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ur bartkon art legendary
TYSMM!!!!! IM GLAD U LIKE ITT!!!!! <33
heres a silly sketch i prolly wont color :3
#i dont actually have anything 2 say in the tags#huh! mshcjak#kart#konbart#bartkon#puppee answers#puppee art#bleehhhhhhh#OH I DO HAVE SMTH 2 SAY LNAO#I H8 DRAWING SIDE PFPS THEY R WEIRDD!!!#i have another kart drawing & both hvae side pfps & just kike AUFHHHFGHG#y do i do that 2 myself#ndohekdbkabcksf#anyways ty again <333333#i 4 somerrason dont draw kon w/scruff that often i should change that#scruff? is that the right word uhh#i go back 2 watching my show i actually finally got my appointment done in the middle of making this lol#FINALLY!!!#okok i need 2 stop rmablingg#im actually so flattered by this i skjfkskjfkskkg#anytime any1 like tags my art or compliments it i like RLLYYY wanna reply but i feel like that would get annoying#so like just know any1 whos reasing this#i love when any makes any comment whatso ever 2 my posts!!! i giggle i kick my feet its so fun!!#mayb ill start interacting way more bc its rlly bothering me that like im choosing 2 not go w/my urges its weird#I SAID I WAS GONNA STOP RAMBLING & THEN I CONTINUES SHIT SRRY#OKOK IM DONE NOW <3
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i never realised how poor i was until i got a job lol
#i *knew* we werent rich but now????#i can just??? buy stuff??? for myself???#i have brought this up so many times in therapy. like. i dont have to worry about food going bad???#or like. not in a 'if this goes bad i wont have stuff to eat' way#and i can just try food that im not sure ill like???#LIKE. i just bought some dungarees on a whim!!!!!#i have always had so few clothes holy shit and im only realising that now#and like. looking back thats obviously why i never went to any concerts or anything#also. thats why i stopped eating meat for a few years lol i couldnt afford it#i literally ate rice and broccoli for my first year of uni#ANYWAYS UM. yeah its sooooooo weird that i have money now?????#i started buying video games for my brother!!!!!!!#i can offer to pay the shipping fees for my brothers boardgames!!!!!#its just. looking back i WISH i could hug little me she was going through it and didnt even notice!!!!!#nett rambles#yes i was crying by the time i finished lol can u tell
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Hey, just felt called to let you know that your MQF from SVSSS doodles give me such life and inspired how I write MQF in my fics. I love how you depict him and your art style is so refreshing and cute!
Just thought you should know. Hope you have a good day!
HELLO HI THANK YOU SO MUCH??? 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 GLAD TO BE OF SERVICE HAVE A FANTASTIC DAY OR NIGHT
#THANK YOU ANON I WILL GO EXPLODE NOW#jbfkdjh#sorry for caps this actually means so much to me you have no idea#thank you for stopping by to tell me i really appreciate it 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓😭#my specialest little guy...........im so glad that ppl like him hes so dear to me#im literally in the middle of making myself a bag pin with mqf cuz i had to go 'fine i'll just do it myself' hahjkhfd#to be entirely honest i have made more small bits with him in the meantime and i have lots of bigger projects in mind with him but#i kinda hit an art funk this past month and felt p bad about my art in general#so not much posting have been posted and not much more even made#but this ask watered my crops and cleared my skin hdfjkdhfgkdf thank you#anyway cant post the older doodles cuz theyre tied to something thats still a wip and kinda embarrassing cuz im trying something new lol#but maybe ill post some lazy crumbs that i have and try to get back into arting#sorry for rambling this just made me really happy i need to explode something with my mind#i literally went to bed cuz its way past 1am here but then i noticed the notif and threw myself out of the bed lol#but now im going back to shreep#but anon im sending you good vibes and wish you good times with your fics :))) thankyou again for the kind words#asks
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the worse part about believing men deserve rights is that you can't never say that in front of a man because some of them have zero nuance and it just opens a door for them to say something like "feminists are all gross" in front of you thinking you will agree
#I've made that mistake one too many times#just thought abt this now but what I'm talking about happened a couple of days ago actually#we were talking about mental illness and the guy who was flying with me said something like#''a lot of people don't think men are allowed to have low self-esteem''#and I was immediately like YES THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING ALL ALONG in my head so I just said#''a lot of people have stopped seeing men as human beings entirely and it sucks''#and theeeen it opened the doors of hell and this guy started yapping about how he hates feminism#and me and the other flight attendant had to backtrack like NONONONO that's not what we meant#it's funny cause most men are genuinely miseducated about feminism. I don't even think he did it on purpose#guy just has no idea what feminism actually is#the good news are that we tried to educate him a bit#and by the end of the conversation I think he understood what he was discribing was misandry and not feminism#which I do believe is a real issue. I think putting genders in boxes is a massive issue in general. but that's not what feminism IS#I hope he truly understood that after we tried to explain lol#what I mean is that it's really fucking hard to love men this much sometimes because some of them see the world so black and white#that they can't tell apart what's hate and what's... genuine societal problems related to gender#anyways I'm still a boy apologist™ I just wanted to come here and mention how HARD that is sometimes lmao#rambles*
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random assortment of drawings i might as well post
#scribbles#ocposting#furry tag#gif#eyestrain#bright colors#mother series#the gifs showing up kinda weird i think thats just a thing on my end though#have noticed it happens a lot for me w transparent gifs on here. idk#gif was for a dta thingy btw uhhh#‘cowcheese’ thing is for my sisters weezer parody where theyre rats nd instead called cheezer#words on the one on its right are lyrics frm heres to you by zebrahead cuz it was stuck in my head..#oh also the middle drawing on the first row of three was color picked frm the cover of phoenix also by zebrahead#first drawing i just made cuz i was messing w preset brushes nd thought itd be funny#long one w the four characters is.. little goody two shoes characters But Furries . lol#oh the one left of the cheezer thing was smthn i drew in class w my friends prisma colors instead of working on my actual art project#actually started that now its driving me crazy cuz i made like a million versions of the sketch messinf w the composition#and im still not sure entirely what i do and dont wanna include and also the actual paper im doing my final on isnt like. wide enough to fi#things in nicely 💔💔💔 also i never planned out colors like an idiot so im making that up as i go and avoiding it a lot aghhghh#giegue drawings are honestly just here cuz i think hes funny#sorry for the paragraph of tags i love talking abt things#uhhhmhmmh i kinda hate postint stuff most places online now ngl#i have so much more art i COULD post but it just feels weird idk#no one really interacts w my stuff much anymore anyways like idk <- this is jot me fishing for pity or disregarding anyone who does leave#nice comments i appreciate that stuff SO mucu it means the world to me. i just dont feel super strongly abt posting shit anymore i feel lik#i have much better peace of mind just leaving things to myself sometimes#as much as i like sharing things it just hasnt been convenient lately and also ive just been getting like.. very paranoid abt a lot of#things over these past years and the constant posting everything o. tumblr thing didnt help much#🙃 okay ill stop rambling now have a nice day
