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The Nakamoto household - facts & theories masterpost
Table of contents:
the hierarchy & general situation
The parents
The Maizuru situation
The siblings
The other retainers
Izutsumi
Toshiro
Conclusion
I also made tldr summary charts here. This post is about collecting facts about the setting and characters, but itās gonna be a lot of analysis on what it means through the lens of Toshiro as well, his relationship and place in everything etc etc. They have entangled drama the scale of Daltian Clan. Things are so interwoven itās hard to keep topics neatly in their own section, because of this pictures may be relevant at several point of this but I mostly wonāt be putting them in twice, you might have to do some scrolling up while reading if you want the visual proof to accompany statements. Unlike with Chilchuckās family thereās less ambiguousness and more intricate details and implications so itās less theorizing & headcanoning and more stringing together all the crumbs canon gave us. I also dig into some cultural parallels, especially since characters from Wa are the most culturally coded in the series. Also disclaimer that Iāll be calling Shuro Toshiro through this whole thing because thatās his actual name & Shuro isnāt even a nickname heās shown to like, for accuracyās sake. The servant girls have real names but are always called by their code names so Iāll call them as such, except for Izutsumi who was named Asebi which I wonāt be using.
The general situation
To start off, whatās the situation in canon? All three kids of the head of the house, the three sons (Toshiro and his two younger brothers), are sent out on a vague mission to find something interesting for his father to pick the heir. Each son is thus on their own journey, out with their own group of retainers for an unsure length of time, during canon itās been 2 years that Toshiro left the house for this mission, and they seemingly all drifted towards dungeons. Itās important to remember that this state of things is the exception and not the rule, and before this the sons lived at home and had different uses of their time, and the retainers had other jobs than care after them. See the next paragraph.
The household offers ninja services, no exaggeration or misuse of the term, mostly spyint but also "covert maneuvers" which could include anything including assassination of people high up. Thatās the job of their servants/retainers at least, the heads themselves are more like managers probably, possibly samurais themselves though especially since as we see with the heirs (besides the samurai armor) they also got trained in fighting as their skills showcase. I need to dig into the history of samurais more before I can draw the parallel confidently though. The Nakamoto household is noble/wealthy, distinguished as the Adventurerās Bible puts it, but it works for and puts its service at use for "their local lord". It buys servants, but also has families who have served it for generations like with Hien. The comic shows that there arenāt only women servants, itās just the ones we see all happen to be because Toshiroās retainers are only a small team of all of Nakamotoās servants.
Above, in a page showcasing charactersā relationships with their party leader: ē¶č¦Ŗć®éØäøćåćć¦ććē¶ę
ćŖć®ć§ć č·é¢ććććDoubtlessly there must be a translation of this already somewhere but Iām lazy and impatient so I turned to machine translation instead, this translates into: "Since he is borrowing his father's subordinates, there is a distance between him and them". Calling the servants retainers is what most of the fandom does and itās accurate so Iāll be calling them this.
Hien and Toshiro were childhood friends which means the servants do have some degree of contact not even just together but with the heirs too, or maybe just specifically Hien, since both their parents were ninjas for the Nakamotos she ended up getting raised there and they let her play with him as an exception? They did end up drifting away as adults as their relationship got more professional, so itās possible. The servants eat and sleep in shared spaces, separate from the masters, though Maizuru has her own bedroom, if the room configuration at the in is to be believed + itād make sense since sheās governess/head servant. Iām hesitant wether to say itās implied that this group of 4 retainers was always a bit of a team or it wasnāt and got formed for Toshiro specifically. We know that Benichidori had little contact with Toshiro before they were sent out together for example, but we do see all three girls with Izutsumi in Inutadeās extra when they were younger, and them eating in the same japanese styled room etc. The inn they stay at on The Island is western styled though they do have futons rather than beds (thereās only one bed in their shared room and Hien has it because of her rank).
From Izutsumiās Adventurerās Bible profile: "Maizuru, who was also Shuro's governess, is the one thing Izutsumi fears. After Izutsumi was taken in by the Nakamoto family, Maizuru forced her through a harsh training regimen of speech, common sense, and fighting skills. Since Izutsumi refused to listen to her, Maizuru set a curse on her that would activate if Maizuru didn't touch her within a set time frame: "Ninja Art: Babysitter." "
Maizuru, called a governess, is the one training the girls, at least some of them, we know for a fact she was the one to train Izutsumi for example, and in general sheās the one in charge of the ninja girls we see. She was a ninja herself but retired from frontline missions, but has a central role managing the servants instead. Inutade for example is strong but not stealthy, and itās said that itās Maizuruās job to choose how to train her and what role to give her in consequence. Her training includes manners but fighting as well, notably kunais and martial arts. Hien is shown to use bombs and Benichidori is implied to be good at disguises, Inutade uses a bold weapon like a club but itās implied with "ogres and clubs just go together" and Maizuru not knowing where to put her to use that itās uncommon for Nakamoto servants to use those. Their board game artworks also show their specialties neatly. When brought into the household, the servants are given new names and their whole lives become devotion to the house and their duties. The names might be intended to act as code names due to them being ninjas? Itās implied that they never use their non-code names anymore once they start serving the household. Maizuruās training also contains language and "common sense"ā¦ Critical thinking? As well as implied etiquette. This isnāt surprising, as she was the one put in charge of raising not only Toshiro but his brothers as well.
Oh yes I want to mention that all the retainersā "first deaths" are in the dungeon during canon, considering our main cast weāre used to death being permissible because dungeons make resurrections possible, but itās relevant to remember that these people never died before. Never. These girls are professionals, ninjas with a sometimes very dangerous job. Messing up means death, permanently.
From what we see and with who we see, the hierarchy is:
Father (head of house, his word goes)
Mother (has status which puts her wishes above othersā and give her some control over the house, itās unsure how much though, but hierarchy wise sheās very much above the rest but below the father)
Maizuru (governess, in charge of (at least some) servants and raising Toshiro. Two dots)
Hien (leader of their squad, trained servant from a family devoted to the Nakamotos. Two dots)
Benichidori (trained bought servant. Two dots)
Inutade and Izutsumi (bought servants. Power wise from their rank itās unsure just how much the difference between Inutade (who has one dot), Izutsumi (who has none) and Benichidori (who has two) is, since Hien is team leader between the four servants at least thatās measurable. Inutade gets some janitor duties, and Izutsumi has a curse put on her so she doesnāt run away I suppose. Power wise itās unsure, but socially/role wise Inutade and especially Asebi are treated worse.)
I didnāt add the sons because Iām talking more generally about the power structure and itād depend on each sibling, like Toshiroās wants and directives during canon trump Maizuruās, but Maizuru is also his nanny and manages the girls so she has a lot of importance and sway even on the final decisions.
The parents
I am so pissed I forgot that we know Toshiroās fatherās name, Toshitsugu, from these panels showing the progression of the family tree. I am so pissed Iām adding this halfway into writing this whole thing, I am not gonna go back and replace every "the father" by his name atm.
The father is the part of this puzzle most important yet most shrouded in mystery, or rather a lack of details. What we do know paints a pretty full and vivid portrait: impulsive and cares mainly about his own entertainment. Maizuru calls him a fool, his sons are exasperated and go "This again?" when he summons them saying that theyāre boring/dull, everyone knows heās having an affair and he often has undignified demeanor, but what he says goes so yes Maizuru will take Izutsumi under her wing, yes the sons will be going out right away into the world to find you the 8th world wonder, yes whatever you want lord. He seems to have little care for how his action affects others, like crashing into Maizuruās room at night and asking she take care of a catgirl, or sending out his sons suddenly with kicks to the butts. He does what he wants hen he wants and others have to comply.
Like we see with Izutsumi and Inutade, he tends to take a liking to slaves here and there and buy them on the spot, usually at entertainment places, like sumo wrestling matches for Inutade and a freakshow for Izutsumi. The Adventurerās Bible states him acquiring Inutade as "By coincidence, Shuro's father came to see her first match; he liked her and bought her for the Nakamoto family." and Izutsumi as "She was on display as a "cat-girl" in a sideshow when Shuro's father took an interest in her and bought her." In Maizuruās extra, he calls Izutsumi a "souvenir" he got for her, and heās drunk so it could well be assumed that buying Izutsumi was a drunken whim, and that he mitht be alcoholic. You canāt really say that he picks them out because he sees potential in them to be a ninja or would be useful, since with Izutsumi she had no fighting training and Inutade doesnāt fit the skills they seek like stealth and she has trouble fitting in. You could assign noble goals to him like maybe wanting to help or relating to the misfits, but I think with what we see of him itās more likely that he likes to pick up "oddities", like a catgirl at a freakshow or an ogre, especially since one of the only things we know of him is he wants his sons to bring back interesting trophies from their travels. Toshiro, about his father buying Inutade, says: "People in power desire ogre as servants, and ogres are chosen as opponents in tests of strengths or military exploits. My father bought her for similar reasons."
Also from this we can infer that he goes out to events often, like circus and sumo wrestling, again mostly for entertainment from what we see. I like to think itās implied that he used to travell maybe still does, due to his own liking for it as a test and because he visits various places like the sideshow, plus his forearm scars in Toshiroās extraā¦ But him being a samurai in service of a lord could definitely explain that.
This all paints an interesting picture doesnāt itā¦ The Nakamotoās lifestyle is super encased in rules and social propriety, duty and hierarchy. Old noble man whoās been surrounded by propriety all his life and just wants some spark of interesting stuff happening amongst the humdrum of his lavish cushioned life at home, and is shitty to people around him in consequence and due to his privilege allowing him to. Heās despicable, but from his 3 appearances he becomes an interesting well-fleshed character, at least proportionally to the screentime he getsā¦
We also know that the affair with Maizuru is well known at least inside the household, so thereās no genuine secrecy around the topic. Makes sense that the wife would hate her guts.
Ahh yes the mother. Little is known about the mother, except that from Maizuruās profile "Shuroās mother canāt stand the sight of her, to the point where there are areas on the property Maizuru is forbidden to enter. Maizuru, however, is impressed by his wifeās strength of character." From this I glean that she does have enough power/respect in the house that she can make rules like where Maizuru is allowed to go. Also the implication that otherwise Mazuru would have access to EVERYWHERE in the house despite being only a (high-ranking) servant is a bit interesting. Wether the motherās "strength of character" is overt and hot-headed or understated and cool-headed is unsure, but I imagine the latter more. I could see Maizuruās angle in many ways, from being able to tolerate "that fool" aka the father both just in general and with knowing that heās cheating on her, to knowing how hard it is to be respected as a woman and admiring her putting up with it all and still being able to have sway in the household. This is I think the only mention of the mother anywhere. Doesnāt seem like she is an important figure to Toshiro at all: in fact we hear about her on Maizuruās profile, and seeing all of this we can see the importance of her in Maizuruās backstory and life, moreso than Toshiroās. I imagine sheās a bit of a recluse, which is part of why Maizuru not being allowed to roam the full house is important, because them running into each other at the house is high.
Itās unsure how much contact the parents have with their kids. What we know is that they left the principal tasks of raising the kids, or at least Toshiro, to servants. Toshiroās profile says that heās more attached to Maizuru than his parents, and thatās the phrasing. From the comic where their father summons the sons, it does seem like theyāre more or less used to interacting, with the sonsā "This again?". So itās not that theyāve only interacted with them few times enough to count on fingers, but how meaningful were those interactions? From Toshiroās profile we know he has a complex where he thinks heāll never get recognition from his father or be able to measure up to himā¦ But is that more born out of secondhand gossip and expectations, or from direct interactions with him that made him feel that way? Likely a mix of both, especially since the father does seem to be very dismissive, uncaring and insulting with his sons. Oh, but itās definitely notable that in the Hag monster tidbit (below in Maizuruās section) six years old Toshiro runs to his father scared shitless for help against the shikigami, and his father casually helps him without batting an eye. Toshitsugu knows how to deal with Maizuruās shikigamis, and he does so efficiently and without any sense of worry or urgency. Although the event traumatized Toshiro and he was very scared, it doesnāt seem like his father offered any comfort, beyond just helping getting rid of it and letting him cower behind him without comment. Toshitsugu gives hungover vibes in that one imo haha. Itās shown he was already training as a ninja, perhaps this event only reinforced Toshiroās complex, seeing his father, the samurai the achieved man who has expectations for him, so unfazed and uncaring like that.
The Maizuru situation
Letās establish a timeline first. Itās left vague how much time sheās served the Nakamoto family for, or how she came to be in their service. The central point is that "She was put in charge of raising their children at a young age". If straight from his birth, Maizuru started taking care of Toshiro when she was 15 years old. If from toddler age, then 16. Itās uncertain if when she stopped getting front-line espionage missions, but we know itās late rather than early despite having kid raising duties. But well, since sheās also in charge of the ninjas sheās definitely has a multitasking role even now.
The dad prob has around 5-10 years more than Maizuru, Iād say. We only see half of his face and only a good few years in the past, around ~3 years ago probably with the shuro quest and a good 7 years with Izutsumi as a kid, but visually those are the vibes Iām getting. From Toshiroās birth, itās possible that the father was 15 when the baby was born too? But conception would have been closer to 14 years old then, and yeah I donāt think they marry and have kids that young. Toshiro is 26 years old in canon and is unmarried, and the heir hasnāt been officially picked, so marriage and kids donāt seem to be in the familyās priorities. Even if Maizuru do say that the father would love if Toshiro brought back a wife.
Now the elephant in the room: she has an on-and-off affair with the father and it has been si for many many years, at LEAST 7 years since thatās when we see that comic of him going into her chambers about Izutsumi, and in the comic above, Hien in that panel has an ambiguous age. Regardless itās definitely implied that itās a long, long-standing thing. Hienās phrasing above makes it sound as if itās not purely physical, as if feelings are involved, "heās head over heels for his confidante", and who knows if this relationship is part of why Maizuru was chosen to be the governess, or even hired at all.
Itās in the feud with his father that we learn about maizuruās affair and how after learning it he started shutting her out emotionally. Itās left vague when Toshiro learned about it, Hien made it sound as if everybody always more or less knew but I donāt think Toshiro started shutting her out when he was still pretty young. Regardless, the two are implied to be linked, his dislike of his father/complex and how he stopped getting along well with Maizuru/being emotionally open with her. Is it that he now feels as though Maizuru is actually on his fatherās side and not his own, that after all if she had to choose sheād pick him over Toshiro too? Or is it that, because his fatherās known to be a self-centered frivolous jerk, that knowing she lets it happen, "canāt seem to shake it", he respects her less? He has an irresponsible reputation and she does give off the vibe of needing to clean up his messes, so that wouldnāt be unplausible either.
On the flipside from her perspective, since he learned she was his dadās mistress he emotionally shut her out, which can partly explain why sheās SO fussy with him and happy at the slightest hint of happiness or compliance, like when he listens to her and eats, or maybe even being happy that he lets her help him dress and keep tidy (imo this is supported by how they interact in the page showing him interacting with all his party members). She wants to regain that closeness they once had and for her baby chick to be alright as heās slipping through her fingers. Man so sad to think about him rejecting her when heās the only thing in her life. Sheās raised him for 26 years, no wonder sheās so attached to him, the only thing in her life she feels true unconditional attachment for. Maizuru says that she thinks Toshiroāll be a better head of the house than the father, too. The respect and care is somewhat onesided, given freely from her side but repressed from his end. When she cares for Toshiro is when her demeanor immediately and drastically softens. She gets easily carried away when it comes to him, rambling enthusiastically or smiling widely or tearing up. Her tendency to ramble or tell anecdotes about Toshiro is shown making Hien and Benichidori go "Here she goes againā¦" twice through canon.
With Izutsumiās timeline we see Izutsumi was taken into the Nakamoto household at 10 yo, and since in the comic with Maizuru and the dad sheās shown as stinky and all I imagine she arrived there the same day, so Maizuru was in charge of her since she was first here. In fact if we assumed that itās the same day as when he bought her at the circus show, then we could assume that buying her was a drunken whim like mentioned.
Since Izutsumi was taken in at 10 and sheās 17, this would mean that Maizuru is 34 years old here. She looks younger without makeup, but lower than that is mathematically impossible besides maybe 33 if Maizuru and Izutsumiās birthdays line up just right.
Time for the second elephant in the room!!
Maizuruās magic
Maizuru is the only person in the Nakamoto household, anyone from Wa really, who we see using magic, I doubt sheād be the only one who can use magic in the household but as the governess it wouldnāt be unplausible I suppose. From what we see, the magic is estimated by Marcille to be an "appropriation of gnomic magic" with an eastern script. For my analysis of written magic (though with only a brief glance over Maizuruās magic), see this post.
If you scroll up and read the little section on Maizuruās profile, Ninja art: babysitter: "One of the curses put on Izutsumi is Ninja Art: Babysitter, which manifests as a terrifying hag shikigami. Unless Maizuru touches the victim within a set time frame, this terrible curse makes a hag appear and chase them around with a carving knife. Maizuru originally created it in an attempt to keep Shuro from getting lost, but it ended up traumatizing himā¦"
From Izutsumiās profile: "Maizuru, who was Shuroās governess, is the one thing Izutsumi fears. [ā¦] Since Izutsumi refused to listen to her, Maizuru set a curse on her that would activate if Maizuru didnāt touch her within a set time frame: "Ninja Art: Babysitter." It was put on her when she was 12. Since Toshiro had it as a kid, presumably the curse can be lifted off rather easily, Marcille was confident on reverse engineering it as well. Itās unsaid what the time frame is, itās kept vague everywhere and Izutsumi herself says "who knows" how long it is. Izutsumi ran away despite the very real risk of it killing her. Essentially, Maizuru can put people in a timebomb collar
ā¦ MAIZURU WHAT THE HELL
As we might have expected, Maizuru being given the task of rasing a child at 15 did not go perfectly. This, a babysitting technique??! This comic happens when Toshiro was 6 and so Maizuru was 21. Interesting to note that Toshiro didnāt even know it was Maizuruās doing before this conversation during canon, and he doesnāt know how to bring it up or deal with it how it affected him. Maizuru seems surprisingly uncaring of Toshiroās feelings on the matter here, oblivious to his conflict her and fondly recalling it all.
This curse is a shikigami. From her profile: "A shikigami user, Maizuru has a variety of shikigami that have been sealed in paper as her servants. Her favorite seems to be Gyuki, a bull ogre." Now donāt ask me when Gyuki appears, I do not remember it. But before we go into the cultural/historical basis for this practice, letās take a second to recognize the parallel that Maizuru has servants she keeps sealed unless useful in the moment, even despite having enough "attachment" to have a favorite. Sheās the governess in charge of the other servants, and she has shikigamis, which she has used on the heir and the runt at the bottom of the hierarchy alike.
Shikigami, in traditional japanese folklore, are conjured to exercise risky orders for their masters, such as spying, stealing and enemy tracking.Ā ShikigamiĀ are said to be invisible most of the time, but they can be made visible by binding them into small, folded and artfully cut paper manikins.
Shikigamis are from onmyodo, onmyoji is a profession-legal title historically but itās what you call a practitioner of onmyodo, and so I feel content in saying that Maizuru is an onmyoji, or based on it. Her outfit reminds me of a shinto priest. Itās interestingly closer to a shinto priest outfit than a miko/shrine maidenās (in picture below, 2 instead of 5), and I feel like red being chosen for the inner sleeve is a very charged decision since the white & red color combo is the shinto clothes color combo. Especially white clothes with red inner sleeve. Shinto priests can be women nowadays but theyāre rare, and onmyojis can be considered shinto priests though itās a more complex than that. Image below as example, source. Now I donāt think Maizuru has the role or prestige of a priest at all- But the association with onmyodo and spirituality is definitely meant to be made I think. Onmyojis are usually clothed similarly to this.
The babysitter ninja art seems to be based off of the hannya yokai. "They were once human women who were consumed by jealousy and transformed into demonesses", twisted by anger and resentment. Interesting considering her being a mistress to a man whose wife hates her. Hannyas are associated with wisdom because of its name, but there is nothing positive about them. At its highest level of "demonic corruption" if I can call it that, their body tend to become serpentine, fun link to make with her name being from the snakeberry plant.
Other cultural ties or symbolism on Maizuruās character could be found in the motif of cranes due to her sleeves, in the tales of the crane wife, origami cranes (called orizuru, from deformation of 鶓 "tsuru" aka "crane". All names are written in katakanas in Dungeon Meshi, but thus if we had had the kanjis itās possible her name would have been written with the kanji for crane), tennyos, and japanese crane symbolism in general. I thought cranes might have been associated with motherhood, but seemingly not in japanese culture at least, I was thinking of storks haha.
Ok speaking of her name. Maizuru is the name of an existing japanese city (č鶓), meaning "dancing crane". From @room-surpriseās work in progress research paper on Dungeon Meshi charactersā names: "Maizuru is her ninja code name, and comes from āmaizurusouā, which is maianthemum dilatatum, the snakeberry plant/two-leaved Solomon's seal/false lily of the valley. Lily of the Valley is a plant associated with motherhood and virtueā¦ So Maizuru being a false Lily of the Valley implies that she is a false, replacement mother, and also hints at the way that Toshiro became cold towards her when he realized she was his fatherās mistress, and not a pure, virtuous mother-like figure that he thought she was. Also, lilies are toxic to cats, which makes sense since Maizuru and Izutsumi have an extremely bad relationship." For more details Iāll leave it up to Room when the paper is ready to be released. Edit: Itās out!! Click here! Incredible meta that goes into a ton of details not only about Maizuru.
So some big themes of her character are: (false) motherhood, spirituality/magic, control, cranes, womanās jealousy.
The siblings
Alriight so besides Toshiro the eldest at 26 years old, there is Toshiyuki (Toshitsuge in one fantranslation) the middle son and Toshizane the youngest (Toshikage in one fantranslation). They were all said to be raised by Maizuru. "A strange level of distance" is interesting. Why strange? I feel like this implies they do interact regularly, and that theyāre all rather civil wirh each other, but they still have little bond to speak of. That wouldnāt surprise me, especially since even inside the family etiquette and propriety and rules are enforced, the summoning by his father feels very formal and they all listen to him standing in silence despite having snappy inner thoughts. Itās unsure if they were largely raised together or apart, but since Maizuru was their (at least main) caretaker/governess it implies that they were imo. They were put in competition with each other for the title of heir to the house, though itās unsure to what degree. Itās examplified by their family all having names that start with "Toshi" that the legacy is very important and thrust upon them, cogs in a machine almost. They all think the same thing when their father summons them and has a spiel, so theyāre used to the same sort of treatment and they are indeed brothers for being on similar wavelengths haha.
Toshiyuki, as seen in the comic about his retainers, the poor soul sent into Darkest Dungeon, is brattish. Rude, selfish and rather lecherous, does not hesitate to be mean to his retainers and complain he wasnāt given women retainers. Visually he looks what, 14 years old top. I wonder if Maizuru stopped using her babysitter ninja art on the heirs after it traumatized Toshiro, and if so maybe that explains why Toshiyuki Knows No Fear In His Heartā¢ļø and thatās why he can spout off stuff like that.
The retainers for the youngest brother, Toshizane, donāt seem to be as clad in ninja gear as the other two, seems like the priority is to take care of the very young young master there? Rather than truly go adventuring and dungeoneering, perhaps. Not that itās ever said by anyone that their quest is to go into dungeons specifically, only to find something "interesting" to bring back, but both Toshiro and Toshiyuki are shown to have ended up drifting into dungeons. Toshizane looks young, Iād clock him 8 years old personally. Heās drawn looking rather innocent, especially the headshot doodle above and in the Toshitsuge complaining about his retainers comic. ALTHOUGH on the latter, interestingly as we see with Toshiro having a smug smirk in that same panel (or alternatively a smug indifferent/uncomfortable "i donāt care about this, even though you want it so much" look which at the very least is very exaggerated from how he emotes in reality), itās Toshiyukiās unreliable/exaggerated vision of his brothers and it doesnāt necessaeily reflect reality, though itās still interesting to note that thatās the vision Toshiyuki has of his brothers/the impression Toshizane gives off. That can imply juicy dynamics for the brothers, for example if Toshiyuki feels as though heās in competition with his brothers, feels superior to them, that instead of pushing the shitty family dynamic angst onto his father he puts the blame for it all onto Toshiro. Toshizane seems maybe too young to notice the tensions and seriousness around him, maybe more coddledā¦ IS WHAT I WOULD SAY BUT in the comic where their father send them away heās as well-behaved and serious as the others, so clearly he has a grasp on his role.
When talking about which retainers go with who, itās said it was the fatherās choice. Iād like to assume it wasnāt an airheaded/random choice. Maybe he knew that Toshiyuki would be weird about having women in his team of retainers? And wants to forge their character or protect them in the way they need. Though how Toshiroās party only has women isnāt only pointed out and commented on by the comic with Toshitsuge but also in the main Dungeon Meshi story, both Marcille and Chilchuck going "his party is fully made up of women", one more loudly than the other haha. So it does feel like a somewhat pointed/purposeful decision, if not that the 4 girls were already a team like I mentioned.
The other retainers
Already made an analysis of Hien and Benichidoriās relationship (+ moment compilation) here. Honestly my juices are exhausted so quick rundown:
Hienās parents both serve the Nakamotos, so she grew up with the family and was even a childhood friend of Toshiro. She assumed he and her might end up in a Maizuru-Toshitsugu situation ājust because thatās how things areā/āitād be a natural developmentā if weāre to believe Hien, ahh what growing up at the Nakamotosā with those role models will make you believe is normal hah, and was surprised when it ended up not in that way at all. They grew more distant with time, in good part because of the professional nature of their roles in relation to each other (truly a reversal of the Maizuru-Toshitsugu situation). Sheās the leader of their lil squad, under Maizuru, sheās very confident and she gets the perks, like getting the bedframe in the shared inn room. For all the details just read her page. She has two dots, showing her rank as a full fledged ninja. I made a more in depth more speculative reading of her in this post.
