts that at least he was honest about it with her

well played and game over

oh no I knew it wasn't good that she was clutching her heart

the sheer stress of the lifestyle is getting to her...the way it did to Lady Oh

and our girl's protege Chae Ryung is in love with a prince, it's all starting another tragic cycle huargh

fascinating how the back half is contextualising the show's treatment of the original king.

I hate that it went easy on him, but it quickly started to be apparent that the king is similarly caught in the system as everyone else. one person wanting to change isn't enough.

this show is so much more complex than I gave it credit for!

well I have a three page list of Reasons Why Marrying Princess Smirks-a-Lot is NOT Good Realpolitik

oh the pain is ON now our boy is making a whole parade of bad decisions and the show...isn't letting him off for them?

like, it's showing him yielding to the pressure of the system but also our girl takes a good long hard look at him and...

is this show going to Do The Thing

couples who pledge love over this swimming pool never end well, goodbye Baek Ah

no this is almost worse, Baek Ah gets to live in the most heartbroken manner possible

meanwhile So is gradually losing the bits of his humanity one by one T_T

SHRIEK

Jung just came to get our girl in the dumbest way possible, this is why you do not ask the general to rescue you from the deadly court

WOOK, DID YOU JUST DO SOMETHING LEGITIMATELY UNSELFISH

oh the sad king lurking in Jung's garden all eaten up with jealousy is the BEST THING and totally what he deserves

oh I LOVE this - our girl makes sure Chae Ryung's last letter gets to Won ahhhhh

the actor for Wook has just done an amazing job of visibly aging from 20 to 50 before our eyes, and he's done it all with facial expressions and body language

our girl has made it back YESS

and left history a little better in her wake

that rates as a happy ending in my book

THEY DID THE THING

I NEVER THOUGHT THEY WOULD BUT THEY DID

IT'S OPHELIA IN ANCIENT GORYEO

look idk what I expected from a story about a modern girl going back in time to charm 8 cute princes but it sure wasn't a brutal Shakespearean tragedy about power corrupting even the truest love

10/10 perfect ending, no notes. Bittersweet, agonising, fitting, PERFECT.

review to come

[straycalamities]

24 for kian, ace, and daisy waisy

What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they’d made those decisions?

AH! the nearly-uncomfortable au strikes again

kian: hrmm...im trying to think...i cant imagine a world where he doesnt eventually leave his dad... like...is it even feasible to live ur whole life in those conditions and not try to get away. theyre just..UNLIVEABLE. if he didnt leave he'd just DIE

tho...even if he just left later that'd make a huge impact on him i think...he'd be soooooooo cold. he wouldn't even have the unserious funny haha nihilism he has now. he'd just be an angry dick that's entirely dead inside. he would survive doing the bare minimum bc he wouldn't think about how life could get better than that. everyone would avoid him besides the naïve "ooo sexy man" initial response but just one interaction would have them being like nah, actually,

ace: oogh, there's so many decisions he made that i could unmake, oogh. delicious.

if he decided to not help his dad financially as a kid. oh thats a big one. oh its so big the more i think abt it. holy shit. that's what formed his entire personality. all his interests and everything. (special mentions for if he decided to not befriend jack or decided not to pursue his dreams so hard)

but i wanna do this one

so. honestly? ace would probably be taken away from his dad if it got worse. even if CPS fucking sucks there's nooo way i think it'd be allowed to go further downhill. (otherwise they'd be literally on the streets and THEN ace would get taken away? either way) and i honestly cant see ace getting adopted, unfortunately.

his dad, even if he didnt spoil him with STUFF, he spoiled his attitude. it's like...probably some way of like making up for not being able to get ace anything is to let him act however he wanted. so it'd take some reeeeeeal patient parent(s) to wanna take ace in because he wouldn't have the mind to hide it at that point. ace would maybe eventually learn to chameleon his behavior? but i think by the time he learned it in the foster system it'd be too late bc..ppl dont tend to adopt teenagers either

god this is making my brain gears TURN that one decision rly is everything

i think that his growing up would be pretty shit. bc now im thinking abt the differences between this and cult au ace AUGH. cult au ace at least had a stable home with a turn-around of income even if it wasnt from him specifically busting his ass to earn the money (well in a way it still is, but, different)

ace, but...jaded O_O he wouldn't evolve that charming personality. i think he'd lean more into the class clown personality. but it's not as endearing bc everyone sees him as a girl. and i know from experience, girl class clowns are just...weird-girls w Issues to everyone. its not endearing like it is w boy class-clowns to other ppl. he'd still have like..pretty strategic ideas for situations and stuff bc that's inherently him. but..i dont think it'd get him as far as it normally would

so he'd be so..lonely lmao. like regular ace also has issues w loneliness but its way more complex. this would just be straight up. fkn lonely. and straightforward misery from it. maybe he'd have some goons or smth at some point? but idk if he could ever truly connect w them unless they were also from the foster system.

