#as you say: Where the fuck would clary come from???

[nyx-is-missing]

Hi! Can I request a Clarissa × Fem!reader, where reader is spending a lot of time talking to someone from Athena's cabin and she gets jealous. you can decide what cabin reader is in :)

Jealous jealous girl

Clarisse la rue x fem!reader (apollo's kid)

Summary: when the girl she likes is being friendly to someone, Clarisse might see red.

Warnings: no major fights actually, fluff (a bit) kissing (yes today no clickbait) medíocre writting and im sorry.

(I didn't review it, don't sue me, English isn't my native language, that's probably why it's mediocre, love ya

"Have you actually read that book? Oh my gods really? I felt like i was the only one who knew it"

Clarisse watched with red eyes as (Y/n) got excited and laughed togheter with some kid from Athena's cabin.

They werent exactly...togheter yet, but they WERE something, everyone was sure of that.

Clarisse mind couldnt comprehend then, how even though EVERYONE knew they had something, that particular girl would not back off of her.

(Y/n) laughed togheter with the girl at some book reference she had made, and the final straw for Clarisse was when the girl had the courage to touch her girl's knee.

Her sunshine?

The disrespect, was she not seeing Clarrise looking at them? Like 10 steps behind?

The.disrespect.

Oh that will end right now.

Walking over to the girls with a fake smile who people would perceive of normal happiness, however, if you did knew her, her eyes had a hint of red rage in them.

"Love? Would you come with me for a second yes?"

She took (Y/n) by the hands but before she could even get up the Athena kid made herself seen.

"Excuse me? Cant you see we're talking? So rude."

"Oh yes, excuse you really, i dont think a need a cue to talk to my girlfriend, now shut up before I make you eat that book for dinner."

Not waiting for any more words Clarisse took reader by the hand again.

"Clarisse that was not nice, she was my friend- dont even start to speak right now, we'll talk in my cabin, it must be empity right now, we dont need the camp seeing something they dont need"

Letting (Y/n) guide her, still holding her hand, Clarisse had a confused look on her face.

"But we are not going to fight, not today"

"Says who?"

They got inside the cabin and bingo, empity empity, all the Apollo kids must be doing its activities, or getting ready for dinner, as always.

"Me, Love. We wont fight, we'll talk."

Clarisse sat down at the bed she knew it was (y/n)'s waiting for her to do the same.

Choosing to stand, she had a blank look on her face.

"You said we would talk, talk to me, why be mean to my friend clari?"

"Because im jealous. Im not made of steel, love, i cant see a girl from a rival cabin flirting with my sunshine and go around skipping like a kid, you know me"

"We were not flirting clari, she is my friend!"

"YOU were not flirting, she wants to be more than that"

Clarisse corrected

"And you have a right to do something about it since when? Everytime you talk about me to your friends im a friend too, but suddently when its convenient i turn into your girlfriend? Oh please"

Clarisse looked at her, and extended her hands to grab (y/n) hands, when they finally touched Clarisse got (y/n) to get closer and closer to her, now she was standing in between Clarisse's legs and had to look down to see her.

"I never said i was right love, im sorry for hurting you, i swear.....i was insecure about that, im so sorry really..."

"Clari you dont needed to-"

"Date me"

Clarisse interrupted her mid speech.

"What?"

"Date me, let me introduce you to everyone as my girlfriend, i wont make you hurt anymore, date me....-"

Please

That was the word missing, would it make clarisse apear as desperate if she used it?

Fuck it, she was inside the Apollo cabin, that gave her enough poetic justice to be as luvestruck as she could

She found herself resting her hands on (y/n) hips, looking up to her with heart eyes.

"Please... date me"

.

.

.

"Say something, please"

Whoever first said that acts spoke words was very much right, because the kiss Clarisse received was nothing short of a love letter.

Clarisse felt hands on her cheek and neck, caressing her.

The kiss was slow and carefull at first, like the first time they kissed, so very sweet, until it wasn't.

When the kiss deepened, Clarisse's hands sunk more onto (y/n) hips, and then started to pull her down, to sit on her lap.

It was the very first time both felt like this, the absolute need to just become a fusion, hug so tightly a loved one that they would just morph into one.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you"

Clarisse said, breathing in her girlfriend's neck when they separated to breath.

When (y/n) was going to speak, she felt a small bite on her lower neck.

"Clarisse- ah"

"Sorry.."

Clarissed giggled before she went back kissing her mouth, when did she became one of the girls that giggled?

They heard the cabin door opening and then a

"Oh fuck sorry i just...ill come back later, and you (y/n) will tell me everything about later or ill change my name, bye lovebirds"

They looked at each other resisting the urge to laugh.

"Well i guess we wont need to introduce ourselfs to anybody, by tomorrow morning they'll know"

[lord-montgomery]

i feel like i've talked about this before.. but i can't help but think that if simon was able to subconsciously remember enough of his time with the gang to name his band the mortal instruments, wouldn't it be plausible for him to recall other stuff? i feel like there's some distinction between an emotional imprint and like an intellectualized memory.. and that's how the mortal instruments was dug up despite asmodeus' claim over simon's memories. and if we draw emotional imprinting to its natural conclusion.. idk i just. i can see simon post-edom writing lyrics to process everything he went to the previous fall. i think they'd come out of him and he'd be like huh.. where did that come from. and his bandmates would be like fuck dude you got a gf you keepin from us?? because the ones he shows them are so filled with feelings that are so obviously real and intense. feelings that to their knowledge, simon has never felt. and they couldn't attribute them to clary because of course clary never existed for them. and simon shrugs and says he must have been inspired. you live in new york, you pass people and their stories all the fucking time. love and heartbreak and friendship and that panging feeling of where do i belong.. it's everywhere.

i'd like to think that after the shadowhunter academy, when simon's memories have all been returned to him, he goes back to his room at his mom's place to sort through things, and he comes across pages and pages of these lyrics dissecting the emotional roller coaster of the very real events that occurred in fall 2007, the very real love he found, and the very real, if dormant, heartache that came with losing clary and isabelle both.

of course he'd still have a lot to process once the memories start returning, and once they come back in full, but i can imagine there having been this pang inside him that needed that time to recover emotionally from all that he'd endured, that sought out music and poetry, which speak from the soul more than the ego, to do whatever processing it could. and i think it would have prepared simon to be better suited to handle everything once it does come crashing down around him. and i think maybe finding those lyrics in a way feels like bringing together those aspects of his memory, because the brain doesn't always remember how things felt but his notebook certainly does.

[insufferableprotagonistpoll]

Semifinals

Propaganda why Clary Frey/Fairchild is insufferable:

"Here we go again: She found out she was part of a race that opresses pretty much every magical being ever and immediately jumped onto being as racist as people that were raised in that cultist lifestyle. She calls a man ""Warlock"" the way people say slurs.

Terrible friend. Poor Simon never gets a break. And she's an even worse girlfriend to him. He is understandably upset when he finds out the person she most wants to kiss isn't him and asks for some space, but no, not on her fucking watch. She won't stay away from his place all of a sudden. Despite never really having time for him prior.

Goes up to a closeted gay man and tells him all smugly she knows about his sexuality and acts like he's the problem for not owning it. He lives in a homophobic society where violent punishment and exile is normal.

Speaking of exile, almost gets a woman that was nice to her exiled so she can break the law.

Demands aforementioned warlock do necromancy and when he tells her about his trauma, she throws a tantrum. She never apologises. That and, she and her friend always go to him for their problems, and are never grateful when he helps.

Has the ability to wish for one thing only once ever, wishes for a shitty man to come back to life.

The incest thing. She wanted to fuck a man while thinking they were fully biologically related. Yeah. And technically they're still adoptive siblings. True love.

Her cringe evil arc.

Apparently she's worse in the books. Great to hear."

"I don’t remember much from the books but she was kind of annoying"

"She finds out about a magical world she's been unaware of her whole life and it takes her five seconds to jump onto the fantasy racism train. Constantly demands people do dangerous stuff for her. Causes so many problems and when someone points out that she's going to hurt someone they're treated like they're an asshole. Walks up to a closeted man like "I know what you are". Is a terrible friend to her childhood 'bestie'. Falls in love with her brother, one the worst men alive."

"Worst case of Main Character Syndrome you'll ever see."

Propaganda why Jimmy is insufferable:

"The most chillingly real depiction of one of those men that think the world owes them everything. He's a rapist, a misogynist, abelist, self-centered, abusive, terrible friend and person that gets everyone killed because he was big mad about being laid off. It shocks me that there are apparently people out there that play the game and like him. He's so evil, but never in a way that makes him cartoonish, and that makes him all the more terrible. The game lays it out itself: he won't take responsibility for anything. He is never the villain in his own eyes. Scumbag."

"Tbh he's not just insufferable. He's disgusting. I can't even list all the horrible things he did because they would need multiple trigger warnings. He thinks that he's so high and mighty to the point where he betrays his own captain so that he can take his place, and then blames his actions and the ship crashing on said captain, who was actually trying to save them. So all of the crew died in one way or another (because of Jimmy's actions) thinking that their captain betrayed them when really if was him. And a quick Google search can tell you all the really nasty shit that he did. So not only is he insufferable, he's also just a horrible human being."

"Listen, I'm not even in the fandom and I know what his ass did. Screw this guy"

"Bro never takes responsibility for anything he did. Assuming he even acknowledges it *vaguely motions at what he did to Anya*"

"SA, causing a ship to crash, murder and elongating his friend's suffering in a cryopod for 20 years"

"He's literally the worst. He's a rapist, he framed his friend for attempted murder-suicide after getting him mutilated, and he either directly or indirectly killed everyone else. He's such an unreliable narrator that it's difficult to tell how the others of the Tulpar crew actually are because he sees everyone as beneath him."

