#ashleys playin games

[questioningespecialy]

The Mass Effect series was originally released to widespread acclaim, with praise heaped on its story of intergalactic war and survival against all odds. However, Mass Effect also tells a story about human colonisation and expansion across the galaxy – a far more complex and fraught topic. (…) It’s important to note that Mass Effect’s whole narrative discussion of colonisation is explored through a colonial lens – and one that represents the act with positivity. For players that do not treat the idea of colonisation with kindness, this narrative can be distinctly alienating.

Aside from Ashley, people were also noticing how dated the dialogue and story felt by today’s standards, and just how problematic it had been. (…) She’s an incredibly uncomfortable character whose views represent most of the human colonists that are expanding their reach through the galaxy. In some respect, it makes the option of leaving her out of your story so much more meaningful – but that decision also comes with its own issues. (…) But where the portrayal of each side differs is in how the aliens are depicted: as the problem. (…) For me, in exploring and saving these human colonists I began to wonder: ‘Are these the people I really want to save?’ For the most part, the answer was ‘no’. (…) Playing Mass Effect years later, I’m irritated with how this series constantly wants you to go along with the actions and dialogue of racist, xenophobic behaviour in order to mine depth and meaning from the plot. The game keeps illustrating the expansion of the human colonies across the galaxy as a good thing, despite those human colonies being filled with racists who want Aliens dead. It makes it hard to root for the humanity portrayed in Mass Effect to survive. I feel as though Mass Effect would have a far more interesting story to tell if we were anything but human. Though it does dabble in the ideas, Mass Effect as a series struggles to portray any meaningful anti-colonialist, anti-expansion narrative, because it simply does not want to. Mass Effect champions a colonial struggle against the threats of an expansive galaxy, and in returning to the game, I realise just how little room there is in this story to find myself and my values.

—Mass Effect’s colonisation narrative isn’t pretty, ten years later by Nich Richie, GamesHub.com (8 Nov 2022)

[fritextramole]

deep in quicksand

part 4 of a Nate Archibald playlist - best heard in order

tracklist and quotes under the cut

Dug My Heart ~ BORNS

I hope the cracks in the pavement, lead back to you, baby Back to you, baby

Boring 20s ~ Tamela D’Amico, Wolfgang Lohr, Ashley Slater

I was gonna strut my moves, work the schmooze Drink the booze, ignore the news, work my shoes Then it all went wrong

Latin Simone ~ Gorillaz

Give up if you wanna survive Get oh so alive in your life Everything falling out the sky on top of you

Seasons on Fire ~ Matt Berry

My seasons on fire Everything looks like wasteland

i’m not where you are ~ Marika Hackman

I'd rather be asleep than interact with me I don't get what you see 'Cause lately I've been trying to find The point in human contact

I Of The Storm ~ Of Monsters and Men

Until all you see is my ghost Empty vessel, crooked teeth

Standing At The Wall ~ The Pretty Reckless

But I am standin’ at the wall It is high and I am small All alone, there's no one to catch me whеn I fall

hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have - but i have it ~ Lana Del Rey

All of these debutantes Smiling for miles in pink dresses and high heels on white yachts But I'm not, baby, I'm not

Babe Ruth ~ COIN

You want some love But you need some space and time Oh baby, whatcha gonna do when the universe puts your hand in mine? Now that I'm busy I broke it all down

Hey Julie ~ Fountains Of Wayne

Trying to trip me up, trying to wear me down Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it And I'd never make it through without you around

Between My Teeth ~ Orla Gartland

I can't take the pressure of it, I can barely breathe

What Was I Made For? ~ Billie Eilish

Think I forgot how to be happy Somethin' I'm not, but somethin' I can be Somethin' I wait for Somethin' I'm made for

High By The Beach ~ Lana Del Rey

Don't need your money, money To get me what I want All I wanna do is get high by the beach

Got So High ~ The Pretty Reckless

If I wanted to fly, I should have gone up in a plane If I wanted to fly, I should have climbed up to the highest mountaintop

Over Those Hills ~ Hayley Williams

Over those hills, I bet you're somewhere dreaming I take my pills every night and in the morning When you wake up, ever wish I was beside you?

Cartwheel ~ Lucy Dacus

I thought back to many years ago A late-night promise on the telephone We'd build a house of twigs and vines Grow old together just to pass the time

Clay Pigeons ~ Michael Cera

Sing a song with a friend Change the shape that I'm in And get back in the game And start playin' again

[historyhermann]

Ashly Burch’s Contribution to LGBTQ+ Representation

Four of Ashly Burch's roles, all of which are canon LGBTQ characters

Recently, Ashly Burch, a well-recognized voice actress, singer, and writer, came out as pan and queer. Taking into account this development, I decided to examine some of her past roles and offer my thoughts on her contributions.

Reprinted from The Geekiary, my History Hermann WordPress blog on Feb. 11, 2023, and Wayback Machine. This was the forty-eighth article I wrote for The Geekiary. This post was originally published on July 30, 2022.

On July 1st, Ashly Burch came out as pan and queer, saying she is "old fashioned pansexuals". She added that this is not a shock because half the characters she plays are "members of the rainbow fam" and added more in a longer thread.

Burch has added herself to the list of other LGBTQ+ voice actors who have voiced LGBTQ+ characters in media. There's Anna Akana, a bisexual actress of Japanese and Filipino descent. She recently voiced Sasha Waybright in Amphibia and Daisy in Magical Girl Friendship Squad. Both characters are bisexual.

A non-binary actor, Iris Menas, has voiced non-binary characters in various Disney series. Ian-Jones Quartey, a bisexual creator, has voiced various characters, including Radicles "Rad" in his series, OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes. Abbi Jacobson, a bisexual actress, voiced a bisexual princess named Bean in Disenchantment. She also voiced a lesbian woman named Katie Mitchell in The Mitchells Vs. the Machines.

In many ways, Burch is definitely a queer icon. Apart from her video game voice roles, live-action roles, commercial roles, and dubbing roles, there are five roles that stand out to me. This article focuses on those roles and their significance in LGBTQ+ representation.

Ash in Hey Ash Whatcha Playin'

Ashly with her beauties in Season 1 - Finale Part 1 of Hey Ash Whatcha Playin'

In May 2008, the series Hey Ash Whatcha Playin' first premiered on Destructoid. It would garner tens of millions of views. The series used surreal humor and sibling rivalry with her brother Anthony. Each episode focused on video games, and their themes, trends, and societal impacts. In 2011, the series began airing on YouTube. Papa Burch, Burch's actual father, and Ashley "Leigh" Davis, who becomes Anthony's girlfriend, also appear. Guest stars include Burch's mother and many others.

Many episodes had queer themes. One implies that Burch had sex with sex workers. In another, she says things can be "really gay" when everything becomes male genitalia. The icing on the cake was when she struggled with the homophobia exhibited by Orson Scott Card, whose ideas inspired the game, Shadow Complex.

In the show's second season, Anthony had gay sex through a message board. Ashly asked her dad for help with "lady problems" (i.e. liking a lot of women). Some episodes had Ashly joking about how brains are "gay" and defending her brother as a person who doesn't bash gay people. Others included dildos, Papa Burch coming up with imagined gay scenarios, or defense of female characters.

One episode stands out from the lot, the one where Ashly says she likes pretty girls and runs away when she sees a girl she likes. Later episodes have Ash loving a female villain-of-sorts or portray her losing her cool when people use the word "lesbians".

Enid in OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes

Enid (left) and Red Action (right) in an episode of OK K.O.!

Burch is known for her role as Enid Mettle in this action-adventure-comedy animated series by Ian Jones-Quartey, Rebecca Sugar's husband. In the series, Enid is a bisexual woman previously in a relationship with Radicles "Rad". She is later Red Action's girlfriend.

Enid has a key role in OK K.O.! as a witch and a ninja all in one. She also fights villains and works at Gar's Bodega. Burch has voiced Enid in almost all her appearances apart from the original pilot. She has been the subject of much fan art and over 700 fan fics.

Somewhat like Enid is Lainey in Loud House, who Burch also voiced. Lainey is dating another character, a woman named Alice. Unlike OK K.O.!, Lainey only appears in two episodes. In the former series, she becomes very romantic with Red Action, a lesbian character voiced by actress, comedian, and model Kali Hawk.

Ash in Final Space

Evra (left) and Ash (right) in an episode of Final Space

Burch is less known for her role as Ash Graven, who has the same first name as her. In the series, Ash is a humanoid alien who strikes up a romance with Evra (Jasmin Savoy Brown), a genderless being, in the Season 3 episode "Forgiveness". They sit together in a romantic moment, watching lights that resemble the aurora borealis.

Before this, she says she hates a man named Jordan Hammerstein with all her guts. This hints that she is a lesbian rather than  "ambiguously bi," as I noted in my review of the series. In that review, I noted a podcast where show creator Olan Rogers confirmed Ash as an LGBTQ character. At the time, Rogers said he would expand the relationship between Evra and Ash if he had another season.

Ash is only one of the many LGBTQ characters in the series, although the others are recurring characters rather than protagonists. Unlike Enid, she becomes an antagonist, and villain, akin to Cassandra "Cass" (Eden Espinosa) in Tangled. She is a character as complex as Cass while both are exploited by someone else who plays on her trauma triggers.

