#are conor and phoebe dating

[thealogie]

i don't know how much of this is relevant to you. but i needed to put it somewhere. the normal people to phoebe bridgers pipeline is so interesting to me. everything is connected. paul mescal joins the cast of sally rooney's normal people. paul mescal begins dating phoebe bridgers after flirting on twitter and through interviews. paul mescal and andrew scott star in spoof entitled 'normal people confessions' for rté comic relief. phoebe bridgers writes song for sally rooney's conversations with friends. phoebe bridgers is friends w taylor swift?? taylor swift bf joe alwyn joins the cast of sally rooney's conversations with friends. joe alwyn, paul mescal and andrew scott have a group chat. paul mescal and andrew scott star in all of us strangers. bonus trivia: phoebe bridgers also had an affair with conor oberst of bright eyes fame before dating paul, and possibly matty healy before/around the same time as bo burnham? fuzzy on this one. everyone in ireland is one person removed from this spider web at any point (e.g. my girlfriend went to school with sally rooney yup mayo. my sister went to college with paul mescal's sister, who is a mediocre musician in her own right. phoebe bridgers was served coffee by my best friend on her trip to dublin while she and paul were engaged). i promise i don't care about taylor swift she is tangential to this.

You all are on fire today I can’t even keep up with the number of masterpiece asks

[anothersebastianblog]

There were some rumors out there that Chace and Leighton initially went on a few dates, but it didn't turn into anything serious and then Seb came into the picture. 🤷‍♀️ Either way, it's obvi not unusual that friends in the acting industry have one or two exes in common and that their exes are friends or friendly as well lol. Margarita seems to casually be friends with Dianna and maybe even Annabelle. Oh and Conor is bffs with C Evans' ex, Minka. Wonder if they ever gossiped over Seb and Chris. 🤭 Btw, did yall know that Ellie is friends with Phoebe Tonkin? That was somehow so random to me, tho it makes sense that Australian actors, models, etc are even more tightly interconnected. Somebody also once claimed that Ellie was rumored to be linked to Matthew Gray Gubler once, who was in Endings Beginnings with Seb. So yeah, one huge spider web of dating. 😄

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[farmlesbians]

sorry if dumb q but did something specific happen with bocc??

phoebe and conor dated and based on the lyrics of moon song they are probably not in a place to be reuniting the band any time soon

[the1975attheirverybest]

Like I know it's BS most likely, but the hysteria of it all is starting to get to me. Also some of the tiktoks I'm seeing about it are really upsetting. People are being so mean to Matty. I'm just so tired of people thinking he's a bad person and making a judgement call on him with very little proof.

This is gonna be slightly off topic but it reminds me of how Phoebe Bridgers fans treated Conor Oberst from Bright Eyes. They had a fling during the time they had a band together (Better Oblivion Community Center) and then she wrote Moon Song about him later on. Obviously the song isn't too flattering but Phoebe and Conor are STILL FRIENDS WHO WORK TOGETHER. But people actively hate him online for just being in a relationship that failed. It's so frustrating to see someone you look up to get trashed for NO REASON. Like, they call his music garbage and say he's a misogynist and a manipulator.

Anyways sorry for the rant, I'm just a little mad about the situation. I really don't want them to actually be dating because that would put even more attention on Matty, leading to more unjustified outrage.

Much love to Connor Oberst. I don’t want Phoebe Stan’s coming for me so I won’t say much. I WILL say that I’m a massive fan of hers. BUT I also know she’s a messy queen who loves throuples. I think it’s part of what makes her her and I love her. But there are always two sides to every story, lmao.

Yeah, you know what? I’ve been scrolling past any TikTok’s that have the tags #MattyHealy and #TaylorSwift together. Like if I see those two tags, I SCROLL like my life depends on it. Won’t even let the video play or wait to find out if the creator is saying something good or bad. Not interested. The only people who’s opinions on this matter are Taylor and Matty. Other than that…I’m gonna mind my business.

[oberstcult]

For people wondering about the Conor/Corina situation: they are divorced. I saw a comment on oboards about public records so I did a quick search and there are public records from February 2019 that have them listed as ex-spouses. I normally wouldn’t be this creepy and stalkerish but I have literally nothing else to do and hopefully now people will stop saying that him and Corina are still married and that he’s been cheating on her with Phoebe lol

yeah true, it’s public so may as well publish 

[psy-ay-ay]

i want to go from

'I want to make you drive all night just because I said maybe you should come over'

to

'Remember the time you drove all night / Just to meet me in the morning?'

