#ask zy

[zykamiliah]

What kind of skeletons do you think are in SY's closet?

so the context for that is the conversation he's having with sqh, when the latter asks him if he sees lbh as "the apple of his eyes" and adored him as his "darling baby and disciple", going on on how sqq had been "out of his mind with grief, his thoughts wandering all over the place", according to th qjp disciples, and how he would call lbh's name and stand at the sword mound and "sigh in sorrow" (lmao if it weren't for the qjp disciples gossiping about it we would NEVER learned of what was going on with sqq post-IAC)

then sqh asks the million dollars question

“Cucumber-bro, can I ask, how did you see Luo Binghe? I remember you were one of his fans, right? You roasted a huge number of the characters I wrote, but even so, you never roasted him. To you, is he a character, or is he a…”

and sqq panics in his mind and thinks that sqh's interrogation was similar in tone to "high-school girls gossiping in the dorms after lights-out":

“Tell me! Do you have a crush on ___?” “N-no, what are you talking about!” “Dodging the question~ Don’t be shy O(∩_∩)O ha ha~” “I hate you, go to bed!” Lightning. Lightning from the nine heavens! Shang Qinghua was in fact innocent. He was honestly asking and was interested in discussing the matter. It was Shen Qingqiu who was overthinking the skeletons in his closet.

sqh was not asking if sqq had gay feelings/a crush on lbh, yet sqq's mind immediately jumped to that assumption lol you don't do that if you're straight lol and it definitely feels like it's a situation he's been before, where he's had to suppress and hide from himself his feelings for men. he even (mentally or otherwise) slaps himself when he's having what he deems "inappropriate" thoughts about binghe and/or his relationship with binghe

He was scaring his disciples, putting on the act of a grieving widow whose husband had just died. Hadn’t it been only a couple of days since he’d last seen that child? No! Bah! Shen Qingqiu mentally slapped himself. Who are you calling a grieving widow?! Whose husband died?! That’s not something you should just say—you’re really getting worse by the day. A negative mindset produces nothing good. You deserve a slap! ch4. conference

and then later in the borderlands when he thinks about what name lbh would have if he'd been born in the demon realm

(...)then Luo Binghe might as well be…Heavenly Pillar-Jun? Ha ha ha ha, fuck! Luo Heavenly Pillar! Ha ha ha ha, how painfully exhilarating! Shen Qingqiu had been laughing for a while when he abruptly slapped himself. The fuck is wrong with you?! Getting carried away, using the Great Master protagonist to come up with a tasteless dirty joke in your head! What’s funny about this? Don’t you get that some people are off-limits for your crass humor?!

he's just...very repressed 🫠

[zylian]

spoke didn't actually give focus hearts right? they were just joking

oh sweet sweet anon

if spokes name is there than there is an ounce of doubt present and can never fully be tossed away as a "joke" or "lie"

with how focus is already okay with handling exploits with sharp 5 and prot 4 armour, oh anon, focus who is already SO scared of getting caught and making counter plans which play on twisting the truth

4c who so easily lied to ash about what armour he could give him despite feeling bad was very smooth about it, the feeling of dread between focus of how they would've proceeded if squiddo got banned if 4c didn't return their hearts

oh they just so happen to be meticulously making sure nothing goes wrong as if they've dealt with this before... as if them being ready to die isn't a red herring with how they talk about death

they would definitely need a plausible way to get those hearts into circulation yknow even making deals to get legit hearts to mix it up-

they still have guilty consciouses but 4c and especially squiddo who've made orbitals and betrayed before wouldn't get exploited hearts from a known exploiter who loves to influence the narrative when bug bombs were being whispered around, right?

there's nothing that can be confirmed or denied by how they're operating rn, using lies to cover up other lies and drawing the base priority of focus and only focus

who knows if they were "just joking" maybe we'll never know ^-^

[tearwolfe]

Rui's belly looks so squishy I'm actually going cr詠zy he remins me of my body☹️

rui lives on thru us all...