Benichidori was bought, by "the Nakamotos" so we donāt know who made the final decision. Sheās perceptive and submissive, her specialty is implied to be disguise. She never had much contact with Toshiro before she became part of his party. She has facial dysmorphia where she fears the judgement of others if she doesnāt wear makeup and highly values beauty, in her extra her anxiety really shows and she ends up angrily snapping at Hien. Benichidori ends up taking a big liking to Hien and from there on theyāre implied to be inseparable. She has two dots, showing her rank as a full fledged ninja.
Inutade is said to worship Toshitsugu because he "saved her" from her horrible life conditions, buying her personally from the sumo matches, sheās extremely grateful to the family and is happy to do any work they give her and is highly satisfied with her current living conditions. She seems to find Toshiro intimidating, though. She was separated from her parents from before she can remember and raised as a sumo wrestler in inhumane betting matches, where her front tooth broke. It seems she has very littke ambitions and dreams besides obeying orders day to day, but after Izutsumi fled away she was happy for her and mused that sheād love to go out and find her one day. Theyāre so besties Izutsumi gave her a dream of her own Iām sobbingā¦ </3 She has one dot, showing she still has to be attributed her role and earn her stripes.
Their approval rating of their leader. The highest total score from all the parties.
Izutsumi
Sighh where to even begin. Her timeline was put in Maizuruās section of this post but the rundown is "taken away from parents and turned into a beastkin" at 6 yo (the human half of her soul), "sent to a sideshow on the island of Wa" at 7 yo and bought by Toshitsugu at 10 yo when he took an interest in her when he visited the sideshow. Maizuru put the curse on Izutsumi at age 12, so from then on she always had to not stray much far from Maizuru or risk death, itās unsure if Inutadeās extra is from before that time, before she was 12, so she could still attempt many many tries to run away. If thatās the case, then Maizuruās curse was very much treated as a last resort, honestly beyond everything else I can see it being a pain that Maizuru would need to touch her every so often on Maizuruās schedule as well. The alternative is that, not unlike Kabru who had no regrets dying in a dungeon rather than staying with Milsiril, sheād risk her life to get a taste of freedom. Besides, you know, being a slave and having a timebomb collar with Maizuruās curse, her frustrations with her life with the Nakamotos is most concisely put in the comic just up above, Inutadeās extra.
She has no dot tattoo, meaning sheās at rock bottom of the hierarchy. It makes sense, since unlike Inutade sheās rebellious and needs threats to obey orders, and even then might try shifty business.
This last part where Izutsumi tries sleeping with Toshiro is most interesting to me. So sheās sought out contact with Toshiro before, she considers him "the stuck-up guy" but she doesnāt exactly hate him. I wonder if this comic is set in the inn on The Island or back at the Nakamoto household, because if thatās the latter it implies that she could get access to his room if sheās sneaky.
Oh oh also, this is fanon but since Toshiroās weapon is one used usually on horseback, and with the steadfast and upright character of horses I associate Toshiro with horses a bit, though this is wild fanon. Whatās interesting is that the plant Asebi was named after is a plant infamous for being toxic to horses. Hehe hehehe he wears a ponytailā¦ Hm now that I think of it hairdos have importance for samurais, should look into that.
Toshiro
God. Ok. Everything was leading up to this guy. Need to split open his head like a geode and vibecheck his brain crystals. Letās get some interesting details out of the way first.
His weapon is a tachi, not a katana. The wikipedia on tachis is more in depth if you want, but I consider the article I linked to be in deoth and digestible. Tachis are heavier and longer blades than katanas, and make for better horseback weapons than close combat. The way Toshiro uses one instead of a katakana shows that heās extra strongā¦ And does make sense, since most monsters wonāt fight in as close quarters as human fighters. If katanas arenāt a thing in the world yet could make a difference, since tachis were invented first, and once the katana was invented and spread tachis became something more common in higher-ranking samurais. In the monster tidbit of the Hag, itās shown that even at 6 years old Toshiro was training and learning ninja skills, his first instinct to the shikigami besides running being to fight.
Toshiro knew that Izutsumi wanted to leave, for sure. He may have been sympathetic, if his cryptic look back at her in the āToshiro interacting with his party membersā page means anything. As seen below though, him being sympathetic doesnāt necessarily mean that much. Also, Toshiro had to have known about the curse on Izutsumi, where if Maizuru doesnāt touch her once in a while sheād die. "Asebi must have ran away, leave her" can be seen as subtle support for her to gain her freedom, but it could just as easily be seen as him leaving her behind to die. Because the outcome options are 1) she gets killed by Maizuru's curse, 2) she finds a way to break the spell, 3) she finds a way back to them.
Heās very conflict averse. Wether it be in relationships like with Laios or the status quo. Will not stand up for 99% things including himself. He obeys his father quietly despite his anger and dislike. This is the same guy who can't even get himself to speak up to correct the butchering of his name, the slippery slope that got him tangled in the Laios party seemingly without resistance. Itās very japanese etiquette from even nowadays, never saying a direct no to not be rude. ALSO THAT PANEL, has Toshiro beaten an ogre before?? Is that a brother of his?? Does seem in character for Toshiyuki the most, unless Toshiro was desperate to earn his fatherās attention with feats. On the right Iād say the ones in the foreground are two of the brothers, maybe the third being the one to gesture to the ogre. Itās worth noting that inheritance laws during the Edo period often made the heir the son with "the most merit".
When with a goal thatās important to him heās fine with even starving for it. Although what we see him be like that about in canon is Falin, aka self-admittedly in the post-canon proposal comic "the first person he has liked this much", which for him I feel is like admitting sheās one of the first things he has truly wanted for himself and fought for, sooā¦ Itās more like an exceptional freaking out moment than something that would be recurring, most likely. How disheveled he got is a testament to how much he would forego propriety and rules for people of his status for the person he cares about most. Maizuru says the first personal request heās (ever?) made was for them to help him rescue Falin.
Which ahh yes, his crush on Falin. I do think idealization plays into it, he doesnāt know Falin that well for sure, but itās more complex than that too. Falin is pretty and can have an ethereal energy to her, sheās caring and gentle kinda motherly which Toshiro would find soothing I imagine, BUT MOST OF ALL. Sheās weird!! Sheās just weird enough to allow and be charmed by!! Shuro was fully shaped by his upbringing and environment of nobility, social etiquette and whatnot. Yeah sheās weird and quirky, but still quiet and sweet-mannered enough that heās like "Yes, she wouldnāt bring shame on my family name". And why would he be charmed by her weirdness? Because all heās ever known is rules!! Conformity, fitting in!! Unlike the others he knows, she is weird without being overbearing as well. "Woah sheās so differentā¦ Sheās kind and soft and doesnāt care about fitting inā¦ She is out of this world, sheās free, she shows me a world where tenderness and authenticity is possibleā¦" Sheās like his comfort character. MOREOVERRR I had totally forgotten about it, but Toshiro was shown watching a snail behind a bush and losing sight of everything else (like Maizuru calling him) as a kid in the Hag monster tidbit, the moment he fell in love with Falin it was when she looked enthralled at a caterpillar and he mentions how "most girls would have screamed or recoiled in disgust", and in the beach chibis page heās crouching and collecting shells thinking about Falinā¦ He likes bugs and crawly critters guys, he wishes he could be cottagecore tooā¦ Itās a genuine shared interestā¦ . Someone pointed out that Toshiro & Falinās relationship probaboy references this japanese folk tale, and I think thatās very interesting to note.
And Maizuru is like his mom but itās a Thistle situation where they canāt just be a normal family and normal affectionate either- and when he learns about his father having a thing with her he feels weirded out. And like. Who knows how much he even got out of the mansion. He got homeschooled. Heās distant with his brothers. The family is in shambles
Shuroās issue is that he was taught to be perfect and have the upmost respectable behavior, so if something annoys him he has to be righteous about it and that itās the annoying thingās fault or moral failing. Bro just let yourself be petty sometimes itās healthier. With the feud with his father itās explicitly stated that the pressure and expectations of the family name weigh on him a lot.
But then, that makes his beef with Laios so understandable doesnāt it. Not justified, but explained certainly.
Laios & Shuro and the whole mess coming to a head
Iāve made an analysis of the Laios-Shuro fight from Laiosā pov before, here. This is the Shuro pov analysis. Yes yes in The Fight, Shuro is dehydrated sleep-deprived and underate, heās majorly off his rocker, BUT his frustration and the underlying issues are still things he felt on any day and itās interesting to note.
Toshiro has been raised from his birth with the priority of propriety, nobility, etiquette, rules, conforming elegantly, appareances and reputation are everything. Heās modest, humble, quiet, stays in his lane and bottles all his feelings up. Wait who is this loud guy coming up to me being inconsiderate and loud af?? Does he not see me blinking in morse code that Iām not enjoying this and want him to leave?? Was he raised in a barn?? Heās overbearing and rude and way too friendly- Heās weird wtf! Not conforming to basic etiquette is illegal??! And people justā¦ Let him do whateve he wants?? He lives well, no one stops him or kills him?? What the fuck, Iāve followed rules and etiquette thoroughly all my life, and itās thankless work I get no recognition for, meanwhile he gets to be oblivious af and do whatever he wants without getting clapped?? Resentment, frustration, dislike, anger anger anger, jealousy.
Laios might even remind Toshuro of his dad in a way, because he SEEMS impulsive and like he does whatever he wants without a care to people around him, without thinking of how it might affect them. Doing things without thinking through the Implications. And interestingly this is a bit paralleled to to how Shuro is serious, strict, and big on the duties that come with having a leader role and the family dynamic it brings, like Laiosā own father, who Laios also dislikesā¦ Dealing with his anger towards Laios, especially knowing that Laios doesnāt mean anything bad by it like Toshiro admits, is probably very healing to him. He stops repressing and thinks through his issues a bit, realizes what parts of his life heās unhappy with and where all the negative feelings come from. I do think he bottles up his dislike for his father a bit, he has to at least for appearances. His beef with Laios is repackaged internalized anger for his father, but itās ALSO repackaged frustration from his etiquette-bound lifestyle. He says it himself, when Laios is like "You never told Falin how you feelā¦? Alright, when I can Iāll tell her for you buddy!!", "thatās the part of you that I envy". Laiosā ability to just come out and say what he wants to, what he means. He wishes he could be free of all the rules more, that he had te courage to speak out, like with Inutade, or talking things out with Maizuru, or nit having to act like heās not angry with his father. This narrative point of Toshiro envying Laiosā ability to say things freely and being frustrated by not being able to himself is ESPECIALLY examplified by their first interactions, the basis of their relationship: Laios enthusiastically befriending him, giving him a bad nickname and roping him into joining his party, with Toshiro never turning it all down despite wanting to, too hesitant to act possibly rude.
And now is time for the laishuro addendumā¦ Because of personal experiences itās a bit of a sensitive spot to me so while I see timelines in which I enjoy it Iām very pickyā¦ This is all further theorizing from me btw Iām not pushing my view here onto ppl as facts, but I think thereās more interesting bits and scenarios to bite into here. Laishuro has very cute and sweet potential. I personally donāt see the "Oh wait Laios is just girl Falinā¦Ā š³" angle because to me if anything thatād just make Shuro disillusioned with Falin lol, but like yes make Shuro learn that itās ok to be weird with Laios š„ŗ They DO have differences first of all, important ones, especially from Toshiroās perspective. Laios is overwhelming, whereas Falin is soothing. Laios is loud and asks things of him where Falin is a calm, quiet presence. Laios pushes himself onto Toshiro, whereas Falin is content on just doing her own thing in her corner alone.
Hot take but the ultimate laishuro timeline is the one where he DOESNāT bring Laios back home, because he knows heāll be seen as an oddity and clown by his father, and he doesnāt want Laios to be treated like the tapdancing monkey there to please and entertain his father the way he himself has always kind of been. Wouldnāt inflict that onto someone he loves. He can recognize when people are taken advantage of (mostly) like Inutade, and it doesnāt settle right with him. He might be especially sensitive to it in Inutadeās case because itās about seeing his dad in a better light than he deserves, though. His father is his weak spot, THE weak spot.
It gets me so emotional thinking about it actually because seeing Laios played like a fiddle by his father, Laios so happy to find someone whoās enthusiastically listening to him ramble and engaging, would destroy Shuro emotionally I think. Like. On one hand being like "Oh of course my dad would find Laios fun, unlike me his boring son", super angry as coping mechanism for his intense sadness of not having positive parental attention, and then on the other heād see Laios being treated as a clown and identify with it and that would remind him of how he gets treated similarly which heās in denial about (more or less, but since he puts up with the family rules and follows along he hasnāt given up on getting recognition. He wants his fatherās approval, and he couldnāt blame Laios for being happy with it despite how hurtful that attention truly is without Laiosā knowledge), which would be such an overwhelming conflicted mess of emotions and his worldview would shatter a bit because he has to repress it all even now, and heād have a breakdown.
And similar deal but if he brought Falin homeā¦ Bc ok yes he idealizes her and doesnāt even know her all that well, but like I said imo what he sees in her is that "Woah sheās so differentā¦ Sheās kind and soft and doesnāt care about fitting inā¦ She is out of this world, sheās free, she shows me a world where tenderness and authenticity is possibleā¦" So meanwhile with Laios heād have mixed feelings on him getting treated like a clown and identify with it, bringing Falin home and having her be demeaned would be like having his perfect comfort character dunked on and he gets reminded that the world canāt have anything good actually. With both Toudens itād make his resentment towards his father even worse, he might snap. Iām not the biggest on gendered analysis tbh but Kui evidently does like to do it to some degree, with the genderbending changing their life considerably and different fantasy cultures having different gender roles and all, but Shuro idealizing the Touden sister as something perfect he cannot attain while being jealous and frustrated at Laios for being something he cannot attain is like. So compelling actually. With Maizuruās hannya of female rage weaponized there could be a theme of pushing the blame and responsibilities of things onto women too, the responsibility to raise and to manage and to dish out the work and to clean after mensā reckless decisions. Anyways just a tangent.
Shuro on a bad family angst day is everything I love in a blorboā¦ He can be a lil shitty as a treat to make his healing arc more fulfilling. Toshiro snapping after he sees how they treat Laios/Falin and he gives up the family headship to LEAVE. Maizuru arc where she has to choose between loyalty to the clan and loyalty to Toshiro, will she stay with the boy she raised or go homeā¦ To me Maizuru is much less sympathetic than Shuro, but she is pretty tragic and her selfless love for Shuro is her one redeeming quality. Babygirl take no shit no more, but also better yourself and turn your life around please and thank youā¦ She is so evidently taken advantage of but like. What else does she have? So she just takes care of and loves the boy she raised like her own kid and goes about her daily life in servitude and doesnāt think too much about it all.
Shuro is awful a nickname but also, I think Shiro would be a good nickname for Toshiro, because it gets rid of that āToshiļæ½ļæ½ first part of his name that all the male members of his family share. It severes the link to his father and the tied pressure from his family.
Laishuro brotp turning slow burn romance would be so lovely. I think college au for laishuro would be peak actuallyā¦ Shuro so is the repressed "I am so normal" guy who has a furry liberation identity crisis arcā¦ I also quite like the potential heād have with Namari, as both work-oriented misfit foreigners cast out of their homes, and sheās also bolder so itād be good for him, and he could bring her stabilityā¦ Thatās a topic for another day tho. Even he and falin are sweet tbh, they could have traveled around together even if just as friendsā¦ Bc yeah she does value him as a friend at least somewhat, she says sheāll visit him~! Mostly I want Izutsumi-Toshiro brotp fancontent.
Conclusion
The household is very hierarchy oriented, and honestly the system doesnāt seem to make anyone happy, or at least not healthily so. Sighh feudalism.
Obviously their situation are very different, but still Toshiro and Izutsumi react to the same conflict in opposite ways: when a hierarchy and lifestyle of rules and duty is thrust upon them, Toshiro obeys and believes that itās how things simply are, always having it been drilled into him since being a baby and being privileged enough to live ok with things as they are, meanwhile Izutsumi rages and eventually breaks free and never wants to submit herself to rules or hierarchy ever again, even if that perceived hierarchy is a mutually beneficial professional party dynamic or having a role inside a well-meaning team, like Laiosā party. WHICH IS WHY THEY SHOULD HANG OUT AND HAVE AN ARC TOGETHER. LET HER INFLUENCE HIM TO GET WILDER AND THINK OF HIMSELF MORE. FUCK INHERITING THE HEADSHIP. THE SIBLINGS NARRATIVE.
As always if I find more stuff to add iāll edit it in. Rn Iām thinking that Iāll look into ninja & samurai feudal history and try to find specific terms that might fit their roles and situations more. I should reread try to cover Izutsumiās end of the Toshiro-Izu dynamic as well.
I greatly recommend this paper for more excellent meta on all named Dunmeshi characters and their culture!
Ah yes yes, I forgot to talk about it but we donāt know what Toshiroās retainers have been doing with their time on The Island, especially while he was dungeon diving with Laios and co. Although in the animeās ed in this shot we see them "stealthily" follow him around, so presumably when heās not in dungeons theyāre tailing his moves.
Afterword here, it has summary charts about the power structure & relationships and complementary pages and artworks, couldnāt put them in here because SIGH 30 pictures per post limit.
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maybe you could do a fic abt influencer gf! and vinnie š like maybe sheās filming a yt video and he just walks in and basically hard launch their relationship :00
SECRETāS OUT
loveeee this idea !!! thank you for the request !!!
pairing; vinnie hacker x fem!influencer!reader
warnings; cussing, use of pet names, teasing, if i missed anything lmk !!
summary; youāre filming a youtube video and vinnie accidentally lets something slip
you and vinnie had been dating for a couple months now, but you kept your relationship private on socials.
no one on your platforms knew you were dating vinnie. being an influencer mostly meant your whole life was online, and you wanted to keep that part of your life to yourself as much as you could.
when you met vinnie you had told him that most of your life was online and that if the two of you started anything serious, youād like to keep it private.
he was okay with that and very understanding. there had been arguments in the past about it. him saying he just wants to show you off but he canāt because of your profession.
you felt terrible, feeling like your keeping your relationship a secret instead of just for privacy reasons.
the two of you had a long talk, discussing solutions and talking out feelings. you came to a conclusion and you both were happy with it.
today, you were filming a video for your youtube channel. you had gotten everything set up in your room, making sure nothing was out of place before you hit record on your camera.
you explained how you were going to do a q&a, answering some frequently asked questions and other things that you see often in your comment section.
you pull out your phone and start answering the questions, going into detail about them as you do.
while answering another detailed question, you donāt see the incoming text from your boyfriend that tells you heās made it to your place.
you wrap up with that question and move onto the next, still not seeing the text. before you can get a word out, your bedroom door opens and you see your boyfriend.
you smile, not knowing how to tell him your currently filming, he obviously doesnāt see the camera being held up by the tripod.
vinnie makes his way to you and tackles you, squeezing you tightly and showering you with kisses.
you giggle at the contact of your boyfriends kisses all over your face. vinnie lifts off you and smiles, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.
āyou look so pretty today, baby.ā he whispers, kissing you softly.
āi donāt look pretty everyday?ā you tease, making vinnie blush.
you hit his chest lightly and laugh. āiām just kidding, vin. thank you.ā
the two of you sit up, still facing each other. you realize that vinnie still hasnāt noticed the camera, which is filming everything.
āwell actually, half the time you do look ā what, i look like what?ā you cut him off, giving him a smile to let him know youāre not actually upset with what heās about to say.
ālike the most prettiest, beautiful, sexiest, girl in the world.ā he says sweetly, adding the last compliment just to see your reaction.
he watches you blush and cover your face with your hands. smiling, he removes your hands from your face.
āthere you are!ā he gushes. āiām so lucky to be yours, yāknow that?ā he asks, caressing your cheek softly.
thatās when you tense up and realize the camera was still rolling, and he had said it loud enough to where it definitely picked it up.
all the touches and kisses didnāt register in your head, half the time youāve been like this, you two were facing away from the camera, only your backs being shown in the frame.
āshit,ā you curse as you carefully push vinnie off you. āi totally forgot.ā
vinnie furrows his eyebrows in confusion, wondering what you were talking about.
you turn around and gesture to the film equipment right next to you.
āi was filming a q and a, i totally forgot the camera was still going when you came in..ā you said.
vinnie caught on, āand i just slipped, didnāt i?ā he asks, rubbing his hands over his face.
the camera was off now, but that doesnāt excuse the fact it picked up everything.
āyou could always edit it out. i mean, it was like twenty minutes of just us goofinā around.ā vinnie told.
that was true, but then youād have to refilm the whole video, having answered a question right as he walked into the room.
āi could alwaysā¦ leave it in?ā you ask, wanting to make sure vinnie was comfortable with it.
his smile is so wide across his pretty face that you canāt help but smile too. he walks to you, wrapping his arms around you with a kiss to your head.
āif thatās what you wanā no, iām asking you, v. do you want me to keep it in?ā
you were already warming up to the idea of showing vinnie off on socials, you felt the time was coming soon, and you wanted to take that next step.
you knew vinnie had become a bit hesitant, not wanting your fans to get upset or anything like that. he knew how they could get from time to time.
he smiled at your generosity, holding your hands in his and squeezing them lightly. āiām okay with it, i think weāve waited long enough.ā
you smile and kiss him, excited for this new step. it wasnāt anything huge, but now all of your followers could finally meet the boy that has made you the happiest youāve ever been for months now.
grabbing the camera, you head straight to your desk and tell vinnie youāre going to edit it a bit before posting it.
once itās posted, vinnie kisses your cheek and smiles. āiām glad the secret is out, the secret that wasnāt really one, but you know.ā
you laugh and rub your thumb against his cheekbone, kissing him.
āme too, iām glad everyone finally gets to meet you now.ā
hours after the video was posted, comments on all your platforms were going crazy. most of them said how cute you and vinnie are together, but there were a few that had been a bit rude.
you learned not to let them get the best of you. you had an amazing man that treated you right and loved you unconditionally, thatās all you cared about.
two posts in two days iām on a roll š¤
i just feel bad for leavin yall hangin for awhile sometimes, but i promise im working on stuff, life is just busy <\3
i hope you all liked this though !!! i loved writing it, it was so cute <333
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āĖā āļøāĀ IāM SO IN LOVE THAT I MIGHT STOP BREATHING !
summary. what if the txt members accidentally exposed your relationship?
pairing. txt x fem! reader wc. 0.5kĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā warnings. not proofread. a/n. happy valentine's day!Ā i wanted to do something for this day so here it is ^^ i hope you like it <3
choi yeonjun ąØą§
.Ā ą£Ŗš¤ wanted to post a story to his close friends but instead posted it for everyone to see.
as soon as he saw it, yeonjun would totally panic. he would delete the story as soon as he uploaded it and would send you a message telling you that he accidentally exposed your relationship.
pretty boy <3
hi beautiful, just wanted to let you know that maybe
just maybe i accidentally told everyone that we were together š
JJUNIE WHAT*!?#($($!?
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he'd still be a little panicked after a few days but he's relieved to see that moa still supports him and you <3
choi soobin ąØą§
.Ā ą£Ŗš¤ won an award and got so nervous he mentioned you
we all know that soobin sometimes gets nervous at award shows and get his tongue all twisted and this time was one of those times.
all his members were with him, grateful that they won and they were waiting for their leader to finish his speech. everything was going perfectly until he started thanking you.
āand thank you to my girlfriend yn for supporting me and-"
"thank you! have a good night!" yeonjun interrupted, completely freaking out while the rest of the members laughed nervously.
after his mistake, he got scolded by the ceo but nothing too bad ! in the end you found this more beneficial for your relationship since you didn't have to hide anymore <3
choi beomgyu ąØą§
.Ā ą£Ŗš¤ wanted to facetime with one of his members during a live but instead he facetimed you.
the comment section started to blow up instantly as they saw your face through beomgyu's phonescreen and when your boyfriend noticed he called you instead of yeonjun, his eyes almost popped out of his skull.
he looked straight to the camera and laughed before ending the live.
āwe're public now, sorryā he said to you panicked and before you could say anything he hung up.
in the end, moa was making fun of gyu on twitter and tiktok for his mistake but they were already shipping you two and he totally appreciated that ^ā _ā ^
kang taehyun ąØą§
.Ā ą£Ŗš¤ wanted to post some photos of him in the gym but posted one of you two instead.
as soon as he saw his mistake, he deleted the post before anyone could see it but of course, ppl already had seen it and made it trending worldwide that day but moa defended you and him, telling everyone to delete the pictures.
he hadn't told anyone about your relationship so it was a surprise for the company and his members. your boyfriend was scared they were gonna put you or him on hiatus but they only banned him from the twitter acc for a month and that was it !
huening kai ąØą§
.Ā ą£Ŗš¤ was replying to moa on weverse and accidentally said he was dating you
your boyfriend loves to talk with his fans so of course he was gonna answer a moa that asked if she could be his girlfriend but instead of saying what he wanted, hyuka replied with āi already have oneā and that made the whole fandom & him to freak out.
he rushed to post that everything was a joke but no one believed him š moa was already making theories and came to the conclusion that he was dating you.
they didn't get upset cuz they were already shipping you and kai so it was like a dream come true and your boyfriend was happy they took the news well and could now tell everyone how much he loved you <33
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Killer Duo - Isaac Lahey
Summary: Lydiaās throwing a Halloween party and your costume coordinates with Isaacās
Isaac Lahey x Reader
Word Count: 1,591
Authorās Note: Apparently this was in my drafts in 2019 and I finished it in 2020. Why it never got posted, Iām not sure. The timing of this is funny cause Iām currently at work dressed as the character Isaac is dressed as. Anyway, reblogs and comments are appreciated. Happy Halloween!
