#anyways i’m rambling but i miss him 💔

[l00ny-m00n]

he was so underutilized 😔

[chthonicgodling]

ugh cute Elysium thing that I can’t figure out how to draw - Tory’s a daemon and he’s ✨bitey✨ even when he’s not shifted into daemon form. endless stream of hickeys and teef marks left in his wake aside, this particularly includes the puppy(kitty?😏)-like habit of nipping for attention, or correction whenever Maci says something particularly outrageous - Or Loki for that matter nowadays lmfao

also as a general dommy sex thing of course

I’m specifically thinking about two current canon convos, one being during THIS EVENT AHEM AHEM CLICK THAT IF YOU MISSED MY HESITANT ANNOUNCEMENT - maci and him telling EeL specificallyyyyyyyy that they want to keep him!! and eeL still being like “but what does that mean!! but just for now??? 😔😔💔” until Tory literally nipped at him and was like “🙄🙄🙄QUIT BEING RIDICULOUS”,

number two right NOW AS WE SPEAK - I am currently desperately trying to in-character CLARIFY ABOVE . so we have Maci and Tory discussing their ✨circumstances✨ and currently, Maci oh so charmingly checking in with Tory to make sure they’re on the same page right now in regards to their shenanigans with eeL. With Maci being Maci, the way that she chooses to phrase this is, “[But] if it’s too much for you, just tell me. You want out, I’ll break his heart for you in a second.”

🙄🙄🙄🙄 JESUS??????

but. that’s then Tory immediately nipping at her and chastising, “!!! Be nice to him😠” HEY! that’s SO cute! (Maci indeed immediately like 🥺YOURE SO PROTECTIVE OF HIM THATS SOOO CUTE)

not Tory constantly having to nibble to now get TWO of them to pay-attention-behave-be-emotionally stable-not say terrible things m God with this potential throupling in mind it’s. really just.

oh Toryyy,,,

anyway hope you enjoyed this rambly post I’m brain dead from work rn and trying to draw but instead hyperfixating on this feral direction of fluff.Noms you while rolling my eyes……… anyway yeah idk how t draw this I’m struggling enough drawing anyone lying on each other!???? baby steps

[httpiastri]

just watched kimi’s Q&A and i guess i was wrong about the whole school thing because he said he’s done with it HAHAHHA

this just honestly makes think that we’ll be seeing him in f1 next year (not that i’m sad but he’s too young imo)

anyways i saw someone saying that they are team paul and i’ll say that i’m team pepe because he’s such a good friend to us (especially the phone thing last chapter i LOVED it)

and last final thought of my ramble:

does anybody agree that the LAP vlogs just feel kinda different? idk it’s not the same as they used to be, they seem more distant? idk how to describe it better :(

OH ??? pls that's so funny 😭 ig being a superstar comes with its perks even when it comes to school...... but yeah now it does feel much more probable that they'll put him in f1 😶

aaa im team pepe too !! if yn didnt already have two pretty boys to choose from then i would make her go for pepe all day every day !!!!! tbh i really think that pepe would be a great friend irl too, very attentive and gives u what u need and just <3<3

oh 100% about the lap vlogs... i havent watched all of them from this year because indeed it doesn't feel as like homey as it used to? not as cute and cozy? it's not the same thing anymore when it's not the same ppl :( sure dino and ollie are cute together, and i love the kimi content, but still..... and i've commented before about how dino doesn't seem as happy as he was last year, and i said it kinda as a joke but... it's actually pretty sad..... he was much happier when paul was around, joked around more, and i just :(( and it definitely goes both ways because i feel soooo sorry for paul :((( not only because of the obvious (merc and prema, though in hindsight leaving prema was so good for him), but because of the friends he's missing out on 💔 he was a prema boy for so many years and the time they all spend at the factory together, doing challenges and making content and all that stuff.... suddenly losing all that and those friends must be hard 🥲

[celestie0]

HALLO ELLIE!!! proud to say ive successfully managed to move on from my situationship! hope u don’t mind me rambling about this guy.

let’s call him f since that’s his initial. F and I have been friends since primary sch, he eventually had to move because his dad passed away. Anyways, two years ago we started talking again because his family visited mine. Long story short, things were complicated because we had been flirting a lil bit and he also said that ‘if you flirt with other guys, I’ll starve myself’ which Icked me so BAD. He did apologised .Last year, I ‘happy birthday’ed my way into his life and started talking again because I really did miss him, he’s my childhood best friend after all. After like two weeks? I don’t remember anymore💔 He told me he loved me and i was happy to say it back to him. (I was such a fool😭) I remember being giggly and all. On 23rd August we got into a fight because we planned to meet up and i said to him ‘okay I’m nervous. I don’t think I wanna meet up’ which made him mad. MIND YOU! we were in planning stages. i didn’t cancel on him on the day itself! I had lots of things going on at that time so him just casually saying I was PLAYING him made me so upset. He had the cheek to tell me ‘ily’ because honestly I hate when people start getting all affectionate after a fight. I hope you get it😭 the next month went okaaay until 23rd sep. (23 is like a curse at this point💔💔) I confronted him on why he hasn’t been saying ‘ily’ back it may seem something small but I hate not getting it back like excuse me? AND HE SAID TO ME ‘my ex was the only one who managed to make me feel loved’ I CRIED SO BADDD!!!! how could he say that after everything I’ve did for him. smh. yada yada things went on and in dec we stopped talking. I really did liked talking to him and all but it was too much. There was certain moments where I felt like he was just using me cause I wanted him. The times where we sexted (no nudes were exchanged, just texts.) though we did call because he wanted to hear me moan. not my proudest moments, I don’t wanna be begging for a guy’s attention again. I genuinely loved him with my whole heart :((

IM SO SORRY 4 RAMBLING ON!!!! I needed to let this out so badly 🤒❤️‍🩹 love u sm ellie

— frank ocean anon

hiii my love <3 omg GASP i’m so proud of uuu situationships are hell on earth i hope you feel at peace now!!

