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incorrectskyrimquotes ¡ 2 years ago
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Like I actively tried to kill myself at least once a year between 2013 and 2018. But I lived. Every single time.
And thank the powers that be that I did. Bc I've been able to do so SO much with my life. I mean, even before my brain really decided "hey fuck this" I was doing good.
But that's the thing. I dont NEED to good. Something I've learned (and still struggle with tbh) is that I don't have to justify my existence. At all. I could do absolutely nothing with my life and it's still valuable
At the end of the day, the week, the month, the year, the life, my HUSBAND(!) loves me. He moved away from everything he had ever known to be with me.
He'd never admit this, but I think he likes America better. If just for the food. (Sorry to my British friends but we got u beat there)
What I'm trying to say is
Actually. Idk what I'm trying to say. I'm sobering up and I'll deal w the brynjolf pegging nonsense tomorrow(/later (it's not tomorrow until I sleep goddamnit)).
Ig I'm just grateful. For this blog. For my life. There's a good metaphor out there somewhere. A dog wants a chocolate chip bagel, more than anything, and begs and whines and whimpers for it.
The dog, being a dog, doesn't understand that that bagel will KILL it. And not only hurt the poor dog, but everyone who loves the dog.
There was once a time I thought I wanted to die. More than ANYTHING I thought I wanted to die. I didn't quite understand how that would hurt the people in my life. How my (at the time) shit mental health and even shittier ways of dealing w it hurt those around me.
How if I, god forbid, really did kill myself, so many people would miss me. And I don't mean just my absence on social media. I mean people who love me. My friends. My family. My brothers and sister.
My husband. Who has known me since 2013. Can you believe that? We've known each other ten entire years. And I'm glad we were friends first. I'm glad we had figured out how to speak each other's language (something I truly struggled with until 2019) before we tried a relationship.
And even people I don't know. I have saved lives (no further detail; hipaa violation). There are people alive because I am also alive. Because for some reason the powers that be dictated that I woke up in a hospital instead of hell. Over and over and over.
Idk. Idk what I mean by all of this. I guess I'm just. Grateful. Grateful I'm alive. Grateful I have this blog. Grateful for the numerous and wonderful new friends I've mad lately. Grateful that in spite of everything, I'm still me.
Goodnight, I'll see everyone tomorrow and/or Monday (whenever I'm not busy).
I love you guys. I do. Securi dormi.
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cordyce ¡ 2 years ago
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goodnight pals i am shriveling away in bed
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changbinsboiledegg ¡ 1 year ago
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what if the reader sent bf!skz something suggestive at the wrong time? Like let's say they were busy or something. Can I get reactions for that? 🫣🫠
Thank you for the request! I made texts for these, I hope you don't mind. ILY, hope you enjoy! :)🫶
GN! Reader X BF! SKZ
MDNI! MDNI! MDNI! MDNI!
Warnings: Suggestive, swearing, kinda bad
Note: Lmao yeah idk nothing against android users but the green chat bubbles... Anywho, hope this doesn't flop 🫶 Not 'smutty' but still suggestive so... MDNI!!!!!!
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Note 2: Yeahhhh just imagine smth suggestive with the picture lmao.
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davidlcki ¡ 11 months ago
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BESTIE BEGGING ON MY KNEES we need more david loki x reader out here 😭😭 maybe some angst/comfort?? ILY
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jealousy
i got two pretty similar requests so i kinda combined these into one! anywho i fucking LIVE for angst, so i had fun writing this! it’s not as angsty as some of the stuff i’ve written, but i hope this lives up to yalls expectations 🙏
pairing: detective david loki x reader
warnings: cussing, arguing, jealousy, drinking, david gets slapped. implied female reader, though it can be read as gn! i think that’s it 😁
summary: david is jealous of a new hire that’s been flirting with you at the precinct.
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“i’m just saying i don’t like you being all buddy buddy with him.” david’s words shot anger through your veins. he was talking about one of the new hires that you were tasked with showing around the precinct. you were only the receptionist, meaning you had the most spare time to show someone the ropes. you could tell the guy liked you, making a few jokes and letting his eyes linger on you a little longer than they should. this didn’t bother you a bit. you were so smitten with david that no other person would be able to tinge it in even the slightest, so you let it slide and continued on showing him around. in hindsight, you knew this argument was going to happen. you noticed the way david’s jaw clenched as you spoke to the other man, eyes boring holes into the back of his head from his desk, surely imagining a hundred ways to kill him.
“david. i was asked by o’malley to show him the ropes. what am i supposed to do? say no and lose my job?” david shakes his head at your words, sighing heavily.
“no. but you two seemed awful friendly.” his eyes snap over to yours from his place at the counter, a glass of whiskey in his hands.
“there’s nothing behind that. i treat him just like any other coworker. you need to get over this jealousy thing, D. don’t you trust me?” you shoot him a glare, annoyed that he was so untrusting of you. you watch as he downs the rest of his whiskey, slamming the glass down a little harder than he should have. he shakes his head in annoyance.
“he was flirting with you.”
“so what? i love you and only you. i’m not going to let some new hire’s shitty flirting change that.”
“you do this on purpose to mess with me, don’t you?” he scoffs, the slightest slur to his words. this is when you realized he was more drunk than you thought.
“jesus. you’re drunk. i’m not doing this with you while you’re fucking drunk.” you turn on your heel, walking from the kitchen. you were hurt. you knew he was the jealous type, but not like this. you hadn’t done more than show the new hire around and share maybe two laughs, but that was enough to send him over the edge. just as you stepped out of the living room and your feet make contact with the soft carpet from your living room, he spoke again.
“do you not love me anymore? that it?” this for you, was your breaking point. you weren’t thinking anymore as you turned and stormed back into the kitchen, getting face to face with loki who stood from his seat as you came over.