[pleasantmag]

Bright Eyes drops a big one.

If you see our post from yesterday we had said that Bright Eyes teased some represess. 

So they have officially announced the represses of their first three records Collection of Songs Written and Recorded 1995-1997, Lifting Off the Happiness, and Fevers and Mirrors. We also got a surprise of reimagined songs on EPs. 

The companion EPs will feature reimagined songs, Lifting Off the Happiness will feature songs with Waxahatchee, and Fevers will feature Phoebe Bridgers. Releasing Haligh, Haligh, a Lie, Haligh which will feature Phoebe you can check it out here off of Fevers, and Contrast and Compare which will feature Waxahatchee, you can check it out here off of Lifting off the Happiness.  

They also announced 2022 Tour Dates. Select dates (6/1-6/5) including support from SANDY Alex G. Tickets available for pre-sale for Bright Eyes mailing list subscribers starting Wednesday, February 2nd @ 10am local time. Public on sale starts February 4th. 

[mikeshanlon]

if you hate would you rather fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!

[imsolament]

i’m late but the fact that phoebe bridgers and conor oberst originally chose opposite corners of their home to use as backgrounds for interviews this year is so funny to me because now...

we know for sure

[dear-indies]

Hey sweetheart! I hope your doing well. I was having some trouble with deciding an fc. I did have marie avgeropoulos and alex essoe but they’re problematic so I was hoping you could please suggest some female fcs that look a bit like them in their late 20s early 30s? Thank you so much! I hope you have a wonderful day!

Monica Raymund (1986) Dominican Republic / English, Ashkenazi Jewish - bisexual.

Jessica Stroup (1986)

Özge Gürel (1987) Turkish / Circassian.

Teresa Ruiz (1988) Mexican.

Jessica Lowndes (1988)

Macarena García (1988)

Melissa O'Neil (1988) Hongkonger / Irish.

Jessica De Gouw (1988)

Lucy Hale (1989)

Jessica Brown Findlay (1989)

Phoebe Tonkin (1989)

Úrsula Corberó (1989)

Nafessa Williams (1989) African-American.

Hannah John-Kamen (1989) Nigerian / Norwegian.

Logan Browning (1989) African-American / European.

Laura Berlin (1990)

Adelaide Kane (1990) - bisexual.

Melisa Aslı Pamuk (1991) Turkish.

Jeanine Mason (1991) Cuban.

Carmela Zumbado (1991) Cuban.

Tanaya Beatty (1991) Da’naxda’xw / Himalayan.

Conor Leslie (1991)

Daniela Braga (1992) Brazilian.

Katie Stevens (1992)

Jessica Henwick (1992) Chinese Singaporean / English.

Davika Hoorne (1992) Thai / Belgian.

Sofia Carson (1993) Colombian – including Arab [Syrian-Lebanese, Palestinian], Spanish, possibly English, possibly other.

Hande Erçel (1993) Turkish.

Ashley Moore (1993) African-American, Cherokee, Unspecified White.

Beanie Feldstein (1993) Ashkenazi Jewish - is openly dating a woman but has chosen not to label herself regarding sexuality.

Catriona Gray (1994) Bikol Filipino / Scottish.

Here ya go!

[doebt]

wait omg i saw ur post. are. are conor and phoebe actually together. i refused to say they were cause it felt like everyone was just like ohhhhhh they’re dating but if there a confirmation ............. idk how to feel like wtf

YEAH BRO LIKE ALMOST 100PERCENT CERTAINLY..Tbh i would say 100percent like without a doubt. AND YEAH i feel so crazy abt it like it seems so midlife crisisey on his end (i wouldnt say creepy just... midlife crisisey😭) but also i trust her 2 make good decisions...BUT ALSO ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESSS

[theocseason4]

im so sad ur done w the phoebe asks bc im low key dying to know what the deal is her w and conor oberst and paul mescal?? which one is she dating

I remember a long time ago someone said they were together but that it was an open rs type of thing

[eabhaalynn]

Punisher and Why it is my Album of the Year... Already

Every few years, we come across a singer-songwriter who is so devastatingly assured in their talent that they come to be generation defining. Their songs are synonymous with the era they’re written in, with the themes they discuss. Names like Bob Dylan, Stevie Nicks, and Amy Winehouse come to mind. This weeks’ release of “Punisher,” the sophomore album by Californian indie-rock icon Phoebe Bridgers has solidified her name on that list.

