#aro flash fiction

[transcendragon]

Prompt Flash Fiction - Love Potion

Prompt: “You have to understand, the use of love potions is both morally gross and legally r-”, you interrupt the alchemist, and say the potion is meant for yourself. There’s a long, awkward silence. Some of the many vials in the alchemist’s back room shelves tinkle. There’s so many that they surround the entire room in a rainbow of potions that sparkle gently in the light. It was a sight that…

[transcendragon]

There’s a long, awkward silence. Some of the many vials in the alchemist’s back room shelves tinkle. There’s so many that they surround the entire room in a rainbow of potions that sparkle gently in the light. It was a sight that had given you hope, when you first saw it. If the alchemist has all these potions then there must be one that can fix you.

Now, in the silence, the potions seem to mock you with their unattainablility. The silence stretches until the alchemist finally speaks: “Why?”

You rub your face, grimacing. You’ve never talked to anyone about this, and you were hoping not to start here. But the alchemist simply waits, staring at you intently.

“My best friend is a girl called May,” you say finally. “I’ve known her since we were young. We were neighbors, you know? And we’re going to the same university together.”

That hadn’t been an accident. You’d both looked through possible colleges together and picked out the ones that would be right for both of you, applying to all of the same ones. When the acceptances came you’d run over to her house so you could read them together.

“…and?” The alchemist prompted. Talking about this was harder than you thought.

“And she asked me out,” you blurted. “Said she’s been in love with me for years!”

“Ah.” A noise of understanding clicking in the same place. “You don’t feel the same way.”

You hung your head, not able to look the alchemist in the eyes. “No. I’ve never felt that way, not about anyone.”

You’d never told anyone this before. You’d watched all the movies with your best friend growing up, seen the princes and princesses. You’d heard all the lines about how love was the strongest magic, stronger than all the potions and charms and rituals. So when the crushes never came you didn’t tell anyone, obfuscating any questions about it.

May had never pressed you about your crushes. You’d hoped she was just being respectful, but now you knew the truth. She hadn’t wanted to talk about her crush on you.

“You don’t love her romantically, then.”

“I don’t love anyone romantically,” you replied. You still couldn’t look up to face the alchemist.

“So you’re aromantic.”

The alchemist’s matter of fact tone and the unfamiliar word caused your head to finally shoot up. You stared at the alchemist, who gave you a little smile. They didn’t look appalled or pitying, just… sympathetic.

“Let me get you some tea,” they said. You followed them out of the room, feeling baffled.

There was a long discussion over a pot of chamomile tea. Well, they did most of the talking. You held your cup of warm tea like an anchor as you listened in wonder. They explained that the way you felt was normal; there were words for it and even other people like you. It was an incredible relief, but at the end of it you still felt conflicted.

“Even if how I feel is normal and okay,” you said, “May still loves me romantically. If I can’t love her back she’ll abandon me.”

“No.” The alchemist was much more confident in their tone than you felt. “If she is a true friend then she won’t abandon you over something like this.”

You hunched your shoulders. “I don’t know that for sure.”

“The only way to find out is to be honest,” the alchemist said. “You need friends who accept you for you. Even if you took a love potion, the effects would fade and you’d constantly need more. She’d find out, and everything would be worse.”

You cringed. It was too easy to imagine it, and that would be far worse. You clutch your teacup tightly.

“But how can I tell her that I don’t love her the way she loves me?”

“Ah.” The alchemist gives you a true, warm smile. “A potion of courage is something I can do for you. No payment required, just remember: I’m here with my tea if you need me.”

You took a deep breath in and intentionally straightened your shoulders.

“Thank you. For everything.”

“You have to understand, the use of love potions is both morally gross and legally r-”, you interrupt the alchemist, and say the potion is meant for yourself.

[specialagentartemis]

thinking more about @thetransfemininereview's Trans Microlibrary Project.

It's a good idea, an important idea. TBH microlibrary preservation projects seem like a good idea in general. My mom used to warn me about internet safety, “The internet is written in ink”—that once you put something on the Internet, you can never fully remove it. But the tragic problem is, that’s only true of the stuff you don’t want spreading—the stuff you actually want to preserve is so ephemeral it can disappear without a trace, and you can never get it back again. Jamie Berrout's work is an eternal preservation difficulty this way. A few years ago, a Metal Gear fanfiction author on Livejornal I loved deleted her LJ account and all her foundational Metal Gear fanfic was just—gone. I go and reread some important blog posts about asexual history and link rot has already set in. The Internet Archive did something phenomenally stupid and as a result faces a credible threat to its continued existence.  Personal offline archives of internet-native work seem more important now than ever.