“how dare you?” your voice had a shake to it as you point a finger into his chest. “i would take a fucking bullet for you. god, your insecurities are taking over this relationship david! why cant you trust me like i trust you? half the women in the precinct drool over you every day. but see, i TRUST you. why not talk to me instead of drowning your feelings in fucking liquor first?” by the time you finished speaking you realized tears were coming down your cheeks in thick streams. you could tell what you had said got to david deep down, but you also knew how he was after a few drinks. stubborn as all hell. a few beats of silence pass before his brows furrow, eyes hardening ever so slightly, only something you could notice. you grit your teeth, knowing some bullshit was about to leave his lips.
“you gonna leave me over this now so you can go be with that new hire? what’s his fuckin’ name, john? jake? j-” you cut david’s sentence short with a harsh slap to the face. you knew it was wrong, but you were so hot with anger that any rational thought had been thrown out the window. his head snapped to the side, and for a while he stayed that way, pressing his lips into a flat line as he processed what had just happened, surely getting more sober by the minute. you weren’t the type of person to resort to hitting in situations like this, and your actions shocked the both of you. finally, he turned his head back to look at you, eyes widened ever so slightly. your bottom lip quivered, a threat of more tears to come, and you turned to walk towards your front door before he could say much more. you slipped your shoes on, not taking the time to put on a coat even though snow fell lightly from the dark sky. you didn’t know where you were going, but your feet had carried you through winding sidewalks through the little neighborhoods of conyers for at least a few hours. when you were sure you’d get sick from the cold and lack of a coat, you hesitantly came back home.
you pushed your front door open, and david was sitting on the couch, tv off. his head snapped to you instantly, his eyebrows knotted in worry. clearly he’s had time to sober up and reflect. you hardly make eye contact with him, deciding to head to the shower, hoping it would wash all your feelings away. you ignore as he calls your name out, soon drowning any other sound out with the sound of running water from the shower head. you stepped in so hastily you nearly forgot to pull your socks off. for a while you stood under the stream of hot water with your eyes closed, simply daydreaming. you were only snapped out of it by the sound of the bathroom door opening.
“david. just leave me alone.” you sigh. after a few moments of silence, you speak again.
“helloo? are you trying to be mysterious or something?” suddenly, david pulled the shower curtain back, not hesitating to step into the shower with you. he was still fully clothed.
“hey!!!” you shout, staring at him wide eyed, though a smile was tugging at your lips at the insanity of it all. “D, you’re still in your clothes!” he only looked at you, a solemn expression on his face.
“i’m sorry.” as he spoke, water from the shower dripped down his face, strands of hair falling out of their usual perfect place. you sigh, running a hand down your face and looking back up at him.
“i just don’t want to lose you. i’m scared.” you could hardly here these words from him as he spoke them so quietly, you nearly had to resort to reading his lips.
“i know. i know. i just wish we could talk about these things before you drink.” your eyes scan his face which remained knotted with worry. you noticed a red mark still remained where you had hit him. you look away for a few beats of silence. “i’m sorry for hitting you. i should have never done that.”
“i deserved it.”
a snort escapes you as you look back at him. “maybe just a little. but it was wrong. so i’m sorry.”
a small smile twitches at the corner of his lips. “i forgive you.” his touch was gentle as he pulled you into his embrace. you wrap your arms around his clothed frame, resting your head against his shoulder and sighing deeply, this time with relief.
“did you really have to get in the shower with your clothes though?”
“i thought it would be good for dramatic effect.” you pull away, looking at david who was smiling much wider at his seemingly great idea to get into the shower fully clothed. you shake your head, pressing your lips against his for a few moments.
“you’re an idiot, loki.”
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ghastlybin ¡ 2 years ago
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HI I’M BACK I WOULD LOVE TO SEE MORE ON REAPER! SEONGHWA PLEASE I LOVED HIS INTEGRATION IN THE YEOSANG FIC YOU DID AS PER MY REQUEST YOU CAN DO AN X READER OR JUST A LORE TYPE FIC ABOUT HIM AS A REAPER BUT EITHER I NEED IT THANK YOUUUUU ~ overexcited atiny anon 🙈
Hahahahaha yooooooo back again ay? Anywho, thank you for your request and patience, I uhhh combined your suggestions? Lore + an X reader LOL. Trying out a new format also so I hope it doesn't look too weird. Anyways, ILY PLEASE ENJOY and lmk of any feedback.
-> DON'T FORGET TO LOOK AT THE WARNINGS GDI.
Yeosang fic mentioned in the ask
W.C▾5.1K
Seonghwa X GN Reader
▾Reaper! Seonghwa ▾ Reaper! Reader ▾ FT. Souls keeper! Hongjoong, Angels! Yeosang, Wooyoung, and Jongho, Demon! San, Yunho and Mingi are humans, still. ▾ Angst ▾ Fluff ▾ Blasphemous language ▾ Strong language ▾ Pet loss mentions? not descriptive dw ▾ Familial loss mentions? ▾ major character death ig?▾ Hiding your relationship, yk how that goes ▾ Takes place before/ during Yeosang being outcast from the angelic realm ▾ San is innocent btw ▾ Shit goes down lol ▾ I lowkey cried but that’s because I’m a lil bitch▾ Oh, Dreamcatcher’s Siyeon is mentioned as a reaper▾ She has plot armor despite being in one line & she's innocent too▾ the reader / Y/N is better than me fr, I’d translate these hands into fists so fast- ▾
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The realm that separated the angels and the demons.
Purgatory.
The in-between, as some called it. Some argued that it was on par with the demonic realm while others- Namely the demons, disagreed.
None of it bothered Seonghwa. He ran the place, after all, being the lead reaper. None of the gossip fazed him. He knew the place better than anyone.
The ins and the outs, the plant life that grew exclusively around the realm, every form of matter, he could even tell you where something was without a doubt in mind.
Seonghwa met everyone that entered the realm and was there to bid farewell to anyone leaving.
It was his home and if someone didn’t like it, well, good thing it was his home and not theirs.
He’s had a fair share of run-ins with new and old souls that pass through his mist-blanketed realm.
He met babies and children up to the age of fourteen, some who didn’t make it to their first year, some who were almost teenagers but were cut short, and some who were placed in the hands of the wrong people. He met teenagers and adults, of varying ages.
