#asra thirst

[living-undead]

✦✧✦ Peaceful Respite ✦✧✦

A break from the spinning wheel of life, secluded, basking in other forms of it.

Today marks 30 years. 30 long years.

30 years and I'm still a sad, pathetic mess. They call it a "mid-life crisis" yet this feeling has persisted for far longer than the average length of a "mid-life". 30 long years and I still can't look her in the eye and tell her-

✧✦ HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, EBI!!! ✦✧

Can you explain why you've decided to ambush and grapple me?! It is a hug, dumbass. Hehe. Are you so old and out-of-touch that you've forgotten how one tenderly shows their love and affection?

Do not tell me you have failed to grasp why your dearest sister would wish to feel protected in the vicinity her older brother. Is that it, have you already gone senile? Asra will you-

Will you stop acting like such a grump and come celebrate with me? You make Kyo look like a beacon of positivity. How come you are always so sad, anyways? What? Are you planning on leaving us again-

Will you shut the hell up for 2 seconds? Will you stop acting as an emo piece of shit and listen?

I will kill you if you give me orders again.

Tch. Fine. Arguing over this won't get us anywhere and, even then, you're right. What did you have planned for this "Anniversary", anyways? Wait, really?? You are serious? My intentions are as clear as water.

HEY, KYO, DID YOU HEAR THAT?! HE SAID HE'S COMING WITH US!!! Wait- what the hell- AND HE EVEN ADMITTED HE WAS WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING; THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!!! Wait- I didn't-

The yelling isn't exactly necessary considering I'm just around the corner... also, sis, Malady was tellin' me about this thing called "dead naming"-

Wait- Morgan?! WHAT THE HELL?! You two are yelling way more than usual- You can't just come out of nowhere so nonchalantly! What the hell is going on?!

Hehehe

Yes!! Ahahahah!!! We're all together again!! A big happy family!! You're so damn annoying sometimes... You know you love it! You know you love me!! Man, you two...

✦✧✦ You two really are something else... ✦✧✦

The end to a rather peaceful evening.

[teeth-farie]

I saw you're open to hear nsfw hc and 👀

I can't help but think Asra cries after sex (regardless if he also cried during-) but like, lovingly? You know, after they finish and they're just catching their breath, the feelings hit and he can't help but hug tightly and cry a bit because he's so in love,,,, he's such a sweetheart he'd get emotional and won't want to let go as he sobs for a bit on his lover's shoulder/chest <3

YES!!! YESSS!!!!!! Asra is truly a passionate and loving person, and especially after your first time together? He’s sniffling as you clean him up, reassuring you with a wobbly smile. “Good tears, I promise.” He’d say to you, nuzzling into your warmth when you join him back in bed. He’s just so full of love that he can’t help it, especially while in the throes of climax.

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

M6 with a super smart MC please?

The Arcana Mini-HCs: M6 with a super smart MC

Julian: he is so attracted to this. please let him talk medicine to you so you can talk back and use medical terms so obscure it makes his knees go weak - ah, that is, he enjoys academic discussions with you

Asra: forever fascinated and delighted by how quickly you learn and apply things. they're in the habit of lovingly treating you like a walking encyclopedia ("Hey MC, how do you think this works?")

Nadia: genuinely sees this as yet another universal sign that you two are made for each other. gives you the keys to the Library and loves nothing more than a late night discussing philosophy and astronomy

Muriel: a little intimidated at first, but admires your thirst for knowledge and your competency with it. likes asking small questions so he can listen to you share all of those brilliant thoughts of yours

Portia: she felt a teeeny bit jealous of your education at first, but once you two got together and she got to learn all these new things with you, you became her favorite conversation partner. tell her more!

Lucio: he was a little a lot threatened at first, but he grudgingly appreciated it because it was helping you solve his ghostly goatman situation. now he thinks you "talking smart" is a cool party trick

[gauloiseblue]

Gauloiseblue's Bookmarks

A/N: Since there's no bookmark system like they had in AO3, I decide to make one on this site. Will update the list from time to time.

