#as yall can tell i gave up on the compilations

[schnaf]

23 days until jungsu's 23nd birthday

day 14 - 😉

[sophaeros]

yall i had a really wacky milex dream the other night?? i dreamt i was on tumblr and saw a video compilation someone made of random underrated milex moments but i only remember/watched up to the first three clips

for the first clip they wore identical blue and red floral print skirts that were ugly as Fuck but they were still skirts so i was like holy shit??? like the fits were Ugly ok alex had his coachella white button up and miles had a black turtleneck i think? and the skirts were almost knee length they were a Lurid blue fabric with big cartoonish just as bright red flowers patterned on them outlined in black and smaller black flowers scattered across it. just eyesearing. like i got skirts but at what cost

second clip was in the studio of a late night show for some reason they'd just finished their set and the host was patting them on the arm like thanks for coming on the show that was the last shadow puppets everybody. at some point they'd done a costume change or something so they had towels wrapped around themselves??+ pants and i was like why are yall holding the towels up to ur chests like women usually do. but anyway when they turned to leave the stage the back of alex's towel had fallen a bit so i was just staring at his upper back really hard. you know this clip from am era where he takes his shirt off? like that

third clip felt like it was set in some kind of alternate universe where alex and miles apparently didnt know each other that well..? but it was still taotu era they were in their suits and alex was interviewing miles??like they'd already done the album it was a promo video for taotu and they were sitting at different piano benches several feet apart from each other and alex was asking miles random questions. i dont remember most of them but his third question i think was what are your favourite books. miles gave his answer then alex walked over to his pile of books and admitted that he'd panicked a bit before the interview and dug up all his hashtag intellectual books and miles laughed and said he could tell because it was all shit like ulysses. and then alex said actually his first choice had been fifty shades of grey??????????I DONT EVEN LIKE THAT BOOK. (but i also just found out that he has actually mentioned it irl which i did Not know)

and then he picked up a book and sat beside miles and miles offhandedly said he'd always been curious about the stuff in fifty shades but never tried it and alex flicked a glance up at him as he opened the book and said really casually oh really? well we can try them out together later. if you'd like. and then i paused the video and went HELLO ?????? and made a post about it like was anyone gonna tell me this happened and beph rb'd my post saying oh yeah lmfao i have this clip and then the dream shifted to another segment

adding to the realism is the fuckin sexual tension in that clip like at one point it cut to a close up of miles looking at alex in that intense way he does while he talked

this is the consequence of spending upwards of 13 hours a week on tumblr

[peach-pops]

Famous S/O HC

This is very self-indulgent cause I’m the type to make up fake scenarios where I’m famous and going on interviews and press tours asfjdks. If you guys want, I’ll make more of these! Oikawa+Tsukishima underneath the cut!

How The Haikyuu Boys Find out that You’re Famous

-Bokuto- (Pro-Athlete) 

Bokuto knew you were an athlete but he had NO IDEA that you were super famous. Like he always thought it was normal for people to come up to you after your game to ask for pictures or autographs ??? 

I mean that’s why he was so drawn to you because of how much passion you had for your said sport cause duh he could relate

One day when you two were out at the mall, he told you that he needed to get new shoes to work out in and so the two of you went into the Nike store so he could look around

He was looking through the shoe aisle and after almost two hours of looking through the same shelves, he finally found a pair he liked (shopping with him is so time-consuming but that’s for a different day) 

when he found a pair he liked, the two of you made your way to the cashier to pay for his shoes. As the cashier was ringing Bokuto up, his eyes traveled up to the large poster/banner that was directly behind the cashier’s area and smiled to himself

It was a colorful promotional banner with a bunch of top athletes from around the world and as he’s looking at the banner, he sees this girl and he nudged you like,” Babe, she looks like you!” 

You look up from your phone and sure enough, you’re plastered on the wall posing with other athletes

“ Oh yeah, I didn’t think this shoot would come out until next month.”

Bokuto didn’t even process what you just said but my dude behind the cash register stopped scanning the shoes to turn his head to the banner and he turned PALE. 

He even does a double-take cause hold up, is there seriously a pro athlete in front of him?

“ Oh my god...You’re Y/N L/N!”

“ How do you know my…” Bokuto furrowed his eyebrows and looked at the banner again and he even squinted like hold up

AND IT ALL SUDDENLY CLICKS FOR HIM

“ Y/N? That’s you!” 

“ Yeah-”

Bokuto can’t even believe it and he totally spaced out when you take a selfie with the guy behind the register with the banner in the background like UMMM HIS GIRLFRIEND IS FAMOUS WHAAAAAA

“ YOU’RE ON A NIKE POSTER OH MY GOD! LOOK YOU’RE ON THIS MAGAZINE WHA-”

Dude is totally making a scene in this store but he does not give a single fuck

As he’s walking you back home, he’s looking up all of your stats and even watches a compilation called “ 100 times Y/N L/N was a beast!” and he’s just shooketh 

“WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE A FREAKING PRO ATHLETE??”  

“ I didn’t think it was a big deal I mean, you’re pretty famous too babe.” 

“ I DON’T HAVE A PROMOTIONAL BANNER WITH NIKE!” 

He’s not salty at all he’s just a bit emo cause he felt bad that he never even noticed before

As your fame grows, so does Bokuto’s with his volleyball career. You and him are described as a powerhouse couple and it really hypes the two of you up like THE POWER YALL POSSESS TOGETHER ON AND OFF THE COURT/FIELD/WHATEVER

Lots of training together and joint interviews together like Wired autocomplete or your favorite ~THIRST TWEETS~

“ ~Bokuto could spike a volleyball in my face, crack my nose in two different places, and I’d thank him~ oh my god that’s horrible I would never do that.”

“ I mean, you’ve done it before haven’t you?”

“ That was different anyway, your turn Y/N!” 

*passes that clunky ass bucket*

“ ~Y/N L/N, please tie me up and- oh my god this is too dirty I can’t! My mom will watch this!” 

If you’re a pro volleyball player, you two get compared a lot and it bugged you at first since you felt like you two were two very different in terms of playing style but after a while, you both started to encourage the idea of your own playful rivalries like comparing stats and wins

But if you’re in a different sport, you two get asked questions like who’s sport is harder or what it would be like if you two switched sports like??? But because you two are in different fields, you both have such major respect for each other cause you can’t even imagine how much hard work it is 

He absolutely does not mind it at all when fans approach you two if you guys are on a date. He knows how important your relationship with fans are, especially if they’re younger girls who look up to you as a role model

Bokuto will fall in love with you all over again whenever you crouch down to a younger fan ughhhghgh

He doesn’t care for the paparazzi to be honest. he knows it comes with the territory but he will get a bit protective if they start to get too close to you 

“ Hey, we’re just trying to get back home so just let us through please,” but if it continues, he will not give a single fuck about being nice,” dude, what did I just say? Back off!” 

Mad!bokuto will be the death of me

He knows how stressful it is being a pro athlete but he will always remind you how proud he is of you and if he ever sees you overworking, he will make sure you take a day off even if that means just napping together all day

Long story short, Bokuto would be amazing to have by your side as you’re navigating being in the public eye and you may quote me on that

-Oikawa- (Actress)

This attention whore I swear 

So Oikawa knows that you act but he doesn’t know that you’re an actress (which is basically the same thing) 

Like as a kid you were in commercials and you had a small role in a tv show but it wasn’t like it was super popular. 

But what Oikawa didn’t know was that a couple months before you two started dating, you were flown out to America to star in an upcoming and highly anticipated movie 

since you were under a contract, you weren’t allowed to talk about it until the trailer dropped and it ate away at you because all you wanted to do was tell people especially your boyfriend 

ANYWAY He decided to take you on a date to the movie theatre and as you two were getting popcorn, these girls came up to you two 

“ Hi! Is it okay if we can get a picture with you?”

“Of course, how could I ever turn down my lovely fans-”

“ No, not you, Y/N!” 

Oikawa is just flabbergasted as the girls hand their phone to him so he can take a photo of you with your fans he deadass thinks it’s some prank

After the girls left, he gave you a weird-ass gaze and asked you what that was about but you just shrugged and told him that maybe it was because of ur mini part in that one tv show

So he thinks nothing about it and teased you that it was so cute how you had a mini fanbase and you weren’t going to lie, it was pretty freaking cool 

You guys entered your theatre and got settled into your seats as the movie trailers started to play. 

(Oikawa loves watching trailers like this dude is the type to take you 45 minutes before the movie actually begins JUST to make sure he doesn’t miss anything)

As you’re chilling in your seat, you see the trailer to your movie so you do your best to keep your eyes on your boyfriend and the screen at the same time cause you want to see his reaction

The trailer plays and Oikawa seemed to be interested in the movie but again, it’s like any normal trailer UNTIL he hears your voice coming from the screen and he immediately sits up in his seat 

“ Wait- was that your voice?”

“ My voice?”

“ Nevermind, I think I’m going crazy-”

AND THEN HE SEES YOU ON THE SCREEN! Since it’s a trailer it was just about five seconds of an intense/dramatic scene but it’s enough for Oikawa to lose his mind

“ OH MY GOD THAT IS YOU!”

This prompts some people in the audience to shush him but Oikawa doesn’t care

“ OH SHUSH THAT’S MY GIRLFRIEND! Y/N! THAT’S YOU!”

“ Toru oh my god yes that’s me but stop screaming or they’re gonna kick us out!” You whispered loudly as Oikawa clamped his hand over his mouth 

He’s so happy and he’s beaming with pride so he pulls out his phone and  records the trailer to post it in his group chat cause duh he wants to show the boys how proud he is but when he sees you kissing someone else for .6 seconds, Oikawa just (ㆆ_ㆆ) and stops recording

“ Are you okay babe?”

“ Was that real or CGI?”

“ The building crumbling is all CGI-”

“ No...the kiss.”

THIS DUMBASS LMAO HE’S SO SALTY AND JEALOUS 

“ Why didn’t you tell me you were this good?” 

“ I- I was always this good! But I couldn’t say anything, I’m under a contract!”

“ But you could’ve told me! I wouldn’t have told a soul!” 

That’s a whole ass lie, if he knew, he would’ve bragged about it to Iwaizumi 

But foreal, Oikawa is such a supportive boyfriend like as months pass and your following gets bigger, he just gushes cause yep that’s his famous girlfriend ( he will 100% use you sometimes for clout)

this dude LOVES bragging to his friends that he’s dating a famous actress. Like he was always showing you off and hyping you up before but it gives him such an ego boost when people find out the two of you are dating

Oikawa is an attention whore like I said so you know whenever the paparazzi appears, he eats it up and will pose which is SOO embarrassing like pls why do u do this

But there are some days where you don’t want to get recognized and he 100% understands so the two of you will wear disguises as to not get recognized. One time you two ended up getting caught so he just grabbed your hand and the two of you SPRINTED back to the subway

He will have all of your movies on DVD and if your movie is on a streaming service, he will buy a membership JUST so he can watch your movie

Sometimes you’ll come over to his house and he’ll always try to make you watch your movie for the millionth time 

“ Toru, can we please watch something else?” 

“ But my extremely talented and beautiful girlfriend is in this movie why would I watch anything but this?” 

Don’t be fooled he WILL skip through any kissing scenes or scenes where your character shows any type of affection to another character

LOVESSS tagging along with you to photoshoots, interviews, red carpet events ALL OF IT

Red carpet events give him a chance to dress up and lowkey his outfit is always one of the best there. He won’t outshine you per se but fans actually look forward to see what he’ll be wearing and he’s not even in any of the movies I- 

Your schedule gets pretty busy once your career takes off and even though there are certain time periods where you’re across the world, it won’t stop him from sending huge bouquets to your set 

Basically, Oikawa is such a supportive boyfriend and is overall so proud of how you managed to juggle your studies with your acting career 10/10 best boy 

-Tsukishima- ( Musician/Singer)

You and Tsuki had only been dating for a bit and since it was all still new, he kept it on the down-low because the last thing he needed was his teammates pestering him about a girl 

Tsuki knew you liked to sing and write songs but you never told him about how well known you were simply because he never asked

He just assumed it was a side thing for you UNTIL he showed up to practice and some of his teammates were huddled around Noya watching something on his tablet

“ Move your elbow! I can’t see-”

“ Watch your hand-”

“ Shush! I can’t hear her-”

“ What are you idiots watching?” Tsuki asked as he craned his neck to look at the screen

No one answered him so he started to watch the music video and low and behold, your face popped up on screen singing along to your lyrics that he’s heard a million times

Tsuki is a bit taken aback cause why is his girlfriend in such a high production video and why is his heart feeling some type of way seeing you in that outfit

Like lemme just take off my glasses and see that again ( •_•)>⌐■-■

” Where did you guys get that video?”

“ What do you mean, it’s online? She’s trending right now-”

“ God all of her songs are so good I want to see her live-” 

“ I can’t believe she goes to school with us-”

“ I wish she would step on me-”

“ Hey, don’t talk about my girlfriend like that,” Tsuki said dryly as he glares at the back of Noya’s head, which prompted everyone to turn around

“ You’re dating Y/N L/N? Ha! That’s funny Tsuki!” Tanaka laughed as he slapped Tsuki in the back harshly

At first, even Tsuki was questioning himself like wait, is he even sure you’re dating? cause this girl in the music video was NOT the same girl he was on the phone with last night

 If you had asked Tsuki 10 seconds ago if he would ever reveal to the guys he was dating someone, he would say helllll no but now that he knew about this, he didn’t care about keeping the relationship a secret especially if they were thirsting over his girl

He had all the proof in the world that he was dating you but took the salty approach to prove it to them. He pulled out his phone and shot you a text even though you were in class

Tsuki: Come to the gym right now

Y/N: is everything ok?

Tsuki: just come quickly

You left your class to “use the restroom” and practically rushed to the gym thinking that something was wrong with your boyfriend. You slid into the gym, causing the boys to look up from the tablet and you ignored their shocked faces

“ Where’s Tsukishima?” 

The boys slowly did a doubletake from the music video back to you to make sure they were seeing correctly and even though you were a bit embarrassed to hear your song playing in the background, you were just worried about Tsuki

Tsuki walked out to you from behind the guys and you rushed over to him

“ Babe, what’s wrong?” 

“ BABE?!” 

The boys were shocked and the second years practically FAINTED in your presence 

Tsuki pulled the tablet from Noya’s cold, dead hands and showed you the screen,” Care to explain this?” 

“ I- Um, it’s my music video…”

“Well are you famous or something?” 

“ I wouldn’t say famous…more like upcoming artist?” 

And then the next week you’re a nominee for the VMA’s asjfkghdk

 honestly out of Oikawa and Bokuto, he probably handles it the best on the outside, he doesn’t make too big of a deal out of your fame but on the inside he’s can’t even believe it

He doesn’t go around shouting to the world that he’s dating the Y/N L/N but he has his own ways of supporting you. He’ll listen to your songs whenever he’s walking in the hallway or doing homework at home and he’ll catch himself liking tweets that are about you as long as they’re positive

He’s def the type to argue with people online if they say mean comments and will report/block them before you can even see it 

IDC how much he tries to hide it, he is deadass ur biggest fan. Tsuki will tease you about how nervous you act during interviews/award shows but he will ALWAYS go with you to ease your nerves even if he had prior plans

If you ever write a song for him, he gets SO RED AND EMBARRASSED so pls do that 

Will def call you baka for doing so but deep down, he’ll fall in love with you even more cause you’re able to put into words how he feels about you 

I don’t think he’ll be too comfortable with you posting about him but he knows he can’t do anything about people taking photos of the two of you out together in public

Tsuki would never be rude to your fans though like if you were recognized during a date, he wouldn’t make a fit and will take photos of you and your fans to speed the process along

He HATES HATES HATES the paparazzi’s like it’s one thing for fans to come up to you when yall are in public but he gets mad when the paparazzi harasses you with questions/pictures/comments

“ Y/N! Turn around and give a smile!” 

“ Not right now, I’m sorry.”

“ Oh come on, don’t be shy! Just show the camera a little skin!”

“ How about you shut the hell up before I smack that camera out of your face.”

Head empty, no thoughts, just thinking about Mad!tsuki

It’s a big adjustment for Tsukishima that he has a girlfriend in the entertainment sphere but he knows how hard you’ve worked for it and he would never tell you to stop living your dream 

Sometimes he’ll feel insecure because you’re so successful and he doesn’t want to hold you back but since he can’t imagine being without you, he just pushes those thoughts away and enjoys every minute with you 

[saintobio]

they're making me look like a mistress and i don't like that 🤨 going about how i "ruined" a relationship, well, this marriage literally ruined my LIFE while it gave gojo opportunities and he's benefiting A LOT from it whether he and sera admits it or not.

Anonymous said

why are sera and gojo so focused on how its hard for their love, there's other things to worry about the world is not just love and rainbows ffs

Anonymous said

u know what i was ok with yn being villainized on wastelands cos damn ok she kind of is the mistress at that point but in this one where im minding my business, trying to make a marriage i was also forced into and thats gonna last years work, im seeing red cos YALL GOTTA KNOW UR PLACEEEEEEE

jeaniszadddy said

i feel that they’re being really selfish in this whole situation, meanwhile y/n is actually doing everything she can too understand and see this whole thing from a different perspective. Although Sera and Y/n had a calm convo my feelings are still iffy towards sera, I completely understand her feelings tho.

@thebeardedmoon said

Curious to know...how y/n’s mother died now that MC is having some kind of health problems 👀

Living for each update so far!! I never know what to expect in the chapters. I’m mind blown every time.

I feel terrible for Gojo and Sera, but that doesn’t excuse how Gojo is treating her. At the very least he could tell her why he married her. Instead of avoiding the question 🙄 poor MC has nobody to turn to. At least Gojo and Sera have each other. She’s so alone in all this. Gojo and Sera are so freaking selfish compared to mc

Anonymous said

sera and gojo has never been able to publicize their relationship for as long as theyve been together but now that yn is in the picture theyre both suddenly acting like something was ruined and their chances are taken??? that's yalls fault 😭

Anonymous said

everyone is mad at sera for why she said to mc but like i didn't even notice that 😭 i was a bit pissed because gojo and sera think because i'm rich everything is my fault. but i ultimately ended up feeling bad for them in this chapter and i want them to have their happy ending. maybe im more like mc than i thought

Anonymous said

Honestly i understand where sera is coming from I just don't think it's fair how both her and gojis are blaming her for the marriage. And also i personally believe that in hoejo and sera's relationship there is a power imbalance for many reasons.

1. The fact that he's in a higher position than her means that she could have easily not liked him but only went along with it because she felt like she had to

2. If he really loved her he their relationship wouldn't have started the way it had in the first place. He only saw her as an act of rebellion and even if he claims he doesn't she will always be a "fuck you" to his dad.

Sorry I Know this ones long I was just thinking hard.

i hope u guys don’t mind me compiling these since they’re all related !! i agree with most of these bc gojo and sera are living in their own world, so y/n’s pain is being invalidated as if she didn’t have the right to feel the way that she feels bc she “ruined” a relationship. while it’s normal to feel bad for them, we can also admit that they really were a bit selfish in some aspects :(

[willowistic22]

Famous!newsies

Ok so here are my famous!newsies headcanons from an a modern au i thought of if newsies were celebrities/famous yknow bcs I couldn’t get this idea out of my head and idk what to do with it other than making a headcanon list nabsnzbsvsnsbz anyways hope yall validate me after not posting any original content for like…. awhile now hehe

btw it got longer than expected. And I mean r e a l l y long. So if yall wanna read this better sit down and buckle up! 

Jack

He’s an artist on youtube

Like a modern day bob ross ig??

If yall know zhc on youtube just imagine that but not so rich (I don’t watch zhc btw but i do know that he does custom art on iphones and stuff and that is definitely not jack kelly)

Anyways Jack simply goes by Jack Kelly.

So jack does art challenges. Like does the weirdest requests from his fans left in his comment section and stuff

Or maybe challenging himself to make art from a specific theme or a specific media

Sometimes he vlogs too but his art videos are what his fans like the most

His merch is amazing because he designed the pattern/drawing/whatever yknow. It’s printed/sewed/whatever on the clothing and it’s good quality. It’s pretty lowkey for a youtuber’s merch bcs jack doesn’t like those merch that just smacks his logo on a hoodie

Davey

He’s a fantasy, YA, romance writer (he mixes it wisely ok?)

And goes by David Jacobs

Listen he’s a hopeless romantic and i’m pretty sure yall agree too

He wanted to stick to YA romance. The classic high school lovers yknow

But he wanted to challenge himself since he’s been writing about high school lovers since he was in high school

Thus the fantasy genre came in mind

So yeah he likes creating love in his own universe

Whether it’d be different worlds, universe, species, time periods, whatever.

He wanted to direct the movies based on his books, but he’s actually lowkey terrible at leading on his own. But he did stick to being the script writer and co-director (look idk how it works in the film industry i’m just making shit up)

Crutchie

He’s a solo jazz singer

Crutchie gives off Michael Buble and Jason Mraz vibes tho

And maybe a bit of frank sinatra? Yknow ‘cause he sings jazz

Also he riffs thank you very much :)

He goes by Crutchie Morris to everyone

He usually plays the acoustic guitar or piano on stage

Ok but he’s like really good with the piano

Makes the best jokes on stage too. Some are just sarcastic comments.

Crutchie asking through the microphone : “Oh, straight?”

A fan he’s talking to from the crowd : “Uhh… no, gay”

Crutchie : “no not you, the vodka”

Everyone at the concert : *laughs*

Crutchie, jokingly : “Oh, you’re drinking vodka! Straight? No gay”

(yes that was indeed inspired by that one video of Harry Styles and a fan in one of his concerts yall can’t stop me)

Kathrine

She’s a crime mystery writer

Think like the modern day Agatha Christie

Okok but she goes by Kathrine Plumber on her books :D

She chooses that genre bcs she’s a huge fan of Agatha Christie

Her favorite book from Agatha is Murder on the Orient Express

Oh and her books are sometime very gruesome alkjsfhakjsfb

Nobody check her browsing history, she’ll look like a murderer

Ok but I feel like she also has a youtube channel about books and stuff and sometimes like to vlog

She also has a writing tips series on her channel where she shares tips on some of the frequently asked questions about writing or her fans leave a specific question in the comment section and thought she could expand more to it in a full length video

Also she likes to vlog while she’s in a book convention

Her books are also turned into movies and she has done a great job directing it

Race

Yall would be lying to me if you don’t think this kid would end up being a twitch streamer and youtuber (like vlogging yknow. I feel like his gaming stuff would strictly be on twitch)

And ik it’s widely agreed by everyone in the fandom that he’s a dancer of some sort so yeah he’s also simultaneously a dancer

I don’t think I need to explain any further bcs it’s just so in character

He goes by Racetrack Higgins

Ok so he likes to vlog on his youtube channel

Sometimes does stupid challenges

Maybe he’d drag Albert to do a challenge which he always says no

“I’ll just be your cameraman dude, dw”

Race : *angery*

Since Al and Smalls are the skateboard peeps™ race is the rollerblade dude™ bcs I say so

He has three cats named Racecat Higgins, Spot Clawlon, and Romeow (i’ve mentioned it before and I will mention it again hehe) and his fans loves them endlessly

Albert

You don’t think this kid would also end up being a twitch streamer and youtuber like his bestie up there?? Lmao you thought wrong (again, gaming is strictly on his twitch)

He just goes by Albert DaSilva on the internet

And yes he’s also a dancer because I say so

On his Youtube channel he also vlogs

Half of his vlogs starts with him riding his skateboard

“Hey, guys! Welcome back to another vlog-” *falls off his skateboard for not paying attention to a curb*

It happens way more often than he’d like to admit let’s be real. His fans make a compilation of it and memes on reddit

Always wear a snapback

Snapbacks are an important element to him so his merch store is really boosting his snapbacks

And just for the wormsie discord server he has one with the word ranga on it after it being born from a stupid inside joke he, race, and both of their fanbases combined share (@ my wormsie fam thank me later)

Oh yeah, his youtube besties are Race and Smalls just so we’re clear here :) (I’ll get to Smalls in a bit)

So I always headcanon Albert having two big dobermans. So his fans always want to see a doggy update because Zara and Zoey are everything to them.

Doggo vlogs are fun. It’s usually Albert taking the two good girls to Central Park for playtime or teaching them new tricks

Spot

He’s a solo rock singer

Is an amazing singer like wow none of the newsies expected him to have that sort of pipes to reach high notes

And he does it amazingly with no sweat

Also his instrument is the electric guitar to go with his amazing singing ajsfhasjfhajhf

Anyways he goes by Spot Conlon still

And his songs are very lyrical. Like very.

A lot of metaphors. No one knows what most of his songs means.