"rape, murder, just generally being an asshole"

"LITERALLY A RAPIST"

[im-out-of-it]

part 7 of season 2, episode 9 continued “bound by blood” AKA ALEC GOES OFF

107. it’s always funny to me that Luke thinks Maia will stay secluded and won’t get mad. you locked her in a small space knowing she’s scared of being locked in small spaces so of course she will be angry. Luke is also one of the dumbest characters thinking that an already angry wolf won’t be extra angry when you use those fears against her. Luke is just as bad as Jocelyn jace clary because he thinks he can make decisions for everyone because he knows what’s best for us all

108. ALEC HAS HAD ENOUGH

109. I knew this parallel would come in handy

110. Alec literally just took control and he did it so easily. THATS THEE SHADOWHUNTER WHOS THE BEST. Alec didn’t use any violence but just hit aldertree where it hurts

111. Alec: fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, I’ll blackmail you. what I love about Alec when he calls people out, is some of the time he says it in a calm voice. he’s not yelling it out like when he was mad at Magnus, but he’s just speaking super calm

112. that little smile of Alec’s when he’s called you out and he knows you’re done

113. Alec: you answer to me now. it literally makes no sense when Imogen made jace the head of the institute and not Alec- all because she’s related to jace, and the fact that Alec is dating a warlock. fucking prejudiced shadowhunter. and you know she would ignore jace if she didn’t know they were related. Jace got that position handed to him because he’s blood and because Alec is dating the most powerful warlock.

114. Magnus gifs I forgot earlier. I just love seeing the expressions on his face and how quickly they change

115. it’s sad that the whole shadow world is basically burning and Malec aren’t even speaking to each other. like Magnus is going to be helping madzie and Alec will be fighting in the institute. Alec doesn’t know where Magnus is and I doubt Magnus knows where Alec is. it’s literally the worst time to have a disagreement

116. other Alec gifs from this scene and the scene with Izzy I overlooked

117. aw aldertree is mad that he got called out

118. of course madzie is going to do what Valentine says. if the scary villain says this person is responsible for taking away her nana, then she’s going to do all she can to get her nana back. duh clary

119. wrapping up this episode- I like seeing how upset Alec is with Magnus because Matt shows how terrified he is that Izzy is hurt and he didn’t know so he couldn’t of done anything about it. Harry also does a wonderful job at subtly showing his emotions. from needing to tell Alec but worried how this will affect Raphael, shocked at Alec’s actions, and then scared because of Raphael and quickly showing support and tough love to Raphael. he’s stuck between supporting Alec and Raphael- Harry does a good way of subtly showing this. I love Maia calling Luke out because he needs a harsh wake up call. but I love seeing her expressions. Alec Magnus Izzy Raphael Maia have the best scenes, with an addition to madzie

120. what I hate and wish the show would have changed: the fact that it’s accepted how jace and clary kept this secret from downworld, when they had no right to do so. I don’t like how jace and clary think they are saviors to downworld when they’re not. I hate Luke in this episode and he should’ve paid more with how he let his wolves go anywhere near the institute. he shouldn’t have believed jaces word especially when it was never said that he’s the demon who can destroy the sword. he even says that we have to find the demon. Dot played in valentines hands like everyone (almost) is so stupid in this series because they believed everything a villain says. a villain who lies to get what he wants. Dot should’ve known better than to believe valentine.

I don’t like how the whole theme is we must save clary. I’m tired of seeing this pattern in CC’s content and the show should have handled this better. kill her off, I don’t care but I hate how this whole message is that clary’s life means more than a mundanes or downworlders life. there are so many better characters in this series than clary and jace and trust me, we would have survived. Jace and clary are not the heart of the series. Malec is, Izzy, Raphael, Simon, Maia, the downworld community. that’s the heart of the series.

it just irritates me how everyone has to worship and protect clary and jace asap. no one can ever be mad at them for long or they are seen as the villain. Alec has paid for so much and hasn’t done as much damage (but is treated so horribly and almost no one ever apologizes or attempts to make amends. Alec almost takes his life and Magnus is the only who is concerned. Aldertree just uses it as leverage.) but jace fucking plays in valentines hand and is responsible (partially yes) for the death of probably hundreds. and what does he get? no punishment. gets a fucking raise when it’s found out he’s actually a herondale. because in CC world, they can do whatever and are seen as superior. the lightwoods get thrown to the side in her books even if they are better. Jace doesn’t know a single bloody thing about ruling. he doesn’t think his decisions out because it’s only what jace or clary wants.

so if they would have toned down these themes, I think the episode could have been better. but it’s great with the emotions from Alec Izzy Maia Raphael and Magnus. they do it so exceptionally well. I’d give this episode a 6.5 rating because it’s good but it needed so much more work honestly. and I’m not a professional and this is just my opinion. but this felt closer to the book themes and I just don’t vibe with the books. the show had a chance to separate itself from the books and I didn’t see that here. and I’ve already gone off about luke clary and jace so I don’t feel the need to keep repeating myself. I think I made my point lmao

but 120 is the number and thank you for joining Malec is fighting so we are crying and can we stop making it about clary and jace 24/7 asap discussion post bitchfest shitposting debate!!!!!!! I’ll probably start the next one in a couple days and just release it all at nice like I did with this one. as always, I appreciate everyone taking the time and reading my nonsense and I will be heavily anti luke and anti CLACE on the next one, see y’all soon

[carelessflower]

rating shtv jace questionable moment

let be honest, it will mostly be season one plus two offending screenshots from season two. critical analysis only when i want to, the rest depends. the descent into hell is easy after all

5/10 - see? sh writers can write, first scene with jace they already show how he treat alec the rest of the season.

6/10 - that his job

3/10 - friendly reminder, alec was the acting head at this point aka jace's boss, it's his duty to report any strange occurrence at the institute and now you brought a STRANGE girl into HIS institute, i dont know, just a thought

3/10 - yes it kinda is, and it's alec choice at that seeing how he your superiors

3/10 - jace would be a shit head for the ny institute if a random pretty girl make him act like this. and again, it normal alec get suspicious at clary, because he, you know, can actually think through situations and not dive in first like a headless chicken

4/10 - yes, he has working brain cells

2/10 - dont you love it when the dude you supposedly share half your soul dismiss your valid concerns regarding your life

5/10 - if he's as you said you would be six feet under or in some ceils not here talking shit

1/10 - yes alec stop, don't you know jace is allergic to reasoning

2/10 - he knows you should be supportive of your parabatai

1/10 - all i can say is if a stranger comes into my life, not caring for anything but herself and jeopardizing my job, i would let out far worse things than angry rant

3/10 - no wonder jace fancies clary, they are never ready to hold themselves or each other accountable for anything. true love

🚩🚩🚩/10 - right before this izzy LITERALLY said clary go out WILLINGLY i have no words, alec's way too nice i would have 'oh this you' and drag jace daddy issue to filth back i would go lower than hell. by the way jace never apologize for this so. flop

0/10 - proceed to lose her next episodes

4/10 - flop. flop parabatai of the year

2/10 - funny how jace only bring up the parabatai bond when he needs alec to do something for himm hmmmm. it giving suspicious it giving affection with conditions it giving manipulation

-♾️/10 - that a totally normal thing to say about your brother, the one who you share a lifetime bond with. i normally wish jace choke on a porcupine

0/10 - jace only contribution to the parabatai bond is 2x03 and when he use his nepotism to transfer the head of ny institute position to alec. and even with alec already on his way to that title before imogen swooped in

5/10 - ooh be making that face now suddenly you care? dont make me laugh

0/10 - jace lies so well, all that practice telling himself he looks handsome every morning paid off

0/10 - my three year old cousin has more critical thinking than these two

0/10 - jace the one to talk he's incapable of seeing anything outside clary

-/10 - for whither thou storest, I will steal, and where thou trust, I will trust to betray.

 💀/10 - took them ten episodes to have alec FINALLY punch somebody for joking, using his sexuality against him when he's clearly NOT ready to talk about it. yeah fuck shit up baby

2/10 - oh okay, let talk about how you and clary fuck off to somewhere with the cup when the clave and a race supremacist massacre advocate cult leader are both hunting for it. then you and she proceed to play house with your newly discovered fake dad and left alec to deal with the mess. oh, did i mention izzy's complicit in your scheme and you left her there at the mercy of the clave?