āLydia, I havenāt dressed up for Halloween since I was 12,ā you said walking around looking at all the creepy Halloween decorations.
āAnd this is a costume party. You have to dress up or you canāt go,ā Lydia replied walking in front of you heading straight for the costumes.Ā
āI have no idea what I should be. And most Halloween costumes for women are sexy now, which really means theyāre short and inappropriate, and I am notĀ doing that.ā
The strawberry blonde rolled her eyes.Ā āYou havenāt even looked at any costumes yet and your already jumping to conclusions.ā
āIām just pointing out facts. Halloween used to be fun, then I grew up.ā
āAnd now youāre at the age where you can dress up again,ā Lydia smiled at you.Ā āThereās just no candy this time.ā
āSo whatās the point,ā you joked.
āJust come on,ā Lydia said grabbing your arm pulling you towards the superhero costumes first.Ā
The two of you began to look through the racks of clothes. You ran a mental checklist of everything that wouldnāt work for you.Ā
Batgirl? No.
Iron Man? No.
Elastigirl? Hell no.
āOh, what about Wonder Woman,ā Lydia asked holding up the iconic armor for you to see.Ā
āEhh,ā you said fidgeting on your feet,Ā āI donāt feel comfortable having my ass out.ā
āOkay,ā Lydia said sighing at how difficult you were making this. She stood next to you scanning the the other costumes in the superhero section and decided you were going to like any of them.
āWhat about a witch,ā she asked.
āI guess I could be that,ā you replied halfheartedly.
āNo, I donāt want you buying something you donāt love. Thatās the number one rule in fashion.ā
āLydia, why donāt you just look for your costume and Iāll find mines. I donāt want you to keep pulling outfits and I hate them all.ā
Lydia turned and faced you.Ā āHoney, I bought my costume weeks ago. No one is going to be wearing the same thing as me at my own party.ā
You chuckled, shaking your head.Ā āDuh, I should have known you already had your costume ready to go.ā
āYes, so this trip is all about you, my dear,ā Lydia said tapping you on the nose making you smile.Ā
āFine,ā you replied.Ā āWell, letās go look at something a little more spookier then.ā
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āBarbie, eat your heart out.ā
Lydia walked up behind you in the mirror and nodded.Ā āYou look good.ā
āI look killer,ā you laughed and Lydia smiled shaking her head.Ā
You looked at yourself in the mirror admiring your white dress, leather jacket, and combat boots. You grabbed your eyeliner pencil and added the final touch. Tiffanyās mole.Ā
Perfect.
As soon as you saw the Bride of Chucky costume, you knew you needed it. Lydia was just happy you didnāt go with Chucky so you didnāt mess up her bathroom adding all the wounds and fake blood on your face.Ā
About an hour later, the party was well under way and you already made your first rounds with Lydia. Now she off doing other hostess duties and you were people watching against the wall.
You saw Isaac across the room and smiled to yourself. You excused yourself through the crowd as you made your way across the room.
āHey, Isaac. Nice costume,ā you greeted, looking up at the tall burette in front of you. Well, he wasnāt brunette right now. He was wearing a red wig and a pair of Good Guys overalls. You snickered to yourself. Of course the guy you had a crush on would be dressed up as Chucky. He was basically the salt to your pepper.
āThanks,ā Isaac said, a grin lining his face. āAnd you are a... biker bride?ā
You looked at Isaac confused and shocked.Ā āYouāre kidding me, right?ā
āWhat,ā Isaac smiled confused at your response.Ā āShould I know who you are?ā
āYes,ā you said laughing. You gawked at him as you held up your plastic bloody knife and pointed to yourĀ āTiffā necklace. His eyebrow furrowed in confusion.
āIām Tiffany...ā
Isaac shook his head still lost.
āThe Bride of Chucky...ā
āSorry. Still donāt know who that is.ā
āOh my God. Isaac, how are you dressed up as Chucky but donāt know who Tiffany is?ā
Isaac shrugged. āHonestly, I wasnāt planning on wearing a costume, but Lydia said I had to, then showed up to Scottās house with this.ā
You shook your head, laughing to yourself.Ā āOf course she did.ā
āAm I missing something,ā Isaac asked wanting in on the joke.
āLydia knew I was dressing up as Tiffany and she made you be Chucky... weāre basically a coupleās costume.ā
āWe are,ā Isaac asked, his eyebrow raised and smirk slowly growing on his face.
āUhh, I- I mean sorta,ā you replied fidgeting where you stood. āEspecially, now when weāre standing next to each other.ā
Isaac took a step closer to you.Ā āSo I guess I better keep you close then.ā
Youāre eyes grew big but before you could response you were interrupted.Ā
āThere you two are,ā Lydia said walking up to you and Isaac. Her blonde ponytail wig bouncing with each step she took. She definitely was the only I Dream of Jeannie here. You doubted if most of the party even knew who she was, but they all knew she looked good.Ā āWell donāt you look cozy together.ā
āLydia,ā you said a little too sweetly for anyoneās liking.Ā āI hear we have you to thank for Isaacās costume.ā
āWhat,ā Lydia asked like she didnāt basically have you and Isaac in a coupleās costume.Ā āI couldnāt have him come to my Halloween party not dressed up.ā
āYeah, sure,ā you scoffed crossing your arms over your chest.
āAnyway, everyoneās outside so we can takeĀ a group pic before anyone is too intoxicated to do it later.āĀ
āLydia,ā Stiles yelped running up.Ā āOh, hey guys,ā he said waving to you and Isaac. You smiled and waved back before he began talking to Lydia. He was dressed up as Captain Tony Nelson, the perfect coupleās costume to Lydiaās Jeannie. āUm, so, I may or may not have gotten my Captainās hat stuck on the roof... okay I definitely did. But it was Scottās fault!ā
āSeriously, Stiles,ā Lydia fumed.Ā āGod,ā she whispered under her breath shaking her head before turning to you.Ā āGive it about ten minutes before the picture so I can get his hat down.āĀ
You laughed nodding your head.Ā āOkay.ā
The couple walked away, leaving you alone with Isaac.Ā āUm, Iām going to go get something to drink. See you outside in ten?ā
āYeah,ā Isaac said, giving you a slow and sexy smile.Ā
You turned and headed for the kitchen, letting out a long breath as you did. Isaacās whole existence was driving you crazy. Although you did like the blue eyed boy, and youāve been wanting something to happen for a while, he was making you incredibly nervous. Youād rather avoid him instead of potential embarrassing yourself.Ā
After you filled your red solo cup with the fruity punch being served, one of your classmates came up to you.
āHey Y/N, cute costume.ā
āThanks!ā
āI didnāt know you and Isaac were a thing.ā
āHuh,ā you asked confused.
āThe coupleās costume,ā they said hesitantly. āChucky and Tiffany.ā
āOhh, duhā you said to yourself when you realized.Ā āWeāre not dating. We just happened to wear costumes that went together.ā
āOh... well, the two of you look good together,ā they said shrugging then walked away.
All your friends were already outside ready to take the picture. Lydia handed her phone to the designated photographer, then went to stand next to Stiles. Scott was in the middle, with Kira next to him. Malia was next to Kira, while Stiles and Lydia were on the other side of Scott. You stood next to Malia, throwing your arm over your friendās shoulder. Isaac stood near Stiles.Ā
After two pics were snapped, Lydia went to check the photos. She grabbed her phone, then looked up at the group.Ā āSomethings not right...,ā she said out loud, thinking to herself.Ā āI know!ā She grabbed Isaac by his arm and pulled him over to where you were standing.Ā āThatās better. Youāre costumes go together, so it makes sense,ā she said smiling. She mumbled a quick youāre welcome to you before she handed the camera back over and went back to her place next to Stiles.
The person taking the pictures counted downĀ ā3, 2, 1,ā then snapped a pic. But before you got to one, Isaac grabbed you by the waist and pulled you into him. You shrieked in response then started laughing.Ā
āOkay, now a funny one,ā Scott yelled so everyone could hear.Ā
Isaac didnāt hesitate, quickly picking you up bridal style. You yelped, then immediately stuck your tongue out at him. Lydiaās phone flashed as the picture was taken, then everyone stopped doing their poses, but Isaac didnāt put you down.
You giggled before you spoke.Ā āYou can put me down now, Isaac. The pictureās over.ā
āI said I should keep you close. So thatās what Iām doing,ā he said smiling down at you in his arms.Ā āAnd besides, if weāre next to each other people will think weāre a couple, so no guy will ask you to dance.ā
You titled your head to the side, your eyes squinted slightly.Ā āBut weāre not a couple.ā
āGive it a few weeks.ā
Your mouth dropped in a silent gasp, slowly turning into a huge grin. You heard Kira giggling behind you and Stilesās āyuck.ā
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since your request is open I'm hoping you can write this for me (I cannot express my thoughts to a full on fan fiction to save my lifeš)
Request: so like reader is a runner. Minho and reader were running away from a griever like frantically trying to lose it then Minho suddenly pulled reader to a small crack on the wall so they would lose the griever. The griever was just around the area trying to find the two that's why both of the runners were just there in the crack, close together, litterly body to bodyš¼ and you know some friction started to happen š„but of course they just can't do the thingš£ in the mazeš so like after the griever was gone they both ran to the Glade and ykykyk they continued what they startedš¤”
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SMALL SPACES (Minho x fem!reader)
Summary: look above for summary ^ (I made this enemies to lovers btw I'm sorry I couldn't help myself)
Warnings: Cursing, spice, smut (I don't really use the glade language in this one)
Word count: 4.6K (proofread, but there still might be some mistakes)
Today was like any normal day for you. You woke up at the ass crack of dawn, sloppily put on your clothes, and excited your hut. You walked across the glade, taking in the rather peaceful atmosphere while you looked up to see the sun peeking over the maze walls.
"God, mornings really aren't your thing, huh? You look like shit." Minho chuckled as you approached him while he stood waiting for the maze doors to open. He wore his signature blue shirt, which was paired with his infamous runners' vest.
Minho stood there with that shit-eating grin on his face as you stood next to him, rubbing your eyes and stretching as you let out a groan.
Since coming to the glade as a girl, all the boys have been nice to you and dare you say, rather respectful. All of them except for Minho. You never knew what you had done that warranted Minho's hatred for you, but it didn't matter because the feeling was reciprocated.
You really only needed to deal with Minho's attitude or rude comments when you both were running the maze together, which, unfortunately, was quite often. You came to the conclusion pretty early on that the worst part of being a runner wasn't the concept of getting trapped in the maze or being eaten alive with a griever, it was dealing with Minho's bitch ass.
"Not even a good morning. Starting the day off strong I see." You sigh, glaring at Minho while he checks the time. The doors should be opening soon and you wished that Ben and the other runners hadn't gotten totally hung over from the bonfire last night, resulting in them being in the medhut this morning with some really strong headaches. And it was because of that that only you and Minho would be running the maze together today.
"You know me," Minho replies while giving you a wink. You scoff at him, reminiscing about how you'd much rather be where you were ten minutes ago, sleeping in bed. "You know which parts of the maze we're running today right?" Minho asked, changing the subject.
"Yup, the outskirts of section six." You say as you roll your eyes, not bothering to mask the attitude in your voice. You put your hands on your hips, facing the maze while tapping your foot on the ground impatiently. You were ready for the maze doors to open so you could stop having to talk to Minho.
You knew yourself and you knew you wouldn't be able to stand talking to Minho much longer without giving in to the strong urge you had to maul him. But maybe then you'd finally be able to ruin his perfect hair.
I mean, how dare he have the nerve to wake up this early in the morning and look so put together. It wasn't fair.
"Well, someone's more grumpy than usual," Minho says, noticing the slight scowl you have on your face.
"I'm not grumpy." You reply while continuing to stare at the maze doors.
"Right," Minho says sarcastically before continuing, "You're going to get wrinkles if you keep making that face. Just letting you know." Minho explains as he lifts up his hand and brings it towards your face. He's about to tuck a fallen piece of your hair back behind your ear and you feel a faint blush beginning to spread on your cheeks. For a second, you're tempted to let him, but that's until you come back to your senses, slapping his hand away as you do so.
"You just love pissing me off, don't you Minho?" you snap at him as you turn to face him.
"I'd say I love seeing your reaction to me pissing you off much more," Minho replies with a smirk as he stands confidently, bringing his hands up to his chest and latching his fingers onto the snug space between his runners' vest and his shirt.
"What, seeing me get mad?"
"No," Minho says while taking a step towards you, grabbing your wrist and pulling you closer, his face now mere inches away from yours. "Seeing when I get you flustered." Minho finishes as he towers over you.
You look at him, shocked, and quite frankly, very bewildered.
Was he right? Yes, he definitely was, but you'd rather get stung by a griever than openly admit to that.
Nonetheless, it's safe to say his comment was exactly helping to calm the heat you felt on your cheeks from before now spreading like wildfire across your face.
You opened your mouth to say something in reply which would've been some sort of string of insults at Minho, but before you could, you both turned your attention to the maze doors which began to open. The stone screeched as whatever mechanism was built into the maze pulled the doors apart, revealing the maze and its seemingly infinite number of twists and turns.
As the doors came to a halt, a cold gust of air that the maze emitted whenever the doors opened or right before they closed, hit you and Minho. No matter how many times you felt it, it never failed to give you goosebumps all along your spine. The feeling of the wind on your skin made you remember the fact Minho's hand was gripped firmly around your wrist. And for some reason, instead of deciding to pull your wrist free right away, you decided to let him keep his hand there.
You exhaled a long and deep breath, one that you didn't even know you were holding in. You decided not to say anything else about what Minho had just said for the sake of being scared of where the conversation might lead.
So without warning, you jogged into the maze, pulling your wrist away and leaving Minho behind you.
"Hey wait up. Where do you think you're going?" Minho asked breaking into a sprint to catch up with you as you made sharp turns around corners of the maze.
"Where do you think?" You counter with an irritated voice.
"You know how to get to section six?" Minho questioned again, jogging up next to you.
You rolled your eyes but remained quiet. Speaking to Minho right now was taking up too much of your energy. All you wanted to do was stay quiet and focus on actually doing your job.
"Oh, so you're ignoring me now?"
Silence
"Fine. If that's what you want. No more talking." Minho said with an exasperated sigh.
And that's how the majority of the day continued. You and Minho mapped any remaining parts of the sixth section, though there wasn't really anything new to jot down, and stayed silent.
Even while you and Minho sat and ate lunch, neither of you spoke. You were determined to not be the one to break the silence and to be quite honest, you appreciated the quiet. But part of you missed the banter that you and Minho would get into. It helped you cope with the fact that almost the entire maze was mapped but there still didn't seem like a way out. And all in all, to you, your bickering and arguing could actually be quite fun at times, and it distracted you from having an existential crisis.
As hours began passing, you and Minho drew your searches for new areas of the maze to a close and began heading back towards the glade. You were beginning your trip back far earlier than normal, considering you were far out in the maze and not very close to the glade. If anything, it would be better to get out of the maze early than have the doors close before you could get back in the glade.
You jogged through the seemingly endless turns of the maze. Both you and Minho had gotten tired from today's work. You felt your legs burn and your energy dwindled with each stride you took toward the maze's doors.
You both couldn't have been too far from the glade when you heard it. Maybe you were ten or so turns until you reached the door, standing in a path that branched out in three different directions. One path was to your left, one to your right, and one straight ahead of you. You and Minho planned on taking the one straight in front of you to get back to the glade. However, you stopped dead in your tracks after hearing that sound, one in which you knew all too well.
The blood-curdling screech pierced the air, echoing along the walls as you and Minho just stood there. The worst part wasn't hearing the griever, but more the fact that it was far closer to you than you had anticipated.
You looked at Minho for some sort of reassurance. You wanted to convince yourself that maybe you were just hearing things, maybe you were actually just going crazy. Unfortunately, Minho's expression stayed stoic but you could see the fear in his eyes which honestly scared you more. Minho had been a runner for a while, much longer than you, so to see his carefree attitude change to something more wary and serious was new for you.
After standing in that spot for a couple moments, unable to move any part of your body, all of your worst fears were confirmed as you saw a griever turn a corner and run down the long passage of the maze that was in front of you.
Your breath hiched and for a split second, all you could do was stare. Stare at this disgusting, gruesome, and fucking terrifying creature. It was as if someone picked up a monster from your nightmares, something only your imagination would be able to conjure up, and placed it right in front of you. Something as horrifying as whatever the fuck that creature was, shouldn't have ever existed. But it did. And it was headed straight towards you.
Unlike you, Minho reacted quicker upon seeing the griever. "Come on. We need to go. Now!" Minho yelled, grabbing your wrist as he sprinted down the corridor to your right. Seeing the griever was all you needed to regain all the energy you had lost from running all day, and you quickly followed suit after Minho.
You ran as if your life depended on it, and in this case, it did. Literally.
Minho held onto your wrist tightly as he led you through the maze, the griever was hot on your tail and you both knew you wouldn't be able to outrun it for much longer.
Minho led you both into a different passage and ran down it frantically. Suddenly he pulled you into what could've been considered as a crack in the wall.
Most of the passageways in the maze ranged in various different widths. Some corridors were larger or smaller than others, but the one he had pulled you into had been smaller than you could've ever imagined. It would've been easier if you had gone in side-by-side, but at this point, that was a bit of an afterthought. Minho placed you in front of him as you both squeezed into the passage, desperate to escape the griever.
Your backs were up against opposing walls of the crevice, causing your chests to be pressed against one anothers. His hands were now placed firmly on your hips, pushing you into him as he attempted to eliminate more space around you in order to shuffle both of you further into the slit in the wall.
To be fair, you had to give Minho some credit because the griever wasn't able to reach either of you and trust me, it tried. Even as it left, both you and Minho knew it would still remain in the area, waiting for them to leave, so they would just have to wait it out.
You waited there for at least an hour already and the only issue was, of course, the lack of space. You had your hands on Minho's chest while his were gripped tightly around your waist, all while you did your best to keep your face away from his.
You would be lying if you said the tension in the air wasn't palpable.
Heat radiated off of Minho's body and beads of sweat laced your forehead. You didn't know how you could last another minute, let alone possibly another hour with your body pressed against his like this.
"It's only going to get more awkward if you don't say anything," Minho said while sighing, finally breaking the silence that had filled the air for some time. For the first time since you both got into this mess, you looked at him.
He looked just as tense as you did and you felt something in the atmosphere between the two of you shift. There was more of a longingness in the air, almost as if there was some sort of unspoken tension between the both of you.
"I don't get you Minho." You said as Minho gave you a confused look and you weren't quite too sure what you were going with it either, but you continued nonetheless, "It's like one day you hate me, then the next you're flirting with me. Seriously, is it just to tease me? Do you just like getting any sort of reaction out of me?" You said as the words just began to spill out of your mouth.
"I don't hate you," Minho replied, clenching his jaw. It almost seemed as if there was more he wanted to say but there was something that had stopped him from saying it.
"Then what is it Minho? What's your problem?" You asked with anger in your voice which was mixed for some reason with a twinge of sadness.
"The problem is that I like you (Y/N). I like everything about you." The look in his eyes matched the sadness you felt as he continued, "I've liked you for the longest time. I never said anything about it because I'm basically your boss and I didn't want to make things weird. I know that doesn't excuse me for being a dick but-" He paused, "I'm sorry. I mean it, I really am."
You looked at him, stunned once more by his words. Like a dam, all of the feelings you've had towards Minho flowed out at once. You had always vowed that you never liked Minho, not even as a person, but you knew that was far from the truth. Minho was the only boy in the glade that you had ever felt attracted to and it was safe to say the both of you had been denying that feeling for the longest time.
"Please, say something," Minho pleaded with you, looking down into your bright (E/C) eyes.
You wanted to say something. Really you did. But you just couldn't find the right words to say, so you didn't say anything at all. Instead, you kissed him. I mean, actions speak louder than words anyways, right?
You closed the small gap your face had with Minhos as you crashed your lips into his. Minho quickly got over his shock and reciprocated the kiss. In all truth, kissing Minho felt exactly as you dreamed it would. He was gentle yet passionate with you and if one thing was sure, he definitely took his time with you, savoring every part of your mouth as you allowed his tongue to enter it.
Minho drew away from you for a moment, "So I'm guessing you don't hate me anymore?" He asked, his lips already swollen from kissing you.
"We'll see about that." You answered with a cheeky grin on your face as he kissed you once more.
You melted into his touch even further than before, snaking your hands around his neck while he pulled you closer to him. As the kiss continued, it became more desperate and hungry, and neither of you could hold yourself back from each other.
At that moment, nothing else mattered. Not the fact that a griever was trying to kill you, or even that you were stuck in a giant maze. The only thing that mattered to you right now was Minho.
Minho drew away, biting your bottom lip as he continued to kiss you down your jaw and Neck, making you pull your head back slightly and moan. You felt Minho get hard under you, and it wasn't helping that the bulge from his jeans was positioned right by your throbbing core.
Though you could've stayed there, letting Minho kiss you all over, your mind reminded you of where you actually were. Part of you wanted to say fuck it, I'll take Minho right here and right now, but the more logical part of your brain knew you needed to get out of the maze now before the doors closed. And by now, the griever should've been long gone.
"Minho," you said breathlessly as he looked back at you after leaving marks all over your neck and collarbone. "We need to get back to the glade." You finish. You could see the look in his eyes and clearly, he had the same moral dilemma as you did a moment ago.
"Right- yeah, you're right let's go," Minho replied as you both did your best to squeeze out of the tiny crevice you had both wriggled yourselves into. Minho checked for the griever and thankfully it was nowhere to be seen.
Minho interlocked his fingers with yours as you ran through the maze, navigating its bends and corners. His grip was firm and protective and he was extra alert, checking behind and in front of you every so often.
Eventually, you both found yourself back in the glade with barely any time to spare. You let out a sigh of relief as you stepped onto the bright green grass, putting your head down and letting go of Minhos hand as you placed your hands on your knees while you panted.
The doors let out that familiar gust of wind and began to move once more, closing you into the glade for yet another night.
"What happened to you guys? We thought a griever got to you or something," Newt joked, walking up to you and Minho by the maze doors. You could tell a wave of relief passed over his face as he saw you both exit the maze and after he noticed that neither you nor Minho were injured.
You stood up straight again, putting your hands on your hips and giving Minho a look. You were about to tell Newt about the very close-to-death experience you and Minho just had, but before you could say anything, Minho spoke first, "Nope, we just spent too much time exploring. We made a lot of progress though." He lied.
You gave him a puzzled look. You both definitely did not make 'a lot of progress', not unless he defined 'a lot of progress' as rerunning areas of the maze you had already seen and mapped.
"We did?" You asked looking at Minho but he cut you off slightly as he continued.
"Yup, we did," Minho said grabbing your wrist and walking past Newt, "That's why we need to go to the maze room now," Minho concluded.
"Don't you guys want to eat something? Fry just made his stew, I'm sure you both are hungry by now," Newt asked, a little confused over Minho's urgency. For a while, Minho had started just grabbing a bite to eat before going to the maze room or bringing some food to the maze room as he mapped, but apparently, today was different.
"We're okay. Thanks though Newt." Minho said, still dragging you away as he waved goodbye to Newt who was left just standing there looking just as confused as you were.
After you both walked far enough away from Newt, Minho's grip on your wrist softened slightly, and soon you were both almost at the maze room.
"So are you going to tell me what that was about?" You questioned.
"Oh come on. Do you really think I'm going to let you get away with not finishing something you started?" Minho asked, pulling you into the maze room, closing the door, and sitting you down on the table in the center of the room. He stood in between your legs as he placed both of his hands on your hips, leaning his face into yours, leaving barely any room between your lips.
You chuckle slightly while looking at him, "A little eager aren't we?" You ask him while you place one of your hands on his nape and the other on his cheek.
"How could I not be? I've waited far too long for this," Minho counters, one of his hands traveling up your side as the other stayed on your hip.
You thought the tension was heavy in the maze, but now it had grown ten times greater in here.
A deep sense of longing and desperation filled the air as you looked at Minho again, meeting his eyes as you spoke, "You're not the only one who's been waiting."
And with that, Minho's lips found yours. You clung to him as you wrapped both of your hands around his neck. Minho reciprocated as he wrapped one of his arms around your back, bringing you even closer to him, while his other hand allowed itself to travel under the back of your shirt and up your spine. The feeling of his hand lingering up and down your spine sent shockwaves through your entire body.
Minho began kissing you hungrily and passionately, and being the sexually deprived teenager he was, he already grew hard again. You felt the bulge from his jeans press against your heat and you soon began to long for more of him.
You and Minho were quick to take your hands off of each other for a moment to take off your runners' harnesses. Your shirts were on the ground soon after, and you couldn't help but stare at Minho's figure as he stood in front of you.
God, this man was the definition of hot.
The way the muscles on his bicep flexed as he took off his shirt was quite possibly the most attractive thing you've ever seen. Not to mention that each and every one of his muscles was toned and defined.
Minho noticed your eyes linger on him, "Someone's staring." Minho stated as he lifted your chin up with his fingers, fiddling with the zipper of his jeans with his free hand while he did so.
"Can you blame me?" You ask, taking off your shorts and letting them fall on the ground, "You're hot Minho. I can't help but stare." You say as you begin to sit up straight. You tilted your head and placed your arms around his neck once more, staring up at him with a puppy dog-eyed expression.
Minho, who clearly isn't used to receiving praise for his looks, is floored. It's safe to say the compliment went straight to his dick because you could feel him grow even harder under you. You chuckle as you kiss Minho once more and this time, he melts into your touch completely.
Minho moves one of his hands to your back, the other moving up your thigh until it reaches your soaked panties. He moves them to the side so that he has access to your pussy and he places two of his fingers between your folds, rubbing you up and down.
