#ask me how my novel is going

[trillgutterbug]

title: coefficient of variation fandom: succession pairing: ken/stewy tags: cock warming, hand jobs, making out, harvard era, pre-canon wc: ~3k rating: e summary:

"No, it's not—I just want to. It's not like, a thing, you know?" "You want to lie here slobbering on my limp dick while I read forty-seven thrilling pages of Macroprudential Policy Regulation, but it's 'not a thing.'" Kendall's face, already hot, pulsed feverish with a livid mix of embarrassment and arousal. He shut his eyes. "Something like that, yeah."

[silverwhittlingknife]

So you're a go to source for all things Dick&Tim bros and you tend to write primarily from Dick's POV. So, odd question, but if you were to summarize their relationship from his POV in FIVE panels which panels would you pick? Keeping in mind that one specific aspect of their relationship that you love needs to be clearly represented by each panel (loyalty, trust etc). I hope this is a fun challenge and not an annoying question so if you don't want to answer that's cool! Have a wonderful day!

No more talk. The same thoughts run through two minds... (SotB 29) / You're my equal. My closest ally. (RR 1) / I can't stop thinking how much I rely on him. (GoG 3)

25 Feelings Dick Has About Tim

This was such a kind ask & a cool challenge which I totally failed; here are TWENTY-five panels of Dick's POV on Tim sdfdsfds Look, I got carried away! Marcia and Cindy! The boys!!

OKAY SO BEFORE I GET TO THE PANELS A FEW NOTES:

WARNING THAT THERE ARE SOME NEGATIVE EMOTIONS IN HERE because I love conflict but but but you gotta remember those are not the final word!! They are complicated people and sometimes they get mad at each other BUT ultimately their relationship is so hugely important in both their lives & they love each other and rely on each other so much -!!! <3

Also I have CONCLUDING THOUGHTS at the end about what Dick's POV leaves out (mostly: a lot of Dick defending & protecting & supporting Tim, which Dick does instinctively but isn't very self-aware about most of the time)

I have loosely organized my list into 5^5 format (5 categories with 5 examples each!), so if you want to skip to a relevant one, here are the categories!!

Below the cut:

I hate him and find him infuriating (#1-5)

On second thought, he's endearing & fun (#6-10)

Grief is complicated & he's all tangled up in mine (#11-15)

I love him & think highly of him (#16-20)

I rely on him & though it's hard for me, I trust him (#21-25)

I hate him and find him infuriating (#1 - 5)

1) He thinks he’s so smart and can psychoanalyze me and Bruce, but he doesn’t know me at all, he should get lost (New Titans 61)

2) He thinks he’s so smart and can psychoanalyze Bruce but he doesn’t know Bruce at all, he should get lost (Gotham Knights 26)

3) He is so nosy about stuff that is MY business (Robin 0)

4) He sounds like an insincere suck-up half the time... but okay, fine, if you push him he's got a sense of humor about it (New Titans 65)

5) I'm sure he's a better vigilante than me. It's my fault for being a failure, but I resent him anyway. (Nightwing 9 - Dick's having a nightmare)

On second thought, he's kinda endearing (#6-10)

6) He worries too much and gets anxious so easily, but it makes him fun to tease (Robin 67)

7) I'm not that competitive - okay, so maybe I'm a little competitive, I gotta make sure he doesn't get a swelled head (Prodigal)

8) I'm supposed to be his favorite! It is not cool for him to be fanboying over my not-girlfriend's not-boyfriend!! (Birds of Prey 19)

9) We have fun together. I can kick back and relax when it's just the two of us. Plus I get to boss him around a bit. (Prodigal)

10) He’s always trying to reassure me, and I guess it's a little comforting, but also he doesn’t really get it. Or me. He makes excuses that he shouldn't, because he doesn't understand that I suck. (Nightwing 64)

Grief is complicated and he's all tangled up in mine (#11 - 15)

11) He reminds me of everything I try not to think about. Sometimes the memories are so strong it hurts to look at him. (Batman 441)

12) WHY IS HE BEING IMPOSSIBLE ALL OF A SUDDEN??? THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING (Nightwing 139)

13) We're the same. He says all the things I don't let myself think about. It's like arguing with myself. (Nightwing 139)

14) He thinks he gets to tell me what to do but he doesn’t, fuck him (Battle for the Cowl)

15) Life sucks, so what. I sucked it up so he should too (RR 1)

I love him and think highly of him (#16 - 20)

16) He’s the closest thing to a brother I’ll ever have.  If someone hurts him I will hurt them harder. (Nightwing 6)

17) I can't handle the idea of losing him. (Nightwing 97)

17) He’s so good and I’m not. I'm afraid I’m bad for him. (Nightwing 110)

18) He’s better than me, and it’s kind of a relief because I know no matter what he’ll be okay. (Gates of Gotham 3)

19) In my head he’s the responsible one.  (Gotham Knights 10)

I rely on him, and though it's hard for me, I trust him (#20-25)

20) I know I have to trust him but I'm afraid he'll make the wrong choices and get hurt (Nightwing 139)