COD

Price

[The True Me] by @i-am-hungry-24-7 Useless by @syoddeye Lazy Saturday Mornings by @clementine-thedestroyer Price and Beauty Mark by @ohmygraves Growing older with john price. by @obsessivelullabies Growing older with john price; smut. by @obsessivelullabies Ex-husband price, but the “ex” lays on significantly blurred lines now. by @captainfern Ex Husband!Price by @moongreenlight (A/N: you have NO idea what this fic had done to me) The boys all collectively realize that you are the captain’s favourite by @dante-mightdie weird HC by @theycalledhimastar

Gaz

lavender skies by @yeyinde (A/N: Gaz girlie, please read this I'm begging-) I may love Kyle, but I can totally admit when he acts like a total weirdo (he doesn’t, he’s perfect). by @theycalledhimastar

König

Ex-Lover Konig with runaway reader by @diejager Dog Hybrid König by @comfortless Hades!Konig and Persephone!reader by @comfortless Aroura Borealis by @clementine-thedestroyer Underground Fighter!König X Rich!Reader by @melancholic-thing

Soap

Rugby player soap fucks you after a win by @vanderilnde Pushy ass cbf!johnny and benefit pay by @shotmrmiller Valentine Days with Soap by @killerpancakeburger cbf!johnny as the dog he is by @ghouljams

Ghost

soulmate au with ghost but it's the fucking opposite of rainbows and sunshine by @bi-writes

Poly/HC

Fancy (Vampire! Poly! 141 x Plus size! Fem! Reader) by @swordsandholly 141 80’s Arcade AU by @clementine-thedestroyer TF141 and "can I try your drink?" By @syoddeye (A/N: don't @ me) 141 when they need attention by @void-my-warranty TF141 when you gave him hickey when you're drunk by @gloomwitchwrites

The Arcana

Asra's Love by @bahrtofane Teen Asra and puppy love headcanons by @smoke-and-silver Trip adventures with Asra by @smoke-and-silver Arcana and Weddings (fanarts) by @bastart13

Random/Miscellaneous

A/N: I put all of the Ghost Band stuff here bc I'm not officially into the fandom, but they're so irresistible to read hnggg

THEN // if (then) FINAL PART (Ghoap Comic) Roach's puppy eyes Korangi pt. 1 Korangi pt .2 Korangi (sus) pt. 3 Korangi (even more sus) pt. 4 Ghoap food pt. 1 👍👍 Self-care (Ghoap short comic) Capt Price having a cheeky wank (audio) Barry Sloane thirst trap (maybe) Bare chested Barry- Barry ugly ass poems (i'm horny) Barry Sloane seducing clip ASMR Barry talking ASMR Barry (Price) pt. 2 The band Ghost wildin' Ghost band shenanigan: part 1 The Ghouls + Rut Season (HC) Swiss meets red velvet ‘you’ve got to press it on you.’ (Ghost Band HC) Nameless Ghoul NSFW headcanons Swiss relationship and NSFW headcanons .... yeah I'm normal I swear St. Vincent *heart eyes* Miyazaki's Retirement Declarations (chronologically) Hayao Miyazaki's "Inspirational" Quotes The Hand

Web Weave | Poetry

not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing [what would happen between earth and the moon if the earth stopped spinning as illustrated by xkcd randall munroe] - Lyudmilla Ignatenko, the wife of deceased firefighter Vasily Ignatenko, Voices from Chernobyl, by Svetlana Alexeivich (transl. Keith Gessen) Robin Wood, “Psychoanalysis of Psycho” | Stoker (2013) dir. Park Chan-wook Stoker (2013) dir. Park Chan-wook and "The Lady of the House of Love" by Angela Carter This Is Me (Stoker 2013) Rice Paddies Home (What Is Home?) Whenever I see you, I remember AM I MAKING YOU FEEL SICK? // DEVOTION THAT EATS YOU ALIVE

[matchalovertrait]

📩 Simblr question of the day: Who are some of your favourite sims/OCs from other creators?