A moan escapes from between your lips as you throw your head back, relying on the arms you have wrapped around Minho's neck and the hand he has on your back for support.
"So wet for me already," Minho chuckles to himself as he continues rubbing circles into your clit. Suddenly, he pushes one of his fingers into you, causing your body to jolt in pleasure and surprise.
He adds in his other finger and begins pumping them in and out of you, agonizingly slow. As if a reflex, you roll your hips against his hand and moan his name. You fail to suppress your soft whimpers as he picks up the pace, making you drown in pleasure.
"Minho please, I want you." You breathe out, your voice barely above a whisper.
"Want me to do what baby?" Minho asks as you bring your head back up to look at him.
"I want you inside me." You confess. "Please," you whimper, on the verge of begging him.
Minho kisses you softly as he takes his fingers out of you and you use your elbows to prop yourself up. Minho pulled his boxers down so they pooled at his ankles and his cock sprang out, hitting his stomach as he did so. His cock was long and hard as beads of precum dripped down from his tip. Fuck he was massive.
Minho lined himself up with your entrance and with one swift push, he entered you fully. You gasped as you sunk into him further. Your walls stretched around his girth and the quick pain you felt as he made his way inside you was quickly replaced by pleasure.
"Fuck- you're so big," You moaned out, as Minho began his thrusts.
He groaned as he began moving in and out of you. The pleasure both of you felt was unmatched as Minho gripped your hips, using them to help guide his movements.
"God you feel so good," Minho panted as he continued to thrust in and out of you.
Minho kisses you again, messily and sloppily as he continues with his movements, but neither of you can focus on kissing the other, not when he is pumping in and out of you. You couldn't help but savor what it felt like with him inside you. The way he filled you up made you feel like you were on cloud 9.
Minho kept mumbling out words of praise while he moved in and out of you and he could tell by the way your walls began to squeeze around him, that you were close. And you could tell that he was close by the way that his thrusts began growing more sloppy and desperate. But maybe it was him removing one of his hands from your hip to apply more pressure to your clit as he rubbed circles into it, that pushed you over the edge.
"Minho I'm going t-" You began to say as your voice broke but you couldn't finish your sentence before letting out a loud moan. A wave of ecstasy crashed over you all at once and you threw your head back in pleasure.
Minho groaned as he pushed into you with one final thrust, filling you up completely. It took a moment with the both of you panting before he pulled out.
You sat up straight as Minho brought his head towards your ear, "You did so well, you know that, right, baby?" Minho whispered before meeting your eyes. You gave him a smile and he gave you a soft kiss. "Want to grab some food and then cuddle in my hut for the night?" Minho asked as he pulled away, picking up his scatted clothes and putting them back on.
"Mhm," You replied with a smile. Today was quite an eventful day and to be honest you were exhausted and Minho picked up on it.
"Are you tired?" Minho questioned as he grabbed your remaining clothing and put it back on you while you yawned.
"Just a bit," You replied with a chuckle as you hopped down from the table.
"We can go to be early tonight then," Minho said while wrapping an arm around your waist and leading you outside the maze room. You pecked him on the cheek as you both walked off.
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Bonus
"Hey Minho I know it's your day off but I can't find (Y/N) anywhere. I checked her hut and then thought maybe you'd know wher-" Newt paused as he barged into Minho's hut to see Minho now sitting straight up in his bed. "Jesus Christ, what the hell happened to your neck?" Newt asked, referring to the very obvious hickies you had ended up leaving Minho.
Minho was struggling for a response as you emerged from under the sheets in Minhos t-shirt, rubbing your eyes and looking over at Newt.
Newt looked at you both, bewildered and flustered as the dots finally connected in his brain. "You know what- Never mind. I'll leave you guys to it. Didn't mean to interrupt." Newt replied quickly, slamming the door on his way out of the hut.
You huffed and rolled back on your side in hopes of getting a bit more sleep. Minho gladly wrapped his arms around you and joined you.
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Living In A Dream | Levi x Reader Pining
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Summary: Levi refuses to date a subordinate so instead he pines over you. Kind of ridiculous how much he overthinks every interaction with you.
Word Count: 2.6k
Megan's Note: Song that I correlate this one shot is "Dream Girl" by Crisaunt if you were wondering. In all writing, I typically get hung up on a lyric or a rhythm thing. 2nd fic. posted: 4/17/24. Writing more.
Levi and the other section commanders sat at a table dining and chattering about the new scouts. Erwin was discussing, negotiating, and dividing the recruits under different leaders. A few went to Levi, some under Miche, and some to Hange.Ā
The scout regiment was having dinner and he was looking around the room for you. He noticed that you have not come in yet. You usually were with Sasha, Jean, and Connie and they were not at dinner yet. Sasha, Jean, and Connie were moved to Leviās special operations squad. Honestly, he was worried that you would be placed in his squad. Levi felt that if you were his subordinate, he wouldnāt be able to focus or speak clearly.Ā
When you were around, he was too nervous that he might say something that made him seem stupid. The few times you talked to him, he stuttered and felt embarrassed. Levi could not help but look at you all the time. He could not help but search for you during mealtime or outside. He thought you were pretty cute when you would laugh with Sasha, Jean, and Connie. He also thought it was cool how you could make a whole table laugh. He felt it was wrong to find you extremely attractive. Levi pondered about possibly asking you out if you became a squad leader or section commander.Ā
The first time he heard of you, was when Hange showed Levi and Erwin a hilarious comic drawing you drew. The comic was being passed around and shown amongst the scouts getting a little laugh from others. It was funny and relatable to being a scout.Ā
āA new scout drew this,ā Hange said to Levi and Erwin. The drawing made Erwin chuckle and he passed it to Levi who slightly smiled.Ā
āWho was the scout?ā Erwin asked.
āI think her name is Y/N,ā Hange said and pointed to the open field where the scouts were hanging out. āThatās her over there next to Sasha and Christa.ā Erwin and Levi glanced in your direction. Levi noticed your hair and then your laugh, then you pushing Sasha. Who shoved you back and the girls laughed at whatever. Your smile is what drew him in.Ā
You had a great smile and the few times you smiled at him when speaking he would forget what he was saying. Then he recalled and then stuttered out his words. When Levi noticed the confusion on your face it made his face hotter. You never pointed it out or asked if he was okay which made him think you were kind enough to ignore his embarrassment.Ā
The other time you made him really nervous was the day he wore a dark green shirt. Levi barely wore green unless it was the scout cape. But he did that day. Hange and Levi were walking by you and you pleasantly greeted them.Ā
āHi Hange, hi Levi,ā you said brightly.Ā
āHi Y/N!ā Hange greeted back.
āLevi, Iāve never seen you wear that shirt before,ā you started and Hange smiled and looked at Levi, āgreen is your color.ā You and Hange smiled and looked intently for Leviās reply. He was taken aback by the compliment. When was the last time he heard a compliment about his appearance? He thought that maybe you found him attractive. Though did you really say anything about his looks? Then he remembered that you pointed out that you had never seen him wear this shirt before. Which he came to the conclusion that you may have been watching him as well? Which could mean you liked him. He knows that people do that when they find others attractive. Levi looked at you a lot when youāre not looking. Possibly youāre observant. Which is a great quality for being a scout. He thought he recalled seeing your file that you scored great during the ODM assessment. He wondered what rank you were. Not that it mattered but he was curious. Then he remembered how the green shirt he was wearing was the shirt he wore on his first expedition. Has Y/N been outside the walls yet? He was trying to recall if he remembered seeing you at all before knowing you as the comic drawer.Ā
āLevi?ā Hange asked.
āS-sorry Iām not feeling well. I feel like shit.ā As soon as he said that he regretted it because he knows sometimes girls donāt find cussing attractive. If cussing made him unattractive then does him wearing the green shirt level it out? Though you never said you found him attractive. Just that green was his color. But no one owns the color green. But the way you said green was his color could be interpreted as looking good in green. Levi was trying to think about if he ever heard you cussing before. Then he remembered your comic he was trying to remember if any of the captions had a bad word. He couldnāt remember. Maybe he won't cuss in front of you until he hears you cuss. Maybe you cuss sporadically. Or maybe just when you stub your toe. He thought about how you possibly paint your toes. But he won't know because the uniform has boots. If the cape is the same color as his shirt technically he wore green every day. So that could mean that you never look at Levi. But sometimes Levi doesnāt wear his cape. Maybe you meant that the shirt he was wearing was nice. But then again you didnāt say anything about the shirt itself. If green is Leviās color and he barely wore the green shirt that had to mean you were talking about the cape.Ā
āOh no, Iām sorry.ā You said sweetly.
āNo problem,ā Levi said back stupidly. After all that Hange and Levi had a momentās silence while walking away from you. Then Hange softly laughed.
āLevi that was painful to watch.ā She said.
āWhat do you mean?ā Levi asked.
āNothing. Nothing. Nothing. Except you couldnāt think straight after Y/N said you looked nice.ā Hange nudged Levi. Technically you told him that green was his color. He didnāt want to talk about it at all.
āReally Hange Iām not feeling good.ā Levi restated.Ā
āYou love sick?ā Hange teased.
āNo. And no I am not.ā
āWell, you were normal until Y/N complimented you,ā Hange continued. Levi deflected and brought up a different topic. You did not compliment him though you just said green was his color.
āLastly F/N L/N,ā Erwin said and Levi stopped looking at the dining entrance. āAt first, Levi, I put her on your squad but Hāā
āLevi I really want her! She seemed really interested in my research! Y/N gets along with Moblitās and I's work style! Not only that she can draw! She sketched a titan chart for me really well! I saw that Erwin was going to put her on your squad and when I asked if I could have her he said we would have to discuss it! I really want her!ā Hange enthusiastically said. Levi felt bittersweet about you not working with Hange and Moblit. He could still have access to you, but not always be around you. His nerves went away.Ā
āHave her,ā Levi said.
āTHANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!ā Hange threw her arms in the air. Levi saw out of the corner of his eye that the entry door opened and his heart rate increased slightly when he saw Sasha. Then Jean. Then Connie. And finally you. You met eyes with Levi and he immediately whipped his head back. Hange, Erwin, Miche, and Moblit all noticed Levi was blushing. He met eyes with Hange who raised her eyebrows twice, playfully. He knew that she knew he was blushing. Levi refused to look at anything besides his tea. āY/N!ā Hange called for you. āY/N!ā She waved you over which you came. Levi thought it would be a good excuse to look at you especially since Hange called you over. So most likely the whole table would be looking at you. He glanced at you and caught your eye again, but this time you looked away. āGuess what!?ā Hange exclaimed
āWhat?ā You asked
āYouāre in my squad!ā
āNo way!āĀ
āThis is gonna be really great! Weāre going to figure out the secrets of the titans together! I really wanted you especially since you told me you were interested in researching the titans! Moblit also enjoys working with you so this is really great!ā Hange and Moblit gave you a group hug. You had a big smile on your face. Levi thought about how endearing it was that you and Hange were becoming quite close. He wished you two could be close.
After you left to get food. Levi noticed you also got the mashed potatoes. He liked the mashed potatoes too. You put gravy on yours. Levi did the same too. Cool. Levi saw you say something to Connie and then Jean, Sasha, and Connie all burst out laughing. He wished he heard what you said. He thought about how everyone he sees you with always are enjoying your company.Ā
The following day Levi decided to wear the green shirt and wanted to walk by you so you could see him wearing it. He saw you later in the day with Hange and Moblit on a bench. He thought it would be a great opportunity to approach you because Hange was with you and he knows she could mediate the conversation. You were so pretty because of the way your hair was placed on your shoulders. So cute how focused you were on your research. When Levi approached the three they all looked up and smiled.
āHey,ā Levi said to Hange and Moblit, āhi Y/N.ā Hange and Moblit looked at each other knowingly. Then Hange smirked at Levi.
āHey Levi,ā you said.
āHow are y-you?ā He tried.Ā
āWeāre so close to getting somewhere but I keep fucking up my drawing.ā You said frustratingly. Levi noted that you did cuss. This meant the time he cussed you must not have cared because you just cussed now. So he can cuss in front of you and you won't find him unattractive. Meaning maybe if he got to know you more and if you worked hard and then you became a section commander one day and you were still alive, then he could ask you out.Ā
āOh fuck,ā he said.Ā
āYeah I know,ā you roll your eyes with frustration.Ā
āNO! Your drawing is great!ā Levi vomited out.
āOh um . . . you havenāt even seen it yet . . .ā You said slowly. Then Moblit handed Levi the paper of the start of your drawing. Hange and Moblit were done evaluating the work she had done so far. Leviās face went red. Thereās no explanation for this. You were going to figure out that him showering you with compliments meant he had a crush on you. Which is not good because you are a subordinate and it wouldnāt look good if you two dated. He thought about how well you two would make a cute couple together but what would the others think? Erwin might think Levi is a sleaze for dating someone not in his rank. He thought that some scouts might think you were trying to work your way up to the top. He didnāt want anyone to think poorly of you. Levi didnāt want anyone to think poorly of him. This was just a stupid crush and eventually, he will get over it. Heās an adult he shouldnāt be acting like a schoolgirl with a crush.Ā Ā
āI show Levi all your drawings.ā Hange saved the day.Ā
āAll . . . two . . . of them?ā You questioned not entirely believing Hange. Hange and Levi locked eyes. They panicked. Levi did not know what to add. Hangeās temperature started rising. If Hange said anything that would give you the impression that Levi had a crush on you. Then humanityās strongest soldier might kill her. Then she wouldnāt be able to be alive to find out where the titans are from. Hange wouldnāt be able to know how they came to be. And Levi could make it look like an accident. Levi could also make it look like she went missing. He used to be a criminal and Levi kills every titan he wants to kill.Ā
āWe saw your comic and we kept all the sketches you created the few times you were with us. Everyone thinks your drawings are great. Right, section commander? You shown the leaders all of Y/Nās drawings?ā Moblit said.
āYup,ā Hange said quickly.
āAnyways I have to goāumāgo. Just wanted to say hi to youāall of you!ā Levi walked away. Heās an idiot.
During his meeting with his squad, he did his best to confidently create plans for the next expedition. He was trying to think of all the creative plans he could muster so that he could say it in front of Sasha, Jean, and Connie. Then they would think Levi was smart. They might talk about their day later with you and they could possibly slip in that Levi created a smart plan. He just couldnāt think of a smart thing to offer. Armin was saying all the smart ideas. Leviās gotta say something smart. Because if he doesnāt then Sasha, Jean, and Connie might only talk about Arminās smart ideas when they talk about their day with you.Ā
Later in the evening, Levi saw Sasha, Jean, and Connie sitting at their table with friends, but you were nowhere to be found. You must be with Hange and Moblit in her office. Time went by and still you, Hange, nor Moblit showed up. It was getting late and he thought you would think he was kind if he brought food for you. They had mashed potatoes and gravy as a side again. So when Levi was making you a plate. He was sure to put some mashed potatoes and gravy on it. But this time there was beef gravy and turkey gravy. There were two gravies. He stared at both of them. Which one would you like more? The beef gravy was the one available last night. But what if they donāt serve turkey gravy again for a while and you were looking forward to it? Okay. Beef? Yes, it makes the most sense you had some last night. Then Levi thought about if he ever heard you mentioning liking the turkey gravy. Turkey? Seems to come around less often and he didnāt want you to be disappointed with your dinner. Okay, Both. He made sure to put the two gravies in separate little cups so you could choose which one you wanted.
He took the plate to Hangeās office and his hunch was correct. You, Hange, and Moblit were in Hangeās office working.Ā
āHey, Levi.ā You said.
āIāuhābrought you food because you werenāt at dinner.ā Okay shit. He just told her that he noticed her not being in the dining hall. Which is going to mean that she knows heās looking for her and then sheāllāWAIT. When you said he looked good in green you mentioned that youāve never seen him wear that shirt before. Meaning you were watching him. He just said something like that too . . . She said it first. So she wonāt think anything of it? Cool.
āThank you, Levi!ā You said. āYou didnāt have to.ā
Levi smiled and then looked at Hange who had her arms crossed and her eyebrows raised with a knowingly look. Moblit had the same expression on his face.Ā
āItās for all you guys!ā Levi blurted out.Ā
āOh um . . . I donāt think thereās enough for us to share.ā You said.
ā . . . I brought both gravies,ā Levi said.
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Sweet Escape Pt. 8 // LH44
Lewis Hamilton x Y/N
Warnings: Swearing, 18+ (Smut and Dirty Talk), Alcohol, Angst, Emotional Dilemmas, PDA, Secrecy, Not Edited
Word Count: 8.5k+
Summary: Paradise is supposed to be fun and relaxing... a Sweet Escape, but when unspoken feelings and jealousy rise to the surface, everything can be turned upside down in the blink of an eye.
Notes: We have reached our final destination (well kind of, there will still be an epilogue). This is the final part of Sweet Escape. Thank you all so much for all the love, I'm so glad that you guys have enjoyed it as much as I have enjoyed writing it! I will be back soon with another little daydream. I love you all and enjoy the conclusion to our roller coaster.
I am not a professional writer and all of this is a work of fiction and is strictly for fun. Enjoy! xxx
Previous Sections: Prologue - Part One - Part Two - Part Three - Part Four - Part Five - Part Six - Part Seven
You canāt risk losing Lewis.Ā
As you step out of the shower you feel a surge of anxiety and power wash over you. How the hell are you supposed to talk to him? It doesnāt take long before you hear him coming down the hall, greeting Daniel on the way, evidently just back from his run. You decide to bite the bullet, thereās no point in wasting time. You hear his door close and immediately make your way out of your own. Your hair is still wet and your attire is mismatched, throwing short on the second you heard him in the hallway. You donāt particularly care if anyone hears you or sees you, you need to get this out before you continue to think about it and change your mind. Youāve gone back and forth over this enough times, you need to finally make your thoughts known. You knock on his door, hoping he can hear you. Thankfully it only takes a moment before his door swings open, heās standing there covered in sweat, his breathing still slightly labored, just having got back from his run.Ā
āY/N?ā He seems slightly confused at your sudden intrusion, āIs everything okay?ā
You donāt answer his question just pushing past his sticky body and into his bedroom, itās been a while since you were last in here, today will be a much different outcome. Youāre going to stand your ground. He doesnāt ask another question just accepting that you must need to talk, moving to push his door shut.
āWhy did you take me to see Marina and Leon?ā You blurt out the second his door is closed.
He hesitates for a moment, a question written across his face, āI donāt know, I thought it would be good for Leon to meet someone like you, and Marina had about a billion questions about you so, I donāt know, it just felt right.ā
āWhy have you told Marina about me?ā You ask your next question, not really waiting to process what heās saying.
āBecause I care about you, Iām constantly thinking about you, and I like to tell her about important things in my life. Youāre an important thing in my life.ā He shrugs as if it shouldnāt even be a question.
āWhat about us has ever made you think that a relationship between the two of us would even ever work?ā You ask him, feeling your heart clench at his words but needing to get all your questions out as quickly as possible.
āI kind of thought I made that clear,ā He starts softly, unsure if youāll really let him get all of his thoughts out, ābut, I guess to try to explain it, itās everything that you do, everything I feel when Iām around you. Charlotte yelled at me a few days ago, and rightfully so, about constantly acting like your boyfriend with none of the commitment or intimacy, that itās not fair to either of us, not fair to you. Y/N, I am truly happy every second I spend with you, youāre an absolute breath of fresh air, a respite, the idea of coming home to someone like that warms my soul. I have spent so much time wandering around, looking for a place to land and looking in all of the wrong places, evidently. I donāt want to do that anymore, not when everything Iāve always wanted and needed is right in front of me. Iāve been single for a long time, but I know what this feels like, Iāve just never felt it like this before. Weāre already halfway there, I donāt see why taking the next step would be bad for either of us.ā
Heās just standing in the middle of his room, keeping a good distance from you, trying his best to bore his speech into your brain. It annoys you how good he can look even after a run. When most people would look like a drowned rat with the amount of sweat covering his body, he looks like heās shining, the sweat somehow making every muscular dip and tattoo even more center stage than usual. You stare at him for a moment, letting his rant twist your heart in ways you didnāt know it could, swallowing down tears as you hear just how much the man in front of you truly cares. You hate that everything he has said is right.
āThank you again for trusting me with meeting Leon, and Marina, Iām honored you let me into that part of your life.ā You say, your voice thick with emotion.
You can see his face contort, confused at both your lack of proper response and your subject change, he imagines itās because youāre trying to swerve away from the topic, but he just nods softly, āOf course, I trust with you with my life, with my heart, with everything. Thereās no one I would rather he meet.ā
āI donāt want to lose you Lewis.ā You say firmly, āI canāt lose you, thatās why us trying this doesnāt make sense.ā Your words are rushed and your brain is speeding a mile a minute, needing to get everything out into the air.
You can visibly see him deflate, his face faltering, an audible sigh coming from him.
āY/N, sweetheart, I donāt know how many times I need to tell you this but you will never lose me, not in a million years. Sure things may change, but thatās the trajectory of life, regardless of what you and I do, things are destined to change, itās evolution. Try thinking of it in the sense that you already have me, forever, for better or worse, but now I want to give you more of me, just you. We have each other now, but it could be so much more, and somehow I think even better. Tell me you donāt think about how nice it would be to fall asleep next to each other at night. When I hug you I can feel you melt into me, I fucking relish in it, thatās why I never pull away, that could be our normal, how we fall asleep, how we cuddle and watch some stupid fucking show. Think about how good we could make each other feel, emotionally, physically, fuck, on levels we donāt even know exist yet. I want this with you, I adore you and everything about you, thereās absolutely nothing in my mind that questions you and I being a good couple. Weāve already got the platonic relationship down, we know each other so fucking well, better than most people who have been married for twenty god damn years, we have a head start. Everyone always says that your partner should end up being your best friend, we already did that, so here I am, you best friend, telling you I want to be your partner, and fuck I hope you hear me.ā
He lets out a deep sigh as he finishes his rant, you can tell heās had that bottled within him for a while. You let him speak, not needing to hear it but wanting to, your mind is already made up, it doesnāt really matter what he says at this point. Youāre quite amazed by the outpouring of emotions youāre receiving from him, not used to him letting himself truly be vulnerable. He looks tired and you can tell that if he were a normal man he would be close to giving up, but heās not a normal man and āgiving upā is nowhere in his vocabulary. Lewis is competitive and strives to win, he doesnāt back down, especially when itās truly important to him. That alone is part of the reason that you feel confident in your decision.
āSo, if weāre going to do this, some things need to be made very clear.ā You continue after his rant, not having the ability to even begin to process everything he just said. You need to charge ahead, his words only fueling your confidence in your decision.
You can tell he doesnāt quite believe the words that have just left your mouth but he does his best to restrain from making you repeat them. He stays silent, nodding obediently, but you can see the corner of his lips twitching, begging to break into the largest smile known to man.
āFirst, itās only you and I in this relationship, your playboy fuckboy antics, they need to be thrown out the window immediately.ā You begin the list that had played over and over in your head over the last few hours, āSecond, there always needs to be communication, on both of our parts, no fucking games, no fucking secrets, honesty and communication.ā
Heās nodding along eagerly, you almost worry that heās not listening but you canāt stop yourself to reprimand him.
āThird,ā You continue, āwe take this slow. I am not and will never be one of your play things. You will respect me and my limits and weāre not rushing into anything, you need to prove yourself, Iām still a little bit upset with you. Fourth, jesus christ, for the love of god, please get tested, I donāt need every bitch from every corner of the universe inside of me. Got it?ā
He giggles at your last demand but nods nonetheless.
āDone, done, done, and already done.ā He agrees, no hesitation.
āLewis, I need this to work, because Iām not sure I would be able to function without you at this point.ā You sigh, letting your final thought out.
He nods once again, āAgreed,ā He lets out a content sigh, āSo is that you saying youāll do this with me? Youāll be mine, all mine?ā His voice is hesitant but eager as he asks the question, slowly making his way toward you.
āOnly if youāll be mine and only mine.ā You say, your voice quieting down as he approaches you.
āIn a heartbeat babe.ā His voice is only above a whisper but his eyes are boring down into yours, making you anxious and giddy all at once.
āOkay, last demand, properly ask me out.ā Your lips lose your internal battle as they spread across your face into a wide smirk, needing to make him work for it one last time. Itās cruel, really, with how much he has already put into winning you over, but you need him to do it. One last little bit of confidence that this is all real.
āY/N Y/L/N, will you please be my girlfriend? All mine, forever?ā His smile has now broken over his face, unable to contain it as he stands only a few inches from you. He laughs gently through his words, amused by your request but willing to do whatever you need to finally be his. Heās smiling in a way you donāt think youāve ever seen before, it's a whole new level of boyish excitement that makes your heart swell.
āLewis Hamilton, I would be absolutely honored.ā Within seconds of the words leaving your lips he has wrapped you in a large bear hug, picking you up off the ground, making you squeal.
āLewis,ā You whine through laughter, āyouāre so fucking sweaty, I just showered.ā
āThis is what you just signed up for baby girl.ā He chuckles, pressing a kiss against your head. You're rather confident that your name has already been long forgotten, pet names now taking its place.
āOkay, I take it back, I regret my decision.ā You laugh playfully, his beard tickling you as he continues his assault of kisses that have now made their way to your cheek.
āNope, no take backs.ā He giggles against your cheek, placing you back down on the floor.
When he finally releases his grip from you his hands quickly find your cheeks, cupping your smiling face in his large hands.
āSo beautiful, and all mine.ā He mutters as if to himself.
āAll yours.ā You whisper back, making his smile even bigger if possible.