PLS YOU’re SO REAL FOR GETTING THE ICK OVER THAT!! i swear jealousy is only attractive w fictional men ✋🏼😭 it is NOT a cute look for actual men slsldkfjfh imo its a lil overbearing n strange haha

aww thats sad hun u guys are like childhood best friends so i imagine it was still tough not speaking :(( WOW he said i love youu n you said it backk. its ok bb if it was a happy thing in the moment then it can stay that way in your memory regardless of how stuff turned out in the end :”) be kind to yourself <3

ahhh yea thats 🚩 the whole getting mad cuz you cancelled…and no i totally get that, i hate that sort of “love bombing” after a fight, it just comes off as in-genuine. thats so valid n i relate

OH MY GOSH THE COMMENT ABOUT HIS EX ☹️☹️ WHY WOULD HE SAY THAT…some things you should just keep to your fuckin self. thats awful im sorry love 🥲🥲 you deserve SO much better than that

it’s okkk bb, you knew him a long time n even apart from relationship/situationship, there was still a friendship there too. you can really love someone but also realize theyre bad for you, those two can coexist. i’m so proud of you for realizing you deserve better than someone who makes you feel like you’re being used! no one should ever feel that way. take it easy bb but truuuly truly truly time will heal <3 chin up!! so many wonderful experiences out there for you still my dear

- much loveee, ellie ☁️

[bbina]

bbibbi… i’m going to cry… no… i’m actually tearing up 🥲 i can’t believe that btl is over now 😩 like… time goes so fast huh? i’ve never been this invested in an smau before, btl is just THAT smau 😭💗💗💗 nothing can EVER top it i’m telling you 😊 but fr, this smau is so beautiful, the characters, the plot, the chats, the angst, literally EVERYTHING 😩 i’m going to miss waiting for a new btl chapter to be released everyday ☹️ i’m going to miss reading the cuteness, the angst, the silliness, the lovey dovey-ness ☹️ i’m going to miss my silly boys and my silly girl silly-ing around together ☹️ i’m going to miss cute loser boy wonbin who’s just so in love with his girlfriend y/n ☹️ i’m going to miss pretty lover girl y/n who was kinda late to realising her feelings for wonbin ☹️ i’m going to miss snitch shotaro who snitched to the others that wonbin went to ulsan ☹️ i’m going to miss overprotective older brother eunseok who now has a GIRLFRIEND??? HELLO??? ☹️ i’m going to miss confused giant sungchan who was blamed by y/n for wonbin leaving her ☹️ i’m going to miss bubble boy seunghan who’s literally the president of the ynbin nation ☹️ i’m going to miss puffy hair sohee who’s a part of the ynbin nation and is just a cutie patootie ☹️ and i’m going to miss sir anton who SOME people tried to make second lead ☹️ fuck… I’M GOING TO MISS BTL SO MUCH 😩 okay but i can always just reread it so 🤭 i just want to be dramatic 😭 i can’t believe that i actually teared up… like… wtf??? bbibbi… THANK YOU for writing this AWESOME smau 😩 i love your cute, smart, big brain that is full of wonderful ideas SO MUCH 💗💗💗 believe me when i say this but btl is the first ever smau that i fell in love with 😘 everything about btl was so homely and comforting, i felt so much at ease whenever i used to read the chapters 😩 AND i remember ranting to my cousin when ynbin had that HUGE fallout 😭 babe you had me stressing and shit 😩 and i’m so happy with the amount of LOVE and APPRECIATION that btl has received 🥰 #DESERVED 💗💗💗 reading other anons asks about btl made me so giddy and happy 😊 the highlights of this journey HAS to be ynbin’s CRAZY fallout and the ynton shippers 😩 WHERE DID THE YNTON SHIPPERS COME FROM??? they just spawned out of nowhere 😭 the b in btl stands for BEST and i’m 100% sure that other anons will agree with me 😊 i’m actually going to reread it… LIKE I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT IT’S OVER NOW??? WTF??? heart: broken 💔💔💔 soul: shattered 💔💔💔 bbibbi 😭 i’m actually going crazy… 😐 btl ending means that seunghan’s going to come back 😊 idk what i’m saying i’m just rambling now 😩 btl… btl… BTL… ☹️ okay but the one year skip fucking caused my heart to palpitate 😭 UGH 😩 i love you btl 💗💗💗 SO MUCH 💗💗💗 FOREVER 💗💗💗 AND ALWAYS 💗💗💗

- 🦌

i jus realized bbibbi is an iu song lmfao ANYWAY-

it's been over 12 hours and i still can't believe its over :( i miss them already 😔 ive been answering asks and i was like "fuck im gonna update again" BUT WHATS THERE TO UPDATE CHAT 💔 not too sure about anything can top it... im lowkey liking the plot of wb's second smau thats in the works.. not gonna say much cus its not done yet 🫣

mane im already missing backstreet boys dumb shenanigans mixed with wonbin's loser self yearning for yn to like him back bc shes a dummy!! remember when eunseok had to literally knock some sense into her ass.. sigh they were so cute and funny... esp when the boys took it upon themselves to fight the devil (ynbin) themselves like get u friends who bridge you to the person who's right for u!!!

u guys do tell me that u guys feel like ur literally part of the friend group 😭 thats honestly kinda cute... means i nailed what its like to be with friends *sigh* LMFAO

the ynbin breakup will still continue to haunt yall huh 😭 the way it got yall talking to ur irls about it (some anons mentioned they were talking abt it to their own friends LMFAOOOOOOOO) crazy ass plot..