From her first note of her first album ‘Stranger in the Alps’ in 2017, we could see -or perhaps more fittingly, hear- that Phoebe is a force to be reckoned with. Her distinctive, haunting vocals from that album have made the soundtrack to many summers since, and many films to match. ‘Motion Sickness’details the emotional abuse of a relationship the then twenty-two-year-old musician had with Ryan Adams, an established voice in the alternative rock scene. In the years since, numerous allegations of sexual misconduct against Adams have come to the public’s attention. This only further points to the bravery of Bridgers’ in writing and releasing such a poignant track so early on in her career.

Thematically, Stranger in the Alps touches on death, depression, emotional abuse and heartbreak, without ever verging into the cringe or the cliché. Bridgers’ raw, honest vocals and song-writing skill make it a strangely comforting experience to listen to, and an album that is as melodically beautiful as it is lyrically heart wrenching. You would be forgiven for thinking that it’d be too impossible an act to follow, especially for an artist so early on in her career.

“The future’s unwritten, the past is a corridor.” – Smoke Signals, 2017

Ms Bridgers swiftly followed her solo debut with 2018’s Boygenius and 2019’s Better Oblivion Community Center. The former, a collaboration with Julian Baker and Lucy Dacus, played into the strengths of all three musicians, resulting in a fusion of indie-rock and folk-rock, and giving Phoebe ample opportunity to release more of the distinctive poetic lyricism that have become synonymous with her name. The blend of the three genres and voices is a beautiful and haunting EP that has aged with Ms Bridgers and become a defining moment for her career.

The latter, Better Oblivion Community Center, is a duo consisting of Phoebe and long-term friend and collaborator Conor Oberst. Their self-titled debut album loosely is themed around a dystopian wellness centre of the same name. The record is coherent, creative and once again plays to the strengths of both musicians, their voices complement each other beautifully, despite or perhaps because of the contrast in their styles. The album is undoubtably a feat of production, and plays into elements of electronic and country music, for the first, though evidently not the last time in Phoebe’s discography.

“So sick of being honest / I’ll die like Dylan Thomas” – Dylan Thomas, 2019

Which brings us swiftly on to 2020, the year of COVID, contradictions and confusion for all of us. Punisher, Phoebe Bridgers’ sophomore album was released on June 18th, at the perfect intersection of lockdowns lift and the beginning of summer. The release itself coincided with a time of social upheaval across the US and further afield, prompting Bridgers to move the official release date a day forward from ‘Juneteenth’, the official end of slavery in the US. Across her social media profiles, she prompted her fans to donate to organisations seeking racial justice.

"I'm not [delaying] the record until things go back to 'normal' because I don't think they should,” – https://twitter.com/phoebe_bridgers

The album opens with the instrumental track, ‘DVD Menu,’a seventy-second long, vaguely ominous string-led instrumental reminiscent of the video-game themes the artist would’ve grown up with in the early 2000s. It provides the perfect anticipatory build up into lead-single ‘Garden Song,’ a prospective looking, dreamy love song. Initially released on February 26th, 2020; Garden Song acts somewhat as a sequel to Stranger in the Alps’ Smoke Signals. It follows thematically, melodically, and continues Phoebes’ established lyrical poeticism. Like Smoke Signals, Garden Song is slow, but enthralling. The melody makes you want to listen, the lyrics make you want to fall in love.

Following on from this is second single, and third song, ‘Kyoto,’ in sharp contrast to the slow, strong self-awareness of the earlier songs, Kyoto presents a whirlwind of emotions, an aural dissociation of sorts. Kyoto is fast-paced, guitar led, and even difficult to follow. Almost anxiety-inducing, Kyoto is an exciting accomplishment of alt-pop. Phoebe’s strong descriptive lyrics manage to change themes between and even within verses, suggesting a struggle between her inner and her outer self, and how this same struggle bleeds into her relationships with others.

In musical circles, a ‘Punisher,’ is a name for an overzealous fan. The titular track of the album places Phoebe herself in this role. The song imagines a conversation between Phoebe and an artist she clearly admires very much. It is the first piano-led track of the album; and marks a contrast with the prior songs as she is able to outwardly express her emotion and feelings in the song’s narrative for the first time. While this is essentially a song to a stranger, it is marked with Phoebe’s distinctive emotional lyrics and vocal; and retains the same charge of emotional attachment that has become so characteristic of her discography.