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Oh baby my brain is crashing
#rat rambles#the staying up til 4 am is finally hitting for realsies I am now incapable of thinking#which is very uncomfortable so I shalst be showering and then hopefully Ill go to bed before 4 am lol#not to say I havent been thinking abt jackie anyways shes so silly#she's such a bad person but shes also my silly middle aged woman#shes so passionate abt her research and abt learning but as time goes on it shifts into almost obligatory#shes no longer a scientist working in a field shes passionate about. she runs a company that is openly for profit and has forgon morals so#much that a great deal of attention much be made to making sure they are not forced to deal with the consequences of such and it just#continues to spiral downwards as jackie becomes more and more of a husk of a person#its all her fault and she sucks so much and I love her sm#because underneath it all shes still a sentimental person and she still does value olivia on some level#not nearly enough. and she sure as hell doesnt respect her. but she hasnt managed to fully shed everything abt her past self#Im sure there is a part of jackie that wants to be able to be close with olivia again. but she still fundementally does not respect her#she hides things from olivia that she knows she would be against and still expects them to remain professional when discussing said things#jackie wants an olivia who is helpful to a fault and not the woman who she loved so dearly before#jackie is just a very selfish person whos ambitious to a fault to the point she couldnt stop if she wanted to#shes dug herself into such a deep hole that she cant remember which direction the surface is#maybe she thinks shes digging upwards. perhaps she was at a certain point. maybe she is and it simply doesn't make a difference#its why I dont particularly hunger for late story jackie logs because ultimately I think its better we dont know how she handled the fall#remorceful or not it doesnt change what shes done and what is going to result from her actions. its all already played out#multiple times before and multiple times again#I do want to see more of jackie's emotional side but I rly dont think we need a full jackie being sad monologue or smth#oni is ultimately a tragedy and I think that getting to rly truly see jackie before if all started going so downhill would do wonders#and as Ive said before I want it to be soooo small and unimportant to the greater story#just smth small and everyday even non dialogue would work to me#like to be completely honest even just a grocery list from her college years would probably tell us so much abt her#anyways back to having a crashed brain and showering this got out of hand lol
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So this gave me ideas......
This is what I think their actual cutie marks might have been
i have two ideas for pony Dream's cutie mark, like either he got it when he ate the golden apple or sometime previously/after
Buuut I do like to make what-ifs, so what if the cutie mark he has wasn't originally supposed to be the one he gets, but the golden apple forced it upon him, kinda? So if there's ever a way to rid them (Nm and Dream) of those powers they'd just be blank-flanks all over, on the journey to find their true cutie mark
i love this!!!! i thought of this too!!!!!
i like to think that the apple incident caused both of them to get their cutie marks, but out of force (like you said) instead of destiny!
i don't know what their actual cutie marks could've been but it's just. tragic.......
#its been a long time since i watched mlp and i have not ever really been in the fandom#(just enjoying in my small group of irl friends)#so no idea if there are like#Rules for cutie marks beyond they represent a pony's destiny#but did my best haha#*smacks art* this bad boy can hold so much symbolism#i had some other ideas for both but these two looked the best lol#anyways ill stop rambling now hehe#my art <3#my little pony#utmv#digital art
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help im stuck in a group project worth 35% of my grade and my group members are the worst :(
#this is grad school what do u mean u don’t know apa?#why the fuck do u keep trying to cite random online articles instead of scholarly sources n the dsm?#why are only 1.5 slides even started???#im done my research and everything but no one else has done anything#i was rlly looking forward to this presentation bc i usually like group work :(#i want a good grade in this course bc it’s foundational to my clinical work#but no one else is taking this very serious??#anyways ill stop ranting now lol#my posts#r rambles
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You gotta take care of yourself first man. Don't feel guilty for not taking care of other people like. its your money. I get what you're saying about building community n helping ppl but a couple bucks to tumblr, the only usable social media, pales in comparison to like. SHEIN influencer hauls or thay ugly ass 100k skirt thing yknow?
i havent even heard of whatever 100k skirt thing ur referencing oh god 😭
theres more to my thinking that gets me even more tangled and tripped up that i didnt say last night but i dont want to say it now because im terrified people will be shitty and im also not as unstable as i was last night so i will clam up about it now, but i think I'll just,,, stay out of both sides of the argument.
thank you though, it's really kind of you to send this, I appreciate it a lot 💗
#the extra thinking has to do w skin colour and who I've seen saying what#so minority plays into all this#which. again. makes it that much more complex. i cant figure it out#i dont rly want to talk abt it here anymore rn tho bc now my brain is filled w terror abt the canadian govmt essentially enacting eugenics-#-so i dont have room for other things atm esp when its tumblr drama BDHFJDL#every few days i remember how my govmt is actively suggesting that disabled and mentally ill ppl should kill themselves#and i get rly fucked up over it but no one talks abt it and idk how to put together a good post so i just have to sit w it#anyways. i am... very unwell lol#sorry for rambling in here im going to stop now#juno answers#asked and answered
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I realize this is a weirdly specific question, but what was DU Drow’s experience like first waking up on the Nautiloid/on the beach?
