#anywho if you're still reading this... thank you 🥺���� and I hope you have a great day!

[thestarswhim]

So this tweet made a real good point and got me thinking about this scene:

As mentioned in their tweet, "you don't 'beg for mercy' for a job," and here he sounds so scared and desperate, like he's had to do this A LOT before with the directors and it's so... sad.

(more under the cut)

Before he finds out the truth about Eden, he believed they saved him from his former life and gave him new opportunities to continue his dreams, but do you think having to needlessly beg to keep your position as literally being the face of Eden out of fear you'll be replaced and thrown right back out to your old life is a so called dream come true?

Eden even made a trailer for a movie about his life to fame, showing how everyone was rejecting him as a person, which they definitely made it more simplified like I KNOW he was getting way worse treatment than what was shown.

My main point is that despite believing in Eden's motives (before knowing the truth), he still wasn't truly happy deep down. He was STILL getting rejected and slandered by society, and he knew that deep down, so it's not surprising how the possibility of him losing his job made him have a whole breakdown and do the things he did to try and cope.

He quite literally has no one to lean to and hasn't had anyone since showing up to Eden besides the directors (because he probably believed they were treating him fairly and with respect), but... yeah.

He wanted to make a difference, to give hope to hybrids, and he thought he was doing just that. Despite the way the directors and everyone thought of him, despite how alone he felt, he still thought he was achieving his dreams and sharing that onto others

and yet... he was being used this entire time. None of it was true, all the hard work and the things he went through was for nothing.

Everything that Eden has done, and he was the face of it all... it's just devastating.

[odd-g0ul]

Heyyy! I really love your art and the story u wrote!! Ur one of my favorite artists!!

my request is can you pls make this scene from the story u wrote (starshine) into an illustration?? I would really love to see it because this scene is just so cute!

Thank you for reading my series 🥺

Looking back on my old writing is weird lol

But anywho, I hope this will suffice!

(( For those who don't know, I have a complete fnaf series on Wattpad @Odd_G0ul

Check it out if you're interested, it's old and outdated-

But you might still enjoy it :) ))

(Also sorry for the writing, I was not very fluent in English back when I wrote the series)

[frostycatblr-fandom-files]

Heeeeeyyyyy

Can I drop a request? (You can say kriff off and I will still love you ❤️)

I'd like a little soft Hunter? Or any clone really if you wanna try someone new.

I had one of the worst days in a long time about two weeks ago. It was the first anniversary of my caretaker's death combined with the worst day at work I've ever experienced. I cried for the thirty minute drive home, and for another 30 curled up catatonic on the couch. I tried to quit my job, called my mom sobbing, it was a very bad time.

Cue some clone comfort? You absolutely do not need to use the details of my bad day, that's just what was going on and inspired my ask.

Anywho, here's two cats as payment:

🌙Hex🔮

Omg of course you can drop a request, Hex, always!! You're actually the first person to make a request too, and I was so surprised I kinda cried. 🥺

Penelope and Baklava are so cute all cuddled up like that too aaaa~

I hope you like what I came up with, sweetheart; and I'm sorry you're Going Through It™ as well, too. I'm currently there for different reasons and it suuuucks so this was extremely cathartic. Hope things will get better soon, love. 🩷

W&I: Minor proofreading and plot. 2nd person POV, undescribed fem!Reader. Emotional angst. Talks and thoughts centered on the loss of a person only described as a "loved one" without explicit mention of relation to you or their role in your life. Can be read as an established relationship fic. Hunter's just being real sweet on you to cheer you up. Little sprinkling of Mando'a. Minor language. No real age rating for this one.

Word-count: 2,383

That's it. 

You're done. 

You're so over this place. 

If one more patron tries to tell me to smile while using some variation of darling or sweetheart, I'll give him teeth alright: in the flesh of his arm, you think to yourself. 

It's not exactly an appropriate time to laugh, but if you don't snicker softly to yourself over the thought of such a forbidden fantasy, you're going to cry. You're going to cry before you squeeze through the doors that read EMPLOYEES ONLY and make your way to the machine to clock yourself out of your shift and get yourself home. Who gives a load of Kryatespit if it only earns the customer's ire to have you laughing at him?

Right now, if you had your way, if you gave into your impulse, you'd quit. You'd turn in your uniform, your name badge, and any little piece of company property you'd ever acquired so these soul-sucking middle managers and CEOs can't come around and accuse you of anything. 

You didn't want to be here today. You didn't want to get out of bed today. But you couldn't get the time off approved. Some banthashit about too few hands to run the place as it is.

Well maybe if you hired more kriffing people… 

"Your receipt is in the bag. Enjoy the rest of your day, sir." When you give the customer his purchase with these phrases you're required to say, it means he can leave now and take his smug attitude with him. Social obligations means he's going to tell you the same. An empty, hollowed out "Thanks, you too." that perfectly encapsulates how you feel inside. 

How the hell am I supposed to enjoy today of all days? One of the most important people to me in this galaxy isn't here anymore. 

I don't want to be here at this job anymore… I just want to quit.

You keep your head down when you clock-out, and grab your things. You don't return sentiments of farewell from any of your co-workers, and you don't respond to the request to trade shifts with someone for some BS reason. "Hey, c'moooon! Please?! I've got things I wanna do that day!" they whine after you, calling to your retreating back. 

Don't we all? I just wanted to stay home and maybe sob into a carton of ice cream while looking at my photos of my loved one. We don't always get what we want. 

What you want is to go home. Think of how you're going to call in, or write up your two weeks notice, or just cold-quit while you're sitting in your transport and-

You find an unexpected figure leaning against your transport when you step out into the employee lot, their back to you. What the hell? You begin rifling through your bag for something to arm yourself with, perhaps something like a bottle of cheap perfume you have in there somewhere that you can spray in their eyes, or maybe there's something you can throw in their direction, tell them to scram. Or maybe their after your credits, so you hope you can just tell them to take your credits and not cause you any trouble and-

Looking over his left shoulder, you find yourself staring at the ink of the skeletal tattoo and a side profile framed by waves of curled, brown hair you'd recognize anywhere. 

"H-Hunter?" 

Hunter turns to face you, his hands fiddling with the knot of his crimson bandana to work it loose. That's when you finally realized why you didn't recognize who was leaning against your vehicle in the growing, deepening purple shadows of the late afternoon. "I thought you'd be a little happier to see me than that," he says with a look that's somewhere between a typical smile and a concerned frown, "but I guess you didn't realize it was me. And I guess I shouldn't have been standing here with my back to you, either." Hunter slips the accessory around his head and reties it with a hasty knot. "Sorry about that, mesh'la." 

There's a million questions swimming over the top of your tongue, each one vying to be asked. "Wha-? How did-? Why are you-?"

Hunter does his best to answer the questions he believes you're trying to ask. "Crosshair gave me a lift here so I could drive you home once you got off work." he says, holding a hand out. He's offering to take your bag and the keys to your vehicle. "As for why, well: it's today. I saw it written on your calendar the last time I came to visit. It's been a year since you lost your loved one. I figured you might be just holding it together by the time your shift ended, and… I think I was right." His hand cups the soft curve of your cheek, the pad of his thumb collecting the first tears that have begun to escape the confines of your tear ducts. 

Hunter sweetly helps you into the passenger seat, and gets any and all safety belts secured before he himself climbs behind the controls and gets ready to take you home. 

"We'll pick up whatever you want to eat on the way home, if that's what you want, cyar'ika." he offers, gently resting the palm of his hand on your trembling shoulder for a brief moment. He's not certain if you want a lot of these gestures of reassuring, physical touch, but it's what he can offer right now so you know that he's there for you. 