Following this is ‘Halloween,’ a song that plunges us immediately into Phoebe’s narrative and lived situation. Utilising picking on guitar strings to produce the holiday season of the song’s setting sonically, Ms Bridgers takes us into her loveless relationship just in time for ‘cuffing season,’ and the all too familiar feeling of holding on to something that isn’t there, just because of the time of year. The melancholy is only furthered by the repetition in the song’s latter half by Conor Oberst, collaborator and Better Oblivion Community Centrebandmate.

Fan-favourite, and a personal favourite of mine, ‘Chinese Satellite,’ reflects on loss, and grief. Musically, it builds, starting slowly with a single guitar line and Phoebe’s vocals. By the end of the first verse, both the guitars and vocals have been layered, producing a haunting effect only furthered by the synth and drums of the latter half of the song.

Lyrically, Phoebe starts out questioning her circumstances, wondering why this unnamed event has occurred. She later turns this uncertainty onto herself, questioning her own lack of faith. Finally, she remembers memories of herself with the person who has been lost, and in retrospect, she yearns for the belief that she will see them again. This yearning that closes the song is accompanied by a drum, once again paired only with her voice, that is sonically reminiscent of a heartbeat. Chinese Satellite has provided a great comfort to me personally in a time of great loss, and while I know I am calling it extremely early I do not doubt it is my song of the year.

“Moon Song” follows, and it is a love song to someone facing issues with their own self-esteem. With beautifully raw production, the tough scratch of an acoustic guitar provides contrast to the soft and kind vocals. The song provides some of the best lyrics of the album, or perhaps of her entire discography, and in doing so, manage to make a fairly specific story of love through mental illness and self-deprecation accessible to Ms Bridgers’ broad audience.

‘We hate ‘Tears in Heaven’ / But it’s sad his baby died’ – Moon Song, 2020

This theme of a somewhat doomed relationship continues into ‘Savio[u]r Complex,’in this similarly acoustic ballad, orchestral strings pitched above Phoebe’s voice play further into the melancholy and toxicity described throughout the songs’ lyrics. Her use of metaphor and allegory throughout the song helps retain the accessibility of the otherwise characteristically dark lyrics, her strong descriptions throughout playing into the same emotions of Stranger in the Alps’ ‘Funeral.’

‘ICU’ initially released as ‘I See You’ due to the timing of the COVID crisis, was the final single released before the album, on May 19th,2020.  It is a typically Phoebe Bridgers’ breakup song, one that acknowledges the love that she’s losing. Starting with a soft scream, literally, the songs’ vocals are raw over a distorted synth background. Sonically, the song is a mesh of all of the components of the songs preceding it, building to a climax before dropping out just in time for the final verse. This is, in my opinion, the best single, and one of her best to date.

Penultimate song ‘Graceland Too’ swings the album in a bluegrass direction, and in doing so, provides an ode to the influences Bridgers has taken from the genre. Its title references Elvis Presley’s ranch and tourist attraction of the same name. The song features her Boygenius bandmates in its latter half, resulting in an admirable melody not dissimilar to their EP.

The album closes with ‘I Know the End,’ an anthemic ballad that falls just short of six-minutes long. It begins telling different stories, centring around episodes of low-mood and depression, the causes of which are implied consistently to be related to the stresses of touring and the musician’s lifestyle. These stories are told over a guitar-led melody, initially pitched to be much quieter than the vocals. A feat of production, the messy string melody gains traction as the song progresses, building over the first half of the song in pitch, volume and number of instruments. Around the two-minute mark, the song is split by an instrumental, and when vocals return, they bring with them an increasing sense of urgency. The latter half of the song details a road trip Phoebe takes and pays heed to the sights and sounds she encounters throughout.

The song, and thus the album, concludes with a chorus of vocals repeating ‘The End is Near,’ over a chaotic melody of all sorts of instruments and assorted sounds, before descending into shouts and screams from Phoebe and friends in the last number of seconds.

I don’t even believe I need to clarify this, but just in case you have any doubt, this album is my favourite of the year so far. 10/10

[forestgreenlesbian]

I thought I See You was abt Marshall?? Also did phoebe and Conor date bc hes been married for ages in confused

it is! did i not say that?? i don’t think phoebe and conor actually dated bc yeah he’s married (maybe getting divorced? i read that somewhere, probably just a rumour tho) but it seems pretty obvious 2 me that moon song at the very least is about him like “you’re sick and you’re married and you might be dying” - conor had a brain lesion and also the mention of tears in heaven which is about eric clapton’s son who’s also called conor. and all the references in savior complex too like “emotional affair” and how she said it’s about how hard it is to love someone who hates themselves... pretty sure that’s about him! my guess is something was going on, maybe one-sided on her part? but it definitely feels like love when you listen to those songs, even if it’s like a fucked up kinda relationship... anyway it’s all speculation lol!

