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[incapable-inhuman]

there are things horribly wrong with you

glad someone finally noticed

[honeytonedhottie]

HONEY HONEY HONEY I MANIFESTED CLEAR SKIN <3

now normally i don't really get breakouts to begin with bc of genetics but i've been rlly stressed these past few months and bc of that i had 3 nasty ass pimples on my face 😭 i absolutely hated them and it seemed like no matter what i did they just didn't go away

but yesterday i said fuck it let's apply the law and just began affirming to myself "my skin is clear, glistening, and glowing". idk how long i did this for but def for at least 30 mins and then i did it again while doing my nighttime skincare routine + visualizing clear skin while i did it

and guess what??? this morning my fine ass woke up with them GONE!!!! i didn't even notice until i looked in the mirror after my shower but i was stunned i wish i recorded my reaction lmaooo

i've known abt the law for almost 2 years now and this is literally my first real (or at least first positive) manifestation and it was literally so easy 💀 JUST PERSIST BITCHES PERSIST I PROMISE YOU IT WORKSSSS anyways i can't wait to see what else i'm gonna manifest hehe

OMG ANONIE CONGRATULATIONS 🫶🏽💗⭐️ IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU AND IM SO PROUD. UR LITERALLY A MASTER MANIFESTOR. it is really that simple, all u have to do is affirm and persist and thats it. GOOD JOB AND THANK YOU FOR SHARING 👏🏽

[neteyamslovrr]

KXANI - pt4

summary: you have never fit in with the scientists, but on the night jake was lost in the forest so were you. staying with the people was your one true dream, yet when you are anything but welcome and jake get's to experience the people. you find yourself seeking comfort in tsu'tey

contents: 2.4k words, fem!avatar reader angst, lots of angst, reader is upset, tsu'tey is stupid, grace redemption arc, avatar 2009, tsu'tey not being as ooc LMAO

authors note: sorry it took so long y'all, ya girl has been working her ass off trying not to fail, also soz in advance for the angst. and if ur tag didn't work L idk how to fix that (i love u all) tara i see u🧍‍♀️

all parts - next part

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Jake woke from his link ready to harass you with a million questions. As the link pod opened he was already sitting up.

“Y/N! Are you going to explain why Tsu’tey was about to slit my throat cause of you?” Jake was wide-eyed and furious. He hopped himself back into his wheelchair so he could speak to you without yelling across the shuttle.

“What? What do you mean?” You were beyond confused. Tsu’tey did what? For you?

“He came up to me yelling about some shit! That I disrespected you and that I’d be better dead! Had his knife at me and everything!” Grace had walked into the commotion immediately taking action between you two yelling colleagues.

“Woah, woah, woah. Ok calm down before we lose another scientist.” She put her hands between the space between you and made space between the two of you.

“I didn’t tell Tsu’tey to do that! I have no idea why he acted like that.” Anxiety was cursing through your body as you switched between the fuming Jake and the confused Grace. Why did Tsu’tey do this? Was it to spite you? To get a rise out of Jake?

“You obviously told him something!” He exclaimed throwing his arms in the air. Grace looked at you for confirmation, but you were persistently shaking your head.

“No. No! I just talked about being a scientist. That’s all.” Jake scoffed at you as Grace’s features grew even more concerned.

“Oh yeah, because the life of a scientist is totally enough to be THREATENED BY A WARRIOR. For fuck sake Y/N!” You were cowering from the man below you, you wanted to escape desperately, his fierce glares and Grace’s pained ones were all too much.

“Enough. We have research to log. Hurry up. Go!” Grace pulled Jake’s chair away as she stared at you to walk away from Jake. And that’s exactly what you did.

Rushing to the bunk bed you shared with Norm you climbed up and planted harshly onto the rough sheets. Curling yourself up into a ball, you tried to slow down your fast breathing as thoughts were rapidly entering your mind. You had to ask Tsu’tey.

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Rushing through Hometree you couldn’t find him anywhere. You had rummaged through ever crevice of the tree and you were left empty-handed.

Why would Tsu’tey do this? You understood he hated Jake, but you thought he’d at least be understanding. So why was he so adamant on ‘a dead Jakesully, is a good Jakesully.’ You had to understand his actions, you had to.

Your fast pace and concentrated look made the people give you a mountain of odd looks. You were growing frustrated, why was he nowhere to be seen?

Not being aware of your surroundings you ran headfirst into a firm body. There Neytiri stood looking down at you slightly as she tilted her head in confusion. “Why are you stomping around like a child?”

“Oh!...I’m looking for Tsu’tey, have you seen him?” Neytiri scanned the room before her eyes went back to you.

“I believe he’s at the river, not in his best mood.” Frowning at her comment, you wondered what had upset him so much.

“Thankyou.” Bowing at her before you started rushing through the forest. You didn’t intend on running there but it just seemed to occur as your breath grew shaky and your heart beat faster.

You had now learnt your way through the forest. The endless vegetation no longer taking you for a loop. Now you knew exactly how to get to the man you demanded answers from.

There he sat at the edge of the riverbed. He was calm, peaceful. He stared up into the sky letting out a relaxed sigh.

Watching silently a seed of the tree of souls landed on his shoulder, he watched as it flew in front of him turning his gaze into the direction of you, a frown growing on his face.

“Why are you here? Go back.” He flicked his hand as his voice rumbled, he sounded angry, it wasn’t like you heard before though, it was directly at you.  

“I need to talk to you. I was looking everywhere” Your breath still shaky as you panted out your words etching closer to him. He grimaced at your state as he contemplated his response.

“You shouldn’t have.” It was sharp and hurtful. He meant to say it like that, but watching the way your relieved expression faltered into a hurt one pained him.

“Well…you shouldn’t have threatened Jake.” You didn’t imagine you would ever step up to the tall man in front of you. But recently you felt as if he was someone you could share your concerns with, even those concerning him.

“Who are you to question my actions demon.” His lanky arms crossed against his toned body as his stature grew taller. His presence becoming more intimidating as his nostrils flared in anger.

“You upset him Tsu’tey! And you upset me.” He faltered at your words, it was a split second your saw guilt in his eyes before it flashed away again. You had never seen him so upset, he was growing more and more irritated by the second. It felt as if you were getting whiplash compared to his affection towards you yesterday.

“Why should I care what a demon feels?” He felt pained, and so did you. His words were growing harsher as was his glare. You started to back away from him, regretting ever opening your mouth.

“Well… I thought that you might of cared about me.” It was a quiet confession. One that as soon as you let it out you wanted to take it back immediately. To Tsu’tey it felt like a blade stabbing him in his heart as it escaped your mouth. His harsh glare faltered once again as he blinked rapidly. He did care. Eywa, he cared so fucking much. That’s why he was doing this. He can’t let his heart overrule his mind.

“And why would I think that? You are a demon. Bringing nothing but destruction and death.” You felt yourself shrinking as you watched him etch closer and closer to you.

“then why did you go after Jake then? If you don’t care about me!” It felt as if your heart was a pane of glass that was smashed against the floor.

He had no excuse for his behaviour towards Jake. He was angry, he was angry at Jake for treating you badly. He took your words and used them as a weapon towards Jake. He was angry because he cared about you.

“Such a demon thing to think the world revolves around you!” His voice was booming, he was seeing red but not with anger, it was his heart bleeding. “Go back. You don’t belong here.”