Right here, right now, as you weep silently into the sleeves of your work uniform in the passenger seat, Hunter is here for you. And he's not going anywhere until he's either satisfied with his efforts to do his best to lift your spirits, or until you ask him to leave. 

Remnants of the comfort-food you'd requested are either tucked away with the rest of your leftovers, or swept up and deposited into the kitchen trash by Hunter when he makes the offer to do a bit of tidying up. Gentle murmurings that he doesn't want you to worry about it, he'll take care of everything. 

He'll take care of you. Hunter's not going to judge you for your tears. Or for telling him how you wished you could have reamed out this difficult customer. Or for how you shout in your episodic instances of anger, calling your manager a spineless and incompetent little twit who needed to get their act together and quit being so cheap and to hire more people so you're not running yourself so karking ragged. 

Nor does he admonish you for how silly it was that you're complaining about the rip in your clothing made by the thorns found in one of the bushes outside your house, or easily you fall apart into a mess of tears at the gentle hand on your shoulder when he joins you on the sofa once again. 

"Could this day get any worse?!" you sob, your face hot with anger and grief, and your voice thick and choked with the respective emotions.

Hunter is patient and endlessly perceptive; tucking your body just right against him, the way you need him right now. "C'mere, cyare… You've certainly had a pretty thorny day… And I don't blame you for simply just having enough of it all. I don't blame you at all." he promises, sweetly and softly peppering your face in tender kisses with the intention of comfort. 

"I've been having a lot of thorny days lately…" you admit with a stutter, burying your face into the material of his shirt. Hunter smells like sun-warmed cotton and the heavy tang of seawater. Of course now you can't tell if you smell hints of his homeworld on him, or if that's the dried tear stains from earlier. When the two of you simply sat in the parked vehicle once you'd gotten home, Hunter leaned over the center console so you could weep into his shoulder. You'd dialed up your job, ready to tell them that they needed to find someone else, but you couldn't go through with it. Not then, anyways. You haven't been able to make up your mind, either. 

Hunter rubs little circles with his thumb into your shoulder blade as he holds you close, saying that he's sorry to hear you've been struggling lately. That he's sorry you're having hard days. "I just want them to stop!" you sob softly, feeling his fingers gently caress the back of your head, and the deep rumble in his ribs as he asks you to take a deep breath, promising that he's here. That he'll help however he needs.

If you breathe him in deeply enough, you could probably find something from all of his brothers. Something sugary that he was offered a bite of to share with his brother as Wrecker indulged his sweet tooth. The rich blend of caf Tech was partial to lately, that could give him the jitters when Hunter drank it by mistake. The smooth notes of the polishing agent Crosshair spoiled his Firepuncher with because he swore nothing else would do. The faint whiff of synthetic lubricant that must mean Echo had performed upkeep on his prosthetics today or the day before. 

"There we go," Hunter says softly in praise, feeling the frenzied beating of your heart begin to slow and your tears eventually peter out, "it'll be okay, cyare." 

You sniffle, mumbling softly into Hunter's chest. "I'm just so scared that it won't. And I feel silly for feeling so scared..." His arms stitch just a little tighter around you in return when you pull yourself against him, feeling his breath against the top of your head. You just feel so small in your sadness today. But in his arms, the way you fit just right…

The way he's so steady, you feel so loved and protected when you're at your most vulnerable. 

Hunter hushes you, pulling the hair back from your face with a gentle touch once you sit up again. "Tech would probably tell you that that fear is a natural and normal part of life, and that there's no use to feel silly about it. And, even if the way he'd probably say it isn't so gentle, he'd be right. How you're feeling today - angry and upset about your job and wanting to quit, and how much you miss your loved one - is all very thorny and uncomfortable, and no one likes feeling like that. But it's normal. And it's nothing to be ashamed of. And I promise you, I'm here to help. However I'm needed. However long you need me to hold you and make you feel loved while you're feeling down." 

The gentle reminder is just what you need. You're not dealing with this alone. That if you're going to quit your job, Hunter would do whatever you asked of him to help you get ready to sever those ties if you felt it was time. That even though you're left with a hole in your heart with the passing of this loved one who was very important to you, Hunter doesn't expect his presence to merely fill it like it's nothing. 

That's the marvelous thing about the human heart. 

It can hold so much love for so many people if you let it. 

You're certain your eyes look so swollen and red. You're certain you'll find more tears to shed when the thorns of grief find their excuse to make you weep once more, but right now, Hunter's hands have carefully and kindly cleaned away the last of them. He's so gentle and sweet on you, right now. 

"Hey… what if," Hunter begins, offering in a soft, low voice between the kisses he stamps in the crown of your hair and trails down one side of your jaw to the other, "you changed out of your uniform, and we found something to watch together now that we've had something to eat? Something silly. Maybe something romantic. Or both. Whatever you want, cyare. I don't care what it is." he promises.

You fiddle with the frayed and torn edge of your clothing that had been caught on the thorny plant outside. "What if I just want more cuddles after I change?" Hunter laughs gently, nodding as he reluctantly releases you so you can slip into something comfortable and try to end this day on a happier note. 

(You're going to have to send Crosshair a message later to thank him for doing Hunter a favor by giving his brother a lift and dropping him off.)

"Whatever you want. Especially if that's more cuddles." Hunter says once more with a warm smile, hooking your pinky fingers together so he can hold some part of you just a moment longer. If you found comfort in his touch and wanted more of it, he was happy to provide. 

You're pulled back into Hunter's arms when you come back to the living room after you've thrown on a comfortable pair of clothes, finding yourself wrapped up tight. He's so strong, like all of his brothers, and every ounce of it is devoted to comfort and consoling you right now.

Hunter is so warm and comfortable, and you're so emotionally drained that it's hard to resist the act of nuzzling one cheek into his chest and closing your eyes to simply relish this quiet moment. You don't know what you want to do, but you just know that you need this. Hunter knows it too.

People need a good hug now and again. This galaxy could be so cruel and thorny to the people who mattered most to us, that sometimes what they needed most was an act of deliberate softness to remind them everything would be okay. That the bad times will pass. 

That while our hearts yearn and grieve for the ones we miss the most, the room we had for them in our hearts will always remain no matter how long they've been gone. 

And the people we love in the here and now will fit themselves next to that jagged space and trim back the thorns, if we only ask.

[Masterlist] [TBB Masterlist] [Requests: OPEN]

[just-a-carrot]

Had the chance to sit down and play the new installment (that makes it sound like an appliance... OW: Smart Fridge Edition) and it's so viscerally raw and human. The whole game is, but wow. My favorite genre of fiction is fantasy, for being able to see a creator and their world as 'look at a life these people are living and the world they're living in'. A world surreal, fantastic, and all too easy to think about what it would be like if it was real-- acting like it is real with dreams of dragons and elves. Our Wonderland goes beyond that, in a way few other fantasy stories I've read have. It's not the fantasy of magical beings living in a sprawling, epic world; it's not the fantasy of a gigantic battle of good versus evil-- the fantasy comes in when the cast thinks their lives should be just like the tales of knights and glory. The fantasy is just humans trying their darndest, despite it all. Hoping for a better world. Which wouldn't be so worth commenting on if not for the execution. Every emotion, every action-- beat-by-beat it's gripping and a perfect sell into the world. Playing the finale elicited some feelings and memories I had forgotten about. The sense of turning on the GameCube late at night, going to play Mario Sunshine. Long road trips immersed in the scenery of forest and buffalo, after having spent hours staring at cities. Getting up to dumb hijinks with people I'd only know for a few days. Staring out into the open ocean upon a swing. I'm not sure why it brought those out, but I think it's because of how human the game is, it gets you to think. It got me to think, anyways. Anywho, thank you for an amazing experience Carrot. I hope you have a good rest, and that my thoughts are written here somewhat coherently. If not, I'll summarize: DAMN GOOD GAME. DAMN GOOD STORY. DAMN GOOD ART. DAMN GOOD.

