#apparently this was a trigger for me
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I’m rewatching the Percy Jackson films and I have some serious questions because like, what WAS their plan going forward? Like they defeated Kronos and completed the prophecy it takes five books to do in two movies?? And I’m assuming Luke survived only because they didn’t show his death outright, which is kinda stupid because that’s exactly what they did in the first film too. Would they have gone back and done the possession thing with Luke and Kronos? Would they have done the Achilles Heel thing? Was it still apart of Luke’s plan to revive Thalia? Like I know we saw the crate thing at the end of the second film, but in that case, didn’t Luke “fail”? Would Kronos forgive that? Also, would it make sense for Luke to continue to be the antagonist now that he knows the first thing that would happen if he revived Kronos again is that he’d be eaten? Like, he betrayed everyone he loved and killed Thalia’s tree just to get back at his dad and the Gods and the first thing his great grandfather does is swallow him whole. Personally, I would turn back around and figure something else out, whether that be another way to overthrow the gods or beg for forgiveness. Hermes would probably forgive Luke anyways, given how he was talking and acting about him. Although, Movie!Luke doesn’t feel as much of a wayward kid who never had a solid role model or the space to mature and grow and ultimately turned because he was tired of seeing the gods get everyone he loves killed or worse, and being treated like nothing more than a messenger. Movie!Luke feels more like he’s doing it for power and glory, and although there were three films we didn’t get that could’ve expanded on that and gotten deeper into it, the MUSICAL portrayed that level of pain and exhaustion and desperation Luke felt in less than a two hour show, so it was definitely the writing.
Also why did they make Annabeth so Like That? Annabeth Chase is far from helpless or slow, but they made it seem like she was just there for the ride. If Annabeth hadn’t been in the second movie at all, there would’ve been literally zero difference.
I’m so glad we have the show now and I desperately hope we get to see all 5 seasons.
#luke castellan#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#Jake Abel is still a good Luke tho#it’s not his fault he got stuck with bad writing#same with Logan Lerman#rant post#apparently this was a trigger for me
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I Know What You Are... You Are Mega Man!
The differences between each Mega is something I love and appreciate, plus it's also fun to compare them side-by-side for it.
I think it's really amusing how they start with robots that slowly reach near-human traits, and then there's a straight-up human. Albeit, he is merged with a non-human being.
And then there's Volnutt. I know he could probably be narrowed down to an "artificial human", but I like the idea of tying him to his celestial origins as Trigger that are still half a mystery.
Such is my running-joke with him. He is just... Volnutt (currently).
#also I needed these because I wanted to update my refs for The Bois (it's been 7981374102 years)#like a lot of them got adjustments to their color palettes ^^#even though I can't color as much because I get so dizzy now#I still want them for later#and I haven't colored in forever I'm just glad it turned out nice#anywho~#I've seen how some fans have depicted designs for trigger and they seem so cool!#I'd love to give it a go too but I worry my peanut brain on legends will cause me to get schooled again#I never know nothing about you boy apparently I'm very sorry#so alone in the dark I will remain (he is a mystery :D )#Mew's Art#megaman#rockman#megaman x#rockman x#megaman exe#megaman.exe#rockman exe#hub hikari#saito hikari#star force megaman#ryuusei no rockman#geo stelar#subaru hoshikawa#omega-xis#warrock#rock volnutt#*I am crushed by the giant name tags once again*
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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Gods fucking save me I'm having star wars thoughts again
#i thought i was cured from this bullshit#apparently i have a trigger phrase#and its hearing that stupid over played joke about padme should have been with obi wan#which fuck offfff#this is why i cant go back#im too opionated now#being in dc has ruined me im so sorry
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For $5 USD stop making everything about that goddamn show for five minutes.