So basically Taylor Swift songs if it switched genres to rock. And not even like songs from speak now or red. But like if evermore and folklore songs were to turn into rock songs with a little bit of reputation vibes sprinkled on top. And his concerts has the reputation era vibes but make it spot conlon (hey non swiftie fans reading this i’m so sorry i’m pretty sure yall don’t understand wtf i’m talking abt)

That is also the only way i know to describe his vibe i’m sorry but i don’t really listen to a lot of rock alkjhfasjk

Anyways it’s a known fact that he wears tank tops daily that it becomes his signature look. And also an inside joke among his fanbase

Now just picture the merch booth from one of his shows and there’s like endless tank top designs for his fans to pick and choose

He’s also crowned to be the King of Brooklyn bcs of obvious reasons

But the joke is he’s a pretty tough hardcore guy that’s a cat person

Sarah

She’s a badass female solo singer

Mostly does pop but the badass type of pop

Yes, she does go by Sarah Jacobs

Fans were really surprised Davey and Sarah are related

Because one is a hopeless romantic while the other is a total badass

Anyways she gives off Little mix, Ariana Grande, Taylor Swift, and Selena Gomez vibes

That is literally the only way I can describe it

She’s very lyrical, with a lot of metaphors

When she dances on stage, she d a n c e s

All while holding a mic to sing. And she hits all those high notes like it’s no ones business (a literal queen i tell you)

She and Spot are besties and has been known to have done a few collabs together

Their fans were hesitant about their collabs since their genre is pretty different from the other but they make it work and it slAPS

And among all her boppy songs with full choreography and backup singers, she always have a few songs she sings while only being accompanied by piano or guitar (Either electric or acoustic) which she plays on her own

Finch

He’s an indie pop artist with his trusted acoustic guitar by his side

Just think of music by Wallows and Lewis Capaldi were to be blended in together and Conan Gray for the cherry on top

But it has a little bit of Ed sheeran, Lorde, and Lauv vibes to it too

His concerts are simple but his songs are mostly very boppy so his fans still have fun either way

And it’s usually in small venues but there are times where he had a concert in a huge stadium

He goes by FINCH (yeah all caps btw)

Finches are a very on brand thing for him obviously

Has been known to collab with Crutchie and they actually make a very good team

Somehow was able to combined both genres to produce a few boppy songs

Ok ok but Finch and Crutchie have made a collaborative album (and maybe they went on tour????)

Specs 

He’s a history fiction writer

Yes this is inspired by the fact that he’s 100% a history nerd (no one change my mind i love this headcanon aight)

And he explores a lot of different histories from different parts of the world

He actually helps a lot of students understand history even further for school through his novels

Anyways he goes by Specs because I say so

No one knows why that’s his pseudonym and Specs isn’t interested in explaining either. No one other than the newsies need to know it was born from a stupid nickname the newsies gave him :)

His research mostly comes from history books because of his genre which wouldn’t be a problem since he has loads and will voluntarily buy more if needed

Also yeah he makes a great director for the movies taken from his books

Mush

He’s a chef on youtube

Goes by Mush Meyers

So think if Gordon Ramsey and his youtube channel but make it mush

Yeah that’s it really

Ok but Mush is a jolly and friendly person

Other than just food vlogging he does cooking challenges and cooking tips too

Sometimes he does the cooking challenges with a friend (mostly henry but i’ll get to him later on in the list)

But he also vlogs his life

Which isn’t really often but he likes to sometimes

He’s that big of a foodie he has a food blog too

And also a seafood restaurant so that’s cool :D

Henry

Like Mush, he’s a chef on youtube

Goes by Henry on the internet and in general

Ajkfhajfjska I’m thinking about how ppl would address him as Chef Henry kajhfkjlashfjklasfjklsf

He mostly does the same thing like Mush actually

Food vlogging and cooking challenges (they do it together so) sometimes cooking tips

But Henry vlogs his life a lot

And instead of a food instagram he has a food blog

He has a sandwich restaurant

Yeah it is inspired by his pastrami on rye with a sour pickle line from KONY get mad about it why don’t ya (well if i’m not mistaken henry was the one that said it but idk i have horrible memory) 

Blink

He’s a youtuber

Ok so I have a specific headcanon that Blink majored in psychology but didn’t end up being a psychologist

So instead he becomes a psychologist on youtube

Who often vlogs jhgasjlfhs

The guy looks like he could cut you but his sense of humor once you get him talking is just *chef’s kiss* amazing

Which is why he also has a podcast because he’s also secretly great at talking

He just thinks mental health is very important, okay?

Romeo

He’s an actor

Mostly on Broadway but has worked with Hollywood before

He’s usually a supporting character but has been known to understudy for main characters

Ok ik these bullet points are getting shorter and shorter but these are mostly bcs some of these stuff are pretty self explanatory since it’s very in character

Like are you telling me a kid named Romeo isn’t gonna be in some way very dramatic and end up turning that personality trait into his career?? Plus he’s very good at that?

Yeah you’re lying to me

Also he’s a pretty frequent vlogger on youtube

Look he’s a fun guy, what did you expect?

Just goes by Romeo on youtube

Elmer

He’s an actor

Has done his fair share in Broadway and Hollywood but started in Broadway

He can dance but thinks he’s pretty average in it yknow

Which his fans has no idea what he’s talking about because on stage he can do flips and turns like it’s no ones business yknow

But he can sing really good and takes pride in it

Elmer would play characters that is really far off from his own personality that fans couldn’t believe that Elmer played that character

He has done his fair share in main characters and supporting characters on Broadway

In Hollywood he usually does indie and rom-com movies

Buttons

He’s a fashion youtuber and basically an influencer 

Let’s be real this boy is a fashion icon

He’s not really a model but more like a fashion influencer and also kind of a fashion designer

His clothing line is very *chefs kiss* amazing

He designed it all and sometimes likes to design for his friends as well

He also does fashion tips on his youtube channel

His instagram game is god tier level (along with Tommy Boy and Sniper I’ll get to them in a bit) 

But yeah he also vlogs

And goes by Buttons Davenport

Jojo

He’s an actor

Mostly on Broadway but has done a few movies in Hollywood

He radiates main character energy and he does become the main character most of the time (on hollywood at least)

On Broadway he mostly enjoys being apart of the ensemble because this boy loves dancing

But he does play a few supporting characters

He has released one or two albums too because his singing is top tier

But isn’t interested in doing a lot of live concerts with his albums

Since no one has the time to say Josephino Jorgelino De La Guerra he turned it into Jojo De La Guerra (so much for ‘a special nickname only for friends and family’)

Mike and Ike

They’re a pop boy band and bcs of my lack of creativity it’s called Mike and Ike

At the start of their career :

“My name goes first because I’m older than you!” - Mike

“You’re only older than me by 13 minutes, holy shit!” - Ike

But Ike slowly accepts the fact that it’ll be like this yknow

Anyways they’re pretty great singers

They have one direction and new hope club vibes

Tho unlike one direction they can dance (i love the boys alright but i really think it’s funny that they can’t dancelkhjjlh)

They like to switch from the guitar (electric and/or acoustic) to the piano

The amount of times their name is confused by the candy is too many 

But they like it like that lol

Anyways i’ve mentioned a headcanon where Mike has tattoos (not like from head to toe but it’s fairly noticeable to everyone) and Ike has piercings

So the only way their fans tell them apart is by that

But there are times where Mike has his tattoos covered or Ike took his piercings off in public alone. A fan mistakens them for the other twin but they still respond to the other name because they don’t feel like there’s a need to correct them since they’re mostly known by Mike and Ike anyways. When the fan posts it on instagram and tags the twin they thought it was the twin that was tagged would comment “wrong twin but nice pic you two”

Happens wayyyyy too many times. Their fans are officially scared to approach one of the two in public alone without their differentiating indicators on which is which

And yes it is widely known that they argue a lot when it comes to writing songs

Nothing out of the ordinary sibling squabble yknow but it’s a lot

But they do end up finding a solution to the topic of their argument and make a good team at the end of the day

Hotshot

He’s an actor

On Broadway, he’s one of those actor’s that is mostly good in just the acting and singing

He can’t dance to save his life sjdfghaf

So Jeremy Jordan yknow asj;oghajshf

No not really. He can dance a little bit

So he’s mostly the main character

But he’s widely known for his works in Hollywood

He does a lot of drama. Think stuff like Elite and Designated Survivor. Yeah those kinds of heavy drama (well idk i think those two are pretty heavy)

He wants to release his own music because he’s a pretty good singer but he can’t write songs to save his life either jgnjafjasf

And all the demo songs he was suggested by producers isn’t his cup of tea

So he’s no singer ladies and gents ://

The name Hotshot is used to name his social media platforms. He always adds a description in his bio’s that Hotshot is a nickname his friends and family use so his fans and the media refer to him with his name

I headcanon Hotshot’s real name is Tyler or some sort. No don’t ask me what’s his last name is because idk either lol

Sniper

She’s a model, beauty and fashion youtuber (I’m pretty sure those are two different things tho idk i don’t watch youtube religiously anymore), and just an influencer in general

Instagram game on p o i n t

I know most beauty youtubers go by their names but uhh… i don’t think i’ve ever thought of a first name for Sniper but I really think she really would just go by Sniper Wah on the internet (Idk she seems like an Ashley in my head but feel free to recommend headcanon names to me)

Anyways she’s very fashionable

Tommy Boy (i’ll get to him just wait aight?) and Buttons are her fashion besties

The three of them pretty much appear in each other’s Youtube video not Tommy’s tho bcs he doesn’t have one lol

Sniper’s brand are huge sun hats

I have no idea how or why but that girl has sun hats vibes I can’t explain any further I’m sorry

Doesn’t have a clothing line but does have a make up brand of her own. She calls it Sniper. Yeah that’s it akjfhjf

Smalls

She’s a twitch streamer and youtuber like race and albert

They’re a youtube trio everyone loves it

And yes she does go by Smalls

Oh and she also dances like her two stupid besties thanks for asking

Bubblegum is her brand (idk how to explain she just has the vibe)

She is skateboard chick

I’m imagining a video collab of her and Al on a skatepark doing stupid challenges

It’s her most viewed video

Tommy Boy

Ok ok he’s a model, influencer, and dancer

So think a male version of Gigi Hadid that dances

No he doesn’t have a youtube channel but frequently has made an appearance on Buttons’ and Sniper’s videos

Yes his instagram feed is also very amazing

He goes by Tommy Boy

People genuinely thinking ‘Boy’ is actually his last name and kinda think it’s strange but doesn’t complain

Tommy literally didn’t think people would think it was his last name. But they did anyways

Les

Let’s just get straight to the point : he’s a famous tiktoker 

And yes, ppl are surprised at the fact that him, Davey, and Sarah are related to each other 

To the people that made it through this entire list. Congratulations and thank you for your validation. Have a wonderful evening and stay hydrated 

i will write at least one oneshot out of this au i promise!!

[dokoni-mo]

Far Away, Together || Darth Vader x Reader (Chapter 5)

(A/N: okay, hear me out here yall. This is probably my favorite thing that I have ever written. I cannot describe how much fun i had writing this for yall and jamming out to my tunes and thinking about my large cyborg husband. I just hope that yall will like this chapter just as much as i do :’’’))) as always, feel free to ask to be added to the taglist, as well as send me any asks you have for me (now that I know asks are open). Thank you all so much for your support, it truly means the world to me) 

Chapter One: [x] 

Chapter Two: [x]

Chapter Three: [x]

Chapter Four: [x]

WARNINGS: some cursing, mentions of broken glass, an old guy being kinda creepy, crying, a lil drinking, some yelling, otherwise none! :)

Key: (F/N) = first name, (L/N) = last name

Word Count: ~6800

~~~

The planet you were brought to was almost everything that you had hoped it to be. 

Touching down on the surface and watching the door to the shuttle touch the ground, you were met with a sight that you never thought that you would see again. Tall, green trees, lush green grass, flowers of multiple colors (some of which gave off their own bioluminescence), the distant silhouettes of birds and other animals accompanied by their various calls and sounds, and even the odd insect or two floating past your vision. 

This planet was almost everything you had hoped for. The only thing that it was missing is that it wasn’t your home.

You waited for him to step off the shuttle before you did so. This was partially due to the unwritten rules of respect you had to follow, and partially due to you having no idea of how to conduct yourself. Watching the sith lord’s heavy boots touch the surface of the stone of the landing pad, you took this as your cue to step out of the shuttle as well, your legs wobbling slightly from the gravity. 

Lord Vader’s attention was immediately taken away by an officer with a datapad and a rundown of the plan to mingle with the royals. Not wanting to get in the way, you took the opportunity to get a better look at your surroundings. Pushing past a handful of stormtroopers, you found yourself standing before the ledge of the landing pad, placing your hands on the waist-height wall that adorned the perimeter. 

Looking straight ahead, you were greeted with the long expanse of an ocean, it's horizon dotted with the outline of an island here and there, it's breeze making a few locks of your hair dance. Beyond that, you took note of the setting sun that was steadily falling below the surface of the water, it’s orange glow illuminating your face. Looking to the right, you saw the large forest that surrounded the landing pad, smiling softly at the trees you did not recognize. Looking to the left, you took note of the town with the large building in the middle, towering over the other buildings. The palace, you presumed. 

Shifting your stance to let you rest your elbows on the wall in front of you, you allowed yourself a brief moment of compilation as you looked out at the scenery before you. You almost felt at peace here on this planet at this moment, but you knew it wouldn’t last. In three days time, you would return to the Super Star Destroyer, back to your station, back to repairing that hunk-of-junk of a TIE Advanced x1.

You dreaded it. 

However, thinking a moment longer, you allowed yourself to admit to an unknown audience a sliver of your deepest thoughts. 

If I’m still able to talk to him and… be, with him… 

I suppose it’s not so bad.

Your moment of self-reflection was cut short just like almost every moment you tried to take for yourself. You would have been annoyed, if it weren't for the person who interrupted it. Recognizing the rhythmic breathing coming closer and closer to you, along with the large silhouette of deep, rich black, you shot up a small, quick smile, aiming it at the mask of the figure. This is all you did to acknowledge the dark lord of the sith as you continued to look at the picture before you. 

“It’s… nice.” You spoke after a moment, crossing one of your feet in front of the other, “The view, I mean.” 

You didn’t notice how Lord Vader’s gaze had been strictly locked upon your frame as he formulated his response. 

“Indeed, it is.” 

~~~

The walk to the palace proper was long, and would have been excruciatingly boring if it weren’t for all the sights you got to absorb along the way. 

The entire journey you were able to stride alongside Lord Vader, minus a few times that you had gotten distracted and started to pause in place. This was met by Lord Vader stopping and calling out your name to get you to focus again. You would have been embarrassed if you weren’t so awe-struck. 

Just outside the large doors of the palace entrance, you had noticed a long row of men in uniform stood at attention, along with a handful of nicely dressed people, the most nicely dressed in the middle. Using your years of learning how to tell uniforms apart, you figured that the men at attention must be soldiers, the man in the middle the king, and those around him advisors of some sort. Noticing their gaze locked upon your posse of a sith lord, a handful of officers, and a battalion of elite troopers, you felt your gaze fall and your face flush red.

You had no idea how to act or what to think. 

Keeping your footsteps as close to Lord Vader’s as possible, you felt your gut sink as you got closer and closer. 

Once you were within a good enough distance, the king of the planet stepped forward with open arms. You would have found this ridiculous if it weren’t for the circumstances at hand. Lord Vader was quite intimidating to say the absolute least, so you didn’t blame the king for trying to be friendly. In fact, you almost commended his efforts to try and get on some semblance of an even ground with the sith. 

“Lord Vader!” the king called out, closing the distance between him, the dark lord, and you, “How thrilled we are to have you here!”

Holding out a hand for Lord Vader, the king must have been expecting some sort of friendly greeting. Of course, this was not reciprocated by Vader, and was instead only greeted by his intimidating gaze. Feeling the air of don’t fucking touch me eminating off of Vader, the king chuckled almost too nervously as he turned his attention to you, making your spine stiffen and your shoulders tense. 

“Oh, my sweet dear! And who might you be, hm?” The king of the planet asked, his tone almost making you gag. 

Suppressing your urge to punch the man in the face, you panicked for a moment as you tried to figure out what a proper greeting was. Your mind eventually settling on falling to a knee, you felt your cheeks redden as you realized that you had taken too long to respond. 

“I-I’m-” you began to say as you started the motion of you falling to a kneeling position, only to be suddenly stopped. No matter how hard you tried, your body would not follow through with the action. Your panic starting to grow and grow, your brain tried to make sense of the odd sensation overbearing you. It felt as if you were frozen in place, unable to move no matter how hard you tried. It was as if some invisible force… 

Your eyes widened at the answer presented before you. 

He was making you not kneel before this asshole. 

Your cheeks burned even brighter. 

“This is Miss (F/N) (L/N).” Lord Vader said flatly. You could tell that he was already annoyed as he continued, “She is here serving as the representative you so adamantly required.” 

Cue another nervous chuckle from the king, “Y-yes, well, I am very happy you have decided to join us tonight, Miss (F/N).”

Before you could even register what was happening, the king grabbed your left hand and held it gingerly in his own, locking eye contact with you.

Oh yeah. This guy was definitely punching material. 

Swallowing your pride, you put on the best friendly smile you could muster before taking your hand back, speaking softly. “The… The honor is mine, your majesty.” 

The honor was definitely not yours.

~~~

After what seemed like forever of meeting-and-greeting, you along with Lord Vader and a few officers were led to a large dining room where matters would be discussed over dinner (for those who could eat it, of course). Sensing your discomfort, Lord Vader had told you to sit next to him during the dinner, rather than the customary sitting in front of him. You had thanked him silently for this, since you knew that you would feel much better being near a familiar face than some old creep. 

You didn’t pay much attention to the words that were exchanged between the king and the sith. You would dip in and out of the conversation, finding it to be rather boring. This did not exactly surprise you, however, since you were never one for politics. 

Instead of trying to follow the conversation for what felt like the billionth time, you directed your attention to the plate of food before you. Only about half of it's contents consumed, you used your fork to pick at the rest. Even though you had been hungry before, your appetite had diminished substantially since earlier that evening. Even though the greenery and palace that surrounded you was beautiful, you could tell by Lord Vader’s demeanor that the people living within it were not. You figured that the mining materials on this planet must be important, otherwise neither you nor Lord Vader would be there.

You wondered if he had to do this often. Stealing a glance at the dark lord as he listened to what the king had to blubber on and on about, you felt an odd emotion wash over you. 

Pity. 

He must not like doing this sort of thing, you thought to yourself, I can tell that he doesn’t like it here.

I can’t blame him, though. I don’t know if I like it either. 

His master… the Emperor, he must make him do this sort of thing, against his will. 

I feel so bad for him. 

Lord Vader… if I could get us out of here, I-

“So, Miss (F/N),” you heard the king’s voice call out, almost too loud. The sudden usage of your first name made your back arch and your head snap up, quickly finding its way to train on the king. Your gaze upon him, you noticed the glint in his blue eyes as he looked at you.

Ew. 

“What is your exact position in the Empire, my dear?” The blue-eyed freak asked you. 

You rubbed your thighs with your hands as your spoke, your gaze faltering, “Uhm, well… I was a mechanic on Endor for a long while… Then I was transferred to work on the Super Star Destroyer… Then I was transferred to work as Lord Vader’s personal mechanic.” 

“I see… Your skills must be quite impressive then, I take it.”

His words were spoken as a statement but you knew he was asking. You bit the inside of your cheek as you glanced over to Lord Vader, noticing how his hands were twitching to ball into fists.

He must’ve really hated it there. 

“I just like to think that I got lucky, your majesty.” You responded. 

This was met by a loud chuckle by the king, only silenced by the sip of wine. You had never been so grateful for wine before. 

“Ah yes, luck…” the king began, propping his way-too-shiny boots upon the table, “Luck truly is what makes the world go ‘round, isn’t it my dear? Luck has allowed me to have all you see before you. Luck has brought me great fortune and fame throughout the system, and has brought you all here to me, the Empire, that is. Most importantly, however, lady luck has brought quite the breathtaking mechanic to my doorstep.”

Gross gross gross gross. You wanted to get up and walk out right there. You wanted to throw up right there on the table in front of that asshole and all his maids and servants. You wanted to get up and kick all of the fancy food to the floor and dance on the crumbs. But, since you were here representing the Empire, representing him, you held your tongue and stopped your muscles from carrying out the action. 

Letting your gaze fall, you noticed how Lord Vader’s hands were now in large, firm fists. 

“Th-thank you, your majesty…” was all you were able to choke out without hurling.

“Of course, my dear. You know…” the king began, taking his boots off the table so that he could lean in your direction, making you maintain eye contact with him. “The Empire is quite expansive, no? There’s many troopers and mechanics in it’s ranks, is there not?” 

“There is, your majesty…” 

Please stop talking to me. 

“Yes, and I’m sure that at least someone could come close to matching your skill level. You see, here on my lovely planet, we are quite lacking in quality mechanics such as yourself. So, my dear, if you are interested, I would be ever so pleased to have you transfer to me as my-” 

The king was cut short by the unholy SMASH that came from right next to you, making you nearly jump out of your skin and scream bloody murder. The sound was accompanied by the excruciatingly thick sound of wood splintering and cracking under fancy table cloth, followed by the piercing sound of dishes and silverware falling to the floor.  Whipping your head to inspect it's source, you felt both relieved and scared-shitless at the sight before you. 

Lord Vader’s strong, mechanical fist was nestled amidst a nest of splinters and food crumbs. His shoulders were tense, and his breathing was more ragged than normal. His other fist, clenched tightly in a ball on his wide lap, was shaking from the sheer force of his grip. You knew that if your arm was within that grasp, the bone would be turned to dust. 

You hoped your cheeks weren’t as pink as they felt. 

After a long moment of silence from every party in the dining room, Lord Vader’s breath slowly returned to normal. Slowly taking his fists off their resting positions, he crossed his large, strong arms over the wide expanse of his armor-clad chest, his gaze focused straight in front of him. 

“There was an insect.” Was all the Dark Lord gave as an explanation.

You didn’t know whether to believe him or not. 

After another long bout of silence, the king of the planet cleared his throat and dusted off his lap. As he spoke, you could practically hear the fear in his words dripping to the floor. 

“I-I’m terribly sorry about that, L-Lord Vader… I thought that I had told my servants to, umm…” 

Clearing his throat again as a way to end his sentence and change the subject, the king assumed his normal tone, trying to block out any residual fear.

“Well, I do think that we are quite finished with dinner, yes? Excellent! My Lord, I do hope that you and Miss (F/N) shall attend the gala I am hosting tonight here in my palace. You can see it as a way to welcome you and the Empire here in our humble little world.” 

“We shall attend.” was all Lord Vader replied with as he stood from his seated position, looming over the table he had nearly destroyed. “We are done here, (F/N). Come.” he continued, the speed of his steps making his cape flutter behind him. 

Mumbling out a quiet thank you for dinner, you quickly got up and followed behind the sith lord, trying to match your pace to his. 

If it weren’t for the dozen’s of eyes trained on the pair of you as you exited, you could’ve sworn that you would have jumped into Lord Vader’s arms right then and right there.

~~~

The last place that you wanted to go that night was to the stupid gala. 

Even though you had spent less than 12 hours on this planet, you already knew you disliked it. Everything about it was beautiful, except for that damn king. The way he spoke to you made your goosebumps raise, and the way he looked at you made you want to slap him across his smug face. 

Worst of all, however, he had tried to take you away from him. 

You didn’t know why this was the worst of all, but it was. You figured that it was because you had really grown fond of the sith from all the time you had spent with him and all the conversations you had.

As odd as it seemed, you considered Lord Vader to be… 

Someone you cared about. 

The extent of that care? You didn’t know. You couldn’t even begin to know. 

Getting ready to go to the stupid gala was painfully easy to do. Since you owned no fancy dresses, you were only left to wear your formal uniform, because nothing says party like military-distributed clothing.

In order to look at least a bit more gala-ready, you had spent the time allocated to you in your appointed room getting as many creases out as you could. Without access to an iron, this was quite the challenge, but you still smoothed out the black fabric to the best of your ability. 

You watched yourself put on the clothing in the mirror as you got ready to head downstairs to the venue. Staring at your reflection, you pondered how the night would go.

I hope no one asks to dance with me. I don’t really feel up to it anymore. Not that there’s anyone I’d want to dance with anyway. I wonder if Lord Vader will wear anything different tonight. He doesn’t really seem the type to get dressed up, though… 

Finishing your dress-up by fastening your belt around your waist, you let your arms fall to your sides as you looked your reflection up and down. For seemingly no reason, seeing yourself in the mirror with that damn uniform on filled you with an indescribable emotion.You absolutely hated how you looked. You felt like crying and laughing at the same time, but didn’t know which one to pick. 

How in the galaxy did I get here? You wondered to yourself as you lifted your hands to rest on opposite shoulders, rubbing them up and down as if to rid yourself of any phantom pains. You bit your lip as you let your head fall to lock your gaze onto the ground. 

You felt your eyes brim with tears and a laugh bubble in your diaphragm as you felt a thought dance in your mind. 