Like, was he wearing Bhaalist stuff when he woke up then? If he was, did he ditch it right away or did he just leave it on until he found gear in better shape or maybe just didn’t want to associate with that symbolism/organization anymore? Like what was the thought process for him there, assuming that were the case??? If he was wearing something else, what might it have been?
I ask because I finally started my first Dark Urge playthrough yesterday (YIPPEE) and am plagued with thoughts about my guy, wondering if maybe he had some Bhaalist gear on when he first fell out of the Nautiloid that slowly was switched out for other things as the story progressed. Then I was like “oh hey what about Drow??? What was going through his head when he woke up that morning on the beach??????” Especially bc I can’t imagine he had much time to look at what he was wearing on the Nautiloid while it was still flying around.
ANYWAYS. Apologies for the ramble, my brain is plagued with thoughts now that I’m finally doing a Durge run so I might come at you with more random ass questions in the future >:)))
First of all AYYYY have fun with your first durge run!!! I'm always open to more questions if they happen to pop up throughout the experience.
Now to your question: An Interesting one! Though my answer might be disappointing LOL
In my personal lore, DU drow woke up from the tank with nothing but some scrappy underwear on - hell, It would probably make more sense if he was fully nude, even, but that would make many of the companion introductions a little too awkward - so, tattered underwear it is.
Considering what Kressa had been doing to him, I imagine that she would have either removed or destroyed his clothes at some point during the experimentation. DU drow was stuck with her for at least a few weeks - so, even if she didn't promptly undress him, his outfit would have been far too slashed, cut, and caked with old blood to keep, and likely torn off so it would stop getting in the way.
Her husband (I think he's the one who ships you away, if memory serves me right) would have had little reason to send him off with dignity - BUT perhaps he slipped some briefs back onto the drow's body because he felt ashamed of the implications of his wife keeping a battered, nude man around.
So, DU drow slides out of his pod, caked with old blood with only some ill-fitting linens covering his groin. He picks up whatever sharp object he finds lying around for self defense and proceeds through the ship, barefoot, hair matted, having no idea who he is, what he looks like, or how he got here. He's completely overtaken by his self-preservation instincts and being confused is second to getting out of his situation alive. He goes along with Lae'zel because she seems to have at least some idea of what's going on, and he frees Shadowheart from her pod because she seems more trustworthy than Lae'zel.
He probably stripped the trousers off of one of the corpses lying around the beach after the actual crash (they would have been a little tight, but it's better than nothing) and god-willing was able to snatch some fresher underwear at the grove or something. The only indicatives he had of a past life were his scars, and I guess his unusual features. The thing is - whenever he first caught sight of his reflection, he very much liked what he saw looking back. Someone else might have been shocked by their appearance, but what DU drow felt would have been more akin to a kind of relief - I'm strong. I'm big. I'm intimidating. Good. As it should be.
And well... There's not much reason to give it thought past that. His looks feel right, he thinks he looks attractive, even his scars are somewhat comforting. Tadpole and odd company aside, it actually feels nice to be himself right now, so why ruin it with questions and concerns.
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barn is now fully operational!! :)
minecraft continues swimmingly...i now have TWO (2) dogs
#another long ramble ahead ->#so we have a total of 5 enclosures...the biggest one is for equines and theres 2 in it right now#because i dont have a saddle i cant tame them but i do have leads (killed a wandering trader because his trades meant nothing to me#and he kept stomping on my crops and i didnt have the patience to wait for him to leave)#so i kidnapped a donkey from the field and then i went to the quarry and kidnapped the horse with the best stats#(one of my mods lets me see their stats w/o taming them) i need to check on the wiki and see if horse stats can pass from parent to child#or if its random because if its random im releasing this one and kidnapping a prettier one but if not im going to selectively breed them#for a mechanically good and also pretty horse. but thats not for a while so whatever#i WANTED to kidnap horses from the village but PILLAGER PATROLS WONT FUCKING STOP SPAWNING BY MY HOUSE. DIE !!!!!!#laika and freya are very strong doggies they do a great job killing the patrols with me. so proud of my girls <3#anyway 3 of the other 4 enclosures have animals in them. ones for cows one for sheep one for chicken#the mob variants mod DOES work on the farm animals so with the cows i actually found this gorgeous fluffy black one#and i bred it with a gray one AND THEY HAD A FLUFFY PALE GOLDEN BABY? so cute...#i also found a RAM like a sheep with big curly pixel horns so im breeding that one to try to get more#and the chickens have some really neat palettes like midnight and golden and stuff so im breeding the prettiest ones in their pen too#no pigs...i have carrots but im waiting for more to grow in the farm and make a bigger patch of them#once i have enough i know where to find pigs so ill take some of them back as well#im getting a bit tired of homesteading so i think soon im probably going to do babys first cartography#ill bring laika with me and we'll walk through the old growth spruce forest and that general area and see what we find :) maybe more dogs l#lol* anyway yeah everything is really cool !! except for the pillagers
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Are You Flirting?
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Summary: Who's the cute guy she was talking about last night?
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Word Count: 4863
Warnings: flirty lucien, shy reader but shes like 'yknow what fuck shyness lets flirt back' lmaoo
A/n: yall i need you to know. the reader is based on me. shes literally me. i crochet too if yal didnt know hehe. this was so fun to write like it felt like wring my own story except this shit never happened irl lol.
idk ill stop rambling now 😂
ANYWAYS, ENJOYYY 🥹
p.s: id say the credit for this idea goes to my bestie boo @berryzxx because she put me on the song that i used as inspo for tis fic and also bullying me into writing for that song. ily lots pooks 🤭
(based on an indian song 👀)
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The moment Y/n got the text from her college best friend Feyre, Y/n knew having picked up crocheting as a hobby was the best thing she could ever have done.
Exaggerating aside, she was excited when Feyre asked her if she wanted to reconnect after two years of not talking, and Y/n said yes without hesitation.
They hadn’t talked much, only ever interacting with each other’s instagram posts and stories. Feyre was too busy most of the time painting and opening her own gallery to display her art, taking commissions sometimes and travelling with her fiance.