1/10 - your saving cause more problems than elon musk to twt get over yourself

4/10 - selfish intentions + selfish actions = season one clace. a match made in heaven

6/10 - passable apology but why he cant just resist making it all about him lmaoooo

4/10 - the only joke here is your life

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[inkykeiji]

Hii Clari! What do you think would caught ranpo's eyes about a reader? And how would he approach them?? He feels like a menace

hi anon!! c: hmm i dunno about what would catch his eye, i think he’d be interested in all types of people, but i can talk about how i think he’d approach a crush or someone he’s interested in!

warnings: mentions of yandere right at the end

ranpo having a crush would be very interesting because i feel like it could go a few different ways, depending on how he’s feeling that day and the person themselves. i could honestly see him becoming uncharacteristically shy with the person if the crush hits him very suddenly and out of nowhere the moment they meet (aka if it’s a new person in his life), almost to the point where it comes across as rude because he refuses to do anything with them or be around them. the feelings are strong, potent, and entirely unfamiliar, and he has no idea how to deal with them, so he avoids them until someone talks some sense into him and helps him work through them in a positive and productive way. after he gets over his initial shyness and processes the emotions he’s experiencing, i think he’d begin to act exactly the way i describe below!!

if the person isn’t a new person in his life, and the crush + feelings develop gradually over time as he gets to know them, then i think he’d be obsessive, almost overbearing, with his presence. he’d suggest doing everything together in a way that comes across as incredibly blunt and bordering on demanding, even though that isn’t at all his intended tone. he’s just excited; he wants to spend time with them, wants to show off to them, and wants to share things with them.

if you say you’re going grocery shopping after uni class or work, he’ll naturally invite himself to tag along with you. if you say you’re craving a specific food or meal, he’ll grab you by the wrist and march you over to the closest food stall or restaurant without stopping, no matter how much you protest. if you mention wanting to see a new film that’s just been released, he will immediately buy tickets for the next available showtime and tell you—not ask you—that you’re coming with him. he’ll begin attempting (and often succeeding; he isn’t one to take no for an answer) to drag you along on all his missions and cases, because he wants you to see how smart he is, how capable and adept he is, how absolutely awe-inspiring he is. he wants you to be feel astonishment and admiration towards him, be in amazement of him and his intelligence. ranpo is not a fan of sharing his snacks, but if it’s you, well, he guesses he can part with a candy or two (and if you like that candy, you can absolutely expect him to get very enthusiastic and begin shoving more and more at you to gauge your reactions in relation to other flavours etc—he thinks they’re really cute).

i also think that he wouldn’t really hide his crush for long. aside from the fact that the behaviour described above is abnormal for him and would instantly signal to anyone who knows him well that something is up, ranpo is also so honest, and he almost always says exactly what’s on his mind. if he thinks you look pretty or handsome, he’s going to tell you so with absolutely no reservations. if he likes something you’re doing or finds one of your mannerisms adorable, he’s going to tell you so, bluntly and boldly. as such, he’ll either end up letting it slip that he has a crush on you in some totally nonchalant way, or he will very candidly and almost curtly ask you to go on a date with him because he likes you a lot.

i don’t think ranpo is one to have small or insignificant crushes, either. when he falls for someone, he falls fucking hard, and he’ll stop at nothing to make them his—which is to say, if you reject him, you’re going to absolutely shatter his fucking heart; smash it into a million sharp fragments that pierce his lungs and slash his stomach and lodge between his ribs, so painful he can barely stand to breathe at all. this definitely introduces a very slight yandere potential; he can’t understand why you don’t want to be with him, why you wouldn’t want to be with him—he’s obviously the best person in the entire universe for you, after all; there’s no way anyone else on any other planet would possibly be a better fit for you than he is—but he also isn’t necessarily the type to continue pursuing you after you’ve made it explicitly known that you’re not interested out of genuine respect for you; unless he’s seriously delusional and is able to somehow trick himself into believing that you’re just too dumb, you just don’t know what’s good for you, not the way he does, and you very clearly and very evidently need him to protect you, to shelter and guide you, because he knows what’s best for you better than anyone else ever could or ever will. he’s only doing this because he loves you, obviously. it’s all for your sake, don’t be so fucking ungrateful.

[whumpcloud]

Things End | People Change - Natural Instinct

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content: whumper turned whumpee, vampire whumpee, bad caretaker, references to torture (sensory deprivation and sun burning), starvation, begging, muzzled whumpee, dehumanisation

Clary's feeding him now.

Well, maybe that's a stretch. She's still keeping her distance, and Cai is still the one that removes the muzzle, but she's there, and that she's even worked up the courage to be there means the world to Vincent.

She knows it, too, and it makes her avoid acknowledging him at all. She goes down, she stands there, and she goes back up. And it makes him so happy.

Clary screams into a pillow. She hates him, she does, for ripping her away from the world and making her terrified to even step out onto the porch at sunset. She saw exactly what the hunters did to him and she has a violent urge to do it all to him, a thousand times worse. Chain him up and make him scream for mercy.

But he would do it and thank her, and that's the part she can't stand.

Because nobody should ever suffer so deeply that they'll thank you for the pain?

No, it's because she wanted to make him that way. Not anyone else. She wanted to break him down to this shell and then keep breaking. Didn't she? Doesn't she?

She feels dizzy.

Cai raps her nightstand and tries to offer her a smile when she looks up. "I'm going to feed him. Coming along?"

Clary sighs, and nods.

Vincent is somehow beginning to look worse. Clary thinks it's that he's fed - his newer injuries have bled a little, and she isn't sure Vincent knows that she's noticed it. He's bruised, too, around the wrists and throat and ankles. Vampires need blood to heal, same as a human, they just do it much faster.

Cai's figured out that he can thread a straw through the basket muzzle so that he doesn't have to take it off, and something about that nags at Clary, but she ignores it. This is what she wanted.

"Thank you," Vincent says, half-smiling.

She watches him, the way he holds and drops the bag. Better than anyone she knows Vincent can't control his strength, and he's been progressively clutching it tighter, leaving marks in the plastic. He's not so weak anymore. She finds herself unable to be afraid even so.

"Cai, I want to be alone with him," she says.

Her brother turns towards her. "What?"

Vincent freezes. This is it. This has to be it. She's finally realised that he wouldn't dare fight back and she can do whatever she wants to him. At least there's warning. A moment of preparation. Unlike the hunters, where they deprived him of his senses until he didn't even have the privilege of hearing their footsteps coming towards him.

"Just go, I'll be fine," Clary says.

"I'm cuffing him," Cai signs sharply.

"I don't need you babying me," Clary replies. "Go."

"I'm not-" Cai groans and takes a deep breath. "Please. It's for your safety."

"I'm perfectly fucking safe!" Clary snaps, then shuts her eyes and clenches her fists when Cai recoils. "You've been getting close to him for days and he hasn't done a thing. This is my trauma. I get to handle it how I want."

Cai hesitates. "I know. I'll… go."

Vincent whimpers when Cai turns back, and shakes him by the collar of his shirt.

"Hurt her and you won't even be able to beg when I'm done with you," Cai hisses. "Got it?"

Clary seems annoyed, but she doesn't step in. Vincent nods, and Cai lets go.

They're alone. She's alone with Vincent.

"Is he outside?" she asks.

"H-Huh?"

"Cai. Is he outside the door? You can hear him, I know you can."

Vincent listens. He's gotten used to the sound of Cai's heartbeat. He nods.

"So if you do anything, he'll know."

"I understand," Vincent says. "B-But I won't. I promise you, I won't even touch you."

She stands there, for what seems like a long time, saying absolutely nothing. Vincent shifts on his knees and she flinches. He keeps still after that.

"How did you get caught?" she says, and it's quiet, but it sounds loud in this room.

"I was careless," Vincent mumbles. "I picked one off a group. It was my bad luck that they were a group of hunters."

Clary scoffs. "Don't be stupid. You think I'm gonna believe that?"

"It's the truth."

She searches him, for any sign that he's making it up to seem weaker than he really is, but she can't sense it in the slightest. He attacked a group. Why would he even contemplate it?

She takes a step closer. "Why did you keep asking for me?"

"I missed you."

"Like hell you missed me," she growls, and he flinches. "You left me to die and you wanna say you missed me?!"

"I'm sorry!" Vincent whimpers, and presses his forehead to the floor. "I know, I know I'm awful, I shouldn't have done that to you, I'm sorry--"

"Shut up!"

Vincent digs his nails into his palms but he keeps his mouth shut.

"You abandoned me!" Clary snaps. "You got bored of me and left me bleeding out in the woods and you expect-- you expect what?!"

"...C-Clary, I didn't…" That isn't what happened, is it? Vincent doesn't remember clearly. "I wasn't bored of you. That's not what happened."

"Don't just tell me that's not what happened," Clary snarls.

"I d-don't… remember. I'm sorry. I should remember, I'm so sorry." Vincent can hear her getting closer. "But I didn't… I didn't want to. I never wanted to."

"I was a plaything to you."

"No, you weren't," Vincent whispers. "I'm sorry, I know I… I used you, but you were always a person. Even when I said you weren't. I didn't mean it, I-- you were everything to me, Clary. You still are. I wouldn't lie to you, not now, please."

There's no way she should believe him.

He holds up his hands, keeps his head on the floor. "I-If you want to hurt me, I'll… I'll bleed, now. If you want that. Is that what you were waiting for?"

He sounds almost fucking hopeful. He clearly doesn't actually want to feel pain, she can tell that much. But he does want her to hurt him. He's practically desperate for her to hurt him.

"Just… get up," she mutters. "Stop doing that. You look like an idiot."

Vincent sits up, forcing himself to do it slowly. "I'm sorry. I won't do it again."

She kicks him in the chest, more out of blind frustration than anything. It doesn't hurt that much, but Vincent whimpers like it does. He's gotten good at that. Screaming louder than normal, whining on purpose, begging incoherently when he could easily form the words please and no and stop. Sometimes it made them stop sooner. Mostly it did nothing, but it was worth trying, because it made them smile in that skin-crawling way and tell him he was taking it so well, bloodsucker, maybe I'll only leave you in the sun for an hour instead of two and he could hope.

Vincent jumps when Clary's hand is placed on his cheek.

"I-I'm sorry, I'll stay still," he murmurs.

Clary doesn't reply. She's shaking, of course she's shaking, but he keeps his mouth shut, regardless of the muzzle. Is she going to slap him again? That's surely far less than he deserves.

Her hand creeps behind his head. Her eyes are locked to him. Watching like a hawk. He doesn't move. He stares straight ahead.

He feels her pulling at the muzzle, and then it falls from his face onto the floor. He wants to stare up at her, but he tenses and forces himself to be still.

Her wrist is in front of his face.

"Nnh!" Vincent opens his mouth on instinct and promptly shuts it. Her pulse, he can see and hear and almost feel her pulse under her skin. He never once fed from her wrist, but he has a few times in years past, and he's sure he could do it.