I want him here. 

~~~

Your moment of a pity-party was swiftly interrupted by the sound of music being played from below you. Snapping your head up, you knew that it was time for you to force yourself to go downstairs and mingle with the attendees. Quickly swiping the tears out of your eyes, you dusted off your uniform one last time as you clacked your boots to the door and swung it open, revealing yourself once again to the outside world. 

You were a bit disheartened that Lord Vader wasn’t standing outside your door as he had done a few nights before. However, you figured that was because that was one, a rare scenario and, two, you were technically late to the gala. You knew Lord Vader was never ever late, so you supposed you could forgive him for not being there. 

Making your way down the long, marble, dimly-lit hallway of the palace and down the grand staircase in the middle, you scanned the scene beneath you with weary eyes. You would have been disgusted, were you not so tired. Everyone in sight was either dressed in far-too-expensive pieces of clothing or in way-too-fancy military uniform. Some couples danced on the floor, but a vast majority talked in small groups amongst themselves as butlers passed by with drinks and snacks. There was even the odd fellow or two that just didn’t seem to fit in anywhere, and found roost amidst the others like him at the bar. You smiled to yourself softly. The scene oddly reminded you of your old station on the Super Star Destroyer. 

Small world. 

Lord Vader, much like before, was very easy to spot amidst the crowd of other people. He was much taller than everyone there, and he stuck out being dressed head to toe in deep, rich black. His hands were placed on his belt as a few nobility members came and went, most likely unable to strike up a meaningful conversation with the sith. This, again, made you smile softly to yourself. Lord Vader most definitely didn’t enjoy mingling with others. 

Seeing as though you knew literally no one else at the gala, you made your way over to the tall sith that you knew almost too well, mumbling out quiet apologies to those you pushed past. Once you had made it to a small clearing, you were finally able to get a good look at the sith lord you knew. 

You remarked on how good he looked as his armor illuminated the soft glow of the lights surrounding room.

He must have sensed your gaze or your presence as you stood about 10 feet away from him, looking at him dumbly. Moving the face of his mask to look at you, you could have sworn that time stood still for a brief moment as the two of you made eye contact with one another. You couldn’t stop the smile that plastered itself upon your face as you looked at him, the butterflies in your stomach almost causing a hurricane as you felt your heart swell. 

You didn’t know why you felt such a way, but you were not ready to complain in the slightest. 

Deciding that enough was enough, you closed the distance between the two of you, placing a hand on your hip once you were close enough to him that he could hear you and you could hear him. Your smile did not falter as you met the gaze of his mask. 

“Good evening, my Lord.” you said to him, your tone edged with a touch of cheerfulness. 

“(F/N),” he responded, “you are late.” 

You giggled a little as you let your gaze fall upon the crowd surrounding you and the dark lord. 

“I believe it’s fashionable for these types of events, my Lord.” 

A moment of silence was shared between the two of you before you decided to speak again. 

“You know…” you said, “I only just got here, and I’m already ready to call it a night.” 

Lord Vader looked at you briefly before speaking. 

“I agree.” 

You chuckled a little as you glanced up at him, another smile painting your features. 

After another moment of silence, he finally spoke again. 

“(F/N)... I-” he began to say as he lifted up his hand to rest upon an unknown location upon your body before he was rudely and unannouncedly interrupted by the gala’s loud, boisterous, slightly tipsy host carrying two drinks in his hands. 

“Miss (F/N)! Lord Vader!” said the king almost too loudly, pushing his way into conversation distance between you, him, and the sith lord. “Enjoying the party, are we?” 

Neither you nor Lord Vader said anything in response. 

Filling the awkward silence and with a laugh and a sip of his drink, the king of the planet continued on speaking without an answer, much to your dismay. 

“Well, the both of you look lovely tonight! Especially our favorite mechanic here…” The blue-eyed man purred as he turned his gaze to lock on you. 

Great. This shit again. 

Forcing yourself to smile half-heartedly at the king, you mumbled out a soft thanks before letting your gaze fall to the floor, unable to hold any sort of eye contact with him. 

“Lord Vader, I do hope you do not mind, but I will be stealing your mechanic for a brief moment, yes?” The king asked, but his tone made it sound like a statement. 

What? 

No, I don’t want-

Before either you or Lord Vader could protest, the king took you by the hand and practically dragged you to the bar, supposedly so that the two of you could talk in a more secluded setting. Unable to form any words, all you could do was look over your shoulder to the sith lord you were trying to converse with. 

His fists were in balls again as he watched you be pulled away, unable to do a thing about it. 

“How are you tonight, my dear?” the king asked you as he leaned against the bar, making you snap your attention back to him as much as you hated to do so. 

“I, umm…” you said, trying your best to hide your conflicting emotions. You wanted to run back over to Lord Vader, hold on to him, and never ever let him go.

But you couldn’t. 

“I’m… I’m fine, your majesty.” You were eventually able to say. 

The king smirked grossly as he thrusted a glass of some sort of drink in your face, making you lean back slightly. 

“You seem tense, my dear. Here, have something to take the edge off.” 

“O-Oh, umm, thank you, your majesty, but I don’t… I’m not allowed to-”

“What? Not allowed to drink?” the king laughed, “To hell with the Empire’s rules, my sweet! Go ahead and have a drink, won’t you?” 

Every atom in your body screamed NO as you looked down at the glass and wrapped it in your hand. You knew you shouldn’t drink it’s contents, you knew you didn’t want drink its contents, but you were afraid. Afraid of what the blue-eyed man before you would do if you refused. Swallowing your pride, you drank the drink as quickly as you could without being rude. 

Since it had been so long since you had a drink, and you were never the type to hold your liquor well in the first place, you almost immediately felt a buzz. 

“Good?” The king asked, a glint of pleasure in his eye. 

You coughed slightly in the midst of your response, “Strong.” 

The king laughed almost too loud at your response as he leaned further over the bar, his gaze locked on you and filled with hunger. 

Disgusting. 

“My dear…” the king called to you, beckoning for you to pay attention to him, “Do you remember my little, er… request, from earlier?” 

I was trying to forget. 

“Yes, I do…” 

“Well,” the king said, “I want you to know that the offer still stands, my dear. I could give you a much better life here in my home than you would ever have in the Empire… You would have access to all the finest, erm… whatever you mechanics use.” 

Perhaps it was the alcohol talking for you, but you wanted more than ever to kick this man in the throat. You felt… anger, bubble up inside you. 

You tamped it down as you replied, “That’s… That’s very kind of you, your majesty but… my loyalties will always lie with the Empire.” 

This was a sort-of lie. You just thought it was the best thing to say to get this old man off your back. 

The king’s smug smile fell slightly at your response. “I see…” he said, “Well, my dear, I do have one more offer for you. If you are interested, of course.” 

You weren’t able to say anything before he continued. 

“You see, my son is a very… curious individual. Never the type to go out and find love himself. He believes that love will find him when he is ready for it.” the king laughed, “And you, my dear, are quite the lovely individual… serving the Empire for the rest of your life surely cannot be what you want. So, you are interested, I could introduce you to-” 

“No.” 

The king paused for a moment before laughing nervously and leaning closer to you. 

“What did you say?”

You turned to the king at your side, glaring daggers right into his blue eyes with a scowl on your face. 

“I said. No.” 

The king laughed loudly before speaking again, reaching out to touch your shoulder, “My dear, I think you forget yourself, I-”

You slapped his hand away before it could fall on your shoulder, a large scowl still spread across your features. 

You had no idea what had come over you. Maybe it was the alcohol talking. Maybe it was the tiredness creeping its way across your bones. Maybe it was your own annoyance, but you were done. Absolutely and completely done. At that moment, you couldn’t think. Hell, you felt like you could barely breathe.

Your anger had completely blinded you. 

“I know exactly who I am, your majesty.” you hissed out, your voice dripping with venom, “I am (F/N) (L/N). Mechanic of the Galactic Empire. The personal mechanic of Lord Vader. I will not be easily swayed and fooled by the likes of you. Never had I ever expected to come to this NOWHERE planet, and find the lowest of human beings within the walls of it's palace.” 

As your voice grew louder, you started to attract a few stares and whispers. You didn’t care in the slightest. 

“M-my dear, please quiet down-”

“NO!” You exclaimed, “I couldn’t give LESS of a FLYING FUCK of who here knows just how much of a lowlife and a creep you are. DON’T think that I haven’t noticed how you’ve looked at me this evening. I have a brain, you know.” 

Frowning down at the glass in your hand, you threw it to the ground where the king’s feet lie, watching as the shards scattered into a million pieces. 

“There’s your fucking glass back, your majesty.” you spat out, “Maybe you can shove it up your ass tonight instead of crying your sad self to sleep since you can’t get young women like me to fuck you.” 

Huffing and turning on your heel, you stomped your way over to the stairs and headed back into your room, not caring about the looks you got as your presence parted the sea of people around you. 

~~~

What exactly you had done only sank in when you were alone in your room, the door shut behind you. 

After a moment of replaying the past events in your head in silence, you felt your chest cave in as a sob racked through your body, forcing itself out behind your lips. Your tears were hot as they streamed down your face, and blurred your vision as you made your way to the balcony outside your room and sat down on the small, backless couch that adorned the space. You hugged your body tight as you let the tears flow down your face as you reflected on your actions. 

To say you were ashamed of your actions would be a lie. You were proud that you had stood up for yourself. You were proud that you took action instead of just dealing with that creep. 

What you were ashamed of, however, was the fact that you had unquestionably let him down. 

He had brought you here to be a representative of the Empire, a representative of him. And you had failed. You were such a sorry excuse of a representative. All you could do was barely hold eye contact and yell at your superiors. You were in no way representing him with that. All you had done was embarrass not only the Empire, but him. 

And you felt like such shit for it. Even if you couldn’t help yourself from doing what you did. 

You knew that no matter how many times you said that you were sorry, it wouldn’t help. It wouldn’t undo what you had done that night. It wouldn’t turn back the hands of time and wave a magic wand, making everything okay again. 

You had ruined it. You had ruined everything. 

All you could do was sob and sniffle as you sat there in the cool breeze of night, feeling so very and totally helpless. 

And that’s all you could do as you heard three noises. 

The door opening. 

The door closing. 

The sound of mechanical, rhythmic, soothing breath drawing closer and closer to you. 

You did nothing to address him as you continued to sob for a moment, eventually letting go of the grip you had around yourself. 

You quieted your sobs as you spoke, your voice wavering and hoarse from your sobs. 

“I-I understand if you’re here to kill me…” 

This was met by no vocal response. You closed your eyes as you braced yourself to hear the sound of his saber igniting, swinging, and the thud of your lifeless body hitting the floor. 

This never came. Instead, you were granted the sound of his boots clacking towards you and the feeling of his heavy body sit to your left side, making the cushions fold and the wood creak beneath him. Opening your watery eyes and glancing at him, sure enough, you saw his larger body seated next to you, the face of his mask pointed to the trees that lined the view of your balcony. 

“Tell me, (F/N)...” he spoke after a moment of silence only filled by the sounds of your sniffles, “What was your home like?” 

You took your eyes off him and wiped them as you shifted your view to the trees then to your hands in your lap, your fingers fidgeting as you spoke between sniffles. 

“I-It was a lot like here, actually…” you croaked out, “Everywhere there was some sort of tree or plant… and flowers more than anyone could count. We lived in small villages, and my home village was one of the larger ones. W-We made our homes out of recyclable materials and depended on the sea for food… Everyone was so nice. We all knew each other’s names and faces… My family was known for our restaurant… People would come in, a-and have a meal while me and my father fixed their things… that’s how I got so good at, you know, fixing things…” 

“... I see.” Lord Vader said, turning his gaze to you, “Your home sounds… beautiful.” 

You breathed out a chuckle as you glanced at him, feeling your tears fade away as you returned your gaze to your hands. 

“My L- Vader, I…” you said after a moment of silence of you trying to think of what to say, “I think I owe you an apology. I don’t know what came over me down there… I just felt so… angry. I was angry at that old man without even knowing that I really was that angry. I didn’t mean to embarrass you, I just…” 

You frowned again as you trailed off, unable to think of the proper words to say. This made you want to start crying again. 

After yet another pause of compilation, Lord Vader spoke again. 

“You do not need to apologize for your actions, (F/N).” he said, turning his gaze back to the trees, “I understand why you had to resort to such… measures. I am… I am proud of you, (F/N).” 

Your gaze fell upon the sith again as his words sunk in. The praise made your heart swell, making a big, goofy grin envelop your features for a moment before fading in to a warm, content smile. You thanked him without saying thank you. 

“What was…” you began, breaking the bout of silence once again, “What was your home like, my Lord?” 

It took him a moment to respond, making you think for a moment that you overstepped a boundary. You were about to say an apology before he rumbled out his response.

“It was…” he said in his deep, mechanical voice, the bass rumbling in your chest, “Good. So very good. I had a brother… I had a younger sister, too… and a… lover.” 

You picked your gaze up to look at him as he continued to stare out to the trees. You wondered if he was looking somewhere, or sometime, far, far away. 

“Where are they now?” you asked, your voice soft, patient even, telling him quietly to take his time. 

“They are… gone.” 

Your heart nearly broke in two at his words. You could tell by the aura around him and the pauses in the speech that he was hurting. Hurting to go back to that time and rewrite the ending that it had. 

You had never felt so connected to the sith lord sitting next to you.

Your heart aching, you gently reached out your hand to the sith, scooting closer to him to reach. 

You felt no fear as you gently rested your hand upon the cool, black leather of his own. Your touch was gentle but firm, and you hoped that it provided some semblance of comfort to the man at your side. 

“Hey…” you said softly, looking at him with calm, warm, understanding eyes. Continuing, you whispered, “I’m sure that wherever they are now… They all still love you. Unconditionally.” 

He looked down at your small hand upon his for a moment before meeting your gaze, his mask allowing no facial features to poke through. Looking into the eyes of the mask, you smiled oh so warmly as you tried your best to look past the metal and into his true, human eyes. Unconsciously, you had started to rub his hand tenderly, trying your best to comfort him in any way you could.

Simply looking at you a moment, he did nothing but bathe in the warmth you offered him, a stark contrast from the cold that he felt almost every moment of every day. Looking into your eyes, he realized two things that he never thought would ever be brought to him. 

One, he never wanted your warmth to go from his life. 

Two, he believed what you had just said to him. 

“(F/N)...” he spoke as he raised his free hand, his body turning so that he could reach you better. Slowly and almost hesitantly, he reached his hand to your head. As gently as he could, he brushed a lock of your hair out of your face, allowing him to see a clearer image of the beautiful creature before him, smiling at him. 

Your heart had ever felt happier. 

Without warning, the muffled music emanating from the room below the pair of you changed from a party-like tune to a slower tune. A slow, melodic dance song now filled your ears, signalling a change in the mood between the pair of you. 

“(F/N)...” he echoed, pointing his mask down to look at the small hand of yours that was still resting upon his. Slowly turning his hand over, he laced his large fingers in between your much smaller ones, almost as if he was scared to harm you. 

You would never, not for as long as you lived, forget the words he spoke to you right then. 

“Would you… May I have this dance?” 

You breathed out a small, quick laugh of pure joy as you continued to look at him, your mind filled with absolutely nothing. You don’t think you had ever felt happier. 

“Yes, you may.” 

With your words of approval, Lord Vader stood up and gently guided you to do so as well, his hand still intertwined with yours. Leading you back inside the room, he paused when the two of you came across a big enough clearing of space, you following as such. As if you were made of glass, he snaked his big, strong arm around your waist, holding you close to his large body. You draped your arm across the back of his own that was around your waist, loosely gripping onto his surprisingly soft cape. Making sure that you were comfortable, he slowly started to sway in time to the music with you, all the while refusing to let go of your hand. Feeling so relaxed, you dipped your head down and rested it on his chest just above the panel of buttons on his stomach, a small smile on your features as you could hear the faint beat of his heart beneath the layers of metal and leather.

You had never felt safer and more grounded than in that moment. Your mind was blank, filled only with the warm buzz of peace and joy. Feeling so relaxed, you had even allowed yourself to close your eyes as you continued to move in time with him, as if both of your souls were perfectly in sync.

For one fleeting moment, neither of you worried about the Empire. 

Nor the rebellion.

Nor of the remaining jedi.

Nor of the Emperor.

Nor of maintaining proper conduct.

Nor following rules. 

Nor of fixing broken TIEs.

Nor of carrying out duty. 