THE LOVE BTL GETS IS SO HEARTWARMING I LOVE THAT YOU GUYS RLLY LOVE THIS FIC THE WAY I LOVE IT HUSDHSKHFSDJFHKSD will never get tired of saying that shit fr

NTM ON THE YNTON SHIPPERS LIKE WHERE DID U GUYS PULL THAT ONE OUT OF UR ASSES?????? there was fr a little anon group dedicated on sending asks about ynton becoming canon LIKE HUUUH ... the highlight for me was the poll 😭 maybe i'll do more plot polls more often just to see everyone spiral and think outside the box 😭

idk why i have a strong gut feel hani is coming around soon especially whats going down on the kpop world... KINGHAN COMEBACK 2024

the one year timeskip just to show that they've come a full circle teeheeeeee

thank you so much for reading bambi anon!!!! i rlly rlly rlly LOVED waiting for ur thoughts !! thank you sosososo much for always taking ur time of day to read and share!! <3 LUV YEW

[neyxmessi]

Love your thoughts on neymessi relationship and I would love to know more on Neymar side ( I think he can be subtle in a different way ) but anyways the more you can say the better lol

Neymar has literally been infatuated with Leo since forever. I think the tweets back in 2011 capture that really well lol 😭😭 (what a fanboy).

But even when he encountered Leo for the first time in 2010x idk there was a certain look in his eyes. Amazement. Adoration. Idolization. And then even more clearly during that Santos game. He was literally just staring in awe of him as they gave him the Golden Ball and Xavi was trying to push Ney along the stage LOLLLL.

As with Leo, I feel like every subtlety with Neymar is in the eyes. I mean of course, it’s impossible to not see Neymar’s beaming smile whenever he’s around Leo. But it’s really the eyes you need to look at when he’s just around him. Idk the look of love is hard describe. It’s something you just see. And literally it’s always in Neymar’s eyes when Leo is around. I have two vivid memories in my head where Neymar was simply just staring at Leo when he wasn’t looking and he just had that look (until he’d quickly look away when Leo turned back to him LMAO).

There’s also something so special about Leo to Ney. Idk I’ve never heard anyone speak about Leo the way Neymar has about him. His eyes light up whenever someone mentions Leo’s name (literally in the 2019 interview where he cried about Leo his eyebrows slightly raised at the mention of his name. Ohhhh the heartbreak).

In Neymar’s farewell Barcelona post, HE LITERALLY SINGLED OUT LEO. he like solemnly sighed when he said “Leo Messi” and then proceeded to list all the qualities about Leo he would miss when he left. Like he really broke my heart with that. He mentioned Suarez too, but not for nearly as long and idk a different sentiment behind it. You’ll have to watch to discern it lol.

I mean other subtleties would include rare clips during free kicks where Neymar will lightly tap on Leo’s leg before he goes to shoot. Or there have been countless times where Neymar will try and give Leo a comforting high five or something after he’d miss a goal or something. Like agh they make me go insane for real. EL DIA DE DESPUES I MISS YOU FOR THOSE BTS MOMENTS 💔💔 psg “inside��� is nothing in comparison.

After goals, especially like back then (14/15 era was peak neymessi) he would always look to Leo after he scored a goal, and would always try to have a special celebration between both of them. There are also several instances where teammates congratulate him and he doesn’t smile until Leo shows up, or he pushes people out of the way just so he can hug Leo. (<— once again kinda obvious but also not?? Idk different moments you really need to pay attention to see the differences lol. Luckily I’m a crazy psychoanalyst who over-observes every interaction they have).

Also Neymar always looks over to see if he’s made Leo laugh. Even in the training session today. Like when he made a joke or something he immediately looked over to Leo to see if he was laughing too. LIKE NEYMARRRRR YOURE KILLING ME.

Omg I’m rambling sm but literally this is my whole neymessi brain pouring out lol.

Also I have so many other videos/photos I still have to post of these subtle moments. Maybe I’ll over-explain my vision when I post them to really point out the subtleties to you guys. Idk. Once again sorry I sound lowkey crazy rn.

Anyways this literally isn’t even everything (but it’s a LOT. Sorry if it’s hard to follow. Once again I’m literally just typing all the thoughts that come to my head and there is no looking over this lol. Apologizes for any coherency problems <333)

[subskz]

just finished rereading 🤩 i also made notes while reading so i didn’t come back with another head empty “i love bang chan” message teehee

-changbin not having a phone case makes me violently ill. it must be a perk of having a samsung, i wouldn’t know though 😼 him also being convinced that the pencil has infinite lead is so endearing i love him. big tits to protect a big heart 💖

-the little detail of chan having to move back his sweater paw to shake the reader’s hand had me damn near foaming at the mouth. that along with his little giggles and happy dances were so sweet i was this close 🤏to dry heaving on the floor. the way you write him is so endearing and so much like he appears irl 😖

-you really did whip out the perfect description of minho. he’s such a beautiful man, i need to stop and look at pictures of him right meow

-BERRY CAMEO!!! i can’t believe that flew right past me on my first read😭 i love that silly little dog, she’s so cute 😭😭😭💔 i had to pause my reread and go look at berry content because she’s so sweet

anyways thank you again for being such an amazing author. i will probably be reading this again soon because the chris brain rot is real and it’s spreading 💔 -🐾

you took notes…ㅠㅠㅠㅠ please that’s the sweetest thing ever i’m actually so giddy right now 😭 thank you so much for being invested it means a lot to me!!

HELP you n me both it just felt like the cherry on top of the reader being horrified w binnie’s approach to academics (also realizing now that if he had a case it would’ve probably been smth cute n pink that would give away his true personality hehe) our samsung spokesperson is built strong just like this phone!! big tits to protect a big heart…that’s the binnie mantra i absolutely love it ♡

channie and his sweater paws!! i’m delighted you found that lil detail cute 🥰 probably the most difficult part of this was trying not to go overboard w all his lil habits LMAO so knowing that u enjoy them as much as i do makes me very happy!! he’s seriously so adorable without even trying, it’s sick -_-;

right meow 😭 i’m touched u think the description did lino justice! he really was blessed w the most interesting features, it’s too easy to ramble abt him when there’s so much to appreciate </3

MISS BERRY OUR BELOVED!! she is a star…the true protagonist of the story 🙏 i’m so glad you caught that as well! leave it to channie to post abt her on his ig instead of himself hehe

ur an absolute angel i can’t thank you enough for all your kindness and support! it’s not an obligation to at all but i truly appreciate you sharing your thoughts like this so much 💖 i can’t wait to continue the series and i hope you’ll continue to like it!!