Every cause of death, what they were doing before their last moments, he knew as if it were an instant message to his brain.
Then he met animals of all kinds. They would love him instantly, having a sense that he wasn’t bad and in turn would ease their fears. Seonghwa took care of them all. Escorting them to where they needed to go.
The animals went across the rainbow bridge, where Hongjoong waited on the other side, happily greeting each and every one.
Seonghwa wasn’t the ‘bad’ version of Hongjoong, nor was he a demon. He was a reaper. He didn’t kill or order anyone to be killed because of his title.
No one feared him in purgatory. Not with the warm welcome or the kindness he showed to newcomers regardless of their lives spent on earth.
“Is my mom here?“
“Have you seen my pet?”
“Is my dad here?”
“My sibling passed away before me. Will I see them again?”
Seonghwa knew the answers to every question. Most of the time it would be a simple,
“Yes. They have been waiting for you.” But when the answer was, “No.”, he could never seem to find the right answer no matter how simple.
Sometimes the people they were looking for were still alive on the land of the living. Sometimes, they were in a different realm, inaccessible to the person asking. And still, Seonghwa tried his best to help ease these souls’ anguish.
“Welcome, my name is Seonghwa.” Everyone got that greeting except for animals. They received pats and treats Seonghwa kept on him at all times.
“Don’t be afraid. This is just temporary. You are safe.” No one feared him. But some did occasionally fear where they entered, thinking they were in the demonic realm.
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If Seonghwa hadn’t been at this for far longer than you, you’d be the leader of the reapers. There was no denying that you were the second best. Even Seonghwa, the actual leader of the reapers, would appoint you as the leader if he could.
The Purgatory Realm was an open space for any reaper residing there or just passing through, no area was off limits, though you— As well as every other reaper had claimed their areas of the realm.
Whenever someone or an animal ended up on your respective area of the realm, you were always kind and offered any form of comfort to them, knowing they were just as confused as you were when you died centuries ago.
And among the reapers, you were voted the best at escorting those who recently passed on. To Seonghwa, that didn’t come as a surprise. Because out of the other reapers, you had the worst death.
Yet you were still unbroken.
“Hey there buddy! Lived a long life, didn’t we?” You cheerfully called towards the fully grown dog, who happily wagged his tail on his way toward you. Upon placing your hand on top of his head, you were able to see his full life, starting from the moment he was born, to the moment he died.
What felt like yet another lifetime, was only a few seconds and you were back in your corner of the realm, still petting the dog, who didn’t live a life as happy as he was in front of you.
“Oh no… You’re safe here. No one can hurt you here.” You kissed the top of his head before checking the name on the collar.
“Luck? Lucky? What does that say?” You murmured, trying to read the name that had faded with time.
“What is his name?” Seonghwa startled you, causing you to drop the nametag. You looked at the lead reaper, who kneeled beside you to pet the dog.
“Lucky, I assume.”
“It’s Luke.”
You raised your eyebrows in realization, seeing the faded letters matching up with Seonghwa’s observation.
“I’m calling an audit. His name is now Lucky.”
Seonghwa smiled, petting Lucky— Or Luke, as he happily wagged his tail.
“Lucky or Luke, we should get him to the rainbow bridge soon.”
“Can I keep him?” You asked, rising to your feet, looking at Seonghwa with persuading eyes.
“You ask that for every animal you meet.”
“And everyone always tells me no.”
Seonghwa stood up, patting the side of his leg for Lucky to follow. You followed as well, feeling gloomy about having to part with Lucky soon.
“I would let you keep every animal if they didn’t risk losing the ability to reincarnate.” Seonghwa rang the bell for Hongjoong, causing the rainbow bridge to appear as the fog parted ways for the three of you.
Lucky barked, picking up speed towards the bridge. You smiled bittersweetly.
“Does he have to reincarnate? Humans suck.”
“I agree with you on that,” Seonghwa sighed, stopping both of you from getting too close to the bridge. “But this time, Luke— Lucky, is guaranteed a nice life.”
“Ah, so a peace offering for the shit he lived through previously.” You stuffed your hands in your pockets as Hongjoong was taken by surprise when Lucky jumped up, wagging his tail and licking Hongjoong all over his face. He laughed, wiping his face when Lucky raced towards the other animals excitedly.
“Next animal that comes through with a horrible life, I’m going to the land of the living and showing them why I used to be a demon.” You mumbled, being completely serious.
With that, Seonghwa laughed, a rare sound to hear from the leader of the reapers. Hongjoong waved towards you two from the other side of the bridge before it faded back into the fog.
“For now, try not to get your title relinquished, alright? I still need you.” He looked around as he said that but then his eyes stopped on you, who smirked.
“For a scary reaper, you sure are sentimental.”
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Those inhabiting the purgatory realm didn’t have to follow any angelic or demonic rules. They were free to do and say whatever as long as it didn’t interfere with the angels or demons.
However, reapers only had one unspoken rule.
No two reapers can be in a relationship.
Same for a reaper and an angel or a reaper and a demon.
Unspoken, yet every reaper knew not to pursue a relationship with anyone. Their purpose was to focus on their jobs as reapers and they would have complete control over their soul.
Even the soul's keepers have this rule implemented.
The risk of losing your soul didn’t stop you or Seonghwa from being with each other, sneaking around just to see each other by unprofessional means and hiding your feelings for each other from the other prying reapers.
You were sure some of the other reapers suspected something. Even Seonghwa had heard rumors about you dating someone, whether it was an angel or a demon— And although only half true, he would still deny them on your behalf.
If anyone paid any more attention, your relationship would be obvious.
Seonghwa knew only one other person— Other than you, knew how much he loved you.
Hongjoong.
He is the soul's keeper, after all. Someone with that much access to someone’s soul? Of course he’d know.
And having that kind of knowledge would be kept strictly confidential.
You two have gotten used to hiding from everyone, albeit exhausting. It didn’t feel fair, how demons could freely fall for each other, or how angels had access to full blown celebrations but only when a relationship was deemed serious enough.