āI know you said we have to take this slow,ā He starts, making you raise an eyebrow at him, ābut can I please kiss you?ā
You donāt have it anywhere in you to say no, all you can do is bite your lip with a nod, eagerly awaiting his lips on yours. He stares at you for a moment, as if processing the permission you just granted him. You expected the kiss to be harsh, almost messy from his excitement, but it was far from it. He leans in to you slowly, almost cautiously before connecting his lips with yours. You both sigh the moment youāre finally in contact. His lips are so soft and his large hands cupped around your cheek make you feel small, all you can do is melt into him. You bring your arms up around his sticky neck, still sweatier than you would normally find yourself being okay with. He keeps the kiss gentle but moves one arm to snake around your waist, pulling you flush against him as if thereās no possibility you could ever be close enough. He doesnāt move to deepen the kiss, his tongue never appears, he barely even moves, just enjoying the fact that youāre finally connected, even in the most simple of ways. When he finally pulls away you find yourself wanting to chase his lips, not having had quite enough just yet. He notices the involuntary reaction, chuckling slightly as he rests his forehead on yours. You place your hands on his chest, enjoying the firmness under your palms, realizing that itās all yours to enjoy now. You almost go to take back your statement about taking it slow but the last logical brain cell you have stops you.
āWe have to figure out how to make this work Lewis.ā You whisper, not wanting to disrupt the peace in between you two.
āWe will, I would never forgive myself if I let you go.ā He says, his voice just as quiet.
āDo we tell everyone?ā You ask, not sure what to do next, especially when trapped in a house together.
āWe can wait, or do whatever feels natural. As long as we know.ā He eases your mind, letting you know thereās no pressure.
You nod, grateful you donāt feel the need to go announce it to the whole house.
āNow go take a shower so I can have a much less disgusting hug.ā You laugh, pushing against his chest.
āYou liked it.ā He joins your laughter, slowly parting from you.
āShower.ā You repeat, pointing toward the door of the bathroom.
āYou can always join.ā He playfully winks.
āSlow, Lewis, weāre taking it slow.ā You reprimand him, feeling yourself blush but still laughing.
āIāll be quick, be ready with open arms.ā He flashes you a smile, disappearing into the bathroom.
ā¦
Youāre in the kitchen, starting to prepare dinner when Lewis finally comes out of his room, freshly showered and looking so damn cuddly in a large t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants. It will forever bother you that even in his pajamas he manages to look better than the entire population. Everyone else is out on the patio, setting the table and making drinks.
āI thought I was getting a hug when I got out of the shower, maybe another kiss.ā Lewis whispers to you, startling you when his voice comes from so close behind you.
He chuckles when he notices you jump, stepping away from you only slightly to take a spot next to you at the counter, grabbing a knife and cutting up some veggies. You canāt help but watch as his hand grips the stupid cucumber, something that should not affect you, yet it does.
Youāre looking at the way the veins in his hands flex as he adjusts his grip as you mutter to him with a smirk, āBehave.ā
āI donāt know, I feel like I was promised a reward that I didnāt get.ā He says quietly, shrugging his shoulders. Heās standing close enough to you that you can feel the movement.
āI think you got plenty of a reward for one day. I mean hey, you got me.ā You taunt him, your voice staying just as low.
āOh, how right you are.ā He sighs, leaning in to press a quick kiss to your temple before moving past you to the fridge.
āLook who finally showed up to help.ā Charlotteās voice comes through the kitchen as she walks in the back doors.
āDid you want my sweaty ass making your dinner?ā Lewis shoots back at her.
Her face scrunches up at the thought.
āDidnāt think so.ā He says, his attention already turned back to the fridge in hunt of something.
You canāt help but giggle, feeling as though you are truly on cloud nine. Nothing could have prepared you for the absolute ecstasy that would be coursing through your body after making that man yours, or really you should say allowing yourself to be his, he truly did all the heavy lifting.
āWhatās so funny? You know how nasty he is after a run.ā Charlotte shoots you a look, almost asking you to back her up.
You just laugh, thinking about the fact that you were wrapped around his sweaty body only twenty minutes ago.
āWhatever, Iām gonna go see if I can find a board game or something for later.ā Charlotte announces, heading off toward the other side of a house where you know there is a still unused game room. Youād seen it for only a few minutes, Miles and Lewis having spent a few hours playing on the various arcade games, their inner child truly coming out.
Lewis was now walking back over to you, his hands full of various ingredients he had gathered. You went to attempt to take some of them but he just tutted, swatting your hand away.
āI got this, you just sit over there and look pretty, keep me entertained.ā He nodded his head over toward the kitchen island, a smirk on his face.
āI hope you know, my way of keeping you entertained will most likely be me making fun of your culinary skills.ā You tell him, not arguing with him doing all the work, as you happily perch yourself on one of the stools. You canāt help but enjoy the view. He takes his cutting board off the counter and moves it to the island, making sure heās facing you so he can glance at you every once in a while.
āWhatever makes you happy, love.ā He chuckles, not looking up at you as he gets to chopping.
Your stomach flips at the pet name, heās called you love before but to your knowledge it always just been in a polite british way. Now it feels different, you want toĀ assume itās because heās all the sudden your boyfriend, but in reality you know itās because of just how much you care for the man standing in front of you. You sit in silence for a few moments, just admiring how beautiful he is, truly looking like a god while he does the most mundane tasks. You know youāre done for.
āYouāre pretty quiet over there, where the critique?ā Lewis teases you, noting your silence.
āWell, first of all Iām just admiring my view,ā You admit, āSecond of all, you unfortunately seem to be a half decent cook.ā
āBabe, I donāt know if my ego can take all this flattery.ā He laughs.
āDonāt get used to it, Iām simply in a strangely good mood.ā You shrug, laughing yourself.
āI would hope youād be in a good mood, big shit happened today.ā He looks at you with a soft playful smile. You can tell heās being sincere under his teasing tone.
Before you can respond your friends are making their way into the kitchen, offering to help with dinner before being shooed away by Lewis who is seemingly on his own mission. You canāt help but laugh, noting that he gives Charlotte a run for her money when it comes to being in control of the kitchen. You canāt help but be a tad bit annoyed at the intrusion, not that anyone even knows they were interrupting anything, and in reality, they werenāt. You were just enjoying your one on one time being playful with Lewis in your newfound status after having been at odds with him for so long. Much to your dismay, Lewis paid much less attention to you while your friends were around. You understood it, he was keeping things normal between the two of you, at least outwardly, he was respecting your anxiety of everyone finding out that something had changed between you.
The evening carried on happily and calmly. You discovered that when left on his own in the kitchen, Lewis was actually quite a good cook, you would have to make him cook for you another time, just you. Charlotte had found Monopoly somewhere in the house, which you promptly lost at, Lewis then insisting that you team up. No one batted an eye at it other than Charlotte, she had shot you a questioning look, wordlessly asking if the two of you were okay. You had only nodded, a soft smile on your face. She had seemed content enough with that, letting you be for the rest of the evening. By the time that you were headed to bed you were full of a joy you hadnāt felt in years, maybe ever. Lewis had very discreetly managed to give you a kiss on the cheek and a small hug before you headed to bed, whispering something about caching in on your promise from earlier. As you fell asleep you couldnāt help but feel like all of your stars had finally aligned in the most perfect way, even if you had no idea what was in store for your future.
ā¦
Your final days of vacation were here, a few days prior you would have wished they would come and go as quick as possible but now, waking up in this new chapter of your life, you wished you could bottle the next few days and never let them go. The morning was lazy, lying in the sun after breakfast before deciding to head down to the beach to do the exact same thing, only with even more gorgeous views. From where you were seated, you already had the best view you could possibly ask for. Lewis was off in the side yard, fully immersed in a full body workout. You were admiring him from a distance, pretending to read your book, but your eyes kept wandering over to his glistening back and bulging biceps as he did effortless push-ups, it would have been criminal not to watch. You knew that he knew you were watching him, he had readjusted specifically to give you a better view, the cocky bastard. When everyone had gone inside to get ready, you stayed back, wanting even just a second alone with him. The second everyone was indoors you made your way over to him, sitting criss crossed on the ground in front of where he was doing sit ups now. One rep he sat up and gave you a wide smile before disappearing again, making you giggle, next rep his eyes flicked over to the door, third rep he came up and grabbed your cheeks, relaxing his form as he pulled your face to his, hesitating for only a moment before firmly planting his lips on yours. Once again he kept it pg but it still felt like heaven on earth. You giggled as you pulled away, feeling like a teenager who had just had her first kiss, you couldnāt help but feel that this is how it would always be with Lewis.
āSo what did I hear? Are we headed down to the beach?ā He asked, keeping his face rather close to yours, closer than it should be for a friend.
āYeah, I was just coming over to tell you.ā You say, blatantly lying as to why you had approached him.
āMmmhmmmā¦ā He smirked, catching your lie in an instant.
āOkay, maybe not.ā You admitted, leaning in to peck his lips once more. He didnāt let that happen though as he made sure you stayed in place much longer than you had intended, not that you minded in the least bit.Ā
āI should go shower then.ā He mumbled as he finally pulled away, moving to stand
āThereās no point, just go jump in the ocean.ā You said, making him stay seated in front of you.
āIām beginning to think that you like me when Iām sweaty,ā He smirked before leaning in to place a kiss to your jaw, āand I have to say, I can think of a few ways you could help me work up a sweat.ā
You felt your cheeks heat up in an instant, trying to push away the mental images of him above you, his chest glistening. You knew he could tell just how he had affected you when you saw the look on his face when he pulled away.
āWell, I guess Iāll just go put on some trunks then.ā He said with a wink as he finally got up to his feet, you not having any ability to stop him right now.
Looking up at him from your spot on the ground as he stood above you had a whole new slew of thoughts rushing through your head. You were a horny mess. The smirk on his face was all knowing and you wanted desperately to wipe it off his face, but there was no use, he was dead on.
You made sure to stay behind and wait for Lewis, who had ended up insisting on showering, as everyone else made their way down to the beach. You were at the kitchen island, scrolling through your phone, when he finally came out. You were wearing one of your bikinis, one you had worn already on the trip, back when he and Miles had tried to teach you to surf. His hands were on your waist before you even knew he was in the room.Ā
āWaiting for me, beautiful?ā His head was nuzzled into your neck, not trying anything, just enjoying the closeness.
You lightly pushed him away, spinning on the stool to face him. On instinct you widened your legs, allowing him to step between them so he could be closer to you, bad idea. Your breath hitched when you realized what you had just done, feeling him just brush up against you. You could tell that he wasnāt trying to grind against you or anything, it was just a casualty of trying to get closer to you, but that didnāt make it affect you any less.
āUm, yeah, wanted to walk down with you.ā You half mumble, your brain jumbled.
He smiled softly, āEveryone gone?ā
All you could do was nod.
āGood.ā He let out a heavy breath, pulling your cheeks to press your lips together.
He was slightly more explorative this time and you didnāt mind in the slightest. The kiss was nothing like the first time he had kissed you, messy and open mouthed, but he slightly toyed with your bottom lip, running his tongue along it gently. You ever so slightly opened your mouth, allowing him the small bit of access he so desperately wanted. Nothing but the tips of your tongues met, ever so slightly dancing across each other as you both tested the waters. When he finally pulled away he made sure to leave multiple pecks to your lips, leaving you happily satisfied yet still wanting more. You werenāt quite sure anything would ever be enough with Lewis.
He stepped away, trying to discreetly adjust himself, making you laugh. He sent you a look before righting himself as if nothing had happened. He extended his hand to you, pulling you off the barstool as he intertwined his fingers with yours. Walking hand in hand with him, slightly leaning your weight against him, felt like the most natural thing in the world. You couldnāt help but admire him, almost tripping a few times on your way down the path, making him chuckle. With a towel slung over one shoulder, his swim trunks low on his hips, and a dark pair of sunglasses perched on his nose, he looked perfect, absolutely effortless.
You had parted ways once you got to your friends, still trying your very best to stay discreet. That lasted only about a half hour, the second Lewis had decided he wanted to get in the water he was dragging you along with him. Very much like the last time, he was throwing you into the water almost immediately. His smile was wide as he watched you curse him out. As if he had forgotten that your friends were back on the beach, he grabbed you and pulled you towards where he was floating in the water. You could touch the bottom but only on your tiptoes and you could tell that he had opted to tread water, always staying active. He wrapped your legs around his hips, keeping you afloat with him.
āWell hello there.ā You laughed at his sudden move.
āHello.ā He chuckled, nuzzling into your neck.
āLew, what are you doing?ā You asked semi cautiously, enjoying him but knowing that if anyone decided to sit up from their towel they would immediately see you being evidently more than friends.
āEnjoying being in the Caribbean Sea with my girl. Iām finally really enjoying vacation.ā His words were slightly muffled as his lips moved against your neck.
āBabe, everyone can see us right now.ā You whispered, feeling like you were trying to keep a secret even from the fish in the ocean.
He let out a content humm at the use of your pet name, placing a kiss to your throat, āWe said whatever feels natural right? This feels natural. Fuck them, letās just enjoy this.ā
He pulled away, his arm readjusting its grip around your waist. You could feel the strength in his muscles and it made your stomach clench, thinking about him holding you in so many other ways. You just stared at him for a moment, contemplating everything.
āDo you want me to stop?ā He asked sincerely, noticing the torn look on your face.
You thought about it for only a moment longer, deciding being in his arms was much too good to waste in order to keep a secret, āNope, youāre right, fuck āem.ā
His smile was wide as you let yourself truly wrap your arms around his neck, leaning in to place a kiss against his smile. He could barely kiss you back, too happy to use his mouth for anything but the biggest grin you could imagine.
āIām really happy.ā You whispered to him, only a few centimeters from his lips.
āI am too baby, I am too.ā He shook his head almost in disbelief.
You have no idea how long the two of you spent bobbing around in the water, but it was long enough that your friends had either gotten sick of the sun or sick of the PDA, possibly both.
āHey,ā Miles yelled, āweāre headed to the house, you guys coming or are you gonna keep fucking eachother in the ocean?ā
You laughed, hiding your face in Lewisā shoulder as he flipped Miles off. You were rather surprised at how casual Miles seemed about it, maybe he was expecting it, maybe he had known how Lewis felt longer than you had, regardless you were grateful that it didnāt seem like a big deal.
āBe up soon.ā Lewis yelled back, Miles returning his one finger salute.
You stayed wrapped around each other only a little while longer as you enjoyed the serenity of being with your person in the most beautiful of places. No talking was needed as you basked in the sound of nature and peace surrounding you. Your heart felt whole, in a way it hadnāt in quite some time. You were shocked at how quickly you had fallen into a new cycle with Lewis, but you didnāt mind one bit.
. . .Ā
āI swear to god if I have to hear you two fuck, I might lose my shit.ā Miles said, his face showing nothing but seriousness as you and Lewis both burst out laughing.
After you had made your way back to the house, Lewis had thrown caution to the wind, promptly pulling you down into his lap as you came out onto the patio after changing. You hadnāt fought him on it, equally as content as he was and fully aware everyone had already seen you in the water. The only problem was now they were close enough to tease you. The second Charlotte saw him do it she squealed.
āAh please tell me my two favorite people have finally realized that they need to get married and have kids?ā She had clapped, her voice shrill with excitement.
āWoah, slow down there Charā, she became my girlfriend yesterday, give us a damn minute.ā Lewis had chuckled, seemingly somewhat prepared for Charlotte's antics.
āHey now, two favorite people?ā Miles had complained, giving Charlotte a playfully offended look.
āOkay sorry, two of my favorite people.ā She corrected herself, rolling her eyes.
āIām just worried Iām never gonna see you two again, gonna be far too obsessed with each other to ever see the light of day again. Also hold up, girlfriend?ā Miles had carried on.
āYou speaking from experience?ā Steph teased him, āIs Lewis that good?ā
āOh fuck off,ā He didnāt even look at her, opting to flip her off instead, ābut seriously, girlfriend?ā He looked at you.
You just nodded, shyly, āHe wore me down, he can be quite persuasive.ā
āIām just shocked because the last time I saw you two really interact, Iām pretty sure you wanted to either cut his dick off or punch him in the face.ā Miles laughs.
āOh I did, but we talkedā¦ a lot.ā You laugh, not wanting to really go into much detail.
Somehow Lewis manages to get the conversation away from your relationship status and you silently thank him, not in the mood for some big hoopla and discussion about your feelings. As everyone chatters on around you the evening quickly turns to night and people begin to bid their goodnights. With only a few people left on the patio, you do the same, whispering to Lewis before announcing it to the group. When you get to your room, you realize that you quite wish you had given him a kiss before you left, too shy to do it infront of everyone just yet. You sit on your bed in your pajamas, waiting to hear him head to his room. Finally you hear his voice in the hall, making you move to try to sneakily follow him to his room. You donāt hear anyone else in the hall so you make a run for it. You feel like a boarding school student breaking curfew with the way that you run on your tiptoes over to his doorway, knocking ever so softly.
āYeah?ā His voice is louder than you would have liked.
Instead of waiting for further permission, you gently ease his door open, slipping in quickly and softly shutting it behind you. Heās in the middle of taking off the sweatshirt he had put on earlier in the night, his t-shirt riding up as he does so, putting his abs wonderfully on display.
āHello you.ā He smirks when he finally sees you.
āSorry.ā You mumble, suddenly embarrassed that you just snuck into his room for a silly goodnight kiss after only dating the man for a day.
For some reason your brain is on a different level than your relationship technically is, you feel like youāve been together for months, years even. Itās exactly what he was talking about, heās been acting as your boyfriend for some time but now you finally have the intimacy you had secretly dreamed of.
āDonāt be sorry,ā He smiles, approaching you to place his hands on your hips, āI too was thinking I needed to come steal a kiss before bed.ā He puts your mind at ease, pressing his lips to yours softly.
You find yourself deepening the kiss, his soft manner not being enough for you. You wrap your arms around his neck, pressing yourself against his firm torso. Heās more than welcoming, wrapping his arms around you tightly, pulling you against him even harder than before. You take the lead this time, licking against his mouth. It takes him barely a second to respond, letting your tongue explore his mouth, his moving in sync against yours. When he groans into the kiss you canāt help but try to pull him even closer to you. He leans you against the door you had just snuck in through, his hands gravitating down towards your ass. You donāt stop him, nothing could possibly make you stop him in that moment. His large hands rest carefully atop your ass, not wanting to cross anymore of a boundary than he already is. You try to give him more permission, pressing your hips against his as you do your very best not to break from his lips that are growing hungrier by the second. The heat of his body and the lack of oxygen from the kiss are making you lightheaded, you need him, so much more than you could have ever imagined. You throw your demands out the window, fuck taking it slow, you needed to take him now.
He feels you press your hips against him, taking the hint and finally properly grabbing your ass, greedy handfuls in his large palms. He groans again and the sound goes straight to your core. You bring one of your legs up around his waist, hoping he gets the hint fully, and does he ever. Within moments heās moving his hands to your thighs, beckoning for you to jump up so your legs are wrapped firmly around his waist. Finally he properly presses himself against you, his lips moving down to your jaw and trailing down your neck. It feels just as good as it did the first time you felt him do just this, but this time itās even better, because you know you wonāt be stopping him this time. He nibbles ever so slightly making you whimper. Itās the first proper sound heās gotten out of you and he is immediately on a mission for more.
āFuck, baby, do you want this? Are you sure?ā He is so out of breath as he asks the question but his voice is serious, heās not fucking it up again.
āYes Lew, so much, I need you, please.ā You rush out, your voice already an embarrassing whine. If you werenāt so needy in that moment, you might find it in you to care, but all you care about is getting him exactly how you want him.
The second he hears your words heās latching his lips back onto your throat and carrying you over to his bed. The grace with which he puts you down surprises you, you half expected to be thrown like a ball. His hands move under your pajama shirt, immediately finding your breast completely bare. His thumb brushes over your sensitive nipple, making you gasp. His lips find yours once again, his hands roaming every inch of your body they can reach, yours doing the same to him. You fumble to try and take his shirt off, making him chuckle as he pulls away to do it for you, him swiftly ridding you of your shirt as well. He pauses for a moment, his eyes locked to your chest and the hungry stare makes you want to cover up. As if he can tell he leans down, placing his lips across every inch of bare skin he can before latching his lips around one of your nipples. You canāt help but arch into him, feeling his smile against your chest as you do so. You let your hands wander the smooth skin of his back, feeling how his muscles flex as he adjusts himself to kiss a trail down your torso. When he reaches your waistband his eyes flick up to yours, silently asking if he can carry on.
āPlease.ā You sigh out, needing some sort of relief from how ridiculously worked up you are in that moment.
That's all he needs to hear before heās pulling down your sleep shorts and your undies in one swift motion. Once you're bare, his eyes lock onto your heat, in a much similar way to how they did your chest earlier.
āSo fucking perfect.ā He says under his breath, his thumb moving to ever so slightly brush against your hip, making you squirm.
Finally his thumb makes its way to the bundle of nerves that are throbbing with desperation. His touch is so light you can barely feel it but it makes your hips buck up towards him. He takes that as a good sign, applying more pressure as he finally starts to move in tantalizing circles, the rest of his hand resting on your pubis.
āSo wet, so ready, my god,ā He mumbles as if to himself before speaking up, his voice raspy with lust, āCan I taste you baby? Been dying to for so long.ā
āOh my god, please.ā You feel like you could cry from just how turned on you are.
The first flick of his tongue is teasing, nothing even close to what youāre in the mood for, you buck your hips up towards him, hoping he takes the hint. He immediately dives in, no room for teasing and taunting left. His head between your thighs is something you never anticipated witnessing, but now its all you ever want to see. He wastes no time in latching his mouth onto your sensitive nerves, making you cry out. His tongue laps in the most perfect rhythm that your positive nothing will ever be as satisfying again. His tongue travels everywhere and anywhere, searching for your most sensitive spots. He makes his journey further down, the strong muscle of his tongue teasing at your entrance, you gasp as you feel him push just the tip in, his nose coming down to meet your clit. He quickly begins fucking you with his tongue as he gently moves his head, creating just enough friction with the tip of his nose to have you a whimpering mess. You feel yourself starting to tense up, never having come so quick with any of your partners. He can feel it too. He quickly replaces his tongue with two thick fingers, his mouth coming up to suck your clit directly into his mouth.
āThere yaā go, give it to me pretty girl, let me see how good you look when you come. You taste so fucking good, never gonna get enough.ā You look down to see his eyes locked directly on yours. You can see his bicep flexing with the movements heās making inside of you and that combination has you coming undone, harder than you ever have before. All you can do is moan his name, you have no idea how loud youāre being but you truly couldnāt care less, the way heās making you feel is second to none. You can feel his smirk as he works you down from your orgasm slowly, making sure you feel every ounce of it.
Before heās even able to make his way all the way up your body, youāre reaching for the button of his pants. You need to feel him, and you need to feel him now.
āAll in good time sweetheart.ā He giggles, placing a soft kiss to your lips.
You can feel the dampness in his beard, his lips slick. He steps away from you, making you whine.
āSo needy, give me a second and Iāll give you everything you need.ā He teases you as he walks over to his bag. He grabs a condom and you canāt help but be grateful he at least has half a mind right now, you were ready to take him raw if it meant you could have him.
He finally lets you undo his pants, pushing them down along with his briefs. What youāre met with has your eyes going wide. Heās much larger than you could have even imagined. The thick vein running up his shaft looks lickable and you almost do exactly that before heās laying you back once more, rolling the condom on.
āIāll go slow, I promise.ā He whispers reassuringly, evidently having caught your initial reaction.
When you feel the blunt tip press against you, you begin to rethink everything, there is absolutely no way youāll be able to take him. He begins to ease into you slowly and it's the most indescribable feeling. You feel like youāre being split in two and put back together all at once. He somehow feels like an intrusion and your missing piece.
āLewā You whimper out, clinging to him for dear life.
āAlmost there baby, almost there,ā His voice is soothing in your ear but you can hear the tension as he feels you for the first time, āyouāre doing so good, so proud of you.ā
The second he bottoms out, it's as if time has stopped. The two of you both let out deep groans, reveling in the feeling of finally being fully connected. Slowly the burning stretch turns into indescribable satisfaction. It feels like he was meant to be inside of you, the missing piece to the puzzle of your body. He stays still, letting you adjust to him as he peppers you with kisses. You can feel the tension in his shoulders, desperate to move, chase the high youāre both so desperate for. You donāt know how you find it in you but you wrap your legs around his hips, pulling him closer and hoping he takes the hint that you need him to move just as much as he needs it. Slowly he pulls out of you, only half way, before burying himself in you again. He hits the perfect spot, making your toes clench with only one thrust. The groan he lets out is pornagraphic and you fight to make yourself look at him. The sight above you is what dreams are made of as he slowly starts to build a pace, testing the waters with what you like, evidently aiming to make sure youāre feeling just as good as he is. His lips are parted as if theyāre ready to let out a moan at any given moment, his brow is furrowed in pleasure and concentration, his lust filled eyes boring down into yours.
āFuck baby, you feel unreal.ā He half groans, dropping his head into the crook of your neck, tracing his lips over the sensitive skin.
āFuck, Lew, more please.ā You run your nails gently down his back, making him shiver.
āYou want more?ā His voice is taunting, challenging.
āFuuuuck.ā You draw out as his hips pick up their pace.
He brings one of his arms to rest on the headboard as he leverages himself to put more power behind his thrusts. All words have left your mind, your mouth open in a constant gasp, no sound capable of escaping you any longer. He takes one of your legs, resting it over his shoulder as he pushes himself down on to you, his body weight suffocating in the best way. Somehow heās even deeper this way and it makes you whimper, the tension mounting in your belly. You can tell you're almost there. His grunts and groans have quickly become your new favorite soundtrack as they edge you closer and closer to your release. His hips have picked up their pace even more and you can feel yourself teetering on the edge. When his hand slips down to toy with your clit you find yourself letting out a moan much louder than you should have. He brings his lips to yours, attempting to quiet you. This kiss is useless, just two open mouths, sharing each others sounds of pleasure.