[niall-is-my-dream]

Lost Without You - Part Three

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Friday morning was your chance to lie in. You worked at the pub on Thursday night's and, with no classes today, this was your one morning to be lazy.

Unfortunately, you were rudely awoken by Jess and Hannah knocking on your door at 10am. They both had an early 8am lecture on Fridays so would sometimes call by yours with breakfast on their way home. Plus you'd not spoken to them since you'd been out with Niall and knew they'd be desperate to hear what happened.

They knocked again louder this time and you giggled to yourself as you got out of bed and tied your hair up.

"Good morning!" Jess said rather too enthusiastically.

"Good morning to you." You smiled back.

Hannah gave you a hug before taking off her shoes and getting into your bed and opening her pastry bag.

"Go right ahead!" You laughed before excusing yourself to the loo.

When you got back Jess had joined Hannah in your bed and was tucking into her pastry too.

"Did you bring me anything?" You asked as you switched on the kettle.

"Of course! But you only get it once you've made the tea and told us the gossip." Hannah replied.

"How about I eat it while I tell you?!" 

"Go on then, but make the tea first."

With no room left in your bed thanks to the girls, you pulled up your arm chair and sat down, propping your feet up on the edge of the bed. Both girls were eyeing you up over their mugs of tea.

"Ok, so it was a date." You said trying not to grin too much.

"Told you!" Hannah said.

You launched into the story of the evening, including every detail that you could remember. Jess nearly died when you told her about meeting Conor O'Donohoe.

"You're kidding me?! You lucky bitch. Bet he smelt amazing."

"He did actually." You replied smugly.

"So, did Niall kiss you at the end of the night?" Hannah asked.

You paused for a moment, not knowing if you should share the amazing good night kiss you'd had at your door.

"Um....."

"Its ok, neither of us have any friends other than each other so we have no one to tell!" Hannah said reassuringly.

That was true, the three of you were really close and didn't tend to hang out with anyone else. You were close to Jasper and Luke who you worked with at the bar but you wouldn't share this kind of stuff with them.

"It was the best kiss I've ever had." You admitted.

Jess squealed and clapped her hands like an idiot while Hannah asked more questions. It mimicked the scene in friends when Rachel tells Phoebe and Monica about her kiss with Ross. Where the girls turn off their phones, grab the wine and ask if they need tissues.

By the time you had finished the story you found yourself desperate to see him. Telling them about the kiss, had brought all your emotions from the last few days back and your heart ached knowing you didn't know when you would see him next.

"Hey, why the sad face? You said the kiss was amazing." Hannah asked.

"It was, but I have no idea when I'll see him again. He's going away on Sunday for like three weeks."

"Ah that's shit." Jess said.

"Has he messaged you?" Hannah asked.

"Yeah, which makes it worse I think. I really like him, we got on so well even after one date."

"Just keep texting and playing it cool. Text him while he's away asking about his day and stuff. But don't come on too strong, then hopefully you can see each other when he gets back." Jess replied.

"Jeez Jess, where did that incredibly good advice come from?" Hannah said.

It wasn't that Jess was ditzy or anything but she was really bubbly and outgoing and quite often just thought with her heart and not with her head.

"Just think you shouldn't worry too much about it, he obviously likes you a lot but it's probably difficult for him being away from friends and family. Getting involved with someone is probably scary considering how much he travels."

"Where is this coming from Jess?!" You laughed.

"I have no idea." She replied. "Maybe university has made me smart!"

___________

After the girls had gone home, you did some chores before binge watching Netflix and taking a nap. You arrived at the pub at 5pm and got the place set up for a busy shift. Tonight was a karaoke night and with help from Jasper you set up the sound system you would need and placed the laptop to control it on the end of the bar.

People slowly began to fill the bar and at 7:30pm the music had started and some girls celebrating a birthday started belting out some tunes on the karaoke machine.

You did a double take when you saw him enter the pub, closely followed by his brother.

"Evening Emma, my darling girl! How are you?"

"Deo Devine, twice in one week?! I'm so lucky!" You joked.

 "That you are!" He replied.