#I'm sorry this is horribly mean of me but I am fucking EXHAUSTED#stop it!!!! fucking stop it!!!!#not everything is about your show!#and no it is actually pretty well-damn-documented that SPN was NOT#'everyone on cast and crew wanted it and the mean network shut them down'#I DID MY TIME#NINE SEASONS OF IT#I'M NOT PUTTING UP WITH THIS#and y'know what? y'know what. even IF that were the case.#I don't want to hear it#because this isn't about SPN it was never about SPN stop making! everything! about SPN!#this happening on 911 is not in ANY way shape or form influenced by Supernatural#and again I say this AS A FORMER DESTIEL SHIPPER WHO WATCHED THE SHOW#can you please just let something 911 be about 911?#can we please just talk about that without bringing SPN into it?#I'm tired! I'm so fucking tired! stop it!!!#ahem#*Captain Holt voice* apparently that's a trigger for me#I'm going to write about my silly little koala and his silly little drag queen boyfriend and calm down
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jey uso, the most tragic man in wrestling right now
#fun fact apparently he stayed there well after the show ended#like people were leaving and he was still in the ring#crying screaming sliding down the wall#this man emotionally destroys me#wwe u better not waste this feud if you’ve decided to pull the trigger this early#(it makes no sense to pull the trigger this early but since you have do it justice)#wwe#jey uso#jimmy uso#the usos#roman reigns#summerslam
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millions must know of the two named idol group members
Most of the pulled characterization/text is from DR:S, UDG, and DR:Togami. Satomi Aoba is by far the most developed one, she is sooo interesting.
This is for me and the other 3 fans of them...hi guys.
Also "It's Gotta Take Some Skill to be an Idol" is often attributed to Sayaka. Though the lyrics can definitely apply to her, it was Satomi who performed it, not Sayaka. She had nothing to do with the song.
#satomi aoba#ayaka haneyama#danganronpa#sayaka maizono#extremely self-indulgent lol but. yolo yk#horse_art#oooh you wanna talk to me about satOH I JUST REMEMBERED. I didn't give her a sailor uniform because she was apparently on vacation to mend#a broken heart? or something#anywho#what game does this fall under lol#trigger hapy havoc#udg
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This is for anyone and everyone who sews, but most especially quilters.
PLEASE REBLOG!!!
#quiltblr#sewblr#textile art#fiber art#my answer is yes and the print is USA patriotic prints. They trigger anxiety that borders on panic. making anything with those prints#makes sewing difficult. What about them triggers anxiety? Look at who typically wears that kind of print/pattern. They're MAGAts/#conservatives/hate groups. It used to mean something positive but now when I see these prints I want to run far away.#it's hard enough using red/white/blue color combination because of the association. I made placemats for my parents using those#prints because my mom sent them to me. All US flags and bald eagles. She called me when they arrived with all the scraps.#asked me why I didn't want to keep the scraps. When I told her simply hate looking at those prints she was baffled. I grew up in the#military and apparently should be comforted by the prints. NOPE!#the last time someone tried commissioning me for a quilt using those kinds of prints I offered them a refund because I straight up#will not do it. they were perfectly happy with the color combination instead after I explained why. I used floral and water prints#which made it less difficult but I had to constantly remind myself it's all pretty things.
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I need people to realize how horrible 'stalking/constant surveillance/breaking into each other's homes is how the Batfamily show love' is. Like i really need someone to just acknowledge how horrific saying this bullshit is.
Like even fics where they're shown as happy and healthy and with good ties, you've always got this thing where none of them have privacy or any boundaries with each other. Which is directly antithetical to actually having good relationships. And this invasion via hacking and stalking and breaking into homes is portrayed as a positive, good thing; it's just how they show love and care to each other, after all. But for some reason I just personally don't find stalking, lack of privacy or boundaries, and emotional manipulation funny, endearing, or healthy, and just end up disgusted at the attempt to sweep it all under the rug.