There was a loneliness that came with loving Seonghwa, that had nothing to do with him and everything to do with whoever created the rule of reapers living their eternities alone.
It was hardly living. And because you were a reaper, you weren’t living at all.
What a cruel way to live, not being able to love someone out loud.
Seonghwa found you sitting by the dark pond with a small fog that blanketed the body of water, parting more when Seonghwa got closer.
“Any newly deceased around here?” Seonghwa asked, sitting against the grey grass beside you.
“I escorted fifteen people two hours ago. Siyeon said she’d take over for me.” You stared out at the pond where the fog wasn’t covering the water.
“Good. You could use a break,” Seonghwa smiled, leaning back with his elbows propping him up. “Is this your favorite place?”
You looked at him, a smile instantly forming on your face seeing the man that has made you feel more alive in death.
“No.” You tossed a pebble into the water, causing a small ripple. “My favorite place is in front of gate P-043.”
“Which gate is that?” Seonghwa looked at you with furrowed eyebrows. You smiled a little wider.
“The gate I met you at… Some of the reapers and I have named every known gate into the realm.” You explained, easing his expression. He sat up, tossing a pebble into the water, copying your previous action.
“I have an idea.” Seonghwa turned to face you and in turn, you did the same.
“You always wished we could show affection freely, yeah?” he continued.
You nodded slowly. Seonghwa grinned, taking your hand and flattened it against his, proceeding to put both your middle finger and ringer finger down against your palm.
“Devil horns?” You questioned, leaving your hand in the form he put it in.
Seonghwa chuckled, shaking his head, “No, no. Look.”
He put down your index finger and thumb, only leaving your pinky.
“I.”
Then he put your pinky down, creating a fist momentarily before bringing up your index finger and thumb.
“L.”
Seonghwa paused to examine your focused expression. He smiled, leaving your thumb up but putting your index down and bringing your pinky back up.
“Y.”
Getting the meaning, you brought up every finger except your middle and ring fingers, keeping those pressed against your palm.
“Oh.” You felt that feeling again. The fluttering in your chest. The comforting warmth that came with the knowing that someone loved you.
“This is how we can remind each other freely. Just do this with your hand.” Seonghwa mimicked what you just called ‘devil horns’.
“Secret code?”
Seonghwa placed a hand against your face, running his thumb gently across your cheek, “yes. It’s innocent, discreet, friendly— You just referred to it as devil horns, so I doubt anyone else will catch on.”
You laughed, “not to mention that most of the angels already consider us demons for associating with death.”
“Please, it’s not like we kill people ourselves.” Seonghwa softly scoffed, watching you replicate the sign he put your hand in.
I.L.Y.
“I love you.” He whispered, gazing at you in complete and utter admiration.
And you stared at him in a stunned silence, raising your hand up a little higher.
I.L.Y.
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“Did you two hear about what Yeosang did?” Jongho asked, standing before you and Seonghwa. The angel had entered the realm to accept those recently deceased who were accepted into the angelic realm. Of course, he waited for the new angels to walk through the gate to the angelic realm before asking that.
“The guardian angel?” Seonghwa replied. Jongho nodded as if it were obvious.
“I don’t know the full story, but he’s been cast out to the demons.” Jongho looked back at the gate, seeing the angelic realm awaiting his return. “I’m sure he’ll visit… I gotta go before the gods and goddesses get suspicious. Everyone is on edge.”
You waited for the gates to close behind Jongho, waving at him as they did. Then you turned toward Seonghwa.
“The gods and goddesses are fucking confusing,” You mumbled, walking away with Seonghwa, yet catching him off-guard. “They love everyone— Or so they say, but can’t pardon their number one guardian angel for one goddamn sin? It’s a bunch of bullshit if you ask me.”
“You have a point, but maybe don’t say that near their gates…” Seonghwa let out a laugh. You made a motion of zipping your lips, followed by a wink.
“As I’ve said, they already think we’re demons that kill people and animals, so really, what’s the worst I can say?”
Seonghwa stopped walking, halting your movements as well by grabbing your arm and spinning you around to face him.
“Before we part ways for the day,” Seonghwa whispered. You had just enough time to process what he was doing just before feeling his lips pressed against yours.
There it was again, the warmth comfort of someone loving you. The type of feeling that can only be replicated by one person and no one else. You couldn’t help but dream of a day where you and Seonghwa could openly love each other the way demons, angels, and humans could as his lips were synced with yours for a prolonged amount of time.
“Am I interrupting?”
You and Seonghwa instantly pulled apart, mortified, having been caught. San raised his eyebrows slightly, a nonchalant expression adorned on his face.
“Before I ask what I intended, I will say now that I don’t give a shit about turning anyone in. The gods and goddesses can-”
“San,” You interrupted, shaking from the fear of losing everything in a single moment. “Please don’t say a word to anyone.”
San raised both hands, “as I said, I am not a snitch. An arsonist, yes. But never a snitch, Have more faith in me, will you?”
Seonghwa closed his eyes with a bowed head, deep in thought. San looked at you, a small smile forming on his face. You noticed it was a sincere smile rather than mischievous.
“For the record, giving the reapers a rule against dating is fucking stupid.” San dropped his arms to his side. “But what the hell do I know?”
You still couldn’t shake the feeling of being close to losing everything you’ve lived for— Despite not being alive. You could lose your title as a reaper, or you could lose your soul.
Or you could lose Seonghwa.
And he could lose you before he could really have you.
“I, San, will not say a word or even mention it,” San sighed, “Now, I need help finding a specific herb located in limbo… Please?”
Seonghwa accepted, motioning you to continue on with your daily obligations.
You began to walk away, your heart thumping in your chest. You turned to look at Seonghwa one last time, seeing he was speaking to San but being too far to hear their conversation.
You looked down at his side, seeing his hand and how his middle and ring fingers were pressed against his palm and his pinky, index finger, and thumb were the only visible fingers.
I.L.Y.
He wasn’t looking at you, but you did the same, mimicking the placement of his fingers.