You greeted Willie before asking them what you could get them.

 "Three pints of Guinness please?" Willie answered.

 "Three?" You questioned.

 "Yeah, Niall is out the front taking a selfie with some fans."

 "Ah ok." You replied trying to sound casual.

You were desperately trying to stop your hands from shaking and from the massive grin to slide over your face, so you started some casual chit chat with the boys. Just what they'd been up to the last couple of days, work etc.

When you turned around after getting their change from the till, Niall was there. He took his seat on the bar stool next to Willie and gave you a smile that made your knees go weak.

"Hi." He said.

"Hi."

Both of you just smiled at each other before Deo broke the silence.

"Good God you two, get a room!" He laughed.

"Shut up!" You replied smiling, before leaning over the bar and whacking his head playfully.

"Actually, I do need to talk to you about something in private." Niall said.

Oh.

"Yeah yeah." Deo pitched in.

You told him to follow you as you made your way down the corridor that you first met him in. Unlocking the office you walked in, allowing him to pass before shutting it. His hands were on your hips as soon as you turned around and he pressed your back against the closed door, a cheeky grin on his face.

 "Hi." He said, his face inches from yours.

 "Hi again." You smiled.

When he pressed his lips to yours you couldn't help but reach up for his hair like last time. The moans he had omitted when you'd tugged on it as you'd kissed each other was something that you'd been dreaming about.

His tongue teased at your lips, waiting for you to allow him in and you happily obliged. His hands were wandering around your waist, squeezing at your hips and around your bum. When you pulled away you were both left panting, foreheads resting against each other.

"Been thinking about doing that for the last two days." He whispered breathlessly.

"Me too." You whispered back.

"Are you busy tomorrow?" He asked. 

"I have work 9-5."

"Can I see you tomorrow night then or are you busy?"

"I was busy, but after a kiss like that I'll cancel my plans." You smirked.

His face matched yours as he leaned down and kissed you again.

___________

Why is it that the day always goes super slow when you have plans you're looking forward to?

You felt like you'd already done your 8 hour shift and it wasn't even noon yet. The thought that in 8 hours time you'd get to kiss him again was what was driving you to keep busy to try and make the day go faster.

After your kiss in the office or should you say kisses considering you'd gone to leave 3 times but just kept kissing each other, you had appeared back at the bar. Deo had given you a wink as if he knew what you'd been up to, but then again it was pretty obvious as your face was flushed and Niall's hair wasn't as neat.

"What is with you today?" Audrey asked. "You seem really distracted."

"I'm sorry Audrey." You said letting out a sigh.

"I'm assuming it's a young man, maybe the one who sent the flowers and the one who sat drinking his coffee for an hour while making doe eyes at you the whole time."

"What?" 

"That gorgeous young man from last week couldn't stop staring at you. Whenever you looked over he pretended he was looking at his phone. What a sweetheart."

"Was he?" You asked her surprised by what she had said.

"Yeah, was so sweet. So, is it him?"

"Yes, we went out Wednesday and I'm seeing him again tonight but the time is going so damn slow!" You laughed.

"Well its almost the lunchtime rush, so that'll make it go quickly." She replied as she patted you on the shoulder and went to clear a table.

And it did.

The Cosy Corner Coffee shop had been busy from the lunchtime rush followed by afternoon tea. When 5pm came around Margaret, who had taken over from Audrey at 2 o'clock, ushered you out the door with orders that Audrey had told her that you were not to stay a minute later than 5pm.

You headed back to your dorm room and stripped off before taking a shower and getting ready. Niall had asked if he could bring take out to yours and to maybe watch a film. So you dressed in leggings and a fitted tee, and kept your make up to the minimum again.

When you looked around your room you realised how messy it was and began tidying up, stacking up papers on your desk before making a start on the dishes, changing your bed and emptying the bin. You didn't think your room had been this tidy since you'd moved in, and you laughed at yourself thinking that Niall wouldn't give a shit how tidy the room was.

God you were nervous and excited.

At 7:05pm your phone beeped.

"Just left the Chinese, will be five minutes x"

"Ok see you soon x"

Just enough time for you to have a nervous wee and to fret about your outfit choice. Great.

You buzzed him in when he arrived and waited by the main door that lead to the rooms. This place was nothing if not secure, although Jess and Hannah had keys to the main two doors still which was a bit dodgy to be fair.