21) I'm sure I know what he should do because I see myself in him - not that I can take my own advice, but he should (Blackest Night 3)

22) I trust him.  When I’m losing my grip on things, he pulls me back. (Gotham Knights 10)

23) I want him to trust me (Red Robin 12)

24) He can tell when I'm lying. Sometimes he sees my weaknesses better than I wish he did. (Detective Comics 874)

25) He’s always there when I need him. (Teen Titans / Outsiders Secret Files)

Final rambling thoughts:

TIM: Uhh, okay, so I'm just skimming this list - do you really trust me? you're not just saying that? - but anyway, I'm confused because you left some stuff out? Like some stuff that's kinda important? DICK: No? I think I got everything? TIM (starts counting on his fingers): The time I was having a bad day but then I called you. The time I got captured by Two-Face but then you saved me. The time I fell off a train but then you saved me. The time I fell off a building but then you saved me. The time I fell off a different building - DICK: I feel like you're trying to make some kind of point but I'm not sure what it could be.

SO THE THING IS, I put 25 panels in here and not a single one has Dick catching Tim when he’s falling!!! But I think that's a central motif of their relationship from Tim’s POV, not Dick’s. I love Dick, but in some ways I think he is spectacularly un-self-aware.

And I think he especially has a lot of blind spots about Tim. He kinda intermittently gets that Tim admires him, and he enjoys it in a playful I-get-to-boss-you-around way. But Dick tends to consistently underestimate all of his own good qualities & skills, and he meets Tim at a point in his life when he's especially down on himself & his abilities. And so he's unable to see his own influence on Tim, & therefore unable to fully understand a lot of Tim's priorities and loyalties and motivations, because you can't actually understand Tim without understanding Dick's impact on him. There's a fascinating moment in Bruce Wayne: Murderer when Dick's completely blindsided & upset to discover that Tim doesn't entirely trust Bruce, even though this has been a definitive fact of Tim's whole thing ever since he showed up with his Batman needs Robin theory, and Barbara has to actively remind Dick of the obvious-to-everyone-except-Dick fact that a lot of Tim's loyalty is to Dick, and Tim loves Bruce but feels free to be more wary of him. (And to give Bruce credit: this is not something he ever begrudges.) But anyway Babs points this out, and Dick manages to sorta process it for about five seconds, but he cannot actually accept it into his worldview so instead he discards it at the speed of light and goes off and has an argument with Tim instead sdfsfdsf

All of Dick's virtues - Dick's kindness at the circus and Dick's determination to fight through grief and Dick's rigid sense of morals and Dick's vigilante skills and every time Dick has ever backed Tim up or listened to him or protected him or saved him from something or just been casually kind to a stranger in Tim's presence etc etc etc - all these things loom really large in Tim's mental story of Who Dick Is, and What Dick And Tim's Relationship Is. Tim meets Dick before he meets Bruce, trusts Dick more than Bruce, aspires to be Robin instead of Batman. And so in Tim's default version of the story, Dick is the super-special and admirable hero and Tim is... nobody in particular, a tagalong outsider who's barely managing to be a hero, not part of Dick and Bruce's family and not part of their story, who, if he's VERY LUCKY and tries REALLY HARD, might be able to fight his way to proving himself and offering something to Dick that Dick will value, if Dick doesn't get fed up with him first.

But that's not Dick's version of the story!!!

Dick's version of the story is almost the exact opposite, a story where Dick's an outcast failure black sheep who's screwing up everything he tries, and meanwhile Tim is The Sudden New Perfect Robin Who's Better Than Me And Probably Bruce Loves Him More And Probably They Gossip About What A Loser I Am, mixed with a complicated edge of Tim Thinks He's So Smart But He Doesn't Know Me/Us At All. Dick gets much more attached to Tim over time, and Tim gets unnervingly better at the know-it-all psychoanalysis so then Dick gets to have complicated feelings about him being right instead of just annoyance at him for being wrong, plus Dick's relationship with Bruce improves a lot, so Tim stops feeling so threatening. But Dick never fundamentally changes his basic theory of their relationship in which Tim is highly impressive and capable, and Dick is not so much.

And so asking Dick about Tim is kinda like if you asked George Bailey to tell you about Harry Bailey in It's A Wonderful Life; like, you'll be there for five hours while he tells you how great Harry is, and how accomplished Harry is, and how he doesn't really get how or why Harry does the things he does, and maybe George does feel a little resentful or jealous sometimes, but that pales in comparison to all his admiration and trust for Harry who he loves so much, who's better than him in so many ways, and he's not gonna openly gripe but secretly he can't help but feel sometimes like he's such a failure in comparison to Harry, a perfect person who emerged fully formed from Zeus's head with all the virtues and also all the accomplishments, etc. etc. etc. --

-- and he will not actually remember the part where he changed and saved Harry's whole entire life unless you literally send him to an alternate timeline in order to force him to remember it. <3

[milkbreadtoast]

idk how i want to draw him yet and not ready to make a srs attempt but here's a bad kdj phone doodle lol🚶🏻

[marragurl]