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It quickly became a reflex of yours to hold up your hand in that formation when you would see Seonghwa looking your way.
And he would, on instinct, replicate your ‘devil horns’.
Other reapers noticed, but they too thought you were both in on some inside joke that made fun of demons. As time went by, they got used to it, ignoring you and Seonghwa when you’d hold up the sign that read, I.L.Y.
If anyone bothered to pay closer attention, they’d know.
But they didn’t.
Most of your time spent with Seonghwa was spent at the pond, where I love you wasn’t just an unspoken sign on your hands.
“Someday we will be free.” Seonghwa had a small smile across his lips, both gloomy and hopeful. “I bet your hands cramp up when you do your ‘devil horns’.”
You let out a laugh, gently shoving Seonghwa, “nope. It’s like a workout for my hands.”
Seonghwa chuckled, a look of adoration on his face as he looked at your smiling face, hoping this moment would never end and that you’d always be smiling like this.
The only person he dared to love in a title that forbade it.
Still, he wouldn’t turn back the clock to avoid you. He would turn back the time just to meet you again. And again. And once more.
“I love you.”
The three words, despite being just that, every syllable meant everything to you. It was rare, and not by choice. And it hurt almost as much as it filled you with euphoria.
You leaned forward, placing your lips against his, both of you cherishing every moment of the kiss you shared.
Unbeknownst to the two of you, someone had taken a picture of you two in the middle of the kiss, before the retreated, taking the evidence to the gods and goddesses.
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You ran as fast as you could to gate K-117, fear and adrenaline fueling you as you rang for Hongjoong, who appeared almost instantaneously at the gate. You ran through the gate and into his respective realm, pulling the gate closed.
“Hongjoong—!” You panted, tears brimming your eyes from the fear. Hongjoong already knew what happened before you could tell him the run-down of the situation.
“Where is Seonghwa?” Hongjoong asked, concern laced in his voice.
“He’s been detained. He willingly went with the angelic guards!” You panicked, unsure what they would do to him. Someone caught the two of you at the pond.
The only bright side was that Seonghwa still had a chance to be freed. The picture was obscured when being developed that his face or any distinguishing features weren’t visible.
You thanked the gods and goddesses for that.
But it was clear that you were the only other person in the picture.
“Why would he let them take him?! How the hell did they know it was him?”
Hongjoong knew you were upset, scared, and worried for Seonghwa. You knew you two broke the only rule a reaper had, but you couldn’t help but think about how innocent you both were.
“If he fought back, then he would really be suspicious… Y/N, what is your plan? You know what will happen…” Hongjoong frowned, a look of despair following.
“I… I don’t know.” You crossed your arms across your chest to calm yourself down. “Fuck! Why can’t they just ‘Yeosang’ me and send me to hell? Why do I have to fucking die?!”
You broke down into tears, knowing what they will do to you and probably Seonghwa if he confessed to being in a relationship with you. And everything inside of you hoped he wouldn’t.
“Did San—”
“No. He’s innocent. He wouldn’t do something like this to you or Seonghwa.” Hongjoong gently placed his hands on your shoulders to calm your shaking.
But nothing could calm you down after this.
“Hongjoong, you’re the only one that has archival proof of our memories. Please deny Seonghwa’s involvement with me. No one knows it was him in the picture, the gods and goddesses must’ve assumed— Please, this is the last thing I ask.” You pleaded, pressing your hands together as Hongjoong gave you an apprehensive look, deciding whether to accept or not.
“I can die, but please, not Seonghwa.” You added. Hongjoong tilted his head, a look of genuine remorse toward you as you begged.
“I can’t just lie… That’s a sin.”
“Is loving someone a sin too?” You remarked, your heart dropping to your stomach.
Before Hongjoong could respond, they found you, entering Hongjoong’s realm as the guards detained you, your hands chained behind your back as you were transported to the angelic realm beside Seonghwa, who was physically fine, but the second he saw you, you could see the glint of fear in his eyes knowing they caught you.
Hongjoong soon joined, his presence mandatory in finding out who the obscured figure was in the picture.
The God of Judgment stood before the two of you, examining your frightened expression.
“What is your relationship to each other? Bear in mind lying is a sin.”
You and Seonghwa glanced at each other briefly, afraid if you turned your head any further, they would see right through you.
“Friends.” Seonghwa spoke. “We are just friends to each other.”
In a different situation, those words would’ve hurt you.
But now? In the face of death? You were comforted, knowing Seonghwa wasn’t going to confess to the entire relationship that easily. Especially knowing he still had a chance at going free.
You nodded in agreement, “Yes. Only friends!”
There was a screen in the angelic courtroom that had the picture of you kissing someone— Seonghwa. Everyone knew it was you.
No one knew it was Seonghwa except Hongjoong and San, if he were allowed into the angelic realm to corroborate.
You looked at him with pleading eyes, then you noticed Jongho and Wooyoung, who you had only seen a few times before when escorting newly deceased.
They both seemed shocked by the whole thing.
“Is the other person beside you?” The God of Judgment’s voice boomed through the room. You quickly shook your head, hoping Seonghwa wouldn’t try to interfere or confess.
“No! Why does it matter? Falling in love with someone isn’t the end of the world!” You yelled, figuring if you were going to attempt to change anyone’s mind, it would be now and in the face of death.
“Love and death can never mix. Death can’t love anything without destroying itself.”
You struggled at the chains binding your hands behind your back, shaking your head.
“You’re wrong.” You cried, “You’re fucking wrong!”
“Bring them forward.”
Two guards pulled you before the God of Judgment, his intimidating demeanor making your skin crawl.
“Hongjoong, was the other person Seonghwa or not?”
And your mind raced, looking at him in an attempt to telepathically beg him to lie for you. Selfish, yes. But for Seonghwa, you would gladly be selfish if it meant he got to keep his soul.
“No.” Hongjoong spoke. For a moment, your ears rang. The deafening silence in the courtroom as you felt the time freeze.
“It was not Seonghwa… I don’t have access to who the other person was.” Hongjoong looked at you, trying so hard not to break down.