I believe wholeheartedly in the Trans Microlibrary Project and I certainly have PDF copies of several trans books that it is hard-to-impossible to get anymore (Jamie Berrout’s work, primarily, but also one of Xemiyulu Tapepechul’s poetry chapbooks) and other indie trans fiction that who knows how long the content hosters will allow in this skittish political climate (Gillian Ybabez’s flash fiction and various works by the Trans Women Writers’ Collective/River Furnace), so I’m thinking about buying a handful of flash drives and making my own personal preservation projects:

Contribute to the decentralized Trans Microlibrary Project as described in this post (and this will be an inspiration to read M. Kirin’s book Memory Leak, which a recent review piqued my interest in. Itch.io is a very under-recommended venue for indie queer books!) I'm particularly interested in sci-fi, fantasy, horror, and related genre fiction.

An Ace & Aro archive—so much of the important ace writing is on blogs and in zines, and with Matt Mullenwig beefing with Wordpress, I don’t know how stable Wordpress-based blogs will continue to be. Thinking about trying to download PDF copies of the entire Asexual Agenda. I also have several self-pub ace and aro books that are… at best okay tbh. But worth preserving as well. 

Fanfiction. Wanting to have the stuff I like on hand and safe—not even from government censorship or hosting problems necessarily but from all the things that inspire people to delete their fics and their accounts and their blogs. I’ve been burned by Athena Crikey deleting her LJ after years of inactivity and I don’t want to lose so much work I’ve enjoyed over the years.

More projects than that would probably prevent me from doing anything at all lol. But this offline preservation work of internet material is something I have a renewed interest in actually doing.

What do you think is worth preserving?

[bunny-lovers]

My Only Romantic F/O

Rumi Usagiyama (Rabbit Hero: Mirko) from My Hero Academia She’s the love my life & soulmate 💕 Status: Dating since 4/4/2021 otp: bunny kisses I’m very uncomfortable sharing her

DNI/BYF

DNI:

- You also self ship romantically with Mirko

- Proshippers/profic/comshippers/darkshippers/anti antis/neutrals/supporters

- You support cringe culture

- Anti-self shipping

- You’re an adult who self ship romantically with minor characters/age up minor characters/age yourself down. You support an adult who self ship romantically with minor characters/age up minor characters/age themselves down

- You erase canon LGBT+ character’s sexualities

- You self ship with real life people

- MAP/NOMAP/zoophIle/supporters

- You support autism speaks and/or peta

- You ship/support pedo, incest, etc in fiction

- If you self ship with someone who is a canonical r*pist/p*dophile

- You’re racist/anti-blm, nazi, antisemitic, ableist, sexist, zionist

- You’re an LGBT+ phobic, TERFs, radfems, radqueer/transid, truscum/transmeds and/or an ace/aro/nonbinary exclusionist

- You don’t support he/him and they/them lesbians or she/her and they/them gay men

- You’re fujoshi

- You send anon hate

BYF:

- Sometimes I post suggestive content, it’ll be tag #suggestive & #suggestive cw. If you don’t want to see suggestive content, just blacklist one of the tags, especially if you’re a minor!

- Long posts will be tag as #long post & #long post cw

- Triggers will be tag by #(trigger) tw, #tw (trigger), & #(trigger) mention

- Flashing gif(s) posts will be tag by #flashing, #flashing tw, #tw flashing, #flashing gif, #flashing gifs, #flashing gif tw, #flashing gifs tw, #tw flashing gif & tw flashing gifs

- I’m 100% okay with like/reblog spam

- I’m an adult, if that makes you uncomfortable, don’t follow me

[jacktheeldergod2]

6th dimensional porn

You have a computer that can access the internet of any dimension. You don't have the ability to physically go places, just to observe them and interact with them through this one machine.

Sometimes you'll just do it for fun. Seeing other timeline's versions of sites and the content that's created there. Getting to see work from artists if they hadn't sold out or moved on. Or getting to see what YouTube is like in a world where it never become corpratized. Or get to go on Vine in a world where vine exists in 2024. You've read writing from Shakespeare if he had been sent to the new world, seen stories from Lovecraft if he had unlearned his bigotry, seen experimental films from George Lucas if star wars had floppe, heard music from Kurt Cobain if he hadn't died young.

And you've gone off to weirder places to. You've seen what political discourse is like in a world where Constantine converted to Buddhism instead of chrsitianity, where that's the dominant religion of the west. And you'll see conservatives talking about how sjws are undermining the west's Buddhist values, or YouTube videos talking about chrsitantiy as this forgotten dead religion from the crisis if the third century. And you asked someone in the comments of that video what they thought a world would be like if chrsitanity survived, and they said it was impossible, that it was doomed to die out just because it did.

And you've talked to people from a world where humanity lives underground, where an apocalypse made the surface of the world uninhabitable, and every human on earth lives in massive subterranean complexes. You talked to them about what they wanted, if they wanted to see the sun, see the forests and the birds and the creatures that they knew were above them, and most of them didn't really want it. Most of them didn't really want to see the surface, they had grown up having never seen it, it didn't bother them, they were confused why anyone would be that committed to finally go somewhere that humans weren't. And there was one person who told you they did always really want to see it, that it's their hyperfixation, but that they'd obviously go back with the other humans if they had the chance, that they couldn't live somewhere without them.

