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cherubsoda · 5 years ago

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qhsjsj sorry, rant time:

im tired. my friend knows im trying to get more comfortable with self shipping even after years of using it to cope.

they know how strained i am with sharing stuff ab self shipping and how im trying to come to terms with being self indulgent but they literally just called it "sad" and stuff like that and i felt my chest get heavy and i just started to vibe ig

truthfully ive only been active in the community for maybe? a year or so? but i had this blog for years but didnt post my own work or interact with many people. sometimes i wish i kinda just shut up ab it bc i know others view it as stupid and childish and whatever, i get it i beat myself up over it every day i dont need to hear it from anyone else, let alone a friend of mine even in a joking manner

#my worst fear is that everyone sees me as stupid and fucked i feel nauseous! i hate this a whole lot!#its my fault for prompting them to say it and stuff so oops! no serotonin!#i literally feel horrible for shring stuff in my server ab it and i just wanna die bc ! hehe my friend basically said cringe alert!#'we don't mind' bitch i do! feels bad #d.o n.o.t r.e/b/l/o/g #she said she was kidding but hehe hurted xoxo #yknow what. *shifts into ps4 since yall be playin me*#anyways i let them know shit hurtd shdhdh and the apologized but yknow what!#biggest insecurity! and yknow when you joke ab yer insecurities and no one else can say it but you?#its basically that #bc they know how i am. we've known each other for years. so sometimes i feel like shits on purpose and she really means it #again i feel like i gotta grow up too and idk maybe just fucking get help?#im sensitive aubrey 😞#lol i couldnt finish any doodles last night bc of this snd i fell asleep fucking sad as hell .#shit bro whatever!!! i cant draw anything indulgent im gonna cry i hate this !#cherub cheeps #please don't bash them tho i just lmao #fuck my vibes are rancid and outta whack rn im sorry if i come off really shit today ooga

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