You were considered to be one of his friends. And his next words would tear him up more than you could ever know.
“Y/N destroyed that information… When they came into my realm.”
Seonghwa widened his eyes, the bottom of his eyelids brimming with tears. But he couldn’t say anything. Not without foiling everything and the three of you go down for breaking the one rule, but Hongjoong would be punished for lying.
It was ironic, how afraid of death you were in that moment. You dealt with death every day. Hell, you were death.
Every reaper was.
You didn’t kill anyone, but it was just the nature of your title.
It scared you.
“He’s telling the truth.” You spoke. Hongjoong forced himself to look away, afraid he would break down in despair and give everything away.
You felt the chains being detached, freeing your hands. You didn’t fight back, there was no use against the gods or goddesses.
“I will never tell you who it was.” You forced a smile directed at the God of Judgment. He shook his head, silently ordering two of his followers, who stood at both sides of you.
“That doesn’t matter anymore.”
It happened way less painfully than you expected. It was like you were floating, with tears streaming down your face. Everyone unsaid word, action that will never be done, and the life you’ll never see with Seonghwa.
You weren’t living, but with Seonghwa, you felt very much alive. His face was the first one you saw upon death, and it was the last you saw as memories of him flashed through your mind.
Seonghwa stared, helpless and in shock, watching as you fell limp as the God of Judgment encased your soul into a jar to be sent away where it would forever become inaccessible.
Seonghwa couldn’t breathe, forcing himself to contain his grief. And he looked at your hand.
Your middle and ring fingers pressed against your palm while your pinky, index finger, and thumb remained straightened out.
I.L.Y.
Seonghwa held it together until he was alone, the pain of losing you tore him up, an immense pain he couldn’t even begin to describe.
When he was alone, he ran to the pond where he shared your last kiss, gasping sobs as he collapsed to his knees in front of the pond.
Seonghwa gripped the grey grass as he shoved his face underwater, muffling the scream that came out next.
Seonghwa remerged, allowing himself to break down.
You were everything to him.
Somehow, that wasn’t enough.
Death can’t love anything without destroying itself.
You were right, he was wrong.
It felt like an injustice to you that Seonghwa began to agree with what he said.
Seonghwa was basically death, just as you were.
And he loved you.
And that destroyed him.
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San hesitated, a long expression as he waited at gate P-043. He held a canteen of a special tea he concocted, for the sole purpose of giving to Seonghwa as a form of consolation.
Seonghwa was there to greet him, a friendly smile adorned on his face when he saw San.
San felt waves of guilt, despite doing anything wrong. He held out the canteen, his arms shaking, thinking Seonghwa blamed him for your death.
“I’m sorry.” San watched Seonghwa smile drop, a look of sorrow taking over. Seonghwa accepted the canteen, the warm exterior being the only warmth he’s felt since before losing you.
“I know,” Seonghwa’s voice was quiet, the lump in his throat preventing him from speaking up. “You don’t need to be.”
San was torn between offering him a hug or just leaving him be. Guilt still clouded his mind.
“Hongjoong… He found the person who caused this.”
San didn’t feel any better. You were still gone and despite San’s loyalty, he regretted not being able to somehow prevent what happened to you.
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Seonghwa watched over your side of the realm for any newly deceased, even five centuries later, he never forgot about you. How could he?
He never got used to you being gone either. He still presses his middle and ring fingers to his palm, recreating what you once mistook for ‘devil horns’, but was actually a sign for I.L.Y., every time he enters your area of the realm.
‘I love you’.
The three words that never left his lips again.
Seonghwa entered your space, seeing something moving in the fog.
Then Seonghwa noticed the small dog, no older than one year old, trotting towards him. It’s tail wagged happily, tongue sticking out.
“Oh! Hey cutie! Are you lost?” Seonghwa kneeled, checking the name on the collar with one hand and feeding the dog a treat with the other. “Lucky?” Seonghwa felt a strange wave mixed with relief and despair when he read the tag.
“Nice to meet you, Lucky.” Seonghwa fondly smiled at the small dog, scratching it behind its ears as he fought back the lingering and unresolved pain he held in his chest.
The dog barked happily, circling Seonghwa. Seonghwa stood up, patting his leg for the dog to follow him in the distance to the rainbow bridge that opened up, sensing Lucky’s arrival.
The mist parted ways for him and the dog, as excited as it was.
“You’re a good dog.” Seonghwa grinned, petting Lucky one last time and offering another treat.
“Go. Hongjoong will take good care of you.” Seonghwa watched the dog happily bound across the bridge towards Hongjoong, who was kneeling and ready for Lucky to pounce into the Souls Keeper’s arms.
With a smile, Seonghwa stepped back, seeing Lucky run off to play with the other animals across the rainbow bridge.
Hongjoong and Seonghwa exchanged a wave towards each other before the bridge faded away and waited for another animal to enter Seonghwa’s realm.
In a moment of panic, Seonghwa rang the bell and summoned Hongjoong back. This time, the bridge didn’t appear and instead it was just Hongjoong.
“Why did you ring?”
“Let me keep Lucky.”
Hongjoong was taken aback but hesitantly shook his head, “what about—”
“Let me keep Lucky, please. It’s… All I ask.” Seonghwa repeated. Hongjoong pinched the bridge of his nose, a deep sigh as he gave in.
“Alright. You know it’s unethical for a reaper to stop a reincarnation, and I know it is.” Hongjoong looked off into the purgatory realm, seeing nothing but mist and fog for miles. “If we both agree that we recognize how unethical it is, then, fine. I will bring Lucky back.”
Seonghwa felt a sense of relief, watching Hongjoong open the gate to his realm.
“Wait!”
Hongjoong stopped and faced Seonghwa with his hand still on the gate.
“Luke?”
Hongjoong shook his head, “He’s been reincarnated.”
Seonghwa tried not to let his disappointment show, still grateful that Hongjoong agreed to let the other Lucky come back. But Hongjoong still saw right through his expression.
“Don’t worry. He lives with an elderly couple on a farm… He grew up with them.”