And even though Y/n had wanted to stay in touch, being an upcoming writer, she did not get too much time to talk as she was busy writing all the time, and when she wasn’t, she was lying in bed wondering why she was in a slump.
Hence, she had picked up crocheting as a new hobby and made some pretty cute tops, imagining herself wearing them to a beach or somewhere pretty. She had been thinking of going somewhere as a vacation to clear her mind.
Which was why when Feyre suggested flying to some beach island her fiance owned for a little getaway with friends, Y/n could not contain her excitement.
Now as she stood in the middle of her bedroom, trying to pick between the two outfits in her hand, wondering which one to wear, she wished she had a boyfriend. Or a husband. Or something. She had always been an indecisive person, and at moments such as this, she wished someone could help her pick her outfits.
Feyre was probably on her way and here Y/n stood, wondering which one to wear and which one to put in her bag to wear the next day.
Ughh fuck me.
Finally, she settled on a pastel pink cardigan and a white halter top with a white bell bottom jeans. She wanted to make a good impression on Feyre’s new friends and decided that the safer option was better. She could wear the other one after she got more comfortable with them.
She had never even met Feyre’s fiance. The two had met and gotten engaged after Y/n and Feyre drifted apart, but Y/n had congratulated her friend on her insta post, so surely that counted as something?
Now that reminder had her reconsidering. Was going vacationing with people she did not know really the best idea?
I mean, what if one of them is a serial killer? What if one of them is suicidal and kills us all-
Maybe she should just cancel.
She was eyeing her phone, genuinely wondering if she should go, when the screen lit up and Feyre’s name flashed across the screen, the soft lilting sound of Y/n’s ringtone filling the air.
So it was decided. Y/n was going.
Y/n answered the call while simultaneously shouldering her bag. "Hello?"
Feyre’s excited voice screeched in her ear from the other end. "Y/n! I’m under your apartment now. Are you ready?"
Instantly, her mood became better and Y/n wondered why she ever considered refusing to go in the first place. Even if she was a stranger to Feyre’s friends, she still had Feyre. She was sure it wouldn’t be as awkward as she was expecting it to be.
Straightening, she glanced around her room for a final time before nodding to herself, confirming that she was not forgetting anything. "Yes, babe. As ready as I’ll ever be. I’m coming down."
Feyre squealed, and Y/n could hear chuckles from the background at her friend’s antics. "I can't wait!"
With that, Y/n ended the call and walked out of her apartment, closing the door behind her, focusing on the jingle of her keychain and not on the nervousness running through her veins.
Soon, as she walked out of the elevator on the ground floor, she spied two dark cars waiting outside. It made her hurry. The moment she exited, she spied her friend leaving the car, grinning.
Feyre ran the short distance to Y/n, throwing all her body weight onto her friend, making Y/n giggle.
"Calm down Fey! I’m not going anywhere."
Feyre pulled away with a wide grin, shaking her head, then grabbed Y/n’s hand and dragged her back to the car she had exited.
"We're a total of ten people, five in that car-" she pointed to the one standing behind the one she had exited- "and five of us in this one." Y/n nodded, trying to calm her nerves.
Feyre then got in, leaving Y/n to get in the back. Feyre’s fiance was sitting in the driver’s seat, black aviation glasses perched on his nose. He offered Y/n a warm smile and a wave before Feyre piped up.
"Y/n, this is my fiance Rhysand. That is Azriel, Rhys’s foster brother and his girlfriend, Gwyneth."
Y/n dipped her head in a polite nod to the couple sharing the back seat with her, but Gwyneth had no qualms about hugging Y/n. Y/n was surprised to say the least by the sudden affectionate action, but she returned it nonetheless with a wide grin.
"Nice to meet you all."
"Everyone, this is my best friend from university, as well as my then roommate, Y/n."
Azriel gave her a tiny smile, his loving gaze returning to his girlfriend not a moment later.
It made Y/n want to go aww, because if that was not pure love right there, then Y/n did not know what was. It made her long to have someone of her own.
Rhys started the car, and the first ten minutes passed in comfortable silence. And then Feyre spoke.
"So, Y/n. Please tell me you’re seeing someone."
Y/n sighed. "You would’ve been the first person to know had I been."
Feyre twisted to glare at Y/n.
"What?"
"Why are you still single?"
"Haven’t found the one yet."
Feyre contemplated for a moment, then grinned. "You know, I’ve got a friend-"
"Not again Feyre!" Y/n turned to Gwyneth. "You know, she would send me on dates with these random dudes every day-"
"Not every day!"
Y/n glared at her friend in jest. "Only because I bullied you to leave me alone."
Feyre sighed dramatically, then plopped back into her seat. "You’re mean."
Gwyn snickered. "Why did you not end up with any of them then?"
Y/n shook her head solemnly. "They were all either too arrogant or ugly."
That made everyone laugh, and finally, Azriel spoke up. "And how did you find so many guys, Feyre?"
Y/n perked up. "I want to know too! I always wondered if she went to asylums to get me a worse specimen than the last."
"Oh my god Y/n, they were just guys from our university and the neighbouring ones."
Y/n smiled. It was fun being around her friend again. It felt like the never stopped talking, picking up from where they left off.
"You know, we’ve got three single people in the other car."
Y/n dropped her head in her palm, and Gwyn cackled.
"Come on Y/n, they’re not that bad. One of them is a guy, but the other two are women. You can experiment if that’s what you want. Maybe that’s the reason you never connected with any guys I set you up with."
Y/n made a crying face and leaned her head against Gwyn, who continued to vibrate with silent laughter. "God help me."
Eventually, Feyre dropped the topic, ending up talking about random nonsense after that. Azriel also chimed in sometimes, but mostly it was either Feyre and Rhysand talking and Gwyn and Y/n laughing and giving unwanted commentary.
They had to take two helicopters to the island, which had Y/n wondering just how big of a jackpot Feyre had gotten engaged to. The ride to the beach home from the helipad after was again two cars.