The only thing that existed in that moment, was the two of you.

~~~

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you. [tom holland] - five.

PAIRING: tom holland x female!celebrity!reader

SUMMARY: ah, to be young and in love. it sounds great if only you and tom were actually dating out of pure love and not for the sheer reputation of your careers. it also should be great if you two actually got along, but life isn’t that easy.

WARNINGS: mostly swearing! sexual innuendos are present kids! a bit of fluff, a bit of angst. it’s haters to lovers / fake dating au so take that information as you wish! this is definitely a filler chapter tho. 

WORD COUNT: 3761 words

SONG INSPO: hard times - paramore

A/N: hiya babes! sorry if i skipped a two weeks-worth of an update, got caught up from uni & my part-time job. been writing for uni a lot, and ngl yall kinda wanna cry! anyways, the amount of love i’ve received for this series is wild you guys!!! thank you so much for the kind words! i know i suck at replying but please know that i really appreciate it you guys and y’all make me feel soft and so loved 🥺 sorry again for the late update, hope this makes up for it!! enjoy part five & happy reading x 🥰💛

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vanessa’s masterlist | one | two | three | four | six | seven | eight | eight.5 [interview excerpt] 

You woke up by the sun beaming on your face. Already dreading the day, you pulled the covers over your head and buried yourself in the pile of pillows that were taking up most of the space on your bed. God, you were exhausted from yesterday. 

See, yesterday- yesterday was a blur. Everything happened so fast. You and Tom were trending on Twitter for god-knows how many hours. Headlines about you two dating were plastered everywhere. 

It made you roll your eyes. Do people care that much? And they do. People cared a lot about you two. People said that you two look great together, while a handful said you were in it for the clout. Technically, we both are. 

So, now that you got the people’s attention, what’s next? 

Well, for starters, they started tracking yours and Tom’s relationship from where and how it started. They wouldn’t find anything because you two aren’t really dating in the first place. 

However, they did compilations of possible hints that you two were dating-or maybe was just getting to know each other. Luckily for you two, you followed each other on Instagram for quite a while now so you got that foundation to build up. 

You liked some of his photos before, as did he. You actually found Tom quite adorable back then. The first time you saw him was when you saw Captain America: Civil War with your friends. You and your friends bonded over watching Marvel movies and once you saw Tom Holland as Peter Parker on screen, it was safe to say that you weren’t just crushing on Sebastian Stan anymore. 

However, you did convince yourself that nothing trumps over your crush on Sebastian Stan. You also convinced yourself that you were crushing on Peter Parker-not Tom Holland. Peter Parker was sweet and kind, Tom Holland was not. 

You pushed off the covers and finally pulled yourself out of bed. After doing your morning routine, you threw yourself into the couch with a coffee in hand while a toast on the other. 

Today was your last day off before you went back to taping so you were expecting a pretty dull day today- that is until your phone kept on buzzing.

You looked at the caller ID before letting out a huge groan, “Zoë, Please for the love of God, it’s my day off.” 

“Good morning to you too, Y/N.” Your manager said on the other line. “And I know it’s your day off, I just wanted to check up on you.” 

You furrowed your brows. “That sounds oddly suspicious, what are you planning to do, Zoë?” 

“Would you relax, Y/N? I was just asking if you have anything to do for your day off.” She replied. 

“I’ll probably do a bit of grocery shopping later, but other than that I might bury myself in blankets and watch movies in the living room.” You answered and took a bite of your toast, frowning as you tried to swallow your sad and bland breakfast. 

“Okay, that’s good to know-Oh, and I also wanted to tell you that your taping tomorrow has been moved for the next two days. Apparently, Alissa won’t be back till tomorrow.” 

“Oh, thank god,” You sighed, relieved to hear that you have another day off. “Thanks for the heads up, Zo. I’ll see ‘ya soon.” You hung up the phone and finished the piece of toast. 

You watched a few episodes of Brooklyn Nine-Nine before you gathered up the will to get yourself ready. After taking a well-deserved warm bath and doing your extensive skincare routine -watching videos about Koreans sharing their skincare routine on Youtube really got the best of you and your bank account- You put on a plain white shirt and paired it with your favourite pair of mom jeans. 

As you grabbed your keys and your wallet, ready to bust out the door, you heard your phone ring. 

“Are you home?” 

“Yes, I am, Ronnie. Why are you asking?” You asked her. 

“Cool. Can you open the door please?” She asked on the other line. 

Confused, you opened your front door and sure enough, Veronica was standing in front of your apartment wearing her university sweatshirt and denim jeans. 

“Oh thank god you’re ready, I had the most awful day at school. I just received my paper for my 400-level political science class and let’s just say that the mark I got, I haven’t done it in bed for a while now.” Veronica ranted off, taking her shoes off before placing her books on the coffee table. 

It took you a solid minute before you just realized what she just said. “Ronnie, I don’t want to know about your sex life-” You said before you fixed your hair. “Or lack thereof.” 

“I could really use some good fucking, ‘yannoe?” 

“Jesus Christ, Ronnie-” You sighed as you handed her shoes back to her. “C’mon, I have to do some serious grocery shopping.”

“Okay, but I’m driving,” Ronnie said as she grabbed her car keys. “You’re a horrible driver.” 

“Works for me,” You shrugged and locked the front door. 

The travel to the grocery store was typical: you two belting One Direction songs the whole time. You and Veronica were strolling the yogurt aisle when she asked about your whole love life situation. 

“Oi, I thought you and Tom weren’t dating?” She asked as she put an assorted pack of yogurt down the cart. 

“I’m never going to eat that,” You pointed at the yogurt. “And we aren’t.” 

“I will eat it whenever I stop by unannounced at your place,” Veronica argued. “Then what’s with that photo that I’ve seen with you two holding hands yesterday?” 

You looked around, checking if there was anybody within-distance that could hear whatever you were about to say. “We’re not actually dating.” You murmured.

“Come again?” Veronica asked, completely lost. 

“We’re just doing it for publicity.” You whispered loud enough for Ronnie to hear. 

“I’m sorry, but how exactly did it escalate to that?” She asked, totally confused. 

“Remember that stunt I pulled at the club the other day?” 

“Yeah, you were all over the news.” 

“That was the reason as to why it had to escalate to me and him dating.” You answered as you pushed the cart again. 

“Yeah, no, I need a cup of coffee before we do this, I’m all caffeine-out,” Veronica said before she bid of herself off and went towards the Starbucks that was found near the entrance of the store. 

You rolled your eyes playfully at your friend and carried on completing the least stressful adult task for you. 

It was actually quite serene. You managed to finish your shopping without people noticing you-well, that’s a stretch. People did notice you. Most of them gave you an acknowledging nod followed by a small smile, some of them asked for a photo, and only a few just stared at you-which you didn’t mind. 

You were paying for your things when Veronica appeared right beside you with a cup of coffee in hand. “What? Did the line at Starbucks reach the parking lot? What took you so long?” 

“No, but a cute guy bought me a drink.” She beamed, taking a sip of her coffee. 

You chuckled. “Good for you, Ronnie.”

“Y/N, girl, I swear- he has the most gorgeous eyes.” Ronnie carried on, the smile was stuck on her face. “Oh, he was so sweet.” She sighed happily. 

You were happy for your friend since it’s not every day she meets someone that she’s completely enamoured with. However, she can express her liking for this guy while helping you load the grocery back in the cart. “Ronnie, that sounds great and all, but can you help me with the groceries so we can leave now?” You practically begged. 

Veronica nodded and helped you load the groceries back in the cart, immediately speeding up the process. Taking too much time fixing your groceries at the till always gave you anxiety, especially when there’s a long queue behind you. 

“Oh my god, Y/N,” Veronica gasped as you two were walking towards the parking lot. 

“What? What happened? Are you okay?” You asked, completely baffled. 

“I forgot to tell you that he has this amazing accent,” She sighed, making you roll your eyes. 

“Ronnie, I swear to god I will fucking kill you.” You grumbled as Veronica opened the trunk of her car and started handing you the groceries for you to put in. 

“I forgot to get his name though,” She mumbled. “which is a bummer because he was honestly a godsend.” 

All you could do was roll your eyes as you were lost for words. 

“Oh, quit rolling your eyes at me. Just because you have a boyfriend, doesn’t mean I don’t deserve to have one.” Ronnie pointed out. 

“As if I actually have a boyfriend,” You countered, finishing up with the groceries.

“Whatever,” Veronica mumbled and shut off the trunk of her car. “I’ll just put this cart back and-”

“Hey, Veronica, was it?” 

You and Veronica both turned your heads towards the person who just called Veronica’s name. As soon as she saw who the voice belonged to, it gave her extreme delight. 

“Yes,” She beamed at the brunette with insanely blue eyes. “We talked earlier but I didn’t get your name.” 

“Sorry ‘bout that. I had to take a phone call and when I got back, you weren’t there.” The guy explained. You took a good look at him. He seemed familiar but you couldn’t exactly put your finger on it. 

“No, you’re okay! I had to go back to my friend here-which reminds me,” Veronica pulled you closer “This is my best friend, Y/N, Y/N, this is-” 

“Harrison,” The guy smiled at you and extended his hand for you to shake. You politely shook his hand and after what seemed like an eternity, his eyes widened. “Wait, You’re Y/N L/N, right? From the Alchemist?” 

You gave him a small nod, still trying to figure out who he is. “You’re also Tom’s girlfriend, I presume?” He asked a bit shyly. 

“Great. I can’t believe I have to live with that label attached to my name now.” You thought to yourself.

You weren’t exactly sure if and how you were going to answer his question. Where are you with this stunt anyway? Are you and Tom supposed to be vocal about your relationship or were you two just blatant and left the people to figure out for themselves? 

Harrison seemed to take notice of your hesitation in regard to the question. “It’s okay,” He says softly. “I know.” 

“Pardon me?” 

“I know the real deal about you and Tom.” He whispered. 

There was a look of panic in Veronica’s eyes. “Yeah, that they’re totally in love.” She said defensively. You, however, seemed unbothered. You were also curious. You’ve seen Harrison before but you couldn’t point out where you’ve seen him. 

“Harrison, you’re Tom’s best friend, yeah?” You asked him, starting to get a picture of how familiar he is. 

Harrison nodded. “I wasn’t really expecting for our first meeting to be like this.” He chuckled. 

“Eh, it’s alright,” You shrugged. “Much better for us to meet this way and in our own circumstance, considering your friend makes everything ten times more unbearable.”

Harrison let out a small laugh, “Tom’s not that bad once you get to know him.”

“Oh trust me, I know him plenty and so far, I’m not liking it.” You argued quite defensively. “Well, I’ll leave you two to chat for a bit as I put this cart back in its place.” You said as you gave Veronica a short look, in which she beamed at you in return. 

You purposely took your time with returning the pushcart back in its rightful area. You fumbled with your phone for a bit, checking your Twitter only to find out that you’re still trending and people still have no idea what to feel about you and Tom’s relationship. 

“Why did I pour my drink all over him again?” You asked yourself in frustration. 

As you walked back towards Ronnie’s car, you saw your best friend and Harrison talk animatedly around each other with their smiles never leaving their faces. 

The tad bitter side of you wondered if their mouths hurt from all that smiling, it also made you wonder if it’s even okay for a normal person to smile that much. However, the better part of you was glad that your best friend was happy. Veronica needed to be happy. 

Soon after, they bid their goodbyes, not before exchanging phone numbers. Harrison gave you a friendly wave-goodbye before he walked towards his car. 

As soon as you sat on the passenger seat of Ronnie’s car, you were already greeted by a huge smile on her face. 

“Okay, don’t get mad-” Ronnie began.

You groaned. Knowing your best friend, you knew that she did something that will get you mad. “Ronnie, what did you do?” 

“Okay, so I know that tonight was supposed to be our movie night but I just couldn’t help it! You know me through thick and thin, Y/N! You know how I do things impulsively around guys that I’m interested in. I’m like a mindless machine around them! I don’t even know why I’m talking this much when I usually have everything under control but Harrison-” 

“Ronnie sweetie, breathe,” You said with your hands placed on top of her shoulders. “You are babbling and I need you to get straight to the point.”  

Veronica took a deep breath before she said the words that almost made you want to smack the living daylights out of your friend. “I invited Harrison for dinner and I told him he can bring Tom too.” 

“Could you stop?” Veronica threw the kitchen towel at you as you continued to glare at her. “You’re being childish, hon.” 

“I am not being childish! You’re being childish.” You argued, crossing your arms. 

Veronica just stared at you, her face seemingly screams that she’s absolutely done with you. 

“Okay, so maybe I am being childish,” You admitted. “But you threw the towel at me so I’m not the only one here with an attitude.” 

Veronica rolled her eyes as she finished setting up the table. You two were supposed to have pasta over dinner and have a Harry Potter movie marathon while eating junk food. Well, you two were still going to do it, except this time you’re joined by Harrison and Tom. 

“This is the worst thing you’ve ever done to me,” You said dramatically. 

“Y/N, hon, you’re exaggerating. I’m pretty sure this evening’s not going to be bad.” Ronnie commented. 

Veronica left the kitchen and proceeded to the living room to check her makeup in the mirror that was propped over the wall. You followed her into the living room and threw yourself on the couch. 

“Ronnie, why did you even invite them? Don’t you have classes tomorrow? Also, aren’t you supposed to be writing your paper for your social class?” You asked as you watched Ronnie retouch her makeup. 

You were trying your best to cancel this dinner. You tried to reason with your best friend though because this is your house in the first place. However, she pulled the “This is my chance in getting myself a love life” card and she has moaned for years that she really wants to meet someone. You’d do anything for Veronica’s happiness. You’d also do anything to keep your best friend quiet about how she wants to date so bad. 

“I already have my draft for that paper, just need to edit it,” Ronnie replied as she applied a coat of mascara. “Besides, I don’t have any classes on Mondays, you knew that.”

“Right,” you mumbled. “Still think this is a bad idea though. Things got so unbearable with Tom yesterday, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle another day with that guy ever again.” 

After your whole lunch scene with Tom yesterday, it felt suffocating. It was unbearable. He was back with his usual snarky attitude and it drove you mad. 

You learned one sure thing about your set-up though: He was only charming around other people, but if it’s just you two? He was a jerk. 

Not even a minute later, the doorbell rang. You got up and checked who was at the door and sure enough, two familiar faces filled up the screen. 

“Speaking of the devil,” You muttered before opening the door and was greeted by Harrison who gave you a hug. 

“Thanks for having us over, Y/N” Harrison said as he pulled away from the short hug. He then proceeded to give Veronica one, and it was obvious that his intentions were solely focused on her anyway. 

“Uh, yeah. No problem.” You said almost awkwardly as you gave Ronnie a look, who in turn mouthed a grateful ‘Thank you’. 

You turned back to the door and saw that Tom standing there, a stoic look on his face. He looked like he came out of a photoshoot based on the clothes he was wearing: slouchy black button-ups and a pair of denim jeans. “Holland,” You greeted him as you opened the door a bit wider. 

“Y/L/N,” He said as he gave you a once-over. “You look...” Tom seemed like he was really trying hard to think of a nice word to say. 

“Don’t strain yourself,” You said as you rolled your eyes.

You were wearing an oversized band shirt -that was tied in a knot at the front- and paired it with high-waisted patterned pants. You and Ronnie shared a small argument on what you should wear for dinner. 

She insisted that you should dress for your comfort while looking presentable and you argued that that is the outfit that gave you comfort. 

You also argued that Ronnie and her guests should be glad that you weren’t wearing sweatpants like you anticipated before Ronnie invited people for dinner. 

“Good because I wasn’t planning to,” Tom nagged, sending you into absolute overdrive.  

As soon as he had his back turned on you, you resisted the urge of strangling him right then and there. 

Unbeknownst to you and Tom, Veronica and Harrison caught the frustration painted on your face causing them to chuckle amongst themselves. 

You and Tom had only known each other for two days at most, and yet you already had the most confusing relationship that existed in this world. 

“If this carries throughout the evening, the world will know me not as Tom Holland’s girlfriend, but as the girl who killed him.” You muttered to Veronica as you passed by her. 

“Relax, Y/N,” Veronica chuckled as she put a hand over your shoulder. “Dinner wouldn’t be that bad.”  

Saying that dinner wouldn’t be that bad would be an understatement. Dinner was horrible. 

Veronica and Harrison were pretty much occupied during the entire meal. They mostly had their attention to each other, which didn’t surprise you. Ronnie and Harrison were smitten for each other, it actually made you snort. 

You and Tom, though, were a different case. You two were seated across each other and you two wouldn’t stop bickering. 

It started when Tom accidentally kicked your foot underneath the table. 

“Ouch!” You yelped. “Why did you kick me?!”

“It was an accident,” He said defensively. 

“Psh, right” You scoffed. “Accident my ass.” 

The “I accidentally kicked you underneath the table” carried on for the entire meal, with you and Tom exchanging kicks every few minutes. 

You two also shared glares throughout the dinner. 

“Why are you mad at me?!” Tom argued. 

“Because you’re here!”

“Well, why did you invite me then?!” 

“I didn’t! It was all her!” You hissed as you pointed at Veronica who was rather talking intimately with Harrison, and was also very much oblivious to the argument unveiling in front of her and Haz. 

“God, why did I even think coming here was a good idea.” Tom moaned as he pinched the bridge of his nose, obviously annoyed. 

It didn’t even end there, as you all moved from the kitchen and into the living room to start the Harry Potter marathon, you and Tom started bickering over a piece of furniture. 

As Ronnie and Haz went to the loveseat sofa, you claimed the larger couch so you could lay down while watching the film and leaving Tom with nothing to sit on. You didn’t have much furniture considering you’re the only one who lives in this apartment. 

“Scoot over, Y/N.” He said as he approached the couch you were laying on.

“You can sit at the ottoman.” 

“And have nothing to rest my back on?”  

“God, you are such a diva.” You grumbled. “Just sit on the floor then.” You replied as you pulled the faux fur blanket over you, keeping you warm and cozy. 

“I don’t want to sit on the floor for hours,” Tom argued as he tried to pull you up from your position. 

“Fine, I’ll get you the floor cushion.” You said in defeat. 

“I want to sit on the couch, Y/N.”

“I am not moving, Holland. You can’t make me.” You said rather childishly. 

“Fine,” Tom sighed and pulled the ottoman closer to the couch. He pulled up your feet and sat on the end of the couch as he propped his feet on top of the ottoman. He placed your feet on top of his lap, as you claimed you weren’t going to get up from your laying down position.  “Then don’t move.” He dictated, leaving you to roll your eyes. 

And as for the cherry on top, you had your manager nag you to post something about your evening. You didn’t even know that Veronica filmed a quick story for her Instagram until you received a message from Zoë saying: “A couple of fans that follow Ronnie saw her story. Share it on your Insta too, it adds foundation to  our story.” 

Ronnie’s Insta story showed the television playing Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s stone, and it panned to Harrison who was smiling softly at the camera and then, panned to you and Tom who were sharing the couch. You two were watching intently and from the looks of it, you looked like a very believable couple. 

Your manager was right and that irked you. The devil works hard but Zoë works harder.

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[nad-zeta]

Match up (ㆁᴗㆁ✿)

Hi! Could I get an IkeSen match-up please?? 😭I’m a 5'2.5" female (INFJ), I’ve got hazel eyes, a couple of ear piercings & shoulder length dark brown hair (though I had it deep purple when I could actually get it done before COVID). Career-wise I’m a graphic designer (as I’ve always loved the different arts and creative fields, be it classical art, interior design, fashion, music, dance) and on the non-art side I’ve always loved the social sciences like history, philosophy and psychology/sociology! I’m always learning & evolving my idea of the human condition, human nature, and the psychology of the masses. I also especially love logic games & puzzles and crack them quickly. (Though Math is lifelong enemy #1 no cap sorry Issac). I tend to take a while to properly open up to people and feel quite shy at first, though I’ve amazingly had people tell me I come off as chill and confident (even somewhat intimidating) even if on the inside I didn’t quite feel that way 😅 (useful right?). I definitely tend to observe and analyze people/situations before going in, though even if I’m thrown into something I’m great at thinking on my feet and getting things back under control. Alternatively, when with friends I’m very animated, open, loud, and always throwing out the jokes to raise the energy and have a good time! (Catch me watching & spam sending meme compilations at 3AM even though I know people are already asleep) It just takes me a while to make that transition and connection on that deeper level before I open up (I’m talking months here 😭) I’m a Virgo/Leo cusp with a Sagittarius moon and a Taurus Rising, so I definitely have a strong presence of both earth/fire energy. In professional situations or with people I’m not familiar with the Earth energy comes out, and with close friends or when I’m in my element I love to indulge in the fire. I guess you can say I crave both order and freedom… which feels so divisive LOL. Though I always seem to be drawn to things that are polar opposites in many aspects of life, so that’s nothing new to me. I flip between “the world is great and life is good” and “the world is cruel and we suffer with no purpose” on a daily basis like it’s my job. Though I don’t think life having no purpose is be a bad thing, it means you’re free to execute your own will. I believe good an evil are both within humanity’s callings (and our world certainly reflects it), but personally I’d rather try to add to the good than despair about the bad. A quote that’s always resonated with me and sums that concept up is “What is more noble? To be born good, or to contradict your evil nature through sheer effort and power of will?” Thank you for your time!! I really enjoy your work and am excited to see what you come up with! Though honestly no hard feelings if you aren’t feeling up to it 😁😁((Admin Maru - this acc has 2 admins so I thought I should specify Lol))

Hi hi Dear!❤🌻 thank you so much for the request and sorry for taking soooooo long!❤🌻 Aww u make me blush😳, i’m so happy you have been enjoying these match ups and i hope you have a super good day! ❤😊🌼 Also, i’m always up to write a matchup as long as yall dont mind waiting for my slow writings skills! 😳🐇🦊hehe anyways here is ya matchup Admin Maru! @sengoku-revolution​

So I match you with……….. Mitsuhide

The first thing Mitsuhide noticed about you was your hazel green eyes observing him from the corner of the room. 

You had just been dragged back to the castle and named as the Oda princess. After Nobunaga made the declaration, you were guided to your seat in the council room. You looked at all the unfamiliar faces around you, but one man in particular, caught your eyes. He reminded you of a puzzle that you desperately wanted to solve, with this whispy mysterious air about him. You sat there and stared at him until his gaze lifted and he locked eyes with you. You panic for a second not expecting him to look up, so you shyly averted your eyes with a small smile. 

When the war council was over, it was Mitsunari who first approached you to strike up a conversation. You were rather shy, so you didn’t say much, and soon Masamune was beside Mitsunari asking you all sorts of random questions. You almost laughed at a comment that Masamune had made, “why you so quiet all of a sudden lass, cat got your tongue. What happened to that chilled confident lass from moments ago eyeing everyone in the council room.” That’s when Ieyasu piped up approaching you as well, “chilled and confident,” he scoffed, “more like scary and intimidating, no wonder Hideyoshi thinks she is a spy.” At the mention of his name, Hideyoshi too joined the group eyeing you suspiciously, he, did, not, trust, you. 

Finally, someone came to your aid and rescue, to save you from the overwhelming group of warlords. Mitsuhide reached into the crowd and grabbed your hand, pulling you as he walked away. He smiled his snek like smile at the confused look on his fellow warlords faces as he led you out of the room.

He showed you around the castle while observing you for any signs or proof that you were, in fact, an assassin or spy. But he found none; instead, he found a shy reserved little mouse, who was too shy to even meet his eyes. Finally after a long day of touring around the castle Mitsuhide showed you to your new room. He bid you good night, with a kiss on the hand and left.

The next day you started to help out all the castle staff, you didn’t want to just sit around and do nothing. So you opted to help out the maids, and deliver messages for Nobunaga. Hideyoshi still didn’t trust you, but that all changed one day. 

You were sitting with all the warlords in the banquet hall, people watching and observing the world around you, when something caught your attention. You saw a glint of something coming from the corner of the room. You narrowed your eyes and tried to focus on it to get a better look, when your heart suddenly stopped. It was an arrow that was aimed right for Nobunaga. Thank the lucky stars for your observational skills, as it gave you time to get up and jump right in front of its path right before it could hit Nobunaga. To be fair, it may not have been the best plan, but it was the best one you could come up with thinking on your feet. The arrow embedded itself in your arm and before you could even say anything, the warlords had the attacker surrounded. Hideyoshi was going to scold you for pushing his lord, but when he saw the blood dripping down and arrow embedded in your arm, he realized that you had yet again saved his lord’s life and that you were no enemy.

Surprisingly enough it was Mitsuhide who was at your side in seconds, picking you up and taking you back to your room to patch you up. None of you spoke as he gently treated your wound. Each of you were lost in your own world. He had noticed from watching you, that you were quite a naïve and trusting creature. You hadn’t yet been tainted by the cruel realities of this world. He felt this overwhelming need to want to protect you and get to know you better.After he patched you up, he went over to Nobunaga and asked to become your teacher to help you survive the turbulent times, cause it was clear from the incident that you had 0 self-preservation skills. 

The next day Mitsuhide made his way up to your room to give you, your first lesson, when he spotted you immersed in your art. He stood beside you and watched you design a kimono. It was absolutely stunning, he was awestruck at your talents. Once the sketch was done, you looked up and saw Mitsuhide sitting beside you, in your shock, you fell back. Perfect opportunity for Mitsuhide to take hold of your sketchbook and page through it. He was shook, you were truly a talented little thing. He then turned back to you and offered you a hand up to sit closer so he could start his lesson. And when you saw the books he had brought you unconsciously made a big sigh. Out of all the topics Mitsuhide had set out to teach you about, why was math one of them. He laughed, as you pouted at the thought of having to sit through a maths lecture. 

Despite your hate for math, thankfully, your school taught you well, and you breezed through the lesson. When Mitsuhide came to the stopping point for the day, he made the two of you some tea. He knew there was more to you than that shy exterior, and he was determined to get to know the little mouse within a little bit better. 

Everyday Mitsuhide came by your room, to teach you about various topics and subjects, ranging from economics to self-defence. It had been about a month of these lessons, and with each one, you started getting more and more comfortable around the Kitsune. He was a kind and patient teacher and would explain concepts over and over again until you understood them.

Mitsuhide got a full glimpse of your true personality when he taught you about the human condition, human nature, and the psychology of the masses. His eyes widened in surprise when he saw the glimmer of excitement in yours. That day you had actually been the one to teach sneki boy some stuff, as these were topics that you knew a fair amount on. The two of you sat for hours and hours chatting about social sciences, and you loved every moment of it. Mitsuhide enjoyed this new side of you, chatting freely about the things that interested you and honestly your smile was simply just too radiant to look at. 