Vincent tries to pull back, but Clary holds her wrist up against his lips and his teeth scrape her skin and he could drink human blood again if he just pierced her skin and took it.

Animal blood is not enough. It will keep him from starving, but just a little human blood will make him feel almost alive.

Clary watches. Clary says nothing.

"C-Clary," he whines. "Clary, please, it-- can I? Please, can I? Please, please. Only a little. P-Please."

Permission. He wants permission from her. Clary grits her teeth. She wanted him to take it, to prove that he's exactly how he is in her fractured memories.

Vincent didn't change. His captivity just brought one side to the forefront, the side of Vincent that cried as he held her, that brought her almost anything she asked for in an attempt to make her happy, that might have even cared, if Vincent was capable of doing that, if she believed Vincent was capable of doing that.

"I hate you," she hisses.

Vincent lets out another soft whimper as Clary locks the door. Was that a test? But she acted as though he failed by not feeding from her. Did she want him to? Surely not.

He brings his knees to his chest and hides his face in them. Was it because he begged? Was it because he considered doing it at all?

Natural instinct is no excuse. He should've been better than that, after all of this, after all of this pain. It wasn't enough. It might never be enough, but he'll happily submit. He won't be a monster. Not ever again.

He clutches the muzzle. He doesn't know how to tie it, but he presses it to his face, and holds it there. He won't bite. Please, he won't bite.

[faejilly]

Shadowhunters prompt! Where the A/B/O thing means Magnus’s attempts to get Alec’s attention are really out there. Alec is charmed but baffled

so uh. I wasn't quite sure where to go with that, because Magnus & Alec's ability to try and communicate at dramatic cross-purposes is Very Them™️, but I usually think the a/b/o thing would make it easier what with pheromones and more defined gender/courting rituals? But then again it's not like Nephilim would have any idea how anyone else does things, and Magnus would be rather paranoid about crossing any lines?

Yeah. That totally works. Even if I failed to explain any of that IN THE FIC, hopefully baffled Alec is still entertaining? LMK if you want more, there's a whole lot more explanation in my head so I'm sure I can come up with something. 😅😅😅

That was Magnus.

In the Institute.

In a suit with a vest but no shirt and those boots and his hair, and Alec suddenly realized he was still standing with his arm raised from opening a door even though the door had shut behind him.

He was alone with Magnus in the Institute foyer and he was gorgeous and he smelled perfect, as warm and comforting as the incense that burned in the chapel without any of the cold tang of adamas-laced stone beneath it that always made Alec's spine straighten and nose wrinkle because that smell meant work.

Alec finally remembered to let his hands drop to his sides, and then realized Magnus had said something, and he was almost smiling and he was...

Holding out a bouquet of flowers?

Alec blinked.

"What."

He didn't manage to make it sound like a question, and he almost winced as Magnus' expression tightened, and he leaned back and he was further away and the flowers were gone, and Alec almost whimpered in disappointment.

"My apologies, of course."

And then somehow Magnus was bowing and he was even further away with a flourish of his hands and a twirl of his coat and the click of his boot-heels on the stone floor and Alec tried to reach out a hand because he still couldn't figure out what Magnus had said, he'd been too distracted by how pretty he was and how nice the flowers were but then he was alone by himself in the Institute with his hand hanging in front of him.

Again.

What.

Why.

Alec sighed, and stared up at the ceiling, as if that would give him the answer, would explain how his why are you giving me flowers when we haven't even rescheduled our date yet and I haven't gotten you anything? somehow come out as why would you think I'd like flowers despite the fact that Alec adored flowers and would love to tell Magnus that.

If he could just remember how to talk when Magnus showed up?

He'd managed to say yes when Magnus asked him out for drinks!

Only then he'd had to chase Clary and apparently Magnus thought that meant something other than literally having to chase Clary because she didn't have the sense God gave sheep.

Izzy or Jace were going to manufacture a disaster and call Magnus to clean it up just to find out what was going on between them, and Alec hated to think how much of a catastrophe they'd manage on purpose, considering the chaos they pulled off all the time mostly by accident.

He hated even more that he was half-tempted to create a disaster himself so Magnus would stop thinking he'd done something wrong and disappearing to regroup before Alec's brain could reboot after seeing him.

How the fuck was one person that attractive, it should be impossible.

Maybe he could write a letter and throw it at Magnus the next time he showed up?

He heard the door he'd come through open, and the stutter of boots as someone had to shift to avoid him where he was still standing by himself right in front of the door.

Alec sighed again. "Yes, Yoshino?"

"I was uh." Yoshino somehow still looked perfectly composed and reasonably elegant in her leathers even as she shrugged and side-stepped to get around him. "Just going out for coffee. Want anything?"

Alec shook his head. "No, thank you."

"You... all right sir?"

Alec lifted his brows at her.

"You've got that smoky cedar smell thing going on, and that usually means you're about to do something on purpose that terrifies the trainees more than their own reckless stupidity, and I just want to know if I should get some extra bold beans to stash in the kitchen for the rest of us so we can keep up."

Alec snorted and shook his head again. "I promise not to scare the trainees."

Yoshino's nose wrinkled as she stared at him. "Two bags then, got it."

He blinked, and she turned and left, and he allowed himself a grin as the door swung closed behind her. That was probably a good idea, actually. He could use the kick to help him figure out a new approach.

[rinadragomir]

a lot of people have theorized for "the last shadowhunter" and all those other titles that the shadow world kinda goes away,, demons are sealed off from the world and so shadowhunters aren't needed anymore, but if you ask me, I feel like that ending is kind of redundant. like, ending everything. because there's so much history, and so many characters are who they are because they are shadowhunters, with what comes with the experiences and shit, so if you were to just drop kick the demons away, they wouldn't know what to do 💀 not to mention the other downworlders,, and the faeries?? fuckin shit. there's so much history Cassie has implemented and it's built *on* the shadow world, Jess's/Wessas story, Clary's, Magnus', literally everyone — so for her to potentially take that all away seems so backwards to me (this is just a theory I've seen a bunch of people say!! nothing confirmed, at all) unless it's like, end all this, or else *this* will happen, and like, ok, plausible ending, but other than that, it just... doesn't seem fitting 😭

I SO agree with you. I remember this theory, it was quite popular in our fandom for a while. But you know that Cassie LOVES ending things unpredictably, so let's discuss it🌝

First of all, like YEAH OKAY the "LAST SHADOWHUNTER" title is... slightly terrifying. As if it's a confirmation of our "Lucifer dies, demons disappear, Shadowhunters live as normal people" theory. And it almost sounds fine yeah? Shadowhunters' life was all about war, they never had a chance to experience other aspects of this life. Living as a human, not a bad ending huh?🤗

BUT NO NO NO, IT'S LIKE A FUCKING HELL, THE WORST CASE POSSIBLE, IF IT HAPPENS 70% OF NEPHILIM POPULATION WILL KILL THEMSELVES NO JOKE🙅🏼‍♀️

1) Yeah, we have Jem's example of "normal human life", but this man has been living in a cave for decades, any life is better than this, it doesn't count.

2) We have another example of "Retirement": Edmund Herondale. And that man drank himself to the point where his family had nowhere to live. Great example of "if you were raised to do a certain thing, if doing this thing has become not only your whole life but also your whole personality personality, then no love will be enough for you to heal when this thing is gone."💁🏼‍♀️

3) When Julian was thinking about leaving Shadowhunters with Emma so they can be together he immediately thought that it would kill her. No matter how great their love was, taking this life away from Emma would only mean endless suffering and years of therapy.

4) For all Shadowhunters "mark stripping" is LITERALLY THE WORST PUNISHMENT🤌🏻 It doesn't matter that the process is painful. To stop being a shadowhunter means stop being yourself. They all occasionally think about "what would it be like to live a normal life" but never further than that. Even imagining living like a mundane is pretty hard. Being Nephilim means being a pride of the angel himself, being the chosen one since birth. Damn it, they even built a whole religion around all of this.

For them fighting demons is not only about wounds, wars and losing loved ones. It's also a great adventure, a feeling that you're doing sth good, that you're important, that you're a part of the greatest community.

Imagine losing it all so you can go to Walmart whenever you want.

[ladyhindsight]

After their eventful escapade in the previous chapter, Clary and Sebastian return to the moving house and enter the weapons room which is occupied by Jace.

Or, you know, katana, wakizashi, tanto—their actual names since you managed kindjals and chakhrams?

They get to talking about their, again, favorite subject: Valentine and Valentine’s plans and how Valentine’s ideas sucked and how their ideas are better than Valentine’s. Sebastian also reveals that Magdalena will forge them a new Mortal Cup.

→ I want to know what these tasks are because it seems they are doing boatload of nothing.

→ Even for a lie, this is the dumbest plan I’ve heard come from the series. And Clary does very little to even question it.

Then they talk shit for a while and Clare makes a fond recall to Clary and Sebastian kissing in City of Glass. Then we cut to Simon who is meeting up with Rebecca in order to sever his last tie to the mundane world.

→ Rebecca and their mother

→ Rebecca liked to refer their mother

Because she is not only Simon’s.

This was honestly so great. It's more palpable and touching than anything Clare has managed to write about Simon and Clary, for instance. Or any other siblings for that matter. These are glimpses of an actual life, specific things that have happened, and in a small space tell so much about Simon and Rebecca’s life. Not the formlessness of the fantastical childhood with Clary, but actual tangible and relatable things that they’ve experienced. Hooray!

Cut to Jordan. Not hooray.

Let’s promote codependency! It’s not cute.

Maia then arrives at Jordan’s and they immediately get to the business of, you guessed it, flirting and making out.

Jordan can’t even imagine a thing to talk about with Maia. Maia does’t even want to talk about anything with Jordan. Wow.