I have toooo mannnnyyyyy, so yes these are some of my favorites:

♡ @changingplumbob's Devin Villareal

♡ @deardiaryts4's Taryn Fitzgerald

♡ @ruthplaysthesims's Tyson Blackwell

♡ @living-undead's Asra Thirst

♡ @miralure's Ravena Jett

♡ @authorspirit's Jillian Sapphire

♡ @thosegothsims's Mynthe Berey

♡ @smulie's Stevie Blackwell

♡ @sharona-sims's Michael Bell

♡ @cinamun's Jerri Coleman

♡ @druidberries's Raven Stein

♡ @mdshh's Rose Forks

♡ @aurorangen Renee Reichmann

♡ @teadreamsims's Melissa Cordwell

♡ @cakepoppresent's Xavier Reeves

♡ @simmenycricket's Ruby Jackson

♡ @simsbyjo's Lottie Kim

♡ @ktysh's Charlie Rosado

♡ @simssong's Harper Singer

[impashableimagines]

Im in need of asra smut, please quench my thirst. (Asra x The Apprentice) 💆🏻🙇🏻‍♀️🙏🏻 thank you. God bless you 😩😂😂

Hope this sates your need (even though it's like 2 years too late)! I'm writing for a Fem!MC bc it was not otherwise specified:

Asra's first instinct after bringing MC in as their apprentice is to be friendly. Just, friendly.

But as they get to know her, that becomes so much more difficult than they thought it would be.

She's just too charming, too soft, too inviting.

So when she accidentally-on-purpose implies that she'd like to bed Asra in the form of a casual, off-handed comment, they decide it's time to stop holding back with their flirting.

What used to be friendly chatter slowly transforms into flirty banter and soft touches, sensual massages, and gentle kisses to your cheek.

It all progresses very slowly, cautiously, because they don't want to push her boundaries before she's ready, despite her all but having verbally consented.

So unless she pushes for more, it will take a while before they get anywhere sexually. Asra's too much of a gentleperson to introduce the idea, even if they're both interested.

So, with that in mind, she's the one to initiate the first time.

She meets Asra for dinner at home after a day of dealing with local merchants, and after being flirted at forwardly by seemingly everyone, that is, except the one person she actually wants to be forward with her, she's frustrated.

She grabs them by the collar of their shirt and pulls them into her, her lips pressed firmly against theirs. They'll melt into her advances instantly, surging into the kiss more deeply and instinctively grasping at her hips to hold her as close as possible.

As previously mentioned, she's got to guide Asra here, as they don't want to risk overstepping her comfort zone, but if she acts enthusiastically, they will too.

As soon as she expresses enthusiastic consent, expect Asra to worship her. On their knees, enthusiastically, face buried into her cunt and arms wrapped around her, hands grasping at her hips to hold her steady as they eat her out.

Asra feels entirely like a service-switch, basically melding into whatever role suits the mood of the moment.

The first time they fuck, Asra makes sure to thoroughly prep MC and tease her, getting her off with their mouth and fingers more than once, sinful moans and words of praise falling from their lips whenever they come up for air.

"You taste so sweet, my love, I could feast on you all night." They'd murmur against her skin as they suck her slick from their fingertips. "How does that sound?"

They'll build up her frustrations so sweetly, making her come again and again on their fingers and lips until she's growling and practically pouncing them for more.

She'll push them onto the bed and climb onto their lap, grinding against their hardened member until they're whining, arching their hips up to meet hers in desperation.

Both of them are desperate for more contact, but she'll drag it out in a playful act of vengeance for their prior teasing. The more buildup, the more anticipation, the better the act will be, she knows.

Finally, she unbuttons the desperate magician's pants, freeing their cock, and she slips her panties to the side to sink down onto it with pleasure, drawing the most perfect groans from Asra's lips.

As much as MC would love her full vengeance, she decides against it in favor of riding them to her (and their) conclusion, and continuing to bounce on their cock until she can hardly move anymore, dragging as much pleasure and overstimulation out of Asra as they did from her.

[bakuliwrites]

M6 on TikTok

A very short, quick headcanon set of the M6 and what I think they would post on TikTok!