Rutile Twins in Steven Universe

Rutile Twins (right) brings Lars and Steven to the Prime Kindergarten where Off Colors are hiding out in their debut episode.

In a little-known role, Burch voiced a non-binary Gem fusion named Rutile Twins in Steven Universe. She later said she was "extremely honored" to be on the show. Unlike the other characters she voiced, these characters are non-binary women, as are all Gems as Rebecca Sugar confirmed in a 2018 article. So that makes this character unique beyond any others mentioned in her resume.

In an interesting trivia, since Burch voices both components of the character, they have the same voice, but with different tones. The same is the case for the Amethysts, all voiced by Michaela Dietz, or all the Rubies voiced by Charlyne Yi. Real-life rutiles are said to help with the stabilization of emotions and relationships. They reportedly evoke romantic feelings and aid with handling past trauma.

The Rutile Twins are outcasts who are part of a group of Gems ostracized by society, the Off Colors. These Twins later join Lars Barriga, and the other Off Colors, traveling through space, and living on Earth. In Steven Universe Future, the Off Colors graduate from Steven's school for Gems, known as Little Homeschool.

Molly in The Ghost and Molly McGee

Andrea (left) and Molly (right) in the "Andrea Song Takeover"

Burch voices a lead character named Molly McGee. Unlike her other roles, Molly is half-Thai and half-Irish, like Burch in real life. The series incorporates Thai culture into storylines and helps educate viewers about Thai culture.

In The Ghost and Molly McGee, Molly befriends a ghost named Scratch after moving to the Midwestern town of Brighton with her father, mother, and brother. Also appearing in the series is Molly's grandmother. She meets many friends there. This includes a Latine and Jewish girl named Libby Stein-Torres (Lara Jill Miller). She also has a geeky friend Sheela (Aparna Nancherla) and a sweet pink-haired friend, Kat (Eden Riegel).

Although Molly is not a canon queer character, some fans have shipped her with her frenemy, Andrea Davenport (Jules Medcraft), with their ship being Mollandrea. Others have shipped her with Libby Stein-Torres, with their ship called Mollibby. This ship has been denied by Bob Roth, a show creator, who said that LGBTQ representation unfolds naturally in the series.

Closing thoughts

There are many other characters Burch has voiced or played since her career began in 2007. She voiced Josette Grey in Blackford Manor and Tiny Ghost in Chainsaw Richard. She offered her voice as Lila Twinklepipes in Pig Goat Banana Cricket, Meadow Springs in Trolls: The Beat Goes On!, and Miss Pauling in Expiration Date, along with others in Over the Garden Wall and We Bare Bears.

She is further known for voicing Bun Bun and Breezy in Adventure Time, Ridley in Glitch Techs, and Cass Wizard in Bee and PuppyCat. Recently, she played Rachel in Mythic Quest who is in a relationship with a Black woman named Dana (Imani Hakim).

Many of these roles aren't canon LGBTQ+ characters. However, since Burch came out as pan and queer, this could lead to new interpretations of these characters. Burch was also a writer for "Shadows at the Gates", the fourth episode of The Legend of Vox Machina, a mature animated series filled with LGBTQ+ characters and based on the Critical Role podcast.

In the end, Ashly Burch will likely continue to voice queer characters, working with other such actors to continue improving queer representation in media.

© 2022-2023 Burkely Hermann. All rights reserved.

[demon-blood-youths]

----- Rooftop -------

"Wait what? Hook up?! What the heck do you mean?! " Ink said. Kali clicked her tongue. Oh right, she doesn't know what hook-up means yet. Ink listens to Ashely, Yuuka, and Jinx voicing their concerns on this.

"Close and personal? Really into me?!" Ink looks at them like they're crazy. She felt the hospital shaking making her lose her balance a bit until she heard Ashley that Kali is looking out for her. "Hold on! Davion?! You're talking about Davion?! "

----- Four Floors Down -----

"CRAZY?! ARE YOU CRAZY?! FOR TRYING TO PULL THIS SHIT! YOU DON'T THINK WE KNEW WHAT KIND OF GAME YOU PLAYIN AT?!" Navarro roared before firing another grenade at the dragon man.

"There is no way in hell you're a dragon! You're trying to use that shit to get Ink!" Navarro accuses him before firing another one. "Everyone. It's a flashbang! Cover your eyes!" He tells them.

------ Rooftop -----

"That's his name?!"

"Well yeah! Plus he's a dragon like me." Ink answers. Ha! Kali knew that must be the case why Ink doesn't mind him in his room.

"Damnit...this is bad! He is already worming his way in and try to get you off guard. What's worse, you let your guard down because he's a freaking dragon?" Kali points at her chest, confusing Ink further.

"Uhhhh....." Ink raised a brow at this.

"Not to mention, he is going to use that to get into your good graces while you're recovering. Which is the worst timing since you're vulnerable! You shouldn't ever trust older men, Ink! What was he trying to do?! I bet he wants you to himself."

"Kali."

"Older men love to take advantage of gullible girls like yourself. They can try to make you feel valuable-"

"Kali."

"Make you feel all good and sappy then bam! I bet you told him everything, did you?! He's after your bounty."

"Kali!"

"And that's why I call the boys here so we can get you out of here because this is an intervention right now and you need to know the dangers of dark romance. Before that guy gets into your pants before he turns in your bounty!""

"KALI!" Ink shouted. "WHAT?!" Kali shouts back, not liking to be interrupted.

"Davion is not going to take me away or hurt me! Or do whatever you just said!" Ink argued, upset.

"OH?! And what makes you think that?!" Kali said, putting her hands on her hips.

"BECAUSE HE IS MY COUSIN!" Ink exclaimed.

Yuuka, Ashley, and Jinx blinks but listens to hearing the fighting and seeing people rushing out of the hospital. They were planning on bringing this hospital down!?

~~~~~~~

"Wait what?" Davion blocks both Rin and Denji but he looks to hearing Navarro. "What are you talking about!? Bounty? What-" He then saw him to fire a grenade before he pushes the two out the way and ducks. A big explosion was heard causing the side of the hospital to blow up showing fire and smoke. A giant hole was see to the outside as he looks.

"ARE YOU CRAZY!?" he shouted but blocks a punch from Bakugo.

"HE'S RIGHT! YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE WILL NEVER TAKE INK FROM US! NOR FOR HER BOUNTY SO LEAVE HER ALONE!" he roars causing more explosions.

~~~~~Rooftop~~~~~

"To explain, Kali thinks that guy your with is trying to 'hook up' with you! She thinks guys like that are creeps and he could do worse or harm you!" Yuuka said worried.

"Y..Yeah..I mean, he seems to be g..getting too close and personal I..Ink.." Ashley said worried too.

"That or he's really into you." Jinx shrugs but she then felt the hospital shake and vibrate and hearing the explosion with glass shattering and falling. She did look seeing people getting out and helped along with Ren helping with Izuku and Atsushi doing the same thinking this was insane.

"B..but Kali is l..looking out f..for you and the b..boys fighting him o..off to stop him from hurting or t..taking you away." Ashley said about to cry.

"Uhhhh maybe we should get Ink off the rooftop before this hospital comes crashing down?" Jinx said.

[doedreamss]

i was tagged by @swantonbomb 🥺💗 thank you so much for tagging me!

favorite color: pink mainly!!!! but also teal and anything soft tbh currently reading: I actually just finished Dead Man in a Ditch by Luke Arnold and I'm trying to figure out what book I want to start reading next! last movie i’ve watched: huh, I honestly can't remember the last time I watched a movie... like, I know I have but my brain is drawing total blanks. I guess I half-watched one of the new spiderman movies the other day (far from home, I think)? my friend had it on and was watching it and I kept looking over and watching a scene or two here or there... so uh, if that counts then that one! otherwise no clue lmao last tv series watched: loki 🥰 although right before that I was rewatching parks and rec. and futurama. last song i listened to: fuck me up by pokey lefarge tea or coffee: ah man, it really does depend on the mood I'm in. I tend to get coffee more than tea, but a lot of times in the afternoon if I had the choice I'd probably pick a sweet ice tea with some kind of flavor in it over a coffee. sweet or salty: uhh I probably go for sweet stuff more than I do salty but tbh I like both... and often times when I have something sweet then I'll want something salty and vice versa top 5 songs on repeat: Just Someone I Used to Know by Porter Wagoner and Dolly Parton, Everything Is Going Great by Split, Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi, Jackson by Trixie Mattel and Orville Peck, and I'm Comin' Over by Chris Young (listen.... I've been going through some things. But also Jackson is just a banger and not involved in the general mix of why I keep replaying these other songs lately lmao)

tagging: uhhh sorry I'm going to cheat and say whoever wants to do this consider yourself tagged!!!! cause I filled this out while I was sleepy and waiting for my bedsheets to finish drying and now I want to go pass out and not think about if I miss tagging someone or not 😅 so uh anyways if you see this and you're bored and you're like "man I'd love to answer those questions" please just take it and say I tagged you and tag me so I can see your answers!!!! thanks byeeeee 💗💗💗

[sacred-pro-fiction]

Side note i think i lost a few followers for not knowing who Ashley Tisdale is and that is fucking hilarious. Y'all said I can't follow anyone who doesn't remember the name of a child star from a movie and some shows you never watched

[doodlindoe]

okay so like no one here is going to care but omg. I started playing one of those virtual horse games again and I named my first stud after hangman adam page (because of course I did)

here he is :D isn’t he handsome?

anyways, he lived out his show career and did amazing and I got seven foals from him and now he’s retired and can’t be shown or bred anymore, right? but I wanted at least one boy to make my next main stud with his bloodline and this mfer...

this mfer gave me SEVEN FILLIES!!!!! he just had seven daughters! NO SONS! like on one hand, cute. on the other hand... BRO!!!!

anyways next week his first daughter (deadeye) will have a good enough show record to have her first baby and I am HOPING she gives me a colt because my second foundation stud (kalahari down) is just three weeks away from being too old to show/breed any more and I need a new stud colt to train!!!!