Valiant effort. Not.

Cut back to Clary and Jace.

Yay, the chipped tooth makes a return! Also no. It saves nothing about Jace being annoying, not when Clare writes the way she does.

→ The sentences between the em dashes are more often than not, especially in this book, so long that I have to keep going back to the actual main clause to get a sense of what the writing was even trying to say in the first place.

→ Love that Clary reminds Jace that he does like his family, because what Jace says here is more truer to the narrative than whatever Clary tries to bring forth here. Even if it's Not-Jace saying it.

→ Okay, then the fuck is the faith of Raziel even about? Also, yeah, Raziel doesn’t give a flying fuck about them. Stick it to him!

→ Good motivation to turn against the Nephilim, I like the resentment here, though actual Jace doesn’t even think like this.

Again, the em dashes function like a comma, a colon, or parenthesis. Like commas and parentheses, em dashes set off extra information, and here they are again like in too many occasions used like parenthesis (or commas), but wrong. Without the em dashes the sentence here in the excerpt would go like this:

His touch was comforting, and if the key was slightly different, with her eyes closed, she couldn’t tell.

Which doesn’t make sense at all.

→ His touch was comforting. The feel of his heartbeat against hers waslike familiar music, and if the key was slightly different…

→ Their blood is not the same, except the Ithuriel part which I think is a sneaky tactic to have them be related even in that way... Also blood is supposed to be under the skin, what other kind and where else it would be?

Clary then asks Jace to read her something.

I had blissfully forgotten these references to The Infernal Devices. Also a hasty excuse why Valentine had the exact book that needs to exist in this time and space for the sake of the reference that they raved about basically the whole of TID.

[excelsior9173]

Sleep Oil?

Ok so Sleep Prayer Oil (yes from sleep token)??

-olive oil for the vibes, I usually use grape seed as a carrier, but the vibes of olive oil are what I’m feeling for this.

-Pachouli (sleep aid, and also VERY sensual)

-Mugwort (for astral/dream work)

-Lemon Balm (love, dreamwork, healing)

-Lavender (sleep aid, but intense dreams)

-rosemary (creativity)

-peppermint essential oil (money/prosperity)

-Grapefruit essential oil (mental clarity)

Ok, so here is my list, copy pasted from my notes app so that is why the formatting and wording is all weird lol, of all the herbs and oils I’d include in a sleep prayer oil, and all my reasonings.

But I freaking. Listen, I don’t believe sleep is a real god, but when I was like ‘what would I put in this’ my mind kept going back to rosemary, and I was like ‘why tho?’ And the first thing that popped up when I searched for herbs for creativity was rosemary and I just said ‘ok. Sleep wants that in there’.

I cant make this rn, cause… I am not uhhh ‘practicing’ (my practice is gathering knowledge until I can move out), but I want to 🤣. I wonder if I could get by with substituting lemon oil for lemon balm, cause I have access to essential oils, but not herbs and putting them jars lol. I could honestly say this was a blend for seizures and I wouldn’t even be completely lying….. I’d actually just have to buy the patchouli and mugwort 🤣🤣🤣…. I’m so tempted. I’ll let you know if I do it or not😂 or maybe I just leave out the mugwort and patchouli for right now? I feel like the others have everything covered, but the first two where more like the pa-pow of the oil, idk if this makes since? Like those are the main two and if I was making this for real, I would do only a little bit of the other ingredients, and a lot of the main two, but if I’m not including them I’d do more of the others…. Fuck it I’m gonna end up making this, oops. (But probably with grape seed oil, since this is an essential oil blend… I’ll be back with more notes I’m so sorry).

Edit: this just keeps getting longer longer sorry; went to gather the oils, realized we do indeed have patchouli! But not rosemary… thinking of substituting oregano for rosemary…. And maybe clary sage for mugwort?? Hmmm. Lots of thoughts. Same associations for both things as the list above… ok I have to be done now I’ll come back and tell you if it smells good in a different ask lmao.

Sorry for info dumping to you about a silly little oil, but I was having fun with it.

What would go in your version of it, if you don’t mind me asking👀 I know you said you where doing your own research on it, and I’m curious🥰.

i have sat on this for waaaayyyyy toooo long but university was absolutely kicking my ass for the last… month and a half? idk i was going through it for a hot minute 😅

but! finally getting to tuck into some research now that i’m done school for the term and have a quiet day at work. (this is gonna get hella long cuz i’m having a lot of fun researching and i’m gonna use this as a sounding board a bit as i read)

so! first thing i’m learning is that intention is a huge part of this (i knew the intention part already, part and parcel with working with tarot!)

i think given that sleep is introduced to us as some sort of deity, i would probably make a ritual anointing oil.

the carrier oil itself is another question. i think since sleep feels like a deity not easy to commune with (the intensity and allegory in the music makes me think that, if we were worshipping a true god, conversing with sleep takes a toll on the devotee). with this in mind i think grapeseed oil might make a decent base. it is a good choice for anything used to anoint the body (which i feel would be part of this ritual oils use, if we must dream to encounter sleep then anointing the body makes the most sense to me!) and it is ruled by the moon and water element- making it very fitting for sleep token! grapeseed oil is also useful for blends that intend to boost/strengthen mental abilities (it also helps with fertility magic and given the lyrical content at times- seems somewhat fitting) another useful aspect for a ritual for sleep. i do like the vibes of olive oil as well, and it’s a very versatile ingredient but i don’t think i’d like feeling it on my skin so grapeseed it is! (also my local magick shop has grapeseed oil so easy for me to obtain lol)

now the fun part- the essential oils!

(i’m realizing as i write this that i need to purchase a grimoire so i can start recording my research and recipes…)

so this part has taken me a lot longer to fiddle with, not only finding the right associations but also smells i enjoy, but i think I’ve got it!

- sandalwood (its grounding, promotes inner peace, aphrodisiac) [i went back and forth here between sandalwood and cedar, same associations but i prefer the scent of sandalwood]

- lavender (promotes sleep, reduces stress, pretty straightforward lol)

- patchouli (grounding, sharpens your wit, good for prayer work) [loooove the smell too, i’d do anything to naturally smell like patchouli lol, hippy association be damned]

- mugwort (astral projection, lucid/prophetic dreams, meditation)

- lemon balm (love, healing, astral projection, it also amplifies the effects of other herbs)

- clary sage (vivid dreams, divination)

i keep going back and forth on whether or not to add clove, it’s another aphrodisiac and also good for treating insomnia so i think it would fit? but i’m not 100% sure on it yet lol. my familiarity with essential oils and herbs is very minimal

but yeah! now to get the oils and mix. not sure exactly how the mix will come about, will need some trial and error with it i think! again, sorry this took me so long but here we are! finally i did it!

[alexanderlightweight]

Iv tried to submit this four times, but my tumblr keeps crashing 😭. I absolutely love your writing, if you like this prompt, I’d love to see what you do with it.

For said prompt; possessive Magnus, and maybe a bit of Jace, Izzy, and/or Clary not liking it. Perhaps Alec telling them to essentially fuck off if you so desire.

(I’m sorry this is so weirdly written, I can’t think of a better way to word it)

hey you're good! i think i figured out what you want? so i hope you enjoy. this is based in the bdsm verse

NSFW

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Magnus enters the Institute dressed to annihilate and his boots clicking on the marble of the Institute floor. ”Magnus Bane,” Izzy smirks and holds out her hand and Alec watches as she’s met with one, unimpressed brow being raised at her. Her other hand is on the gem around her neck and Magnus barely gives it a glancing look.

“I don’t touch anyone except my sub.” Magnus tells Izzy without looking at her again, a covetous look on his face as his gaze meets Alec’s. “Come here darling. I think introductions are in order.”

There’s a moment where Alec knows he can still play this off, but he doesn’t want to and he told Magnus that he’d be ready when Magnus came for him.

When Alec steps closer to his dom, he sees three faces of mirrored shock staring at him and Jace reaches out, like he’s going to grab Alec in a way he hasn’t since the first time he presented. Michael Wayland had imparted some fucked up views about subs into his son and Alec had beat them out of him, unwilling to let Jace continue when he wasn’t sure how his baby sister would present.

Alec doesn’t bother defending himself because magic slams Jace away from him before he gets close enough to actually touch.

“And no one touches my boy without my express permission.” Magnus tells Jace with a mocking curl of his lips and the promise of danger in his tone. “And I haven’t given any of you permission.”

“Are you kidding me?” Fray is staring at them with a frown on her face. “I know you don’t like me, Alec but I at least thought you were one of the more normal ones. What the fuck is wrong with you, you’re collared and listening to him like some kind of dog.”

There’s a stark silence as every single shadowhunter looks at her in disgust as they realize what Alec’s known all along. Fray has no respect for their culture or their world and isn’t even trying to hide her disdain, even while letting shadowhunters die for her and abusing their resources.

“One, I’d have to care about you enough to dislike you. Two, it’s none of your business what I am but this is normal.” Alec tells her, voice flat and cold because he owes no one an explanation but he’s going to ruin Fray’s reputation in the shadowworld before anyone else gets swept away by her sad little sob story. “And thirdly, I’m not his dog, I’m his cat.” And Alec doesn’t even pretend to be serious, he simply says, “meow” in the most exasperated, sarcastic tone he can manage. Behind him, Magnus titters in surprise and then Alec has an arm wrapping around his waist and a mouth nibbling the side of his neck.

“What a good boy for me, my sweet kitten.” Magnus teases him and Alec just knows his mocking gaze will be on his siblings and Fray.

“You’re doing this on purpose!” Fray yells, “just because you hate me! Because you’re jealous of me. We all know it.”