Asra- daily tarot readings, knitting asmr, FAUST!, pranks on Lucio with Portia and MC snickering in the background

Nadia- high-end fashion reviews, Get Ready With Me, sped-up videos of her building contraptions, Asra, Julian, and MC (and sometimes Valerius) make guest appearances when Nadia wants to do live sessions (usually gossiping about Lucio or discussing current events)

Julian- showing off his leeches, sound (mostly) medical advice, shaky camera-work on a ship, frantic screaming back and forth between him and Malak, tall-tales, has been banned a couple times for getting a bit spicy but always gets his account back

Portia- pranks on her brother, baking videos, adorable videos of Pepi, all the hot gossip on the internet (she knows it all)

Muriel- never shows his face, only has peaceful animal videos, Asra pops in every once in a while with Faust, Inanna of course

Lucio- thirst traps, has a back up account because he has been banned before for showing a little *too* much, guest appearances from Valerius and Nadia (usually Lucio annoying them in one way or another), fashion and cologne reviews, responds to everyone in his comments (for better or worse)

[synergysilhouette]

My MC for "The Arcana"

I swear, I made like 3 MCs during my Reddit days, but I don't feel like searching for them, so I decided to make a new one for a sadly underrated mobile app. Perhaps one day we'll get something on a major platform--if Dorian ever gets their act together.

Name: Iliad

(Haven't decided if he's Hispanic, Romani, or Southern European and I want his surname to reflect this)

Age: early 20s (let's imagine everyone else is in their 20s-30s in my post since the devs never confirmed ages anyway)

Hair color and style: Medium-length teal hair with gold highlights

Eye color: Violet eyes

Skin color: Tan (roughly around Nadia's skintone)

Build: Muscular (somewhere between Muriel and Lucio), 5"7, not to mention thicc af

Identity: Homosexual homoromantic cisgender male; uses he/him pronouns

Love interest(s): Lucio (his red confession suit is his normal one here, Muriel, Julian, and Asra--NOT all at once; personal headcanon is that Asra/Muriel is canon in Julian's route (and Iliad and Julian have crushes on Salim), Asra/Julian is canon in Lucio's route (as well as Lucio and Iliad collectively thirsting for Namar), and Julian/Nadia is canon in Asra's route.

Personality: Sweet and heartfelt as well as an intellectual. That said, he often puts other before himself (explaining his somewhat problematic relationship choices)

Background: Grew up in a noble family in Prakha with two older brothers

Fashion: Kaleidescope-inspired sleeveless shirt with plunging v-neck, silver armband, and pants that made him look poured into (he does wear conservative versions of this on certain occasions); masquerade look is peacock-inspired.

I may add more details later!

[apprenticevella-amell]

Muriel's wood chopping videos do well because his breasts boobily and his thighs slap while he's like "welcome to my handmade 12 sided axe I made I will demonstrate how it chops my firewood in one swing"

He does cook beside the river but Asra has to be the camera person bc he doesn't know how to frame, and he's definitely the sad guy who's deep dish fucking fell in the river because the dish cracked it was too hot. And everyone behind the camera laughed and cried over it. If ur apprentice is feral enough (like cedar) they can eat it out of the river to make muriel feel better. Thank you for peeing into my brain

His axe videos go viral for a different reason than he expects and then we get asra having muriel read thirst tweets about his tits and crushing peoples' heads with his leg muscles.

Like this post if you would eat muriel's soggy deep dish

[living-undead]

✦✧✦ Reunion ✦✧✦

Together again.

These foul western wolves, constantly shifting, like visceral winds. Untamed.

I like them. They treat me with the respect that I deserve.

Only kings seek servitude from the masses.

Then it is good that I am ineligible to be a king.

You keep speaking, yet I've not heard an explanation. Why are you here?

One does not lose children; it is the child who is loses themselves. In their loss, they seek truth. It is a parent's duty to assist their child's search for that truth. I could not assist you by keeping you with me, but you seem to have found your truth here, and so I have deemed it necessary to reunite our family.

I am... I am glad you are safe... I am glad you two are together again.

It was a pretty nonsensical reunion. I still don't even get how he got here.

You cannot pierce the veil if you approach it with such aggressive steps.