He saw it on your face. The slow blink to get rid of your tears. The shake in your chest and the way your swallowed any words you might of retaliated back. He saw the way you looked at him with betrayal.

“What was yesterday then?” Your voice cracked as you stared up at the stone faced man.

“A mistake.” Your lips quivered as you sucked your cheeks. He felt that familiar pang, but it wasn’t a pang anymore. It was a thrash.

He watched you turn with such speed that you almost toppled over. He watched you leave as fast as you came. He heard your sobs rack through the forest as you walked further and further away.

Soon they were washed away by the sound of rain pouring down. A sound he would usually cherish as it calmed him. But it no longer felt calming, it was deafening.

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Running back to Hometree you were tear-stricken. Your throat ached and so did your heart. You knew it was rich of you to assume he enjoyed your company, but it felt so nice to be appreciated.

Your disarray brought on the stares of hundreds including Grace’s. While she may have not been the kindest to you and she was aware of that. She was also aware how she underestimated you and dismissed you as your contributions were nothing compared to Jake’s. Yet, this morning she realised just how much she had underestimated you. You had cracked open the shell of Tsu’tey and she respected you for it.

So, when she saw you dishevelled, she couldn’t deny her concern.

“Y/N? What the hell happened?” Her fingers gripped onto your shoulder to bring you back down.

“Nothing. I just…I am alright.” She gave you the look.

“Do you think I’m stupid?”

“NO! No. Please just let me go.” Grace sighed giving you a pat on the back.

“C’mon kid, somethings bothering you.”

“Why would you care? You never did before?” Grace knew this was coming. She knew that she also deserved it.

“You’re crying. That’s why.” You scoffed at her, swatting her hand off you.

“I don’t need your pity. I just wanted your acknowledgement. And…the one person who was giving me that, has decided it was a mistake. So, I’d just appreciate if you don’t make that ‘mistake’ either.”

“Are you talking about Tsu’tey?” Grace was growing more concerned, she didn’t even realise the two of you had developed a special bond.  

“I’ll see you in the lab, Dr. Augustine.” You spat at her, venom dripping off your tongue as you rushed off in the same direction you came, apologising to the people you had barged into in your fit of despair.

What had you done to deserve this? Were you truly unworthy of friendship? Were you imagining all those moments with Tsu’tey. The intimate silences, the small touches, the deep conversations and the concern he had for you. Where had they gone? Did he hit his head the night before?

Or maybe it was just as he said. You were a parasite. Maybe he never felt any of those things, you just took them from him. Was this all that you were? A parasite in a fake body.

But this body was most dear to you. You felt so connected to the people and the nature. What if it was just to Tsu’tey. Had you been greedy? Been like every other sky-person and taken this worlds beauty for your own benefit.

Tears fell as you were consumed by your thoughts. You were so conflicted. How did you belong nowhere? Not with humans, not with Na’vi and not with anyone.

Disrupted from your thoughts you heard two voices in the distance. Rushing to hide up in a tree you saw the bodies of the voices.  

There was Jake and Neytiri, walking close together, talking as they planned there hunt. You watched the way they grazed upon each other. The way they would look at each other so lovingly, sharing giggles and touches. Waves of jealously crashed upon you.  

You watched them both and couldn’t help but imagine it was you and Tsu’tey. That it was you two sharing glances and loving touches.  

Your heart ached as you continued to watch them from afar. Your throat was tight the more they bonded, the more they loved. The ache in your heart was strong, the sting in your eyes was harsh as your fists were clenched.

At one point your feelings overtook you, because you were no longer fixated on the couple in front of you but the quiet words that left Neytiri’s mouth. “A clean kill…you are ready.”  

You watched the two share a look, a look of knowing and a look of accomplishment. You couldn’t help but feel your chest thrash, he was ready?

Jake was becoming Omaticaya while you are being thrown out by the future Olo’eyktan. This wasn’t fair! This wasn’t right! Your mind was foggy, and your heart stung. You had to leave. You couldn’t stay watching him succeeded right in front of you.

Leaving quietly, you returned to Hometree to lay in your hammock. You had enough of this day, it was best if you could just end it now.

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Tsu’tey laid in his hammock wide awake. The ache in his heart hadn’t gone way like he thought it would. He couldn’t love a demon, what would that make him? A traitor to his kind.

But the way you smiled, the way you cheered at the most minute things, the way you continued to love everything about him while he gave you nothing in return. He didn’t deserve the kindness you had bestowed upon him.

He longed for you. He longed to hold you and tell you he was sorry. That he confronted Jake because he was angry for you. That it was never a mistake, he loved every minute with you.

He wanted you so badly that it ached. That his heart felt bruised in your absence. Tsu’tey couldn’t help but think of your soft fingers wrapped around his torso. He couldn’t help but dream of that flight with you. He couldn’t help but mourn that it was the last time he’d ever feel your touch, or feel your love.

It was his own doing. He pushed you away. But he craved your touch and he craved your smile. He craved every single part of you, but he can’t have you.

He can’t feel this way. He is not allowed to feel this way. He has a mate, he has a duty, and he has people to serve. A demon can’t take that from him no matter how much he wanted that demon.

The sobs of your broken heart rung in his ears as he tried to fall asleep, but they didn’t escape him. He just wanted to forget this. Forget you.

He knew that you were hurting. He knew that the sky-people also hurt you just like they hurt him. He knew that he hurt you too.

 He knew that you longed to be a Omaticaya, that you wanted nothing more to be able to provide and be useful.

He could see it in the way you paid attention to every syllable that exited his mouth. It was admirable how much you wanted to provide. He saw himself in you the way you wanted to serve. It made him recoil in on himself.

To be similar to a demon like you. But you weren’t a demon. Eywa, you were a beauty, a kind soul, the purest of spirits. You reminded him of a sacred seed. But you couldn’t be, and you would never be.

You weren’t Navi, you weren’t one of the people. You never could be with the way he wanted you.

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Hii im asking this to a bunch of ‘sakuverse’ creators this and i would love ur input on it.( Also, i’m trying to word this as best as i can so bear with me but) what do u think would have happened if andrew and isaac did stay together and darling still did what they did with the assignment in episode 1? my mind is always changing on this topic because andrew even said it himself (in his latest episode at least) that he believes that him and darling were meant to be. idk im just rambling and im asking a bunch of crumpets this and want to know your take on this. ok byeee❤️‍🩹 (ty for answering)

That is an interesting thought. 

If Isaac and Andrew had stayed together, Darling would not have written the paper at all. Somehow, I believe they would have realized that Andrew was in a relationship.

Still, for the sake of argument, let's say they didn't know and still wrote the paper. Andrew would not be the type to report them but rather ask to meet them in his office and politely reject them, telling them that he was in a dedicated relationship.I think he would tell Isaac about it as well. He would be the type to push Andrew to report it in some way, and when Andrew refuses, I believe he would do an extensive background check on Darling. If they persisted, Isaac would confront them and tell them to back off, perhaps being mildly threatening. 

I think 'meant to be' regarding his relationship with Darling would not extend to breaking up with Isaac to be with them. I feel like if Isaac and Andrew pursued their relationship, they would be content and in love -- they were 'right person, wrong time' after all -- and a break up would be the furthest thing from their mind. Andrew would not even entertain the idea of leaving him, especially because the initial feelings of attraction he had for Darling would not have arisen at all if he was already in a relationship.

More interesting than Andrew is Isaac.