SOB

i don't know how to respond to this... this is incredibly sweet and thoughtful and i'm not sure i have the eloquence currently to type up and actually decent response 🥺💦

but i can definitely feel in my heart what you mean. even if it's not necessarily the exact same emotions or in the exact same way, especially as the creator rather than the experiencer in this case. but like. OW has always filled me with those types of nostalgic feelings as well. maybe it's because at its core, its about these types of fundamental happinesses. and these fundamental relationships we form as kids. and perhaps also simply because so much of the OW cast's pasts and experiences draw so heavily from my own, so it becomes almost as though i'm looking back into my own past through some kind of slightly warped threshold or something

stuff like the final scene in the field for instance was inspired by a scene in majora's mask, which is something i used to play with my sister. we would talk the characters aloud and make up our own stories rather than what they were actually saying (usually really ridiculous and stupid stuff lakdsfjad) or make silly radio plays where we recorded ourselves acting our chars from the game. also a lot of the references both in and outside of the game (like in my non-in-game art and such) was inspired by my own memories. so thinking about the game often makes these additional nostalgic coils drift up through my own memories

at any rate, i can't be sure that's the exact type of same feelings you're talking about, but... i feel like i understand the vibe of what you're saying at least

AND OFC I'M JUST REALLY HAPPY YOU ENJOYED THE ENDING DLKJALDSKJFASD

i still can't believe it's really over. and i mean sure it's not OVER over because i still have plans for other stuff with the chars and even the revamp which would include still working on stuff for the main game. but nothing will ever be the same for me as working on this game itself. and i'm really so grateful for everyone who's joined me in this journey because i'm not sure i would have made it to the end without all of you 💦

but i digress. thank you for this lovely message and for attempting to write up your thoughts lsakjdfasd it really means a lot!! 💕

[celestie0]

🪷 I have been summoned. ℑ 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔱𝔢𝔠𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲.

These guys will never give up on the horny agenda will they 😭 it's been months wallahi I still remember the last time you got asks like these and like..okay I get it everyone gets horny occasionally but there's several stories that will cater to your needs of the moment. Hell just search up the tags #(insert character) smut and you'll get that shit.

I don't think the anon meant it in a pushy way but seriously on your end I can't even imagine the pressure it must put on you. Like imagine tens of people sending you stuff like this, then on top of that the cunts who send hateful, catty asks over STORIES and HEADCANONS. I'm actually so sorry dude. Forget about touching grass these people need a shot of chlorophyll injected straight to their bloodstream.

I think so much of this brain rot is because as a reader the effort isn't that significant on our end. 15-20 mins of reading and maybe a like or comment if necessary and that's all. As the writer on the other hand? So many hours spent in just coming with ideas, even more hours trying to articulate said ideas and make it coherent and fun to read, even more hours editing that stuff. Whew bitch. I remember why I gave up on my blog now 😭 but back to the point it's a major imbalance of effort and time put into the work from the parties. And after a point these people start feeling like they are owed their own specific fantasies and needs and it's just..girl I get it it's a self insert y/n fic but dj your kitty and go back to sleep instead of pestering an already tired and anxious writer.

You're god's strongest soldier Elliebear we love you. You and all the writers who put so much love and effort into your work only to get stuff like this in return.

HIIIII lilypad anon omg hope you’re doing well <33 also every time i read one of your asks i’m always reminded of how fucking funny you are 😂 the chlorophyll line sent me to the moon bahhaha. tysm for always coming to my support n rescue 🥺💕

AAA yea ikk like the fuckin kickoff smut asks too like bruh. i understand that i get new followers periodically that haven’t seen my posts addressing my issue w these types of asks, but like?? is it not also just basic decency? lol. i’ve been reading fanfics since i was like 12 y/o and i’ve never sent an author a rude asf ask or pushy comment like that…i can’t always keep giving these ppl the benefit of the doubt.

yea i mean i felt really awful when i responded to that ask about an hour after all my anger subsided lolol, because i can acknowledge that it’s not just the anger towards that particular anon, but also just a combination of all the asks i’ve gotten that just want smut. like, i’m ALREADY self conscious about writing smut, and i’m ALREADY self conscious about the lack of smut in my fics. these asks just make those feelings of anxiety increase ten-fold, and then i become too paralyzed to write anything.

yes i 100% agree w you, there’s definitely an imbalance of effort and i think the way you put it is perfect lol i could never put that thought into words the way you did haha. although it’s ultimately my decision to write and i’d never pressure ppl to interact w my work, i think because there is inherently such an imbalance of effort, some entitled readers suddenly think that they are OWED my time and OWED their hyperspecific fantasies to be included in my fics.

idk i’m like kinda getting carried away here i’m also pms’ing so bad i think that’s why this whole situation is messing me up more than usual 😂 but anywho thanks so much for supporitng me lilypad bb :(( i’m so grateful to have you as a reader. and yes! i’ve seen similar situations w my writer moots as well, so all the love extends to them too. i think writers really need to stand up for ourselves more often so these ppl fuckin learn n don’t do the same shit w other authors or in other fandoms

much love <3 ellie 🐸

[soulsillk]

Okay hi I'm a perpetual lurker and never do this but I like your fic and the world you built so much it made peter/miles take over my entire mind to the point where I had to write a fic for them myself so thank you okay bye

You're so cute— I KNOW WHO YOU ARE (I lurked on you too 😈 and I also got an email from AO3)!!! So, HIIIIIIIIIIII 😏

I ALREADY READ YOUR FIC BUT I HAVEN'T GOTTEN AROUND TO RESPONDING TO YOU 😭😭😭 I'M SORRY!!! I've been planning to leave a little comment because it was so fucking funny (well that and... other things 🤤) but my week has been hectic and I have an absolutely abhorrent sleep schedule 💀

ANYWHO, I'm glad reading my fic made you insane because I've been fighting this war all on my own for almost three years straight, so it's only fair that now it's you guys' turn to be insane over Peter and Miles <3 and not me <3 But regardless, this made my day!!!!! 🥺☺️🥹 It brings me joy to know my little fic inspired you to make your own little fic from how much you liked my universe(? I know that's the correct term, but it still feels so narcissistic to call it that 🤡) I hope you're doing good and that I continue to make you even more insane on future chapters!!! BYEEEEEEE!!!!! 💖💌💗

[madschiavelique]

Hello!