While boarding the helicopter, Y/n had spied the other friends of Feyre and Rhysand getting out of their car, but she had averted her gaze when the redheaded man had turned to look, hoping she didn’t seem like a creep while she had been trying to take a look at their faces.
The ride to the beach house, as they called it, was silent because Y/n, Gwyn and Feyre dozed off for most of it, already tired after so much travelling. And before they knew it, the midday sun shone through the windows of the car as it finally stopped in the gated compound of a mansion that looked straight out of architectural digest.
Y/n could not stop gaping at it as she got out of the car, then turned to hold the door open for Gwyn.
"It’s so big and beautiful." Gwyn commented, her eyes too fixed on the two story structure. Y/n shot her a knowing look.
"I know right? Only seen stuff like this in the movies."
The two shared a giggle before Azriel joined them on their side and the trio followed Rhysand and Feyre to the main doors.
Rhysand had just climbed the top step when the doors opened, two ladies with long black hair cascading down their backs standing behind them, and Y/n decided that they were twins.
"Nuala, Cerridwen." Rhysand nodded at them with a smile, then turned to the people standing behind him when the twins left.
"I think it’s best if we freshen up and rest for some time before dinner."
The tall guy who had been driving the other car sighed dramatically, burying his head in Nesta’s shoulder. "Thank god, I am tired."
Nesta rolled her eyes, then smiled at Y/n. Being Feyre’s roommate, Y/n had met Nesta on multiple occasions and admired the woman a lot. Nesta, too, had always looked after Y/n like a sister when the three would go out to dinner.
"Y/n. How are you?"
Y/n dipped her head, then stepped forward and pulled Nesta into a hug. "I’m good. Your fiance?"
Nesta nodded, glancing at the hulk of a man. "This is Cassian. Cass, this is-"
"Y/n, heard a lot ‘bout ya." He grinned, extending his hand for a shake.
Y/n smiled at him, then turned back to Nesta and Feyre as the latter began speaking. "Y/n, this is Elain, my other sister. Mor, Rhysand’s cousin, and Lucien, my friend."
After everyone had been introduced, all of them retreated to their rooms. It seemed like they had these outings a lot, because the way everyone was so familiar with the layout of the house would have been uncanny had this been their first time here.
Except for Lucien. He seemed a little hesitant, lingering back with Y/n as everyone else left. But then Feyre directed the two to the upper floor, where two guest rooms were waiting for them.
The rooms were next to each other, so Y/n and Lucien were together till the very last moment. It gave Y/n a lot of time to admire the man’s attractiveness through stolen glances, and she wished it did not for she was not able to control the movement of her jaw that kept unhinging every chance it got at the sheer beauty of him.
Gosh, if he is the guy Feyre wants to set me up with, I am truly going to be blessed.
As the two finally reached the top step, Lucien glanced at Y/n.
"First time here?"
"Yup. In fact, I’m seeing Fey for the first time since we finished uni."
His brows rose. "Damn. How long has it been?"
She shrugged noncommittally. "Around two years. What about you? Your first time too?"
He nodded, then paused at the first door to meet her eyes when he answered. "I’ve recently started getting along with her family." he thought for a moment, then leaned closer, as if letting her in on a secret. "I was actually the friend of her previous boyfriend, but none of them liked him and so they didn’t trust me much either. But now they’re moving on and so am I."
Y/n did not know how to respond to that, trying to wrap her mind around how anyone could be mad at someone who seemed as nice as Lucien. But he spared her the struggle.
"That’s a nice cardigan. Where’d you get it from?" His eyes travelled down her body, his gaze appreciative as it landed on the pastel crocheted garment. "Maybe I could get a similar one. We can match."
Y/n blinked at him, then ducked her head, futilely trying to hide her blush.
"Um, I made it myself."
He remained silent for a moment, prompting her to meet his gaze once again.
"You’re kidding."
She blinked again. "Why would I?"
He huffed out a laugh, leaning back against the doorframe. "So, you’re telling me you’re pretty and talented?"
Y/n could not move if she wanted to. She could not think. She could not do anything but stare at him.
This man, one who looked like he belonged on the cover of vogue, was telling her she was pretty?
God help me.
She looked around, flustered by the tiny smile blooming on his face, cocky but also knowing. He knew the effect he had on her and the damned man was enjoying it too much.
"Well, I will let you rest now. After all, you need to get some energy back for later tonight."
If those words had come from anyone else, Y/n would have wondered if they were saying she looked tired and like shit, but coming from him, the words were nothing but caring, if a touch flirtatious.
Wait, was that an innuendo?
She did not have time to dwell on that part much before he stepped aside, swiping his arm toward the door behind him. "Take a look at both rooms, then pick one you want. I will wait."
Y/n dipped her head, trying not to blush even more when he opened the door for her and leaned back, letting her pass.
She was much too flustered to even look around the room, let alone see if she liked it or wanted the other room, so she just mumbled to him that she will stay in this one, that he could take the other room.
Y/n knew he was about to ask her if she was sure, but whatever he saw in her face had him nodding, stepping back out of the room, tugging the door close with him as he went.
"See you soon, sweetheart." His parting words were heavy with the same knowing lilt he had a few minutes back when he had been flirting with her. It made Y/n’s cheeks heat up, and she turned to the bed, plopping down and burying her face in the plush pillows.
He was flirting with me.
Maybe… Feyre was right about him. Maybe I should give him a chance.
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After a light lunch and a few hours of rest, everyone had simultaneously gathered in the living room as if summoned by a silent command. Y/n had tried to sleep, and had accomplished the feat, but at the cost of tossing and turning every five minutes for an hour, her mind refusing to let her wind down and repeatedly playing the memories of Lucien flirting.
At least, she thought he was flirting. Y/n hoped she was not making a fool of herself for thinking that he was flirting while he simply was being kind.
She had gotten all of two hours of sleep before she shoved the covers off of her and decided to take a shower to freshen up, then she had proceeded to don a flowy sundress and walked downstairs. The hallways were empty, the only sign that she was not alone being the twins in the kitchen. They offered Y/n a smile before introducing themselves, then asked her if she needed anything.