Imagine how different his life would have been if he had stayed with Andrew. Imagine them staying in London. Imagine Isaac being a lawyer, never picking up his grandfather's legacy, never learning about the existence of mythics.

Imagine how much happier he would have been, never getting sucked into this bleak, high-stakes life of being a PI for Asriel's circle and all these important people. Imagine him without the lonely years of longing for company while simultaneously being afraid of letting people get close to him. Imagine him without the feeling of going on autopilot through his own life that accompanied him for years before Pickle made him feel alive again. 

This is a good concept to think about. Thank you for the ask, anon!

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XIAO X FEM READER SMUT

it's finally here yall; kinda got mixed feelings so i might rewrite it eventually (give me ur thoughts) other than that, enjoy :)

cw: not proofread, porn w plot, 69, cum eating, face sitting, sub xiao>>>, xiao being inexperienced, idk js read it if you want, lowercase is on purpose

the night was like any other. your legs dangle over the railing of the wangshuu inn, more specifically the roof. your arms support you as you await the green haired individuals arrival. every week, at least once, you and xiao would take the night to rest and chat while enjoying his favorite dish; almond tofu.

you'd grown closer to him over time, and he'd tell you about his day if you asked with enough persistence.

the wind brushes against your body as chills wash over you, not hearing the sound of xiao appearing behind you, too busy listening to the soft chatter of the people below you.

a soft clearing of his throat got your attention as you whirred your head around, facing the man before you who held out your share of tofu.

"oh, xiao! i didn't even hear you coming! thank you for the food." you greet, taking your plate and sitting at the table on the roof that's placed for the both of you.

xiao takes a moment to look take in the scenery before him, nothing he hasn't seen before but is greatful he gets to witness something so beautiful everyday.

"xiao? are you eating?" you ask, moving a piece of tofu back and forth on your plate with your chopsticks, waiting for him before you begin eating.

"oh, yes." xiao says, preoccupied, eyebrows furrowed as if something else has got his mind in a knot.

he strides over to his seat, placing his food down and sitting across from you.

"liyue is beautiful, isn't it?"

xiao says, paying what he said no mind as he tucks a strand of hair behind his ear to make sure it doesn't get in his food.

"hm, oh. you're right." you say, picking up a piece of tofu and putting it in the air, a cheers to the night before biting into it.

"mm, it's good, xiao!" you say in satisfaction, chewing happily on the tofu. subtly eyeing him due to his out of character-ness.

you pick up on xiaos odd behavior, he seems a lot less interested in talking, and is avoiding eye contact.

in an attempt to save the conversation, you ask the same question you do everyday.

"so, how was your day?" you ask, face full of almond tofu.

"i-it was fine. nothing out of the ordinary." xiao says, biting forcefully into his food, seemingly trying to distract himself as his leg bounced vigorously beneath the table.

you shoot him a look of worry, gently putting your hand over his, as he lets out a sigh as if he'd been holding his breath.

"what's going on? do you need to talk about anything?" you inquire, trying to have your questions be less pushy in case it worsened his mood.

"mm-mm, i'm fine." he spoke sternly, finally meeting your eyes as his pupils dilate.

the rest of the meal shared was generally quiet, the occasional comment was made, but it wasn't enough to start a conversation.

the silence is no longer apparent as you begin talking about your day. distracting yourself, looking out to the sunset as you dawdle on the best parts of the day so far. across from you, xiao had been biting his lip, eyebrows furrowed as his arms pumped beneath the table rhythmically, unnoticed by you.

"yeah, so that was my day- xiao?" you cut yourself off, looking over to him and becoming aware of his strange facial expression.

he inhaled sharply as if it were a gasp as you continue to look at him in confusion. you glance over to his arm, that's moving rhythmically under the table. peeking under, xiao's hand grips at his crotch, rubbing it roughly as he grinds into his touch, through the fabric of his pants, you can faintly make out the shape of his cock bouncing; pre staining a small shape on the front of his pants.

"c-can you help me, please?" he begs, not stopping his movements.

"ah! xiao!! shouldnt you be doing that in private?" you ask, your voice a few octaves higher in surprise as you look away.

"should i?" he says, confused as he humps the hand around his girth.

"that- that's something you really don't do in public, xiao" you say, mouth agape as your ears burn with embarrassment.

"please, please it hurts.." he says quietly , trailing off as he groans and rolls his hips against his hand.

you bite your lip nervously, looking around only to see everyone heading to their rooms for the night, hardly anyone else being present around you, let alone as high as the roof; leaving the space to just the two of you.

"i... i guess, are you sure that's okay with you?" you say, eyes gesturing to his hand that was still palming his boner through the cloth of his pants.

"m-mhm! 'jus want it to go a-away." xiao pleads, voice high and whiny; like that of a puppy.

you stand in front of him and kneel to the ground, making yourself comfortable before gently taking his cock out. the tip shines with pre, a deep ombré of red as it throbs in your hand.

xiao gasped, immediately sitting up as you spit on your hand, beginning to jerk his shaft slowly, teasing him slightly. you drag your hand from the base to his tip, where it spits more pre cum thats slides down his shaft slowly.

"ngh... ha.. feels- feels good." xiao wines, biting the back of his hand to keep his whimpers down.

you wrap your hand near the top, and take your other hand to rub your palm around the tip, feeling xiaos legs jolt as you do so.

"still feelin good?" you ask, checking up on him since hes so fidgety.

"mhm!! 'so good.." he said weakly, barely being able to manage a proper breath with the state of ecstasy he was in.

you smile to yourself as you push your hair out of your face and near yourself to his tip so you can kiss it softly.

your lips brush up and down his shaft as pre bubbles from his tip, carefully, you wrap your lips around his length, tongue leading the way as it swirls around his girth.

"wait! don't, 'm gonna.." xiao gasped from above you.

"don't worry about it" you say quickly so you can go back to taking all of him.

his angry tip thrusts in and out of your mouth, repeatedly hitting your uvula as your gagging creates more spit that spills from the corners of your mouth.

"gonna cum?" you tease, tongue flicking up and down over his hole, waiting for him to spill his seed down your throat.

"hah!! yes! 'm so close, please-" he pleads, grabbing a handful of your hair and shoving your mouth back onto his cock.

you feel his cum paint your throat as you rub circles on his thigh, letting him come down from his high.

sitting back, you stick out your tongue and show him his work, seeing his face flush and turn away, you laugh and swallow.

"..'s never felt that good before." xiao confesses, continuing to look away bashfully.

"we should.. do it more often then?" you ask, batting your lashes at him playfully, not being able to help the growing wetness in your panties.

"ah- w-would you like that?" xiao whips his head around to you, eyes blown wide and face a shade of red so deep it looked like he'd been holding his breath when he was looking away.

"..i think i would." you say, creeping between his legs, hands sliding up and down his thighs as your wrap your arms around his neck.

"i mean.. you seemed to enjoy yourself, no?" you speak, grinning. you grab a handful of his soft viridescent locks and pulling him into a kiss. your tongue swipes across his bottom lip and he whines into your mouth.

"i know somewhere better we can do this." you say, grabbing his wrist and quietly tip toe into your room, pushing him back onto the bed after the door is shut and locked, undressing yourself of your top quickly.