āFuck I love you.ā He breathes out, you can tell he didnāt mean to say it but the second you hear it you need to hear it a million more times. Your stomach tightening at the phrase falling from his lips
āSay it again.ā You just about whine.
He hesitates for a moment, his hips faltering before finding his pace again, āI love you.ā This time with much more conviction.
āAgain.ā You moan, so close to your high.
āFuck Y/N, I love you, I love you, so fucking much.ā He rambles, connecting your lips when he feels you reach your peak.
Youāre not prepared, it crashes over you like a tsunami, you tighten around him so hard he struggles to move, to fuck you through it. Youāre beyond grateful that heās as determined as he is because he keeps you at your peak longer than you even knew possible, your vision blurring and your ears ringing. You feel him tense, uncoordinated thrusts as he finally spills into the condom. His breathing is hard as he collapses against you like the best weighted blanket imaginable. Heās pressing soft kisses to your throat as you do your best to come back to earth. You can feel him slowly softening inside of you and it just feels right, the two of you being connected.
"So much for taking it slow, hmm?" His voice is tired but teasing.
"Oh fuck off." Is the first thing you say to him as you come back into yourself, making him chuckle
It takes him a few moments before he disconnects from you, much to your dismay, wincing as he pulls out.
āMāsorry, one second.ā He says softly, pecking your lips before moving to discard the condom and get you a rag.
He cleans you with such care, so gentle, you feel your heart lurch. Itās rare that youāve been with a guy who takes such care afterwards. When heās finally done he joins you back in bed, moving you both under the covers.
āNo arguments, youāre staying right here.ā He mumbles before you can object and try to go back to your own room, which you assume will no longer be needed.
āHey Lewis?ā You prompt hesitantly as he pulls you against his chest, hiking your leg up over his hips.
āI meant it, have for so long it hurts.ā He answers you without you even having to ask, knowing what youāre questioning.
You lift your head to meet his, looking at him through the pale moonlight flooding the room.
āI love you too.ā You whisper before leaning it to meet his lips.
"Say it again." He mumbles against your lips, a smile spreading across both of your faces as he mimics your words from earlier.
"I love you so fucking much Lewis Hamilton." You giggle as he pulls you impossibly close to him, latching his lips on to yours.
You donāt know how long you stay there kissing him but youāre not sure you disconnected before you fell asleep. All you know is that as you lay there, enjoying his affection, you knew you had made the right decision. You will never lose Lewis and now you have the rest of your life to enjoy a whole new journey with him.
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Michael Langdon x Reader (Mad Love Act II, Chapter XVII)
Summary: What it says on the tin: Michael's version.
Word Count: 5.6k
A note from the author: Certain phrases and sections may sound familiar, and that's because they are! We're back in the past, baby! This is itāour penultimate chapter. I have so many emotions about coming to the end of this journey, but I'll save them for the final chapter. Until then, enjoy, and as always, likes, comments, and reblogs make my world go round.
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When Michael Langdon opens his eyes and finds himself surrounded by white, he believes that heās died.
In his mind, itās a logical conclusion to come to. He and Mallory had tried a very risky, obscure spell, after all, one with no real precedent for safety. If it ended up failing, it certainly wouldnāt be a shock. And donāt people see a white light when they die? Itās then that Michael remembers that when he dies, he is most certainly going to Hell, and actually takes a proper look at his surroundings.
While he is looking at the color white, itās because heās lying on the floor and staring up at a white ceiling. Around him are bookshelves packed to the brim with a variety of both old and new booksābooks whose pages are imbued with magic that Michael can sense. Thereās a large, mahogany desk covered with more books and spare pages sitting under a picture window to his left, the chair pulled back and waiting for its occupant. Waiting for him, because he knows now beyond a shadow of a doubt that heās in the library at Miss Robichauxās, which can only mean one thing: the spell worked.
Michael scrambles to his feet, his hand going to rest on the desk so that he can feel the wood beneath his palm and confirm that this isnāt some mere dream or hallucination. His nails scrape along the grain, the wood firm and sturdy and real. An opulent, gilded mirror on the opposite wall garners his attention, and he hesitantly makes his way over to peek in the glass.
Gone is the red, velvet dinner jacket and the dramatic eyeshadow. No longer does his hair tumble past his shoulders, and his eyes are devoid of the cold, disinterested glint that he had trained himself to carry at all times. Now, Michael stares at himself as he was, all those months ago. Heās fresh-faced, though a little exhausted, and he can see only worry and excitement in his eyes. His hair is curly and falls to just past his chin, the ends barely brushing his shoulders if he shrugs. The black bomber jacket slung over the back of the chair is obviously meant to complete his ensemble of a black t-shirt, black jeans, and Docs.Ā
For the first time in a long time, he recognizes the person in the mirror.
Now that itās obvious that heās back to a time before the apocalypse, his mind is already three floors down to where you surely sit. Logically, Michael knows that he should take a moment to assess the situation, perhaps test the parameters of the spell, and see if there are any limits on time or what he can and cannot do. He couldnāt care less about that though, not when heās back in a world where youāre alive and well.
He throws open the door, so eager to reach you that he rushes out into the hallway without looking and runs right into somebody else. Both parties begin to fall backward, but Michael wraps his hands around his accidental victimās upper arms and pulls them both upright.
āWhoa!ā Zoe Benson exclaims, on the way to the library to return the book in her hands.
āSorry.ā The apology comes easily to him; surprising, considering how long itās been since heās had to apologize for anything.
āYouāre good!ā Zoe assures him, without any of the hate or malice that a witch who just faced off against him in a battle to reverse the apocalypse would be expected to have. āAre you looking for Y/n and Mallory?ā
Michael knows exactly where you are, but he nods anyway, if only because youāre being referred to in the present tense.
āTheyāre hammocking in the backyard, which is a relief. Mallory needs someone to tell her to relax, and none of us can convince her.ā
āIāll make sure to convey the covenās thanks, then.ā
Zoe smiles. āYou do that. Iāll see you around.ā
Michael nods, waiting until Zoe actually makes it into the library to nearly run (more cautiously, now) down the stairs and towards the backyard. He pauses at the large French doors, taking in the scene before him. You and Mallory share a hammock under a canopy of wisteria trees that are trying their hardest to hold onto their blooms. Where before, Michael had been the one to rouse you from your nap, youāre now sitting up and embracing Mallory. The Supreme catches his eyes over your shoulder, and she smiles in tearful relief.
His feet carry him to the hammock almost unconsciously. Were it not for that, he would still be standing in one spot, stuck in the wonder of this moment and basking in you being alive once more. Now, Michael puts a shaking, hesitant hand on your shoulder, unable to wait a moment longer before touching you, yet wary of ruining this moment. Your skin is warm under his grip, and he can feel your muscles flex as you turn to look at him. When you smile at him, easy and free and nothing at all like the small, pained ones he had had to force out of you for eighteen months, he lets out a breathless, disbelieving laugh.
āHi, my love.ā He almost canāt get the words out, so choked up with emotion that they nearly become lodged in his throat.
āHey,ā you greet happily, completely and blissfully unaware of the nearly two years of literal hell heād put you through. āHowād it go?ā
Michael doesnāt respond at first, instead sitting on your other side on the hammock so that he can bring you into his arms and enjoy the feeling of you alive once more.
āEverybodyās in such a hugging mood today!ā You wink at both him and Mallory and grin. āNot that Iām complaining, of course.āĀ
Michael hums, but otherwise remains silent. After a moment, you speak again.Ā
āGeez, was it really that bad?ā
Yes, he wants to say. I had the worst nightmare, one in which I was a terrible friend and husband, in which I betrayed everyone Iāve ever known and ruined your trust, trust that I had worked so hard to gain. I dreamed that I destroyed our lives, everybodyās lives, and became a monster. I thought that I lost you, only now I know that I didnāt, because youāre here and happy and alive. Iāve woken up, back into the dream that I didnāt know I was living in until I lost it.
Instead, he says, āNo, it was only mildly frustrating. Justā¦feels like I havenāt seen you in a while.ā
āCo-dependency isnāt healthy, sweetheart.ā Tears spring at the pet name, and he has to shut his eyes to keep them from falling.
āIndulge me for just a bit. We are on vacation, after all.ā
You laugh. āIām on vacation. Youāre on a research trip.ā
āSince my research hasnāt really yielded anything, how about we make the next few hours before we have to meet Dinah a vacation for both of us?ā
āAre you asking me out on a date, Michael?ā
āThatās exactly what Iām doing.ā
You radiate joy, and Michael is so happy to be basking in it once more. āThen I happily accept.ā
āI have a couple of things to give you for your protection, Michael, in case Dinah tries to cross you,ā Mallory says. āWill you come with me while I grab them?ā
Heād much prefer to never leave your side again, but he knows that there are matters that need to be discussed in private, so he begrudgingly nods and disentangles himself from you.
āWeāll be right back,ā Mallory assures you.
āDonāt worry, Iām just fine out here!ā To demonstrate this, you kick your feet up and lay back down on the hammock, smiling at the heat of the sun on your face once more.Ā
Itās one of the most beautiful sights that Michaelās ever seen in his life, and it makes it all the more difficult for him to leave. Mallory ends up having to tug him to her, transmuting them both so theyāre in her bedroom.
āThis was a really good time for you to pick,ā Mallory admits as she pulls a key from her pocket and walks into her closet.
āI canāt believe it actually worked!ā Michael exclaims, running a hand through his hair as he tries to take a moment to process everything thatās just happened.
āI wish I could say that I had faith in us, but it was really 50/50 on what I thought was going to happen.ā
āWhat now? Do we have a limited amount of time here? Are there things that I can or canāt say and do?ā
āWhen I first started practicing this spell, it was difficult for me to stay in the past for very long. It got better the more I attempted it, but the longest I managed to stay was two hours.ā Mallory reappears, holding three familiar items. āEven then, the entire time it felt like there was a rope tied around me, constantly trying to tug me back to my time. I donāt feel that at all now.ā
āI donāt, either.ā
āI think itās because we cast the spell together. After all, who on Earth is more powerful than the Supreme and the Antichrist?ā
The answer? Nobody, unless one of the divine forces decided to step foot on the mortal coil.
āSo you donāt think thereās any danger of us being pulled back to our present before Iām able to meet with Papa Legba tonight?ā Michael asks.
āI donāt. As for your second question, there are no ārulesā as to how you need to act. At least, I donāt think there are. Justā¦remember that weāre in a very crucial time right now, and that everything you do tonight that differentiates from the original timeline will have an effect on the outcome weāre trying to achieve.ā
Michael nods. āTry not to fuck up too badly, got it.ā
āHey, things canāt go as terribly as they did the last time we were here,ā Mallory points out cheekily, laughing at Michaelās scowl. āCāmon, you kind of deserve it.ā
āI do,ā Michael concedes with a sigh.
Mallory hands Michael a box of Cuban cigars and a pouch of mandrake with her right hand, her left holding the lethal-to-Michael charm away from Michael to prevent any accidents. Before he can take them, she grabs his wrist and waits until he looks at her again. āYouāve got this, alright? I have faith in you.ā
āThank you. None of this would be happening without youāyouāre the reason I have a second chance.ā
āYou can thank me after tonight.ā
This time, itās Michael who uses his powers to transmute them back to the backyard. Youāre still in the hammock and idly scrolling your phone, only looking up when you hear the air near you shift.
āBack so soon?ā you ask.
āTry to sound a bit less excited, yeah?ā Mallory teases, holding the charm out for you to take. āHere, this is for you to hold on to tonight. Papa Legba shouldnāt try anything; heās an honorable being who typically doesnāt take what has not been explicitly given to him. Still, it never hurts to have a little extra protection.ā
āItās pretty,ā you note, holding it out to show Michael.
Mallory puts her hand out to stop you. āItās a charm to protect you against beings that are not of this plane, as well as those descended from said beings. I think youād prefer not to zap Michael to Hell.ā
You pretend to think for a moment. āYeah, I suppose youāre right. Heās too cute to get rid of.ā
Michael canāt help himself from blushing at the compliment. Heās always been easily flattered, especially when youāre the one doing the flattering. Before anything else can be said, a younger girl appears at the back door. āMiss Mallory? Miss Zoeās looking for you, somethinā ābout a book you have.ā
āThank you, Abby, Iāll be in shortly.ā When the girl runs back through the house, Mallory sighs and runs a hand through her hair. āDuty calls, I guess. Try not to have too much fun tonight.ā
āNo promises,ā you say cheerfully.
Before she goes, Mallory pulls you into a hug. āI love you. Be safe, alright?ā
āI will. I love you too, Mal.ā
Mallory looks at Michael just before she ducks inside, her expression reiterating everything she previously saidāthat tonight is crucial, that every move he makes now matters, and that she has faith in him. Then sheās gone, and Michaelās turning back to you.
āI was thinking hotel first so that we could freshen up. Does that sound good to you?ā Michael asks.
āSounds perfect. I wouldnāt mind a shower right now.ā Your nose wrinkles. āI smell like airplane.ā
āI donāt think thatās a thing you can smell like,ā Michael says, holding his hand out for you to take so that he can transmute to the hotel.
āSays you.ā You grab Michaelās hand, and he squeezes just for the small joy of feeling you squeeze back.
The curious thing about going back in time, specifically to an event that heās already lived through, is that it feels a lot like being an actor in a play. The motions and words are familiar, and Michael has to put in a bit of effort if he wants to say or do something different than what he already said or did. The deja vu here is strong and recurring, and it takes him a second to get over the feeling time and time againādeja vu about the deja vu; who else can say theyāve experienced such phenomena?
Still, there are more positives in repeating this time than just the obvious one of, yāknow, being able to change his major mistake. Heās also able to remember to take everything in, to simply watch and not miss what he once believed to be mundane.Ā
Heās able to fully enjoy the delight that you display upon finding out what his surprise is, as well as feel proud that he knows you so well. Heās happy to follow you around while you indulge your curiosities, watching you as you stop at each stand and peruse the offerings. He admires how much thought you put into what gift youāll be buying for Kate as thanks for watching your cat.
(Heās pleased on your and Malloryās behalf that youāll have the third member of your trio back, even though youāll never know that you were missing her.)
Itās thrilling to be walking hand in hand with you once more, to enjoy your closeness and being in love. Michaelās perfectly content to be pulled along by you, to answer your questions about what he thinks about this or that item, to allow you to feed him a beignet. This time, he doesnāt waste a moment of opportunity and kisses the powdered sugar off of your lips while feeling your smile.Ā
This trip truly was perfect before that fateful meeting, and to get to relive it is a gift. He falls easily into his ārole,ā parroting those familiar lines about the beauty of New Orleans and your potential grad school options while basking in long-forgotten normalcy. When you stand up, Michael has to hide a smile, knowing whatās coming next. You turn back to him with your hands cupped around something.
āHere, hold out your hands,ā you instruct.
Michael does as asked, dutifully waiting for you to deposit your prize into his waiting hands. A fat firefly lazily buzzes around, and he smiles at the sight as it bumps into his hands over and over again. He glances up to see you looking down, not at the firefly, but at him, with a grin on your face. After a few moments, the firefly finds its way out of his hands and back to the others in the grass.
āYou should try and catch one!ā you suggest.
Where before, Michael allowed the buzzing of his phone alarm to stop the fun, now, he simply silences it and gets up to join you. Heās not very good at it, and he misses more times than heād care to admit, but itās worth it for your laughter and encouragement. Plus, it is pretty satisfying to finally catch one and hold it up for you to see.
You and Michael leave the open-air market ten minutes later than he was originally planning on, but it was more than worth it. The walk to Dinahās studio is short, made even more pleasant by the sky lighting up as the sun sets and the warm, slightly muggy air.
āDid you have fun?ā you ask.
āI think Iām supposed to be asking you that, since Iām the one who planned the date. But yes, I did.ā
āGood. I did too.ā
āThen I call this date a success.āĀ
Youāre happy with that answer, satisfied to walk in companionable silence. Michael, on the other hand, is wracked with guilt now that thereās a moment of quiet amidst all the chaos that heās found himself thrown into since the moment he opened his eyes in the past.
āIām sorry,ā he blurts out.
āFor what?ā In this time, you believe that thereās nothing for him to apologize for. For Michael to be able to live with himself though, he needs to apologize.
āI know Iāve beenā¦off since we saw Cordelia. And I know that you were really shaken up by the Cooperative meeting that I took you to.ā You look at him in surprise, and he shrugs. āWhat? I notice things.ā
āI was shaken up,ā you admit. āIt was scary hearing that you want to end the world so soon, and that there are concrete plans for you to do so. Scarier still knowing that your fatherās watching your progress.ā
āI know, which is why Iām sorry.āĀ
Iām sorry that I hurt you in so many different ways, he thinks, mentally apologizing for the things he truly wants to say sorry for. Iām sorry that I killed everybody you ever loved, and that I became someone you would have hated were you not forced to love me. Iām sorry that I got you killed, and that I couldnāt save you. Iām sorry, Iām sorry, Iām sorry.
āThings are going to be different from now on.ā
Thereās a hope in your eyes that Michael doesnāt feel like he deserves to have directed towards him. āReally?ā
He nods, wanting so badly to reveal his hand, but being unable to do so. Instead, he hopes that you know how sincere he is when he says, āI promise.ā
Youāve reached Dinahās studio, the Voodoo Queen throwing open the door impatiently before Michael can get his hand on the handle.
āYouāre late.ā Dinah levels Michael with a glare. Sheās not that upset, he knows, not when sheās got an extra hundred thousand currently sitting in her bank account.
āSorry, we got lost,ā he lies. You turn your face into his shoulder, coughing to hide your laugh.
āMhm. Letās go, I got places to be after this.ā She walks towards the back. āAnd lock the door behind you!ā
Through Dinahās dressing room is another, smaller roomāwhere she conducts her real business. There are candles on various surfaces throughout the room, and the main table, ringed with four chairs, is covered with a red cloth.
Michael pulls out a chair for you to sit in and makes sure that youāre comfortable before pushing you toward the table and taking his seat next to you. You watch Dinah move around the room in a whirl of colors, gathering the last items needed for tonightās ritual. Your head tilts curiously when she pulls out a match and strikes it into a flame, and he braces himself against yet another bout of deja vu.
āItās a part of the ritual,ā he whispers in your ear, feeling you nod.
Once all of the candles are lit by Dinahās own hand, the voodoo queen sits down in the chair on his other side. She studies you harshly for a moment, making you squirm under her scrutiny, before looking at Michael. āYou sure that you want your honey in here to meet Papa? After all, sheās nothing but a pretty little mortal.ā
He smirks. If thereās one lesson he can take away from those eighteen long months, itās that youāre so much more than that. Youāre determined, unflinching in your morals, and willing to face down any of your fears to do whatās right.
āI assure you, she can more than handle herself.ā
You smile nervously at Michael, and he winks at you in what he hopes is a comforting way. His eyes are drawn down to your lap, where your hands are shaking. While Dinah grabs one of his hands to start the ritual, he uses his free one to hold one of yours. Your smile softens, and you mouth, āThank you.ā
She turns his hand so itās facing palm-up, and takes a deep breath in before beginning to knock on his wrist. After she does so, she places her wrist against his briefly before swiping up a bottle of liquor from the table. The amber liquid is poured into a copper mug, and Dinah brings it up above her head in order to pray to it.
āPapa Legba,ā she begins. āOuvrier barrier pour moi agoe.ā
This chant is repeated twice more, but it only takes her invoking him the second time for the shadow of a tall figure wearing what looks to be a top hat to rise against the blank canvas of the wall. As Dinah chants for the third and final time, a cold wind sweeps through the room and brings with it an echoing, deep laugh and the sound of bones clinking together.
Michael hadnāt had the pleasure of meeting Papa Legba before this night. He heard plenty of stories, of course, but Papa Legba was notoriously hard to get an audience with, even when one was the Antichrist.Ā
Like many demons, Papa Legba looks like a normal man at first glance. He appears carrying a cane and wearing a fine suit, a top hat decorated with tiny skulls and feathers atop his head. A necklace made of beads and claws rests around his neck, and his long cloak sweeps along the floor. Thatās where the human similarities end. White paint covers the top half of his face, and his blood-red eyes look upon the trio assembled before him with delight as he grabs the cup from Dinah and drains it.
āDinah Stevens! Calling upon me so soon after our lastā¦chat, eh?ā He looks down at a couple of cigars sitting on top of a decorative silver plate and hums. āMm, lucky for you that I cannot resist Cuban cigars, Mambo.ā
The empty cup is discarded for one of the cigars, which he holds to his nose in order to properly enjoy it before scratching one of his nails against the end and lighting it. The cherry glows red as he takes a couple of deep puffs, the air growing hot around you as the shadows surrounding him morph in that distinct, sentient wayāthe shadows of souls now belonging to Papa.
Papa Legba takes a seat in the chair next to you, stretching out languidly. You scooch your chair closer to Michael, and he fights the urge to wrap his arm around you.
āThe Antichrist ā and his little wife!ā Papa Legba greets, his voice echoing and layering on top of itself.Ā
Michael nods in a show of deference, and you do the same. āPapa Legba,ā he says. You jump slightly, his āotherworldlyā voice surprising you.
āI am sorry that I could not attend the wedding festivities, mes chers.ā He grins at both of you, his gold tooth glinting in the candlelight. āA little drama with your papa, you see. But the entire Underworld was very much abuzz at news of the nuptials, I assure you.ā
āWe appreciate your well wishes.ā You remain silent, choosing instead to smile and nod in agreement. āI assume you know why I asked Dinah to facilitate this meeting?ā
Papa Legba shakes his head, but the smirk on his face gives off the feeling that he knows exactly why heās here. āI havenāt the faintest idea.ā
āYouāve abandoned your post,ā Michael reminds him before deciding to go off-script. āAnd Iām guessing you have ulterior motives beyond becoming bored with your function.ā
Papa laughs. āAh, youāre a smart little Antichrist! Correct, this is the outcome I was hoping to achieve as a result of my actions.ā
āWell, you certainly got my attention. Why go to all this trouble?ā Michael already knows the answer, of course. But everybody in this room has a part to play in his plan, even though they donāt know it.
āThe lords of Hell are not too pleased with the current plans. Ending the world?ā He tuts and shakes his head. āNow, that just takes all of the fun out of everything. Who will barter with me when the only souls left on Earth are devoted followers of Satan or half-dead?ā
āSo youāre the messenger.ā
āIāll confess, I have been sent by my fellow demons to attempt to sway you. For some reason, they think that I am the best public speaker.ā He puts a hand to his chest as if heās touched by the sentiment.
āAnd how are you attempting to sway me?ā
āMy dear boy, I am here to convince you not to start an apocalypse.ā
This is the moment where it all went wrong. Michael let his anger get the best of him, his need to please his father ruling his emotions and actions. Briefly, he thinks of the butterfly effect, which you taught him while learning it in a class last semester. The belief is that every choice, and every action, no matter how big or small, can set a person on a hundred different courses. Heās seen the course that was taken when he lashed out. Now, heās choosing rationality, and heās excited to see what course that leads everybody down.
āYouāll be happy to learn that it will take far less convincing than you originally thought,ā Michael says. Next to him, you gasp.
Papa Legba looks simultaneously surprised and pleased. āReally?ā
āRecently, Iāve been made aware of some new developments regarding my father and the nuclear annihilation course that weāve been working on. Now, Iām interested in exploring other avenues.ā
Papa Legbaās red eyes are so focused on Michael that itās even beginning to make him feel a little uncomfortable. āSo I may tell my friends that they will get to play with their food for the foreseeable future?ā
āYes, I would say thatās a pretty accurate statement,ā Michael says with a nod.
āYou have just made many of the legions of Hell very pleased, young master.ā His gold tooth glints in the candlelight as he grins, pulling a card out of thin air and presenting it to Michael between his long fingers. āYou may call upon me whenever you need so that my friends and I may help you achieve your goal; we are at your disposal.ā
Michael takes it gratefully. āThank you.ā
āNo, thank you.ā Papa Legba stands and takes the last cigar off of the table with him, sliding it up the sleeve of his coat until it disappears. āUntil next time.ā
With a gust of wind that blows out all of the candles and the clinking of bones, he turns and melts into his shadows. Shortly after, the lights overhead flicker on, bathing the room in reality once more. Dinah rolls her neck with a groan, taking a moment to collect herself after the strain of the summoning.
āWell, I guess you do have some sort of a spine,ā she declares, standing and smudging the symbols she had made at the doorway.Ā
āA backhanded compliment, but one that Iāll take.ā
āAre we done here? I wasnāt lying when I said Iāve got places to be.ā
Michael rolls his eyes. She truly is just a terrible person, apocalypse or not. āYes, weāre done.āĀ
Youāve been silent since Michael revealed that he wasnāt keen on ending the world, and you remain that way now. Michael gently pulls you from your chair, and you follow him dazedly, letting him handle the goodbyes as you digest everything thatās just happened. Michael canāt blame you in the slightest; he knows that it seems like a jarring and sudden change, especially when the plans to bomb the world are so concrete and detailed.