Can we skip the proverbs, plea- I promise you it is unintended.

I'll rephrase my prior question then. Who told you that we are here?

Prudent. Understandable. Though, invoking the name of the dead... is ill-advised.

So, it was them. The other. My brother. The other brother. Rest his soul. As all souls should.

Though, it would seem the hour of the moon wanes, and your assertations are correct. My intrusion is entirely unwarranted, and so I shall move on to assail another and leave you with something to chew on. Figuratively.

Cleo. Never forget...

✦✧✦ Never forget those who love you most ✦✧✦

A victim of circumstance, subjected to the torment of loving and being loved.

[teeth-farie]

More Asra thoughts because I love the way you write and understand his character <3

I can't help but think he may have "borrowed" a few clothes from the apprentice (like a scarf or sweater, not really announcing they were indeed borrowing it) and taken them with him when he makes long travels... Specially after the resurrection, their yearning and love is too much they just need something to carry that smells/feels like their love </3

And maybe he couldn't help but touch himself while holding it, because the craving was too overwhelming? And maybe he felt guilty afterwards :( ....but would probably end up doing it again on his next travel

YES!!! He loves to “borrow” things of yours, be it jewelry that you roll your eyes about taking, or a scarf of yours that he has hidden away for lonely nights. It’s his deepest secret, an item he guiltily snatched early into knowing you, when he was dumbly in love (not that he isn’t anymore).

He takes it with him on his travels, holding it up to his mouth and nose at night, palm pressed against himself. The smell is faint now, preserved with a small string of magic, but it’s always been enough to send him over, clutching the fabric tight.

Asra shames himself about it after, putting it back in its little box, yet going back to it every time he misses you

[lorei-writes]

hmmm 3 things I wanna know…

1- your absolute favorite character to write for

2- your dream vacation

3- how open you would be for people to pop into your inbox with thirsts 🤭

Hiya!

Re: 1

Hmm... I wouldn't say I have just one character, but I do have a class of characters? Namely, my most beloved favourites: Masamune, Chevalier & Asra. If allowed to, I'd babble about them day and night, day and night...

Re: 2

Eee, nothing too fancy, to be honest. I'd just like for the weather to be nicely warm, and to be able to see my friends. All the rest is secondary.

(May not seem like much, but due to the pandemic and some other factors, I haven't hung out with one of my closest friends since summer 2019... I miss that a lot.)

Re: 3

Hmm... I'd say I'm open to that? I'm more of a lore/meta person, but good thirsting never hurts, even thought I'm probably closer to the vanilla end of things. I love talking with you guys just overall, haha.

However, I wouldn't like to be approached in this way by Anons or people who haven't specified their age. (Or minors, but that goes without saying).

ask game

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

do what you want with this but, if you haven’t already written something similar, m6 with an mc who struggles with taking care of themselves (not because low self esteem or bad mental health, just general forgetfulness/not recognizing certain bodily cues (thirst, hunger, tiredness)) but would drop everything they’re doing to take care of the other?

The Arcana Mini-HCs: M6 when MC forgets to take care of themself

Julian: what, you think he isn't exactly the same? you two reach new levels of "properly cared for" around each other, which is a relief to everyone who knows you, as long as you don't go too long without seeing each other

Asra: they are all about giving people space to make their own decisions. he also wants you to eat properly. their general approach is to make self care so appealing that you do it anyways. (he made soup, MC, try some!)

Nadia: finds it endearing but also slightly concerning. gives you several reminders a day to eat and drink and won't sleep until you're tucked in next to her. instructs palace staff to care for you for her when she's on trips

Muriel: it makes him anxious. seriously, MC, why are you living like there's nothing to eat when you've taught him that good food exists? like it's not safe to sleep when he's happy to keep you safe?? please eat and sleep???

Portia: you're little too much like her brother in this regard and she has to learn a response that doesn't involved punching. she usually ends up leaving out food where it's easily seen and bodily dragging you to bed to sleep

Lucio: he's not the best at keeping track of your habits, but he is good at being able to tell when someone is combat ready and when they aren't. you definitely aren't. please eat and sleep before you get hurt, he's worried

[sapphiewritesstuff]

yo. I'm sapphie and I write stuff.