[ryanlockheart]

beau had never imagined himself falling for another guy. he certainly hadn't thought when fletcher had moved in that he'd be fantasizing about the chestnut-haired male. fletcher had found a way to seep inside his head and take over his every thought. it was when he was thinking about the younger male that he'd felt a warm fiery feeling burgeoning in his chest. he knew had to act on it... and fast. that was why he'd even taken that first leap. it might have been corny or even weird, but in the end, beau was getting what he wanted... and it seemed like fletcher wanted it just as badly. "no, i don't," beau answered with nonchalance. he was kicked back on the sofa, shoulders relaxed and a soft smirk on his lips. "well, you shoulda thought about that before you started parading around in your undies, fletch. 's only natural that i wanna slide my cock into ya," he answered back. he was unafraid of rocking the boat. beau needed something new in his life, something that gave him a purpose to go on. ashley certainly didn't hold that... but fletcher? he just very well might. beau had a lot of work to do, but he was going to make sure that fletcher never doubted anything he'd do. "i just call it like i see it, sweetheart," beau replied with a wink. "sure, but don'tcha think you shoulda said something first? think 'm entitled to give some compensation for all the poor socks that don't have a match now," he teased. beau was having more than enough fun teasing fletcher to the point that he got red in the face. he liked seeing him flustered, liked seeing him scramble for an excuse or reason. it was utterly adorable, and that only made beau want to ravish him even more. "and that should absolutely come in the form of you getting that fat ass on my cock as soon as possible," beau said. his smile disappeared, though a playful spark was still twinkling in his brown eyes. he was serious about the fact that needed to feel fletcher sinking on his cock, and he was doing his best to make that obvious without being too clear. "you're dealin' with a man, baby girl. 'm not playin' games and shit with you," beau assured, long digits stroking through fletcher's chocolate curls. he was going to take great care of fletcher. he was going to make all of his filthy fantasies a reality. "you are my toy, aren't you, angel? you won't care if i'm fucking you like you're nothin' but a fleshlight or if 'm letting a few friends hit that fat ass. either way, 'm gonna shove a sock in your mouth and fuck you 'til you're covered in your own piss and cum," he explained. the temperature in the room had seemed to rise by a hundred degrees, but beau felt right at home. he held the reins, and he was going to make the most of it. "the second the camera's off, i'll be gettin' you all cleaned up, and cuddling you 'til you fall asleep — if that's what you want, of course, princess," beau said softly. he might have been a little rough around the edges, but at his core, he wanted to take care of fletcher — in every way, not just purely physical. "the thought of a bunch of guys payin' to fuck that pussy 'til you can't take anymore cum, that's so fuckin' hot," he admitted. "but you know that no one will ever fuck you quite as good as your daddy, don't you?" beau was possessive and jealous, but that could make things more fun for them. beau would just go harder than before. he'd make sure everyone knew whose fletcher was. if all else failed, beau would just get him on his knees to service his sweaty feet, just like he was doing then. his toes wiggled in fletcher's face, tempting him. "that's a good girl," beau remarked. "you'd get 'em all cleaned up... but you'd show her that a real slut'd be desperate enough to stick their dick between them. you'd bust your load all over them for anyone to see, wouldn't you, baby girl? 's okay to admit. daddy likes it." he was grinning so hard, so smug and proud of himself. he drug his soft sole across the boy's tongue, getting his sweat all over those tastebuds. "how do daddy's feet taste, princess? you love bein' my little footslut?"

fletcher hadn't the slightest clue how beau was feeling. the cooking and cleaning was done out of the goodness of his heart, in an effort to help his new friend that seemed like he carried the weight of the world on his shoulders. he had no reason to believe that his kindness would amount to anything, given how many boys had happily accepted his gestures but left him when someone better came along. the smaller boy couldn't figure out what was going on in beau's mind, and that's what scared him the most — being in the dark. "you do realize that you sound insane, right?" fletcher said with a fiddly chuckle. "you have a girlfriend, of course i can blame you! you shouldn't be daydreaming about anyone's ass that isn't ashley." fletcher would be lying to say that he didn't feel flattered, that having a guy — no, a man — as attractive and witty as beau didn't stroke his ego a bit; but he still had a few minor hesitations. fletcher would have loved to say that ashley was actually one of them, but he was only concerned about protecting his own heart. "that's sweet of you," he replied, cheeks flushed soft pink. "you probably should've been doing your own laundry then... the way i see it, the socks were my payment for all those clothes i washed." fletcher could feel the muscles in his body unwinding as the banter carried, allowing him to naturally fall into rhythm along with beau. the taller boy seemed to know exactly what fletcher wanted without even having to ask, and that might have been the most alluring part about him. it made it easy fletcher to feel comfortable with him. "you're right, daddy. boys don't compare to you. you're exactly what i've been needing," fletcher admitted, hanging onto the other's every last word. "i want you to humiliate me. pick me up and fuck me like a rag doll, like i'm nothing but a toy for you to dump your load into. do it all on camera, and make sure that everyone knows how slutty i am, daddy. make me cry and piss all over myself from how overstimulated i am — but you better keep your promises. when the camera's off, i wanna be treated like a princess... and maybe sometimes a slut, but still." fletcher couldn't believe how honest he was being, but perhaps there was something in the air. the promise of getting his face buried in beau's sweaty feet, the thought of it all being captured on film for guys to get off to... it was like something out of his wet dreams coming to life in front of him. "i would let you do whatever you wanted to me, daddy. if you want to share me with a friend, or pimp me out to total strangers. share my cunt with the highest bidder, as long as they've got a nice dick and some sweaty feet for me to goon out on. i'm your dirty little whore, daddy," fletcher managed through deep inhales of the other's musky scent. he was sucking on those damp socks as though his life depended on it — and, in that moment, it did. there was nothing more important to fletcher than pleasing beau. "don't care who's around, daddy. if ashley walked out right now, i'd tell her to have a seat and learn how to please a real man like you. i'd tell her that these big feet deserve a slut like me to lick them clean, and that she's an idiot for not doing so... and if your friends ever want to kick their feet up, and they have your permission, i'll gladly extended my services to them too," fletcher continued. without a second thought, eager hands pulled beau's socks off, stuffing one in his pocket and bringing the other to his face for one last hit. he dove in excitedly, lips and tongue working together to clean those soft soles of every last drop of sweat. he licked from heel to toe before working his tongue between each and every toe, never taking his eyes off of beau once.

[shesgonnachangetheworld]

I really love the citadel, the design is fantastic, but I don’t trust it at all. Ashley was like “this place is too perfect, they’re hiding something” and I was like “GIRL you read my mind”

[showyoumyfavoriteobsession]

Underdiscovered Polygon Streams

I started compiling this list a while ago, accidentally published the draft, panicked, and deleted it instead of saving again SO here's attempt number 2! Probably not new to most folks, but some fun non-series streams that I have found while plumbing the depths of my hyperfixation. Feel free to add your own!

Best Video Game Music of 2017 Funstravaganza! Clayton and Simone play Audiosurf to the Polygon staff’s (Brian, Susana, Allegra, Pat, and Russ) favorite video game music as an end-of year celebration. I love this idea and wish they did it more years! CW for LOTS of flashing lights.

Simone and Ashley’s Overwatch Dream Date Spectacular Simone and Ashley were giving away merch and screaming. A lot. Simone is an aro queen and has no idea what constitutes a date.

It’s Jaws Time in SUBNAUTICA w/ Jenna and Clayton Jenna’s first stream! She and Clayton explore the ocean in search of big scary fish. Generally chill, a few deep-sea jumpscares. (They talked about this one on a Valheim stream recently!)

Fort Friends! Pat, Jenna, Simone, and Clayton play Fortnite like... some kind of squad that is bad at games. Some kind of... terrible squad.

Polygon’s Friday Afternoon Smash Party A rotating group of Samit, Jenna, Clayton, Russ, Brian, Simone, Allegra, and Pat playin’ Smash Bros. Closes with Yoshi Betting, which is strangely investing.

NO MORE HEROES Turns 10, with Pat and Brian One of Brian’s first streams, playing a Wii game with big nostalgia for Pat. A chill good time.