You two disappeared into your room quickly to avoid being seen since people were coming and going from each others rooms before their nights out. Niall placed the food on the counter of your kitchenette before turning around to face you. He reached out his hands to pull you by your t-shirt to him, a stupidly big smirk on his face.

"Hi." He whispered against your lips.

"Hi." You managed to whisper back.

You didn't think you'd ever get tired of kissing Niall. He was just, well you couldn't even describe how he made you feel. The way he tasted, smelt and held you made your head spin. Getting to know what he liked was one of the best things, like the hair tugging as you deepened the kiss. Pulling lightly with your teeth on his bottom lip to get him to make that sweet little whine was just perfection to you.

"Fuck, I could kiss you forever." He mumbled before kissing you again.

When he finally pulled away you couldn't help but gaze at his swollen plump lips knowing that you were the one to make him react like that. His face was flushed and his hair a mess, but he had never looked sexier. You had no idea how long these encounters with him would happen for, so you were going to enjoy them for a long as you could.

Setting yourself up in your arm chair and Niall at your desk, you both devoured the Chinese Niall had brought. With a glass of wine for you and a beer for him, you both sat facing your window that overlooked the park.

"Heard anything about the internships yet? Niall asked.

 "Not yet, no. Closing date for one of them was yesterday so I'm sure I'll hear next week if I have an interview or not. The other two jobs not a for a few weeks yet."

He nodded his head in acknowledgement before taking a sip of his beer.

"I've been looking into finding a flat though."

"Still around here?"

"Yeah, because I'll still work for Audrey and at the pub if none of the applications were good enough and until I find a more permanent position.  Depends on where the job is to as to whether I stay around here long term I suppose, and on what the pay is like. I know I'll only be able to afford a small studio flat, but I'm hoping it will have room for a dining table."

 "How long is the internship for?"

"The one in Rome is only two months and the one in Paris was 3/4 months I think."

He stayed quiet then, like he was mulling things over in his head. He didn't share his thoughts though and you carried on talking about finding a flat.

With dinner cleared away you set up your laptop ready for the film. Sitting up against the head of your bed, you curled your body towards his as you watched your Hugh Grant rom com. Niall was warm and cosy and you loved the way he wrapped his arms around you. Leaving kisses on the top of your head very so often, the gentle feeling of his fingers stroking up and down your arm.

The sound of a siren in the distance woke you up and you opened your eyes to find yourself curled up with a sleeping Niall, your laptop screen black where it had gone on to standby. You stayed still for a minute watching him sleep, his mouth slightly opened, his breathing low. The sky outside was dark, the sun having already set across the park.

"Niall." You whispered.

"Hmmm."

"Niall, we fell asleep. It's past midnight."

His eyes opened then, a cute sleepy look on his face.

"I'm going to change, do you want to stay the rest of the night?"

"Mmm yeah, might as well." He replied.

You made your way to your chest of drawers and grabbed some cotton shorts and a vest top.

"I'll just be a minute." You whispered although you weren't sure why.

Quickly using the loo and changing you were soon making your way back into your room. Niall had got up and was drinking some water from a glass when you walked in. Offering a glass to you too, you thanked him before taking a sip.

"I'll just nip to loo." He said and off he went.

When he came back a minute later you had already got back into bed, your laptop closed and sitting on your desk.

"Um is it ok if I sleep in just boxers?" He asked nervously.

You smiled as you said yes and he asked you what you found funny.

"You're so cute when you get all nervous around me."

"Shut up." He joked with you.

He pulled his t-shirt over his head then and laid it across the back of your desk chair. You knew you were staring, watching as his back muscles tensed as he stretched to reach the chair. His body was clear of any tattoos and he had hair across his chest that lead down his stomach and into a little happy trail. You held in a breath as he undid his jeans, and moved to put them with his t-shirt.

"You staring at me is making me even more nervous."

"Just enjoying the view, is that a crime?!"

 "It is when I didn't get to enjoy any view!" He said with a smirk, his nervousness disappearing.

You blushed and bit your lip, hiding your own smirk.

"Well, I didn't did I?!" He said as he crawled up the bed. "Although those stripey little pink shorts are very sexy by the way!"

"Yeah, you like them?" You said.

"Mmm I do." He replied as he leaned down to kiss you.

You hadn't intended on asking Niall to stay the night when he had turned up earlier. But after falling asleep and it being past midnight, you thought it seemed silly to make him get an uber when he was half asleep. However, neither of you were sleeping now and it didn't look like you would be for while.