"wha- what are you.." xiao says, only to be muffled as your topless figure crawls on top of him, kissing him passionately as you pull away with a gasp, telling him to undress himself as you finish taking your pants off.

turning around, you straddle his chest as you pull his cock from his boxers, pulling your panties to the side as you hover yourself over his mouth.

you hear his breath hitch as he grips your thighs and pull you into his mouth, wet tongue slipping into your hole.

"'m i doing this right?" xiao asks shyly, hand creeping down his torso to rub his shaft.

"mhm, 's perfect, nd let me take care of this for you." you say, leaning forward and drooling on his length before taking all of it in your mouth.

xiao whimpers from your touch, sending shivers down your body as you grind down on his mouth.

"you feel so, so perfect on my cunt baby don't stop." you say, panting on his bobbing erection, xiao groans into your cunt as your essence drips down his chin. you move one hand down to your chest, twirling your nipple between your fingers, feeling them harden from your touch.

xiao rolls his hips to meet your mouth, taking him so deep your nose meets his balls each slow thrust he makes.

"m close xiao, don't stop." you demand, taking your mouth off his cock and stroking it fast, grinding yourself down on his mouth as he suckles your clit.

beneath you, xiao lets out a high pitched wine, flicking his tongue up and down on your clit as you reach your high, throwing your head back and tightly gripping xiaos thigh as yours shake violently around his head.

untouched, xiaos cock shoots sticky ropes of cum into his abdomen, groaning as dirty slurping sounds fill the room as he licks up all of your essence.

having to force himself away, xiao throws his head back, breathing heavy as he wipes your juices off his chin with the back of his hand.

"again?"

[everynya]

sorry ive been mia today im oh so tired but i need to get some thoughts out and this is the only way i can gush abt my oc f/o cuz despite the fact i made an entire site for him and all i cant bring myself to talk abt. he. so um yea gush below…if u dunno who tf im talkin abt its all here wuahaha wait i change my mind dont look or whatever

i want him dead. is this anything

OK BUT SRS i made him like. around a tough time in my life after a friend gave me an idea for an oc f/o and holy fuck ive just been so hooked OC F/O SELFSHIPPERS I LOVE YOU ALL SO BAD GIVE ME UR STRENGTH OR SMTH

idk idk i just mixed a mess of characters or things i like or character i wanted to like but didnt and put it all into a conglomerate of a man and added in extra things ive always wanted to mess with….hello my fat short mixed wasian can we honestly edate

emihiko and nayla are like, idk, lots of weird mixes of things? emihiko holds a lot of traits i really adore in a character, i made him very loyal and determined and cocky and a bit of a weirdo nerd and nayla on the other hands holds aspects of me that idk i just need loved or smth. a vampire who constantly pushes people away and isolates pursued by a werewolf who persistently reaches out to him? haha. what do you call …that

he makes me happy. i guess. these two are so domestically annoying and sure theyre a vampire/werewolf but its the least relevant thing. i just wanted a dog boy. nayla finds such a joy with him yet is like ‘i fucking hate you so bad you sick weirdo’ and emi is like ‘hey cmon cant you give me one chanc- wait ur smiling. wait. omg do u like me? uh i mean i knew it lol haha u like me’ and the whole time they were cuddling on emis bed so its like Okay.

EVERY PIECE OF ART OF THEM STILL MAKES ME CRAZY BTW. BTWWWWWW. hahahahahahashhahshsqiisdjsiwjdidifidisisjwiwudiwuwiwejwiaididuf difi edifnod ok what the fuck is this post becoming my guy

hes just everything to me rn…i hadnt had another main fo in YEARS it was fuyu and peach for so so long like actually…and he just idk, i lauv him so so much i wanna **** *** ****** *** **** (kiss him. im just shy or whatever) curse that i have a top 3 now and theyre all BLONDE GRIPS MY HEAD

anyway perceive them again THAANKKK YOUUUU giggles and kicks my feet over this art again btw teehee hee..hee….im hopeless

[glamfellens]

i was fully prepared to kill Mr Benjamin Gecko with my bare hands 1st time i played FNV.... then he started talking shit about the ncr, whom i did not care for, and i was like. hm. okay. perhaps i shall keep you.

somehow this endearingness was so strong it persisted after he tried and failed to kill me a second time (mr gecko did u not perhaps consider how me crawling outta my grave and crossing the wasteland solely to kick ur ass would mean it'd take more than 4 guys to take me down. ur supposed to be smart)

somehow he is just The Most Guy to ever Guy and i can't be mad at him. its like when ur cat throws up on ur carpet and then looks at u with big sad wet eyes. its okay little man. no crucifixion today x

i would like to preface this with "no crucifixion today x" fucking sent me. thank u for giving me a sensible chuckle this evening benny is just kind of like that. i think at the very least his persistence should be commended, he really did try his hardest to kill the courier. unless he of course slept with them, which is like. well. idk how to explain that one away. he was not thinking with his upstairs brain on that one lmao. benny new vegas is endlessly compelling for me. but he is also a wet little guy. a pet guy, if you will. i'll put him in my purse and carry him around

[flowercrowngods]

is it too invasive to ask about ur particular brand of pains and tireds?

oh love you can always ask i’m a person with virtually no feeling for tact so invade all you want lmao but i wish i had an answer. at least the tireds i know stem from me being in stress overdrive bc i‘m currently doing a 4week teaching practicum and i know i‘m not gonna be a teacher, just gonna finish this degree so i’m in this limbo of “i don’t care about this i don’t wanna be here i hate everything about it” but also i gotta deliver and at least try to hold a passable class and also get up at ass o’clock and take public transport across the whole entire town and i just. i’m the world’s most tiredest little boy fr

and the pains idk they’re just persistent but worse lately (prolly a stress response). especially migraine like symptoms today like pain above my left eye, vision on my left eye being funky and fucky, being dizzy with vertigo every once in a while. but also it’s resting in my forearms a lot today to the point where i had to take some pain killer bc i just refused to like deal with that shit like babygirl i don’t deserve the pains 😔

i should probably see someone about all that but oh well only gonna fuck around and not find out

[mithliya]

I hate the way you are being treated for experiencing trauma and sexual abuse, no survivor deserves this including you. I acknowledge you have incredible grace in dealing with this but more importantly you shouldn’t have to, it’s not right to put a survivor in this situation and constantly triggering their trauma no matter what you think about them. I have had similar experiences with CSA and ongoing SA after and I can’t imagine how I would deal with being picked apart like you have been. I don’t care what grievances these people have with you, if they actually supported survivors they wouldn’t react in this way to you (also I fully believe you about your experiences and about your sexuality if that isn’t clear). It sickens me to see people saying they fight for women’s rights treat you like this. If we can’t support our fellow women what’s the point? I know not all women have the same opinions and politics but it’s seems very basic to me to not harass a survivor of these things. The least they could do is shut up and leave you alone. I honestly don’t know how you can deal with this, I know if it was directed at me I would’ve either fallen deeper into CPTSD or gone offline entirely or both. I am glad you have the strength to continue though bc I think your perspective on many issues is difficult to find and deeply important to hear. I guess I don’t know what I mean with this message other than thank you for what you do and please do not let these awful people take you back into that horrible place that I think all survivors know. Your voice is so important and I hope to continue hearing it, you make change being outspoken. I know we can’t control being triggered and sometimes can’t regulate our responses but I hope that you can block these people and be as unbothered as is possible. Other survivors see you, I see you, I know we are in some ways the same and these people clearly cannot conceive of being in our position

it’s not right to put a survivor in this situation and constantly triggering their trauma no matter what you think about them.