#my dc posting#dc#batman#batfamily#jason todd#barbara gordon#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#listen i can only take so much of it before i just breakdown okay#apparently controversial opinion but a family where its normal to vreak into each others homes and manipulate each other and stalk and#invade boundaries and autonomy and privacy can NOT be healthy#no matter how much you try to dress it up all cute w 'this is just how they are' 'its how they show their love' its never not gonna be#unhealthy and bad and toxic#like yeah they do do that. they are like that. either acknowledge it or stop trying to justify it#god this actually irks me so much#i try to idk. suspend my disblief but theres only so much i can actuallt fucking take before just#its just. im trying to read happy fluffy fics. but i cant be comforted by a family that normalizes breaking boundaries n invading privacy#and its specifically that the author aleays disregards it. instead of fixing it or making it better they opt to keep it and come up w excuse#s for it#and thats what actually triggers me#'i broke into ur house cus if i asked if i could come over ud say no' is actuallt fucking horrifying stop trying to make it seem loving???#im writing this while having a panic attack dont mind me đź‘Ť#but its like. if you can write the batfam w/o bruce hitting his kids or any other horrific thing that they do#then why must you keep the boundary&privacy breaking? why cant anyone even seemingly try to write a batfam#where theyve worked their issues abt this out best they can n have healthy established boundaries w each other??#like if u can write them all hanging out together 24/7 n bruce being s good dad why is this one simple thing the One Thing#nobody even tries to address properly???#'aw dick broke into jason's saehouse bc he wanted to hangout but jason would say no if he asked' aw. maybe dick should learn 'no means no'
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does anyone here know which episodes have anger outbursts like mag56? i kinda want to know but also i don't really want to check the warnings for each episode because i like to discover them as i go
#i just want to know the numbers so i can be prepared#pretty please#since it's the only thing that's triggering me apparently#tma#the magnus archives#tma spoilers
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Since I was on the topic of Legends, I have more scattered doodles of Trigger that have burned an incomprehensible hole into my brain.
(Trigger's design is by Sato)
#the hole is from thinking too hard about how much of a mystery he is#from the path leading to his reboot to just trigger in general#like gosh what were you really like why are you so incomprehensible it's so fascinating that it burns my brain :)#but hey I think it makes sense to me#I said that volnutt (to me) is like an angel#but he's one of those kinds where you apparently lose all understanding if you look at him (is that right...?)#even with this simple design where it somehow gives off such an unusually gentle feel#and assuming he has another form I continue to wonder#just how amazing I say in my gational neographic voice with smoke coming from my skull ( ' p')b#doodle-daas#megaman legends#rockman dash#rock volnutt#megaman trigger#the master
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Thinking about that time when a popular artist was a prick to me personally (claimed that I "baited" them for a conflict when all I did was pointing out something in lore contradicting their claim, without any rudeness or condescension, and basically told me to go hang out with other autists instead of bothering them) but the reason I blocked them was not that, it was the fact that they've admitted on not even caring about the source material and just using scraps from it to do their own thing. Priorities hfngkfngj
#fandomry rambles#I can excuse asserting ego at my expense and acting as though my knowledge of lore is an offence but-#-I draw the line at taking advantage of an IP to get attention easier instead of 'just making an OC'#there is a line between creative liberties and not caring about source material!!! they are not the same thing!#and FANdoms are places for FANs of something! not for some pricks to advertise themselves!#again I just pointed out something that seemed like honestly forgetting or not knowing#and I instantly commented on how alternative they suggested wasn't bad and how it could still work!#but because they have super frail ego they perceived it as a personal attack apparently#and since Anna unblocked me right after to stalk me it just feels like they mocked me within their group later#again I wonder why popular artists with high skill but very little care for canon are SO insecure?#everyone admires them everyone wants to be their friend everyone draws fanart of their designs and ships#and yet slight event out of the line makes them turn into that one Wojack with a crying face behind smug mask#like how do you shovel notes and have more attention than what you can give back and STILL are this-#-insecure? really popularity can't heal you#if you fellow nobody artists feel as though your art being noticed would heal you: no it would not#honestly as for care for canon they already gave signal by boasting about prettyfying micolash because-#-they preferred 'aesthetic'#it is just something I've neglected because I was looking at redesigning characters differently#but seeing awful bimbo marikas for two years taught me better ngl#really I am dying to see them try to pull this one out with a female character#no really. try to pull the 'she looks ugly but I want me aesthetic so I polished her'.#hate double standards regarding drawing the character depending on their gender#but yeah in case you could not tell touching Bloodborne with ten yards stick just triggered a bad memory#I just.... I still love that game story and characters. I can feel it looking at these posts.#I really am the 'just make an OC' person#they should become friends with Eugene (champion of not caring for the source material) if not already
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is it true that brody and his 1st understudy are stepping back this week from shows? i keep looking at the accuser’s ig story and there’s just screenshots saying brody isn’t gonna be in the show at all this week. does anyone have speculation on this? where are these people getting their sources from?
is there anyone willing to talk about this and share opinions? because i’m twitching and i kinda need some reinforcing rn because im so conflicted
#the outsiders musical#the outsiders#brody grant#the outsiders allegations#this whole situation makes me feel sick to think about#it’s honestly a bit triggering in a way but idk#as a victim of kind of sa i know how it can be to not wanna tell someone but this all seems really fishy and suspicious#like why didn’t they name the other apparent four actors who have sa’ed people too#why is it just brody they’re coming forward about?#they accused a total of five people and only named brody so why not the other four?