She/Her. European and indigenous

Requests are always open! Please send in asks twice incase tumblr eats them

It may take me a while to complete requests, I struggle with writers block but I promise that I will write every request that I am comfortable with/follows my rules :))

Requests will also not be done in order, I do not prioritize one request over the other. I write whatever inspires me. Please understand

Masterlist

Works-in-progress

Fandoms I write for:

My hero academia

Black Panther

The Arcana (I will only write for Asra at the moment, I will add more characters as I play their routes)

Error143

The last of us (only for the show as of now, I will play the game soon!)

Moon Knight (TV show only)

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Rules

I can write suggestive stuff, but I will very rarely write full on NSFW content (please keep in mind that I will only write suggestive and NSFW content for those who are canonically adults, NSFW content will be tagged. Anyone can read my NSFW content, teens have hormones, I get it, and nothing I say can stop them from reading, but please do not interact with my NSFW content if you are under 18 for safety reasons, thank you.)

Unless stated otherwise in the warnings section of a post, my writings are for anyone regardless of age, race, gender, ect. This blog is a safe space.

I do not write illegal ships for obvious reasons (incest, pedophilia, rape, ect.)

I can write character x reader, character x character, or character-centric fics. I focus on x reader.

I can write platonic and polyamorous relationships

I can write yandere, I will tag these posts accordingly

As of now, I only take requests for drabbles, thrists, and headcanons, no full length fics or one-shots. This is because I can get requests out faster while still providing my best work. This may change and I will still write one-shots if I feel inspired enough.

You can find all of my drabbles, headcanons, and fics on my masterlist. My thrists are tagged as sapphie thirsts

DO NOT BRING ANY NEGATIVITY OR NEGATIVE DISCOURSE HERE. This blog will be a safe place. Discussions are allowed, respectful ones, but I will shut them down if they get heated. Whenever I post discourse, they will be tagged as #discourse

In conclusion; be nice, be respectful, remember that this is my blog and I can do what I want, and don’t be weird. That’s all, mwah

[hellothereiplaygames]

This sums up my feelings about it pretty succinctly, where I think it really comes down to the writers at this point in time. I originally played Julian's route, then Asra's, and then have now played through each of the six routes and gotten both endings for each. Having already played Julian's route when I first played Asra's, Julian accusing Asra of being his accomplice seemed very forced (not knowing yet that Valerius accuses Nadia in her own route, so all three of the original routes take more or less the same path) in order to inject drama into the narrative. They needed to draw attention back to the hanging in order to make the Justice and Hanged Man chapters make sense. I can't even remember how they did it in the other three routes. I think Portia's might have diverted from this point with the arrival of Tasya.

It's only after playing Muriel's that this scene really struck me as odd and with scary implications, because if Asra did go along with this as nonchalantly as it appears from the information provided in the game, it isn't entirely out of character for them. It's evidence of how far he's willing to go for the Apprentice, and I'm just not with dragging your friend into something so triggering.

Once again, in Asra's defense, when first encountering Muriel in their route, he seems very concerned about Muriel's well-being, asking if he's eaten and if he has any food and genuinely seems to care about him just as much as Muriel cares about Asra. He clearly cares more about the Apprentice, but Muriel is definitely right after them. Their love language and way of showing affection and care is directly analogous to the way he treats the Apprentice.

After the comments made about the writers steamrolling them into a scene that more or less made all of them act out of character and someone else mentioning they think the whole scene is fanservice, the inclusion of this scene makes sense. The fanservice theory in particular makes sense considering the three decent male love interests are in revealing clothing and they even have Asra disintegrate Muriel's chains to make his form more overtly obvious. I do think that's what happened behind the scenes and that is the real root of the problem. Pretty sure at the time I originally played this game everyone was hyped to see Julian wearing his little gladiator outfit and the thirst was insane.