I just randomly remembered you and your incredible writing, I remember reading your Viktor fics last fall! Crown of Ink was my favorite, and I was heartbroken when I checked in today and saw that it still has no new chapters. I was wondering why that is? I go through phases of the characters I like, so I assume your reasoning is the same, but even if it never updates, I want you to know that it's one of my favorites that I've ever read. Writing and premises like that stick with you, ya know? Anywho, I hope you're having a lovely day/night, just wanted to ask :)

Also, if there isn't one already, I'd like to apply to be 🌧��� anon!

hi nonny !!!

indeed A Crown Of Ink is becoming A Crown Of Dust at this point 💀 BUT FEAR NOT hopefully some days i’ll write more on it !!

i do have phases of hyperfixations on diverse fandoms and characters that are ever changing, but most of them tend to make a comeback once in a while !!

nonny your message warmed my stupid little heart so much you have no idea 🥺 i am glad you enjoyed my writing, and i hope the hyperfixation will come back soon enough for me to continue writing A Crown Of Ink !! I would love you to be my 🌧️ anon (i love rain hehe)

thank you again so much for that message 🫶

[onlyjaeyun]

zadie, my beloved.

i finally got the balls to finally write this 🙏🏼

first of all i wanted to start off with happy new year zadie :D i hope this year is filled with happiness, health and success for u ! time has passed by a blur ever since you started releasing hype boy and i found out about ur acc (one of the best things to happen to me in 2023 🤞) anywho im gonna try to keep this as not-dramatic as possible but holy FUCK sb ended. 😕☹️ it’s just crazy for me to wrap my head around the fact that it’s over now jongyn sailed and had a baby like- ✋ pls don’t talk to me rn. as someone who’s went through hype boy, poison and now sb (and soon cold hearts U BETTER BE TAKING UR BREAK THO OR ISTG🤾) this is just crazy to me yk like i can’t believe it’s over 💔💔 anyways you did so so so well with writing everything ! you’re one of my inspirations for writing and one of my main reasons to taking it seriously :] so i just wanted to mainly direct this towards you than sb tho i still haven’t accepted the fact that it’s over ngl, you’re so ridiculously talented and open minded in writing in a way that you think of stories along with plot twists that i personally couldn’t (for the life of me) see coming from miles away, you’re one of my favourite authors on this app and with every work by yours that i read i get impressed like :0 holy shit you wrote that about my fav ppl and i get to read it for FREE? 😨 with each work of yours there was clear development in your skill and talent and it made me realise that there really is no “peak” when it comes to writing or story telling and it’s just improvement and improvement and improvement and your works very obviously show that (all ur works are jaw droppingly incredible btw like not a single bad work istg.) and before this gets too long i just wanted to sincerely thank you for your service on the enhypen-tumblr community 🙏🏼 you truly are one of the main pillars for this entire community istg and you’re genuinely so talented like your work literally has me giggling and kicking my feet in the air. like always.

anywho love you so much zadie ! i’m sending u so many hugs & kisses i hope you’re taking care of yourself and taking your very much needed break i can’t wait to see what your plans are for cold hearts !! <3

- ⁉️

my love, my angel, my baby my everything pls ive read this three times and teared up each time i hope you know how much your words mean to me 🥺🤍🫧☁️

thank you SO much for this, it deffo gave me just what i needed, like you're always so genuine and so sweet and SO FUNNY TOO LIKE I LOVE READING YOUR ASKS BC ITS ME GOING CRAZY OVER MY MOOT'S WRITING I LOVE IT SM 😭🤍 so thank you thank you thank you for always taking the time out of your day to send me such detailed and genuine, kind and thoughtful words i cant even explain how much it means to me. i love and appreciate youu so much and hope 2024 brings you nothing but the best and a peaceful mind. sending you the fattest kiss. thank you for being by my side, can't wait to have you around for cold hearts 🥺🤍

[uyuforu]

Herro Uyu~(not sure if your name is like that on purpose cuz it sounds like milk *우유* in korean but its cute af as someone who LOVESS banana milk 🤣lol) but I just wanted to hop on here to tell you how thankful I am of your blog!

I've been here on the bts astrology and tarot tag(??) for quite a couple of years now and I've seen so many cool pages that have left now and also many, MANY deulus come by(especially on the tarot tags🫠🥲🙃🤣) I haven't even been active as much on here as well, due to life so I understand why many bts pages left or hasn't been active as well(I hope that all my favorite people are doing well if they happen to suddenly see this lol🥺💜😆) Anywho~ what I wanted to say is, I'm thankful for all your astrology post on Jungkook's chart~! I never even knew about all these other asteroids and didn't really bother to look at other charts( cuz astrology is so complicated huehue🥲🥲) but, even though you wrote it for JK base on his charts- I like to take your astrology knowledge and change(?) it to apply it to my chart and learn more about myself if this makes sense~😊!! I just thought that I hope you know your page is slowly bringing me back to learning more about astrology because astrology really helped me back in 2019 when I was at my lowest and I totally forgot the fun(?) warm(?) feeling of coming on here to learn more about my chart and how I am (ya know that feeling when you're reading something about your natal chart and it calls you out and you're like "omg this is me lmao"🤣🤣)

Anywhooo~ I truly hope you know that although I appreciate your fun knowledge on here, I hope you take breaks in between~💜! Protect your energy and delete all the asks that are sus🤨😆. As someone who has a community online as well, it's gets very exhausting when people tell you how you should do certain things (there's a difference in criticism and just plain out "I know and have more experience so you're wrong"-ew I'm trigger lmao🤣) I'm sorry that this is looooooooong for no damn reason-I swear I blame my cancer mercury for this 🤣🤣🤣

but I truly hope you know you're doing great and honestly, the vibe of your page is cool. You say what you channeled and know while keeping the delulus in check while still being polite. So again, just do you and thank you💜

Hi! Thank you very much for your message! It’s extremely gentle and sweet, I feel very touched! Also I just realized we are both Leo suns, Libra rising and cancer mercury!! Haha that’s crazy!

I feel very touched and happy you enjoy my contents, these kind of comments get me going, and I also feel glad you take the posts as a way to analyse your chart personally, thank god!! This is also why I post haha.

Also, yeah I took uyu from 우유, already explained it in another post a while ago why, it’s my favourite korean word lol! I thought it was the cutest ever and also the first Korean word I learned.

- uyu

[arknights-imagines]

Exe is Back 🥳💕!!!

(Most important parts are in bold!)

Hiya everyone svshs 💕👉👈!!! I know it's been a little while, however I'm v v happy to say that I'm back now aaa 😭💞! I hope you've all been well~

Anywho, this'll be an update post explaining why I've been gone and what I have upcoming for the blog 👍!! So if you're interested please take some time to read this whole post, tysm 💕!

Firstly, I'd like to apologize for leaving suddenly and without notice 😭😔 I had an urgent irl emergency happen (I'd prefer not to go into any details!) and so I had to go on a complete hiatus for a few weeks svshsh, I had to put all my writing and activity on the blog on a pause 😭😭

However, everything is okay now and I'm super happy to be back to the blog now aaa 👍!!!

As an apology for my sudden hiatus, 'Rico and I would like to offer you guys flowers and cake sgshs 💞👉👈...!!! Please take them and again I hope you can excuse me, ty v v much for your patience as always 🥺

(Art is a commission by @aruaruarisa on Twitter!!)

Secondly, I'd like to talk about what's next for the blog!!!

The headcanons for all the members of Lee's Detective Agency are still in the works ✨! I'm still trying to get myself better acquainted with the characters of each member so that's why this piece is taking some time 👉👈 I want to make sure I do the members justice svshs!!

Here's a small sneak peek from Hung's section of the piece for you guys!:

"･ The Perro will ensure - in every way he can, whilst still staying behind that line he couldn't yet bring himself to step over - that you know he was entirely dedicated to you.

･ “Hey, if you ever need something, just give me a holler!”

“Thank you…you don’t have to worry about me, Hung! But, ‘something’, like what exactly?”

“You know, anything at all! I mean it, when it’s for you, I’ll always be giving two-hundred-percent!”

･ After Hung said anything like that to you, you’d grin sincerely with eyes warmed by gratitude; he’d always have a hue of pink rise to his cheeks and a gleefully wagging tail as he parted from you."

Thirdly, what I have planned for the blog in the near-future 🥳!!!