Seonghwa teared up, a smile formed on his lips, knowing Luke— Original ‘Lucky’, was living a good life.
And he heard your voice, having held onto that sound for centuries.
‘For a scary reaper, you sure are sentimental.’
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thebogiscoming ¡ 9 months ago
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overview of the upcoming week for me!
i'm gonna be headed to my dad's tomorrow!!
i have my secondary D&D session every other monday (which will be this monday!) where i play as vistra charm, my rogue dwarf!
i think i'm also just gonna bite the bullet and ask about making an ao3 account
my lovely mother will also be re-arranging my room at her place for me which i appreciate so so much i love love love her <3 <3 <3 i needed a bit of variety (and i also have no room to do a jig </3
ANYWHO it's almost midnight and i still haven't brushed my teeth mk gn everybody ily all
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doodlboy ¡ 4 years ago
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Ight, I'm going to sleep
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sparkle-anon-archive ¡ 5 years ago
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ending the stream for today chat, night :>
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tender-rosiey ¡ 3 years ago
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HELLO IM EXCITED ILY
i requested something like this before to someone else but that person hasn't been active for like 4 months now so i hope it isn't an issue that i ask you instead
atsushi with a gn s/o who wears skirts - atsushi gets curious what it's like to wear one...
so he asks them and they let him and then he realizes how comfortable it is so now the two share clothes constantly because they are the same size so he can wear all the skirts he wants and even buys his own shhwdhjwjdnakwkfhwhehhe
❥ Atsushi trying skirts with s/o
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ᴀ/ɴ: dude i know it sucks having to wait so long for your request, perhaps something happened to them? hopefully they are okay though. on that note sorry it took me so long :( I hope you like it and ILYM <3
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Naturally Atsushi thinks you look absolutely stunning in a skirt
Actually, he thinks you rock every single thing you wear but that’s besides the point today
B U T he has always been curious about how it feels to wear a skirt
Must be nice having air conditioner under you, what a privilege
Also being able to fly wow
Anywho, onto the first time he tries it:
You were getting ready per usual and doing your morning routine to go off for work
When a small tigre came in
Oh wait, désolé c’est du français pas d’anglais
“You look wonderful as always, angel!”
“Thank you, Atsushi; you look great as well!”
From that point on and the room was silent but not the uncomfortable type one
However, you did feel eyes lingering on you so you turn towards your boyfriend and find him staring at your skirt intently and eyes filled with curiosity
“Is there—“ “How does it feel to wear a skirt? oh sorry I cut you off.”
“I don’t how to describe it exactly, but do you wanna…try it out?”
He looked at you like you hung up the stars and held the sun and moon in one hand right then and there
And he did not miss the opportunity and indeed tried it on
And he comes out of the dressing room, and you are just straight up clapping and cheering
“YOU LOOK GREAT ATSUSHI! You are so pretty, it’s unfair! So how does it feel?”
He looks at himself again in the mirror and poses and smiles confidently “I feel free and light somehow.”
You were jumping in excitement when you told him to try and twirl in
And he did because if you don’t twirl in a skirt you are basically missing half of the fun and why would you do that when you can just twirl and be fabulous ✨
“THAT FELT GOOD Y/N—“ “I KNOW RIGHT?”
Peace ain’t no option here though, unfortunately for your poor souls
Because Dazai happens to suddenly care today about why Atsushi is late to work and comes to check up on him in your shared room
He knocks like the gentle man he supposedly is but you in your excitement said enter forgetting your boyfriend who is trying skirts for the first time in front you
Which btw has his eyes wide open in shock and his face is flushed as he contemplates his life choices
“Atsushi-kun—! Oh. I didn’t know you liked skirts.”
You can feel the tension increasing as Dazai continues to eye Atsushi silently who was trying to explain his situation
But what you both didn’t expect is Dazai smiling, laughing, joking around and stealing one of your skirts and trying them
“I look better, don’t you think?” he even posed and did the duck face like Kylie Jenner is that you? dayum look at those lips
TIMESKIP TO IGNORING THAT
Ever since then you would take Atsushi shopping for skirts with you and you both would buy matching ones to wear them at home and be comfortable af together
He is really happy you guys get to bond over something more :D
I miss Atsushi so much dude, can’t wait to see him
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platonicavengers ¡ 4 years ago
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headcanons for being the youngest maximoff (part two)
pairings: maximoff twins x sibling!gn!reader && avengers x gn!reader
warnings: spoilers for infinity war + endgame, death, non-descriptive violence, idk
author’s note: IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO COME OUT AAAAAAAA it was supposed to be up a while ago but things got in the way and im so sorry :(
tags: @madamevirgo​  @euphoniumpets​
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headcanons under the cut !
so
after steve broke everyone out of the raft you were all on the run for a while
vision and natasha joined you all at some point, and scott and clint returned home to their families
after a while wanda and vision decided to stay in scotland, leaving you with sam, nat, and steve
you were not a huge fan of the idea of leaving her behind
you had already lost your parents and pietro and even though she wasn’t dead you still wouldn’t be able to see her
but you knew why she did what she did
fast forward a little bit
you find out that tony went missing
and then that wanda and vision are being attacked
so u all fly to scotland to help them
*insert u being a badass and beating the shit out of an alien*
finally reuniting w your sister
there were tears
when you arrived back at the compound it was like a breath of fresh air after so long
it’s a shame you weren’t there under better circumstances
immediately getting upset when you saw the hologram of ross
that motherfucker
anyways
going to wakanda was an.... interesting experience
you wanted to enjoy it ďżź
but considering why you were there,,,,,,
it was kinda hard to enjoy it lol
wanda ofc stayed up in the lab with vision and shuri
she wanted you to stay up there as well so she could keep an eye on you
she was very hesitant to let you go into the front lines of the battle
even though you were an adult now you were still her little sibling and she was worried for you
you assured her that you would be fine though
fine might be pushing it but
let’s be realistic here
you kicked some alien ass down there
taking out enemy after enemy with no hesitation
pretty impressive tbh. ur fucking awesome
ily
anyways
eventually wanda came down to join the battle
the two of you fought alongside each other
badass sibling duo ugh yes
but then
you had to go against thanos himself
ugly ass mf
you tried to use your magic to remove his gauntlet
you were unsuccessful
he kinda tossed you to the side like a rag doll
which hurt like a bitch
when he snapped you had no idea what tf to do
i mean you had just lost, what were you supposed to do?