In the weeks that followed your lesson with Mitsu ended, but his daily visits didn’t. He had successfully made that transition from acquaintance to a friend as the two of you connected on a deeper level. The more you revealed to him, the more he fell in love with you and vice versa. He loved how you were just so expressive and adored your loud, animated side. He could sit for hours and hours just watching and listening to you, tell stories. As you would tell them in the most curious of ways.

He loved it when you would deliver letters to him and then stay for tea. Often these tea dates lasted well into the night, as the two of you flung teasing comments and jokes at each other. Some night the conversation was more deep and serious, but other night the two of you would just be crackheads at 3am, joking and chatting about the most random of topics. Often you would catch yourself mid-laugh and just think about how much you loved this sneki boi. To the world, the two of you were mysterious, reserved, but together your true personalities came out, and you could be yourselves. 

Mitsuhide loved how you just raised the energy in any room you walked into. You managed to brighten even the dullest of situations with your chaotic, playful energy. And Mitsuhide low key loved that he was to only one that got to see it, as you were still a tiny bit shy with the other warlords.

Mitsuhide had long ago fallen in love with you, but the day he knew you were truly the one for him was when you were out in the market shopping. He had spotted you buying some fabric for your latest project, and of course, he couldn’t let an opportunity to tease you go by. As he approached, he overheard you debating with some soldiers. They were badmouthing Mitsuhide, calling him an evil man and saying that he was better off dead. You knew of Mitsuhide’s past, and you knew the mask he showed the world, but you had also seen the true Mitsuhide. The kind kitsune that always tried his hardest to keep his friends and family safe, even if that meant turning himself into a bad guy. You squared your shoulders and repeated a quote that had always resonated with you to the ignorant soldiers, “"Tell me then, what is more noble? To be born good, or to contradict your evil nature through sheer effort and power of will?” That statement left the men speechless. Mitsuhide then came up behind you, scaring the soldier away, they knew better than to trash talk Mitsuhide to his face. Mitsuhide then gently took your hand in his, and took you out for some tea, where he asked you about the quote as it too had resonated with him.

When Mitsuhide found out you loved logic games and puzzles, he knew he had found his soulmate. At this point, sneki boi was head over heels for you, and he was determined to make his feelings known. He decided to confess his feelings using a puzzle box and a logic game for you to play. It was based on a series of puzzles and riddles that you needed to solve. 

It started the moment you walked into Mitsuhide’s manor to drop off some letters. You were greeted by a snow-white fox and a letter attached to its collar. You solved puzzle after puzzle and riddle after riddle. Eventually, you were lead to a flower field just outside of town, thank goodness for Mitsuhide teaching you how to ride, otherwise that would have been a painfully long walk. You rode to the big sakura tree surrounded by flowers that you and Mitsuhide had ridden to on one of your first outrides. 

As you approach the tree, you saw a big gift wrapped up in delicate paper at the base of the tree. You slowly opened it, to reveal a puzzle box. It took you a few minutes, but you finally managed to solve the puzzle to reveal a small bell-flower on the inside and a note, “Look up.” 

You looked up to see another gift hidden between the pink petal of the tree. Again thankful for one of Mitsuhide’s various lessons, you carefully climbed up the tree and opened the present to reveal a kimono. Still, not just any kimono, it was the one that Mitsuhide had watched you sketch that very first day. Your eyes started tearing up at the kind gesture. You lifted the soft fabric up and down fell one final note, “I congratulate you for completing all the puzzles little one.” It was a long letter confessing all Mitsuhide’s undying love for you. It also stated that if you felt the same way, then he would be at the festivals gate waiting for you and if not than…. You didn’t read the last part as you had long ago fallen in love with the Kitsune. You raced back to town where the festival was being held and standing by the entrance of the festival was Mitsuhide, just as promised. You wasted no time running and tackling him into a big hug.

The more Mitsuhide discovered about you, the more he loved you. He loved that you loved the arts as much as he did. 

He loved to pull you into his arms and dance with you for hours and hours. He knew you loved to dance and music, so if you were feeling down, he would play you a song or dance for you. This always seemed to bring a smile to your face especially when he would pull you in and start dancing with you, and if you resisted he would tickle you until that bright, radiant smile that he loves so much is back on your face.

Mitsuhide definitely found it amusing that you would switch between “the world is great, and life is good” to “the world is cruel, and we suffer from no purpose.” Though whichever day you are having, he would be by your side to love and support you. He would make those better days even better, and on the days when you feel the world is cruel, he would wrap you up in his arms and protect you from the harsh world. 

He enjoyed debating with you on the topic of humanity and good and evil. He loved to hear your opinions and thoughts on all of it. He agreed with your resolution about adding more good to the world then despair. 

Often you and Mitsuhide can be found nestled in each other’s arms in deep conversation as he spends hours and hours playing with your hair. You have brought a sense of purpose to this boys life, and that is to execute his will to protect and love you for the rest of his days. 

When the two of you are together, the room is always filled with endless laughs and teasing comments. You better be ready to travel all around with Mitsuhide as now that he has caught you he will never let you go. Trapping you in his arms and showering you with endless amounts of love and adoration for the rest of your lives

Other potential matches……………….. Yoshimoto 

I hope you enjoyed this dear and I hope you have a super good day!🦊❤🌻

[honeymoonjin]

pre-elimination thoughts

hello here is a compiled list of all the asks i woke up to this morning relating to the elimination ksdjfks please enjoy 

If u see it from the pov of yn like actually that the person yn said “lets vote kook off after he shared his feelings and got provoked abt it” thats gonna hurt koo so much and he probably will completely shut himself off/ maybe even ask to leave the house if sora allows that?😳 and for yall b’s to vote him off!!! I’ll never forgive yall if sora announces that he got voted off fr fr!!!

Listen I’m not trying to be hateful but what did tae give us this week in comparison to JK??? Did he give us a whole scene? did he take the time to set up the gym into an exam room? Give us a sexy doctor moment?? No. He gave us some relatively mild puppy play which is fine!! But i mean compared to everyone else’s scene?? JK needs his moment, needs US on his side! Tae will still have jimin if he gets eliminated but koo needs a moment to shine! #byetae #savejk

I just remembered the elimination is based on sex...i voted the wrong person😞

why are people kicking off hoseok what did my man do

I’m gonna day this once. Vote koo out and I’m coming for kneecaps. There is so much potential there with the Maknae line. Listen hear me out the candidate that would hurt the least is hobi I know he was gonna get booted last week but like he’s the one that is the least emotionally attached to yn ya feel?! And also I feel like this opens up opportunities for him to dick down other members…. not naming names but *cough* jimin *cough* anyways that’s my tea if Jungkook is booted this week Readers …. I’m cracking my knuckles and we’re fucking throwing hands accept there won’t be a Seokjin and Yoongi to hold me back when I push y’all on a coffee table 😤😤🥱🥱👊🏾👊🏾

jimin may of instigated the fight, but jungkook threw the first punch and to me that’s a lot worse

the way it just took me five minutes to vote 💀 and 4 minutes and 55 seconds of those 5, i was just staring at my wall contemplating

Let's try and think with the few braincells we have left fam. Hoseok scenes are the most fun to read bc he is extremely confident and also one of the most experienced in the house. DON'T VOTE HIM OUT. A lot of the others could have a great storyline just hanging out in the house and creating sexual tension and drama. HOSEOK SHINES WHEN HE'S PERFORMING AND BEING A HARD ASS CONFINDENT SEXY DOM. PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU DON'T VOTE HIM OUT JUST YET.

i swear to fucking god i y'all vote hoseok out i'm rioting

People out here fighting for who should get eliminated but I'm here cant even figure out who to vote for cause I love all of them so much,,,, BUT IF ANYONE EVEN COMES NEAR MY BABY JIMIN AND YOONGI AND KOO IM KILLING ON SIGHT -jimin slap me anon

Ngl y’all wish I could vote y/n out 😂😂😂 girl gets into a relationship on a porn show... with 2 guys she doesn’t really seem to even like that much in a romantic way. Idk I’m fine with vmin but I don’t like the poly :/ not because it’s poly just because it doesn’t make sense + it’s complicating a lot of shit. I love the story though so I’m gonna keep reading it I just don’t agree with the relationship. I don’t think she should have a relationship with any of them until the show is over

Aaah this chapter was so good but also a mess 😭 I literally don’t know who to choose, I would actually be the worst in such a situation because I hate making decisions like that! I‘m seeing all those aggressive asks you’re getting and I‘m just sitting in the corner over here instead trying to deal with emotions 🥺 I just hope they’re all going to be alright in the end!!

I sent u two asks already queen and it def shows what good of a job you've done but this time let me be selfish for a second Because these anons are pissing me OFF! I can't believe so many people are in favour of voting Taekook out bro I'm really gonna pull a Kook and fight yall in the living room like UR really gonna break their hearts like that? JKS gonna blame himself for opening up and Tae will be devastated that he cant touch MC since touch is one of his love languages! Yall make Me SIQUE!

im voting tae out bc imo his scene was v plain. I get that pet play is out there n kinky but it was boring. While the hopekook scene with y/n was explosive it felt like tae having jimin there for his scene was a cop out. n then they did their dumb poly thing which should honestly be against the rules. WHAT SNAKES! also ngl but i feel like jimins been such a b to hopekook all the time FOR WHAT! im voting out tae for this week n jimin after. VMIN CAN GO FUCK EACH OTHER IN THE BUNKS FOR ALL OF TIME

Please please please don’t throw JK under the bus, if he gets eliminated his mental state is going to crumble even more than it already did, poor baby boy doesn’t deserve to get eliminated specially if we vote solely on the sex, because this man really went all out with his prompt, he was so diligent with staying in character and all, AND come on y’all did you not read the part in which he was being taken out crying while saying how sorry he was for the mess? We can’t break his heart even more

#kickjk2020 vminy/n for the win ‼️😼

Okay I’m sorry for yelling in my last ask BUT I’d be lying if I said I couldn’t relate to the way jk reacted bc I’d definitely feel the same as him that, doesn’t make the actions he took right but I mean have y’all really never felt that upset and alone before? You’re up against a wall with no where to go dude. Ofc you’re gonna lash out. His prompt was AMAZING he put in so much effort and it was SPICEY. And he felt so apologetic after the fight. He needs more time please:(((( #SaveJungkook

Ok but what i think some of us don’t get is that the elimination vote is from Y/N’s perspective, right? So how in the world will that go down? After all this, her voting Jk off. So, what i’m saying is #saveSora and #savejk

that chapter was so emotionally exhausting 😓 you’re such a great writer but it breaks my heart nonetheless. I guess that’s all I have to say about the chapter. but as far as voting, my choices are COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. cause one I want to vote out based off of sex, and the other strictly based on emotion. uugh I can’t decide (even though I know you want it based on sex). my final statement I’ll campaign for is PLEASE don’t vote out jin or joon 🥺 #savejin&joon

I see ask about voting my man Jimin or sweet baby boy jk and even sweet taetae out while I'm here wondering if we can veto yn out 😔 i get her pov but damn im really pissed that she just gets "plant mode on" in situations like this

I’m so sorry for my baby but Tae is the one who has to go, c’mon everyone he is the safest option! He will still have Jimin and he can still have fun with the rest of the gentlemen, and you can’t tell me that he wouldn’t enjoy just watching and/ or punishing y/n when she decides that she can’t keep her hands to herself, HE WOULD STILL BE ABLE TO ENJOY BEING ON THE SHOW WITHOUT THE SEX WITH Y/N BECAUSE WE’VE SEEN HIM ENJOY SEXY TIMES WITH THE OTHER GENTLEMEN! HE CAN STILL BE HAPPY IF HE GOES

If koo gets voted off I'm actually going to c r y just-

if y’all vote my baby koo out i will personally hunt you down and crack your spine like a fucking glowstick xx

PEOPLE DONT VOTE KOOK OFF. HE LET OFF SOME STEAM NOW ALL WE NEED IS FOR HIM TO APOLOGIZE AND MAKE THINGS RIGHT 😭

PLEASE DONT HURT KOO IM LEAVE THE BABY ALONE OKAY???:(((((((

#SAVEYOONGI WE GOT THE TINIEST CRUMB OF HIS FEELINGS ON THE COUCH WITH Y/N THE NIGHT OF THE THREESOME AND I WANT THOSE FEELINGS TO FLOURISH 👁️👁️

i’m sorry but if we’re voting by who did they prompt the worst you have got to choose seokjin. i feel so bad for him because the thing ab his feelings just came out but the most interesting scene he’s had up until now was the threesome with yoongi. if i could, everyone would keep participating but in this moment, seokjins the obvious choice to me

luckily it wasn’t as many as i thought but still fsdjfkjks phew yall are passionate ;;-;

[bucksbisexual]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA OKAY LAST ONE OF MY OPINION POSTS HERE GOES EP12:

[breathes in]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i’m so fucking happy with this ending

it’s such a good happy ending this is truly what the gays deserve i’m just happiness in physical form rn

i don’t even know where to start but i’ll try to make this as chronological as my brain allows me because my memory do be sucking

i’m gonna put a keep reading because this shit will get loooooong kjshfkf okay let’s do this

so.. we start with PETE EXPOSING NON(T)’S BRAT ASS!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YES THATS MY BABY THATS MY BOY!!!!!!!!!!

kao’s mom being a fucking badass and telling her BOSS how to do shit. i love her yall I LOVE HERRRRRRRR

also kao’s mom telling kao that she wasn’t the most amazing person ever was so cute because you can see kao’s light bulb turning on sjfkhsgsh please i love them

yes i will say i love x after every single one of these u can’t stop me

from the teaser i thought kao would dashi run run run to pete’s house but thankfully he took a taxi lmao

at least he didn’t run there because he had to run from pete’s house (or may i say, mansion) to the POOL my man is a whole athlete oh my god

KAO YELLING HE LOVES PETE!!!!!!!!!!! IN THE MIDDLE OF A CLOSED SPACE WITH PEOPLE IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HE DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK IF THEY HEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THATS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT BABYYYYYYYY

also a beautiful parallel to the scene from ep1 (i noticed there’s a lot of parallels in this episode we stan character development and repeating things just so the viewers can see how consistent the couples are)

the kiss from that scene............... beautiful amazing gorgeous idk many words in english to describe how i felt while watching and how i feel about it

to that i think we cut to sunmork but i don’t remember what happened because of the kiss KJHFKSL SORRY

anygays i rlly like how this whole episode is sun being a clingy bih and mork gay panicking while trying to act like a confident gay when he knows that sun outconfidentgays him i love them lmao

okay after that i think it’s petekao having food with their parents all together and god i looooooove this scene

pete’s dad being the lgbt ally dad all of us lgbt fellas with homo/transphobic dads wish we had will never fail to make me soft i love that man pls be my dad too

also kao’s mom :-(( i love her she respected her son’s decision on not coming out until he was ready even though she already smelled it (reminds me of my mom lmao) and was always there for him even when kao didn’t say anything :-(((((((((((

petekao bickering will never get old i swear i love every time they do because that’s so..... men it makes their characters more real

i know there’s a lot (not that much because i admit this episode was kinda short?? idk maybe it’s just me) between that scene and this one but THE SQUAD EATING ALL TOGETHER AGAIN!!!!!!!! AND THEM TEASING PETEKAO!!!!!! PLEASE I LOVE THEM

pete literally not knowing how to stop the audio and broadcasting live TO THE WHOLE COUNTRY that time when he told kao he loved him through the teddy bear...... peak pete culture

the fact that ppl love them and they have a whole hashtag on twitter makes me soft because usually when someone is famous in bls the fans hate the other part of the couple but in this one??? oh no honey we stan petekao in this household hate is not allowed it’s actually prohibited illegal

okay let me backtrack a bit skjfhsjf

OH YES I FORGOT!!!! manow wanting to talk with mork was so weird when i saw the teaser for the episode but after seeing them talk i was like oooooh okay i understand

sun saying “what’s your girl saying to my boy” is probably one of my favourite lines of this drama KLHSJFLF

rain reading their lips fskjfjsf and when mork said “fuck you rain” HIS FACE SKJFHKSJSLFJ HE WAS SCARED SHITLESS but also the end of this scene was so cute i love these three

i just did a bit of skipping through the episode to try and actual make an order out of this mess and the petekao+parents thing comes now,,,,,, anygaYS

then it’s more teasing between sunmork blah blah

then MORK SPEAKING THE MF TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!! quoting the actual dialogue “it’s my choice to tell or not tell anyone. i should get to decide”

OUTING SOMEONE ISN’T COOL!!!!!!! IT’S NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!!!! NO LGBT PERSON WILL EVER WANT TO BE OUTED!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON’T DO THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rain had good intentions but it doesn’t mean that it was right of him to do so

okay this got serious,, sun going to rain’s bed with not one but Two pillows when barely two people fit in that bed.... oh to be that iconic and carelessly gay

back to petekao because we will never get enough of these two (which is why i’ll probably watch the our skyy episode tomorrow just to cry over these fools)

it’s so weird to see tay being like this after watching him being himself in other things like the live lunch and taynew meal date and other things i’ve randomly watched during this week to retain myself from finishing this series in a night ksfjhsfkshlks

also kao helping pete shave and pete being like do u like my moustache or should i shave it for u my lord SFHKFJ the domesticity and just the feeling of two idiots being in love i love them with my whole heart

kao staying at pete’s house because it’s both of their first days as interns and kao!!!!! he works for pete’s dad!!!!!!! pete’s dad accepted him into his company!!!!!! i love them

also the bickering between those three sjfkhs “hello im pete im from thailand” “that’s all you’ll say today” THAT WAS SO FUNNNY SKJFHSKFHSFJSFL

THE MESSAGE IN THE TEDDY BEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAO CALLING PETE LOVE PLEASE IM GONNA CRYYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE THESE FOOLS

okay so the squad eating together is right after this but i already talked about it ksjfhsfh next!!

idk if it’s a big time skip or a small one but guess what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MANOW AND RAIN ARE DATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY STRAIGHT BABIES YES I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU AAAAAAAAAAAAA

manow is so pretty and rain is so cute they’re both so lucky my bisexual ass is crying

pete being “angry” at kao being so handsome,,, a mood

but also.. pete being possessive was h*t

there i said it and i don’t regret it

random but i will miss kao’s annoying ass saying “about aboyz” sjfkhsfh

pete being like “i will have to give u more love bites (ffs gmmtv just say hickies we are all at an age where we know what love bites are) so no one flirts with u” and kao being like “bitch try me” sjfhksfj i’m loving bratty kao

also that scene turned into furry kao real quick KJHDKJFSHJF

okay now it’s: mork’s birthday party time!!

rain and manow arrive first and are the cutest couple around because the two main gays haven’t arrived yet (being gay AND punctual? not possible)

sun and rain fighting in the kitchen was peak siblings culture skfhksjf

mork being ready to leave his own birthday party with a stranger who also plays pokemon go just to have a battle................ dumbass bisexual energy

said stranger is eARN FROM 2GETHER!!!!!! FILM IS IN THIS TOO!!!!!!!! first the girl who plays yuri in yyy and now film who plays earn in 2gether is here too??? damn wlw keep winning (also headcanon: theyre dating/seeing each other because LESBIANS periodt)

okay petekao arrive and wont u guess whats their present for mork,,,,,, the mf TEDDY BEAR and kao rlly says that they should use it since theyre so lip sealed lmao

rain and manow literally gave mork a present not for him but for sun im- i love these two

MORK FINALLY SAID YES TO BEING BOYFRIENDS OH MY GOD DUDE U ACTUALLY HAD ME WORRIED THERE FOR A SEC

also sun being a whole koala and being a horny bitch is so funny sfhskfjskl my man has his priorities set

their last scene is so cute :-(( poor rain will have to live with this until he moves out sjfhksjf

oh boi the ending is near hhhhhhh

kao teaching his class an equation that ends up in i < 3 u is the most kao thing i’ve ever seen

also kAO IS BOOKED AND BUSY BABYYYYYYYYYY GET THOSE COINS HONEY

pete being like “u haven’t spent enough time with me lately >:-(” was cute jhkfjs my man is needy of kao and i understand that because have u seen kao? exactly

kao teasing him with not having forgotten the cup this time and pete being his possessive self was.. splendid

every reference to something that happened with non(t) hurts but also i love how they just tease each other because they know that now their relationship is stronger than it’s ever been and that nothing and no one will come between them

the scenes they show during the last last scenes :-((( BOYFIES!!!!!!

and i love how they decided to end the show with them holding hands in public

i would explain why i do but it’s 6:26 am and i’ve been writing this for at least half an hour already and my laptop is heating up a lot and im sweating because it’s hot in here so get down on the floor pipiipipipipipipi

kdjhkdfhs sorry im not sleepy this is just my brain without a filter it’s just gay shit and a big repertoire of songs

god okay that was my opinion on the last episode of dark blue kiss...........

needless to say that i will eat every bit of content related to petekao after this because writing this i already miss them and i can’t wait to watch our skyy tomorrow idk where but i will

i really really REALLY liked this drama and it’s one of the two bl dramas (not counting the untamed) i’ve given a full 10/10 rating on mdl because it’s THAT good

everything about this drama is just.. chef’s kiss i love it i will probably rewatch it when my plan to watch is empty but it’s a pretty long list so.. hopefully i’ll ignore that and just rewatch sjkfhslf

i’ll of course watch kiss and kiss me again just for the petekao, the squad and rain scrumbs because i’m sure that the petekao compilations don’t show everything

but yeah im just.. i love this show it’s been a rlly long time since i started writing this but i’m still happy because it’s so good and truly gave us a good happy ending and i swear i cannot emphasise enough how important good happy endings in lgbt media are!!!!!!!!!!

anygays im hungry and ready to submerge myself in the dbk tags, see u all tomorrow for my our skyy petekao episode version of this,,,,,

till then, stay safe ! bYE

[taurusjaehyun]

best birthday ever // j.jh

♦Pairing: jaehyun x fem reader

♦Other Members/ Characters: Johnny, Taeyong, Yuta, Hendery and Lucas [mentioned]

♦Genre: smut, roommate Jaehyun

♦Warnings: breast and nipple play?, fingering, sex toys, dildo fucking, filming

♦Word count: 6,528

♦Story: Valentine’s meant birthday and a holiday for you and your roommate-slash-good friend, Jaehyun. Usually, if you guys weren’t dating other people, you’d be going out but this year, the snow piled up that you couldn’t leave your shared apartment so you decided to let your precious roommate have his gift at home, which was mainly anything he wanted to do. And it was no secret Jung Jaehyun had always wanted to fuck you.

Note: This was totally spontaneous?? Sorry if its bad sksksk also I suck at summaries. Its almost 4am so this isn’t proofread as always so ignore my mistakes or tell me about it so I can edit sksks. I know this is about Jaehyun’s b-day and it’s sooo late already but whatever!! Better late than never!! I hope yall like it and enjoy!!!!

“So, what do you want for your birthday? It can be anything.” You spoke, eyes stuck to your phone as you texted your friend from work, “It can be cash, a favor, something personal….” You trailed as you peeked at your roommate Jaehyun, who was resting his head on your lap, watching a compilation of funny babies on youtube. You both were in your bed because Jaehyun liked the smell of your room better than his, or so he says. “I can also cook you something. The snow is literally piling up outside so I don’t know if we’ll be able to go out.”

 Jaehyun paused his texting and looked up at you, pondering. “Hmmm...”

 “You can’t have sex with me, though.” You laughed. It was a joke running joke between the two of your for years now. It was no secret that Jaehyun had always wanted to fuck you but you always denied him, because you loved him—as a friend, of course but you couldn’t deny you’ve wanted to have sex with him at least once.

 You met Jaehyun back in university, at freshman orientation. But the two of you had gotten close after you officially met each other in your universities Poetry Club and bonded over poetry—naturally. The two of you would read the poems you wrote to each other, much to the other girls’ jealousy and not just in the Poetry Club. But to be honest, it was just the two of you asking each other for advice and it quickly developed to a friendship that lasted.

After university, you and Jaehyun had applied to the same company and also got accepted together, however the two of you had been assigned in different departments and only a floor apart. You decided to move in together to save money. Your co-workers had always assumed that you were together but you’ve always denied it even 3 years later, you were still telling the new interns that you weren’t dating THE Jung Jaehyun but people never believed you anyways. It was partly Lucas and Hendery’s fault why interns think you’re dating because the two were your biggest shippers.

 “I have an idea!” Jaehyun suddenly sat up and moved to face you, on his knees. “Since you said we can’t go out because of the snow, can my request be valid from tonight until the end of my birthday? Please?”

 You hummed, slowly nodding. “Yeah, sure. What do you wanna do anyways?”

 Jaehyun grinned, “Well, technically, it’s a lot of things but it all comes down to one thing.”

 “What?” Jaehyun could get pretty weird so you couldn’t help but feel curious and nervous at the same time.

 Jaehyun licked his lips, hesitating. You furrow your brows at him, urging him on. He usually wasn’t hesitant with you. “Can you stay topless the whole day?”

 You burst out laughing at his request, “topless like… No shirt, no bra?” Jaehyun nodded and you laughed even more. It was no big deal. You had seen each other naked countless of times—sober and shitfaced drunk. You sat up, put down your phone to your side and took off your night gown, leaving you in your cotton panties that you loved wearing to sleep in comfort. “No biggie. Is that all?”

 “Can I touch them and play with them anytime I want?” Jaehyun asked straight up. Of course he’d wanted to do this for the longest time. He’d take the chance given, of course. “I mean your boobs?”

 You pause. It wouldn’t hurt to let him, right? “Sure. That’s easy.”

 “Can I suck them too? Like, your nipples?”

 “What are you planning to do?” You asked, slapping his arm.

 “It’s just for a day? I mean, after this, I can’t do this anymore.” Jaehyun reasoned out. He wasn’t sure that he’d get another chance like this again ever.

 You and Jaehyun knew each other inside and out since you were so close. And back in uni, in between bottles of red bull and hard liquor, the two of you had talked about sex. The two of you had talked to each other about your kinks and eventually, Jaehyun had confessed that he wanted to sleep with you. You denied him and told him that as much as you’d like to, you just didn’t want to.

 But just because the two of you hadn’t slept together doesn’t mean the two of you hadn’t done anything sexual. The two of you had made out “platonically” a few times during uni and after, specifically a few hours earlier. Sometimes at the break room, you’d make out when you were bored or needed a stress relief. Occasionally grinding “platonically” too. But the two of you had never touched each other under your clothes.

 You pursed your lips and pondered, it was Jaehyun’s birthday and Jaehyun knew you liked having your nipples sucked so it would also be for your benefit. Besides, Jaehyun had always raved about his ‘skills’ and you knew about his fixation on tits too. “Ok. Sure. You can do whatever you want with my boobs but only from tonight until the end of your birthday, ok?” It was only 9pm. Still early. “Don’t hurt me!”

 Jaehyun ended up laughing, his big thunderous laugh resounding in your room. Somehow it made you feel offended for some reason. “When have I ever hurt you, y/n? I’ll never ever hurt you!” You didn’t get the double meaning in his words so you were quite confused by his laughter. “So can I start now?”

 You sighed, fluffing your pillow before leaning back on it, getting comfortable in your spot. “Ok, you can.” You grab your phone from your side and start to text your friends from work again, talking about the next cases you guys had to work on again.

 Jaehyun settled between your legs and got on top of you, with his face on your chest. He was eye level with your nipples that you found it a funny cause it was like he was having a stare down with your nipples. He started slowly by touching your breasts lightly as if he was shy. Well, it was the first time he’d do this to you so he wanted to take it slow first before he got too crazy. He couldn’t deny he wanted to feel how the metal bar in your nipples would feel in his mouth and he could only imagine the things he’d do to play with it.