And you've seen a world where humans where dead, where only robots and ai and cyborgs were still around. And even though they couldn't touch you, you were afraid, because you thought they would hate you. But they didn't, on every site where they talked about humans they talked about how cool you were, and how much aprication they had for their culture. And when you made a post asking if they'd want to hurt humans if they saw them, everyone who replied called you weird.

You've seen the internet in a world where cryptids and monsters are real. And you ended up on a forum for vampires. And you asked a newly turned vampire how they felt, and they said it was cold, that their body felt so cold, but it was still their body, and that they still wanted to live, still wanted to find a way to enjoy their life even if they didn't like their body.

And you've seen a world where all humans are completely aroace, and don't desire sex or romance at all. And you decided to upload sexual and romantic art, and even fetish art, to one of their sites. And the people there loved it, despite not understanding its purpose, they loved the way the artist depicted the world, saw it as so unique and strange, as something weirdly beautiful, and not at all gross, because nobody ever told them such things were gross.

And you've made online freinds from other worlds. People who you can never touch, never see, but who you see through their words. You've comforted someone who doesn't exist in your world, from a country that doesn't exist in your world, but you've comforted them, and made sure they don't get hurt or hurt themself, from very far away, because despite everything you can't help but care.

Mabye the internet isn't that bad. Mabye the world isn't all horrible. Mabye people aren't that bad.

[cenlyra]

Happy Aro Week!

For Aro Week, I wrote a flash fiction piece about an aroallo person.

TW: mention of sex, non-descriptive

[gwen-tolios]

Nine people I’d like to know better (Tag Game)

tagged by @rockinlibrarian

One-sentence byline: Short story writer specializing in speculative flash fiction, but who also has a sapphic romantic drama for the ace girlies who like the idea of falling in love with a friend.

Last song: Ceilings by Lizzy McAlphine. I can tell you nothing about it. I just had Spotify's 'Fresh Finds Class of 2023' playlist going while I worked.

Favourite colour: Blue! I don't have a specific shade, but a chunk of my condo I painted different hues of it, including a mural in my bedroom that's an ombre sea thing

Currently watching: Only Murders in the Building. I'm two nights into watching it and am already on S2E2. Pls send help.

Last movie/tv show: Barbie! Recently rewatched with my father, who then brought it up as a conversation topic around the Thanksgiving table. He and I have...different views of it and for the past two weeks I keep replying some of our conversations and wish I had asked if what really pissed him off was the fact that the 'dumb blonde' character wasn't a woman.

Spicy/savoury/sweet: It used to be sweet, but as I've gotten older I've leaned more into savory items.

Relationship status: Single. Maybe happily so. (Ace and probably some form of aro but haven't dug too deep)

Current obsession: Middlegame. I feel in love with McGuire's work when I first read Every Heart A Doorway for my ace bookclub, to the point where I then bought everything my local bookshop had by her. Or at least a representation of every series. Middlegame has been on my radar for awhile, but picked it up for a spooky October read that I'm....still reading.

Last thing you googled: Like, needed to google? Definitions for acronyms I use at work. OEM, MAU. Fun googles? Potential problems surrounding blood transfusions for my NaNo original work, A Shelter for Witch Familiars. There were....a lot more murders in that book that I expected.

Tagging: @redstorm23 @notquitebilateral @chris-in-eugene @nightingalesighs @aprilraine @averyconfusedhuman @xirkanos @diesel-park @wigglyparty

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

Original Fiction

Wildflowers of Deliverance (three-part series)

Red, like my bleeding heart in your hand - 25k (complete--editing) novella prequel (the childhood years) - Follow Nash, his sister Jo, and his best friend Teddy in Deliverance, TN as they take on bullies and grow together, only to be ripped apart before they reach their potential

Blue, like don't forget about me - 60k (complete--editing) queer romance - Twenty years after Nash and Teddy lost touch, they reunite at a funeral and find all of the too-big feelings from childhood are still there, bubbling under the surface

Violet, like these delights - 50k~ (outlining) sequel to Blue - Jo's POV, coming of age in your 30's - Jo gets the freedom she thought she always wanted and finds, it kind of sucks actually

Woolen Hollow - Drafting Percolating - fantasy, magic systems, found family, accidental chosen one; a story about choice, family, and that weird forest kingdom girl who's obsessed with fortune tellers

Hot Air Balloon Town (working title - percolating) - In a small town famous for their hot air balloon museum and annual festival, a young woman decides she's going to break the world record for highest altitude in an open basket. However, the ghost in town is complicating things.

FanFiction

Spideypool (Peter Parker/Wade Wilson)

Paradise (spread out with a butter knife) -- slowburn soulmates au where friendship is magic (or the one where Peter and Wade are literal soulmates but don't realize it for literal years because they're literal idiots)

The Little Barnacle -- Peter panics and botches Wade's proposal by proposing first like the babbling disaster man he is. He also turned out hella aro and this was his choice.