Alec scoffs because he has nothing to be jealous of, he’s been Magnus’ since the moment he stepped into his king’s territory and felt a branding gaze on him that left him feeling claimed and had him returning, even when he didn’t know who it was.

Alec crashes to his knees, because he wants every single person in this Raziel forsaken place to know who he belongs to and who he picked and who he’s leaving with. He tilts his head up, pressing his cheek to the hard bulge of Magnus’ cock and nuzzling it. There’s a delighted hum of pleasure and fingers tangle in his hair, tugging on it lightly as Alec succeeds in distracting Magnus for a moment.

— “What the fuck, Jace make them stop. I’m eighteen what the hell, I don’t want to see this.”

“This?” Magnus mocks as he pulls a groan from Alexander’s throat, tugging his boy’s hair and forcing Alexander’s head back. “This is the world you’re so desperate to join, child. Leave if you do not like it. Our world will not change because your mother raised you to disdain your own nature and lied to you.”

“How do you know that?”

“I’m the king of the East Coast, Clarissa Fray, nee Fairchild. Daughter of Valentine.” Magnus lets the words ring loudly as every shadowhunter watching turns to look at Clarissa instead of Alexander and himself. “I know far more than you could ever comprehend.”

When this first began, when Magnus had found who he wanted and figured out how to take him, Magnus had never imagined Alexander would surrender to him so completely so quickly.

But Alexander’s knelt for him, in an Institute of shadowhunters and his closest kin and he’s letting Magnus put his hands on Alexander’s collar.

“Wait, do you know who took my memories? You have to tell me, help me get them so I can find my mother.”

Magnus rolls his eyes, irked by the interruption and he drags Alexander up by his hair and hooks a finger into the ring of Alexander’s collar so he can pull him close for a kiss. Magnus unbuckles the drab collar, swallowing alexander’s unsteady whine when the collar clatters to the floor and leaves his neck bare. Magnus has a new one, one he had tailor made with Alexander in mind. It’s a smooth, ring of magical platinum with a simple ring and a platinum tag with Magnus’ initials. The amount of magic in the tag alone is enough to level Manhattan, but the entirety of the collar holds enough magic to shake the whole of North America with the force of Magnus’ protective wrath.

It’s with the force of his whole protection around Alexander that he finally turns to deal with the pests who attempted to bribe and summon Magnus like a common

“You insult my boy and think I will do you a service? You’re lucky I’m leaving you your tongue and your eyes.” Magnus scoffs, shaking his head at Clarissa as he opens a portal, ignoring the shattering of the wards as he takes away the protection he once granted the New York Institute.

“I was going to be generous and leave the wards until another warlock could be hired, however I find I grow tired of being disrespected by an ignorant child. As long as she is protected by the New York Institute, the New York Institute will be unprotected by magic.” There’s a murmur of discontent because even during the Uprising, Magnus hadn’t removed the Institute’s privilege of commissioning wards.

“You’ve upset what belongs to me, what I’ve claimed.” Magnus tells her and he offers a hand, guiding Alexander through the portal and then he turns with a dark, vicious promise in the sharp maw of his smile. “There are no laws to help you, Clarissa. You’ve proven to be as fickle and insincere as your mother. A disappointment. I had hoped to be proven wrong but was a mistake to let you live in the shadow of my protection.”

Magnus leaves through the portal, tempted to cull Clarissa then and there but Alexander is waiting for him, and Magnus is angry in a way he hasn’t been in centuries.

As if he would stand there and let them insult and degrade his boy, let her mock Alexander as if his submission isn’t a legendary gift that Magnus would have slaughtered worlds to secure if need be.

“Magnus.” Alexander murmurs and he reaches out, hands large and warm as he kisses Magnus passionately, with a fervor that Alexander is never ashamed to show. It’s as if he delights in being Magnus’ with the same fervor that Magnus claims Alexander as his. “Thank you.”

“Don’t you dare—” Magnus hisses, biting harshly at Alexander’s lip in a bloody reprimand. He won’t have his boy thinking that defending Alexander — their relationship — isn’t anything less than the honor it is. “Don’t you dare let them win and undermine what you mean to me, I’ll have to punish you Alexander, if you do that. And I’d much rather pleasure you instead.”

“Magnus.” Alexander whines pleased but embarrassed as he always is with how ardently Magnus adores him.

“I’m taking you out.” Magnus decides, clicking his fingers and summoning an array of clothes that he holds up next to Alexander one by one, tossing them in and out of space as he decides what he does and doesn’t like. “I’m offended by the existence of some very annoying pests lingering in New York and as my precious boy, it’s your duty to distract me.”

Alexander chuckles and bats away a piece of silk so he can nuzzle Magnus’ jaw and kiss the corner of his mouth. “Alright, Magnus. Whatever you want, whatever you need.”

“Oh, pretty boy.” Magnus murmurs and he pulls Alexander into a deep kiss and when they part, he sighs in dismay. His lips already aching without the balm of Alexander’s mouth against his own. “What I need is you.”

— Magnus storms into Pandemonium with Alexander at his side, his hand on the small of his sub’s back as

Unlike before he claimed Alexander, Magnus doesn’t escort his companion to one of the lower rooms.

Never will Magnus spill Alexander’s blood in front of others that isn’t in the fierceness of a kiss or the aching of Magnus’ teeth in the face of his ardor.

If Alexander ever wants to experience pain beyond overstimulation by Magnus’ hand, it will be in the sanctity of Magnus’ lair. His sub is too precious to him to share so much, and Magus keeps Alexander close as they walk through the club, even as they’re given confused looks.

Magnus kneels, ignoring the shocked gasps or Alexander’s pleased look as Magnus smirks up at his boy. Alexander is seated on Magnus’ throne, with Magnus’ collar and initials around his neck and Magnus’ bite mark on his jugular and people are shocked that Magnus would kneel for his boy. As if the delight of Alexander’s pleasure isn’t enough for Magnus to destroy this entire realm if denied it.

“You can come whenever you want, darling.” Magnus tells his boy loud and clear so everyone knows how much his sub’s pleasure means to him. “Fuck my mouth or let me warm your cock, my Alexander. Your pleasure is all I crave tonight.”

There’s a murmur in the crowd, as if they’re discomfited by the intimacy Magnus is professing, by the gentleness of his devotion.

Magnus has never been a gentle dom, but for Alexander he would tame all dominion magic, just to see Alexander smile as it curled and nuzzled at his feet.

“Magnus—” Alexander whispers, because his boy has no need for titles when Magnus’ very name is worship on Alexander’s tongue. “Please, suck me.”

Magnus obeys, wrapping his lips around his boy’s cock and suckling gently until Alexander is whining and trembling, precome filling Magnus’ mouth, but he’s sitting still, thighs shaking and his hands clutching his own pants.

“Sweetheart, why are you being so restrained.” Magnus chides him, pulling away from his boy’s cock with a soft, slick kiss. “I thought I told you that you could fuck my mouth. You’re being so shy.”

Alexander whines, embarrassed by how much Magnus is pampering him, coddling him in front of others. This isn’t done and even Alexander, so new to scening, is aware that Magnus has never knelt for another in public.

Magnus nuzzles Alexander’s thighs and drags his teeth down the stretch marks of his muscles. His boy’s hips jerk and Magnus chuckles before taking Alexander back into his mouth. His sub’s cock is a long and a delicious weight on Magnus’ tongue. It’s such a pretty part of Alexander that Magnus hates to keep it tucked away from sight, but he hates the thought of sharing the vision that is his boy even more.

Even now, he keeps his shoulders tense, his hands cupping Alexander’s balls and keeping him tucked away from others view, his cock safe from wandering eyes, deep in Magnus’ throat.

It’s expected, required almost, of Magnus to show off to whomever he’s claimed as a sub. There is no need for him to share, however, and he won’t. What little bits of Alexander that must be viewed by others will be carefully curated and managed by Magnus.

After all, no one else deserves anything of Alexander.

It’s a privilege that they’re granted what they are.

[justmybookthots]

City of Ashes

Wow.

I liked this book!

You can see my review of Book 1 here. For some time I really just considered my decision to re-read these old YA books as watching bad reality TV (especially with how awful 'Hush Hush' was) but this book was when I felt the gears in my head shift and I realised I was genuinely enjoying the story.

It took me a while to get started because I was reading other books but ever since I finished 'Suddenly a Murder' (and finished writing a chapter of a fanfic that was keeping me occupied), I told myself I'd refocus on getting this one done. Today I was feeling... not great in the morning, and I used this book as a distraction, thinking I'd probably finish it over the next few days (hopefully).

I finished it in like five hours. 💀

People can complain about this book (rightfully so, it's far from perfect) but it was easy to read and very addictive. I don't remember having had this much enjoyment reading it as a teen; it felt like a tedious haze in my memory. And because I don't remember 80% of this book, almost everything felt brand new to me.

Things I liked:

The Inquisitor. I get she's painted to be a villain but I need to say that I didn't really pay her much attention UNTIL 3/4 INTO THE BOOK WHEN THEY SAID HER SON WAS A HERONDALE AND I WAS LIKE, WAIT. BACK UP. So I went to search up "Herondale" and I FUCKING REALISED THEY INTRODUCED HER AS INQUISITOR HERONDALE AT FHE START AND I MISSED IT. I'm actually really glad I missed it because I'd have known her connection to Jace from the beginning, and now I get to be like OH MY FUCKING GOSH when I realise she's probably his grandmother (?). When you see the antagonism she regarded him with for most of the book and then you realise the connection… and SHE herself realised it… I AM SHOOKETH. Granted, readers are supposed to only connect the dots in the next book, but whatever. I get the epiphany NOW. 