About halfway down the block from Dinahās studioāMichael thought that a walk in the cooler night air might do you more good than transmutingāyou finally find something to say. āWhat the hell was that?ā
āI told you that things were going to be different.ā
āI assumed you meant, like, that you were going to try and push off zero hour a little bit more!ā You finally look at him, cautiously and hopefully. āWhat about your plan? Youāve wanted to end the world for a while now. This is what you and the Cooperative have been working towards since before we even got married.ā
āNo, thatās not what I want. What I want is a life with you. I want us to actually travel the world together. I want us to experience new things. I want to watch you chase your dreams. I want to develop dreams of my own.ā
Itās the first time Michaelās admitted that last sentence to anybody beyond his thoughts in the middle of the night. Even before the end of the world, he watched with envy as you and your friends and fellow students went about your lives, excited for futures and possibilities that seemed endless. Somewhere along the way, he realized that he wanted that for himself, that he wanted to be more than just the Antichrist. While the original meeting with Papa Legba forced him to put that want to the side in favor of accomplishing what he believed to be his destiny, this do-over has afforded him another chance to discover his own dreams.
āDid you know that my father isnāt even the one who picked out the current apocalypse plan?ā he asks.
āHeās not?ā
Michael shakes his head. āI recently found out that it was the two idiots at Kineros who built the new Ms. Mead. They hacked into Ms. Mead and planted the idea, convincing a vulnerable, naive Antichrist that fire and blood were the only ways to end the world and make Satan proud. All because they were pissed at minor inconveniences and wanted to āwipe the slate cleanā.ā
As Michael says this, he makes a mental note to kill those two. What? Heās still the Antichrist, after all.
āAll Satan wants is to win this millennia-long, metaphysical chess game that heās playing with God. He doesnāt care what I do, so long as I get him some āwinsā. And Papa Legba was right. If I were to end the world, Satan would winā¦for a time. But then the rules would be changed, the board reset, and where would that leave me? Iād have done all this, ruined our, and everybodyās, lives for nothing.ā
āSo this is real? Youāre not ending the world anymore?ā you check.
āNot ending the world anymore,ā Michael confirms. āWeāll find some other way to sow chaos, Iām sure. In due time. For now, Iām happy to wait andāā
Heās cut off when you throw yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling his lips to yours. In the eighteen months heās just lived through, he canāt remember the last time you initiated a kiss. Now, he eagerly reciprocates, kissing back and hoping that you can feel all of his apologies and promises through his actions. He hopes that, from now on, heāll never have to go more than a day without kissing you again.
When you pull away from Michael, there are tears running down your face. His heart twists at the sight. How had he not known that you were in so much fear about what was going to happen, that you and Mallory were working behind the scenes to try and find a way to change his mind?Ā
āThank you,ā you say, lifting your hands up to wipe your face clean; a futile task, since you keep crying from relief. āThank you so much.ā
āI love you.ā Michaelās earnest in his declaration, never wanting you to forget this factā¦or to give you a reason to. āIām so sorry. I never meant to scare you in this way, to cause you this anguish.ā
āI know. You were just doing what you thought you were supposed to do. But youāve changed, and Iām so proud of you for that.ā You always know just the right thing to say, the right way to encourage him. Heās so thankful to have that back.
āI love you,ā Michael says again. Heāll say it every hour for the rest of his life, if it means youāll smile at him the way that you currently are.
āI love you, too.ā He kisses you again, there under the streetlights on a beautiful, fall night in New Orleans, and is reminded that there are so many things to love and appreciate about humanity.
Michael may not make it to Heaven when he dies. But right now, in your arms, heās found the closest thing to it. And nothing will ever make him give it up again.
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could I request rise donnie x masc reader? maybe like comfort headcanons of like first date headcanons? either one is cool, also I hope ur having a nice day!
(also can I be āļø anon?)
certainly!! you've got first dibs my friend ;) May do those comfort headcanons at some point in the future, but for now i hope you enjoy these!!
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ROTTMNT; Donatello / Male!Reader Content Warnings: N/A
Summary; Your first date with the turtle clad in purple.
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If for even a moment you assumed Donatello's perfectionism was limited solely to his inventions, you would be mistaken.
Regardless of who did the asking, Donnie would insist he handles the planning.
That isn't to say he wouldn't take any ideas you had into consideration! naturally he wants this to be a date you enjoy. But the details are his to flesh out.
"I feel like dinner is a little too formal.." "Ahh, yes of course. Very logical conclusion, I wholly agree. Would you excuse me for a second?"
"MICHAEL CANCEL THOSE RESERVATIONS!!"
You settle on a pretty casual outing, kicking things off at a Hidden City cafe to order your favorite beverages.
If you dress up nicely, Donnie's heart would soar. He is absolutely weak for a man with style.
Being the showoff he is, Donnie would be at your arm for the entire public section of this outing. He is holding open doors, hovering you above puddles, and making sure to refer to you as his date every chance he gets.
His demeanor would change a little though when you leave the city, leading into the second part of your date. Since you had asked for something casual, he leads you right back to the lair, where a movie night spread has been prepared.
His confidence sputters out a bit once the two of you are within the privacy of his home, and he seems a bit more fidgety and nervous. He'll repeatedly ask you if you're having a good time-- Is your spot comfy enough? Are you enjoying the movie, did he get the right snacks??
Assure him that you're having a great time, tell him how well he did planning things- It'll make him melt to know you appreciate his efforts.
By the time the film ends, his hand has snuck into yours. He'll try to be very formal when it comes to ending the date, stiff as a board as he's seeing you out of the lair.
"I hope this night has been a.. Satisfactory first chapter in our relationship. Would you like me to escort you home?"
kiss!!!! him!!!!!
"I'd love that, Don."
He's a mess the whole way there, hand still glued to yours until the moment you have to part ways.
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Music in Golden-Age Florence, 1250ā1750: From the Priorate of the Guilds to the End of the Medici Grand Duchy
This book is recommended to academics and musicologists interested in the music of this time period and place. The book is about music in Florence, Italy from 1250-1750, its intended audience ranges from amateur historians to professional musicologists and musicians. The title's blend of historical and musicological information makes it particularly outstanding.
As the title indicates, this book presents the music composed and performed in Florence during its most prolific and productive time: from the Middle Ages to the end of the Baroque. This 500-year time capsule saw Florence as a politically and ecclesiastically dominant city on the Italian peninsula and musically and culturally significant within the European landscape. In the preface, the author, Anthony Cummings, details his approach and presentation of the information within the book, attempting to satisfy the interests of both music amateurs and professional musicologists with his approach and presentation.
Divided into four major sections containing 19 chapters and a conclusion, 500 years of historical and musical history are discussed and intertwined. The first section examines late medieval Florence from roughly 1250 to 1450, known as the Duecento and Trecento periods. Both secular and religious music are covered, along with various buildings and churches within Florence and their influences and important composers. Francesco Landini (d. 1397) is generally considered the major Florentine composer of this time. Influences from French music along with the rise of liturgical polyphony round out this first section. The second section focuses on the politics and music of the early Renaissance known as the Quattrocento period, when the Medici family began its rise to power. Ecclesiastical institutions, sacred music innovations, the Florentine carnival, music and patrons in the Medici establishment, and the Medici in exile round out the topics in this section. The third section discusses the late fourteenth and fifteenth centuries known as the Cinquecento period, describing the rise of the madrigal, the Medici familyās influence, and ties to the papacy, the chanson, the lauda, sacred music and the major musical buildings and composers of the Reformation and Counter-Reformation, and finally a chapter on Medici pageantry. The fourth section covers the Baroque time, roughly 1600 to 1750. The rise of opera and monody along with the influences and personalities that changed musical style from a focus on musical extravagance to a focus on the text and words created a widespread movement across the entire Europe. Other topics discussed include religious and dynastic ritual music, devotional and convivial uses of music, and the pan-Italian and pan-European phases of growth within the operatic medium. The conclusion provides a concise summary of both musical and political Florence during these 500 years.
Anthony Cummings is Professor of Music at Lafayette College who specializes in historical musicology. Cummings has taken on a challenging subject and presented it in a way that tries to balance both general and extremely complex political, ecclesiastical, and musicological information. As a musicologist, I appreciate the level of detail provided in the musical examples and their descriptions; I donāt know whether this type of information can be digested by the amateur reader or historian. I also appreciate how the author has interwoven historical information and musicological descriptions, as well as various personages and composers of importance. The numerous black-and-white images and photographs, along with the color plates, help to balance out the textual and musical examples. Overall, while the attempt by the author is commendable in relation to writing for two different types of audiences, I find the book will probably be more amenable to academics and musicologists than the general public. Given the authorās background, this is probably a successful strategy in the long run.
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The Performer: Part Two
Pairing:Ā Spencer Reid x Female!Reader
Word Count:Ā ~2.4k
Summary:Ā Hold on. Just hold onto what's good. Don't let him see how broken you are. Spencer becomes heartbroken when he realizes that you don't want to see him but you'll see everyone else. How can you see yourself through his eyes like this?
Warnings:Ā canon violence, canon language, canon talk of death, methods of kill
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Authorās Note:Ā just another reminder that I know this isn't how prisons work in real life but this is how my prison works for the sake of the story. I know fighting in prison has more stricter rules than what I'm going to be putting.
I do not own anything from Criminal Minds. All credit goes to their respective owners. If there are any warnings that exceed the normal death/kills from the show, I will list them.
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Derek takes in the sight before him. The newest murder victim was found on the side of the freeway where everyone could see her. She wasn't covered, she wasn't laid to rest, she was just dumped there like trash. If you were here, you'd be able to see what happened to her. You'd be able to see the unsub's energy. It's weird how much he relied on you until you weren't there anymore.
"Highway crew found her just as the sun was coming up," Kim says.
"How long has she been here?"
"Probably an hour. She's barely cold."
Emily notices something on her stomach, and she wears some gloves to lift up her shirt. On her stomach, two words are carved into her skin.
"The Liar."
"It's the same message. It wasn't just meant for Tara. I wonder what it means, then. Detective Kim, can you have your crime scene techs keep us apprised of the processing? We're ready with a preliminary profile."
"That's quick."
"So is this unsub."
The rest of the team and Kim head back to the police station to give the profile with Spencer. He isn't too sure about the profile but knows it has to come out now or more people are going to die.
"We aren't looking for a vampire in the supernatural sense, only in the sense that this unsub has a very strong desire, a need, for human blood. Fortunately, vampirists display several characteristics that will be helpful in finding him. He will have cut himself repeatedly. It's called auto-vampirism, essentially becoming his own first victim. It's the way by which he first tasted human blood. Most vampirists are incredibly ashamed of this and will wear long-sleeved shirts in order to conceal it. Secondly, there will be a long history of animal abuse starting with smaller animals such as insects and rodents, and then working its way up to larger things like dogs and cats. Though this is a well-recognized component of the homicidal triad seen in other serial killers, in the case of the vampirist, it's more pronounced. There will, interestingly enough, not be any animal torture as with other psychopathologies. The killing isn't the point, it's merely a means by which to obtain the blood," Spencer explains.
"Look hard at your animal control section records, as far back as you can. They will probably have some record of this unsub as an adolescent. This guy also most likely lives in a poorly kept older home. He needs a house for the privacy, not an apartment. It takes some time to drain a body completely of blood. Uninterrupted time."
"This unsub also most likely lives with an elderly woman like a grandmother, a mother, or even an aunt."
"How could you know that?" Kim asks Rossi.
"This type of mental illness, accompanied by extreme schizophrenia, dominates a family's entire existence," Emily answers. "It often leads to a broken home, and a woman ends up as the primary caregiver. The men generally leave."
"Oh, and one more thing," Rossi says before the conclusion, "this type of disorder cannot be hidden for long. I guarantee you someone out there already knows this unsub is very, very sick."
The worst part about cases like these is the waiting game. The waiting after the profile is given out because leads aren't going to come in right away. JJ is on her way over to Tara's friend's house when her phone rings.
"Hello?"
"Hello, this a collect call from Virginia Correctional Center for Women for inmate Y/N. Press one if you'd like to accept the call."
JJ frowns but she answers the call nonetheless. Why would you be calling her instead of Spencer?
"Y/N?"
"Hey, JJ," you whisper.
"Don't take this the wrong way, but why are calling me? Shouldn't Spencer get this time?"
"I can't face him when he knows I don't want him here."
"He heard the wordĀ TwilightĀ and almost cried. I felt so bad for him."
"Yeah, I've been wanting to watch the movies with me. They're cheesy but I wanted to share that with him," you sniffle.
"Yeah, he's pretty upset."
"It's better he be upset than for me to see myself as this broken woman through his eyes. I might be selfish for that but I can't handle any more pain right now. Rossi is the only one that knows but I'm not doing too good in here. There's a reason why psychics like me don't go to prisons. I feelĀ everything, JJ."
"I can't imagine what you're going through. I wish I was there to help you."
"JJ, you're too good for prison. Please keep an eye on him. I know he'll hate me for it but he needs you right now."
"Of course. I hate to break this up now but I have to go. I'm following a lead."
"Okay. See ya."
You hang up on JJ reluctantly, wishing you could have a few more moments with her. Hearing their voices is what keeps you grounded. If you're not talking on the phone or with visitors, you're back in the yard, drowning. You wonder what the team is doing and what kind of case they're on.
"Agent Morgan," Kim says, "we've identified this morning's victim. Her name is Erin Hickman. She worked for a caterer at an event last night. They're still there cleaning up."
"Let's go."
Derek, Kim, and Emily head over to the outdoor restaurant where Erin was working. They're still closing down as Kim said, and Derek easily finds the manager of the place.
"Excuse me, Ms. Masters? I'm Lieutenant Kim, LAPD."
"Is this about Erin?" she asks, already knowing.
"Yes, ma'am."
"Is she really dead?"
"Yes, ma'am. I'm sorry. These are FBI agents Morgan and Prentiss."
"FBI?"
"Did Erin work for you?"
"Yeah, until last night. She walked out on me in the middle of the party. She was here one minute and gone the next."
"Was it uncommon for her to be irresponsible?"
"Look, I don't want to speak ill of the dead, but she had a problem with drugs. Like, a big problem."
Someone walks by the trio with a handful of CDs, and Emily does a double-take when she sees what's on the front cover. She stops the man, grabs a CD, and shows the other two. On the cover is the same man that was on Tara's walls, and the album name is called "The Liar".
"Morgan. Rossi and I saw a poster of him in Tara's house." She takes out her phone and calls Penelope who is eager to answer. "Hey, Garcia, give me everything you've got on a singer named Dante."
"Dante, the vampire guy? I was just about the call you."
"Do you know him?" Derek asks.
"He's the one thing that all of our victims have in common. They have cyber shrines set up for this guy. They worship him. They're obsessed with his music. His new album comes out today. 'The Liar'. Isn't that what was written on them?"
"Uh-huh."
"Okay, all of our victims, including the first two, were diehard fans. Tara and her best friend, Gina, were practically running his fan club."
"What about Erin Hickman, our latest victim?"
"I haven't run across her name yet."
"Okay, we need to talk to this Dante guy. Can you get us an address?" Derek asks.
"That's gonna take a little while," Kim says. "These celebrities are protected by layers of privacy. It's like finding information on a deeply--"
"22423 Greenvale Circle in Holmby Hills. GPS coordinates are uploading to you now," Penelope cuts Kim off. "His name is Paul Davies, by the way."
"Run him for a criminal record, too."
"You got it."
"I'd hate to think what she could find out about me," Kim chuckles once she hangs up.
"Oh, I prefer not even to consider it."
The trio heads over to Paul's house immediately which is located in the rich part of the neighborhood. There are nice cars in the driveway, the house looks like a mansion, and with high trees that block out the paparazzi. It makes sense that someone like Paul would live in a place like this. What doesn't make sense is the part about him being the unsub. The unsub doesn't come from money like this, and the profile suggests the unsub isn't well-off.
"I hate to ask this, but are your profiles this far off sometimes?" Kim wonders.
"They haven't been yet. This probably isn't our unsub, just a piece of the puzzle." They turn the corner and see all the nice cars on the driveway, and Emily whistles lowly. "I could get used to this. This is definitely not poorly maintained." Among the expensive-looking cars, there is one that is beat up and much older. "One of these things does not belong." She takes out her phone and calls Penelope. "Hey, Garcia, can you run a plate for me?"
"This isn't our guy, is it?" Kim asks.
"I highly doubt it."
Derek and Kim walk to the front door and knock, and the one known as Dante answers it. However, instead of in goth clothes, black and white makeup, and fake fangs in his mouth, it's a man who has freshly washed hair, a scarf around his neck and looks nothing like the guy on the album covers.
"Can I help you, gentlemen?" Paul asks in a British accent.
"Dante?"
"No."
"You're not the singer?" Derek asks.
"Dante's not my name. He's a character I play. So, who are you guys?"
"We're investigating a murder--"
"Sir!" Emily cuts Kim off. "Would you mind coming in to answer a few questions?"
"Prentiss, what are you doing?"
"That car is Erin's car.Ā The victim's car. Would you mind coming in, sir?"
That put everyone on alert. To avoid a whole stink, Paul goes with the team without fuss hoping that no one from the media will know about this. They're doing their best to get the unsub and prevent deaths while you're still in prison trying to protect your friend. Ever since that bitch beat you up, you've been careful to keep yourself and Ashley in view of the cameras or guards at all times. You're not in the same cell, thank God, so you don't have to worry about your safety in there.
The woman, you have no idea what her name is nor do you care to know it (even though people call her Big Sue), is always watching you two. She won't come near you if you're near another guard or in view of the cameras because she doesn't want to be placed in solitary confinement. Anyone who is caught fighting goes in the hole. The bigger the fight, the longer someone stays in there by themselves. You've heard of someone staying in there for two months straight, and she doesn't want to do that.
Ashley is the kind of person who hates violence. She is a pacifist and would much rather run from a fight than confront the bully. If you were to leave, who would protect her? You need to make her realize that all she has to do is stand up to the bully once and they will back down. Big Sue does this to people to make herself feel better, but she's nothing more than a small dog. Bark loudly once and she'll back down.
You walk into the cafeteria and search for Ashley. She is sitting in your usual spot waiting for you. You look to the right and see Big Sue with her group of friends. She is the leader of one of the gangs on site. Her gang isn't to be fucked with, especially the leader. However, you're not backing down.
Big Sue notices Ashley alone and decides to fuck with her. Not on your watch. You find yourself in almost a run to get to Ashley before Big Sue can. You slide in between the two women and face Big Sue who looks pissed at your presence. Ashley cowers in fear at what might happen but you're not going to let Big Sue touch her.
"Walk away," you warn.
"Do you want another black eye, bitch?" she snarls.
Some of the other women look your way but not enough to grab the attention of everyone in the room.
"Oh, I was being nice before. I didn't want to hit back, but touch her or even go near her, and I'll dropkick you so fast you won't know what hit you."
Now everyone is looking at you. A threat like that to one of the gang's leaders isn't the wisest decision. Some of the guards look over but won't do anything because an actual fight isn't happening. No one is moving, eating, or making a sound because they want to see what's going to happen. Either you're going to get your ass kicked or she is, and they don't know which is going to be worse.
Big Sue nods twice and turns around as if she is going to go back to her friends. Instead of doing that, she immediately turns back around and goes in for a hit. You duck just in time to avoid another hit. She stumbles forward having expected to hit you. You move out of the way and give her some room to collect herself. She is so full of anger that she will do anything to take you down. She won't stop and think what is the best move, only that she needs to hit you.
She runs at you to tackle you to the ground but you jump out of the way and kick your foot out so she trips over you. The more she fails, the angrier she gets. The bigger they are, the harder they fall. Where she hits, you dodge. You dodge so well because you can see her energy and anger tell you where she is going to hit next. You punch her in the jaw hard enough to throw her off balance, and you grab her arm and twist it behind her. You shove her face-first into the ground and twist her arm tightly behind her. She cries out in pain and tries to move but can't because you've got her pinned. Everyone gasps at the shift in dominance.
No one will look at Big Sue again. No one will treat her the same. She might even be demoted in her gang. Whatever is going to happen, it's not going to be good for her.
"Tap out!" you yell. She cries in pain and slams her open palm against the floor. Guards come rushing in and pull you off her. They're not gentle with you either as they drag you away. "Stay the hell away from her!"
Ashley stands up and watches you leave with concern weighing heavily on her shoulders. You're taken to the solitary confinement room and thrown inside like you're a ragdoll.
"Maybe a couple of days in here will change your attitude," the guard says before shutting the door on you.
At least now you can think clearly.
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How to Write an Outstanding Psychology Case Study: Expert Tips
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THEE Guide to Not Being a Punk Poser
Hey, so if you're reading this, you may or may not be looking to get into the punk scene, and you also may or may not be at a total loss on where to start
Well fear not! I am here with this little introduction post on how to Not Be A Poser (title pending)
FIRST UP: The Ideals
When it comes to the ideals of alternative subcultures, this graphic by @theygender (hope the tag is ok, lmk if it isn't) is the best summary I've ever seen
And if you're like me, you're solidly on the line between punk and grunge, but leaning just a bit more punk. This is fine /gen
Punk is about community. Punk is about fighting for a better future. Punk is about doing no harm and taking no shit. Punk is about looking out for the underdog. If you don't embody these values then you're not punk. The ideology of Punk is, in my opinion, the most important part of the subculture
But if you've been doing your research you already knew that. Now let's get into what a lot of people call the fun stuff: the music and the fashion
SECOND: The Music
There are a Lot of different subgenres of punk music, the most famous being punk rock and folk punk. I subscribe more to punk rock because I really enjoy fast music
Bands to look for include: Sex Pistols, Dead Kennedys, Pansy Division, Dog Park Dissidents, Cheap Perfume, Mommy Long Legs, Gang Green, The Germs, Rage Against the Machine, G.L.O.S.S., X-Ray Spex, The Cramps, Circle Jerks, Crass, Limp Wrist, and Pure Hell
Of course there's a lot more but those are some staples plus some of my personal favorites. You can find my personal punk playlist here
Overall the sound is Loud and it is Angry. There are many songs about killing cops and hating capitalism and it fucks. If you like funky basslines, sick ass drums, angry yelling, and shredding guitars this music is for you
PART THREE: The Fashion
Okay, okay, I had to save the quote unquote best for last. Imo the fashion of punk is the most diy out of almost any other subculture
Literally anything you can get your hands on can become fashion. Steal what you can, pick up shit off the side of the road, and if you can't/don't know how to do something get a friend in the scene to either teach you or commission them or something
Brands? The fuck is that, the only brands you need to know are Rit fabric dye, goodwill, etsy (sometimes), your local craft store, and a good spike maker (I don't deal with spikes currently so I have no good resources for them, so other punks feel free to chime in!)
Want cool metal shit? Take apart cans and turn them into spikes. Take a lighter apart and use those metal bits. Steal safety pins from walmart.
Want/need to sew something? Yarn and a tapestry needle if you can't get/don't want to use dental floss. When sewing patches do a straight stitch around followed by a hobo stitch around again and that shit will stay forever. Alternatively pin patches on with safety pins, this works pretty well in a pinch
Fabric paint is your best friend!!! Start with a white base layer and the colors will be much more vibrant. Don't think you have painting skills? Doesn't matter, you're punk and you have the audacity to wear whatever you make with pride
Invest in a leather jacket. I don't mean in terms of money, I got mine at goodwill for ten bucks. But it will change your life. I recommend getting two: one to keep plain and one to diy. Also flannels are good for diy and can also be made into vests for warm weather very easily.
Both of these flannels I decorated myself in a matter of hours. If I can do it, so can you
Also! When you cut the sleeves off of a flannel you can use the extra fabric to make diy pockets :3
PART FOUR: Community and Conclusion
So this is kind of my close out section lol
I'm not sure what kind of discord communities exist for true punk culture, so if anyone has one they wanna promote feel free
Do some research on local punk bands in your area, get your friends together and diy outfits for a concert, or just to wear. The world is your punk oyster, and as long as you or other people aren't getting hurt you can do whatever you want forever
Plz use this post to find other punks so we can start gaining more community (I'm totally not desperate lol)
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Neuvillette was created by Rhinedottir
Warning: This is LONG. And needs so much context unfortunately. So under the cut it goes. Made before 4.2.
Things that are important for later will
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Scylla, The dragon prince and the Dragon sovereign
This section will be basically a summary of this reddit post.
Be warned that reddit post has (labeled) leaks from future artifact sets. I won't be using those parts.
The first peice of lore that needs to be explained is Scylla, Scylla is a Vishap dragon prince- that ruled over 'Dragons born of the sea'. He gifted Remus, king of Remuria, a magic goblet. Remus obtains a prophecy that his kingdom will drown and it's people will be dissolved. He begins waging war against all threats, including the vishaps. He also mixes the contents of the goblet with -Tainted ichor. Ichor meaning blood from a god.-
Scylla attacks Remuria with his vishaps, which gets 'swept away by the abyss. -Scylla gets sealed within the goblet in Remuria, which later sinks into the Abyss.-
Although it is never stated he is the Dragon sovereign outright, there are many connections such as him 'ruling over the dragons of the sea'. Since it's basically confirmed the Neuvillette is the hydro dragon and dragonheir, that would mean that -Neuvillette is the reincarnation of Syllas-
Durin and Elynas children of Rhinedottir
Elynas was made by Rhinedottir
Well kinda.
Before he was born Elynas "floated in cosmic darkness" which is probably the Abyss. That would mean -his consciousness was in the abyss before Rhinedottir made him. -
It is likely Durin was made in a similar way. -Both have the power of the Abyss and Tainted blood-
Keep a pin in that
"Rumors saying that you were born from Calamity. You inherently bring danger to those around you."
This is being said to Neuvillette. It is similar to what Elynas said
"So long as I live, I will bring grief too thers, and I never wish to see that happen ever again."
Neuvillette and Elynas are both described as lonely. They can't understand humans because of their non-human nature (A common theme in Rhinedottir's creations) and inherently bring danger to those around them.
Neuvillette
In the background of Neuvillette's burst you can see a starry sky, similar in design to Abyss lectors and the Abyss.
The only other character to have designs like this is Mona, who is an astrologist. Neuvillette doesn't have a clear reason to have those designs as well.