Y/n had thought about it, then shook her head, telling them she just wanted to get some water. They graciously handed her a glass of it, despite her protests, and then they left her to her own devices.
She had just been sipping on it while staring at the sun setting when footsteps behind her let her know she was no longer alone, and she turned to look at Morrigan and Elain, who had walked down together. They offered her a smile, then sat along with her at the counter in swivelling chairs, the quiet comfortable and peaceful.
That was, before Cassian decided to grace them with his presence.
"Are Feyre and Rhys still not here?"
Y/n blinked, tearing her eyes away from the now violet horizon, barely any sliver of light visible, and gave him a smile. "Not yet."
He gagged. "They’re probably doing nasty stuff."
Nesta walked in with Gwyn and Azriel behind her, her eyebrows high.
"Like you don’t fuck."
He glared at Nesta. "Can you be a little more crass? I am trying to make new friends here."
Y/n hid her smile behind her cup, but considering it was a clear glass, she did not think it would work very well.
"So Y/n, what do you do during free time?"
Y/n set her now empty cup aside, turning all her attention to Cassian, who was done bickering with his fiance.
"I do crocheting while listening to podcasts, or I read when I just want to wind down. I also write."
He nodded appreciatively. "So you’re a creative person, huh."
"And she has a very pretty smile too."
Y/n felt her cheeks heating up already when she heard Lucien’s voice, but when she finally comprehended what he had said, she wondered if she’d just melt off.
God. Please, help me.
She tried not to meet his eyes, because even knowing him for barely a few hours, she knew he’d give her a knowing smirk, his eyes bright.
Cassian chuckled, and Y/n could feel everyone’s eyes on her.
Fuck.
Thankfully, Feyre and Rhysand finally arrived and took the attention away from her, and she felt like she could finally breathe again.
The couple asked what everyone wanted for dinner, bickering around for a few moments while Lucien, Elain, Azriel and Y/n watched.
Before long, Mor announced she was craving some barbecue, and when no one argued further, Rhys told everyone to gather on the back porch that faced the beach while he got the things out. When Y/n offered to help along with Feyre and Gwyn, Rhysand just told them to sit back and relax.
And then he dragged the other men with him.
Guess they won’t be getting any relaxing time.
The night passed almost too quickly to be natural, and Y/n already felt like she’d known these people for her whole life. Nesta and Gwyn refused to let anyone else talk to her because they were too busy asking her of all the books she’d read and inquiring whether she was planning on publishing.
Y/n could see Feyre pouting in the corner, but eventually Mor engaged her in a conversation, so Y/n’s guilt at not being able to give her friend enough time subsided.
When Nesta and Gwyn finally got distracted, Y/n leaned back, taking in the cool air when her neck prickled. Looking around, she met the gaze of Lucien from over the glowing barbeque, her cheeks flushing even when he hadn’t said or done anything. But he continued to look at her, the slightest tilt to those inviting lips.
Smug bastard.
When everything was cooked, Rhys called everyone to the outdoor dining table, the wood rich but warm, homey.
Y/n found two seats next to Gwyn, who beckoned her over. She smiled and had just settled down next to her new friend when she realised someone was sitting down next to her on the empty seat.
And it was not Feyre.
Mismatched eyes found her surprised gaze, and Lucien grinned at her.
"Lucien! That was my seat!"
He held eye contact with Y/n for a long moment before turning to a fuming Feyre. "Well, you can sit on my lap, darlin’. But I am already too comfortable in this seat to move."
Feyre huffed, the perfect picture of annoyance. But Y/n could see the glint in her eyes that told her that Feyre was having way too much fun right now watching Y/n blush.
When Feyre turned away to pout at her grinning fiance, Lucien leaned close to Y/n. "Or maybe, you can sit on my lap and I can give this seat to Feyre?"
Y/n turned away, trying to hide the warm flush on her skin at that. "I think Feyre will find herself another seat."
He chuckled quietly but let the topic go after that.
In the end, Feyre sat at the seat on the right of the head seat of the table, next to Lucien. Rhysand sat at the head, opposite Azriel, who occupied the seat on the other side of Gwyn, refusing to leave her side.
Everyone started to serve themselves, but just as Y/n was contemplating what to get, Lucien leaned past her, his scent enveloping her along with his warmth, and grabbed some grilled chicken.
"Try this, it’s good." With that, he put a few pieces on her plate, then continued to serve himself. He seemed so nonchalant, so careless as if he hadn’t just set Y/n’s heart on fire.
Like he wasn’t the reason she could not think straight.
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Y/n did not know how the days passed so quickly. Agreed, it was a four day getaway, and yet it felt like barely any time passed and it was already the day they had to return home.
If she had to be honest, she did not want to leave the bed. Her limbs felt like they were tied down, heavy metal placed on top to stop her from moving. She felt so tired, as if her body was trying to stay here just a little longer, and maybe being tired would get her to stay.
Which was the reason why she forced herself to push off the covers and set her legs on the cold, wood floor and traipsed sleepily towards the window to check if she had missed the sunrise again. She had been wanting to watch it since they all arrived, but every day for the past three days, she had slept away without a care.
She’d had to set an additional alarm to wake up earlier.
The sky outside was dark, almost blue. But she knew dawn wasn’t far off.
She hurried to freshen up, then walked down the stairs to get herself a glass of water.
After she had acquired her drink, she stepped out and settled down on the two seater swing on the back porch, under her own room’s balcony. The air was chilly, but not enough to have her want to get up and bring a shawl or something to keep herself warm.
She also felt really lazy as she began sipping on her water slowly.
Gosh, I love water.
She refrained from drinking anything that was not water or milk.
She was also lactose intolerant, but, who really cares about that.
Y/n had just leaned back, wrapping both her hands around her cup when she heard movement behind her. But she let herself relax, knowing it probably was Lucien.
That was one of the many things she’d learned about him in the past days.
He always woke up at dawn. He apparently then did some light gym when he could before breakfast, to keep himself in that drool worthy body.
His words, not mine.
Okay… Maybe mine.