[oldfashionedmorphine]

1, 4, 6, 11, 12

hope it helps 💕, I'm in a similar situation with my wip and it's frustrating

Hi!!! Thank you, lovely <3

And I’m so sorry you’re in a similar situation. It’s super frustrating indeed 💔

Anyway, here you go! It’s a lot ;)

1. What is a piece of symbolism in your fic?

Hmm. I think with chapter 15 I would say the garden being full of decayed/dead flowers kinda did represent inner feelings, even though it’s just a reflection of the change in weather lol.

And I guess, but not sure it counts, choosing to reference the Norman Rockwell painting Freedom from Want in the very beginning. Mike emphasizes all the care and effort his mom and sister went through to make the day perfect just like that painting—there was an overabundance of food and the fancy dinnerware and all decorations and then eventually Will even carves the turkey at the table while everyone exchanges various conversations, so the painting isn’t visually different from what he can see, because he is surrounded by the same classic timeless feeling of a thanksgiving dinner, however, the family in the painting is depicted as emotionally nourished—happy and free of outside burdens, yet Mike spends the entire dinner grappling with the fact he can’t stop feelings of wanting someone and suffering from the consequences of harboring those feelings—instead of sharing in a happy dinner and reunion with his family (who he has kept at a distance for years), he snaps at Nancy’s question (which she asked in a lighthearted way, but his POV taints the question with ulterior motive, of course she makes a slight joke of it which further upsets him and doesn’t help her question to seem innocent), and he feels sour about hiding his sexuality from his family, and battles with his continuing feelings for Will that refuse to go away even after all these years of not being friends (and then the extreme jealousy that results from seeing Will in love with someone else), and then he picks at his food and further poisons himself with excessive amounts of alcohol. In the end, things were ruined and he was the main reason for it… because his repression and alcoholism acted like a poison that tainted his interactions with the people around him (mainly his interactions with Sam, Karen, and Nancy the most). And I feel like the painting represents “what could have been” if events had gone differently.

Answered #4 here 🩷

6. What's a subtle quirk your protag has? How do you convey it in your writing?

Idk why this one is hard to answer… or not sure what is considered a subtle quirk. I think he’s an overthinker, so I convey that with his inner dialogue—like my Mike will have internal debates with himself to rationalize/justify his behavior, usually about alcohol. He doesn’t like to be wrong, so he will get defensive. He cracks his knuckles or rambles when he’s nervous and unfortunately he also slaps himself at times when he becomes too emotional, and it’s usually as a form of self punishment :(

11. Is there anything important in your fic you think readers have missed/overlooked?

Possibly. I was so sure people missed the subtle coming out joke in chapter 9 because no one has mentioned it in any comments, but at least one person suspected that’s what it was… and it was. So I prefer to have faith my readers picked up on important things if they can catch something as silly and insignificant as that. And if they didn’t, well then maybe they will catch it upon a reread ;)

12. What character has the most lines in your fic? Which character has the least lines?

Not sure how accurate my answer for this will be since it’s a lot of words to go back through to determine for real, so I’m just going to go with top 4 characters in general that have the most/least lines;

Most: Mike, Will, Holly, Nancy (I do believe they get the most focus overall)

Least: Steve, Argyle, Hopper, Joyce (if someone had less than them, then they weren’t significant enough to even remember their minimal lines/oops 😭)

(I think)

[1tarot1with1k1o]

Hi. Can I get msgs from my father? I didn't get to hear his last words. He has alrdy passed away like 2 yrs ago and I rlly miss him💔 I just need some encouragement from him to keep going in life... Sorry for the sad ramble. Anyways, one fact abt me is that I love to drink coffee like it's my wine or sth haha. How abt u? Do u have any fav drinks?

Hello, I’m sorry but I realized that I don’t feel comfortable channeling from people who are no longer with us. But I felt like there’s still a lot of love for you from him, and I felt like he wants you to take care of yourself even if it’s hard. I saw him the image of someone gently patting your head while sitting by your side on a bed, and looking at you lovingly. I also feel like he may ask the universe to send/already sent people in your life that will make you feel loved and understood <3

If you’d like, to make up for me turning down this ask, I’ll give you a short intuitive reading about a topic of your choice

That’s actually a fun fact hahah, I love the idea lol. I also like to drink coffee! I like milk tea, and certain sodas. And even if it’s bad for your health, I like to indulge in some of the monster energy drinks every now and then.

Thank you, and sorry if my answer was disappointing 🩷

[unfilteredrealities]

I’m alive update

Life is bleh , ups and downs as usual.

My psoriasis is currently fucking me up and the lovely (not lovely) R.A and the PsA as well. WHYYYY THE FUCK is only my ring finger from my right hand fucked with psoriasis and my pointing, middle and ring toe as well but the rest of the toes and fingers are fine????

Not speaking of the normal patches I have on my legs currently those are normal by now bcs I get them since I am 2yo so nothing new.