Still, it is very concerning that given the themes Asra's route deals with that it isn't out of the realm of possibility that he would choose to put Muriel in such a position in order to be with the Apprentice. All-consuming obsession and avoidant coping mechanisms and all that. I certainly hope he wouldn't do such a thing, but the fact that I can't really tell is very telling. It also gives Muriel's feelings toward the Apprentice more context.

But especially with the speculation about fanservice (which clearly came into play with the game's writing, i.e. woobified Lucio) makes the scene make a lot more sense and I feel inclined to feel like it's not really canon as well... because like... what is even happening? When I look through old versions of the prologue and other aspects of the game, it seems like they didn't have a concrete direction to take everything in and the fans' desires did start to outweigh the story's integrity at a certain point. Perhaps this is the point in Asra's route where this begins. Nixhydra made a lot of questionable choices with the game, so I guess this is just another example of it that unfortunately reflects very poorly on Asra's character, if you choose to read it that way. And once again, it ends with marginalizing Muriel (who is heavily indigenous-coded) and his suffering in particular, which has me grinding my teeth.

Some thoughts on Asra's route...

Replaying Asra's route after having played Muriel's really hits different...

In one of the other routes Asra and Muriel appear to start a romantic relationship, and in Asra's route it's very clear that Muriel cares very deeply for Asra and dislikes the Apprentice. He mentions in one of the paid? dream scenes that he's worried about Asra and the Apprentice fading into their own world and leaving everyone else behind (again, apparently), and that he's determined to stop this from happening. His concern for Asra and initial hostility toward the Apprentice may be rooted in jealousy, not only because his oldest (and only) friend was more or less taken from him, but perhaps with romantic connotations as well.

In Book XI: Justice, Asra and Julian stage a mock trial by combat against Muriel. Though he apparently agreed to participate and is implied to have returned to the Coliseum of his own volition, presumably out of concern for Asra, who has been accused of being Julian's accomplice... he is still more or less backed into a corner and forced to play along with Asra and Julian's plan to stage a fight.

Now, to be fair to Asra, he states after everything goes wrong that it wasn't supposed to end this way, and it appeared that he was attempting to not only exonerate himself and Julian from their charges but somehow help Muriel overcome his past (he does disintegrate Muriel's chains during the fight no matter what choices you make). There was a point during this that I thought I could guess what Asra's plan was regarding Muriel's past, but being refreshed on how it actually pans out, I can't remember it now. Something about making the people of Vesuvia realize how barbaric the Coliseum was under Lucio.

The thing that stands out to me throughout this whole ordeal is that Asra knows about Muriel's trauma. He knows he was enslaved to Lucio and forced to fight and execute people in the Coliseum. He knows that Muriel is terrified of hurting other people, especially those he cares about. In Asra's route, the only person Muriel cares about is Asra, so hurting him is triggering for him. He literally is in a stupor after the board he was using as a weapon splinters off and hits Asra in the mouth, making him bleed. This is clearly meant to make the reader worried about Asra, but Muriel reacts as well, and appears hypnotized by the blood. I remember the first time I read this I thought he was going to have some crazy berserker-Hulk sort of reaction, but having read his route, it's way more tragic.

Though Muriel did seem to return to the Coliseum of his own volition, it does seem that Asra took this as a sign that he was coming to terms with his trauma. He was willing to exploit Muriel's care for him in order to save his own skin so he can be with the Apprentice. Though I recognize Asra's other toxic traits to some degree, I also have similar ones myself so they don't really stand out to me. This, however, where he more or less disregards Muriel's feelings on the matter, is actually really crushing. In Muriel's route, his whole thing is that he DOES NOT want to fight, he DOES NOT want to even spar with the Apprentice with blunt sticks out of fear of hurting them, so why would he willingly go along with this unless he was more or less in the same position Lucio put him in? Fight in the arena, or something bad will happen to Asra.

Asra knows this, and puts him through it regardless. During the whole fight, Julian's actions are written so as to make it seem like he's the one messing things up--he takes the "finishing blow" that Muriel was going to deal to Asra and gets knocked unconscious. Asra spends most of the entire time doing flashy, dramatic magic tricks that get the crowd cheering for him. After he "wins", he and the Apprentice are carried out of the Coliseum like heroes. Though Asra will try to soothe Muriel if the Apprentice so chooses right before the end, and he does look for Muriel in the crowd, he seems otherwise unbothered or unaware of the impact this may be having on his oldest friend. Which is pretty shitty.