[kalashnikovlobotomy]

im sorry to send you another quotev fanfic. it is sending me and i need someone who would also Get it. https:// www. quotev. com/story /5008726/ Im-not-hungry/1

starting with just the title i KNEW what i was gonna lay my eyes on🤦‍♂️ i kept thinking about this meme all throughout it. when they made england air out ame's business at the WORLD MEETING i got such BAD second hand embarrassment something in me shriveled up and died. i seriously think ame should've killed them both. ame no eat he anexoria

[lesbonym]

Would love to pick you up btw, manhandling you on my cock while holding you up by the thighs 🤭

The way I giggled and squealed reading this

That would be so so hot. I deserve to be manhandled more and my thighs need some hot hands holding them

[tolerateit]

she makes it very clear he took his struggles out on her (‘do you know you’re demolishing me?’). he was taking her down with him (‘how much sad did you think I had in me? just how low did you think I’d go?’). she makes it very clear he was a bad partner (‘silent dinners, bitter, he was with her in dreams’ / ‘my spine split from carrying us up the hill’ / ‘holding tight to your quiet resentment’ / ‘you left me at the house by the heath’). I’m genuinely confused. did we listen to the same songs? why are you so convinced he couldn’t deserve these songs? did you see what he was like in private? plenty of people have had glowing things to say about matty healy too lol. besides, so long london is not the last verdict on their relationship. it’s one part of the picture. She re-explores it multiple times throughout the anthology in particular. i would say the final take is fairly sympathetic. even in so long london, she’s saying they had a good run.

comparing joe with m*tty healy and g-e*zy is hilarious to me did we really listen to the same songs

[noxxuniverse]

HIII, I've had a problem recently. this might sound confusing but I don't know if I want to BE or be WITH (my ideal type).

Basically, I have this whole ideal self thing, but it's also my ideal type in a person. e.g: having a specific vibe, being fit, etc. (but it's extremely particular)

but I don't know if I would rather embody it myself and basically 'become that partner' or find a partner with these traits, you get me??

I'm not going to vent but I've always had gender dysphoria and I think gender plays a huge role in this because my ideal self seems to fit more masculine traits and a male body plus i find it so admirable in another person. ive also got pros and cons listed.

if I become: I get to live out my ideal self, my ideal aura, vibe, everything, im my own best friend so i could look in the mirror and see my ideal self right there. but if that's also my ideal type, how would I find a partner if I already AM that partner ifygwim, as in, e.g. if I want to match a character completely so I became them, but that character was also my ideal type, then how would I be able to find a partner if I literally became my highly specific ideal type? everyone I admire has always fit a trend - Its like, all of my ideal types are what I desire to be (because they have what I lack).

be with: I get to see my ideal self close to me, live with them and become so emotionally close to such a cool person. but they can't be with me 24/7, when their presence isn't with me with attention on me my ideal self basically isn't there and I'll feel that lack again. it's like the other person is a piece of a puzzle that connects what I lack to me but emotionally. I find my ideal person to be such a comforting one which is why becoming them causes so many doubts lol. I could only name 3 characters/people rn which fit my ideal type, and 1 character of which im embodying rn because it matches with one of the 3 characters (which is one of the reason on why it's so specific)

I kinda prefer that masc x fem relationship (it's so sweett)

anw, opinions?? what would you do?? I can't really choose which I prioritise more so I'd kinda prefer if someone made a conclusion/solution for me, a specific answer i guess? (no pressure tho). thank you am!

living life as a whole I'd rather be male, though I prefer female friends since they're the absolute best, but in a relationship I'd rather be a woman since my ideal self is closest to being a man tbh (other genders don't apply rn since thats a diff situation) and like before I prefer those relationships with complete opposites. there's prolly more to this but idk. it's lowk that situation where someone in the comments is like "idk if I wanna be with them or be them"

- Zy

So for me personally, I'd become my ideal self. Sometimes we want to date our ideal selves because we want to be them and we can sometimes get confused on whether we want to be someone or be with someone.

I'd say, take some time to figure it out, you have so long so don't even stress. You might end up wanting to switch over even during manifesting it, if you do, that's completely fine. Just do what you want to do, you know?

[skye707]

glad to see your back

Yes, I am back!

Thank you to everyone who sent messages asking how I was doing. I’m sincerely sorry for dropping off the face of the Earth there for a second. Started a new job and it’s been keeping my brain extra busy. That and I don’t currently have my art supplies on my person.

But!