Oh and the psoriasis thought it’s fun to flare up on my forehead as well and my left eyelid and left under eye??? wtf bro 😭

I had to go some days ago to the work health department for my annual check if I am fit to work and the lady gave me the ok but I had to tell her about my diagnoses since last year and ugh she was asking me if I’m seeing a dermatologist for my psoriasis and my psoriatic arthritis and I was like lady I have this shit since I am 2 , let me live don’t give me advice, I don’t need any rn I am in active audhd burnout so shh just give me that damn paper and let me go 😭

In other news I’m apparently very competent at my job , that much that I got chosen along the teamleaders to do this one training and I’m scared and hope I won’t fuck up bcs my imposter syndrome is like u bet ur smart press x for doubt 🧐

Anyway so work goes well I suppose, so far no complaints by the higher ups

Besides of all that my depression is strong and I actively feel suicidal again but I’m pushing through out of spite and yeah the naive hope that it will get better or I will have again better days with less flare ups and chronic issues going on

I’m actively ignoring certain things rn (cleaning my depression room) and it is stressing me out but I’m ignoring it bcs it’s so much work and I am ashamed to ask for help or admit I need help :)) it feels like barb wire around my throat

My tooth hurts bcs I have bruxism and I grind my teeth and I had a very subconsciously exhausting week in my sleep that I ground my teeth so hard it made my jaw tense up badly and almost lock up :))

Sigh, I miss my cat so much 😭 I am still mourning him 💔 😞 fuck severe renal insufficiency and not showing symptoms until it’s too late

Positive things are that my bf has a Nintendo Switch lite and Animal Crossing new horizons and we are both playing and visiting our islands and he keeps me cute notes each time he visited my island and me too on his , that I am almost 4 years handling this job and I didn’t have a proper mental breakdown yet or a meltdown, i was social lately and went to the baptism of a former classmate/ a friend of mines child and i met other former classmates there and we talked , I got out of my comfort zone and some days later visited former classmate at her home and it was wild but it was good.

Oh I forgot to mention about how big my urge to sh is again and I fucking hate it , plus I randomly found the kinder suprise egg where my blades are inside :)) my mom thought she hid them well, well hiding them in the closet where the board games are , wasn’t too smart.

Anyway I’m still going strong on like 4 years of no sh

Another dopamine moment was me getting myself as a Christmas present the Apple Watch SE 2024!!! I found it reduced at 200 euros when normally it’s like almost 300 euros

It’s so fancy and I’m glad I can Monitore my health better now bcs my old watch the Xiaomi Mi Band 7 kinda sucked at the end and stopped working properly so it was time to move on. At this point I’m getting slowly corrupted by Apple tbh 🤣 First it was the 2nd hand iPad and the Apple pen , then the iPhone and now the Apple Watch gg

These days I am hitting my word limit faster than normal and it sucks especially if u work in customer support for a bank and u have around 60 calls a day and you have to force yourself to speak even if you start to stutter and to speak monotone and all that

I’m sorry for this huge ramble update

Hope you guys enjoy me yapping and being raw about how life is raw dogging me 😭

If you read till here I guess rate my yapping or leave me a life update from your life ❤️

Thanks for reading through this!

[m1ckeyb3rry]

THANK YOUU so nice to be back to being unproductive LMAO

USHDDKSJA DW IM BACK FOR MORE OAEU JOKES AND OTHER GOOFY RAMBLINGS wait bro people are already actually taking it too seriously??? I was gone for three days and this is what happens dw Im back and ready to slander and throw hands /j also damn was it ever that serious like people have opinions so even if you were serious??? Smh glad to be back and will fs be stepping up my Mira defender game wtf

NO FR Barou in a diff universe cmon you KNOW Karasu is right up your alley take the bait Barou fans take the bait…..but SAME???? The first ep really did him wonders probably also because eightbit put extra effort into the first ep….

MY RIDE OR DIE WE’RE IN THIS TOGETHER!!! Yeah I’d never join itoshiopolis because the fans there are actually kinda insane but ig I won’t slander him for being emo looking as often

Pursuit tabieita fr my favorite I can’t wait to see them introduced and having their dumbass moments LMAO

Aikuniko unexpected duo my Roman Empire I never expected to like either character LMAOOO ok wait speaking of I saw some profiles floating around from the new bible??? I thought it was releasing later but????? Ok I tried to grab the link from Reddit (ew I know) but it wouldn’t let me for whatever reason without like sending it as a thing through Reddit but I don’t even have an account and I’m not about to make one (maybe technology hates me atp or I should start cracking out an industrial grade computer to do shit) soooo but if you just scroll in the main blue lock subreddit there’s a bunch of profiles posted including Aiku kiyora Hiori Nanase etc! Aikus has me dying but I think I just got my shit rocked reading hioris what the fuck LMAOOO anyways um happy reading!!

FRRR im already interacting with every bllk post that comes my way to try and influence my fyp but it gets taken over by like random shit idek but yeahhhh definitely more slideshow looking this time HAHA the way they animated chigiri running really had me crying because why did they just drag him across the screen like that but I mean either way KARASUUUU HE FR LOOKED SO GOOD AND OMG YEAH THE HANDS >>>>>> i agree he did look more majestic in the manga LOL yeah i think the smirk makes the animators exaggerate some proportions and whatnot but the extra Bambi panel thank you eightbit the way I screamed when I heard the villain line LMAOOO

FRRR nagi Karasu majestic panel when!! Maybe we’ll get one from epinagi if it ever gets to the MC vs PXG match LOL

15K FOR AN OPP IS CRAZY LMAOOO no because you’re serving even FOR the opps that’s actually crazy if I had to make content for an opp I feel like I’d half ass it but anyways GOGO YOU GOT THISSSS

- Karasu anon

HOORAY FOR BEING UNPRODUCTIVE 🙂‍↕️💖

OAEU JOKES ON TOP they will never not be funny to me sorry not sorry…please it really never was that deep i’m afraid!! people mostly keep it cute and idm diff opinions but sometimes it’s like okay well i fear you missed the point a bit here. i fear i was just joshing with ya. i fear i was being overly dramatic to prove a point. SORRY I WON’T DO IT AGAIN 😭💔

BAROU FANS PLEASEEE KARASU FANS ALREADY LOVE BAROU LETS FORM A COALITION PLSSS and yeah they def put more effort into the first ep KDJFJS maybe it’s because nagi’s in that ep so they had to lock in…also the barou cameo in this ep had me giggling he looked rlly good in it too he’s so #bae