She's honestly such a nuanced and great character. She felt like a mix of Umbridge (minus the pink and the simpering and all that gross shit) and Elias' mother from Ember in the Ashes. She made a massive mistake but you realise where she was coming from at some point. You're not supposed to justify her actions, just understand where her head/heart was at.

I used to really dislike Luke when I read him as a teen and now I'm confused why I did because I really like him? I think he's such a sweet soul and he's Clary's real dad at heart, not Valentine.

OOH! When the Unseelie Court was unveiled, I was so excited because after reading Cruel Prince I have a fresh perspective of fae that I didn't used to have reading this as a teen. I liked the Queen and overall how the fae was written. It's really similar to how I think they should be written (IMO). And it was nice tying that thread up at the end, even if a little sloppily. I really wish Cassandra would write a book with a fae lead but she seems to be good friends with Holly Black and that could be a bit weird? I don't know.

Also I really like Cassandra Clare's prose. I personally felt it was one of the better ones out there (or maybe I just feel this way after reading 'Hush Hush'). Maybe it's just more the style I like, even if some dialogue can be a bit cringe at times. 

The conversation between Maryse and Jace was really moving at the end. And just their relationship in general. I love that she DID love him, and saw him as one of her children from the start. I didn't have the best impression of her when she first appeared, but it's great for my perception to evolve over the course of the story.

Valentine is… interesting. As a teen I thought he was a rather clichéd villain (I mean… he IS), but he fills that established trope quite well. 

Magnus Magnus MAGNUS. Need I say more? He shone in almost every one of his cameos. 

Even Alec, who I find pretty boring, had his moment in this book. He pretended to side with the Inquisitor and then went to find Jace to help get him out of the prison. Granted, Alec still isn't anywhere as interesting as I wished he could be—especially compared to MAGNUS—but he was more decent than I expected. 

Really liked how the Fearless rune came into play!!!!!!!

I liked that scene where Jace and Clary talked outside the shower at his place. Most people probably won't like that scene because of the whole sibling shebang, but I enjoyed it. Jace was pretty upfront about things… though given the ending, I don't expect that to recur in the next book. 

Despite how old this book is, and the occasional girl-on-girl hate that I can't stand, Cassie does a pretty okay job at fleshing out female characters other than Clary. Isabelle is decent, and Maia is an interesting addition (I know she and Simon are getting together but whatever). For its time, this book is mostly all right save for a few problematic liners, and I'll give Cassie props for that. (For now. I'll see for the next book.)

Things I didn't like;

Simon, PLEASE GO AWAY. THE WORST PART IS I KNOW YOU WON'T GO AWAY BECAUSE I REMEMBER YOU BEING IN ALL THE BOOKS IN THIS SERIES. T_T He was the worst part of the story for me and cutting down most of his scenes would have made me so happy. When he showed up "dead" because the vampires attacked him, I was like, why do you give me false hope? When Valentine "killed" him again, I was like, FALSE HOPE NOT ONCE, BUT TWICE? SHAME ON YOU. This ugly ass won't stay dead. 😭 He's a tiny parasite that latches on for fucking dear life—my brother in Christ, what were you even doing in the Unseelie Court? He had no role or business there; it's like bringing a wailing baby on a plane. Cassie has to turn him into a vampire to make him halfway relevant but I just DON'T CARE. He was pretty much Ron Weasley in Harry Potter's body and I hated Ron. He tries to be funny but he isn't funny and he's just jealous and rageful most of the time and, like…

Look, I know this is a lot of Simon talk. But I'm still not done. I'm just adding another bullet point because the paragraph was too long. :') Anyway. You know what Simon says? He says this to Clary when she admits she loved Jace: 

He smiled at her. It was a sad smile with something else underneath. "You know what the worst feeling I can imagine is?" She blinked at him. "No." "Not trusting the person I love more than anything else in the world."

Babe, that was really #deep but just because she didn't like you back doesn't mean you can't trust her??? She's still your friend. She is NOT entitled to like you back and trust isn't contingent on your romantic affections being reciprocated. You are not entitled to having them reciprocated just because you were her best friend for years. That's classic "nice guy" manipulation tactics. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ So you're saying because she didn't like you back, all those years of friendship are flushed down the drain and no more trust is left? I don't know how much more of this incel I can stomach. 🤮 Every time Clary sobbed in grief for him, I was like: sometimes we just gotta let that pimple pop and let him go, babe.

I gotta move on. Anyway: I didn't even get to see Alec and Magnus get together in the first place. T_T I have to see chapters in Nice Guy Simon's head but I don't get much of Alec or Magnus' POV here? It's not fair!!!!!!! I felt like I was missing a lot of things about them and how they got together in the first place. 

I'm not a huge fan of Clary and Jace being speshul people with speshul powers but eh. It's not a giant gripe but at least Clary doesn't become a combat expert overnight so I'll take that.

I find Jace and Clary's love for each other a little unconvincing but it could be worse, I guess. 

JACE, I know he's technically immature/a child but he really should have watched his mouth more with the Inquisitor. The first time he was sent to prison, I thought he deserved it with how he was mouthing off to her. But then later he showed a lot of self-discipline/sensibility with the Fair Folk so I was a little thrown by the whiplash. Again, it's not a major gripe, but yeah. 

I'm going to end the review here. Overall, I'm shocked by how much I liked this book given its poor reviews on GR, but we'll see how the next book fares for me (if I do get to read it… or finish it). I do want to add that the sibling thing doesn't faze me like it does many because I know in retrospect that it isn't true, and just… My brain is too screwed-up, I guess? I need to stop reading so many disturbing thrillers. Or manga.

But let me tell you: it felt REALLY surreal upping the book from the 3 stars I'd given it as a teen to 4. I've almost NEVER done that with an old read before. 

- 24 Nov 2023

[im-out-of-it]

season 2, episode 1 part four continued

100. Magnus: you’re lucky you’re cute

101. it’s not like Alexander took hours working up the courage??????? Alec: I had to learn how to apologize so no big deal darling

102. Malecs first fight handled

I love seeing the emotion in both of their expressions from how hurt Magnus is, Alec realizing how his actions and words affected Magnus, and overcoming all of that while they have a discussion about it

103. I’m in awe of how they handled it. I watched the show first but when I read the books, this is how I wanted their relationship to be in the books. sadly we didn’t get that but at least the show committed and brought us this Malec. I couldn’t believe how toxic and unbearable Malec book version is after all those ugh book fans said it’s better. yeah, because they weren’t the main focus. show Malec always has my heart

104. I love how this little scene was improvised because Harry was trying to get Matt to smile

105. THIS IS THE SMILE WE LOVE

106. also can we talk about how Alec apologized twice but this is the time where he finally hears what Magnus is saying and he’s comprehending that. IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH

107. real talk- show Malec gets shit done. another one of my fav parallels coming up:

108. also on a real note, is there any parallel that I don’t love? (JUST THAT ONE THAT MAKES ME EMOTIONAL and maybe some know which one I’m talking about that hits season three)

109. and we shouldn’t be too hard on Alec because this is his very first relationship and he’s doing so well so far 👏🏼

110. Simon: it’s nice when that arrogant self conceited shadowhunter dick isn’t here

111. okay they actually look happy here

112. I think they’re nice together but I still believe Simon loves clary more than she loves Simon. because would she be around Simon if jace was a choice? would she chose Simon if jace was a choice?

113. might be the only time I approve of Jocelyn

114. this was on my last discussion post but I found the gif and that’s my reaction to listening to shadowhunters being hypocrites and dumb

115. well hello Alec

116. forgot to post this one also. ALEC JUST DECIMATING EVERYONE

117. Magnus: what the fuck, I just started

118. it’s a good thing alec has a powerful warlock on standby

119. but are we supposed to watch the Valentine and jace stuff and think jace is actually better and not turning into Valentine? because 1. he cuts Hodges hand off, 2. he joins Valentine and then when he has a chance to surrender himself, 3. he joins Valentine once again. Alec is going to be fighting for his fucking life for the consequences of jace’s actions. and this is what I mean, alec is always paying for his choices. I JUST WISH ALEC WOULD HAVE CUT HIM OFF FOR REAL (fantasy version of mine- alec cuts him off for real and Alec and Magnus and Izzy are so happy)

120. well this is awkward (posting Jocelyn one again because it’s nice to see someone trying to end jace, I appreciate the effort)

121. don’t you hate it when you go and kill some downworlders and your sister/want to be girlfriend and mom/not mom sees??????

122. aldertree: I don’t trust y’all to find jace so I got this and also keep them here

123. forgot to post this too. I love seeing clary’s “I think I know I’m better than you” irritating ass get handled by Alec in season one and now Izzy

124. Simon: im a lot faster so thank me

125. also note that instead of staying and returning to the institute, jace goes with Valentine. he has once again chosen to go with Valentine. so I don’t care what anyone says but he deserved to be arrested for all the shit he pulled PLUS PUT ALEC THROUGH. Alec has almost died twice by trying to save jace so far. everything that has happened since episode 13 of season 1- jace is 100% to blame.