GwenMJ (Gwen Stacy/Michelle Jones)

michelle.mp3 -- Michelle breaks up with Peter and retreats to her grandma's house in the country to lick her wounds and meets Gwen, her insufferable neighbor who also happens to be the drummer and songwriter who upended her perfectly adequate life and is apparently back for more.

Parkner (Peter Parker/Harley Keener)

*deep breath*

Freak Out 'Verse -- It starts with a kidnapping, evolves through a summer romance, and ends with a portal to another dimension, team dynamics, and... shit tits? am i reading this right? ...really? Yeah folks it says shit tits what the fuck

Peaches 'Verse -- It starts with Abbie and Harley. It starts with leaving. It ends with Abbie and Harley and Peter and May. It ends with a room and choosing to stay.

The Distance Between (You and Me) -- Harley struggles to get a grip on his PTSD while his kidnappers are still out there, the board of directors at Stark Industries are looking for any excuse to deny him his future right to inherit the company, and his "bodyguard" drives him up the fucking wall.

For the First Time, Eye to Eye -- Peter and Harley have a lot of shit to work through and Harley's family reunion (while they pretend to be boyfriends of five years rather than workplace rivals), is not the time or place. And yet...

Lemon Boy -- Post-Endgame (sorry) Harley takes in Peter as a roommate to help with expenses while he remodels his deceased uncle's house. Both grieving in their own way, they eventually learn to see the other clearly--through the mask and despite the barriers.

Parkner One-Shots

Heart (in hand) Home (in you) - 2.5k - Harley-centric sick fic

An Insignificant Problem - 1.2k - De-aged!Peter; Fed-up!Harley

Wouldn't Dream of It - 2.3k - Harley-centric alien goo induced trip down memory lane

The Human Kind - 3.7k - Spidey and Laddie play hide and seek :) (mind the tags!)

Undercover? I thought you said under covers... - 3.7k - what it says on the tin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Peter, no - 3.4k - Peter is an awful outdoorsman. Harley is in love with him.

Rhythm and Blues - 1.3k - Flash POV! He's stuck late at school and sees something he isn't supposed to.

No Need to Rush - 5.3k - It's simple: Harley loves Peter. Yet complicated: Peter loves Harley.

Second Chances for Second Guessers - 3.7k - Peter is a flighty little whimp afraid of falling in love

Pete, I'm Fake Drunk and Wanna Go Home - 2.9k - Peter needs a night off and Harley has a fool-proof plan to make him take one

The Devil is a Hopeless Romantic - 2k - tried to write angst. it's only okay

Completely and utterly devoid of sex appeal - 1.7k - Peter has the hots for Harley when he wears a certain outfit. Unfortunately it's his work uniform. And they work together.

Fake Romance Crap - 3.4k - sure he fake married me an hour ago, but do you think he likes me?

Apeshit - 2.1k - A Freak Out 'Verse one-shot written for the prompt: You know what, maybe they ARE tired of being nice. Maybe they DO wanna go apeshit.

adventures with hair dye and feelings — In Space! - 8.7k - 5 times Harley and Peter don’t kiss +1 time they do (in space!) Written for the combined prompts: 8) every single kiss so far has been a disaster but it's really funny and 46) don't have a one night stand with your coworker on the spaceship

Put in the Work - 54.7k - Rated M - fka the nasa au, now with minimal nasa (sorry). Harley built his whole life around two things: his daughter and his career at NASA. It's nothing but bad luck that he's laid off at the same time Hazel is pushing for independence. To cope, he falls back on his usual stress-relief, hotel sex with a hot stranger, but bad luck arrives in threes and it's definitely bad luck to fall in love with your one-night stand. If only he had a friend to vent to other than his sister, his daughter, and his strange quasi-friendship with Spider-Man via twitter…

Come on, take a joyride - 6.8k - 5 times Harley takes Peter for a ride +1 time Peter takes Harley

Free Pass - 9k - Rated E - a smutty New Year's Eve one-shot that got plot in it somehow...

another time, a difference place (I have loved you before) - ??? - In-progress (I'm posting as I go for once) - Endgame parkner fix it fic. Peter and Harley were together inside the soul stone. Unfortunately, neither of them remember anything and these frequent bouts of deja vu are getting weird.

Coming Up...

Baseball Smut - Rated E - parkner one-shot. Baseball uniforms are sexy, okay?

Your Mom Freaked Out - ??? - An addition to the Freak Out 'Verse that occurs sometime before the final scene of You're Freaking Out's epilogue. Harley gets blasted with temporal rays when Peter and Tony's time machine experiment goes wrong. It's just his luck that he wakes up handcuffed with Officer Benjamin Parker sitting at his bed side...