RIDE OR DIESSSS FR okay wait this is insanely controversial but it has to be said idc abt itoshi bros angst i just don’t think it was ever that serious idk how people genuinely cry and feel sad abt it…maybe it’s because i’m coming from fandoms where characters die and shit but like it just isn’t sad to me??? like okay sae doesn’t want to play soccer w rin anymore…maybe rin just needs more hobbies or smth LSHFSJJDSN IDK IDK TOP TEN OPINIONS THAT WOULD PUT A HIT ON ME FR itoshi fans do NOT play

I CAN’T WAIT EITHER UGH I JUST NEED TO FINISH THIS REQ AND THEN I’M ON IT

OKAY i just read through them 😭 KIYORA’S HAS ME CACKLING WHY IS BRO FREAKY LIKE THAT 😫 maybe karasu and otoya were onto smth when they decided to bully him…also kurona and his multiple pet hedgehogs?? hello??? that is SO random yet somehow also in character…pls hiori’s insane celebrity crush is so funny and AIKU omg the way he has a gambling and underage drinking issue is so him i can’t he’s so insane and him hating chocolate is SO in character somehow like he would be the one 😰 just patiently sitting and waiting for more karasu barou and yukimiya content now 👁️👁️ nagi has his own spinoff manga so i’m pretty fed in terms of nagi info but the other three GIVE IT TO ME NOW wait also aiku having an older and younger sister just like otoya is hilarious what is it abt that combo that creates absolute VILLAINS ⁉️

hold on related to epinagi i have to say i did not care abt himizu’s backstory bruh literally who even likes him he’s done nothing in the main series 😭 i’ve seen predictions that he might somehow injure chigiri in barcha vs mc but i don’t think he would just because chigiri’s leg is such a major plot point that idt they’d do smth to it without isagi around?? if that makes sense?? idk though

PNG LOCK WE ARE SO BACK 🙂‍↕️ i’m laughing at least they didn’t fumble too much w the art style…i feel like we knew going into it that the majority of the budget went into the u20 match so it was kinda expected ngl…HEARTBREAKING as a karasu fan but THRILLING as a nagi/barou fan 😭 sacrifices must be made ig at least karasu is incapable of looking bad and does have some scenes in u20 too so all hope is not lost!! plus we get the scene of all of them shirtless in the locker room and one thing abt 8bit they eat UP shirtless scenes LSJFJDJD expecting smth glorious for shirtless karasu’s anime debut

omg wait actually now that you mention it epinagi might have smth usable in the current match i’ll have to go back and lurk…epinagi artist LOVES karasu his panels are always insanely good the problem is like he has so few panels that if i make a karasu theme my blog will look exactly the same as every other karasu fan’s and my individuality complex will not allow that /hj

OUT SOON I PROMISE I’M FINISHING UP had to take a break for dinner and some internship application stuff but i’m back to the grind now TRUST

[jeongwife]

whats up bestie its been a minute but in honor of chans bday i wanna talk about some of my favorite headcanons for him so... for one thing i think he loves to give kisses on the temple, he would adore if his partner was the exact right height for him to always be able to wrap an arm around their shoulder and kiss their temple at any given time as just a quick 'i love you'. i think hes a BIG cuddler and as much as he likes to be dominant and overall wants someone that he can care for, theres nothing he loves more than coming home and just being able to lay right on top of his love with his head on their chest and their hand in his hair....... also you cant tell me that he doesnt love hand holding during sex.. like i imagine him going down on you and you wrap your hand around his hand that he has on your chest and he almost loses it then and there. hes also definitely the type of guy to send a million texts during the day... little ones like 'hey i saw an ad for that show you like and i thought of you' and 'hey we're getting coffee right now and theyre playing that song you like over the speakers!!" <333 and bonus i just have this gut feeling that his thighs are really sensitive... like if you even so much as rest your hand gently anywhere on his thigh he will be fighting off a hard on for the rest of the night and especially if you rub your thumb against his skin?? he's dragging you to the nearest private room and taking care of you immediately.. anyways i hope ur good!!! - boba anon (who's writing this from their laptop and doesnt have access to emojis currently) <3

BOBA ANON BESTIE I MISSED U 🥺🥺💗💗💗 we’re doing well and i hope you are too ALSO WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM MEEEEEE WITH THIS ASK OF YOURS (affectionate) HUH DO YOU WANT ME TO NEVER RECOVER FROM CHANROT HUHHH IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT >:( i agree so much with every point you’ve made here that i don’t even think i can add to it but bc i’m the biggest whore for him i will still add my liddol rambles <3

GOD YOU’RE SO RIGHT CHAN’S JUST SUCH A GIVING PERSON :(( he loves giving you tons of kisses during the day: forehead kisses, temple kisses, cheek kisses, hand kisses etc etc. </3 and if you’re sitting together with his arm over the back of your chair/around your shoulders he’d turn his head every now and then to press a lil kiss to your temple just to remind you he’s there before going back to whatever he’s doing 🧍🏻‍♀️💔 he’s so affectionate too :( every little thing that reminds him of you makes him smile sm and you just know he’s immediately whipping his phone out to text you because he’s always thinking ab you 😔 he loves cuddling you because of the intimacy, laying his head on your tummy with his arms wrapped around your waist as the two of you talk about your day, and if he’s had a bad day he’d 100% want you to hold him close to you and play with his hair :( and GRRRRRR hand holding with chan during sex i’m🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️ he’d totally do that during both soft and hard sex… soft sex because it’s such a romantic, soft gesture, and hard sex because even when he’s pounding you into next week he still wants you to know he’s there and that he’s got you </3 AND GRRRRRRR imagine sucking hickies on his inner thighs as you suck him off… he’d be so whiny and would be grabbing onto your hair trying to pull your mouth back onto his cock HEHDVHWBSHA IM CRYING I WANT HIM — lily </3

[mdverse]

hey lovely !!!

was abt to type this ask but HOLD ON promiscuous just came on my shuffle of all my music as i’m typing this…….. the stars are aligning just for you <3

ok question for you!! do furtana play any imessage/gamepigeon games together?? i feel like they get rly competitive w them n i wouldn’t wanna be in the room when one of them loses at 8ball 💔 what are their favorites n who usually wins!!