Pat and Allegra Play Spellspire - Fantasy Typing RPG Pretty much what it says on the tin. Allegra is a very good with words and Pat is there also /s The developers put in a patch in response to this stream which is delightful.

Mount Your Friends 3D - Polygon Will Reach The Peak Russ, Clayton, Brian, Jenna, and Pat cycle through playing this very silly physics-based game.

Yakuza 6 - Pat and Allegra are Doing Crimes, But Only the Cool Kinds of Crimes They play minigames and take silly selfies. Also check out this video, which they reference in the stream, where they play a silly mission with the Yakuza localization team.

Ashley and Pat Play YOSHI’S WOOLLY WORLD Part of a short-lived series called Me You and Wii U. We learn some cursed facts about beloved Nintendo characters and take a good nostalgia trip.

Pat Plays Tokyo 42 A rare solo stream; if you, like me, just enjoy listening to Pat’s voice, you’ll like this. The game has a really cool art style too.

~*~Pat and Simone Stream Corner~*~

(I think these are more well-known but just in case you're like me and always digging for more Pat and Simone content)

MONSTER HUNTER: WORLD - Pat and Simone Vs. Big Lizards Simone has a banana crisis

Pat and Simone Play MR. SHIFTY cool game

Pat and Simone Play Human: Fall Flat Pat relates childhood trauma

CUPHEAD with Simone and Pat really satisfying co-op play

PAT AND SIMONE EXTREME BIKERZ SIMULATOR Simone talks about communists and learns about soda syrup

Polygon Plays Red Dead Redeption 2 Again Patrick “horse crimes” Gill. Very good cameos from Jenna and Clayton.

Red Dead Redemption 2 Online: Cowboy Babies (part 1) (part 2) The first half-hour is them making each other in character creation

BURNOUT PARADISE REMASTERED - Pat and Simone Go To Car World Good Game Ogre lore

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[cowboyshit]

fifteen questions

I was tagged by @zumo-san (thank you so much for the tag, love! it’s been awhile since I did one of these) tagging: I’m going to take the easy way out and say if you want to answer these feel free to say I tagged you and go wild!

nickname: ash, ashomundo sign: sagittarius height: 5'2″ last thing I googled: horse anatomy diagram song stuck in my head: I like me better by lauve number of followers: 18,690 amount of sleep: depends. some nights I can get 8 - 10 hours (sometimes even more if I’m feeling extra sleepy) but these last couple weeks it’s been 3 - 5 hours a night. dream job: making a comfortable living off of publishing cowboy romance novels wearing: plaid leggings and a black tank-top movies/books that can summarize me: I’m sure there’s a great answer to this, but my brain is drawing blanks. favorite song: right now? let me drown by orville peck favorite instrument: piano or the good ol’ acoustic guitar aesthetic: pink, cute, country favorite authors: terri farley, cassandra clare, jojo moyes, luke arnold... there’s a ton of others but those were the first that came to mind random fun fact: just a fun fact, or a fun fact about me? I guess it’s about me since this entire questionnaire is about me. let’s see... I raised cattle when I was younger and showed steers through both 4H and FFA. one of my steers (my favorite I ever had) won every single show we went to. he even took supreme grand champion at our local county fair! (he also used to let me curl up and nap on him when he was laying down sleeping, and he loved to play with soccer balls)

[soc-characters-as-songs]

H A L S E Y

ivy: clementine (”I left my daydreams at the gate because I just can’t take ‘em with me too/know that my heart still has a suitcase, but I still can’t take it through/I don’t need anyone, I don’t need anyone/I just need everyone and then some”)

meredith: drive ("your laugh, echoes down the hallway/carves into my hollow chest, spreads over the emptiness/it's bliss/it's so simple but we can't stay/over analyze again, would it really kill you if we kissed")

diana: easier than lying ("you liar, you don't love me too/it's easy for you after all/my heart is massive, but it's empty/a permanent part of me, an innocent artery")

dahlia: graveyard ("I won't stop 'til I get where you are/I keep running when both my feet hurt/I won't stop 'til I get where you are/oh, when you go down all your darkest roads/I would've followed all the way to the graveyard")

alassie: don't play ("tryna take back what you say to me/I don't give a damn what you say to me/there ain't no time for games with me/I'm moving on, I'm getting paid/i'm on my own, I had some space to deal with it")

ramona: haunting ("we walk as tall as the skyline/and we have roots like the trees/but then your eyes start to wander/'cause they weren't looking at me/you weren't looking for me")

rhea: ashley ("and now, if I figure this out/apart from my beatin' heart/it's a muscle, but it's still not strong enough to carry the/weight of the choices I've made/I told you I'd ride this out/it's gettin' harder every day somehow/I'm burstin' out of myself")

cornelia: castle ("oh, all these minutes passing, sick of feeling used/if you wanna break these walls down, you're gonna get bruised/now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it/already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it")

kaden: finally//beautiful stranger ("I grab your hand and then we run to the car/singin' in the street and playin' air guitar/stuck between my teeth just like a candy bar/and I wonder if it goes too far to say/I've never recognized a purer face")

andreia: the lighthouse ("well, the waves were tall and they were crashin' down/he's layin' in the water, begging god to let him drown/so I showed him all my teeth and then I laughed out loud/'cause I never wanted savin', I just wanted to be found")

arely: 3am ("darling, I just left the bar/and I've misplaced all my credit cards/my self preservation and all of my reservations/are sitting and contemplatin' what to do with me, with me")

suzy: forever...(is a long time) ("I spent a long time/watering a plant made of plastic/and I curse the ground for growing green/I spent a long time/substituting honest with sarcastic/and I curse my tongue for being mean")

samuel: be kind (”wanna believe, wanna believe/that you don't have a bad bone in your body/but the bruises on your ego make you go wild/wanna believe, wanna believe/that even when you’re stone cold, you’re sorry”)

bianca: dominic’s interlude (”and if you’re looking for signs then/you should know there’s power in the words you’re thinking/talk to your man, tell him he got bad news coming”)

archibald: alone ("she said she told you she knows me/but the face isn't right/she asked if I recognized her/and I told her I might/see, everywhere I go/I got a million different people tryna kick it")

raphael: ya'aburnee ("I get undertones of sadness/when I think about the moments/that I never got to spend with you")

[onlytime1]

the unrealism of crybabies- TLOU2

the crybabies in this fandom are ridiculous.

You all asked for more realism and now that you were given it you go with shit like “life ain’t just sad”and “this is not realistic it s just depressing”

So basically, life is just happiness....and depressed people don’t exist........according to you...which shows that you re the ones who live in fantasy and not realism.

No, life aint just sad, but some people hurt a lot, even when they re happy, even when they re surrounded by people who mean everything to them, up to the point they feel like they re poisoning that happiness they faught hard to find; like ellie was with her family;  and depression FUCKIN EXISTS...and yeh it s in turn and must be depressing to watch because it s fuckin sad that a person should ever feel that way. That s what makes it realistic, and if you felt like Ellie felt then the game drove the point inside you, that you re not yet to understand.

Death, ptsd, depression all that stuff, they exist.

I ve luckily never fallen victim to either depression or ptsd, but i did watch somebody in my life go throu depression for yrs(which coincidentally has a lot to do with him losing his father as well; so i won’t tell you how shit he felt when he lost the father figure,grandpa, who had stepped in for the father he never got time with); some days he was playin soccer with me or teaching me whatever, the day after he was punching a wall; breakin glass, crying and wondering why the fuck he had been dealt that hand at life...nvm that when said grandpa died he kept on screaming for his dad to come back....

I did go thro anxiety and panic attacks and i m so glad they fuckin nailed how it feels to have one. Literally I think Ashley pushed herself beyond any limit she had ever transpassed just having Ellie be the big ball of pain she s in tlou2.

so yeah you see, sad things happen in life; and Ellie’s devastation IS REAL. The sting of things unsaid, of things that joel will never have with her(to make an example; Joel will never meet JJ and now Ellie needs to fix things with her family; a family she broke because she couldn’t give herself peace, that she felt she didn’t deserve),the convinction that she d have had plenty of time to tell Joel things and that was snatched from her, not even naturally, but by murder, and for something he did TO SAVE HER, to try forgiving him, how she d never be able to tell him she s thankful for him bein literally the only parental figure that stuck by her and loved her for who she was, and i could go on. That kid is literally feeling guilty for existing(would be enough to look thro the last lyrics we see in her diary to see it); and if you all can’t see that sometimes that s how people feel and how wrong is that they should feel so; do you live in Zelda s world or something?

[snarkwriteswrasslin]

sprung spring | take you home; adam page [m]

Prompt Used:

  “I’ll feel much better if you let me walk you home.” + comfort sex + drunk sloppy sex + “Oh my god you’re so much better than the last person I was with.” + A breathy demand: “Kiss me” - and what the other person does to respond. + needy/clingy sex

Notes: 

Okay, so… I have literally… Never… used my given name in a work of fiction before and… ya girl found out it’s hard to write dirty things when the OC has your name. Pure self indulgent smut because fuckkit yolo, I needed this. Some of the dialogue prompted above was changed to reflect the situation these two were placed in, fyi. This is mature content, so nobody under 18+ up in these parts. Also, I owe a serious hug to @heelsamizayn​ & @wrestlingismyguiltypleasure​ because no matter how many times I whined and bitched and got all squirmy whilst writing this, they really kept me going and I love them for that.