i keep saying this but it just falls on deaf ears!

in terms of how i deal with this… ive said this before & was mocked for it but this has triggered my PTSD several times. i almost always end up having nightmares for weeks afterwards, more flashbacks, and perhaps a mental breakdown or two followed by a long period of dissociation. when i brought up how deeply hurtful it is and how much it triggers me, i end up getting mocked & accused of guilt tripping.

so basically, i’m not allowed to respond to assumptions made about my trauma bc it’s traumadumping. i’m not allowed to talk about the negative impact being harassed over my trauma by these ppl has bc it’s guilt tripping. they have the right to say vile things like saying i’m a “retired ho” (for having a trauma response like hypersexuality as a child and being sexually abused????) and saying that me reacting in a common way CSA victims react to rape a decade ago makes me bipolar or histrionic (love being called a hysterical slut for having a normal reaction to facing rape as my first sexual experience) but i have no right to correct these assumptions at all. it always ends up with several of them harassing me on & off anon, and other people just silently watching. once these ppl leave like they always inevitably do, then radblr starts talking about how horrible these ppl are & often will even harass me over these ppl’s presence as well! idk. it’s a constant lose-lose for me.

anyways… thank u for ur sweet msg ❤️ many other CSA survivours & rape survivours have reached out to me and told me that me talking about my story made them feel less crazy/alone bc they also have a similar story. many are lesbians who face an additional trauma & disgust & shame bc they see how trauma similar to their own is misconstrued & talked about. i’m glad at least that from this persistent harassment i’ve been experiencing for like 5 years now, women with similar stories reached out to me. it made me feel less alone and more understood. i try not to let all this stuff affect me & have been taking breaks online and/or talking to my gf whenever it does take a toll on me. it doesn’t fix it but it helps. some of it is unavoidable bc no matter how many anons i block, i keep getting msgs about it regardless and new blogs keep being made to discuss it

[poisonouspastels]

i rlly want to learn more ab ur herobrine, feel free to use this as an opportunity to infodump about him, id love to hear anything youd have to say :D

YESSSS ok so. idk how many people have seen me rambling abt Herobrine prior so I'll start off with. The basis for him ig? SIDE NOTE I REALIZED HOW MUCH I WROTE THAT I ACCIDENTALLY SURPASED THE CHARACTER LIMIT ON TUMBLR SO I WILL ADD THE REST ON A REBLOG. SORRY FOR WRITING FOR SO LONG ANON I HAVE BEEN AT THIS FOR OVER AN HOUR. ALRIGHT Herobrine was spawned into the new world roughly about one year after Steve and Rana (who were not quite themselves yet) did.

(He is hidden in this image... Right in the middle!)

He was one of the few "players" (so to speak, they aren't in a game but that's the term I always use for them) that was unfortunate enough to spawn in solo as compared to the usual 2-3 amount. Paired with the accompanying starter chest, he managed just fine for a bit, but as the title of Minecraft would imply, he would start having to venture into the caves for resources. His first encounter of remnants of the older civilizations were the abandoned mineshafts. Though the scattered carts and chests were full of things like spare rails, EXTREMELY stale and molded bread, and even some old seeds, his main fascination came from the structure itself. Who made this? Who were the people working here before his arrival? Where did they all go?

This wouldn't be his main priority initially, but it kept digging at his mind. Especially regarding an old book he found within the mineshaft, still topped with a red ribbon and an insignia he had never seen before, let alone the text inside that was nothing like the Commonspeak they all knew at spawn. As time went on, he would find more remnants of the past in different places, and would eventually end up living in the caves almost 24/7. He DID resurface every now and then in different areas to get any mandatory supplies, but usually it would be short lived. At some point though, he did see two people living amongst themselves, one with darker hair and one with a slightly brighter red, and would sometimes watch them from afar... At least, until he'd eventually run back off without a word when he worries they might see him. He's by no means been outcasted from society, but after having no contact with the rest of humanity for so long, things are a bit strange for him. A bit of a recluse he is. The old books he found were always at the top of his interests in this mystery. Some were more basic than others, those were usually the ones that gave him clues as to how to decipher this mystery language. Others were more glossy and "fancy" in a way, undoubtedly well protected against the elements despite all odds. As if they themselves were enchanted... With time he would push himself to try and fully figure out this language, how he could tie it in with Common and go from there. And he did eventually make a breakthrough! "Galactic" he would learn it was called. Herobrine actually carried a book of his own around, a journal he would write discoveries and notes within, usually tucked into a tattered backpack that by this point had definitely see better days. He'd actually practice writing the language in it to get a better grasp of how it worked, so much to the point where eventually writing with it would entirely replace writing in Common for him, nearly forgetting it with time. The only thing ever off after a while about the Galactic language was pronunciation. After all, no one was alive to really SAY these words how they were initially supposed to be said, right...? How would he have known better? Still, this never stopped him from persisting. His curiosity would eventually get the better of him regarding these enchanted books. He had looked at them prior, but the main thing that confused him was the lack of coherent words. I mean, these were words of some sort, undoubtedly, but none he could tie back to anything in Common. Despite this, he would still try. No possible way he would most of this right, nor know for certain what even just a page worth does, but he would never know unless he went for it. It burned.

[petrichoraline]

thanks to @pondphuwin @tinybangtanx and @chinzhillababy for indulging me and in such an incredible way too 😭🥰💖

okay, so *cracks knuckles* this is my big episode 11 prediction theory (and how it came to be) these are my predictions based on these beautiful cryptic resumes showed above. i should post a full ep11 script later, i just really want to get these out in the open before i go offline

at first the oishii pp part made me think in this direction: "those bottle scenes are always a bit spicy so maybe tinngun were doing another round of will-they-won't-they and looking at each others eyes while seductively gulping down pp juice when someone, maybe tinn's mom? walked in on them (and this was the last proof she needed to go off on tinn?)"

but then i was gobsmacked with "only drink from drinks you know about" which is giving "bar safety for girlies 101"? and makes me think about that "how each member of ateez would react if you ask them to watch your glass" video but anyways

i really doubt they're putting drugs into the last ep of The Wholesome Show™️ so there is def something else going on but quite important if two people decided it was vital to mention it

let's go to the other common point: "there is such a thing as taking "falling for you" too far" and "never give up but always watch ur step as u go"

i thought at first that this seems simple enough, a part of a pair (cause it's ep 11, obviously it's not gonna all be about tinngun) clumsily fell while being cute..i did, however, find it a bit sus it's one of two things said that @pondphuwin found worthy to mention..