125 is the number and that is it for season 2, episode 1 🥰 thank you for joining malecs first official fight discussion post and we still hate jace and clary debate 👏🏼 I’ll be doing the second one probably in a couple of days give or take. but thank you anyone who endures my posts and me ✨

[tolkienlockian]

A/N: Co-writing fanfiction with @marauder-level-chaos is here!! It's a Marauders and Shadowhunters crossover fanfic, featuring our OCs, Amethyst "Meth" Black and Aster Hightower. First chapter takes places during the second episode of the first season of Shadowhunters, hope you enjoy it and feedback is always welcome! (anyone who wants to be added to the tagslist let us know)

Chapter 1: Godammit

This was ridiculous. Actually, missions for the whole week had been ridiculous. The best and brightest shadowhunters of the New York Institute were stuck babysitting a little girl, all for Jace’s desperate need to get laid. Okay, that last bit may be a slight projection on Alec’s part. Still, ever since this Clary had entered their lives, nothing seemed to be going as it should. Even now they were at the City of Bones, waiting to get her memories back. This girl was definitely way more trouble than she was worth. She had lived her life as a mundane for 18 years and nobody but Alec seemed to think that was suspicious. Jace seemed to trust her blindly and Alec had no idea why. Even Izzy had bonded with Clary’s mundane friend. Maybe if he tried he could get used to these new additions to the institute, but frankly, he didn’t want to. He excused himself from the group under the guise of minding the perimeter for any unwanted guests. There was only one person Alec knew would agree with him about this situation. He picked up his phone and quickly dialed Amethyst, his best friend halfway across the world. It only rang twice before she picked up.

“How’s it going, hot stuff?” Her voice was heavy. Alec could tell he’d woken her up. But he also really needed to talk to her.

“Jace brought mundanes into the Institute. Well one mundane, and a long lost shadowhunter, Clary Fairchild. Her memory has been wiped.”

“Fairchild. Where have I heard that name before? I think I heard my parents talking about it. Anyway, why does she bother you so much?’

“She doesn’t bother me, Meth. I don’t even know her. I just can’t trust her.”

“Hmm, but Jace can. That’s what’s bothering you, isn’t it?”

“You know, I really thought you’d be on my side with this.”

“And I am! I’m just saying there’s more to this than you’re telling me.” Alec knew she was right. Well, partially anyway. “Oh come on, don’t fucking sulk. You’re just pissed because I called you out about Jace. You know I’m always here to talk about it.”

Alec rolled his eyes. “No thank you. I don’t need your leftovers.”

“Good cause it’s not that good anyway.” Their conversation was cut off quickly when Izzy returned, slightly out of breath.

“I lost Simon.”

“Look, Izzy, the mundane isn’t really my responsibili-”

“To Camille.” Meth must have heard that because Alec heard her sigh into the phone.

“Never a dull moment with the Lightwoods.” It was as if on cue, Jace and Clary made their way out from seeing the Silent Brothers. The shocked looks on their faces indicated a strong lack of good news.

“Who’s Alec talking to?”

“Amethyst.”

“Oooo, tell her I miss her.”

“Oooo, keep it in your pants, Wayland.” Meth hissed in Alec’s ear.

“I’m pretty sure she heard you. Anyway, what did you find out?”

Jace and Clary exchanged a look that made Alec want to barf. Why couldn’t they just get to the point?

“Her father is Valentine.” Alec stood there, a blank expression on his face, fighting the urge to scream “I told you so.” Amethyst, however, had no such reservations.

“WHAT?! And she’s still alive?! This is why Alec is the only one in this group with half a brain cell.” While Alec had no doubt that Meth’s screaming had ripped his ear drum, he wasn’t disagreeing with her. Clary should not be here right now. The correct thing to do would be to turn her over to the Clave. They would know what to do. A few 20-something Shadowhunters are not equipped to handle a situation like this.

The ride home was as awkward as Alec had imagined it would be. Neither Jace nor Clary would look at him. And he couldn’t bear to look at them either. How did one little girl make their lives so complicated? Immediately, he went into the training room at the institute. It usually helped him clear his mind.

“Easy there, tiger. You don’t want to break that open.” Alec immediately knew whose voice that was. He’d recognize that insufferable British accent anywhere. Sure enough, he turned around and Amethyst was right there.

“Oh thank Raziel. These idiots are driving me insane.”

“I know. That’s why I asked Fell to portal me here. And I brought Reg. Sirius is on a mission and I’m not leaving him alone in that house. Now, let’s talk over coffee?” Alec nodded, more than willing to catch her up to speed on the shit show that had become his life. And all for a girl he didn’t even know.

***

She loved the Shadow Market! So many colors, sounds and smells for her to enjoy, always something new to discover. Free to mingle, to walk around at her heart's desire, to observe. Tonight she was even lucky, having spotted several mundies with the Sight! She could distinguish them from a mile away; there was something very characteristic in their scent, in how they looked around in confusion and wonder alike, in how they hesitated to stop at a stall and ask for, well, anything.

Funny, she chuckled to herself. Three hundred years and she was still amazed by something as trivial as the excitement of the mundanes.

She shook her head, focusing back on the stunning stand of masks in front of her. All sorts of colors here too, adorned with breathtaking gems and reminding her of a time when the world was younger and she twirled in elegant ballrooms wearing gowns and flowers in her hair. Perhaps the mask with the sapphires would make a nice addition to her collection? Or the other one, the silver, with the powerful glamour?

Suddenly, a gentle vibration from her jacket pocket brought her out of her thoughts. With a frustrated groan she picked up her cell phone, eyes widening at the caller's ID.

“You've got to be kidding me!” She whispered before quickly answering the phone. “On a scale from one to ten, how messed up is it?”

“Now, now, is that any way to greet an old friend?”

“Didn't know you belonged in this category, Raphael.”

“Charming, florcita, but for once I need you to just listen. It's time you leave your little London nest.”

"And why would I do that?”

“Camille is breaking the Accords, does this sound like a valid reason?”

“She what?” Aster left a hiss at the disgustingly familiar name, which was a harbinger of bad news especially when followed by the statement breaking the Accords.

“I know for a fact that your hearing is perfect, my dear. She ordered us to capture a mundane. Hopes to get the Mortal Cup that way.”

“Raphael, stop stalling already! Spit it out, what else is going on? How will a mundane grant her the Mortal Cup?”

“Because he is friends with the Fairchild girl.”

Fairchild?

Did Raphael just mention the Fairchild girl?

The Fairchild girl Magnus told her about all these years ago?

And Camille wanted her mundane friend?

Were these idiots actually trying to start a war that would likely blow up New York?

“Raphael Santiago, what have you done?” A snarl marked Aster's face, making her fangs visible for a few seconds.

“Let's see, I risked my neck by calling you? I try to protect my kin? Now the choice is yours. Clary Fairchild and her little Shadowhunter friends will attempt to save their mundie. We could use an envoy, dare I say, even an ally.”

While Raphael kept talking, part of Aster still tried to process everything she just heard. Not that Camille's breaking the Accords should be particularly shocking. Leave it to her to still be a huge pain even centuries later!

Her eyes involuntarily traveled to the alluring night sky, filled with countless stars. Dawn was a couple of hours away. If she were quick, she'd be on time.

And then the small business of entering the New York Institute.

Who said that life at three hundred would be boring?

Tagslist: @quickbright

[inkykeiji]

hiii clari!!! i hope you’re having a great day, i’m working my ass off at the moment since i’m moving and as i was ripping pages and paint off my wall with a scraper some thoughts popped into my head! i constantly have your touya-nii au! and bmb au! on my mind and i REALLY wanna make an au and story like the two of those but i don’t know where to start!

i was wondering how you thought of the two of those au’s? the plot and storylines, layout, etc. and how you came up with “break my bones but act as my spine” for the bmb au?

AAAA i hope this isn’t too much trouble of an ask!!!! (also omgomgomgomg if possible can i be the 📖 anon? LUV YOU MWAHH)

hi lovie!! <3 i am actually sick in bed with a steadily climbing fever LMAO but thank you sweetpea <3 i hope your day is going swell!!

oooh that’s a really interesting question! i get a lot of my inspiration from music, actually! (which is also why 97% of my fic titles are lyrics HAHA). i love making playlists that either fit a certain mood, vibe, or idea, or playlists centred around characters. usually then i just listen to them on repeat and let my mind wander!!! so for my main touya-nii series, it’s actually all inspired by save that shit by lil peep! each title is a song lyric that relates to the content of the piece itself:

i can take you there but baby you won’t make it back: touya can take reader into this relationship, but once she’s entered into it, she’ll be fucked up for life, there’s no going back to who she was before she started fucking her stepbrother;

all she want is payback for the way i always play that shit: all reader wants is for touya to feel an ounce of the hurt SHE feels when he’s off screwing around with other people—all reader wants is him, completely and wholly and entirely to herself;

do i make you scared? baby won’t you take me back: does touya’s psychotic behaviour and extreme possessiveness scare her? will she take him back now that he’s ready and willing to be fully hers and no one else’s?

also, just the vibe of the song itself set the tone and the atmosphere for the main series!! the same happened with 16 lines, also by lil peep, which is where the lyric break my bones but act as my spine comes from! for this one, it was more the vibe of the song than anything else. that, and the fact that i personally love organized crime bosses, love love triangles, and love the classic bodyguard babysitter falls for the person they’re protecting trope.

anyway, i know they’re kind of abstract, but that’s one of the ways my ideas bloom in my head! the other thing i would suggest is study narratives you enjoy: books, movies, video games—anything with a narrative that really struck a chord with you, and figure out why you enjoyed it and what you love so much about it. i believe it is equally as important to consume art as it is to create it!! feed your brain!! i can give you a whole list of some of my inspirations for those pieces, and that still doesn’t scratch the surface! read, write, watch, play, study!

additionally, i always say creativity is a muscle; we all have it, but you have to exercise it to strengthen it. as such, i’d recommend you do some character + narrative writing exercises n warm ups! those will get the ideas flowing, and you might end up developing a story out of something you thought up during one of those exercises! you can also look into fiction prompts and see if anything sparks your interest!

also, if you’d like it, i also have a lil masterlist of my writing advice that discusses a technique we used to continuously generate ideas in my screenwriting class! <3 ahhhh i hope this helps bb, i wish you luck on your journey and i support you creating your own work one hundred million percent. please, create <3

and yes!! you can absolutely be book anon!!! welcome to the anon club sweetpea ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