you were in the middle of crawling over to wanda, wanting to try to comfort her over the loss of vision
but then she just kinda, disintegrated?
you were in shock for a minute
but then it hit you
“no, no, no, no, no...”
you started sobbing
now you had officially lost your whole family
after a little bit you made your way over to what was left of the team
you all kinda stood in silence for a little while, just processing everything that had happened
eventually you all returned to the quinjet and flew back home
for the first two-ish weeks after the snap you just locked yourself in your room and refused to leave
though eventually you did leave your room again, though very reluctantly
after three weeks had passed by carol, who you were quite fascinated by, returned to the compound carrying a spaceship with her
turns out tony was on said ship
you were glad to see him after so long
and now we jump to going to space to beat thanos’ ass (a g a i n)
you had never been to space before so it was quite a new experience
shame it was under such poor circumstances
when you arrived at thanos’ residence you were out for blood
he took your last remaining family and you were not in the mood to let him get away with it
and then you found out the stones were gone
and everything he had done couldn’t or so you thought be reversed
you were already ready to kill thanos before, but especially now that that was revealed
sadly though, thor took the responsibility of killing the titan himself
*5 years later*
you were 23 now
a whole ass adult
you still lived at the compound with natasha, not exactly having anywhere else to go
not like you would’ve left anyways but
nat had become your sort of support system over the last few years
after all, at this point you really only had each other
all of the rest of the remaining team went their separate ways, none of which deciding to stay with the two of you
one day though steve comes by
you were glad to see him, you had missed him a lot since he left
the three of you had a not-so-positive conversation and then out of nowhere scott appears at the front gate
he tells you his insane idea of using the quantum realm to time travel back to before thanos
you were very wary
you didn’t exactly have a lot of knowledge on the quantum realm but you could still tell that it seemed risky
the four of you went to tony’s house to try to convince him
he almost immediately said no
yikes
you all tried to convince him but to no avail
so you went to bruce hulk instead
bruce?? hulk?? who tf is he tbh
but anywho
when you saw him you were kinda like ????????
but chose to ignore it
you got him to agree to the time travel thing
and it was ?somewhat? successful
somewhat is pushing it tbh
scott became a baby which wasn’t great
but then tony showed up and fixed it like the genius he is
you helped recruit all the remaining avengers to help w the whole time travel thing
you were going to go back in time and get the stones before thanos could
you went with clint and natasha to vormir
you thought it made the most sense for you to sacrifice yourself
after all you weren’t even positive this whole thing with the stones would work, and you couldn’t risk continuing to live a life without wanda and the rest of the team
they stopped you before you could jump though
when natasha dropped you swore your heart stopped beating
she had been all you had for the past 5 years and then she was just gone
you ended up getting the soul stone but at what cost
you and clint returned to the compound and there was a small ‘memorial’ (for lack of a better word) for natasha
after that tony put all of the stones together into a makeshift gauntlet
after a little bit of deliberation it was decided that bruce would be the one to snap his fingers
bruce, hulk, whatever tf
brulk
LMFAO
sorry back to the headcanons LOL
he snapped
immediately everything felt different
you went out to look out a window, seeing a few butterflies fluttering around that you knew weren’t there before
a smile immediately took over ur face
“hey guys, i think it worked!” - you
you were about to turn around and walk back to everyone else
but then
you saw a large ship in the distance
and something began flying toward the compound
and then everything went dark
when you woke up again you were buried under a bunch of rubble
which bruce picked up off of you
you ran out to where thor, tony, and steve were
you saw thanos and froze
they were engaged in a battle and you tried to keep your distance in order to collect yourself for a moment
which proved to be futile because you were dragged into the fight not long after
you kinda got your ass handed to you
it wasn’t pretty
you were lying on the ground when all of a sudden you saw orange light surrounding you
you looked up to see portals opening, all your allies who you had thought to be dead stepping out
you saw wanda and you stopped breathing for a moment
you got up as quick as you could
which proved to be difficult due to ur injuries and overall extreme fatigue
you launched yourself at her, bringing her into the tightest hug you could muster
the two of you held onto each other for a moment before you had to return to fighting
maximoff sibling teamup part 2???? yeah most definitely 
fast forward to after thanos and his bitch ass army lost (im sorry i just really dont have the energy to write all that rn)
and to after tony’s funeral 
you and wanda had a l o t of catching up to do
like
5 years worth LOL
u had to comfort her over vision’s death a lot
considering that to her, that was still only a couple days ago
and a lot of the time when you two talked the mood was kinda depressing, all things considered
but you still tried to keep it lighthearted
for example
your absolute favorite thing in the world was the fact that you were now older than her due to the snap, 3 years older to be exact
you held it over her all the time, constantly making fun of her for it
all in good fun of course
something wanda really loved was when you would tell her stories from when she was in the soul world (only happy ones ofc)
though it made her sad that you had to go so long without her, and she missed out on so much
she wanted to know what she had missed
all in all
you two were incredibly close, the snap and its aftermath only further confirming that
sibling goals tbh
a/n #2: aaaaaa im sorry to end it on that note (i didnt know how to end it im sorry asf) but yeah </3 and once again, so sorry this took me so long to post, ive been super busy with school && life in general so i just havent gotten around to it :( butttttttttttt if u guys want i could try to continue this series of headcanons for wandavision?? i’d wait until friday ofc for the final episode and id spoiler tag it and everything but i could try my best? might be kinda difficult but i think it could be fun so if anyone wants that then lmk!! :)
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doodlboy ¡ 5 years ago
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My hip has decided to give me a big ol' middle finger, so I'm gonna konk out for the night
Gn folks!
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