so @chinzhillababy's addition made me paint a more colourful picture - person A upset person B, some big relationship quarrel occured but person A was like "oh no, this can't be it, i'm fighting for this, for us!" (based on the vibes of love and persistance the clues are exuding) and going after person B in a dramatic fashion, they fell down a solid amount of stairs; i was thinking tinngun tbh but reading about this type of stupidity just makes tiw's face steal tinn's spot in my imaginary scene..i can definitely see por being the needy bf being chased too. this would make sense if them secretly dating was canon and they had a fight about going public..i do, however, think my dash would have been bombarded with posts about it, so i feel i have to exclude that theory

honestly i'm just imagining someone making a dramatic love confession, falling fatally, ending up in hospital and dying (cause tissues?? went off with their acting?? @tinybangtanx your comment is so simple yet so confusing and it sets my imagination OFF)

but i remind myself this is the The Cute Vitamin of the Week Show™️ and get my head back in the boring reality of everyone being safe and sound 🙄 (if someone is actually seriously harmed i will kinda laugh ngl just because it'd feel like i've lost a bet brutally)

i can't get rid of the feeling it's more about a cathartic moment rather than a completely sad one, some type of breakthrough - although i imagine gun being a part of it, it might be the final conflict resolution or at least the open confrontation between tinn and his mom (which i imagine the show wouldn't treat lightly, their mom/son dynamic has been one of the constant themes of the show and this conversation is long overdue, the tension has been building since episode 1); ah, they better not be doing anything to gun's mom, considering the operation went well i doubt they'll be playing a will-she-won't-she (survive) in the last episodes (but the ending of the first resume is so ominous, the type of comment a person who's been hit by a shocker in a show and has been crying over fictional characters and is emotionally exhausted would put at the end of a sentence 😑(this is me squinting at you, mint, this "<3" bothered me more than the tissues comment! two takeaways is a sus amount of takeaways!! it reads as "idk what to tell ya this was a mess and i'm still not sure what i just watched"😭)

ugh let's move on, "arms are NOT legs (sometimes)" was the point at which i stopped squinting out of fear of being spoiled and just snorted loudly... this feels like another drunk gun moment- ohh

okay if the drink comment was NOT about the oishii product placement? if they are two different things OR there's not juice in those bottles? if someone really DID get drunk by accident and this arms-legs moment is just so cute and batshit insane that it HAD to be mentioned (but wasn't that important to the plot)?

i saw the thumbnails earlier btw so i know tiwpor are in this episode for sure but just realised i dont remember the preview from last week as i was trying to figure out what info i have from the previous ep

the arm/leg thing just reminds me of that yeosang video where he put his leg up during a photoshoot instead of his arm because the words sound the same but anyways; it also makes me think of like "give me your hand" and then they give him their leg..? or walking on all fours up stairs? (like it's basically a lot of drunk behaviour imagery, i'm stuck in this scenario lmao) so let's see the rest of the "details"

but before that i want to mention "never give up" really feels more like a not love-related thing, like chase your dreams or run after smth, it's only because of the "falling for you" line that i stay on the "romantic encounter/quarrel track)

(this is my thoughts flowing in real time, if you can't tell, that's why this post is two kilometers long, written in short paragraphs for orderliness and reading it probably feels like being splashed with a shot of espresso in the face at every turn)

okay maybe the arm/leg thing is about a hit? slap vs kick? and the sometimes is like.. whatever gets the job done? lol dramatic por shit if you ask me but maybe soundgun are finally battling that sexual tension out idk (again, my feed would not shut up if that were the case)

"you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" - okay who kissed who? like this is definitely about a cheesy ass romantic moment (im imagining a camping tent cause that's what i associate mosquitoes with apparently lmao but this ain't golden blood); like one of these guys sucked on someone's wrist or..?? maybe it's a cute nickname, maybe it's about the actual insect but someone (i am seeing tiwpor because of a thumbnail being stuck in my head) for sure turned a huh? moment into a cute type of confession thing (i can't get a tiwpor in a tent scenario out of my head, i'm corrupted);

"if you're feeling dizzy hold on tight" - the more i read the more i feel someone ended up at a hospital.. did someone fall off a bike?? did they fall from the stairs?? (there are school stairs in my mind and i can't do anything about that, they're part of my imaginary ep set now)

i am so sleepy at this point i just saw the cute poses they were doing in a gif (and immediately clicked away okay) that i also saw in a thumbnail but i'll try not to put that into my episode

okay so the boys went off with their acting which means that this ain't about gemfourth only probably? it feels like it's a more balanced or side-couple heavy episode; maybe tinngun appear for a mom conflict moment but the rest is establishing what is going on with the other guys? maybe a lot of group scenes again// it wouldve helped if yall mentioned names guys i am sweating over here;

like did the oishii pp come before the falling or not?? who winged their tags here?? this is important you guys :((

i just saw a gif of gun screaming angrily (and first - hot- but second nooo okay this is gonna solidify tinngun as the falling couple, tiwpor can get the mosquitoes and soundwin are on a bike)

speaking of soundgun the arm/leg thing could be related to their whole "i'll be your hands" thing and sound's injury, i feel like it could come back in this episode in some way?

the drinks thing sounds like a silly chinzhilla mess-around gone wrong or a complete accident one of the members caused, like he placed his bottle full of god knows what in the wrong spot and someone drank it in a hurry;

"you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" feels like such a romantic line. like "things that seem bad may bring you more joy than you imagined and could be right for you", smth spoken while one is walking away and the other gently gets hold of their wrist (yes, this is still calm tiw sitting down on a chair in a tent holding por's hand who looks distressed and is also wearing shorts with a belt and an expensive shirt tucked in, no, that will not make the final cut, it's a draft i can't get rid of, you see)

I KEEP SEEING MEME POSTS LIKE SMTH TIWPOR SMTH PAT SMTH AND I AM TOO SLOW AND INTRIGUED AND LOOK AWAY JUST IN TIME YO THIS IS A BATTLEFIELD (like why did all these msp posts start coming in now, is it the americans, did yall just get home and start blogging)

okayy serious conflict and what they are makes me think about the drinks again. if these are reffering to the bottles, aside from the content of the bottle, what else could be important about it? an indirect kiss? someone took gun's bottle and tinn was jealous for example? but that's silly stuff. so maybe there was a note on one of them? i am assuming it's more than one but maybe it is precisely one bottle as the pp this time and there was a romantic message on it (this reminds me of another show that's not coming to me rn). so this note gets in the hands of someone who was not meant to see it so maybe that's how tinngun's relationship gets revealed to the band (i had completely forgotten that was a conflict and could be turned into a big deal, i sobered up a bit and remembered just now); i feel like im way more on track with this one ngl ngl feels.. revelationary

again back to "you don't always need to swat away mosquitoes" - this is soundwin. it has to beeeee. like mosquitoes are annoying but you don't always have to chase them away, you can be a big tsundere about it (prior or post starting dating depending on whether you're sound or win lol) and let them be a part of your life, something like that.

tiw's career expectations vs wishes situation might actually be more than just a throwaway line for the job consultation part of the show, if we get to see more tiw that may be explored a bit. i personally don't know shit about por aside from the fact he's a fan of a teacher and has a fun fashion sense (that might be on me, i have trouble with understanding chinzhilla members) so it's very hard to speculate what they'd do together when given more screentime, all i can think about is their tutoring session and how that relates to career choices so it feels inevitable from my pov that their plot is gonna involve the topic of growing up or defying expectations or smth

the only feeling of dizzyness i can think off aside from bikes is the one gun's mom experiences? or maybe tinn's mom would experience out of shock (y'know, lakorn style) and considering thats the last comment in those tags i'm guessing it's about the end of the episode so maybe tinn's mom finally reacts to tinngun and faints or smth and tinn has to do some doctor- we had that with gun's mom already, moving onn