Unfortunately svshs, the Guide Ahead event I was v v hyped for (as close followers of the blog will most likely know svshs) happened while I was away aaa... 😭 Thankfully I was able to participate in the event enough to complete some of the event stages and read the entire event story 👉👈!!! I'll be eagerly awaiting its rerun so I can complete it 100% 🥺

Anywho, I v much wanted to have an event on the blog to celebrate the Guide Ahead event being released to the EN server 👉👈 Though the event in-game is closed now, I'd still like to have an event here on the blog svshs because the event meant lots to me 🥺!!!

So I'm definitely still going to be having a special event on the blog dedicated to Laterano and the Sanktas once I'm done with my current wip 🥳 I hope you'll all look forward to it aaa~

(And in the meantime, my inbox is open for any asks regarding the Guide Ahead event 💕!!! You can tell me about your pulls or ask me about mine, or come chat with me about the story, or the in-game mechanics!

Like I said before this event is particularly special for me so I'm v glad to chat about it with you guys aaa 🥺👉👈!!!)

That's all sbshs 💕!!! I'll be organizing my inbox and replying to any miscellaneous asks/DMs from you guys over the next few days, and I'll be working on my current wip as well of course 🥰~

Again please excuse my sudden hiatus aaa 😔 I hope you guys can understand 😭!

I'd also like to say to all of you: even when I have to be away from the blog for some time, please know that I'm never leaving the blog anytime soon 🥺💕 Me (and 'Rico also!) love Arknights and all of you lots and lots~

I'm beyond happy to be back, I missed you guys and the blog v v much 🥺😭💕!!!

Okay, I'll get to work now 👍!! Tysm for your time and please have an awesome day 🌸!!

Yours truly,

- An Exe who's ready to get back to work 🥳!!!

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[elegiesforshiva]

hi! i hope this message finds you well :3 i just wanted to say thank you so much for posting your writing! i've read through all of your sasusaku fics starting with Ghosts and then and then A Blue Bathed Litany, then Reanimate and Tongue. i think you're an incredible writer and can't express how much i've enjoyed reading your writing and as someone who also writes here and there - how much seeing your characterization and the themes you decided to delve into inspires me to write!!!! - kae pt.1/?

just to echo what some other people have said about Ghosts, LOVE the way you've characterized sakura! AH! she finally gets the depth that she deserves through your story! and the way you've been looking at her/sasuke's relationship makes me think of conversations i've been having with peers/at work -about reformation and what it means to forgive and to teach/take care of someone who's done harm and let them back into the community. anywho, many a thought on that - kae pt.2/? also! i can't say how much i love the depiction of ino/sakura's friendship and the intimacy of it. there is something so powerful and often understated about feminine friendship and being able to see it told so beautifully and honestly with so much heart in your story is something i really enjoyed and connected with! i think and women are just so awesome in the way they look out for each other and the safety that they can provide for each other - kae pt.3/? anyway! i saw that you are still planning on writing it and are taking the time to flesh it out completely and i just want to say that i hope you are kind to yourself through the process and don't ever feel rushed!!!! i find that writing is such a personal journey and so much has happened in the past few years!!! i'm so glad to see that you plan on continuing it though and will patiently await on any kind of updates that you give! <3 <3 <3 - kae pt.4/? btw i also wanted to add that i've been reading through some of your responses to your asks here and there to get whatever i can for any Ghosts news LOL and wanted to also say that you seem like a super awesome, kind, and emotionally intelligent human and it takes a very special kind of person to write and the create the types of stories you do!!! also just wanted to ask - how are you doing!!! i hope your day/night is very kind to you!!! (i hope all my asks have come through hehe) - kae pt. 5/5 OOPS - SO SORRY. i think i probably read a different ask than one of the most recent ones you did. ANYWAY just wanna say - whether you write Ghosts again or don't - it's totally a-okay!! you take care of yourself first and foremost <3 <3 <3 - kae

Can’t even articulate how happy these asks have made me, or the amount of times I came back to them to feel the warmth of them again. These were so kind and thoughtful, idk how to thank you for them. I’m so sorry I took so long to respond, I try not to talk about this in my responses to asks, but sometimes it’s just so much to process this kind of praise because it’s such a stark contrast from the energies I receive on the daily—energies that made me write a narrative as dark as Ghosts to begin with. It can be a little shocking, and definitely a lot to digest, even though I’m not a stranger to how much people relate and enjoy Ghosts. It’s still very jarring. Definitely welcomed and I’m completely heartstruck by it!! but still I see it and I’m like “Oh God, Oh Fuck” lol. Thank you so much for giving me so much love. Thank you for reading fics, for checking in on this blog, for sending me all these messages. I’m JUST !!!!!!!!!!!!  🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 💘 There’s so much you touch on in these asks, I’m so happy people engage so thoroughly with the fic because there’s a lot of subjects that fic and Kishimoto himself discusses in their narratives. Reform and Healing and Integration are so so complex... especially with a character like Sasuke. Systematically, he’s a victim, there’s no question about it. Intimately, in personal relationships like with Naruto and Sakura, he was abusive. And of course the former informs the latter for him but where do you go from there... the very topic I think is greatly mishandled in the real world, and I think Kishimoto does a total 180 in his manga where Naruto just like?? Beats people up and through the power of spirit they are suddenly fully capable of love and authentic growth and healing??? LOL. It’s so bizarre. I don’t have the answers but it’s a conversation to be had and thought on for sure. I’m so so soooo happy you mentioned Ino and Sakura!!! I think my queerness ended up coming out in a lot of unexpected ways in this fic, and their relationship is a part of it for sure, but I just completely agree with you that relationships between women are severely understated. I don’t know how obvious it is, but I fully intended on discussing misogyny in Ghosts, and Sakura and Ino, and also Sakura and her mom’s relationship was meant to really emphasize that. I know there’s low fandom interest in female characters and that their relationships together have even less, (understandably so, because ultimately this was written by cis men who do not have an iota of how women authentically experience themselves, experience the world, and it can be triggering just acknowledging these cardboard cutouts of how cis men see us sometimes...) but really, I couldn’t have written this fic without the pillar of Ino and Sakura’s relationship in place. So much of my own healing and growth has relied on women, and the queer community too. They’ve saved my life. Again and again. I know shonen authors like Kishimoto wouldn’t have a great understanding of marginalized identities like that considering their own social positioning, but man the presence and impact of these communities is very real. Thank you for offering me your patience and affirmations, you have no idea how much I miss writing. I think about it all the time, it drives me crazy lol. I love that you’re a writer too, you probably know what I mean when I say how intimate of a journey it is—how deep we dive to come out the other side with a story that speak back to us and give us our justice. I would kill for that sort of time and headspace again. I’m really hoping to get back there soon. If I can just get an apartment, and some quiet, I think I’ll be able to. There’s so much inside me begging to be let out these days. Regardless, I’ll always keep y’all posted and thank you for letting me know you’re fine either way. It’s reassuring the love I get isn’t conditional like that, I’m just glad you’ve enjoyed that fic, unfinished or not, as much as you have <3 I think this is the first time someone has explicitly asked how I am in a message like this, and god you are such a sweetheart for it. Thank you for thinking of me as more than just an occasional fanfic writer, that was such a warm gesture. I wish I could say I’m doing great but honestly my life is a fucking horror show and I feel like a turd on fire lmfao. I mean, that’s kind of most of our lives right now. I can’t speak for everyone but I don’t personally know people who are doing very good right now. I am with the disabled community, amongst other marginalized ones, and covid combined with the catastrophic political atmosphere has not been kind to us. I’m crossing my fingers and hoping it gets better though, both individually and nationally—and globally too, for that matter. I know international friends have been going through it. Thank you again for these sweet messages kae!!! I really hope you’re doing amazing and there’s a lot of love in your life at this moment, and if there’s not I hope it comes soon!! And I hope you’re as loving and gentle with yourself as you were with me in these asks too. Cheers to the wonders of writing and reading! Sending all my looove~~  💟 💟 💟