Not Spider-Man 4: Bring it on Home (working title) - ??? (LONG) - Gen fic (no romantic parkner), Harley-centric, trans ftm!Harley, canon compliant, post NWH - Harley built his own Iron Man armor and he uses it Robin Hood style to keep Rose Hill from blinking out on the map. Abbie thought she was helping by sneaking off to meet with reporter Betty Brandt and her photographer, Peter Parker, to shed some light on the dire situation in small towns like Rose Hill post-blip and the extremes people like her brother go to to keep people fed and healthy. But getting kidnapped is rarely considered helpful.

Spider-Man 4: Bring it on Home - ??? - Peter/Michelle - Sequel to Not SM4: BioH - Michelle POV (maybe with some Peter POV too--i'll decide when I actually get to writing it hah) -- Inspired by the events of Not SM4, Peter sets out to Boston get his friends back. Meanwhile, Michelle is trying to solve the mystery of why she and Ned have gaping holes in their memories. Ned has it worse than she does and has the therapy and medical bills to prove it, which is all the more reason for her to get to the bottom of this before his episodes get any worse. She's positive she could have solved it by now if not for the universe throwing constant distractions in her face--like the cute guy that recently started frequenting the shop where she works. And what the hell is Spider-Man doing outside of New York. One mystery at a time, Em. You'll figure it out. You always do.

We Were Gods (we were kids) - 100k~ - parkner childhood friends to estranged almost lovers to superheroes fighting on opposite sides to reluctant allies to lovers (this is the OG OG Blue like don't forget about me, back to its roots)

[seeingteacupsindragons]

Fic Authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics works that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤

Anon, the fact that you crossed out "fic" on this just to send it to me is honestly so sweet. You're adorable and ILY in a very platonic, social media way.

That said, none of my most favorite fiction pieces are currently available publicly for various reasons. So this is going to be, I suppose, "My favorite stuff you can find on my blog."

There's already a "Marr's Favorites" list on my YuuMori Meta list, but it's longer than five, and I have other stuff here. So.

"A Ceiling Fan to the Heart": Probably the only fiction piece on this list! While I have some flash fic pieces floating around that will be hard even for me to find here and some flash written off prompts, this is I think the only full short story I have posted to Tumblr, because I specifically wrote it for Tumblr to share with you all.

"Richard Ranasinghe de Vulpian’s Backstory Is Very Queer: An Essay": A meta piece I was honestly turning over for months before I wrote it up for a dear friend's birthday (she's very into meta). I originally wanted to turn this into a proper lit essay with JSTOR sources and such. It didn't quite turn into that, but I think it's a really good read "Richard Ranasinghe de Vulpian's Backstory Is Very Queer: The Aspec Amendment" is exactly what it says on the tin, and basically a tag onto it, so I'm combining these.

"Seigi's Queer Coming of Age": This has a similar backstory to the other one, and it once again just really fun to talk about queer stuff.

"The Man Who Set Himself On Fire to Keep Others Warm": William's motif meta. I'm proud of it, okay?

"The Man Who Goes Through Hell and High Water": Sherlock's motif essay. These were fun to write, even if this one was written while my apartment was flooded.

Much of my ace and aro education stuff was posted as threads on twitter originally...I should see how much of them I can save before Twitter totally implodes. I'm proud of a lot of them, actually, but most of them aren't here on Tumblr right now.

Anyway, stuff that didn't make the cut that I think is also pretty great include:

"No One Tell Sherlock" / "It Doesn't Hurt at First, Does It?": I like this one a lot because I really wrote it trying to incorporate a lot of fiction story-telling techniques in it to really amp up the emotional punch instead of just being purely analytic. It could probably use a good edit, but it's fun.

God, I was just looking at the "Marr's Favorites" list to pick and choose, and they're all really good and I love all of them. If you're into YuuMori meta, go read those and gimme feedback lol.

[movedto-bunny-lovers]

My Romantic F/Os:

Keigo Takami (Wing Hero: Hawks) from My Hero Academia He’s the love of my life. 💕 Status: Dating since 3-28-2020 otp: wing hero and his dove I’m very uncomfortable sharing him

Rumi Usagiyama (Rabbit Hero: Mirko) from My Hero Academia She’s also the love my life 💕 Status: Dating since 4/4/2021 otp: rabbit hero and her bunny I’m very uncomfortable sharing her

Pet F/O:

Umbreon

DNI/BYF:

DNI:

- You also self ship romantically with Hawks and/or Mirko

- Proshippers/comshippers/anti antis/neutrals/supporters

- You support cringe culture

- Anti-self shipping

- You’re an adult who self ship romantically with minor characters/age up minor characters/age yourself down. You support an adult who self ship romantically with minor characters/age up minor characters/age themselves down

- You erase canon LGBT+ character’s sexualities

- You self ship with real life people

- MAP/NOMAP/zoophIle/supporters

- You support autism speaks and/or peta

- You ship/support pedo, incest, etc in fiction

- If you self ship with someone who is a canonical r*pist/p*dophile

- You’re racist/anti-blm, nazi, antisemitic, ableist, sexist

- You’re right-wing/a Republican

- You’re a pro lifer

- You’re an LGBT+ phobic, TERF, radfems, truscum/transmeds and/or an ace/aro/nonbinary exclusionist

- Anti-neopronouns/xenogenders

- You don’t support he/him and they/them lesbians or she/her and they/them gay men

- You’re fujoshi

- You send anon hate

BYF:

- Sometimes I post suggestive content, it’ll be tag #suggestive & #suggestive cw. If you don’t want to see suggestive content, just blacklist one of the tags, especially if you’re a minor!