-It seems like Neuvillette has a connection to the Abyss.-
-The oldest mention of Neuvillette is right after the Cataclysm. Around the time Elynas and Durin surfaced-
Conclusion
Rhinedottir created Neuvillette by using the Consciousness of Scylla. The contents of the Goblet Scylla was sealed in had similar properties to Durin's blood. Elynas and Durin both had Abyss powers and it seems like Neuvillette has them too.
Edit: Knowing now that Neuvillette is his last name... I'm waiting for his first name to be soil related like Durin and Elynas.
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š„ evidence: examples that support the theory.
š„ connection: associations between your points and the authors points, can be in favor or not.
š„ interrelation: a link to the conclusion section.
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š„ statement: condense your point or argument
š„ summary: key points and statements all around the document in a conclusion.
š„ double hook: let your professor wanting more without leaving loose ends.
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š ā An useful tool to complex and extent subjects, it can work well with another type of studies. Youāll need the following:
š„ name the block: assign a general title about what are you studying right now.
š„ material: observe and read two or three times the texts to mark with the color code.
š„ memory game: set aside your text and notes and grab a blank page to write down everything that you remember from the notes in consistent sentences.
š„ look back: read your notes and add with another color the information that you missed, use this time to look external sources and find meanings/ simpler synonyms of important concepts.
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š ā an active way to remember and comprehend complex subjects, can be alone but functions well with a study group.
š„ the topic: choose one of the themes that the academic program has, a complete subject. Apply the blurting method or your notes from the readingās menu.
š„ go down to earth: explain on paper or in a whiteboard the subject like you were speaking to a child.
š„ revision: compare the explanation paper with your notes and with another color of pen write missed key points.
š„ crumble: to a final revision an repeat the process until you can do it without consulting your notes or menu.
ą³āā· crow method ą¼ā§ā
šā an organization guide to save time and study puntual subjects without (sometimes) distraction.
š„ collect: find all the themes, sub jets and topics discussed in class and classify them in order of importance / apparition.
š„ prioritize: annotate due dates and set reminders with alarms at least for 2 days before the due time; again organize this information in order of importance.
š„ construct: mark the most heavy is difficult subjects, units, the dates of important tests and alternate with simpler activities, donāt forget include spare time to take some rest.
š„ rank: make space for maximum 2 study sessions per day, balancing your personal life with you study life. try to always separate your spaces, study outside bed.
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KYLE BROFLOVSKI, STAN MARSH, AND THE FEMININE/MASCULINE QUESTION
(Or; In defense of feminine Kyle and masculine Stan)
(OR or; how Matt and Trey's outdated views prove their intentions for their characters...
...part 1.)
Normally, I would kick off the part of an essay like this above the āread moreā with a short summary, but given the complexity of this topic, I donāt think I can summarize it in the way it deserves in just a paragraph. Instead, Iāll start with this: itās been a little over a year since I was freed from Tumblr shadowban hell, and nearly as long since I made my first original post on South Park tumblr. Since then, Iāve developed a pretty obvious brand in support of feminine Kyle, but Iāve never actually posted a meta justifying it. As such, consider this not a response to any discourse related to it, or a way of undermining the valid opinions that are being and have been shared, but instead as a long-overdue explanation as to why I see Kyle the way that I see him, and why I believe that interpretation is equally valid and equally progressive.
Thanks to everyone whoās shared their time and thoughts with me over the past year, regardless of how long Iāve known you, and letās get into it!
INTRODUCTION:
Okay, HEREās the introduction! As I type this from top to bottom, I expect it to turn out fairly long, so bear with me here: weāre going to need some exposition to explain the way I plan on going about this. Iām going to try and be concise!
i. A Bit of Background
Feminine Kyle has been a controversial topic within the South Park fandom for well over a decade, cementing itself as arguably one of the oldest āfanon vs canonā debates within the fandom. Supporters, a wide group consisting of some of the most notable artists and writers in the fandom, insist the evidence is there; naysayers argue that not only is it not there, but that the mere existence of feminine Kyle reinforces old yaoi tropes, homophobia within fandoms, and most recently, antisemitic stereotypes.Ā
For better or worse, such a portrayal has dwindled in popularity within recent years, with fanart and portrayals from the earlier fandom days becoming the subject of ridicule. Several other portrayals accompany feminine Kyle into forced obscurity - jock Stan and edgy Craig, to name a few - but only the former has drawn such politically charged discussion. Needless to say, there is plenty to discuss when examining its validity. I intend to try and cover all my bases, but first, some clarification:
This is not an unbiased analysis: this is a meta in staunch support of feminine Kyle. As such, not every single moment for or against such a portrayal will be mentioned here: I intend here to establish why feminine Kyle is a reasonable interpretation, not why the opposite may also be true. I also do not intend to prove that feminine Kyle is absolute fact, or the only valid interpretation; while I personally choose to base my portrayal off of what Iāve listed here, choosing to disregard it is also a perfectly fine conclusion. These characters are ten, after all; there is no objectively correct way to portray them!
Secondly; this is a Kyle-centric meta, but itās also going to include a fair bit of Stan. Declaring Kyle feminine has no point if we have no character to contrast him against; femininity requires masculinity to mean anything, and vice versa. There has to be some point of reference. As a result, this meta will unintentionally make a declaration on Stanās femininity as well; just like above, accept and reject it as you wish! āCorrectā characterization in the South Park fandom is understandably murky.
Speaking of characterization, we first need to discuss why a long-winded meta like this one is even necessary. Why canāt we decide whether Kyleās feminine? Surely that should be pretty obvious, right?
ii. Why canāt we come to an agreement?
Wellā¦ not really. Thatās the problem!
Nearly everybody in this little section of the South Park fandom (by which I mean the non-dudebro section) is progressive, which is a good thing. But that also makes femininity a really difficult concept to nail down. Hereās what Oxford Languages has to say about it:
Okay, straightforward enough. But what attributes are characteristic of women? Thatās where we come across our problem; there really arenāt any. Many of the traits (at least personality wise) society used to consider characteristic of women are misogynistic stereotypes, or exist solely as a way to justify gender roles; as such, we canāt designate femininity based on personality traits, which is a great thing for society as a whole and a bad thing for the simplicity of my South Park meta.
Consider this example: being easily grossed out to the point of fear was, in the past, considered to be a trait typical of women. Consider all those boomer comics youāve seen about women being afraid of mice. Surely then a reasonable conclusion would be that Kyleās irrational disgust/fear of pee would be a feminine trait. But that conclusion actually isnāt reasonable, because we now know that isnāt necessarily a female-exclusive trait; as such, that interpretation is misogynistic and can be disregarded. Do you see what I mean? Itās really not that easy.
But I actually have a way to make that work. It is going to require some inception. Keep that in mind while we segue to another relevant question:
iii. What is effective characterization?
We talked about characterization a little bit above, but now we need to talk about it again: namely, how do you characterize a character? How many times will I say the word character in this essay?
This question doesnāt just apply to South Park: I mean this for all shows, but most specifically the long ones, and the ones with questionable track records in episode quality. We have all watched something and thought āhe would not fucking say thatā, even when the person who made him fucking say that was the creator themselves. How do we reconcile that with our vision of a character, especially when such a character assassination is often unintentional? Do we take everything the character does or says at face value by rating all of their behaviors as equal in the characterization scheme, or do we look deeper?
I think the answer needs to be the second one: we need to take characterization by intention, rather than what the character actually says. Generally, a creator will have an intention for their characters, whether thatās in personality, arc, or both. They typically have a plan for some aspects of the character, even in episodic shows like South Park, and they try not to diverge from that plan. For example, Kyleās reaction will often differ as he is faced with differing events (as real life people do), but he reacts in a similar way, fueled by his consistent morals: he never responds in a Kyle way one episode and in a Cartman way in another. He always reacts like Kyle would, and rarely wavers from his fairly consistent characterization. It is clear that when planning Kyleās responses to things, they do not start with a blank slate.
Thatās the perspective we need to take on when viewing this; we need to look at these characters from the way Matt and Trey intended for them to be looked at, and we need to look at them with the perspective that Matt and Trey had. Segue over: letās go back to the main point. Keep that in mind.
iv. How do we fix our dilemma?
You donāt really need to keep it in mind, because Iām going to say it again right here: we need to view the characters with the perspective Matt and Trey had. This applies to everything characterization related, including femininity. What makes Matt and Treyās perception of femininity different from our own?
Well, thatās easy: theyāre from a different generation, for one. Theyāre old white guys, for another. They naturally have different views on femininity than we do, because they have different (often shittier) views on women than we do! Matt and Trey have had some good takes, but their takes on women rarely fall into that category. Unfortunately, weāre going to have to deal with those takes for now if we want to draw a conclusion, because those are what we have to go by when deciding femininity.Ā
Weāre putting on the Matt and Trey goggles for this meta. What do they think femininity is? How would they portray a feminine character? What would a feminine character look like in their eyes? When judging characterization by intention, which I plan on doing throughout this meta, we need to Become Old White Men.Ā
(That same reasoning is why Iāll essentially be using women and feminine people interchangeably throughout this essay; Matt and Trey tend to associate femininity exclusively with women or flamboyant gay men, and the way they portray them is often the same. Needless to say, those terms are not interchangeable in real life; I only use them as such here both because of the above reasoning and to try and shorten this behemoth of a meta.)
From Matt and Treyās perspective, it would be much less ludicrous that women would be more easily grossed out; that is the common consensus among men of their generation, and they havenāt proved themselves to be more enlightened than the rest, so weāll go with that common consensus. From their perspective, Kyle disliking pee would be a feminine trait; therefore, giving that trait to Kyle implies that, in that episode, Matt and Trey viewed him as feminine and intentionally portrayed him that way. This argument becomes stronger once the rest of his traits are considered, which weāll do throughout this essay. From this point forward, I'll clarify that this is from Matt and Treyās point of view less often for brevity; assume that unless I clarify it's from mine, it's from theirs.Ā
Understandably, there may be some issues with this, namely: doesnāt temporarily taking on this perspective and then proceeding to label Kyle as feminine based on stereotypes imply that you agree with those stereotypes? To which I say: no, not really. You can take the intention (femininity, in this case) and disregard the bad that comes along with it: you can essentially claim Kyle as a feminine character without acknowledging what may be flawed reasoning on behalf of the creator, and choose to draw your own conclusions based off of that. Iāll explain this in more detail at the end.Ā
So, thatās the introduction! But we still have one more thing we need to talk about before we can move onto the actual meat of the essay.
We need to talk about creek.
THE CREEK INTERLUDE.
Why do we need to talk about creek in a Kyle-centric meta, besides that I like talking about creek? The answer is that Matt and Treyās views on creek answer a very reasonable question, that being: Why do we have reason to assume that Matt and Trey would intend for any of them to be feminine? Why do we have reason to believe the idea of femininity in relation to their male characters would even cross their mind?
Creek is our reason!Ā
i. The Masculine/Feminine Divide
Consider Matt and Treyās audio commentary for Put It Down, starting at :52. "One person wanting, which is usually the woman... who flips out a bit more about things emotionally, and generally the man is a bit more, like... not responsive to emotion, and just wants to problem solve. And we have had experience with thatā¦"
Through that commentary, Matt and Trey have already assigned ārolesā to Tweek and Craig within the context of the episode; namely, Tweek being the woman and Craig being the man based on their behavior throughout the episode. Obviously, the stereotypes they suggest above very often arenāt true, and a gay man in a relationship is in no way āthe womanā regardless of femininity, but they reference them nonetheless, and this helps our case for three reasons:
It confirms that Matt and Trey view some characters as more āwoman-likeā than others, even just within the context of a single episode: ie, more feminine than others. It shows that they take femininity into account when viewing character behavior, and it is possible they have done so with other male child characters than Tweek.
Furthermore, it shows that the above behavior is intentional; theyāve intentionally made one character more āwoman-likeā than the other. Matt and Trey admitting that they āhave had experience with thatā implies that they, on some level, based the episode off of their own experience: hence, Tweek was intended to play the role of āthe womanā from the beginning of the episode. It is therefore possible they intended this with other episodes.
The parallels between Stan/Craig and Kyle/Tweek, and on a larger scale, style and creek as relationships, are obvious. The fact that creek exists in the Matt and Trey collective brain as a masculine/feminine relationship implies that their platonic parallel, Stan and Kyle, has the potential to exist in the same way.Ā
I donāt personally think that Tweek is at all intended to be feminine throughout the series in the same way that Kyle is - Tweekās meth-driven paranoia is a far cry from Kyleās natural neuroticism (a trait which, while not inherently feminine, is obviously such within the eyes of Matt and Trey)Ā - but within the context of that episode, the point stands. It also gives us something to look for: contrast. If Kyle is feminine, going by Matt and Treyās way of portraying relationships, he must have a masculine counterpart. This part is easy.Ā
STAN MARSH, ALL AMERICAN BOY:
When looking for traditional masculinity within the main four, Stan is our guy. Despite possibly being the most sensitive out of the group, the remainder of Stanās traits, behaviors, and interests line up exactly with the typical perspective of what masculinity looks like. His consistency with this makes Kyleās deviation even more remarkable.
i. Personality
So far, weāve mostly talked about masculinity and femininity in reference to personality, so it only makes sense to start there with Stan. First, letās consider the trait that Matt and Trey explicitly mentioned they consider masculine:
āNot responsive to emotion, and just wants to problem solve.ā
We donāt even need to look through the series for evidence of this one: South Park Studios themselves confirmed it on Stanās SPandMe results, a quiz intended to connect quiz-takers with their respective South Park character.Ā
āYou are an average all-American person, and despite your crazy surroundings, you remain levelheaded.āĀ
Remaining levelheaded in crazy surroundings essentially boils down to being not responsive to sudden, situation-driven emotion, especially in the context of Put It Down, where Craig is able to step back from Tweekās emotion-driven response to a crazy situation and consider it in a levelheaded way. Stan often tends to perform the same duty for Kyle as Craig does for Tweek in that episode, serving the role of someone to vent to in stressful situations.
Now that weāve checked Matt and Treyās explicitly mentioned perception of masculinity off the list, letās consider some other traditionally āmasculineā personality traits: regardless of whether theyāve been explicitly mentioned, itās a fair assumption that theyāve considered a few other traits within the āmasculinityā vein.Ā
Quick to Threats: Stan has a tendency to be levelheaded, as mentioned above, but when angered he can jump straight to threats of violence; this serves as a contrast to Kyle, who tends to respond verbally instead. Consider this moment in Passion of the Jew:Ā
While Stan actually gives Cartman a fair amount of time to ātake it backā before he resorts to active threats of violence, he still does so much quicker than Kyle has ever done in the past; Kyle, by comparison, tends to insult normally. Stan, when pushed by Cartman, responds with threats within a few lines of dialogue: Kyle, when pushed by Cartman, has only legitimately snapped a few times over the course of 25 years of harassment.Ā
Another example would be in Cash For Gold, where Stan jumps to telling the jewelry salesman to kill himself without any prior conversation; unlike Kyle, who typically makes efforts to negotiate first, Stan resorts to threats.
Also consider Stanās behavior in Stick of Truth, in which upon the characterās arrival into the Elf Kingdom, Stan is immediately ready to get into a fight to defend Kyle; as the character approaches Kyle, he threatens them by punching his fist. His method of protectiveness often boils down to violence on behalf of the people he cares about, and he takes personal affronts, or affronts to those people, extremely seriously. Kyle, on the other hand, is defensive rather than offensive in terms of protectiveness, and cares more about the wider populace instead of mostly the people directly relevant to his life; weāll get into that more later.
This is a trait heavily associated with masculinity throughout history, and throughout media: masculine characters in shows, books, and movies are often the ones shown to pick fights rather than verbally negotiate. This trait is even shown through Craig, whoās already established as āthe manā; throughout the first few seasons especially, he threatens other characters once aggravated instead of communicating.Ā
Leadership Ability: Obvious disclaimer is that this trait in particular is not exclusively male, or even largely male (just like every other trait Iāve mentioned), but the world continues even to this day to associate leadership qualities with traditionally masculine qualities, and I have reason to believe that Matt and Trey do the same thing. Letās go through a few episodes in which Stan is staunchly placed as the leader for some examples:
Stan, as a character who is often the protagonist of the show as a whole, naturally falls into the leadership role within The Boys. In this way, he once again serves as a contrast to Craig, who is obviously the leader of his own game; the official wiki goes so far as to call them Craig and Those Guys. An example of this would be in South Park Is Gay, in which Stan approaches Craig first to try and one-up him, and another more subtle example would be in Good Times With Weapons, in which Stanās leadership is demonstrated just by him being front and center in front of Craigās door.
He also serves as the lead detective in Lilā Crime Stoppers, and tends to be the leader of his respective sports team, being chosen as both quarterback and pitcher in football and baseball respectively. On a larger scale, Stan becomes Captain in Whale Whores, where he is revered for actually making things happen in comparison to the previous Captain.Ā
South-park-meta also has a great description of why Stanās a leader which you can find here, which mentions a few things that I havenāt.Ā
Stan in a leadership role comes up over and over again, and while I normally wouldnāt consider this a strong enough piece of evidence to bring up on its own, Stanās other masculine traits (which Iāll be getting to shortly, outside of the personality department) make me believe that itās intentional. This is especially relevant when the leadership within the girls is also considered: while the groups of boys tend to have a very obvious leader, the girls fluctuate often between Wendy and Bebe, with Matt and Trey unable to even keep the leader of the Pleases and Sparkles Club consistent. The fact that the boys tend to have leaders and the girls donāt leads me to believe that Matt and Trey do see leadership as a masculine trait.
Superficiality & Ego: To be clear before we start this section, I do think that Stan is legitimately very sensitive. He is my sensitive little guy. But he does have a tendency to be superficial with some issues, often unable to grasp the bigger picture, especially when failing to grasp the issue tends to benefit him specifically.Ā
Consider his behavior in A Scause For Applause. Initially, Stan has no clue who the farmers are or what they stand for, and is labeled a hero simply because he likes his wristband and doesnāt intend on taking it off. However, as soon as he essentially becomes a celebrity, he pretends to be extremely passionate about the cause, despite the fact that it is all ābullcrapā to him. Stan is hugely empathetic, but only towards people that are close to him, or issues that are relevant to him (such as the whales, as he loves animals): he couldnāt care less about the farmers in Belarus, but relishes in the attention heās getting because of it.
Another example of this would be in Butterballs, where Stan behaves in essentially the same way: he joins the anti-bullying campaign not because he is passionate about the issue, but because heās being taunted and he wants to prove that heās a leader, or, as Bucky Bailey says, a ābig manā. His pride is extremely important to him, which is part of the reason why he steps up. As Stan starts to make the anti-bullying video increasingly about him, Kyle sees through him and points it out.
Once again, his ego drives him rather than genuine passion for the issue: his actual interest in it is superficial at best and serves only to fuel his ego. Both qualities are heavily associated with masculinity, and toxic masculinity in particular: as Stan gets pissed at Kyle in both episodes, that side of him and the anger accompanying it begins to show. Weāve now accepted those traits are generally bad, but they were often praised as a key part of manliness in the past: them continuing to be associated with masculinity in Matt and Treyās mind would be very plausible.
ii. āManlyā Interests
Stanās one of the most fleshed out characters throughout the series in terms of interests, but he does have one that shows up more prominently than any other: sports! Iāve gone into exactly how frequently it pops up for him in my Jock Stan meta, so I wonāt go into it now, but I highly suggest reading that if youāre interested. Furthermore, thatās also why Iām not going to be using basketball as a masculine justification for Kyle; from what Iāve found, itās just not as relevant to his character.
Sports are widely considered to be an interest associated with men, and particularly, masculinity; while the gender split among people who are passionate about sports is much less divisive than the media would lead you to believe, few people associate anything other than womenās sports with women. Football in particular is typically considered a manās sport, and has its heavy associations with toxic masculinity: the traits valued within football tend also to be the traits that our society values specifically within men, those traits typically boiling down to strength and competitiveness. As mentioned above, the desire to compete and show off (particularly with Craig, also considered to be the respective āleaderā of his group) is a trait much more heavily associated with Stan than Kyle; it leads me to believe those traits and his interest in football paired together are not a coincidence.
Another one of Stanās larger interests are animals, which he consistently feels passionate about, but more specifically dogs. Heās shown to love Sparky dearly, with the first Stan-centric episode of the series having Stanās crisis about Sparky as a main factor, and he even accompanies Stan in Stick of Truth for one of his attacks. I mention this because while a love of animals is often associated with women, or femininity, dogs specifically are consistently associated with men; when the term āmanās best friendā was coined, they were not considering āmanā as the wider mankind. Dogs are so heavily associated with masculinity that people naturally assume dogs that they meet are male, and that the large majority of dogs in fiction ARE male. The association between dogs and masculinity is actually a necessity for Big Gay Alās Big Gay Boat Ride to work as an episode: Stan valuing ābutchnessā and wanting Sparky to behave in such a way acts as his main conflict throughout the episode.
While this last one is not quite as relevant to Stanās overall character as the previous two, itās frequently brought up as a ācounterā to Stanās sportiness, so I still find it relevant to bring up. Board games, which are certainly less associated with manliness than sports, are still an extremely male sport, particularly dominated by white males (with 93% of board game designers being white men); I am inclined to believe that Matt and Trey knew this, which was why Nichole, and the rest of the girls, stood out so much. They even address this within the episode, which has most of the boy gamers (excluding Stan, who is more open to girls joining the group) rejecting the girls who want to play. Even Stanās least traditionally masculine interest is centered around manliness within the episode.
Is it coincidence that when Matt and Trey selected interests for their characters, they chose interests heavily associated with masculinity for Stan? Probably not. Again, these interests arenāt necessarily male-exclusive, nor do they even necessarily lean towards men in reality, but from the perspective of two older men like Matt and Trey, they ARE masculine traits. The fact that Stan is given those traits specifically while the other characters are not is heavily indicative of their intention; namely, to make Stan an obviously masculine character.
iii. Appearance
I swear weāre almost done with an insanely long Stan section in whatās supposed to be a Kyle meta. I may have to change the title.
The last thing weāre going to be looking at with Stan in regards to masculinity is appearance: how does he present himself? When he chooses roles in games, how traditionally masculine are they? Letās start with his Stick of Truth role: Stan Marshwalker.
During Stick of Truth, Stan serves as Kyleās devoted, protective knight: as I already mentioned above, heās ready to pick a fight with the player just for looking at him. But even beyond his behavior, his appearance is undeniably masculine; knights were the ideal of manhood and masculinity for quite a long time, hence the trope of a knight saving a princess from a castle. Especially back when knights were a Thing, there was nothing more traditionally masculine than waving a huge sword around and fighting a dragon to defend someoneās honor. Stan doesnāt defend the honor of any princesses in Stick of Truth, but he does offer to duel Tolkien on whatās implied to be Kyleās behalf, which could be easily interpreted as a parallel.
The knight motif comes up again in the episode Make Love, Not Warcraft, in which Stanās selected character is this: a muscular, masculine presenting knight. Iām leaving this section a little short because Iām going to be bringing it up again when we get to Kyle , but keep Stanās appearance here in mind.Ā
Stanās next most relevant character is Toolshed, from Stick of Truth:
Stanās TFBW costume, who is essentially a handyman, is less ingrained in society as traditionally masculine than a knight, but still is a heavily male dominated field: in the United States, 96% of handymen are men. While less symbolic than a knight, handymen can be considered masculine even considering only that trait; they are heavily associated with men, which is essentially the definition of masculinity from the Matt and Trey perspective.
Stan has a ton of alter egos throughout the series, but weāre already at 4k words so Iām going to keep this section as brief as I can. The only other real thing of note here is that Stan seems to associate ripping off his sleeves with strength, as he opts to go ripped sleeveless in both Good Times With Weapons and as Stan The Man in W.T.F.Ā
iv. Conclusion
What can we conclude from the above information, and how does it have any relevance at all to Kyle?
Firstly, we can conclude that Stan Marsh, in personality, interests, and appearances, was given traditionally masculine traits by Matt and Trey. Furthermore, we can conclude that due to Matt and Treyās mention of masculinity and femininity within Tweek and Craig, this is not a coincidence; his masculinity was intentional. Finally, we can assume that Matt and Trey genuinely believe these traditionally masculine traits to be legitimately masculine: as in, it is unlikely they gave him these traits with any other intention than making it clear he was a masculine character.
Okay, so weāre done with Stan! Mostly. Heāll come up a little more later. But why did we need to spend this long talking about the character who isnāt even the main guy in this essay? I know I talked a little about it above, but surely I have more of a reason than that? Well, itās because of what Matt and Trey said in the commentary for Kenny Dies, around the 42 minute mark.
āA couple weeks before this, the idea was that we were going to kill Kyle, remember, and we'd make it a big thing - we'll kill Kyle, and Butters will step in... it always seemed to us that Kyle and Stan were really similar... so let's kill off one of those two."
As of Season 6, Stan and Kyle were too similar. In order to justify keeping Kyle on the show, they needed to draw an actual distinction between the two of them. Before this point, Stan had already been established as South Parkās masculine, golden football boy since his very first episode, so what would be the most effective way of differentiating Kyle from Stan in a consistent way?
The answer would be to give Kyle feminine traits to contrast Stanās masculine ones. It required leaning hard on some aspects of the character, but it obviously worked: Kyle is still here, widely loved, and often very different than the way he was before season 6. If we can prove that Stan was intentionally given masculine traits, we have even more of a reason to believe that Kyle may be given feminine traits to separate their personalities, and weāve already proved that! Now we need to prove that Kyle was actually given those feminine traits, and weāll start right now.
...by which I mean tomorrow, when I post the second half of this. Please hold your applause and/or complaints until then, because you really need the second half to tie the whole thing together and actually come to some concrete conclusions.
You can read part 2 here!
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