Warnings: 

alcohol tw ( it’s the OC this time), clingy unprotected sex, sawwwft!Adam, lots of teasing (and hopefully tension, I was  really trying to play at heightening that here) and yeahhh.. It’s tame. I promise ya’ll… I’m going to write actual harder / filthier prompts, I just… had a mighty need. Anyway, that’s all the warnings.

Pairing: 

Adam Hangman Page x OFC, Ashley

Ashley narrowed her eyes at the bottle before glancing up at Shane and shaking her head. “I-I’m good.”

“Aw, c’mon hon. It’s just a little drink.” Shane was stepping closer, right in her space all over again. He’d been plying her with drinks and trying to get her to dance or talk to him -or the most annoying request he’d made so far, “Smile, darlin. Ya look prettier when ya do.” and it was starting to rub him the wrong way, the way she kept resisting. She could almost feel it radiating off of him.

Ashley was at that state of drunk where it was more annoying than endearing and now that it seemed to be irritating him that she wouldn’t just give in, it only gave her all the more reason to resist. It wasn’t as if it wasn’t almost cringe inducingly clear what the asshole thought he was doing and she just wasn’t having it.

At all.

Not even slightly.

Rather than even partially entertain his offer for another drink or to go dance with him, Ashley sighed and rolled her eyes in sheer boredom, taking the drink and taking a sip as she scrolled through her contacts list.

As usual, she hovered over Adam’s number in her phone and that loneliness crept in all over again. More pronounced. More tinged with regret.

She found herself missing him so much that before she even realized it, she’d pulled up the text bubble from their last text conversation and she found herself grimacing at the date.

Had they really not spoken at all in nearly 3 weeks?

And then Ashley found herself going back over the last time they had spoken face to face. Before she realized the true depths of her feelings and Adam drunkenly tried to kiss her and in a blind panic, she’d backed away.

Not because she hadn’t wanted him to kiss her, but because she’d been afraid of what might happen if he did kiss her.

And now, Ashley thought bitterly, hugging herself a little as the thought came, I’m lucky to get a Hi, how are you over text out of him..

With a sigh, she finished scanning their last brief text conversation and then, when Shane cleared his throat impatiently, she remembered that apparently, this guy expected her to pay all her attention to him and she put her phone down. Biting her lip, she settled warm brown eyes on the other man.

“I asked ya if you wanted to dance, darlin. They’re kinda playin our song.” Shane chuckled, holding out his hand. When she started to shake her head no, he gave her a sort of put off glare and muttered something to himself about tonight being a complete waste. All his buddies told him not to walk over and try talking to her; they all told him she was bound tighter than molasses from the knees down and every single night she’d come in this week so far, she’d managed to shoot down anyone who thought they might possibly stand a chance of takin her home. I clearly should’ve listened, Shane found himself thinking, because now I’m out fifty bucks and she looks more annoyed with me each second that passes and that real gorgeous chick I know I coulda won over left an hour ago with Greg.

“W-we don’t have a s-song?” Ashley’s brow quirked and she shook her head, holding up her glass. “I-i’m good, actually.” Ashley muttered as she took a long sip.

Moron, do you seriously think I want to dance to this song… with you? Because no. Ashley thought to herself as she glanced around the crowded bar, face falling when she remembered that Adam wasn’t in town right now, he was on the road. When Ashley realized what Shane had just muttered about the night being a total waste, she mildly shrugged. “I-i don’t r-recall askin y-you t-to come up n’ t-try pourin the booze to me, either. Play s-stupid games, w-win stupid p-prizes.”

As Shane grumbled “Fine, suit yourself, darlin. Don’t come lookin for me when it’s late and you can’t find a ride home.” and made his way onto his next target, Ashley let out a long and deep breath, blowing at dark bangs as they flopped right into her eyes, laughing off Shane’s words.

She went back to her phone, scrolling through her contacts.

“Maybe Shayna’s up.” Ashley mused to herself as she pulled up what she thought was a text conversation she’d been having with her friend earlier in the day while they were both stuck in their office working through lunch.

What she didn’t realize -and wouldn’t just yet, was that she hadn’t texted Shayna at all.

She’d texted Adam… The subject of the earlier conversation.

→ First of all, pretty sure I just completely eviscerated this one guy’s poor ego. *eye roll*. Guess whose NOT having the sex right now bc she gets mouthy when she drinks?

→ This bitch, that’s whomst. In my defense, he was the one who kept pouring the drinks to me. I just took ‘em. You know me, guy stood about as much a chance as… Anyway, it doesn’t matter. I chased him off. Like usual when we’re out at this bar.

→ But seriously though.. Maybe it’s the alcohol and the fact that I’m lonely and I’m salty because I’m not getting cuddles rn like youuuuu but…

→ Okay, u were right earlier.

→ It’s late and I’m drunk, otherwise I’d never say that. Maybe a little lonely too. Enjoy your shallow victory and the sex you’re probably getting rn, lmao. ILY Shayna!

→ I know ur probably busy with Samuel - sexy times and all that but… You win. You’re right.

→ I love him and god… I miss him so much it’s making me an even bigger bitch lately, so.. Sorry for that I guess. I wish I’d just… Kissed him back. Climbed him like an actual tree, giant he is… Shoved him against the wall, tangled my fingers in that hair and tugged his mouth against mine. Maybe even rubbed myself against him a lil bit too, just to see if that yummy cologne he wears all the time rubs off. At least then I’d… Well, I sure as shit wouldn’t be sitting here, shooting down pushy douchebag assholes and drinking alone.

→ Anyway, have your moment. I love Adam Page. I always have and it scares the living hell out of me. You were right. Now there’s only one problem… How do I make the big idiot answer my calls?!?

→ don’t answer that rn. Tomorrow… When drunk Ashley isn’t out and doing dumb shit and can think clearly.

→ Okay, no… answer meeee… I just… I need to know what to do here? Pls. I beg of you. If you don’t answer me, I swear to God, I’m gonna wind up drunk dialing.. >.>

–

The cell phone was going batshit crazy on the bathroom counter and Adam mostly ignored it in favor of soaking under a long hot shower. It had been a long drive; made longer by the fact that he was all beaten and banged up from the past few shows but trying to soldier through as usual. Parts of him admittedly ignored the phone because he thought it was most likely one of three people and none of them he wanted to talk to right now.

No, Adam thought to himself, the one I wanna talk to more than anything I can’t talk to now… He sighed as he thought about the way he got too drunk; out of control. He’d tried to kiss her that night and just the sheer look of panic in big brown eyes right before she bolted the hell away in a hurry had been more than enough to make him realize where he stood.

He couldn’t face her after that either, so he’d been keeping a low profile. Trying to distance from… his actions.

Just thinking about it had him both cringing and feeling that raw surge of pain he felt that night all over again, fresh as ever.

She hadn’t texted him or tried calling either, so that only further confirmed his suspicions. And now, Adam thought to himself as the phone buzzed one last time and he stepped out of the shower, wrapping a towel around his waist after drying off his face, you lost your best friend. The one you could talk to about anything. You messed that up. Being a jerk that night and coming on way too strong.

He picked up his cell phone only halfway glancing at it at first. But when he actually read all the messages, he wound up dropping the phone on the bathroom tiles with a quiet thud. Then he stood there, trying to get his head around everything he’d just read, all the texts from Ashley to what she apparently thought was her best friend Shayna.

About him.

He took several deep breaths and then got himself at least partially together before even attempting to answer the barrage of texts.

← Where are you?

← Are you drunk right now?

At re-reading that her shooting down men when she went out with Shayna was apparently a common thing, Adam let out a few shakier breaths and bit his lip, raising a hand to his head and dragging thick digits through damp hair as he let it sink in.

Blue eyes scanned the next message after hitting send.

← Nevermind, screw it.

← I’ll be there in 10.

← And me and  you? We’re gonna have ourselves a serious talk.

After throwing back on the jeans and tee shirt he’d had on before showering, he grabbed his keys and headed out. He knew the bar she always went to because they’d hung out there on more than one occasion.

“Bastard who was pourin the drinks to her better hope he’s long gone when I get there.” Adam muttered as protective urges reared their head and he found himself more than a little worried. Ashley wasn’t a drinker by any stretch of the imagination. And given the rambling in the texts she thought she’d sent to Shayna just now, it was.. A safe guess that she was at least two thirds of the way to being too drunk to function.

And it had him more than a little concerned because he knew how the guys at this particular bar got when they saw a pretty girl sitting there, drinking alone. His grip tightened on the wheel as he sped towards the bar in question.

When he was in the parking lot, he tried to call her cell phone but it went straight to voicemail. Without wasting any time, Adam killed the engine to his truck and got out, hurrying into the bar, blue eyes darting around all over as he tried to pick her out in the crowd.

Maybe she hadn’t left yet. God, he could only hope.

–

“I-i’m gonna stop you right there. Just because I-i’m a lil tipsy right now..” Ashley stared up at the man who’d taken the seat next to her at the bar after Shane vacated in a hurry earlier. “Don’t mean I want any part of y-you.”