- Long posts will be tag as #long post & #long post cw

- Triggers will be tag by #(trigger) tw, #tw (trigger), & #(trigger) mention

- Flashing gif(s) posts will be tag by #flashing tw, #tw flashing, #flashing gif, #flashing gif tw, & #tw flashing gif

- I’m 100% okay with like/reblog spam

- I follow/interact from shylesbiannerd

- I’m an adult, if that makes you uncomfortable, don’t follow me

[andthemoonsingswisely]

Pretty little words by Savitri* (aka my introduction post)

*not my real name, but a pen name

she/they, 16, ace, aro-spec

ENTP-T, Virgo, flautist(Carnatic & classical western), writer(poetry, prose-poetry, flash fiction), coder (JavaScript, Python, MATLAB)

Likes: Fashion, aesthetics, retro feels, petrichor, sarees, fast cars, roller coasters, Hindu goddesses, those little moments when you just feel so whole and complete

Dislikes: people who value you solely for entertainment purposes and do not see you as human beings capable of deep feelings and thoughts

Music: Old Hindi & Tamil songs (Lata Mangeshkar, Susheela), Carnatic music, classic rock (Livin’ on a Prayer, Free Bird), everything by Madonna (QUEEN OF POP frrrr), classical western music(particularly the impressionist ones like Debussy’s Syrinx and Poulenc’s flute sonata)

Literature: Ocean Vuong, Richard Siken, K-Ming Chang, The Grishaverse, A Song of Ice and Fire, Red Queen, Anna Karenina, The Color Purple, Beloved, Mahabharata (and no, Karnan is not some tragic hero; he sucks), TONI MORRISON I LOVE HER SHE'S THE BEST ICON <3

TV: Breaking Bad, Suits, Shadow and Bone, Gilmore Girls, Crash Landing on You, Our Beloved Summer, Twenty-five Twenty-one, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Yellowjackets; Currently watching: House, M.D.

Nationality: Born and raised in the US, somehow has a very thick Indian accent which makes nice people ask “were you born in India?” and annoying ones reply to me in an over-exaggerated version of how I speak 💀

Languages: Tamil and English, I’m learning French as a second language in school. I can read the Hindi script but can’t really speak or understand it :/

Religion: Hindu

Aspires to study economics and decision science :)

This is going to be a studyblr and a place for all my weird feelings to coexist + my weird fandom obsessions, so yeah, it’s gonna get at least a little weird (aka ✨quirky✨) in here.

Follow to be ���moots💕 & friends 🫶🫶🫶

[fezwearingjellybananas]

What’s your favorite ship to write and why?

AO3 says it's Barry/Iris (at 46 tagged fics, Barry/Cisco is the next highest at 22). Which does make sense, I think the reason ships like Barriscowest and Halbaris happen is I like Barry and Iris together in canon so rather than split them up for another ship they just join in?

I think there is probably an influence of it is the canonical ship so there is the most I can draw from (I'm aro and don't date, it's not like I've got anything other than fiction to base this off), and it's the ship in both the tv show and comics so if I actually filter by those 45 fics, 25 are tagged Flash (TV 2014) and 21 are Flash (Comics) so there is more likelihood of writing it (as opposed to Barry/Cisco which can only fit in tv show canon or my third most tagged ship Hal/Barry/Iris- 15 fics- which is only really for comics fic, even if I do occasionally allude to past Hal/Barry in tv show fic). And if I'm writing fic to fit with canon if there's a ship it's probably going to be Barry and Iris

I just like them I guess. It is fun playing around with other ships sometimes, but I like these two in canon so that's probably why.

Barry and Cisco deserve that second spot though, they're fun to write

Thank you!

[Talk Shop Tuesday]

[tyrianludaship]

Lovebug Cycle (Different from the Classic Lovebug AU)

(I said I was gonna write about my Lovebug Cycle Idea I have been thinking about for a few months and I feel confident enough to post it. Here is me getting hyperfixated on a fictional cycle. I'm planning also to make Lovebug art that isn't just the Narrator but I have a bias for him. I suggest writing this as 'Lovebug Cycle' instead of 'Lovebug AU' since the original AU is like a virus.)

Note + Content Warning: There are a few mentions and discussion on suggestive subjects, such as intimacy in a platonic and s3xual context. I tried to write this in a somewhat professional way but I recommend not reading this if you're a minor or is otherwise uncomfortable with sensual subjects.

