#anyways. shocker of all shockers

[allroseshave-their-pricks]

still got it ;)

[inkedmyths]

Various Cold Steel ship stuff bc why not

[sharkdays]

"That despite having experienced inhuman suffering, she has nonetheless been able to gain the strength to face life."

[jortenthusiasst]

"I didn't like Neil in tsc-"

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

what's your take on odasaku and dazai's idealization of him?

also any takes you want to share about bsd/bsd in general?

(If you don't mind, I'm also interested in your thoughts about verlaine if thats ok 😭) tyty

who's your fave bsd character and whose the character from bsd you want to have more screen time?

i think its another case of projecting onto someone and it fucking things up. like notably how kouyou projects her own feelings abt light & dark onto kyouka. we just dont often see it that way because what oda does is like. stereotypically good? he uses his dying words to push a friend out of the dark. a death motivating others to act and furthering their character development is classic storytelling. you go into bsd knowing dazai is on the "good guys" side (not that the ada are "bad" but obviously reading bsd as a good guys vs bad guys story is. wrong), so clearly it worked out. so you kind of overlook the surrounding events yk? plus dazais own idolization of oda hammers that in. dazai tells atsushi that "He was a friend of mine (...) He’s the reason I quit the Port Mafia and joined the agency. I’d probably still be killing people for the mafia if it wasn’t for him" in dead apple (the lightnovel. im not going to go through pulling up the movie for this fhfhtndj). and so aside from previous bias people are going to take what dazai says at face value. hes thankful oda showed him the "side that saves people" and of course we're going to agree with that. the thing is. again. projection. now i havent actually finished dark era (i am working through it) but a lot of the time it feels like oda is just shoveling off all his feelings about being "someone meant for the darkness" onto dazai when thats something thats not going to be true for. well. anyone really? and his final conversation with dazai is very influenced by that. he says "You told me if you put yourself in a world of violence and bloodshed, you might be able to find a reason to live... (...) You won’t find it (...) You should know that. Whether you’re on the side that takes lives or the side that saves them, nothing beyond your own expectations will happen. Nothing in this world can fill the hole that is your loneliness. You will wander the darkness for eternity". now the thing is this is kind of a fucked up thing to say to an 18 year old with suicidal tendencies, but odas view of dazai makes it seem like a well needed wake up call. he obviously had good intentions. hes trying to "step into that solitude" but because of his flawed view of dazai he kind of. stumbles. dazai up to this point has been clinging onto the hope that he'd find a reason to live by observing the entire human experience. now oda comes along and dazai thinks hes found someone who understands him better than anyone, and oda tells him hes not going to find that. ever. so he should become a better person and make the world a good place. and also he's dying. so dazai, as we've seen, takes these words to heart. so hes not going to find a reason to live but he should also make the world a better place. good cool got that. so i think he gets a bit too comfortable being collateral for a good cause. and hes already convinced hes not going to find anything here, so of course hes not going to find anything. does that make sense.

i dont think ive phrased anything correctly here but like anyway i think with all his other friends around he'll be able to sort things out there. i cant see bsd ending without any sort of resolution for him in this regard yk.

[sneeb-canons]

HMS are all emo in their own way. Here's the list from least to most.

Heart

Overall aesthetic.

Soul

Two Wuv, was willing to risk RABIES for vampirism, “literally no one here tried to listen to me.”

Mind

Tries to seem emotionless, everything you listed here:

Headcanon #636

[dreamsy990]

is that really so scary?

as a bonus. some of my thoughts on this scene from when i played (ft phantom commentary!)

[scrawlingskribbles]

not me blearily waking up at 5:30am almost in tears bc I had a dream that Ian had apparently been making more little OK KO shorts on the side and the utter joy I was feeling as dream!me was scrambling to find & watch them only to wake up before I could........ :((((

[voltrixz]

Hey guys. I remembered a doodle i had lying around in my notes app and well.

[poorlydrawnmcyt]

hiiii if u follow my poorlydrawnmcyt acc on twt, I will be turning that acc into an alt to my main, I will be posting all art on my main yyuuraii instead

username change too on twt dot com =

poorlydrawnmcyt -> raiiyynn

Tumblr accs stay separated though!!! I mainly still use two so no changes here dw

[loveydoveypiperwright]

Finally finishing Descent [I played it 10 months ago but playing it on Nightmare convinced me to give up for a while lol] and I'm ngl, I'm kinda obsessed with this screenshot?? A treehugger (Dalish Elf) being so so so far underground in order to aid some short nerd (Shaper scholar) + her friend's squad of walking corpses (Legion of the Dead) in order to find out whether or not mythical creatures (Titans) are real. In the same area the Chantry's god locked up Tevinter's gods. Near the core. Amazing

[nexus-nebulae]

honestly i feel like i absolutely should not be forced to download third party apps if i think my phone or computer screen is too bright. there shouldn't be a limit as to how low i can turn my brightness, and i shouldn't have to rely on multiple apps that i can't guarantee the file safety of just so my eyes don't fucking hurt

[k1rameki]

have smth stupid and self indulgent i did a little bit ago

also ik a lot of yous on this side of fnf tumblr love the whibby and ive had a human whitty design in the works for a hot minute now so eat up yall

[deankarolina]

there really is no point why varric is in this game so far

[kryaaas]

Jean is bad in sex because he always wishes he could have mustarbated alone instead (masturbate with mustard)

[hideyseek]

complaining about. acting technique in blood of youth under the cut

tbh, it's all fine / i can't really say for the most part. i am just Annoyed about how the actors are interrupting each other lol

like, im not an actor (AT ALL lmao)! i know so little! but oh god the pacing of the interrupting is killing me lol! there's a full beat, every time, between the speaker being cut off and the speaker who is interrupting and this keeps happening! sure, it breaks my immersion every time when the guy being interrupted stops talkong in order to be interrupted, yes, annoying for me but its tv, time passes. but worse (imo) this acting choice keeps reading as 'the character cutting themselves off' which is a totally different action than 'another character in the scene cutting them off' — totally different dynamic, totally different way to build tension in the scene!! aaargh, haha.

and the fixes for this are really straightforward! a note i have heard theater directors give a lot is "inhale a few words before your next line so you will be ready to talk" — this helps keep the pace of the scene (and in theater, prevents the runtime of the show from being longer than what's printed on the show programs ahaha). the other note i've often heard given is for the speaker being interrupted to have something in mind for the rest of the sentence — something they probably want to know for character work anyway (lol, i say as i frequently interrupt characters in fic BECAUSE i have no idea what i want then to say next, but that's beside my current point). again w this technique the goal is to eliminate that space of silence between the lines, and preserve that feeling of "being cut off" for the audience. but it's such an easy note to give, its just timing!

ok /rant