I’ve been trying my hand at digital art, so hopefully I can get some more content out soon. In the meantime, everyone please remember that you are special and kind and a wonderful example of life on this planet 💙

[orderandcollosal]

@heyitstepidjogged

Hey. Out of curiosity, what would you say is the most difficult thing about having your abilities? I’m asking both of you, if it isn’t clear. :}

The most difficult thing, hm?

Having to limit myself. And to not use too much energy. It takes a lot sometimes. I cut my original strength in half because my body just couldn’t fully handle it.

Knowing when it’s necessary for certain abilities, and what to use. I don’t want to abuse my power just because i’m one of the more powerful legendaries..

[the-friendly-warden]

Had a random mental image and had to draw it Zy's cub keeps running off, keeping the poor thing on edge and exhausted and unable to get a moment of rest. This time, the cub has found a massive warden to growl at... Ever heard a warden squeak? Because that was the sound Zy made the instant they realized just how BIG the warden they were facing was. Before scooping up the cub and running like HELL. Wretched is damn near twice Zy's size LOL (Zy's between 10 and 11 feet tall... a little small for a Warden, and kiiind of a wuss lmfao) Wretched belongs to @ask-wretched

(If you wanna turn this into an interaction, feel free to, but ya don't have to LOL I just wanted to draw it)

[zystarsun]

been forgetting to post this because i was getting through the last of my finals of the semester but! artfight atk #6 iirc! this time depicting my friend's earthy's oc (left) and mine (right). they're revue star girls!

BASED ON THIS MOMENT ALSO. let everyone know this revue has been living in my head rent free since i saw the movie in january

[zykamiliah]

oh my god deku has been batshit insane this entire time. like i got a hint of that from the things you reblog but oh my god theres something wrong with him. no wonder bakugou has been freaked out by this guy, there was a return to the old flashback of bakugou being a bully to someone and deku defending them, and the twist is that afterwards deku happily followed bakugou again like it was nothing... deku what in the hell.

"deku has been batshit insane this entire" "there's something wrong with him"

what i got from that flashback is that after the river incident katsuki was trying to push deku away from him, but deku would just follow him anyway

which is REALLY insane behavior tbh. like any person with common sense would have stayed away from that gremlin kid. but deku? nooooo. that's his kacchan. his image of victory, his childhood friend-

[zylian]

zyy what the fuck it all was like fucking what i wanted to write some specific question but i dont even know where to start unpacking this stream

HI I'm so utterly lightheaded from that stream ong

with mane specifically almost banning zam, the whole monologue, him understanding the server holy and zam sharing his similarities from s5 ohhh that wasn't even enough either cause enter stage left is subz, the guy who logged on when zam called (sunshield in this day and age oh god) got to talk to mane in open prox like hello mane wtf was that mr insistent on group calls, than the small fight (THAT NO ONE SAW UGH) while zam ran away that ended with mane drained and apparently mane is now turned into a subz glazer and called him the new demon- (this is the funniest outcome ever btw) while subz is dead set on not acknowledging how good he is while mapic rolls his eyes cause he didn't get to jump in and fight along side subz which he's never done ever in all seasons

I'm gonna throw uppp zam getting himself into insane situations like thanks but WTF

i can't breathe cause he messaged subz and not 4C and its driving me insane with it all happening like that, every decision he didn't do also is making me insane and the unconscious trust he had too, not to mention the mapic and derap iffy situation he is currently in and mapic still showing up-

than bacon saying he now knows who he can actually rely on now and it makes me want to fkn hurl with it being those 3 specifically

core stream that i need to rewatch cause i only showed up halfway through mind you and the underlining meaning of every line and especially the knowledge of mane not prepared with a full echest to restock while subz prepared with no restock in his echest UGH I wish I could see that and I need to rewatch mapic and bacon showing up cause i tuned out from excitement

+ new fav vod !!!

[grassbreads]

I've been speed-rereading through a bunch of Tai Sui excerpts because I'm making a post that requires a bunch of quote screenshots, and dear lord I forgot how many scenes in this novel give me fucking shrimp emotions.

[heliosandtheminecraftians]

[ -@cryptid-artha

Sorry it took so long to get to this ask, I honestly kept forgetting about it because of IRL stuff!

I love your Wardens, Artha, the cub is such a cute bitey little shit. 🤣]

[lesbonym]

Loving the accidental matching blog headers lol

Hehehe, I noticed that when I was curious to check out your blog after seeing it in my activity. We both just have such cool matching vibes