Who Experiences the Cycle: Non-Humans; particularly Transcendental Beings, such as the Curator and the Narrator. Humans can experience the Love Bug Cycle; however the process is faster and is not constant, only lasting for an hour or shorter. Only occurs when a human partakes in s3xual intimacy with a Transcendental Being during their cycle.

The Biological / Physical Aspect of the Lovebug Cycle: 

The subject begins to experience this process at around 12 - 15 years old, where they experience the following physical traits for around 2 to 3 days every month:

- Hot Flashes

- Dizziness (feeling weak in the knees)

- Insomnia 

- Night Sweats (this and Insomnia may Overlap)

- High Libido or S3x-Drive (this fits under the general umbrella of heightened emotions)

- Sweating (this and Hot Flashes may Overlap)

- Sudden Irritability or Ignorance; i.e. feeling intense skepticism or intense leniency towards their partner

(This depends on how agreeable the subject was beforehand. Ex. An intensely skeptical being becomes intensely lenient during their cycle.)

- Persistent Want for Intimacy or a Close Distance with their Partner

(NOTE: THE PERSISTENT WANT FOR INTIMACY OR CLOSENESS DOES NOT ALWAYS MEAN S3XUAL INTIMACY OR DESIRE AND BEINGS IN THE ARO/ACE UMBRELLA ARE ABLE TO EXPRESS LOVE IN PLATONIC WAYS. ELABORATED MORE IN THE EMOTIONAL SECTION.)

- Appearance features more Bug-Like Qualities, such as multiple limbs, wings and/or forewings, antennae, or compound eyes

(Treatment: Ways to Decrease the Effects)

The Love Bug Cycle is easy for the subject to keep track of and by extension, prepare for the traits.

Medication for Insomnia and Dizziness

Exercises to Decrease Hot Flashes and Sweating

(A general note for subjects experiencing the Love Bug Cycle, is to have removable layers of clothes if the sweating is deemed "too intense")

Supplements to Decrease Most Other Symptoms 

(Specific Diets and Drinks are said to Decrease the S3x-Drive, so in the cases of some beings who aware of this fact and are capable of doing so, would take on these diets during the cycle)

The Persistent Want for Intimacy or a Close Distance with their Partner is the only trait during the cycle that has no way of decreasing or stopping.

The Emotional Aspect of the Lovebug Cycle:

The subject is able to articulate what they feel during the cycle once it’s over. Many of the subjects brought on to discuss, invokes how difficult it is to maintain professionalism and their work during the cycle. This is especially the case when their desired person or partner is near them in the professional environment. The general idea of why, is that the Cycle affects the subject's consciousness. The ideal situation for the subject during the Love Bug Cycle is for them to stay in a relaxing environment with their desired person or partner. This makes the physical and emotional traits more manageable. Other ways the Cycle affects the subject’s thoughts and behavior goes as follows:

- Heavy Desire for Intimacy (whether romantic, sexual, or platonic depends on the subject)

In the case of platonic intimacy, the being may be more openly affectionate. Compliments, hand-holding, hugs, embraces and kisses are expected. This is mostly the type of desire the being craves if they are in the aro/ace umbrella or simply cannot express romance or sexuality openly in any other circumstance, such as how they were raised. 

In the case of romantic and/or s3xual intimacy, the being openly expresses their love in more ways. The platonic behaviors are included in their ways of expressing love, plus additional ways with connotations of romance or s3x. Flirting, spooning and suggestive comments are more likely to happen for beings who are able to express romantic or s3xual messaging. The comments will stay playful and cute, until their partner increases the intensity of the comments. The being follows the boundaries of their partner, and only escalate when the partner gives enthusiastic consent.

Proship/Comship DNI

[boombox-fuckboy]

Housekeeping: guide to frequently used tags

Tags presented as used in bold, then followed by " - " then explained in plain text.

All shows will be tagged with their name or a variant of it.

General

#announcements - various podcast related announcements that don't fit elsewhere

#casting call - a show is looking for new cast members.

#behind the scenes - how things work behind the scenes

#bonus episode - bonus episode

#community events - for community and fan events.

#congrats - A show is celebrating a milestone and I wanted to tell them congrats.

#crowdfunding - a post promoting a crowdfunder for new show or show season.

#discord link - link to a show or podcasting related discord [that I will not be using].

#first episode notice - a post notifying the release of the first episode of a show. See also #new show notice.

#incoming - something that's due to happen in the next ~2 hours.

#liveshow - announcement for an upcoming liveshow.

#minisode - minisode.

#music - Individual songs or links to albums from or for various shows.

#new episode notice - a post notifiying the release of a new episode. High use.

#new season notice - a post notifying the release of the first episode of a new season

#new show notice - a post notifying the release of the first episode of a show. See also #first episode notice.

#playlists - curated playlists of music, may be creator or fan-made.