while on the topic of mario kartie also feel free to extend this to any other games they play like mario kart !!

this is also an invitation to ramble abt any aspect of furtana or vb au :-) i am here n ready to sip on my loving vb au juice!!! 💗

hi angel!!

omg promiscuous,,, some icon shit right there i can't believe ur music did that for me <3

aksdlhfl anyway on to ur question!! had to look up what games are available on imessage/gamepigeon lmao but yea they do for sure! not all the time but it happens in bursts, especially when they're far away from e/o (sure lima and ny aren't that far apart but like u get my point aksdhf). like finn will be bored n missing kurtana so he starts a game with each of them and they play obsessively for a few days and then nothing happens for a while,, then santana travels for a vb tournament and starts up some games during her bus/plane ride and they all play obsessively again for like a week,,, and the cycle continues.. they all agreed that playing all together in the same building was Dangerous bc of how competitive they get so it only really happens when they santana can't get physical when they santana lose (or are poor winners santana),, or if there are other people who can interfere if necessary kdfhgsl

ill put the specific games i can think of under the break adhfkajd i got carried away rambling again,,, speaking of which, i think we should also play imessage games together <333

kurt is def into word games! i think he and finn would enjoy games like words with friends or hangman together bc they both gotta keep those brain cells working and finn takes great pleasure in trying to include the dumbest words he can think of,,, he doesn't really care if he wins or loses against kurt (though he gets really proud when he wins and brags to santana) bc furt are like,, relatively cool-headed when it comes to word games so they can actually play together in the same room without breaking anything,,,, and finn does his best to make Kurt laugh with his word choices bc watching kurt go from his serious lil thinking pout to a lil giggle (or better yet, a proper burst of laughter) is delightful

i think kurt would also be down to play chess with santana (im assuming there is some form of a chess thing on imessage? i found one called chess42 so im rolling with that) bc its the kind of game where she's too focused on strategy to really get aggressively competitive. like she spends so time working on vb plays that kurt goes "u need a break pls just play a game with me" and then sighs when she chooses chess and pores over every single move she makes bc it defeats the purpose of making her take a break. also she tends to win. like a lot. he knows damn well that she played chess online a lot growing up n during classes and has slowly but surely honed her skills. and then when they finish a game santana immediately texts him and is like "its ur turn to start a new one" and bugs him until he does,,,, he is so done w her but he does it anyway <3

as for finntana,, them + 8 ball or cup pong,,, chaotic finntana live in my head rent free i will never stop rambling about them being dumb bitches together,,, pls i am picturing finn sticking his tongue out slightly in concentration as he tries to align his shot properly but then his finger slips at the last second and he misses the ball he was aiming for and anyone in the vicinity hears a very loud pained groan,,, santana travelling w her team and making her entire squad shut up partway through a conversation (repeatedly) so she can focus on 8 ball with the sole purpose of destroying finn,,, also imagine them playng it while drunk,,, squinting at their screens like idiots n everything

also? trivia crack? i know i had a phase where my friend group and i would play constantly and i think that's the main game where they are tempting fate if they play in the same room,,, they all have their niche areas of random knowledge so they are heavily reliant on getting questions that are easy for them in order to win and when their luck turns against them they are all ready to throw hands,,, blaine once suggested it when he visited kurt's family for thanksgiving and regretted it bc there was so much yelling,, an endless chorus of "fuck u" "yeah well fuck u too" while their parents vacated the room,,, finn's dogs getting overly excited so there's barking in addition to the yelling,,,, it only ends when santana and finn start throwing cushions at e/o and a lamp ends up broken,,, they both blame kurt when carole asks about it,,,

[justanartisticduck]

For fanfic thingy: 5, 10, 16! Also love your art<3 /p

(just letting you know I wrote a huge ramble for these but tumblr reset it all so I’m typing all this from memory of what I said- i am so sorry abt that my answers were much more in depth but tumblrs a jerk :’) )

5. yes I do!!!!! Music is a crucial part in me writing and drawing actually!! Usuallly music helps me either set up a mood while making art or it helps me make an actual story for said art!!! :P Usually though that’s how I interpret all music! Usually I associate certain songs with certain characters (like for example the song “Oh No” reminds me SO much of Duck like in my head it’s their song-) and other songs I make full on stories and scenes with (like the song “Someone Gets Hurt (reprise)” is a song I associate tightly with a scene from the past of my Dhmis interp in which Duck and Red have their first big fight (because Red don’t realize Roy is a manipulative asshole-) and I’m actually making an actual animatic of the animatic I imagine each time I hear this song!!! :3 also yes- I imagine animations when I listen to music- it’s very fun actually!) but when it comes to me characters are a key part in how I interpret music which makes music important to me drawing or writing about these characters because my brain is already mapping out the tones and setting and story and all jsut by hearing this song, how about we put these ideas to use!! So, tldr yes!! I do listen to music when writing and drawing!! (I’m actually listening to music rn as I ramble lol!!)

10. YES I DO OMG!!!!! AHEM- OK SO thsi is from a fanfic I don’t plan on finishing or releasing but I write this one set of dialogue that I am still in love with and super proud of like!!! Anyways so ill explain what’s going on a bit: basically this fic takes place jsut after Dhmis 4 after Duck/Robin gains back consciousness after passing out at the prior lesson’s end. Their memory is really fuzzy and they can’t help but shake the feeling something- no- someONE is missing and after looking in an old picture book they realize what this missing something truly was- Red… after thsi they go to the thing they last remembered their friend going to… the door on the side of the room which is where the upcoming dialogue starts… enjoy!! :DD (aslo I’ll highlight where the story starts and ends with the use of this 💔, just to specify when the story begins and ends :3)

💔

….Robin immediately got up and ran to the door closest to them.

“Red… Red answer me!”

There was no response…

“Red I'm serious, open the door!!”

They tried to open the door once again, it didn’t budge…

“Red open the door this instant!!!”