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you’ve got red on you
prompt fill for the wonderful @pinksparkl about Milo’s reaction to Sweetheart having a panic attack in front of him for the first time.
(special bonus points to anyone who recognises the title >:3)
redacted audio: milo/sweetheart, rated teen. cw: panic attacks
Milo comforts his mate after a panic attack. - “I’ve got you, sweetheart. You’re okay. Just- breathe.”
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you’ve got red on you
All it takes is a moment of distraction while he’s prepping dinner for his grip on the kitchen knife to slip, the sharp edge slicing across his palm and sending the half-chopped vegetables scattering. “Shit!”
“Milo?”
“S’all good, sweetheart. Just, fucked up with the knife.” It’s an understatement, considering the state of the counters, the blood welling from the cut in his palm spilling over onto the hardwood. Goddamnit. He knew better than to get distracted while using the good knife. Christ, the shit his mother would give him over this-
He wraps his hand in a dishcloth before he stumbles over to the sink, a litany of curses falling from his tongue as he fumbles the taps to turn on the water.
He glances up to find the shape of his mate in the doorway, their features shadowed by the busted light in the hall he’d been meaning to fix before they came over. “What happened?”
“Nothing, just me being a fuckin’ idiot.”
They take a step further into the room, their eyes focused on the bloody dishcloth, and they’re not saying anything, although they look - strange. Off. As if they’re feeling sick.
He sees it when their hands start to shake, their breaths coming fast and shallow, as if they can’t get enough air. The way their eyes lose focus, pupils dilating, even as their aura flickers, their silhouette going hazy around the edges.
“Sweetheart?” They’re still not saying anything, and unease stirs in his gut, prickling at his skin. It’s not like them to lose their words like that - they always had plenty to say. “Hey, you okay?”
“I-” And just like that they vanish, flickering out of existence as if they had never been there in the first place.
Fuck.
He can’t see them. Can’t feel them, the warmth of their presence, their scent. But he can still sense them in the room with him - feel the quiet flicker of their aura, subtle in the air but distinctive, if you know what you’re looking for.
And he’s familiar with that aura now, familiar with finding it in a way that’s becoming second nature to him, and he steps away from the sink, crossing over to where they had been standing, where he thinks he can feel them now.
If he concentrates hard enough, he can see the faint shimmer of their magic vibrating in the air, like heat from sun-baked tarmac. He pauses, squinting. “Sweetheart?”
Every instinct in him is screaming at him to do something, to fix this. But he’s not even sure what this is. He’s got an idea - his pop used to get like this after a bad night, frantic and non-verbal, disappearing into his office for hours until his ma could finally coax him out.
She was good at stuff like that. He - he wasn’t. He didn’t have her soft touch, her endless patience. Shit, he’d probably make things worse if he tried.
Panic squeezes at his throat like a vice, even as he tries to swallow it down. “Sweetheart, can ya - can ya talk to me?”
A flash, and their hand appears, reaching out to grasp his wrist, gripping tight. A rush of heat floods his hand, followed by a sharp pinch that makes him curse, before the ache in his palm recedes, the wound closing.
He flexes his fingers as they flicker back into view, their mouth pinched into a tight line, eyes still too big but focused as they stare down at his hand.
It’s still bloody, the skin of his palm freshly pink, but he can feel the way their fingers tremble around his wrist, and fuck, it must be the blood. Christ, Milo. You’re a fucking idiot.
Squeezing his eyes shut, he focuses on his core, weaving the pattern of a simple cleaning spell, his breath leaving him as the magic runs through his system. He flexes his fingers once it’s done, checking over the clean skin. “Shit. I’m sorry, sweetheart.”