I JUST REMEMBERED THE PREVIEW WAITT so the last ep ended with hot wave (i absolutely forgot that you do not understand how hard im giggling at myself for that rn, i have to binge shows, otherwise you get me writing about msp for hours and not recalling the most anticipated event of the show happening as a cliffhanger last week) and in the preview they were back at the resort and gun talked about how he didn't want the guys to regret staying with him and they did a group hug.. now the other stuff i don't remember.) i'm guessing they didn't win; the way i remembered is i was like "tf they doing for a whole episode? a road trip?" and it came to me) so if they're back in the resort with pat i'm guessing my dude finally took two minutes to give them some words of wisdom without acting insane; maybe this ending of sorts for them got por thinking about his future and that got him and tiw talking and bonding but some of those tags have to be about tiwpor and yet NONE OF THEM FIT WITH THIS THEORY

[zushimart]

BROOOim so bad at explaining omg . i meant like scara was originally just being like wa wa wa don’t do that again stupid idiot but bc he is just toooooooo good at being angry or at least sounding it then u start to think he’s actually upset. then after you keep apologising he’s just a lil irritated at you bc ur so persistent but he’s mainly upset with himself for not realising how much u value him and ur relationship (bc me personally i love a bit of fboy reader.. idk abt urself) and he’s like Wowwwwww me ur so dumb jesus . all is ok in the end bc he made the perfect plan over an entire night to solve it and obvi he’s like “Dude u rly thought i was mad? pfffttttttttt…… i was just seeing how you’d react obviously” i don’t think this makes sense sorry 😞

NOO I GET IT NOW~ it’s like… he’s so self saboteur … allergic to being candid … so when you’re showing him you’re capable of being open with him, apologize, and even value his feelings above your own over something objectively stupid… it just, like, scares him. grappling with “it’s not that serious” vs. “i kind of actually want it to be that serious.” and the second feeling is a little more vulnerable than he’s ready to be. and worse, to resolve a stupid spat like that, you actually have to communicate honestly with the other person LMFAOOO. the idea that he’d stay up losing sleep over brainstorming how to AVOID healthy confrontation is sooo scaracore. i think this is a perfect example of the way something small can snowball with him since he’s a god awful communicator. a situation that could be solved with a heart to heart can push him to yelling or crying. it’s not like he doesn’t know what he should say, either. he has all the proper thoughts and feelings — i think he can put them into words just fine. the trouble is Saying them. he has to wrap it all up in an insult or cushion it with a “or whatever” “maybe” “probably” and other words that do nothing but dilute a sentence. like, he’s only gonna make things worse lol.

[mahikamihan]

Hello!

Firstly, although I watch basically every crunchcraft stream, sometimes I miss details especially if multiple people are streaming at once, but I'll try my best and maybe have a look at the VODs tomorrow (which I am very happy to do btw)(and I haven't been able to watch any of Miyoungs solo stuff really because she streams too late for me TT ^ TT )

Ok so, I think we're on the same page with the pets- I don't think she ever gave them names- especially the llamas and her parrots- but i'll double check. I didn't watch when she got the cats so idk about that either.

Foolish has visited the deep dark (in the mine near his boat) a couple of times, and came across another portion of it when adventuring with Miyoung and Karl more recently.) But the first time he came across it was when mining for resources with Tina a couple of days after Karl joined- so significantly after his first death. I would agree that he is definitely more careful while in caves now, especially because he knows very little about the deep dark. However, he is very steadfast and curious by nature so he has been taking more risks. Besides just being curious and a bit stubborn, I think his persistance to mine and explore unsafe areas comes from him identifying his role (at least until sam started the iron farm) as the provider for the server- being the most competent minecrafter- risking his life in the pursuit of vital resources to ensure the future safety of his friends, e.g Iron armour for Tina.

The boys are really dedicated to the One Piece bit LMAO, so I predicted with Sykkuno being a marine it would create new tensions. In One Piece, even though there is competition and often battles between pirate crews to claim the title of king of the pirates etc., there is a common enemy in and unspoken alliance against the Marines (who are basically the government/ military) who want to take down all pirates. Therefore, in that way there could still be a significant and central rivalry between pirates like Karl and Foolish, while they acknowledge a wider issue in the common enemy of the marines aiming to stop them both.

Also yes, transcribing Karls book was a lot, but top tip, I figured out that (if you are on laptop/pc at least) you can screenshot/ clip the image of the page from the stream and then input it into a browser image to text converter, that made it a lot quicker.

Hope this helped!

I love talking Crunchcraft and I think sort of unintentional lore is so much more fun to make headcanons and interpret stuff from

I'll check in on ur blog so feel free to ask anything else- or if u just make a post about something I might send an ask with my take/ adding stuff if you'd like

-🦀

omg you don't have to look thru the vods if you're too busy! I'm just naturally curious about the little details 😅 (and yeah, miyoung streams late, it was a pretty dry of streams this morning, so I thankfully got a chance to catch up on some of Miyoung's and Tina's vods while at work)

i go on a pretty looooonnnngg discussion below the line, be warned! (hope you don't mind, I am just in such an inspired mood)

glad to know im not the only one having a hard time with the pet names :') I only knew of muffin bc Tina mentions her when she was talking to miyoung in one of her late night streams, and she got the cats from karl/foolish's streams when they were coming back from adventuring i think? idk if she ever picked names for the parrots/llamas, and she usually mentions them offhandedly in her streams so they're a blink or you'll miss it kind of thing compared to foolish and karl

it's actually SOOOO interesting that they found the deep dark after Foolish's first death, like, especially pretty early on when the revival system was placed! I kinda had a lore-y headcanon similarly that he was pretty level-headed leader and explorer, only much more rebellious and stubborn headed when he first joined the server. Through his first death, he has had this little anxiety that he carries with him about caves and unforeseen dangers now. He get very protective and afraid for his friends when they go in the dark, mining and such (I like a little angst sprinkled here and there). And he make judgements and analyses of other's first deaths as well in order to better himself (the vod reviews). I think crunchcraft!Foosh really understood the weight of his death bc through his hubris (love for treasure and recklessness), he left tina in a dangerous cave alone without a way to safely navigate back home that basically sparked this whole death tax and revival fees. Like imagine having a friend so so integral to your survival and well-being you bend the rules of the universe/server to just have them back. That's some fucking poetry like,,,, what in the accidental characterization that's just ... 🤌*chef's kiss*🤌

:O aaah! i'm so relieved you know one piece bc I would have never gotten that reference! ever! I hope they go through with it in their RP-ing, even a little bit, I would love love love to see it happen and the chaos that would ensue. esp if sykkuno is the opposing force sldklsdk *side eyes his first time meeting rae on mc he blowed her up accidentally*

omg the book thing is genius, im stealing that method now hehehe XD i was typing as i watch the entire time! ;-; i was about to quit thank god he only went up to 18 pages in mc

feel free to check in here every now and then, i think i might engage with more crunchcraft lore knowing that people are getting interested and looking forward to them now and again. I have like, one drabble for miyoung's first day on my queue ready to post and working on foolish's and maybe karl's first days as well. it's suuuuuper fun thinking about how they would be interpreted story/plot-wise!