Of course, Asra, Julian, and Muriel are all playing characters during their fight--Asra is the flashy magician, Julian is the rogueish BDSM dagger guy, and Muriel is the Scourge. Asra obviously can't show his concern even if he wanted to because he's supposed to be fighting Muriel. But putting his bro into this situation in the first place says a lot about his character. Though Julian is the one whose route is based around self-loathing because he believes he hurts everyone around him, Asra is the only one who gets what he wants out of this ordeal, and he even says so right before the chapter ends. Muriel was forced to relive his trauma and didn't get the resolution that was intended, and Julian gets KOed by a punch that literally sent him flying across the arena (though he probably enjoyed it tbh, he's a nasty little man like that lmao).

I wonder if this dynamic between Asra and Muriel was intentionally written this way in order to further amplify his tunnel vision when it comes to the Apprentice. Is this is how he acted in the past, causing Muriel to hate the Apprentice as he does and remark that he won't allow it to happen again? Maybe (probably) I'm reading too much into it, but as a survivor of abuse and trauma it rubs me the wrong way much more than Asra's obsessive, clingy nature. Of all of the reversed ends, Asra's is the one that actually scared me and kind of haunted me, because it hits a little too close to home.

These are all just thoughts that I wanted to spill out because I thought it was interesting and I wasn't sure if anyone else has talked about it before.

[vesuviannights]

Can I ask, do you have any headcannons or ideas of how Demon Asra acts compared to normal Asra? I like seeing how people spice up their AU's.

oh no follow up questions stay cool

I’m trying to think about the conscious choices I made when writing him, but U also know that there are many that just sort of…happened without my knowledge. Demon Asra just kind of picked himself up and did what he wanted and I went, “Alright well I guess this is it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ”

Demon Asra Quirks + Stuff

Very still when he isn’t actively moving, almost preternaturally so. As a demon he has the ability to melt into shadows and change the world around him, but the stillness remains even when he’s standing in front of you and it can be a little unsettling at times

He’s a demon of few words. I guess you could say this about canonverse Asra also, but bargainverse Asra likes to use his silences to make people squirm much of the time, or simply to give himself time to process the sheer stupidity of whoever has summoned him without real purpose

The words that he does have, he’s very tricky with. He likes puns and plays on words and finding half-truths and loopholes. Not only are they just generally amusing, but they’re also very beneficial to him in his line of work

It’s mentioned in the fic, but his eyes do change colour depending on his thoughts and mood. This isn’t a conscious choice, and it’s something he’s very aware of and unable to control, even with his vast amounts of power. So he spends much of his time looking away or in shadows, moving around rooms and fiddling with things as people talk, or using his power to make others look away so they don’t pick up on those colour shifts

He has wings, but he has never shown them to anyone, and MC wouldn’t even get to see them at first. They span 12ft across when fully extended, and are made of opalescent feathers that shift between orange-red-blue. In the sun, they blow out to a glorious, almost translucent white that even the most feared and powerful of demons have trouble looking at for long

He is a night owl, generally, though not by preference. People tend to call on him to hide their darkest secrets and mistakes in the nighttime when they cannot be seen. It’s rare that people think of him or need him during the day.

He never had a favourite time of the day until he found MC. With his work done, he can come home as dawn breaks and curl up against them as the sun creeps up over the mountain and through the window, right along the foot of their bed. If MC looks like they’re in a deep enough sleep, his wings will come out. He’ll stretch them out for a few moments, crack his joints, and then cocoon them both in their safety and warmth as he runs his fingertips through MC’s hair and down their spine. As soon as MC begins to stir, the wings go away - he isn’t quite ready to show the world 

He likes touching MC in little ways, at all times, just to reassure himself they’re there and haven’t been taken from him. He has no qualms with what he does, and there isn’t a demon alive who could overpower him and take what is his, but he finds himself thinking those thoughts anyway