They still won’t speak, won’t look at him. Their hold on him is tight enough that he can feel their pulse through their fingertips, still too fast, and carefully, telegraphing his movements, he reaches out, guiding their face up to meet his. “Hey. You still with me?”
They take a breath, deep and gasping. “I-I’m sorry.”
“None of that. You’ve got nothing to apologise for.”
They finally look at him, their bright eyes wide, slightly dazed but calmer now, a little more like themself. It settles something in him, although it's not enough - he needs more, needs to know that they’re okay, feel them against him.
“Can I hold you?”
They melt into his arms, soft and warm and perfect, like they were made to fit against him like this, and fuck. He runs his fingers through their hair, pressing his face against their throat until he can breathe them in, deep.
“I’ve got you, sweetheart. You’re okay. Just- breathe.”
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“So, it’s the blood?”
They release a low hum, sinking further into him where they’ve settled on the couch, his arms around them, their legs across his lap and their body tucked against his chest.
“Yeah. I saw you standing there, and I couldn’t-” Their voice cuts out as they swallow, taking a moment to catch their breath. He holds them through it. “It just hit me, all at once.”
This was new, then. They hadn’t reacted like this to the shade - or at least, he hadn’t seen it at the time. There was that period after the fight, when they’d met with the department, but considering they were at his place immediately after that, he didn’t think it did.
And they’d been working, then. If he can remember well enough the stuff that had happened with his pop, then things like this tended to happen in the aftermath of an event - hours, maybe even days, later.
The fucking department. His grip around them tightens as he grits his teeth, tamping down on the urge to growl. “You’ll tell me, if this happens again? If there’s anything I can do-”
“There isn’t.” They wince, as if their words came out sharper than they intended, and they shift in his arms to look up at him. “But I’ll tell you, if it happens again.”
They lay their head back down against his chest, right over his heart, their fingers curling in the fabric of his shirt. He can feel the rhythm of their breath match up to his, easy and quiet, and he loves them. He loves them so fucking much in this moment, it makes his heart ache.
He’ll ask his ma about this, and maybe… maybe get in contact with his pop. They’re long overdue for a conversation, anyway.
#redacted audio#redacted asmr#ej writes redacted#redacted milo#milo/sh#look i love them#sh 🤝 me with panic attacks apparently#luckily they're still rare#but did not expect blood to be the trigger#writing
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déjà vu
#thinking abt riooooo#her reactions#the way agatha threatens first 'if you do this i will hate you forever' and rio just nods. tears in her eyes but she nods#she already knew this would be the reaction and shes already decided#agatha hating her forever hurts but it's a price shes willing to pay for her duty#but then agatha /begs/#and while her own is not; agathas pain /is/ something shes willing to bend the rules for#time is everything. theres nothing else she can offer. time is what agatha asks for and she gets it. but that threat also still stands#and im sure rio knows that#shes not only buying agatha and nicky 6 years but herself too#and then the now. on the road. surprise.#i doubt it's the depth of agathas emotions shes surprised by bc shes kind of already seen enough to draw her conclusions#i wonder if shes surprised by the question. i wonder if shes a little bit insulted by the question#i dont think rio can extend lives. thats not in the job description. she cant kill. she cant un-kill. thats beyond her. before her#shes the transformation. what kills or doesnt isnt part of what she does or is.#i think she could only give nicky time bc he was theirs#nicky needed those deaths like rio. he was fed by the combination of agathas and rios powers#so the surprise when agatha asks her not to take billy could be that agatha in her super triggered state apparently really really#believes it's nicky. bc rio couldnt do anything otherwise#other option is that agatha doesnt actually understand this part#which i think would work too for me bc agatha not being able to see what rio is and does in her entirety is part of the whole Situation#anyway the surprise summed i think would be 'really? you think you can ask me that?'#which works for both options
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I hope one day I have people in my life who consider how I feel and actually take preventive steps to not upsetting me. That’s all.
#ryan.txt#fucking sigh#genuinely fucking sigh#I’m not asking for that much but I apparently am! evidently#all I get are ppl who disregard my feelings and trigger me and hurt me#I’m so over it#I’m so over everyone
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