#polls - made or reblogged a poll

#promo - one of those posts where a show tells you about itself and why you should listen.

#promo swap - a show wants to exchange promos with another

#q&a - a Q&A was either posted or the post is calling for people to submit questions for one.

#quiz - personality quizzes, trivia quizzes, and suchlike.

#recipes - recipes for food you can make and perhaps even eat.

#recommendations - I have either written or reblogged a rec list.

#reviews - a review of a show that I or probably someone else wrote.

#streaming - someone's gonna stream something.

#suggested listening - someone has sent me an ask with a show they think I should listen to.

#tabletop - a tabletop game associated with or based on a fiction podcast

#teasers - A link, video, or audio of a teaser. A teaser is a small promo for a show that's not taken from an episode.

#technical advice - technical advice for podcast creation.

#trailer - A link, video, or audio of a trailer. A trailer is a small promo from a show cut from disconnected parts of one or more episodes.

#upcoming - a show that has not yet been released.

#worldbuilding - worldbuilding information for a show.

Personal use

#█████ posts - I made a post. I forget to use this as often as I should.

#ace tag - Asexual podcast stuff.

#aro tag - Aromantic podcast stuff.

#ask game - For those games where people send asks and I forget to reply usually.

#not podcasts - I try not to need this one.

#pawedcasts - dog tag

#podcats - cat tag

#podcasts you should be listening to - I think it's a good listen.

#queue - I queued the post as so not to spam you with a bunch of stuff at once, or set it to post at a specified time.

#sent to me - someone sent me that post.

#tags copied: - I liked the previous tags and so copied them in for you to read as well.

#to delete - I intend to get rid of this later.

#to do - self reminder.

#to listen - for future me.

Content warnings

#ask to tag - I feel like the post might call for a content warning but don't know what, and so am reminding people that they can ask if required.

#animal death - art depicting a recently dead or dying animal. Statistically this is probably a deer. I will never post/rb real animal death.

#blood - art where there's enough blood that I feel like it needs to be tagged, but it's technically not gore.

#body horror - art depicting body horror.

#flashing lights - flashing lights & rapidly cycling colours.

#gore - art depicting gore. I don't forsee ever posting/rbing real gore, but maybe a moodboard will have open heart surgery footage or a podcast creator will post an update with the gnarliest x-ray & stitches pics you've ever seen. Stuff that not everyone wants to see but is also not like, ethically questionable in origin. So let's set aside #real gore just in case.

#trypophobia - things I think might set off trypophobia.

[fanby-fckry]

Tags to Block:

Please send me an ask if you need something tagged. New tags may be added as they come up; these are just the most common ones.

Light Tags:

#not fandom – non-fandom posts

#eyestrain – potential eyestrain

#flash warning – flashing, strobing, or fast moving images

#undescribed – images without image descriptions

#artistic nudity – nonsexual nudity

#suggestive – sexually suggestive material

#not osha compliant – sexually explicit material

#osha violation – kink content; not necessarily sexual

Heavy Tags:

In alphabetical order

#ableism cw – mentions of ableism; including saneism

#addiction cw – mentions of addiction; including substance addiction, gambling addiction, etc.; not including recreational drug use if addiction isn’t mentioned/implied in the post

#aphobia cw – mentions of aphobia, acephobia, arophobia, aro/ace-exclusionism, and acecourse

#arachnophobia cw – photos or other realistic images of spiders

#biphobia cw – mentions of biphobia and bi exclusionism

#discourse cw – fandom discourse

#fatphobia cw – mentions of fatphobia, weight bias, diet culture, etc.

#gore cw – fictional/illustrated/special effects gore

#homophobia cw – mentions of homophobia

#paranoia cw – anything that might trigger paranoia

#queerphobia cw – umbrella tag for mentions of bigotry against any queer identity

#racism cw – mentions of racism

#saneism cw – mentions of saneism, bigotry towards any mental illness or neurodivergence; including the concept of ‘narc abuse’ and similar hate towards people with personality disorders

#scopophobia cw – scopophobia triggers; images of eyes, implications of being watched

#sexual assault cw – mentions of sexual abuse, sexual assault, sex trafficking and rape

#transphobia cw – mentions of transphobia, trans exclusionism, TERFs, transmedicalism, trans gatekeeping, and other such nonsense

#unreality cw – anything that might induce a sense of unreality

[drowninginredink]

I cannot emphasize enough how much I do not hit 3k words. Between AO3 and my old FFN, nothing that isn't multichapter is above 3k. I've come very close to 3k—the aro Ian fic is only 17 words short—but I just naturally top out around 3k because I started as a flash fiction writer and while I did start writing a little longer when I got into fanfic, I never go that much longer.

The thing is, I still feel like I haven't written any of this thing. There are still so many entire scenes that are only in my head. The scenes that are written are like, halfway written.

How long is this going to be? I just... I can't overstate how much I don't write long and yet here I am and I feel like I have written nothing.

(And yes, obligatory "nice")