[trashytoastboi]

Hello TrashyToastBoi! I saw that you are open once again and I really really admire your fics! I still read the fic about Killer on number 17 on your one event, that was one of the best! So..can I please request for Killer? Like, insecure reader has a long time crush on Killer that everyone on the ship knows it, even the Captain, but Killer doesn't (maybe), and reader was getting all the courage they could gather within themselves to confess, but knowing how popular Killer is, cause he a pirate, ladies flocked among the people of their crew, and reader saw their own disadvantages and have amplify it by that flock, so they just backed down, with a bit of angst but happy ending, mayhaps? I'm sorry if this is so long, just too excited that you're back! Anywho, thank you for writing fics and please take care of your self, thank you very much!! 💖

Heyya!🍀 sure thing! And thank you so much for saying so🥺 take good care of yourself too! Hope you enjoy ~

(Gender Neutral)

Scenario: Killer x Insecure! Reader – Neon Moon

There's a rundown bar, across the railroad tracks

I've got a table for two, way in the back

Where I sit alone and think of you ~ (Neon Moon by Cigarettes After Sex)

Warning: Sprinkling of angst, cursing

Word count: 3,247 words

🍜Killer🍜

“Finally, how long has it been since we last saw land!” {Name} exclaimed excitedly, especially at the fact they could finally disembark and feel some land beneath their feet. It had been way too long, staying out sea for a few months, everything was running a little low. Including supplies and treasure, though the company was not as bad as one might expect from the Kid pirates, land was needed especially seeing that Kid was growing irritable due to some cabin fever and well...they needed to take Kid on a walk, maybe allow him to raise a little hell just for him to use that excessive energy. While chortling at their own humorous thoughts, {Name} failed to pay attention to their feet and found the deck fast approaching, Killer's quick reflexes allowed for {Name} to be caught by his grip, a tug of their arm and helping them find their feet again. {Name} felt incredibly embarrassed thanks to their clumsiness. “Are you alright {Name}?” Killer inquired, sending {Name's} heart into a mess as well as allowing that fluttery feeling to settle in their stomach, “A-all good! Thanks...” {Name} states quickly with a nervous smile before shuffling away and truth be told they were grateful for the swift escape. {Name} had an inclination to liking Killer, something a little more than a friend. {Name} took a deep breath and turned to see Kid giving them a shit eating grin and that knowing look, they frown and glare at him “Don't you dare Kid” {Name} grumbled, of all the people that could have possibly known...it was Kid, and he has been holding the information over their head ever since he found out about their little crush on Killer. Of course the entire crew already knew, it was so painfully obvious and yet the person in question was the only one who had no idea about {Name's} feelings. Truthfully they could often find it a little tortuous, sometimes even comparable to pain, the fact that Killer treated them so kindly. At first {Name} believed that it was just the way he treated everyone, due to the fact that anyone close to him gets to see a softer side to him, and a better understand to the complex personality he shrouded beneath the epithet of “Massacre solider” and “Murder machine.” Though the comfortable distance he seemed to keep from everyone proved to discourage {Name}, kindness aside, he allowed no one to get too close to him aside from a certain angry tulip.

Insecurity never helped either, the fact that {Name} would drown themselves in those negative and demeaning thoughts, never intentional due to the intrusive nature. But it proved difficult, constantly downplaying themselves, never believing in the compliments people paid them and on the surface always smiling and saying thank you. Often acting as if they were that confident, even if it was the furthest thing from the truth. For once they felt a little brave, an inkling of courage proved to be the world of hope to {Name}, especially after what just happened. They considered it was finally time to take the leap and disclose their feelings to Killer, it had taken so long just to gather up the minuscule amount of courage and confidence to even come to the decision and the insecure thoughts of discouragement were held back by the hope of “It could be different, we could be more” and that sliver made {Name} a little giddy, it felt so promising. It was a helping hand, a manner of steadying their resolve to tell him, though the question of when was one of importance but {Name} opted to let the opportunity arise on it's own. Surely it would? No matter the outcome, {Name} needed to make it known before it consumed them...or at least before Kid finally acted on his threats of telling Killer about their feelings.

As with most things, it never really lasts forever and even the strongest things can become so brittle, the courage that had been building up was so easily and utterly crushed. From the moment they set foot into town, the crew was swarmed with what could be called 'fans', even admirers, and they surrounded everyone. At first it proved entertaining seeing that everyone seemed to have a little clique of fans, each for different reasons though swarmed and swooned none the less. Killer and Kid always had the biggest gaggle of admirers, Killer had plenty of woman throwing themselves at his feet. {Name} watched on with a gnawing feeling of anxiety, they were soon pulled from their thoughts at their own little crowd that formed quickly, {Name} was utterly surprised at the crowd that implored them for dates, drinks and the works. Some paying compliments that left {Name} feeling a little shy, it was not the time however, they spotted Killer being dragged away to the tavern and {Name} just felt a little shattered. They smiled, waving off the invitations with a friendly rain check, and despite the pleasant smile on their face; {Name} was currently filled with jealousy, bitterness and a little ounce of pain at seeing all those people so easily throwing themselves at Killer and all he needed to do was take them up on invitation. Maybe it was the absolute boldness of those people that made {Name} a little jealous, if they could be that confident and honest with Killer things could have changed, but insecurity kept them holding back and honesty seemed daunting, threatening to them. They only seemed to measure themselves up against everyone else, their personality against that of a strangers, their little quirks, the sound of their voice, appearance, just everything was compared anything, and everything they had to offer never measured up against anyone else. Any and all of the courage they had steadily built up disappeared as quickly as a whim, the determination to take a chance and tell Killer about their feelings was now gone, so far out of their mind as if it had never existed in the first place. {Name} had a small smile on their lips, some could even perceive it as a happy smile, it was simply the furthest thing from. Truth be told, it was the only thing keeping back the tears, and it was their acceptance that they were not the best, accepting that they had nothing they could really offer to Killer and even to those high expectations they set on themselves, it was a smile of resignation and defeat.

{Name} slipped away, their escaped snagged on the company of their remaining fans, though they didn’t really feel up for a drink, promising that they would gladly partake in one tomorrow but not now. Right now, {Name} wanted the quietest place possible and that was the ship, it was away from everyone and it provided a little room for their thoughts.

{Name} wandered back to the ship, accompanied by a couple of stragglers up until the moment when they finally got aboard the Victoria Punk, skulking over to the deck and taking a seat on the hard wood, they faced the ocean and slumped against the hard surface. Their eyes traced every line of the wood, absent mindedly and the thoughts began settling in their head, indulging those terrible, spiralling thoughts that tormented them and tore down any notion of something positive they had. “I'm such an idiot. What's the point of sulking over something like this anyway...” {Name} clenched their fist and hit railing in frustration, by all means they shouldn't be upset when Killer didn't even know. It just felt so frustrating, even feelings right now were so illogical and pointless. “Maybe I should let those people buy me a drink” {Name} bitterly chuckled, growing annoyed with the way they were feeling and yet felt absolutely no motivation to do anything about it. The constant back and forth argument of logic and reason tried to fight against the intangible nature of emotions, and in their attempts they tried to outweigh insecurity only to be met with failure. {Name} helped themselves to a drink, it was literally bottom of the barrel and the last they had, but any liquor was good company to wallowing and {Name} could not argue that it would be a long night tonight.