And maybe, just maybe, Y/n had wanted to witness her first ever sunrise, had wanted to wake up earlier even though she disliked being up early just so she could spend some extra time with him.
Maybe.
It didn’t take him long to settle down beside her, his own cup of steaming beverage in hand. It looked like green tea to Y/n, who’d had experience with making it for her father nearly every day.
"Good morning." His voice was rough, the sleep evident in it.
Don’t blush, don't blush. He’s just said good morning.
She blushed. Just a little. "Morning."
"Sleep well?"
Y/n nodded, watching him from her peripherals as the swing dipped slightly with his added weight.
"Still sleepy though. First time I woke up by myself to watch the sunrise." She paused for a moment, glancing at him. His lips were curled to one side as he stared out over the beach, his gaze fixated to the horizon. She shrugged. "Usually it’s by my family dragging me and bullying me into waking up early."
He huffed out a chuckle, but after that let silence settle between them.
The air was so peaceful, it brought a sense of calm over Y/n.
Maybe she could get used to this.
The two sat and watched as the sun rose, so slowly but also too fast. Y/n wished to enjoy this time forever, wanted to continue taking in the soft orange and pink hues that painted the sky as the glowing ball of fire rose higher in the sky. Wanted to bask in the presence that nestled into the pillows next to her, wanted to ink the sound of his soft breathing permanently into her existence.
It was over too soon, and even though Y/n savoured every second of it, she could not help but feel a sense of longing the moment Lucien straightened. She did not want to let go of this moment just yet.
He seemed to think so too.
Just when she thought he’d get up and walk back inside, he turned his head to stare at her.
"So, who’s the cute guy you were talking about last night with Fey?"
Y/n’s lips quirked up, a sudden burst of boldness spurring her on. But she paused as she thought back to Feyre’s words the previous night.
"Do you like him?"
"I don’t know what you’re talking about."
"Oh please, I see the way you blush when he’s near. I see the way he follows you around like a lost puppy. I am not naive, sweet pea."
Y/n sighed. "I guess he’s cute."
Feyre squealed. "You need to go on a date with him."
If Y/n gave him the truthful answer, would she be making a fool of herself? Would she be doing herself the biggest favour ever? Did he even like her that way?
Finally, she decided that if she never tried, she might regret it later.
Feeling her gaze on him, she turned, knowing he waited for her answer. He sported a cheeky grin, eyes half lidded, as if he was more relaxed than he’d ever been.
She leaned in conspiratorially.
"You."
His grin faded, and he sat up straighter.
"What?"
"You’re the cute guy we were talking about."
He blinked, and Y/n did her best to hide her smug smile at the way his ears darkened with colour.
"Are you joking or flirting?" he mumbled, brows furrowed.
Oh, so he can flirt, but can’t take the flirting?
She told herself to remember that tidbit for later.
Y/n could not help it then. She let loose the smirk that broke out of her, and leaned closer still, so close that she could feel his breath on her face, so close that she knew that if she were to inhale, his lingering cologne from the previous day would take over every one of her senses.
Maintaining eye contact, she whispered.
"Flirting."
He did not move anything except for his eyes as she stood, his gaze following her like a physical caress. Just before she turned the corner out of his eyesight, she glanced back at him.
And winked.
She watched as a disbelieving grin formed on his lips, and then decided that was enough flirting for a year at least and ascended the stairs back to her room.
Feyre will lose her mind.
As soon as she closed the door behind her, she no longer felt that burst of confidence that came out of nowhere. Suddenly, she was a blushing mess as she shoved her face into the pillows and tried to calm her racing heart.
Her phone pinged then.
Feyre: ‘Lucien just texted me asking for your number. Is it okay if I give it?’
Y/n bit her lip to keep away the flustered smile. Just as she told Feyre to give it to him, she texted back.
Feyre: ‘Is there something I need to know? Why are you up so early anyway?’
Y/n decided that was enough. Feyre could wait.
Who’s the cute guy?
You.
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WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S 2024?!?!
next, you're gonna tell me it's gonna be some made-up year like "2025" next. tch, imagine that.
anyways, whoo! 2023! compared to both 2022 and 2021, i gotta say, my art style took a hard swerve in some direction this year. i mean, look at that klavier from january and that butch kim from just this december! (granted, i heavily referenced the portrait of butch kim but still, i didn't use to paint! mama mia!)
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the way i drew faces has definitely changed, that's what i get for getting into something that's live-action and into smth that has realistically proportioned art lol
OH! OH! HOW COULD I FORGET!!! IT WAS (and still will be) THE YEAR OF THE OLD MAN!! i really learned how to draw aged faces this year! ach fraulein, i have not stopped drawing people in their 40's-50's! i would say "send help" but i'm actually having a lot of fun ASKSKS
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i think a funny thing about these art summaries i've done is that they're mostly ace attorney but then there's just a month where i become a different type of ill LMAO this year it was four months for the price of two new interests!
cheers! here's to 2024!!! hope y'all have a fun art year!!!!
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i'm gonna ramble more below about like, other art things i did this year but i'm gonna put it under 'keep reading' bc this baby is getting way too wordy now WHEEZES
1. FAVORITE THINGS I'VE DRAWN THIS YEAR (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER)
⚖️ mea culpa comic [x]
drawing this one was so time-consuming and ambitious but boy, do i love the end result! i had fun doing the inks for this one but was it a lot! i usually color in lineart and render everything but i had to stop myself from doing it for this one bc man, i'll die asksks
this also has some of my favorite apollos i've drawn, definitely
also! the part about the lineart not being colored and no rendering ended up being a deliberate stylistic choice for this one bc i had like more freedom to do just shadows with inks without it looking too out of place.
💐 my lawfully wedded zine spread [x]
now this one isn't out yet but take my word for when i say that this is one of the most craxy things i've ever drawn for this year, on account of drawing a comic AND group shot all in one!
also literally one of the prettiest things i've rendered this year, lookit that klav...