 “I can’t believe you have both your nipples pierced. It’s so sexy.” Jaehyun spoke excitedly, biting his lips as he took in the sight of your bare tits. He’d seen it a lot of times but he loved it so much. And the image of your pierced nipples always got him excited. “I’ve never been with a girl with pierced nipples.”

 Jaehyun watches as your breasts jiggle with the movement of your chest while you laughed. “It hurt like a mother fucker, too.”

 You had gotten them pierced when you turned 21, as an act of liberation from your strict and conservative upbringing. Actually, Jaehyun was there when you had it put on, laughing at your painful screams while he caught it all on tape, much to your annoyance. Despite the pain you felt from having it done and the time it took for it to heal, it was the best decision of your life. Guys love it and it increased sensitivity on your nipples so it’s a win-win for you.

 “What cup are you, by the way?”

 “36C, usually. It depends on the brand.”

 “Wow.” Jaehyun looked so amazed whenever your tits would jiggle whenever he gave it a nudge. And the fact that your breasts spilled over the grasp of his rather big hands. “It’s so big.” Soon, he started squeezing but avoiding your nipples.

 Jaehyun leaned in, licking on the undersides of your breasts as he pinched the generous fat of your tits. He smiled as he blew hot and cold air on your nipples, making you gasp and tremble as your nipples slowly turned hard with every gust of air he blew.

 She put away your phone away and set it on the nightstand after you plugged it in then looked at Jaehyun, grimacing. “Perv.”

 Jaehyun leaned forward, properly getting on his knees in between your legs but never letting go of your breasts. He only grinned before fully hovering over you and leaned in to kiss you on the mouth. You returned his open mouthed kisses, loving how he easily took your breath away.

He pulls away from you, pressing his forehead against yours as you both breathed in deeply. He locked his eyes with you as he continued massaging your tits.

  “Who told you you could kiss me like that?” You scoffed, cupping his face and squishing his cheeks. He only gave you a sly smile before pecking your lips again, then eventually going down your jaw and neck.

 You tilt your head back, giving him more access to your neck and Jaehyun doesn’t disappoint, immediately finding your sensitive spot and making you whine as he nipped and sucked on your skin. Jaehyun went down again to kiss at your chest again, but avoiding your nipples that were already begging to be sucked, even if you tried to hide that fact. You licked your lips as you watch him pepper your chest with kisses, occasionally marking you.

 “You know, you have the prettiest nipples I’ve ever seen.” Jaehyun spoke as he hovered over you and leaned in again until your foreheads were touching again. He never really found nipples pretty but yours were in a pretty shade that contrasted your olive skin and to top that, your nipples were a bit puffy, making it look cute. And the thrill of seeing pierced nipples in real life was incredibly sexy and so, so arousing for him. You had on metal bars that had small, dainty flower designs at the end that makes it look very pretty.

 You lifted your head up and caught his lips in a short kiss. “Thank you, Jae.” You laughed then resumed your lip lock.

 Jaehyun licked at your lower lips, asking for entrance but you stood her ground, not letting him in. You reached over and cupped his face as you slanted your face making kissing him easier. You were trying to take lead and it was working.

 He kept trying to ask for entrance but you would shut him down again and again, making him laugh as you kissed. “Let me in, come on.” Jaehyun grinned against your lips, kissing you again.

 You smiled as you kissed him back, then somehow ended up biting his bottom lip which made Jaehyun a bit turned on. “No.”

 “I’ll just have to make you give in,” he smirked before catching your mouth into a deep kiss again. You didn’t want to lose so you fought for dominance until you were the one leading the kiss again. Jaehyun started to knead at your breasts again, almost painfully but it was delicious pain for you.

 You reached over and wrapped your arms around his back, pulling him closer. Simultaneously, Jaehyun rubbed both your nipples with the pad of his thumbs, making you moan out. Jaehyun took this chance and immediately let himself in your mouth, rubbing his tongue against yours.

 You gasp and push him away in surprise. Your nipples had been begging to be touched since earlier and the way he did it by surprise caught you. Before you had gotten your nipples pierced, they were already very sensitive but now that they’re pierced, the sensitivity increased tenfold.

 “I told you I’d make you give in,” Jaehyun smirked before he leaned in again to kiss you, but this time you both were kissing with tongues. He loved your earlier reaction to his ministration so Jaehyun had teased you a few times, gently rubbing his thumb against your sensitive nipples, surprising you every time even if you saw it coming which made you a slight mess under him.

 Jaehyun pulled away, hands never ceasing to massage her tits and playing with your nipples, flicking your buds with his fingertips. He loved how flushed you looked, out of breath with your lips a bit swollen from your earlier bouts of kissing. You looked so sexy to him that he couldn’t help but be excited for when he’d be finally be able to fuck you with his cock.

 “God, you’re so sexy.” He breathed as he kissed your jaw, fingers still flicking your sensitive nubs that made you tremble in pleasure. Your nipples and fingertips were dry so the constant teasing was a bit rough and a little painful for you but it was too good.

 His kisses slowly made its way to the tops of your chest, and eventually on your breasts. You watched as he tongued the space between your breasts, slowly licking and nipping as his big hands held your breasts, gently massaging and squeezing the fat. He pressed your breasts together and buried his face in between, sighing comfortably. It made you laugh as your watched his blissed reaction in between your tits. With your tits still pushed together, he started to fuck your cleavage with his tongue and licking into it as if he was eating pussy.

 “You’re dirty. And really good at teasing.” You breathed out as you covered your eyes with your arm, not wanting to see his reaction to your flushed face.

 Jaehyun chuckled letting go of your tits and watching them bounce at the drop. He leans his head to the side, kissing the sides of you breasts, nipping on the skin. He watched your reaction as he did everything which was entertaining to him. He could see you were getting turned on and he hasn’t even done anything more than touch your nipples. He was also starting to smell your arousal which was for sure really wet but since you said no penetration, he’d have to make do of what he had right now.

 He watched as you kept your eyes closed, resting both your arms on your sides and gulp as Jaehyun kissed your chest. You haven let out a moan since when he first touched your nipples and he could tell that you were clearly trying to hold back as you would bite your lips.

 Feeling the excitement himself, Jaehyun turned his attention to your right breast and dragged the tip of his tongue on your areola, making you gasp. He looked up at you then flicked the tip of his tongue on to your hardened bed, making you moan and jerk your hips at the motion. Smirking, he enveloped your nipple with his mouth and started sucking, using his tongue to flick her nipple and sucking like a baby thirsty for milk.

 Jaehyun pulled away and pressed your breasts together again, making sure to push your nipples closer until your areolas were touching each other. He started to lick at both nipples at the same time, flattening his tongue and moving his head side to side. Looking up, he saw your were trying hard to contain you pleasure.

 The next thing you knew was it was morning, topless and being spooned by Jaehyun who was only in his sweatpants. You could feel his erection against your ass and the way his hand was holding onto one of your tits. You were still very wet from last night and your nipples felt sore but it was nothing bad, in fact, it felt great as you knew your nipples would be more sensitive than last night.

 You got up after you had seen it was 6AM and took a bath, rubbing your clit to orgasm in the shower in the process before deciding to make breakfast. You had fallen asleep last night while Jaehyun was having the time of his life with your tits because you were lacking sleep because of your work so breakfast was a great way to say sorry and a great start to his birthday. You wore a tank top with snaps at the front so you could take them off easily and your old shorts from uni.

 You cooked some rice and waited a bit before deciding to cook Jaehyun’s favorite breakfast and your famous tomato scrambled eggs and the soy sauce soft pork that your mom taught you before you moved out before you started uni years ago where you met Jaehyun. You started to check your social media while the pork was cooking since it would take a while before it cooked.

 “Good morning, sweetheart.” Jaeyun called out loudly to you, surprising you and making you drop your phone. It landed on the potholder on the counter and not on the marble, thankfully.

 “Hey, asshat. Morning to you, too!” You laughed as you turned off her phone and walked over to the stove where the pork was cooking. You turned away from the stove again only to find Jaehyun walking towards you. It was obvious he had just showered and again, and he was wearing nothing but one of his many red sweatpants. “Happy birthday, Jaehyun.”

 “Thank you, sweetheart,” Jaehyun smiled, hugging you from behind and kissing your temple before getting the coffee machine started. You loved drinking coffee but you couldn’t make it for shit. “I thought I told you that you had to stay topless the whole day?” Jaehyun smirked as he crossed his arms over his, clearly enjoying teasing you.

 You rolled her eyes and scoffed, turning to look at him. “Are you serious?” You gave the pork a few last stirs before deciding it was ready.

 “Yes, Ms. y/n. I’m always serious when it comes to you, you know?” Jaehyun watched as you turned off the stove and plated the pork. You then headed to the table and sat down in your designated seat. The table was already prepared and the coffee was the only thing missing. “Also, a promise is a promise. And it’s my birthday today!”

 Of course you couldn’t deny him. You liked it anyways. “Ok, fine. As long as you do the dishes.”

 Jaehyun smirked at your comment as he made two cups of coffee then brought it over to the table, settling in his seat in front of you. Your dining table was only fit for four people since it was only the two of you in the apartment and you barely had friends over. You always hung at Johnny, Taeyong and Yuta’s shared apartment which was much bigger. “I always do the dishes, woman!” He laughed.

 You smiled and took a sip of your coffee before opening the snaps of your shirt then pulling the material to the side, exposing your breasts to him. Jaehyun didn’t really think you’d so it so he ended up being surprised by your act. “Eat up, birthday boy.” You grin at him as he stared at you with a surprised expression.

 After the two of you had breakfast, Jaehyun had cleared the table and started washing the dishes while you worked on your cases with your laptop on your lap as you sat on the comfy couch you both bough together a while back. You were a junior researcher for a firm so you had to do reports besides the cases so you didn’t hesitate to do exactly that. And you were a little behind on it too.

 After Jaehyun had wiped the dishes dry and stacked them back to the shelf, he went to the living room, sitting beside you on the couch. He watched you typing away on your computer, focused on your job and not ignoring the fact you had left your tank top unclasped for him. He knew he had to make the best of this one day deal so he reached out his hands, grasping the fatty globes in his hands, shaking, squeezing and whatever he could do. You didn’t mind and continued on with your work, letting him do whatever he wanted.

 “Y/n, will you be mad if I took a picture of your boobs?” Jaehyun suddenly asked as he started tracing the flower details of your nipple bar with his finger.

 Unable to hear his words due to the music you were listening to, you took off your ear buds. “What did you say?”

 Jaehyun smiled, shaking his head. “I was saying that I’d like to take advantage of my one day so can you please put your computer away so I can do what I do?” He was joking but of course, he meant it.

 You nodded, chuckling. “Fine. This is the only time I’ll let you do this, though.” You saved your document and turned off your laptop before you set it on the coffee table in front of you.

 “Can I eat something off your boobs?” Jaehyun chuckled as he pushed you down on the sofa, fragging your body down so you were flat on the sofa. You laughed and shrugged as he hovered over you. “I can play with your nipples, right? Can I?” You nodded, covering your face with your forearms now that Jaehyun was already working on your breasts with his hands. “Can I bite?” He asked before he gently bit on your right nipple, keeping a tight hold on it as he pulled it up then letting go of it. You gasped loudly as he started sucking onto the nipple to ease the pain, making you arch your back. “Last night you fell asleep on me but I took advantage of it, you know.

 You nod at his words. You knew he was still sucking on your nipples when you were drifting between sleep and consciousness. “Not too hard, okay?” Because of last night, your nipples were crazy sensitive. You found yourself squeezing your thighs together even though he hasn’t done anything much. Honestly, just the thought of being topless around Jaehyun, knowing he was watching you made you wet already and now that he was lapping up up your nipples as if he was waiting for milk to come out, it made you even wetter.

 “Noted.” He mumbles against your nipple, kissing the marks he had left on your breasts the night before. “I can’t think of anymore I wanna do specifically but can I get your permission?”

 “You know what, you don’t have to ask. Do what you want to do. I’ll deal with you after your birthday.” You spoke with a tone of annoyance but you just wanted him to do anything he wanted with your tits at this point. No need to ask.

 “Yes, ma’am,” Jaehyun grinned. He was a kinky motherfucker and he knew it. However, he couldn’t exactly do everything he wanted, specifically fucking you but he would do anything he could with your perfect tits. “I’m so glad we did this because your boobs are probably my favorite in the whole world.”

 You ended up laughing and he watched in glee is as your tits shook when you laughed. It was also amazing how he could keep his cool despite the forming tent in his pants. “Well, my favorite is your face.” You spoke sincerely, behind the light laughter. It was your honesty but you knew how you hid it as a joke that made Jaehyun laugh.

 You took a sharp breath as his hot, wet tongue circled your areola before he took the soft tit into his mouth, sucking the fat until your nipple was at the back of his throat. He let your tit go with a loud, wet smack before doing the same to the other tit as he used his free hand to play with the abandoned tit

.

“God,” You breathed out, as you unfolded your arms from over your face and looked down at Jaehyun who was now holding both of your tits in his hands. Your breasts were both very wet with his spit, as he sucked on both nipples by alternating on both tits.

 Jaehyun looked up at you as soon as you spoke, eyes mischievous and his wet mouth in a teasing smirk. Your eyes were hooded and your mouth agape and he could see you were licking your lips every so often. He leans forward and kisses you until you’re out of breath, hands never leaving your amazing tits.

 “Sit down.” He whispers as he pulls you up, kissing your neck, to your shoulder and back to your sweet mouth as he held you by the nape, not letting you go. He locked you in his arms so you couldn’t pull away from his engulfing, passionate kisses.

 You held onto him tight as you kissed deeply than ever, teeth clashing, nose bumping and tongue probing. You cupped his face and eventually wrapping your arms around his neck. Somehow along the way, Jaehyun had gotten your top off, leaving you bare except for your shorts.

 He pulls away, shoving you closer to the arm rest so you could comfortably lean. “Watch me.” He spoke, the rasp in his voice seemingly hypnotizing you. You lean back on your elbows and rest your head on the arm rest, giving you a view of his amazing body and his straining erection. He forced your legs open and got in between before leaning down, hands capturing your breasts and mouth sucking fervently on your nipples.

 You hissed, leaning your head back as your eyes closed in delicious pain when Jaehyun bit on your right nipple, the most sensitive one. “Fuck, Jaehyun.”

 Jaehyun watched your swollen mouth part before your hooded eyes met his as he continued his assault on your nipples. “Watch me.” You yelp and gasp when he gave your right tit a hard slap, making you close your eyes at the impact. “Keep your eyes open!” He growled as he slapped your right tit again, while he sucked heavily on your left tit.

 Bottom lip caught in your teeth, you struggled to keep your eyes open as Jaehyun gave you full blows of pleasure time after time. You were so wet that you could feel the back of shorts wet with your pussy juice. In reality it had only been a few minutes but it felt like he had been doing it forever.

 “Can I tell you something?” Jaehyun speaks, planting pecks on your chest, hands never stopping at groping and squeezing. “Fucking hell, your tits are perfect.”

 You swallowed and nodded, “I know,” your voice was low and your throat was dry. It wasn’t even a coherent reply to his words.

 Jaehyun pulled back, sitting up, grinding his erection against your crotch in the process. “Wait,” With your hooded eyes, you watched as Jaehyun leaned to the side to grab his phone, turning on the camera to video mode and setting it against the vase on the coffee table to capture the two of you in the frame with a good angle. He turned back at you with a wicked smirk. “Let me keep this as a memory.”

 You frowned, a bit uncomfortable but once Jaehyun was back on licking and sucking, you were also back in your amazing world of pleasure. He continued his ministrations, making you feel so good that you eventually forgot about the camera filming you.

 Jaehyun started grinding his erection against you, specifically rubbing his tip against your sensitive clit, making you gasp and push against him. You were feeling too damn sensitive that this was the death of you. You hadn’t fucked in so long that you were considering really having sex with Jaehyun at this point. Jaehyun knew your kinks and what ticked you off and the fact that you loved having your nipples sucked and that it was your weakness and what more if you’re being stimulated or fucked through it, orgasm isn’t long out of reach.

 “Oh, god, baby,” You moaned, arching your back to push your tits closer to Jaehyun’s mouth. You licked your dried lips as you breathed hard. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”

 Seeing that your tits were already raw, and sore he decided to halt. He had slapped your tits a little too much that the skin was a bit red, and the severe hickeys marring your skin. Your nipples were a bit red and bite marks circled the skin around your nipples. It was such a beautiful sight that Jaehyun had to get his phone to get a good view of his art on her. He grinded on you as he filmed you, the front of his sweatpants wet with his pre cum and your juices.

 “I didn’t think you’d get this wet,” Jaehyun chuckles as he holds on to your hips with his free hand, grinding harder but keeping the same pace.

 “I wanna cum,” you moan, “but we can’t fuck.” It was more of a warning and Jaehyun knew to respect you.

 “Cute.” He grins, putting away his phone and grinding onto you with his hands gipping on both sides of your hips, keeping you in place. “I’ll let you cum tonight myself, ok? But not right now.” He smiles as he leans down and kisses you on the mouth in which you hungrily reciprocate, wrapping your legs around his waist and grinding your hips up to his.

 Jaehyun pulls away, mouth wet with spit from your hungry kiss. Your eyes were still hooded, mouth agape as you gasped for air and your beautiful chest heaving up and down. For the last time, he gave each nipples a suck and a kiss as he unwrapped your legs around him the stood up, pulling you up with him.

 “I fucking hate you, Jaehyun.” You groaned as you hung onto Jaaehyun’s neck who as he carried you into your bedroom.

 “I know, baby.” He laughs as he set you down on your bed, “now, show me what I can use to help you cum later.” You had instructed him to go into your closet and grab your pink box that had a passcode on it. He took it back and you told him the passcode which was the day the two of you moved in together.

 The box opened, revealing a surprising collection of sex toys that surprised Jaehyun. You had said you liked exploring and you had dated a lot more women than men but he didn’t expect you to have these toys as possessions. The products looked high quality and he guesses she must have spent and invested in these a lot.

 Upon opening the box, the first thing that caught Jaehyun’s attention was 3 dildos that varied in size, the biggest and most realistic one reminded him of his own cock which made him smirk. The other two was a few inches smaller and were those unrealistic typical dildos. You also had a collection of butt plugs that varied in size and material but the biggest and the prettiest one was the metal one with the ruby red jewel at the end. Jaehyun could just imagine you, stuffed and pretty wearing the princess plug.

 Jaehyun looked deeper and found a few benwa balls, external and internal vibrators and a big Hitachi magic wand that he’d only ever seen in the Japanese porn he loved watching. “Wow. I never imagined you’d have these.” He smirked as he looked at you, now a bit calmed but still looking very much hot and bothered.

 You had your forearms over your eyes once again because it felt like Jaehyun was peeking at the deeper side of you, specifically the kinkier side of you and not just what you’d told him. “Shut up,” you whine quietly.

 Eager to search this box from top to bottom, Jaehyun lifts the corner and is surprised to see that the top part of the box is removable and under the first layer is where the other toys were hidden.

 In the bottom compartment were silk ropes that Jaehyun could see using in the near future, bottles of lube, nipple clamps, handcuffs, eye covers and other more he’s usually seen in porn. He already has a few ideas he wants to try out but of course, he knows you didn’t want him to have sex with you, it was a bit of a letdown.

 “Since you say we can’t fuck, would you let me use that dildo on you?” Jaehyun asks, a big smirk on his face as he takes the dildo from the box and gauges the size and girth with his own hand, lightly jerking it off and sucking on the tip.

 You looked at Jaehyun and swallowed as you watched him suck on the dildo, making your pussy throb. It was amazing how soft and cute he was usually but he turns into this dominant in these times. How lucky were the people that got to experience it full circle.

 He then walks over to you, getting on the bed until he was kneeling once again in between your legs. “What do you say? I can make you feel good.” He traced your nipples with his fingertips, “and I bet you’d like me to suck your nipples while you’re getting fucked with this dildo.” The look in his eyes was dangerous that you wanted to say yes instead of the safe no but it was like you was being hypnotized so she nodded in affirmation, making Jaehyun chuckle darkly.

 You lick your lips and nod. “Fuck me with that dildo first and you’ll find out.” You lift your hips up and pull off your underwear, throwing it wherever in the room. Jaehyun was completely in awe as you spread your legs for him, showing him your bare and sopping pussy.

 Jaehyun hisses, letting go of the dildo and diving face first to your crotch but not quite touching. He groans as he takes a deep breath, taking in the smell of your arousal and you found it dirty but sex at the same time that you pussy throbs. “God, you smell so fucking delicious. I can’t wait to know if you taste as good as you smell.” He wraps his left arm around your leg and pulls you closer to him as he breaths you in.

 “Fuck me now, come on.” You whine as you squeeze your tits, rolling your nipples with your own fingers. You try to grind your hips but his strong hold on you leaves you immobile so you groan in annoyance. “If you don’t fuck me with that dildo, I’ll never let you do this to me again.”

 Jaehyun chuckles as he sits up, grabbing the dildo by his side, eyes still at your pussy. “Your pussy is fucking amazing.” He smiles, as he drags the head of the large cock against your wet slit but rubbing harder against your clit, making you arch your back at the contact. “I bet your pussy’s gonna swallow up all of this big cock, huh? You’re just begging up to be filled with cock. I can tell.” He smiles, trailing kisses down your belly then eventually going face to face with your pussy.

 He lined the head of the dildo against your wet slit, pressing the thick head, watching as your hole stretched to make way for the head to enter you. You moan, feeling the burn of the stretch. You’ve been so busy that you barely even had time to relieve yourself so it had definitely been a while since something had penetrated you.

 You were waiting for the burn to last, as you expected him to push the dildo further inside you but you feel the dildo pulled out of you, and instead, he had dipped two of his fingers inside you, slowly fucking into you, curling his fingers and immediately rubbing your spot. “Fuck, Jaehyun!”

 “You’re taking in my fingers so fucking well, y/n.” Jaehyun spoke against your skin, licking and kissing on every expanse of skin that he could reach from his position as he starts scissoring his fingers inside of you. “You’re so fucking wet.” He fucked his fingers deeper into you, faster and faster until you were arching your back.

 Jaehyun pulls out of you, making you whine as you could feel your orgasm nuilding up before he pulled out.  “Sorry, babe. Be patient.” He grabs the dildo from his side, moving up and laying down beside you then lines up the dildo against your wet and now stretched hole. He pushes the dildo deep inside you with one fast motion that has you arching your back at the motion. He doesn’t wait for you to get used to size and immediately pumps the dildo his hand gripping on the base.

 “Jaehyun! Fuck!” You moan as you grasp on the hand pumping the dildo inside of you, the feelings getting too much for you. He leans down to kiss at your breasts, licking anywhere he could reach, hypnotized with how you took the big dildo inside your pussy. He sticks out his tongue against your sensitive nipple, letting it rub against his tongue as your tits shake from the force of him fucking you hard with the dildo.

 The pace he fucks you in is fast, hard and almost brutal that it just hits you so deep that you couldn’t help rolling your eyes back every time the tip hit that spot deep inside you. Jaehyun is strong and definitely really used to doing things with his hands as his pace and aim never faltered, even when he was moving, reaching over to suck at your other nipple. Every push of the dildo inside you was fast and hard that you could feel the familiar heat of your body and that feeling of lightheadedness that had you gripping at whatever you could.

 You put your arm around his head and pulled him closer as he started to suck on your nipples, biting and licking. “I’m cumming!” Jaehyun had started rubbing your clit with his thumb, rubbing and circling it. Your stomach tightens and you feel the overwhelming pleasure starting to wash over you. “Fuck!” You scream as your orgasm comes full circle that has you writhing and your hips jerking.

 Jaehyun fucks you through your orgasm, trapping your nipple in his mouth so it doesn’t slip out of his mouth as your body shakes and trashes. “Your pussy is so fucking tight and I can’t imagine what it feels like to fuck you with my cock.” He whispers against you neck, eventually slowing the pace of his dildo and eventually pulls it out of you, letting you calm down form your high. He takes this chance to kiss you, deep. He pulls you to your side, making you face him. He watches you smile, still in the aftereffects of your orgasm. It was definitely a while since you came and definitely a while since you got a good one too.

 “Fuck me with your real cock now?” You smirk at him, palming his hard cock straining to escape the confines of his sweatpants that had a big wet spot already.

 “Best birthday ever.” He grins.

[bakubrokemyback]

(Bakugou Katsuki x Reader)

heyhey yall it's my first ever fanfiction that is released into the wild. i hope you guys like it. this’ll most very likely have a part 2.

 [not yet proof-read]

You were a hard-working, straight-laced individual. You worked accordingly to what was instructed and always went the extra mile. You were very well acquainted with the employees in the whole building and your connections even reached as far as outside the company as you were friends with some well-known designers. Hell, you were even close to your colleagues’ friends. You were the epitome of what a good secretary was supposed to be. You were indispensable to the B-K Fashion company and your boss, Kirishima, can swear to that. Which is why you couldn’t understand why you were given a letter of notice for you to pack up your stuff. What in Lord’s fuck is this? Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion and concern. Was it because you choose to have a coffee that one time without telling Kirishima? Or is it because you’ve been working too hard and staying in too long after hours? 

As you tried to compile logical reasons as to why you were being fired, the desk phone rang, snapping you out mid mental breakdown. Picking it up and making sure to answer with your secretary voice, “Hello, Mr. Kirishima’s secretary speaking. How may I help today?” A low chuckle was heard from the other end of the line, “Hey Y/N, this is Eijirou. Can you come down Conference Room B for a sec.” Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, oh blue beard’s shit. Still keeping your wits you, you answered with your pleasant voice intact, “Sure, no problem, Mr. Kirishima.” And with that, you robotically hanged up the phone. 

This is it. This was the end. As you got up and headed to the elevator, your mind frantically thought of different after scenarios. You were definitely going to be homeless and your roommate was going to kick you out for not being able to pay rent. Actually, Jiriou would never do that; she was your bestfriend. Still, that thought of burdening her with problems like not being able to pay rent didn’t sit well with you. And what were you going to do about food? You were such a glutton; you couldn’t cook and rely on take-out a lot. Oh holy hell, I’m going to starve. The thought of not being able to eat was enough to send shivers down your spine. The elevator bell rung, signaling that it had arrived at your floor. 