Another person fell at Killer's feet, unable to hold their liquor as he felt refreshed and not even remotely tipsy though the same can not be said for the people that attempted to match him drink for drink, his eyes scanned the room for the the hundredth time tonight. Still unable to find {Name} anywhere in the crowd, the crew was scattered across the bar but everyone seemed to be in the vicinity and admittedly Killer hoped {Name} would be there, maybe perched in a corner like they usually were, Killer loved joining them. It was quiet and usually {Name} offered the most random conversation once a bit of alcohol was in their system but Killer loved it none the less, most of the time he would just sit in silence and listen to them ramble on about whatever topic was burning in their brain.

Kid slammed into the bar, laughing wildly at some joke Wire just told, he slammed the tankard down signalling for another drink as he glanced over at Killer as he leaned over to talk “Have you seen {Name}?” it was a simple enough question though Kid just smiled widely, “What, you missing them already?” Kid mused, seeing Killer shift in his seat a little only proved Kid's question to be right, Kid was revelling in the fact that he held the same secret for both {Name} and Killer and was originally waiting for the two of them to realize it, and it was infuriating that they never did. It was entertaining to see the way the two of them would act, at this point it just became frustrating to watch them dance around each other awkwardly and completely oblivious. Kid could pick up that Killer was in higher spirits until he realized that {Name} was not around, it almost made Kid feel bad for taking a stab at him. Kid was definitely not one for for playing cupid nor involving himself in the affairs of others, but seeing that either of the two were too afraid to make the first move, he decided to lend a helping hand. “Want to go see them?” Kid offered, and saw Killer shake his head “It's alright.” Killer was quick to say, denying wanting to speak to them, until Kid passed a very unusual comment “Even if they were alone and upset right now?” Killer stopped dead hearing that, betraying his stoic act as he faced Kid who looked at him, a serious expression on his face which proved that Kid was not joking. Kid could be an idiot, but he was not a fool and he noticed how {Name} looked earlier and the fact that while they were all being dragged away, {Name} trailed their way to the ship while dragging their feet.

{Name} sat alone, wallowing and indulging their sadness, if only tonight. Because tomorrow they will have to be alright and pretend that nothing happened and that things are completely fine. As usual the moment the crew would come back {Name} would go out of their way to pretend to be up beat and like their normal self all the while pushing the thoughts to the back shelf and allowing it to bother them when lying awake at night. It was definitely hard to explain, to anyone and especially to themselves, the worst thing was knowing that the entire time they were treating it like a typical crush but it was so much more, if anything {Name} could be brave enough to call it love. Quite literally, they had been through stormy seas and war with Killer, coming out on the other side relatively unscathed and it certainly was thanks to him. For all the times he picked them up, protected them and pulled them from the deteriorative mindset they could fall into.

{Name} sighed, leaning on their arms and looking at the moonlight rippling and refracting on the surface of the sea, trying to imagine waking up one day and being completely rid of those feelings. It was all so ironic, {Name} only ever began to feel this lonely and melancholic every since they fell in love. It could be explained that the chaotic state of mind should be blamed on the fact that not even {Name} entirely knew what their own feelings were. {Name} heaved another sigh, knowing that if someone were keeping count they probably could have set a new record. “You sulking over Killer?” Kid chirped, startling {Name} who failed to notice his presence. Which is saying a lot considering that Kid was not at all quiet or stealthy. They looked up at him, with the usual annoying grin he wore, pretty sure he only ever did it knowing it irritated them so, it just made {Name} annoyed at the sight of his face. “Are you going to hold it over my head forever?” {Name} spoke evident traces of irritation laced their voice, “Hold what?” Kid teased, feigning ignorance towards their question “You know what!” {Name} snapped back and agitated by his blatant prodding and now was certainly not the time for him to be pushing them like this, {Name} was in no mind to entertain it. Kid chortled, stifling something akin to a mean snicker as {Name} threw their empty cup at his head, which was completely ineffective as Kid simply swatted it away like a fly. “You know how I feel about Killer.” {Name} murmured, slumping down even further as Kid leaned down, holding his hand to ear “Sorry I didn't quite catch that” Kid stated, {Name} stared at him challengingly, not saying anything. “Guess, I'll just have to tell Killer about it~” Kid mused, {Name} stands up and grabs him by his coat, it seems less than intimidating when grabbing someone of his stature “Don't you dare Kid!” {Name} snaps, no longer eager to play games about this particular thing, it's only rubbing salt further into the wound. “Don't I dare what?” Kid pushes further, wanting a bigger reaction from {Name} “Tell him!”, “Tell him what exactly?”

“Cut the shit Kid! You know exactly what. I don't know why you're playing dumb now after all the times YOU were the one to bring it up and threatened to tell him.” {Name} half yells out of pure frustration “Oh? You mean I shouldn't tell Killer that you love him?” Kid grinned finally seeing the reaction he wanted from {Name} who was now incredibly flustered and worked up “I love him! Do you have a problem with that Kid? Is that the issue here?” {Name} shouted, a little too lost in their little spat to have cared if anyone else was around. “Your words, not mine” Kid muttered, shrugging {Name's} hands off of him and turning his back to walk away, he stops randomly and turns his head to seemingly glance at the wall “Did you catch all of that?” {Name} was about to respond, until they see Killer step out from around the corner, awkwardly rubbing his neck as Kid snickers and leaves. {Name's} stomach drops and their heart sits in their throat feeling absolutely shell-shocked that Killer had heard everything. They babble trying to find words of explanation or apology, no clue as to what they actually want to say.

Killer approaches them, a little awkward in his manner that staggers his walk into more of an awkward shuffle, and there is a thick silence left between them. “Did you mean it, what you said?” Killer asked hesitating to know the answer even if he had already heard it, {Name} realized denying it would do more harm than good, especially if they deny the truth and the shock of everything still rendered them speechless, and mustering all they could {Name} nods and averts their eyes. “I see...” Killer offers no further words as silence fills the space between them yet again.

“KILLER LOVES YOU TOO!” Kid shouts from somewhere, making it obvious that he was still around watching this all unfold like a soap opera. Of course he had to, how else was he supposed to leave these two alone when doing so has proved ineffective. “Kid!” Killer hissed, unable to scold him since he was still hiding somewhere, {Name} broke out into a blush at what Kid said and Killer grew nervous at the sight of them. {Name} felt really elated, overwhelmed even “So I guess the feeling is m-mutual?” {Name} chuckled only to be graced with silence on Killer's part once again which only added to {Name's} growing anxiety. Reality seemed to set in, ripping {Name} off of the very short lived cloud nine feeling, leaving them to feel unsettled and doubting “I'm sorry, I guess Kid was just saying that to get a reaction” {Name} apologised for getting ahead of themselves and Killer felt guilt over seeing the hurt on their face and the misunderstanding that began to form, he needed to say something and yet, the words were none existent. “{Name}, that's not...I do, it's just. I don't know how to say it, I mean a-are you okay with me?” Killer desperately stumbles over his words trying to clear up the sudden misunderstanding. {Name} looks at him, absolutely confused “O-Okay with you? What do you mean?”