cuz see im thinking that normal ace learns everything he does bc he makes the decision that he HAS to. he has to to survive so it all becomes this like...ok i do this or i starve. whereas an ace that's either decided its hopeless, not his responsibility, or just didnt think to do it, wouldnt have that same direct "inspiration" riding his ass. so his social skills would form in a rly weird way based mostly off how much of a brat he is and how much he desires everyone to like him (which is also true of any other ace but this one has a like..feral desperation to it in comparison. like a stray animal more than..someone who grew up too fast and forgot to make real friends along the way <- the usual)

he'd still have these like lofty dreams and i think he'd still want to chase them somehow, but he wouldn't have the connections nor the charm normal ace has. he'd be, at most, some stand-up comedian who performs nights at some local venue and he's just an opener for the main act. maybe he'd sing and put in the work to be good at it, but a big part of this kinda career is the ppl you know so :pensive emoji:

god this ace is the epitome of sopping wet meow meow. what a miserable little man. so richie tozier-coded but more of a failure bc he doesnt have a group of friends to bond w over other-dimensional clown trauma

anyways i think that's enough rambling abt this. i could go a hundred different directions with it from here and i cant choose one. so. there u go. something to chew on. (god he wouldnt care abt sleight-of-hand shit or magicians or card tricks or any of that. WHO WOULD HE BE??????????? maybe he'd hold onto the bar interest in general? like billiards n stuff? oh my god he'd be more likely to be an alcoholic like his father NOOOOOOO)

after that daisy's gonna seem so lack-luster LMAO

daisy: the thing w daisy is i dont rly have a set story in my head for her rly? i kinda just have..scenes and things i like her doing. ive never sat and gave her a like...biography

so idk what decision she'd make that i could undo and have it make an interesting change...if she didnt decide to sing, she'd be an actress. if she didn't decide to kill ppl, she'd just be focusing on her dreams full-time. and so none of that's super interesting to get into uh...

if she didnt decide to push being famous, she'd probably just be happy being some homemaker or smth. someones trophy wife or...a singing waitress or waffle house worker idk.

even with nyanpire daisy its more like...her big decisions is to not...die. uh. (bc shes miserable as a vampire) so if i reverse that then shes just dead LFJKSDJF

so idk 8_8 thank u for including her but IDK WHAT TO SAY!!!!!!!!

[d-parade]

I am a 16 year old trans male and it feels weird. I've been on your blog for a while it feels real to me to be honest.

I havent had a good life to be honest like yeah black mentally ill blah blah i was bullied and stuff and in 7th grade i found people that loved me no matter what and i decided i was transgender that i wanted to be a girly nonbinary silly goose or whatever

And yeah I was like this until maybe 9th grade when I had no friends again and got offline and realized that. I don't want this. It sucked i started binding unsafely, hated everything. I was envious. I wanted to be a boy. And I tried really I kept self reflecting and stuff and telling myself that god i was a woman but it never worked. I couldn't take looking at myself in the mirror after a shower, I want to be percieved as a man. I've been trying to accept my body and all bodies are beautiful!! But I can't. I can't accept it. I can't accept not being perceived as a man I hate not being one and it sucks. And God I'm always classified as a trans guy and one of the girls. Because I like men. God. God. I've tried playing into it like yeah! I do like earrings and nice jewelry and yeah i can be feminine but augh

And recently I got my name changed in the school system. A name i like. And i thought I would be better but I still hate it. I dont want to be perceived as a fucked up teen girl. I've reflected on every single aspect of myself and I always come back to this. Am I trans. Is this what I want? And I never doubted it but now I just want to know. I want to know before I ruin things for myself. I have a future ahead of me and it hurts my head. And when I think of who I want to be of who I can be in the future. It's a man. Fucked up sure, but it's still me. Not some overly fantasy. Just me.

I get it, I really do. I struggled (and struggle) a lot with similar feelings. The future scares me too. I’m scared of being rejected and discriminated against at workplaces for being a freak, I’m terrified of always being seen as a “tranny”, I fear I will never get the procedures I need. All I see when I look ahead is me being a man, but the current path I’m walking down doesn’t lead me there.

