#assshe was so rtstrong at first

[jvpiterstears]

vent-ish.. content warnings: system dormancy / trauma talk / tacomic & paco (mentioned)

note to self. apparently, alters can and will force themselves into dormancy if/when they feel too stressed about things. including alters who have important roles.

including the host.

i’m sorry, taco. i’m sorry you felt so unwanted by the world. that you felt like no one would ever accept you… you deserved to feel safe and comfortable. you shouldn’t have had to force yourself into dormancy because of what people have said about your source self— you aren’t her, even if you’re still source attached.

i know it was stressful to hear so many horrible things about you. to hear people call you an abuser, say you deserve to die, saying you shouldn’t be allowed to live a normal life, so much hate and pressure was pushed onto you… i know you were hurting. i know what terrifying things you remembered happening in your childhood and i feel so terrible for you. no child should ever be put through so much just to get blamed for their natural response to the trauma… you weren’t even 13 when your family was doing horrible horrible things to you. physically and mentally, it’s not a surprise you turned out how you did.

and i know you loved pickle. you loved mic, too. and you thought you could never find anyone who would accept you for that, but trust when i say there are so many people out there who support who you were.

you were from a world where everyone hated you and even in this world had to feel like that was the case… i know i’m saying this a lot but i really am sorry. i’m so, so, so sorry and i hope you come back soon.

because we’re falling apart without you in charge.

-marshmallow(⚪️)