“I'm not...good?” Killer's words fall short and he finds himself unable to explain the source of his insecurity. {Name} looked at him quizzically feeling like they could understand him a little more, it may have been really similar to their situation of thoughts telling them things that simply were not true. {Name} took a step closer, seeing Killer's reaction, they took another step “You're more than good enough Killer, you might not see it... it's the same case with me I guess. But I've never really loved anyone...more than you...so” {Name} spoke softly, their voice threatened to fail though the words were graced by utter kindness and sincerity. Killer felt his face heating up at their words, his hand reached for them, resting on their arm. He wanted to take a little more, wanted to pull them closer and embrace them. Killer suddenly halted his actions at the sound of a sneeze, he turned to look in the direction of it and spotted the entire crew in the distance, faces peaking out and watching them. {Name} turned their head and saw the same sight, and seeing all their faces was enough to completely murder the moment. Killer and {Name} sighed in unison, “I think this is a conversation to be continued away from the drunken idiots” Killer states, indirectly inviting {Name} to spend some time with him to which {Name} instantly agrees.

Bonus:

Heat pulled out the piece of paper “I told you {Name} would make the first move!”, “Technically Kid made the first move on both of their behalves” Wire retorts seeing the disappointment in some of his fellow crew mates over losing the bet. “But they took a step towards him when he was being all shy and shit!”

“Shouldn't all the money just go to me since I made it happen?” Kid mused, a proud grin on his face from his less than graceful handiwork.

[luvdsc]

hello!! i saw your recent tag game post with your drafts and i gotta say, they're all amazing but /barbie girl/... dude barbie girl is just... *chef's kiss* anywho i hope you're having a nice time of day wherever you are :)

hi hello, sweetpea !! 💕 omg thank you so much for reading through all the snippets of my drafts 🥺💗 thank you especially for enjoying barbie girl !!!!! 🌷🌷 I really really like the concept I have for it, and I want it done so bad but at the same time, do you know that tiktok audio of the person crying as they make their pet into a sandwich / burrito ?? that’s literally me as I try to write the fic 💀💀😭 and thank you so much, lovebug, I hope you’re having a wonderful day as well 💙💙

Also idk where to put this so I guess I’ll just add it down here but I… am outgrowing my kpop phase after 8+ long years like I’m not really interested in writing fanfic nor am I interested in nct anymore 🤧 it was just a hyperfixation to keep myself from being bored out of my mind during the pandemic and now that I’m out and about and my social schedule is packed again, I’m really only interested in kpop music wise and I will 100% go to their concerts still because I absolutely love concerts but I have not kept up with nct content in so long 😵‍💫 I’m making this sound so dramatic but I unfollowed all of them on insta too because like ??? why am I so invested in a bunch of dudes’ lives when I should be out living my own best life 😭😭 and that just solidified it for me and anyway that’s where my head is at rn and tbh I think it was kinda obvious since I barely come on here anymore 😔

also in general to all the lovely honey bees who sent in messages to me: I apologize for the long overdue response, I finally have a lil breathing room because one of my clients just filed on friday and I don’t have any travel plans until next weekend (aka no need to pack and fly out this week wooo), so I can slowly answer my asks throughout this week 💓💓

[cheolbooluvr]

Chris!! 💓 It's been a while but between work and volunteering responsibilities I finally had the time to read tomorrow tonight and oh my gosh I absolutely adored it! I've probably said this a thousand times in regards to your other works, but I love how you write your characters and capture their emotions and humanity. I am a sucker for friends to lovers and the relationships within this fic just felt really organic and well developed. The line "Let's all be happy, okay?" seems so simple but is yet incredibly impactful. I think I'll be thinking about these words for a while after this. I hope you're feeling happy, and I wanted to thank you for writing another lovely fic for us to enjoy! I'm sad it took me so long to get around to reading it, but I look forward to revisiting it and falling in love with it again in the future (as I have done for your other works)! ps: I got seventeen tickets and I'm really excited! I wish everyone who is also trying to get concert tickets the best of luck, I'm rooting for you all!! 💞 - 🧸 anon

🧸 anon HELLO OMG I SWEAR I THOUFHT I ANSWERED THIS MONTHS AGO WTF

anyways HI OMG i'm so happy to see your message 😭 thank you so much for reading it, i'm so glad you enjoyed it 🥺

i'm rly happy to hear that it felt organic and well-developed bc i can't tell you the sheer agony i went thru writing it !! i can't even read it back now bc it just bothers me HAHAHA but i'm glad you like it :)

EEEEP TICKETS OMG gosh it feels like forever ago when ticketing hell happened, but i'm so so so happy you got some !! i was still in korea when tickets went on sale, and lemme tell ya, i've never been so nervous in my LIFE. like not to be dramatic, but i was shaking afterwards. it honestly still hasn't hit me that i'll be seeing them next month 😳 so much to do and so little time T-T

anywho, it was so lovely talking to you and i hope to see you again soon 💗💗 hope you're staying safe and healthy !!

[seungstarss]

hii i was busy with life shizzles ;-; but i finally had the time to read cupids law and i’m so ??2&3&3?/?-:$ i cant stop crying #lolz but anyways, i really enjoyed reading cupids law (prob gonna reread it whenever i’m free bc i like feeling hurt & broken!!!!) although the angst was depressing (and may i also mention that you lied… that was literally hardcore angst…) i genuinely like how you keep your fics/aus the same (y’know having major angsts and making us readers weep our eyeballs out!) sighs my heart still yearns for heeseung + yn </3 (happy ending when...?😓)

anywho! thank you for writing, i love your works so much:(( definitely anticipating for your future works!! hope you’re doing well & taking care of yourself <33

Hi nonnie, I hope you've been well tho!! Omll aaaa I'm really glad you enjoyed it and think it's even worth a re-read 🥺✋️✋️✋️ imma cry fr :") but sysgsuaay I'm so sorry bff lemme grav you those tissues real quick. I didn't acc think it was that sad so that's why I put the small note sfqhafahs but ig it was oh naurr

But I'm really glad you still like the angsty endings. Sometimes I feel like it's so not shocking anymore and that it's a lil basic for my account, but I'm still glad you enjoy my fics 🥺 I hope you're doing well too! Don't stress too much ilyy ♡♡♡

[onlyjaeyun]

my goodness. just read the final updates on poison and lord everything is going so well i’m tearing up💔 low-key heartbroken that the story is coming to an end but as long as it’s on a good note and a happy ending then everything will be okay 👍 really glad that sumin is fr out of the picture now, hee & yn are stupidly in love with eachother and sunghoon & ning are also stupidly in love with eachother just- the way this story developed and came along really just makes my heart wanna burst for some reason and ik it’s still not the END end but i fr feel like these last few chapters have been like some sort of farewell to poison ☹️ but anywho !! i hear a jay smau on the way? 👀 strictly business you say? i’m more than excited i’m jumping on my bed kicking my feet in the air while twirling my hair excited fr. your stories and plots never disappoint and everytime it’s just pure perfection, like ever since i discovered u from hype boy i haven’t been disappointed not even ONCE and jus- thank u zadie fr for taking ur time on writing, thinking and editing and all the above for making these masterpieces like your talent with story making is gen immaculate and woah just saw the ask about a jake angst ?? chill pls 💔 anywho ! sending u sm love & hugs & kisses i hope ur taking care of urself <33

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BABY!!!!!!🥺🥺🩷 not me giggling and all whenever you're in my inbox im lit in love

but yes, you know i'd never give y'all a bad ending im not that mean 😭 and i hope i'll have enough time to give you guys occasional bonus chapters so that's smth to look forward to!!!🥺

and please dont mane me cry rn i will literally lose my mind that is the sweetest thing EVER!!!🥺 thank you so much baby, i hope you know how much your words mean to me, i lit keep them so close to my heart all the time

and i dont wanna give too much thought to the jake angst just yet bc i dont wanna burn out but i think at around mid december we're gonna go full on angst with my angel boy so be ready 🫣🫣

sending you the fattest kiss baby, take care of yourself!🩷🥺🧸