But honestly, I feel the best way out is to wait. Let time work things for you. Meanwhile, focus on other aspects of your identity that brings you closer to the “you” you wanna be in the future, aside from the male aspect.

Slowly, even if your pain doesn’t subside, it’ll be in the background. And one day, you’ll be able to make a clear decision about what you’re currently fretting about.

You’re 16. Soon, you’ll be 18, then 20, and then 10 years more in the future, you’ll likely look back and want to comfort your younger self for being so paranoid/ upset.

Anyways, all the best to you :)

[the-mega-galaxy]

Being a system is really making me question how much autonomy I actually have rn. Like is making decisions for myself actually harming the others? Anything I do could be bad for their dysphoria. Augh

[bachikins-tiddies]

Me: Do I want to add S&R:P? We already have lycanite’s-

Harmacy: do it do it

Bismuth: But, that’ll literally drive EVERYONE out of playing the pack!

Harmacy: Those spoken words can not stop me because I can’t listen!

Me: Go back to where yoU CAME FROM-

[welcometogrouchland]

hiii im the anon! some things about the movie that bring tears to my eyes: sebastians quote about imperfect fathers and imperfect sons, the blue fairy mentioning "lost, broken things" as it pans over gepetto, carlo's pinecone, the pine over his grave, the fact geppetto chops down the pine to make pinoccho, gepetto following the circus as pinoccho sings a song about his papa, the spazzatura character arc that parallels with candlewick's etc etc etc what a movie!

YEEEEESSSSSSS TO ALL OF THIS!!!

One thing I love that this movie did was that it understood the core appeal of a story of a young boy, a son, who's been told he's not a real boy, and thusly not a real son, and who tries his best to be "good" so that he may become human, and in the end is (sort of) told he was real all along, and is rewarded for this by becoming "real".

But it uses it's setting and characters (like spazzatura and Candlewick) To investigate what constitutes as truly "good". Is it following the rules? That's what the original story seems to say, but what if the rules are (as they are in a fascist system) broken? It's very poignant that a part of the climax is pinnochio saving himself and everyone else by lying. Because sometimes that's a necessary part of rebellion and survival!

I'd argue that this movie's definition of "good" (if it even has one simple enough to be defined) is inspiring others to be better, whether that's by standing up to someone they can't bring themselves to stand up to, or by sacrificing things for them. Pinnochio does all of these things for spazzatura, pinnochio, Candlewick, Sebastian, etc. It's really touching watching the arcs unfold

And absolutely everything about imperfect fathers and imperfect sons. I heard that line in the trailer and immediately knew this movie was gonna give me irreparable psychic damage in the best way.

I love that unlike in the original where pinnochio lets his father down by. Being a child (a very young child at that. He is literally. 1 day old) and making childish mistakes and decisions- it's gepetto who lets pinnochio down by wanting him to be something he's not, guided by his own grief! It's both a more compelling and relatable dynamic with more room to grow but also is especially poignant with the movies unique ending.

It really drives home the theme that it's not the job of children to grow up into adults their parents can be proud of (a storyline echoed w/ Candlewick), but for parents to do their best to raise a child who's proud of themself. AUGH IT'S SO GOOD 😭!!! Movies that make me do this ↓

[drippywing]

Top 5 video games!

Yessss

1. Ōkami. It is such an outstanding title for 2006, it's amazingly smooth combat system and the atmosphere are just to die for. I played it originally on wii, but I got the remaster on switch which is great. It's got a good story, crazy cool villains, and you're a pubby

2. Red Dead Redemption II. I am a bit over halfway through my first playthrough. I love shooting capitalist scumbags so much. Also the fishing, hunting, crafting/cooking, the attention to detail overall, the VIEWS!! Augh I was worried I would be bad since I'm not awesome at shooters, but I got the hang quickly.

3. Splatoon 3. Yeah. I've spent so many hours on this game already and I cannot even express my love for it. I main, in no particular order: Inkbrush, Inkbrush Nouveau, Sploosh-o-Matic, Bloblobber, Tentatek Splattershot. I love the reason why the world exists, the lore is really well thought out. Also the music has my whole heart.

4. Sims 3. I'm addicted to interior designing. I make all the big decisions for where we put irl furniture so I make houses and furnish them for hours.

5. Minecraft!!! I have to put it on here. I am getting part of the End Poem tattooed on my body. Augh.