“Aw, c’mon darlin. Pretty little thing like you shouldn’t be sittin here, drinkin all alone. C’mon.”

“I’d a-actually prefer it, if you w-want the honest G-god’s truth.” Ashley waved over the bartender, signalling for more bourbon in her glass. She fixed her eyes on the man and raised the glass to her lips. “Thanks f-for the drink though.”

Before the guy even got a chance to respond, a throat cleared loud; almost protectively, from behind the two. Ashley didn’t even have to turn around to know exactly who was standing behind her, but what she was having trouble grasping in her tipsy state, was what exactly Adam was doing here now.

“Just do yourself a favor and leave, buddy.” Adam stared down the man intently, arms folded over his chest, moving to step closer to Ashley’s stool, lightly pressing against her from behind.

“Adam? W-what the hell?” Ashley drawled, turning on her stool almost immediately, brown eyes locking on him with a questioning gaze. “I… y-you w-weren’t home.” she could feel herself starting to sober up just a little at his sudden appearance. She frowned a little, shook her head sadly.

Adam moved to step between her legs and he leaned in and down, brushing his lips against her own as he muttered quietly and firmly, “Kiss me.” catching her chin with his finger curled beneath it just when she went to look down. “My eyes and mouth are right here, darlin.” Adam coaxed, gazing at her mouth intently.

“K-kiss me, he s-says.” Ashley drawled, biting her lip, staring right back at his mouth just as intently as he stared at hers.

Her hand raised, resting across the back of his neck, fingers tangling in and tugging his hair free from the bun he’d thrown it into, threading through it once she had. Her legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer and her other hand curled in the front of his tee shirt, tugging his mouth down to her level a little better. Once she’d done that, her lips trailed lazily over his mouth, tracing the shape of his lips, making him give a quiet groan and his eyes flutter open and closed. By the time her tongue was slipping past his teeth, his tongue was fighting against it for complete control of the kiss and he’d leaned into her so much that her back was right up against the edge of the bar. His teeth scraped at her lower lip as the kiss deepened, both of them panting for their next breath and dizzy from it.

His hands slid beneath her ass and he scooped her up, not bothering to break the kiss just yet or untangle her from his body. Her legs squeezed his waist harder and she rubbed against him more than a little. Once they were out in the parking lot again, Adam stopped, sitting her on the railing around an outdoor sitting area, pulling her into another deep and almost bruising kiss.

“I-I was just… about to l-leave. Walk.”

Adam chuckled and shook his head no, nodding to his truck. “I’d feel much better if you’d let me take you home, darlin.”

Ashley eyed him, hints of a pout on her lips. “Y-you s-stopped e-even t-talkin to m-me.” she sighed and shook her head sadly, muttering under her breath, “I-it is m-my fault.” and Adam tilted her chin to make her meet his gaze when she looked down, shaking his head. “It’s not, darlin. Not at all.”

“I-I fucking r-ran. S-seriously?” Ashley whined, her legs squeezing at his waist as she wrapped them around him all over again, staring at his chest for a few seconds, blowing out an exasperated breath, because the more she thought about her choice to run the night he finally kissed her, the more it did truly exasperate her. Of all the times to panic… It had to be then. The worst possible one.

Adam chuckled and leaned down, muttering softly against her mouth, “If it makes you feel any better, darlin.. You made up for it. And it drove me crazy, not talkin to ya.”

“G-good.” Ashley giggled and poked out her tongue as she looked at him. “B-because it m-made m-me really cranky. H-holy s-shit, so cranky.” she giggled again, making Adam laugh and scoop her up into his arms, making his way towards the truck. “I know.”

“H-how?” Ashley’s brow raised as she stared up at him, resting her head against his shoulder. “I-I literally o-only told Shayna…”

“You texted the wrong person, actually.” Adam teased as he unlocked his truck, sitting her into the passenger seat. Ashley’s mouth opened and closed and she palmed her face, groaning in sheer embarrassment while laughing softly.

Adam got into the truck, starting the engine and Ashley was raising the console, curling into his side as soon as she’d moved to the middle to sit, tucking her legs on the seat beside her. Adam chuckled, slipping his arm around her shoulders. “You’re awfully cuddly tonight, know that?”

“Mhm.” Ashley purred, her lips brushing against his neck, making him grip the wheel just a little tighter. By now, the embarrassment over what she’d done was melting away and her internal filter -the little she actually possessed to begin with, was at an all time low thanks to having drinks poured into her all night by random and far lesser appealing men. “Is that a b-bad thing?”

Adam bit back a groan and barely resisted bucking his hips as he felt her lips clumsily moving along the side of his neck as she nuzzled into him and chuckling quietly, he gave an answer. “Not at all, darlin. Except for the fact that you’re getting me all sorts of stirred up right now.” he muttered, the truck coasting to a stop beneath the red light a block away from his place. When he did, he turned to look at her, wasting no time in pulling her mouth up to his as his hand went from squeezing her thigh to slipping between them, rubbing her through her jeans as he swore quietly because he could feel how warm she was and it only made him think about how wet she might actually be.

“Maybe t-that’s what I’m trying to do.” came pouring out before she could stop herself from saying it. Not that she would have either way, but she was at least trying to show a little restraint, still partially shocked that he was there and that she’d somehow managed to confess everything to him under the guise of texting Shayna.

Maybe it was a good thing that happened, Ashley thought to herself as she slipped her hand down, trailing it along the inside of his thigh, then up… Sucking in a sharp breath when her hand settled palm down against the bulge already straining and growing, pushing against his jeans. Adam’s hips snapped and he locked eyes with her, biting his lip, the hand between her thighs starting to move a little harder and a lot faster. Ashley rocked her hips against his hand and sucked in a sharp breath as Adam leaned in, teeth tugging at her earlobe and catching as he muttered against it in a whisper, “If that’s so, darlin.. You’re in for it. Just wait.”

“What if I don’t w-wanna wait, hm?” Ashley muttered as her lips brushed against his neck again and Adam’s breath caught in his throat before making the remark aloud, “Got a lot to make up for, me and you.”

“Mhm.” Ashley could feel herself getting wetter and wetter with every single word he said. She knew he had to feel her thighs clenching tighter with each word he said because his hand was currently buried between them, palm down against her dripping and throbbing heat, rubbing through her jeans and by now she’d trapped his hand where it was. A shiver passed through her body as she continued to rock her hips against his hand, a quiet whimper of frustration coming when all that lead to was him, slowing down way too much for her liking at the moment. She pouted up at him and bit her lip as he leaned in, closer and closer, pulling her face towards his.

“Could take all night.” Adam was turning his head slightly, tugging her neck closer as he ghosted his lips along it, the pressure of his hand reaching an almost feverish frenzy as he growled against soft skin, “Maybe even tomorrow.”

“Oh?” Ashley’s eyes fluttered open and shut and she bit her lip, her hips rocking faster to meet his hand and the way it cupped and rubbed at her heat. Just enough to make a little friction, not by any means enough to give the amount of friction she actually craved.

He was teasing her.

Just the thought had her pouting in sheer frustration as she locked eyes with him. “Tease.”

“Ain’t exactly teasing if I know exactly what I’m gonna do to you when I get you home.” Adam pointed out, giving her a smirk. Ashley swallowed hard, breath catching in her throat at his words. Her mouth opened and closed and it had Adam chuckling quietly because this was one of very few times he’d truly seen her with a complete lack of something clever to say in response.

“Cat got your tongue, darlin?” he practically purred the words as his hand started to massage all over again and almost instantly, she started to rock against it more urgently.

“Adam… Fuck.” she gasped quietly, eyes fluttering open and closed as she started to palm at the way he was strained against his jeans.

The light went green and the careful and almost teasing movement of her hand in his lap felt so good that for about half a second, Adam didn’t realize it had.

“Light’s green, Adam.” Ashley’s voice was teasing, she gave a soft giggle as Adam took a few shaky breaths, nodding as he hurried from beneath the green light, turning down the next street. His house was in view, only a few seconds away and yet… It felt like a million miles away.

Almost the second he was parked at the curb in front of it, he was reaching out, pulling her over the console and into his lap, his hands and mouth all over her, mouth latching onto her neck and leaving a string of hickies down the side as he bucked himself into her from below and his hands disappeared up her shirt, slipping beneath her bra before finally getting frustrated at how in the way it was and unfastening it, gripping her breasts in his hands, palming and squeezing at them as he growled against her mouth when his mouth finally rose to meet and conquer her lips again.

He leaned into her so heavily that her back met the steering wheel and the horn in the center, making them both laugh only to have the sounds of their laughter swallowed by a deep and frenzied, needy kiss. The kiss broke and Ashley backed away slightly, biting her lip, wiggling around in his lap, bucking herself right against the prominent bulge strained and about to burst through his jeans. “I think that’s our sign to go inside, Adam.” she muttered the words as she felt her face burning hot and she bit her lip, squirming around in his lap just a little more, harder, desperate to keep the friction going. Adam nodded, killing the engine and getting out of the truck, carrying her up the steps, stopping to unlock his front door, with her body pinned between his body and the door as he did so. Twice he had to grip harder just because she started to trail her lips down his neck and chuckling quietly into the kiss he stole, he gave a triumphant and joking ‘Yee haw’ when he got the door unlocked at last. Ashley gave a soft whimper as he stepped through the door, shutting it behind him and locking it. He sat her down on a sturdy console table that ran the length of the back of his sofa and stepped away to pull off his boots and Ashley took a few deep breaths, tried to pull herself together.