Ok, let’s think about this is in a sensible, calm manner Y/N, you thought as you tried to piece a plan together. If I were fired, I’m sure there are other companies out there that will take me. I know my shit and I’m pretty sure I’ll get fantastic recommendations. Knowing the fact that you were a good employee and the high possibility of other companies clawing for a worker like you put your mind at ease. I like working in this company though, you somberly thought. 

The B-K Fashion company was the perfect workplace for you. The pay was great and so was the location. It was smack dab in the middle of urban Tokyo, where the nightlife provided a night owl like you to thrive. The people that you worked with were also wonderful and in your 3 years of working here, you found yourself becoming close to most of them. You also didn’t mind the massive clout this job gave you. The B-K fashion franchise was well-known, ranking at number one as a luxury fashion brand in the country and number 2 in the nation. It was a powerful feeling when you introduced yourself as the B-K VP’s assistant in company parties and socials. 

Good things really do come to an end. 

The elevator bell rang once again, indicating your arrival to the conference room floor. For a moment, you stood there looking at the marble floors, scared for what was awaiting you once you stepped out of the elevator. Realizing prolonging it was only going to make it worse, you walked out of the elevator and started walking towards Conference Room B.

There were no meetings that were happening today which meant that the whole floor was empty and no one was here. Except for Mr. Kirishima and probably someone from HR, you bitterly thought. The clacking of your stilletos echoed across the empty hall until finally, you stopped in front of the door of Conference Room B. A nervous feeling situated yourself on your stomach and your palms started sweating. The back of your neck felt chilly and for a second you thought of just not going inside and instead going straight to the bar across the street and cracking yourself a cold one. But you had bigger balls than that, and choose to get this over with quickly. 

It’s like ripping off the band-aid, you chanted, gotta do this fast. 

Finally knocking lightly and pushing the door open, you found your hypothesis right when you saw Mr. Kirishima and bloke from HR sitting at the end of the conference table. You, however, did not expect to see Bakugou Katsuki, the owner of the B-K franchise and renowned CEO. 

Bakugou Katsuki was the man who brought the B-K Fashion Company to the arena. The B-K franchise was already flourishing when his parents owned it, but when it was passed down to their son, the brand flourished even further, outranking its competitors in sales and became a fashion powerhouse. Bakugou Katsuki was a smart and calculative man who was a genius in the business and fashion world. He was also a very attractive man, garnering the hearts of many. Unfortunately, his personality was a bit on the lacking side. He was rude and had no possession of a filter with the habit of bursting into a temper tantrum every now and then. Businessmen would call him a calculative child with a jackass personality while the media would label him an untamable multimillionaire genius bad-boy who just needs that special girl to calm him down. 

You called him a pain in the ass, as you and Kirishima were usually the ones that were cleaning up after his mess when he pissed off a potential business partner. However, what you thought of him didn’t matter anymore, considering in a matter of minutes you would be jobless. Your knock caused the attention of the 3 individuals to be directed towards you.

“Ah, Y/N, you’re here. Wonderful,” Mr. Kirishima waved at an empty seat across him, “please take a seat.” Walking down to the end of the table, you respectfully bowed to your higher-ups before sitting yourself down. Bracing yourself for the oncoming announcement, you steeled yourself for what was about to come. “Hello, Ms. L/N, I am Tokoyami Fumikage and I am from HR,” the bird-man in the jet black suit introduced, “Today, I will be assisting with your position transfer from VP secretary to CEO secretary.”

You blanked. 

What in the fuck is happening? 

[historyrepeatsitself]

modern au headcanons p2

hey guys, so after uhh everything crashed and burned as u can see from this post, i did not follow thru in good time with writing a modern au headcanon post… BUT!!! fortunately, i have returned from my semi hiatus to bring you… inspired by this OG post… httyd modern au headcanons part 2!!!

also sorry for the weird bullet points, i did this in microsoft word so the entire thing wouldnt fucKING DELETE AGAIN

·         so like i said with the last one, cami is obviously internet famous for her ridiculously cool youtube channel

·         shes also quite popular on insta but youtube is more her jam

·         her fame started when a video of her pickpocketing stoick and them him finding out and absolutely Losing It went viral

·         it was a vine

·         you can hear hiccup laughing in the background

·         her videos used to mainly feature pranks she did but since then shes branched out

·         she still does a lot of pranks but now her videos also include: parkour, absolutely HORRIBLE karaoke (ft. hiccup and fishlegs), Q&A, playing with toothless for an hour and thirty minutes (yes, it did get a lot of views ((also toothless is a cat in this au))), roast battle vs snotlout (spoiler: snotlout cries), “a compilation of hiccup doing nerdy shit and me calling him a nerd (8 min, 30 sec)”, “reading yalls fanfiction abt me (fishlegs has an asthma attack)”, videos of her doing sports, & more

·         like in the original hiccup and fishlegs have their own channel

·         its literally shit

·         they update it only on lethal amounts of caffeine

·         its usually VERY active during finals week (hence their not great grades)

·         it puts shane dawson to shame

·         “NOT CLICKBATE: OBAMA IS FROM THE MOON????”

·         “NEIL A IS ALIEN SPELLED BACKWARDS??? DID ARMSTRONG USE THE MOON AS A WAY TO FUEL UP BEFORE JUMPING BACK TO HIS COLONY ON MARS??”

·         “MY CAT IS NOT FROM EARTH (VIDEO INCLUDED!!!!)”

·         “got rejected again…. </3”

·         “video of fishlegs on sugar high after i gave him a bunch of candy bc he wouldn’t stop crying”

·         “kids from our school found us” (during the whole video theyre panicking while wearing wigs and fake mustaches)

·         needless to say its very confusing when someone connects that those guys are also on cami’s channel

·         shes pissed but comes around and they regularly star on her channel while she regularly stars on theirs

·         hiccup also has his own side channel where he explains different animal species (natural history stuff) and also does various language tutorials

·         fishlegs reads poetry and sings on his side channel

·         cami has a video where she reacts to hiccup’s channel, he actually gained a lot of followers from it

·         hiccup and fishlegs go to the same school while cami goes to an all girls school across town

·         she actually doesn’t hate it

·         hiccup and fishlegs are public school kids

·         that public school vibe

·         kids from their school are so confused how they know cami and rly jealous

·         cami once stopped by after school (her school gets out a little earlier) and punched a bully for them

·         it was iconic

·         she smacked him right in the face and hauled hiccup’s ass up and dragged them both in the car

·         cami is pretty popular at her school

·         hiccup and fishlegs are NOT

·         theyre honestly a bit like peter and ned from spiderman

·         gotta love that lego deathstar

·         cami does not like legos

·         both hiccup and fishlegs are smart but don’t put in a lot of effort

·         fishlegs excels at English and hiccup is good at science classes (esp bio) and history

·         fishlegs is ok at history but finds some of it a little boring

·         they HATE gym

·         theyre both shocked to find that cami (a dumbassTM) is actually a straight A student

·         shes super competitive so she actually does super well and gets rly rly good grades and all her teachers love her

·         she didn’t for awhile bc she has ADHD for school was HARD but shes gotten a lot better and got tutors and study methods and also shes just super competitive

·         she was on math team in middle school and hiccup wont SHUt Up about IT

·         “hey theres my favorite student mathlete!!!!!”

·         fishlegs doesn’t even try and help him anymore, he does this to himself

·         fishlegs wins English awards every year

·         he also got a 36 on his English ACT hes just SO GOOD

·         hes also a theatre kid lmao

·         he does shakespearean theatre on top of his school theatre too

·         “to be or not To Be”

·         Hiccups not a huge English fan and he doesn’t rly like Shakespeare but he does rly like Oscar wilde

·         Dorian gray is the Shit

·         Fishlegs was so happy when he read it bc they could finally talk about LiTeRaRy ClAsSiCs!!!

·         the trio met bc hiccup and cami’s parents own rival business companies

·         both stoick and bertha are very Rich and Important

·         hiccup and cami sometimes have to go to business dinners

·         they fuck around

·         that’s how they met

·         hiccup bumped into cami replacing the soap in the hand dispenser in the men’s room with silly string

·         he thought she was the coolest person ever

·         she tried to fight him at first but they quickly united against the Evil Boring Dinners With Stupid Old Men

·         they locked this one old racist dude in a bathroom stall once and sent fishlegs a video

·         truly forces of chaos

·         the forces of chaos were unfortunately grounded for that tho

·         stoick is very busy and valhallarama travels a lot so they hang out at hiccup’s bc its usually empty (cami’s house is also kinda far)

·         cami’s parents are divorced but her dad stops by occasionally

·         fishlegs has a foster family and that’s how he wound up meeting hiccup was when he moved to be with his new family when they were in second grade

·         hes rly grateful that hes been able to stay with them for a long ass time

·         theyre actually pretty nice

·         hiccup gets to come over for dinner

·         snotlout is hiccup’s bitchy cousin whos a grade ahead of hiccup and fishlegs

·         he eventually becomes nicer to them at the beginning of sophomore year

·         some bad stuff happens  (might write an angst fanfic idk lemme know (itll prolly be hiccup centric))

·         basically, snotlout kinda realizes hes been a bitch

·         hes sorry

·         things get better

·         until yknow

·         gotta keep things sad cant get rid of all the emo

·         but anyway snotlout does wind up becoming a good friend to the trio!! <3

·         oh lmao when valhallarama came home for Christmas she thought hiccup was either dating cami or fishlegs and she didn’t know which one bc hiccup was so shy she just figured he was dating one of them and just didn’t tell her (theyre all like super close yknow)

·         after seeing hiccup and cami holding hands (a RARE moment, it was bc they thought it would annoy snotlout bc he hates cami (it did)) she assumed it was cami

·         she brought it up

·         LMFAOOOO hiccup laughed for like 10 minutes

·         She then immediately was like oh ok ur gay and its fishlegs

·         that was even funnier

·         “mom fishlegs is weird lmao” (he and fishlegs probably friendly roast each other a lot tbh. they definitely call each other “weirdo” “freak” “nerd” other possibly explicit words, its chill)

·         Valhallarama is so confused

·         she didn’t say it but “child u literally told me that u thought ur little cat that’s missing teeth is prolly from area 51, ur the weird one son”

·         she asks stoick

·         hes just as confused

·         she drops the whole topic

·         it has yet to occur to bertha

·         fishlegs’ family is good as long as hes good theyre chill like that

·         oh and cami’s school has uniforms

·         yes, she does have to wear a skirt

·         yes, several of them were shredded freshman year

·         bertha is So Tired

[buckymcbuttfacebarnes]

nocturne

summary: bucky and y/n must finally define their relationship by confronting/acknowledging the darker parts of themselves.

word count: 4000 LOL

warnings: you bitches have arrived at angst city! uh they make out hee hee and theres a lot of swearing

a/n: a while ago i began a series called nocturne but i wasnt happy with how it turned out so i basically compiled the entire storyline into one part lemme know what yall think hee ALSO the beginning fluff is reminding me of like a movie or another book i read but i cant put my fucking finger on what it is!!!!! 

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“It’s not just that.”

“No?”

Bucky shakes his head, a coy smile curling at his mouth. She stares back at him questioningly, her eyebrow quirked.

“Oh no. It’s also that.”

“What?”

He takes a step forward, he shortens the length between them. He reaches out to touch her brow, still arched slightly. It only relaxes when the tips of his fingers touch her. She smiles.

“What else?”

She spoke timidly, the words lilting softly off her lips. Y/N had never been timid, in the year and a half that he had known her. It makes him grin, wicked and wide.

He did not have to think about his answer.

“Well,” Bucky sighs, shoulders rising and falling dramatically with the rhythm of his breath, “It’s also this here,” he touches her cheek, “and this,” her eyelid, “and this,” a fingertip slides down the bridge of her nose, “and this,” his hand cups her cheek again, his thumb slides gently across the swell of her lower lip.

Her heart beats wildly in her chest, so fast that she fears her ribcage might crack with the force of each pulse. She cannot help the way she leans into his touch, or the way she looks up at him—the way she might have looked at Dorian, had she loved him enough.

When their lips finally meet they are each filled with the beginnings of sweet satiation. Perhaps with this act they may finally be absolved of this unnerving desire that had been badgering them from the moment they met.

It was a Friday evening in the summertime, it was warm out. Y/N was seated on the back porch with the rest of the guests. The air was thick with the humidity, but she didn’t mind. It seemed that none of them did either, all too excited to be liberated from another week of mundane days filled with mind-numbing work. Weekend liberation, along with the alcohol that they guzzled, relaxed all of them.

After suffering through a solid half hour of stilted conversation (though it felt like an eternity) with these unfamiliar companions, she excused herself into the kitchen, claiming to want another beer.

“Grab me one too, baby?”  Dorian, her fiance and the only person she knew at the dinner party,  requested with a small smile. It was the first time he’d acknowledged her presence in the past hour.

The cool air of the house was a nice reprieve from the wet heat of the outdoors. In the kitchen she popped the lid to a beer bottle and stood sipping it, leant against the countertop as she began contemplate an escape plan. Can’t go home, she sighed with defeat. Dorian was her ride home.

She was on her way back out with an unopened beer in tow, but the tinkling of piano keys  made her stray from her path, leading her down the hall, towards the noise.

Y/N didn’t realize it at first, but the man perched at the piano bench he was another one of the ‘friends’ of Dorian’s that she had yet to gel with. During dinner he had been quiet, so quiet that she didn’t even catch his name.

The notes were soft and melodious, but every few beats or so there came the jarring sound of a misplaced note. Still,  she was entranced by the music—conversation with her future-husband’s co-workers paled in comparison. He seemed uncomfortable with the keys. Stiff fingers jumped from one note to the next, up and down the length of the piano. There was the falter of a note, something misplaced, yet he continued on.

She held her breath as she watched, nerous for him. If she exhaled too loudly she might have disrupted his playing,

It didn’t matter anyway. Another slip of a finger. It was the gentle push of a wrong key brought a harshly abrupt ending to the song. He hung his head in tired frustration. He stayed like that for a long moment before bringing angry hands down onto the keys, creating a harsh discordant slew of notes that made her  wince.

“Was that your own?”

After a long pause the pianist lifted his head, revealing bright eyes and sharp cheekbones. Left unsurprised by her  presence, he regarded her with a rather blank expression.

“That song, I mean.”

“No. It’s not.” His azure eyes were watching her  intently, she resisted the sudden urge to fidget beneath his lingering stare. “It’s originally Chopin, but, as you heard,” he turned his bitter gaze to the keys beneath his hovering fingertips (five metal, five flesh, she noticed), “I like to put my own spin on things sometimes.”

“I thought it was beautiful.”

He laughed, a hostile grating noise that seemed to mimic the frustrated cacophony of random notes that he had made moments before. It brought goosebumps to the surface of her skin. G

“Why aren’t you out there?” He asked, interrupting the uneasy silence in which she had attempted an exit.

“I came inside to grab a drink...but then I heard you playing.”

He sighed, his eyes finding hers again and he nodded his head slowly. “I was going to leave earlier, but then I saw this piano.” He ran a gentle hand along the top, then pulled it away and shrugged his broad shoulders. “A beautiful piano like this deserves to be played.” He blew air into his cheeks. “Rumlow’s a jackass. I know he definitely can’t play, he’s the type to buy a piano because it makes him feel cultured...or something.” His upper lip curled in distaste.

Y/N  smiled, amused. “I don’t have the pleasure of knowing him too well.”

“Huh, lucky you.”

“You don’t like him.”

“Oh, you can tell?” he remarked airily. He didn’t smile, just looked along with those brilliant eyes, unsettlingly clear. They shined bright with something that she couldn’t quite comprehend. Anger? At himself, at Rumlow? Annoyance, with her perhaps for listening in on his flawed playing?

She remembered the unopened beer in her hand,  “I should probably go and—”

“You play piano?” He interrupted.

She shook her head and smiled, “I wish. It’s so beautiful.” She sent hr gaze down to the keys, where his hands still rested.

He shifted, folding his arms over his chest, tucking his hands away beneath his armpits. “Why don’t you?”

“Never had the time to learn, I guess.”

The man gave a glassy smile, brows lifting in a way that appeared slightly condescending.

“What?”

He ignored her, “So if you don’t know Rumlow, why are you here?”

Her nose wrinkled slightly, and she shifted—a feeble defense to disguise her discomfort as annoyance. She fumbled for the words to say next. “You were at dinner weren’t you?”

“Yes.”

“We discussed this at dinner.”

“Guess I wasn’t listening.” There was the hint of a cold smile still curled on his lips. He beckoned to her with his flesh hand. “You gonna drink that?”

“My boyfriend—my fiance,” she corrected herself as she handed over the beer, “ wanted me to meet his work friends.”

He tucked his metal hand away into his pocket.

“Which one’s he?”

“Dorian.”

There was a look of recognition that passed over his features like a shadow.

“You know him.”

“Unfortunately,” he spoke languidly, “So why aren’t you out there again, Y/N?”

The sound of her name rolling off his tongue surprised her. “I thought you said you weren’t listening.”

He shrugged, face expectant.

“I told you I came in to grab a drink, then I heard you playing.”

“But you’re still here.”

They were each indulging themselves in this vaguely uncomfortable back and forth, neither of them really knew where it was going. Y/N wondered why she was still lingering, Bucky wondered why he insisted on keeping her near. Why was he so intent on making her feel uncomfortable? Why did she keep looking at him like that? With the tilt of her head and the challenging look in her eye? It was different. Typically he got pity, this girl was giving him something different.

“I’m still here because you keep asking me questions.”

The pianist took a swig of his drink, nodding. Then he asked in that disinterested manner of his, “You gonna go back out there?”

“Are you?”

He shut the fallboard of the piano with his free hand, before hiding it away again. “No.”

“I’m gonna head out, Y/N.”

She liked the way he said her name then, with so much emphasis. He was trying to prove a point: See? I had been listening. “Tell everyone I said goodnight.”

Just like that, he had disappeared from her line of sight. He had left her to simmer in her confusion, her inexplicable attraction. It took a few long silent moments until she decided to chase after him. She caught him at the front door, he was halfway out. When he turned there was a smile on his face, as if he had been expecting her somehow.

“I didn’t catch your name,” she blurted.

“It’s James.”

His lips are sweet and taste like plums. They are sin, they are laced with poison. Hers are sweet like candy, they are heaven. 

They should not be doing this.

His fingers are spread wide because he wants to feel every inch of her, every piece of her. He touches her first over her clothes, the thin fabric of her t-shirt is enough to keep his hot hands from setting her skin alight. He presses her against the piano, his instrument, and presses himself against her. He needs to feel her. He has to. She touches him too.

Her arms stay clasped securely around his neck, yet somehow it feels to him as if she is on him everywhere. She is more than just this. More than just a body. She is her body, her voice, her breaths. She is the air that he is inhaling and what he feels beneath his palms. She is the heat rising in his chest and the faint red blush that crawls up his neck as he kisses her with such conviction: Yes, this is meant to be.

But it’s not just this and this and this, he thinks to himself. It is also that I adore you.

A hand slips up her shirt. When his hands touch her they burn her skin.She knew it was wrong. She shoves him away with such a force that he stumbles back, shocked.

Y/N appears just as shocked as him, perhaps even a little more so. Her hand flies up to her lips, touching them in disbelief, her chest rises and falls rapidly. Her eyes flick up to meet his gaze.

“Fuck you,” she blurts.

“What?” But Bucky knows exactly what she means. He smiles.

“Are you fucking happy now?” She turns around, sends her gaze up the ceiling, then back to the floor, cursing herself all the while.

“Y/N, truly, I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Oh, fuck off. I came over here thinking you just wanted to talk and we would—I’m such an idiot.” She squeezes her eyes shut, maybe if she squeezed them tight enough and wished hard enough, she would open her eyes and be somewhere else. She would be at home with her fiance of two years...where she was supposed to be.

“C’mon, Y/N!” He laughs when she pushes past him to get to the doorway. He doesn’t move out of her way. “What’s the big deal, doll? It was just a kiss.”

“You know what the big deal is, you fuck.”

He revels in the way she spits her words at him, each syllable laced with a fatal sort of venom. This was the Y/N he knew and damn near loved.

“No, I don’t think I do.”

“Get out of my damn way, Bucky, or I swear to God—”

“Swear to God what?” he challenges, his countenance mirrors one of an insolent child.

He blocks the doorway with his broad frame, each arm rests comfortably against each edge of the entryway. His grin only falls just slightly when he sees the gleam of tears in her eyes. Still she is the most wondrous thing he’s ever seen.

“I’m married.” “You’re engaged.” Then after a moment, “And you have been for two years, might I add.”

That’s when she does that thing with her mouth, when she screws it up just slightly and her nostrils flare. She shoves him hard with both hands. He knows that it only makes her angrier when he laughs.

“I mean, come on, Y/N. The guy’s a real dick anyway!”

When he sat back in his chair, his pink lips quirked upwards into a smile, “Calling me a pianist is a little bit of a reach. I was never a real pianist.”

She leaned forward, urging him to continue. They were completely enraptured by one another, and had somehow managed to alienate themselves from the rest of the group even though they were all seated at the same large table.

He opened his mouth, as if he were ready to dispel more information, but he stopped himself, mouth snapping shut. She did not miss the way his eyes flickered down the table, towards Dorian.

“I’ll tell you about it later. d—,” he cut himself off quickly, not meaning to call you by the seemingly meaningless pet name he had given you: doll. When he saw her frown he added a quiet, “I promise.”

They shared a lingering look, Y/N looking like the cat who got the cream, Bucky, revelling in her joy.

Dorian noticed.

He cleared his throat loudly, calling their attention.

“Can you pass me the salt, babe?” Dorian intervenes with a polite smile. She passes it to him, though it was easily within his reach.  “So, Bucky—can I call you that? That’s what Y/N calls you,” he says, glancing at her with some sort of deliberate insinuation. “She says you play piano too...You any good?”

Bucky’s blue eyes harden into azure stones, yet he appears completely relaxed, seemingly unbothered by the sudden turn of everyone’s attention onto him. He holds Dorian’s stare easily as he shrugs one shoulder.

“I heard you get frustrated pretty easily, slammin’ on keys and whatnot? Be careful, man. Wouldn’t wanna fuck up that other hand.”

“Dorian,” Y/N quickly interrupts, sending him a warning glance.

But he plows on. “Must be pretty hard, I guess…” his eyes flicker to Bucky’s gloved fist, “With the metal hand and all. Why keep it wrapped up? I mean we all know about it, right guys?” He looks around the table before his gaze returns.

An uncomfortable hush seemed to fall over the table.

“Thanks for dinner, Rumlow,” he nods his head towards the host, who sits at the opposite end of the table. When Bucky stands, he claps his friend Steve on the shoulder and the blonde man smiles wearily. He looks as if he’s about to ask his friend something, but Bucky doesn’t let him. Instead he turns his gaze to her finally. She wilts beneath his gaze, but she holds it all the same. And for those four and a half seconds that they stare at one another, and the rest of the guests gaze on in shock, she becomes so aware of everything. The cleft in Bucky’s chin, the heavy feeling of her heart in her chest, the sound of the others shifting in their seats, Dorian’s hand upon her knee...how long had that been there?

Finally, he smiles with a genuine warmth, but it does nothing to ease her embarrassment or her anger.

“Have a nice night, Y/N.”

“You don’t love him, you aren’t happy with him.”

She did not let on that these words meant something to her.

Bitterly, “Oh, and I would be with you? You don’t get to talk to me about ‘happiness’, you don’t know a damn thing about it.” Her eyes narrow, “You know, Bucky, you couldn’t love me even if you tried. And if you did, I wouldn’t want you to, you know why?”

He doesn’t want to know why.

“Because you would make me miserable, you would drag me right down with you into whatever the fuck this—” her voice grows louder as her eyes flit around the dimly lit room and her hands flail in the empty space around her “—is! This darkness. Your fucking sadness, I hate it. I hate it. You wallow, all the time, for fuck’s sake. And I know you will never find it in your miserable ass heart to get the off your ass and get the fuck over it! And that’s why. That’s why you could never love me and that’s why I wouldn’t ever want you to.”

The words string together into a serpent that coils around his heart, suffocating the throbbing organ with cold hatred. “You’re wrong.”

But she ignores those two words, but they would linger with her for the rest of her days.

“And I can’t fix you,” she keeps going, the words spilling out of her as if he’d broken a dam somewhere behind her lips. “I wish I could, God, I wish I could. I want to. I’ve tried to be there for you in every way I know how.”

In every way except the way I want you to be, he screams silently.

“You can’t be there for me while you’re with him.”

“James, he has nothing to do with this. This has everything to do with you. You don’t want to change. I know you don’t because I have tried to get you to! You just fall into the same shit over and over again. You drink, you’re sad, you’re sad, you drink.” His blue eyes harden. They stare at each other for a long moment.

Finally, “It’s not your job to fix me, Y/N,  no one told you you had to do this!”

Dorian had told her the same thing.

“Why do you keep lending yourself to him like this, Y/N?”

“What do you mean?”

Dorian rolls his eyes and scoffs, “You know exactly what I mean.”

“He needs someone.”

“That someone doesn’t have to be you, you know?” He is angry, but he’s trying not to be. “You spend more time with him than you do with me! He isn’t your problem to deal with.”

“He needs me.”

“And I don’t?”

You’re never around, she had thought to herself.

“He needs me more.”

“Jesus Christ, it’s like the fucking blind leading the blind! You’re so exhausting, you know that? You’re constant need to make me feel ‘better’. Well, everything you do just makes me feel worse. I don’t want pity, alright?”

“I don’t pity you!”

“I see the way you fucking look at me. You’re just like everyone else.” He doesn’t realize when he says it how badly it wounds her. “But you don’t have to be, don’t you get it? You don’t have to be what Dorian wants you to be, you know? You don’t have to be the bored housewife or the complacent fiance or whatever the fuck he wants from you. You don’t have to be like that!” His voice pleads for her to hear him, she does. “You don’t have to fake it when you’re with me, what you feel. You’re happy with me. And if not with me, when you’re away from Dorian. Don’t fucking try to fix me when you’ve got your own fucked up shit to fix. Christ, Y/N...you can’t do this anymore. If you keep going around doing everything for everyone, trying to make them happy, then what? Who’s going to be there to do the same for you?”

The silence is palpable. She hates him for a moment. With his ruddy cheeks and kiss-swollen lips. His bright eyes and the dark eyelashes that surrounded them. She hated the way he stood before her as if they had belonged to one another, as if this had been more than a friendship. She hated how he was so careless with his words, she hated that he could read her every expression. Even the most minute flicker of something across her face...he caught it. She hated him completely. They both know it. But the feeling is fleeting, for seconds later she wishes that she had let him touch her just so that they might not have argued this way tonight. 

I would do the same for you, he wants to say.

And she would say, I’m sure you would, if you could. At least that’s what Bucky thinks she would say.

Her voice is quiet when she starts, “You do things like that for people you love. But you couldn’t even begin to understand what that’s like.”

“I did love something.”