Did I see a Season 1 vs 2 comparison tweet of Narumi Gen from Kaiju No. 8 and immediately drop everything to watch the anime for the man? Yes

Did I binge it all in one day, really enjoy the story, and crave more? Yes

Did I open Ao3 and notice that my favorite character, Hoshina, is being shipped with Narumi—who, despite being the reason I watched the anime, was barely in the last five minutes of it? Yes

Did that make me binge-read the entire manga in the same night just to understand why they’re shipped together, in the process getting into the story even more? Yes

Did I just finish going through the entire NaruHoshi tag on AO3 IN TWO DAYS? Yes

Do I regret anything? No :D

OKAY BUT SERIOUSLY, LOOK AT THE DIFFERENCE IN SEASON 1 VS SEASON 2. ANYONE WOULD BE CURIOUS AS TO WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON SEASON 1 NARUMI IS A RAT IT’S NOT MY FAULT I SPIRALED

[pinkd3mon]

Kirby deals with existential crisis and Bandana is a good friend

[the-almighty-bling]

Tong was willing to stay with Mark even if his feelings were not reciprocated

Even if Mark was only attracted to him cos of his golden blood cos maybe his golden blood is like a cupid arrow

THIS IS ONLY EPISODE 5 AND WE SEE TONG ALREADY PUTTING MARK NEEDS ABOVE HIS OWN FEELINGS

MarkTong feelings for each other is going to be hitting me like a truck every week and for the rest of the year after this series finish airing

[maddymoreau]

“I love watching you sleep. Testing how close I can get before you wake up. So far you've never stirred once.”

Commission by @saccharineheartx

[crybaby-bkg]

the way I panic every time someone asks me what my book is about bc even tho I’ve been writing it over four + years now I literally have no idea who these people are

[lynn-tged-posting]

Ummm... saw you talk about Suho's friend buuuutttt just to let you know the TGED novel and webtoon are really really reeeeaaallyyy different from each other but I hope you enjoy the novel too

ah yes! i'm aware they're quite different! not to spoil my own future post of my musings, but even the earliest chapters have several differences between the two, despite the manhwa being more faithful in the earlier episodes. there's a lot i want to say on the topic, but i wanna be able to read up to chapter 15 in the novel first before i make any big posts about it (cause boy do i have a lot of notes,,, i need to learn how to be concise LMAO)

i think a big part of it is the difference in medium, which i will probably talk about more in the future, but to be brief: manhwa pacing as a general rule/standard is (more often than not) much faster and more snappy than novel pacing. what's beautiful (imo) about written word in novels is the ability to explore themes and characterization using descriptive language; this inherently can be very difficult to translate to visual representation in an exact, one-to-one way, ESPECIALLY considering the scrolling comic format that webtoon popularized/uses to this day. it's understandable that the tged manhwa and novel are so different!

(honestly though, it just means more ways to interpret and enjoy tged, for me anyway. a kind of "holy shit, two cakes!!!" type situation HAHA like ill love it no matter what! each medium has its own strengths!)

(as for the differences in the current era of the tged manhwa? well,,, i'll have to wait and see lmao, it'll be a long time before i get there (and i've already heard many things from mutuals!) so that'll have to remain as a "TO-DO" point of comparison for now)

thanks for asking! i really appreciate you checking in :3 i've been really enjoying the novel so far and i'm hoping i'll get more time to read soon!!!

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

stormbringer scenes that deserve recognition (mostly an adam appreciation post ngl) pt 1

albatross making it sound like chuuya's on his period

every single one of doc's fufu i live for his fufu

adam being best boi for a solid two hours

ADAM SAYING WOAH :0000

this dinosaur scene because d i n o

this himbo

UWAH??????

carry-on chuuya

hahahahaha

HE👏 IS👏 A👏 PIGEON👏

android joke.

chuuya using gah and what excessively for two pages

HIMMMMMM>>>>

adam x gum forbidden otp

notice 😍 me 🥺 chuuya 😩 sama 😘

HAAAAAAAAAA

STOP IT THAT'S DIRTY

BONUS:

without any context it's just SO FUNNY (me explaining to sigma what i did to his mom last night but he doesn't even have a mom)

[pennedinblood]

as of ten minutes ago we are officially Jobless™️. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi

[lausticzt]

Laura's toxic trait is slandering Erwin Smith's name in a room full of Survey Corp Soldiers

[pets-will-play]

lore drop

In highschool I self published a book through Amazon Kindle and I have two different books on Amazon you can buy and I won't link them here haha

[fisheito]

did you hear about yakumo's new rooms yet? or seen it?

sir i just got here please have mercy

[altruistic-meme]

at least 4 people have now asked in the notes of my post for someone to talk theories/ideas about how the ada would react to actually seeing skk's dynamic in canon so now i have to go rewatch and take notes to fulfill these requests. im probably not going to rewatch the WHOLE show for it but i will be watching the first few episodes as well as every episode with chuuya and especially all of the skk interactions.

[rookinthecrownest]

boy am i glad i went into Sinners relatively blind, what a movie!!! my only gripe is i cant wipe my memory and experience that for the first time again.