This was really happening.

Finally.

Adam met her gaze as he straightened to stand again and he stepped between her legs, devouring her mouth hungrily, his hands cupping her cheeks and caressing. “You’re sure, right? Because once we cross the line, darlin…”

Ashley gripped his jaw, guiding her mouth back down against his greedily as she whispered needily into the kiss, “Fuck me, Adam. I don’t wanna remember anyone else but you.”

Adam’s teeth clenched her lower lip; tugging. She was clinging to him and it was driving him crazy because there was… Still too much clothing in between them, keeping them apart. He scooped her up off the console table he’d sat her on to take off his boots and started to carry her down the hall, stopping halfway to put her back against the wall, tearing her shirt up over her head, tossing it onto the floor. Ashley tugged impatiently at his tee shirt, finally getting it up and over his head, tossing it onto the floor a few feet away from where her own shirt lie. Adam did away with the pesky bra next, letting it hit the floor softly, an almost primal growl bursting from his lips as he dipped his head low, dancing his mouth over the tops of her breasts, leaving behind beard burn and littering soft skin with bites with each time his mouth connected with her bare skin.

Ashley writhed around in his grasp, rocking herself into him, gripping his hips tighter with her legs, whimpering aloud, her head falling back and softly hitting the wall as her eyes fluttered open and shut. Her hand gripped his shoulder, fingertips digging into and dancing over his skin, sending a shiver through his body and making him groan as he glanced up at her, biting his lip. Ashley stared right back, both of them struggling to catch their breath but too caught up in the moment to bother putting a halt to the deep and biting and almost bruising kisses. She took his face in her hands, pulling his mouth deep against her own, her tongue trailing over the outline of his lips before parting them, her body rubbing against him even more frantically. Her hand raised to tangle in his hair and in the process, a photo clattered to the hallway floor noisily.

“Let’s take you to bed, hmm?” Adam’s breath against her skin as he mumbled the words into her neck quietly had Ashley whimpering and rocking against him even more frantically. Adam growled quietly as he bucked himself right back against her, starting the walk down the hall to his bedroom all over again. He kicked it open, a quiet creak of the frame echoing through the stillness as he stepped inside and shut it behind him, tossing her against the mattress as he stared down at her hungrily. Ashley went to raise up, reaching for the waistband of his jeans but Adam pushed her back against the mattress all over again, making her pout and give a frustrated whimper as he chuckled softly and leaned down, hands going down her bare skin, sending goosebumps to it’s surface as he lowered his mouth down, ghosting it slowly over her abdomen before raising to whisper next to her ear, “Uh uh darlin. Let me take care of you.” in a husky and firmer tone.

He started to lazily trail his mouth over bare skin all over again, the blunt of his teeth tugging at her nipples as his tongue circled them and he caught her eye, winking at her, his hands drifting down between them, unbuttoning and unzipping her jeans, lingering to rub and squeeze her cunt before hooking in her waistband to tug her jeans and panties down all at once. Ashley tried to rock her hips upward, desperate to feel any kind of friction, frustrated beyond belief by all Adam’s teasing, but almost the instant she dared it, Adam was on his knees, kneeling in front of her, parting her legs with his hands and ghosting his mouth up the inside of her thigh slowly, occasionally placing a soft bite against her skin.

When her fingers tangled in his hair, he grunted against her skin, grazing his teeth against it, his tongue slowly making a lazy broad swipe upward. Ashley whimpered when she tried yet again to rock her hips against the way Adam had her pinned, just hoping to at least make an attempt to steer him where she needed him most, but he chuckled quietly, the shake of his head that he gave making soft hair brush against her skin and sending a shiver through her body. “I’m holdin you still for a reason, darlin. Now c’mon, be a good girl. Be still and let me take care of you.”

“Adam, please.” Ashley begged, trying again to rock her hips upward, only to pout when she realized just how determined Adam was to hold her in place and tease her relentlessly.

“Be patient, darlin. We got all night.” Adam’s tongue was trailing lazily over her folds as he said it, the taste of her on his tongue making him half growl his words as they left his mouth. He smirked a little to himself when he felt her not only try to rock her hips upward to meet his mouth but her hand curling in the comforter on top of his bed and in his hair, tugging as she whimpered and whined, her cries of frustrated pleasure echoing off the walls of his bedroom and shattering the silence around them.

Her breath caught in her throat as she felt his tongue make a long stripe over one side of her cunt. And then, straight across the middle, finally, another long stripe across the opposite side to which he lazily chuckled “A.” as he met her gaze with a teasing smirk. Ashley rose up slightly, staring down at him, biting her lip as a series of needy whimpers and loud whines left her mouth and her toes dug into the comforter. One long and broad stripe and then another curved stripe had her shivering and arching her back, fingers tangling in his hair as she tugged gently, “Fuck.”

“D.” Adam was at it again with the smirk, lowering his head almost a split second later to get back to what he was doing. His tongue trailed a familiar pattern over her folds and he muttered quietly against her cunt, “A”. and Ashley shivered even more because it hit her what he was doing, spelling out his name. “Adam, please… Need you, baby, please.” she begged almost frantically, desperate to ease some of the ache rapidly building because of all his teasing. Despite the urgent begging, Adam’s tongue rolled lazily, the one slanted stripe required to form one side of the M and then the two stripes required to form the middle of the M and finally, the last stripe. “M.” he groaned as his nose bumped right against her pelvic mound and he buried his tongue as deep in her pussy as he could, tilting her hips upward, pulling her closer to his mouth as he savored the taste of her as it started to fill his mouth. He could feel her body starting to tense up and another smirk came, pressing against her soaked warmth as he started to slow way down on the movements of his tongue. When he felt her fingers tugging at his hair again and noticed that she was digging her toes into the bed too, the smirk on his face grew.

Yeah, he was teasing. Taking his time with her, making this last. He’d waited so long already, now that it was happening, he was just… Really savoring the moment.

“Adam, please!” Ashley choked out, back arching away from the mattress slightly, eyes fluttering open and shut as she tried to keep frustrated tears at bay. When she felt him leaving a string of bite marks on the inside of her thighs, she whimpered and tried to rock her hips against his grip at them to no avail.

“Not yet, darlin. Just a little longer, I swear.” Adam breathed against her cunt as his tongue rolled lazily over the folds before slowly slipping in all over again, starting over with his little teasing torture. Ashley’s grip tightened in his hair and he paused, glancing up at her with lust blown eyes. “Pull as hard as you want while my head is buried between your thighs, darlin. C’mon. I like it.” his tone was firm, almost demanding.

And it only served to make her even wetter, she could feel the wetness coating her thighs, dripping. Adam growled quietly, tongue moving a little faster, flicking over her clit, lingering and trailing a lazy circle, grazing his teeth against the circular bundle of nerves as he chuckled against her, “What’s wrong, darlin?”

“You know what you’re…” Ashley writhed beneath the grip Adam had on her lower body, keeping her legs spread wide for him as his tongue slowly dove into and out of her soaked heat, “doing. Tease.”

“Oh, I’m not teasin at all, darlin.” Adam chucked again quietly, “Just said you better not dare cum yet.”

“Adam, it’s all I want to do! Fucking… ahh, hurts. I’m aching, baby, c’mon… Please?”

Adam continued to lick, adding two fingers and Ashley hissed sharp, her breath catching in her throat, her entire body tensing as she tried to do as she was told and resist the urge to cum. The more teasing she endured at his fingers and mouth, the harder that became.

He could feel her body tense up so tight, the way she was propped on her elbows to watch him had her arms shaking. He definitely felt her toes digging into the comforter by now too. Giving a soft nip to the inside of her right thigh as he stopped for a second or two, he muttered quietly, “Okay darlin. Now.” before raising her hips just a little, burying his tongue back deep inside her, rocking her hips against his face faster, his tongue swirling inside her cunt in a frenzy as he felt her shaking all over, heard her gasping for her next breath as she moaned out loud over and over, her cries of pleasure and his name filling the air and driving him over the edge, making him lick and suck harder, faster. He loosened his grip on her hips and she rocked them against his face almost shamelessly, he muttered quietly against her skin, “C’mon, darlin. Don’t stop.” breathing heavily.

Ashley’s hips started to slow and Adam lowered her legs, crawling up her body after dragging the back of his hand across his mouth, his eyes locked on her intently as he leaned down, pulling her into a deep kiss, breaking the kiss quickly to raise up, his hand lowering and wrapping around his thick length just to trace the tip right over and slightly between her folds, shivering himself in anticipation, growling quietly. His hips pinned her hips against the bed and she dug her nails into broad shoulders as he sank into her slowly, carefully, stopping to kiss her cheeks and mutter against her mouth, “You okay, darlin?”