“God, I know!” She is exasperated, “I know, James, I know, I know.”

“You don’t know!”

Sympathy floods her eyes. He hates that she looks at him that way.

But she nods. “I know, baby,” she says this to him without thinking, her voice so soft that he is afraid she might really cry.

He wishes he hadn’t see the way her eyes flickered to his metal arm.

Her voice is in his ears again, “I know, baby, I know.”

She kisses him. He doesn’t realize he is crying until he tastes his own salty tears on his mouth.

Truth is, she didn’t know and she couldn’t know. She couldn’t know how it felt to have lost one’s entire purpose in life. To have lived years believing that he had lost his greatest passion love in life, only to have found the real thing again. Even more real and potent than before. This is the woman he has bared himself to completely. She has peeled back every layer, searching and searching until she had found herself in the heart of him. Here in this room, this darkened room with its covered windows and the piano that sits in a lonely corner. The room that holds hours of his tears and his melancholy, his cries of frustration and whoops and hollers of joy. The room where they spend the most time together. She sits and listens to him play, even when his fingers, long with muscles and knuckles that shift beneath his skin, move clumsily across the keys. Y/N, who has soothed his frustrations, even before this, before tonight. Before their kiss. Before this futile argument. Before she called him ‘baby’ with such confidence. Before everything, she was there...Y/N who was about to walk right out of his life. She was the love that shined brighter than music, than the piano, than his dream of becoming someone great. He knew now that the only way he could ever be great would be by loving her, letting her love him.

There was a finality in that kiss. In the way she leaned up and kissed him again and again after. She touched his cheeks with her gentle hands, wiping away that hot tears that stained his cheeks. She pulls his face towards hers and lets her eyes flutter shut as their foreheads touch. Bucky doesn’t know what to do. Should he touch her? Should he kiss her again? Should he make her stay? Would she stay if he begged her to?

“I have to go now,” she whispers.

“Stay.”

“I can’t.”

“I wish you could.”

He kisses her one more time and she lets him. She lets his hands grab her and pull her flush against him. He absorbs her warmth, and tries, quickly, to remember the way her mouth tastes and the way her skin feels beneath his eager, wanting hands.

“Come back,” he says at the door, just before she turns to walk down the hall.

And she smiles, and it is so bright and warm that it makes his stomach sink. They hold each other’s gaze for another long moment. She wants to kiss him again. He wishes she would lie down with him forever and forget about the rest of the world. They are caught up in one another again for the last time.

She nods her head. A false promise. The embittered artist knew she wouldn’t ever come back.

[sunnysidewrites]

Neighbor!Woozi

based on this post hehehe

i just fed yall TWICE. in the span of just 2 DAYS!!! AND THEY’RE BOTH MORE OR LESS THE SAME LONG ASS LENGTH!!! yeah that’s right i went overboard again gtg

happy happy bday to the lovely admin bee of @mansaeboysbe you are such a beautiful person inside and out, and im incredibly proud to know someone like you :’))) i’ve already sent a bday message to you so im not tryna redo it LOL but just know that i love you a whole lot and i always will! 💗💗💗💗💓💓 (she’s also the same person who gave me those beautiful headers on my mlist so please give her tons of love <333) love you sm hub hope you have a wonderful and fantastic day!!!

*to all the mutuals with bdays that have either passed or are coming up, i love you all SO FREAKING MUCH so pls dont feel left out!! it just so happened that i wanted to write this au for a long time and i wanted to present it as a bday gift for this jihoon stan hehe but i rlly love each every single one of u ok babes? <333*

warnings: i feel like i dragged this on for too long but i hope it’s still cute :’)) also i put in a joke like twice LOL anyways lil wooz only gets tongue-tied around you so you become his muse for songs

You were looking for a place to stay in bc “I am a grown adult i am not living with yall anymore” you @ your parents

And they’re like lol ok Good Luck Kiddo

After a month and a half of deeeeep searching you finally find a reasonably priced place to live in

It’s quite a distance from your parents’ home but it’s the point of you moving out to begin with

On the move-in day, you’re carrying your boxes up to your new apartment complex and you hear some tunes drifting from your next door neighbor

And you’re like hey this is actually really good music but i’ve never heard of it

You shrug it off and continue settling in

Once you finished hauling your boxes, you were about to pass out on your couch

Ok you actually did pass out on your couch

But you had to unpack some necessities later that night for bathroom and bedroom purposes

All you had for dinner was pop in some instant ramen and call it a night. You then hopped in the shower and got ready for bed

The following morning it was primarily you unpacking and shifting around your furniture a little but it was challenging by yourself

You were making a good amount of noise and in the middle of the day you were met with a very loud knock on your door

And you were in the middle of unpacking your kitchenware so you were like oh shoot ahh i’ll be right there!!

Little did you know your next door neighbor wasn’t having any of it

Can’t I get some peace and quiet around here? He grumbled as he impatiently waited for you to open the door

I swear, I’m gonna tell them off they won’t even knOW what will hit--

You finally opened the door, and he’s like oh. My gosh.

You had a few pieces of hair sticking to your forehead and your hair was tied back in a messy bun

You were dressed in a faded coral tee underneath a pair of worn-out denim overalls with house slippers

Everything he planned to complain about suddenly vanished and his first thought was:

“Is that Pikachu on your front pocket?”

Apparently he said that aloud, which he didn’t register until he saw you giggling

“Yeah, it was a hand-me-down! Still cute, right?”

And he’s kinda still just staring at you with his mouth slightly agape

And you’re like oh right ahem did you need anything?

That’s when he notices the utter mess behind you: plastic covering still over some of your furniture, half-emptied boxes littered in almost every inch of the floor, etc.

And that’s when it hits him: all that noise was you unpacking

“O-oh yeah, I just,, wanted to let you know that it was getting a little loud since I live right next door”

He silently curses at himself like i almost went off at my new neighbor rip that wasn’t gonna be a good first impression

Luckily for him, you were chill about it and you’re like omg sorry!!! It’s a little tough doing this by myself, sorry for the ruckus

Before he could stop himself, he blurted out, “do you need any help?”

Jihoon internally: u doofus u have an album to produce whAT ARE U DOING

Jihoon externally: i can help you :))) no matter how smol i may be

But that internal reprimanding melted away when he saw your eyes light up in relief and you’re practically bouncing up and down

“Would you, really??? It would be great if I had another hand around! Oh, but you’re probably occupied doing something, right??” and you feel bad that a stranger, your next door neighbor nonetheless, was about to abandon his work just for you

A cute neighbor, at that

Jihoon is like ok this is your chance to get away and go back to work cmon man

But there’s just something about you that pulls him in magnetically and he finds himself trying to reason internally that it’ll just be for a “few moments”

Yyyeaaahhh that doesn’t happen lmao rip Jihoon’s songs

Jihoon is just like “nah it’s fine I can help out for a bit” and you’re like god bless this human being

When you open your door further to let him in, he’s like oh right btw I’m Jihoon

“I’m y/n! Sorry about the mess, I only got here yesterday evening”

He shakes his head and quirks up his lips ever so slightly, “i remember when my place looked like this too except replace this space with music production things”

And you’re like ooOOoOoOO you make songs??? That’s amazing!!

And that’s when you got the ball rolling!!!

“A few moments” turn into hours and the next thing you know it’s dinnertime

“Oh crap sorry for keeping you for this long,,, those songs won’t produce themselves, right? I think I can take it from here”

Admittedly, jihoon didn’t wanna leave just yet bc he actually enjoyed your company and it was nice taking a break from staring at his screen frustratedly

“Well, I don’t mind helping out. I could show you my work one day if you want”

And you’re like holy cheeseballs yES

He starts getting up and brushing off his clothes and you’re a little sad that he’s leaving and he kinda is too :(

“If you’re not too busy tomorrow, you’re welcome to help me out more! I mean, you already helped me a whole lot today, but there’s still some things left to do”

As much as his brain is telling him to NOT DO IT,,,,

He does it

Next thing you know, jihoon is at your door again around the same time and he has something in his hand

As you let him inside, you ask him what it is and he’s like ;))))

“It’s a CD that compiled just a few songs I thought you might like”

And you’re #shook bc did he really just have a CD like this out in the open or did he really take his time yesterday to transfer songs on it??

“Do you have a player or a laptop?”

“Yeah, my laptop is on my bed, you can bring it out here!” You shout over your shoulder as you arrange your things in the living room

Shortly afterwards he emerges from the hallway and he presses a few buttons and clicks here and there and beautiful melodies ring out from your speakers

You can’t help but stop rustling to take in the sweet tunes and you’re just like :’))) have i heard anything so beautiful??? :’)))

One of the songs sound vaguely familiar and you realize it’s what you heard when you first arrived here

“Did you actually produce this??? This sounds like an actual song you can hear on the radio”

And he’s like yep made by yours truly!!!

He was only using “yours truly” half-metaphorically if you know what I mean ;)))

You keep bouncing to all the catchy tunes and swaying to the soulful ones

And in all honesty, seeing your reactions makes Jihoon feel really warm and even a little proud bc it’s one of the biggest reasons why he loves his job so much

He makes eye contact with you and you’re like :D and he’s like ahEM COuGh coUGh i’m gonna dust this shelf over here

He suddenly stands up and busies himself and you’re like ???? okie dokie

He’s a real help around the place and you’re practically done settling in

As you survey your fresh living space, you can’t help but feel a little…. Disheartened?

Bc it was actually really fun to have him around even while he made blunt remarks about your taste of decorations

“This looks like something my five-year-old niece would have”

“For your information, I got that from a five-year-old!! It’s cute, alright!”

You spent the past three days with Jihoon unpacking and talking about whatever comes to mind

Jihoon is pretty devastated that he has to go back to his makeshift studio in his room as much as he will never admit it

He eventually leaves your place and the both of you are just sad little puppies

From then on, every time you pass by each other, you greet him with a friendly smile and wave and you never fail to make his heart skip several beats

You don’t talk as much as how you first started bc he’s gotten much busier trying to mass-produce a lot of songs

For some strange reason, every time you hear a melody coming from the other side of the walls, you feel like you’re somehow connected with him

Well, except for the muffled cursing LMAO

And sometimes you would also hear several male voices at once and you’re guessing they’re his friends or the people he’s working with on the song, but based on their friendly banter and the constant run-throughs, it’s probably both

You would hear the same melody play over and over again, and you’re guessing he’s stuck on a certain part of a song as he tries to recreate new melodies from that point on

“aaAAGHGHHHGGHHHH” *deep sigh* me trying to overcome writer’s block LMAO

This would happen for about half an hour and you can’t help but wanting to reach out to him, but you’re not exactly the most musically-inclined person sadly

When he ultimately calms down, he goes back to working on the song until he finally gets the results he desires

More often than not, you fall asleep from hearing the slow ballads he creates with a smile on your face

Lil Jihoon does try to visit you and vice versa!! He sometimes shows up with random food and more CDs and you’re wondering just how many songs has this guy produced in his lifetime??? He looks around the same age as you but he’s probably produced 26+ songs by the way he packs a decent amount on each CD

Usually his excuse to sharing a meal with you is that “the guys brought over too much and i have a ton of leftovers that i can’t finish by myself”

In reality, he stared at a restaurant’s menu and contemplated for about twenty minutes about what you would like. This guy’s got dedication not just for work

“Would it be weird if i get fried chicken?? Maybe just a bowl of noodles?? What if soup is better??? It would give weird vibes if i bought drinks too, right?? Or should i just go ahead and buy them???”

Regardless of what he buys, you’re eager to eat anything and everything with your fav neighbor *wink wonk*

You feel bad when he would do that though, so you try to return the favor every so often as well

One time, you ordered some takeout but the servings were waaaaay bigger than advertised and you’re like Idea!! Let’s head over next door!! So you took the plastic bags and put in some drinks before heading out the door

You knocked on the door and that was when you heard light chatter on the other side of the door

You’re like sldjfljds i hope im not interrupting anything aaa mAYBE I SHOULD JUST LEAVE--

Too late, someone’s voice rang out “I’ll get it!” and next thing you know, the door swings out to reveal a face you’ve never seen before

“Oh, hi!” He says a little surprisedly but with a smile nevertheless

“H-hi, umm,,,, is Jihoon there?”

The guy is nodding his head in the direction of the back hallway, “yeah, he’s in the bathroom” and that’s when he looks down at your hands and his eyes instantly light up

“Omg did you bring food?? You’re so thoughtful!! Come in, come in!!” and before you could protest he literally drags you in and you’re met with a bunch of other strangers who are staring back at you like :oooo????

“Who’s this?? Jihoon never mentioned someone coming over today,, AND YOU CAN’T JUST DRAG SOMEONE IN THIS ISN’T YOUR HOME”

And you’re like ya i didnt know either lmao

You’re awkwardly shifting on your feet and praying jihoon will pop up instantaneously bc you’re gonna melt in embarrassment

“I just wanted to give him some of this,” you hold up your hands to gesture your food, “since it’s too much for me to finish on my own”

“Oh that’s cool! Some of the other guys are actually out to get more lunch, but food goes out fast with all of us here,” another guy says as he pats your shoulder reassuringly. “Well, since you’re already here, you can join us!”

“I-it’s ok! I hope I wasn’t interrupting anything, I just wanted to deliver this,,, I’ll get going” and you’re about to zOOM outta there but the same guy who ushered you in is like nO DONT LEAVE

“We’re taking a lunch break, so it’s cool if you join us! I’m Soonyoung” and he’s like :DDD and you’re just like ,,,, what a hyper guy but i like him

Everyone goes around to introducing themselves

you do a headcount of 8 and you remember there’s more guys getting food for them,,,, holy heck how many people do they have???? You’re about to introduce yourself after them but then

“Soonyoung, who was at the door--” a familiar voice calls out in the hallway before he emerges

And jihoon is like dsljLSJDF what the hELL

“Y/N??? What are you doing here???” *side eyes soonyoung*

And everyone’s making eyes at each other like waIT WAIT THIS IS Y/N???

“Soonyoung dragged me inside”

“Gdi soonyoung, how many times do i have to tell you that you can’t go around dragging people to join us???”

This guy who you think is named Seokmin pipes up, “yeah he does this all the time at our workplace too. A lot of our coworkers always end up extending their stay for far too long” and you’re nodding slowly like yeahhh i can see that happening

Soonyoung’s eyes are widened and he turns to jihoon like “is this the y/n that inspired your recent so--”

And jihoon is quick to cover his mouth so his voice is all muffled

“aHahaAHHAH soonyoung’s always the joker, april fools day!!! Let’s set the table, the others should be back soon”

jihoon whispering to soonyoung: you better sleep with one eye open tonight boi

And you’re like uhh alrighty :)))???

About twenty minutes after you’ve arrived, there’s another knock on the door

Soonyoung is practically bouncing on his way to the door and you can hear more unknown voices

They’re filing in and they suddenly stop and look at you like wait what

Them: :o????

You: :))),,, what up

Jeonghan briefly explains the situation to the guy who came in the door first and you’re lowkey intimidated bc he seems to be eldest and looks like he could beat you up to a pulp

BOY WERE YOU WRONG

After jeonghan tells him, he breaks out into this gigantic, cute gummy smile like welcome!! :DD i’m seungcheol! And the other guys behind him follow suit

Jeonghan’s like “this is,, y/n” and everyone tries to be subtle and nods like they didn’t hear jihoon babble on and on about you for weeks

You: ok why do yall act all weird when my name is brought up whAT DID JIHOON TELL YOU

Them: i would tell you but i don’t wanna die just yet sorry dude

Jihoon, somewhere in the kitchen: SET! THE! TABLE!

You end up staying there for a pretty long time, bonding over the whole feast you have and it’s really lively and fun, not to mention super loud with 13 guys in the same room,,, but you’re genuinely having a good time

Jihoon would glance at you nervously occasionally to check on you if you’re uncomfortable in any way

Jeonghan, who’s sitting next to him, notices jihoon’s eyes are practically glued to you and he’s like “is this the part where you confess your undying love and propose”

And jihoon is like shUT UP NO WHAT this chicken tastes great *quickly chugs down water*

You look back at jihoon sometimes and see he looks flushed but it’s not like he’s drinking alcohol

“Jihoon are you feeling ok?? Your ears are bright red” which obviously makes them redder rip

“I-i’m fine,, wow is it hot in here maybe it’s just the spiciness of the chicken let’s open the windows”

You eventually leave them as much as they protest and even try to get Jihoon to guilt trip you (unsuccessfully)

“Don’t leave just yet y/n!! You should stay, right Jihoon???”

“Huh?? O-oh yeah, I mean, you can if you want,,,,, we kinda need to work though”

Everyone’s looking at jihoon like bro wTF are u kidding me

Rip reader i can feel your heart drop :’(((

You’re feeling slightly dejected but you nod understandingly. You’ve already stayed far longer than you anticipated anyways, and work comes first for Jihoon

“Yeah, I totally get it! Good luck on the album guys!” You put on your shoes and close the door

When they finally hear your own door close, they’re attacking jihoon like

“SO Y/N IS THE ONE BEHIND ALL YOUR SAPPY LOVE SONGS HUH!!!”

“I knew it, the lyrics just suddenly got cheesier -- there had to be someone behind all of that”

And jihoon is just praying you won’t hear what they’re saying like “SHUT UP THESE WALLS ARE THIN”

Back at your apartment, it suddenly feels much emptier and lonelier

“What am i doing,,, I just met the guys for like two hours???”

You sigh and you try to busy yourself doing other things but you hear a loud commotion on the other side of the walls with just a bunch of incoherent shouting

You smile and laugh to yourself when you think about how close they all are

Your smile slowly fades when you start wishing you wanna be close to Jihoon and you’re like snAP OUT OF IT!!!

A couple of weeks pass by uneventfully but you notice that Jihoon has gotten more reserved around you

It’s just him being bashful around you and he panics every time he sees you but obviously he doesn’t want you to know that

You’re standing at your little mini balcony and admiring your cute little cactus plants

Just as you start thinking about him and his wellbeing, you hear your name and you’re like wHO’S THERE

You look down and see Jihoon staring back at you and honestly he looks like he’s awestruck by your whole beauty bc seriously everything you wear always looks super good to him

[insert photo]

(also pretend he’s holding plastic bags)

He holds up his hands and you’re laughing bc you know exactly what that means

“Come on up!”

There’s a knock on your door promptly afterwards and what do you know!!! It’s the man himself!!!

It’s just funny how the both of you have this ongoing routine that you know what to expect

When you let him in, he places the bags on your table and quickly smiles to himself when he sees your laptop on your bed

You and Jihoon both mindlessly do your respective roles as usual

He slowly comes out in the living room with your laptop and he’s like “so the album is pretty much done now,,, i can’t release all of the songs yet but there’s one i want you to listen to. I’ll show you after we eat”

You’re like ooo im excited and you start catching up with him as you’re eating

You can’t contain your excitement any longer, so as soon as you eat the last bit of your food, you’re like “oKAY SHOW ME IT NOW” as you’re restlessly shifting on your legs

He nods and pulls up the media player on your laptop. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath before pressing play

It’s a melody you’re quite acquaintanced with after hearing it countless times at night, the same tune that lulls you to sleep

You have high expectations for this song, and surely he surpasses them with flying colors

You’re enjoying the song and telling him “wow this is a really good song!” when suddenly some lyrics catch your attention

You hear something about messy hair pulled back, ruffled clothes, eating meals

And you’re like huh that sounds a lot like us haha is that supposed to be me??

Jihoon is avoiding eye contact with you and looking down at his fidgeting hands as the song progresses in its later verses

The lyrics talk about wanting to develop a deeper relationship, one where “it’s okay to tell me anything, your hardships and desires. I just want to see you smile” and you’re like wait,,,,

And one of the final lyrics says something about “i can’t help feeling like this, will you accept my hand?” and you’re like wait wait w a i t

The song comes to an end and silence fills the room

You’re not sure whether you should speak up first or wait for him, but either way you’re speechless and wouldn’t know what to say anyways

Jihoon clears his throat awkwardly and stumbles on his words poor bby

“S-so, yeah,,,, I’ve been working on this one the longest,,,, umm do you,,, like it?”

But you know better that he’s not just talking about the song

“Nah sorry man i’m not interested”

“O.”

April fools kiddos ofc you are

“....yeah. I do like it”

And he finally brings himself to look at you and he’s like !!!!! really????

“Wait, for real??? You actually like it???”

He’s pretty much paralyzed in shock and all he can do is watch your hand move towards his and hold it

“I like it a lot, Jihoon :)”

He blinks slowly and he can’t fight the grin that spreads on his face as he grips your hand back

“I’m accepting your hand now heehee ^^”

“Okay let’s not talk about that”

[ejsponge61]

Game of the Year 2016

Greetings! So, early in 2017, I listed off my top 10 games of the following year on YouTube. That was a long time ago, and now I’m writing out the script for my GOTY 2017 video. But as I wrote, I just realised something: Why don’t I post the text along with the original video? So, here I am, albeit nearly a year later, telling yall about my favorite games of 2016. And be on the lookout for another, more current, list in the coming weeks!

Overwatch

Besides a certain pocket monster simulator, this game is the biggest gaming phenomenon of 2016. So, considering I love first person shooters, it is fitting that it managed to suck me in as well . ever character delivers a completely different gameplay experience from the next, but every playstyle manages to be fun and valuable. Each of the characters are excellent not only from a gameplay perspective, but they were also delightful to get to know. Whether it's running around with my boy Lucio or squealing with glee when Ana gets play of the game, there was rarely a moment that this game didn't give me joy. It is more that deserving of all the praise it continues to get, and it sits confidently as my 10th favorite game of the year.

Call of Duty: Infinite Warfare

While the franchise has seen historic levels of hate this past year, I have always been a fan of the Call of Duty franchise. This year's installment was just as solid as years past, but the additions this year really spoke to me. It's single player campaign made me relate to it's characters so deeply that, once all of their fates were revealed, I found my self shedding tears. And besides an emotional story, the gameplay structure of the campaign gave me some much appreciated freedom. Add to that a zombies mode that allows me to pop heads to the tune of The G.A.P. Band and the familiar chaos of multiplayer, and you have one of my favorite installments in the series in years.

Firewatch

Games like these have historically been few and far between. As the artform matures, we are seeing more games tackle mature and complex themes like Firewatch. Besides the game having gorgeous art design and immersive UI design, the voice acting really took me by surprise. The way that Henry and Delilah's relationship develops throughout the course of the game made me feel emotions that games rarely evoke in me. While I found the ending bitter sweet, I also felt that was the point. Life doesn't always answer ever question and sometimes you have to just enjoy what is given to you. And boy did I.

Titanfall 2

Knowing that much of their team was responsible for the Modern Warfare series, I was confident that Respawn Entertainment had the talent to make a great single player campaign. And indeed did they deliver. While short, the campaign is a tightly paced compilation of increasingly awesome and innovative moments. And they aren't just visually arresting, as they add new gameplay mechanics throughout. Add to that a brilliantly simplified multiplayer with loads of depth, and you have one of the greatest shooters of 2016.

Inside

Inside is a masterclass by so many measures. It's art design, while primarily monochromatic, manages to impress within every setting and character. It's gameplay, while very simple and nearly identical to Limbo, manages to allow the player  to do increasingly impressive feats. Also, it's narrative is so minimalistic that it leaves the player with so many more questions than answers. Add one of the most, um, baffling endings that I've ever seen in a video game, and you have what I consider the best independent game of 2016.

Mafia III

I love so many games for so many reasons. But even I can recognize when I fall in love with a game that isn't perfect. Mafia III is one of those games. I love the tale of Lincoln Clay's revenge. The tale is straight forward, but it's the details around it that made me giddy. Diving deeper into Vito's backstory, listening to "The Voice" on the radio go off on one of his anti-white supremacist rants, seeing the confidence and swagger of Lincoln as he interacts with other characters. Despite issues other's had with moment-to-moment gunplay, I found it to be fun and functional. Despite issues others had with repetitive mission structure, I enjoyed it. It took the outposts from Far Cry 3-4 and made that it's core gameplay loop, which I loved. But more importantly, the fact that this game tackles issues of race so directly and effectively is a watershed moment for video game narrative. I hope that Mafia III is remembered more for it's overwhelming successes rather than it's faults.

Watch Dogs 2

Watch Dogs 2 is different from Watch Dogs in every way, and that is why I love it. Marcus Holloway is such a relatable, charismatic, and fun character that he makes nearly every action in the game more fun. Even the rest of Dedsec is endearing in each of their own way. This is also one the first open world games that made stealth and fun and viable option, as I've used my drones and hacking abilities just as much as my combat abilities. This is a world that I enjoy just walking around, taking selfies, and surfing cars in, not just because it's tone is one of absolute fun, but also because it's so much more subtle in it's darkness. Unlike other open world games, like it's predecessor and GTA V, the game doesn't hammer you over the head with the oppressiveness of it's world and characters. Instead it let's you use a drone to solve a laser puzzle while listening to DJ Quik. And that is why I love this game so much.

Ratchet and Clank

Since Size Matters way back on the PSP, I've been a fan of Ratchet and Clank. So, I was looking forward to this PS4 remaining of the original game, and it even managed to surpass my expectations. It's blend of platforming, 3rd person shooting, and ridiculous humor and weapons has been perfected here. After playing more than half a dozen games in the series, the fact that this formula still manages to deliver this much fun is impressive. Add one of the most fun platinum trophies I've earned all last year, and you have what is hopefully a fantastic new start for one of PlayStation's greatest franchises.

Uncharted 4: A Thief's End

My love for Uncharted 4 snuck up on me. I've been a fan of the franchise for years, but by the end of this game's epilogue, I realized just how much I cared about Nate, Elena, and friends. The graphical detail, performances and setpieces are all top notch and Naughty Dog continues to prove that they are the most talented developer in the industry. But besides giving Nathan Drake the most fitting of sendoffs, they also delivered a fantastic multiplayer mode. I continued to surprise myself by how much I kept coming back after each content update. And it's recently added Survival co-op is sure to take up even more of my free time. It's hard to deny how perfect of a package this game is.

DOOM

I've made it painfully obvious that I love Doom, but even I was surprised that it made the top of my list. But the more I thought about it, it made perfect sense. I love first person shooters. It's varied weapons, platforming, and abundance of collectibles was reminiscent of Ratchet and Clank. It's hilariously ridiculous tone kept me just interested enough in the world to want to keep running through demons. In addition, it's mechanics fed into each other in brilliant ways. It's frenetic combat tapped into adolescent Quake Live reflexes that I assumed were long forgotten. And it's melee finishers we're so gleefully brutal that I found myself excited to see the next one. I even adored the multiplayer, which many wrote off as a soulless addition to a stellar campaign. This all combines to make one of the greatest FPS games of the last decade, and my game of the year.