[sarcophagid]

Hiiii icon✨✨✨

is it cool if I ask you abt how ur ocs' relationship dynamic with others varies depending on who decides to show up to meet tenjiku ahahaha

(pls go crazy)

bad with words so i made a chart but i think i am also bad with charts idk how much this helps. also obviously there’s more to relationships than like/dislike but here is the charts.

timeline 1 graph starts when the caller joins tenjiku up to kanto incident. timeline 2 graph starts about halfway through timeline 1 up to kanto incident.

and details:

in timeline 2 the callers are better with izana, or at least izana knows more about madonna and solo. in all graphs it ends off poorly with izana because that’s when the caller ‘betrayed’ tenjiku, and izana figures out it’s the same person.

the dip in the kakucho-jokanan line is because he initially thought jokanan was an alright guy for getting izana to be so lively and all, so he approached him about how izana was going down a dark path etc. but the caller didn't actually care about tenjiku's path, and izana was Really attached to kisaki's ability to facilitate his vendetta so jokanan just went "sorry buddy it's out of my hands". and after that kakucho sorta considers jokanan as a kisaki with manners.

kakucho more or less likes solomon. his criteria for what makes a person likeable is situationally low and solomon demonstrates a genuine sense of morals and honor which sticks out compared to the other callers. 

speak of the devil kisaki never likes the caller especially the leader, because they’re meddling with tenjiku.

sanzu really hates all of the callers. i can't exactly explain the whole relationship between the caller and sanzu if i want to be concise, because it had less to do with plot and more with backstory and fleshing out characters. so it wasn't included in the summary, but it was pretty important in retrospect.

intially, sanzu was concerned about this group, because they had their fingers in too many peoples pie, so he posed as a different toman member asking the client for help. they turned this 'client' away because it was the peak of the groups infamy and they were too busy. sanzu winds up the most persistent rejected client, and the caller eventually acquiesces to talk, bcz why do you care so much.

note: the callers process is really personal and consists of forming a trusting relationship with a client, which is why they're so picky-choosy with clients - they single out people who don't have anyone else and become the only person they rely on. in this way, money can be completely forgone for a favor system instead. the caller leaves them just as empty, now 'owing' them in some way. (this isn't particularly monstrous or charitable as it sounds).

through exchanges with sanzu, they deduce that he isn't viable as a client but sanzu is interesting in 2 ways: 1) he is already empty save for something requiring all his devotion in a similar fashion to a client. 2) he hides something horrible in his memory relating to this devotion. (this is the scar incident but they don't know)

in timeline 1, their reason for being so isolated was because of a past event they can't remember and refer to as a 'black hole' in their memory (as in, memory goes in but doesn't come back out). they thought sanzu had the same case that they had, so they were curious if sanzu was somehow able to recall his own 'black hole memory', and tried to bring it out.

the impact this has on sanzu's perception of the caller is bad lmfao. but he's also marginally attached to them because at the time, he had to come to terms with the fact that if he were to continue his path of supporting mikey, he would have to resort to worse methods (ex. he later kills mucho which is a big step up from before). he thought the caller, who indirectly caused a lot of conflicts and crimes in the past, knew how to drive a person past the moral obstacles of wrongdoings. in his position, he couldn't confide in someone in toman (later in tenjiku, there's even less people he can trust), so he was ironically safer with a stranger. i won't go into anymore detail because this is a very long paragraph but at the end, they sort of both realize the other person knew nothing about what they were trying to find out (L)

plot-wise, sanzu eventually finds out jokanan and leader are the ‘same person’ before izana does, but he has no loyalty to tenjiku so he doesn’t tell him 😭. in timeline 2, sanzu is more of a neutral dislike because the caller already went through that development so theres no reason to bother him anymore.

anyways sanzu also thinks jokanan is annoying because he keeps calling him stupid shit (horse jokes, soldier-boy (mocking), dog jokes (regionally offensive. not even the right region)).

TLDR: they were using each other b4 they realized the other wasn’t usable at all

another thing i left out more because of incompleteness was that the caller hangs with hanma and hinata for a relatively long time (not the same time lol). i won’t get into that because it’s unfinished rn 😔

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please let us not go back to revision asks if that is considered one 💔

but i do wanna share my opinion on it because i find it interesting 💅🏼 the answer to that question is a little bit debatable i think is the right word. I feel like theres no right answer to it yk? bc whatever u affirm for in the void is true and but then again like.. without the void (at least this is the way u wanna manifest) u wouldnt like have gotten what u desire. PLEASE IDK HOW TK EXPLAIN i know u can affirm and persist but. anyways i just think it depends on the pov yk?? u make up ur own answers😭 THIS IS WHY AFFIRMING IS SM BETTER YALL ITS MUCH LESS COMPLICATED

😂😂LMFAOOOOOO folks do be making stuff complicated

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oh it was me that submitted those asks about the War in Heaven and Satan and all that btw. I just clicked the anonymous ask button due to irrational anxiety :P

hey king. awake + aware now so answering this one so you get the notif nd everything

sorry i will literally never have a satisfactory answer to this because i have seventeen thousand simultaneous thoughts and they all get stuck in the doorframe when they try to leave my brain all at once.

but that's the central thing that makes me go so dfkjghsdfjhds about satan's little speech in the opening of paradise lost is that god's victory is not inevitable from his perspective! ur raised religious and told over and over that while god will never be defeated by satan, you can fall to him. you can fail. and when you leave the religion i think the central idea is that like. fuck. not to unpack religious trauma but what i did when i stopped being catholic was accept that i was never going to be good. i had a while where i didn't believe in god but even as i condemned the religion for the harm it had done, it didn't get rid of the framework of "what the bible says to do is the good thing to do"? so leaving catholicism for me at least was a matter of "fine, i'll go to hell. better to do that than to be a good person in the way that they want me to be." and still accepting that god is the stronger power but that the individual can fall to damnation. and so for this text to introduce the idea that god's victory is not inevitable, that even his victory can still be a failure in that there was even a threat to his victory at all, drives me fucking CRAZY man. can't even express it it just drives me wild.

this is just what we're presented from satan's perspective obvi and the actual text of the poem that's Not his speech does suggest the utter futility of his resistance and the fact that his rebellion only heaps more damnation and suffering onto himself as he tries to damn others. but like. that's not what we're discussing.

i am CERTAINLY not qualified to comment on the vietnam war here dfkjh i understand what you're saying though and i think it's super super interesting! the idea of the bible as propaganda is like. thoughts going brrrrrr. mostly because it insinuates that the church is doing the propaganda and creating a cycle where they perpetuate the lies and then create believers who perpetuate the lies etc. etc. and like. validates the central truths of the religion (god is real hell is real satan is real and they are in conflict) but doesn't validate its Perspective... literally do not even know what commentary to provide here. just know i am thinking about this. (also doesn't imply that heaven is the prideful one boasting their invulnerability but that humanity is projecting that onto their image of heaven and presenting it that way through the text of the bible cause while god sent some messages it was ultimately men who wrote it...)

god. okay. what else. what does a decisive satanic victory over god look like. i mean killing god would certainly be one thing but then i think those values would still persist so that even when you kill god he still exists in the beliefs and the actions of the people who follow him and he isn't really dead at all. a decisive satanic victory, i think, would have to assume that humanity is evil at their base (the assumption that we are always prone to sin and have to actively work to keep ourselves clean while sin is as easy as breathing) and then fully eradicate the influence of god to send the world into like. idk. whatever shit they had going on in sodom and gomorrah. antics of the original crop of humanity that made god commit genocide and start fresh. and for god to be unable to do anything about it. nd i mean that's always the goal of hell isn't it?? damn all of humanity, take them out of god's influence and far from his ability to save them, make god watch as his creations turn away from him and are twisted into something evil. there's certainly a deeper more theological way to describe a victory like that but at a base level that's where i would put it. anyway most of this is 100% not what you were looking for in your ask but here you go sorry it took me two days to respond </3