“Yeah.” Ashley answered, trying to rock her hips against him once she was adjusted to the way he stretched her out and filled her up. Her nails trailed lightly across his shoulders, digging in slightly when he sank into her even deeper, his hips smacking against her hips softly and slowly, placing kisses all over her mouth and face, trailing them down her throat as he muttered lazily, “So sweet I could eat you up.” as he met her gaze and slowly licked his lips. Ashley wrapped her legs around his hips and the new angle had him groaning, his hips sporadically crashing against her own for a few seconds as she took his cock as deep inside her as he could go, buried to the hilt. Her hands moved over his face, raising, dragging through his hair after pulling his mouth against her own for a deep and slow and greedy kiss. The kiss broke and he gave a lazy peck at the corner of her mouth, driving deeper and slower into her as he did and muttering softly, “Gonna get way too used to this, I think.”

“I already am.” Ashley breathed out against his skin, making him shiver. He’d always had a weakness when it came to gentle touches against his neck. The fact that she seemed to be enjoying brushing her mouth against the spot, or gently nipping at it with her teeth only had him giving a quiet growl and slamming himself into her slower and with much longer strokes. When she tried to speed him up, he chuckled and his hands lowered, gripping her hips, holding them so that he controlled the pace as he muttered against the shell of her ear, “What’s your hurry, darlin? We’ve got all night.”

Bleak sunshine was starting to peek through the curtains by now and Ashley giggled softly against his neck as she clung to him and he continued to attempt slowly and deeply fucking her into the mattresses on his bed, “It’s morning, actually.” as her forehead softly bumped against his collarbone and he chuckled as soon as the realization hit him too. “Well then, smarty pants, we have the rest of the day. Either way,” Adam’s mouth trailed lazily over her skin, leaving an erratic trail of marks in it’s wake, “we’ve got nothin but time.”

“You make a good point.” Ashley’s breath caught in her throat as his cock bottomed out, brushing against a spot that felt almost magical with each time he did so. She clung to his body, her moans and whimpers only drowned out by his answering groans and the occasional growl.

“I’m so.. Fuck, I’m so close. Please?” her begging had him giving a soft and quiet laugh, capturing her mouth in a deep and breathtaking kiss as he muttered into it, “Me too, darlin.. C’mon, let go for me.”

He sped up his thrusts, almost frantically chasing his oncoming orgasm as she dug her legs into his sides and her nails into his shoulders, raking them down his back as he growled against her skin, feeling her clench tight around him, feeling her body start to spasm, feeling her biting at his skin gently as he fucked her through her orgasm and straight into his own. He tried to stop but every time he tried, she’d grab hold of his hips and rock against him, begging for more until finally, he was throbbing, emptying inside deep, filling her up as he pressed into her heavily, covering her face in kisses before lazily kissing her mouth and having her deepen it as she breathed against his lips, “ That was amazing.”

“Better than the last guy, right?” Adam was only half teasing, but her answer really went a long way to fully reassure him when as he sank back against the mattress, pulling her on top of him and wrapping his arms around her while staring up, she smiled and gave a soft giggle, nodding as she leaned down and mumbled into his mouth, “You were so much better than the last guy. Ten million times better, baby.” before deepening the kiss he gave…

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Ashley hasn’t read this for like a year. Officially.

Ashley hasn’t read this for like a year. Officially.

September seventeen:It’s still day uno of September. I’m so excited. I’m doing something. Patty and I are going to record a conversation that I wrote. It’s basically the game I’m playin.’ This is so much to me. My whole life I’ve been working exactly this. It’s a little bit terrifying, but I give that a straight up “whatever.” Isn’t putting your life together supposed to be terrifying. I kinda…

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Guilty pleasure?

Adrian: “It must be epic dramatic full power  love ballads. I hiave Take my breath away by Berlin on play right now, and Laura Branigan’s Power of love is next. Yes, it is truly shameful, but I like the mood this sort of music sets. Therefore..” *shrugs*.

Ann Louise: “Being better than my sister. And cheetos.”

Asami: “Tarot. Clearly. Although I am not quite experiencing the guilt, but the excitement.”

Azra: “Skipping prayer time to go to a party. Or not leaving a party for prayer time. Getting pampered.”

Bo: “Spending hours - days just searching, google-ing and reading stuff about stuff on the internet. When I’m reminded it’s a waste of time I experience guilt. Perhaps I should read more about why guilt increases pleasure.”

Cassien: “Chocolate. Once I start eating I’m not able to stop. An undesired display of poor impulse control.”

Erin: „Truthfully? Disobeying the rules and regulations my family sets out for me. Not truthfully –purchasing vintage pieces of furniture and hoard them in a storage house untilI will posses a more permanent place, a residence to call my own.”

Ewan: “Bambi, I give you full permission to enjoy everything that pleases you without an ounce of guilt. You don’t have to feel bad in order to feel good.”

Florence: *sings* „I don’t care,I love it, I don’t care. Hmmm – creating SIMS of RL people.”

Inaaya: “Taking notes. By hand. I get secretely happy when we have to write notes by hand in class. Doing vision and mood boards. I can spend hours and hours on those. And I should add cheesy teen movies to the list.”

Javier: „A guilty concience is a self-accuser. Thatbeing said, the answer would be the food at the cafeteria, things that generalymake my time here enjoyable.” 

Ji Yeon: “Does not getting up from bed all weekend counts as guilty pleasure? Does it even count as a pleasure?  Hmm. Oh, perhaps if you add binging several season to the equation, yes. Actually I might simultanously feel really guilty and really please if the binged one is Boys over Flower and I’m watching it just so I can pick up on all the cringey funny moments it contains.”

Jin Ah: “Why would I feel guilty about something that brings me pleasure? I just don’t.”

Jun Kook: “Naruto and Sasuke fanfiction. Including NSFW kind, but you won’t catch me admiting it out loud.”

Lauri: „Binge watching big cats documentaries. I’d die for anopportunity to volunteer at a lion sanctuary. But then maybe I wouldn’t havethe guts going there.” 

Linus: “Stalking other people’s dogs in the park.”

Noah: “Taking the bus with no destination. I just go on a line that I know it’s not crowded, find a seat and read or window watch.”

Pedro: ”Porn? Is it okay to say this?”

Roman: “Logging all my travels. I’ve logged every hike, ever train, bus, car drive and plane I took the past 3 years, I believe. Technology makes it easy, but it’s sort of a secret kink with no outcome.“

Ryan: “Saying things that i know will piss people off so I can laugh at their reaction.”

Quentin: “Sorry, not sorry. I don’t do guilty.”

Sabreena: “Celebrities gossip sites. Reading about some stranger’s train wreck of a life makes me feel better, somehow.”

Sebastian: “Prank videos! And pranking.”

Seto: “Weed, probably.”

Thalia: “K-pop. Believe me, I don’t have to elaborate. It’s like crack. And it’s bad, the worse.”

Vitalis: “Convenience stores visits at 4 AM.”

Ximen: “Playing League of Legends for 53 hours straight, pass out and wake up two days after at the hospital. Yes, THAT is scarily accurate. Good old times. Nowadays listening to epic rpg games score is as close as it gets.”

Yo Han: “I’m a medical student, therefore it’s natural to have an inclination towards dissection and vivisection. On animals, of course, we haven’t had any practice on humans yet. Do I feel guilty about it?” *smiles* “Should I?” 

Ashley: “I’m not going to say that 5th something glass of wine, I’m gonna say the Cappucino order in the morning. A very sweet flavoured calories bomb. De-li-ciooous”

Esther:  “Eurovision song contest. Greatvocals, cheesy moving lyrics, superb choreography, dazzling costumes, specialeffects, politics, glitter, fireworks. What else could you possibly wish from a musical competition?No wander Australia wanted to be part of it. I’m looking at you South Korea,you’re late to the party. The music here would fit just right in Eurovision. Take a hint, will you.” 

Jess: “Old romantic rom-coms. And those disgustingly cheesy and dramatic soap-operas we end up watching with Taner.”

Kira: „I like leaving anonymous gifts for the terminally ill patiens at thehospital, nothing too expensive or fancy, just snacks, sweets, toys, books. Thepatiens are happy most of the time, for these things, and it makes me feelreally good. It’s disgusting.” 

Liam: “Guilty pleasures involves two controversial assumptions:some activites or products are objectively inferior to others and better activities and products aregenerally not very enjoyable. Much discussion about guilty pleasures assume a domain of higher quality of pleasures. My guilty pleasure would bechallenging the viability of these assumptions, quite pointlessly so I suppose.“

Mads:  “Eating Nutella out of the jar.”

Nam Vinh:  “A sneaky cigarette.”

Omar: “Disney movies and cartoons.”

Sungmin: “Ugh. Grey’s anatomy. I’d tell you not to tell anyone, but it’s a ship that sailed from harbor situation.”

Taner: “Asian spicy from hell dishes. I can probably eat it until my stomach could handle itanymore, even at  3 AM in the morning, sitting in bed with a heartburn I’d still think, “Man that food was good, I should have gotten another plate.“ *Sungmin’s voice in the distance* “And Turkish soap operas.”

Viggo: „I used to read romantic wrestlers fanfiction.That’s something I’ll take to grave.” *laughs* „These days my guilty pleasureis playin’ CandyCrash at the loo.”