Nothing…

“RED PLEASE JUST ANSWER ME!!!!” They yelled in tears.

Robin was starting to panic, they yelled for their friend as they awaited for him to just simply respond to their calls. They continued to try to see what was on the other side of the door… but no response.. nothing was there..

“HAROLD I SWEAR IF YOU DON'T OPEN THIS DOOR ILL-“

The door unlocked.

💔

16. Hmm- well I’m not entirely sure!! Usually I just write to whatever I’m vibing to however I do have some tropes/genres I avoid!! Ok first off nsfw/smut stuff cuz that’s illegal for me to write for as it is lol- (plus just in general that stuff makes me very uncomfy so I don’t have any plans on writing that stuff in the future-) i also tend to avoid anything too intense when it comes to romance or overall anything!! (like for example I can write two characters kissing but that’s as far as I’ll take it lol) same goes for the bad stuff too- when writing about wounds I tend to avoid bringing attention to EVERY detail- and when it comes to bad relationships I avoid showing exactly all the bad stuff- rather implying “hey- this character sucks” and maybe showing something bad that happened (but not the whole scene in detail because yikes-) because idk- writing scenes like that is very difficult for me and when it comes to these types of things I will imply what happened but I won’t show it exactly happening- (like for example in my Dhmis stories I imply Duck was eaten by those can monster things and that it injured them in many ways- but I don’t directly show the scene happening, besides the show already did that for us as it is lol-) But I hope that makes sense!! But those are the main things I can think of at the top of my head- I’m sure theres more but really what I avoid in writing and Art just depends on where it lands in my comfort zone- the further it is from that zone the less likely I am to write it! I hope that makes sense!!!

Anyways thank you for the ask!! These were very fun to think abt!! Also I rambled SO much more for this ask earlier but tumblr reloaded and deleted it all :( but regardless I hope you enjoyed my rambling!! Also I’m so so glad you like my art!! that lil comment meant DO much to me thank you!!!! Anyways I hope you enjoyed this!!

[strawberrylagoon]

unorganised ramble ahead:

I’ve wanted to go see that draft since i heard about it so wow thank you so much for writing!! bless. I’m admittedly thrilled about the ralphmon stuff because I guess I’m just sad :’) about them and want content. like I already was convinced based on the little hints in the FV that simon was in love with Ralph, but knowing it was so much more explicit in this draft makes me 💔💔

also the idea of Ralph basically being obsessed with the coral island and trying to reenact it is really interesting, though I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand it could make the simplistic, imperialist themes of that book clash with this ‘reality’ more. Ralph would have to explicitly leave behind that worldview the book taught him, sort of having to reject the sheltered ignorance of his childhood. But, the thing is, I think that theme is still there in the FV—it’s just all implied. reading the coral island with the context let me fill in all that knowledge, basically, so making it so over-the-top obvious would probably be a waste of words? 

as a side note, when I read TCI, Peterkin actually reminded me more of piggy than simon. I don’t remember why exactly—maybe because peterkin was more sassy or something? But when Ralph was ‘disappointed he couldn’t find someone named peterkin’ in the OV it makes me think of how he doesn’t even bother to learn piggy’s real name at any point. His real name couldve been peterkin for all we know, and ralph would’ve had no idea.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

As for the deleted scenes with Simon, I’m rly glad to hear about them because that was one thing I already knew about the editing process—that there was a lot of fuss over his scenes and characterisation. I liked this source because it's got some bits of correspondance between Golding and his publisher, about a lot of things but notably simon. (also I saw a bit of Golding's disaster handwriting and jesus christ. you had to read that?) The issue was, as the publishing guy put it, "turning Simon into a prig, a self-righteous infant who insists on saying his prayers in the dorm while the naughty boys throw pillows at him." Now I find that image hilarious (I wanna draw that lol), but based on him in this OV, I kind of get it. I guess Simon was difficult to do right because he is morally perfect, so it was easy to take on that priggish and didactic tone when writing him.

When it comes to Simon being spiritual/clairvoyant, I think Monteith put it well in his letter that: "the more completely the 'gimmick' is concealed, the more effective it is." It's like the scene in chapter seven when he says "I just think you'll get back all right." The 'gimmick' of him predicting the future (not only his own death, but the fact that Ralph will live) is so subtle you could miss it. But when you think about his strange choice to say 'you' instead of 'we' you realise something's up. Also the fact that his dialogue is ITALICISED?? (at least in my edition) Almost nothing in this book is italicised so I want to imagine he just transcended reality and text-formatted his dialogue at will lmao.

So anyway, while these deleted bits w simon are pretty interesting, I'm glad his characterisation got subdued as much as it did. (Except the parts about him being physically affectionate with ralph, that's cute as hell.) much thanks for reading the manuscript—I wish I could too but when I go to the UK this summer I won't be very close to Exeter :')

Lord of the Flies manuscript- an overview

Preamble:

(if you don’t care about this, I start talking about the actual manuscript under the cut. but be warned- it is very long)

So as some of you know if you’ve been following my blog, I have been wanting to go and see the original first draft of Lord of the Flies (handwritten by William Golding in a college notebook and currently held by the University of Exeter’s special collections here in the UK) for a really long time now! It took a while, but today I finally went! I’m sure a lot of you are curious about how it differs from the final book so I decided to put together a list of things I noticed. Unfortunately, I’m not allowed to quote anything from the manuscript verbatim due to copyright restrictions, but I’ll try my best to tell you what I can without getting into legal trouble (hopefully). Also, I only managed to get through the first 7 chapters before the library closed (I’m truly devastated) partly because I struggled a lot to decipher Golding’s very messy handwriting and also just because I’m not a very fast reader and I only had about 5 hours with the manuscript, so I’ll just be talking about what I’ve read so far. I plan on returning in the summer to see the rest so there will be a part 2 to this post eventually!

Also also, at the time of posting it is 3am and I am too tired to proofread this properly so apologies in advance for any mistakes.

Now, onto the part of the post you actually care about- talking about the manuscript!

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