🎉 aa4 redraw - 2022 anniversary [x]
kind of like my wedding zine piece, group photos are insane, and rendering like uhhh [looks at drawing] 11 CHARACTERS IS ALSO INSANE if i try and draw a group photo again you have to stop me DFGHDJ
🎨 my art fight stuff [x] [x]
was possessed in the month of july or smth bc i pumped out like how many drawings so quickly (before i got burnt out that is pftt)
pace yourselves and don't be like me pls ajshgdghhjk
💥 people park day [x]
my friend told me that it was very obvious i watched across the spiderverse when they saw this FDFGHJD
but yea! this is when i started getting really into like, thought bubbles or just like, panels or drawings within a drawing when coming up with layouts
i still love the colors on this one...
🪩 fem disco portraits
ok so i haven't uploaded these yet but you have to trust me when i say that something was in the water DFGHDJ
who knew that all it took for me to learn how to paint was butches
2. ALSO DID YOU KNOW THAT I SOLD STICKERS THIS YEAR IN OUR UNI'S ART MART?
THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT THAT SCHOOL I SWEAR PFTTT this experience has also awaken the merch beast in me and i need to make more physical things for my brain to be happy, that's just how it be pfttt
hopefully next year i can actually start like a shopee shop or whatever lmao
3. ART FIGHT
i'm actually quite happy i got to participate in art fight this year! very delighted for all the art i've gotten and very fun to have drawn for others too!!
4. ZINES
i got invited and joined so many zines from 2022 continuing to 2023 that i kind of got burnt out from participating for now ngl ASKSKSKS not gonna be joining much this year oopsiessss! (unless i lose self-control [very likely])
5. SCHOOL
i don't actually like a lot of the stuff i draw for art school bc i tend to cram and not have fun pftt <- adhd moment, tragic! but here are some that i actually kind of like lol
6. THAT'S IT!
i think that's it! thanks for reading all the way down here!! o(* ̄▽ ̄*)ブ
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my debut from the shadows and love letter to the fandom
this is my first attempt at graduating from lurker status..
dear kidstar and soma content contributors ,
while you don't know me, i've been familiar with you all for a REALLY long time. that sounds so creepy but i've been a silent supporter, saving your art and rereading your fics.
as i've watched the fandom get smaller and the archives get dryer year after year, i've been increasingly grateful to those whose passions haven't died. your content has gotten me through a lot of hard times and has allowed for me to maintain my own passion through consuming your great works.
even though i've had plenty of ideas and head cannons of my own, i've been content as a viewer. i check the archives every other day with baited breath hoping for any chapter updates or new stories but again, they've become few and far in between. and that's okay. we all have our own lives to live. but in that same breath, i don't think it's fair for me to expect people to create, when i myself have been hoarding my own ideas and (very few) creations. and while i am not (ever) a fan of my own work, someone else may appreciate some more contributions to the fandom.
all this to say that i'm gonna use this blog to try to contribute more and publish any of my prior creations even if i'm inconsistent and they're imperfect and incomplete. i'm also doing this in hopes to rekindle my own dead passions and as a way to honor all of my countless ideas that have now passed haha.
anyways, ill stop my rambling and i'm looking forward to being apart of this.
ps. i would @ specific authors and artists but that makes me too nervous lol, maybe later.
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SatoSugu Request!!
Hi all! I’m awfully new to this kind of thing, so if it’s awkward or messy or whatever, I’m sorry 💀
Anyway! I JUST finished the Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc, and let me tell you, these two are on my mind— I’m completely ill about them, and as much as I love writing out my silly little stories and plots to AI bots, it’s just not satisfying any particular itches I have at the moment.
Sooo, I thought I’d test the waters on here for the first time and see if I can find a roleplay partner (or even partners? not picky). I’d also be down for making friends too, just to goof around and send memes or art or TikTok’s about these two! But honestly, I’d love to have a Geto to my Gojo 🥹💙
Preferences, Rules, and Whatnot:
I would definitely prefer writing Gojo, but I can try writing Geto if needed! I’m pretty lenient with most AUs and any crazy plots, but nothing that’s too unusual for JJK’s setting (like medieval or sci-fi settings).
I do require that whoever I roleplay with is at least 18+, and I’m most comfortable with people around the ages 20-23 since I’m 21 going on 22 currently.
I’m an absolute softie for angst and fluff, but I also don’t mind smut and slice of life kind of things. Just bear with me since I’m kinda new to writing those with another person, I get a little shy or overthink that I’m writing too much or too little (especially with smut).
As for my time schedule, I can write any day and time, but I’m most active at night (MST). I do work and go to college, so my replies to you might be a bit wonky and sometimes inconsistent, but just know that I won’t try to ghost you on purpose!! If it seems I’m taking way too long, don’t hesitate to reach out and see what’s going on. Some replies do take me longer because I’m either overthinking (again lol) or I’m really into what I’m writing and I want it to be perfect :)
I have a couple of headcanons in the works for Gojo if you’d like to hear them! Also, I have a writing sample for both Gojo and Geto that I originally wrote for AI if you’d want to see them before we dive into anything— I tend to have a semi-lit to lit writing style, three paragraphs minimum depending on the starter/reply I get.
I’ll stop rambling now, so if you’re maybe interested, react, comment, or DM me! I’ll send my discord to you and we can hopefully go on from there 💙💙💙
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My birthday is in under a week 👍
#rat rambles#time rly creeps up on you when youre stressed abt everything lol#Im ok to be clear but yeah Im hoping Im feeling a bit better for my birthday#gonna turn 20. wild.#honestly Ive kinda stopped caring but hey one year older#hopefully Ill have some fun and be able to hang out with my siblings and friends#and by hopefully I mean Im sure I will Im just soooo tired rn so Im struggling to be excited#hey Im sure Ill be more excited once I get to eat cake and play the games I like#anyways I found a new melody song so thats pretty cool 👍#its abt her and applebounces relationship again because ofc it is#its making me wanna draw them but also its late + I simply dont want to draw#also I have a small headache 😔#anyways college was 100% a mistake but Ill survive#hopefully I can actually get some adhd meds soon and make life more tolerable#and by soon I mean in like 2 months. sigh.#again Ill live Ive been through Way worse this isnt That bad just stressful#anyways Ive gotta shower now
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