Scrambling to move the covers off of you and have his chest touch yours, Niall smiled against your mouth at your eagerness. He reached down and pulled them off before moving to hover over you again. It was embarrassing really how turned on you were just by one kiss. You were desperately trying to hold back the moan but when he began kissing and nibbling at your neck right on that sweet spot you couldn't help it. Especially when you could feel a certain something hard against your thigh.

His lips travelled down your neck and found your chest, he kissed between the valley of your breasts and then brought his face up to yours. Foreheads resting against the other as he quietly whispered "I wanna make you feel so good."

And he did.

Your hands were clutching the bed sheets for dear life as his tongue moved across your clit faster at each lick. You moved your hands to grab his hair, he brought his face up from between your thighs, mumbling how much he wanted you to tug his hair. 

As you could feel your release building, it felt like you weren't even in control of your own body and you began lifting your hips. His free hand was pushing against your thigh, keeping your legs open for him as you moved to close them around his head.

And then you were there.

Wave upon wave of pleasure coarsed through you. You couldn't even speak properly as you began panting out his name. His mouth didn't stop throughout your orgasm as he kept licking and sucking at your clit until you had to pull on his hair to get him to stop.

"Fuck." You mumbled.

Moving to wipe his mouth on the back of his hand, he was smirking as he made his way back up to you.

"You ok?" He whispered as he kissed across your chest.

"No. I think I might've died."

"Well, I'm not sorry. You taste fucking amazing." He replied looking up to you with hooded eyes. 

He moved to lay beside you and pull you close to him, but you stopped him.

"Is it not my turn to taste?" You asked him as you nudged at his shoulder so he laid flat against the mattress. 

Niall looked at you as you kissed your way down his chest, slipping your fingers into the waistband of his boxers. Sliding them down you heard him sigh as his hard cock was finally being released.

You couldn't wait near what other noises he could make.x

Part Four

https://niall-is-my-dream.tumblr.com/post/187116500028/lost-without-you-part-four

[oberstcult]

if the rumors are true about conor and phoebe, i would lose a lot of respect for him. i try to separate art of the artist but something about the situation rubs me the wrong way

*Ok I’m gonna write too much, but try not to ramble.. just about me and my opinions in general mostly, not exactly specific to Conor and Phoebe always. Probably rambling. sorry. Please feel free to add your thoughts.

😬😅 I get it... really I know, I know. I kept hoping it wasn’t true, but it’s his/their lives and it doesn’t matter if you or I feel uncomfortable; it makes them happy and that’s what matters the most. Their happiness, and definitely not anyone’s opinions.  I know that I definitely judge people too harshly for those big age gaps. But it’s not for me to judge. I don’t think anyone in an age-gap relationship is a bad person because of that. (mostly)

Just for me personally, I most likely couldn’t date someone as young as Phoebe. She’s the same age as my younger brother. So having watched him and his friends grow up, they will always seem like children to me. But that’s my problem. There are people who can look beyond that, and maybe that makes them more.. evolved than me? that they can realize an adult is an adult, so long as they are 18 and over..

The whole Ryan Adams thing… it emphasized their age difference, the power imbalance, his years in the industry before her birth… not that I think that the two situations are exactly comparable or that Conor would ever be a fucking disgusting creep like him. (fuck ryan adams). (But I can’t help but think, ahh she was 10 when wide awake/digital ash came out.) But it’s not 2005 and she’s almost 25 she can date whoever she wants.

Ok this is just opinions and speculation: Even though there is a 14 year age difference, they do seem kind of like peers and equals because of better oblivion, and phoebe’s alpha-like attitude/BDE. I obviously don’t know them, but Conor looks like he most definitely adores her. But what do I know!??!? I don’t know at all, so I shouldn’t be talking. What works for them, works for them. And they haven’t said anything so *if it’s true, they don’t want us to know? (I’m so sorry Conor, please forgive me, I am just a lowly fan of your music and the life that inspires/creates it?)  

In summary, he hasn’t done anything wrong, even though I understand why it irks you..I always kinda admired Conor for dating older women… but why...is that commendable? I don’t wanna go off on a tangent.. I will probably always love Conor unconditionally because I love what he’s made so much that it’s become a part of me. I’ve heard some unflattering stories about him, but we are all human. I mean if he actually ever did do something terrible, that’d be different, but I don’t think I have to worry about that. Ok I hope I didn’t offend or annoy anyone. Anyone else, feel free to add, because I like everyone’s opinions and I’m not the final say on this matter in anyway.

* IF they are together, of course.